Dear Diary, Part 1 – 1976 (My first sexual experience)

by Jacqueline_B

This is the story of the sexual awakening of a young girl….me….most of the entries are written just as they happened, or at last as far as I can remember them, especially the ones from my early girlhood, but a couple of the entries I have embellished a little bit to add some spice to them. I’ll leave it up to the readers to decide which ones. Also I would like to apologise for a couple of the entries in which men play a large part, I had to include them in my diary because they are all part of my growing up. The names of everyone involved have been changed to protect the innocent, (and the not so innocent) the only names that haven’t been changed are those of my girlfriend Zoe and my daughter Stacey because they were a great help writing this diary. Just one more thing….enjoy…..I hope it turns everyone on reading the entries as much as it turned me on writing them.

My Dad left my Mum when I was only about a year old so I never really knew him, but when I was 5 she married my Stepfather whom I liked a lot, he was funny and always managed to make me laugh and smile. One thing I loved was when he used to bounce me on his knee; it made me laugh so much. Over time he started to get more intimate until eventually he started to rub the front of my little panties while I was sat on his knee, (my Mum was at work at the time,) and I could feel him pressed against my bottom, it used to give me a sort of warm feeling inside and I used to snuggle down on his lap.

This went on for about a year until one day Mum was at work and I was watching TV sat on his lap when he said he wanted to have a bath. A little disappointed, I got up off his knee and sat in the chair and when he stood up I saw he had a huge bulge in his trousers, (although I didn’t know what it was at the time.) About 10 minutes later I had a desperate need for a wee and the only toilet we had at the time was in the bathroom. I went upstairs and knocked on the bathroom door and said "Daddy, I need to pee"

He answered through the door "Cant it wait, I wont be long" I told him that it couldn’t and I was going to wet myself so he said OK come on in. I rushed into the bathroom pulling my panties down on the way and sat on the toilet and let it flow. My Stepfather was in the bath, and poking out of the top of the water was his dick, it was (to my 6 year old eyes anyway) HUGE. I couldn’t take my eyes off it; just looking at it gave me a sort of squishy feeling in my tummy. Then I looked up at his eyes and I saw that he was looking straight between my legs. I looked back down at his thing poking out of the water and realised it was moving, he was holding it under the water and was stroking it.

I can remember making a show of lifting my nightdress up and wiping myself off still not taking my eyes off his cock. I don’t know why I said it but I said to him "Can I have a bath as well Daddy? Mum didn’t give me one last night." (Which was a lie because she had; I just wanted to get closer to him.)

"Yes of course baby." he answered, and I swear his dick grew even bigger. I quickly took my nightie off and got in the bath with him, I asked him if he could wash my hair like Mum does so he told me to sit between his legs with my back to him, and started to wash my hair. Soon I became aware of something throbbing against my back and I didn’t know what it was (although I had a good idea.) I leant back against him while he rinsed the soap out of my hair and I could feel it pressing even harder against my back, it felt so hard and I could feel his breath panting on my neck. He asked if I wanted him to wash me all over and I said, "yes please Daddy" so he told me to stand in the bath facing him and then he started to soap me all over, especially between the legs.

He asked me whether I minded him washing me there, I shrugged and told him that it feels kind of funny, but a nice funny, it sort of tickles. Then he rinsed the soap off my body and suddenly planted a kiss on my belly button and stuck his tongue in there, I giggled because it tickled. Then he put his hands on my bum and pulled me towards him and started to lick further down, not going right between my legs, but stopping just above my little slit and running his tongue over my wet skin.

Suddenly he pulled back and I saw there was a weird look in his eyes and he said to me "OK darling I've washed you, now it’s your turn to return the favour, would you like to wash me?" I grinned and nodded so he stood up in the bath right in front of me. I can remember gasping when I saw this huge thing poking out of his belly. He told me to go ahead and wash his legs because he had already washed everything else so I picked up the soap and getting plenty of lather in my hand I started to wash his legs from his shins upwards. He just stood there with his eyes close and breathing heavily. He whispered, "don't stop baby, that feels so good."

Gradually I worked my hands upwards, still not taking my eyes of his dick, which was only inches away from my face, until I reached the very top of his thighs. He groaned and his cock twitched against the back of my hand, I just had to touch it, so I got some more lather in my palm and began to soap him.

"Oh yes baby, wash me there," he moaned and sat down on the edge of the bath with his legs spread and me kneeling in the water in front of him. I started to rub it up and down, (I still didn't know what I was doing, I suppose it was just instinct.) His cock was throbbing in my little hand, it was so big I couldn't get my fingers all the way round it and I had to do it with two hands.

He was moaning and gasped, "Ohhhh don’t stop, that feels sooo good, do it a little faster." I began to rub my hands up and down his cock faster and faster, leaning forward to do it. Suddenly the tip of it bumped against my nose and this mad thought came into my head that it was a lollypop, and I knew I wanted to taste it. His eyes were screwed tight shut so I leaned forward a little bit more and touched the tip of it with my tongue. His eyes flew open and he gasped again.

I felt the devil inside of me and started to run my tongue over the tip of his cock. It twitched in my hand and a little bit of moisture leaked out from the hole in the end, it tasted kinda nice so I placed my mouth right over the end and began to suck on it. He gave a low moan, placed his hands on the back of my head, and whispered "Oh God baby, that feels soooo good, don’t stop please. Suck it darling,” he begged"

Still running my hands up and down his shaft, I tried to take as much of him in my mouth as I could although I could only manage a couple of inches in my 6-year-old mouth. I could feel it throbbing against my tongue and teeth and he was moaning madly. "Oh God baby I'm cumming," he gasped. I thought I was hurting him so I withdrew it from my mouth when suddenly a stream of white sticky stuff flew from the hole in the end and landed all over the place, in my hair, on my cheeks, against my chest, and of course some of it flew into my mouth. I can remember it tasted kinda funny, salty but it didn’t taste bad and I licked my lips.

"Oh baby baby baby," he said breathlessly, "that was sooo fucking good."

"I thought I was hurting you Daddy." I said. "Oh God no baby, you cant believe how that felt. Do you want me to make you feel that good as well?" He asked.

Pleased that I had made him feel good and having a funny feeling in my tummy I nodded so without even emptying the bath he took me in his arms and carried me into my bedroom then lay me down on my bed and just stood there for a couple of minutes looking at me. Then he knelt at the bottom of the bed, pulled me towards him and told me to lie with my legs open and my knees bent. Then he started to lick me, not touching my slit but licking all round it from the tops of my thighs to my tummy then back again, still missing the part that I wanted him to lick.

Then he started to run his finger up and down my little slit. That felt so good I opened my legs even wider and a warm feeling seemed to spread right through my body. I just closed my eyes and let him do whatever he wanted to me. Suddenly I felt a pressure right at the top of my little pussy and opening my eyes I looked down the length of my body to see him looking me in the eyes with his mouth clamped over my pussy and he was sucking my little clit. It felt so good I lifted my legs up and wrapped them round his head, trapping it between my thighs and started grinding myself against his mouth.

I started to feel really strange but I liked it and when he pushed his tongue inside me a little way, it felt as if a small electric shock went right through my body. Then he lifted his head from me and used his fingers to pull my pussy lips apart. Then he began to flick his tongue over my clit, I could see everything he was doing. Still looking me in the eyes he started to suck on my clit again and this delicious feeling ran through me, he sucked harder and harder and I could feel my whole body quivering. When he inserted a finger inside me about an inch that was it, I had my first orgasm, I felt like I was on fire and there were little electric shocks shooting through me.

Over the next couple of years it went on like that maybe a couple of times a week whenever my Mum was at work, but we never went any further than that first night to my regret. Then when I was 9 it inexplicably stopped. I suppose he thought hard about what he was doing and realised it was wrong, (although only wrong in societies eyes, I loved it. But now I shudder to think about what my Mum would have done if she found out.)