The Thoroughly Disreputable Incest Digest ========================================= Issue 17 =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=- From: Tom My first sexual experiences were with family members. I have no guilt over this, because I think it was normal experimentation. My earliest recollection is from when I was about 11 years old. My parents had a foot massager, which was a device that plugged into the wall and had two vibrating pads which you put your feet on. One day I opened my pants and tried rubbing my penis against it through my underwear. The sensations were very strong and I had my first orgasm. Later, I brought my younger brother down to the basement and showed him. (He is a year younger than me.) After I came, he tried it and came also. We masturbated together with the massager on a regular basis, and this led to other things. We began feeling and rubbing each other's erections before using the massager, and eventually engaged in mutual masturbation without the massager. We were always horney and looking for a chance to play with each other. This went on for about a year, and then one day I decided to try sucking him. I got between his legs and took his little dick between my lips. I moved my mouth around on it for a while. It was ni ce. He did it to me afterwards. I don't think either of us came that first time, but it was very sexy and enjoyable. Sucking pretty much took the place of masturbating after that. We would take turns sucking each other to orgasms at every opportunity. We often did it at night, since we shared a room. I think I began ejaculating when I was 12. He was sucking me one night, and I ejaculated in his mouth. He took my penis out right away. We were both fascinated by my cum. I tasted it by licking it off of his hand. He usually let me cum in his mouth after that. He didn't start ejaculating until a couple of years after that. This went on until I was almost 16, but during the last year or so our sex play tapered off greatly as we became more interested in girls. We haven't spoken of it since, and I consider us to both be heterosexual now, though I often fantasize about sucking a guy. I had one experience with my sister Wendy. I was 13 at the time, and she was 15. It was a weekend day during the winter, and my parents had gone to one of my brother's hockey games. My sister's friend Nancy had come over, and the two of them disappeared while I was playing video games. I found them in our attic, which had been fixed up as a den. Nancy had brought over an x-rated video tape, and they were watching it on the TV and vcr in the attic/den. I walked in and busted them, and told them I wante d to watch it too. I was thrilled by the tape. We challenged each other to show our privates, and so I took out my hard cock. They dropped their jeans. They felt my penis, and I dared them to suck me. Both girls refused at first, but then Nancy decided to do it. My sister watched her, and then she decided to try it too. It was very exciting. I felt Wendy's pussy, and got them to show me their breasts. Nancy encouraged me to lick my sister, so I did. When I stopped, Nancy tried it. We took turns licking her until she came. I was incredibly horney. I wanted to fuck one of them, but they both refused. I asked Wendy to lick Nancy, but she wouldn't. I ended up masturbating and cumming all over the floor while I felt Nancy's pussy. Wendy was very embarrassed about it afterwards. She swore to me that she had never had sex with a girl before, and made me promise never to tell anybody. (She wasn't aware of that our brother and I were fooling around, and I didn't tell her. In retrospect, maybe I should have.) We never touched each other after that day, but it has been a source of my fantasies ever since. =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=- From: Alicia Hi there, I read your post and thought it would be interesting for you to know that I have had sex with my nephew, my brother's son, almost every day in the two weeks that he stayed with me in the summer of 95. He was thirteen years old at the time and very curious about sex and stuff. I noticed that he watched me when I took a shower and I confronted him with that. My husband was away for a month and I was already quite horny, so it was definitely me who wooed him. I said that if he wanted to see me naked he should just say so and dropped my towel. I let him touch my breasts and then asked him to undress. I sucked his cock until he came and then made him lie down on his back. I fucked him until we both came. After the first time this happened every day until he had to go home. I would start with kissing his dick and let him come once, to make sure that it would take him some time to come a second time, inside of me. When he was back home again my brother called me to say thanks and said that David, my nephew, was a different person since he had stayed with me. I told my husband what had happened and he did not mind. He said he wished he had had such an aunt when he was thirteen years old! Last summer my niece stayed with us, after David having had such a nice time the year before, my brother and his wife decided to let little Rachel stay with us. I will send you a letter which Rachel sent us last week, describing the wonderful things she found out with me and my husband last summer. Love, Alicia =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=- From: Henrik In my life there has been a experience with incest. To be honest I am very careful with writing to you because of safety reasons. The experience has been with my sister and it hasn't been a very pleasant one. I think that although we knew what was going on, we were not prepared for the consequences of our actions. This all happened about six years ago when my sister was 19 and I was 23 years old. After the one time experience we did not talk about it and left it like nothing happened. Naturally i thought a great deal about it after i got my daughter. There is now an opportunity with my sister to talk about the event and this gives me the possibility to tell her that i still love her very much and that what happened between us was not something that I see as wrong but rather something that we needed to do in order to learn and grow. Still i am fascinated by incest on the mother/son relation. This I can explain: When I was six months old I was adopted by Dutch parents who lived in the U.S.A. (Seattle). Right from the moment of birth I was taken from my biological mother so that I did not have any physical contact with her. This is something that till the day of today I miss. The protection and the welcome that i think any person needs to start his or her life has been something that no other woman and father could replace, although my adoptive parents, especially my mother, have tried to give it to me. I am convinced that this gap has played a big role in my sexual development in that i've been looking for love, understanding and protection in the time where I was the most vulnerable, my puberty. Still I realize that putting my interest in the right place, incest is rather a search for a protected place where I can let go of all my self made restrictions in order to stay healthy and in touch with myself. This of course in order to survive. I am very interested in talking more about this subject, to find out and maybe help other people to understand more of this taboo. A subject that hurts people instead of elevating its taboo so that feelings of love don't get twisted into a frustration that has a negative effect on all the parties concerned. To end this letter i would like to excuse for my english grammar. Though i'm dutch i do my best to write as good as possible. [minor edits, spelling etc.] =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=- From: Karl The closest I have ever come to incest is having sex with my first cousin and I do not regret it. Usually we try to get alone every time she visits up here at my mother's. =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=- From: Nigel hi - please do me a favour - pass on a 'thank-you' to Jeannie from my wife and I? We both enjoy her writing style. I understand what she means when she says she gets aroused writing her sexual memoirs. The same thing happens to me if I detail an incredibly erotic experience to someone. Anyway, about 20 years ago when I was about 25, I moved to England for several months. I was pretty lonely and ended up making love to my cousin a few times. I guess we both needed some physical companionship. There was certainly no love involved. Details are really sketchy - this was long long ago and many many lovers ago. I don't remember there being any 'incest' thoughts really. We hadn't seen each other since little kids so we were complete strangers. I think if something had sparked, we would have continued. It was probably the first time I ever used a condom. keep up the good work collecting and posting =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=- [spoiler: negative experience] From: Roger my expeience with my brother -- he 14 or 15 -- me 9 or 10 he was punishing me for something or another and dragged me into our bedroom and stuck a knife in the door so i could not get out. He took me to the bed and told me to get undressed as he undressed himself. He then forced me to have oral sex with him and then he fucked me using shaving cream as lube...(to this day i can not shave with canned cream).. I remember when he came in my mouth i was freaked out...never seeing cum being..or jizm..as it was referred to in my youth.. I had no idea what this stuff all over my face was. of course i was told nver to tell anyone...which i have not until now... it happened one more time a few years later...kidda fuzzy about the two times... but same thing... he was babysitting...got angry..fucked little brother.. i dont remember if he sucked my cock or not but i think he did =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-