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You'll have to make your mind up about this story, but I hope you'll like it anyway. (MF, reluc, inc, mast) *** Note: The name Sascha is pronounced, Sarsh-ka. *** Chapter One: Some Background And Insights My name is Andrew. Yes, like the Apostle. I was born into a Fundamentalist Evangelical Christian family, where from an early age, we went to church every Sunday, took Holy Communion, and went to tent meetings when they came to town, and had Wednesday night Bible study. All I ever wanted was to be a preacher and spread the Gospel, saving souls from fire and damnation, just like my Dad, who was the Pastor of our church. My dad wanted twelve sons, and he wanted to name them all after the Apostles. But my Mom's body gave out after two, and then due to complications, had to have a hysterectomy after Simon's birth. My dad called her names as she lay weak and weary on the hospital bed after her operation, and called her a Jezebel, the product of a line of fallen women. He held me by the neck as he berated my Mom, trying to get me to hate her for ruining his plans. But I stubbornly refused to budge, and Mom looked at me gratefully, before passing out from the medication. Some things, I guess, are not to be. I'd get up in front of the congregation to read the Scriptures for the days' teaching, and I'd feel the weight of all those eyes staring at me. My tongue would choke me, and I'd blabber like a fool. It soon became obvious to my Dad that I was such a disappointment to him, and after a while, he stopped getting me to do that, and instead got my younger brother Simon to do it. Then, when I'd turned thirteen, I discovered girls. I suddenly noticed them all around me, and my Johnson would grow without me wanting it to. I embarrassed myself, and a few of the girls, by this happening. I remember one Sunday after church, I was standing next to my father as the folks were leaving the church and as they were complimenting him on a fine sermon about the sins of the flesh, Janice Bookmeyer came and stood in front of me. I was wearing a pair of baggy-style trousers that seemed to be the in-thing for boys at the time, and I had always worn shorts, so when Janice Bookmeyer stood there with the sun behind her, all Hell broke loose. I could see the outline of her thirteen year old body as clear as day. Her dress was almost transparent, and then it happened. I cracked a boner. It must have been a beauty! It stuck out in front of me like a gun on a battleship, and just as solid. I didn't even realise it had happened, till one of the ladies cried, "Oh my God! Pastor, look at that sinful boy!" Janice and her Mom looked down, and Janice blushed furiously, turning away and screaming. Several of the ladies in the congregation and their young daughters took to screaming as well, as soon as they caught sight of it. My Dad almost had a fit. Well, to be honest, he DID have a fit! I was hauled into his study and beaten so bad on the ass with his belt, I couldn't sit without a cushion for two whole weeks! Dad had made plans for me to marry Janice when we were old enough, because her father had owned a large sawmill up the valley a-ways. Now his plans were dashed, and he looked like a thundercloud waiting to explode on me whenever he looked my way. That man could hold onto a grudge till it died of old age. Janice was interested in the idea of someday marrying a preacher's son, as that would give her and her family status in our community, but after that, she didn't want to even know the changeling son-of-the- devil, as I came to be called. My father couldn't outright disown me, so he made sure I wasn't seen, much less heard, till I was about seventeen, and then I was packed off to college quick smart. My God, how Simon lapped those years up! He was the favourite son now, and I was his evil big brother, and he threw that in my face every chance he got. He'd pick a fight with me, I'd beat on him, Dad would beat on me, and Mom would wring her hands and cry. At college, my hormones seemed to settle down, and I immersed myself into my studies. I took Literature and Religious studies, with computer classes in between. Because I sometimes felt lonely, and didn't mix well with the party-goers, I joined a local Pentecostal church not far from my dorm. I still had the dream of doing God's Will, and tried very hard at erasing my past sins. God seemed to favour me, and so he blessed me with a girlfriend, named Sandra Owens. Sandy, as she liked to be known as, was a bright, cheerful girl, the same age as me, and seemed to like the same things I did. When I had told her I was the son of a preacher who had his own church, she decided then and there she was going to marry me, and together we would serve the Lord, doing His Will, and letting God be the centre of our lives. Oh, if only I'd known then... But, I don't want to ruin this story for you. When I turned twenty-one, Sandy and I married in our church. It was a beautiful day, Sandy looked heavenly, and all our friends in the college and the congregation attended. When the Pastor of our church said the words, "I now pronounce you man and wife," Sandy purely glowed with happiness, and I almost burst with joy. Sandy wanted to have children right away, as, she told me, all good Christian wives should do, "to build up the congregation of the Lord," but I held off, saying we should at least get jobs and save some money first. She didn't like that idea, but as a "good Christian wife," she complied. After that, it seemed our sex life would revolve around her periods, just at the times when she was the most fertile. I had found a job working in a bookstore, but Sandy wouldn't go in there, because, as she put it, "it was filled up with Godless works of the Devil!" She told me that if I wanted to work in a bookstore, I should find a decent Christian store to work in. And, God knows, I tried to find one, just to please her. But that too, proved that the spirit may be willing, but the flesh was weak. All the Christian bookstores around that area paid much less than the one I was at, and they seemed to give me the impression that if I wanted to do God's work, I should be volunteering my time to do it. But, as we all know, volunteer work didn't pay the bills, and didn't put food on your table. Sandy and I became more like room-mates than man and wife. I'd go to work, come home, have dinner, watch some TV, or do some surfing on the net, then go to bed. When Sandy wasn't ovulating, she'd lie there, slap my hands away when I felt the need for sex, or even just to hold her, and roll over and go to sleep. It was a routine we got stuck into for the next four years, and it didn't seem that there was any way out of it, unless we had a child. I used to lay awake in bed at night, Sandy tucked up on her side of the bed, and pray and pour my heart out to the Lord for help and guidance. He must have been on an extended vacation at that time. My sins were being revisited on me, and sometimes, I must admit it, I would cry myself to sleep over it. As far as anyone in our church knew, we were a happy, loving couple. Sandy could play that part to perfection, and we had everybody fooled. When I bought up the idea of seeking counselling, Sandy, one of the few times she did it, screamed and hurled abuse at me for hours, finally breaking down and crying, saying that I didn't love her, and if I did, I would give her a child. There was no way in Hell, she said, that I was going to embarrass her in front of the congregation by taking her to counselling. If I tried that, she said, our marriage was over. When we were first married, Sandy and I had a great sex life. Any time of the day or night was good enough, and we made the most of it. We would shower together, and that usually led to mind-blowing sex, and doing it standing up was a thrill for both of us. I would begin by washing her back, slowly massaging her shoulders, then moving down her back until I was soaping up the globes of her ass. Then I would slip my hand under her, and rub her pussy from behind. She would go up on her toes, and with her weight resting on her hands, would open her legs to give me better access. Then I would enter her from behind, reach around and massage her breasts and play with her nipples, and we would hump for ages, till we both came. But, there were always conditions to our lovemaking. First, no ass play. She made that very clear one day when I was rubbing her almost to orgasm. My fingers were in her, and I ran my thumb across her rosebud, and then it popped in, and I was buried up to my hand. She squealed, and dashed out of the shower, glaring at me. She kicked me out of the shower, and told me to wait there until she was finished. I dried myself off in a huff, fully erect and desperate with need for release. But she didn't want me to touch her for the rest of the night, and for almost a week after that. The other thing was no oral sex. I had driven her to a frenzy one night. I began by kissing and sucking her nipples, and started to kiss her chest slowly, making my way down her body. She had her legs wide open, and she was slick with her juices. I was manipulating her with my fingers, and she was gyrating around, her hips bouncing off the bed, when I licked her pussy. I dragged my tongue up her slit, and I was about to stimulate her clitoris, when she screamed, and pushed me off, drawing her legs under her, berating me for doing disgusting things to her that only a whore would enjoy. That meant she wouldn't do for me, either. She said it was dirty, and no decent woman would even think about it! From then on, it was the old-fashioned missionary position for us. There were no longer any shared showers, and she became suspicious whenever my hands would caress her body. It finally degenerated to her pulling up her slip, taking off her underwear, and lying back down, with her legs open. Most times she was dry, and penetration nearly impossible, but she seemed to relent, and became wet enough for me to enter her body. But she would never raise her legs. They would stay flat on the bed, and I had to make do as much as I could. When I asked her to open her legs a bit wider one night, she pushed me off, pulled her slip back down, and rolled over, snarling at me, telling me I was a lousy lay anyway. God alone knows where she learned that kind of expression! I earned her displeasure mightily one time, when I was so desperate for release, I did something I hadn't done since I was about fourteen. Simon, that pain-in-the-ass goody-two-shoes, had a men's magazine hidden under his bed, in a box marked, "Bible Studies". I have to hand it to him, it did have a bunch of Bible study literature in there, and his Penthouse magazine was buried under the stack. I only found it one day when I was looking for something he had stolen from me, and looking through the box, I found his secret stash. I took his magazine, went out to the outhouse – yes, we still used an outhouse. Our house was old, and Dad, being parsimonious, wouldn't shell out for indoor plumbing. I took that Penthouse, and sat in the outhouse and went from cover to cover, ogling the naked women, and without realising it, I learned to masturbate that day. I was rubbing my cock, my hand around it sliding it up and down while trying to read the Forum columns, when I felt a wave of pure joy shoot out of my cockhead. I sat there gasping, wondering what the hell had happened, when Dad suddenly pounded on the door wanting to know who was in there, and what was taking so long. He scared the crap out of me. Literally! I quickly shoved the magazine down the privy hole, wiped my ass as quick as I could, pulled up my pants, and in a strangled voice, told him it was me, and I was coming out. As I exited the outhouse Dad clipped me across the ear, and told me to make it quicker next time. That night, Simon cornered me, and demanded to know where his magazine was. I knew what he was talking about, but I played dumb. I knew where it was, and if he wanted it, he'd have to go shit dipping. So, Simon, the vindictive bastard, told Dad at the dinner table the next night that he had seen me with some pornography, and that I'd hidden it somewhere in the house. Dad blew up a storm, and demanded to know where it was. And no matter how many times I told him I didn't know what Simon was talking about, he just beat on me till I just curled up and waited for the storm to pass. He wasn't getting any younger, and he would soon run out of puff, I knew. Simon just stood near, egging my father on, telling Dad to beat me till I was dead, then he wouldn't have to have the devil-boy under his roof no more. Mom finally made him see sense, telling him that if he killed me, he'd go to prison, and then where would we be? What would the people in the congregation think? That thought calmed him down enough for him to back off and Simon was very put out that he hadn't seen me beaten to death. Neither him nor Simon ever found that magazine, and things finally settled down. But I still hated that wretch of a brother. Cain had the right idea. Like I said, I was fourteen, and Simon thirteen, at the time. He was a handsome young man, with blonde hair and blue eyes, and he learned early how to charm his way into the affections of the ladies. He would always spend an inordinate amount of time getting himself prettied up before church, just so he could make a good impression on everybody and have them coo and slobber all over him, especially the ladies, and their young daughters. Oh, he just loved those young girls! He was a natural con artist, and he knew it. One Friday night, up in our room, Simon was taunting me about something, which was his way, and it had to do with the fact that I had fallen in love with Bessie Scrimshaw, from over in the next valley. We met at the Home Depot in town, and she was a pretty little thing, about twelve at the time, and I was smitten by her. Her chestnut hair and her knockout smile floored me! Just my luck, that Simon of all people saw us together, and he decided he had fresh fuel to hammer me with. So, when we got home, and out of sight and hearing of any adults, he went for it, feet first. Bessie became Messie, and Scrimshaw became Buzzsaw, and from then on, it went "Ooh, Andrew's in love with Messie Buzzsaw! Hahahaha! I'm going to tell everybody this Sunday at church that Andrew is in love with Messie Buzzsaw!" As I said, he was a vindictive little shit, and for the first time, I wanted to kill him. I really did. I came at him, but a thinking part of my brain pulled me up short, and at first he was genuinely scared, as all bullies are when confronted, then when I stopped, he started up again, sensing victory. So I drew back my fist, and planted one right on his nose. I had been lent out by my father to a labouring gang over the summer, on the proviso that he got my wages, just so Dad didn't have me underfoot, and I had a few extra muscles. And I gave him the benefit of them muscles. Crack! Went his nose, and down he went, howling. I planted my boot fair between his legs for good measure as well. That earned me a real bad beating and I was shunted off to a cousin's place for a year. But my God, it felt good to muss up his pretty looks! His nose is still broken, and we still hate each other. Well, anyway, where was I? Oh yes, Sandy's displeasure. I was lying next to her, and the seduction of the Ice Princess wasn't working, so I took off my shorts, and began to masturbate instead. Yep, right there on the bed next to her. I was hard, and in need of release and so I jacked off for all I was worth. Sandy turned her head, saw what I was doing, and hit the roof, taking the house and furniture along with her. She screamed at me, "What the hell did I think I was doing? And, if I wanted sex, she was lying right next to me, for God's sake! What the hell was wrong with me? Was I a pervert?" I calmly reminded her that I had tried to have sex with her, but she obviously wasn't interested. That made no bones as far as she was concerned, so I gave up, rolled over, and left her to it. She wouldn't talk to me for a week after that. I didn't care. Chapter Two: A Ray Of Sunshine So, here we were, and I was small step away to calling it quits and just walking away. God knows, I should have, but I'm a dumb thick-headed mule of a man sometimes, and for all her faults, I really did love Sandy. Her strawberry blonde hair that hung to the middle of her back, her cute button nose, the almost invisible freckles, her really cute butt and her firm breasts all turned me on. Physically, she was angel. Mentally, she was a nightmare. Finally after checking our bank balance, I caved in. I sat Sandy down one Friday night and told that if she wanted a baby, then so did I. She was suspicious, telling me I was only saying that to "fuck her". She shocked me with those words, but she didn't seem to notice she'd said them. I held her hands, and with every ounce of sincerity I could muster, told her that I meant every word. I didn't feel complete as a man until she had provided me with a child. She argued back and forth for over two hours until she finally divined that I was telling her the truth. She sat on the edge of the couch, stiff and unyielding. Finally, she looked me in the eye and made her decision. She got up, came to me and for the first time in nearly five years, kissed me as a wife and a woman should, melting into my arms. We made love that night, and she opened herself to me, giving herself, and I took her. I lavished attention on her nipples, devouring them, causing her to gasp and thrash under me. I lined myself up to her wet entrance and slid in slowly. She was so tight; it was like being on our wedding night again, when I took her for the first time. She moved under me, rocking her hips, urging me on, until finally, I exploded into her. She lay under me, cooing and snuffling. I don't know if she came, but she was loving, and kept clutching at me, touching me with light feathery touches that excited me. All weekend long, we spent more time naked together in bed, than we had for the previous four years or so. Every time I had an erection, she was there to take care of it. By Monday, I was a happy, tired, wreck. All Monday at work, I kept daydreaming about the happy times we had had over the previous two days. I had no longer paid any attention to her cycles, so it came as a surprise when, two weeks later, she came up to me, kissed me passionately and told me she was pregnant! I was so happy, for us both. I felt the weight of my fears and sadness at our lives melt away and I felt I could fly! We made love together for another two weeks after that, "just to make sure," she giggled, and then the hammer came down. She was definitely pregnant, so there was no more need for us to have sex any more until after the baby was born. My new world crashed around my feet, and I could hear the roar it as it shattered. I didn't know what to do or say, I just stood there, my hurt and anger crushing me from the inside. I poured my energies into creating a nursery for our expected child. Sandy didn't want to know the sex of the child, wanting it to be a surprise, she said, and I humoured her, going along with it. We had two spare bedrooms, and so I fixed up the smaller of the two, which, coincidently, was next door to the master bedroom. The other room, I fixed up as a den for myself, and Sandy seemed to be happy for me to spend a lot of time in there. It was like now she was pregnant, she didn't want, or need, me around. Over the next months, Sandy got bigger and bigger. She would slap my hand away when I wanted to touch her belly, wanting to feel the baby as it kicked. I admit, though, I did cheat. When Sandy was dead to the world, I would quietly slip over to her as she slept on her back, put my face up against the side of her distended belly and whisper to my child, meaningless one-sided conversations, telling the baby about my day, what had happened, the funny customers I had to deal with, etc. I knew the child couldn't understand what I was whispering, or even hear me, but it always made me feel better afterward. I told the child within my wife's womb that I loved it, and would for the rest of my life. It would never lack for anything, not if I could help it, and one night I watched in wonder as a small foot pressed outward, sliding against the inside of Sandy's belly. I reached over and tried to tickle it. Sandy grunted and moved, and the foot disappeared and I had the strangest feeling that the child giggled as I tickled it. Then came the day when I received a call at work, and Sandy was in a tizz, telling me her waters had broken and I got leave from the understanding female manager to rush home to help her. I must have broken several driving laws that day getting to her. I did a braking slide as I turned into the driveway, and then we were packed and off. *** Sandy gave birth to a healthy eight pound, ten ounce baby girl. She was beautiful! She had a shock of dark brown hair, and I could see tinges of my family's resemblance in her face. Sandy allowed me to pick her up, and I held my new child in my arms, my love for her pouring out of me into her. She gripped my finger in her tiny hand, and when she looked up into my eyes, I fell into deep never-ending love. Sandy wanted to call the child Esther, after some female character in the Bible, but I held out for Sascha. My maternal grandmother, who came from Russian ancestry, was called Sascha, and I wanted to honour her with her name. I had loved that old woman, who treated me with kindness and love during my formative years. Dad always called her, "that Russian witch," but wouldn't elaborate and we hardly ever saw her, but I had got to know her better when I had been dumped on my cousins for that year. I never found out why Dad hated her, and whenever I would mention her name, he'd slap me and go off into a tirade about the wiles and machinations of the Devil. Mom would suffer in silence, wringing her hands and cry. It broke my heart when she did so, seeing the tears run freely down her cheeks, and I'd go up to her, and hold her, just cuddling my Mom. I suffered for that, from Simon's snide comments, and Dad's displeasure for me doing so, him calling me mommy's- boy, and a weakling. Simon used those words plenty after that. He couldn't get enough of them. Strangely, Dad let him. Sascha had died after I had gone to college and I wasn't informed about her death till much later. Mom passed not long after she did, probably from a broken heart and I wasn't informed about that either. Dad made sure of that. So Sandy and I had a massive argument, but I stubbornly held on, until I had won out, wearing Sandy down until, still too tired from the birth to fight any more, she gave in. "Fine!" she snapped, "call my daughter whatever you want! She'll always be Esther to me, and will be her middle name on the birth certificate!" I conceded that point to her, which made her happy, so she turned back to the baby, and decided to kick me out of the room, as it was the baby's feeding time. Whenever Sandy had the baby, it was Esther this, and Esther that. The baby would fuss and wriggle around, as though trying to get away. When I had the baby, I called her by her name, and Sascha would coo and giggle. She would lie still in my arms and when I bottle-fed her, she would hold the bottle in her tiny hands, and we would just gaze into each other's eyes for hours, till finally she drifted off and slept. Sandy tried everything she could think of, trying to keep me away from my daughter, short of charging me with molestation. Sandy would hover over my shoulder when I insisted on changing her and was never far away when I would bath her. But she would refuse to help, or participate. It was like she had developed a bad case of jealousy against my child. One night, I was relaxing with my feet up on the couch, something I knew annoyed Sandy, but I had ceased to care. I no longer went to church with her any more. I just couldn't be bothered. Sandy had refused to talk to me much, only speaking when she absolutely had to. I had often wondered if she might have been suffering from Post Natal Depression, that being quite common, I'd heard. I was holding Sascha, who was sleeping in my arms, when Sandy came storming into the room, and ripped the baby out of my arms, screaming that I was a devil-man, and to get away from her child. I lay there stunned, my sins had returned full-force. Sascha was screaming, Sandy was screaming, and I was yelling at her, trying to get my child off her. Sandy held Sascha in her fist, up above her head, and her eyes glowed with madness. I don't know how long we had been like that, but suddenly, the door burst open, and two police officers were in the room, with their guns out. By that time, I was on my knees pleading with Sandy to give me the baby and while the male police officer cuffed me, his partner, a female, put her hand out, trying to calm my now deranged wife. Sandy still stood rigid, my child clutched in her fist, words of fire and brimstone pouring from her mouth like a vicious ugly flood, her eyes wild and Sascha was now gurgling, and turning blue. The male officer took me outside, and I tried to go back inside, pleading with him now to save my child. He looked shaken and told me to stay put by the cruiser. I nodded, so with a backward glance at me, he went into the house. *** They finally managed to separate my deranged wife from the child by the simple expedient of taking her down physically, and then she was cuffed, and held in the bedroom until the ambulance turned up. The EMT's worked on Sacha first and after a while, pronounced she was fine, although a little traumatised by the excitement. The male officer had uncuffed me, apologising, but I had forgiven him, rubbing my wrists, worried only for Sascha. As soon as they put her in my arms, she calmed miraculously, and starting cooing and giggling. Everyone was amazed and the female officer told me it always took hours for the child to recover from such an ordeal. "That's a special child you have there," she told me. I thought I knew, but didn't know just how much. The upshot of that episode was that Sandy was charged with child endangerment, bought on by undiagnosed post natal depression. She spent a year in a psychiatric hospital, and Sascha and I would visit her every weekend, whenever we could, as often as we could. When we were there with her, Sandy was listless, and she would talk about nothing else except religious gibberish. She would sit by me, and put her hand on my arm, and tell me I needed to be saved, to have the demons driven from my body, and whenever she said the word, 'body', a crazed look would come into her eyes, and she would lick her lips, really creeping me out. I would call a halt to our visit, and with Sandy screaming vindictive religious jargon at me, I would hold Sascha tight, and walk away, something that tore my heart open every time. Sascha would fuss while in her mother's presence, but would calm down as soon as we were on our way home, seemingly happy to out of there. Finally Sandy calmed down enough for home day visits to be arranged, and then later on she was released, with conditions. I refused to have her move back into the house, so a religious organisation took her in and she started her new life. A year after that, she was deemed fit enough to have visitation rights, and another year after that, she had Sascha for weekends. Sandy still went to her new church, a fire and brimstone evangelical organisation called "The Church of the Holy Sepulchre," or something like that. They made a few noises, were in the news a few times, but all-in-all, was just another crazy outfit that no-one really took seriously. As Sascha grew up, she became a real little lady. She developed a fascination for things Russian and I had told her of her Cossack ancestry, so she was more than comfortable with her new interest and I found myself accepting of it. We had fun times together. Every day, when she'd come home from school, she'd put her school bag on the kitchen table, so she could do her homework and with her mouth chewing a sandwich, would tell me about her day. I sat with her at those times, my entire undivided attention on her. We would chat together for hours and I got to know her intimately. My beautiful daughter was a deep and fascinating person and could hold a very intelligent conversation for one so young. When she seven, I was holding her in my arms, and we were just passing time watching a documentary on television, when I happened to glance down at her face. A memory pinged into my mind, now who did she look like, I wondered, because her face suddenly looked familiar. So I extricated myself, telling her I'd be back soon. She just nodded, and continued to watch the box, and didn't even take her eyes of it. I went into my room, and after a few minutes searching, found what I was looking for. It was an old black-and-white photograph of my maternal grandmother, Sascha. She was about seven, same age as my Sascha, and she was laughing, holding onto the hand of my Great-grandfather, who stood sombrely next to her, looking uncomfortable. The resemblance was more than passing, and had nothing to do with family traits. My Sascha looked out at me from that photo. I took the photo out to the living room, got back into my seat, and after we had got comfortable, I showed Sascha the photo. She squealed in happiness, and her eyes went wide. She grabbed me by the arm, and said, "Dad! That's me!" "Actually, hon, I said, that's your maternal great- grandmother, who had the same name as you, who you were named after." She gave me a long look, and touched her hand on my cheek, and softly said, "No, my Mischa, that's me. I was so happy that day when Momma took the photograph. Dadda was really stuffy and he hated to smile, but he was so handsome when he did!" She giggled at a memory not hers, and I felt goosebumps rise on my body, and the hairs on the back of my neck rose. I stared at her in shock, not believing my ears. My grandmother would touch my face just like my baby had just done to me just now, and would call me "My Mischa," just like my daughter did now. "Grandmother?" I whispered. Sascha giggled, and told me in her little girls' voice that she wasn't that old! She gently took the photo from my hands, though, and held it up against her chest. She cuddled back down into the warmth of my body and somewhere along the way, slipped into sleep, a smile on her lips. When Sascha turned nine, her body began developing, her body began to get graceful curves and the bumps on her chest became more pronounced, as her breasts started to develop. She became more grown up, more mature, and suddenly, I no longer had a child as such in my house, but a miniature Child-Woman. I had got her a cellphone for her birthday, and she would spend hours on it, texting her friends, but she was responsible with it, only using it when her chores and homework were done. I was so proud of her. Whenever it came time to go and spend the weekend at her mother's place, Sascha would gripe and fuss, telling me she hated the thought of being there, because her mother was always after her trying to save her soul, and nagging at her to give her heart to Jesus and she told me that the men of the church her mother went to really creeped her out. I sympathised with her, but she knew she didn't really have any choice, as the court had granted her mother weekend visits, and I couldn't do anything yet to change that. So, she, like the trouper she was, packed her weekend bag, and got into the car waiting for me to take her for her "weekend duty," as she called it. When she came back this time, though, Sascha had a strange terrified look in her eyes. She didn't say anything as we drove home, but when we got into the house, she dropped her bag on the floor and threw her arms around me, and burst out crying. I held her, and asked her what was wrong, what had happened. Sniffling, she told me that the Pastor of her Momma's church had told her that she was chosen by God to be a Bride of Christ and that she was expected to marry a man of his choosing. "You won't let that happen to me, will you daddy?" she begged, tears running freely from her eyes. I had blown up into a cold rage at hearing that, and immediately got onto the phone and called up her Child Services officer and informed her of what Sascha told me. She wanted to talk to my girl and I passed her the phone. Tearfully Sascha repeated what she had told me, with some extra details given, like the fact that she was to be taken to their mountain retreat, where they expected the ceremony to take place. She told her Child Services officer that they had set the date for the ceremony to coincide with her next visit to her Mom. She told the lady that she was scared, and didn't want to go to her mom's place anymore, and that she'd run away before that happened. That was so out of character, that I knew it was very serious. She told the lady on the phone that yes, her Mom was in complete agreement with the wedding, and was trying to get her, Sascha, prepared for it. She said that the pastor had told her that she wasn't going to be released until she'd been properly trained, and then she was never going to want to leave the church, because her will would now be the Will of God. A formal investigation was initiated, the police were involved, but everyone, men, women, and children vehemently denied any such practices. The government agencies wanted to do physical tests on the young girls to prove child sex allegations, but were rebuffed by accusations of Human Rights, freedom of speech, and religious freedom violations. It was very messy, and dragged on for months. The media got involved, and scenting a juicy story, began to harass me and Sascha, waylaying her at school, after school, and ringing non-stop for details. The Church of the Holy Sepulchre turned things around, making allegations of libel and other spurious charges, against Sascha and myself, plus token charges against the government agencies, but not really serious ones. It was me and my daughter they targeted. All visits to Sascha's Mom were cancelled indefinitely, and gradually, the furore died down, and at last, it seemed to be forgotten. We got on with our lives, and tried to forget the trauma of the last months. Things stayed that way for quite a while, and then the news came that Sandy had been re-granted her visitation rights. Sascha and I looked at each other in trepidation. Neither of us trusted her mother, or the 'church' she went to. Chapter Three: A Visitation, and a Terrible Trial Although nothing happened for a long time, every time when Sascha went to her mother's place, we both were constantly on edge whenever my girl had to visit there. Part of the agreement with Sandy was that there was to be no contact with any members of the church while Sascha was in the house, and for a few months, the visits were supervised. But Sandy convinced the Welfare services that nothing was going to happen, and so the supervised visits dropped off. Things remained like that, and then came Sascha's eleventh birthday. She had her birthday at home, and didn't want her mother anywhere near her, although Sandy did send her a gold ring, but because it looked suspiciously like a wedding band, it was returned to her Mom, and a warning given to her. Sandy pleaded ignorance that it was a wedding band, and seemed to take the 'mistake' with grace. That night we were both still on a birthday high, and so stayed up past Sascha's bedtime and just spent our time cuddled up under a blanket watching television, until her breathing told me she was asleep. I nudged her, and when she didn't wake, I picked her up and took her to her bedroom, the one that used to be her nursery. I had offered to swap my den and let her have a bigger room, but Sascha turned me down, saying she wanted to be close to her favourite man, and when I asked who that was, giving her a mock blank look, she giggled, and just swatted me with her small hand. I slipped her top off, and slid her jeans down her legs, leaving her in the white bra and panties that had tiny embroidered flowers and butterflies on it that I had bought her for her birthday, marvelling at her exquisitely formed body lying before me. She was my daughter, and I loved her, so I kissed her on the forehead, then I pulled the blankets up around her, turned off the light, and went to bed. I was woken by the sound of a woman's voice that seemed to come from Sascha's room, and for a moment, I thought her mother had snuck into the house to kidnap her. I was on the verge of panic at that point. But there was a quality about the voice that rang a bell in my memory, then I realised that there were two women in there with my daughter! I got quietly up, and as I neared the door of my room, I could clearly hear my grandmother's voice, and she was talking to my mother! But how could that be? My grandmother and mother were passed away, and there was a quality, a timbre to their voices that was stronger, more vibrant than when they were alive. My mother was saying, "But you have to admit, you almost ruined things by recognising you father in that picture, Mother." "Yes, dear," my Grandmother said, "but he had to have new possibilities opened to him. He still has residual beliefs he needs to discard before this girl comes of age." "Is the Trial still going to happen, Mother?" my Mom sighed sadly. "Yes, dear," Sascha, my grandmother replied. "This Trial will strengthen the Bond, or destroy it. He needs to make a decision, and this has to happen to force him to do it." "So, there is no other way?" My grandmother laughed. "You sound just like someone else I knew, and He didn't want to face it either!" Both women chuckled, and my Mom said, "Yes, I remember. Horrible times, those." "Just as horrible still, my lovely child, just different faces." "But," she said, "he's awake, and can hear us. Time for another chat later, but I have to stay, as she needs my strength. I'll see you soon." My mom sighed wistfully, and told her Mother she loved her, and hoped the time is very soon. My grandmother said, "Don't wish for something you can't have, didn't I teach you anything?" My mother laughed a bit sheepishly, and I heard the sound of a kiss, Then Mom said, "Very well, I'll see soon, then." There was quiet for a few minutes, and then my curiosity got the best of me, and I got up, and went into Sascha's room. The door was open, I remembered she liked it have it that way, so that she can hear me breathing, she said. I crept out of my room, and stood in the doorway to my daughter's bedroom. She lay peacefully sleeping, on her back, one arm was positioned over her head, with the other one lying across her middle. The blankets were down around her hips, and as she lay there, I watched her breathe, marvelling at how her breasts moved inside her bra as she inhaled and exhaled. I smiled and returned to my room, and slept soundly. A couple of weeks later, and it was time to take my girl to her Mom's. There was something bugging me, but as hard as I tried, I couldn't shake the feeling, or put my finger on it. Whenever I tried to concentrate, it slipped away, hiding in the recesses of my psyche. All I knew was that the thought of dropping Sascha off to her Mom gave me a cold chill up my spine. There was an oppressive feel to the air when I dropped my daughter off at Sandy's house. I could have sworn I'd heard male voices, but it was a residential area, so of course there would be. I sat in the car, watching her walk up the drive to the front door, then it opened, and Sandy stood there, dressed just in a bathrobe. I thought that was out of character, as it was nearly noon, and Sandy was always dressed at that hour. Sandy's expression was deadpan, and as I started to drive away, there was an almost feral snarl on her face, mixed with a touch of victory. Something twisted in my gut, and it was as if something was in my car, and it was beside itself with glee, and I went cold all over. I tried to tell myself that I was imagining things, but the sense of wrongness screamed at me to go back. With my hands shaking, I pulled down a street, and did a loop back to Sandy's house. There were now cars all over her driveway and lawn, and men I didn't know were going into the house. By this time, I had broken out into a cold sweat, and I just knew without a doubt that my little girl was in serious trouble. I tried to move, to get out of the car, but my body wouldn't move. I willed myself to get going, and slowly, my limbs began obeying orders from my brain. I realised with a sense of dread that I was deathly afraid. Afraid of what I might see, afraid that Sascha and I would be killed, and just feeling a general overwhelming sense of terror. When I had finally made it to the front door, it was slightly ajar, and I could hear male voices crying "Hallelujah!" and "Praise the Lord!" but there was a lustful dark quality to it. They sounded like a pack of hyenas circling in for the kill. I had the irrational vision of these faceless men feeding on my flesh, and I wanted to throw up. I took a deep breath, and pushed through the door, and Sandy's front room was filled men I didn't recognise. They were staring fixedly at the spectacle happening on the floor before them. Sandy was on her hands and knees, naked, and a naked older thickset man was pounding into her from behind, his groin slapping against her pubic area, praising God and preaching a sermon. Sandy was orally serving another man, slobbering on his engorged cock in an obscene display, and then stopping to tell someone I didn't see that as soon as she had been married, it was her turn to service all the males there. She'd done it, and there was nothing wrong with it at all. Then I shifted position, but no-one paid any attention to me. I looked around, and I saw Sascha'a clothes on the floor. They had been ripped from her body, and were just scraps of cloth. Her bra and panties she had put on that morning were barely recognisable. I moved again, and what I saw next filled me with horror, and rage. Sascha was being held down spread-eagled by four men, one on each limb. And a naked obese man was standing over her, slowly stroking his erect member. His eyes were hooded, and there was a flash of cruelty in them I shuddered to see. Sascha's naked body twisted this way and that, trying to break free, to escape, but she was held too securely, by the leering, baying men. The thickset man pounding into my wife, the woman I should say rather, who used to be my wife, gave a roar, and unloaded his cum into the body of the mother of my child. He held still, his hips giving a couple of twitches, and then stood up, and said, "Brothers, now that the benediction has been given to our dutiful sister, it is time for Bride of Christ to receive her husband. Brother, if you so kindly would?" He gestured to the naked child on the floor. Sandy just kept sucking the cock in front of her, the vacant position between her legs filled by another man, who didn't heed the slime dripping from her loins. Then I realised that the reason the terrified child hadn't made a sound, was that Sandy had her hand over her mouth, and was trying to pinch her nostrils closed at the same time. My God, I thought, has she done this before? My child was struggling to breathe, and making sounds of terrified distress. The urge to run from that scene was overpowering, and I kept wanting to pass out from shock. For the first time in years, I prayed for strength, silently calling out to God, to anyone, to help me help my darling daughter. Then suddenly, I went dead calm. It was as if a curtain had been ripped from my mind. My fears and anguish vanished. I began to think clearly, and then anger and rage flooded through me. A female voice in my ear said, "Finally! Now go get your daughter!" I pushed through the ring of men surrounding my wife and daughter, scattering them, and swung a kick at the obese man who was now kneeling between my daughter's thighs. My boot caught him on the jaw, and he flew backwards, his eyes rolling in his head. I did the same to the nearest man holding down my little girl, and then was satisfied to hear a crunch as his jaw broke. He screamed, holding his face, and rolled away. The other three let go of Sascha, and suddenly there was a rush of bodies for the door, which was now wide open. I just kept swinging punches left and right. Every time a face came into range, I hit it. There was yelling and screaming, and then I noticed Sandy was doing most of it. She was still on her knees, her breasts swaying. I stood over the naked body of the girl on the floor, and several men came at me, but I didn't budge. We just stood toe-to-toe, slugging it out. When there was a sudden break in the confusion, I scooped the now unconscious body of my daughter up, and ran for my car. Someone grabbed me from behind, but a sudden backwards elbow jab to the face made him see the error of his ways, and he flew off me. I managed to get Sascha into the back seat of the car, being grateful that this time, I had forgotten to lock the car, and miraculously, the keys were in it. I started it up, and the tyres squealed and smoked when I sped away from there. *** I didn't even think about going to a hospital, or a police station. My girl was out cold in the back seat of my car, and she was naked. I just wanted to get her home, where I knew she'd be safe. A part of my brain warned me that it was likely she'd want to shower as soon as she regained consciousness, but I couldn't let her do that. If any of the men had put their DNA on her, the cops would want it. When we finally got home, I found we'd picked up a tail. It was a police cruiser, and I was amazed and relieved when it turned out to be the same two officers who'd responded to my home earlier. I ran over to their car, and tripped over myself trying to tell them what had happened. Everything was a blur after that. There was an ambulance, several more police cars, a CSI unit, and too many people wandering in and out to name. I gave my statement over and over again, fresh details emerging under questioning, and Sascha was taken away to hospital when the CSI's had done their work. It turned out that my clever daughter had gathered up her shredded clothes before passing out, and held onto them. I hadn't even noticed that, so they were going to be tested for DNA evidence. It turned out that they did find DNA evidence, quite a lot, actually. The men who'd held her down had drooled on her, and seminal fluid was found on her shredded panties, put there by someone who'd used them to masturbate with. Sandy's living room floor was awash with semen stains, and they had quite a few suspects to match the samples up with. When the police and State troopers went out to the compound where the Pastor and his flock had holed up, a warrant got them onto the property, and eight men were arrested with contusions on their faces from the melee in Sandy's home. The man with the broken jaw was found hiding in a storage shed, covered up with a plastic tarp. Many arrests were made that day, but either through fear, or loyalty to their menfolk, none of the women, or young girls, made a statement to the law enforcement officers that flooded the place. When the police did a search of the property, they found much video evidence of child sex practices that were going on there, and at the 'church'. An officer found a video camera in a trash bin, that had footage of Sascha's ordeal, and that became a prime piece of evidence. The thing that saddened me the most, I think, about the whole sorry ordeal was that Sandy had tipped over the line into full insanity. She spent the rest of her days in a padded room, with a straightjacket on, screaming abuse and trying to get anyone within range to have sex with her. *** A year later, and Sascha's nightmares finally came to an end. I had heard her crying in her room, and it was around three in the morning. I got out of bed, and I went in to her bedroom, and found she was sitting up holding her knees. I asked her if she had had another nightmare, and she told me no, she was crying for her Mom. When I asked her why, she said, "Because Mom's dead, Daddy. She came to say goodbye, and Grandmother Sascha was with her. They're going to help her and try to fix her up. She's very sad, and she told me to tell you that I'm not going to be having bad dreams anymore, and that Momma is very sorry for what she did to you." My darling took a deep breath. "She was raped as a child, did you know that? Her daddy was very mean to her. He was a minister of a church, and he used to beat her and rape her almost every day." She hung her head, and cried for her Mom, deep wracking sobs, and I sat there and held her, my sadness for my poor wife breaking my heart. END This is the end of another story. Thank you for reading it, and if you want to send me feedback about it, please do, at ptotrcw@gmail.com Your friend, Timberwolf. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * It's okay to *READ* stories about unprotected sex with others outside a monogamous relationship. But it isn't okay to *HAVE* unprotected sex with people other than a trusted partner. 4-million people around the world contract HIV every year. You only have one body per lifetime, so take good care of it! * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Kristen's collection - Directory 75