From bluelava@lunar.net Tue Apr 01 19:17:45 1997 Path: news1.infoave.net!news-dc-10.sprintlink.net!news-pull.sprintlink.net!news.sprintlink.net!news-peer.sprintlink.net!worldnet.att.net!uunet!in3.uu.net!204.71.1.61!newsfeed.internetmci.com!informer.alliance.net!news From: bluelava@lunar.net (Blue Lava) Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories Subject: Office Blackmail - Part 6 Date: Wed, 02 Apr 1997 00:17:45 GMT Organization: Alliance Network, Inc. (GRR MI) (616-774-3010) Lines: 214 Message-ID: <5hsq2u$8hf@informer.alliance.net> NNTP-Posting-Host: gr17.ppp.alliance.net X-Newsreader: Forte Free Agent 1.0.82 My mouth was watering at the prospect of spending 3 nights with Suann. This time I would not share her with Amy. Suann said I could stop by around 6pm. She would make me dinner. She hadn’t slept in two nights. Her pretty eyes were blood shot. I suggested we go out to eat. She was warry of being seen. I knew of a nice little place on a lake up north. About an hours drive. Suann agreed. We got to the restarant about 6:45pm. The waitress was having a bad night. Her mood was quite foul. Suann and I both noticed this. Hell, you couldn’t miss it. I was pissed. Suann handled it differently. She was very sweet to the waitress, and attempted to calm her when she was being short with us. The waitress softened up. She even smiled. I watched her as she went to other tables. She started to smile there too. Her night was turned around. All because Suann treated her with understanding and sweetness. She turned what could have been a miserable dissapointment for us and many others in that restarant that night into a pleasureable experience. I learned something that night. What really amazed me is that Suann hadn’t slept in two nights. She wasn’t sure if she had been raped. Yet she had it inside her to turn this waitress’ night around. Suann spoke to me about her concerns regarding her husband. He worked too much. She was glad he was taking this time to spend with Jason, their son. She told me of her disappointment that he didn’t pay as much attention to her anymore. The guy must be a damn fool I thought. She said his neglect might even be the reason she had this bad rape dream -- if it was a dream. I started to feel strange. I was interested in what she was telling me. I wanted to know more about her. For the first time I can remember I wanted something more than sex from a woman. We ate, had a few glasses of wine and headed back. Our conversation was an exploration of each other. The way we saw life, that sort of thing. And my perspective was changing rapidly as I spoke. We got back to Suann’s house. She went into the bathroom to clean up. She came out in a nightshirt that came down to mid thigh. I was laying on the couch, watching Leno. She walked over to me and said how much she appreciated me staying with her, and how safe she would feel. She leaned over to give me a peck on the cheak. Her night shirt feel away from her body, revealing her breasts to me. She noticed my eyes dart down her top. She smiled and closed the opening with her hand. She stood up. She said - now you will think that I’m coming on to you. I said - that wouldn’t be a bad thing. Worse things have happened to me. She said - you’re a special guy. I’ve never had a man be willing to do something like this for me without wanting something. How could she not know I was dying to screw her? She knelt down on the floor and put her hand on my leg. We began to talk again. Now she was getting into the money problems they were having, and the stress that was causing. He wanted her to quit the club. She didn’t want to. Besides staying in shape, she said she got good companionship there. Whenever I was at the club when she was, she would spend the entire time talking to me. We would spot each other, run together, swim together. She was talking about me. She was telling me I was special to her. Before I knew it, Leno was gone and Conan was wrapping it up. Suann’s hand was still on my thigh, and I didn’t have a hard on. What the hell was going on? I hadn’t thought of having sex with her for three hours. I started to feel like I was falling in love with her. I knew it was stupid. I knew the chances were pretty good that I could never have her for my own, not totally anyway. I knew it would be dumb to let myself fall. But I also knew this felt good to me. And although I would probably pay later, I wanted to let myself fall for her. We continued to talk until about 4:30am. Suann fell to sleep with her head in my lap. I was stroking her hair. I hadn’t noticed these subtle changes in physical activity. I was engrossed in our conversation. I picked Suann up and carried her to her room. I covered her and closed the door as I left. I had never felt this good in my life. The alarm went off two hours later. I was at the kitchen sink getting a glass of water. Suann came up behind me. She put her hands on my chest and pulled herselft close to me. Her face was against my back. She said - I can’t go to work. I feel like shit. Stay here with me today. I will sleep better if you’re here. We both called in sick. She did look pretty bad. I said - I’m not doing my job. You didn’t sleep too good. She said - you did great. You listened to all of my problems. I will sleep better for weeks because I have you to talk to. Just stay with me and make me feel safe. I picked her up and carried her to her room. I laid her down and turned to leave. She grabbed my shirt tail. She said - stay with me. I said - you are really tempting me. She said - I trust you with my life. I trust you not to take advantage of me. I felt like hell. I had raped this beautiful trusting girl. The only way I could get past it was to say to myself - that is done. I can’t do anything about it. And I sure as hell can’t tell her. But I can make it up to her. I said - I’m not sure I can live up to your trust. You are very attractive. Extremely attractive. I ... She said - you are very attractive too. But we can’t act like brainless animals. I have a husband and a son that I love dearly. I really need you to be a friend to me right now. I can’t see a day when I won’t need you. But I can’t promise you anymore than that. It will probably never happen. If I had met you earlier ... I said - you wouldn’t have that cute little boy you love so much. The way I feel about you we would probably have half a dozen kids, or more. But none of them would be him. I believe things happen for a reason. I feel really close to you right now. It feels good. I know what you are saying. We won’t do anything you don’t want to do. Right now I will stay with you so you can get some sleep. You look like shit. Go to sleep. She smiled. I was laying on the bed next to her, stoking her hair again. Again no erection. I was starting to get worried. Suann fell to sleep in about five minutes and slept for hours. I caught a few z’s myself. We woke up about 4pm. Now what? Let’s go to the same place to eat. We did. Had the same waitress. The waitress came over to our table and said what a pleasure it was to wait on such a nice couple. She also said we were a very attractive couple and seemed very happy. Suann snickered and said - see, I told you that you were good looking. We looked like a couple. We held hands. We were telling each other our life stories. I left out the last couple of years of my life. I didn’t think Suann would understand the flesh fest I had been living. She did say that she couldn’t understand why didn’t have someone -- why I wasn’t married. I told her I had a lot of dates, but never met anyone like her. She blushed. On the drive back to her place she sat against me and didn’t buckle up. She laid her head on my shoulder. She said I made her feel wonderful. The she said - you do want to make love to me don’t you? I said - should I stop the car now and jump into the back seat? She said - do you want to make love to me? I said - Suann, I would die right now to make love to you. She said - I feel the same way about you. But I’m scared. I don’t know if I could ever look Bob in the eye again. I don’t want to hurt Jason or lose him. I’m not sure I wan’t to lose Bob. I know I don’t want to hurt him. I’m confused. I don’t know what to do. I’m very attracted to you. I want to share myself with you totally. I said - Suann, I want to know you for a long time. I don’t want to do anything that could cause me to lose you. You take your time. I’d love to make love to you. It would be heaven. But you have to be able to deal with it. I can’t stand the thought of you not being in my life. I can be patient. What in the hell was I saying? I could have had her. But what I said to her was true. We got back to her place. She asked me to sleep in her bed again. She felt safer with me next to her. Now my mind was at ease. I had an erection. Suann didn’t know. We went to sleep. The next day was Saturday. No work. Our day was memorable. We sat in front of the TV all day. Said very little. We held each other. It got to be about 6pm again. Back to the same place? The place where we were a couple? Suann started to cry. She said - tommorrow I go back to my old life again. I’m not sure I want to do that. I said - are you sure you want to change your life? She said - I don’t know. I said - we will still see each other at the club. I can stop near by in the evenings and we can run together. Our relationship isn’t over. Don’t make any changes until you are sure about them. She said - you are wonderful. You make everything so easy for me. But I feel guilty. It’s not fair to you. I said - Suann, don’t dump me. She got hystarical. Dump you, how could I ever do that. You are part of me, a big part of me. You are my best friend. I could not make it through a lot of days unless I knew I could talk to you. And have you take me up like you do, and make me feel safe and understood. I would die without you. I know I’m not being fair to you -- and I’m being selfish. I’m asking to have it both ways. But please don’t ever cut me out of your life. I walked over and sat next to her on the couch. I put my arms around her. I said - our relationship, you give me all I need. Sure I want more. But what you give me is enough. You will never know how much you give to me, and how much you mean to me. I want to live a long life. And when I die, I want you to be my best friend. If you’re more by then, I’m not sure I’ll want to go. She was crying and laughing. I made her laugh a lot. Neither of us ever used the work love. That word carries an implied comittment with it in these situations. But we did love each other. To be continued.