From: b1223@ix.netcom.com Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories,alt.sex.stories.tg Subject: Lisa's TG Library: "Joe Bates" (Ch. 11-15) Chapter 11 San Diego When Joe followed Karen out of Dr. Krell's office, he saw Mike and Dave waiting outside, for their turn to talk to the doctor. Mike Osborn looked very uncomfortable next to his rotund partner. Joe greeted them, and asked what they had been up to. "Well, I've had a blood drawn, they even took hair samples, and they gave me a CAT scan," Mike replied. Dave was cordial, but didn't add to the conversation. Joe told them Jim Matheney would be there at 2 o'clock, and that he would see them in a little while. Then, he followed Karen down the hall to leave the building. They went out to the employee parking garage, where Karen's car was parked. She walked up to a glistening white, Toyota Supra, with expensive alloy wheels, and very wide tires. "I'm crazy about cars," Karen said. "Maybe I'm a woman, but I still love a good handling sports car," she added, grinning as she buckled in. "Me too," Joe said. "I have a RX-7 GXL, and I love it." Karen's Supra ran great, and she knew how to drive, making the short trip to Wendy's a brisk experience. She drives like I do, Joe thought, grinning as he watched her go through the gears, her white, uniform skirt hiked well above her knees, exposing more of her long, white hose covered legs than most women would allow. Karen saw Joe looking at her legs, and pulled the skirt down to a more demure position. "I know I should be more careful about that," she said, looking at Joe. "It's been about two years now, and I just love it, but I don't always remember to sit like a lady," she said, with a devilish grin. They pulled into the Wendy's lot, and parked the car in the back, so that the car would be less likely to be subjected to door dings. They walked inside, and looked at the menu board. "I come here a lot, cause it's close, it's cheap, and I like the salad bar," Karen said. "In the last year, I have really had to watch what I eat, since it all seems to go to my butt, and I absolutely don't want to be a fat broad," she said grinning widely. Karen sure seemed happy to be a female, Joe thought. They ordered. Karen ordered the salad bar. Joe, deciding that he might as well try to get used to the birdlike portions that women seemed to eat, did the same. They took their plates, filled them, and sat down across from each other at a little table. Joe was dying to ask Karen some questions about herself. "Dr. Krell told me a little about you," he said, not really knowing how to start the conversation, and not really sure if Karen would even want to talk about her transfiguration. "I figured he might," she said, with a smile. "He's a great doctor, and I know he's as proud of how I've turned out, as I am." "So you really were a guy then?" Joe asked, with a trace of skepticism. "Well, I was married to a very nice woman, for about a year, and we even had a child together," Karen said. "I tried to be a 'guy', and I suppose I was one physically, but I've always felt I was really a female as long as I can remember. I never felt right acting like a man, but since I looked like one, I did all the 'guy' things, and I even enjoyed a lot of them. I still like to do some of them. Cars and computers don't seem to care if you're an innie, or an outie." The grin never left her face as she spoke. "Well, you sure fooled me." Joe said. "I never would have guessed that you were an outie." Dr. Krell was right, He and Karen were a lot alike. "Joe, hormones and Dr. Krell's magic worked so well that even I sometimes forget that I used to look a lot different than I do now," she said proudly. "For a while, after my surgery, just looking in the mirror was one of my favorite pastimes. I couldn't imagine I would ever look like this. It's like a dream come true." "I'm still in the 'looking in mirror' phase," Joe said. "Of course, it's hardly a dream come true for me. But it is interesting. And I guess I'd better try to get used to it," he added. "You are certainly attractive, Joe," Karen said. "And you have a big advantage over me, since you've even changed biologically. You probably won't have to worry about hormones, or anything like that. Dr. Hopkins thinks you can even menstruate. I wish I could. A lot of women think of it as an inconvenience, but it's a significant part of being female. You can probably have children someday. That's impossible for me now, of course." Her grin subsided for the first time, but only for a moment. "I don't think that I'd ever have children," Joe said. "Not if it meant having sex with a man." "It's not that bad," Karen said, grinning at Joe. "You quickly get used to the differences." "Have you slept with a guy?" Joe asked. Joe didn't feel strange, asking Karen such personal questions, since they thought so much alike. "Yeah, I have. A few times now," Karen answered simply. "Did you like it?" Joe asked. He was curious what it felt like, and wondered if he could ever get up the nerve to try it. "Well, I was sort of like you, I never thought I would ever want to get intimate with a male. I knew them too well. I liked being around women, they were so soft, smelled so nice, and wore such sexy clothes. I didn't want anything to do with my old world. But, after about a year, it sort of just happened. I didn't plan it, or anything. I met this guy at an auto-cross, a student pilot from Williams Air Force Base. He was racing his car, an '86 Corvette. We started talking about cars, and he asked me to dinner. I had never gone on a date with a guy before, or anything like that. But almost before I realized it, we were in bed together. You know how pilots are." Karen grinned, and winked at Joe. "What was it like? Was it better than when you were married?" Joe asked. He felt like a anxious teenager, questioning a more experienced peer. "Gee, it's hard to compare. I never felt comfortable having sex as a male. It did feel good when I'd ejaculate though. I guess I do kinda miss that, in a way." Karen seemed to stare into space as she spoke. "Don't you climax?" Joe asked. He was thinking about his recent experiences with Linda. He never missed the ability to ejaculate. He really wasn't even sure he had lost it, he got so wet, and his climax was so powerful. "Well...to be honest... Joe, as far as I can tell, I look exactly like a normal woman. My breasts developed, my body has changed so much that even my weight distribution has shifted to be more like a female. I think you know what I mean. My body... my genitalia is completely functional. I can have intercourse. But, the sensation is not all that great. It feels sort of numb. Oh, I guess it's getting better, I could hardly feel anything at all, for almost the first year, but it's got better. It's still getting better, I guess. But, I've never been able to come since my surgery. I don't regret the change, and I would never want to go back, even if I could. Intercourse isn't that big a deal for me. I can live with it, or without it. I kinda like the closeness. I love to cuddle." Karen tried to explain her feelings to Joe, who listened intently to every word. "Gee, I don't think I have any problem with feelings, or sensation," Joe said. "Actually I think I have even more feeling than before. My whole body seems much more sensitive. It even feels like I still have a penis. It's just kind of ' recessed' now. And, I think I can get off, just by having my boobs touched in the right way," Joe admitted. "Yeah, mine are kinda sensitive, too," Karen said. "At first, after I started on hormones, when they were just starting to develop, they were way too sensitive and they hurt all the time. But after the surgery, they really grew, and yeah, I guess they're my most sensitive area. Sounds like you've been trying out the new equipment," she said, with a chuckle. "Well... I have this girl friend, my fiance actually, or at least she was.... If I'm gonna stay like this, I guess I have to stop thinking of her like that...Anyway, Linda and I have continued sleeping together since this has happened to me. It's been an experience," Joe said. "When I first started down this path, I only wanted to be around girls, women, too," Karen admitted. "But as time went on, and I got used to the new ME, I've been more willing to experiment, to see what it's all about. Joe, I'm..We're.. women now, and there's nothing wrong with us experiencing ALL the pleasures of being female. God knows, there's enough pain," she said. "Speaking of pain, I have to go to the bathroom. I just know that my sore bottom isn't going to like it," Joe said, grinning at Karen. Joe got up, and excused himself. He walked down the short hall, and almost entered the men's restroom, catching himself as he put his hand on the doorknob. He walked on to the ladies, feeling like an invader as he did so. In all his experiences so far, he had not been into a public women's restroom. This would be the first time. Joe opened the door. As he went in, he noticed that the room had a small, padded couch to sit on. There were no urinals along the wall. He very self consciously went to one of the stalls, and closed the door. Joe unzipped the blue jump suit, and pulled it off his shoulders. Before the change, he thought to himself, I could just stand here, whip it out, and be done with it. Now I have to practically undress. He took the down to around his knees. He tucked his thumbs into the narrow waistband of the nylon panties, and pulled them down. As he did, he could see that the white cotton lined crotch of his beige nylon panties were stained with a little streak of blood. It wasn't much, it didn't penetrate to the out side, but it was another reminder that he was a lot different than he used to be. You really are an 'innie' now, Joe Bates, he thought. He was relieved to find it didn't hurt when the urine flowed. He finished quickly, and found no more blood on the tissue when he wiped. He hurriedly pulled his clothes back on, and left the stall. Joe went to the sink and was washing his hands when someone else, a teenage girl, of maybe seventeen, came in and went into a stall. She didn't even seem to notice the nervous woman at the sink. Joe dried his hands, and went out. Karen watched Joe walk back to the table. As he sat down she looked at him with that perpetual grin she had. "Joe it must be 90 degrees outside. Why in the world are you wearing that long sleeve jumpsuit? Aren't you hot?" Karen questioned. "Yeah I guess I am, a little," he said. "I just feel better, more secure with this on." "Well girl, if you are going to be one of us, you're going to have to get used to dressing lighter. If I wasn't working, I'd be wearing cutoffs and a tank top," Karen said "We're going to have to get you some proper clothes, if you're going to make a go of it." "I have other clothes," Joe said. "Linda helped me pick some out. I just ain't used to wearing that skimpy stuff yet," he said grinning. "I saw what you look like under that coverall, and you haven't got anything to be ashamed of," Karen went on. "If you got it, flaunt it a little." "I'm still getting used to just having it. I don't think I'm quite ready to 'flaunt' it yet," Joe countered, smiling. "It's about twelve forty-five," Karen said. "You don't need to be back for about thirty to forty-five minutes. Anything you want to do?" "I don't have anything in mind. Do you?" Joe asked, wondering what the tall blond was thinking. "I thought we might go over to Dillard's, and find you some summer clothes," Karen said. "I have stuff at home. It's only about ten minutes away, if you want to take me. It's Linda's house, but she won't home till about three of four," Joe said. "I've got some time to kill, and I'd just as well not rush back to work," Karen said, getting up. She walked out, and Joe followed her out, telling her the way to Linda's. She listened, and repeated his instructions back after he gave them, almost like a pilot's 'read back' of his clearance. "You read that back like an IFR clearance," Joe said, figuring that the term wouldn't be understood by the tall nurse. "I used to be in the Air Force," Karen replied. "I guess I still have some old habits left." "You were a pilot in the Air Force?" Joe was impressed. "No, not a rated pilot." Karen answered. "I was a flight simulation specialist. I did learn to fly instruments, and get my private while I was in, though." "Where were you stationed?" Joe asked. "I was in the Air Force, too." "I'm originally from Tulsa," Karen said. "I went to school at Chanute Air Force Base, in Illinois. From there, I was assigned to Davis-Monthan, in Tucson. That's how I ended up here in the Phoenix area. I went to school at University o f Arizona while I was in, and for a year after I got out. While I was at D-M, my mother died. My dad died when I was a little kid. I was kind broken up about it, and went into a kind of depression. I guess I always had a problem with my gender, b ut it really came to the surface after my mom died. I decided I would look into what I could do about it. That was not too long after this male ophthalmologist, Richard Raskin, decided to have gender reassignment surgery, and became Rene' Richards. You may have heard of him, or her, she also was in the news as a tennis player for a while. Anyway, I took pre-med courses at UA, and spent most of my spare time studying about transsexualism. I met Dr. Krell some time later, and this is how I've turned out. I'm a licensed RN, but now I've got about six years of schooling behind me. I guess, if I got my act together, I should become a doctor. My family was well off, and I don't need to work. I've just been working for Dr. Hopkins because I find it interesting." They pulled up Linda's drive, and parked on the side, near the entrance to the pool. Joe got out, and Karen followed. "Nice place," Karen said. "This is your girl friends house?" "Yeah, she's in real estate, and she got a good deal on this place," Joe explained. Joe went to the door, and opened it. They went inside, and Joe went straight to his room. Karen followed closely behind him. He went in and went to his closet, and turned on the light. His few items of women's clothing hung on hangers in the large closet. "This is what I've got, so far," Joe said. "It isn't a lot, and if I'm gonna stay this way I guess I'll have to get some more. I had been hoping that they'd have something that could change me back." "Nope, there's no magic pill, I'll attest to that," Karen said. Let's see... how about this. It would look great on you." She picked out the little top with the balloons, that Linda had picked out for him. "Yeah, I've worn that once already. I guess it's OK, but I always feel like I'm hanging out of the big armholes," Joe complained. "Ridiculous. I'm sure you look great in it. Get that hot coverall off, and put this on. What do you have to wear with it?" Karen asked. "I've got some shorts. I don't have any longer pants, yet," Joe said. "Get the shorts," Karen ordered. Joe went out into the bedroom, went to his dresser, and found the white and the blue shorts. He had just put them there that morning. He placed them both on the bed and sat down on the side, taking his Rebok's off. He pulled the jumpsuit off and lay it on the bed. He stood there, in his underwear, waiting for Karen to bring him the little tank top. She came out of the closet, and looked at Joe. "My God, you're beautiful!" she said as she looked at him. "And you just woke up the other day, looking like that?" she asked. "Yeah. I guess that's about it. I haven't any idea what has caused it," Joe said. "That's what I'm trying to find out. r Something apparently happened to me, Dave, and Mike, while we were flying. We all have similar symptoms." "Gee, I wish I could have made the change that easy," Karen said. "Maybe we should go flying together," she said, grinning. She gave Joe the top, and he slipped it over his head. He looked at her and showed her the way his bra peeked out the large arm openings. "Aw, don't be so paranoid," Karen said. "It's not that noticeable. You can't really see anything. Guy's will think it's sexy, and women either won't notice, or won't care," Karen advised. Joe decided Karen must be right. Linda had basically said the same thing, so it must be true. He grabbed the blue shorts that Karen handed him, and slipped them on. It was more comfortable out of the warm, but wonderfully concealing, jumpsuit. "I guess we better be getting back," Joe said, looking at his alarm clock by the bed. "Give me a minute, I need to use your bathroom before we go back," Karen said. Joe pointed to the door to the attached bath. He sat on the bed and waited for Karen. As he did, he thought about his tall new friend. They were so alike, and yet, so different. They had both started out in life as males, and even had relationships with women. Now they were both learning to live as women. Karen was much further along, having been living like this for almost three years. Joe had only four days behind him. And, Karen WANTED to be this way. He wasn't a volunteer, but now they were both in similar situations. They had almost identical interests, and seemed to get along very well. He was glad to have found her when he did. Karen might be a good person to have around when learning to cope with the things he would probably need to learn in the next few months. But, what would Linda think of Karen, or how would she feel about him having another female friend? Joe was pulled away from his thoughts by the sound of the toilet flushing. "Ok. Now I'm ready." Karen said, as she re-entered the bedroom. Joe got up, and arranged his credit cards and ID in the tiny pockets of the blue shorts. He would have to do something about where to put this stuff, if he wasn't going to carry a purse. Karen saw what he was doing, and laughed. "I still have the same problem," she admitted. "I just can't get used to the idea of carrying a purse around all the time, but there just aren't enough pockets in women's clothes. Luckily, these uniforms have pretty large pockets," she said, pulling a few dollars, and her hospital ID, out of a pocket of her white uniform dress. Joe went out, and locked the door. Karen looked at the pool area. "Linda sure has a nice place here," she said. "How does she take it, with you looking like a woman now?" "I don't know," Joe answered. "She says she doesn't care what happens, that she wants to be with me, no matter what. But I have always insisted to her that this was a temporary thing for me, and that I would do all I could to get back nor mal. If I come to her now, and say that this is how it will be....I don't know. I don't know how she'll take it, and I don't know what I'll want to do....as I get used to the idea myself, if that's possible. It still seems like a strange dream to me. so far." The drive back to the hospital was quick, and they didn't talk much. As they neared the parking lot, Joe started to get apprehensive. Although the little top and the shorts he was wearing were much more comfortable in the heat, they were also much more revealing. Except for his experience in the health club, he had never been in a public place with so much of his new shape exposed. It seemed different when he was around strangers, or, close friends, but Jim Matheney, and who knows who else, would be there this afternoon. They'd be in for a surprise when they saw him like this. Oh well, I might as well get used to it, if I'm going to be like this for the rest of my life. The rest of my life..... It was about 1:45 when they got back up to Dr. Krell's reception area. There was nobody sitting in the waiting area, and Joe wondered where his two friends were. He sat down on one of the couches. Karen sat down behind the reception desk, and started to read something, probably the appointment schedule. "Your friend Dave is at lunch, and Mike is up stairs at OB-GYN. Dr. Krell is at lunch. He might have Dave with him. They should be back by two," Karen said. She got up, and started down the hall. Joe called out to her. "Will I be seeing you again today?" he asked. He didn't want her to leave. He felt better having Karen around because she gave him hope that he could still have a normal life, even if he stayed the way he was. "Sure Joe, I'll be back down later," she said. "You'll be here all afternoon. I'll see you before you leave today." As Joe sat there, waiting for everyone to return, he used the time to think. If he was going to be this way permanently, he had to make some plans. He didn't have enough clothes, of course. His identification problems would be taken care of, he hoped. He wondered about his job. Surely, if he, Dave, and Mike all had problems, it must be job related, so he doubted that they would fire him, or anything like that. But, would he even want to go back there? What would his friends say? The guy's who knew him as Joe, the airplane and sports car nut. Joe, the bachelor. Joe, the guy. He looked down at his smooth, tanned legs. If they were somebody else's, he would be one of the guy's, critically checking them out. But these were his. They really didn't look all that much different than they used to, except that they were now smoothly hairless. He rubbed his upper leg with his hand. It felt different than before, though. Much softer. He was in good shape before this happened, and he still had good muscle tone, but now he also had that thin layer of fat, just under the skin, that makes females feel so soft. He thought it might be even softer than yesterday. Maybe he was still changing. The skin felt more sensitive, too. His light touch felt good....kind of sensuous. He could feel his breasts, his nipples actually, stiffening. Whenever they did that, he could feel them when they rubbed the soft material inside his bra. He liked that sensation, too. It was a sort of tickling feeling, different than anything he knew as a guy. When you really thought about it, having breasts wasn't bad at all, he considered. It was going to be a little more difficult getting used to not having a penis anymore, though. Even though it usually felt like it was still there, it wasn't. While its substitute might be interesting, it was certainly a lot less functional at least for what it was used for the most. Like urinating. It sure seemed like he had to do that a lot more often now. And, of course the darn thing even might have some other surprises. Dr. Hopkins said he could probably get pregnant. No immediate problem there, but it meant that he would also probably have menstrual periods. What would that be like? Would it hurt? Would he have cramps, and get bitchy, like Linda did, sometimes? He didn't want to think about that. But having blood, and other yuck, coming out of your body, as a 'normal' occurrence? His examination today, and the probing, made him painfully aware of this new orifice. No, he decided, having a vagina wasn't all that great. It might feel good...great even, sometimes, but it was probably more of a liability, than an asset. Then again, if I gotta be a girl, it's best to have ALL the parts... He was glad he wasn't stuck halfway, like Mike seemed to be. That seemed like a real problem. Maybe he was lucky to have the body he did. It could sure be worse, he thought, lightly stroking a breast with the tips of his fingers. "Got a little itch there, Joe?" The tall nurse asked, grinning widely as she walked up to him. Joe could feel his face turning red. He had been so deep in thought, that he didn't notice Karen and Mike come up the tiled hallway. Mike was walking stiffly, and looked uncomfortable. Karen motioned for him to sit down, and when he tried, Joe understood what his problem was. "I've got to go back upstairs. Dr. Krell should be here any minute. It's almost two. Karen said, excusing herself. "Well, how's it going Mike?" Joe asked. He was trying to picture him on the examining table with the stirrups. "Don't ask. You wouldn't believe what they did to me upstairs." Mike said. He seemed to be in very low spirits. Joe could imagine why. "If it's the pelvic exam, I had one this morning, and I know what you mean. The pain has just recently wore off for me," Joe said, trying to make Mike feel like he wasn't alone in this. "Joe, Dr. Hopkins said it looked like I was a completely 'functional' female," Mike went on. "He said it's possible I might even have periods. He stuck a thing, sort of a 'stretching' tool, into my vagina. My VAGINA. I've got a vagina. Can you believe it? He even said I had an 'intact hymen'. On top of all this, I'm a virgin." Mike was so shaken, it looked like he might cry. Joe didn't know what to do to help his friend. He thought about what Dr. Krell told him about gender reassignment. Maybe, for Mike, it would be the thing to do. He knew Dr. Krell would know what would be the best for Mike. He touched Mike's shoulder, and Mike looked at him. Tears were welling in his eyes. "Joe, I just can't be a woman. I just CAN'T. Look at you...you LOOK like a woman. A good looking one, too. I don't even look like an ugly woman," he moaned. "Did Dr. Hopkins have any thoughts as to why your body has stayed masculine looking?" Joe asked. "Yeah. He did. He looked at me...at my cock...my vagina...I guess... And he asked me if I have been taking anabolic steroids," Mike said. "Did you?" Joe asked, knowing the answer before he heard it. "Joe, I was careful...I didn't take too many...Just enough shots to get my pecks in shape. I never thought, hell, who would, I never thought that it would make me look like a man, when I changed into a GIRL. Joe, I didn't know. I just didn't know." Mike was almost pleading with him. "Mike, don't worry, I think you'll find Dr. Krell can help. I don't know how, just yet. But I'm sure he can help," Joe said. "Can he change you back into a guy?" Mike asked. "Well, for me, he recommended that I stay this way, at least until we can figure out what caused it. For you, maybe he'll recommend something else. You look a lot more like a guy than I do, now," Joe said honestly. "Yeah, a guy who has periods... A guy with a cunt.... Joe, he's just GOTTA help me," Mike pleaded. Joe looked down the hall, and saw Jim Matheney walking their way. Well, here it goes, he thought. He felt the blood rush to his cheeks, and tried in vain to arrange the tank top so that his boobs wouldn't be so obvious. Suddenly, Jim Matheney realized who it was, sitting there on the couch. He recognized Mike first, but his eyes did a double take when he saw the other person, one of his engineers, maybe his best pilot, sitting there, wearing women's clot hes, and, did he see it right, he even looked like a woman. No doubt about it, Joe Bates looked like a woman. He seemed much smaller, especially sitting next to the big technician, Mike. Holy cow, Jim thought, he's got knockers, and everything. What's going on here, anyway? "Hi Jim," Joe said, breaking the awkward silence, as Jim stared at him, his eyes wide, and his mouth speechless. "Joe, what the hell is going on here?" Jim asked. "Mike, what's the matter with you? Where's Dave?" He was overwhelmed with what he saw. Joe tried to give a quick explanation. "Well, Jim, we don't know what's happened, exactly. Me, Dave, and Mike here, seem to have received some kind of chromosomal damage, or something... Our genes have been changed somehow, so that we're all females now, at least genetically." He was careful about what he said in front of Mike. He didn't want him to break down again. "Females? What do you mean females?" Jim asked. "Women...girls...you know. Damn it Jim, look at me. This ain't some kind of costume. We've undergone some kind of transformation, or something. When I woke up Friday, I looked like this. And, I guarantee it was much more of a surprise for me then, than it is for you now," Joe explained. "All three of you? What caused it anyway?" Jim asked. "Well, that's what we're trying to find out. Since it happened to us three on the GPS test program, it must have something to do with the Learjet, or somewhere we went in it. Damn if I can figure it out," Joe said. "So, you're telling me you've all become females? Then what about you Mike?" Jim asked. Before Mike could say anything, Joe broke in. "Mike has changed too, but mostly internally. His secondary characteristics just haven't developed," Joe explained, voicing what was his best guess, but not wanting to bring up the steroids. "Jim, there's something wrong with that damn Lear," Mike said loudly. "Look what it's done to us. You gotta find out what's causing it. The company's gotta help us get back to normal" "Mike, if Honeybone is at fault, they will do everything possible to help you. How do you know it's the Lear, anyway?" Jim asked. "Jim, us three were the only one's working the ground tests, with the portable transmitter. We were all on the airplane for the touch and go's, too. It has to have something to do with the Lear, or where the Lear went, on Thursday," Joe reasoned. "Where did you take the damn thing?" Jim asked. "We hardly got out of the pattern. I know for sure we never got more than eight DME from Deer Valley," Joe said. Deer Valley airport was north of Phoenix and was where the Learjet was based. "What can we do? How do you think we can test it? I wouldn't want to be the pilot on this one," Jim said. "I don't know how we can do it. Maybe somebody here has some ideas. I don't know what we gotta do, but I don't think anyone should fly the Lear till we figure out what's going on," Joe suggested. "Yeah, but don't worry, when the guy's find about this, I don't think I could drag anybody into that airplane," Jim agreed. "Jim, I don't know what's going to happen, but it's just possible that we're stuck like this. What's you're opinion on what Honeybone will do about it," Joe asked. "Damn Joe, I don't know. I never heard of anything like this. I do think that they should do everything possible. They will, if I have anything to do about it. What do you want Honeybone to do, Joe?" Jim answered. "I don't know. I know I look different, but I just hope that the company doesn't decide that I would be better off unemployed," Joe said. "If Honeybone is at fault here, I'll raise all kind's of hell if they try to get rid of any of you," Jim said. He meant it, too. Doctor Krell, followed closely by Dave Skinner, came through the door at the end of the hall. Jim turned around and watched as his other pilot/engineer came down the hall. Dr. Krell held out his hand to Jim. "Mr. Matheney, I'm Benjamin Krell. I guess you see what kind of situation you're guy's are in," The little doctor said. "What's causing this, doc?" Jim asked. "What can be done about it?" Jim Matheney was a problem solver, and he was used to getting things done, not just talking about it. "It is a difficult problem. I know of nothing, no phenomena, which can cause this. It seems as though their bodies' chromosomes have been altered. We have just started the analysis, and that's all we have so far. I will have to look at the results of the other physical examinations, but I know that Joe here, has the total outward appearance of a normal female," Dr. Krell said. "Can you correct or reverse this thing?" Jim asked. "I don't know. I don't see how, but I really need to study the problem some more. I'd like to see what you haveat work, what they were operating in the Learjet airplane. I'd also like to get them to my clinic in San Diego where I can run more tests, and where we have more people skilled in this area. "If you need to go to San Diego, then get over there. Joe, you can take the 421 if you want. Nobody's using it, and there is nothing scheduled on it for the rest of the month. Can you still fly?" Jim asked. "I don't know why not, Jim. Maybe I look like a woman now, but I haven't had the urge to sit home and bake cookies, or anything like that. If course I can still fly." Just the question rankled Joe a bit. "Sorry Joe, I didn't mean to offend you. It's a little difficult to comprehend that you're the same person. You sure look a lot different," Jim apologized. "It's ok, Jim. I know I look different. I feel different too. But inside, it's still me. I'd sure appreciate it if you'd try to treat us the same as before, much as possible anyway. It's hard enough to get used to this, without every body treating us like we were entirely different people. Our bodies have changed, but our brains are the same," Joe said. He hoped that was true. He was starting to have doubts. "Joe, can we get you over to San Diego tomorrow?" Dr. Krell asked. "I'd like all three of you there, if possible. I have called, and we can begin running tests in the afternoon, if possible." "What about the Lear?" Joe asked. He wanted to know what caused this to happen to him. "I'd like to go over to where the airplane is, later this afternoon. Maybe we can figure out a way to run some experiments on it. I'll need to see what you are talking about. You won't have to be involved in that, however. Some of my people, and maybe Mr. Matheney here, can do that. I want to find out the extent of your symptoms, as soon as possible," Dr. Krell ordered. "If Dave and I fly the 421 to San Diego, we might get checked by the Fed's. What do you think they would say about us, our tickets still have an M in the sex column," Joe asked. "I'll call Fred, and get an opinion from him. Maybe he can make a decision himself, or can call Ok City," Jim answered. They both had a low opinion of their FAA representatives ability to deal new situations. "Well, I've got to get back to my office." Dr. Krell said. "Dave, I think they're about ready for you upstairs." Joe looked at Dave. He saw that Mike look at him too. They both knew what was in store for their friend. Dave just looked at both of them, with a confused look on his face. Mike and Joe just grinned smugly. Dave followed Dr. Krell into his office. Mike sat down on the couch, and began squirming around trying to get comfortable. Jim saw him wincing, and asked what his problem was. "Well, ah...I ah..Jim, well, you see, they have this stainless steel tool, it looks kind of like a safety wire pliers with spoons on the end. Well, they take this thing, and they put it inside you, and they open it up. I'll tell you, you wouldn't want to try it," Mike, with his face red with embarrassment, as he tried to describe his pelvic exam. "You had one of those? Mike, you've changed that much too? I didn't know..I didn't realize you had changed that much. You look pretty much the same," Jim said, eyeing the big guy carefully. "I'm not the same, Jim. I'm not the same. You should see what I look like without this stuff on. I may still look like a guy, but right now I don't feel like one. Right now, it feel's like my balls were cut off with a dull knife. Hell , it kinda looks like it, too," Mike said, a bit of sarcasm creeping into his voice. "Well, if there is any thing that can be done, it will be done," Jim promised. Joe, Mike and Jim sat outside Dr. Krell's office for about forty five minutes. Dr. Krell had taken Dave upstairs after interviewing him. He came down alone about thirty minutes later, and went into his office. About ten minutes after that, Karen brought a stiff walking Dave Skinner back down, and took him into Dr. Krell's office. She came back out alone, and sat down on the couch with the three of them. Joe introduced Karen to the others. He didn't mention her past. "This is Dr. Krell's nurse, and assistant, Karen Simpson. Among her other talents, she's an instrument pilot," Joe added. Karen said hello to each of them, and asked Joe what he was doing later. Joe looked at Jim. "I guess we're going to look at the Lear, to see what, or how we can try to find out what happened," Jim said. "We'll have to wait for Dr. Krell's word." "Would you like to come along?" Joe asked. He liked to be around Karen. "Yeah, I would. This whole thing is so bizarre, I'd like to know what caused it myself," she answered. She remained sitting on the couch. It was obvious that she was waiting for Dave to finish with Dr. Krell also. Finally, the door opened, and a long faced Dave Skinner came out. Dr. Krell was right behind him. "Would it be possible to see this airplane, and the equipment they were using?" Dr. Krell asked. "I'm ready to go, whenever you want," Jim answered. "Dr. Krell, if you have no objections, Joe's invited me to come along, and I'd sure like to," Karen asked. "Sure Karen, It might be helpful to have you along anyway," Dr. Krell said. They all followed Jim out, but when they got to the parking lot, they stopped to decide how to split up. "Dr. Krell, I have a company Ford sedan, and it will hold four, or five, easily," Jim said. "I'll take Joe me, and follow you," Karen said quickly. "Mike, you and Dave want to ride with us?" Jim asked. "Sure, why not?" Mike answered. He and Dave followed them to the Ford in the public lot. Joe followed Karen to her car, in the employee lot. Karen and Joe were out first, and they headed straight for Deer Valley airport. When they came down the road near the field, Joe pointed out the hangar, and Karen drove right up to it. Joe was getting nervous again, as he knew there was a guard on duty who knew him as a male. He didn't have his company ID, and he didn't want to have to explain his problem to the guard anyway. He suggested that they wait for Jim to arrive with the others, in the Ford. Before long, Jim drove up, and parked next to the white Toyota. Joe and Karen got out, and went over to the others. They went to the gate, and Jim showed his badge to the person in the guard shack. The guard handed them a clipboard, and asked them to sign in. Joe quickly signed his name, and hoped that the guard wouldn't look at their names. He was wrong. "Joe? Joe Bates? We have somebody here by that name," he said. When Dave, and Mike signed on, he looked at them carefully. Joe didn't say anything, and neither did the others. They quickly walked through the gate, and into the hanger . "There's the Lear," Jim said, mainly for Dr. Krell's information. They walked over to the sleek aircraft, and Joe spun the handle, and opened the two piece door. He peered inside. What's in here that could have caused this to happen? he thought. He looked around at the test gear that was attached to the seat tracks. "I believe there is a portable transmitter, or something?" Dr. Krell asked. "Yeah, that's over in the lab," Joe answered. "We can go look at that if you like." "I believe it may be something worth looking into," Dr. Krell said. "I have heard that high power radio energy can cause cell damage, and there is very little information compiled about how it effects the chromosomes." "Well, it would be easy to set up, and operate, but how would we test it?" Jim said. "We have a cage back at the plant, that we could isolate the RF from everybody. Maybe we should try that." They walked passed the Cessna 421. Karen walked over to one of the engines, and ran her hand down the leading edge of a prop blade. "How long since you've flown?" Joe asked. "Almost four years." Karen said. "I've never renewed my medical since I started on hormones. I guess I do miss it a little." "Maybe you could come along the San Diego," Jim said. "I'll get you a time in this thing, if you want." "Wouldn't miss it, if I can get away," Karen said. "I'll have to ask Dr. Hopkins." "Well, if you can get away, I'd like it if you could come along," Joe said. He liked having Karen around. Jim and Dr. Krell discussed the possible ways they could run tests on the equipment. The possibility of using animals was considered. Dr. Krell said he'd have to study the idea, since he wasn't familiar with that type of testing. He said he would consult some of his colleagues. Finally, they were finished looking at the aircraft and equipment. "Let's go talk to the guys in the lab," Jim said. "I'll show you the transmitters." Joe, Karen, Mike, and Dave all followed Jim, and Dr. Krell into one of the labs located in the rooms on the sides of the big hanger. They went in, and saw the yellow painted chassis which contained the relatively low powered test transmitters used to functional test the new GPS nav receivers. "How close to the antenna are you, during ground tests?" Dr. Krell asked. "Well, as close as a few feet, to as far as a mile," Mike said. The operation of the transmitters was his area of expertise. "How can we test this in a controlled environment?" Dr. Krell asked. "Back at the plant we have a radiation containment room, a type of wire cage," Jim answered. "Little or no radio energy escapes from the cage." "I think that's what we should use to test the transmitter," Dr. Krell said. "Since we are unsure of the area of danger, it would be best to contain it completely." "We'll bring a transmitter to the plant tomorrow," Jim said. "How can we test this? Don't we need a test case, a volunteer?" "I'm not sure yet," Dr. Krell said. "I can get access to some animal subjects, and I think we should start there. If it happens that it seems to be the transmitters which cause the cell changes, and I would suspect that it is, I think we could easily get human volunteers, if it was likely that they might result in changes like those on Joe here." Joe blushed as everyone looked at him. It was probably true, if there were others like Karen, this machine could be the answer to their prayers. An operational "Instant Sex Change" machine would surely be a revolutionary piece of hardware. A far greater technological advance than the GPS Nav program. Unfortunately, he was perhaps a victim of this new discovery, and might have to live the rest of his life with the result. "I think we should call the Feds," Joe said. "I want to know if I'm legal when I fly. I'm worried when I drive, and if me and Dave have to go to San Diego tomorrow, I want to know what my status is." "Well, let's call Fred," Jim said. Fred was the FAA GADO Rep, which dealt closely with Honeybone. They went into the empty flight planning office and picked up the phone. Fred Holms office number was on the quick dialer. He answered almost immediately. "Fred, we seem to have a little problem that we need an opinion on," Jim said. "Three of my guy's seem to have received some kind of cell change or something, and we think it might be something we're doing here on the GPS project. We don 't yet have any proof of that yet, but we'd like to run some tests on it. We have a Dr. Krell who specializes in chromosomal problems, and he'd like our people to come to his office in San Diego. I'd like to let them go in the 421, but they aren't sure what the FAA's feeling are on things like this." Jim stopped talking for an instant, as he listened to what the FAA man was saying. "Yeah, it's my two pilot/engineers, Joe Bates, and Dave Skinner," he said. "Well, it's kinda weird. They seem to have changed sex or, at least they look like it." Jim waited, as the man on the other end did something that took a few minutes. "No, they haven't been taking any drugs, or hormones, or anything like that. I don't think so anyway," Jim looked at Joe, and Dave, who shook their heads to the negative. "No they haven't had surgery, or anything like that," Jim said into the phone. "They have just come from Hillcrest were they were given a clean bill of health. There don't seem to be any health problems at all, it's just that they have undergone some unusual changes. They both look sort of like they've changed into females. That's all we know so far." Yeah. that's all, we've just turned into women. That's all. Joe thought. It's a lot different to say it, than to have it happen to you. "Sure their medicals are current. Yeah, I can give them a quick check ride. I know that they don't have any physical problems," Jim said. Jim was a flight instructor, as was Joe, but he was also a designated flight examiner. "Ok, sounds reasonable to me," Jim said. He hung up the phone. "Fred says that if you two haven't been taking any drugs or other prescription chemicals, and haven't been subjected to any major surgery, he can't find anything in the books to keep you from being legal. He suggested I give each of you a check ride. He said that a note from your doctor would be necessary to get your ticket changed, and to present at your next physical," Jim said. "Well, that sound's unbelievably easy," Joe said. "I'll give you the papers you need tomorrow, at my office," Dr. Krell said. "If you have an hour, right now, I'll take both of you up in the 421, and make a logbook entry," Jim said. "Can you wait?" Joe looked at Karen. "Sure, no problem," said the tall nurse Joe and Dave took the little tug, and pulled the 421 out of the hanger. Joe went to the phone and called the fuel truck to top off the tanks, as Dave started the preflight inspection. When they were ready, the three of them boarded the little twin. Jim sat in one of the passenger seats, as Joe and Dave adjusted the crew seats to their new proportions. Soon the engines were started, and they taxied out to the run-up area . They checked the piston engines, and called the tower for takeoff clearance. Jim told them to remain in the traffic pattern. Jim sat on the left, and made the first takeoff, and landing. Then Dave got the chance to show his capability. Then Jim asked that they set the left engine to minimum thrust, and Joe made a simulated single engine landing. Dave also demonstrated he could still fly the 421 on one engine, and then they returned to the Honeybone hanger. "Nothing wrong with your ability to fly," was all Jim said. They both had their flight bags in their lockers, and they presented their logbooks to Jim, who made an entry as suggested by the FAA rep. When they had the 421 chocked in the hanger, they were ready to return to the hospital. Jim took Dr. Krell, Dave and Mike along in the Ford sedan, while Joe again rode back with Karen. When they arrived back at the hospital, Karen parked the car and they walked in. "Let me find Dr. Hopkins, and see if I can take a few days off," she said. "I don't think there will be any problem. He has three assistants, and I usually just answer the phones." It was about four thirty by the time they had talked to Dr. Hopkins, and made an appointment to meet with Dr. Krell and his staff, in San Diego, tomorrow at noon. Dr. Krell suggested that they plan on remaining in California for at least two days. Jim said it would be no problem for them to take the plane, and keep it as long as they needed it. "Well, I guess I'll see you tomorrow morning, about eleven." Dr. Krell said. "I'll probably leave here tonight." Karen, Joe, Dave, Mike, and Jim walked to the parking lot. They discussed the plans for the trip in the morning. Dave and Joe decided to meet at the hanger about six o'clock. The rest could arrive about seven, or seven thirty. Jim said he couldn't go tomorrow morning, but if they wanted him there, he'd come up in the afternoon. They said they couldn't think of any reason why he'd have to be there, but they'd call if they needed him. That seemed to satisfy him. To Joe, Jim seemed to be worried about the liability that Honeybone might incur with all this. Joe asked him about it. "I talked to Mayer on the phone. (Mayer was Jim's supervisor, the VP of operations.) He said that I should do everything I could to help figure out what was going on. He was worried about you guy's too. Don't worry, Joe, the company is going to help you with this." Jim said, putting his hand on Joe's shoulder, but quickly pulled it away when he felt it's feminine softness. "Thanks Jim. I appreciate your concern. I don't know what's going to become of this, but I appreciate your concern, and I appreciate what the company is doing to help." "What you got planned for the evening, Joe?" Karen asked. "I don't know, I guess Linda is home by now, I'll have to tell her I'll be out of town for a couple of days. I guess I'll have to get some things to take along. It looks like I'm gonna be this way for a while, so I guess I better invest in some more girl stuff," Joe said. A funny grin formed on his face as he talked. Joe looked over at Dave. "What about you, pal, are you going to need some things if you're going to be away for a couple of days?" "Yeah, I guess I do. I'll get Cindy to help me find something. I'd like her to come along to San Diego, but I guess she'll have to stay home with the kids." "If you want to go with me, give me a call. I'm staying at Linda's house, at least for now," Joe said. If he was to stay a woman, it might be best if he moved away from Linda, he thought. "I wouldn't mind if you came over, maybe about six, or six thirty," Joe said. "We can go to the mall and get something to eat. Linda might want to come along. I'd like you to meet her," Joe said to Karen. Joe went to his car, and Dave go in with him. They drove to Dave's house. Dave didn't say much, until they were almost to his house. "Joe, Dr. Krell said that I was a genetic woman now, and that he knew of nothing that could make me a functioning, normal male again," Dave said. "Yeah, I figured he did. That's the same thing he told me. He said that any operation to make me a male wouldn't be acceptable to me, and that he thought it would be best for me to remain the way I am, until they can find a way to reverse the process, or just get used to being a woman," Joe said. "Basically the same thing he told me," Dave said. "I told him I was a married man, and I just couldn't buy some dresses and get on with a new life. Dr. Krell said he wasn't sure how to handle my problem, but he would look into it, and h e would get therapy for me. I told him therapy wouldn't help me to sleep with my wife. It wouldn't explain to my son why his daddy was now a woman. He didn't have any answers to help me at all." "I guess they haven't had a situation like your's before," Joe said. "But Dr. Krell is pretty wise, he might be able to come up with something that will help you." They pulled into Dave's driveway, and Dave got out. "I'll see you in the morning." Dave said, the frown momentarily turning to a tiny smile as he said bye to his pal. Joe drove to Linda's house. When he pulled in back, he saw Linda's car in the drive. Joe got out of his car, and walked into the house. Linda was sitting at the table in the dining area, going over some paperwork. She still wearing the clothes she put on that morning. Joe walked up to the chair she was sitting on, and put his hands on her shoulders. He started to massage her neck. She leaned back, and, putting her head back, looked up at Joe. "Hi there," she said, almost purring as Joe rubbed her neck and soft shoulders. "Hi," Joe said. She looked so sexy, and he could see her black teddy through the neck of her suit. "Did you find anything out today?" Linda asked. "Well, I guess I did," Joe said. " I found out that I'm genetically a woman. Which is what I already suspected," Joe said. "Can they help you get back?" she asked. "They recommend that I stay like this at least until they can figure out what has caused it, and can try to reverse the process. That's all the hope they can provide," Joe said. "So I guess I'll be a girl, for a while anyway. I gotta try to get used to it." "We can make the best of it," Linda said. "I think it will be OK, even if they don't ever find a way to make you a male again." "Dave Skinner, and Mike Osborn have the same problem," Joe said. "They were with me in the Lear Thursday, and they found the same symptoms when they woke up Friday." "You mean that you're not the only one changed like this?" Linda asked, amazed. "That's right, and Dave is married, with two kids. He's really got a problem," Joe replied. "Mike Osborn, you've never met him, Mike has changed too, but he's a muscle builder, and was taking steroids. Now, he's female internally, but he still looks like a guy. Compared to my problem, it's really a bad situation. "I've got to go to San Diego in the morning. Dave, Mike and I will fly over in the 421. A specialist named Dr. Benjamin Krell has a clinic, or something there, and he wants us to come over so he can examine us," Joe said. "When do you have to leave?" Linda asked. "I've got a six o'clock show," Joe said. "Will you need anything? How long will you be staying?" Linda asked. "Well, I guess I should look through my things, and see if I have everything I'll need. If I'm going to stay this way, for a while at least, I guess I can invest in some more clothes," Joe said. He knew Linda liked to shop more than anything else. "You'll have to go to the Mall then," Linda said. "I have to finish this paperwork. It looks like I've got a buyer on that big place over on Canyon Road." "I've met a nurse, she works for Dr. Hopkins, the Gynecologist who examined me this morning. She's coming over in a little while. I'd like you to meet her," Joe said. He hoped Linda would like Karen but he wasn't sure how she would fee l about him having a woman as a friend. "Oh, really? I'd like to meet her," Linda said. "If you don't mind, I'd like to get out of these clothes, and into something more comfortable." "Sure, good idea. Karen should be here in about a half hour," Joe said. Joe went to his room. He looked through the few item of clothing he had. He wondered what he should take to San Diego. He wondered what he should wear when he flew the 421. He had a Nomex flight suit in his locker at the Honeybone hanger, but that wouldn't fit now. Besides, this was more of a personal trip, than a work trip. He seldom flew now, except as part of his job. He was instructing Jay so that he could get his instrument rating. He used Jay's plane for that. Jay had a Mooney 201. He used it to fly from Phoenix to Tucson, Casa Grande, and other points around Arizona. For that an instrument rating wasn't really necessary, the weather was almost always VFR, but since he bought the speedy little Mooney, Jay' s insurance took a big hike, and he was advised to get his instrument rating. Joe brushed off his instructor ticket, and was getting Jay ready for his check ride. Jay let him use the speedy single whenever he wanted, but he seldom felt the need to fly, except for work. He decided he better call Jay, and tell him what was happening. He went to the phone by the bed, and lay down as he punched in Jay's number. Jay answered, "Hello." "Jay, this is Joe. What's up?" "I was hoping you could tell me," Jay answered. "Well I do have a bit of news. I saw a doctor today. He confirmed what I already suspected. I'm genetically a woman as well as physically. I also found out that two of my crew on the Lear have also have the same symptoms." "They've turned into women too?" Jay asked, as if he couldn't believe it. "Yeah. Dave Skinner, and Mike Osborn, have turned genetically female, too. We think maybe it's the GPS test transmitter which has caused it. Jim Matheney, and Dr. Krell are trying to set up some tests to find out what and how it could cause such a thing. It looks like Honeybone is worried about a lawsuit, and is doing everything to help, and keep us satisfied," Joe said. "Well, they better," Jay said. "If they are responsible they better be willing to help all they can." Jay was an attorney. "They're going to do all they can, I think," Joe said. "We have to go to San Diego in the morning, to see specialists. They will help us get our records in order there too. Dr. Krell say's he's familiar with this type of problem since he deals with transsexual patients." "Do you want me to go with you?" Jay asked. "I don't think it will be necessary," Joe said. "Unless you want to go along." "If you don't need me, I'd better stay here. I've got plenty to do, and I'll get behind if I go off to California with you. But, if you feel you need my assistance, just call, I can be there in a couple of hours," Jay said. "Since I don't know what they'll be doing with me, I don't think you need to come along, at least this time," Joe said. "Be sure to take all your license, birth certificates, and military records," Jay reminded him. "Yeah, I'll have to go to my place to get them. I don't know if I should move back there, or what. It's beginning to look like I'm going to be like this for a while, maybe forever. I don't know how to deal with Linda, if that's the way it's going to be," Joe said. He didn't know how his buddy would take the news either. "They can't change you back?" Jay asked. "Hell, they don't know how I got this way, much less know how to get me back. They recommended that I don't resort to surgery, or anything like that. They said that would surely leave me disfigured if they did find a way to change me back to a male, and recommended that I stay this way until they examine all options. I guess I'd better get used to being like this," Joe replied, wistfully. "Well, try to make the best of it," Jay said. "We'll have to get together again, when you get back in a couple of days." "Yeah, we will," Joe said. The relationship was changing, between him and Jay, and they both knew it. "See you in a couple of days," Joe said, hanging up the phone. He went back to his drawers to decide what he needed when he heard the door bell. That must be Karen, he thought and went to the door. He opened it, and the tall attractive blonde came in. She was wearing bright pink, sort of florescent, shorts with a white top. Out of her nurses uniform, she looked even more attractive. Chapter 12 San Diego (continued) Linda could sense that something was wrong. She backed away from Joe, and just stood there, confused. "What's the matter, Joe?" she asked. "Did I do something wrong?" "No, you haven't done anything wrong," Joe answered. "I don't know what's wrong. I'm having such strange feelings. I don't know what's going on. I can't explain it. I first noticed it today, at the mall. I watched a woman undressing, and I didn't even feel anything. Nothing. It was weird, and I can't explain it. I was hoping I wouldn't feel the same about you, but right now, I just don't get the old urge. Since the change, I have been feeling hornier than ever, but now, suddenly, it's gone. Don't get me wrong, I still love you, but I'm just not sexually aroused." He sat down on the bed. "Maybe it's just temporary," Linda said, as she stroked his back. "Yeah, maybe it is. Or, maybe, my head's changing...maybe I'm destined to be female in body, and now, in mind too. I don't know. I don't know," he began to sob. Suddenly, he realized what he was doing. He was sitting there feeling sorry for himself, and he was crying like a girl...like a woman. What was happening? Linda saw it too, and was surprised at this reaction. She could see that Joe was changing...that he was becoming more emotional. She put her arm around him. "Is there anything I can do?" she asked. "I want to help in any way I can." "I'm sorry," Joe said. "You've been so good to me so far, just help me to deal with this. I just don't know what's happening." "We'll both get through this, don't worry," Linda said. "I've go to finish getting ready for tomorrow," Joe said. "Help me to get enough stuff to hold me for about two days." "Sure, we'll get you packed in no time," Linda said. "What do you plan to wear in the morning?" "That's a problem," Joe replied. "I like the sundress, but I don't know if it would be a problem flying with that full skirt." "How about the new suit then?" Linda continued. "That would probably be the equivalent of what you'd wear as a guy." "You think so?" Joe asked, wiping his eyes. He liked the suit. "Sure, and you look good in it, too," Linda said. "We'll pack the red dress, and your shorts, too. I think you should also take another skirt and blouse along. If you can't find anything in you're closet, you're welcome to look in mine." Joe went into his closet, and took a white blouse, and the blue A line skirt he wore on the first day. Linda folded, and packed them in his B-4 bag. She went to his drawers, and took out some underwear, as well as pantyhose, and athletic socks. "I bought some nylon stockings today," Joe said. "I hate to wear panty-hose, cause I have to go to the bathroom so often." He got the nylons from the bag, and showed them to Linda. "You'll probably want to wear these in the morning, then," she said, holding up the blue ones. "Yeah, If you say so." Joe was happy to have her pick out his clothes. He liked her tastes, and her eye for color. "Well, I guess you're about ready. Just your bath items yet," Linda said. "I'll get them in the morning, after my shower. I hope I can get you to help with those cosmetics again, in the morning?" he asked. "Sure, but I guess that means I have to get up at four o'clock," Linda said. "I do have a show time of six," Joe admitted. "I don't know how long it'll take for me to get ready." "Set the alarm for four, at least," Linda groaned. "I guess we better hit the sack early then," Joe decided. "I'm going to wash my face, and take a bath," Linda said. "If you're planning to shower in the morning, I suggest you wash that makeup off, anyway. I have cleansing cream in my bath, if you don't have any yet." "Ok, I'll take it off," Joe said. Linda went back to her bedroom, and Joe removed his underwear. He decided that he should wear something, and remembered the little terry romper he bought at She-Sports. He got it from a drawer, stepped into it, and pulled it over his boobs. He walked to Linda's room, and went into her bathroom, where she was standing at the sink, in her panties, while the tub was filling. He watched her. She looked so sexy standing there, in black panties, getting ready for her bath. The bra she had just removed had marked her skin with the same little pink lines that Joe noticed around the edges of his breasts. Linda remove her makeup, breasts bouncing as she rubbed her face. Soon she finished, and she looked up at him. "Shows over, Joe," she teased. "Time for your lesson in makeup removal." She showed him what to do, and he did as he was told. When his hair got in the way, he removed the wig. He looked at his now more familiar face. As the light makeup came off, he saw his former features seem to return, but not completely. Usually, by this time of the day, his beard was beginning to show as a noticeable stubble. Now, it was still smooth as a babies behind. It felt almost as soft too, Joe thought. He found the makeup was far easier to take it off, than it was to put on, and he finished quickly. The tub was ready, too. Linda removed her undies, and stepped into the bubbles. "I think there's room for you, if you want," she said enticingly. It was tempting, but Joe just didn't feel like messing around. "Maybe another time," he said. "I better get to bed." Taking his hairpiece, Joe left her room, and went back to his own. He took the remainder of the things laying on the bed, and either put them away, or laid them aside, to wear in the morning. He saw the underwear he wore that day, and considered whether he should wash it out in the sink. No, he decided, I'll do it later. He just didn't feel like hand washing panties right then. He opened the bed, and sprawled out on it. He had left the overhead light on, and had to get up again. He reluctantly got back up, and was going to switch off the light, when he noticed the book that Karen had given him to read, laying on the dresser. He took it, and switched on the light next to the bed, then went over and turned off the over head light. He laid back down on the bed, and covered himself with the sheet. He picked up the book, and looked at the cover. GENETICS, and SEX DETERMINATION, it read. He opened it, and started to read. The book's subject had always held a mild interest to him, but now, of course, it had a special significance. He started to read, and quickly became engrossed in the subject matter. He had been reading for some time, when Linda quietly came in his room, and sat down on the edge of his bed. "What are you reading?" she asked. "Oh, this is a book Karen suggested I read," he answered, and continued reading, trying to finish the chapter. Linda sat there, watching him, and looking around the room. She looked down at the pile of his clothes laying at the side of the bed, and saw Joe's underpants. They had sort of rolled up when he had pulled them off, and the narrow crotch section was face up, and visible. She saw the little stain of blood, and picked them up. "Joe, have you noticed your discharge?" she asked him. Joe was still trying to finish the chapter before he put the book down. "What discharge is that?" he returned. He wasn't really listening. "Look at your underwear. Are you starting you're period?" she asked again. "Period? I'm not having a period," he said, as he finally put the book down and looked up at her. He saw that she had the underwear he wore that day. "Are you sure?" she asked again. "It looks like you're starting to spot." She showed him the bloody stain. Mixed with the normal vaginal secretions, it appeared to her like the light menstrual flow at the start of a period. "Oh, that," he said, grinning. "Hey, I'm a virgin. What do you think about that." "What do you mean, you're a virgin?" Linda scoffed. "What are you talking about?" "It's true," he said, still grinning at her. "Dr. Krell examined me today. He said I had an intact hymen. That makes me a virgin, technically, at least." "So where did the blood come from? Did he break your "intact hymen?" Linda asked. She thought he was teasing her. "Well, Dr. Krell put a speculum inside of me when he gave me a pelvic examination. I think maybe he stretched it a little. I know it sure hurt like hell. But, he said that he was able to keep it intact. It bled a little bit, though. Do they do that to you every time they examine you?" Joe asked, as innocently as he could. "So you had a pelvic exam today, huh?" Linda asked. "What did you think about it? What did they find?" "Well, it's a lot different than any physical I ever had before," he answered honestly. "Dr. Krell said that I looked like I had normal, female, internal organs. And yeah, he said he thought I probably would have normal menses. That's what he called it." "So you really are a woman," Linda said, as if she didn't really expect it to be true. "Did he tell you anything else?" "He said he could tell that I was circumcised, when I still had my penis, because he found unexplained scar tissue around the clitoris. He said he figured that was it was probably the result of penile circumcision," Joe explained. "I didn't see any scar tissue on your genitals," Linda said. "Did you really look?" Joe asked. "I know that female's all look slightly different in that area. I know I don't look exactly like you. I think you have more tissue over your clitoris, compared to me," he continued. "Does it feel different?" she asked. "How would I know? I can tell you this, it feels way more sensitive than my penis did, but only if something touches it. When it's left alone, it feels just like it did before. Since it has the same nerves, and I guess, the same number of nerves. To me, it feels like it's much bigger than it appears. I think it's kinda like a cold sore in your mouth. It seems bigger than it looks, I guess, because the nerves are so closely spaced, compared to before." "Can I look?" Linda asked. I want to see the scar tissue he told you about." "Sure, I guess so," Joe answered. He sat up, and pulled the sheet away. Joe parted his legs, and gently spread the moist folds of tissue. The little glistening bud of flesh protruded near where the folds sort of joined. "So this is really your penis now?" Linda asked. She was inspecting him with intense interest. "Well, it feels like my penis. It's not a penis anymore, obviously, but it still feels like it, to me anyway," Joe repeated. "My guess is, it's the same parts, nerves and such, just arranged, or repackaged. And, a lot different looking, obviously. You probably have the same parts, too." "You think so?" Linda asked. "You really think a clitoris feels like a penis?" "From my experience, and that's all I go to go on, it sure does. Almost exactly the same, as long as nothing touches it. Then, it's much more sensitive than my penis was." "Overall then, is it better, or worse?" Linda asked, curious to know. "Just what are you trying to find out?" Joe asked her. It was becoming obvious that there was a reason for her questioning. "I'd just like to know what it feels like. I've always wondered what it would be like to be a guy...to have a penis, and everything," she answered, slightly embarrassed. "I've always been curious what it felt like for you, when we made love." "It felt great. Absolutely great," Joe said, and put his arm around her. "Do you miss it then?" Do you miss your penis?" she asked. "Do I miss it? Sure I do. Every minute. But not because I constantly have the urge to have sex. Hell, until today, I've been hornier than ever, and I've hardly had a chance to know it was gone when we've been together. Of course, I'm having new feelings now, some of them seem even better than before." As Joe spoke, he thought of their times together, before, and after the change. He thought of the new sensations, and his apparently hightened senses. Yeah, he thought, he missed it, but there were compensations. "So, if you had a choice then, would you want to be a man, or a woman," Linda asked. "For Pete's sake Linda, that's a hard question to answer. Of course I would rather be a man. It would simplify everything. But, if I had been born a woman, and suddenly turned into a man, I'd probably want be a woman again. It's not what FEEL'S better that causes it, it's how you're raised. There's nothing wrong with being a woman, of course I'm still having problems with having to sit to pee (he grinned), but damnit it, otherwise it feels pretty good. I'm starting to like wearing the clothes, too. I never thought I'd say that. And I kinda like the sensation of having these boobs too, even if I'm still usually embarrassed by them," Joe told her. "Do you like Karen?" Linda asked. The question surprised Joe. What was she thinking about now? Maybe he was starting to think like a woman, but, he thought, he still had a long way to go. "What do you mean by that?" he asked. "You've just met her today, you said, but you two seem to get along so well together. It's like you were old pal's," Linda answered. "It's different with Karen. She understands my problem," Joe said carefully. "What does that mean?" Linda asked. "I'm trying to understand it, too. What does she do, that I don't." Joe decided to tell her about Karen. "Does Karen look different... unusual to you, in any way?" he asked. "Unusual? No, I don't think so. She's kinda tall, that's all," Linda answered, wondering what he was getting at. "Four years ago, Karen was a medical student at UA. Her name was Keith then, and she was a guy. She underwent hormone therapy, had an operation, and now she's a woman," Joe revealed. "The woman who was here, tonight, in this house, she was a MAN?" Linda asked, completely amazed. "Yeah. That's right. About two years ago, she had surgery, in San Diego, and now she's physically, and legally, a woman. She can do about everything, except get pregnant," Joe said. "I've heard about that operation, but I never knew anyone who underwent it," Linda said. "Now you do," Joe said. "Dr. Krell says he has performed many operations like Karen's." "Can he do something like that for you?" Linda asked. "I asked him about that, and he said it was possible, but that he didn't advise it. At least not yet," Joe answered. "He suggested that I try to live like this, for a while at least, so his team can try to find a way to change us back by reversing whatever process caused it in the first place. If he were to change me using surgical procedures, and then they did find a way to get us back, it would leave us mutilated. Anyway, he said that the female to male operation isn't as satisfactory. I wouldn't be pleased with the results, that's how he put it." "Well, if it was half as good as Karen's, it would be acceptable, wouldn't it?" Linda asked him. "Maybe so, but he told me it's not nearly as easy to transform female genitalia into functioning male equipment. He said it often didn't even work for urination. It might look passable, but it was easily infected, and it had usually no feeling at all. I can't get very excited about the idea of having a numb, useless piece of flesh hanging between my legs, just so that I could say I was a man. Besides, I'd still be smaller, and look different than I used to," Joe explained. "So you're going to stay female?" Linda asked. "I don't know. Well, yeah, for a while anyway. At least until Dr. Krell attempts to find a way to get us back. I don't think I have any other choice, really," Joe said. "What about Dave, and what's his name..Mike? What will they do?" Linda continued. "Will they stay as they are, too?" "I think so, but I don't know for sure. Dave is married, and his little boy doesn't understand. Mike still looks more like a man, even if his internal parts are feminized," Joe answered, matter of factly. "Why is Mike so different?" Linda asked. "Well, of course it's only a possibility, but it's probably because he was taking anabolic steroids when he went through the change," Joe said. I've seen him, and he sort of looks like a hermaphrodite. He still has his male body shape, but he's got a beaver, and he said Dr. Krell told him he thinks he has normal, female internals," Joe said. "Heavens, that must be horrible," she said. "How is he taking it?" "I don't know. He seems to be doing ok, I guess. I don't know if he's really thought much about it. He's still in the denial stage. He sort of refuses to admit that it's happened. I think it's just starting to sink in for all of us. Dave is the one I'm most worried about. He hardly talks. I don't know what to think about him," Joe said, scratching his crotch. "I'll give Cindy a call, while you're gone," Linda said. "Maybe I can help her." "That's a good idea," Joe said. "I have another idea. Let's get to sleep. It'll be four am soon enough." "Can I sleep with you?" Linda asked. "I'd love it," Joe said honestly. He set the alarm, and switched off the light. Linda snuggled up close to Joe. Joe held her close, and could feel his breasts touch hers. They stroked each others back, and cuddled until they fell asleep. It seemed like only moments later, Joe heard the noisy buzzing of the cheap alarm clock. He turned it off, and lay there, trying to find the strength to get up. He finally did, and struggled in the dark to find the bathroom door. He went in, shutting the door before turning on the light. He had to pee, and sat down and relieved himself. Joe quickly showered. He rubbed his legs, checking them for stubble. They weren't bad, but his underarms had stubble, and needed a quick cleanup. With the shower running, he used his shave cream, lathered, and quickly did the job. Much easier than doing my face, he thought. After Joe finished in the shower, he got out, and dried off. He watched himself in the mirror over the sink as he did so. He was now familiar with his new body, and looked at it critically as he rubbed his soft skin with the towel. A strange feeling of contentment came over him as he examined himself. His breasts no longer seemed alien to him, and as he softly touched them, he could hardly remember looking any other way. His body image was becoming female...he could feel it happening. Is this what HE wanted? Was there anything he could do about it...even if he wanted to? As he was drying, and examining himself in the mirror, he could hear Linda get up, and leave his bedroom. The sound of his girl friend caused him to finish drying off, and continue to get ready. He took out his tooth past, and brushed his teeth. Even they seemed different, probably because of the somewhat smaller size of his face. He looked at them in the mirror, and saw that he still had the same fillings in his back teeth, as far as he could tell. Joe finished brushing, and as he was putting the dental things in his shaving kit (he still used his male kit), he saw the after bath powder. He decided to apply some of that, since the scent reminded him of Linda. I guess it's my smell now, he thought to himself. He took out his deodorant, and applied it to his smooth underarms. It stung slightly, since he just shaved. He was trying to decide what to do next, when a sleepy looking Linda, tapped on the door. "Can I come in?" she asked. "Sure. I can use your help," Joe answered, and opened the door. Linda was wearing a satin robe, and simply went over to him. She examined his naked body carefully. "You are simply beautiful," was all she said. "I could use your advice," Joe said. "I still don't know exactly what to do with this makeup." "You're going to have to learn," Linda admonished. "I won't be there tomorrow morning." She took the shaving kit, where Joe had put his supplies, and arranged the things she needed, on the counter. Working swiftly, she used each item, and then dropped it back into the leather case. As she worked, Joe was transformed back into the clean, understated look he had the day before. He looked at his image in the mirror, and smiled with satisfaction with his appearance. When Linda finished, she left the bathroom, went to Joe's bed, and lay down. Joe gathered up the remaining supplies into his shaving kit, and followed her. He put the kit into the side compartment of his B-4 bag. I guess I should get a more feminine looking bag, he thought to himself. He had used the handy B-4 since he was issued it in the Air Force, and had never used anything else. He went to the dresser, and found that Linda had laid out his clothes the night before. She had selected black, high leg, bikini panties, and one of his seamless cup, "nude" color bras. He took the underpants, and easily slipped them on. He had never worn them since Linda had suggested he buy them the other day. He looked at his reflection in the mirror, the leg openings reached almost up the waist band, and made his legs look even longer. Since he was thin, and rather tall for a woman, it made him look rather leggy. He liked the look, and turned, so that he could see his backside in the mirror. Linda saw what he was doing, and said. "Ok, Ok, We both know you got a nice butt." "Hey, can I help it?" he said grinning. For some reason, he was feeling very pleased with himself this morning. He took the bra, and deftly put it on. He was now familiar with the procedure, and the feeling, of wearing women's clothing. Feeling strangely sexy, he took the silk blouse, and put it on, covering his already silky breasts. As he buttoned the blouse, he was again amazed at how luxurious the silk felt on his body. Even if he never got back to normal, this sensation alone would almost make it all worth while. He resisted touching himself, knowing Linda would tease him if he did. Joe picked up the grey skirt, and stepped into it, turning it around, as he had done the last time, so that he could zip and button the smooth fitting garment. As he spun it back around he saw himself in the mirror again. He looked good, but still needed the hairpiece, to make the trans-figuration complete. He took it from the dresser, and carefully put it on his head, covering his male hairstyle, and the last remnant of his former appearance. No one could confuse him with a male. And, he was beginning to realize, he was glad they couldn't. "You forgot your nylons," Linda reminded him. "Rats. I guess I have to take the skirt off," Joe said, and started to spin the skirt around again. "No, I think you can just pull the skirt up, and pull the nylons on," she suggested. "Be careful, they're very sheer. Don't snag them on your nails." Joe took the dark colored nylons from Linda, and sat down on the bed. The slight roughness of the blended wool skirt reminded Joe that he wasn't wearing the slip he bought either. He wanted to try it, so he removed the skirt, and unbuttoned the blouse. He loved any excuse he could find to feel the silky fabric. He found the little slip with the fitted top, and pulled it over his head. The stretchy fabric covered his curves with even more slickness. He took the nylons , and carefully pulled them up his legs, after Linda showed him how to roll them, and then place his foot inside. When he had the nylons on, and pulled the slip down, his legs felt almost as sleek as the silky blouse. He put the blouse back on, and again pulled the skirt on. He sat on the bed, and marveled at the feeling. It felt like he could just slide off the bed. Joe found his new watch, and fastened it to his wrist. He took the new gray shoes he bought, and slipped them on. With their low heel, he had little trouble walking in them, but he wondered how they would work on the rudder pedals. He took the jacket and decided that, for now, he wouldn't wear it. Linda found the handbag he had purchased the night before, and handed it to him. He looked at it in confusion. "Put your wallet, and any other things you're always complaining about not having room for, in it," she suggested. He took the bag, and put all his things in it. Joe stood up, and went to the mirror. He looked attractive, and sophisticated. He felt very sexy. The feeling of the new clothes made him feel different, more content with himself, than he had ever been before. I guess it's the clothes, he thought. What else could cause it? "Well, I guess I'm ready," Joe said. "It only took about an hour." Linda stood next to him at the mirror. In the heels, he was almost as tall as before. He put his arm around Linda, and pulled her to him. They just stood there, and hugged for a minute. "I'll be waiting for you," Linda said, looking in his eyes. "I'll miss you, too," Joe said, and gave her a peck on the lips. It just didn't feel the same anymore, he thought to himself. Joe picked up the B-4 bag, and started to carry it to the door. It wasn't packed to bursting, like if often was when he went away for days, but he still had to struggle a bit to carry it. I just don't have any upper body strength, he realized. Linda opened the door to the patio, and Joe went out to his car. He opened the back hatch, and put the bag in, and then went around and got in. He put his belt on, and started the engine. He let it warm slightly, and then turned around, and drove out the drive. It was about forty-five minutes till six. After the short drive to the airport, Joe went to the guard shack, and showed his Honeybone ID. The guard, looked at him, but must have been told of his unusual situation, because he let him in without problem, almost staring a hole in him with curiosity. Joe went directly to the flight planning room, and entered the proposed flight into the PC. The computer automatically compiled an IFR flight plan, and checked, and printed out a weather report. It would even automatically file, but Joe hadn't selected that option. If the weather was good, he was considering VFR, and maybe letting Karen fly, if she wanted. The weather looked good, as usual, and he was pouring a second cup of coffee, when Dave walked in the room. Dave was wearing a jumpsuit, not all that different from the one Joe had. It was gray, with a wide belt which served to de-emphasize his somewhat large backside. It made him look a lot better that he had the day before. Dave took a cup, and went over to the planning table, next to Joe. Joe filled his cup with the hot brew. "Hey, you're looking good!" Joe said. "I like the jumpsuit." "Yeah, I saw yours, and decided that it was the best thing," Dave said. He still had a sarcastic twinge to his voice, and it was uncharacteristic of him. Joe handed the weather printout to Dave. "It looks very clear, until the LA basin, as usual." Joe summarized. "I think we could go VFR, and maybe let Karen get the feel of it, if it doesn't bother you," he continued. "Sure, that's fine with me," Dave agreed. "I wouldn't mind getting an hour's snooze." "How's it going?" Joe asked. "Is it getting any easier for you?" "Easier? How could it? I guess I'm getting more accustomed to the changes, and all that, but I don't know how to deal with Cindy," Dave said. "Maybe Dr. Krell's people will be able to help us today," Joe said. "If he can't make me a man again, I don't know what he could do that would help me," Dave lamented. They both looked up when they heard the outside door close, and in a few moments, Karen Simpson entered the room. Karen was wearing an attractive pants suit with a sharp, tailored look. Joe smiled a greeting to her, and motioned to the stack of styro-foam cups at the coffee bar by the wall. Karen smiled back, and, getting a cup, came over to them, and held out the cup as Joe filled it. "Well, You sure look good," Karen said, complimenting Joe. "Gee, Dave, are you going through the jumpsuit phase now?" she teased. "Yeah, maybe I am," Dave said, forcing a slight grin. "Good morning, Karen." "Good morning to both of you," she said. "Is it safe to fly this morning?" she asked. "Yeah, I think we can make it," Joe said. "You want to get a little stick time?" "Could I?" she said. "I haven't flown in years." "We'll see how rusty you are," Joe said. "Early as it is, we can probably go VFR into SAN without a problem." "Procedures are where I know I'll have the most difficulty," Karen said. "I haven't spent much time in high density areas." "I can handle the radios," Joe said. They heard the door slam, and Mike came in the planning room. As before, he was wearing male clothing. He acknowledged their greeting, and went for his coffee cup, seemingly not interested in joining in the conversation. They finished their coffee, and Dave phoned in the VFR flight plan. And they went into the hanger. Joe opened the hanger doors, as Dave started a garden tractor that served as a tug. Karen helped Dave put the tow bar on the 421, and Dave pulled it out, into the early morning light. In the bright light of the hanger floods, they performed the walk-around preflight, as Mike placed their bags on board. When they were satisfied that the fuel, oil, and external hardware was visibly flightworthy, they got in, and before long, Joe had the engines warming. Joe sat on the left, and Karen took the right seat. They adjusted their headsets, and set the comm and nav radios. The tower would did not operate till 0800, so they called, and looked for traffic, and then took off. As the wheels were going into the wells, Joe called departure, and confirmed that they were picked up on radar. The lightly loaded twin quickly climbed to seven thousand five hundred, and from habit, Joe requested, and received VFR flight following. Karen handled the plane well, holding headings and altitudes to IFR tolerances. "It doesn't look like you're out of practice at all," Joe complimented. "I love to fly," Karen said. "With all that has happened to me, in the last few years, I guess I forgot just how much." The flight went along uneventfully, with Dave and Mike snoozing in the back, and Karen doing the driving, Joe observing, and watching for traffic as the sun came up behind them. Before long they entered the low visibility of Southern California. The radio chatter picked up, until it was one continuous stream of instructions, as controllers vectored IFR, and VFR traffic in one of the busiest areas in the country. The sun was bright as they spotted San Diego's Lindbergh Field about eight miles ahead. They were cleared for a straight in landing, and Joe let Karen have the landing, giving her speeds, and power settings, as she configured the aircraft for landing. Even though she hadn't flown for years, and then mostly single engine aircraft, she handled the Cessna twin like she had flown it many times. "You're doing great," Joe told her again. "How many hours do you have any way?" "Actual logged hours, about three-fifty," Karen answered. "But remember, I worked with simulators in the Air Force, and learned to fly instruments then, some time before I got a license. I was trained as a primary instrument instructor. I probably have thousands of hours in simulators of various kinds, single seaters mostly, but some in trainers, like the T-37, and T-38. Compared to a lot of simulators, this thing flys like a dream." She landed, and taxied to the FBO Joe suggested. They parked where a young girl in tight shorts directed, and shut the engines down. They got out and stretched as they exited the tight confines of the Cessna. "You can smell the ocean," Joe said. It was so different here, than the dry air of Phoenix. "Yeah. I like San Diego," Karen said. "I kind of think of it as the place where I was reborn." She was referring to the surgical procedure which changed her gender. "I hope I can get that kind of feeling about this place, in a few days," Mike said, pulling the bags out of the plane. Joe went to the counter, and asked the guy about the car he made reservations for. The young man behind the counter gave him a set of keys with a Budget Rent a Car tag, and pointed out the window at a maroon Town Car. Joe hated big barges like the Lincoln, but they needed the room for the four of them and their bags. "Ok if I drive out on the ramp for the bags?" Joe asked. "Sure, mam. Just enter 338 and the gate will open," The line boy said. "Drive out, and I'll put the bags in the car for you." Joe wasn't used to this kind of service. He wondered if the FBO was changing its image, but then he realized, he wasn't wearing a skirt the last time he was there. He hadn't thought about it, but women did get treated differently from men. Sometimes better. He kind of liked it. When they got their bags loaded, they went to check into the hotel. The Honeybone scheduler had reserved rooms at the Hyatt Regency, a nice place, more upscale than they usually got at company expense. Usually, Joe and Dave performed their own "bag drag", but this time, they let the bellhop take them to the room. They followed him up and Joe found that his room was next to Karen on one side, and Dave on the other. Mike's room was directly across the hall. They put their bags away, stopped to clean up a bit, and then went out to find Dr. Krell's clinic. Karen of course, was familiar with the area, and guided them right to it. They met Dr. Krell again, and he introduced them all to two other medical doctors, and a number of lab technicians and nursing personal. In the small waiting room at the entrance, Joe recognized a few patients who were obviously making the transition from male to female. Two were easy to spot, since they were both very tall, and towered over all the other seated persons. Joe went over to an empty seat next to one of the two tall women. He smiled a greeting as he sat down. The woman spoke, with a deep voice, too deep to be coming from a female. "Well, this place has suddenly become very popular," she said, referring to the fact that four of them came in at the same time. "Yes, I suppose it has," Joe answered, uncomfortable with small talk. "Do you know Dr. Krell?" The deep voiced woman went on. "Yeah, I met him yesterday, in Phoenix," Joe answered. "Is he working with your husband?" she asked. "My husband?" Joe asked in amazement. "Why would you ask that?" I saw you walked in with that guy over there," she answered, discreetly pointing at Mike. "I figured that you were here for counseling, because of your husband's condition." Joe smiled. She thinks I'm here with Mike, he realized. "No, I'm not married," he said. "Don't tell me a woman as lovely looking as you, is gender disphoric?" the woman went on. "Do you think everyone who see's Dr. Krell has that kind of problem?" Joe questioned. The talkative woman just wouldn't let it go. "Dr. Krell is one of the best gender-doc's around" she said. "I don't think he takes any other patients anymore." "So you're gender disphoric?" Joe asked, turning the questioning away from him. "Yes, I am," she said. "I've been on hormone therapy for eleven months." "Oh, I didn't realize," Joe lied. "You're a transsexual?" "Of course. Probably most of the patients here are. I hope to be ready for re-assigment surgery by fall. I've almost completed my electrolysis. That's one of the time consuming parts. I've been in the real life test, that's where you have to live as the sex you feel you are, I've been in that for four months now. You don't know how difficult it is for a person raised as a male, to learn to function as a female. You're so lucky to be born so beautiful," she said, enviously. If you only knew, Joe thought. He didn't know what to make of this unusual person. So he just smiled. She continued speaking. "My name is Laura. Laura Dix," she said, presenting her hand to Joe. "Glad to meet you Laura," Joe said, shaking her hand lightly. It was much bigger than his. "I'm Joe Bates." "Joe, huh. Sounds like a guy's name," Laura said. "Women can have men's names, they can wear men's clothes, and so many other things. Nobody notices, or if they do, they think it's cute. It was cute if you were a tomboy when you were small, but I was a sissy for wanting to be with the girls." "Yeah, it is unfair, isn't it?" Joe agreed. "So what is your real name? You don't look like a Josephine. Is it Jo Ann, Jo Ellen?" Laura asked. "My name is Joel." Joe said. "But I've always been called Joe." "Well Joe, What brings you to Dr. Krell?" Laura continued. "I'm hoping he can help me," Joe said reluctantly. "I'm really a man." He decided that shocker would stop the questions. "A man?" But, you're so beautiful. Laura asked in amazement. "Why would you want to become a man?" "Why do you want to become a woman?" Joe returned. "Yeah, Ok, you're right," Laura agreed. "I think I am a woman, and I just want to look like one. It has nothing to do with what we look like." "You might be right," Joe said. He was beginning to have doubts about that, however. The receptionist called Laura's name, and she go up and went in. Joe was sitting on the end of the row of seats, and he began to look around the waiting room. Besides Dave, Mike, Karen, and him, there were two other persons in the room. One was a small young man, and the other was a man, of medium build. Joe wondered if they were also transexxuals. Probably, he considered. As they waited, the receptionist came into the room, and gave Mike, Dave, and Joe clipboards which held a number of forms, and questions for them to complete. Joe filled out the form, it was everything, from his name and address, to what kind of medication he was, or had been taking, his sexual preference, and even frequency of intercourse. Some of the questions were rather difficult to answer, considering the circumstances. He did his best to answer truthfully, but couldn't imagine what they really were trying to find out by some of the questions. He looked over, and saw Dave struggling with his paperwork. Mike seemed to work with it without expression, writing quickly, with out hesitation. When Joe had his complete, he took it up to the little sliding glass window where the receptionist sat. "Thank you. Dr. Krell should be with you before too long," The young lady wearing a white nurses uniform said, smiling at him. They sat there another forty five minutes, and then door opened, and the assistant called Joe. He stiffly got up, and followed her into an examining room, not unlike the one where he was introduced to Dr. Hopkins. He wondered what was in store for him this time. Chapter 12b SAN DIEGO (part 2) "Come on in," Joe called out. "I've been waiting for you." Karen Simpson entered the house. She was taller than Joe by about two inches. Joe was shorter since the change, but still felt a little strange having to look up to a woman. At about five foot eight or nine, he was still taller than most of them." "I want you to meet Linda." Joe said, and walked down the hall towards Linda's bedroom. Linda heard someone at the door too, and met Joe as she left the bedroom. She now wore shorts, and a light cotton top, somewhat like Joe's. "Linda, I'd like you to meet Karen Simpson. Karen is a nurse, and she works for Dr Hopkins, at Hillcrest." Joe introduced them. "Karen, this is my girl....my friend, Linda Mitchell." Karen held her hand out, Linda took it, and shook hands with Karen. "Pleased to meet you, Karen," Linda said, smiling. "Joe has told me about you," Karen said. "We hope to help him with this problem if we can." "I've never heard of anything like this, have you?" Linda asked. "Well, no. I haven't. I don't think Dr. Hopkins, or Dr. Krell have either. But if anything can be done to make him normal again, they'll find it," Karen said. "Linda, Karen and I are going over to the mall to get some stuff I'll be needing if I've got to spend a couple of days away from home," Joe said. "Are you sure you can't come along?" He asked, but really didn't mind that he and Karen would go alone. He felt that Karen understood his feelings better than Linda ever could. "No, you two just go ahead. I'm sure Karen can help you find the things you need. I have to get this proposal ready for the morning," Linda begged off. Joe checked his pockets. He had his drivers license, Master Card, and American Express. That, with about twenty five dollars cash, would be enough. He was feeling better about shopping, knowing that he could spend some money, and not have to worry if he was still employed or not. "You better drive, if you will," he told Karen. "I'm worried about getting stopped, with my license out of synch, such as it is." "No problem. It'll take a few days maybe, but I think Dr. Krell can get the paper work you need to change your license, and other records. Even your birth certificate," Karen said. Joe didn't know about that. Did he want his birth certificate to show him as female? The thought of it, the first record of his very existence, saying that he was a girl. Did he really want that? Did he need that? He wasn't sure. He would have to talk to Dr. Krell about it. If they did find a way to get him back, to make him a man again, then he'd have to change all that stuff back again. Of course, if that happened, it would be worth it. As they drove out of Linda's drive, and down the street, Joe tried to imagine the scenario... He wakes up one morning, just like last Friday. But...this time, he looks down at his chest...his hairy chest...his broad, muscular, flat chest. He reaches between his legs, and touches his penis, and scrotum. He's a man again. Instinctively, Joe reached up to touch his chest. But, instead of hard muscles, and hair, he still felt the soft roundness of his breasts under the lightweight top. Joe realized he actually felt relieved. Relieved? What did that mean? What sort of game was his mind playing on him? He was really a man, at least mentally, wasn't he? And yet, he could hardly deny the feelings of satisfaction he experienced as he touched his feminine softness. Was his head beginning to accept the fact that his body was now female? Or, had his brain also become feminized, and he was to be left with only memories of his former masculinity? Whatever was happening, Joe realized that the change was starting to effect how he thought about himself. He was beginning to feel more at ease with his changed body. But, it seemed, he might be losing control of what HE wanted. It almost seemed that he was developing another, a second almost FEMININE personality. Was it inevitable? "Where do you want to stop first?" Karen asked. The sound of her voice returned Joe from his thoughts. "Gee, I don't know, exactly," Joe said. "I guess I need a bit of almost everything. I probably have enough underwear, but that's about it. What should I wear to Dr. Krell's office?" he asked. "If you have the time, I have something at my apartment that I'd like to show you," Karen suggested. "Sure I think we have three hours till the stores close. Unless you shop like Linda, that should be enough time," Joe said, grinning at Karen. "The stop at my place should only take a minute or two," Karen said. They drove quickly down the street towards the MALL, but turned down a side street a few miles before it. Karen then turned into the parking area of a very nice complex. The apartments were more like condo's, with large attached garages. The area reeked of money. "This is where you live?" Joe asked. "Yeah, I bought one of these, since I like to keep my car in a garage I can lock, enclosed garages are uncommon around here, and I don't want to buy a house here in the Phoenix area," Karen said. The garage door opened as Karen pressed a button on the automatic transmitter. She drove in, and Joe followed Karen inside. Karen's apartment was an combination of fine, heavy furniture, and filled bookshelves. Joe looked at the titles and saw that they were mostly medical books, with a few biographies, and technical paperbacks on computer related subjects. "Nice place," Joe said. "Thanks. I like it," Karen said. "It kinda reminds me of home." "Come into my bedroom," Karen said. "I have something I'd like to show you." She went into her bedroom. Joe followed, and Karen went into her large, walk-in closet. She came out almost immediately with a wig on a styro-foam stand. It was the same color as her own hair, blond, with a slightly brown cast. It was medium length, and a slightly different style than Karen now wore. "I want you to try this on," Karen said, "I know it's not your color, but I'd like to see how you look without that GI haircut. " Karen walked over to the dresser, and Joe obediently followed. She stood behind Joe, and placed the hairpiece on his head. She made sure that none of his own short hair was hanging out. As she smoothed the hair in place, Joe watched his reflection in the mirror. With longer hair, he could hardly recognize himself. The new, smooth contours of his face, and the emphasis of his cheekbones by the hardly noticeable makeup, gave him a totally different look. As he stared at himself, trying to be detached, he couldn't believe the change in his appearance. Without the short, male hair style, practically nothing remained to remind him of his former appearance. He raised a hand and touched his face, and then ran a finger along his cheek. He could feel it all right, it WAS him in the mirror. Karen's hairpiece had transformed his face, almost like the other changes had transformed his body. "Unbelievable," was all he could say. "I thought you might feel that way," Karen said. "You can wear it if you like. I don't use it anymore." "I would like to try it, if you don't mind," Joe said, as he felt the hairpiece, and arranged the hair which completely covered his ears. "It isn't the right color, but it still looks good on you," Karen said. "I think that style would even look good with your own hair, when it grows out." Joe continued to gaze transfixed in the mirror, as Karen poked thru a little chest on her dresser. "Try these," she said, and clipped some small gold disks on Joe's ear lobes. Joe felt Karen snap something on his ears. He looked in the mirror, and saw small earrings protruding out from under his new longer locks. He didn't like the way they felt, but had to admit they did look appropriate. "Unbelievable," he said again. The image in the mirror was completely that of an attractive young woman. Joe felt as if he was looking at somebody else. His body image, already stretched to the limit, was now completely overcome. "I think you'll pass," Karen teased. "I've got something else I think you might want to see." Karen said, as she walked out of the bedroom. Joe followed Karen into the large living area. One wall was completely covered with bookshelves. Karen went to the shelf, and took a book down. She handed it to Joe. He looked at the cover. "Genetics and Sex Determination" it said. "You might scan this," Karen said. "It might give you some insight on what might have happened to you, and maybe, what you can expect. With the unique experiences you're having, you might even be able to add to it." She was right. It was possible that no one else on record made such a complete transition. Whether he liked it, or not, Joe and his friends situation would probably be one for the medical books. "Ok, I'll read up on it," Joe promised. He did want to learn more about genetics, and chromosomes. Biology was always mildly interesting for him, but now the interest was much more personal. "I guess we better get going," Karen said. She took a small purse, and began walking toward the door to the garage. Joe went out with Karen, and they get into her car. The garage door opened, and Karen backed her white sports car out. They quickly drove the short distance to the mall, and parked. They walked into the mall, and Karen went to a back-lighted diagram showing the various stores. "Where to?" she asked. "I wish I knew," Joe said. He wasn't used to shopping for women's clothes, and really didn't like to do it. "How about a skirt? I saw that you hardly have anything but dresses that look like they belong to an old lady," Karen suggested. "What do you mean?" Joe objected. "My new stuff don't look THAT bad." "We can do better," Karen insisted. "Let's find something to show your legs a little. You have a really nice figure, too," she went on. "I don't know...I really don't think I should get anything too wild. Give me some time to get used to this," Joe begged. "You're doing fine, and you look great. I think we'll find some things that look good, and maybe you'll even like to wear them," Karen repeated. Together, they walked into Goldwater's. Joe could smell the cosmetics that were displayed on the counters near the entrance. They walked passed the glass and shining plastic, and then through the hosiery section. Joe looked at the bottom half of mannequins showing the different styles, and colors of pantyhose. He thought about his own limited experience wearing them, and realized that from now until a way was found to return his masculinity, they would probably be part of his wardrobe whenever he needed to dress more than casual. He considered how Linda dressed that morning. That suit was probably the feminine equivalent of what he normally wore to work, except when flying, or working in the lab. He wondered what the other engineers would think when, or if, he came to work wearing stuff like that. They had a few secretaries, and administrative women in his section. Since he had worked there, there had been no female engineers. Joe and Karen walked into the clothing section. Down the aisle, Joe spotted a light gray suit, with a gray silk blouse. His first thought was how Linda would look in it, and then realized that he should be thinking about what HE would look like wearing it. "I want to look at this," Joe told Karen, as they walked past the outfit. They went into the racks of skirts, and jackets. Immediately, a sales lady came to their assistance. "Can I be of help?" she asked. "Yes. I'd like to try on an outfit just like that one," Joe said, pointing to the mannequin. "What are your sizes?" the woman asked. Joe told her, and she went to the racks, quickly selecting the style, and size, Joe suggested. "What type of blouse did you have in mind?" the lady questioned. "Just like the dummy," Joe answered. He thought he told her he wanted an outfit JUST like the one on display. He felt no desire to experiment. The woman looked at Joe. It appeared that she wasn't used to a woman who knew exactly what she wanted, without wanting to search the racks herself. Most unusual... The woman retrieved a gray silk blouse, and took the hangers of clothing back into the fitting area. She hung the items on a hook in a small closet sized room with a small couch. There really wasn't enough room in the cubical for Karen to stay with Joe, so she stayed out, and sat down on one of the chairs outside. Joe looked at the clothes hanging on the wall. The silk blouse was at the front, and he touched it, enjoying the soft, smooth feel of the fabric. Of course, he had never worn anything like this before. Joe pulled the top he was wearing over his head. It was made more difficult by the extra hair he now had when wearing Karen's wig. He felt it snag on the earrings he wore. He laid the little top on the couch, and took the blouse from the hanger. He carefully placed his arms into the sleeves of the blouse, and buttoned it. He only fumbled a little with the backwards placement of the buttons, and then, did his best to tie the bow that was at the neck. He hadn't expected the bow. The blouse fit well, and the soft fabric followed his shape perfectly. He looked down, and saw how the fabric almost flowed over the mounds of his new breasts, and the way the glistening silk attractively emphasized his form. Joe couldn't resist touching his chest, feeling his own softness through the silk. He loved the sensation of feeling the fluid silk from both sides. Joe quickly removed his shorts, and tossed them next to the top. He took the skirt, looked at it, and tried to decide how to put it on. He decided to unzip the back, and step into it. That seemed to work ok, and he tried to zip it up by reaching behind his back. That was difficult, but the skirt was a little loose around his waist, so Joe spun the skirt around so that the zipper was almost at the front. He finished zipping it up, and then buttoned the little tab. When it looked right, he spin the skirt back around so that the zipper was aligned with his backbone. The skirt felt a bit loose, but looked good. Joe removed the jacket from the hanger, and easily slipped it over his silk covered arms. He wanted to look in the mirror. He pulled the hair out from under the collar of the jacket, opened the door, and stepped out. Karen was waiting for him and smiled widely when she saw him. "You look great," she said. Joe stepped to the three sided mirror, and looked at himself. Again, he was amazed how different he looked with the hairpiece. The suit looked good on his new shape, too. He was impressed with his appearance. I didn't ask to be like this, he thought, but I might as well look the best I can. Joe looked at his legs in the mirror. He had left his shoes in the cubicle, and his white Reebok athletic socks really didn't go with his outfit. He looked like one of those secretaries in the city, who wore jogging shoes for the walk from the car, or train station, to their office. He walked over to the mannequin, to see what else it was wearing. He saw that it wore sheer white hose. He didn't like that color much when Linda wore it. "I don't like those white stockings," Joe said to Karen. "That color is very popular," the sales woman said. "But a darker color would also look good." "Get some Sheer Blue, or, I've found Dark Sand to match her hair color," Karen said. "I'll take this stuff," Joe decided. "And, I'm going to look around some more." He was starting to get into this shopping thing. Joe looked at the other mannequins for ideas. The others were either not suitable to his taste, or were too 'evening dress' styled. He couldn't think of any place he would be going where he would wear things like that. His taste leaned towards the tasteful, conservative, business suit styles. Most of the dresses were far too feminine for him. It was early spring, and most of the things were summer styles. "How about something like this?" Karen asked. "You can't wear suits when you aren't at work. What if you want to dress up to go out in your off time. Karen pulled a sundress from the rack. It was sort of faded red-orange, and had straps over the shoulders which crossed in back. It had a slightly low top. It was tasteful, and sophisticated. Joe liked it, but wasn't sure about the low cut top. "Gee, Karen, I don't know. Isn't that a little breezy?" he asked. "No, it isn't. It's summer. You can't wear long sleeves all summer," Karen insisted. "If you don't buy this, I might." "Ok, ok, I'll try it on," Joe said. He tried to sound like he didn't like this task, but deep inside, he was beginning to enjoy trying on these new things. As a man, he usually shopped just to replace worn clothes, with little thought to fashion, or style. Now, trying on new clothes was an experience in textures, and feel. Women had such variety to select from in color, style, and fabric. He was beginning to understand why Linda loved to shop for clothes. Compared to buying men's clothes, it was a most sensual occasion. Joe took the red sundress from Karen, and walked back to the fitting area. He entered the cubical, and hung it in the hook. The removed his top again, and slipped out of his shorts. He took the dress from the hanger, and pulled it over his head. Closing the buttons at the back of the dress was a difficult process, but he did it. He looked down at himself. The straps of the little dress didn't cover the shoulder straps of his bra. He tried to tuck them under the dress straps the best he could, and went out to look in the mirror. He was inspecting himself in the mirror, as Karen came up behind him. She touched his back, and snapped the strap of his bra. "You're going to have to do something about this," she said. "You can either forget the bra entirely, or look for one of those strapless, or cross-over types." Joe thought about it. Without a bra, he felt insecure, and even more self conscious. When he thought about it, maybe he was foolish to feel that way. But, he realized, the new shape of his body was more noticeable, to him, and probably everybody else too, when he didn't have one on. "I'll look for one that works with this," Joe insisted. He looked at himself in the three-sided mirror. He couldn't deny that he really was attractive. He guessed that maybe, because the change was so new, it didn't seem that he was looking at himself, but that he was seeing somebody else in the mirror. Almost like he was INSIDE another person. The illusion was made even more interesting by the fact that this other person was a very attractive member of the opposite sex. And, the fact that he could feel everything the other person felt, made the experience almost overwhelming. Maybe that was how he was able to cope, he considered. The only problem with the whole thing was, there was no way to stop the illusion. He had to live it full time. That made it difficult. If only he had the ability to change from his normal, old appearance, to the illusion, at will. Then, this might be the ultimate experience. "I think you better get it," he heard Karen say. "You sure seem to like it." "Yeah, I guess I better," he answered, jolted back to reality by her words. Joe went back to the fitting room, and removed the sundress. He slowly put his shorts and top back on. He took the clothes out and gave them to the sales woman. "Will there be anything else?" she asked. "Yeah, I'll need some kind of slip or something, for the suit, and I guess I should get another bra. One that don't stick out of the sundress," he said, speaking more to himself than to her. "I better get a purse, or handbag, or whatever you call it, too. And I just got to buy a watch. My old one just falls off my wrist now, and I can't get used to not wearing one." The woman looked at him strangely. She began ringing up the things, but kept her eye on Joe. She sensed that there was something very unusual about this woman, but she couldn't place it. "The lingerie section is down this aisle, and to the left," she said carefully. "The better handbags are upstairs. Ladies watches can be found in the jewelry section, over there," she pointed at another counter, two aisles away. Joe noticed his words were unnerving the sales woman. He was becoming more confident now, and decided to play with her head a little. He looked around. There was no one in the area but him, Karen, and the sales lady. When she presented him with the bill, he gave her his American Express card, and when he was finished paying, he thanked the woman, then went over to the nearby mirror, looked at himself critically, and took off the wig. The saleswoman, who never took her eyes off him, let out a noticeable gasp. Joe smoothed his short hair, pretended to adjust his bra, and then, carefully replaced the wig. He walked out of the saleswoman's section without looking at the woman. Karen, who had been silently watching what was happening, followed, trying her best not to laugh. When they turned the corner, walking towards lingerie, she spoke. "Joe, I can't believe you did that," she said, laughing. "You are simply unbelievable." "You said it, didn't you?" Joe said. "If you got it, flaunt it." They went into the lingerie section, and Joe again began to feel out of place among the silky, feminine things hanging on the racks, and hooks. But, he had always liked the look and feel of these things on a woman, and now, it seemed, he was starting to enjoy the feel of wearing them, too. Joe tried to remember what he needed to buy, as he looked at all the sexy things. He remembered that he needed something to wear under the suit, as well as the skirts he already had. The only other time he had worn a dress, he had borrowed a slip from Linda. She called it a "half slip". What ever it was, he needed one. He went over to the rack, where they were hanging, and took one. He held it up to his waist, to see how long it was. He looked up, to get Karen's opinion, when he saw a guy, who was probably self consciously waiting for his wife to try something on, watching him. He began to blush. Since he had begun to wear Karen's hairpiece, he had become much more confident, probably because he looked so female. But his confidence went out the window when he saw this stranger, who surely suspected nothing, innocently watching him pick out a slip. His heart began to pound, and he could feel sweat beginning to form on his forehead. He took the slip, and went over to Karen, who was looking at teddies. "Did you find something already?" she asked. "Yeah, I...I think I need this," Joe stuttered. Karen could tell that something was wrong. She looked at him. "What's the matter, Joe?" she asked. "Do you feel sick?" "No..No nothing like that. I just suddenly realized, again, that I'm really still a guy inside. I don't know what I'm doing here. A guy over there is watching me. I can't buy stuff like this with a guy watching," Joe whispered nervously. "Joe, think about it. Look at yourself. Put yourself in his place. He's just watching a good looking woman. It's probably a little turn on for him, or something, just to watch you. But, there's no crime with that. You probably did it too. There, look." Karen motioned at the man. The man's wife came out of the fitting room, with a couple of slips she had been trying on. The man began talking to her. He wasn't even looking at Joe, or Karen. "There, see, He didn't think you were a guy in drag, or anything," Karen teased. "My God, Joe, You look more like a woman than I do." "Ok, I guess you're right. I'll try to hang in there," Joe said. A sales woman, maybe twenty years old, came over to them. "Can I be of assistance?" she asked. She saw the half slip Joe was holding. "Did you want to buy that?" "Well, I need a slip to wear under a suit," Joe said, hoping he used the right terminology. "Did you want a half, or a full slip?" the girl asked. "I don't know," Joe answered honestly. "Well, if you want a half slip, you might also consider a matching teddy." The young woman said. She was trained to suggest items. "I'd like to see the choices," Joe said. His confidence was returning. They walked back to the area where Joe had found the slip, and the sales girl pulled a white teddy, which matched the slip he still held. The white nylon fabric had no lace, or decoration, but looked silky, and sexy, just like Joe liked it. The crotch, which closed with three little snaps, hung open. Joe just had to try it on. "Could I try it?" Joe asked. "Certainly," the young woman answered. She handed Joe the hanger containing the silky wisp of cloth. Joe gave Karen the bags he was carrying, and took the slip and teddy into the fitting room. This one was like the first women's fitting room he had ever been in. The doors were really like shutters. They didn't go all the way to the floor or top of the door opening. The middle part was just wooden slats, mounted like louvers. The person inside could see over the door (if they were tall), and could even see through the slats of the door across the aisle. Joe hung the hangers on the hook provided, and began removing his outer clothing. He started to remove his shorts, but had to sit to pull his Reeboks off first. He did that, and when he stood to pull his shorts off, he noticed a woman enter the cubical across from him. It made him think of the first morning, only four day's ago, when he came to the mall to buy some clothes, confused, and almost scared to death. That's when he got his first view of a woman, in an adjoining cubical, also trying on undergarments. That time, the strong male urge he still possessed, almost made his heart explode. He wasn't yet used to seeing so much of his new peer group. As he continued to undress, Joe watched as the young woman in the other cubical removed her blouse. She carefully hung it on the wall hook, and then unfastened the strap of her pink bra. She removed it, and tossed it on the padded seat. Through the wide gaps in the door slats, Joe could see the woman's breasts. He waited for the familiar feeling of his penis (that's what it still felt like to him) swelling as it became aroused. That would shortly be followed (since the change) by a somewhat uncomfortable feeling of wetness, as his new vagina started to lubricate, and made the crotch of his underwear wet. He watched, and waited. Nothing. The woman scratched an itch on her left breast with her right hand. The innocent action caused the breast to jiggle like Jello. Joe tensed the muscles in his groin. Before, this scene would have caused a pants ripping erection. Now, although the sight was still interesting, he felt about the same excitement as if he was watching his friend Jay change clothes next to him at the health club. What was happening to him? Concerned, Joe touched the crotch of his panties. They were warm, maybe a little damp, they were always a little damp, but they weren't soaking wet, as they would have been on previous days. Was he losing his old desire? Maybe, as Dr. Krell suspected, his libido was enhanced by the extra testosterone, left over from when his gonads were testicles. The ovaries he had now would, of course, eventually cause his sex drive to change, and probably become somewhat cyclic. If he was really female, it was probably inevitable. Joe gently stroked the smooth nylon that covered his soft crotch. It felt good, not in an erotic way, but rather, he liked the slick feel of the fabric, which felt so different from the cotton jockey shorts he had always wore before. He looked over at the woman. As she placed her arms into the straps of the new bra, Joe could see the outline of her bosom. Her boobs are no bigger than mine, he thought. In fact, mine are better. No wonder she don't turn me on. I'm getting used to seeing female anatomy every time I look in the mirror. He went back to his task of trying on his new underwear. Joe pulled the teddy over his head, and down his body. It was silky and a bit loose around his chest, but, below the light elastic waistband, it was made of a stretchy, lycra fabric. He reached between his legs, grabbed the little crotch strap, and snapped it closed. There was no mirror in the cubical, so he couldn't see himself. He looked down, and was satisfied. He really wanted to see himself in a mirror, but that would have to wait. Satisfied, he took the silky things off again. That was when he remembered. He still needed to get a bra without straps. He quickly put his shorts back on, and slipped the top over his head. Joe decided that he wouldn't need to take his shoes off anymore, so he put them back on, and tied them. He grabbed the silky items, and left the cubical. He put them on the counter by the cash register and went over to where Karen was standing, casually looking at slips. "What kind of bra do you think I should get?" he asked. "What kind do you like?" she asked. "I don't like a lot of lace, and stuff like that," he said. He had always liked the simple, silky, sheer underthings better than the lacy stuff, even when he didn't have to wear them himself. They went over to the wall where all types, and colors of bras were displayed, arranged by brand name. Karen went to the Maidenform section, and selected a sheer cupped bra, with straps which were convertible from cross-over in back, to looping around the neck like a swimsuit. It met Joe's requirement, in that it had no lace at all. The nude colored bra had cups so sheer they were almost transparent. "How about this?" she asked. "You wear a B cup, don't you?" "Yeah, I guess so," Joe said. "I think I'm 34 B." He took the bra from Karen. He held the flimsy thing up. He saw the sheerness of the cups, and grinned sheepishly as he looked at Karen. "Well, this is about as see-through as it gets, isn't it," he said grinning. "It's underwear Joe, you won't see it under your clothes," Karen said. "Yeah, but I'll know it's there," Joe objected. "That's the whole idea, isn't it?" Karen returned, and winked at him. He thought about it. She was right. The only reason for the design of this little item was because it made a woman look good. Maybe feel good too. He might as well get it. "Ok. I'll buy it," he said simply. "You better try it on," Karen suggested. "I don't know about you, but I hate a bra that doesn't fit right." "Ok. I'll try it then," Joe said. He didn't mind. He was really wondering what he'd look like in it, anyway. Again, Joe went back into the cubical. He removed his top again, and took of the white bra. The coolness of the air conditioning quickly made his full nipples stiffen to little points that reminded him of pencil erasers. He was always amused by the way his new, larger, nipples reacted to sudden changes in temperature. Maybe they did the same thing when he was male. but they were so small that he had never noticed, if they had. He was much more aware of things like that, since he became female. He picked up the new bra. He looked at the straps, tangled as they were. The convertible bra was configured to cross-over in back. That's probably what he wanted, he decided, so he left it that way. It was a back close type, the first of that kind he had ever tried on. He stuck his arms in the proper places in the tangle of straps, and pulled the sheer cups to his breasts. He reached behind his back and hooked the back strap without as much difficulty as he thought he would have. The shoulder straps had little adjustment clasps, and he adjusted them slightly. He felt the cups, and decided that they fit him perfectly. He looked down at his chest. His nipples and areola were plainly visible through the almost transparent fabric. It looked awful sexy, even to him. Wearing T-shirts was never like this, he thought. It might be fun wearing this thing. Reluctantly, he removed it, and put his other clothes back on. Joe took the bra and put it with his other purchases on the counter. He went over to Karen. "It fits great," he said. "The darn thing's almost see-through, too. I kinda like it," he said, grinning widely. "I just thought you might," Karen said knowingly. "Can you think of anything else I need from this department?" Joe asked Karen. "Gee, I don't know what you might need, Joe. I think you have all you were really short of, but is one slip enough?" she asked. "Probably not. If I start back to work again, I guess I'll be wearing stuff like this almost every day," Joe said. He was beginning to look forward to wearing the things women seemed to take for granted. "Yeah, It's hell ain't it," Karen teased. It was almost like she understood what was going on in his head. The went back to where the slips were displayed. Joe found a full slip with a stretchy, fitted top bodice. He liked it immediately. He located one in a silver/gray color, like the one he borrowed from Linda. The brand name was Olga. "I think I want this," he said. "Well, I think you should get it then," Karen said, in a similar tone. Joe took the slip to the counter, and took out his credit card. As the girl was ringing up his latest purchases, he asked Karen. "I still need a purse or something to carry stuff in. What do you think I should get?" "Let's go look at what they have," Karen answered. "You'll need at least two types. One for outfits like that suit, and at least one, something simpler, to use for every day. I have a little clutch purse. It's big enough for money, and ID. It's better than lugging a purse around all the time, too." The sales girl, who could hear their conversation, looked at both of them curiously, but said nothing. "I think I should get some shoes to go with the suit," Joe went on. "I'm getting to like shopping for clothes, but I think I still don't like trying on shoes. I can barely walk in even the lowest heels." "I think a simple black pump would be right for the suit," Karen said. "Maybe you should practice wearing them around home. That's how I learned to walk in them." The sales girl, completely confused by the unusual conversation of these two "older" women, was getting her register entries messed up as she listened. "Remind me to get a wrist watch, too," Joe continued. He was lost in his own thoughts, and didn't notice the girl's increasingly obvious interest in their conversation. Karen did, though, and she decided to spice up the conversation a bit. "Yeah. Your wrist is probably a lot smaller now," she said, watching the girl's reaction. Joe looked at Karen. He was surprised at her last statement, but understood when he saw the way the girl was looking at Karen. He might as well play along. "The old one almost falls off my arm," he added, holding his wrist. Of course it was true. His large aviator's Sieko looked strange, and far too large for his now feminine sized wrists, and hands. He signed the ticket, and thanked the confused girl, who looked like she would have loved to ask what they were talking about. They left the lingerie section, and went to the jewelry counter. Joe wanted a new watch. He needed one that would fit his smaller wrist. He looked at the ladies styles, not really finding one that he liked, until he found a ladies divers watch, made by Citizen. It was sort of like a miniature version of his aviators watch, with a sweep second hand, but small enough for his wrist. He bought the watch, and then they walked to the department that had purses, wallets, and all types of handbags. Karen helped him pick out a couple of lower priced handbags, and also a better one which matched his new suit. He also selected, at her suggestion, a little clutch, that he could use when he didn't want to take a purse. He knew he needed these things, but to him, they were no substitute for a man's wallet, and pockets to carry it in. They then went to the shoe department, and Joe found a type which Karen said was perfect for his new suit. Joe tried them on, and found the heels, which were lower than the other pairs he bought the first day, were much easier to walk in. He bought them from a salesman who hardly took his eyes from him, the whole time. Joe felt the blood rush to his face, whenever the guy was around. He was a good looking man, but to Joe, who to this time had never had so much obvious male attention, there wasn't any mutual attraction. Joe tried to ignore the guy as he made small talk. He hoped the guy wouldn't push the issue since he had no idea how he should react. They walked out of the store, and Karen couldn't resist rubbing it in. "That guy wanted your bod," she teased. "How do you like being a sex object?" "I don't know," Joe answered. "I guess I I'm glad I don't look like Dave or Mike, but I sure ain't ready to flirt with men." "You're doing fine, Joe," Karen advised. "You're doing just fine." They started to leave the department store, when the upside-down mannequin legs reminded Joe that he should get some pantyhose to match the clothes he just bought. He went over to that section, and Karen followed. "I hate wearing these things," he said to her. "It makes taking a whizz an even bigger ordeal." "It is more difficult while wearing them," Karen agreed. "Of course, you could wear individual hose, if you like that better. I have both, and they each have their own advantages. With short skirts, pantyhose is the only way to go. You don't have any really short skirts." "Let's see what they have," Joe decided. They looked at the various types, and colors, and Joe picked out two pair of stockings, the type that stay up by themselves, with a light elastic around the top. He certainly didn't want to wear a garter belt. They were leaving the store, when Joe saw a rack containing sunglasses. He always wore sunglasses when he flew in the daylight, but his smaller features made his old ones hang at the end of his nose. He went over to the rack, and started looking at the smaller, and women's types. He found finally found some reasonably good ones that fit his size, and still didn't look too feminine for his personal taste. He bought them, and they left the store. As they were driving back to Joe's, or Linda's house, Joe decided to tell Karen about the way he felt as he watched the woman changing, back in the store. "I don't understand it," he said. "Ever since the change, I obviously look different, but my feelings about women, about sex, have been the same as always. Sometimes, it's been uncomfortable, almost embarrassing, for me. I was just starting to get used to the way it feels like I'm peeing my pants when I get excited. And that's been pretty often, too. It seemed like my underwear was always wet. Linda could cause it to happen. Barb, my best friend Jay's girl friend, she could cause it. It was just like I was still a guy, but worse, since I now I'm allowed in women's dressing rooms, and all that. Any guy would get worked up in that position, and I did. But a while ago, while I was trying on that slip, I could see a woman changing clothes in the compartment across the aisle. I watched her try on underwear. Nothing. It didn't do a thing for me. No hard-on, no wetness. Nothing. It was like I was watching Jay change clothes. What's happening to me? Did you notice the same thing after you had your operation?" he asked her. "Gee Joe, I don't think you can compare my transition to yours, at all," Karen answered. "For me, it took years. I was on hormones for almost two years before I had my reassignment surgery. By then, I already had quite a bit of breast development, and I was living as a woman full time. I wasn't sexually active, and I guess I wasn't ready to accept men yet. I did like to be around women, but I didn't really desire sex with them. I think the hormone's caused that. After the surgery, I did wonder what sex with a guy would be like, since now I had the right plumbing, but I didn't really have a strong urge to try it. Even now, after I've done it a few times, I can take it or leave it. I don't know if that's a normal female reaction, or not, though. I do feel different, at different times during the month. I have to take hormones every month, for the rest of my life. I don't have a period, like a genetic female, like you probably will, but I do experience hormone induced mood swings, and changes in desire, very much like I would if I had all the female internal organs. But, I just don't think my experience is comparable to yours, though." "I guess I don't have a lot of choice, if I'm really female now," Joe concluded. "But it sure feels strange when the old turn-on's, suddenly don't work anymore." "Maybe you'll get new one's to compensate," Karen said, grinning, and winking at him. "That's a scary thought, too," he returned. "If you're going to live as a woman, it would probably be for the best, wouldn't it?" Karen asked logically. "Yeah, I guess that's true, but I'm not sure what would be worse, not ever making love to a woman again, or having sex with a guy," Joe answered. "Well, that depends on your point of view, don't it. And it looks to me like yours has changed," Karen added. "Yeah, it has. It sure has at that," Joe said. "You're doing great, Joe Bates," Karen said. "Just keep it up. You might find you actually like your new point of view." "Oh, I know. I already like some of the things about being a woman. I actually enjoyed trying on clothes today. I never thought I'd say that. I guess that's part of the change too. I don't know. Every thing feels, and looks so good. I can't describe it. If I could change back and forth, at will, this whole experience would be fantastic," Joe said. "Well, I think most women, and probably, most men, too, if they could try it, would say that. Anyone who's been on both sides would say that neither side is definitely better. They both have some advantages," Karen agreed. "You seem to have thought that the female side was better," Joe said. "I always felt that I WAS female. Changing my body to match my head, even if it couldn't be a perfect change-over, was worth the misery. I guess. Once you've done it, you can't get back anyway. Not that I would want to, even if I could," Karen said. "I guess if I'm stuck like this, I'll manage, but if they find a way to get me back, I'd take it in a minute," Joe said. They drove back to Linda's house. Karen parked in the drive, and helped Joe carry his bags, and packages into the house. Linda was sitting at the table in the breakfast area. "Well, you two seem to have bought out the store," she said, as she saw them enter. "Joe, the hair looks great," she added when she saw the hairpiece Karen loaned him. "I guess I have enough for the trip," he told Linda. "Karen loaned me this." He touched the long hair with his hand. She looked at him, and grinned. "I bought a suit sort of like the one you wore this morning," Joe said. "You liked it so much, you went out and bought one, huh?" she said. "Starting to like this "girl stuff," are you?" "Well, I decided, if I got to be one, I might as well be one I'd like to look at," Joe teased back. "You have to try it on, and show us," Linda insisted. "The suit is very nice, but you should see what Joe looks like in this," Karen said, pulling the red sundress out of its bag. "Oooh, I like that," Linda said. "I wonder if it will fit me." "Oh, sure. I get some new clothes, and already, my girl friend wants to borrow them," Joe kidded. "You've got to try them both on," Linda insisted again. "Get in there, and change." "Ok, Ok, I will, if you insist," he tried to sound like he didn't want to, but he was anxious to try it all on again. What's happening to me? He wondered again. He took the bag containing the suit, and the silk top while Linda and Karen took the rest of the packages into his room. They laid it all on his bed. He stood there a little embarrassed while they waited for him to try it all on. What the hell, he thought, they've both know what I look like, all over. He pulled his top over his head, and tossed it on the bed. He sat on the edge of the bed, and pulled off the Reebocks, and the sweat socks. He unfastened his shorts, stood and stepped out of them. "Try the sundress first," Linda asked. "I just love it." Joe looked at the little red dress. He remembered that the straps didn't hide the straps of his bra, so he unsnapped the hook between the cups, and took it off. He dug into one of the bags until he found the one with the criss-cross straps. He quickly put it on, realizing that both of the women were watching him intently. He looked at Karen, but she just looked back with her usual big grin. Linda's eyes were fixed on the almost transparent cups of the new bra. Self conscious, he pulled his panties up snug, and grabbed the little red dress from the bed. He put it over his head, and Linda helped him fasten the buttons at the back. He had done that for her a few times, but she had never done it for him, until now. Then, Karen and Linda both stood back, and critically eyed him. "Joe, you're gorgeous," Linda said. "For somebody who still feels like a guy, you sure look fantastic as a woman." "I'm doing my best with what I've got," Joe said. Awkwardly, he turned about, trying to act, the best he could, like a clothes model, as he remembered them. He was experiencing an unusual combination of embarrassment, and pride. "You look so different, with the different hair," Linda said. "It really looks good." "Ok, try the suit on," Karen said. "If I'm going to San Diego with you tomorrow I've go to go home and get ready, too." Joe reluctantly unbuttoned the red dress, and pulled it over his head. He really liked the way he looked in it. He put it on a hanger and hung it on the door hook. He went to the bed and took the silk top, and pulled it over his head. As he awkwardly tied the bow, he spoke. "It's almost worth it to go through all this just to be able to wear this," he said, and rubbed his breasts with both hands, through the silky fabric. "Control yourself, you dirty old man," Linda teased. "We're don't want to see you feel yourself up." Joe winked at her, and took the skirt from the bed, and stepped into it. As he did before he spun it around, and zipped it, and buttoned the tab. Then he spun it so that the zipper was in the back. Unlike the fullness of the bottom of the sundress, the suit had a straight skirt that felt much different. Although the waist band was loose, the hips were more form fitting. He turned around once, so they could see what he looked like, and then put the jacket on. He pulled his hair out if the neck of the jacket, and again turned around slowly. "Well, what do you think?" he asked to no one in particular. "You look great," Karen said. "Yeah, fantastic," Linda agreed. "What else did you get?" "Oh, just some more underwear, slips and stuff like that," Joe said. Linda went over to the bed and started looking into the rest of the bags. She pulled out the slip and the teddy, and held them up. "You really took me up on my suggestion didn't you?" Linda asked. "I had to get something, and, I know what I like when I see you wear it, so why not? Yeah, I guess I did," Joe answered. "You look just great," Linda said again. "It would almost be a shame if they can change you back," she teased. Joe wondered if she was really teasing, or if she meant it. "Well, I've got to get going," Karen said. "I have some laundry to do before I go to bed. I'll see you at the hanger at six in the morning?" "Yeah, that's about it," Joe answered. "I think we can make Lindbergh Field in about two, two plus thirty, depending on the winds." "Ok, see you in the morning," Karen said. "Bye. And thanks a lot," Joe said. He hated to see her leave. "Pleased to meet you, Karen. Come by anytime," Linda called. "You'll be seeing more of me, I'm sure," she called back. When Karen left, Joe went back into his room. He took off the suit, and was standing in his underwear, trying to figure out what things he should take along, when Linda came through the half open door to his room. "Can I come in?" she asked. "Sure, you know you're always welcome," Joe replied. Linda came up behind him, and put her arms around him. He took one of her hands and kissed it. She put her other hand on one of his breasts, and pinched the nipple lightly, through the thin fabric of the bra. Feeling the slight pain, Joe spun around quickly. He took her in his arms, and kissed her on the lips. It was pleasant, she was so soft, and she smelled great, but it wasn't the old zing that he always felt before, when he had Linda in his arms. He tried to show the same enthusiasm as always but it was difficult. He was beginning to think of Linda as a friend, as a buddy, not as a lover. No matter how sexy he thought she was, she wasn't making his juices flow anymore. What was happening? CHAPTER 13 THERAPY Joe had only been sitting a moment, when the assistant came back into the room, and asked Joe to follow her. She took him to the open door of an office, where Joe saw Dr. Krell, seated behind his desk. He motioned for Joe to come inside. Joe entered the office, and sat down. Dr. Benjamin Krell was a small, friendly looking man, perhaps sixty years of age. He smiled when he saw Joe, and motioned for him to take a seat. "You're looking splendid, Joe. I hope you had a good flight," he said. "Yes, we did. Karen flew the whole trip. She's a good pilot, and I think she has re-caught the flying bug," Joe said, grinning. "Karen is a remarkable person," The little doctor said. "Do you know she probably has as much research experience in the area of Gender Disphoria as anyone? She soaks it up like a sponge." "We get along rather well," Joe said. "She seems to almost know what I'm thinking sometimes." "I thought you both might hit it off, from the first moment I met you," Dr. Krell agreed. "What's on the agenda today?" Joe asked, eager to find out what the day would bring. "Well, there is a lot of paper work for you complete, and I believe we have more physical examinations, by my staff, in store for you. I hope we can get all three of you completed today, but it may run over to tomorrow. I also have a short class I want you all to attend, regarding the care of your changed body. It was created for my reassignment patients, but I really think you would benefit from it too. Susan, the nurse who conducts it, might not be available until tomorrow though," Dr. Krell explained. "We were all expecting two days here," Joe said. "Another physical, huh." He expected it, but didn't look forward to it. "I'm sorry, Joe, but it's really necessary for us to know, in complete detail, the extent of the changes you've gone through. At the same time, we're waiting for the lab reports to come back, with the results of hair samples we took on all of you." "What do you expect that to show?" Joe asked. "I'm not really sure," Dr. Krell answered. "I believe that all your living cells have been changed, but the others, your hair, and finger nails, they might still have the old chromosome pattern. I'm curious to see the results of that. Sort of like rings in a tree trunk, it may be, that we can spot the exact time your change transpired." "So you think it happened instantaneously?" Joe asked. "One moment I was a guy, the next I was like this?" "I don't know, Joe. What do you think?" Dr. Krell asked. "Well, I don't know about the initial physical change, I guess I was sleeping when that occurred, but I think I'm still changing.....I'm almost sure I am, mentally. I can't explain it...I, I..sometimes I just start to cry, and feel sorry for myself...I never do that...but now.... I don't know. Mostly though, I feel great. Generally, I think I feel better than I can ever remember. It's a good feeling, actually," Joe tried to describe the strange emotions which were now effecting him. "Are there...Do you think there are still physical changes taking place?" Dr. Krell questioned. "I'm not sure. If they are, they're subtle. I think that sometimes, my skin is still getting softer. Maybe I'm just getting used to having breasts, but they don't feel quite as sensitive as they were at first. They're still pretty sensitive, though," Joe said, rubbing the softness of his left breast. "Have you noticed any unusual discharge? Anything unusual about your genitalia?" Dr. Krell went on. "Gee, Doc. I've only been like this five days. Every thing seems unusual. I don't know. I did notice some blood on my underwear last night. I think that was from the examination yesterday though. It felt like you stretched me, or cut something, down there," Joe said, with a sheepish smile. "Well, I'm assuming you were active, sexually, as a male," Dr. Krell explained. "But it's obvious that, since you've become female you are not. You're hymen, that's a bit of membrane, or skin, that partially closes the vaginal orifice. Your's is intact, and quite thick, and strong. It's the thickest I've seen. I suspect that's because of your age, and the circumstances under which you acquired it," he smiled. "Would I have any trouble with intercourse?" Joe asked. He felt a slight flush of embarrassed come to his face as he asked. "Are you considering becoming sexually active?" Dr. Krell asked, not particularly surprised. "Oh, no. I don't think so, at least not now anyway," Joe stammered. "Well, when the time comes, and don't be surprized if it does, I don't think you'll have any trouble with your hymen," Dr. Krell advised, smiling. "You'll probably be undergoing a number of examinations in the near future, and that will probably stretch it, at least a little more. We'll try not to tear it. By the way, it's normal to experience a little pain, the first time a female has sexual intercourse. I've been told it subsides quickly, so don't be concerned about it." "I can't believe I'm even thinking about stuff like this," Joe said. "Yesterday, I wouldn't have considered even asking about it." "If you're going to live as a woman, as healthy, and, I might add, attractive as you are, It will probably only be a matter of time before such an opportunity presents itself. You would be doing yourself a disservice to ignore the possibility," Dr. Krell said. "I'm trying to keep an open mind," Joe said. "And it seems that even that keeps changing." "It is a woman's perogative, isn't it," Dr. Krell teased. "Don't forget though, if you do decide to become sexually active, be sure to use some form of contraception. Unfortunately, that isn't part of the normal hygiene class, since that isn't a concern with reassignment patients. I'll remind Susan to cover that for you, but be sure to ask, if she forgets." "What would you recommend, as a contraceptive, for someone who was sexually active, that is," Joe asked shyly. Dr. Krell grinned. "For someone who was thinking of becoming sexually active... For a mature, thirty year old female, I would recommend her partner use a good condom, backed up with a contraceptive jelly, or foam. She could be fitted with a diaphragm, but of course, that would be easier after her hymen was broken." Joe looked the little man in the eye. "I'll keep that in mind," he said. He noticed Dr. Krell was beginning to refer to him as a "she." "Tell it to me straight, Doc. Am I ever going to be male again?" Joe asked. "Unless we can somehow reverse whatever happened, and we don't even know what that is, I think it's unlikely that you will ever have a normal male body again. That's the way it looks to me. I suggest you try to get accustomed to what you have now. If we can get you back, it won't make any difference, and if we can't, well, you seem to be doing pretty well," Dr. Krell smiled at Joe. "I admit, it is getting easier, as time passes," Joe agreed. "I guess I can do it, if I must." "I think we should schedule you for some therapy," Dr. Krell suggested. "It could help you cope with the changes." "Do you think the changes could be affecting my head...the way I think?" Joe questioned. "I'm not sure, but I seem to feel different now, about so many things, I think my brain is changing, or something, I have trouble maintaining concentration, and about women, my girl friend...I don't seem to feel the same there anymore. Could the changes cause that?" "Yes, it's possible, I suppose. There is still a lot to be learned about the differences between the sexes...besides just the anatomical differences. What has happened to you and your friends, may help to expand the present knowledge in this area," the doctor answered. "I have always enjoyed expanding the limits of technology," Joe lamented. "But, don't think I really want to expand my interest to medicine, at least not like this." "I realize that this is difficult for you," Dr. Krell said. "But you'll have to play the cards you're dealt. We'll do everything we can to make the problems you face, as small as possible." "I appreciate everything you're doing for me, and for the others. It's amazing how quickly everything fell into place," Joe said. "When we got the call for assistance, from Hillcrest, every one here jumped at the chance to work with your problem. It's like a wish come true, for a genetics researcher...someone who has actually changed their genetic sex...amazing," Dr. Krell's voice rose as he spoke. "Yeah, it's amazing all right," Joe said. "And it feels strange too." He smiled. "Well, let's see what we can do for that," The Doctor went on. "For you the first thing this morning will be another pelvic examination. We'd like to take some photo's, so we can study them without needing to have you around all the time. It shouldn't take too long," Dr. Krell said, almost apologetically. "Pictures, huh," Joe said, sort of thinking out loud. He never thought he would be the subject of pictures, even if it was for medical purposes. "Don't be concerned, Joe," The doctor advised. "The photography will only take a moment, and just be part of the examination. We sometimes video tape entire surgical procedures. They are excellent teaching aids, and are never used for anything else." "I'm not worried about that," Joe said. Actually, he was, a little. He trusted Dr. Krell, but he could imagine how tapes, or pictures, might be used by medical students. "If you're ready, I'll take you to the examination room," Dr. Krell said, getting up from behind his desk. "I guess I am," Joe said, standing up, and smoothing his skirt, it seemed his slip was suddenly been charged with static electricity, and he could feel it clinging around his nylon stockings. Joe followed Dr. Krell out of his office, and down the hall. Dr. Krell's clinic was not huge, but, from what Joe could determine, had at least six examination rooms. The doctor entered one that had an open door, and pointed to a fresh gown, as before, made of a disposable paper material. He left the room. Joe looked around the room. In the center, was an examination table almost identical to the room yesterday. Joe saw the little stirrups on the side. In a glass doored cabinet by the wall, Joe could see the gynecologist's tools of his trade... he saw the speculum, and all the other things used during examinations. His crotch muscles tightened, as he thought about the examination just yesterday. Joe hung his suit jacket on a hanger provided, and sat in a chair to remove his shoes. He unbuttoned and unzipped his skirt, and stepped out of it. He lay the skirt over the back of the chair, and then unbuttoned his blouse. When he took that off, he carefully place it on another hanger. He then reached down, and pulled the full slip over his head, laying it on top of the skirt. He suddenly felt remarkably sexy, standing there in a bra, black V-kini panties, and silky nylon stockings. He unhooked the bra, and slipped it off, the cool air on his now bare breasts causing him cover them with his hands. He had to remove his stockings, and decided to sit on the edge of the paper covered table to do that. When he had them off, and carefully placed on top of his slip, and then pulled the panties off. He took the paper gown, and put it around him, thankful for even the minimal coverage it provided. He remembered the hairpiece. Did he need to remove it? He decided he better, and placed on top of his slip. His short hair now felt strange. He was getting accustomed to the longer length of the wig, touching his ears, and neck. Joe then sat on the table, waiting for whatever was to happen next. He must have been sitting in apprehension for only five minutes, when Dr. Krell, and two other men with white lab coats entered the room, accompanied by the nurse who initially brought Joe into the first room. Dr. Krell introduced the men to a highly embarrassed Joe Bates. "Joe, this is Dr. Tom Craig," Dr. Krell said. "He's our staff Urologist." Dr. Craig smiled, and extended his hand to Joe. "Glad to meet you Joe," he said. "And this is Dr. David Bennedict. Dave's our gynecologist," Dr. Krell continued. Dave also held out his hand. "I hope we can help you out, Joe," he said. "Your situation is most interesting." "I hope you can, too," Joe said, with a smile. It was hard to feel like an equal, when you were wearing a paper shirt, that didn't even quite cover your butt, while everyone else in the room was completely dressed. The fact that they were doctors, didn't really help at all. "Well, I guess we best get on with it," Dr. Krell said, to break the slight tension. "Joe, would you remove the gown please?" Joe could feel the blood rush to his cheeks as he unfastened the little Velcro fasteners at his neck. He pulled his arms out of the short, paper gown, and handed it to the attending nurse. He stood before the doctors, completely naked, his heart pounding. "Amazing," Dr. Bennedict said. "He appears completely feminized. And you say he woke up this way, transformed overnight?" The doctor seemed to be talking to the others, as if Joe was incapable of answering for himself. "I examined him, if I had not been already been told, I never would have known he had been male." Dr. Krell said. "The only anomaly I can find, is some scar tissue around the clitoris. My theory is that it's residual trauma caused by circumcision of the penis. He confirmed that he had been circumcised as an infant." "Interesting," Dr. Craig said. "We can confirm a number of theories while studying this patient. I believe this is the first recorded spontaneous, human gynecomorph. I hope we can learn what caused it." "I sure hope you can, too," Joe volunteered. He didn't like the way he was being treated. Like a lab subject, unable to understand what was going on. "Oh, I'm sorry Joe. We're so excited by this opportunity to study your case, that I'm afraid we sometimes we get carried away," Dr. Bennedict apologized. "I understand," Joe said. "Just try to remember that I'm here, and I think I'm still capable of understanding the English language." "Understood," Dr. Craig added. "Just remind us, if we seem to get off track." "Joe, I have an illustration I'd like to show you," Dr. Craig said, handing him what looked like a page copied from an anatomy textbook. Joe immediately recognized the drawing. It was that of the male genitalia, and it had each individual part listed with its anatomical name, with a small arrow pointing to it. Joe wondered what it was for. "These are the male external reproductive organs," Dr. Craig went on. "I believe you recognize them." "Sure, but what's it for?" Joe asked. "I'm going to take this small tool, and touch you with it. When you can feel the touch, I'd like you to tell me where it feels like I'm touching you. Please use the illustration to name the locations," Dr. Craig explained, holding out a small, pointed, stainless steel probe. "We're trying to confirm the corresponding nerve endings, as they were, and as they are now." "Ok. That seems easy enough," Joe said. He wondered how far inside him they were going to put the pointer. "Please get up on the table, Joe," Dr. Craig asked. "You can put the gown back on." The assistant handed Joe the paper gown, and he slipped his arms in the holes, and fastened the Velcro fastener at his back. He sat on the table, and then lay back as the assistant adjusted the table to support his upper back, and head. She then covered Joe's lower body with a green surgical drape, and positioned the stirrups so that he could put his feet in them, spreading his legs apart as he did. He was now in position, and he felt the coolness as the doctors pulled the drape away from his bottom. As before, the drape kept him from seeing what the doctors were doing. The assistant handed Joe the illustration. He lay there, and looked at the drawing. He saw the penis. It was further defined as the glans, dorsum, and prepuce. The scrotum was also shown in detail, including even a little cutaway showing the layers of skin. He had never realized that the male anatomy was that complex, and now he didn't even look like that anymore. Suddenly, Joe felt a hand on his pubic area. Two cool fingers spread his soft inner lips. He could feel his crotch muscles contract, as if they were trying to keep that most sensitive area concealed. He felt a finger touch his clitoris, and heard Dr. Krell speak. "As you can see, the prepuce is mostly absent, but, this scarring is probably what remains of where it emanated," the friendly doctor was saying. "Ok, Joe. As I touch you, please call out what area it seems like I'm touching. If you can't give me a corresponding location, try to tell me the closest equivalent," Dr. Craig said. Joe could feel the pointed probe. It felt as if it was softly rubbing along the bottom of his penis. He called that out. The probe moved down, now feeling as if near the base of his penis. He told Dr. Craig that, not finding a name on the illustration for it. The tickling sensation went lower, towards his scrotum. He tensed his muscles there, as if to draw the sack tighter, and felt the somewhat different sensation of his vaginal sphincter closing tighter. The new parts were similar, but they didn't feel EXACTLY the same. He told Dr. Craig he was now touching his scrotum. He felt the probe move back up, it seemed along the top side of his penis. He wondered where Dr. Craig was touching. He couldn't remember feeling that area since the change. He told Dr. Craig. "It feels like you're rubbing the top of my penis now," Joe said. "Just where are you actually touching?" "I'm touching the area dissecting your labia minora, and labia majora," Dr. Craig explained. "Between your inner and outer vulval lips." Amazing, Joe thought. It felt just like it was touching the top of his penis. The moving touch kept going, seeming to go to the head of his penis, but now it was now on very sensitive area, far more sensitive than he could ever remember his penis to be. He called out. "You're touching the glans, I think." Joe said. "I can't tell if you're on top, or on the bottom. It's kind of sensitive there." It tickled, and he wanted to move his pelvis around. "I'm near the clitoris," Dr. Craig explained. I realize it must be a bit sensitive." "You got that right," Joe said, closing his eyes and trying his best to resist the urge to move his hips. The tickling sensation was starting to feel rather pleasant. Then the tickling stopped. Opening his eyes, Joe could see Dr. Bennedict preparing a small camera. He disappeared behind the drape, and soon the room blinked with the flashing of the camera. Joe just lay there, eyes closed, embarrassed, as they photographed his private parts. It wasn't exactly like posing for Playboy, he thought. Joe momentarily opened his eyes, he saw Dr. Bennedict retrieve a small speculum from the glass cabinet. Here it comes, he thought. Soon, he could feel touching around his genitals again. He felt his lips get pulled apart, and something hard touch him. It moved around a little, and then he felt it seem to slide along his opening. He could sense that it was inside of him. Strange, he thought, I can't really feel it in there, but I can sure tell it's there. He could feel it stretching his opening, and where it touched the outer parts. He was just beginning to try to imagine what it would feel like to have a guy's penis inside him, when he felt the somewhat painful sensation of the speculum spreading open. It hurt, but not as bad as the last time. He put his hand to his mouth, and bit down on his thumb. Joe felt the speculum move around inside him, and saw the flash of the camera. Before long, the speculum was collapsed, and withdrawn. When it was out, Joe had an intense urge to rub his crotch, but he didn't want to put his hands under the drape, and didn't want these guy's to see him do it. "I think that will be enough for now," Joe heard Dr. Bennedict say. "You can get dressed." That wasn't so bad, Joe thought. He sat up, and pulled his legs out the stirrups, with the help of the assistant. "We'll see you in a few minutes, Joe," Dr. Krell said as the three doctors left the room. Joe reached down and carefully massaged the tender tissues of his crotch. The assistant saw what he was doing, and smiled. "Here are some towels. They'll help a little," she said, seeming to know what he was feeling. "Thanks," Joe replied. "I'm still getting used to this." "I don't think you ever get used to it," the woman said. Joe cleaned the small amount of lubricating jelly from his vulva. He looked at the towel. There was no sign of blood. It didn't hurt either. He carefully probed around with his index finger. He was wet and slippery, and the finger went in easy, much easier than ever before. He looked up to see if the nurse was watching, but she was paying no attention to him. She was gathering up the things used in the examination. Soon, she too left the room. Joe was sitting on the edge of the examination table, with his hand over his pubic area, and one finger just inside his genital vestibule. He had never been inside much farther than this, and was surprised at how different it felt. The water soluble lubricant used in the examination had made everything extremely slick. He felt around, feeling the bumps and ridges in this new, unfamiliar part of his body. He could feel a small lump, which he knew, by the feel, was his urethra. It was just after the ridge of his now somewhat prominent, pubic bone. He went further in his exploration, and entered his vaginal opening. He could feel a restriction, some tight tissue. This must be my hymen, he considered, and carefully examined it with the tip of his finger. The opening in his hymen seemed large enough to penetrate with his finger, so he slowly, cautiously, went further. After the initial restriction at the entrance, it was all clear, but it was difficult to go much further without stretching it even more. It didn't hurt, but Joe didn't want to tear it. How would he explain it to the doctors, if that happened? He just sat there, examining himself. When he decided he couldn't get any farther inside with his finger, he stopped. He tensed his crotch muscles, and felt the tightening with his finger. The sensation when he bore down on his own finger felt strange, but sort of pleasurable. He was getting more familiar with his body. At first, he was almost afraid to even look at the new parts, but now, after the doctors examinations introduced him to new sensations, he decided that he needed to know what it was all about. These new areas might be different, but they were still part of him. He withdrew his finger, and holding it to his nose, smelled it. Funny, he thought, it doesn't seem to have any particular odor. He thought of Linda... He loved her sweet, female scent. He wondered why he didn't smell like that. Finally, Joe decided he better get dressed. He stood up, and pulled off the gown. He was feeling particularly good about himself as he went over to the chair where his clothes were laying. He took his underpants, and stepped into them, loving the feel, the snug fit of the black panties. He easily slipped the bra on, and clasped the plastic latch between his breasts. Yeah, he was beginning to accept...to appreciate his new body...how it looked, and how it felt. He might still be Joe Bates, Engineer, Pilot, and Sports Car Nut, but he wasn't really a male anymore. He was beginning to realize it, accept the differences, and maybe...even enjoy them. Joe quickly dressed, and replaced his hairpiece. There was a small sink in the examination room, with a mirror above it. He looked at himself, and adjusted his hair, and clothing. When felt he was ready, he went to the door, and went out. He walked back up to Dr. Krell's office, but he saw, through the open door, that Dr. Krell was busy talking to Dave. He went out to where he saw the nurse who was present during his exam. "Should I stay in the examination room?" Joe asked. "Well, no, you don't have to," the woman said. "I think Dr. Krell will want to talk to you as soon as he's finished. You can go back to the waiting room, if you like." "Ok. I'll wait there," Joe said. He hoped that "Miss Dix" wasn't out there. Joe went out and took a seat. Mike was no where to be seen, and only one person, who had just entered before Joe was called, was in the room. He looked through the stack of magazines, mostly women's, on the small rack next to his seat. He selected Cosmopolitan, the cleavage of the woman on the cover catching his male trained eye. He thumbed through the magazine, noticing with hightened interest, the adds for feminine hygiene products, contraceptives, and underwear. He thought about it. It was almost like this was the female equivalent of an automotive magazine. All the products designed to make what you had, look better, or work better. For a guy, it was his car. For a woman, well, she had this exotic body to maintain. Yeah, he thought as he thumbed through the sexy ad's for clothing, lingerie, tampons, and pregnancy detection kits, this is a woman's "Car and Driver". He started reading an article about Pre-Menstrual Syndrome. He was wondering what having a period would feel like, when the nurse called his name again. Darn, he thought, he wanted to finish the article. He looked at the magazine cover, and saw it was the current issue. I'll have to pick that one up, he thought as he put the magazine in the rack, and then followed the nurse back to Dr. Krell's office. In the office, Dr. Krell sat behind his desk, with Dr. Bennedict sitting in one of the seats on the other side. Dr. Krell motioned for Joe to have a seat next to the gynecologist. "The hairpiece is very attractive on you," Dr. Bennedict said. Joe realized that the man had only seen him undressed, and without the wig. "Thanks," Joe said. "Karen loaned it to me." Joe figured the doctors there must all know Karen. "Joe, we have the results of the lab tests of the hair samples," Dr. Krell said. "You might be interested to know that, from DNA tests we found that your hair, at least, still show a male chromosome pattern. Of course, as it grows out, that may change. I would think all the "dead" cells of your body have not transitioned, only the living cells. That is easily sufficient proof of your identity. It don't change anything, but it does confirm that a so far unknown phenonoma cause cell changes in you and your two co-workers bodies. The change, or damage, we might call it, has caused the chromosomes to distort, to make your genetic structure to appear to change from XY, to XX, what normally would be the female form. I suspect that you are not truly female, that is, you are not a precise genetic representation of what you would have been, had you been conceived as a genetic female. However, the differences are so slight, so inconsequential, from a practical matter, that it would probably take an electron microscope to tell the difference. I suspect also, that the difference, slight as it is, is far too small to prevent the normal gynecological functions from occurring. Joe, it appears that you, for all practical, and physiological purposes, are now a functional female." "Well, I'm glad all the physical examinations and genetic tests agree with what I see when I look in the mirror," Joe said. He understood that Dr. Krell was just giving him the complete medical synopsis, but what he really wanted, was the answer to what caused the whole thing to happen in the first place. "Now that we know WHAT has happened, we must concentrate our efforts on why it occurred," Dr. Bennedict said. "And while that's happening, we will do everything we can, to help make your situation bearable," Dr. Krell added. "Is there anything I can do to help discover the cause?" Joe asked. He wanted to get back to work...to try to discover what, in or around the Learjet, or the GPS transmitters, could have caused his plight. "We want you, Dave, and Mike to remain here, till tomorrow, so that you can attend the class we will present tomorrow, probably about nine or ten o'clock," Dr. Krell advised. "After that, you, and Dave at least, can go back. Mike may be asked to stay another day. We'll know by tomorrow, at noon." Joe wondered what that might be about, but decided that it was none of his business. "What else is there today?" Joe asked. He was getting anxious to get on with it. "Well, if you have decided to legally change your status to female, there is some more paperwork to fill out. We have obtained copies of all your records, so we probably have most of the information we need. We'll just need your signature after we prepare the forms." "That's all it takes? A few signatures? I write my name on a piece of paper, and suddenly, I'm no longer a man? I'm a woman, just as if I was born that way?" Joe was amazed at how simple it sounded. "You must realize, that this place specializes in such transitions," Dr. Krell explained. "You must also understand, that the position you find yourself in, is where a person desiring surgical reassignment arrives only after years of chemical, and mental therapy, and extensive cosmetic surgery. What happened to you is unprecedented." "Too bad I didn't want it to happen," Joe said. "For an accident, what ever caused it, it did one hell of a job." "Don't think we haven't noticed," Dr. Krell said. "If we can find the cause of the phenomena, we might even be able to put it to good use." "Who's paying for all this, anyway?" Joe asked the question that had been at the back of his mind for some time. Dr. Krell handed Joe a paper. Joe looked at it, and saw it was a FAX, from Honeybone Flight Systems. It stated that Dr. Krell was to use whatever resources necessary, to find the cause of the problem caused by the GPS equipment. It stated that more information would follow. That sheet, Joe realized, meant the Honeybone was concerned, not just for a few of their workers who got "injured" at work, but also about the legal, and maybe even medical ramifications of what happened last Thursday. It was as close to a blank check as ever existed at Honeybone. Dr. Krell looked at his watch. It was almost one o'clock. The morning had gone past very quickly, and they were all hungry. "I'm afraid I can't join you Joe, but I think Mike, or Karen are around, and they probably have missed lunch, too," Dr. Krell said, smiling. Joe got up, and walked to the door. He turned. "I'll see you this afternoon?" Joe asked. "Oh sure," Dr. Krell said. "I'll be here. I have to see how things are going with your friend Dave." He went down the hall, and entered one of the examination rooms. Joe went out, and asked the nurse where he could find Karen Simpson. "I'm sure she's in the classroom," The nurse said. "Go down the hall, and I'm sure you'll find her." Joe went walking down the hall, in the direction the nurse pointed. When he came to an open door, he looked in, and found a small classroom. Karen was sitting in one of the chairs, in discussion with three other people. Joe recognized one as Laura, the tall transsexual he had talked to when he first entered the clinic. Karen saw him, and motioned for him to come in. "Everyone, this is Joe Bates," Karen said. "He's here because of something that happened to him last week." "Hi, Joe," Laura Dix said. "Hello," Joe said. "Nice to meet you all." "Karen, now you've got us interested," Laura said. "Joe, what happened to you that made it necessary to visit this place?" "Well, I don't yet know what caused it, but they tell me that I've changed genetically, and physically, into a female. That's it. I'm here to discover the extent of the changes, and maybe figure a way to become male again," Joe explained simply. "What? You look like that, and you want to be a guy?" Laura asked. "I'd give almost anything to look half as good as you do." "Yeah, but as we discussed earlier, I'm a guy, not a woman. I want a male body, just like you want to look female," Joe said, wondering if he really meant what he was saying. "It's amazing, isn't it?" Karen observed. "We think we are, what we think we are, really has little to do with our appearance. The ultimate sex organ is the brain. What the BRAIN thinks we are, is what we consider ourselves to be, or should be." "Enough of this deep thought," Joe interrupted. "Do you want to get a bite to eat?" he asked. "Gosh, it is lunch time," Karen said. "Time passes so quickly here." "Anyone else want to go?" Joe asked. "I think we can fit six in the Lincoln. I want to try to find Mike. Dave is with the doctors." "I'll go with you," Laura said. She got up. "Anybody else?" Joe asked. The others declined, and Joe, Karen, and Laura left the room, to find Mike. Joe went to ask the nurse, when he saw him sitting in the waiting area. Joe walked over to him. "Are you ready for something to eat, Mike?" Joe asked. Mike looked up at Joe. He didn't look very happy. Joe wondered what new information they had for his friend. "Yeah, I guess I still have to eat," Mike said, not very enthusiastically. He got up, and followed them out the door. It was an unusual crew who entered the little restaurant. Mike lead them and the three "women" followed behind. They took a seat at a small square table. The waitress came over almost as soon as they sat down. They ordered, Joe trying to remember to order less than he felt he wanted. Mike ordered a steak, and baked potato. No female portions for him. Mike seemed uncomfortable sitting with his obviously female looking friends, even though he was now, at least biologically a woman, too. "Mike, did they give you any satisfaction this morning?" Joe asked. "Hell, I don't know. They looked at my crotch, at my chest, they showed me a picture of male parts, but they didn't really give me any help as to how I should live with myself," Mike said, looking very sad. "Can I ask you a question?" Joe asked. He wanted to find if Mike was experiencing the same mental changes he was. "Sure, ask away," Mike said. "The other day, when we first discovered we all had this problem, I still felt, inside at least, like I was still a male. It just seemed like somebody had messed with my body, changed its appearance. But now, since yesterday at least, I've been experiencing other changes, changes in my head, I guess, strange feelings. I guess I'm beginning to accept this body. Hell, I think I'm even starting to like looking like this. I was wondering, are you starting to feel like that too?" Joe questioned. "Joe, look at yourself. You look like a woman. You're attractive, and, even the other day it even seemed like you enjoyed what happened to you. I can't possibly feel the same way. What I want, or how I feel... it makes no difference. I can't please a woman anymore, whether I want to or not, makes little difference. Even if I accept that I'm female now, I couldn't expect a man to want me, not the way I look. I'm caught in the middle, and there's no way out," Mike sounded desperate. "Maybe you need therapy to deal with your problem," Karen said. "After you find out how you want to go... what your options are... then, maybe, Dr. Krell can help you. If you want to remain a male, I think they can help you with surgery. I've known a few patients who have come to him with female bodies, and with hormones, and surgery to create an artificial phallus, they are very convincing as men. With you, you hardly need the hormone therapy." "Yeah, yeah, we went through that already," Mike said. "Dr. Krell said that since I had been a male, and have, er...had a functional penis, I wouldn't be happy with any thing he could create. Right now though, I'd give anything to get my cock back. I can't spend the rest of my life with a cunt." "If that's how you feel, I'm sure he can help," Laura chimed in. "Dr. Krell is the best. I've checked them all out, and he's the best." "I hope you're right," Mike said. "I just want to get on with my life. I don't see how I can do that, looking like this." The waitress came, bringing out their orders." Joe was getting hungry, and the small portion of grilled chicken breast looked good, but hardly enough to satisfy him. They all got down to the serious business of eating. "Karen, what can we expect from this hygiene class Dr. Krell told me about for tomorrow?" Joe asked. "I think an assistant named Susan teaches it?" "Oh, yeah. I almost forgot about that," Karen said. "He started that just after my surgery. In fact, I probably helped it to come about. Before, reassignment patients had a hodgepodge of information to get, and to remember. I guess it all got accomplished, but in my case, as example, I developed an infection just because I didn't know any better. And I was a registered nurse, even then." "What's it all about?" Joe asked again. "As I'm sure you realize, there are some physical differences between males, and females. Women's bodies are more complicated, and in some ways, more delicate. Just wiping your butt the wrong way can cause a vaginal infection, as I found out, soon after my surgery. You have breasts now, and she'll show you how to examine them correctly. She'll answer any other questions you have, or might have, after watching the films. I think you'll find the whole thing interesting." "I see. It's sort of a "owners manual" class," Joe said. "I suppose that's a good description it," Karen said, grinning. "How about Susan?" Mike asked. "Is she a "real" woman, or one of Dr. Krell's modifications?" There was a bit of sarcasm in his voice. Karen looked straight at him, but kept smiling. "Susan Stevens is a "real" woman," she said. "She's married, has two kids, and is a caring wife and mother, as well as a dedicated therapist." "I'm sorry, Karen," Mike said. "I didn't mean anything by it. I guess I just have a short fuse." "Forget it," Karen said. "I understand that you're under a lot of stress. I would be too." With that they finished eating, and when the waitress brought the check, Joe took it, and paid it. Honeybone would pay this bill. Joe drove them back to the clinic. When they went inside, Dave was sitting in the waiting room. Joe sat down next to his friend. Mike sat next to Joe, but Karen and Laura went on in, to resume their conversation in the little classroom. Joe looked at Dave. "How's it going pal?" he asked. "Did you get anything to eat yet? "It's going Ok, I guess," Dave said, smiling weakly. "No, I haven't had anything to eat, but I'm not hungry anyway." "Did Dr. Krell say what else we had this afternoon?" Joe asked. "Just some paperwork," Dave said. "Joe, I don't know what to do about that." "What do you mean?" Joe asked. "Joe, Dr. Krell said I could fill out paperwork to change my legal status to female," Dave said. "But, I can't do that and remain married to Cindy. I realize I'm not a man anymore, but I don't want to leave Cindy and the kids." "Did he say that you had to?" Joe asked. "He said I couldn't stay married to a woman, if I changed my legal sex," Dave lamented. State law won't allow same sex marriages in Arizona, and that's what we would have, if I sign the papers.." "What about California?" Joe asked. He thought he had once read about homosexuals getting married in California. "I don't know," Dave said. "I never thought about moving." "If you got a divorce, based on your situation, and then, you and Cindy remarried in California, why couldn't you continue to live where you do now? If there is a residence requirement, or something, I think Honeybone will help with that," Joe considered the possibilities. "Maybe that's it," Dave said. He seemed relieved. "How are you feeling?" Joe asked. "Was the physical easier today?" "Yeah, it was, a little. Strange ain't it, how the new parts feel so much like the old ones?" Dave said, looking at Joe as he said it. "Same thing I noticed," Joe said. "Sometimes, it seems like I could just reach down and find that my penis is there again." "It ain't though," Mike said. "We're stuck with these cunt's, no matter what they feel like." Dr. Krells administrative assistant called out to them. "Can you come in now?" she asked. We can have you completed in about an hour, if you have everything you need." They followed the woman into a small room, where there was a table and chairs. "Please wait here," the assistant said. Joe, Dave and Mike sat at the little table, waiting to complete the paperwork that would make them females, in the eyes of the law. Chapter 14 RETURN Before long a middle aged man entered the room. He was followed by Karen Simpson. The man was carrying three manila folders. He took them, and placed them on the table in front of Joe, Dave, and Mike. "Hi. My name is Norman Peterson," the man said. "I'm an attorney, and I've been asked by Dr. Krell to help you with the legal ramifications of your problem." "Joe Bates," said Joe, extending his hand. Mike and Dave did the same, introducing themselves. Norm Peterson seemed to know who they were already. "Dr. Krell told me a little about your problem," he said. "While I guess I'm getting familiar with the many different situations that exist here at the clinic, I must admit however, this is the most unusual I've seen." "Norm here is Dr. Krell's attorney. He's familiar with the requirements of most state's laws, including Arizona's," Karen added. "I have some questions to ask you," Dave said immediately. "No problem," Norm said. "But I think it would be best to to talk in private." "Ok," Dave agreed. "Good idea." Norm explained California law on changing one's legal status. He explained what had to be done to get a revised birth record, and changing all other legal records. He explained that with proper endorsement by qualified medical representatives, just about all records could be changed, with the exception of records kept by the Department of Defense. Those were truly permanent, and he knew of no way to change them. He didn't offer alternatives to changing status legally, figuring that everyone there had already decided on that course of action. After talking for about ten minutes, going through a seemingly well rehearsed format, Norm said he was finished, and ready to talk to each of the individually. Dave wanted to go first, and the others took their manila folders, and left the room. Joe went back to the waiting room, and sat down. Mike sat next to him, with Karen on the other side. No one else was in the waiting area. "Sounds like he expects us to all want to become women," Joe said, breaking the silence. "He sure does," Mike agreed. "I have no intention of doing that, today anyway, at least not until all hope of getting back is used up. Even then, I don't know if I would want to be a woman." "I wonder if we really have a choice?" Joe asked, to no one in particular. "Well, I do," Mike declared. "My records say I'm a man, and nobody can change that, unless I agree." They sat there in silence. Joe went to the rack, and retrieved the Cosmo magazine and found the story he had started previously. He started to read. Karen peered over his shoulder, and saw what he was reading. "PMS, huh?" she asked. "Are you worried that you might get bitchy one of these days?" she teased. Karen seemed to know how to lighten up the moment. "Well, I guess it has to be a concern now," Joe said seriously. "I really do wonder what it would feel like." "I'd like to know, too," Karen said. "But you...both of you...will probably get to find out." "Well, I'd gladly give you MY opportunity, if I could," Mike said. "I have no desire to go on the rag." "I don't know how I feel about it," Joe said honestly. "If I'm stuck like this, I guess it has to be considered a natural function, something to get used to." "There's nothing natural about any of this!" Mike objected. "Yeah, Yeah, I know. But until we can figure out what can be done, we might as well do the best we can," Joe tried to calm his friend down. It was strange how tolerant of their situation he was becoming. Before long, Dave came out, carrying papers in his hand. He came over and sat with them. The nurse called Joe. Joe got up, and followed the nurse back into the room with Dr. Krell, and Norm. They were sitting on one side of the table, and motioned for him to sit on the other side. "Well, Joe, and what is you're choice? Do you wish to remain a male too?" Dr. Krell asked. It was obvious that the interview with Dave hadn't gone well. "Sure. I'd like to remain male, but it don't look like I have that choice, do I?" Joe said, grinning slightly. "You don't have to sign these papers," Norm said. "I'm not sure what we can do about your legal status if you don't, but nobody can force you to do anything you don't want to do. With the way you look, I suspect you might have difficulty trying to convince anyone that you're a male, but that is one of your options, if you want." Joe crossed his leg under the table. The two men couldn't see his legs, and he slid one of his hands along his smooth, nylon covered leg. He rubbed the slickness, as he thought. If I sign this, I will legally be a female, and most of my records will reflect the change in status. If I don't, I'll legally be a guy, but with this woman's body, not fitting in anywhere. What choice is that, really? He took the pen in his hand. "Will my school records, my drivers license, pilots license, and all other records reflect the change?" he asked warily. "That is correct. We will help you change all the records that it is possible to change. The DOD stuff will have the change noted in your record, but they will not change what is already there," Norm said. "My birth certificate? How will that be changed?" Joe questioned. "An amended certificate will be issued, and that will be in your file. You may personally keep the original, if you desire," Dr. Krell answered. "What if I can change back? What if you figure out how to make me a male again?" Joe wondered aloud. "If we can discover a way to get you back, and we will keep trying... it will be simply a matter of repeating this same process," Dr. Krell advised. "Whatever status you prefer, will make no difference on our course of action in that matter." Joe ran his hand up his leg, beneath the soft silk of the slip. He got to the top of the hose, and felt the warm softness of the skin of his inner thigh. He really liked the way it felt. A nervous Joe Bates took the pen, and signed the first paper, he folded it back, and started to read the next one. It was a form used to change his legal name. He hadn't considered that. "What's this? I haven't even considered a name change," Joe said. "Do I have to do that?" "No, of course not," Dr. Krell said. "I just thought you might want it, however. Of course, Joe is not that unusual as a feminine name, especially if you shorten it to "Jo" jay-oh, when you sign you name. I don't see any problem with keeping the legal name Joel." Dr. Krell said. Joe skipped that paper, and went to the next one. It was a form for requesting a new operators certificate, and he signed it immediately. "Since that has your picture on it, you will have to go to the DMV, and get issued a new license. With this paperwork, it will be like renewing your certificate. No tests, and no questions," Norm told him. Joe looked at the next form. It was a FAA form for requesting a replacement pilot certificate. He signed it after he read through it. "I don't have a lot of experience with that one," Dr. Krell said. I have talked with the FAA Flight Surgeon at Oklahoma City, and he explained what was needed. You will get a new certificate in the mail. All your ratings remain the same." The next group of papers was DOD related. Joe read through it carefully. It was some forms filled out by Dr. Krell, as well as about a six page summary of what had happened t Joe, and his new status as female. "I'm not sure what effect this will have on your security clearance status. I would think it would have none, but I have no precedent," Norm said. The last paper was for changing his birth record. He really had concern about that. No matter what happened, or how he decided to deal with his bodies physical changes, Joe still felt that deep down, somewhere inside, he was STILL a male. If his birth certificate said he was born a girl, could he still feel that way? He thought of the way he now looked, the way he now felt, and how, even his personality seemed to be changing. He didn't even know how he would feel tomorrow. It was likely he would be even more feminine, since he was still feeling the changes happening. It was probably inevitable, and he might as well admit it. He took a deep breath, and signed the paper. "You can take the rest of these things with you," Norm said. "I'll have these things copied, and give you the forms you will need. That's all for now." Joe go up, and shook Norm's hand. It was difficult to get used to having such small hands. All the other men seemed to have a much stronger grip now. Joe went back out into the waiting room as the receptionist called Mike. Joe sat down next to Dave. Dave was looking through his paperwork. "What did Norm advise?" Joe asked his friend. "Well, he figured I was just going to sign the papers, and that would be it," Dave said. "When I explained my concern, he was sympathetic, and all, but he didn't really have any good advice. He thought it would be best if I changed my legal status to female, as far as my relationship with Honybone, but when I asked about Cindy, then he thought I better wait. I guess it's going to be up to Dr. Krells guys to get us back." "Yeah. I signed the papers," Joe said. "Dr. Krell said if they do find a way to get us back, I can go through it all again. It's amazing how simple it is." They sat and waited for about twenty minutes as Mike had his interview with Norm. Finally, Mike returned to the waiting room. He had a smile on his face. "Good news?" Joe asked, curious to know the cause of Mikes obvious joy. "Dr. Krell said he would accept me for reconstructive surgery, if that's what I really want." Mike said. He was almost back to his normal friendly personality. "When does he plan to do that?" Dave asked, showing interest. "He said I better wait until they have exhausted attempts to return us using the equipment back at Honeybone." Mike said. "That might take a month or so. I guess I can wait that long. As long as there is light at the end of the tunnel." "I hope he can do something for me," Dave said. "Can he give you a working penis?" "He said that they were making advances every day, and that I might at least have some feeling. Anything's better than this," Mike said, placing his hand on his crotch. "Don't give up on getting back the way we came," Joe said. "There is still a lot of things we don't know about that." He didn't want his buddies to blow the chance for a normal recovery. Changing themselves by surgery would eliminate any chance to reverse the process, without causing deformities. "Don't worry about it," Mike said. "Dr. Krell won't let us do anything until all possibility of that is exhausted." Mike sounded like he didn't expect much from that possibility. Dr. Krell came out, and walked over to his three patients. "Well, I think we're finished with you for today," he said. "Come back tomorrow morning, about nine thirty, and Susan will be ready with her little seminar." He smiled. "Is Karen free?" Joe asked. "I'm sure she is," Dr. Krell answered. "You'll probably have to track her down." Joe went back down the hall, and found Karen back in the classroom, still talking to three of Dr. Krell's patients. "Dr. Krell say's we are through for the day," Joe said. "Do you want to come with us, back to the hotel?" he asked Karen. "Sure. I'm ready any time you are," she said, gathering up her purse, and a book. They walked back out to the waiting area where the others were standing. They gathered their things and walked out to the car. As they were driving to the hotel, Karen looked at Joe. "When do you have to back tomorrow?" she asked. "We don't have to be in until nine thirty," Joe replied. "I guess we just have the classroom stuff to do, and then we can go back to Phoenix." "You got everything done today?" Karen asked, seeming to be surprized. "I suppose so, I don't know what you were expecting, but the interview, a physical exam, and changing my legal status to female seems like plenty for one day to me," Joe said. "Yeah, I guess looking at it that way, it was a big day for you," Karen considered. "You don't know how big it was," Joe said. "Except for last Friday, I've never had another day to compare with this." Karen turned into the drive at the hotel. "What do you guy's want to do this evening?" she asked, looking at Dave and Mike sitting in the back seat of the big Lincoln. "Get some food, and stay in my room," Mike said. "Me too," agreed Dave. "I don't want to go out in public like this any more than necessary." "How about you Joe?" she asked looking at him. "You want to sit in your room and mope too?" "Well, I am hungry, but I don't know about anything else. I don't think I'm ready for it," Joe said. "Hey, you're officially a woman now, if you like it or not. You look passable, that's for sure, and you're learning how to act like one very quickly. This is the place to learn...away from home, where you won't find anyone who would recognize you," Karen argued. Joe thought about it, and realized she was right. He didn't want to go out, but if he was going to be this way for a while...or forever...he had to get used to it. And there was no better place than away from home to make the inevitable mistakes. "Well, ok, I'll go with you, if you think I should," Joe conceded. "How about you two? Mike, you don't look any different, come on along," Karen asked again. "I'll think about it," Mike said. "I don't feel too good right now, though." "What's wrong?" Karen asked. "I don't know. I don't know...Hell, I've been feeling all kinds of strange sensations. I don't know which ones are normal, and which ones are a problem. My belly hurts, and my chest....my nipples, they hurt when anything touches them. My shirt feels like it's rubbing them raw," Mike complained. Joe knew what his buddy was feeling. He had the same feeling when he wore his T-shirt the first day. He hadn't seen Mike's chest, but Joe guessed his friend had some changes there too, even though the clothes he wore concealed it. "Mike, are you developing breasts too?" Joe asked. "Are they real sore?" "Well....no....I'm still...I'm not..." Mike stammered. "Damn it, Mike! You don't have to act macho or anything like that. We're all in this together. It's nothing to be embarrassed about...at least around us," Joe was irritated at the way his friend was denying the problem. "Ok..Ok..Yeah, I guess I'm getting tits too," Mike admitted. I got a cunt, and now I'm getting breasts. I admit it. Are you happy now?" he almost shouted at Joe. "Mike, don't feel so sorry for yourself. I know you don't like what has happened, none of us do, but denying it won't fix the problem any quicker. You know that," Joe said. "What the hell do you want me to do?" Mike asked. "I'm not beautiful, like you are. I can't put on women's clothes, and fit right in, like you have. What do you want me to do?" he repeated. "Mike, if you need help coping... if there is anything I can do...don't be too shy to ask," Karen said. "I think I can help you get through this. I have some experience with it, you know." "I don't know what I need," Mike said. "I think my body is still changing. I don't know...I just don't know what's going on." They all got out of the car, and went up to their rooms. As they walked down the hallway to their room, they agreed to call each other in about a half hour, to decide what they would do. Joe entered his room, and sat down on the bed. The early morning wake up, and the events of the day had left him tired. His old strength wasn't the same anymore. He hadn't exercised for a few days..since his racquetball game with Jay..and he missed that. He would have to get back on some type of exercise program, no matter what he looked like. It was awkward lying on the bed in the suit, and he didn't want to wrinkle it, so Joe decided to change clothes. He knew he wouldn't want to wear it anymore this late in the day anyway. He sat up, and removed the gray heels. He was now used to walking in the low heeled shoes, and knew he looked good wearing them, but they sure were not the most comfortable shoes he ever had on. He placed them by the bed, and stood to remove the skirt. When he had the skirt on a hanger, he started to remove the silk blouse. He started to unbutton it, and as he did, his hands brushed against the softness of his breasts. It felt great, just to touch himself. It wasn't a sexual thing really, but it sure was sensual, and he found he couldn't resist fondling the softness. The silky blouse over the slip, and his bra, made his breasts feel wonderful. He had always loved the feel of women's breasts, but it was even better to feel them from both sides. The soft touch, and the thin, slippery fabric, made it easy to see, as well as feel, that his nipples had become hard and stiff. The sensation was quite intense, and Joe was starting to feel the familiar dampness that now accompanied his "erection". It was the first time he had experienced the pleasurable sensation for a while, and he was relieved to find that it could still happen. He had been beginning to worry that he was going to loose these new feelings. Joe quickly removed his blouse, and slip. He slipped out of the nylon hose, carefully placing everything either on hangers, or carefully piling them on the dresser. He looked over at the full length mirror, and saw himself standing in his underwear. He was becoming used to the feelings, the clothes and all the other things about being a female. He wondered when he'd ever get used to his reflection in the mirror. It's a lot different than Jockey's and a t-shirt, he thought to himself. He started to remove his bra, but decided against it. He liked the secure feeling it gave to his breasts. Joe went over to the TV, and turned it on, looking at the little placard to find the channel for CNN. When he found it, he went over to the bed, and lay down without pulling back the spread. Joe lay there, watching the news, and idly rubbing his left nipple through the thin material of the bra. If he ever got back, if he ever became a man again, he would certainly miss this experience. Of course, right now it didn't look like that was going to happen any time soon, and he realized that he was starting to hope he could stay this way, at least for a while. He had never been more aware of his body, and now it seemed like everything that touched it made him tingle. As he watched the news he found himself watching the newsperson's, both men and women. He found that what he looked at was changing. While he used to ignore the men, he now looked at them critically, even their clothes. He had always eyed the women, but now, he found himself looking at what they were wearing, rather than just trying to undress them in his mind, as before. He tried to determine why he was now feeling this way, but had no answer. Maybe I'm starting to accept the fact that I don't have a penis anymore, he considered. With that thought, he tightened the muscles in his crotch, and felt the now familiar sensation as his vaginal sphincter tightened. It was a pleasant feeling, at least as good as if his cock was there, twitching, He reached down, and placed his hand on the slick fabric covering the soft, flat area between his legs. Touching there felt good, and with his hand, he could feel that the wetness was beginning to soak through the cotton lining. It was making even the outer surface of the black panties damp. He was enjoying the caress of his hand on this sensitive area, when he was interrupted by the ringing of the telephone on the night stand. It must be Karen, wanting me to get going, he thought as he picked up the phone. "Joe here," he answered. "Joe? I'm glad I found you," the voice on the other end said. "Who is this?" Joe asked. It obviously was not Karen. "It's me, Jim Matheny," the voice said. "I just got some more news, and I think you should hear it." "Go ahead, shoot," Joe said. He wondered what they had discovered. "I was over at Firebird, and I was talking with the line chief. He asked when we would be running the GPS tests again," Jim said. Firebird was the FBO that supported Honeybone's flight department with fuel and any other services. They were based at Deer Valley Airport. "I told him that I didn't know for sure, since it looked like there was a possibility that the equipment we were using might be causing injury to our personnel," Jim went on. "He asked what kind of injury, and I explained that it might be causing cell damage, which had unusual symptoms on the persons affected. I didn't want to go into detail, you understand?" Jim continued. "Go on please," Joe interrupted. "What did you find out?" Jim continued, "Well, he asked who go hurt, and I told him that you, Dave, and Mike did, but that you were not in any danger." "Yeah, ok....ok...go on.." Joe was anxious to hear whatever news he had. "Well, when he heard that, he thought for a minute, and said that he thought that one of his line boys...a college student named Tim Werner, was hanging around you guy's last Thursday, while you were calibrating the transmitters," Jim revealed. Joe thought about it. Yeah, he did remember Tim being with them while they were working. Tim was going to college, and working at Firebird part time so that he could make a little extra money, as well as hang around airplanes. Tim was an intelligent, friendly kid, maybe twenty, or twenty-one, and was about the same size as Joe. He was always hanging around, watching what they were doing, hoping to bum a ride in the Learjet. "Bob, that's the line chief's name, Bob said he hadn't seen Tim since Thursday. He was supposed to work Friday morning, and all day both Saturday, and Sunday. He didn't show up, and he didn't call. Bob called his apartment, but nobody answered. Bob said Tim was a very reliable guy, and he couldn't figure out what happened to him," Jim continued. "I asked Bob if he knew Tim's address. He did, and I suggested that we go over there, and check for ourselves," Jim said. "I figured that if something happened to Tim, like happened to you guys, he might hole up, and be too embarrassed to come out. Well, we went over to his apartment, and knocked on the door. Nobody came to the door right away, but Bob saw Tim's Camaro on the parking lot, so he figured he was in there. We kept ringing, and knocking, and finally, somebody came to the door. It was a girl, wearing jeans and a T-shirt. She had short hair, though, like you guys, and she looked a lot like Tim," Jim continued. "Oh, shit, another victim," Joe said aloud. "Yeah, I believe so," Jim said. "I asked the girl...she looked like a girl...I asked Tim if it was him. He said yes. He was too embarrassed to come out of his apartment looking like he does, and of course, he thought he was the only one that had the problem." "Where is Tim now?" Joe asked. "He's still at his apartment," Jim answered. "He didn't want to come out, or go to the hospital. Bob and I brought him some burgers. She...er, he said he was hungry. He's scared to death, Joe." "He needs to get over here," Joe said. "If he see's us, at least then he'll know he's not alone." "That's what I was thinking. I can't get him to go on an airliner, and I don't have a plane available to get him there. Can you maybe fly back, and pick him up?" Jim requested. "Yeah, I guess I can," Joe said. He thought about the flight back, and had another idea. "My pal Jay Logan has a Mooney 252," Joe said. "I'll call him. He knows Tim, since he keeps his plane at Deer Valley. I think I can get Jay to fly over and bring Tim to us. We're getting a briefing tomorrow which might help him too." "Yeah, that sounds like a good idea. Tell your friend to fuel up at Firebird, and Honeybone will pick up the expenses," Jim said. "And you do what you can to help that kid." "I'll call Jay, and tell him to get in contact with you. Where will you be for the next few hours?" Joe asked. "I'm at Firebird, and I'll stick around as long as I need to," Jim answered. "Ok then. I'll call Jay. If I can't reach him, or he can't get away, I'll fly back with the 421. I think I an get hold of Jay, though," Joe said. "Thanks Joe. I knew I could count on you," Jim said. "No sweat, Jim. I appreciate the backing you've given us,." Joe said honestly. Damn, Joe thought, another victim. Were there others? How many people would have their lives screwed up like this. He hung up the phone momentarily, and then picked it back up. He dialed the number of his best friend Jay. The phone rang three times, and then the familiar sound of his buddy's voice on the other end. "Hey pal, what you got planned for this evening?" Joe asked. "Not much, I guess. I just got home, and was getting ready to find something to eat," Jay said. "How would you like to drive your plane over here to Lindbergh Field?" Joe asked. "Sure. I can do that. You have something you want me to look at?" Jay asked. "No...nothing like that," Joe answered. " My boss, Jim Matheney just called. They have found another person with my problem. A line boy named Tim Werner." "Oh shit. Yeah, I know Tim," Jay interrupted. "Well, he was watching us Thursday, and I guess he was in the wrong place at the right time," Joe said. "Can you fly him over here? Honeybone will pick up expenses." "Sure, I'll take him over there. I need the time anyway," Jay agreed. "As soon as you can get ready, get over to Firebird. They should have Tim there by then. I'll meet you on the ramp at JimsAir, on Lindbergh," Joe said. "Ok. See you in a few hours," Jay said. The phone clicked off. Joe thought about what he had just heard. If Tim had been affected, that meant that they were probably exposed to whatever changed them, while they were on the ground. That information would probably be a significant breakthrough. It also meant that the GPS was almost certainly responsible for the problem, since there was unlikely to be any other common denominator. Maybe there was hope yet. Joe lay back on the bed. The news from Jim had his adrenaline flowing again. Maybe he should call Karen. He thought about it, and realized that she was just on the other side of the wall. There was a locked, connecting door, and he went to it, and opened it. On the other side was another door. He knocked on it, and in a few seconds Karen opened it. She stood in the open doorway, and asked what Joe wanted. She had taken off the clothes she had been wearing too, and had on only a bra and panties. "What's up, Joe?" she asked. "I just got a call from Jim Matheney, at Honeybone," he said. "Jim says that they've found another person who has been changed. It's a line boy who was watching us set up, and calibrate the GPS equipment BEFORE we flew." "That's interesting," Karen said. "That means you all were probably exposed on the ground, right?" "Yeah, I think it does. That narrows down the cause, at least a little," Joe said. "I talked to Jim, and my pal Jay is going to fly the line boy, his name is Tim Werner, to us here in San Diego. If all goes well, he will be here in about three hours, maybe less." "That's a good idea. That'll give Dr. Krell a chance to look him over, and see if he's ok, as well as maybe help him with the adjustment," Karen said. "Right. Jim said he's really scared, and embarrassed. I know how he feels...I know it'll help him just to find he's not the only one," Joe said. "How old is he?" Karen asked. "I don't know for sure, but he's a college student. I'd say twenty ... twenty one or so," Joe guessed. "It must be quite a shock....waking up...finding you're changed...that suddenly, you aren't a man anymore...." "You bet it is," Joe confirmed. "I'm just now starting to accept the idea of looking like this for a long time, maybe forever." "What do we need to do for him here?" Karen asked. "I don't know....Why don't you come on in...lets talk about it," Joe said. Karen came into his room, and Joe closed the door. He followed her back into the room, looking at her figure which was easy to see since she wore only light blue, nylon panties, and on top, only a matching bra. She turned and saw that Joe was staring at her butt. "Like what you see?" she teased, grinning. "Well, no, I mean...yeah, I mean...well you know, it's hard to get used to seeing pretty women running around in their underwear, and keep from staring. I'm sorry," Joe apologized. "No, don't be. I'm pleased to find I'm worth looking at," Karen said, laughing. "And I love that description." "But, it is true. I'm really impressed at how you look. If I didn't know, I'd never guess you're past," Joe said truthfully. Karen, although she was almost six feet tall, was very feminine looking. Only her wide shoulders looked out of place, giving her the look of a swimmer, or athlete. Her breasts were average, well developed; and were about the same size as Joe's. Both her and Joe had smaller than average hips. But Karen's were maybe narrower, though her upper thighs were, perhaps, a little heavier. Hormones were redistributing her body fat to follow the female form. Joe, though he was now genetically female, still had very little extra body fat. His hips were a bit wider than before the change, but it was due mostly to changes in his skeletal structure, rather than changes in amount of body fat. In that respect, Joe was more like a young girl, just thru puberty. He had the curves, but only starting to acquire all the fat distribution of a female. "I wasn't always this way," Karen said. "When I started on hormones, it seemed like nothing happened for months. Then my breasts started to grow, but just a little. It really wasn't until after my surgery that they really came on. In the last year, I've found that I have to watch what I eat, I think my butt will really spread, if I let it," she said, bending her fanny around so Joe could see it. "Nothing to complain about as far as I can see," Joe said, grinning. "It looks like Dr. Krell does good work." "Dr. Krell didn't cause this to happen," Karen said, smiling, and rubbing one of her buttocks. "Hormones did. Dr. Krell is responsible for this," she turned around and patted her crotch. "The other day you said you didn't have much feeling in it," Joe said. "Does it look real?" he asked. "Well, I don't know. You've got a real one now. Would you like to see it, and compare?" Karen asked. Joe thought about it. The whole thing was intriguing. Surgically changing sex. She looked so female....he was curious what she really looked like. "Well....are you sure you don't mind?" Joe said reluctantly. "I don't want to seem nosy, but I am curious." "Heck, it's only fair. I saw what you looked like when I assisted the other day. I guess I can't complain if you see me. Besides, we're both women, aren't we?" Karen said, logically. "Yeah, I guess we are," Joe agreed. Karen pulled her underwear down, and stepped out of it. She put her arms out slightly, and turned around. Then she faced Joe, and put her feet slightly apart. Joe looked at Karen in amazement. Even without her panties, she still looked completely female. Her pubic hair was trimmed into a triangle, probably so that it wouldn't protrude from tight fitting swim-wear, but not nearly as close as Joe's. Joe wondered what Karen had in place of a clitoris. He knew that was the key to the pleasant sensations he experienced now. "Did they give you a clitoris?" he asked. "Sort of," Karen said. "They tried to take some of the skin from the underside of my penis and place it where your clitoris is. I guess Dr. Krell did the best he could. It looks real enough, I suppose. I can feel it, too, but just barely. Can't say it does much for me sexually." She reached down and with two fingers, spread her pubic folds. Joe looked at her carefully. Unlike his own, Karen's genitalia had smaller inner lips, and those were much smoother, without as many crinkles and folds as his had. It also seemed to be very dry. By comparison, it seemed to Joe, he was always wet. Sometimes uncomfortably so. "Is it always dry like that?" he asked. "It seems like I'm always soaking my underwear." "I'm sure I don't have the lubrication you have," Karen said. "But it's adequate. If I was going to have intercourse for a long time, I would probably need some K-Y jelly or something, or I'd get sore. The same would happen to you I suspect, but it might take longer." "How do you think it would work if Dr. Krell gave me a new penis?" Joe asked, looking at the doctor's work. "Gee, I don't know. I've talked to a few genetic females who had reassignment surgery to male. Some were pleased, and others...well, they wished they had left what they had alone. I think it's a still few years behind the male to female operation. Since you had a real penis, you'd be even harder to please," she answered, stepping into her underwear and pulling it back up. "Since I've had this body, and I've been getting used to the way it feels, I think it would be hard enough to go back to my old body, much less settle for one without any feeling at all," Joe said, thinking out loud. "Yeah, I think you're right. Dr. Krell does too, and I don't think he's too keen on changing you guys back surgically," Karen agreed. "Mike seems to think he will," Joe said. "He says he won't change his records to female, no matter what." "I know. And if I were Mike, I'm not sure I wouldn't feel the same way. It's impossible, I think, to make anybody become the other sex, or to keep them from changing, if that's what they really want. It's whatever is in your head that counts," Karen observed. "I think even that's changing for me," Joe said. "The other day, all I wanted was to get my old body shape back. But now, I think I'm still changing...I think I could stay like this...if I had to, that is," Joe tried to explain to Karen the confusion that seemed to be inside his head. "Interesting. I'm sure that the gender clinic will want to know about what's going on in your head. Don't be afraid to bring it up," Karen advised. "Oh yeah, sure. That's easy to say. How do I tell somebody that, yeah, I'm really a guy...but no I don't want to be changed back to a man... how do I do that? And besides, I don't know if that's really the way I feel, or if female hormones, or something, are just making me think that's what I want," Joe argued. "I don't know Joe. I can only guess. I know when I started on hormones, I became much more emotional, crying for no reason, stuff like that. No doubt, they do affect your head. After surgery, when my testosterone was much lower, I began to feel a new contentment. Maybe that's what you're feeling. I don't know. I doubt if anyone could do more than guess," Karen answered. "Yeah. If I am stuck like this, I suppose it's just as well that I'm starting to like it," Joe said, a smile forming on his face. "It's not all bad, is it?" Karen agreed. "No, it's not all bad, that's for sure," Joe agreed. "I guess we better call Dave and Mike, and let them know what's going on," Karen said, going over to the phone. Karen rang Dave's number, and when he answered, she told him to open his door, and come into Joe's room. Then she dialed Mike, and told him that Jim Matheney called, and that he should come to Joe's room, too. She hung up the phone, went over, and unlocked the door on the other side of the room from her own. As she was doing that, they could hear the rattle of the lock, as Dave opened the second door. In a few seconds, the door opened, and Dave looked into the room. Dave looked surprised to see Karen and Joe standing in their underwear. Dave was still wearing his jumpsuit. Before they could say anything, they were interrupted by a knock on the door. Joe went to the door, and opened it slightly. It was Mike, and Joe opened the door to let him in. Mike came into the room, and stood there staring at Karen and Joe. He suddenly realized he was staring, and started mumbling an apology. "No reason to apologize," Karen said. "It's time you admit that you've changed, too. We're not embarrassed for you to see us. Are we, Joe"? Karen asked. "Uh, no, no were not," Joe said. He wasn't embarrassed, but he was uncomfortable. Mike was still dressed like man, and no matter what he looked like underneath, he seemed like he was one. He felt self conscious standing in his sexy underwear around a "guy". "Sit down everybody," Karen said. "Joe has some news. Tell em Joe." Joe sat on the edge of his bed, and cleared his throat. "I just got off the phone with Jim Matheney. Thursday, when we were calibrating the transmitters, a line boy...Tim Werner...was watching us. Today, they found him hiding in his apartment. He has been changed, too. I don't know the extent of his changes, but we'll be seeing him in about two or three hours. My friend Jay Logan is bringing him over in his Mooney. Jim wants us to help him, and make sure that he gets whatever assistance we do from the clinic," Joe explained. "So we were affected on the ground..." Mike said. "And Tim got zapped, too." "Yeah. Jim says that Tim is really scared... we all know what he's going through. Does everybody want to go along to the airport to pick him up?" Joe asked. "Sure..Yeah...Of course..." they all agreed. "Ok then. Do we want to get something to eat before we pick him up, or wait until afterward?" Joe asked. "What do you think?" Dave asked. Dave seldom spoke lately, and it sort of surprized Joe when he did. "I think we should eat first, because Tim should probably meet with us before he spends much time in public. I think they almost have to drag him out of his room," Joe said. "Hell, I don't blame him," Mike said. "I wonder of his tits hurt like mine do." He gently massaged his chest through his shirt. "Some lotion will help the irritation," Karen said. " Take that shirt off, and let me see." "No, no, it's all right," Mike insisted. "Take the shirt off," Karen ordered. Mike looked at the tall woman. He started to say something, but stopped, and began to unbutton his shirt. He removed it, and pulled his T shirt over his head. On his hairless, muscular chest, the objects of his pain and embarrassment were very evident. Mike's well developed pectoral muscles now seemed even larger, due to the small, but definitely feminine, breast development. His nipples and areola were fairly large, easily as big as Joe's, and they were quite erect. The rough men's shirts Mike wore, had rubbed the tender tissue raw, and they looked sore. Embarrassingly, Mike took a nipple between his fingers, showing Karen, and the others, the small amount of blood that oozed to the surface of the thin, irritated skin. "These darn things really hurt," he said, rubbing it with the palm of his hand. "Just a minute," Karen said, going into her room for something. In seconds, she was back, with a small plastic bottle with a pump. She squirt some of the fragrant white liquid onto the tips of her fingers, and she rubbed it on Mikes tender area's. Mike's face became red as he allowed Karen to massage the soothing body lotion into his skin. The softness of his breast tissue looked out of place on his trim, muscled body. Mike had the slightly androgynous look of a female body builder. "There. Now, if you'll just wear a bra, or at least, a silk undershirt, you'll find that you won't have any problems," Karen admonished. "Mike, you'll have to stop denying the changes that you've had. At least keep from hurting yourself." "Yeah, yeah," Mike said. "That stuff feels pretty good. What is it?" "It's Jergens lotion," Karen said. "Here, take the bottle." She handed Mike the bottle as he was putting his shirt back on. "I guess we better get going if we are going to find something to eat, and still make the airport," Joe said. Joe looked at Mike. Now that he knew how Mike looked, he realized that he could see the slight bulge of Mike's breasts, as well as the definite points of his nipples poking at his shirt. He hadn't noticed it before. It gave him a new understanding about the problems Mike was facing. "Where do we want to go?" Karen asked. "I'd like a steak," said Mike. "Lets go to Mongo's." "That sounds good to me," Dave chimed in. "Suits me, too," Karen agreed. "I think I'll pass on the steak, but they have a great soup and salad bar." "Mongo's it is," Joe said. "Now, let me get dressed." Everyone went back to their rooms. Karen left the door open between her and Joe's room. Joe noticed it, but didn't say anything. He looked at the clothes he brought, and decided on shorts, and a new top. The casual look was ok in a place like Mongo's. The group went to Mongo's, and when they finished, they were ready to go to the airport, and pick up their new friend. CHAPTER 15 CHANGES It was about two hours and forty-five minutes from Jim's call to Joe, when Joe and the gang pulled into the FBO parking area at San Diego's International Airport. Karen, who was driving, parked the car and Joe, Dave, and Mike followed her into the attractive waiting room of the upscale fixed base operator. Since it catered mostly to business travelers, it had nice couches, a TV viewing area for waiting crew, and even places for waiting pilots to catch a snooze. Joe went to the counter. In a moment, he got the attention of a cute young woman, who was working on a detailed bill, for food, fuel, and other services for the Falcon 50 visible in the big picture window behind her. "Can I help you, ma'am?" she asked Joe, who rankled at the way she said it. He felt weird being referred to that way, especially by a pretty girl. "Yes," Joe said. "Has a Mooney 252 arrived yet? I'm waiting for a friend." "No, it hasn't," she said. "But you're welcome to have a seat, and help yourself to some coffee." She pointed to a little alcove, where there was coffee, tea, and a large ice machine. "Thanks," Joe said. "I'd appreciate it if you'd let me know as soon as you hear it coming in." "I sure will," the girl said, smiling. Joe went back to his friends. "We might as well have a seat," he said. "They're not here yet. But I think they should get here soon." They all found a comfortable seat, and Joe picked up a magazine and started reading about a new commuter airliner. Joe was sitting there reading for a while, when his bladder reminded him he had not emptied it lately. He got up, and went to the ladies room. Inside the attractive restroom, he entered a stall, and was relieving himself, when he heard the ladies room door open. He finished, and as left the stall, he saw it was the girl behind the counter. She had apparently finished her shift, and was changing from the little hot pants outfit, to something less revealing. Joe smiled at her as he went to the mirrored sink. The girl had removed her shorts, and blouse, and was standing there with nothing covering her fantastic tan but a tiny string bikini, and a little wisp of a bra which her firm breasts hardly needed. She was truly beautiful, and Joe had difficulty avoiding staring at her in the mirror, as he pretended to fix his hair. Joe could feel the old excitement building again. What is going on? Joe wondered as he watched the girl change clothes. Yesterday, he thought he no longer felt any attraction for women, but he couldn't deny the feelings that were making his heart beat faster, and his underwear uncomfortably wet. Joe didn't know if he was glad he still had his attraction for women, or if it would now simply be an inconvenience, now that he was legally a woman himself. Maybe it was strangely exciting, but if meant going into a restroom, and then getting turned on by seeing your new peer group partially clothed, doing all the things women do....was it a good thing? He wasn't sure. The girl was buttoning her blouse as she joined Joe at the mirror. "Are you going on a flight?" she asked, in an attempt at small-talk. "No," Joe answered awkwardly. "My friend is just stopping by. He's bringing another friend from Phoenix," he blurted. "Oh. yeah. I was in Phoenix last month. I like the beach better. It's too dry there." "It is dry," Joe said. Joe gave himself one last look, and quickly left the restroom. Being a woman was going to be difficult. He hoped that the wetness of his underwear wouldn't show through to his shorts. His panties felt like they were riding up uncomfortably, too. He tried to discretely pull them out as he walked back to the waiting area. Joe joined the others waiting for the plane. Almost as soon as he was seated, the girl from the ladies room came up to Joe. "We just heard a Mooney call ground for taxi to our ramp," she said. "Thanks," Joe said. He got up and looked at the others. "Jay's here, I think," he said. They all went over to the window, and watched for the little plane. Before long, it rolled into sight. Another girl, wearing the same little outfit as the girl that parked them, stood on the ramp, waving two yellow flags, to the pilot where to park. The Mooney pulled up to the girl, and it's propeller snapped to a stop. In a few moments, Joe could see two people walk to the front of the plane. Joe went to the door, and went out to the plane, closely followed by the others. He was amazed by what he saw when he reached the plane. Tim Werner had been a handsome guy, about six feet tall, and maybe one ninety pounds. When Joe reached the Mooney, he saw his pal Jay, and somebody else. The other person was smaller than Jay, so he was shorter than five ten, and although it was over eighty degrees, the other person was wearing a gray sweatshirt. Joe went up to the person wearing the sweatshirt, and immediately recognized him/her as Tim Werner. He didn't really look exactly like Tim, but the resemblance was there. If it wasn't that he had the same relatively short hair as Tim had, Joe would have thought the attractive young girl was Tim's sister. Tim recognized Joe, too, at least he thought he did, looking carefully at the pretty woman who walked up to him. "Joe? Joe Bates? Is that you?" Tim asked. "Tim?" Joe responded, holding out his hand. "Joe what has happened....what happened to us?" Tim asked. "That's what we're trying to find out here. There are some doctors here who specialize in gender related problems...but they've never had any like us, unfortunately," Joe said, smiling. "Are we going to be like this forever then?" Tim asked. "Am I always going to look like this?" "Tim, I wish I knew. We can talk about it back at the hotel," Joe said. Joe went over to Jay, who was critically looking at his airplane. "Anything wrong? Joe asked. Jay looked at the pretty woman who came up to him, not immediately recognizing her as his best friend, Joe Bates. "Yes, I seem to have an electric fuel pump that keeps popping it's circuit breaker," he said, only realizing who he was talking to as he spoke the words. "Joe? Is that you Joe? You look so different. I don't think I'll ever get used to you having a body like that...and now the hair...holy cow," Jay exclaimed. "No matter what I look like, it's still me here. Jay," Joe said. "It's still me, just a wig, that's all." He pulled at a lock of his hair. "Think you can do something with this pump?" Jay asked. "I doubt it. I don't have any tools, and you'll probably need a replacement pump. Do they have support for Mooney's here?" Joe asked. "I don't know, but I'll ask," Jay said. I doubt I'll get anything this evening." "Let's find out. If you can't, we'll get you a room at the hotel for the night," Joe said. A line boy came up, and asked what he could do. Jay asked if they had an A & P, and if they could get parts to fix his plane. "The mechanics won't be in until 0800," the young man said. "We might get somebody to come out, but it'll cost you." "No need to call out a mechanic," Joe said. "Stay the night, and I'm sure they can fix it quick, tomorrow morning." "Ok. I'll let the plane sit tonight," Jay decided. "I'll be out in the morning." "Ok. sir," We'll put it on the maintenance ramp, so they'll get right to it in the morning," the line boy said. "Let's go back to the hotel," Joe said. He looked for Tim, and found him talking with Karen, Dave, and Mike. "Can we all fit into the Lincoln?" Joe asked. "There are six of us now." "I think we can manage," Karen said. They all went back to the parking area, and Joe got in the back seat, with Jay between him and Tim. There was enough room, but they were seated closely together, Joe's hips touching Jay's. Joe felt strange having this new, wider part of him actually touching his friend. He was acutely aware of the changes in his body, as they touched a male for the first time since he acquired them. They drove back to the hotel quickly. Joe wondered if Tim was hungry. "Do you want to get something to eat?" Joe asked his new friend. "No, I had something before we took off. I don't seem to get hungry very often now...among other things," Tim said. He seemed a bit relieved to see others sharing his strange affliction. "You'll probably find that your metabolism has changed, or will change," Karen said. "That may change your eating habits." "It certainly has changed about all my other habits," Tim said. "I hope I can get changed back, cause I don't think I could ever get used to being like this." "When did you first notice the change?" Joe asked Tim. "Well, Thursday night I started feeling real funny, and my chest started to hurt. I didn't think much of it and I went to bed. I woke up at about four in the morning. I had to piss real bad. When I touched my cock, I it seemed it was really short, or something. I went into the bathroom, and there I realized something had happened to it...it felt all right, but it didn't look normal. I didn't know what to do, so I watched and I see and feel my self slowly changing...turning into a girl, I guess...I don't know...Joe what could cause this to happen to us?" Tim's now feminine sounding voice was breaking as he spoke, but he still had a male inflection. "As far as we know, something in the GPS system causes chromosome damage, somehow causing the cells to sort of revert to a default, female XX form," Karen said. "I don't know if it is possible to cause further changes, or to find a way to reverse change that has occurred. It would take some form of selective cell modification capability. Up to now, consistent cell modification has been beyond our capability, except at the most simple level." "So we're stuck like this?" Tim asked. "We don't have any way back so far," Joe said. "Dr. Krell would like you to stay as you are, without reverting to surgical intervention, until his staff can determine that cell modification is not possible," Karen went on. "Surgical intervention? What's that?" Tim asked. "They can give you an artificial cock," Mike said. "That's what I'm going to do, as soon as they run out of ideas, trying to change us back." "They can do that?" Tim said, suddenly becoming very interested. "Yes, it is possible, but the results are not very consistent, and even at best, it wouldn't be anything like what you had," Karen said. "You might look like a male, but your new penis wouldn't function for intercourse. Maybe not even to urinate," she continued. "It couldn't be any worse than this," Tim said. "Hell, I'm wet all the time, and it itches like crazy." "It shouldn't itch," Karen said. "Are you keeping yourself clean?" "I don't know. I guess so," Tim answered. "I'm pretty sensitive in that area. Just touching it, or having my clothes rub it gives me a boner ....at least that's what it feels like, like a boner, and wet balls." "I think that describes it," Joe agreed. "According to Dr. Krell's people, our bodies are now completely normal female. I guess this is what it feels like to be a woman." "But, I don't want to be a woman," Tim said. "I'm a guy, and I want to stay a guy. They got to get my cock and my balls back." "Don't get your hopes up, Tim," Dave chimed in. "What everybody is trying to tell you, is that you're a girl now, and you're probably gonna stay that way, so you better get used to it." "Is that really the way it is, Joe?" Tim asked incredibly. "Is that the way it's gonna be?" "I don't know, Tim. Dave might be right," Joe agreed. "You better try to make the best of the situation." "The best of the situation? How do I make the best of looking like this?" Tim asked." "How do I get used to these tits?" He pulled up his sweat shirt, exposing his fully developed bosom. Jay looked down at them, and then tried to look away. Tim's body had obviously developed into the female form, and Jay was very conscious he was now the only male in the car. "Keep your shirt on, Tim," Karen admonished. "I know you don't like what happened to you, but try to maintain decency. You're embarrassing Jay." "I'm sorry Jay," Tim said. "I just don't think of this body as real. It don't seem like it's even my body anymore." "No problem," Jay said. "You are impressive looking, I must say." "Yeah, I suppose they look pretty good, but it don't seem like it's me. I'm a guy. I don't have tits. I can't go around looking like this," Tim insisted. "Dr. Krell will help," Karen insisted. "He'll help you cope with the problems you are facing." They were just arriving at the hotel as Karen spoke. She pulled the car into the parking area, and they all got out. "We'll have to get two more rooms," Joe said. "I hope we can get them on the same floor." "It looks pretty full," Karenn observed. "They might not be able to be on the same floor as we are." They went to the desk, where Jay and Tim attempted to check in for the night. The receptionist at the desk looked at his computer, and said he was sorry, but they were booked solid for the rest of the week. Jay looked at Tim, and they turned and looked at Joe. "What do we do?" Jay said. "They don't have any rooms left." "What? They're booked up?" Karen asked. "Well, I have an extra bed in my room someone can use." "I do, too." Joe said. "One of you can stay with me." "Gee, I don't know...Do you think it would be a good idea?" Jay asked. "What do you mean" Joe asked. "We're adults, aren't we. You can stay in my room. We've stayed in the same room before. We were roommates in school." "Yeah, but you didn't look like that, old buddy," Jay said, grinning. Joe felt the blood come to his cheeks, as he realized what Jay meant. They may still be best friends, but for them to share a room together wouldn't be the same now. The realization irritated Joe. "I don't care. I can handle it, if you can," he said. "Tim, you're welcome in my room," Karen said. "Well...uh...I ah..Ok. Ok, I'll do it," Tim stammered. He had a little trouble accepting the idea of sleeping in a hotel room with a woman he had just met." They went up to the rooms. Everyone stopped in the hall, and there they decided to meet at seven-thirty for breakfast. Then they went into their rooms. When Joe went into his room, closely Jay following closely behind, he noticed that the interconnecting doors were still open. He could see Karen and Tim go into their room, and asked Karen to come over. She did, and Tim followed. "Tim, did you bring some other clothes?" Joe asked. "I just brought some jeans, and some T-shirts." Tim said. "I want to wear this sweatshirt outside. I don't want anybody to see me like this." "Like they told me, you better get used to it," Joe said. "If you try, you might find that it ain't so bad." He went to his bag, and dug around, looking for something. "Here, try this on tomorrow," Joe said, handing Tim a white cotton bra and some underwear. "I brought some extra, and I think they'll fit you, too. Try 'em, they won't make you look stupid. You might even find you like the way they feel." He grinned at the confused young man. "Gee, I don't know...I can't wear stuff like that..." Tim objected. "Don't worry about it, Tim," Karen said. "I'll help you with it." Karen took the clothes from Joe, and left the room, standing in the doorway until Tim followed her through, and then she closed the door. Joe and Jay stood looking at each other nervously. Joe closed up his B-4 bag, and spoke. "I guess you didn't bring any other clothes, either," Joe said, smiling in embarrassment at his pal. "No I didn't. I didn't think I would be staying over. And I don't think I want to borrow any of your underwear, either," Jay said, a big grin forming on his face. "Don't worry, you don't have to," Joe said. "I just want to help Tim get used to the change. Having Linda around sure helped me with it." "Joe, it's amazing how you've adapted," Jay said. "You look great, and you seem to be doing fantastic." "Do you really think so?" Joe asked. "I'm trying the best I can. I have to admit, it does seem to get easier, the longer I stay this way." "Have you found out any news? Is there really any hope of getting back?" Jay asked. "I don't know, Jay. They haven't found anything yet. It looks like it'll be difficult, if it's not impossible," Joe said. "I changed my records today, so I'm legally a female now, I guess." "Really? You're legally a woman now?" Jay said. "If that ain't a kick in the head. My old roommate, Joe Bates...a woman." "Yeah. That's the way I see it too, a kick in the head. I can't believe its happened to me...that I look like this...that I might someday become an old lady...Jay, I don't know if I want to be an old woman..." Joe started to become emotional, and looked like he was going to cry. Jay came up, and put his arm around him. Joe started to put his arms around Jay, and was starting to cry on his shoulder, when he realized what he was doing, and froze. He pulled back, and looked at his pal. "I'm sorry, Jay," he said. "I didn't mean to do that. I don't know what came over me I feel so strange sometimes." "Hey, no problem. I'm here for you. You do what ever you feel like. I understand. You're different now. You can't help it," Jay said, trying to make Joe feel comfortable around him. "It's true. I do feel different. I don't know if I can help it or not, but sometimes, I just get overcome with emotion. I was never like that before," Joe said. "You were never a woman before, Joe," Jay reasoned. "Maybe that's what the problem is." "Yeah, I'm sure that's the problem, but what's the answer?" Joe asked his friend. "If you're a woman, and you might have to stay a woman, maybe you should just let your feelings go, sometimes," Jay suggested. "I'd understand. I think everyone else would too." "I know they would," Joe said. "Every one has been so good about understanding our problem. I thought we'd be considered freaks, or something. But so far, everyone has been fantastic. It's made the situation almost bearable." "Well, I'm here for you. We were buddies before, and we can stay buddies," Jay said, taking Joe's hand. Joe felt strange taking Jay's hand, but the warm, strong hand made him feel better. He squeezed it, and Jay returned the squeeze. "Could I ask a favor, and would you promise not to be offended?" Joe asked, slightly embarrassed. "Sure. Anything," Jay responded. "Would you...would you hug me?" Joe asked. "I'd be honored," Jay said, pulling Joe to him. They stood there, arms wrapped around each other. They were both feeling a mixture of embarrassment and pleasure, as they held each other tightly. Joe was surprised at how strong and muscular Jay felt, and how good it felt to be held in the strong arms of a man. Jay was surprise at how soft and fragile Joe felt in his arms. He certainly looked like a girl, but now holding him in his arms, he could feel Joe's breast's pressing against his chest, and could smell his feminine scent. It seemed his pal really was a woman now. "Gosh Joe, you even smell like a woman, did you know that?" Jay asked, breaking the spell. "What do you mean by that? Do I smell strange, or something?" Joe asked. He wondered what kind of an odor Jay was smelling. "No, you sure don't smell strange, that's for sure. You smell great," Jay laughed. "Maybe it's the bath powder. I noticed that it has a scent. I thought it reminded me of her." Joe thought out loud. "Well, I like the smell, whatever it is," Jay repeated. "I guess we better get to bed," Joe said, trying to change the subject. He didn't know how to handle this male-female thing yet. "Yeah. Which bed do you want?" Jay asked. "Either one is fine with me," Joe answered. "Do you want to shower?" "Yeah, I guess I better," Jay said. "But you can use the bathroom first, if you want." "Well...Ok, I will. I have to get this makeup off...Linda told me I shouldn't sleep with it on," Joe said. The words sounded silly as soon as he spoke them. "Well, you better wash it off then," Jay said. Joe started to go into the bathroom, and then he realized that he didn't have his shaving case. He rummaged through his B-4 bag until he found the things he needed. He went into the bathroom, and shut the door. It was now felt strange being around a man, even if the man was your best friend. In the bathroom Joe took off his blouse, and shorts, and then removed his underwear. He washed his face, and washed away his makeup. He brushed his teeth, and then sat on the stool to pee. As he sat there, he looked at his underwear, and decided to wash them out in the sink. It only took a second, and his bra and panties were hanging on the towel rack to dry. Then he realized that Jay would be in there next, and would see his feminine things hanging there. He wanted to take them with him, but they were now dripping wet. When he started to leave the bathroom, he realized that he was naked, and Jay was out there. What was he going to do? Joe looked around, and found a large bath towel. He pulled it off the shelf, and wrapped it around his curves, tucking it in on the side. Now he was ready to face Jay again. He screwed up his courage, took his clothes in his hand, and opened the door. He went out into the main room, where Jay had turned back his bed and was laying there, watching the news. He looked up when he saw Joe. "You done already?" he asked. "I thought women took forever in the bathroom." "Maybe they do," Joe said, grinning. "I guess I just haven't figured out what all I'm supposed do in there yet." "It appears that you're doing all the right things," Jay complimented. "Your turn," Joe said. He wanted to get his terry romper from the B-4 bag, and put it on. "Ok," Jay said, and went into the bathroom. Joe went to his bag, and found the terry romper. He took it and put it on the bed while he removed the towel. He was just reaching for the romper, when the bathroom door opened and Jay came out. "I wonder if you might have an extra tooth br....." Jay looked at his naked friend. Joe froze in position, wanting to reach for the towel, but not wanting to move, and take his hands away from his breasts. Jay just stood there, momentarily speechless. Finally, Joe found he could move again. "I...er...I was just putting this on," he said, picking up the little romper. "God, Joe, you're beautiful, you know that?." Jay said, walking over to his friend. "Can I look at you?" "Well...I er...I guess so, sure why not?" Joe stood up, and let his friend look at his changed body. "I could tell that you were softer, and the other day at the health club, when you wore the leotard... I thought then you looked pretty good...but I didn't realize how good....how can you stand it, having a body like that?" Jay asked his pal. "Gee, Jay, what do you think I do? Fondle myself all day? A lot of people look like this," Joe said. "Well, if I looked like that, I probably would," Jay said, a wide grin forming on his face as he watched Joe put the romper on, his boobs bouncing sexily as he pulled it over them. "Get in there, and take a cold shower," Joe said, a grin coming to his face too. "Look in my shaving kit, I might have a new toothbrush." Jay returned to the bathroom. Joe heard the water start to run, and before long Jay was finished. He came out of the bathroom wearing only his jockey shorts. Joe looked at his friend, the bulge of Jay's maleness now seemed strangely interesting to him. He found he couldn't take his eyes from Jay's crotch. Jay saw he was looking, and faced him. "You really are a woman now, aren't you, Joe?" Jay said. "Are you finding me as interesting as I find you?" "I don't know, Jay. I guess I am changing...I'm trying to determine how I feel about men... about sex...I thought I wasn't interested, but...I don't know...I just wish I could control what's going on in my head," Joe put his head in his hands. Jay came over to where Joe was sitting on the side of the bed. He reached down, and took Joe's hand. He pulled him up, and took him in his arms. "Would you be terribly offended if I kissed you?" Jay asked, looking down into Joe's eyes. "Holy cow, Jay...I don't think we..." He was interrupted by Jay placing his lips on his. It didn't feel strange at all. Joe let himself melt in the strong arms of his friend, and felt Jay's tongue try to enter his mouth. He parted his lips and teeth, and let Jay do whatever he wished. As they kissed, Joe could feel his body responding to the caress that Jay was giving his back. He felt the wetness of excitement...felt his breasts becoming sensitive to the touch of Jay's bare chest. Jay must have felt Joe's hardening nipples, too, because he suddenly put his hand down into the top of the little romper, and took one of Joe's breast's in his hand, fondling and caressing it, causing a sensation Joe had never experienced before. Joe had made love since becoming a woman, but only with Linda. Since she was a woman, Linda knew how to touch all the right buttons to make Joe's body feel good, but Linda couldn't match the strong, forceful feeling of Jay. It was a mixture of pleasure, and roughness, and it made Joe's knee's weak. He put his head back enjoying the sensation as Jay kissed his neck. Joe felt his crotch tighten as Jay's tongue tasted his neck. Joe had been wondering what it would be like to be with a man, but he couldn't have imagined what he was experiencing. He found he loved it when Jay touched him. He wanted to be touched all over. He seemed to be losing control of his own body, like it had a mind of it's own. Joe found that he wanted Jay. This new body of his, wanted Jay inside him... It was like he now had this hollow spot, and it just had to be filled. He could tell that Jay wanted him, too. "Jay...ah...do I...can I ask another favor?" Joe asked. "God, Joe, anything...just name it." Jay said, as he caressed Joe's breast's, which were now completely exposed, the little romper was down to Joe's waist. "Jay...would you...could we...I ah...I just want to feel you inside me," Joe finally got it out. It seemed he was having trouble breathing, his breath coming in little gasps, as he felt himself being overrun by passion. "Would I? I don't think you could stop me," Jay said. He stopped the caressing, and stood back, looking at Joe. "Are you sure you want to do this?" Jay asked his friend, who seemed more excited than any woman Jay had ever been with. "God, yes...I want you...I want to feel you...Please!" Joe heard his body pleading for release. He was no longer in control. Jay started to remove his undershorts, and when Joe saw his penis, his eyes got huge. Joe knew that Jay wasn't a big stud, or anything, and probably couldn't even be considered well hung, but when he saw Jay's manhood, the thought of it going inside him changed his urge from raw desire, to fear. It didn't look like anything that big could fit inside him. At least not without hurting him seriously. He remembered the pain he experienced in the doctors office. "Ah...er...I don't know, maybe we shouldn't..." Joe stammered. "What's wrong?" Jay asked. He was standing there, his erection was ready to explode. "Should we really be doing this?" Joe asked. "Why not?" Jay questioned. "I'm a man, and you're...You are a woman now, aren't you?" "Yeah, I guess so...it's just that...I don't know...I mean...What if I get pregnant?" Joe remembered what the Dr. Krell told him. "Can you do that?" Jay asked, showing surprise. "I think so. They told me I probably could, and that I should take precautions if I decided to do something like this. God, I never thought I would be wanting to do this..." Joe was torn between this new, powerful desire, and basic concern for his well being. "Just stand by a minute." Jay said, and went into the bathroom. He returned with a couple of condoms, in their foil packs. . "Where did you get those?" Joe questioned. "They were in your shaving kit," Jay answered, grinning. Joe remembered. Sure, he always kept a few in there, in case he needed them, just for times like this. Of course, he never considered he would use them this way. "Ok. Ok. We'll do it. I've just have to know what it feels like. But please, you've got to be gentle. It looks like that thing can hurt me," Joe said, looking at Jay's stiff appendage. "I'll be gentle," Jay promised. "You can be on top, if you want." Jay laid back on the bed, and opened one of the foil packets. He took the rubber out, and unrolled it on his erect penis, as Joe watched in interest. He had never seen another man putting on a condom before, and he was surprised at how strange it looked. He must have had a funny look on his face, because Jay commented; "Haven't you ever seen somebody putting one of these on before?" "Hell no. Have you?" Joe returned. "Of course... well er..no, I guess I haven't," Jay considered. "Let me tell you then, it's not the sexiest thing I've seen tonight," Joe said, unable to suppress a big grin. "Let's get on with it," Jay said. "Unlike you, I'm under pressure to perform," he grinned. Joe slid the romper down, stepping out of it, and ran his hand along his own crotch, in an attempt to tease Jay. "Don't worry, I think I can remember what makes your willy feel good. We can keep the pressure up," Joe said, trying his best to sound seductive. Joe was aware of the effect a female body had on a male's, and noticed that his actions were having the desired effect on Jay's libido. Not really sure how to go about it, but anxious to know what it would feel like, Joe got on the bed with Jay, then crawled over and straddled his hips. As he stood there on his knees, Jay's erect penis was almost touching his belly. He reached down, and timidly took it in his hand. It was warm. He didn't remember his own penis feeling that warm when he touched it. He was impressed by the silky texture, and the almost instant hardness of the thing. With his fingers wrapped around it, he squeezed it and instinctively moved his hand up and down. He had never touched another man's penis before, and he found it was very different than touching his own. The lubricant on the condom made everything very slippery. Jay let out a little gasp. "Now don't get carried away. I think I'm almost ready to shoot off as it is," Jay warned. "If you want to try it on for size, you better lay off the preliminaries." Joe looked down at the hard flesh. He lifted one of his knees and began rubbing the tip of Jay's penis along the moist folds between his legs. It felt fantastic, but he was still apprehensive. The big thing would probably split him in two. Jay pushed his hips up, trying to push against Joe with his penis. When Jay did that, Joe would raise his crotch up, and his movements were keeping Jay from entering him. "Come on Joe, put it in, won't you? You're driving me nuts," Jay pleaded. "I'm working on it. You'll get your chance," Joe said. "I've got to do this at my own pace, and I don't want to rush it." Finally, Joe took Jay's penis, and placed at what he figured was the opening to his vagina. He took a deep breath, and let his body slowly descend on Jay's hardness. Jay thrust upwards, and Joe felt it starting to go inside him. Joe tensed for the pain he knew would come. Suddenly, he felt Jay's hands on his hips, pulling him down, impaling him. Joe could sense that Jay was inside, but was surprised to find that it didn't hurt for him to be there. It didn't hurt at all. It felt sort of strange actually, not particularly good, but not bad either. Was this it, he thought? Then Jay started pumping, moving around, and sliding in and out. Now, that felt great, Joe thought. He couldn't resist matching Jay's movements stroke for stroke. Looking down, Joe noticed his breasts were bobbing along with the movement, and it embarrassed him. He dropped forward, and layed down on top of Jay, closing his eyes. He let himself be carried away by the new sensation. At the top of Jay's movement, Joe was enjoying a pleasurable friction on his clitoris, and that was followed by a strangely wonderful feeling of fullness he couldn't describe. It was fantastic, and he wanted it to continue forever... After only a minute or so this new sensation, Joe could feel Jay tensing up beneath him. He knew from experience what was happening, and tightened his own muscles, remembering how good it felt to have a snug vagina gripping your penis. He was surprised to find how pleasurable it was for him too. Why didn't women do it more often, if it felt this great? He wondered. "I'm sorry Joe, but I'm going to come," Jay said. "You're just so tight, and feel too good." Joe hugged him, pressing Jay's crotch into his own, and tried to crimp down on Jay's penis as tight as he could. Jay's legs became stiff, and he squeezed Joe so tight he could hardly breath. "Back off a little, man," Joe gasped. "You're crushing me." "You're fantastic, Joe," Jay said. Now Joe could feel the twitching of Jay's penis, as it squirt his load. Joe tried to feel it inside him, but then remembered the condom. Strangely, he found himself wishing that Jay wasn't wearing one. What's wrong with me? he wondered. I don't have some secret desire to get pregnant, do I? Jay's muscles released, and he let himself go limp. Joe could feel his penis, which was still inside him, getting smaller and softer. He didn't want the moment to end, but realized that it was not Jay's fault. He raised his pelvis, and felt a little pop as Jay's penis came out of his still wanting vagina. He rolled off of Jay, and lay on his back beside him. "That was good, Joe," Jay said. "I think maybe the best I ever had." "Oh, yeah?" Joe looked at him and grinned widely. "I'm glad you liked it. But I'm beginning to realize what sex is all about for a woman." "Is it better than for a guy?" Jay asked, becoming curious. "Maybe it's just because it's my first time...from this side, of course...but, yeah, I think it feels better, but it don't last long enough..." "I'm sorry...I was just too excited...You felt so good...I couldn't hold back any longer. You remember how it is, don't you?" Jay apologized. "Sure. I remember. I remember all too well. I remember all the times I did the same thing, and didn't realize how it left the woman...the way she felt...the way I feel right now. Can we do it some more?" Joe asked. "Well, I'm not seventeen," Jay said, smiling. "Give me a little while and we can go again." Joe looked down at his pal's organ. It was no longer erect, but it was still wrapped loosely in the condom. The condom was slightly tinged with pink, which Joe realized was a mixture of the lubricant, his secretions, and blood. Then he suddenly realized, he wasn't a virgin anymore. His hymen was torn completely now, as evidenced by the pink condom. He tensed the muscles in his crotch, and felt a small irritation. He touched himself with his hand, placing a finger inside his opening. The narrowing he felt that morning was gone. Feeling himself, he also realized that he was still excited, and his clitoris was begging to be touched. Jay watched Joe inspecting himself, and found the sight highly erotic. "You're beautiful, do you realize that?" Jay said. "Would you mind if I touched you?" "I think I'd love it," Joe said. "I still want you inside. I can't explain the way it feels...it's really good..." Jay touched one of Joe's breasts, and softly caressed it. "I think I can be ready to go again soon," Jay said, and looked down at his own softness. He saw the used condom still on it, and started to carefully pull it off. "Look at this pink stuff," Jay said. "I don't remember it looking pink when I put it on." "I was a virgin, then," Joe grinned. "Now, I'm not." "You were a virgin? I took your....really?" Jay stammered in awe. "I guess I got to loose my cherry two times," Joe teased. "The second was much easier, for me, than the first." He remembered his first awkward time with a girl. "But, I didn't realize you were a virgin." Jay sounded sorry. "What did you think? When I changed, everything seemed to reform to what it would be if I were born a female. There aren't any physical changes when a guy looses his cherry, but there can be for a girl." Joe put his hand over his crotch. "What should I do with this?" Jay asked, holding the gooey, come filled rubber. "Flush it. I don't want it," Joe said, smiling. Jay got up, and took the condom to the bathroom. Joe heard a flush, and Jay came back to the bed. His penis was still limp, and Joe realized then that he had probably never seen another man's erection, up close and personal, until today. The difference in size between the aroused, and limp state was amazing. Joe wondered if he'd ever have a penis again. He wasn't sure if he cared. Jay stood by the side of the bed, just looking at Joe's body. As he did, Joe saw Jay's penis began to stiffen. He reached over, and put his hand around it, pulling Jay to the bed with his cock. "Don't rip it off," Jay teased. Joe squeezed him tightly, and felt him getting harder by the second. He slowly ran his hand up and down along the shaft, until Jay seemed about the same as he was before. "Looks like you're about ready for action again, tiger," Joe said. "You just don't give a guy a minute, do you?" Jay teased. "It must be really good, the way you're acting." Joe considered what Jay was saying. Maybe he was acting a little horny. But, he hadn't climaxed yet, and Jay had. As a male, he was used to performing until he found release. Now, he was dependant on the endurance of his partner. It was a new position to be in, and he was not used to it. Right now, he just wanted to feel Jay inside him, and find relief. With Linda, even since the change, she had treated him more like a man, always concerned with his sexual release, and of course, with her, there was no erection, or lack of one, to be concerned with. "Humor me, will you?" Joe asked. "I'm not used to this, and I guess I don't really know how to act." "You're doing ok," Jay said. "You're doing ok." He closed his eyes, as Joe stroked his penis. "Let's do it again," Joe said, getting the second rubber from the stand, and ripping the wrapper open. "I'm with you," Jay said. "Do you want to put it on me?" "Lay back," Joe said. Joe took the rubber and rolled it on his friend's appendage. When it was in place, he laid back on the bed beside Jay, and cupped his breasts with his hands, trying to tease, and entice his pal. "Come and get it," he said. He spoke as seductive as he could, but talking like that made him feel kind of silly. Jay rolled over, and put his lips right on Joe's left breast, taking the whole nipple in his mouth, and suckling like an infant. The action surprized Joe, but he discovered it felt very pleasurable. As he worked on Joe's breast with his mouth, Jay started fondling Joe's crotch with his hand. The combination felt fantastic, and Joe began to writhe with pleasure. "Feels pretty good, huh?" Jay asked, watching Joe move with pleasure to his touch. "Yeah...Ah...yeah, it does," Joe answered. His eyes were closed, and his breathing had become short gasps. "Do you want me to continue, or are you ready to get down to business?" Jay asked. "I...Ah...I don't know...keep doing this for a while," Joe breathed. Joe could feel his pleasure reaching a crescendo. He found that what he wanted was for Jay to enter him, but he didn't want him to stop what he was doing with his hand. He rolled on his side, and pulled Jay's penis toward his crotch. Jay maneuvered into position to enter him, and removed his hand from Joe's vulva. "Don't stop what you were doing with your hand," Joe begged. It was embarrassing to ask, but it felt so good. Jay kept his finger near Joe's clitoris, but, with difficulty, he was able to get his penis into Joe's opening at the same time. Joe was moving around so much that Jay just lay there, and held himself in position. In a few minutes, Joe tensed up, and became stiff as a board. Jay could feel a rhythmic tightening and loosening, as Joe experienced orgasm. Joe lay still, gasping for air. Jay started to move his hips, but he was immediately stopped by Joe. "Ohh, don't move...don't move." Joe begged. "I can't stand it." The feeling of Jay's touch on his clitoris now felt excruciatingly painful. When he was with Linda, she instinctively knew when to touch him, and when to stop. Jay's more aggressive approach to intimacy was Ok until he reached climax, but afterward, any touch to that area became intolerable. Jay pulled away from Joe, and lay on his back beside him. "I hope you you've had enough," Joe said to his friend. "I don't think I can take any more for a while." "No I'm fine." Jay said. "It was fantastic. If anybody would have asked me if I'd ever go to bed with you, I'd have punched them out. But you were fantastic." "Yeah. I never thought I would want to do this, but it was almost like I was out of control," Joe said. "I have that effect on women," Jay grinned. "The hell you do," Joe said, poking him in the ribs. "Anyway, it was fantastic," Jay repeated. "I don't think it ever felt like that before. It was like you could read my mind...you knew just what would feel good." "I guess I did know," Joe said. "Remember, a week ago, I was on that side of the fence. I still remember it." "Is it better on that side?" Jay asked his attractive friend. "I don't know, exactly. It's good...it's great...but I don't know if it's really better. Just different. You feel pretty good too, you know that?" Joe told his friend. "I had a suspicion, from the way you were acting," Jay answered. "You should feel it," Joe said. "It's like somebody turned up the gain on all my senses. It's not bad sometimes. I think maybe I could learn to like it." "Sounds like you might get the chance," Jay said. "Yeah," Joe mused. "I know. I don't like to think about it. It's easier if I think of it as temporary. I don't want to consider what my life might be like if I have to stay like this." They lay there talking. The subjects ranged from cars to planes, even women. Eventually, they fell asleep. Joe lay next to Jay. He had no desire to go to the other bed.