The Thoroughly Disreputable Incest Digest
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Issue 12
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The first time I noticed my mom was when I was 11.  I started to
go in a sit on the toilet and talk to her while she was in the
bath tub.  Nudity was never a big thing around our house.  I
spent a lot of time in my bedroom coming up with plans to seduce
her.  One night when I was 12 and a half, we were watching a
movie on sattelite and it was super hot out.  She was laying on
her bed naked.  I kept sneeking peeks at every chance I could
without getting caught.  Then I got busted.  She asked me if I
was looking at her tits.  I turned red faced instantly.  She knew
I was looking so I couldn't lie.  But I did.

We finished watching the movie and started to surf through the
channels. We happened by the xxx channel.  I said something like
wow look at those tits on her.  Mom countered with mine are
better than that.  I said maybe but I can't touch your's.  She
laughed and said why can't you.  I akwardly said because you're
my mom.  She then said true but if you want to I'll let you if
you keep it between us.  I got terrified, began shaking but went
for it.  All the while  we had the xxx channel on.

She asked me if I wanted to touch her pussy and I did but said
no.  I got a supreme woody for myself from this.  The phone rang
right in the middle  of our encounter.  It was mom's boyfriend.
He was out of town on tour with a Canadian Icon rock & roller.  I
left her room while they spoke.  For the next 2 years nothing was
mentioned of the escapade.

One night I was in my room watching a porno and mom came home
from the bar. She came in and caught me.  She just teased a bit
about it and went up stairs.  I followed minutes after hoping to
catch a glimpse of her changing.  She was laying on her bed in
this sweater dress that buttoned down the front.  She started to
dial the phone.  She then asked for Joe.  I asked her why she was
phoning him.  She told me that she wanted him to come over for
the night.  I got jealous and hung up the phone.  I told her th
at she didn't need to do that she had a boyfriend (who lived with
us).  She then told me he was boring and she wanted something
better.

I retorted with if you just want to get laid I can do that.  She
looked at me and said DAVID you don't do that with your mother.
I said why not I touched your tits.  Then she said you really
want to.  Ofcourse I do.

So I began un-buttoning her dress.  She wasn't wearing anything
underneath it.  I opened it up and stated to rub her pussy.  She
opend her legs up wide and I stated to slide my fingers in her.
Within seconds she was soaked.  I was having my fantasy of 5
years coming true.  I headed in to lick her pussy.  The smell was
incredible then as my tongue touched her she started to moan
softly.  I wasn't very expierenced in sex but I went for it and
pushed my tongue as far as I could inside her vagina.

After what seemed to be an eternity I went for the home run.  She
stopped me and told me to lay on my back.  When I did she started
to suck my cock. I was in exctasy. her mouth engulfed all I had
to offer.  The excitement was too much to bear and I released in
her mouth.  She never lost a drop. All of my sperm went straight
to belly.

She then Climbed on top of me.  I layed there as she straddled my
body and put my penis in place.  She looked at me and said I have
been waiting for a long time to fuck you.  I said no way and
right then I entered her slick pussy.  She rode me slowly at
first but within minutes ahe was at full gallop.  It took about
twenty minutes for me to cum again.  After that mom laid down and
told me that when ever I wanted to do it again she would.

6 months after our encounter she and I moved to Burnaby.  She had
finally had enough of her boyfriend who was very mean to her.  We
ended up becoming bed partners on a regular basis. Mom began
inviting me to have sex with her and her cousin Bonnie after
awhile. I used to get to play doctor with Bonnie when I was in
grade three and she was like 26.  I have actually gotten to have
intimate relations with many female members of my family.  I have
never stopped liking older women since that night when I was 14.
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This is my true story and it has devistated me for most of my
life.

I'm not really sure why I'm telling you about this since I've
never told anyone before.  Maybe because I don't know you and you
can't judge me.

It started when I was 4 years old.  I would go into my parents
room to watch television and my dad would put his hands down my
panties and start to masterbate me under the covers, while my mom
was in the kitchen cooking breakfast.  The thing that makes me
feel the worst about it is he never paid any attention to me or
my sister at any other time, unless it was to abuse us physically
and emotionally.

So I would go back there day after day and let him do that to me
just to feel loved.  This continued on a daily basis until I
turned 9 and he took a work assignment out of the country. I
tried telling my mom what he was doing to me but she wouldn't
believe me (but I know she knew because she had came in on us a
couple of times saw his hands under the sheet ,left and said
nothing)

This sounds sick, but I was so used to being masterbated that I
would do it to myself daily, then I decided to have my little
sister help me so I would make her lie down and lay on top of her
rubbing myself to get off.  I guess in reality this makes me a
monster as well, but I try to tell myself that at 9 years old I
really didn't know any better even though I'm racked with guilt
about this.

I am 35 years old now, and when my children were small it was
very difficult for me to change their diapers, give them a bath
etc. because I was afraid I would touch them and maybe get an
incestous urge.  But I am happy to report that never happened.
   
I find myself coming to the newsgroups and reading the stories
about incest, but I'm really not sure why.  I don't get any
sexual arousal from it.  Maybe because the fantasy stories are so
different from real life.
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