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(f-teen/bb, ped, reluc, mast, oral) *** Author Note: As this is a continuing story, it is suggested that the earlier parts be read first. Thanks to all of the readers who responded and encouraged me to keep writing! The following is a work of fantasy; the author does not condone the activities described. *** Well, I was a mess all the next week. Even my mother noticed my distracted demeanor, and asked me several times if anything was wrong. How could I tell her? How could I tell her that I had masturbated my two babysitting charges, and that I had loved it? There was no getting around it -- stroking and fondling those little boys' cocks had got me turned on more than anything I had ever done before. On the other hand, I felt ashamed about being hot for two preteen boys. I felt guilty about what I had done, and was deathly afraid that I would be found out. My days were spent worrying about what would happen to me if I were caught and vowing to never go back there again; yet every night found me feverishly stroking my pussy under the covers while fantasizing about letting Keith and Jason do to me the things they claimed Jackie had let them do to her. And every night, I would climax powerfully to the same scenario: one of the boys' hard little cocks sliding into my willing mouth. After a few days, seeing that the police had not shown up at my door, I began to worry a little less about being caught. Still, I was resolved to discontinue babysitting for the boys. If Mrs. Bannister called, I would think of some reason that I couldn't do it any more. But as it turned out, she didn't call. Instead, I was taken by surprise while walking home from school several days later. There, coming right toward me, were Kitty and her two boys! I was mortified, but it was too late to run and hide. "Oh, Vanessa, hi, I'd been meaning to call you, but I've been so busy," Kitty called out as they approached me. I was extremely nervous, afraid to even glance at Jason and Keith as they stood quietly behind their mother. "The boys have been raving about you all week." I looked for a sign of irony, some hint of accusation, but found none in her voice or expression. "I can't tell you how grateful I am that you hit it off so well with them. It really takes a load off my mind. I was worried sick about finding someone who could replace Jackie." I couldn't speak; I just stood there, dumbly. Kitty continued, "I was really hoping you'd be able to sit again for them this Saturday night. Would you be able to do it? It would help me out so much." Before I could reply, she added, "And listen, I know it's more work with two kids. I've thought about it, and I'd like to pay you double your usual rate. Can you do it?" she asked again. I stole a quick look at the boys, who stood silently with expressions of eager anticipation on their faces. Despite my resolve, I just couldn't bring myself to say no in front of them. And then there was the prospect of making twice my usual money. "Um, okay, I guess I can do it," I heard myself mumble. I felt a queasy tug in the pit of my stomach. "Yay!!" the boys chorused. "Oh, great! I really appreciate it, Vanessa! I have a lateish meeting that night, can you come at 9 o'clock? It'll be easy, you'll just have to put the boys to bed." "Yes, okay..." "Okay, see you then. And thanks again," Kitty said before they all walked off together. I continued numbly to my house. "Okay, I'm going there, but this time I'm going to lay down the law," I said out loud to myself, trying to convince myself of my own words. Well, at least the boys had proved that they could keep their mouths shut. They had barely spoken or looked at me during my interchange with Kitty, who still seemed clueless about what had happened. That was some consolation. By the time Saturday evening arrived, I was a nervous wreck. I had rehearsed a speech telling the boys that there would be no more sex play with them, and I kept going over it in my mind. But for some reason, I couldn't stop obsessing about what to wear. What does it matter, I told myself, it's just a babysitting job. You're going to go over there, put the boys to bed, and that will be that. But still, I just couldn't decide on clothes. Shorts and a tank top – too revealing. Sweatpants and a slouchy top – too dumpy, and the weather was too hot anyway. I tried on about six outfits before finally settling on a demure white button-down blouse and a grey skirt that went to just above the knee. Pretty, but professional, I thought as I looked in the mirror. At the last minute, I put on just a bit of makeup. This is crazy, I thought, you're not going out on a date! But I put on the makeup anyway, convincing myself that it wouldn't hurt to look good, it wasn't for the boys, really, it was just good practice for when I did go out on dates. Yeah, right, like that was likely to happen anytime soon! When I arrived at their house, the boys were already in their pajamas. They looked so cute! My eyes involuntarily fastened on the fly in the front of Jason's loose-fitting summer pj's, which hung open slightly. I quickly averted my gaze and looked over at Keith, whose shorty-pajamas were getting a little small. The thin material clung to him, and I couldn't help but notice his little penis clearly outlined through his shorts. ". . . and as soon as they've brushed their teeth, they should go straight to bed." As Kitty's voice made its way into my consciousness, I snapped back to reality. I managed to maintain a conversation with her until she left a few minutes later. "We're really glad you could come back," Jason said after their mother left. "Wow, you look really nice," he added, looking me up and down appreciatively. "Yes, you look beautiful," Keith added. Though I felt myself blush in response to their compliments and appreciative looks, I tried to ignore the feelings rising up in me. I needed to stay in control tonight. "All right, time for bed now," I said in the most authoritative voice I could muster. "Go brush your teeth." The boys obediently did as I asked, and I followed them to their room. "Okay, get in bed, time for lights out," I said, standing in the doorway. "Hey, wait a minute! Don't we get a story?" Keith protested. "Yeah, come on, you read us a story last time!" Jason chimed in. I hesitated. "Well, okay, I'll read you one story." This was probably the moment for my little speech, but I couldn't bring myself to start in just then. I was dreading their reaction to it anyway, so I decided to put it off. Better to wait and see if it's necessary, I told myself. They picked out a book and gave it to me, and I sat down in a chair. "No, read to us like you did before, on the bed," Jason insisted. Well, I thought, I guess there's no harm in that. I'll just stop them if they try any funny business. I sat between them on Keith's bed. Having both of them snuggled up next to me made it hard for me to maintain my composure, but they kept their hands to themselves as I read to them. "Okay, now lights out, boys," I said firmly. "But aren't you going to give us a tingle first?" Keith asked imploringly. Well, there was no putting it off any further. I took a deep breath. "No, I – I can't do that any more." God, I was so nervous! I could barely keep my voice steady. The boys looked at me in disbelief, crestfallen. There was a moment of shocked silence. "I-I'm sorry," I said. That part was not in my rehearsed speech. I couldn't even remember what I had planned to say next. "But why?" Jason whined. "What happened?" "Nothing 'happened,' Jason," I said. "I just don't think it's a good idea." "But we kept it a secret, like you said! We were really good when you met us with mommy, weren't we?" "Yes, you were very good," I allowed, though I felt uncomfortable acknowledging our mutual deception. "Then don't you trust us?" Jason continued. "Yes, I trust you, it's not that," I replied. "Then why not? Didn't you like giving us tingles?" "No, that's not it either," I said. "I just don't--" "See, I told you she liked it!" Jason said, turning to his brother. I opened my mouth to protest, but couldn't think of anything to say. I mean, I hadn't exactly admitted to them that I had enjoyed playing with their cocks, but it seemed pointless to quibble about it now. "I don't get it," Jason continued, puzzled. If you liked it, and we liked it, then why won't you do it?" He looked at me like he was trying to understand some strange inexplicable behavior. For the life of me, I couldn't think of any of the arguments I had marshaled so carefully. "It's... I don't know, it's just wrong," was all I could manage. "But why?" I let out a long, deep breath. "It's just that, well, you're so young, and I don't want to hurt you..." "But you didn't hurt us!" Keith blurted out. "We liked it! It was fun, and it felt really, really good. What's wrong with that?" "I don't know, it's just..." I trailed off. I was having trouble thinking clearly. I began again, "I mean, I'm supposed to be your babysitter, and babysitters don't do that, I mean, at least I've never done anything like that before..." "But you did it so good!" Jason said. "Really?" I couldn't help asking. "Oh yeah!" came the boy's animated reply. "It felt so good the way you touched us, you gave us such good tingles, we really wanted you to do it again tonight!" "Yes, pleeeze, do it again, it felt so good the way you did it," Keith pleaded. "I-I don't know," I wavered. "Besides, it's really not fair if you don't," added Jason. "After last time, we thought for sure you would give us tingles again tonight. Please, do it again just this once? After that, if you don't want to, you don't ever have to do it again, we won't bother you about it." Keith nodded in agreement. As had happened before, somehow the boys' request now seemed quite reasonable. It was understandable that they would be expecting me to do them again, and it did seem unfair not to give them what they had been so looking forward to. I looked at the two cute boys in their pj's and remembered how good it felt to have their hard little cocks in my hand, the feel of Jason's wispy pubic hair, Keith's hairless little balls so warm against my palm, the thrill of bringing them both to orgasm. I felt the most overpowering desire to touch them again. Well, maybe just this once, I thought to myself. "Okay, just this one time," I sighed. As if from a distance, I watched as my arms reached down to the front of the boys' pajama bottoms, one hand resting on each boy's crotch as they reclined beside me, my fingers feeling for their little cocks through the thin material of their pajamas. Oh, how badly I had wanted to do this again! My whole body began to buzz, my heart was beating madly, and I felt as though enveloped in a warm cocoon. "Mmm, oh, yes, Vanessa!" The boys squirmed with pleasure at my touch. As I felt their members begin to stiffen, my body seemed to float upwards in a wash of sensation. I slipped my fingers under the waistband of the boys' pajamas, sliding downward until I held a warm, rising penis in each hand. Slowly and gently, I wrapped my fingers around their erections, reveling in the feeling of their hot flesh against my own. Yes, this was the pleasure I had been craving all week, to feel those hot boyish cocks in my hands again! And now I wanted to see their little hardons again; I wanted them naked. "Take off your pajamas," I said breathlessly. The boys quickly complied, and soon I was looking down at their naked bodies as I leaned back against the headboard. I was in heaven as I feasted my eyes on their smooth, hairless skin, watching my fingers wrap around their penises, stroking them up and down. "They're so pretty," I murmured. "Jackie used to call them her little asparaguses," Jason said. I giggled softly, turning towards him. "Yes, they're so hard and skinny, but they feel so soft and velvety." "It feels so good when you rub it like that." "Mmm..." I had been looking at Jason so I didn't see Keith reach over to touch my breast through my blouse, cupping it softly in his hand. "No, don't," I protested weakly. But this time Keith didn't pull away. "It's not fair," he said. "You get to touch us!" His middle finger circled around my nipple, teasing it to erection. "Yeah, and your titties are so pretty and soft," Jason added, reaching for my other breast, caressing it slowly. The feeling of the two of them softly teasing and caressing my breasts was so lovely, I didn't have the will to stop them. Besides, my own hands were occupied, and I didn't want to relinquish their cocks to push their hands off my boobs. I let them continue to fondle me. "Mmm, you feel so nice," Keith whispered. He sidled closer and began lightly kissing and nibbling my ear, while simultaneously rubbing my nipple a little harder. It tickled a bit in my ear, but in the nicest, most arousing way. I could feel the warmth of his naked body through my clothes as he lay against me. A low moan escaped my lips. I had tried to suppress it; I still didn't want to let on how hot I was getting, but I couldn't help it. Keith's mouth moved downward, trailing kisses across my cheek, toward my mouth, until he finally leaned over me to place a long, soft, sweet kiss on my lips. I tried to turn my head away, but Keith's mouth was insistent, finding my lips again and again until my mouth softened and began to respond to his kisses. Slowly, deliberately, he planted a long series of firm but tender kisses on my mouth, each one acting as a battering ram to the last barriers of my resistance. Finally, I felt his tongue against my lips, its slippery warm wetness pressing forward between my half- closed teeth. Making a deep noise in my throat, I gave in and opened my mouth to accept his tongue. Oh God, I thought, my first French kiss, and it's from a nine- year-old boy! But soon all thoughts were swept away by the sensation of his tongue against mine, roaming inside my mouth at will, his lips now pressing more aggressively, hungrily, against mine. He raised himself up more so that he lay half on top of me, his slight body pressing me into the soft bed. I let go of the boys' cocks, closing my eyes and letting myself be carried away by the feelings of mouth and hands on my body. As Keith continued fondling my breast and French- kissing me, I felt something graze the inside of my thigh. I half opened my eyes and glanced down to see Jason's hand disappearing up under my skirt. I pulled my mouth away from Keith's. "No, Jason, please don't," I pleaded. The boy's only response was to shift over to straddle my leg, so that now my body was effectively pinned to the bed by Keith above and Jason below. I could feel Jason's bare scrotum resting against my calf as he positioned himself over me. Keith began kissing me again. When I felt his fingers pulling gently on my erect nipple through my blouse, I let out a little moan, allowing his tongue to enter my mouth again. I could feel Jason's hand begin traveling up my thigh, tracing little circles on my bare skin as he moved upward. God, these boys knew how to get a girl hot! I shivered slightly thinking about where Jason's hand was headed. He was going to touch me 'down there,' and I was doing nothing to stop him! Meanwhile, I felt Keith undoing the buttons on my blouse as he kissed me. I no longer had the will to protest; I just lay passively as each button in turn was undone, feeling the material loosen around my breasts, until my top lay open before him. Keith knelt to my side and pulled my bra straps down my arms, causing the cups of my bra to fall, exposing most of my boobs. Finishing the job, he pulled down on the cups until my nipples were exposed to his gaze. Then, taking one small breast in each hand, he began caressing them, gently squeezing my nipples with each upward movement of his fingers. The feeling of his hands on my bare breasts and nipples was out of this world! Jason's fingers had now reached the apex of my thighs, and he began teasing around the edge of my panties, caressing the crease between my thigh and vulva, making me squirm with anticipation before he finally slipped his fingers inside the leg band, playing over the fuzz of my mound. No one had ever touched me there before! And now I was letting this young boy boldly slide his hand inside my panties while his brother played with my bare tits! My body felt as though it were floating upwards, and my awareness narrowed so that I was focused almost entirely on the exquisite caress-and-tug game that Keith was playing with my nipples. I barely noticed it when Jason removed his hand from inside my panties. I did notice, however, when both his hands slid up under my skirt and took hold of either side of my panties. No, no, I thought, I can't let them take my panties off... but just then Keith's mouth closed around one of my nipples, his tongue flicking out against it, and I gasped out loud as the most intense electric buzz shot through my whole body. Mesmerized, I felt my panties being pulled down first over my hips, then my thighs and calves, and finally over my ankles and feet. As Keith continued to suck on one nipple while fingering the other, I felt a cool rush of air on my wet pussy as Jason flipped up my skirt and began running his finger up and down my slit. Oh God, it felt so good! Involuntarily, I spread my thighs a bit to give his fingers greater access. When he touched my clit, I began bucking my hips against his finger. This felt so much better than when I did it myself! I felt the telltale intensity begin to build in my pussy, and I knew I was going to come soon, oh, it felt so good, I could really come any second now... But then Keith removed his mouth from my nipple and raised himself up, kneeling beside me as I reclined against the headboard. What is he doing? Why did he stop? I wondered vaguely. Before I had a chance to think, he had positioned himself so that he was straddling my body, his knees resting on either side of my torso. His cock was now inches away from my face! It was so beautiful up close, so sleek and slender and hard. I reached out to touch it, stroking its length, wanting to explore every inch of his organ with my hands. But Keith had other ideas. He pushed his hips forward slightly, causing his cock to brush against my face. I shivered as I felt its heat against my cheek. Then, holding it with one hand, Keith pressed the tip of his penis against my lips and held it there. There was absolutely no thought involved in what happened next. It was, after all, what I really wanted. My lips simply parted of their own accord and allowed his cock to slip between them. I really don't have words to describe what it felt like to have a penis enter my mouth for the first time. The slightly rough texture of his cock head as it slid across my lips and tongue; the salty taste of his skin; the heat of his shaft against the wetness of my mouth; it was a thrill beyond anything I had ever experienced. And God, I felt like such a slut as I let him slide his hard cock into my mouth! I mean, he hadn't even asked, he had just thrust his penis against my lips, it was quite rude of him really, and I had let him push it right into my mouth without any resistance or protest, and now here I was, half-naked on the bed, sucking on a preteen boy's cock, just as I had dreamt of for a week now. It was too much for me – with Keith's penis filling my mouth and Jason still fingering my clit, I came right then and there, and I came hard. I don't know how I managed to keep from biting Keith, but somehow I did, moaning loudly with my mouth still closed around his shaft. Keith began thrusting his hips slowly and rhythmically, sliding his penis in and out of my mouth. I responded hungrily, eagerly taking him in on each thrust, reaching around to hold those perfect little ass cheeks, feeling the muscles there clench as he fucked my mouth. Soon Keith was pumping into me faster, crying out in his little high voice, and then holding himself deep inside my mouth as he came. I could feel his cock spasm against my tongue; it felt so wonderful and sexy that I had another little cum along with him. But I was ready for more, and I knew there was more to come (in both senses of the word). I kept my mouth closed around Keith's cock until he calmed down a bit and was ready to pull out. I looked up at him with a big smile, giving his shrinking penis a goodbye kiss. Keith said nothing as he looked into my eyes, but the expression on his face was priceless -- like the proverbial cat that ate the canary. "Jason?" I murmured lazily, invitingly. Quickly, the boys exchanged positions, and in a moment Jason knelt astride my body, his rampant cock pointing at my face. This time I took charge, holding his penis, caressing it with both hands, tousling his downy pubic hair, cupping his balls, rubbing his cock against my face, smelling it, feeling it, kissing it, and finally (to Jason's audible delight) enveloping it in my loving mouth. Jason's cock filled my mouth more than Keith's had; I could barely get all of it in. I ran my tongue over the soft underside of his shaft, pulling my mouth back to swipe at the head with my tongue before taking it all into my mouth again. I loved having his cock in my mouth; I was falling in love with cocksucking. I seemed to have an instinctive sense of what to do, of how to get him aroused. Jason groaned as I sucked my cheeks inward, providing maximum wetness and friction with my mouth. I was loving this so much, I probably could have come again just from sucking Jason's cock, but Keith was proving himself as adept with his hands as his brother had been, slowly circling my hot button with one finger while his other hand caressed and tickled my vulva and inner thighs. Jason was thrusting his cock into my mouth now with increasing intensity. Yes, I thought, do it to me, fuck my face, come in me... I brushed my fingers against his scrotum, gently cupping his balls in my hands, urging him by my touch to climax in my mouth... and climax he did, shoving his cock deep into my mouth, nearly pinning my head to the headboard of Keith's bed. I felt his cock spasm in my mouth, and my hips wildly bucked and twisted, grinding my pussy against Keith's fingers as I plunged into the most overwhelming orgasm I had ever felt. Later, I lay happily snuggled between the two boys. I was in a state of total euphoria, and all three of us were grinning like idiots. "Wow, that was so good!" Jason said, shaking his head as if in disbelief. "Yeah, that was amazing!" Keith added. "No, it's you two who are amazing," I replied, idly stroking their naked bodies. "Did Jackie teach you how to do all that?" "Yeah," said Keith proudly. "She showed us everything about what a girl likes." Wondering about what they meant by "everything," I asked the boys if they had ever had intercourse with Jackie. "No, she said she was saving it for when she got married," Jason informed me. I couldn't believe it! With everything she had done with these boys, she was still "saving it!" It was all I could do not to laugh out loud. "Well, she must have been a great teacher," I said. "So you liked it, what we did?" Keith asked. I assured them that I had liked it very much. "So this won't be the last time? We can do it again?" I responded by reaching down with both hands and wrapping my fingers around each of their cocks. "Well I mean, really, how can I ever resist these cute little asparaguses," I said, smiling down at their limp little penises. As I gently massaged them, they began to stiffen and grow in my hands (ah, the resilience of youth!), and I felt a familiar stirring in my pussy. I wanted those succulent little cocks in my mouth again. "Mmm, waking up again so soon, are we? Do they need to be sucked some more?" I asked in a tone of low invitation. "Yes, yes, please!" "Well, then, I guess we'll just have to take care of that right away, won't we?" I asked, sliding down to kneel on the carpet in front of Jason, who sat up at the edge of the bed, looking eagerly down at me. I skimmed my hand up and down his warm, stiff penis a few times, savoring the anticipation of what was to come, knowing that I could just lean forward and take his hard thing into my mouth at any moment. But instead I took my time, cradling it and caressing it with both hands, reaching one hand down to cup his tight little testicles, before finally bringing my mouth to the tip of his penis. I moved my lips around the head, first kissing and rubbing across the sensitive flesh, then darting my tongue out as I kissed it, my saliva gradually providing lubrication until his cock head was slick with my spit and my lips slid easily across his little helmet. By this time, Jason was keening softly, his hips wriggling, trying to push his little hardon into my mouth. I relented and let just the head slip in, holding my lips tight around the ridge of his glans, filling the space that held his penis with my warm saliva and holding my mouth still against his hardness. This seemed to drive him even wilder, judging by the incoherent, throaty sounds he was making. I guess if you love what you do, you get good at it quickly. And I certainly loved what I was doing! I kept still for a few moments longer, holding Jason's hips steady with my hands, bathing the head of his cock in a warm pool of saliva, knowing that I was sweetly torturing the boy. But I didn't intend to torture him for long! Without warning, I suddenly plunged my mouth fully onto his prick. Again, I held my mouth still, soaking up the sensation of having my mouth filled with the young boy's cock. I could actually feel it pulsing against my tongue. Then, ever so slowly, I pulled my lips back toward the head, snaking my tongue across the underside of his penis as I went. Then slowly forward until his cock filled my mouth once again. Nice and slow, back and forth, I established a leisurely rhythm, savoring each inch of the boy's flesh as it slid in and out of my mouth. There were no thoughts in me now, only pure delicious sensation that traveled from my mouth out through my whole body. My heart pumped faster; my pussy tingled and pulsed. Keith scooted off the bed and crouched behind me on the carpet. My blouse was still unbuttoned, the straps of my bra still hung loosely off of my shoulders, almost falling off of my exposed breasts. Keith reached up under my blouse and unclasped the bra from behind. It fell silently to the floor. The boy reached around me, cupping a breast in each hand as I sucked on his brother's cock. I let out a groan as his expert fingers felt for my nipples, gently kneading and twisting them as he fondled my breasts. I could feel Keith's hardness pressing up against my back through the fabric of my blouse. I shrugged out of it, allowing Keith to remove it entirely. Now his naked erection rubbed up against my bare skin, sending little chills up and down my spine. I reached one hand behind me to touch Keith's cock. Now I had one penis in my mouth, another in my hand, an embarrassment of riches! Keith slid one hand down over my belly toward my crotch, but my skirt (the lone piece of clothing I still had on) was in the way. I let go of Keith's cock and hurriedly undid the skirt, letting it drop to the floor. I was now completely naked, on my knees, with a young boy's cock in my mouth – a perfect situation, as far as I was concerned! Keith slid one hand down to my pussy while his other hand continued fondling my breast. His fingers found my slit and began working their way up and down, circling around my clit. God, I was wet down there! His fingers made little squishing sounds as they worked around my pussy, and the scent of my own arousal wafted up to my nostrils, inflaming me further. I picked up the pace of my sucking on Jason's penis, no teasing him now, I wanted to feel him come in my mouth again, and soon. As he continued to caress my tits and pussy, Keith began humping against me, wrapping his thighs around my torso, sliding his penis up and down against my bare back. I felt the wave of orgasm coming and let it take over, hearing Jason's urgent groans mix with my own cries of pleasure. Nothing existed save Jason's cock twitching in my mouth, the wetness of my pussy against Keith's fingers, his hot body against mine, humping me like a dog, and then oh, the sweetest explosion within me, carrying me out of myself and yet so in my whole body, that taste of total bliss that is death and heaven all at once. I held Jason's cock in my mouth until it stopped twitching and began to soften. I smiled up at him as I let it slide out of my mouth. Meanwhile, Keith was still humping on me, his hot little erection rubbing up and down my back. I slowly turned around, taking Keith's cock in my hands before engulfing it with my mouth. God, I felt like I could suck cock all night! Keith was already quite aroused; he began fucking my mouth right away, and it didn't take long before the little boy was coming in my mouth again. I had never before felt so completely satisfied! I hugged the boys to me. "Mmm, that was lovely," I murmured. "You're fantastic," "You're amazing," the boys replied. We lay contentedly for a few minutes as we all came back down to earth. There was no awkwardness; I just felt so comfortable and close to Keith and Jason. "I guess I should put you boys to bed now," I said at length, tousling their hair. The boys helped me gather my strewn clothes from the bed and the floor; as I put on my panties, I noticed that the front panel was quite damp. Jason and Keith climbed into their beds and got under the covers as I put my clothes back on. I kissed each of them on top of the head and said goodnight. As I was leaving the room, Keith called out, "Vanessa?" "Yes, honey?" "Before we moved, Jackie said we'd find someone like you, but we didn't really believe her. We're really lucky we found you and... we love you, Vanessa." I suddenly felt a bit choked up. "I-I think I'm lucky I found you, too. You're both very special to me. Now, sleep well, boys." "We will! Goodnight, Vanessa!" I shut the door behind me. I'd better take a look at myself, I'm probably a mess, I thought. Looking in the bathroom mirror, things weren't as bad as I had feared. My hair was a bit mussed, my clothes were a bit rumpled, but I was able to straighten myself out without too much trouble. My blouse was pretty wrinkled, but I had brought a light sweater with me that would cover it up, and Kitty probably wouldn't notice anything amiss. As I looked at myself again, I saw the most relaxed, contented look on my face. Any feelings of remorse seemed to be overwhelmed by the pleasure and joy I had just experienced. While there was still a part of my mind that was telling me what I had done was wrong, it didn't FEEL wrong at all. In fact, it felt more right than just about anything I had ever done! I felt physically fulfilled and loved for the first time, and if it was two preteen boys who made me feel that way, so what? None of those jerks in my school would have treated me with the kind of sensitivity and attentiveness that Jason and Keith had, that was for sure. As I thought about it, conventional morality seemed deeply flawed here. Try as I might, there was no way I could convince myself that I had sexually "abused" these boys, any more than they had abused me. As I plopped down in the soft leather chair in the living room, I allowed myself to bask in the afterglow of what had happened. My entire body was totally relaxed and felt suffused as if with a warm light. I noticed that my lips and jaw were pretty sore, a reminder that I had just given four blowjobs! The thought gave me a nasty little thrill between my legs, and I let my hand drift downward, slipping it under my skirt to casually caress my pussy through my still-damp panties. I found myself wondering again about Jackie, now that it seemed I had taken over her role. Who was she, anyway? How had she come to teach the boys so well? I felt grateful to her, and wished that I could talk to her. She was probably the only person who would understand what I was going through. She certainly must be an unusual person! So wanton in certain respects, and yet the boys said she was saving her virginity for marriage! I chuckled at the idea. I had never given any thought to marriage, and certainly had never considered "saving it" for then. It seemed somehow quaint to me. Not that I had ever thought about it much, but to me, there wasn't that much of a difference between oral sex and "doing it." I mean, I had already sucked their cocks, so I might as well... Let them fuck me? I felt my pussy quiver at the thought. Would I dare to let them do it to me? My hand found its way into my panties, searching out my virgin orifice. I slid one slender finger inside the wet hole. Keith's cock wasn't so much bigger than that, I thought. It probably wouldn't even hurt to have him put it inside me. And it would probably feel a whole lot nicer than my finger! I buried my finger inside my pussy, my other hand playing across my tits. My body squirmed as I imagined the little boy on top of me, poking his cute little brown hard-on into my cunt while his brother watched, knowing he would be next. And knowing I was letting them go where Jackie had never let them -- oh, how sweet that would be! I came so quickly just thinking about it that it took me by surprise. I still didn't know if I would have the nerve to do it, but I sure enjoyed fantasizing about it! Kitty returned home about an hour later to find me sitting demurely in the chair, looking for all the world like the innocent teenage girl I had been only a week earlier. She thanked me effusively again, and when she paid me I felt only a slight twinge of guilt. She asked if I could come back again next week, to which I gladly agreed. Strolling homeward, I felt as though I were walking on air, sad only that I would have to wait a whole week to see the boys again! To be continued? *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-* The author does not condone child abuse, this story is meant as an erotic fantasy not real life. Anyone acting out such scenarios in "real life" can look forward to many unproductive years getting it up the butt by a fellow convict in their local prison. *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-* Kristen's collection - Directory 55