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(mm-teens/g, MF, ped, nc, rp, v, tor, sm, intr) *** Chapter One My name is Lisa and I am a 28 year old woman with a nice (or so I've been told) body. I'm 5'5", 34b-25-34 with long black hair that hangs to my butt and hazel eyes. Over the past twelve years I have been raped at least fifteen times. Even though it hurts, it's the only way I can get any satisfaction from sex so I continually put myself in situations where rape is almost inevitable. I love the feeling of having my clothes ripped from my body and being taken brutally by a man who cares nothing about my feelings. I can't help it – I just love it. I'm going to tell you about how I got this way. It started when I was twelve. My body was just beginning to develop. I had little walnut size breasts and just a light down was beginning to grow between my little legs. Even at that time, I thought my hair was my best feature. It was long and shiny and I mostly wore it in a pony tail. I was just at that stage between girl and woman where I loved to pretend to be older than I was, but at the same time I liked to play with dolls. Then came the day Ken asked me to go to the school dance. Ken was sixteen and a sophomore in high school. I was thrilled that such a "man" would ask me out. I asked my parents if I could go and their answer was an emphatic NO! I was too young to be able to even think about dating. I could start maybe when I was fifteen or sixteen. But I was a strong-willed child and I kept pestering them until they finally agreed that I could go, but my dad had to drive us both to the dance and pick us up right after it was over. I argued and argued that it was only a few blocks and we could walk home but there was no budge in them. It was their way or not at all. I wondered what I should wear. I cajoled my mother into letting me buy a new dress for the dance. At the store I wanted to get an off-the-shoulder very short party dress but my mother wouldn't hear of it. We finally settled on a pretty pink dress with a v-neck that came just above my knees. I wanted to get a padded bra, but again my mother said no. (I had been wearing training bras up until this point.) We finally found a double A cup that would fit and she relented and let me get it. My only real victory however was the pair of high healed shoes and the pink frilly panties that would complete my outfit. On the night of the dance, I started to get ready at 5:00 o'clock and was really ready by 6:00. My mother put on a little rouge and some eye shadow and some really light lip stick. When Ken arrived I was sitting in a chair in the living room waiting for him. I saw his eyes go wide when he saw me. I think he wanted to say something nasty (he was always teasing me about having "big tits" which, of course, wasn't true but it did make me feel good) but I saw him sort of bite his lip and all he said was "Hi Lisa. You really look nice tonight." "So do you," I told him. He was dressed in a white shirt with a long black tie and black slacks and he really did look good to me. He timidly held out a corsage for me. I looked at my mother for guidance. "That's really nice Ken," she said. "Why don't you pin it on her?" I saw my father looking daggers at her, but she knew that I was growing up and tried to give me a little more leeway than my dad. Ken hands were shaking as he lifted the neck of the dress off of my left shoulder and pinned on the corsage. After my dad took pictures of the two of us together, we piled into the back seat of his beat up old Chevy and we were off. When my dad pulled up in front of the school there were a lot of kids milling around outside, but he insisted that we go straight into the gym which had been set up for the dance. As we got out of the car I felt butterflies in my stomach. I really wasn't as sure of myself as I pretended to be. Inside, I was sort of in awe of how the gymnasium had changed. There were red and blue streamers hung everywhere. There was a table at one side where they were serving punch and the lights were turned down low. At one end there was a small stage with a microphone on it. I say Mr. Smith, the principle, talking with two of the teachers who had agreed to be chaperons. He walked to the microphone. "Welcome to the annual spring dance," he said. "We are all here to have a good time so if you're thinking of causing trouble… don't. Anyone caught drinking or rough housing will be expelled from the dance and you're parents will be called to pick you up. Now, with that said, it's time for FUN. Let the dance begin." With that the band began playing a currently popular song. I watched as Mr. Smith turn off the microphone and left the stage. I felt a hand on my arm and turned to look at Ken. "Do you want to get some punch?" he asked loudly trying to rise above the noise of the band. I nodded and we headed for the table where they were serving it. We stood drinking punch and watching the couples gyrating on the floor in front of us. We had just finished our drinks when the band went into a slow number and Ken asked me to dance. I held him stiffly at arms length as my dad had taught me, but he pulled me close to him and I decided to go with the flow. It felt kind of good to have my little breasts pushing into his chest. When the song ended, we were in the darkest corner of the dance floor. We walked to an even darker spot and he turned to me and gave me my very first kiss. I mean like my very first real kiss, not like you get from your aunt or something. I felt his tongue at my lips and I opened my mouth to permit it access. I mean, I thought it was kind of gross, but I'd heard some of the older girls at school talking about French kissing. After a while though, it felt sort of good and I pushed my tongue back wanting to see what it was all about. That felt kind of good too. Then his hand went to my right breast and I didn't know what to do so I just stood there and let him do it. I could feel my little nipples growing hard as he squeezed. He released my breast and put both arms around me with one hand going down to grip my little ass. He whispered in my ear, "let's sneak out of here and go someplace where we can fuck." That shook me out of my lethargy and I pushed both hands against his chest pulling away from him. Before I thought, I slapped him across the face as hard as I could. "You little bitch," he snarled. "I do you the honor of taking you out and you don't even want to give me a little." I wheeled and walked across the dance floor, not caring that I was bumping into people that were dancing. I couldn't think of anything but that I wanted to get out of there. Tears were streaming down my face. I had thought he really liked me. I spotted the front door and raced out past the two seniors who were standing there as monitors. I heard one of them yelling as I went through, but I ignored them and started to run. I ran for about a block and finally stopped, panting heavily. I waited until my breath returned to normal and stood there thinking. What should I do now? Maybe I should have listened to my parents. Maybe I was too young to date. Well, there was nothing for it. I'd just have swallow my pride and walk home. It was only seven or eight blocks. I'd barely started to walk when a car full of young black teenagers drove slowly by. "Hey honky," yelled one of them. "Want a little of my black meat?" I tensed. I heard the driver say, "Leave her alone Kurt. She's not even old enough to bleed." Then the car roared away into the night. I was starting to get really scared now. I forced myself to go forward, walking a little faster now. An old pickup truck pulled up beside me. "Hey Lisa," the driver yelled. "Are you okay?" It was Mr. Phillips. He was sort a handy man that everybody hired to do odd jobs around the neighborhood. I remembered he had installed some windows for my dad. I walked over to the open window and peered in. "You shouldn't be out this late at night," he said. "Particularly not in this neighborhood." He was right. It was sort of a run down area that went for about three blocks before it turned into nice houses again. "I'm okay," I said. "I'm just on my way home from a dance." "Your parents should know better than to let you walk after dark on a night like this," he said disapprovingly. "Hop in and I'll give you a ride." I hesitated. I couldn't tell him what had really happened. Well, he'd always been very nice to me when he was working around the house last summer. I opened the door and climbed into the truck. I leaned back into the soft cushions of the seat, listening to the soft music that came from the radio. My reverie was interrupted by his voice. "I have to make a quick stop and then I'll take you home." An alarm went off in my head, but I told myself I was just being silly. I said, "Okay." He turned right and eventually pulled up in front of a darkened house that I knew was his home. Leaving the engine running he got out. "I'll just be a minute," he said. I saw him fitting the keys into the door. The lights came on and through the window I saw him walking away toward the back of the house. He was gone less than five minutes and came out of the house carrying a big paper bag. He locked up and came walking toward my side of the truck. "Can I set this on the floor by your feet?" he asked. "It might rain and I don't want it to get wet." Without waiting for an answer he opened my door and more alarms went off in my head. But he simply set it on the floor by my feet, closed the door and walked around to get back in the truck. He pulled down the road for about half a block under a big tree and stopped. There were no street lights and it was very dark. "I want to show you something, Lisa," he said. With that he pressed something hard against my side and suddenly it felt as if my whole body had been stuck into a giant light socket. He covered my mouth with his big hand to silence my cries and continued the shocking he was doing. When he removed the thing, I couldn't talk or move. I knew everything that was going on around me, but I was paralyzed. He pulled away from the curb and roared out of the city. He talked to me as he drove. His voice took on an evil tone. "That was a stun gun cunt. It'll wear off in about 15 minutes or so and you'll be fine." He cackled. "Well, maybe not fine, but you'll be back to feeling normal. I mean normal for a slut like you." He drove for maybe ten minutes and pulled off to the side of the road. He was right in that I was already getting some feeling back in my arms. He reached into the bag by my feet and pulled out a roll of duct tape. He quickly taped my hands behind my back and then put a piece over my mouth. "I don't want to hear your caterwauling until we get there," he said harshly. I wondered numbly what caterwauling was as he pulled back out onto the highway. I was really scared now and tears were rolling down my face. We drove for what seemed like a very long time although in looking back it was probably only about twenty minutes. He turned off onto a dirt road and drove back for about a mile between the trees. He pulled into a clearing and stopped, turning off the engine. "You're home bitch," he said. He reached over and grabbed my left breast and began squeezing. I struggled, but there was really nothing I could do to stop him. Suddenly he yelled, "Ouch" as he jabbed himself on the pin of my corsage. I felt a little sense of victory when that happened, but it was short-lived as he simply removed the pin and threw the corsage on the floor. He reached across me, opened his glove compartment and removed a flashlight. He shined it in my eyes. "You stay put cunt," he snarled. "I've got to go turn on the generator for the lights." While he was gone, I kicked off my shoes and tried to open the door with my feet. I got it open too, but when I pushed the door open to jump out, he was standing right there. He grinned evilly. "Going somewhere, Slut?" I tried to kick him in the face, but he simply grabbed my feet and pulled me out of the truck. He picked me up and carried me, kicking and screaming through my gag, into the house. He let me down and reached for the light switch. As the lights came on, I kicked him in the shin as hard as I could and tried to force my way around him. "You Bitch," he growled and hit me hard in the stomach with his big fist. I went down and rolled into a fetal position, unable to use my hands to hold my stomach. "Why to we have to do this the hard way," he sighed and pulled the stun gun from his pocket. He placed it directly against my left breast and I felt the electricity flowing through me again. In a few seconds I was once again paralyzed. I felt myself being carried into another room. He flipped on the lights with his elbow and threw me on a big bed, rolled me over and untaped my hands. The skirt of my dress had scrunched up and I knew he could see the pretty pink panties that I had been so proud of. I wished I could move so I could pull my skirt down, but the effects of the stun gun hadn't worn off yet. He rolled me back over, wrapped a dirty rag around my right wrist and tied it with a rope coming from the corner of the bed. "Wouldn't want to get rope burns on that pretty pink skin of your," he cackled. He repeated the procedure with my left arm and then walked to the bottom of the bed to tie my feet with ropes coming from the other two corners of the bed. He pulled the tape from my mouth and sat down in a chair watching me – waiting for the feeling to come back into my body. I finally felt the effects of the stun gun wearing off, but I held perfectly still, hoping to put off what was coming as long as possible. It didn't work, however, for I heard him say in an almost kindly way, "I know you're awake Lisa." I rolled my head to the left and looked at him. "Why are you doing this to me?" I croaked. He ignored my question. "Are you thirsty? Your voice sounds a little hoarse." I noticed that the look of wildness had gone from his eyes. Then I realized that my mouth and throat were extremely dry, apparently on of the after effects of having been stunned twice. I nodded. "I'll get you something," he said. He got up from the chair and walked from the room. I could hear the sounds of running water in the other room. Then he returned with a tall glass of water and a straw in his hand. "Sorry that I didn't have any ice, but I used it all to keep everything cold until I got here. But I left the water run for a little bit so it should be fairly cold." I wondered what he was talking about but didn't say anything. He sat the water on the stand beside the bed and put a pillow under my head. He lifted my head and brought the straw to my lips. I drank greedily. When he took the glass away, I was still thirsty but he said, "That's enough. Wouldn't want you to pee the bed. Although it wouldn't matter too much. I put a plastic cover underneath the sheet." He went back to the chair and sat down. "Now," he began, speaking softly. "You asked a question and it deserves an answer." I wondered what he was talking about. "You wanted to know why I was doing this to you. Let me explain. I have brain cancer and four months ago they gave me a year or less to live. All my life I've wanted to get a little girl and rape her." He paused, letting what he had said sink in. Fear overtook me. He was actually going to force his ugly thing inside my little body. I remembered the sex education we had in school. When I had seen the movie they had shown I had decided then that I would never let a man do that to me. Now it was going to happen. He continued. "The thing that kept me from doing it was that I knew I would be caught and I didn't want to spend the rest of my life in jail. Now, it doesn't matter. I'm going to die anyway. So, when they find us, which I figure will take about a week as I'm not trying very hard to hide, I'll try to work it so that they kill me right then. If that doesn't work, I'll still have to spend less than eight months in jail." "Now you know what's going to happen. It's late and I'm sure we're both very tired so let's get some sleep." Sleep? He had just said he was going to rape me and he wants me to sleep? I started to cry. Tears were running down my face. He dried my tears with a soft cloth. "There, there little one. I won't be so bad. You'll see. You might even learn to like it." He pulled a cot over beside the bed, threw a pillow on it, and turned out the lights. I laid there crying softly. Maybe this was just all a bad dream. Maybe I'd wake up and find myself safe in my own bed at home. I heard him cough in his sleep, realized it wasn't a dream, and began to cry even harder. "Try to keep it down," he said. "We've got a big day tomorrow and we both need our rest. That is, unless you'd like me to rape you right now." That shut me up. I closed my eyes as tight as they would go and gritted my teeth, but I didn't let any sound come out, even though tears were still streaming down my face. Eventually I fell into a fitful sleep. Chapter Two I awoke when the lights came on. "It's time," he shouted. The madness had come back into his eyes. He was totally naked and his cock stood out in front of him. It was huge and I just knew it would never fit inside of me. I had stuck my little finger in there one time and even that hurt. I screamed as he jumped on the bed and straddled my waist. He gripped the v-neck of my dress and ripped it down to my waist. "Can't wait to see those little tits of yours," he snarled. He grabbed my bra with both hands and tore it like it was tissue paper. "Oh yes, really small ones. I like really small ones." He grabbed one of my nipples between his thumb and forefinger and twisted really hard. I screamed and screamed. "OH GOD…PLEASE…DON'T." He ignored me and twisted even harder. Finally, he let go and leaned over to take a nipple between his lips. That seemed to help some of the pain in my small tit. Then he bit down and I screamed again. I thought he was going to tear it all the way off. When he raised up, there was blood, my blood, running from the corner of his mouth. "Please,' I begged. "No more." He climbed off of my waist and tore my dress the rest of the way down. "Got to get the cunt," he mumbled. He ripped off my panties leaving my body completely naked before him. He jumped between my legs. He centered himself against my little opening. "NO! DON'T! HELP ME, SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME!" He pushed forward. "OH GOD NO!!" He pushed harder, decimating my cherry. "AUGNH! OWWW! OWWW!" I screamed, oh god how I screamed as he plunged in and out and in and out of me. My whole body was nothing but one mass of pain. He plunged, withdrew, plunged, withdrew and then I felt him stiffen and knew he was spurting his white cum into my previously pure body. He pulled out and climbed off of me. "That'll take some of the edge off." I could feel his scum and my blood, my virgin blood flowing out of my torn opening. I wanted to curl up in a little ball and die, but the ropes kept me from doing it. He squatted between my legs and looked at my wounded cunt. "Oh, did I hurt my little baby," he said soothingly. "Too bad. It really felt good for me." He got up and walked out of the room. He returned with a white pan filled with soapy water and a wash cloth. He gently washed the area between my legs. As the washcloth passed over the torn hole of my vagina a new rush of pain flowed over me. And then it hit my sensitive clit and suddenly the pain was mixed with pleasure. When he had me clean, he produced a bottle of baby oil and squirted a lot of it right on the opening of my cunt. He put some oil on his finger and began gently massaging my clit. I didn't want to, but I couldn't help it. I began to moan softly with the pleasure of it. He stuck a finger inside of me. It hurt, but the pleasure felt so good. He added a second finger and then a third and the pain increased but so did the pleasure as he leaned forward an suckled on my right nipple. He increase the tempo going faster and faster – suckling faster and harder, rubbing my clit faster, teasing it with his finger and running those three fingers in and out of my cunt. The pain increased. The pleasure increased. I couldn't help myself. "Oh yessss keep it up. It feels so GOOD! Don't stop. Please don't stop." Then the orgasm flowed over me and I began to shake all over. It was twice as good, no, five time as good as when I had masturbated at home. He jumped between my legs. I was shocked to see that he was hard again. He rammed himself into me and the pain started all over again. But then he reached between our bodies and began to massage my clit and he leaned forward and began to suckle on my left nipple. That was kind of weird. The nipple was still sore from where he had bit it before, but it felt so good with pain and pleasure all mixed in together. The pain/pleasure started driving me once again up the ladder toward what I knew would be a massive orgasm. "Yessss! Fuck me! Fuck me harder! Oh, God! I'm going to Cummm!" (Where had that come from? I didn't talk that way) And Cum I did. Even better than before. Even more intense than before as I felt him tense and shoot his load inside me. He collapsed on top of me gasping. His weight drove me into the mattress, making it hard to breathe. "Could you please get off of me," I asked. I can't breathe." He rolled to the side of me still gasping. "Sorry about that," he said after he caught his breath. "I should have rolled off right away." "It okay," I said softly and, God help me, if my arms had been free I would have cuddled up in his arms. He chuckled, "You really enjoyed that didn't you?" "No, I hated it! You RAPED ME!" He laughed out loud. "That I did Lassie, but you liked it the second time. You really got off on it." A feeling of shame washed over me. Here I was less than an hour away from having been violently raped and when he raped me the second time I had actually ENJOYED it. As a matter of fact I had begged him not to stop. "Yes, I did," I said timidly. We laid there for a while and his soft breathing told me he had fallen asleep. I closed my eyes and drifted off into a deep, satiated sleep. When I awoke a few hours later, it was to the smell of frying bacon. He came to the door and looked in holding a dishtowel in his hand. "Ah, I see you're awake little one," he said. "Are you hungry?" I suddenly realized that I hadn't eaten since this ordeal had started and the smell of the bacon was making my stomach growl. I nodded. "Well, we'll get you up and you can go to the bathroom. It's almost ready." My heart jumped but I tried not to let it show. He was going to untie me. Maybe I could figure out how to get away if I was free to move. He went to a drawer and pulled out a short chain like thing and a pair of handcuffs. My heart dropped. "I think your just about ready to be left free to run around the house, but I'm not sure. So I designed this." He held up a chain with two circles on the ends. He pointed to the circles. "These are hose clamps from a semi tractor trailer. I welded a little loop on top of the adjustment knob. Had a hell of a time with that. Kept welding the adjustment knob to itself. But I finally got it. All I have to do is open them up and wind one around each of your ankles and tighten it down." He held up a lock. Then all I have to do is lock either end of the chain to the hose clamp and you'll be able to walk, but only if you take baby steps." He looked like he was very proud of himself. He proceeded to attach the rings to each of my ankles, attached the one chain, untied my leg and quickly brought my leg over and attached the other chain. He held up the handcuffs. "I put a longer chain between this so you'd be able to eat and so forth without being to uncomfortable." "Thanks for caring so much about my comfort," I said, my voice dripping with sarcasm. He attached one cuff to my left wrist, untied it and rolled me to my right attaching the other cuff to my right wrist. The final rope was untied and I at least had minimal freedom. "Come on," he said. "I'll take you to the bathroom." I swung my legs over the side of the bed and tried to stand up. My legs were so weak from being held in one place that I would have fallen if he hadn't caught me. Slowly, my coordination came back as we walked the short distance to the bathroom. Once there, he pointed out all the things I would need – washcloth, towel, toothbrush, comb, brush, etc. "I'll leave you to yourself, but please be quick about it, breakfast is almost ready." Then he left, locking the door behind him. For the first time since this whole ordeal had begun, I was alone. I quickly washed my face and ran a brush though my hair. I looked at myself in the mirror. Except for the bite mark on my left breast, I didn't look much different than I ever had. I stood up on a little chair that was sitting in the corner to look at my lower half. I was amazed that even there I still looked the same except that maybe my pussy lips were a little puffier than they used to be. Standing on the chair suddenly gave me an idea. I quickly moved the chair beside the door and stood on it. I waited about five minutes and then I heard the key turning in the door. "I hope you're finished because breakfast is ready." He walked into the room, trying to see where I was. His back was to me and I jumped. I brought my arms around his head and tried to bring the chain between my handcuffs down to hit his Adams apple. My aim was off and the chain caught him on the chin. He reached up quickly and grabbed my hands and pulled forward so that I was hanging across his back like a kid getting a piggy-back ride. Walking into the kitchen, He pushed a chair away from the table, turned and sat me down on it – hard! His entire weight landed right on my legs and I thought for a minute that he may have broken them. He lifted my arms over his head and back and stood up. He turned and I saw that the chains had made a nasty gash in his chin. Blood was running from it down his neck. He looked mad enough to kill. I was surprised when he didn't say a word. He simply slid my chair into the table walked to the sink and wet a towel which he applied to his chin. He came back to the table and sat down. "Eat," he said simply. I looked down at my plate. There was bacon and home fries and scrambled eggs. In the center of the table was a plate with ham slices. I was really scared to death, but the aroma of the food started my stomach rumbling so I picked up my fork and began eating. We ate in silence. I finished everything on my plate and even had two extra slices of ham. When I had eaten my fill a funny thought crossed my mind and I started to giggle. He looked across the table at me with questioning eyes. "I just thought how funny it was to be sitting here eating with both of us naked." I was hoping to take his mind off of the fact that I had tried to kill him or at least hurt him bad enough that I could escape. He smiled. "I guess it is funny considering the circumstances. Before my wife died we used to do it all the time, though. You know, we'd wake up in the morning and have great sex and it just didn't seem to be worth the effort to get dressed when we knew that when we were done eating we were going right back to bed to fuck again." It had never occurred to me that he had been married. Then a terrible thought hit me. Now that he had eaten was he going to rape me again? I felt a knot at the pit of my stomach and thought I might lose all the food I had just eaten. He removed the towel from his face and I saw that the cut in his chin was not nearly as bad as I had expected. The blood was already starting to coagulate. He pushed his chair back from the table and smiled at me. "Thank you," he said warmly. I frowned. Something was wrong. He was being too nice. "For what?" I asked. "Let me explain. When I left you alone in the bathroom this morning it was a test to see if you could be trusted. I had figured you might try something although I must admit that what you did really surprised me. If you had been just a little faster or I had been a little slower in ducking, you might have really escaped. You should be proud of yourself for that. I had expected you to try to go through the unlocked window over the shower. "As a matter of fact, I already had breakfast ready when I took you there. I kept it warm in the oven. I waited outside the window long enough to see if you were going to try it and then came back in and unlocked the door and you know the rest. What I was thanking you for was letting me know that you still haven't accepted the fact that you are here until they find us and kill me. Now that I know you can't be trusted, I know what to do when we have oral sex tomorrow." I frowned. "Oral sex?" "I'm going to put my dick in you mouth and fuck you that way." I scrunched up my face. "That's disgusting." "Well, enough of this chit-chat. Come along." He got up and walked toward the bedroom. I followed obediently, knowing that if I didn't he would just drag me in there anyway and I couldn't really run in my shackles. In the bedroom he removed my handcuffs and shackles. Apparently he wasn't really concerned since he was so much stronger than I was anyway. He threw me on the bed and, before I could even catch my breath he was on top of me. He spread my legs and rammed himself into me as hard as he could. It hurt, but not nearly as bad as it had before and I just gasped. He grabbed my nipples and squeezed. He pulled them out to the sides until I thought for sure he was going to rip them off. I screamed and screamed, "STOP IT! YOUR HURTING ME! PLEASE STOP! OH GOD... AAAIIIEEEEE!!" "Get off on the pain," he said. "You can do it." And then I felt it. An indescribable pleasure running from my cunt right up through the screaming pain in my tits. I wrapped my legs around his ass and forced myself harder onto his raging cock. "Oh yesssss... fuck me... fuck me harder! Make your little slut cum! Oh, it's so gooood... oh, yess! Yes! YES!!! I'm CUMMING!" An indescribable pleasure washed over me. It felt like my whole body was nothing but a shaking, quivering mass of happiness. I knew then that this was what I was born for – to serve this man – my man – my rapist. But he didn't stop until he had driven me through three more shattering orgasms. Then I felt him stiffen and start jerking inside me and I knew that he was shooting his man cream into me. I felt him softening inside me and then he pulled out of me and rolled off. I rolled toward him and cuddled against him in his arms. "Thank you for teaching me what its like to be a real woman," I said softly. For some reason, I felt warm and comfortable with him. You could almost say I loved him. I fell asleep lying there in his arms. I awoke some time later and knew that he was still asleep as he was snoring softly. I noticed that he had cuffed my right wrist to his left one. I wondered if he hadn't done that if I would have tried to escape. I was terribly confused. I wanted to get away and yet I didn't. Well, it wasn't important since I couldn't get away. I fell back to sleep still trying to figure out how I felt. He took me twice more that day, each time adding some element of pain to go with the exquisite pleasure. The second time he made me stick needles through my own nipples to add to the pain. God did that ever hurt, but when I orgasmed that time it was even better than anything that had gone before. Chapter Three We went to sleep in the same bed that night, Bill (for thus he told me to call him) having abandoned the cot for the comforts of a mattress and springs. I was still restrained although not as severely as I had been the previous night. He had simply handcuffed my hands around a post in the head board. When we awoke, the day was similar to the previous day. He shackled me and locked me in the bathroom to clean up. I checked the window over the tub, but he had added a padlock to it so I couldn't get out that way. Deciding that there was no way out, I cleaned up and sat on the chair to await his return. I still wanted to escape, but I no longer wanted to hurt Bill in the process. We had a big breakfast of corn beef hash, fried eggs, sausage patties and toast. He asked me if I wanted coffee, but I told him I didn't drink it so he gave me a soft drink. I realized that we had only had one meal yesterday so I figured I'd better eat as much as I could so I went back for seconds and even thirds on the sausage patties. When we were finished, he piled the dishes on the counter and ran water in the sink to wash them. "I'll wash if you'll dry," he said. As I stood there drying a plate, I thought that we were just like a married couple taking care of the household chores. I had seen my parents do the same thing before, but of course they weren't naked at the time. I wondered if this was what it was like with his wife before she died. "Well, might as well get with it," he said when the last dish fork was put away. I felt my stomach do flip-flops. "Get with what?" I asked timidly. "I promised you I was going to fuck your mouth today. Remember?" I scrunched up my nose. "Do you have to. I mean, that's the most disgusting thing I've ever heard of. I don't want to do it." I saw some of the wildness come back into his eyes. "You slut! What the hell do you think it matters what you want? Just because I've tried to be a little nice to you doesn't mean that I'm still not going to rape you in every way possible. Besides you didn't like it when I fucked your cunt the first time and now you can't get enough of it." I felt a lump rising in my throat. He had a point. I did like it when he fucked me even though there was always pain with it. "I'm sorry," I said hesitantly, "its just that I think I'm falling in love with you." He softened immediately. "Don't do that," he said quietly. "You know that I'll be dead within the next few days. I like you a lot more than I did when I first kidnapped you, but I won't let myself care too much and neither can you." I started to cry. "Oh shit, don't do that," he said. I walked over to him and he took me in his arms. "It's not that I want to die, little one, I just don't have a choice," he said softly. I laid my head on his chest and continued to sob. He picked me up in his still strong arms and carried me into the bedroom. He laid me gently on the bed. "It's alright," I told him, "you can fuck my mouth if you really want to." He gave me a cock-eyed grin. "Oh, I intended to," he said. "But first, I want to show you something." He removed my shackles and the handcuffs. He carefully moved me to the center of the bed. Climbing on the bed himself he told me to spread my legs and I complied. He crawled between them and, supporting him self on his elbows leaned forward. I could feel his hard cock laying against my belly as he kissed me gently. He darted his tongue out and liked my lips. I opened my mouth slightly and his tongue darted inside. I pushed back with my tongue and entered his mouth and then we were running our tongues all around each other. I could feel myself getting wet between my legs. His kisses felt so good. He broke the kiss and started licking down my neck. He came back up and nibbled on my ear lobe. I was moaning loudly as he moved back down until he reached my right tit. He circled the nipple with his tongue and sucked gently. "Oh god," I moaned. "That feels so good." He looked up at me and grinned. When he came back down he was nibbling on my other tit. Leaving my tits, he licked his way down my belly, circling, but not entering my belly button. Ever so slowly he licked down my left thigh then jumped across and liked up the right one. Then suddenly he was at my pussy, licking my clit like a madman. I was getting hotter and hotter as I felt his tongue enter me. He continued this until I just couldn't take it any more. "Fuck me," I moaned. "Fuck me now." He raised up and I felt his cock pressing at the opening of my cunt. He pushed in gently until he was all the way inside me. I was shocked. It didn't hurt at all, it just felt so good, so very, very good. I wrapped my legs around him and he began moving in and out of me. I was moaning and moaning. "Oh, yes…that's sooo good…fuck me…yesss…don't stop." He kept going and going and I was getting higher and higher. But for what ever reason, I just couldn't seem to come. "I'm close…so close," I moaned. "Hurt me some where... let me cum... please let me cum." He reached up with both hands and grabbed my nipples. He squeezed them hard and then started twisting them almost all the way around. As he pulled them away from my body as far as they would go and then pulled them farther, I screamed. "Yesssss!! That's it! I'm CUMMING!" My whole body shock as wave after wave of intense pleasure/pain flowed over me. I thought I would never come down. I felt him stiffen and shoot his jism into me and I came again even harder. He stayed inside me, just holding still until I felt him soften and slip out. He rolled off and I rolled into his arms. "That was the most incredible thing I've ever felt," I said. I felt warm and safe in his arms. I woke up about two hours later still untied. I could tell from his regular breathing that he was still asleep. I gently disengaged my self from his arms and rolled to the other side of the bed. This was the chance I had been waiting for. I listened to be sure he was still asleep, crawled out of bed and tiptoed carefully to the kitchen. The clock on the wall told me that it was almost noon. It suddenly occurred to me that when we had first come in and he was having trouble controlling me, he had thrown his truck keys into a corner on the counter. I walked over and saw that they were still there. I had never driven before, but I had watched my dad and I was sure I could do it. I picked up the keys and started out the front door. I paused to think for a minute. An hour later, I opened the bedroom door and turned on the light. "Hey sleepy head," I said. "Lunch is ready." He wasn't really awake. "Huh? Lunch? LUNCH!?" He came fully awake. "Hey, what the fuck are you doing up untied?" I laughed. "And you didn't think you could trust me." I paused and got serious. "I TOLD you I love you and even if you're going to die, I'll still remember the time we have together." He sat up on the edge of the bed. Suddenly he grabbed his head in both hands and screamed. "Pills," he gasped. "On top of the refrigerator." I stood stock still for a minute and then I went into action. I ran to the sink and turned on the water as I was going to the refrigerator. I grabbed the pills and a glass from the countertop and ran water into it as I went by. I ran to the bedroom. When I got there, he was lying on the bed shaking all over. I sat the glass on the nightstand and opened the pill bottle. I glanced at the label. Take one or two as needed, it said. I poured two from the bottle. "You've got to sit up," I told him. He continued to shake, but managed to pull himself upright. I literally pushed the two pills into his mouth and held the water to his lips. He swallowed. He fell back to the bed still shaking. Now that I had done what I could do I fell apart. I jumped on the bed beside him crying and sobbing. "Don't leave me Bill. Not yet. You haven't even done everything you want to do to me." He continued to shake all over and I continued to beg him not to die. After about five minutes the shaking stopped. He was perfectly still and I thought he was gone. I threw myself on top of him beating his chest and crying. "DAMN YOU! GOD DAMN YOU!! YOU JUST BEGAN TO TEACH ME WHAT LIFE IS ALL ABOUT AND NOT..." I couldn't continue. "I'm not dead yet," he said quietly. "But if you keep beating me up, I could be." "DAMN YOU!" I screamed. "You scared me to death." "I'm sorry." He sounded remorseful. "It's the way my cancer works. One of these days soon, I'll go into one of these episodes and I won't come out of it." He ran his hand over the top of my head. It was a gentle touch and it felt good. He cheered up a little. "But it hasn't happened yet so we can continue with your lessons." I was laying with my head on his chest facing his feet. I looked at his cock. It was soft and wrinkled, not hard and raging as it sometimes was. I hesitantly reached out and wrapped my hand around it. It began to stir a little. I ran my hand down to the sack that hung beneath it. I could feel the two hard nuts that it contained. What had they called them in school? Oh yes, testicles. I got onto my knees and moved down to where I could examine him more closely. I kept my left hand on his balls and moved my right hand down to wrap it around his cock. It stirred even more, not completely hard but definitely longer and a little firmer. I couldn't believe he intended to put this thing in my mouth. Still, I wondered what it would taste like. I leaned forward, stuck my tongue out and just licked the tip. I heard him moan softly. He was right, it didn't taste too bad. I opened as wide as I could and took the head into my mouth. It was fully hard now. The head was sort of, I don't know how to describe it – it was soft yet very hard. I ran my tongue around it and then took him in deeper. I heard him chuckle. "Hey, Little One," he said. "I'm the one that's supposed to be raping you. Not the other way around." I would have laughed, but my mouth was otherwise occupied. I started bobbing my head up and down, taking him as deeply as I could. It hit the start of my throat and I gagged, so I backed off a little. Instinctively I put my hand around the part still sticking out and jacked it up and down. I felt the head getting even bigger in my mouth and I knew he was going to shoot. I tried to back off, but his hands came down and held me firmly in place. Then my mouth was filled with his sticky goo. I tried to hold it in my mouth so I could spit it out later, but he punched the sides of my cheeks with his fingers. I instinctively swallowed and felt the slimy stuff sliding down my throat. I was surprised. I actually liked the taste. I wanted all of it. I sucked and swallowed, sucked and swallowed. The spurts became smaller and smaller and then finally ended all together. I swallowed one last time and then slide up and lay down with my head on his shoulder. He brought his hand down and squeezed my small left butt cheek. It felt good. "That was really fantastic," he said softly. I looked up into his eyes. "Did I do okay?" I asked. "You did just fine," he said quietly. He paused. "But you do have to learn to take it all the way down your throat." I remembered the gagging. It hadn't felt good. "It would never fit." He chuckled. God, but I loved that little laugh of his. "Yes, it will," he said. He had been right about everything else, I thought. But there was no possible way he could be right about this. We lay there quietly for a while. Finally, he stirred. "I don't know about you," he said. "But I have to go to the bathroom and we both need a shower." We got up and walked to the bathroom together. I watched in fascination as he lifted the toilet seat and pointed his cock toward the bowl. I had never seen a man piss before – it looked weird having always to sit myself. As his water started to splash in the bowl I impulsively said, "Can I hold it?" The stream immediately stopped. He looked at me and grinned. "Sure," he said, removing his hand. His cock immediately sagged. I reached out and grabbed it. I pointed it back toward the bowel. Nothing happened. "Don't squeeze it so tight, Little One. You're holding back my piss." I loosened my grip and watched as the golden stream resumed. After I relieved myself he turned on the shower and we climbed in together. He lathered my body. It felt good having his slippery hands run over me. When he soaped my breasts I began to get horny and when he slipped his hand between my legs I almost came right then and there. When he finished, he told me it was my turn. I took the soap and washcloth from him, lathered it and began to wash him down. When I got to his cock, it hardened immediately. I rinsed it off and dropped to my knees. I opened my mouth and took it in. I tried really hard to take him into my throat, because I knew that was what he wanted. But I always gagged when it got to the back of my throat and I just couldn't do it. He let me suck for a while and then put his hand under my arms and pulled me upright. He lifted me easily in the air so that my cunt was level with his cock. He positioned me correctly and lowered me so that he was imbedded inside me. It didn't hurt at all anymore. I wrapped my legs around him as he pushed me back against the shower wall. As he began to hunch against me it felt really good. I went up and up. I approached orgasm but for some reason couldn't quite make it. Then I knew what it was. "Hurt me," I gasped. He laughed and lifted me off of him. "Not now. We'll save that for later." We finished our shower quickly. As I was drying I happened to remember. "Oh, damnit," I said. He raised his head and looked at me. I saw the question in his eyes. "I forgot all about lunch. It's probably dried out by now." I wrapped the towel around myself and we walked to the kitchen. It was the first time since he had torn off my clothes that I hadn't been totally naked in front of him. I saw him look at me and there was lust in his eyes, but he didn't say anything. Lunch was spoiled. I had just made some ham sandwiches, but the ham was now dry. We kept the bread, threw away the ham and replaced it with fresh from the refrigerator. I saw from the clock on the wall that it was already almost five in the afternoon. As we sat there eating, I saw that he kept looking at me strangely. When we had finished he hugged me close. "Are you ready to lean how to take it down your throat?" he asked. My heart raced. "Okay," I said shakily. Back in the bedroom he pulled a strange metal device from one of the drawers. "I got this from a dentist supply house," he told me. "Now open your mouth." I immediately opened and he inserted the device in my mouth and strapped it around my head. It felt strange with the bent metal slots hooking behind my teeth. I wondered just what he was doing. "Its going to hurt some when I go down your throat," he explained as he adjusted the knobs at the side of it. I felt my mouth being pried open wide. "I know you wouldn't do it on purpose, but you might end up biting down and that wouldn't be at all good for my health. Once you get used to it, we won't need this anymore." He had me get on the bed with my head hanging over the side. He ran his hand gently down my neck. "See," he said. "This way your throat and your mouth go in a straight line. That way it's easier for you and easier for me." He went down to his knees in front of me. I could see that his cock was lined up almost exactly with my mouth. I got scared and started to raise up, but he grabbed my head with both hands and pulled it back down. He leaned forward and entered my mouth. I stopped struggling and allowed it to enter without protest. It reached the start of my throat and I began to gag again. I struggled and pushed against him trying to dislodge his cock from my mouth. He backed off a little and I stopped struggling. "Take a deep breath," he told me. I did and suddenly he lunged forward too quickly for my gag reflex to take hold and entered my throat. God, but it hurt. My throat was small and his cock was very big. It felt like he had rammed a telephone pole down there. I was squirming all over the bed, pushing against him, trying to get him to take it out. I tried to close my mouth to bite him, but the dental device held fast. The love I had thought I felt for him was now gone. I was being raped all over again and I couldn't even scream with his cock now buried deep in my throat. I couldn't breathe and it felt like I was going to suffocate. He pulled back a little and I took a deep breath. "Breathe through your nose," he said and rammed forward again. I could feel his balls slap against my nose and I knew he was all the way in. "Finger yourself," he snarled. I moved my hands down to my cunt and started to finger my clit. He started fucking my face fast and hard. I began to feel the familiar pain and pleasure that I knew would bring me to orgasm. I stuck a finger inside myself and I went off. I shook all over with pleasure. I felt him growing bigger inside my throat and I knew he was shooting his cum directly into my stomach. Finally, it ended and he pulled out. My throat was raw from having taken the unusual in and out motion of his cock. He lifted me length wise onto the bed and detached the device that was holding my mouth open. He lifted me up and brought a glass of water to my lips. I took a drink, I hadn't realized that my mouth was so dry. The water burned going down, but it did feel a little better. I rolled into his arms. He petted my head, smoothing out my hair. Then he began slowly running his hands over my back ending with his hand squeezing my little ass. I was so confused. It didn't make any sense. He hurt me terribly and yet it felt so good. How could it be? I just couldn't understand it. Maybe I was just too young. Maybe when I got older I would understand. I finally fell into a listless sleep. When I awoke, he took my mouth again – this time without the device to keep my mouth open. It still hurt like hell, but I managed to keep him from biting him. I wasn't allowed to finger myself that time and still I could feel the warmth building up in my pussy and I came with a shattering orgasm as he shot down my throat for the second time that day. As I lay in his arms again, he said lazily, "Well, honey." It was the first time he had called me by a pet name. I like that. I wished that we could just stay here forever and he could continue teaching me all the things I needed to know. I remembered my parents and my life before, but it seemed so long ago and yet I'd only been here for two days. I suddenly realized he was still talking. "Tomorrow will be the worst for you, but there's just no way I can keep it from hurting," he said. "What happens tomorrow?" I asked. "Tomorrow," he said slowly. "I'm going to take you in the asshole." Fear jumped in my throat. I rolled away and sat up on my knees looking at him with wide eyes. "It will never fit," I said hysterically. "You thought it wouldn't fit in your throat, too," he replied. He had a point. Chapter Four I spent that night sleeping in his arms. I was no longer tied. It made me feel good that he now trusted me and I knew that his trust was warranted. It may only be for a little while, but I didn't want to leave. In my twelve year old mind, I knew this was where I was intended to be. My life before this seemed like nothing but a dream. When we awoke in the morning, showered, and I fixed him breakfast. We left the dishes on the table and went to the bedroom immediately. He took me normally, and while it felt good having his cock inside of me and I knew that he enjoyed it so I felt good about that, but I just couldn't come. I realized for that to happen, I would need some pain. I wandered if this was perverted. In my mind I knew it was, but my body said differently. When we were finished, he told me to come with him to the bathroom. Obediently, I followed him. Once there, he produced what looked like a hot water bottle. My mom used to fill one with hot water and put it in my bed to keep my feet warm when I was small. I watched, fascinated, as he filled the bottle with lukewarm water. "What are you going to do?" I asked. "Give you an enema," he replied. "When I take your ass it won't hurt as much if there isn't much in there." My stomach turned over. "You still want to do that?" "Yes, Sweetheart." My heart melted when he called me that. He really cared about me. If he didn't, why would he want to make it hurt less. "Well, okay then," I said hesitantly. While we had been talking, he had attached a long rubber tube to the bottle. It had a metal clip in the middle and a little nozzle on the end. He greased the end of the nozzle with Vaseline®. He hung the water bottle on a hook in the wall and told me to lay on the floor on my left side. The tile felt cold against my naked body. He leaned down and lifted my right ass cheek slightly. "Just relax," he said. "This may be a bit uncomfortable, but it won't hurt." He pressed the nozzle against my tiny hole and pushed it inside. He was right. It didn't really hurt and it was a little bit uncomfortable. Holding the nozzle inside me with his left hand, he reached up and released the metal clip. I felt the water rushing into me. After a few seconds I yelled that I had enough. He reached up and closed the clip. "Just relax," he told me. "Rest for a few seconds and then you'll be able to take more." I tried hard to relax, but it still felt like I had a gallon of water in my ass. A few seconds later, it hurt a little less. I laid still. "Ready?", he asked and I nodded. Once again I felt more water running inside me. It took three more tries, but eventually I had taken the whole bottle full. He told me to lay still for a minute. I clenched my jaw and waited. It felt like my stomach had stretched out a yard. A few seconds later I felt something cold and hard pressing against my little hole. He pressed his left hand against my pussy and pushed hard with his right. I felt the thing stretch my ass hole what felt like a mile and then settle with a little portion about the size of the nozzle inside the hole. It hurt like hell and I screamed. "What the hell was that?" I asked hysterically. "A butt plug," he said quietly. "It will keep your bottom closed so that the water can do its work." He lifted me to my feet. I felt unbelievably cramped. I looked down and saw that my belly was distended more than it had ever been. "It won't be too much longer," he said soothingly. "Now, come on, let's go do the breakfast dishes." I took a hesitant step forward. It hurt like hell. He took my hands and guided me to the kitchen. He ran water in the sink and began washing the dishes. I was doubled over in pain as I obediently dried. When handed me the last of them I couldn't take it any longer. "I can't stand it," I screamed. "I've got to go – NOW!" I laid the wet plate on the counter and waddled as fast as I could toward the bathroom. He followed. "Straddle the toilet," he said. As I obeyed he reached behind me and pulled the plug from my ass and I sat down on the toilet immediately. As the water rushed from my asshole I could hear it splashing against the water in the toilet. After what seemed like a very long time the flow stopped. "Just sit there for a little while," he told me. "I'm going to go take care of that last dish." I sat still and a few seconds later I felt myself cramping again. I squeezed and more water came rushing out. This happened a couple of more times and eventually I felt completely empty. He returned and led me gently to the bedroom. I collapsed on the bed, completely exhausted. He brought a cover up and gently covered me. "Sleep, Little One," he said softly. When I awoke, I could feel his hands gently massaging my back as I lay on my stomach. His hands moved further down and I felt him needing my ass cheeks. It was extremely soothing. "Oooh, that feels good," I said softly. He chuckled. "I like making you feel good, darling. It's only fair because you make me feel very good too, you know." I felt him spread my cheeks and press his finger against my ass hole. I felt a tingle in my pussy when he did that. He gently ran his finger around the outside of it. It was very slippery. I opened my eyes and saw the tube of KY Jelly® lying on the night stand and I knew why it was so slippery. He slipped his finger inside me. It hardly hurt at all. Actually, it felt kind of good. He climbed from the bed. "Well, Sweetheart, it's time." "Time for what?" I asked drowsily. "Time for you to loose your last virginity." I shook my head and came awake instantly. He was going to do it. He was ACTUALLY going to do it. I felt the rope that he hadn't used since the first night going around my wrist. "I'm sorry to have to do this, love," he told me as he fastened the rope to my other wrist. "But if you squirm around its going to hurt a lot worse." He shoved to pillows under my crotch and tied my legs to the other two bed posts. I was now spread- eagled with my ass high in the air. I was suddenly very scared. "Please," I begged. "I don't want to do this. Please, please, please." "I'm sorry, dear, but I don't have much time. I figure they'll probably find us by tomorrow, so you'll just have to be brave and take it. I do have something that will make it a little easier, though." I felt the cold plastic of a penis shaped vibrator pressing against my cunt. He pushed it into me and turned it on. He used two pieces of adhesive tape in an "X" shape to keep it in place. I could feel the excitement rising as the thing vibrated within me. He reached for the tube of KY and greased the middle and index fingers of his right hand. He held my cheeks apart with his left hand and unceremoniously rammed both fingers right up my exposed asshole. I groaned with the slight pain that joined the pleasure rising in my cunt. He wiggled his fingers around and pulled them part way out, spreading then and making the pain just a little more. He removed his fingers and I saw the KY removed from the night stand once again. "I'm greasing my cock for you, love," he told me. "But don't be deceived. Its still going to hurt like hell. Just buck up and take it." I was shaking all over. "I'll try," I told him. Tears were already streaming down my face because I knew what was coming. I felt him spreading my cheeks and centering himself against my tiny hole. "Hear it comes darling," he said and suddenly rammed his way forward with all his might. My sphincter never had a chance. One minute he was pressing lightly and the next minute he was all the way inside my ass. And then the pain hit. "TAKE IT OUT! EEEEEEHEEE! IT HURTS SO BAD! PLEASE! PLEASE! TAKE IT OUT!" He never gave me a chance to even try to adjust to him. He was just fucking in and out of my ass hole for all he was worth. The pain was unbelievable, unbearable. I screamed and screamed. Slowly, the vibrator in my cunt began to do its work. The pain lessened just a little and the pleasure increased a lot. I could feel myself rising toward the greatest orgasm of my entire life. I was still screaming, but it was with pleasure and the combination of great pain along with it. I felt him stiffen within me and I knew he was shooting his man cream into my bowels. That knowledge was all it took and I went over the edge. YESSSS! OH GOD, YESSS! I'M CUUUMMMING!" And then it was over. He slumped against me with his entire weight on my back. His shrinking cock still in my ass. He rolled off of me and I could feel a combination of his cum and my blood flowing out of me. He looked at my hole. "Oh God," he said. "I tore you up a lot more than I thought I would. I'm so sorry. Let me get a rag and clean you up." As he started to crawl from the bed, a bull horn blared from outside. "We know your in there Phillips. Come out with your hands in the air. God help you if you killed that little girl." He looked at me. "It's time, darling. I guess I won't have time to clean you up or hold you close like I had planned." He reached into a drawer and pulled out gun. He walked quickly to the bed and leaned over to kiss me gently. "Goodbye, my love." "Don't go," I begged but he pulled away, walked through the kitchen and out the door. There was silence for a minute and then I heard him yelling something. There was a gunshot and then what sounded like twenty guns going off at once. Then there was silence. I heard footsteps in the kitchen. I was crying piteously. I heard the bedroom door open and a strange male voice say, "OH MY GOD." He ran to the bed and began untying me. "Your safe now," he said. "We'll take care of you." I looked up at him. "Mr. Phillips, is he..." "That bastard will never hurt anybody again. There must be ten bullets in him. It's the strangest thing though. The last thing he said before he died was - Tell Lisa I love her." I started to sob uncontrollably. Oh Bill, my poor, poor dear sweet Bill. I had loved him so. He had told me, but I never believed it would really happen. The idiot cop who had "rescued" me didn't have the foggiest notion what was going on. He kept saying things like "its okay, he can't hurt you anymore." Then everything went black. Chapter Five Learning to Cope I woke up in the hospital. The sheets were cool against my body and that felt good, but my ass hurt like hell and I didn't really want to even open my eyes. I felt a gentle kiss placed on my forehead. I opened my eyes. She was just pulling back from having kissed me. Tears were running down her face. "Hi mom," I said weakly. Her face broke into a wide smile. "Its okay, darling," she said reassuringly. "Everything's going to be alright." Her smile suddenly faded. "We'll work through this whole thing together." "Damn right we will,' came the masculine voice from the bottom of the bed. I looked down and saw my dad standing at the bottom of the bed. I was into the hospital for a week and then I was released. I still had a few bruises but otherwise I was okay physically. Mentally, I was a wreck. I stayed at home for a week, never leaving the house. My parents were both very condescending and if I ever asked for anything one or the other of them would jump up and get it for me immediately. About two days after I got there, we were all sitting in the living room watching reruns of "I Love Lucy." When it was over, my mom turned off the TV and turned to look at me. "Your dad and I have been talking and we want you to know that we're not ever going to press you to know what happened. But if you ever feel like talking, we want you to know that both of us are more than willing to listen." "What's there to talk about," I said bitterly. I was extremely upset. It had finally sunk in that they had killed my precious Bill and I would never see him again. "I was kidnapped and raped, but I survived and that should be that." "It's okay," my father said softly. "Dr. Jones said that it might be better if you talked with a professional. He recommended a Dr. Lewis that's had a lot of experience in dealing with situations like this. We've made an appointment for next Monday." "I'm not going," I said stubbornly. "I want to go back to school on Monday. I've already missed three weeks and I'll never catch up if I don't go back now." "We'll see," my father replied. Even though I argued hard that I was okay and just needed to get back to school and get back to a normal life, I ended up sitting in the waiting room of Dr. Lewis on Monday. It was a small waiting room with only about three chairs. My mother and I were the only ones there except for the receptionist at the front desk. When we arrived, she had given us a bunch of papers to fill out. A lot of it was the normal stuff – height, wait, and a list of diseases to check off the one's you had had. There was also a list of stuff to be filled out by women only – date of last period, age at first sexual intercourse, etc. My mother had been filling it out to that point. I noticed a tear come to the corner of her eye when she came to the age at first sexual intercourse blank when she filled it in with 12. I had no problem with anything she put down until she came to the blank that said "Reason for Visit". She paused for a moment and then filled it in with "Rape Counseling." "May I have that," I asked her. She handed it over to me without question. I crossed out "Rape Counseling" with very black ink so it couldn't be read and entered "Private" in the blank. I had just finished that when the door to the receptionist left opened up and Kelly came walking out. Kelly was a couple of grades ahead of me and about three years older since she had failed a grade. There was a lot of talk around school about what a slut she was. "Hi Lisa," she said cheerfully. "I heard about what happened to you. I'm really sorry about that." She turned toward the rather good looking man who had followed her out. "But if anyone can help you to deal with it, I'm sure Frank can. "I've told you over and over, Kelly, it's Dr. Phillips," he said. His voice was deep and completely masculine. "Yeah, I'm sorry." She seemed a bit crestfallen. But she cheered up almost instantly. "I know for sure he's really been a big help to me. Well, I'll see you later," she said as she walked out the door. "Yeah, sure Kelly," I mumbled. I was suddenly very scared. It had never occurred to me before that everyone at school would know what had happened. I should have known as it was in all the papers. I looked at Dr. Phillips. He was about six foot tall with a square jaw, well groomed blond hair, and the bluest eyes I had ever seen. I guessed him to be in his late thirties or early forties. He walked toward me, extending his hand. "And you must be Lisa," he said. "I'm Dr. Phillips. His handshake was firm and mine felt extremely small as I gripped it. He broke the handshake and turned toward my mother. "And you must be Lisa's mother," he said extending his hand toward her. "Yes, I'm Mrs. Goff," she replied. "I'm very glad to meet you." He turned back toward me. "Well, we better get started, won't you come in to my office." My mother arose to accompany us. He looked at her. "It would be better if I talked to her alone this first time. Eventually, I'll want to talk to both you and your husband." She sat back down. I walked into his office with him following. He closed the door behind him, walked around me and sat down at his desk. "Have a seat Lisa." He indicated a leather bound chair in front of the desk. I sat down and looked around the office. It consisted of his desk with two leather bound chairs in front of it, two easy chairs facing each other with a small round coffee table in between them, and a filing cabinet in one corner of the room. One wall had about six different diplomas hanging on it. I guess he had spent a lot of time in school. I turned back to look at him. He had remained silent while I was looking around. He smiled, "Does it meet with your approval?" I couldn't help it. I had intended to be sullen, but I sort of liked this guy. I smiled back, "No psychiatrist couch?" He chuckled. "We don't use them much anymore. When I first started out I had one, but after my first patient fell asleep while I was talking, I pitched it." I laughed. "I can see how that wouldn't have been too good for your ego." He turned serious. He leaned forward and touched a button on a small machine sitting on his desk. "If you don't mind, I'm going to record our sessions so that I can analyze them later. You don't mind do you?" I shook my head to indicate that it was okay. "Well, I guess you went through a very traumatic experience a few weeks ago." Suddenly I was very nervous. "I guess it was," I mumbled. "Want to tell me about it? How you feel and how you think it will affect your life." "I don't think it will have any affect on my life. It was just one of those things that happened and I just want to forget about it and get on with my life." He placed his hands together with the two index fingers pointing up. He placed them across his mouth pointing at his nose. He didn't say anything. He just looked at me. [Author's note: This is technique used by many psychiatrists. It is known as steepling.] I couldn't stand it any more, the silence and all the while those lake blue eyes staring into mine. "I mean, I'm really upset about the way they killed Bill, but there's nothing that I can do about it, so like I said I just want to forget about the whole thing and get on with my life. Bill really wasn't such a bad guy you know. He was dying of cancer anyway and I'm just glad I was able to bring a little happiness to his final days." I took a breath. He lowered his hands, "That was a real mouthful. Would you care to elaborate?" "I don't think so, Dr. Phillips. I don't like talking about it." "Call me Frank." "You just jumped all over Kelly for that." "She knows the rules. During a session you can call me by my first name. When the session is over, you call me Dr. Phillips. Understand?" It sounded a little strange to me, but I nodded that I understood. "But we're getting off the subject," he said. "Why do you suppose it is that you don't like talking about it?" "Actually, I don't feel like talking about anything anymore. I don't know why, but suddenly I'm extremely tired." "Finding out about yourself can have that effect." He looked at his watch. "Our time is about up anyway so why don't we call it a day. We'll take up where we left off next week." "Okay." I started to get up. "Oh, one other thing, Frank. Can I go back to school?" "I don't see why not. Just be aware that the students may treat you differently." I hadn't thought much about that, but I knew he was right. "Will you tell my mother?" "Sure." On the way home in the car, my mother kept questioning me about what had happened. But I steadfastly refused to talk about it except to say that I thought going to him for a while would be a lot of help. Over the next several months I learned to accept myself for who I was. And, although I'm not sure Dr. Phillips would approve of the solution I came up with, I was finally at peace with myself. Chapter Six Back to School Going back to school was one of the strangest experiences of my life. Because some of the students had helped search for me and others had read about it in the newspapers, there was almost no one in the whole school who didn't at least have some idea about what had happened to me. Of course, among the girls, everyone tried to be friendly but there was an undercurrent that told me that the crowd I had originally been a part of now considered me to be little better than a slut. Strangely, the group of girls that we had looked down on because of their loose morals now considered me one of their own. It didn't matter that I had been raped. I now knew what sex was all about and to little seventh and eighth grade sluts that somehow made me a hero. The boys fell into two major categories, the one's who chose to simply ignore me walking by and never looking at me and the one's who thought I was now fair game for their advances. Being in a Junior/Senior high school with grades seven through twelve all crowded into one building, it was inevitable that I would see a lot of older boys. I'm not sure why, but this made me extremely uncomfortable. I still remember walking past a group of about seven junior boys. There were a few low whistles and cat calls and I could feel each of them stripping me with their eyes. One of them came up to me and grabbed my breasts, one in each hand – right there in front of God and everybody. I dropped my books and slapped him across the face as hard as I could. He backed off instantly and brought one hand to the side of his reddened face where I had slapped him. Then his whole face turned red as the other boys laughed at him. That made me feel good. Served the bastard right. The first week was extremely rough, but gradually my experience and what had happened to me faded in the memory of most of the students when they saw that I was the same person I had always been…well, almost the same. I wasn't even close to the same, but I didn't let it show to anyone, not even myself. I guess it was inevitable. About two weeks after I had returned I bumped into Ken. I mean literally bumped into him. I was hurrying to class not watching where I was going and ran into him almost knocking him down. "HEY, watch where you're going," he yelled. "Why don't you…" He stopped suddenly, realizing who had ran into him. His face turned red. "Lisa." "Hi ken. How's it going?" I said sweetly. "I…Umm…okay I guess. My dad bought me a car yesterday. I've got my license now you know?" "Oh, what are you going to call it? Ken's rape-mobile?" I said it softly giving no hint of the deep anger I felt toward him. "Look, Lisa. I'm sorry about what happened at the dance. I really like you a lot and I was a total jackass." "Yes you were," I said bitterly. "And because of it, I got raped." He looked miserable. "I – I know and I'm really, really sorry." Just then the bell rang. We were both going to be late for class. "Got to go," I said cheerily. "Give me a call sometime." I turned and walked away from him. I don't know why, but as I walked I swung my hips in as sexy a manner as I knew how. I could almost feel his eyes glued to my ass. At home that night I stripped off all my clothes and stood in front of the full length mirror in my bedroom. I liked what I saw. I had just turned thirteen and already my breasts were like small peaches – bigger than an "A" cup but not quite a "B" yet. My stomach was firm and flat. The bush at the "V" between my legs was light and almost invisible. Almost involuntarily my hand crept to the hole that Bill had brought so much pleasure to. I stuck a finger inside. It felt tight. I added a second finger, backed up a bit and collapsed backwards onto my bed. I used the heel of my hand to rub up and down on my clit while my fingers danced around inside me. I imagined Bill was fucking me again. I went higher and higher. Oh God, how I missed that hard cock of his. I kept going up and up but the much desired orgasm just wouldn't come. Then I remembered and reached up with my left hand and squeezed my nipple as hard as I could. I dug in my fingernails and pulled my tit away from my body as far as it would go. The addition of the pain was enough to drive me over the edge. It wasn't a crashing orgasm or anything like that but it was enough to leave me somewhat satisfied. I reached up, turned out the light and rolled over to go to sleep. My last thought before sleep overtook me was to wonder if Ken's cock could maybe bring me as much pleasure as Bill's had. Chapter Seven It's All About Ken "Lisa, telephone," my mother called up the stairs. I groggily awakened from my dream. I had been back with Bill tied on my stomach and he was running in and out of my ass. This time it didn't hurt, it just felt good. He had told me it would. To give me the pain I needed, he had pushed needles through both nipples and my clit. I wasn't ready to give up the dream. I rolled over and tried to go back to sleep. "LISA, TELEPHONE," my mother yelled again. It wasn't going to work. She wasn't going to let up. Sleepily, I crawled out of bed, threw on a robe, and stumbled down the stairs. "I think its THAT boy," my mother said extending the telephone in my direction. I stifled a yawn as I wondered who "that boy" was and took the phone from her. "Hello," I said sleepily. The voice at the other end of the phone was hesitant. "Hello Lisa, it's Ken." I came awake a little. "What do YOU want." I couldn't resist a little dig. "As if I didn't know." "Aw come on Lisa. I'm really sorry. I really do like you and I'd like a chance to make it up to you." I softened a little, but I still wasn't ready to let him off the hook. "Oh Ken, you beg so nicely." "Lisa, PLEASE?" I was fully awake now. I glanced out the window and saw that it was a beautiful sunny day outside. I remembered my last thought before I had fallen asleep last night. "Just what do you have in mind Ken?" He was hesitant. "Well, there's a matinee playing at the Roxy. It's a love story. I think you'd like it." "Promise you'll be good?" "Of course I do. I learned my lesson last time." "Okay, I'll ask my mom." Mom gave me a little static, but relented when I pointed our that it was daylight and we'd be home before dark. I dressed carefully. I chose my shortest black skirt, black panties, and a white blouse that almost, but not quite let my breasts show through. I didn't bother with a bra. Ken arrived around one, told my mother we'd be home by 6:30 and we were off. I was pleased to see that his old car had bench seats rather than bucket seats. As soon as we were out of sight of the house, I slid over next to him and he put his arm around my shoulder. I wondered just how I should approach what I wanted. "Ken?" "Yes?" "Do you really want to see that old movie?" "Whatever you want. Today is your day." "Why don't we just drive around for a little bit." He stopped for gas and then drove out onto route 322. I knew that would take us passed Steve's Motel. Steve's was famous for renting rooms out in two hour blocks. I'd heard some of the older girls talking about it at school. We were about a half a mile from the motel when I finally screwed up my courage. "Why don't you stop at Steve's and rent a room for four hours? It only costs about $20.00." I thought he was going to wreck the car. When he finally got it back under control I could feel him take a deep breath. "Are you sure?" "I'm sure." Ken pulled into the motel. At the drive-up window the attendant looked in the car window. "You are both over 18 aren't you," he asked. Ken assured him we were. I'm sure it was obvious to the attendant that I wasn't even close to 18, but he just chose to ignore it. He collected the money, gave Ken a key and directed him to one of the little cabins way in the back. There was space between the cabins to park a car so they couldn't be seen from the road. Ken parked and we got out. Inside the place was really a dive. The only light was from a bare bulb hanging from the ceiling. There was a large bed covered only by sheets and one pillow. A door in the back led to a small bathroom that had only a washbasin and a toilet. Ken turned on the light in the bathroom and pulled the door partway shut. He turned off the overhead bulb and the place was plunged into hear blackness with only a little light coming from the bathroom. Now that we were here I was a little bit nervous. I sat down on the edge of the bed since there was nowhere else to sit. Ken sat down beside me. He turned my head and looked directly into my eyes. "Look Lisa, I'd be lying if I told you I didn't want to do this, but if you don't want to its okay." "I think you know that I was raped Ken, it's no secret. That hurt like hell. I want, no I need to find out if its better with someone I like." "Oh Lisa," he mumbled. He took me in his arms and kissed me gently. We fell back on the bed never braking the kiss. I scooted around to allow him room to get in beside me. The kiss became more passionate. His tongue darted into my mouth. I pushed back with my own tongue. It felt good, really good. His hand went to my right breast and squeezed it gently. It felt okay, but I wished he would be a little rougher. His hands fumble with the buttons on my blouse. Damn, wasn't he ever going to get it open. Bill would have just ripped it open. Thinking about Bill got me a little more excited. I could feel myself beginning to get wet. Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, he got my blouse open and exposed my small tits. He raised up a little to look down at me. "God, you're beautiful," he mumbled softly. He went down a little and sucked gently on my left breast. "Bite it a little," I begged, but he just kept on doing what he was doing. It really wasn't doing a thing for me. I mean, it was pleasant enough, but not enough to really get me excited. His hand went between my legs and squeezed my left thigh. He was a little bit rough with it and I could feel myself beginning to get a little excited. His hand moved higher and rubbed against the crotch of my panties. They were wet, but not sopping like they would have been if Bill were here. He removed his hand and fumbled with the button at the side of my skirt. He finally got it open and slide down the zipper. He raised up and opened his belt. Then he was pushing his pants and underwear down at the same time. While he was doing this I sat up and let my blouse slide down my arms and off. I looked at his cock. It was hard as a rock. It looked really delicious and I really wanted to suck it, but I wasn't going to do it unless he forced me or at least asked. He reached down and slide my skirt and panties down and off at the same time. I was naked in front of him. He jumped between my legs, centered himself and carefully pushed his cock into my cunt. He slowly slide in an out of me. It didn't hurt or anything, but I really didn't feel a thing. I wasn't even close to building towards an orgasm. He began to speed up and I knew he wouldn't last long. I didn't want to hurt his feelings or anything like that so I moaned and squealed and pretended I was really into it. Then he was really slamming into me. He started talking. "Oh yes Lisa. You're so good. I just love it. Do you feel my cock going into your tight little cunt?" "Oh God, yessss! Fuck me good. Fill my pussy with your creamy man juice. Fuck me. Fuck me. Fuck me." All I really wanted was for it to be over. He was really pounding it in me now. I wrapped my legs around his ass and bucked up towards him. I could feel him growing bigger inside me and I knew he was close. He stiffened above me. "I'm cumming," he gasped. I felt his cock twitch inside me and I knew he was shooting off. He collapsed on top of me. I felt like I was being crushed. I unwrapped my legs from around him and he rolled off still gasping for air. When he recovered his breath, he started to talk. "That was really good." "Yes it was," I lied. Chapter EIGHT Finding Myself Over the next three years I think I fucked practically every guy in the school. I became known as the girl who was easy. I knew the were calling me "Lisa round heels" and worse behind my back, but I didn't care. I was always searching for that one great crashing orgasm like I had experienced with Bill. I never found it. When I turned 16 I got my driver's license and my dad bought me an old, but very serviceable car. I got a job working at McDonalds after school and, for a while, I was able to still the longing between my legs. I continued to work almost full time during that first summer. When my parents went on vacation to the mountains for four weeks (Dad had a lot of vacation time) I had to work and convinced them that I was safe to stay by myself. The first week was relatively uneventful. I worked every day up until Friday when I had a date with Mike. The sex that night was less exciting than it had ever been before. It was then that I decided on a plan – after all, I had to do something. The following Thursday I called in sick. At the same time I told them that I felt so bad that I probably wouldn't be in until Monday. The manager was very understanding and told me to take as much time as I needed. With the problem of work out of the way, I packed some clothes into a suit case, threw it into the car and I was off. I drove to a mid-sized town about fifty miles from home. Since I had never been there before, I drove around for a while learning the town. I finally found what I was looking for, a rundown area with a lot of bars and some really rough looking characters. I then checked into a motel about ten blocks from the area that I had found paying for three nights in advance. I went to a five and dime store and bought one of those little metal boxes with a magnet on it. You're supposed to use it to hide an extra car key under the bumper in case you lock yourself out of the car. I intended to hide it under the bumper, but it wouldn't contain a car key. By the time I had completed my preparations it was nearly five in the afternoon and I was getting hungry. I had a big dinner at the motel restaurant and went to my room. I took off my clothes and stood naked in front of the full length mirror. I liked what I saw. I had small, but perky breasts. My legs were firm and solid and there was no sign of a bulge in my stomach. The vee between my legs was covered with a soft, thin down. All in all, I looked like the very pretty sixteen year old girl that I was. I took a long, lingering shower, called the front desk to get a wakeup call at ten that evening and sprawled out, still naked, on the bed. I was asleep within minutes. When the walkup call came, it took me a few seconds to realize where I was. I quickly recovered from that and turned on the bedside light. I laid back and felt sleep begin to overtake me. I realized just in time what was happening and quickly jumped up. I thought about what I was about to do and fear knotted up in my stomach. At the same time, my pussy was wetter than it had ever been - since Bill that is. I happened to remember, and called my parents to tell them that I would be spending the weekend with a friend at their summer cabin. They wanted to know the number, but I told them that there was no phone and I would call them on Monday when I got home. I dressed very carefully. I chose white nylon panties and a white cotton bra. Over that I wore a see-threw white blouse and a mid-length black skirt. Saddle shoes and bobby socks completed the arrangement. I sat down before the mirror, applied a base coat and just a slight amount of rouge. I chose a bright red lipstick which I applied liberally. I pulled my hair back into a ponytail, dropped the motel key into the metal box, placed it in my purse, and walked out the door, locking it behind me. I was almost shaking with fear as I placed the metal box behind the front bumper of my car. As I arose, I wasn't sure my legs were going to hold me up. I stood there for a few moments until I got hold of myself and then walked down the sidewalk resolutely toward the area I had examined previously. About half-way there I spotted a small diner. I went in and ordered a hamburger, fries, and a Coke. I noticed that some of the men in the place were looking at me strangely, but I chose to ignore them. I completed the hamburger and fries. I lingered over the Coke for a long time wondering if I had the courage to face what I wanted to do. I knew it was dangerous and I wondered idly if I would come back alive to eat here again. I almost felt like a condemned man eating his last meal. I realized that I was putting off the inevitable and finally arose and walked out the door. I walked determinedly toward my goal. It was a warm, pleasant night, but I hardly noticed. There was one lone street light in the last three blocks, the others having been long ago shot out. Ahead of me, the red neon sign blurted out "SAM'S BAR". I managed to reach it without incident. I stood outside it trying to summon my courage. Outwardly, I may have appeared calm, but I was shaking all over inside. Finally, taking a deep breath, I pushed the door open and walked in. Inside, it was fairly dark except for a light over a table in the far left hand corner. I saw that there were three black men sitting around it playing cards. At a table in front of them, a pretty black lady was sitting quietly drinking a beer. To my right was a long bar with an older white man standing behind it. He looked to be about fifty and had a huge pot belly. Looking around, I didn't see anybody else. I took a deep breath. It smelled like piss, stale beer, and sweat. I kind of nauseated me. The crotch of my panties was so wet that I was almost afraid I had peed myself. I walked to the third stool in and hopped up on it. The bartender approached. "What can I do for you?" I jumped as his deep voice penetrated the silence. "Give me a draft beer," I said shakily. He looked at me critically. "How old are you, girl?" "Twenty-one," I lied. "Can I see some identification." "I don't have any," I said truthfully. I had left my driver's license and anything else that might identify me back at the motel. "Then I'm afraid you'll have to leave. I could lose my license." I felt an arm and a hand come around my shoulder. "Now, Pete, if the lady says she's twenty-one, she's twenty- one." I looked up to see who had spoken. It was one of the black men from the table in the back. I looked back to the bartender. "Whatever you say, Tom," he said pushing a glass of beer in front of me. There was sweat running down his face and he looked really scared. But that was okay because so was I. Tom picked up my beer with his left hand and twirled me around and off of the bar stool, his right hand still being around my shoulder. "Come on, I'll introduce you to Linda. I bet the two of you have a lot in common." "Wait," I mumbled. "I have to pay for my drink." I tried to turn back, but he held me firm steering me toward the table where the young black girl was sitting. "Tonight's ladies night and all drinks for pretty ladies are free," he said. Over his shoulder he said, "Isn't that right, Pete." "Whatever you say, Tom." I almost felt sorry for him. We reached the table where the girl was sitting. "Linda," Tom started. "I'd like you to meet…" He looked at me blankly. "Just what is you name anyway?" "Lisa," I said timidly. He sat me down in the chair beside Linda rather forcefully. "Anyway, Lisa's decided to join our little party tonight," he said and returned to the table and his game. Once it got quiet again, Linda said quietly, "I'm really glad you're here. When I have take all three of these guys by myself, I'm so sore it's unbelievable. If it were only one time a piece it wouldn't be so bad, but these fuckers go on and on. Tom always fucks at least five times before he's done. George is good for at least three or four and Eric is at least two. You're going to have one sore pussy by the time the night's over, but with the two of us it won't be so bad." As I sat listening, my mouth dropped open. "You mean…they're going to…force us," I asked timidly. "If they have to. I've learned its better if you just go with the flow and let them do whatever they want." Now I was terrified. I stood up. "I've got to go," I said excitedly. I turned to walk toward the door. I hadn't taken three steps when Tom was on me. He literally picked me up from behind pinning my arms to my sides. I struggled as hard as I could, but he was so much bigger than me that it was futile. He looked over to the bartender. "Close up and get lost, Pete. We're going to start early tonight." I heard blinds being drawn as I was carried over to the table where the other men were waiting. I was thrown unceremoniously on the table as small lights came on throughout the bar. As I heard the front door close and latch, large black hands were pawing at my tits. I struggled like a wild cat. I was jerking and wiggling and begging. Oh how I was begging. "NO, PLEASE NO! DON'T! OH GOD! PLEASE DON'T!" George was standing beside me mauling my tits. Chico was holding my left ankle and Tom was holding my right, spreading me wide. I knew that my skirt had ridden up almost to my waist and that they were looking right at the crotch of my little white panties. I was embarrassed, not so much from the fact that they could see my panties, but because they could also see the wet spot there from where my juices were flowing so rapidly. I rolled a little to my left and punched George in the face as hard as I could. "You little bitch," he snarled. He hit me on the side of the face hard enough that I was sure he had loosened some teeth. "Grab her hands on hold her," Tom yelled. I tried to keep my arms and hands free, but in the end he had them pulling them above my head. In the tussle for my hands, Chico had loosened his grip on my left ankle. I pulled free and kicked in the chest, knocking him back. I rolled to my right and brought my left foot as hard as I could against Tom's face. He flinched, but didn't let go. I could see blood running down his right cheek where my buckle had caught him. Chico was back, grabbed my left ankle again and I was right back where I had started from. I lay there gasping for breath and sobbing softly. "Linda," Tom barked. "Get your black ass over here and hold her hands. And if you let go, I'll cut your tits off." I felt Georges had hands being replace by Linda's softer ones. "I told you it would be easier if you just cooperated," Linda said quietly. George was standing at my right now. He gripped the top of my blouse and pulled. I heard buttons popping as it pulled open. I heard the click as he opened his switchblade. "Oh God," I thought. "He's going to kill me." Instead he slipped the blade between the cups of my bra, cut it open. He closed the knife and slipped it back in his pocket. The cups were move away and my tits were naked for all to see. He grabbed them and twisted so hard that I thought he was going to twist them right off. I was screaming now. "STOP IT! STOP IT! LEAVE ME ALONE!" "Quit playing with the slut's tits and hold this leg," Tom barked. George grabbed the leg Tom had been holding and Tom stepped between my legs. I felt Tom grabbing the crotch of my panties. He ripped them from my body taking some of my pubic hair along with and I was naked except for my skirt bunched around my waist and my spread open blouse. I watched numbly as Tom undid his belt and dropped his pants to the floor. My mouth dropped open in horror when his erect penis sprang into view. It must have been at least nine inches long and as big around as my wrist. It was the biggest thing I had ever seen and I knew that there was no way it was going to fit inside me. He saw the look of horror on my face. He laughed. "Man, I'll tell you, there's nothing I like more than tearing apart a little white girl's cunt." "Pleaaase," I begged pitifully. "It's too big. It will never fit." He grinned. "Then I guess we'll just have to make it fit." Then to the men holding my ankles, "Spread her wide boys, I'm going to go deep." George and Chico pulled on my legs until they were almost at a ninety degree angle from my body. I felt the big knob of his huge cock pressing against my tiny pussy hole. He pushed and, unbelievably, the head was inside of me. I felt stretched beyond what was humanly possible. I screamed. "OH GOD. STOP! STOP! PLEASE STOP! YOU'RE TEARING ME APART. I CAN'T TAKE IT! AAAAAAIIIIIEEE!!" He grinned down at me evilly. Sure you can slut. Get ready cause there's a lot more to come. With that he lunged forward again. I screamed and screamed. Tears were running down my face uncontrollably. I looked down between my legs. Surely there couldn't be any more. To my horror I saw that there was still another inch and a half to go. He was already banging against my cervix. There wasn't any place for any more to go. He withdrew slightly and lunged forward again. I felt something tearing inside me as he tore through my cervix and into my uterus. I screamed again and then everything went black. I returned to consciousness as the beer somebody had thrown into my face streamed down my cheeks mingling with my tears. I had never felt so stuffed in my entire life. He was holding still inside me apparently not wanting me to miss any of the pain he was bringing me. When he saw that I was conscious again, he began fucking in and out of me. I was in unbelievable pain and, yet, through the pain I could feel the start of the biggest orgasm of my life approaching. I suddenly realized that my legs were free. I wrapped my legs around him and began humping against him as he fucked and fucked and fucked. "OH, YESSSS! FUCK ME GOOD YOU BIG BEAUTIFUL BLACK STALLION!" I was moaning incoherently from the pain and yet loving every minute of it. I felt something probing at my lips and I looked up to see George's cock pressing against them. I opened my mouth and took him inside. In the background I could hear Chico cursing at Linda as he fucked her brutally. I didn't care about her. All I could think about was the beautiful cocks that were bring me such pain and pleasure. I was glad that Bill had taught me so well about cock sucking. I relaxed my throat muscles and felt George plunge down it length. Within seconds he was pouring his cum directly into my stomach. And still Tom was above me plunging and plunging and plunging. I really threw myself into it now. Meeting Tom's every stroke with my upward ass movement. I felt him grow and stiffen in side me. That was enough. It drove me over the edge. "OH GOD! I'M CUMMING! CUMMING SO GOOD! YES! YES! YES!" The rest of the evening is pretty much of a haze. It was just one orgasm after another, each it seemed better than the last. I know that both Chico and George fucked me in the ass and Tom took my mouth at least once. I remember that because I thought my throat was going to spit open with that massive cock pushing down it. I felt someone shaking me. I looked up sleepily and saw Linda staring down at me. "You've got to get out of here," she whispered. "If you're still here when they wake up, they'll kill you." I looked around groggily. The men were passed out in various places around the bar. Apparently the combination of all the booze and sex had finally worn them out. I tried to climb to my feet, but my legs were so weak that I couldn't make it. With Linda's help I finally got up. I hurt all over, even in places where I didn't know I had places. My skirt was still bunched up around my waist. It was stiff with dried cum and blood. I looked around and found my blouse. It had a tear in one side and there were no buttons, but if I held it shut at least it would cover my tits. I found my shoes and slipped into them. It wasn't much, but it was the best I could do under the circumstances. I was ready to go. I quietly opened the door and was ready to slip out when I had a thought. I turned to Linda. "What about you?" I whispered. "They won't hurt me much," she whispered back. I looked at her questioningly. "To begin with I'm their fuck slut and secondly, I'm Tom's sister. Now get out of here," she hissed. I closed the door quietly. I looked around. It was still dark. I guessed it would be around 5:00 a.m. I took a step toward the motel and almost collapsed. The pain that shot through my pussy and ass hole was unbelievable. I took another step with the same result. I stepped keeping my legs far apart. It still hurt but at least it was bearable. Slowly, painfully, I made my way back to the motel. I retrieved the key and made it into my room without incident. I collapsed on the bed and fell into a long, fitful sleep. When I finally awoke, it was six o'clock Saturday afternoon. I lay awake for several minutes, hurting. Hurting hell…it felt like my body had been run over by a steam roller... twice. Painfully, I rolled to my back. I reached between my legs and flicked my clit a couple of times. I immediately went into a long, painful, beautiful orgasm. My body shook all over and then it started again…and again. It was as if my body was nothing but one long painful orgasm. Slowly though, probably because my poor body was too exhausted to go on, the orgasms became less and less intense and, finally, they stopped completely. I lay there gasping for breath until finally my breathing returned to normal. I immediately fell back to sleep. When I awoke again, it must have been around midnight because it was dark outside and my room was completely dark. For a second I didn't know where I was and then I remembered. The pain had retreated to a dull all over ache. With difficulty, I rolled onto my side, reached for the bedside lamp and flicked it on. The sudden influx of light blinded me for a second. I closed my eyes and then carefully opened them again. I sat up on the side of the bed with my legs dangling over the side, my feet on the floor. With more pain than I had felt since I woke up, I stood up and walked to the bathroom. I flicked on the light. When I turned to the mirror above the sink, I was shocked. The image that stared back at me was no longer the beautiful sixteen year old girl that it had been when I left the previous night. My hair was a tangled mess. There was a nasty bruise at the corner of my mouth and dried cum covered my cheeks and around my chin and lips. I covered my eyes with my hands. Oh God, I thought. What did I do. I didn't want to see anymore. Tears began to well in my eyes. Finally, I removed my hands to examine the rest of me. My tits were nothing but one total mess of black and blue. There were teeth marks around the nipples of both of them. I looked lower. My pussy was totally covered with a crust of dried blood and cum. My thighs were bruised with spots of blood and cum covering parts of the bruising. I reached down and pulled the scab away from on top of my pussy. That really hurt because some hair came along with it, but I knew it had to be done. I gently pushed a finger inside myself to see what additional damage have been done. I shouldn't have done that because I immediately went into another massive orgasm. When I finally calmed down I was lying on the bathroom floor. I climbed back to my feet and looked over my shoulder to examine my ass. Like my tits, it was black and blue although not quite as bad. There was a huge hand print on either cheek. I remembered with a shudder how bad it had hurt when Tom had taken me with that huge cock of his in that tiny little hole. I spread the cheeks and was shocked to see that my ass hole was still gapping open a little. I wondered if it would ever go back to normal. I took a long shower and felt immensely better afterward. After fixing my hair up a little, I went back in the bedroom and collapsed naked upon it. I was asleep almost immediately. I awoke around noon on Sunday, checked out of the motel and drove home. By the time my parents returned home about two weeks later, I was almost back to normal. I had returned to work and it was as if what had happened had never occurred. Epilogue Well, that's my story. About six months after the events I have related, I returned to that same bar. They actually seemed glad to see me, but that didn't keep them from taking me like the slut that I am. I graduated from high school near the top of my class. I college I graduated summa cum laude with a degree in economics. I landed a position with a top flight company and have an opportunity to go to the top. I'm that sweet little girl in finance who never seems to be able to land a boyfriend. Not a one of them suspects my darker side. Yet, about every six months, when the pressure become too great, I go to some nearby city and put myself in a position where violent men will take me mercilessly. Occasionally, I will find myself so bruised and battered that I have to take off work for a few days. Of course the nice people at work feel sorry that I am not feeling well since I'm normally there every day and will work late at the drop of a hat. One of these day I'm going to me a man who is too violent and he will kill me. I'll be dead? OH GOD, SOMEBODY, PLEASE HELP ME!! ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ This story was written as an adult fantasy. The author does not condone the described behavior in real life. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Kristen's collection - Directory 39