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(MF-teens, nc, inc, preg) *** Author Note: To record such a story is to seem insensitive to morals and maybe look as though I condone such behavior. However, how I feel on the subject isn't important, but rather I would like to give nothing more than a story. This is a true story in which I came across the evening that my friend and I sat out on a roof with an open breeze and a can of ale. Any reader must know that I am not a writer, so be gentle with my errors. *** Blues echoed in the background filling the rooms with a calming effect. I wasn't comfortable with all the new faces, but my girlfriend insisted I come over and help take up liberated space in her new home. After a while of enough bullshit, I found a peacefulness out on her back porch. I could smell the sweetness of a bulky orange tree full of over ripe fruit. I walked over to the tree, crunching leaves beneath my ever step, and chose a robust fragrant orange. As I turned in the darkness I heard a voice. Andrew sat on the roof over the porch. It startled me at first. "What the hell are you doing up there?" My voice was obviously shaking from the cool air. "Nothing. Just trying to get away from everyone. I just don't fit in here." There was a silence. I could hear the crickets chirping and decided to calculate the temperature by listening to how many chirps in one minute then added 29 and came up with it being about 50 degrees. For a while we didn't say anything else to one another. I stood and ate my orange slinging the peelings over the fence. "Well, I guess I will rejoin the lovely people she invited over, perhaps I can amuse myself and watch TV or something. Wanna come in?" "Naaaa. The sky is clear enough to frame out the big dipper. Why don't you grab a beer and come up on the roof?" "Ok, be right back." He sounded strange. Lost almost. Now the thing about Andrew, was that he was the father of my girlfriends baby. Some freak sexual thing two years ago and she chose to have it. He was a lot older than Mary. And Mary by no means loved him. Her excuse for not being able to love him is that he has a small dick. Such a lame excuse. Never the less Andrew continued to carry a torch for her. He made time to take the baby off her hands, and contributed to all aspects of raising her. He was there when she was born and was going be there till the end, or so that's how he saw it. Mary used him more than she intended and he knew it and somehow it never bothered him. He was hitting almost 60 and Mary had just turned 40. Old blues hippies I called them. Andrew was a guitarist holding out to still make it in the music world. Making money here and there at old timers night clubs. He was a dead look alike of Carlos Santana. Not an ugly man but no gem either. Mary is a gorgeous, supple, sensual dirty blonde. She was the kind of woman not only men are attracted to but women approached her as well. She had a spiritual aura that pulled you in and left who you were behind. Her eyes were a light envious green. She could catch you with a glance. "So how do you expect a fat chick like me to climb on the roof without falling and bouncing through a window?" I laughed out words while climbing up the latter. "Oh stop it and get up here!" As I reached the top I suddenly was scared that he and I would end up crashing to our death in Mary's backyard crushing the orange tree to boot. But we didn't. We sat in silence for a long while till he asked me a question. One I wasn't ready for. "So Ana, have you ever fallen in love? The kind of love that tears your heart to a million pieces? " "Nope. Can't say I have. I have loved only a couple people in my life but it never worked out the way I guess I needed it to, so I settle with good friends and hope that someday, My prince will come along," I sang to him as I answered. "I loved once in my life," he said gazing out into the sparkling darkness. "Mary?" "No. Someone else long ago. I loved her with all my everything and she loved me the same." "So what happened?" I wasn't sure I wanted the answer to this, but it was entirely too late to go back now. "She left me." Silence. We sat there in the deadest silence I have ever felt. Just sat there. Then without warning he began to tell me a tale I wasn't sure I wanted to hear. But I listened without interrupting. "My mother as beautiful as she was, was a bit of a lover of all men. She liked to party. She would spend a lot of time in the bars when her husband was working on the road. She had a long affair with an Indian dude. He was a Cherokee Indian. Big man, or so I was told. I was told she never loved him but he had money and loved my mother and fancied taking her out on the town. Back then a loose woman was bad news, and often exiled from locals. She dressed different than women did back then too. I have pictures of her in tight pants with the top button undone always, and a short white linen shirt. Her hair was a soft deep black, long past her hips. She had dark eyes, almost black that I am sure caught men's eyes. Even the pictures catch my eyes every time. And you know I learned later she hated shoes and bras. And you know, my mother had very ample breasts to say the least." "You talk as though you never knew her personally Andrew." "I didn't. She muted my very soul the day she gave me away. She got pregnant from that Indian guy, and didn't want me. She couldn't raise a half breed in a small town. When I was about 6 days old she turned me over to my grandmother. The man that should of been my father, the man she was married to, didn't want me either." As his story went on I listened to every harsh detail of his life. His grandmother tried to do right by him, or so he thought in some twisted way, but his grandfather couldn't get over the fact that he had Indian in him which didn't make much sense since they were immigrants from Mexico. "Can you record all this Ana?" He stopped mid sentence to ask me this. "I really am not much of a writer," I told him. "Just write what I tell you." "Sure Andrew," regretting agreeing to this. "So I never knew my mother. When I was about 2 she got pregnant again by another man. Not her husband. Again he said get rid of it. Back then abortions were hard to come by. So she carried the baby to full term and once again handed the bundle in pink to my grandmother. I was never told she was my sister. We didn't even know we were related till we were older. I learned at an early age not to ask questions, they always answered with a lit cigarette, or a back hand to my face." "What was her name?" asking only when a pause occurred. "Tina." As the party below continued we sat under the stars on the frail roof, and I listened. He continued with horror stories of abuse both towards Tina and himself. They shared a common bond. They were both throw away kids with no stable space. "As we grew older we did everything together. We went to school together, played together, ate our jelly sandwiches together, and cried together, and still it never occurred to us that we were brother and sister. There were so many kids in and out of the house always. My family was full of secrets. Years later I learned my mother was a product of my grandfather's daughter and himself. But my grandmother never said a word, and she knew." I suddenly was so lost. A family of horrible secrets. Incest and sexual abuse. Torture and insanity. I wrapped my coat tighter around me trying to get warmer. I didn't want to hear this at all. Andrew had been my friend for years, and all along I thought he had it together. He seemed so wise, so in tuned with life and nature, and all along he was more broken than I ever was. "Tina and I slept together all those childhood years. When I came to be about 17, I realized things about me were changing. I had slept with her for years. She was becoming a woman. No one ever said, don't sleep together anymore, you two are getting too old for this. And since school wasn't the thing for me I never went past the 6th grade and chose to work the fields, so I didn't learn about sex and all that. I remember... Ana, this isn't too much for you is it? I mean, I just want this written down and don't want to make you uncomfortable. I don't trust anyone else." "I can handle it Andrew. I can handle it." I was saddened for him. Seriously saddened. I was also aroused, knowing what was coming. "I remember one night getting in bed. I had erections all the time but never one in bed with her, or one that I was aware of. She was asleep. Silently I slipped my hands under the covers and pulled my sex out slowly. It was wet just on the tip. I felt the pulsating deep within. I began stroking it like so many times before in the deep corn fields in the bright sunlight. Pulling at it and moving closer towards her. She moaned for me to move over. But I didn't, I keep stroking it. "Then I whispered for her to wakeup. She didn't. I whispered again. She turned over slowly. I remember asking her to touch it. She just lay there. No expression. Saying nothing. I pulled the covers off and kneeling in front of her, to her side, pulling and stroking my cock. "I watched her eyes as they darted across the room avoiding mine. I jerked off hard that night ejaculating on her face and in our bed. "She never said a word and never talked about it afterwards. "I wanted her. I was innocent and pure then. "Several months later I went to bed early so I could masturbate in privacy. I lay back against the old framed head board in darkness, pulling my sex out and stroking. Tina walked in on me. "She just stood there and watched me. Stood at the end of the bed. No smile, no expression. After a while of these episodes on many occasions, I had to talk to her about how I felt. We had grown apart a little since she went to school and I didn't. She never brought friends home and no one ever called for her. I always wondered how she kept her home life so separate from her life outside. I never had anyone so it was easy for me." "Did you two ever make love Andrew?" I had to know, I am not sure why, I just had to know. I find my brothers not sexually attractive in the slightest just because I know they are my brothers, and felt a little sickened by this story and a little turned on. "Yes. We did. Five months before my 18th birthday I decided I was legally able to leave on my own and had saved enough money to get out of this hell hole, I took her." "What do you mean 'you took her'?" I was nervous. "And by the way, does Mary know all this about you?" "She only knows bits and pieces. I raped her. She came home late one night, and I waited in our bed. She undressed put her nightgown on and crawled in bed next to me. I was aroused instantaneously. I turned over and pulled her night gown up. For what seemed like a long time I studied her body. She was so perfect. "She struggled only a little bit as I tore her nightgown off, but never screamed. I remember smelling her. Like an animal I pulled her panties to the side and gorged her with my sex. I had to take her that way. I knew in my heart she was my sister, but suppressed it in every way. I moved violently against her frail frame. I wanted her to taste the riches of both our cum, but she refused. "Some of it is a blur, but I remember turning her over and entering her from behind. I watched her tiny knuckles turn white as she grabbed the steel frame. Sounds harsh, but taking her that way made me feel like she was mine. I bit hard into her left shoulder as I came. I drew blood. "The next day she didn't say a word. Never asked why. It wasn't till years later I learned my grandfather was raping her for years. She was just expecting that someday, I too would take her. She just thought it would be sooner than it was. "I left that summer. Rented a small apartment in Stockton out close to the river. I played guitar in the evenings and worked my days away. I missed her terribly. But she came to me one night in the fall that year. She and I saw each other every day. We made passionate love in every way you could think of. She began talking to me again like when were children. We shared our love for art and poetry. This went on for about 3 years. "Finally when I was 21 and her 19, she moved in with me. We never had to marry because our last name was that of my grandfathers. We suspected we were related in some way, maybe cousins. I always knew, in some weird way I knew. We looked nothing alike, as her father was white and mine Indian. We were never told who our mother or mothers were, so we suspected we were distant cousins. "We had left the past and the hurt behind, we never looked back, never visited the grand folks, and didn't want to. They didn't know we were living together till the grandfather died, when I was 35. We had virtually no contact with any of them at all. But my Aunt showed up on our door step one day to let us know of his passing, and realized Tina and I were living together, and had a child together." "You have another child Andrew?" I was almost sick in some odd way. "Yes, she lives in LA. But she has no idea who I am. Her mother has told her I am dead, I don't blame her. I have pictures of her, since she was little and recent ones Tina has sent to me." "So what did the Aunt tell you?" This was like a novel, a bad novel I thought to myself. "She was appalled. I explained that we were told we weren't related as kids, and we fell in love, what's the problem. Tina walked in just then and my Aunt began telling her she was a whore no good for nothing kind of thing. I calmed everyone down, and we began to talk. I found out that we had the same mother, different fathers. "I also found out we had like 6 other brothers that my mother kept. We then found out about our mother being a product of incest. We all cried that day. Things were never the same between Tina and I. We had purchased a house in Bakersfield by then, and I had my own business landscaping. She was a nurse in a ICU department in a big hospital. And we had this beautiful little girl. It was a fairy tale in its own. Two cars, money in the bank. I loved her more than life itself. She was my soul mate. I could have lived the rest of my life with that secret. But it fucked Tina up in the harshest way. "Our little girl too was the product of incest and Tina felt she needed to get away from me. Raise her under a different name and move further south where we had no family to invade their life. So, what do you think of love now? What do you think of who I am?" I paused and swallowed. I could hear Mary's laugh. I could hear the blues whaling away. I could feel the frost covering Mary's lawn like a blanket of harshness. It fit the feeling. "Well Andrew, I don't know what I feel, I don't think it matters as it is your life not mine. I have passed the boundaries of incest as a child, but broke the pattern with my own kids, so much I have only had two partners my whole life. Sex is scary for me. I have learned since, that it can be enjoyable, as love can be too, but I have never loved my siblings in this way. But I understand you didn't find out till later." I sighed a heavy sigh and lit another cigarette one of twenty I smoked that night up there in the chaffing coldness. He sighed to almost regretting he ever told me any of this. I sensed it. I reminded him that I would never tell anyone. He smiled. His whole life had been a struggle to get through it all. And all those beautiful songs he wrote, all the heart wrenching lyrics had been for her, Tina. "I still love her Ana. We knew in our hearts we were brother and sister. I think we knew since she arrived that summer day. I knew the day I took her in that garage bedroom of ours. My grandmother knew, but she let it all happen. I guess that era in the 50's, people just didn't disclose dirty laundry. My Aunts and uncles were all moved out by the time I arrived, they left at early ages to get away from the abuse. Why my mother ever gave me to them knowing who they were is beyond me, and to give a girl is worse. I hate her you know? And still she is alive." "Where is she now?" "She lives in an old folks home in Merced. You know the man that should have been my father, he just died. I went to see him shortly before he died. He said he was sorry for everything that happened to me, he could of stopped all of it. He also said he loved me. That angered me, since he never knew me." "You know this is one harsh story. And still there are details that I am not aware of huh?" "Yeah. But I just wanted you to know about my first love. You asked me once about my first love and if you remember I told you it was a long story. I believe it was shortly before you were gonna meet some guy in San Francisco. Right?" "Oh yeah. I remember." Again we sat in a silence. There was a breeze now and the coldness was lifted. People were laughing and carrying on in the distance. We opened our ale at the same time and guzzled them down. Quietly. We must of sat there for about an hour, till he broke the silence and told he had to go it was time, he was getting too old for late nights in the cold like this. "Thanks for listening. Are you okay?" "Yeah, but I worry about Morgan." Morgan is Mary's and Andrew's baby. "Never worry about her. She will know this stuff when it is time, when she is older." "I mean about you sexually abusing her, I mean, not that you have but it crossed my mind a few times." "Never worry about that Ana, that will never happen. I have no desire for anyone sexually and furthermore, never for my daughter, seriously. I was totally open with you, if I thought I had a problem in that area, I wouldn't have told you. And Mary knows most of this, but without details. Look I really gotta go... call me this week, and I will set you up that tower, and thanks. Email me this... ok?" "Yes Andrew, will do." I sat there for some time. Looking for the stars that were being covered by thick clouds. I wondered why people have no heart. About little kids that have to live through nightmares like these only to be set up for pain the rest of their life. I climbed down from the roof that night and slipped out the side gate and went home. I couldn't get home quick enough. I watched my kids sleep for a few minutes and tucked them in, thank god they will never know this kind of life, thank god they will be normal. And I realized how important my job was to keep them safe from people that could hurt them, and they will never know, I said to myself, and they will never know. 1998- For Him. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ This story was written as an adult fantasy. The author does not condone the described behavior in real life. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Kristen's collection - Directory 68