("`-''-/").___..--''"`-._ `6_ 6 ) `-. ( ).`-.__.`) (_Y_.)' ._ ) `._ `. ``-..-' _..`--'_..-_/ /--'_.' ,' (((' (((-((('' (((( K R I S T E N' S C O L L E C T I O N _________________________________________ WARNING! This text file contains sexually explicit material. If you do not wish to read this type of literature, or you are under age, PLEASE DELETE THIS FILE NOW!!!! _________________________________________ Scroll down to view text -------------------------------------------------------- This work is copyrighted to the author © 2012. Please don't remove the author information or make any changes to this story. All rights reserved. Thank you for your consideration. -------------------------------------------------------- The Babysitter; the Year I Became a Rapist. by Wolf359loki (address withheld) *** A story of a guilt-ridden young man meeting his victim years later. (mf-teens, youths, nc, rp, 1st) *** When I was 14 a new family moved in next door to us. It was a single mother and her daughter. Mom was sort of this trampy type. Smoked way to much weed and drank a lot. After a few weeks she asked my parents if it would be ok for be to baby sit. Having done lots of this in the area, it wasn’t a big deal. After a short time I was the regular babysitter and the daughter and I became friends. The daughter was about 9 when I met her and sort of lonely. I can only imagine what her life was like growing up. The babysitting gigs got longer and longer and it seemed like mom had checked out. She was out all night most of the time and when she was home she was drunk or stoned. Her mom was a total tramp and would stay out all night or come home at 4am with some DBag she picked up at a bar. She even gave me a Blow Job once instead of paying me for babysitting. I was a very normal kid and my parents were always happy with me. I got good grades, had friends and even the occasional girlfriend. I had never been in any real trouble and was very responsible for someone my age. At first the time I spent there was normal and I help with chores around the place when mom was away. Made lunch and breakfast, helped with homework and did what normal babysitters did. We played games and talked and watched TV. This was before every kid on earth had cell phones or computers. She was a very nice girl and we got to be very close. After a year or so things started to change and I was not sure what to do. She wanted to always be close to me. Always wanted to play games that included touching or fighting. At the time I wasn’t not sure what was going on, but looking back now I could see that she was becoming interested in boys. It was at this time again looking back that I was turning from a normal kid into a rapist. This was and is the time in my life filled with the most guilt and shame that I can imagine. I look back on this time with fear and loathing. I should have told someone of this time sooner, I should have maybe been punished. I am telling you this now so I can move forward as life can be stranger than fiction at times. She was very cute and developed. It started with her always wanted to play these games with me that involved tickling her or rough housing or she always wanted to sit on my lap when we were watching TV, especially when her single slutty mom was away. I was wondering at the time if it was just because she was lonely. I was nice, but I am sure she missed her mom. This one evening we were playing and she was getting me to play rough and goof off. She asked me if she could see my cock. I said no at first, but she said she really wanted to see one. She begged me and said she would never tell. She had this way of pouting at me that made me want to please her. I gave in and said only if I could see hers after. So I lay on the bed and pulled my sweats down (I wore them because when we played I got a hard on lots). She was very interested and asked why it was hard. I said it’s because she was a girl and it was natural for it to get hard when a girl wanted to see it. I told her she could touch it after a few minutes. She did. She sort of touched it very lightly at first and said it was very warm. She ran her hand all over it, but not in a sexual way, more in an examining it way. After a while I asked to see her and she puller hers down too. I sort of joked that there was not much to see with her legs together. She spread them wide and lay back on the bed. She had very light pubic hair and I could see she was excited too. I asked her why it looked wet. She giggled and said it got that way a lot when we played. I just about laughed. She said I could touch it too if I wanted. I ran my fingers over it very lightly, pretending not to know what I was doing. I touched her where her pubic hair were growing and then down the side. I could see her looking at me and smiling. I ran my fingers a bit harder up her slit and her lips opened. She laughed but didn't stop me. I got to her tiny clit and rubbed it. I asked her what it was and how it felt. She started to mover her hips and said it felt nice. I had to stop myself or I was going to do something I didn’t want to do. After that our "playing" went to a new level. She would sit on my lap like before but she would wiggle so I got a boner that she could feel. She would rub herself in it like it was just a game. She would grope me through my sweats and put her hand down my pants. She had no idea what she was playing with or what I wanted to do. I did nothing for a few months. Anyway sometimes at night I would tuck the little girl in bed and she would ask me to lay with her until she went to sleep. After playing with her I would sometimes be very excited and I would wait till she was sleeping and lift her nightly to peek at her naked little pussy. I would even touch it at times to see what it felt like. I was always ashamed. She wanted to play "house" and asked me to sleep with her at night more because her mom was away a lot. I was 17 and making this kid breakfast and sending her to school on more days then her mom did. It was very messed up. I grew bolder at night when she was asleep. I would often rub my cock up and down her ass when she slept and jack off in bed with her. I would put her hand on my cock and pretend she was jacking me off. I felt so guilty but I couldn't stop myself. She was so affectionate to me that I figured she didn't know what I did at night. One night I we had some fun playing and she even wanted to play with my cock some more and I let her. I asked her if she wanted to give it a kiss because she like playing with it so much. I just about came when she kissed the head. All this time that she played I forced myself not to teach her how to jack me off, but just let her play in her way. She never really stroked it but more like picked it up and squeezed the head or played with my balls. To me she seemed innocent and not playing in a sexual way. That was all I could take. That night she asked to sleep with me again and I was so horny. I couldn’t wait for her to go to sleep. When she was I pulled off my sweats and she was laying with her back to me. I got up close behind her and stuck my cock between her legs, in the gap between her pussy and her thighs. I sort of fucked that gap for a while. I could feel the heat coming from her little crouch and I could sometime feel the lips rubbing the top of my cock. My cock would sort of flex and I could feel the tip touch her cherry hole. It felt so good to have the head wrapped up by her young lips that I stared to push the tip deeper. I was going very slow and feeling the pounding of blood in my cock. I had to hold back or I would just ram it in, but I didn’t want to wake her or hurt her. Her pussy was very wet and it make my cock all slick. I kept pushing and pulling my cock in and out with just the head spreading her cherry wider and wider. I soon felt a little tear and the head just popped into her new opening. I stopped thinking she would wake up from the pain, but she slept on. I got braver now; I was behind her so I move her hips up so I could see where my cock was. Her young pussy was stretched over the shaft now and I began to slowly fuck her deeper. Every few minutes I was deeper and deeper inside of her. Her ass and pussy looked so small compared to me. I was biting my lips to keep from moaning. I could hear her breathing in and out with each stroke of my cock and the sound of her wetness was all I could take. I pushed it as deep as I could and I felt my balls tingle and I came inside of her. There was a lot of cum shooting into her and I shook all over with excitement. The cum dripped out of her around my cock and make her all wet and sticky. I continued to fuck her slowly until every drop was drained from my cock into that little girl. Even when I was done I kept my cock in her and held her close to me until I went limp. After that night in the morning she was sort of concerned and I asked her what was wrong. She said she thinks she may have had her first period and asked what she should do. I was sort of startled and said she should maybe take a bath. She did and she said she felt way better. I never fucked her again after that and I stopped our special play. I told her it was now that she had her period (might as well use that) she was becoming a women and it may not be the best for us to play like that anymore. She seemed hurt for a while, but we talked and she understood. I helped out for another year but then they moved away. I have never done anything like this since. I have had a few relationships that were normal I guess. I have never even been attracted to young girl porn. I have a good job and a career. So 11 years go by and I never see her again. One day I am walking through a mall when I ran into her she was 24 or so and a very happy girl. Finished University and she said she always remembered how nice I was to her. That was all; she took my number and calls once in a while but is very busy with work. Her mom is still a drunken slut, lol. So this week she calls me up and wants to hang out on Friday. I say sure and we went out as friends. We had dinner and talked and somewhere along the night it went from friends to a first date. We even ended the night with a kiss. She asked me what I was doing for on Saturday and she wanted to go out again. I asked as friend or a date, she said a date for sure. Things went very well. On a scale of 1 to 10 of first dates (that don't end is sex of course) it was an 8. She was very open and fun. I am pretty sure it is because we have a history of sorts. We are seeing each other later in the week as she has work things this week. I was surprised at a few things she said or at least hinted at. She sort of talked about me helping her with homework. She had this little smirk that told me it was more than the homework but I didn't pry and let her feel all coy and giggly about the inside joke. After a few dates we had the chance to talk of old times. We had a few drinks and I had cooked dinner and we had a nice romantic night. We started to kiss and touch on the couch. It all seemed very familiar. I was worried about how to approach the subject of what she recalls and doesn’t. So when she dropped her hand onto my lap I joked with her if she wanted to see my cock again. She snorted a big laugh and we both laughed a lot. She said she wondered when I was going to bring that up. We talked about it and she said she felt bad because I was put in such and awkward position. She was so happy that it was me, but still now knows how bad it could have been if anyone had caught us. I didn’t tell her what I had done. I wonder if she remembers what I did. I wonder if she really was asleep through the whole thing. I think at the time I was in love with her in some strange way. I can see myself falling in love again. Was I just a kid? Does it matter now? Can I rid myself of this guilt? END ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ This story was written as an adult fantasy. The author does not condone the described behavior in real life in anyway shape or form. Anyone tempted to act out any of the scenarios in this story; should seriously consider seeking professional help. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Kristen's collection - Directory 73