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   As Sammi chlmbed on the school floater for the ride home she wondered
what was going on.  Her mother had been unusally firm about her being sure
to come home on it.  Usually her mom seemed to barely notice what she
did,it didn't use to be that way but everything changed when her dad had
died three years ago.  Her mom was so busy with her job and everything else
that the teenager was pretty much left alone.  As a result Sam was adrift.
She was a tall girl,angular instead of curvy with a face that nobody would
ever noticed.  She was fit and strong and moved with a certain grace but
was not in any of the in-crowds in school.  Too plain to be a cheerleader
type,too smart to be cool,and did not understand about boys.  In short she
was left out and knew it.

   She had nobody she could talk to since her dad died and she missed him
badly.  Sometimes a girl just needed to talk to her dad but hers had left
her and now she had no one to explain the mysterys of life to her.  Perhaps
she was in trouble but has could not think of any thing that would account
for it.She knew her mom was not happy with some of the kids she had fallen
in with.They were mostly like her , lost and confused but always seemed to
be skating on edge of trouble.  Maybe one of them was over the edge and mom
was worried about that.

   As she walked from the floater stop to her home she noticed a strange
floater on their pad next to her mother's.Mom didn't drive to her job so
she had no clue if she was home early.  If she was it could only mean
trouble and Sam quickened her pace.However as she got closer a tall woman
got out and walked toward her.She was wearing a pantsuit that had the look
of a uniform about it and the woman moved like a big cat.  " SAMMI PI" she
asked as she moved closer and showed a bright green LF id card.  Sam's
knees felt weak and she almost vomited from the sudden wave of fear that
washed over her.Lawforce did not mess around with small stuff.  Most people
never saw a LF except for the one that was stationed at every upper
school.Sam had met Pete who was the LF at her school ,they all had for that
was part of his job.He was spooky and seemed to be everywere and see
everything but he seemed like an ok guy.  Come to think of it he moved like
this woman and she didn't think she would like to see him pissed off.  She
had caught him watching her lately but as he never seemed to sweat the
small stuff she had not worried about.Now she wondered if maybe she should
have.

   The LF must have noticed her fear for she smiled "don't worry Sammi you
are not in trouble but i must talk to you"

   "w-what do you want ma'am" she stammered as she wondered which one of
her friends had fucked up big time.

   "I have something for you"as she reached into the carryall over her
arm."You must sign for it and I must give you a warning about what you do
with it"

   She handed Sam a large envelope stamped LF PRIVATE in red accross the
front and a rip off form on the back."Would you read the information on the
back and if it is correct and you understand it sign at the bottom please."
Sam read it and saw mostly it was her name,age,birthdate,address,mother's
name,and her school id # but at the bottom was the the LF PRIVATE and a
stern warning about sharing,giving,discussing,copying,or otherwise allowing
the contents to get into the wrong hands."You may only talk about this with
your mother,your school LF, and the school medical dept without permission
from from the LF.  Do you understand?"

   "yes I think so."

   "Then sign on the line and take it in and look it over.  Your mother has
been briefed and can answer most of your questions and the school LF can
the rest.  Have a good day"

   Inside she found a letter,something like a checklist and a chip for her
school machine.  The letter was very odd- the heading repeated her name
ect. then went on- Miss Pi, You are resquested and required to report for
post jury duty on the first of june this year for a period of not less than
30 days.  you will be picked up at your home at 9am on june 1 and will not
return untill the end of your term.  you DO NOT need to bring anything as
all your needs will be met.  It is required that you complete all items on
the checklist before june 1.You may not be excused except for serious
illness or injury.  Provisions will be made for you to complete your school
work.  You will be allowed limited phone or e mail with family only and
will be monitored.  Your term will last beween 30 and 90 days with the
average being about 35 to 40 days depending on work load and personal
ability.  Your free time will be limited.  You are to explain the missing
time to any who ask with the statment that you have been accepted into a
special study program that you do not have all the details for yet.  Please
scan and complete the enclosed checklist at least 1 week before your date
of service .  Your school medical dept.  and LF will aid you and are
expecting you to contact them as soon as you can.The chip is for your eyes
ONLY and is LF PRIVATE and must be returned at the start of your term. 
There are parts that will open only with pin #s you will be given at proper
times by the school LF.  This can be a life changing opertunity for you and
we hope you will not fail to make the most of it.  Yours in service, LF [
dept of post jury]

   If the letter was not strange enought the list made up for it A- school
medical dept- 1 health statement #ppjlf15 2 compleation of sex course
#sepjlf rev.c B- parent or guardian - list of contact phone#s and e-mails
addys for emergency use.  C -school LF 1 history form #hpjlf 2- contact
form #cpjlf 3- intake form #ilf rev.8.  D- school 1- form#spjlf rev.c.4 2-
any other information or chips needed for indepentant study E- yourself 1
any medications you need[refills] provided 2 1 or 2 small momentos of home
nessary for your comfort and well being [space is limited] 3 a good
outlook, this is ment to be a lifechanging experence and we hope you will
benfit from it good luck - yours is service, LAWFORCE [post jury division]

   When her mom got home later she found Sammi staring at the blank screen
of her school machine.  she had entered the chip but it required a pin so
she was stuck untill tomorrow."Did you have a visitor today dear?"

   "You kmow damn well i did mom.  WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?"

   "All of us that love you are worried about you dear.  Your marks are
down ,you just don't seem to care about much , and it seems most of your
friends are going in the wrong direction - down.

   "Mom I love you but how would you know,you work hard and long and you
haven't even met most of my friends?  I know you try but since dad died you
have to do everything.

   "Honey I talk to your teachers every week and I went to school with Pete
your LF.  He is the most worried of all.  It is his job to see and hear
things and put then together.He knows where you are headed even if you
don't.He came by work to talk to me some time ago and i asked for his
help.Why do you think our top law people send some of their best LFs to
stand around schools?  Its not just to scare you kids, its to try to save
the ones like you as well as to spot the ones that will be real trouble
latter.

   Post jury is just what it sounds like- You will go to the places where
lawbreakers go and look behind the scenes of the LF system and will see
first hand how lawbreakers are delt with.You will see the whole system
first hand and even take part in it.  It is not all nice in fact some of is
very ugly and dirty but it works even if we don't like it or talk about it.
i bet you are wondering about the sex ed course eh.  I did too and asked
Pete.I don't like the answer but I see the need and wish that you would be
spared from what you will learn but the class is to proctect you and help
you to deal with what you will see and maybe do.  Go to bed now and try to
sleep and I love you"

   Sam soon realised she would never sleep so she sat up in bed and
thought.There was much here she didn't understand but she had always been
good at putting scattered facts together.What was it her logic teacher
said-"start with what you know will fit and look for holes that the new
facts will fit into and soon you will have a pattern.  Once you have a
pattern you are half way to the answer." So what did know?  Start at the
beginning-justice 3 main parts-schools,watch,LF plus a whole bunch of loose
ends not important now.Schools- other that teach, what?  All teachers and
deans had the same powers as the watch but were not armed and only at
school.Handled fights,minor thefts,cheating,small stuff mostly, and handed
out punishment in the form of extra work of all kinds and paddlings. 
Watch- were armed wore uniforms[most of the time],handled most common run
of mill stuff,theft,break ins,traffic problems,assaults,fights,ect..Their
punishments were stiffer and ran from forced labor and restuitions to loss
of property to whippings.LF-what did they do other that sit around schools?
She suddenly realised that she most likely did not hear about most crimes.
Like Sue maybe,she had broken up with her boyfriend and he had waited
untill he got her alone and had beaten her badly and raped her and left her
for dead.  There had been nothing in the newsfaxs and the only thing that
she noticed was the boyfriend was gone.The only crimes that seemed to make
the faxs were the ones that were large and noisy.  Tales about LF centers
where lawbreakers went to be punished were heard from time to time but had
seemed more like ghost stories to her.Maybe not?

   There were backchannels and networks here she had never dreamed of. 
Also she had people she never met who worried about her-that was going to
take some getting use to.What had she gotten herself into?Was the cure
worse than the cold?

   What did she know about Pete?  All he seemed to do was watch and make
small talk with the kids.  He was armed she knew but the only time she ever
heard of anybody seeing the small leathal weapon was one day last term she
and Wendy were staying after class working on a project when a man burst
into the room.  "DAD!" Wendy shouted , "What are you doing here"?  Sam had
never met Wendy's father but knew only that her folks had split and he had
moved west.  "Your coming with me and we are getting out of here"he said as
he grabbed her arm.  Just then Pete walked in and for the first time his
jacket was open and as he turned she saw the butt by his right hand. 
"Mister Roberts- let her go, you do not belong here- please leave." He
never raised his voice but there was no way to miss the cold metal in it
nor the steel in his eyes.

   "Who the hell are you"

   "LF.If you leave now you have just time to make it to the landing and
take the six o'clock hyper back west.Do it and this ends here, don't and _
_ _ _."

   Wendy's dad wilted "I'm sorry sir.  I was in town for a meeting and
heard things and just kind of lost my head and didn't think and i'm sorry
and thank you and i will be going back where i belong now and i'm sorry
Wendy I love you" and then he was gone.

   Pete's weapon ment he had the power of life and death if needed but what
else was his job.  Her mom had hinted he was one of the best but why just
have him sitting around in a school where nothing much even happend? 
Surely he did more than just watch out for kids like her and stop the odd
fight.She could see no answers there so on to other things.

   Post Jury duty sounded more like a program to help lost kids than any
real work for justice or LF.  Did they really care that much to run what
sounded like an expensive program just to help sort them out?  And why had
she never heard one word or hint about it?  Being picked for it must be
rare or she would have heard something.Why her,surely it was not because of
some old school tie.

   Again, more questions than answers,not enough facts, too many guesses.
With that she slipped off to a troubled sleep and morning came too early.

   As Sam left the floater there was Pete as usual.Walking among the kids,
smiling ,wishing good morning,joking.  And his eyes all the time
moving,missing nothing,noting what,who,how,where.Except for the eyes he
could have been a greeter for any large store but he wasn't.  What was he?

   "Hi Sam I hear you wanted to see me".  He was there with her and she
never saw him approch but he was smiling and walking in with her.Can we do
this over a cup of jav?  I had a late one last night and you look like you
slept on the steps." Hear you have got new plans now, something good i
hope?"

   "I don't know I'm still waiting for the details"

   "I wouldn't worry ,it will work out.you can tell me about it after we
get that jav and wake up."

   He led her to the table at the back of the caf that everybody called
Pete's office and as she sat "I'll buy .  you take cream two sugars,right?"
How did he now that?

   He returned and they sat in silence drinking.Nobody paid them any
attenion as there was somebody sitting with him every morning,today was her
turn."Sara scared the hell out of you last night didn't she?  We do that
way to get your attention and to make you belive we are serious.Works too."

   "Yah, it does that.  Pete what is this all about?  Mom told me a few
things that didn't make a lot of sense but still scared me.  She is not
happy but is scared and relieved at the same time.  What am I in for and
why me."

   "Kid,PJ is for kids like you -good kids going the wrong way that nothing
else seems to work on.  You are never in trouble but you are
lost,wandering,confused,and too danm proud to let anybody help you.  the
school has been trying for three years to get through that wall but you
built it just too high and thick and I think you have a bomb shelter in
there just in case to boot.PJ is a last resort we save for special cases
like you.  More of you than you might think-got four pjs in the school
right now but you will never guess which ones.Hell I was a pj.  Saved my
life.  Came out went off to collage where i met your mom and dad then
joined LF.You might be suprised to know how many pjs end up in watch or LF.
Seems kids like you often have what we need and they often wander over our
way.One reason we keep PJ.You may or may not be one that does,you're
strong,smart,tough, and don't miss much.  If you do you will be one of the
good ones I think.  Look life threw you a bad ball so you stepped out of
the game.Like i said i went to collage with your folks and got to know them
pretty well.  Your father was a good man and i know you miss him like crazy
but think what he would say if he saw you like this.He would tell you to
get up and go on with your life.He's not here so I'll have to kick you in
the ass for him."

   "Pete tell me the truth is it as bad as mom seems to think?"

   "Sam its worse but words won't make it you've got to be there and live
it and then you can't tell anybody because they won't understand.Look i'm
going to get rough and crude so don't fall apart on me ok?  You still a
virgin right- thought so - you have had all the sex ed and know all about
how it all works.want to explain to me what it feels like to make love ,
have a baby, or be raped?  You can't do it can you?  you can guess but you
don't know any more than a man blind from birth knows red.PJ is one of
those things.What LF does is hard and dirty but we are the shepards that
guard the flock and if we get tired of the dirt and the blood and the gore
the wolves win.  You are going to go to a center and see ,hear,smell,and
feel.  You will cry yourself to sleep only to have screaming
nightmares.You'l puke untill nothing comes up but your guts but you will
live and come out a different person and after a while I think you will
like her.Tell you something else,I think the only reason you are still a
virgin is there is nobody you trust to get that close.  You think your ugly
and flat and nobody could want you.You're not and in a few years people
will envy you because you are going to skip pretty and go straight to where
people will just want to share what is you and will think you beautiful.By
the way do like boys or girls?"

   "I don't know.  Sex never seemed that important I just want to be loved
and touched and held.Not looking for fireworks.Never had the chance to try
out either and doing it myself seems too lonely so I dont even dream about
much, just wish a lot but don't really care who or what sex will hold me.
It will be enough if someone does it."

   " you most likely will get your chance at PJ.  A lot of the ones we send
there feel like that.  We give each of you your own room with a king sized
bed.  Why?  We expect you to cry together and sometimes things go past
crying.  We don't care who cuddles with whom because you all feel like you
are lost and all you have is each other.  So naturealy you are going to
want someone to share the long scarey nights.  YOu are going to want to
celebrate being alive and what better way than loving with a friend or
two."

   "Does mom know about that?  She'd have a cow."

   "None of her beeswax.  Besides she might suprise you." he sobered and
continuded"We refer to what we do as salvage , rebuilding ,or junking.Take
Sue's rape for example.If George had just tryed to rape her but had'nt
really hurt her we would of salvaged him.We would have taken him to the
center worked him over some and showed him vids of what would have happened
to him if he had been able to finish the job.After he had time to think it
over and had talked to the nannies we would sent him home and told him to
go on with his life and sin no more.  Course he'd have to pay her damages
but thats mostly to help the victim.  If he had not tried to kill her we
would have rebuilt him .  We use toture , drugs , rape , whatever it takes
to tear a person down to the bottom and then we put him back together . 
The nannies fix him back up untill he can go out and start over someplace
else under a new name and we send a part of his earnings back to the
victim. But George didn't do that .So we junked him.  He raped her everyway
you can, took his time too, beat her, hung her,revived so she could die
again after he had some more fun.  He ran out of time though so he hurried
when he stabbed her and missed her heart .  We did pretty much the same to
him only we added some things and at the end we cut off the items a man
treasures most and let him lay there and watch himself bleed to death.  We
asked if she or her folks wanted to see the vid, she didn't but her dad did
and after he washed up he thanked us for doing what he wanted to do .Then
he went back and took care of his little girl.  No one enjoys doing what we
do at the centers but we are the doctors who find the cancers and either
cure them or cut them out.And if we can give a little relief to the victims
or their families we will any way we can.  We don't want people who grow
cold and hard or enjoy their work because these cancers are still people
and their mothers loved them so we all go home and cry and hold each other
at night after we complete the operation.You are going to be there and
watch and even help and after it is all over you will come back here and
become a vaccine that will help prevent some of the cancer.You will do it
just be the way you will live and the way you react to anybody who goes
over the line.Somehow people will know from you that bad things will happen
to them if they don't change their ways.The mark of what you will see and
do will be on you always and people will notice and respect it even if they
do not know what it is." The jav sat forgotten and cold as Sam tried to get
a grip on what she had learned and she relised tonight was going to be no
better than last.

   "Sammi i hit you with a lot so don't try to handle it all at once ok.Go
down to medical and get started with them and ask them for some somat pills
to help you sleep.  In a few days we will talk again and i'll give you the
first pin for your chip.  Don't talk this over with anyone except the nanny
at medical, your mom knows all she needs to.If any of your friends ask what
we were talking about tell them you were interested to joining the watch
and were looking for info.  Don't be suprised if one or two accuse you of
betraying your friends and never speak to you again.  Some of the rest will
fade away when you join the group and the rest will want to talk about
different things than they used to.  Don't bother telling me who I already
know which ones will do what.Now git girl".

   Sam slowly made her way to medical.  As she entered she was met be
Martha who always seemed to preside over the place.  Martha was a large
black woman who treated every kid as her own child.

   Her ready smile lit up as she greeted Sam "Good morning girl , how ya
doin this fine day?"

   " Not so good and I need to set some stuff up" reaching for the check
list.

   " I know and we have been waiting for you to stop in." Checking her
screen "let's see whos free.  You have worked with Kay before ' right?"
Seeing the look on Sam's face she rechecked and exclaimed "Oh Ken just
opened up.Want him?"

   Ken was an older man who was Sammi's favorite nanny.Always willing to
listen and slow to judge he would be perfect."Wonderful,what room?"

   "twelve- go on back and I'll send him down.  Good luck Sam."

   Ken hugged her and stood back"Bet you've got more questions than
answers? Well i'll see what I can do.  Sit down and we'll get started.  You
are going to be spending all of next week and most of the one after here at
medical beween tests and the se course.  Your teachers already know and
will send any chips you need down but don't expect many, they know you will
be busy.You'll spend mornings in the lab and clinic for the first two or
three days depending on what we find.  we will be doing a full work up on
you.  I mean everything- full body cat and mri,pelvic exam,stress test,
every blood test we can think of , and other stuff you have never heard of.
Don't eat breakfast before school monday or tuesday-we'll feed you after we
pull blood and do a few other things."

   "Afternoons are for the se course.  You don't have any problems with
skin do you?  Good because both you and your instructors will be bare for
it all.  Why?  Because they will be watching your body's reaction to things
and unlike any other se course this one has some hands on - literaly.  I
have known Al and Kim for years and this is all they do and they are very
good.  Husband and wife team- you'l like them.  Somehow they can do and
watch you do private things and make you feel confortable about it all."

   "Ken what is this all about anyway?  Mom said she asked Pete and didn't
like the answer she got but would'nt tell me what it was.  Give!"

   "She was told not to tell so don't be too hard on her.  What will happen
is that first your basic sexuality will be mapped out so we will have a
roadmap to follow.  Then we expose you to the things we expect you to have
trouble with and teach you how to handle them without getting any kinks in
you.We also will give you more info about what to expect at pj."

   "Heres a biggie.  I don't expect you to return still a virgin.  Is that
going to be a problem?"

   "No,its not like I'm saving myself for anything or anybody anyway.  I
just haven't had anybody I like enough ask.  Pete said something about it.
That I might get my chance there.What did he mean?"

   "PJ is high stress and you will feel lost and alone at first.  The staff
will try to help but the only people that will seem at all close are going
to be your classmates.  Think about it.  You all are in the press together
and soon you will become close with one or many of them.  You all are young
, alone ,under stress ,and riding a mental rollercoaster.Sooner or later
what starts out as comforting gets a little more intense and bang.  Besides
some of the things you will learn to use to handle the stress are just
plain sex play- alone or with a small group of friends.Do you understand?"

   "Ken I have dreamed about somebody who would care and understand to make
love with me.  I don't care what sex even, just that they needed and
cared.Now you tell me that I'm going to be in with others like me and its
ok to find someone there."

   "Thats the way it is.Why don't you just wear sweats and sneaks for the
days you will be here.  Your going to be wearing skin all day so no point
dressing up.You can eat lunch here and by the way your hours are going to
eratic for a while.  Don't worry we will get you home after school.  Its
just I know Al and he wants to keep going when things are working well. 
Heres a few somat pills to help you sleep.  Take the rest of the day off
and think aboutwhat you know, go down to the gym and grab a hot tub and
relax.  Then catch the early floater home take your pills and sleep. 
Things will make more sense after a good nights sleep."

   The next day things didn't seem so overwelming and just before the end
of the day Pete gave her her first pin."Spoke to Ken,he said he thought you
might be ready to start.  Use 61pjsp to open the first part.  Don't let
anybody be in the room and don't talk about it with your mom or anybody
except the nannys or me .See you later"

   The pin worked and the program opened with the warning that it was LF
PRIVATE.and repeated all the restrictions from the letter.  An AI showed up
on her screen "Good afternoon Sammi.  Lets get started.First a few
things-your machine will be in secure mode whenever you enter your chip.I
will know if a second person is in the room and your screen will blank
untill they leave.  The only part you may share is the small section about
living quarters and family messaging services.  Your mom may watch that
with you and may ask questions of me about it.Now please state your full
name as you would give it to a new teacher.The resulting voiceprint will
allow you to enter the chip at any time just by saying your full name after
installing the chip.  Do not use the chip in any other machine." The AI
continuded" this chip contains disturbing material.  The main purpose of
this program is to allow you to ask any questions that may occure to you at
any time and to give you a chance to review information that you acquire
from other sources.At the end of each session with the nannys you will be
given a pin that will allow you access the data for the day's lesson.Please
make good use of this resourse."

   Monday morning at school medical." Morning Sam" "Martha how can you be
so cheerful this early?" "Easy,I've had breakfast,jav,and i'm not the one
being poked and prodded.Go on back to room m18 honey.  they're waiting for
you.After they get done with the bloodletting I'll have a nice snack for
you.  Good luck."

   After finding m18 and stripping down Sam stood and studied the person in
the mirror.She was perhaps not as bad looking as she
thought.Tall,slim,small breasts[but firm and proud],narrow hips,long
legs,tight ass,she was fit and tight all over with a noticeable lack of fat
anyplace.  On the debit side there was her face[not really ugly ,just
plain,unfinished maybe],gray eyes that seemed to have forgotten how to
smile,general lack of curves.As she pondered her body she relised that
somebody had joined her in the room.

   "Not bad looking Sam.  Makes me wish I was twenty years younger.I'd ask
you out.Instead I'll have to make do with checking you over.  Oh well,such
is life."Blushing Sam turned to find Ned her favoite medic looking her up
and down with a smile on his face.

   "Ned its wrong for you to olgle your charges, besides you startled me."

   "Hey, I'm human and male and I ain't dead yet so why should't I look at
a naked pretty girl?"

   "You're about the only one who thinks i'm pretty."

   "No I'm not.I'm just the only one who tells you.Besides after the next
few days I will know you inside and out so why shoudn't I start with the
best view first.We have a lot to do so I thought we would do the bad stuff
first.  Blood,urine,stool samples.Then on to pelvic and anal exams.Then a
short break untill those come back after which I know Martha has a good
breakfast planned.After you eat we'll do the scans and mri.  That should
keep you busy untill lunch."

   He quickly took several blood samples"Sam you know how to give yourself
an enmina don't you?- good.  Go over to the fresher and give us urine and
stool samples in the cup and pan and set them in the pass thru.  Then
douche and give yourself one.  Its important that you be clean so we can
get good internal pics and vids."

   Sammi quickly got the distasteful tasks done and returned to find the
table set up for a pelvic exam.  She slowly climbed up and placed her feet
in the sturrips and Ned sat down.He had the best view of her private parts
anybody could have and she felt like he could see inside her as she lay
there with her legs spread."Got a good view of everthing?"

   "Yes but soon it will get better".  She felt the tingle of the
electronic nerve block and all feeling in her crotch went away.  She tried
not to look as he reached for the large shiny tools that would be inserted
to help with the exam.After what seemed forever things clattered back in
the tray "You have the nicest,healthest pussy I have looked at in a long
time Sam.  No problems at all.Now on other things".Even with the block she
could feel a wierd pressure inside, kind of like something crawling around
in her as he proceded with the anal.Then it was over"Looks good.  Hop down
and hit the fresher if you need to.  Otherwise have a seat and relax."

   The promised breakfast arrived shortly and was as good as she could of
asked even if a little light.  Did all this embaressing stuff make her
hungry?  Na,must be the blood loss.

   Ned spent the rest of the morning with the scans and mri and soon sent
her to lunch telling her "See you tomorrow kid".

   Ken was waiting outside for her "Come on and i'll get you ready for Al
and Kim while you eat" Leading her down a hall to a room she had never been
in before he held the door open for to enter."Here we are and it smells
like lunch is here too.I'm going to give you a hypo that will relax you and
suppress your inhabitions so you will answer without embarressment.After
they start Al will give you another that will put you into kind of a dream
state.You will be awake and able to answer questions and refuse anything
repugnent to you but it will all seem like a very vivid dream.  OK?  There
its in " as she felt the cool spray on her arm."Relax and eat.  Ask me
anything you feel like."

   As the drugs worked their way through her blood she wondered" Ken am I
pretty?  Do you really like me?

   She was suprised to hear him answer what she had only thought."Yes you
are and yes I do".

   "Whats going to happen now, i'm scared?"

   "Not to worry.  you are going to see,hear, and feel things and then tell
what you think and feel about them.Easy as anything.Now let me move you
over to the recliner and hook you up to the eeg."

   After he placed the electrodes on her scalp he rolled a table with a
screen on it over in front of her."Close your eyes and wait untill i tell
you to open them ok.She did so and heard the door open and a couple of
quiet words then "OK open them".

   Standing in front of her were two people ,a man and a woman, both naked
as she.The man was tall and fit ,just a hint of gray in his hair,and a
member that had promise.  The woman was short and also fit with largish
breasts,wide hips , and suprise-no pubic hair at all.A couple of Sam's
classmates had shaved but she had never seen an older woman do so."Before
anything else Sammi tell me .You looked at me first but you looked at her
longer.  Why,what where you thinking as you did so.  Which of us do you
prefer to look at and why."

   "I just saw you first and then when I looked at her it suprised me that
she was bald.  I though that your arms would feel good hugging me and I
could loose myself being held to her breasts also.You both look good and i
really don't have a preference."

   "Fair enough Sammi.  I'm Al and this is my wife Kim.We will be working
togeather to prepare you for PJ.  We will start by mapping your sexual
preferences, what turns you on and off if you prefer.  First let me tell
you what won't happen.You will not have sex with us,the most we will do is
foreplay and not much of that.You will not have to talk much we will watch
your body and the eeg.You may object to anything you do not want done-its
your body.What will happen is we will touch you in places and ways that may
be new to you.You will see and hear things both on the screen and from us
and we will note your reactions.The drugs will allow you to experence it
all without embaressment or worry .  Just relax and enjoy.  Shall we get
going?"There was the cool breath of the hypospray again and she fell into
dreams.

   Dreams- warm bodies sitting next to her, a small soft hand caressing her
neck,shoulder,breast.  Wait- don't stop.  Then a larger hand ,harder but
still gentle doing the same from the other side.  The soft one back
brushing down her side , her hip, leg ,and then the larger one taking its
place.  She leaned foward as the hands took turns rubbing her neck and
back.Don't ever stop.The hands pulled her back and she was laying back with
her legs streched out in front.  Hands back at work on her breasts, still
taking turns, working down to her belly .On to her hips and legs.  Gently
pulling her knees apart.God someone was touching her THERE.  She never knew
it could feel this good.  Or this good as it got better.Soft words
whispered onto her ear, words she had heard before but never like
this,words she wanted ,needed.  Arms around her soft and gentle ,strong and
hard , hugs,soft breasts then hard muscles with hair against her
face.Dreams- yet real and somehow she knew this could not last so as she
gloried in the things she never knew she missed and she sought to save
them. Hoping that something could be carried on to remember and comfort and
look forward to repeating someday.Dreams- ending with a hug that reminded
her of the golden days when she had a whole family and not the damaged one
left her now.  A hug that was warm and promised love and tenderness and
life.She slept for a while and tried to find the dreams again but they
eluded her all but faint echoes that still warmed her.

   When she awoke only Ken was there and with a gentle smile he
said"Welcome back feel ok?"

   "Ken was any of it real or did I dream it all?"

   "Look kid ,I can't talk about what happened much without skewing the
results and Kim would kill me.  Later we will have a long talk but i can
tell you that what you felt was real and someday god willing you will feel
it again.Your mom called -she will be home late so why don't I take you to
dinner and we can gossip and laugh and forget about PJ and everything
attached to it ok."

   Later that night as she lay in bed her hands started to wander over her
body.  She wanted to see if she could catch any of the magic that was shown
her this day .  Just relaxing she pretended that the hands belonged to
someone else,someone who loved her and truely cared.Hands on her breasts,
her tummy , her legs.  Soft gentle hands.The hands wandered to her inner
thigh and as she wondered if they would dare they moved up.The first touch
stole away her breath and she soon was more forceful more demanding.She
burst with a sense of wonder at what she had found and was left with a warm
glow that spread through out her body.

   Morning came early and she smiled at herself, PJ already was a
lifechanging experence.What would she learn today.Mom looked her over
closely but did not comment beyond small talk.  Had she guessed or had she
heard what had happened on the other side of her bedroom wall?  As she
walked into medical Martha greeted her"You look good this mornin' child. 
Sleep well?" Did what she had enjoyed last night show or was she just
sensitive?  She met Ned and they spent the morning doing all the things
medics do.Did she give herself away over the breast exam?  Ned didn't show
anything but he never did when he was working.

   After lunch she found her way back to the testing room and met up with
the nannys.Kim took her aside"How did things go last night in bed?" At the
look of shock on Sams face she giggled"Do you think that you are the first
to go home and try out your new toy?  Most all you kids do.Yesterday was
pretty intense for you even if you'd had more experence than you do.Hold on
to your dreams."

   Sitting down she was fitted with the eeg leads."Todays work will be
mostly with the vr helmet and we will use a lower dose of drugs".As the vr
helmet was lowered over her eyes she felt the hypospray and slipped away
into the grip of the drugs.Not quite into dreaming but close.  She knew
who's hands she held,knew who's strong leg and hip she was resting against
on one side and who's softer one was on the other.She waited.The images
seemed to be projectd onto her brain.Men and women in pairs , alone ,threes
, groups.  One man two women, two woman one man,sitting,
talking,holding.Two women making love,man and woman doing the same.  Then
the tempo changed from slow tender love to harder more hurried rawer sex.
Soft questions from the sides,forgotten answers given as she lived in the
vr world and watched.  She had seen porn before but it had seemed silly and
pointless.  Now it was a new world that she drank in.  This looked like it
might be fun, that left her cold,something else maybe later.Still later
things got dark and the images were not even about sex anymore.  Nude men
and women being whipped,beaten,hurt.Rape and hard bondage entered her world
and she recoiled.The scenes of people hanged , shot , gassed ,bodys never
to feel again left her trembling and begging for them to stop.She dimly
felt the bodies next to her and clung to them as the horror soaked her like
spilled blood.The hiss of a hypo sent her back to the dreams where the
loving caring hands washed away the blood and horror.As she fell into those
hands the things she had seen drifted away to wherever nightmares go and
she slept.

   Kens eyes were worried as she woke.They were alone again-Kim and Al
seemed to depart after turning her inside out and Ken was left to clean
up."Rough day.  The bad stuff is over.All that is left is just talking,at
least for a while.I know we're in school but you look like you could use a
drink."Handing her a glass with a amber liquid in it."Just sip it, it's the
good stuff but it'll bite you."

   The drink was much stronger than the wine or beer that she had sneaked
before and burned on the way down.Soon the glow spread though her and
seemed to blunt the sharp edges left from the afternoon session."Thanks Ken
I needed that.  [giggle] I never thought people acually said that."

   "Now you know ,and yes you needed that.Want to talk about it?

   "God things like that really happen don't they?  I mean I've heard about
it, read stories,even when Sue was hurt, I mean I went to the hospital and
saw some of her injuries and all but it didn't seem real.  It was more like
watching a vid.Yet somehow these vids were like it was happening to me or I
was doing it to somebody-God - it was awful.People really do that stuff for
fun and games?"

   "They do Sam and its one of the biggest problems LF has.  There are more
Sues out there than you would ever guess and worse cases too.We try to
catch as many as we can before they get kinked but too many slip
through.Thats one reason we have LF in the schools,they spot more than we
nannys do."

   Ken talked and listened and held her as she delt with her new reality.
After she settled down he took her to eat [ in the caf this time] gave her
another drink and took her home.As she got out of his floater he offered"
Sam go to bed and try to make yourself feel good like you did last night.
You may not have the same results but try anyway.You need it.  Think of
loving and caring and pretend the hands caressing you belong to someone
else.  Someone who loves only you."

   Sleep did not come so she tried Kens advice and soon she was lost in a
place where there was only love and tenderness.Hands,touching secret
places,softly,lovingly,for her only.There was no climax but she drifted off
to sleep while enjoying the caresses of her dream lover.

   Al and Kim were waiting for her in the morning.  The hypo again"this
time its only the inhabition block, nothing else.  We're just going to talk
today but we want you the feel free to talk about anything." She soon found
herself thinging things she never allowed herself to think before.What did
Al look like hard,was he a good lover,why was Kim bald there,would Ken or
Pete love her if she asked?  Suddenly it dawned on her she was getting
answers to most of her silent questions and relised she was asking them out
loud.Al was standing with a hardon from Kim's teasing and Kim was telling
her that she thought he was very good in bed."I'm bald because we have to
demostrate things and the bush gets in the way,besides he likes it."

   The frank and open discussion lasted all day.  They ate while they
talked and at the day's end she teased them"When do you disapear and leave
Ken to clean up the mess?"

   "Not tonight,we're going to feed you and just relax together.You haven't
had a chance to get to know us yet so we'll just sit and chat.  We may stay
out late if we're having fun but don't worry because you can sleep in
tomorrow.You've got the day off to rest and recharge.We will see you friday
morning for a review and then start the rest of the course.  The evening
went well and she discovered that Kim had a wicked wit and Al had a million
slightly off color stories.  Mixed in was more important matter but Sam
didn't notice.  At her door Kim handed her a box and told her to spend
tomprrow trying out the contents."We want you to spend the day learning
about your body and what feels good to it.There's some pills in here-same
stuff we used today-take two when you get up and the other at lunch".With a
giggle "make sure you stop for lunch-You'll need it.There's notes about
each item with them.good night and have fun." Going to her room of course
she peeked into the box."What the---".  IT was filled with toys.The kind
that she had seen at the back of some mags.Sex toys ,small and large
,simple and complex.  A note "Sammi;don't try to blow yourself away with
these,just try them and see what feels good.Try using them different ways
and in or on different places.You don't have a hyman in the way so try one
or two inside you too.Don't expect that to light things up - that will come
with experence.Think of it as a warmup for your first time with the real
thing,you will be glad you did.  I can't tell you how important it is to
learn yourself- the more you know the better for you at PJ and for the rest
of your life.  RELAX AND ENJOY, Kim.  ps.The stuff in the bottle feels
GREAT everywhere and even tastes good-use lots-it washes out just fine.

   Defintely a weird time.  She had just spent what she now realised had
been a date with two people old enough to be her parents.  They had flirted
shamelessly with her and now given her a box of sex toys and drugs and
orders to spend tomorrow using them.As if that wasn't enough it seemed
important that she do so .Some homework!

   When she went to bed she found that she'd had one of the best evenings
of her life.  She also was suprised to find she was horny.  The time spent
with these friends[and with a start she realised that they were friends]
left her wishing she could share what they had and her pussy let her know
that it wanted some."Just wait untill I get confortable then I'll take care
of you"she thought to the rebellious little thing.

   Before hiding the box under her bed she removed the bottle and squirted
some on her hand.  Feeling slightly silly she gently rubbed it on her
breast-"Mnn feels good"- her little nipple sprang to life as the stuff
warmed her skin and awoke her nerves.By now her pussy was screaming "Down
here- NOW".  Giving in and with another squirt spread her lips to begin. 
The first touch had her trembling and the waves of pleasure spread to
engulf her as her hand answered the demands of her body.  Her world shrank
to just her pleasure and it built untill she exploded with the first real
orgasm of her life.

   After she calmed down two thoughts came to her."God I hope mom didn'd
come home and hear any of that and I thought the one monday night was the
real thing." Recovering her sheet and pillow from the floor and returning
the bottle of magic stuff to the box she soon was asleep.

   Joining mom for breakfast she wondered if she looked different to her
somehow."Come on Sam and I'll give you a ride to school"

   Where did that come from?  Mom never took the floater."Thanks Mom but
they gave my the day off to rest and do some homework".

   "Ok but why did they'd do that?"

   "They've been kind of putting me through the mill and thought I needed a
day to rest I guess."

   "well I suppose they know best.  Have fun" and she was gone.

   Taking her pills Sam returned to her room and dug out the box.  Each
item had a sheet of directions attached but none told her how or where to
use them.  Just how to turnon/off,adjust, fit,and where the power buttons
went.  The smallest was a ring to be worn with the large part down and when
turned on vibrated.  The largest looked like a life sized model of Al's
cock.The sheet showed controls for vibration, a snakelike twisting, and a
thrusting motion.  Each could be controlled alone or in concert with the
others and all had speed control.Was this one Kim wanted her to try for
practice?  Digging deeper she found other vibrators of different sizes and
shapes and a glove that looked promising.Putting it on she found controls
on the cuff for each finger.  Heat/cool,vibration,pressure?  Upon
experimation she found the glove would vibrate on the spot where she
applied pressure and the control allowed her change the size of the spot
and the pressure required to trigger it.As the old line went "verrrrry
interesting".Grabbing the bottle of wonder lube she settled down to her
homework.

   Several hours of poking,rubbing,tweaking,and teasing later she took a
break.  Her arms and legs were tired and her whole body needed a rest.She
noticed the message alarm beeping on her machine.  After almost falling on
her face when her legs failed she sat in the chair and opened the two
messages waiting.  One was from her mom and said she would be very late and
not to wait up.She closed" hope you are enjoying your day off".  Twice in
one day mom telling her to have fun was odd but Sam figured she was being
paranoid.  The second was from Kim."Take a break and eat.  You can play
more after you rest." No doupt there about what she ment."Take the last
pill before you finish your homework.See me in the am." Do they have me on
vid or is everyone physic?  As she stumbled out to eat she looked at the
mess her bed was-toys scattered everywhere,top sheet and pillow on the
floor[again],bottom sheet stained and wet from both the lube and her own
juices."Damn!  What a mess,have to clean up after I finish.  Glad mom won't
see this.-giggles- Noboby would belive it even if they walked in on me. 
The Iron Maiden having her own private orgy-sure I belive it-not." What she
didn't know was her mother had peeked in on her last night as she slept. 
The sheet was down and she lay with one hand resting on her tit and the
other cupping her pussy and the stains were already showing on the
sheet.Whispering "Sweet dreams dear" she had smiled and quitely closed the
door.

   Lunch and a walk around the house soon restored her and she wandered
back to bed.  Taking the toy she had labled supercock she played with the
controls and watched it move.  What would it feel like inside her?  It
looked too big but remembering her other sex classes she figured it would
fit.  Hell -her nipples and clit were too tender for much now so she may as
well try it.  She started with lots of lube and one of the larger
vibrators. It slid it fairly smoothly and although it did not really excite
her it did feel good and soon her virgin tunnel relaxed and she was able to
move it around and in and out.  Discarding the vibrator she grabbed
supercock and gingerly inserted it.  Tight fit but not painful- how deep
can I go?  Turning on the vibrations she slowly eased it in deeper and
deeper untill she had it all-WOW IT FITS!  Letting her legs strighten out a
bit she tried to relax and enjoy.  As she loosened up she added a slow
twist to the mix.  Still ok.  Try in and out now,slow and easy,good. 
Remembering that supercock came with a belt and crotch strap she fumbled in
the box and came up with them.Thats better,don't have to hold on now.As she
grew confortable with the thing inside her she closed her eyes and
drifted.Her lover soon grew in her mind untill she could feel his body on
her, feel his strengh with her hands.The picture in her mind sharpened,he
was an older man not a kid her own age,gentle, strong.His hips moving
beween her legs,chest hair on her breasts.His face- I want to see his
face.It flickered in and out of focus.  Who,Ken maybe,no A's gray showed ,
now it was Ned, now Pete's face .The face steadied,became her fathers as he
looked down to kiss her goodnight.  He still loved her.  She lay there and
gloried in his love and lovemaking.  God I missed you Dad.  "DAD"the image
shattered and she suddenly was back alone with a fancy dildo inside her.

   What am i thinking ?  I was screwing my own father and loving it.  Am I
getting kinked or just going crazy?  Her mind settled down and she began to
review what had happened.I saw every man I trust and of course dad would be
the only one I love in the bunch.  Besides don't all girls dream about
daddy?  The drugs and supercock did the rest.  Still, while I was there it
would have been nice to have had it last a little longer.Was the first time
I've seen dad since he left."O god Daddy , why did you have to go?" Tears
and sobs now " been a long time since I noticed the hole you left behind, I
always felt the empty space but I walked around it like a pothole.  I just
couldn't look down,afraid I'd fall in and never come up I guess.  Oh Dad."

   Shakey and strung out she got up and went for a drink.  In the cooler
was a open bottle, what, brandy.  Where did that come from?  What the hell
I need something.  Down the hatch.  The glow helped a bit.  She wandered to
the couch and flopped down.  Still a bundle of nerves- may as well try what
Al and Kim were talking about.  See if you really can use sex play to get
over bad stuff.  Reaching down she was suprised to find supercock.How could
I forget about that?  Hey it's there may as well use it.  Setting the vibs
on low she let it and the touch of her fingers elsewhere just feel good. 
Whatdaknow it works.  How about that- damn.

   Although it made her feel a little wierd she left it in the rest of the
day as she cleaned up the mess her explorations had made of her room and
had a light supper.  Eating as the thing gently moved inside her made her
feel daring and enjoyably dirty minded.  Am I going to spend the rest of my
life thinking about sex?  Almost hope so -know now what all the fuss is
about- GOOD STUFF!

   Kim grabbed her as she entered medical and dragged her into a small
office.  Perching one hip on the desk"Ok kid - give - how'd it go?"

   "You askin as a nanny or a big sister who's nosey about my love life,
huh?"

   "Both.  Now talk to me.  Did you try Biggus Dickus the famous latin
lover out?"

   "I tried out everthing.More than once.  More than one place .  I'm
tender and sore and tired and I call him supercock.  Kim how did I miss out
for so long ?  I mean why didn't anybody tell me how good sex was?  I even
had my first orgasm - Wow.

   " Kid somebody tried to but you were hiding and didn't get the word. 
It's even better with somebody you love- harder and more work but worth it.
Hit any bumps?"

   " Scared myself once toward the end but I tried to use your idea of sex
play as a stress reliever and it worked.  Thought it over and kind of
reaised what happened but still--."

   " Want to talk about it "

   " Hell why not, Thats what friends are for afterall right?"

   " Let me guess.  Lets see -- I bet you were playing and came up with a
imaginary lover, right?  Thought so.  Who - Al,no he wouldn't scare you
---same with any other of the men around here.  Was a man though, right?  I
don't think a woman would scare you either.  So who's left?  Your dad,
right?"

   " Right.  I had supercock in and was just letting it feel good and soon
I could feel him and hold him but I couldn't see his face.  Then he was
there and it made me feel so good that Daddy loved me.  It lasted a while
then it just blew me away when I realised what I was doing.Shook me bad. 
Thought I was wierd or kinked or something."

   " And now?"

   " I figured most little girls dream about daddy.  This time the drugs
and all the sex play just kind of ambushed me and it went farther than most
dreams.  Except part of me wants him back for more."

   "As long as you know its only a dream I don't think I'd worry about it.
We all want the good dreams to last or to repeat them.  Its probably the
first time you have really remembered your dad without it hurting.  The
fact that he was loving you just shows that you need somebody and right now
he is the only one that meets your standards.  If he comes again enjoy the
dream.  When you find someone real he will stand aside.  You ok
now?---Good-lets go and get the review done."

   "When the review meeting started Sam felt like a bug under glass.  All
these people talking about her.  After greetings and jav Pete opened "I
have been working on your checklist Sam.  With the exception of one form I
need to complete and your finishing the se course and Al and Kim signing
off it'S done.  Your teachers have all stated your classwork for the term
is done and with extra credit besides.  Your med and psych forms are in and
ok.  I have your contact info filed so all that is left is to make Al and
Kim happy and pack your homesick stuff.  The reason we do this review is to
give you a candid snapshot of how we see you and what we will report as
well as to insure that we cover anything needed.  Unless something
unforeseen comes up this will be the last chance to ask us anything as a
group--don't be shy.

   What I will report is - you are a good kid who is a bit mixed up. 
You're smart, tough, teachable.  Also somewhat lost, confused ,very lonely
,and untrusting.  Note I did not say untrustworthy, you do as you say and
say as you do and I don't think you know how to lie.  In short you are a
near perfect choice for PJ and I think you will do well.  Also I thing this
week has punched a few holes in that wall and maybe got you to stick your
head out of the shelter a little bit.- Ned?"

   "As a medic my report reads much like Pete's.  You're perfect, young ,
strong ,healthy as a horse , fully developed as a woman ,and have no
restrections whatever.  Now do you wish Pete and I to leave so you can talk
to the nannies in private?

   "Ned you and Pete know all about me anyway please stay."

   "Sammi I invited Kay to sit in because she is our local expert and will
handle your se after Al and Kim leave.  I want you to feel confortable with
her so after this meeting the three of us will spend some time together. 
As Pete said your psych forms are in and are fine.  He pretty much summed
up what they say.  I still must sign off on what Kim and Al are doing but I
do not see any roadblocks there.  AL,Kim ?"

   "Thanks Ken.  Since I seem to have the latest info I'll answer for Al.
Sam, when we started you were as close to asexual as a teen can get.  You
didn't date, worry about boys, girls either for that matter, knew almost
nothing about your own sexuality.  Oh you knew all the facts and how tos
but your own body was a stranger to you.  You didn't masterbate.  You
didn't even try to.  Your idea of a sex fantasy was for someone to hold you
and just gently touch.  The death of your father left you scared and
lonesome.  You have high standards but at the same time you wouldn't try to
find anyone that could meet them.  Anybody who could would not be
interested in anyone as plain and ugly as you see yourself.  You also are
that rarest of birds- a true bisexual.  You truely do not have a
preference. This may change as you gain experence but I have no way of
knowing.  All I can say is to advise you to gain experence before you
decide if you ever do.  It's hard if you chose wrong before you find your
true mate."

   "Now things have changed.  This week's work has led to real progress and
we think you are on your way to becoming a fully functioning sexual adult.
You still have some distance to go but you are moving and learning.  You
still have your standards and your self image problems but now you know
about them and have learned what the prize is.  I would advise you not to
lower your standards but rather raise your self image.  The way to do that
is to stop trying to think for other people.  Let them decide if you are
worth knowing.  Take a chance and ask - the worst thing that can happen is
you get turned down.  And if that happens and it will don't think it's
because you aren't worthy.  Maybe he likes boys or she prefers redheads or
maybe there is already someone else.  Sooner or later you will get lucky
and each time will get easier.  I think you will do well.  All in all we
are pleased with your progress and don't expect any problems.  Any
questions?"

   "Not really ,just what happens next and if i'm done with my schoolwork
now what do I do untill june?  Do I stay home and fret or what."

   " No we will find something for you to do.  You can continue your
independant study and Kay and I want to keep working with you.  And there
is review on your machine at home.  As for the next week or so here's the
plan.  For the rest of this morning Kay and I own you then back to Al and
Kim for the rest of their time here.  We two may sit in from time to time
if you don't mind.  Are we all done now?"

   The rest of the day went well.  Kay had been her sex ed teacher so Sam
was used to talking about the subject with her and it was fairly easy to
expand to other topics.  By lunch she had been added to Sam's short list of
friends and safe people.  Afternoon was more interesting.  Kim made her
tell all to both her and Al and they discussed her activities the day
before.  "Do you realise that you packed more into one day than most people
manage in a year.  No wonder you're sore.  We are very pleased and couldn't
have dreamed you would manage so much.  Keep it up but do try to pace
yourself.  We can't cover all the material if you are too sore to move or
touch.Head on home and relax this weekend- Monday it gets harder."

   After a long weekend of just kicking back Sam was ready to get back to
school and finish up the course.  She was nervous about what was coming and
wanted to get it over with.  At the same time she knew she would miss Al
and Kim and wished she could spend more free time with them."Now we start
working without the net,no drugs.  You must experence your reactions and
deal with them.We will help and guide you but it's nessary for you to
handle things on your own.  You have the tools and know how to use them,now
it's going to be for real."

   The visions in the vr helmet went from bad to awful to horrifying and
she struggled to cope.At the end of the day she was wrung out and drained
and sleep was scarce and troubled.However she was able to use her body's
willingness to respond to the tricks she had learned to bring some relief
and as she applied them her teachers offered advice and demostrated and
coached.  After each grueling day the three of them would spend time
comforting each other and eating a light meal.  "You must force yourself to
eat Sam.  You need the food and you will draw strength and comfort from
eating even if you don't feel like it.Just wait untill you settle down a
bit first."

   The last day was ending and as they ate "Your ready and you'll be ok. 
Couple of things to add though.  If any of the pj staff offer to rub your
back,what they're really offering is to do whatever you need to have done
to help you cope.  They won't ask unless they see that you need someone's
help right now and for whetever reason don't have anyone.  Also take your
toy box-its issue and they expect you to use it.  If any of your classmates
offer to spend time with you or ask if you're ok don't refuse without
checking to see that they're not the ones that need help or a shoulder to
cry on first.  Often the offer is really a hidden cry for help so watch for
it.We know that you worry that your sex play at night seems to have lost
the fireworks you had at first and you are afaid that sex has been ruined.
Don't worry, the fireworks will return when the stress level goes down. 
Relax and have fun." The farewells were long and tearful and Sam knew she
would miss the couple and the late dinners.  She was short on friends and
hated to lose any but they promised to see her later so maybe she hadn't
lost them completely.

   The last few weeks of the term passed as she filled her time with study
and sessions with Ken and Kay and jav with Pete in his office.  She had
noticed Mom watching her more often than normal and they there seemed to be
more time together.  Almost as though Mom realised her baby was leaving and
someone else would return in her place.They had long talks and ate and it
was wonderful but they both knew changes were coming.  And the suprise when
Mom looked at her over tea and started to talk about sex and love floored
her.  By the time the cups were put away it was clear that her mother knew
she was all grown up and ready for her first time with another person and
that she approved and hoped it went well.  For the first time since her dad
died Sam felt like she had a family again and she saw how lonely Mom had
become.  In spite of their worries about the upcoming time at PJ life was
good and they stole every second they could.

   The last day of school before she left for PJ Pete met her at the
floater and invited her for jav.  As they sat and enjoyed it he watched her
nad she wondered again what he saw."Sam remember when I told you I thought
you had the stuff to be LF?  Well the last form I filled out on you was a
recruting request.  It means that you will be watched and maybe be offered
a chance down the road to join us.  It also means they're going to lean on
you a bit more so don't be suprised if you get more hands on then the other
kids, they'll want to see what you're made of.  Ken and I talked about not
telling you but we decided you would notice the different treatment and
worry that you had done something wrong.  I don't recomend many this early
but we need kids like you and would hate to miss getting you.  You will do
fine at PJ and when you come back you and I will go to dinner and we will
have a nice long talk and you can unload and I can play the wise one and
offer free advice that will be worth what you pay for it.  Ok?  That wall I
worried about is down to a fence now and at least you answer the doorbell
when someone drops by to visit so you have changed more than you know and I
hope PJ will complete the process.  Good luck and e-mail me if you find the
time."

   The next morning she and her mom waited as the floater set down on their
pad and the same woman who had started it all stepped out and greeted them.
A quick hug and Sammi loaded her small carryall in and followed.  Off to
god knows what but still on her way.  The trip took some time and Sara
spoke of her time as a pj and offered some advice.  Sam was dropped off at
the center and soon was checked in , fed lunch , shown her room ,and
outfitted for her stay.  There were several other kids also starting that
day and she met them and had some time to get aquainted.  She kind of
paired off with a shorter chunkier girl named Barb and they settled in to
know each other better.  One of the boys also seemed to want to tag alone
and he soon made it a threesome.  Mike was a tall blond boy that was the
male version of Sam and the three of them tried to spend as much time
together as posssible as the week wore on.

   It had been an awful day.  They had helped kill a young woman.  She had
been a drifter who had a baby and when the child had become inconvenent had
just left it in the bushes by a trail and the poor thing had died in the
cold rain.  When the pitiful little body was found DNA testing IDed it and
the mother was soon picked up.  EEG and drugs soon established her guilt
and after the nanny's testing it was decided to scrap her.  She was
stripped naked and hypojected with drugs that left her unable to walk,
crawl , or talk.  The drugs also would cause her lungs to fill with fluid
which would kill her over several hours.  Sam and one of the staff then
placed her in the death chamber.  The lights were turned out and the
chamber was cooled down to a chilly fifty degrees.  Then a light mist was
added and the mother was left to die as her child had- alone in the
dark,cold , wet ,hungery.  Sam and the PJs watched on the monitors ,
watched and listened as a life ended, heard the weak coughs and the weezing
, saw the struggle for air , the shivers as a body cooling fought for
warmth.  They witnessed the moment when the fluid and the cold won and a
person's sprit departed her body, the sudden relaxation , the last breath
leaving,the loss of control over the bladder, the sudden awful stillness
that said plainer than words- I'm dead.

   After a forced very quiet meal Sam went to her room and found Barb
waiting by her door."God Sammi, I don't want to be alone.  Can I come in
and be with you for awhile?"

   "Yah, I know what you mean Barb.  It was awful.  I was the last person
the touch her and to look in her eyes.  They were dead,nothing there at
all. I wanted to tell her I was sorry but all I could think about was her
baby.  I just couldn't get past it to say anything to her so I just left
her to die."

   "They told us it would be rough, they showed us ,warned us.  Sam hold
me, please." The two girls made their way to the bed and cried together. 
As the sobs died out the comforting hands and arms became more than
comforting.  Their bodies responded to the gentle touches and wanted more.
Wanted proof that they were still alive,proof that somebody loved them. 
The touches grew into passion filled explorations and lips trailed burning
kisses across skin.  The lovers bucked and fought with each others lust
untill they were spent and cuddled together for the night.  Sammi's first
time making love finished off the wall around her and seriously improved
her vision of herself- maybe she wasn't ugly and was worth knowing.

   Mike bumped into her after dinner a few nights later " Hey Sam , if
you're not doing anything I'd like to have you stop by and spend some time
tonight"

   She looked at him worried that he was asking for help.  No the look in
his eyes was not that.  It was something different, what?  With a shock she
realised he wanted her, wanted to share with her- HER.  No boy had ever
looked at her that way and she forced herself not to run away."Ok Mike I
need to clean up and send mom a note then I'll be over." Was she really
thinking about doing what her body was suggesting she do?  Weird little
tingelings were running around her pussy and she found herself wondering
about things.  Stuff that had not occured to her before about him.  She
retreated to her room and tried to calm herself.  As she lay in the tub the
feelings in her pussy grew and became more intense untill she was forced to
take direct action to calm them.  After a period of active bush beating she
finished washing up, dressed, and left for Mike's room.

   The designers of the rooms only supplied one chair so they sat on the
edge of the bed talking.They compared their lives and backgrounds and what
had happened to them at PJ.  She discovered that her first impressions of
him were right.  He was funny , gentle , good looking in an unfinished sort
of way and was not overly impressed with himself.  The little jolts were
back to bother her again and as she tried to control her rebellous pussy he
turned to her and kissed her.  Not a little peck but a kiss that promised
good things to come, that was full of want and need.  She was shocked at
first but before she could stop her mouth responded and sent back the
answer to the unspoken question- yes.O MY GOD YES.  Want and need and
teenaged bodies took over and soon the floor was covered with discarded
clothes and the bed was covered with their hungry bodies.  They could not
take the time for much foreplay but he made sure she was ready before he
entered her and did so slowly and carefully.  She felt him fill her and
just started to buck.  The was no time to just lay together, only the need
to move and feel him moving in her.  Their needs were too great for it to
last and the world exploded with their mutual orgasms.  The rest of the
night was spent exploring and loving , she discovered the joys of sex
instead of love and realised the difference.  There would be room for both
in her life.

   Pj continued and took most of her time.  It was what everybody told her
it would be,hard, dirty,with long days and nights filled with uneasy sleep.
She took part in things that left her drained and soul sick.  But she saw
why things were done and why it took special people to do them.  Her spare
time was spent with Barb and Mike and they often slept together- twice all
three of them,which led to interesting things.  The end was in sight and
she was told she would be going home at the end of the week, PJ was almost
over.

   She was on the way back to her room and as she rounded the corner there
was a small group of people waiting by her door.  What the---?  As she
closed with them she spotted their expressions and her heart fell -this was
not good whatever it was.  "Sammi, I"m sorry" the director was saying "it's
your mother, Sam , there's been a floater accident.  Your mother is dead.
She was killed instantly.  I'm sorry and if there is anything at all ----"

   She lost what he was saying as her world crashed about her and she
dissolved into cries and sobs.  Someone or ones helped her into her room
and she clung to the helping hands.  The arms of her friends protected her
and held her as she cried out her pain and loss and the darkness closed in
on her.

   Almost twenty years later- The woman entered the school and walked
toward the caf.  She was tall and fit but built with more angles than
curves and her face had never been pretty but now could best be described
as striking or handsome.  She carried the flat deadly weight of her weapons
and equiptment without any outward sign that it was there.  And she moved
like a big cat.  She looked through the open door to the caf and there was
Pete in his office.  Did he ever change?  Talking to a boy whose body
language hinted at a stunned deer in the headlights look on his unseen
face. He spotted her weapons by the first step in the door, made her as LF
on the second and by the third knew who she was.  Breaking into a wide
smile he came around the table and almost running he met her with a big
hug."God Sam it's good to see you."

   "You to Pete" as they walked back to the table.  The boy was sitting
there with his mouth hanging open at the sight of two LFs hugging like long
lost lovers.  "who's this Pete?"

   "Sammi PI meet Mark Mayers.  He got the same letter you did and I was
giving him the talk.  Mark Sam was sitting where you are once and for the
same reason."

   "Mark, nice to meet you.  Don't worry about PJ, its tough but it saved
my life- maybe someday I'll tell you the story."

   "Hey Mark, we'll finish this a little bit later , OK?

   As he left " Did I look that screwed up Pete?"

   "Fraid so kid, Danm you look good.  Been hearing good things about you
too, Sector Command number two job, two teaching tours at the Lf school, up
for vice commander at regional command, lots of hero metals, proud of you."

   " Pete you sound like a proud parent.  I've done ok but god give me a
break"

   At the mention of parents he sobered" I was sorry to hear about your
mom, she was a good woman and a loss to us all."

   " It was pretty rough for a while but I got a lot of help from friends
and the center staff.  They let me stay there so the nannies could help me
and after- I didn't have any family left and I just kind of became part of
the furniure around PJ so they put me to work helping out as a big sister
and native guide.I finished my schooling and applied to join LF.  Nothing
seemed to happen untill the bastard that killed Mom showed up.I looked up
his record and he was shit.  The son of a bitch killed my only family and
would have got me too if i'd been home- after he went through mom he wiped
out my bedroom and the whole place went up when the floater tanks dumped.
You know what those fuel fires are like.  All I had left was the picture
and my teddy bear I took to PJ.  Nothing else.  My whole life ,everything,
gone.  The only thing I got was a urn with Moms ashes.  I hope some of dads
might be in there too - she kept his next to the bed- so I tell myself
they're together now.  Anyway he was on the loose quite a while but we got
him and now the bastard was within my grasp.  They called me in and asked
if I wanted to help and I thought real hard about it.  He was mine and now
I could make him pay, Oh could I make him pay.  Then I realised I would be
doing it for all the wrong reasons and turned it down.Soon after that I was
going to LF school and here I am."

   "Sam did you ever know what your mother did for a living?  She was a
victim aid, you've worked with them, well she was the best one I ever saw.
We sent her all the worst cases and she took care of them.  All those late
nights and missed suppers were because she could'd walk away just because
it was quitting time.  She knew she was hurting you but she just needed to
work.  I think she thought if she helped other people handle their pain and
problems enough she could hide from her own.  Your folks were as much in
love as any two I ever knew and your dads death tore her heart out.  She
loved you but you were also the reminder of her loss so she hid from you by
working.  She broke out after you went to PJ and was going to spend more
time with you.  She told me those last few days with you were the best ever
and she wanted more.  I always thought that if your father hadn't found her
first Your mom and I could have been happy.  We were talking about it
before she was killed.  I got sent off on one of those jobs that come up
and we were going to go away somewhere when I got back.  Well I came back
and it was all over, I checked up on you and you were doing as well as
could be expected so I just backed off , kept track of you and let the
dream die.  Now here you are.Tell me about your life ,how you doin , ever
find anybody ,What brings you here now?" "Hell Pete my life is like your's.
LF first and everything else after.  Still I do have a few close friends
and I do ok.  I still see Al and Kim from time to time- they helped put me
back together after the crash and we stayed in touch.  Two of my
classmates- Mike and Barb- they were my first lovers,only one at a time
Pete.  Well they ended up married and work in a upper school just west of
here, he teaches and she is a med tech.  I spend a lot of my vacation time
with them and we just get happy together.  They'er good people and did as
much to save me as anybody at center,even extended their PJ terms to stay
and help.  I love them and they're the closest thing I've got to family. 
I'm even godmother to their kids.  There's nobody else yet but I'm still
looking, been close a few times but no cigar.  You know the story, I'm
still fussy and the job does get in the way, but I've managed to find a few
to relax and enjoy time with so I'm not a flustered old maid thank you.  As
to what brings me here- I heard about you retiring and figured I'd stop by
before you left to thank you for all you did for me, and others.  I checked
the records for this joint, it has one of the lowest percentage of
troublemakers and kinked kids and the highest number of LF and Watch
recruits in the country.  Its a good place to be a kid and a large part of
that is your fault.  Your name and this place came up when I was talking to
the regional CO yesterday.  He was mildly pissed at this rockpile- says it
took the best Lf he had ever seen away from him years ago and now it was
happening again.  You see Pete I turned down the regional job and I'm here
to replace you after you retire so we've got untill the end of the term to
get me up to speed.  Now tell me about our kids."