The Analyst
                                    by - Hal

                                   Chapter 5

      Dr. Stevens listened intently as Jan described her first visit to the
club. "Did you join?", she asked. "Yes, I really liked most of the people I met
there, and somehow, I felt like I belonged." Dr. Stevens moved to sit beside
Jan on the couch and took her hand. "Jan, I've been starting to feel that you
may be moving too fast into this second life and not exercising enough caution.
When you mentioned the cameras and video tape, I got a chill down my spine
because I've heard of people being blackmailed with something like that. And,
you really don't know that much about Dan. How can you be so sure you won't get
hurt?" Jan placed her other hand on top of the doctor's and looked into her
eyes.  "Have you ever had the feeling that there is a part of you that has
always been there, but never come to the surface?" Dr. Stevens nodded and Jan
continued, "Well, I've had that feeling for a long time and when I got involved
with Dan, I began to realize what that hidden part was. I am a very sexual
creature. I'm finding that I love everything about my body and the bodies of
other people and I've never been as happy or free as when I'm having sex. My
parents were very strict and I went to a catholic school, so when I went to
college, and later in the business world, I accepted that sex was for
procreation and should only be pleasurable with a husband. Unfortunately, most
of my experiences with men tended to reinforce that belief and I always felt
guilty when sex felt good. Besides, the men I made love with seemed more
interested in relieving an itch than making me feel good. I think if I had had
a more "normal" sex life when I was younger, I might not have this tremendous
need that has built up inside me for a long time with no relief, but it's there
and I have to find a way to deal with it."

      "The club made me afraid in the same way that Dan does, sometimes, but I
found that I liked the fear. It's partly a fear of being hurt or discovered,
but mostly, it's a fear of the unknown. I really believe Dan has everything
under control and won't let me get hurt. I don't know why I feel that way, but
I do and getting the video tape seemed to make me believe it even more. When I
first suspected that they were taping me with Kevin, I made up my mind that I
will NOT be coerced or blackmailed.  They can show it on 'Sixty Minutes', if
they want, and I'll find a way to deal with it in my real world. I really do
believe it is the only copy, and I'm toying with the idea of giving a copy to
Dan and, maybe, Denise with the understanding that it will be for their
enjoyment only." Dr. Stevens looked concerned and suggested that Jan not do
that until she had thought it through completely and they had discussed it
together. Jan agreed, and went on, "You know, I've watched that tape at least a
dozen times since I got back from that trip and I'm just beginning to be able
to relate to that incredibly sexy woman on the screen being me. The first few
times, it was like watching someone else in a porno movie even though I could
clearly remember it happening."

      Dr. Stevens was quiet for a few moments, then said, "Would you be willing
to let me see the tape?" She wasn't certain that her curiosity was entirely
professional in nature, but she found herself wanting desperately to see what
Jan had described and, perhaps it would help her to provide better guidance to
her patient. Jan nodded and said, "I have it in my purse. Would it be O.K. if I
watch it with you?" The doctor took the cassette and inserted it in the VCR
that was built in to the bookshelves that made up one entire wall of her
office. She pressed the play button and took a seat in a large, soft chair
where she could see both the TV screen and Jan, sitting on the couch. She
wanted to take note of Jan's reactions to what she was watching.

      The tape began with Jan being helped to the stage by Kathy. ("My God,",
she thought, "she really is small. She almost looks like a miniature woman
beside Jan." As the video progressed, it became obvious that the club had at
least four different cameras to cover the low platform from several different
angles. From Jan's description of the club and what she could see on the
screen, they were most likely remotely controlled for pan, tilt and zoom and
whoever was doing the controlling appeared to be an expert at covering live
action. All in all, the tape was very professionally done. As Kevin was placing
the head of his huge cock against Jan's lips, Dr. Stevens shifted her eyes to
watch her patient.  Jan's eyes were glued to the screen and her hand was
resting lightly in her lap. Her legs were pressed tightly together and
squeezing very slightly. It was clear that Jan was aroused by what she was
watching and the doctor encouraged her to describe her feelings as the tape
progressed. Jan talked very openly about how Kevin had felt and tasted in her
mouth and later, the sensations she felt as his giant member was entering her
body. Despite all her efforts at maintaining a professional aloofness, Dr.
Stevens felt the sexual stirings within her vagina and knew that her own fluids
were starting to flow as she listened to her patient and alternately watched
her patient and the highly charged action on the screen.

      As Jan talked and watched, she stole quick glances at the doctor and
began to sense that she was also becoming very aroused. She started making her
descriptions and comments more vivid and new that she was intentionally trying
to turn Dr. Stevens on. She wanted her therapist to understand exactly how she
felt as she performed sexually before all those strangers and she slid her hand
under the waistband of her skirt and into the bikini panties she wore
underneath. She knew that the doctor could see what she was doing, even in the
low light of the office, but didn't care. Yes, she did care. She wanted to be
watched as she masturbated.

      Dr. Stevens knew that she should stop the tape and get both Jan and
herself back under control. Her patient was masturbating feverishly in her
office and, worse still, the doctor wanted desperately to do the same thing.
Dr. Stevens had only been in practice for five years and had never had a
situation like this arise before. She had, of course, been warned many times
during her training that it was her responsibility to maintain control of the
session at all times, but what could it really hurt if Jan brought herself to
orgasm while watching herself on the screen? "If only I weren't so damned
turned on myself.." she thought.

      When the video Kevin pulled out and moved up to position himself over the
waiting mouth of the video Jan, the live Jan cried out, "Oh, Yes!  He's going
to come in my mouth!", and her real mouth opened wide in imitation of the one
she was watching, as her fingers dug deeply between her sopping lips and her
thumb pressed hard against her clit.  Jan's orgasm began for real just as
Kevin's did on the tape.

      The semen falling like big, white raindrops onto Jan's beautiful face and
parted lips was more than the doctor could take. She turned to see Jan's mouth
wide open as if wanting to feel and taste it yet again and Jan's hand was
working feverishly under her skirt as she reached her climax. Dr. Stevens
needed an orgasm as badly as she ever had in her life, but she also needed to
keep that fact hidden from her patient.  Somehow, she managed to keep her
composure and suggested that Jan might want to go to the ladie's room in the
outer office and "freshen up".  When Jan had left the room, the doctor went to
the small private bathroom beside her office and locked the door. She quickly
lowered her panty hose and panties and sat on the chair at the make up table.
She raised her skirt to her waist and drove two fingers into herself. She was
coming almost immediately and her fluids were running down the crack of her
bottom to pool on the velvet below her. She fingered her clit harder than she
could ever remember and found herself enjoying the slight pain she was causing
from such rough handling of her most sensitive spot.

      When Dr. Stevens came back into the room, Jan was standing quietly,
looking out the window. The doctor walked up behind her and put her arms around
Jan's small waist. She leaned forward and placed a light kiss on the back of
Jan's neck, pushing the soft, shiny hair aside with her face. "Jan,", she said
quietly, "I'm going to refer you to Dr. Kelly. I think you'll really like him."
Jan didn't move. The arms around her waist felt very good, and she had half
expected Dr. Stevens to drop her case after what had just happened. The doctor
continued, "I'm afraid I can't maintain my objectivity where you're concerned
and I think it would be better if you see another therapist for awhile.
Besides, the next time you go to Boston... I'm going with you. If you and Dan
will have me."