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(mf-teens, nc, inc, inc, blkmail, extreme-v) *** Author Note: This is a work of fiction. The author does not condone any sexual activity among persons under 16 in real life. *** "Wendy!" "Ummm?" "Wendy," Josh whispered. "Hey. Wake up. I want to show you something." "What?" I blinked at him. "Get out of my room!" "Shhhh..." "You jerk!" I realized my blanket had been pulled down. He knew I liked to sleep naked. "Quiet," he said, grinning down at me. "You're gonna wake up Mom and Dad." "Good!" I yanked the blanket up to my chin. "Get out of here, you perv!" "I want to show you something." He held up his camera, a Sony Cybershot I'd given him for his birthday. I hadn't wanted to give him anything, but we had to pretend for our parent's sake. I'd used Daddy's credit card anyway, so I didn't really care. "What?" I huffed, wondering why my sick brother had to wake me up in the middle of the night. He could have just jerked off in my panties like he usually did. "Check it out," he sighed, sounding way too happy. I glanced at the small screen and then did a cartoon double-take, staring as Josh paged through the images one by one. I could barely breathe. I wanted to puke. I wanted to grab the camera and smash it into a million pieces, but I couldn't move. "That's you, right?" he asked. "Oh! Look at that one, Wendy. I can't believe you'd suck off a dog. What's that stuff taste like anyway?" He'd taken pictures of me playing with Ms. Robison's dog, a black lab named Muddy. I'd been babysitting and bored, and it hadn't been the first time. My brother must have climbed a tree or something and I couldn't believe I hadn't closed the blinds. That's the stupid thought that popped into my head. Why hadn't I closed the blinds? Because, silly... Who the heck is gonna climb a tree? Josh, that's who. My personal stalker and now he had me good. "I made a movie too," he said, actually laughing. "This camera is so excellent, Wendy. No sound though, sorry about that." A movie started playing, Muddy mounting me from behind. I arched my back, wincing as I looked over my shoulder, and then he was in. The dog was fucking me like crazy and for just a second I looked right at the window, seeing nothing but the room's reflection, and the look on my face was pure ecstasy. "I got the end too," Josh said. "Here... I almost missed it." Another clip started and it wasn't any longer than the first, only about two minutes, but he'd caught Muddy pulling his cock out of me. The knot looked red and shiny, like the animal's swollen penis, and it looked painful on the camera. I remembered it though, and I'd been feeling nothing but good at the time. My pussy stretched wide and the dog's cock fell out with a wash of cum, his and mine, soaking into the comforter I'd put on the floor. I collapsed onto my tummy, smiling and gasping for air, and then the movie ended. "The hottest girl in school fucking her math teacher's dog," Josh said. "What do you think? YouTube? Friendster? Or should I just email it to everybody you know?" "What do you want?" I breathed. "A lot," he told me, nodding his head and smiling. "I want everything, Wendy." "Just delete that stuff," I said. "Please? Just erase it, okay? I'll do anything, just..." "Right!" He grinned at me. "Like I believe that? No, I made a lot of copies, you don't have to worry about that." "Josh!" I blinked at the wetness suddenly filling my eyes. "You know, everybody thinks you're a dyke," he said. "But I knew better. You don't hate cock, you just don't like boys. Is that it?" "It's not like that," I whispered, trying to keep my voice steady. I was going to lose it any second. The shock had worn off and panic was setting in. "You'd rather fuck a dog, than a man," he told me. "Say it. Tell me the truth, Wendy. You'd rather fuck a dog, wouldn't you?" "Yes," I sobbed. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry." "Sorry for what?" he wondered, taunting me as the tears rolled down my cheeks. "For being a cocktease?" "Yes." "Sorry for being a bitch all the time?" "Please," I begged him. "Don't do this to me!" "I haven't done anything to you yet," Josh whispered, bending close enough to touch my nose with his. "You think about it, Wendy. Think about how fucked you'll be if you don't keep me happy from now on." "Nummph!" I gasped as he covered my mouth with his, grabbing my pussy through the blanket and squeezing me down there. His tongue filled me and I felt his fingers digging at my sex. He kissed me like that for an eternity it seemed and I didn't even try to push him away, I only choked on muffled sobs of humiliation. "You're lucky I'm your brother," he breathed, licking his lips. "If anyone else found out about this..." "I'm sorry," I whimpered. "I'm sorry... I'm sorry." After he left, I couldn't sleep. I curled up in the dark and cried, wishing it had all been a dream. I cursed myself for having sex with a dog. I hated myself for it, and God as well, asking him why He had to make me that way. I hadn't wanted to like it, I just did. Doing things, sexual things with that animal had felt normal. I felt an attraction for Muddy that I should have felt for boys, but didn't. I prayed to God and all His angels asking them to help me. I promised I'd never do it again, if they saved me from my brother. I'd do anything God wanted if He'd just make this nightmare go away. I woke up frightened. As if someone had thrown a bucket of cold water on me, I jerked wide awake with the expectation of seeing Josh standing at the foot of my bed. Maybe I'd been dreaming, but I couldn't remember, my only thought was that sleep was dangerous. I had an enemy now. Usually I put on a t-shirt, a long sleepy-t that I took off every night, just to cover my body when I went to the bathroom. But this morning I dressed completely. I put on my panties and bra, pulled on a pair of jeans, tugged a sweater over my head, and tip-toed across the hallway. I locked the bathroom door and undressed, taking it all off. My face looked swollen in the mirror, pale and sad. That bleak reflection seemed so very unlike me that I could barely stand to look at it. My puffy eyes were red, my nose as well, and my cheeks were bruised with a lack of sleep. I washed my face and brushed my teeth, feeling like I wanted to puke. A soft rapping at the door made me jump, but it was only my mother. "Good morning, sunshine," she sang. "Don't take too long in there." Mom loved mornings. She loved me, and the idea that Josh would show her the pictures, the movies of me with a dog, filled my mouth with bile. I dropped to my knees, retching into the toilet. "Wendy?" She knocked again. "Are you alright?" "Fine," I gasped, but she wasn't going to accept that. "Open the door. What's wrong?" I made her wait while I rinsed out my mouth and wrapped a towel around my naked body. "You look terrible," she said, putting a hand to my forehead. "We're you sick last night? Get back into bed." "I'm okay," I protested. "Maybe she's pregnant," Josh said with a grin. He stood behind our mom, looking over her shoulder, and I couldn't bear the sight of him. I looked down, hugging the towel to my breasts with crossed arms. "That isn't funny," Mom told him. "Use the other bathroom. We're running late this morning." She put me in bed, towel and all, wondering if she should take me to the doctor. "I just have an upset stomach," I told her. "I'm tired." Mom had to go to work and taking time off wouldn't be a big deal, but she didn't like to do it unless absolutely necessary. My mother had always been a practical woman, although rather high-strung and prone to making too much out of too little, I sometimes thought. Daddy had already gone to work. He left about the time the rest of us were waking up. "Well, you don't have a fever," she said a few minutes later, reading the thermometer. "When did you have your last period?" "What?" I blinked at her. "I'm not pregnant, Mom." She knew when I got my period, but I suppose that looking like I did, being nauseas first thing in the morning...I was sixteen and very pretty, very popular with the boys, as she liked to say. That made me a suspect, even though I'd never even gone out on a date. I'd never had a boyfriend, but being pragmatic, Mom probably didn't believe that. She couldn't afford to, I saw it in her eyes. "I got my period last week, remember?" I sighed, rolling over to face the wall. "I don't even have a boyfriend." "Wendy, you know I want to respect your privacy, but..." "I'm still a virgin, okay?" I felt her hand on my back, glad she couldn't see my face. I'd always been the world's worst liar, but that was only half a lie anyway. I hadn't had sex with a boy Maybe she believed me, maybe not, but at least Mom decided to drop the subject. She called the school and told them I'd be staying home. I half expected her to make an appointment for me with her gynecologist, but maybe that was coming. Like I said, Mom could find a crisis without even trying. "See ya later, Wendy," Josh said, smiling from the doorway. He held his camera by the strap, letting it swing like a pendulum. I'd thought about searching his room, but that's what he was telling me - Don't bother. I seriously doubted his camera was the only place he kept the evidence. If Josh was smart, as I had to assume he was, he would have uploaded the files to someplace on the internet. One of those sites offering free storage to anyone with an email address, promising that the files would be available anytime, anywhere, to anyone who knew where to find them. I looked anyway, checking the browsing history and bookmarks on my brother's computer. That didn't help and even if I'd found something, I didn't know his passwords or anything. I felt desperate and frustrated, but no longer sick, thank God. I couldn't eat anything, however, and I just went back to bed. Maybe he wouldn't do anything. My brother was a real jerk, I knew that, and even before I'd hit puberty he'd been watching me. Josh was about a year and half older than me, almost 18 and a senior, and he loved me the way a brother shouldn't. Mom and Dad thought he paid so much attention to me because he wanted to be protective. They were actually proud of that, telling me how lucky I was to have him, but I knew it was only jealousy. He'd beat up a boy once, this guy in seventh grade who had a crush on me and wrote me stupid poems. Josh found out and I still felt bad about it, like it had been my fault. But if Josh really loved me, if he imagined I could ever love him back somehow, would he really tell everyone what I'd done? I didn't want to think so, but there's a fine line between love and hate and I wasn't sure he knew the difference. He was big and strong, even smart in a cunning sort of way, I thought, but decidedly immature when it came to his emotions. My brother would hurt me, I decided. If he couldn't have me, he'd make me suffer for it. I believed that. "Wake up," he said, and I bolted upright with a scream. "What are you doing here?" I whispered, pulling my knees to my breasts and hugging them through the blanket. My heart was pounding and the adrenalin made me shiver. "I figured I'd skip out," Josh said, reaching for my face. "Since you're here all by yourself and everything." "Don't touch me!" I winced as I felt his fingers on my cheek, brushing the hair out of my eyes. "Oh, I'm gonna touch you, Wendy." He took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "I'm gonna touch you all over." "No!" I slapped his hand away, but Josh grabbed my shoulders and pushed me down. I kicked beneath the blanket as he got on top of me. "Stop it," he said, squeezing my wrists and jerking my arms above my head. "You want me to show those pictures to everybody?" "No," I breathed, grunting the word beneath his weight. My brother's knees straddled my hips and his chest pressed heavily upon my breasts. "So be nice," he told me. "I just want to kiss you a little, that's all." "Ummph!" I gagged on his tongue as it filled my mouth. I thought about biting him, but I was too frightened for that. I couldn't even push him off me. We were alone in the house and I had no idea what time it was, but probably early. Josh had all day to torment me and I couldn't do anything but lay there and cry while he did it. "Kiss me back," he breathed. "Kiss me like you kissed that fucking dog, Wendy." "Noooo..." I moaned, shaking my head as I wept. "Please, don't do this to me." My nose was full of snot, my mouth pasty and my body burning with humiliation. I couldn't feel anything else, not anger or sadness, not even fear, just the self- loathing of surrender. I hated myself for not fighting him enough. When his tongue forced its way between my lips, I touched it with my own, just a tiny, tentative wriggle in response. I retched, feeling my tummy tight and churning, pushing bitter bile into the back of my mouth. That didn't stop Josh, perhaps he wasn't even aware of it. He kissed me as if we were lovers, exploring me with his tongue. He let go of my wrists and moved his body, tugging the blanket out from under him. I was naked, having no reason to believe I wouldn't be alone all day long. I should have put on every piece of clothing I owned, but I hadn't. I'd gone to sleep imagining I was safe, but I wasn't. Josh's hand found my left breast and he squeezed it painfully, making me gasp into his mouth. "Love your fuckin' tits," he whispered, kissing my cheeks, my nose and eyes. He licked my skin and fumbled with his pants. I stared at my snow globe while he raped me. My brother had gotten undressed and I hadn't even tried to get away. I could have, I thought. Maybe. I could have hit him or kicked him. I might have run to the bathroom and locked myself in. I could have gone to my parents' bedroom and used the phone to call someone. Mom or Dad, or the police maybe, but I hadn't done any of that. When Josh pushed his penis inside me it hurt a lot. I wasn't wet and much too tight for sex, but he pushed himself into my vagina anyway. I jerked beneath his thrusts, stiff and not moving at all. My arms were limp at my sides, my legs straight and spread around him as he covered my body with his. The whole bed jerked, hitting the wall with a sharp thud every few seconds. He didn't do it very quickly, but only slowly and as deeply as possible. I felt him like a burning knife reaching for my womb. "Wake up," he groaned. "Fuck me back, Wendy. Move your ass." I couldn't move and it didn't matter anyway. I tried to think about something else. Disney World and the best time we'd ever had together as a family. Dad had bought me a snow globe. Ariel sat on some coral and Flounder would swim around in the glitter when I shook it up. I'd kept it close to my bed all those years and now it was the only memory I had of a time before today. Everything else was like a dream. "I'm gonna cum," Josh groaned. "Right...There!" He grunted, lunging one last time into my torn sex as his cock pulsed rapidly. I could feel his ejaculate, his incestuous semen filling my pussy. I opened my eyes only to see my brother's flushed, leering face and I choked back a sob. There are no words to describe how dirty I felt. The realization that my own brother had raped me, had dumped his sick seed inside my body, filled me with such shame...I wanted to die. I really did. "See?" he breathed a minute later. "That wasn't so bad, was it?" "Let me go now, please?" I whispered, but he wasn't going to do that. Josh hadn't lost his erection and he began rocking his hips again, sliding his cock back and forth along the well-greased throat of my sex. He'd been dreaming of this moment for years, banking his lust for the day when he would own me completely. I could see the satisfaction in his eyes. He intended to fuck me until his balls were empty and his penis shriveled with exhaustion. It didn't matter if I did anything or not, so long as I remained beneath him. So far as my brother was concerned, I wasn't even a real person, just a toy for his perverse amusement. "Get your legs up," Josh said, gripping me behind the knees and forcing me over his shoulders. "That's better. Oh fuck, you feel good, Wendy." He liked to talk to me, saying the most disgusting things imaginable. He told me his plans for the future, how he would fuck me every day, before school and after. How we'd sleep together every night. He wanted me to suck his cock. He wanted to fuck me in the ass. But today he only wanted to fuck my pussy. "I'm gonna knock you up," he panted, leaning into me with my knees touching my shoulders. "You like that? Huh? Fuck a baby in your cunt, Wendy?" "Nuhhh!" I grunted, wincing as Josh drove his cock into the very bottom of my vagina. I wasn't long enough inside and I felt bruised and battered, not aroused at all. I felt no pleasure, believe me, even after the sharp burning of his first penetration had faded. Perhaps my pussy grew slick with natural lubricant, I couldn't know, but any betrayal of my body wouldn't be my fault. I wasn't going to orgasm, not even close, and my mind didn't wander to anything but self-pity. He'd rolled my ass off the bed, bending my body nearly vertical, and his balls slapped my butt with a damp, sticky sound that I detested. We were both hot and sweating, the remains of his first orgasm spilling around his penis to drip down my tummy. I could see it, that was the worst. I watched my brother's cock sliding easily back and forth with my pinkish labia clasped around the shaft, the pale froth of his semen clinging to my pubic hair, cooling on my trembling flesh. "Ohhhh..." Josh smiled, almost giggling like a little boy as he climaxed a second time. He bent his head and kissed my forehead. I felt numb when he pulled out, letting my legs fall off his shoulders as he sat back on his heels. I wasn't crying anymore. There weren't enough tears left inside me, I didn't think. I just lay there staring at the ceiling, thinking about nothing except how stupid I was. How ugly and dirty and sick my life had become. Flash! "Say cum," Josh teased, taking another picture of my raw, gaping pussy and the semen oozing out of it. He laughed and took another picture. "And you told Mom you're a virgin? Wait until she sees this!" "Shut-up!" I screamed, but it wasn't me. Someone else kicked the camera out of his hand and my other foot caught him in the ribs. I kicked my legs as if I was riding a bicycle and my arms flailed as I tried to sit up and reach for something to throw at him. "Stop it!" Josh yelled, and he was too big and too strong. I hadn't really hurt him at all. He forced me onto my stomach, holding me down with his weight. I felt his hot breath in my ear and his swollen cock pressing against my ass. He fucked me a third time, raping me from behind and I tried to keep him out. I kept my legs together and squeezed with every muscle I could find, but my pussy was too wet and too loose. His cock found my vagina easily and he jammed his prick inside me with something like a growl. As quickly as it had started, my resistance died. Josh had his cock inside my body again. He was raping me again. He covered me completely, the pressure making my breasts ache painfully. I could hardly breath and I panted for air, drooling spittle onto the bed as my brother rode me hard and fast, and for a very long time. It took him forever to cum a third time and at the end of it, when his semen rushed into my worn and weary cunt, I was finished. There was nothing left. "Man, I really put a lot in there, huh?" My brother had replaced his cock with his fingers, two and then three of them pumping my cum soaked pussy. "Maybe you're gonna have twins, Wendy. Are you hungry?" Even after he left the room, I lay there unmoving. I cried myself to sleep in a cooling puddle of semen and dreamt of terrible things. =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= I changed the sheets on my bed and scrubbed the stains out of my mattress. I opened all the windows, moving mechanically. It was just a reflex, automatic and emotionless self-preservation. My parents couldn't find out what had happened. Nobody could. I'd been raped and the only thing that could possibly be worse would be if someone found out. I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror and when I took a bath, I refused to examine my body. I looked anywhere but at myself. I didn't even want to touch my pussy, but I had to clean Josh out of me...As if I ever could? He avoided me that afternoon. Maybe he felt guilty, once he'd cooled down and had a chance to consider what he'd done, but probably not. I didn't think Josh could feel anything. "Mom's gonna be home pretty soon," he said. "You'd better not say anything. Just keep pretending your sick." "You raped me," I whispered, but mostly I was talking to myself. "No, I didn't," Josh snorted. "You wanted it anyway." Fresh tears flooded my eyes and pulled my blanket over my head. I felt safer in the dark and I wished he would get out of my room and leave me alone. "You fucked a dog, Wendy," he reminded me. "Nobody's ever gonna believe you got raped." "Go away," I whimpered. "Please? Just go." "Don't lock your door tonight either," Josh said. "You're making my dick hard again." =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= "How are you feeling?" Mom asked, sitting on my bed. I lay on my side with my back to her, but she reached over to feel my forehead. "Okay," I replied. "Why is your window open? It smells like Lysol in here." "I, uh...got sick before," I lied. "It smelled bad." "Did you eat today?" Mom wondered, all full of concern. I had to let her baby me for fifteen minutes before Dad arrived. "How is she?" he asked, and I refused to roll over. I didn't want Mom to see my face, frightened that she would instantly know what had happened. "I don't know," she sighed. "Maybe we should take her to the doctor." "I'm fine," I said. "I just want to sleep, okay?" "You're not fine," Mom chided me. "You want to take her to the emergency room?" Dad wondered, because this was a mom decision. I was her daughter and therefore her department. "I don't want to see a doctor," I insisted, shrugging off her hand. "Just leave me alone. Please? I'm tired." "We're just worried about you," she said, but it was late and emergency rooms were always a hassle, and they'd just gotten home from work... "Let's see how she feels in the morning," Dad suggested. "Do you want some soup or something?" Mom asked, and I knew I was safe for the moment. =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= Despite feeling exhausted physically and emotionally, I couldn't sleep for more than a few minutes at a time. I couldn't even be sure I was sleeping. When I closed my eyes I saw my brother's grinning face looking down at me. I'd get that weird falling sensation and my body would snap as if trying to regain its balance, and my bedroom would be dark and empty...until it wasn't. "Still awake?" Josh whispered. "Move over a little." He crawled naked into my bed, getting under the blanket with me. I'd been expecting him, but that didn't make me feel any better. I recoiled from his hands as he pulled me closer, urging me to turn over and face him. "Why are you wearing clothes?" he asked. "Take them off. You're supposed to be naked, remember?" "I'll scream," I told him. "If you don't leave me alone, I'll scream." "Go ahead," he said. "Maybe you can give Dad a heart attack. Maybe Mom'll kill herself, huh?" "What?" I stared at him. "Yeah, you didn't think of that," Josh said. "You know what happens to girls who say they got raped? They find out everything about her." "Shut-up!" "They have a trial and everything, you know? And everybody's gonna see you fucking that dog, Wendy." "No." I shook my head. "You wouldn't do that." "I'll say you wanted to fuck me," he said. "You're just a slut and when I said no, you said you'd tell everybody I raped you." "You did rape me!" I sobbed. "But you fucked a dog," he said, smiling. "See? That's why nobody's gonna believe a word you say. You've got no, um...What do they call it? Credibility?" "I hate you," I cried, hugging my stomach because it hurt so bad. "I don't care," Josh said. "I'm still gonna fuck you." He did it from behind, playing with my breasts as we spooned beneath the blanket. Josh raped me as carefully as he could, hardly moving at all, except for his hips. The bed didn't even squeak and he kissed my shoulder and neck, buried his face in my hair when he had to let out a deep breath and spurt his semen into my pussy. That hadn't taken very long at all, but like the first time he'd fucked me, Josh didn't pull out. "I can't believe how good you feel," he whispered. "I love your pussy. I love fucking you. Jeeze, you're so hot inside." He'd slipped his right arm beneath me and now held both of my tits in his hands. Josh squeezed me gently, almost tenderly, and for some reason his palms felt good against my nipples. I didn't want to feel good, and in my heart I felt nothing but despair, but the human body isn't always a slave to our souls. I'd suffered for twenty-four hours straight, ever since Josh woke me up the night before. I was just a girl. I couldn't fight him everywhere at once, not all the time. My mind was confused, exhausted with the effort of finding a way out of his trap. My thoughts were impossible to rein in as I tried to find some logic, some action or argument that would save me and still protect my friends and family. My heart fought against the fear and anger, the humiliation and loneliness, every dark emotion you can imagine. I tried to find a way to forgive myself, but it was hard, so hard. I was struggling just to find a shred of hope. I couldn't do that and at the same time rally against the instinctual desire of my body to accept what was happening to it. Perhaps some part of me needed to feel good, simply because I couldn't bear another ounce of pain. I needed something to hold onto or I would have been lost forever. I could feel the abyss beneath my feet. "Uhhh huh..." I gasped, grabbing my brother's hands with mine and pushing myself against his cock. I rocked my hips and widened my thighs, lifting my top leg and bending my knee. That felt better. Josh had more room and he slid a fraction deeper. I closed my fingers over his, wanting to feel more pressure on my tits. My nipples began to throb, burning hot and cold as I worked my pussy against his cock. I didn't give him my heart, if anything I discovered a new hatred burning deep in my chest. I thought of nothing pleasant, but filled my mind with desperate rationale. The sooner he finished, the sooner he'd leave, that's what I told myself, but then I found a better reason. Taking some measure of control over the situation would steal a portion of his power, wouldn't it? "There you go," Josh breathed. "Like that. Yeah, Wendy, I knew you liked it." "Mmmm..." I closed my eyes and moaned through my tightly shut lips, breathing through my nose as I arched my back. We were moving faster, rocking the bed and filling my bedroom with the dull sound of his flesh meeting mine. The smell of our sweat assaulted my nose and my heart strained with excitement. I'd given up completely, letting my body go where it wanted. My pussy burned, but not with pain. The walls of my sex spasmed with tiny contractions and the sensation of Josh's erection stroking my clitoris became acute and nearly unbearable. I'd tilted my hips, changing the angle to find more of him. My vagina stretched easily, relaxing with my arousal to accommodate his full length without the slightest discomfort. He made me cum! I gasped and shook in his arms, trembling from the inside out as my body finally released the tension that had been building all day. I felt drunk, suddenly, almost giddy and so incredibly tired. It's what I'd needed more than anything else and my body knew it, even if my heart and mind did not. It changed nothing else, but only gave me the strength to continue the fight...Or so I told myself in the warm glow of orgasmic bliss. "Yessss..." Josh sighed, joining my climax with his. We didn't move or speak until my brother's flaccid penis fell out of my pussy and along the back of my thigh. I felt very wet down there, more so because my own juices were flowing freely. I let go of his hands, but Josh didn't release my breasts. He seemed content to cuddle with me as if we were genuine lovers. I felt his chest against my back, knees bent behind mine, and his lips close to my ear. "I love you," he whispered, and when I didn't reply: "I know you don't believe me, but I do. You're the only girl I ever loved." "If you get rid of the pictures," I told him, "I'll be your girlfriend." "Right." Josh laughed softly and kissed my cheek. "How come I don't believe you?" "I swear," I said, turning so I could see his face. "You don't have to do this. It's only gonna hurt us more and more." "It doesn't hurt me at all," he said, not getting my point at all. I wasn't even sure I got it, not completely, but we couldn't hide it forever. I couldn't pretend to be sick for the rest of my life. Sooner or later Mom would figure it out, maybe not about Josh raping me, but that something had happened. She wouldn't let it go, and neither would Dad, they were too good for that. Josh was lucky to have gotten away with it so far, but even he couldn't be so dumb as to think he could rape his sister and get away with it...Not without my help. Did I want to help him? No, I didn't. I would have given anything to rewind my life and never go through anything like this again. That wasn't possible though, and it was too late for me anyway, that's my point. I already knew the truth and had to live with it, but my parents didn't have to find out. They didn't have to suffer. Someone had to protect them and there was only one person who could do that, but I couldn't do it alone. Not with Josh holding those pictures over my head. I had to be able to trust him if I was going to give him what he most wanted, and that meant he had to trust me. "Don't you want me to love you?" I asked him, hoping I sounded more confident than I felt. I was terrified and certain I was making a big mistake, but I couldn't think of anything else. What Josh had said earlier weighed heavily on my conscience. What would happen if I accused my brother of rape? Our parents loved both of us and the idea that we'd be ripped apart, our family destroyed forever, that was too much. I'd rather remain silent as a willing slave to my brother's sick desires than end up in the hell that awaited us if I revealed the truth. I could imagine nothing worse than losing my family, losing the love and respect of my parents, and still living with the fact that I'd been raped. There could be no justice for me, every path led to only pain and misery, and I once I accepted that simple truth it ceased to be important. If we were safe and happy as a family, I told myself; if my brother and I could at least maintain the illusion...I could bear the shame. "Prove it," Josh said, and I rolled over in his arms. I kissed his mouth, gently at first, and then deeper as my tongue slipped across his. I rubbed my tits against his chest and spread my legs, pulling my sex close to his crotch. My fingers scratched at his neck while he rubbed my back, going lower to find my ass and squeeze me there. I made out with him the best I could, holding nothing back even as a wave of revulsion swept through my blood. I felt sickened by what I was doing, don't imagine otherwise, and I kept telling myself it was for my mom and dad, for my grandparents who were truly innocent and undeserving of my brother's betrayal. "Like this," he whispered, barely breaking our kiss. "Get on top of me." My lips felt bruised and I nibbled on his, doing everything I could think of as Josh rolled onto his back. His cock had grown stiff again, not nearly so firm as it had been earlier, but hard enough all the same. I straddled him with my legs spread, on my knees with my nipples poking against his chest. We kissed while he pushed and pulled me with his hands on my ass, moving me around as his erection tried to find its way inside my pussy. "Put it in," he suggested. "Fuck me, Wendy. Like a girlfriend does it, okay?" "Yeah," I agreed, looking up as I took his penis in my hand. I'd never held it before and the weight surprised me, the warmth as well. Josh had a heavy cock, fat and long, it seemed to me, but I had no experience to compare him with. He wasn't like a dog, I knew that much, and I bit my bottom lip as I brought the smooth head to my pussy and rubbed it around. I was already very wet, obviously, and that made it easy. Like an arrow aimed at my womb, he pushed through the mouth of my sex as I let myself down slowly. I sat on him, with Josh buried in my pussy, I sat astride his hips and wondered what I was feeling. "Come on," he whispered. "Start fucking already. Ride that cock." "Shhhh..." I licked my lips and began to move, rising a few inches and grinding my way back down. I put my hands on his chest, leaning forward slightly, giving Josh a nice view of my tits as they moved in time with my hips. We were fucking, or rather I was fucking him this time. Josh hardly moved at all except to squeeze my waist and tell me how sexy I looked on his cock. The bed squeaked and my butt slapped his thighs. I could smell our cum in the air, my brother's musky scent hopelessly intermingled with the bitter-sweet odor of female arousal. I could taste our sweat on my tongue as I panted for air, working my pussy along the shaft faster as I grew more comfortable with my decision. I had to kiss him and make love to him, and demonstrate my willingness. He had to trust me and I dropped my mouth to his, collapsing against his chest as Josh began lifting his hips and pumping my cunt with eager abandon. I nursed on his tongue and told myself it was alright. I had to do this, so I might as well enjoy it. I wanted to cum again and float away on that careless euphoria. We could cum together and he wasn't raping me, at least not physically. This would be better for both of us, I hoped, and he would know that I was giving myself to him completely. "Do you love me?" he asked, and I knew he was right on the edge. "Yeah," I lied. "I love you, Josh. Cum inside me again. I want to feel it." He nodded at my words, smiling with satisfaction. He believed me, I thought, and he pulled my mouth to his. Our hearts were pounding together, his humid breath filled my lungs as he strove to fill my willing womb with his seed. I was guilty now, conspiring to do the unthinkable, and my heart was broken. "Wendy!" he gasped only a few seconds later, pulling me down and holding me there as his balls emptied inside my quivering sex. It was a small orgasm and over quickly, and I hadn't found mine at all, not even by accident. "Oh my God," Mom said, not shrieking or even shouting. It was the dull, flat tone of her voice that most frightened me. She stood in the open doorway, staring directly at me as I looked over my shoulder. I wasn't even sure Josh knew she was there until he lifted his head. It was over, that was my first coherent thought. Everything had been for nothing, our entire lives had been a waste, that's what it felt like being caught by my mom. The strange part was that I couldn't even say that Josh had raped me. I was on top of him, after all. "Get up," she said. "In the bathroom. Now!" I did as Mom told me, moving slowly and carefully. I didn't have to look at myself, I could feel the wetness staining my thighs. She gave me a look of pure disgust as I slipped past her, not anger or anything like that, only disgust. It was enough to make me cry and I ran across the hall, slamming the bathroom door behind me and sitting on the floor with my back against it. An hour passed and nobody bothered me. I hadn't moved, but at least I'd stopped crying. I thought about killing myself. I even opened the medicine cabinet, looking through the assorted pills, old prescriptions mostly, and wondering if any of them would do the job. Maybe all of them together? But no. I chickened out. I didn't want to die, I just wanted things to be like they were before. That made me cry some more and I fell asleep in the bathtub. =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= "Nobody's going anywhere today," Mom said, explaining why she hadn't gotten ready for work. Why Dad wore jeans and a flannel shirt instead of his suit and tie. "We need to talk about this," he said, and you could have cut the tension with a knife. It was a physical thing that bound me to the chair and I couldn't lift my eyes from the kitchen table. "How long has this been going on?" Mom wanted to know. She slapped the table and the dishes clattered. "Answer me!" "Since yesterday," Josh replied. "We never did it before, I swear." "Who's idea was it," she asked. "Yours?" "No," I whispered, sensing her attention fixed on me. "I'm not sure it matters," Dad offered in a reasonable tone, but Mom wasn't listening to reason. "It matters to me!" she snapped. "What happened? You two just decided to start fucking?" "Susan..." "He's your brother, for God's sake!" she yelled. "What if you get pregnant?" "I don't know," I mumbled, dropping my head even lower. "Wipe that smile off your face!" SLAP Mom really slapped my brother! "That's enough!" Dad grabbed her, pulling Mom off the table and I looked up then. She looked crazy. "Mom?" I said, but she'd buried her face in Dad's chest, sobbing as he rocked her gently in his strong arms. "You two better go upstairs," he said. "Stay in your rooms." "What did we do wrong?" Mom kept asking, the words coming out in a heart wrenching wail to echo through the house. I covered my head with my pillows. =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= "What are you doing?" I hissed at my brother. "Are you crazy? Go back to your room! If Mom catches us together..." "Relax," Josh said. "Dad took her to the doctor." "He did?" I had to think about that. "We've gotta get our story straight." "What? You have to delete all the pictures," I told him. "Now! Look what happened." "I will," he promised, and then answered my look: "All of them, every single copy. They're gone." "I don't believe you." "Well..." Josh grinned at me. "It's true anyway." "What are you smiling about?" I wanted to slap him myself. Jesus! My brother was an asshole! "I just love you," he said. "I can't help it, Wendy." I could only stare at him, the words not making sense at all. "You're my girlfriend now." "Christ!" I shouted. "Who cares about that? Mom's going crazy all because of you!" "Me?" Josh shook his head. "You were the one fucking me, remember?" "That wasn't my fault!" "You said you loved me," he said. "She heard you and told Dad everything. She probably told him you're pregnant. It's all your fault now." "Get out of here!" I screamed, pushing myself off the bed. "They think you're a slut, Wendy." He licked his lips, smiling. "And so will everyone else." "Get out!" I shoved his chest with both hands, but my brother grabbed me instead. He wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted me off my feet. I slapped his face and shoulders, kicking my feet as we fell onto the bed with him on top. His weight knocked the air out of my lungs, painfully, like a hard punch to the chest. I gasped weakly, limp and helpless until my head cleared a moment later. "Listen," he said, "all they know is that we were having sex. You're never gonna prove that I raped you, so just relax." "I hate you," I breathed. My eyes were growing wet with frustration and I was so sick of crying by then. "All we have to say is that we were just fooling around, you know?" "Get off me." "We only did it once, right?" Josh eased himself upward, onto his elbows so I could catch my breath. "It was like an experiment or whatever, it didn't mean anything." "It means something to Mom," I said. "Don't you even care?" "She'll be okay," he said. "We just can't let her catch us again." "You're crazy!" I almost giggled at the absurdity of it. "We're never gonna do it again, Josh." "Yeah we will," he told me. "Nobody else is ever going to love you like I do, Wendy." "Stop it!" I turned my head as he tried to kiss me. "I don't want to!" "We've got time," Josh said, forcing my legs apart with his knees. I tried twisting away, I even tried to knee him in the balls, but I only ended up helping him wedge his hips between my thighs. I'd put on a skirt for our aborted family meeting and now I wished I'd put on some pants instead. Josh tried to hold both of my arms with one hand while he used the other to free his cock. My panties weren't going to stop him and neither was I, even as I jerked one of my arms loose. He was going to rape me again and he'd never stop. No matter what happened or who got hurt, Josh would never let me go. "Stop fighting," he said, yanking my panties aside with a sharp tearing sound. "I just want to love you, Wendy." "I don't care," I breathed, closing my fingers around the only thing I could reach. I smashed the snow globe into the side of my brother's head, just above his ear and close to his temple. He jerked upward as I tried to hit him again. I must have known the glass had broken, but I didn't realize it in that split second before a jagged tooth caught him just under the jaw. It's because he'd lifted his head, you see? I'd only wanted him to stop, that's all, and the blood spraying across my arm came as a complete surprise to both of us. Josh made a hideous choking sound, like a wet growl, and his disbelieving eyes were staring into mine. He stumbled backwards, crawling off the bed and trying to stand as he pressed his hand against his neck. Blood poured over his fingers, turning his t-shirt crimson, and then he fell, his legs folding beneath him so that he dropped like a puppet cut off his strings. "Josh!" I stared at him, still holding what remained of the snow globe. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry." His eyes were large and lonely, not blinking at all. They were darting around the room as if looking for someone to save him, but there was only me. His mouth opened and closed as he lay there. He wanted to say something and the words gurgled meaningless from his lips. I'd never seen so much blood in my life and it seemed to cover everything. My bed. The floor. It pooled on the carpet beneath him and his leg kicked weakly, and then he was very still. So was I, until Daddy found us sometime later. He called the police and an ambulance, and everybody else. And Josh was right, nobody would love me the way he did ever again. end ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ This story was written as an adult fantasy. The author does not condone the described behavior in real life in any way, shape or form. Anyone tempted to act out any of the scenarios in this story should seriously consider seeking professional help. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Kristen's collection - Directory 80