Forewarning: This story concerns adult fantasy topics, especially
in the area of (big surprise for this site) breast enlargement. It
also hopefully contains characterizations and a plotline
interesting enough to make the reader briefly forget about where
the sex scenes went to. Since all of the above are considered to
be adult topics, especially the idea of plot, you have to be over
the age of discretion in your home country to read further. Sorry
about that.
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For benefits of file space, mailing ease, and continuity, this is
Part III. If you haven't read Part I yet, you might want to. Even part
II. It's proven helpful in the past.
Once upon a time...
13. 46: The court of last resort
Sounds of a genetics lab in full swing.
"Where the hell are the peptide charts?"
"Over on top of the electron microscope, last time I looked.
You can always tell where Sadira's been working."
"Hey! I knew where it was!"
"Yeah, but I needed it. Mouse, if you think this is fun, try
living with her. I never let homework out of my sight. It would
quickly and quietly vanish away."
"I never touched your papers --"
"-- I know. Your piles were Boojums. They made things
disappear on their own."
"Pamela: your file. Sadira: the blood tests are done."
They crowded around to see the results. Jason rediscovered one
of the benefits of being tall: he could clear a lot of space by
opening his stance and arms. "Not spreadable," he said. "I
couldn't even find any virus corpses."
"Nice to know part of the design worked."
Pamela looked further down. "Those are the hormone readings?
Are those decimal points in the right places?"
Sadira looked. "Ya, dey are. Welcome ta Chemical Central."
The rest was read in silence. "That's the total picture," Jason
eventually said. "Metabolism, tissue buildup --" Sadira
unconsciously rubbed the side of her right breast: she'd taken her
own cell samples "-- ATP carriers, site interactions, the works.
Sadira, are your nails and hair growing any faster?"
She glanced at her hands. "Not really." Sadira thought it
over. "So current cells aren't dying any faster."
"No, just general repairs, and replication in the breast tissue
and surrounding skin. You're not prematurely aging."
Sadira drew back slightly: she had never considered the
possibility. <"You have to learn to think things through...">
"And now that we have a definite statement on what's happening,"
Pamela said, "we focus on stopping it. The photocopier's in the
far left corner, Mouse: one for each of us."
"Agreed," Jason said, and handed the printout to Pamela. She
looked at it, then at him, then shook her head and headed for the
photocopier.
Sadira watched her go. "I see you're learning how to handle
her," she said softly. It wasn't really necessary: the age of the
building and odd layout of equipment killed the acoustics. Combined
with the humming of the machinery, they had to yell to each other
from thirty feet.
"You could have given me a manual," Jason replied sotto voce.
"Figuring her out from scratch -- it would easier to re-code the
entire human genome."
"Don't worry. She likes you."
Jason glanced around the maze, trying to see if Pamela was
coming back. "How can you tell?"
"You're not trying to get the paper out of your throat."
He cleared the aforementioned body part. "Oh." A long pause.
"What time is it, anyway?"
"Eleven-forty. Must have been the Powerbar you two split: you
haven't slowed down."
"The Great Dictator hasn't told us to knock off for the night.
Besides, I like the taste. Raisin-zinc, right?"
Sadira stuck her tongue out at him and walked over to the
computers: before leaving the apartment, they'd grabbed every piece
of Pamela's personal system. She sat down in front of the left-hand
keyboard -- she could still face the screen and type -- and,
glancing at the printout, began working with the pregnancy database
they'd spent most of the day constructing. "All right. These
hormones usually start appearing in the body in the last months,
when breast growth is ending, and before lactation begins."
"And let's _really_ try not to confuse those sets," Pamela broke
in, coming up behind them. "So when the pregnancy is over --" she
went to the right-side keyboard and started her own one-handed
patter "-- those chemicals are out of the body. But there's another
set of hormones and carrier bionisms that enter the picture, as the
body starts going back to normal -- and some of those haven't been
identified for function. Isn't this fun?"
"Hormone therapy?" Jason postulated. "Find out which of these
causes shutdown and inject it."
Sadira looked up at Jason. "How do we go about gathering
samples without a budget and paperwork?"
"The local pregnant women?" Jason proposed.
"Only if we did a drug screening first," Pamela answered, "And
how are we going to find them within hours of giving birth? If we
wait outside the maternity wards and persuade them as they leave,
they're probably going to want money. Anyone got enough money and
time for a thousand samples?" Silence. Pamela turned to Sadira.
"Actually, good news: if we find the stall, we still need the
samples to test with, and we need the samples to find the stall --
but I think I can get a few pieces from those I've 'assisted' at
other labs." She shrugged. "Blackmail. There goes _my_
reputation."
Sadira finished the thought. "And if there's a neutralizer,
my body _can't_ produce it as long as the sequences are active. If
the injected stop hormones are as strong as the growth ones, then
it's a stalling action until we find a cure -- but my body has to be
told to turn off. Ideally, _I_ have to generate the hormone." The
smile was fairly sincere. "However, if either of you come up with a
stall, I'll take it."
Pamela's voice dropped. "And anything we get, we'd better be
damn sure of, because the only test subject is you. All this has to
be worked out from the general and then applied onto the specific --
your genetic code. And if the first cure we try goes wrong --" She
couldn't finish.
"Small scale?" Sadira suggested, trying to keep their spirits --
and her own -- up. "Test it out on cell samples, see what it does."
"Of course, but it still doesn't tell us what it'll do to the
body as a _unit_," Jason pointed out. "We can get a sample from
every major and minor system, but it doesn't tell us what happens
when they all get hit together." He leaned against the support
column, hips out, palms bracing his back. "I wish we had some
uninfected samples to work with: we could hit them with BE-1 and
BE-2 in combination, see how the factors interact with each other.
It would help a little."
"Not if we're going from general to specific on _my_ genetic
code," Sadira said sadly. "There's only one of those, and all my
cells are infected."
There was a span of quiet, at the end of which both Jason and
Sadira realized they were waiting for Pamela to say something. They
both looked at her.
She was still sitting, staring somewhere beyond the screen.
"Oh, yes," she whispered. "Oh, _perfect_."
"What?" Simultaneous from the other two.
"Your genetic code is unique, Iv," Pamela said, the feral grin
beginning to spread across her face, "but there's a pretty close
copy available for testing."
Dead silence filled the lab. Pam's grin got wider.
"But she never had leukemia --" Sadira started.
"I think I can compensate for that," Jason said. "I've been
studying the effects of the disease on cells: I can bring it down
to the DNA level."
"She's close enough for a bone marrow transplant," Pamela added
through her teeth, the grin remaining behind the words like a
distorted Cheshire Cat. "Genetically, she's the closest possible
variant we could ask for. And --" her teeth parted slightly, and
her tongue was momentarily visible "-- it'll really piss her off.
We'll have to disrupt her schedule. She'll lose money. _Her_
reputation gets shot."
Sadira didn't move.
Jason said, "But how do we find her? She's a dancer: she
travels all over the country. Probably outside it, too -- and then
we have to contact her, convince her to come --"
"She's getting a choice?" Pamela rhetorically asked. "I think I
can find her, though. Internet time."
Jason stepped over to Pamela's station. "You have a plan."
"Some dancers have web sites -- read an article in _Web World_.
Their fans send them Email, they sell merchandise, put up pictures
for download -- and put up schedules so their fans know where to
find them. And from what Sadira's told me, she would _never_ pass
up an opportunity to make money. Right, Ebs?" It was either a nod,
or her head just lolled forward a bit.
The Search page came up. Pamela looked like a snow leopard
about to pounce. "What's her stage name? Princess something..."
"Pirou," Jason said. "Try it."
Pamela typed, waited, then began scrolling down. "Danni's Hard
Drive, Crazy Horse Saloon, Pinups -- her ass is _mine_!" She
double-clicked. Any resemblance to gunshots was purely
inspirational.
The text came up first. "Welcome to the Princess Pirou Web
Page, my Subjects -- lays it on a bit thick, doesn't she?"
Pamela nodded. "Yes, I am over eighteen and wish to see the
next link -- pay per view? Fine: five dollars to log on, one time
only, or enter ID number." Pamela reached back for her purse, which
was hung over the back of the chair. "Here's my Visa number, dear:
it's worth it."
The next screen came up, a background of flowing Arabic script
against which frames were rapidly appearing. Pam went for the
scroll bar as soon as it showed up and pulled down. "Schedule!"
More clicks. The page was practically all text: they ignored the
arriving picture and looked down.
"Week of March 18th-25th," Jason read, "Al's Barn --" and his
grin mirrored Pamela's "-- Philadelphia."
"Showtimes 1, 6, 9, 11, and 2 in the morning," Pamela finished.
"It's almost midnight now: think we can make it in time?"
"I've seen the way you drive. I think we can make it
yesterday."
"Forget aiding and abetting." Pamela rubbed her hands in
delight. "We might just add _kidnapping_ to our rap sheets."
They both looked at Sadira, still smiling.
Sadira was sitting quietly, expressionless, eyes vacant.
Jason put his hands on her shoulders. "Sadira?"
"I want," she said very slowly, face unchanging, "to make one
stop first."
"Three in the morning!" Pamela slammed a fist against the
steering wheel, awakening Jason, who had been sleeping in the back.
Sadira had snoozed on and off on the way down.
There had been plenty of time for naps: the New Jersey Turnpike
Authority had for once wisely decided that the best time to repair
the roads was a time when virtually no one was using them: early in
the a.m. Unfortunately, _virtually_ no one still comprised a few
hundred cars and trucks trying to creep through a single lane at the
twenty mils per hour requested by the signs. While few New York or
New Jersey drivers had respect for speed limits, the numerous police
cars parked between the road crews and the smaller signs that said
{Traffic fines tripled in work areas} had added to their lawfulness.
The usual breakneck ninety-minute drive to Philadelphia had taken
nearly double that, with additional time to find the strip club.
"I know these damn shows never start on time," Pamela swore,
"but we're pushing the limits."
Sadira looked at her ex-roommate. "'I read an article on dancer
web sites,'" she paraphrased. "'I know these shows don't start on
time.' Exactly where were you going to on your occasional
'Wednesday night recharges?'"
"Research," Pamela said, trying -- and failing -- to keep the
embarrassment out of her voice. "Shaddap."
Jason stretched within what space he had and reached for the
door.
"No," Sadira said. "This is just me. You two wait here."
Pamela's voice immediately went to disappointment. "You're not
asking me to miss this, are you? I want to see her face..."
"Me," Sadira said, opening the door.
The man in the booth at the bottom of the staircase was still
collecting admission fees an hour before closing, but was apparently
too tired to check ID or look to see who was handing him money:
Sadira slid a five through the slot and went in.
The strip club was practically empty: the dancers were on the
verge of outnumbering the people. Three were engaged in very close
dancing -- they were practically in the men's laps -- while two more
slowly swayed on a large, partially elevated stage which sat
in the center of the huge room, with chairs and the occasional
occupant arrayed around it. A well-stocked bar occupied most of the
wall closest to the entrance, and there were tables, chairs,
waitresses, and drunks everywhere else. Two couples were quietly
talking, and one woman was studying a textbook. Both feats bordered
on the miraculous, because the sound system was too loud and the
lighting wasn't pleasant to the eyes. The overall effect was of a
disco that had exploded.
Three seconds after she walked in, a waitress tried to sell her
two mandatory drinks. Sadira gave her twelve dollars -- the two
plus the tip -- and left before she could ask for an order. Working
on instinct, Sadira picked out the largest, best-dressed, most bored
looking man in the room and went up to him.
"Pardon me," she carefully began.
The man looked down. He was huge -- he was Jason's height, but
considerably wider in all directions. His body was blocking most
of a pink curtain above which the words "Champagne Room" had been
embossed in glitter. Sadira caught him squinting at her: either
nearsighted or he'd been in the club more than twenty minutes. "Can
I help you, miss?" The voice was amazingly gentle.
"I hope so. I'm looking for Jasmine Archer. Is she here?"
"I'm sorry. I don't know anyone by that name." The big head
scanned the room like a rotating lighthouse. "You seem to be our
only female customer. Are you sure you have the right club?"
"How about Princess Pirou?"
The big man nodded. "That's her real name? Yes, she's still
here: finished up her last set twenty minutes ago, posed for a few
photos with customers, and went to the feature's dressing room."
"Where is that?"
A smile. "I'm sorry, miss, but I can't let fans backstage. You
can wait for her out here if you like, but when she was here last
year, she stayed until closing every night."
The waitress came up. "Miss, your drinks..." She was also
squinting. It had to be the lighting.
"Later," Sadira said, then, "I'm not a fan. I'm a sister. Can
I go backstage?" The big man bent down slightly and squinted at her
face: Sadira stood on tiptoe to help him and found her balance
dubious -- then went flat-footed again and said, "You can probably
see the facial resemblance. And --" suddenly inspired, she unzipped
the extra-roomy jacket Pam had bought her at the House and got it
open in a single move "-- the physical ones."
He looked at her, up and down. She held her gaze (and the edges
of the jacket) and waited. "I can see it." He grinned: it was
like watching a glacier break off an ice cliff. "You've got a
better sense of humor, though." He brought a ham hand up and rubbed
his chin, considering. "I'll take you back."
They went through a shadowed door and suddenly stood in normal
human lighting: the big man spent several seconds blinking. "Third
door on the left," he whispered. "I take it you want to surprise
her."
"Yeah. What's your name?"
"Emmitt."
"Thanks, Emmitt. I appreciate this."
"No problem." He began to turn, heading back for the door --
stopped, gave her the lightest of touches on her right arm with a
huge fist, whispered, "Give her hell," and left.
Sadira stared after him. <Another direct Jasmine victim or just
a proximity case?> She looked down the hall at the partially-open
door with the gold star at head height. It suddenly seemed very far
away.
She steeled herself, took a few bites of an supposedly-apple-
flavored Powerbar so everything else would seem better by
comparison, and started walking, her right hand reaching into a
pocket for the first of her prior purchases. Within actual seconds
and perceptual hours, she was next to the door. Sadira peered
around the corner, the item held ready.
It was a decent-sized room. There was a large makeup station
close to the door on the right wall, with full lighting and a
tremendous array of cosmetics racked around a three-mirror setup.
An expensive notebook computer lay next to a tray of eyeshadow. The
rest of the paint had been covered by graffiti, dozens of small
comments from the dancers who had passed through, as if they'd
wanted to leave proof of their existence. Sadira quickly and
automatically read a few that she had the angle for: they ranged
from funny observances to quiet sadness.
The far wall held costumes on long poles, about fifteen of them,
including fashion nightmares of sparkles and feathers, silken veils
-- naturally -- service and sports uniforms, a Western set with a
short lasso, and something that reminded her of the leather armor
her favorite role-playing character had always worn -- but only
because they were both leather. There were several large, open
carrying cases near the racks.
The left wall held a cot, and the cot held Jasmine.
Sadira was looking at her from the back: Jasmine was sitting up
with a clipboard braced against the rear support of the bed, facing
the costume wall. She was writing, the pen slowly scritching from
one line to the next.
From Sadira's angle, she could make out no features, but the
posture (familiar from long hours of homework), combined with the
side view, was enough. She could also see Jasmine's hair, which had
grown out until it nearly matched her own length, all of it dyed
bottle-blond, falling gently over street clothes.
Sadira quietly moved until she was fully inside, object at the
ready and angled at the mirror, where both of their images were
visible. Jasmine kept writing.
"Jasmine," Sadira said, the first word in over four years, and
waited.
Jasmine's back stiffened, and her neck snapped up, gaze removed
from the clipboard -- but she didn't turn. She just sat there,
facing the veiled costume. "What the hell are you doing here?" Her
voice was a little higher than Sadira's, a little sharper.
"I came to see you. I --" and the next words were so hard "-- I
need your help."
Jasmine nodded. "Fuck off," she said, and went back to the
clipboard. "Oh, I forgot: you don't know _how_ to fuck off. Paid
anyone to take your virginity yet? If that's the help you came for,
I'll be happy to lend you the three million it'll take to persuade
someone to jump your skinny ass."
Sadira went through over a hundred responses before she found
one that was safe to say. "I wouldn't have come if I wasn't
serious."
"Seriously forgetful. In case it slipped your mind, let me
refresh your memory: we hate each other. We had a little contest,
I won, and you resented it."
"Adolescence isn't a contest."
"You're saying that because you lost." She shook her head. "I
wouldn't help you into the street to get hit by a bus." She paused.
"No, that's the exception."
"Jasmine, _turn around_."
There must have been something in the tone, something that
couldn't be denied, or perhaps Jasmine just thought she could deal
out more pain face-to-face. Whatever it was, she turned, pivoting
her body on the mattress, and looked.
The instant Sadira spotted her eyes -- the moment she saw
awareness and the first effects crossing her face -- she hit the
button.
The camera flashed.
Jasmine, startled, recoiled, nearly losing her balance, trying
to blink away the light.
Sadira took the camera away from the door frame and pocketed it.
"You know," she said pleasantly, leaning against it herself,
"everything I've been through in the past few days -- the running,
the wreck, panic, desperation, all of it -- that just balanced the
books."
Jasmine, her eyes clear again, sat up straight, stared, then
said "_Come here_," in almost the same tone Sadira had mustered.
Sadira took one casual step forward.
Jasmine stood up.
Nearly identical faces, concealing very different minds,
considered each other carefully.
"You're real," Jasmine said slowly.
"You can tell?"
"I've been dancing four years. Real flesh, even in a bra, moves
in a way that implants don't. Most of the features can spot a boob
job across the room through two layers." Sadira could hear the
shock in her voice -- the insulating, isolating kind.
"And of course, you're even better at it."
Jasmine, still too stunned to catch the tone, just nodded.
"You're still smaller than me," she said, rallying a little.
"Wait about sixty hours." Sadira was, despite everything,
enjoying herself.
Jasmine either missed or ignored most of the implications:
Sadira would have bet on the later. "What do you need my help for?
I sell old bras to the suckers for a hundred and fifty each. Go
talk to Crystal Storm: she's an easy touch."
It was about to become less fun. "Jasmine, I have a disease.
That's what's causing the growth."
"A _disease_!" Jasmine snorted. "Fuck, I know people who would
pay you to give it to them. I'll give you five thousand for one
good infection: I won't have to go for the boob job in July."
It was Sadira's turn to recoil: Jasmine saw it, and was visibly
pleased. "You're going to have an enlargement?"
"Right, _genius_: I can at least _think_ about a _surgical
procedure_ without needing a sedative. I've been dancing at this
size for four years. If I get a boost, my income gets one." She
patted her breasts, one hand each. "The surgeons tell me that with
my natural size, there's room to pump me up quite a bit and still
look natural. Not that the rubes care if I'm shaped like those
stupid dice you used to roll. Can I ask _you_ a favor?" Her eyes
glinted. "Will you come into the operating room and hold my hand
while they put me under?"
The anger came first, Sadira's arm going back, hand curling into
a fist -- and then, a split second later, the memories followed.
Her hand fell open as her senses reeled, and she stumbled back
against the door frame.
"Haven't thought about that for a while, have you? If you've
got some bug that finally did you the favor of giving you something
to look at besides your grades -- you're stuck wherever it leaves
you, aren't you?" It was meant to hurt, it started out as a torture
implement -- but somewhere in the middle, it had taken on a
thoughtful tone. "Sixty hours? How fast are you growing?"
"Four inches a day, for the rest of my life," Sadira spat.
"Mark it on your calendar, Jasmine: sometime around four p.m.
Thursday, the "big" sister and the "little" sister switch
positions." The next words were a growl, a voice that went five
rungs down the evolutionary ladder. "You're right: I am forgetful.
I had to forget seven years of hell to have _any_ hope that you
would help me. Isn't it nice to see me being an idiot? Consider it
as four years worth of belated birthday presents. In fact, let me
give you the rest of the lifetime's now: without your help, I'm
probably going to die, and you literally won't have to lift a finger
to make it happen." She turned and left the room.
Sadira got three steps down the hall before she heard "You're
serious."
<I don't believe that worked.> She had taken her fear, so close
to the surface at that moment, and molded it, directed it at
Jasmine's weak spot: her ego. It was hard to reign over a corpse
-- and the crack about passing her might have hit home, too:
Jasmine had stopped mentioning Kay as another "true" Archer when
their cousin first showed signs of potentially getting bigger than
her. In Jasmine's world, everyone else had to be second.
She stopped, and waited.
"This is like the leukemia, right? You need something from me
to stop this." Sadira didn't turn. "Money or me?"
"You."
She could hear the deep breath. "And without me, you're dead."
Sadira kept quiet.
"So," and the mockery was back, "my genius sister needs me to
save her life _again_."
"Right."
Sadira could also hear the smile. "Then I win again."
Silence.
Finally, Jasmine said, "How long is this going to take?"
"How long are they going to take?" Pamela was alternating
stares at the door and her watch, ten seconds between shifts. "I
should have gone in there. I should have kicked Jasmine's ass all
the way back to New York."
"Give them time," Jason suggested. "They haven't seen each
other in four years. They have to talk it out."
A small truck pulled up behind them, and a medium-sized man got
out, rubbing his stomach as he headed for the door. Pamela watched
him: the club closed in fifty minutes, and he was the first
customer she'd seen. He had to be desperate to be up this late.
"Three minutes," Pamela said, "and then I'm personally taking
Normandy from the Germans."
Ron walked slowly down the stairs, contentedly burping. He'd
been attempting to live off the strip club buffet for most of the
day, and had found it was impossible to survive on bad lasanga and
grey stew. It had been getting late, and he'd decided to risk a run
on the twenty-four hour Burger King half a mile away. He wasn't
allowed to bring food into the club, and he'd meant to eat it
outside the door, but it had smelled so good that he'd had to try a
french fry, and then he'd just stood there and enjoyed himself.
Overall, it was one of the weirder assignments Nigilo had thrown
his way: follow this exotic dancer, change your appearance every so
often so she doesn't get suspicious, and see if her sister contacts
her. Here's a head-and-shoulders ID photo. Memorize it. If --
when she comes by, catch her, stop her, do what you have to, that's
another reason you should use makeup. Grab her on the way out, or
tail her -- you're the expert. Just get her back to me. At least
he got to watch the girls -- the Princess wasn't the best performer:
her act consisted of strutting and shaking.
It was three in the morning, for Christ's sake. What could he
have missed?
Jasmine finished typing, pulled the modem line out of the wall,
and snapped the notebook computer shut. "Fred will send someone to
get my things and pull a vacationer in to finish the week."
"You don't feel sorry for her, do you?"
"Why should I? It's your fault for catching this."
Sadira hadn't told her about the occurrence of infection. "I
bet all the AIDS rights group send you donation requests."
"No, you're thinking of the rapists who write from prison. I
keep donating your address, but no one's done anything with it. I
guess there's some things even a psycho won't touch." She grabbed a
large duffel bag: Sadira could make out the outline of video tape
cases. "We'll go back to my hotel and pick up my clothes. How long
_is_ this going to take, anyway? I have a vacation next week."
"I don't know. One day with incredible luck and smarts --"
"-- two strikes on you --"
"-- probably longer. You'll probably have to stay the whole
time." It wasn't a fate worse than death, but it had its foot over
the dividing line, ready to step across.
"Trust you to fuck my life up."
"Then I guess I am doing some fucking after all."
"Yeah. And that's the only kind you get to do." Sadira
controlled her reaction: she just hadn't seen the rebound coming
off the boards. "I'm ready. Let's go." Jasmine went past her and
headed down the hall. Sadira followed.
Ron took his seat and gazed at the stage. It would soon be
time for the night shift. Jack had to watch the Princess' hotel
while she slept. He'd lost the coin toss. The first quiet day of
what promised to be a very profitable job -- if he didn't blow it
all back on tips to the dancers. His expense account was limited to
travel, residence, food, admissions, and bribes.
Then again, a tip was a sort of bribe. He'd heard that if you
gave the girls enough money, Something Could Happen. At some point,
he was going to try it.
The door to the ladies' area opened, and he automatically
glanced at it. The Princess was going home: time to wrap it up for
the night.
There was another girl behind her. He looked closer.
Jasmine and Sadira walked across the room. To be precise,
Sadira walked. Jasmine marched.
"Have a good night," Emmitt said.
Jasmine snorted. Emmitt shrugged at Sadira as she went by. She
returned the gesture and followed Jasmine up the stairs.
They reached the open air quickly: Sadira squinted at the Neon,
barely able to make out Jason and Pamela through the tinted windows
on the dark street. "That's the car."
A man's voice, right behind them, said, "No, it's not."
Ron poked his index fingers forward, one for each sister's lower
back. They froze.
"That's the car: the red Toyota truck. Both of you get in."
He hadn't figured on both sisters leaving together, but what the
hell: bonus money. "Mr. Nigilo wants to see you."
"Jasmine," the sister said to the Princess, still looking at the
Neon. "Is this thing in my back what I think it is?"
The Princess grudgingly nodded. "Fifty-fifty. I know which
half I'm rooting for on _your_ spine."
Pamela and Jason stared, afraid to get out of the car. One
wrong move, anything that panicked the gunman...
Jason looked closely at the scene, squinting through the window,
looking for an edge, a chance...
"Pam," he said slowly, "Sadira's winking at us."
Pamela looked at him, then hit a button. Jason heard all the
doors unlock.
"Oh," Sadira said faintly. "Then I guess I have no choice."
She brought her left foot up and _back_. There was a very
satisfying crunch, but not as good as it could have been: she'd
caught him on the thigh. It was still enough to stagger him back.
Sadira spun around, somehow managing to keep her balance,
prevent her feet from tripping on each other, _and_ get her second
purchase out of her pocket in one motion. The man, starting to
recover, tried to focus on her hand.
"Asshole," she said, "I'm from Brooklyn." Sadira thrust the
taser forward. A blue spark leapt, and she smelled the faintest
trace of ozone, barely distinguishable over the sensory assault from
the man's scream.
Jasmine ran for the Neon.
"Back passenger seat!" Sadira yelled, grabbing the shotgun
position. The sisters Archer jumped in the car: Pamela started the
engine, and it leapt into gear, screeching down the road.
14. 47: The curbs of Philadelphia
Sadira automatically went for her seat belt, laughing all the way.
"My father taught _me_ the difference between a finger and a gun!"
Pamela immediately figured it out and started giggling herself.
Jasmine had dived into and across the passenger seat, covering her
head with her arms as if waiting for the gunshot to fly over her. This
position left her sprawled across Jason's lap -- something she was just
beginning to become aware of. She rolled onto her back and looked up.
Jason, who had been aware of the problem for some time, but
uncertain as to how he was going to express it, just looked forward.
Jasmine took a moment and appreciated what she could see of his profile.
"Hi," she said casually.
"Hello," Jason replied.
Jasmine carefully said, "_Who_ wants to see you?"
The laughter from the front seats, already subsiding, abruptly
stopped.
"Nigilo," came Sadira's slow reply.
"But why would he put a tail on her?" Pamela asked. "Did he guess
we were going to grab her for samples?"
"If he thought I was going to contact her under normal
circumstances, then he's working from the wrong data base," Sadira said.
Jason leaned forward. "Then he must think we're working on a cure
-- but why not snatch Jasmine and use her as a bargaining chip?"
Pamela shook her head. "Because he figured we'd beat that bluff
with a deuce-high --"
"_What the hell is going on here_!"
Through mirrors and direct vision, they all looked at Jasmine,
still in Jason's lap.
Jasmine slowly sat up, leaving Jason unencumbered, then said to
Sadira, "I thought we were actually going into a hospital. They'd do
some testing on me, on you, inject something, done. Or, knowing you, do
it all on the pavilion _outside_ the hospital. Instead, I walk outside,
have someone pull a finger on me --" she paused briefly as the word
structure came across "-- says someone wants to see you -- and he was
talking to _you_, Sadira. And these two don't look like doctors and
that one --" pointing at Pamela "-- looks like an corpse." She ignored
the sharp intake of breath from the driver's seat. "So I repeat: what
the hell is going on here? If this is one of your stupid pranks, I'm
not laughing!"
Pamela hit the brakes and pulled over.
When the others finished realigning their necks, they found the car
parked parallel to the street in the middle of a huge driveway, ten feet
from a sign that said {No Parking. Loading Zone Only.} Pamela cut the
engine, unfastened her seat belt, and turned around, torquing at the
waist and moving closer to her door, until her breasts touched the seat
and she faced Jasmine at an angle. A streetlight illuminated the
interior of the car from the front windshield. Pamela had a pretty good
idea what it looked like to Jasmine: the blue eyes in the white face,
with the light glaring in the background: something three inches to the
wrong side of the natural world. "So," she said, voice patient and
neutral, "you want to know what's going on."
"Fucking straight I do!" There was the slightest of quavers.
Every word was at exactly the same pitch. "Oh, it's very easy to
explain. You're right. We're not doctors. Not recognized doctors,
anyway. We're trying to recreate the work of Victor Frankenstein, but
we decided to go with an intact body that was already missing a brain.
Sadira suggested you. And here you are." The feral smile appeared.
"Now don't you feel better for knowing that?"
Sadira stared at Pamela. No one noticed.
Jasmine stared at Pamela, who held ground until Jasmine said "Fuck
you."
"You should be so lucky." Pamela glanced at Sadira, who hadn't
blinked yet. "I paid for the taser. I told you to use it on her if she
gave you any trouble. Can I have it back now?" Sadira's right hand
tightened around the plastic box.
Jasmine looked at Jason, who was looking at the other women, then
went to Sadira. "Okay, Casper is insane. So _again_, what the --"
"-- sorry, what was that?" Pamela's voice had gotten very low.
"Enough!" Jason threw his arms into the space between the front
seats. "We're never going to get anywhere if you just fight with each
other!"
Sadira looked at Pamela for a moment longer, trying to project her
thought. <Why are you trying to start a fight?> It didn't work. They
were _never_ going to prove psionics at this rate.
Jason slowly brought his arms back to a ready position. "Jasmine,
my name is Jason Pterros. I work -- worked with Sadira at GenTree.
There was an accident with a non-contagious virus. I overheard one of
the top executives ordering a search to get Sadira back. That's the
first sign we've seen of it."
The sisters automatically focused on each other. Jasmine spoke,
slow and steady. "I was at risk and you didn't see fit to tell me?"
"We never thought they would target you --"
Jason broke in again. "Sadira has the virus and the knowledge to
create it. She's the primary target. They must have been hoping she'd
come to you at some point."
"For the cure?" Jasmine said. "The genius is right for once:
there's no other way we'd see each other."
"You're not the cure. You're our means of testing any potential
cure we might devise. Pamela and I are geneticists: we're working
together on --"
"-- on using _me_ as a guinea pig?" Jasmine's voice was getting
higher, faster. "You're _all_ nuts! I'm getting out --"
Sadira felt a wrench, and then her hand was empty as Pamela held
the sparking taser in front of Jasmine's face, arm stretched out in a
way that came close to dislocating her shoulder.
"Shut up," Pamela suggested, "and let the man explain."
The man explained. Jasmine listened until she had it all,
interrupting once to suggest that they start heading for her hotel to
grab her clothing. Pamela had quietly put the car back on the road and
followed the occasional, somewhat more polite directions.
When Jason finished, Jasmine said, "She did it to herself, didn't
she?"
Jason said nothing. Jasmine turned to Sadira and continued. "What
was it? Dropped it, fumbled it into your eyes, tripped? That's what
'accident' always means around you."
Sadira instinctively averted her eyes, an answer in itself.
Jasmine shook her head, blond strands shifting. "You develop a virus to
make breasts grow and then _you_ catch it. Maybe it wasn't an accident
at all."
"I don't think you understand." The first words out of Pamela in
five minutes. "This is potentially fatal."
"How? No one ever died from having big tits."
Sadira's mind whirled. <I might have died if I didn't have them --
but I wouldn't have been in that position if not _for_ them...>
"It's possible," Jason said tightly. "And before that..." He
didn't want to set Sadira off by detailing the chain.
Jasmine sat back and thought. "Kidnapped by mad scientists with my
looney sister in charge." She took a deep breath. "Are we at the hotel
yet?"
They reached the Adam's Mark five minutes later. Pamela pulled
into the circular driveway and parked. "According to the instructions,
a taser hit lasts about twenty minutes, and he's not going to be driving
well for a while after that. It took us fifteen minutes to get here
from the club. We're probably fine, but I'm not giving the lab rat --"
a glance in the rear view mirror at Jasmine "-- a chance to reconsider.
Mouse, help her with the bags."
Jason nodded. Pamela unlocked the doors, and the back seat emptied
out. They went into the hotel.
Sadira folded her arms over her chest -- it felt weird. She put
her hands in her lap. "What were you doing?"
"Giving tactical instructions. Did you want to? I always called
group tactics in the games."
"You know exactly what I mean."
"Apparently not, or I wouldn't be using the following words: what
exactly do you mean?"
"You're trying to start a fight with Jasmine."
"You mean you'd object to seeing me hit her?"
Sadira gave up on the lap stance and went for the folded arms
again. It worked better if she held them lower. "I've never known you
to go after someone without _some_ provocation. Even a phone call
before noon. The corpse crack was a little below your usual standards
for pit bull mode. She got in the car and you were off the leash and
going for her _throat_."
"She's been attacking you for how many years? This friendship
started because I wouldn't let you get back at someone on your own."
She was no longer looking directly at Sadira: Pamela's gaze went past
her, checking the hotel doors.
Sadira brought her right hand to the matching temple. "Look, it
was my idea to get the camera, and I'll treasure the picture, because it
might be the only good thing I get out of this." She briefly smiled.
"I guess I'm that petty. But it was _still stupid_. I probably nearly
blew my chance of getting her to help with that. If you're feeling some
displaced revenge -- look, if she goes after you, that's one thing, but
don't drive her off because you're trying to make up for my lost time."
"That's what you want, then?" Very quiet, almost ethereal.
<Pamela, what's going on?> "Well, don't give yourself a stroke
trying to keep it all in. I know how aggravating Jasmine can be. Just
don't feel you have to play knight in shining armor."
"No, that's the Mouse. Only he can't ride."
Sadira, thinking she'd pinned it down with half about of her mind,
doubting with roughly another fifty percent, and using whatever was left
over to consider the last remark, waited for Jason and Jasmine to come
out.
Ron had, after the initial blast wore off, crawled into a nearby
shadow and waited for the remaining effects to recede. It was like
watching clouds move across the sun, waiting for the light to break
through: there were times when the cover thinned, and he thought that
coordinated movement was seconds away -- and then the wind would shift.
But he was in the dark, where no one was going to see him and call
an ambulance, or the police. If he was arrested or in a hospital,
getting to a phone would be difficult. And he had to get to a phone.
So he lay there, and groaned, and waited until the sun finally
shone.
Ron limped down the street to the pay phone and managed to dial the
right number on the first try.
"Jack," he said hoarsely, "get to the hotel. They're making a
break for it, the Princess and the target. They might go there. There
might be more of them: the car pulled out like there was someone behind
the wheel. Black Neon. The sister has a taser. Just move."
Jack hadn't said a word. He'd listened, drawn his own conclusions,
and went to work. That was what Ron liked about Jack.
Jasmine didn't talk to Jason all the way to the twelfth floor, all
the way down the hall, or when he took the electronic key, triggered the
door, and went in first to check for intruders. He didn't think he was
missing anything.
In the middle of gathering clothing -- Jasmine kept the hotel room
like Sadira kept her lab -- she said, "So, how long have you known my
sister?"
"Sadira."
"Right. That's her name." The tone was playful. "So how long?"
"About nine months."
"Partners?" She grabbed a towel from the back of the desk chair.
The words "Adam's Mark Hotel" were clearly visible.
"We're assigned to the same project."
"So you were working on the breast enlargement thing." She scooped
the notepad into a purse, pocketed the pens. "You like big breasts?"
Jason, who had been leaning inside the doorway, watching the hall
and Jasmine on alternate shifts, focused completely on the hallway. "We
were working on the leukemia editor. The BE viruses were Sadira's
personal project."
"Oh, they would be. Leukemia, huh? You didn't answer my
question."
"What question was that?" Still no one coming down the hallway.
He was starting to wish someone would. He was considering making
someone up.
"Do you like big breasts?" Her voice had an almost eerie innocence
to it.
He didn't look at her. "I'm not going to answer that."
"That's okay," she said breezily. "That _is_ an answer. I'm
done." She walked out past him, carrying two large bags, one in each
hand -- and despite the fact that the bags should have kept her away
from his body, she _still_ managed to brush her chest against him as she
went by. A calm, utterly detached portion of his brain noted that
Jasmine looked somewhat smaller than she had in the _Gent_ layout, after
allowing for the different arm position.
She pushed a bag at him, eyes suggesting. He took it and the point
position, using his longer legs to gain ground.
The silence in the car was becoming deafening. Sadira reached for
the radio and flipped it on, searching the dial until she found a
instrumental piece, then left it there. It was a soft theme, a bridge
to something -- she could almost identify it --
-- Jasmine and Jason came out of the hotel, each carrying a bag.
Pamela noticed them, hit another button, and popped the trunk. They
loaded the cases, closed the trunk, came around to the sides --
-- a silver Thunderbird was staring to pull up behind them. Jason
glanced back at it: he'd always appreciated classic lines on a car, and
this one was in perfect condition.
They got in the car, Pamela shifted out of neutral --
-- and the slowing Thunderbird leapt back to life, accelerating into
the curve. Pamela, checking the rear-view mirror, noticed immediately.
<Changed his mind?> She pulled back onto the street, heading for Route
1 North and eventual access to the Turnpike.
Three blocks later, she swerved to the left without benefit of turn
signal or sufficient time, wheels hopping around the curb as they
barreled down the side street, still picking up speed. Jasmine, who
disdained seatbelts, was thrown into Jason.
"Ivory --!" Sadira yelled. Her brain took a moment and pinned down
the music: _Ride of the Valkyries_.
Pamela glanced back. The Thunderbird made the turn, its body riding
up onto the sidewalk before thudding back onto the street, accelerating
all the way.
"We're being followed," Pamela said calmly. "His mistake." The
accelerator pedal hit the floor with a deadly thud. "He's overmatched."
The briefest of side glances to Sadira. "Tri-Delta sorority house.
The beer bash."
Sadira automatically let out a heartfelt groan. "Jason, grab ahold
of something."
Jason, who already had something whose hands seemed to be grabbing
ahold of _him_, pushed Jasmine upright and pulled the seat belt across
her waist, trying to ignore the areas he was crossing and brushing
against. "Tri-Delta?"
"Science sorority. Supposedly. Some of the girls could barely
spell the symbol for oxygen --" Pamela pulled the wheel to the right and
held on, avoiding a cluster of trash cans awaiting pickup. "We tried to
join before we found out what a bunch of assholes they were -- asked
us to dress up in each other's clothing for the initiation rite, took
pictures, and pasted them all over the Residence Hall --"
The Thunderbird took the corner and the trash cans head on, knocking
them aside like bowling pins and leaving a seven-ten split. Jason
winced as he saw the dents in the hood; sympathy for the vehicle.
"Pamela, we're not faster than that thing!"
Pamela was either lost in reminiscence or didn't consider it an
issue: she kept talking, rocking against the steering wheel as if she
was trying to push the car forward. "-- there's an chemical that
neutralizes alcohol in a normal liquid base, non-poisonous, doesn't work
in the bloodstream, unfortunately. Sadira made some and we sneaked into
the basement of the sorority house, unspiked all the kegs --"
There was a red light up ahead, marking the entrance to a wide
intersection, there was a huge delivery truck starting to make that
crossing, and Pamela wasn't slowing down.
Sadira closed her eyes. Jasmine screamed. Pamela said "-- couldn't
be tasted and doesn't really affect the taste of the beer --" and
swerved hard to the left, leaping onto the sidewalk, the car shaking
from the jump, and drove a good forty feet across the concrete before
the car went back into the street -- now driving on the wrong side.
"--and they didn't know what we did even after they caught us coming
out --" A Fiat went by, horn blaring as it changed lanes to avoid the
collision.
Jason, hands clenched against the back of Sadira's seat, looked back
to see the Thunderbird making the turn, taking the leap over the
sidewalk without grace -- the car was built for speed, not strength of
suspension -- and was visibly rocked as it returned to the street. They
all heard the long, angry honk of the truck as it sped away -- Jason
realized it had been going on for some time -- and that small, detached
part of his mind took over his mouth and said, "Then what happened?"
"Sadira distracted most of them so I could get out -- I'm not
exactly built for speed --" but the Neon was built for more speed than
the model would have indicated, and it didn't matter, because the
Thunderbird had been made for speed and nothing but, and it was gaining
ground. "-- and we managed to get to my car. They decided to chase
us." They were approaching another intersection, and Pamela was easing
the wheel to the left, as if getting ready for another turn another onto
another wrong-way street, wildly checking all mirrors and windows, still
not slowing down.
"And then?" Jason asked, watching as the Thunderbird got closer --
the driver's window was rolling down, and he thought he could see the
slightest glint of light off metal...
"Oh," Pamela said, "something like _this_ --"
She spun the wheel to the right, _hard_.
The car dived across the intersection, driver's side scraping
against the lane divider as they sped through, but there wasn't enough
time to reach the street again, the wheels couldn't react that fast,
they were heading for a space between a streetlight and a fence and
there wasn't three inches clearance on either side --
-- they went through without touching, house light flashing through
the wooden fence like a mad strobe before Pamela brought the car back
onto the road two inches past a hydrant, pedal still flush against the
floor --
-- Jason, Sadira, and Jasmine all looked back in time to see the
Thunderbird try to make the turn, controlling the vehicle smoothly
through the still-empty intersection, but winding up with the same
choice Pamela had wound up with: go between fence and streetlight or
crash into one of them.
The Thunderbird was significantly wider than the Neon.
They all heard the desperate screech of brakes as the driver
realized he'd been had, too little, too late, it was fence or
streetlight, pick one --
Streetlight. Bad choice. The front of the Thunderbird caved in as
the momentum bent the post forward, sparks flying from the grinding
metal, dividing the car in half as if someone had taken a chainsaw to a
block of cheese, the razor teeth stopping a bare millimeter from the
windshield.
Pamela eased her foot onto the brakes. " -- only worse," she added
as they finally slowed down. "Anyway, they went back to the party and
drank all the beer. Unfortunately, that chemical is a very powerful
emetic..."
Jasmine had somehow managed to dump enough adrenaline from her
system to fall asleep leaning against the passenger door. Sadira had
started to feel the first after-effects of the chase and promptly
scarfed two Powerbars. Seventy miles later, Jason's heart was still
beating too loudly for him to sleep.
"Mouse," Pamela said, "exactly why did you want to pull Sadira out
of GenTree? After that little performance, I'd like a bit more data to
work with."
Jason looked at Sadira, who had also fallen asleep. The difference
between the sisters was marked. Jasmine wriggled and shifted almost
constantly, straining towards any new sound. Sadira simply sat in
place, head slightly tilted, her breathing slow, oblivious. "Nothing
specific, really."
"So give me general."
Jason shrugged. "Rumors. I kept hearing that certain members of
the staff had been caught on ethical or legal violations, and some of
them were kicked up to bigger projects, or put onto private ones. One
guy -- Temperi -- supposedly got caught having sex in his lab --"
"-- big deal --"
"-- with a twelve-year old. He claimed he didn't know and couldn't
tell, and he got a raise and a bigger lab two weeks later. No charges."
Jason shrugged. "I heard whispers like that about a third of the
employes in R&D, and no one ever seemed to be fired. That some of the
projects were of dubious medical benefit, and the results were for sale
to the highest bidder. Rumors fly around every lab, but not like those.
I was scared of what might happen to Sadira if she went to them for
help."
"Like what?"
"Isolation. Testing. Replication." Silence summarized every other
possibility. "They might have helped her find a cure -- if I was wrong,
I don't want to think about how much time we lost -- but if I was
right..."
"Oh, you were right," Pamela assured him. "No one pulls stunts like
we just saw for laughs. Protecting their reputation or whatever, they
want her back." She laughed softly: Jasmine stirred and then settled
down again. "I was hoping that two minutes after you left the building,
Nigilo turned around and said, 'No, it's too impractical. Let her go.
We'll never get her back anyway.' When we didn't see anyone..." She
sighed. "But why watch the Princess and not come to me? Do they know
I'm out there? How much time do we have before they find us?"
Jason had been thinking about it for over an hour. "I don't know.
They've got Sadira's college files: that's a given. They must know
what you do for a living."
"Maybe. Maybe not. I don't exactly advertise these days and I'm
not on the best of terms with the school. No one wants their employers
to know they went for outside help." Pamela smiled. "And I'm going to
hang onto that delusion as long as I can -- but we have to be ready for
anything."
Jason interlocked his fingers and leaned forward. "I thought about
going to the control agencies a few times," he said, "but I never had
any proof, and with all the security around GenTree, I had no way to
discover any. I was bonded and they had me locked down. There was
nothing I could do. And we were doing good work, looking for a way to
cure leukemia, ahead of everyone else in the country and when Sadira
came on the project, we picked up speed. I thought it would all even
out. That the cure covered whatever corruption there was."
"'Do the ends justify the means?'" Pamela semi-quoted. She looked
at Sadira. "This time, they do."
There was the usual hassle in waking Sadira up: Pamela finally had
to tickle her. They all staggered up the stairs.
Pamela entered the apartment as if she was establishing a beachhead
and found no enemy to fight. She gestured the others in. Jasmine
stepped through carefully, looking at the boxes.
"I think we're safe here," Pamela said. "I'm renting this place
from the real owner for three hundred a month more than she's paying:
it has rent control. The price is still pretty good, but it isn't under
my name, and I have to get my mail at a P.O. Box. They'd have to go
through a tangle of paperwork to get here without following us."
Jason looked around the apartment and realized just how small it
really was: with four people, it was going to be almost impossible to
manage space.
Jasmine staggered in last, rubbing her eyes. Jason stepped out of
the way, heading for the kitchen. She looked around and realized the
same thing. "Give me the address of this lab. I'll go to a hotel."
"No, you won't," Pamela told her. "None of us go anywhere alone
after that chase. We travel together, two or four."
Jasmine turned towards her, about to protest -- and got her first
full-length look at Pamela. She kept looking.
Pamela stepped closer to Jasmine as Sadira headed to the
refrigerator, looking for a drink. "Right," she said softly. "I'm
bigger than you --" a mischievous pause "-- and taller than you, and a
hell of a lot meaner, and you're going to listen to me because I'm
right. Fair enough?"
Jasmine glared up at her and said nothing. Pamela nodded and made
her own survey of the apartment, yawning widely. "Okay, how are we
going to work this -- got it. Mouse, on the floor. Princess, you too.
Sadira, you've got the bed with me."
Everyone looked at Pamela.
"On top," Pamela amended, then, very quickly, "of the sheets. I've
seen the way you hog covers. I'll get a second set of blankets." She
knelt down and started pulling out blankets from the hidden shelves
beneath the bed.
Sadira nodded sleepily and grabbed the next bra in line from the top
of a box before going into the bathroom to change. Jason caught a
thrown bundle of sheets and pillows and bedded down in his previous
spot. Jasmine, after some thought, shifted a few boxes (after a quick,
curious peek at the contents which ended with a jerk backwards and a
blanching face) and laid down next to him in her own group of sheets.
They were both asleep by the time Sadira got out of the bathroom,
wearing one of Pam's nightgowns -- the House hadn't had everything
they'd needed. Pamela finished laying down the sheets, closed the heavy
curtains across the picture window, and headed for the bathroom.
By the time she came out, Sadira was asleep again. Pamela picked
her way through the prone forms and took the right side of the bed,
wryly noticing that Sadira had already pulled the sheets into a
cylinder. She was on her back, leaning towards the center of the bed.
Pamela got in, leaned over, and, knowing Sadira wouldn't feel it,
gave her a quick kiss on her cheek before nestling among her pillows and
finally letting her body shut down.
15. 49: The bloodhounds of war
The first thing she was aware of was weight.
She was on her back, breathing more quickly as she came to full
awareness. There was almost a resistance to the movements of her
rib cage, the weight pushing back at her -- not interfering or hurting,
the body could shift more mass than that -- but there, well past
ignoring. Sadira propped herself up on her elbows, finding it just a
little trickier than previous days, and looked over to the floor near
the counter. Jason and Jasmine were still asleep. A glance at the
curtained window found a background shine of light against the fabric.
She finally spotted the clock: two in the afternoon.
Pamela was still asleep, the pillows arranged to let her sleep
comfortably on a sort of side angle. Her breathing was quiet and slow.
One arm was partially outstretched, as if reaching for Sadira's left
shoulder.
Sadira managed to reach the bathroom without falling over anyone and
locked the door behind her, nibbling on another Powerbar. (She was
starting to get used to them, which worried her) College rules: first
one up dominates the bathroom until the roommate starts complaining.
She brushed her teeth, got out of the tight bra, looked down --
-- looked up.
"Sixty hours," she whispered. A noticeable percentage of that time
had passed. A prior thought came to her, and she reached down to the
left breast, got one hand under it -- thought it over and used both --
and lifted, tilting her head down. The nipple was easily reachable by
her lips.
Sadira looked at it for a moment, noting the growth that had taken
place: it was significantly larger even when not erect, a dark
protrusion against the slightly lighter expanse of the areola. <Am I
serious about this?> went through her head as she regarded her body --
and it was her body, wasn't it? These things were part of her. <My
breasts. Again.> It was hard to keep believing it when they were
changing so fast.
She was perfectly serious about it. She was a scientist.
Scientists experimented.
Sadira lowered her head slightly, put her lips against the nipple,
and gently applied suction.
The sensations rushed from breast and mouth to spine to brain: she
could feel them moving, colliding and mixing: the odd texture of the
nipple against lips and tongue, the unfamiliar warmth spreading outwards
from the center, infusing the breast and moving deeper, the near-
electric half-burning from the nipple itself, a shock that heated,
dissolved, and washed away all worries in a flood of liquid fire...
Sadira's hands pulled away from the underside, and the breast
dropped, thudding against her ribs with discernable impact. It vibrated
for a fraction of a second, then stopped. Sadira looked down. The
nipple was quite erect, protruding about an inch from her breast. She
had no idea how much time had passed between contact and dissolution.
<Oh, yeah.> She leaned back against the sink, breathing hard. <I
could get used to that _way_ too easily. I wonder if it's like that for
Jasmine? Or does it feel that way because of the virus?> Pamela had
enjoyed it, but it had seemed to be more of an enhancement to other
sensations. Sadira dimly remembered that it was something a little
different for every woman -- and this was hers. Lots of nerves, lots of
trigger points, and lots of whatever she was supposed to call _that_.
<Pamela said that how you look is always part of who you are. Who
am I becoming?>
There was a soft knock on the bathroom door. "Sadira? Are you in
there?" Pamela's voice was somewhat dull: she woke up immediately, but
not always well. "Come on: I took out my contacts last night. You
_know_ I can't see anything without them. I think I stepped on
someone." Sadira pulled the nightgown back on and cracked the door
open: half-lidded pink eyes regarded her wearily. "Just let me get my
sight back and then you can have it to yourself, okay?"
Sadira nodded and left the bathroom: Pamela slid past her, closed
the door, and locked it. Loudly. "Sucker!" she said clearly. Sadira
heard the shower start up. She sighed, rubbed her stomach, and stepped
into the kitchen just as Jason opened his eyes.
Nigilo watched Carmody read the transcript of Ron's phone call,
fingers drumming on the desk. He was something less than happy, but
there was too much confusion in his mind to allow pure rage.
Carmody read quickly: he put the papers down and waited. Nigilo
shook his head. "It was too early," he said, keeping most of the
internal turmoil out of his voice -- and whatever was left, Carmody
wasn't going to say anything about. "I thought that once Archer had
surpassed her sister in size, she'd show up to boast, get some
revenge. I put Ron on her immediately in case her growth accelerated.
That's how sibling rivalries work, Carmody. No one lets accomplishments
sit quietly. According to Ron, she was considerably larger than she was
in the train station -- but still smaller than her sister. Why go
early?"
"She could have had another motive," Carmody suggested. "Perhaps
she needs Jasmine for other purposes?"
Nigilo met his eyes. "Jasmine?"
"I can't use 'Archer' for both sisters without inciting confusion,"
Carmody calmly explained. "One of them has to have another name."
Nigilo grudgingly nodded. "What 'other purpose' could she have had?
I somehow can't picture her saying 'Let me show myself now while I'm
inferior and taunt her with the knowledge that I'll _soon_ be superior.'
It doesn't fit the personality profile. "
<_Your_ personality profile. How much attention did you pay to
hers?> "If you believe she's reached that level of dementia, then
perhaps she's kidnapped her sister for medical experiments." His jaw
clamped shut. The words hadn't been meant for vocalization. He never
joked in front of Nigilo, and rarely otherwise: it was generally
unhealthy.
Nigilo, however, didn't seem to be taking it as a joke. Carmody
could see him turning the thought around in his mind, examining it from
every angle, ignoring any traces of humor. "You're learning," he said
slowly -- and there was even a hint of admiration. "You know, that's
entirely possible, Carmody. It's such a brilliant idea that I'd
ordinarily take credit for it -- but being as how it's your first, I'm
going to leave the origin point with you." Nigilo stood up. "It's
perfect behavior for a -- that woman. Perhaps my influence is finally
starting to impress itself on you."
"Perhaps, sir."
"Then we assume that -- "Jasmine" -- is out of the picture for now,
and we go back to worrying about locating Archer. If she was able to
reach her sister so quickly, then she may be on the East Coast to stay
-- have you made any progress in locating her roommate?"
"Unfortunately, no," Carmody replied. "When she graduated college,
she dropped out of contact with the alumni association. One professor
recalled her saying she was moving to New York City. The same teacher
said that she had a trust fund and was going to open her own business:
that's why I originally believed she had her own operation. I was able
to get information on the trust fund: it's been cleaned out. The
school has no current address on file for her.
"In addition, our search of Ms. Archer's apartment has found no
phone bills, so we cannot attempt to locate her with a reverse
directory. We did find a few notes that might concern the breast
research or the leukemia project: our scientists are looking at them
now."
"No phone bills?" Nigilo tilted his head to the left and regarded
Carmody warily. "In that mess?"
"Or credit card bills, or anything that could be potentially
dangerous if someone picked it out of the trash. She is a poor
housekeeper, but a careful one."
"Of all the areas to show a practical streak," Nigilo grumbled. "I
take it the phone company won't give us the records?"
"Only to a law enforcement agency. And if we report her missing,
that creates another series of problems."
"True. Then we concentrate on finding the fourth."
Carmody's left eyebrow momentarily twitched. "Sir?"
"Ron said that the Archers both went into the car on the passenger
side, and the vehicle pulled away immediately. Jack reports that
Pterros and the dancer got into the car via the back doors at the hotel,
and again, the car was moving immediately. While Pterros could have
driving the first time and Archer the second, it's likely that we're
looking for a fourth person. Archer's silent partner. Possibly this
former roommate: Jack said the person behind the wheel drove like a New
York maniac."
"Did he see the license plate?"
"He may have. He can't remember. His airbag triggered in the
collision, but he suffered a mild concussion. His memories of the later
part of the chase are somewhat scrambled. And Ron wasn't in position to
see the plate at the strip bar. The windows on the car were tinted, so
he didn't get the best view of the interior."
"Mr. Nigilo," Carmody began, hesitant to pursue the question -- then
realized he couldn't get tackled for something that was someone else's
fault. "Why exactly did Ron stick his fingers in their backs?"
Nigilo did something that surprised Carmody. He sighed, and smiled
tolerantly. "Because he only had one gun, two sisters to deal with, and
he felt that I would be better served if he brought them both to me,
since they had seen each other and the dancer might report a
disappearance. I had also asked him to bring me Archer alive and ready
to work. So he put out his fingers and gave it his best lack of shot.
Not the most intelligent man, but he tries, as does his partner.
"Jack did try to use his gun towards the end: he thought he might
be able to shoot out a tire. The thought that Archer might be killed in
the crash -- or just if he missed -- didn't occur to him. This is why
I'm paying _one_ of them for this assignment. Adjust the books." The
smile became something else. Pamela would have recognized it, sometimes
in the mirror. "For some reason, I'm in a merciful mood today. It must
be spring on the way."
"The snow is melting nicely, sir," Carmody said, because there
didn't seem to be much else he could say.
"Yes. It puts a bounce in one's step." He headed for the door.
"This roommate -- Shaw -- runs her own business, but has no interest in
being found. Nothing in the phone book, no contacts, no deliveries to
particular address?"
"Nothing I can find at this point, sir. According to her
professors, she has something of a persecution streak. An isolationist.
She's an albino: she may disavow public contact."
"No one can run a business without leaving a trail," Nigilo said,
his voice tight again. "If she's still alive, she's leaving papers
behind her. Find them. And concentrate the search on New York. Even
in a city of eight million, an albino is fairly distinctive. Acquire
the college yearbook and get a picture." The smile returned. "Six-six,
albino -- she has to learn to hang around less visible people. Wouldn't
you say, Carmody?"
"Quite, sir."
"And we're going to have to tell our people to be more careful."
The smile vanished, replaced by an expression that quietly echoed the
next words. "After all, she's dangerously insane."
"Yes, sir," Carmody said simply. They went to check on the research
wing.
It was a very quiet breakfast -- lunch, really. Most of the words
exchanged concerned the passing of various implements and seasonings.
There were, however, numerous glances, dirty looks, cautioning stares,
and a cutlery store's assortment of airborne daggers.
There were a lot of things _almost_ said, between Pamela and Jasmine
or Jasmine and Sadira. This led to the daggers. At first, Jason had
sat prepared to serve as mediator, but had found nothing which he could
stop: invisible knives were impossible to intercept. There were other
distractions to deal with. He was sitting next to Jasmine, and he kept
getting bumped by her feet, or brushed against as she turned to grab the
salt -- or pepper -- or any one of a hundred things she needed to reach
for. Her bust size seemed somewhat increased, back to the layout level.
He saw Sadira's face during one of the passes, watching his. There
was a quiet acceptance there which somehow worried him.
Pamela made two stops on the way to the lab. The first was at a car
rental agency, where she picked up a blue Civic with tinted windows
(Sadira followed her in the Neon to a park-by-the-month garage, and they
left the car there). They also waited in the car while Pamela ran into
the post office with a box containing the J through L bras with a note
which read "unused," and beneath that, another Post-it which read "What
the hell is Level II?"
"Cell samples," Pamela said as they got past the final lock and
entered Terragen. "Into the bathroom, Princess. You've got a date with
a needle."
Jasmine stopped. "If you think I'm letting you anywhere near me
with a sharp object --"
"I'll do it," Sadira broke in. "I took them on myself. You two
just get the work going. Jasmine: the bathroom's that way: I'll meet
you in a second." Jasmine glared at Sadira, but moved away. Sadira
glanced at Pamela with a look that said <Careful!>, then followed her.
"I don't like her," Pamela said when they were far enough away. "I
mean, I'm not overly fond of death and taxes, but I _really_ don't like
her."
"She was --" Jason stopped. He wasn't sure how to say it -- but
surely Pamela had seen some of the contact.
"I'm sure she was. On guard, Mouse. That's the one of the meanest
cats I've ever seen, and she'll eat you alive."
Sadira walked into the bathroom holding a small tray. Jasmine
looked apprehensively at the array of objects. "What are those for?"
"Sterile sampling needles, contact anesthetic, blood pack, Band-
Aids. Nothing dangerous. Just strip down: that's your area of
expertise."
Jasmine smirked and reached for the edge of her sweater. "And I
even know how to do it in front of men." She looked at the tray again.
"Aren't you afraid of that shit?"
Sadira shrugged. "I'm not a doctor," she said. "Aren't you afraid
of letting _me_ near you with a sharp object?"
"No." The word emerged without flavorings. Sadira didn't know
exactly how Jasmine meant it.
Jasmine took off her blouse, then reached back and undid the bra.
Sadira reached for it as it came off and folded it on top of the sink,
automatically counting hooks (seven) and reading the size label
(33 X P) --
<X P?> She looked closely at the bra, then back at Jasmine.
"Padding?"
For the second time in twenty-four hours, she took her sister
completely by surprise: her features contorted for a second as she
tried to regain control. "I've got to prepare the rubes for the boob
job. I've been wearing it to the photo shoots."
"Right. After all, they won't believe spontaneous growth."
"There's a sucker born every minute, and they come with money
attached to the hip. For some of them, it's a dick substitute. Or
tits. Casper is gay, isn't she?"
Sadira checked the needle: the sterile wrapping was intact. "I
don't know. She does what she likes. And her name is Pamela."
"I care?"
"No." The same tone as her sister's earlier use of the word. She
looked at her sister's breasts, trying to find the right place to
insert the needle.
In absolute terms, Pamela was larger than Jasmine, but visually,
they seemed to be roughly the same size: Jasmine's sat on a smaller
frame. (Sadira was starting to realize that while the two-inch
difference between zero and B was very visible, going from X to Z was
more difficult to spot.) The similarities ended there.
Jasmine's breasts reached down to her navel, swelling quickly
towards the bottoms: her nipples seemed to be pointing at Sadira's feet.
Her areola were small in contrast to Sadira's own proportionate
development, as were the nipples. She was lighter than Sadira in hue:
it looked as if there had been a tanning contest between the sisters
with Jasmine quitting after the third day and Sadira sticking it out for
two more sessions. Sadira could see a faint tracing of veins and
arteries under the skin, along with a small bruise on the side of the
left breast. Combined with the blond hair (and the bit of dyed pubic
hair that rose above her waistline), she gave Sadira the impression of
having been caught in a genetic blender set on puree. It was almost the
same impression she got when she looked in a mirror -- only hers had
been on frappe.
"Blond?" she questioned, mostly rhetorically.
"The rubes like blondes. They think it makes me exotic."
Sadira stepped to Jasmine's side, holding the jar of anesthetic
paste. "You're a Yorkshire/Mecca cross. How much more exotic are you
supposed to get? Rub this in here." She poked the spot with the
plunger of the needle, near the edge of the bruise.
"You can't do it?" Teasing, taunting.
Sadira looked her in the eyes. "Not on a bet." She thrust the cold
jar against Jasmine's breast: her sister recoiled slightly before
taking it. Sadira gave her an application cloth. "If you do it by
hand, your fingers will get numb."
"Then I'll handle things like you usually do." Jasmine started
rubbing.
"How did you get that bruise?"
"Why do you care?"
Sadira perched on the edge of the sink. "Maybe because we're going
to be together for a while and I don't feel like fighting every second.
Maybe because we haven't seen each other in over four years. Or maybe
I'm setting you up for something later. Take your pick."
"Option three," Jasmine said, rubbing harder, spreading some of the
cream towards the injury -- but then she answered. "Friday night. I
was in Billings --"
"-- I know."
"You keep an eye on me?" Vaguely bemused and a little triumphant.
"I met an acquaintance of yours on the train out of Billings.
Douglas Pollota."
"Oh, _him_." Jasmine snorted. Sadira didn't know when she'd picked
up the habit, but she was doing it with fair frequency. "Weirdo."
"I liked him."
Another snort, this one with less disgust and more disdain. "Of
course, he'd never ask you to pose, not unless he wanted to put someone
out of business."
"Actually --" and the words truly reached her for the first time,
with stunning force. Completing the sentence immediately might have had
more of an impact -- but the pause got Jasmine's attention.
"Actually what?"
"He said --" she paraphrased "-- I have appeal which you don't."
"Rotting meat appeals to rats."
"I can smile."
Jasmine stopped rubbing and looked at Sadira, who was withholding
the discussed expression. "A pole."
"What?"
"I hit my tit on a pole. I spun too fast and got a bruise. I
didn't put makeup on it this morning since I don't have to perform.
Satisfied? All nice and sisterly?"
Sadira gave up. "Is the area numb?"
"Yeah."
"All right." Sadira unsheathed the needle and took the sample.
Jasmine never flinched. "The next one's a blood sample. Left arm."
Sadira dipped another cloth and started rubbing Jasmine's inner elbow.
"So you can touch my arm, but not my tit?"
Sadira stopped. "Right." She resumed.
Jasmine's voice dropped, became sincere, concerned, and sisterly.
Sadira was instantly suspicious. "Have you told Mom and Dad?"
"I can't."
"Coward." There was still a hint of blood relation.
"No. I mean I can't. They're still on vacation."
"They're on vacation?"
Sadira knew she couldn't do a decent parrot squawk: the sound was
purely mental. "They left last Wednesday. Mom finally got some time
off from the clinic and Dad was convinced -- forcefully -- that his
assistants could handle things for three weeks. They won't be back
until April. They're touring Europe." More slowly. "They've been
saving for two years. When was the last time you called them?"
"Last July on my birthday --"
"-- our birthday --"
Jasmine ignored it. "-- and they didn't mention it."
"Maybe they'd tell you what they were planning if you told them
where you were once in a while."
"They've got a computer. They can find out where I am. My agent
forwards mail."
"At ten dollars for each page of reply."
Jasmine stared. Sadira plunged the needle home and watched the
blood pack rapidly fill. "Douglas was very informative."
Jasmine quickly rallied. "And they pay it. And I write them
myself. People get what they pay for with me."
"Yeah." Sadira got another needle ready, one with a wider bore.
"Cheap goods." Without ceremony or anesthetic, she plunged it home.
Pamela and Jason looked up from the computer. Jason spoke first.
"What was that?"
"Muscle tissue sample," Pamela replied, and went back to typing.
The sisters emerged ten minutes later, Sadira passing the tray to
Jason, who took it to another area of the lab to begin his compensation
techniques.
"Remember, Princess," Pamela smiled, "if anything goes wrong with
those, we'll have to do that again." Jasmine reached into her purse,
pulled out a group of letters and stalked off.
"Well," Pamela dryly commented, "at least someone's making money.
I'm going to get her to pay for _something_ before this is over."
Sadira had told them about the words-for-money scheme on the drive to
Philadelphia.
Sadira sat down at the computer and stared at her.
"What? I'm being good. I just told her we might need more samples.
And she calls herself Princess."
Sadira shook her head and turned to the keyboard --
-- she sat there, staring down, then pushed her seat back and
stretched her arms.
Pamela stood up. "Which bra are you wearing, Ebs?"
"The Q."
She thought back. "That's about when I started having trouble."
Pamela walked behind Sadira's seat and spun it. "Time to teach you the
Shaw Keyboarding Method. Put your left hand on the board: the home
keys are --"
"Pamela?"
"What is it?"
"I'm right-handed."
Pamela quickly spun the chair in the opposite direction. "No
problem. Your home keys are --"
16. 52: Mixed doubles
They'd quit at three in the morning. Jason had successfully
mimicked most of the leukemia effects on the first try: only three
extra samples had been required, which disappointed Pamela. The
cultures had been placed in the storage area to quietly replicate.
Jasmine had run out of letters by midnight, her handwriting getting
smaller every hour. (She was trying to make the work last, but she was
damned if she was going to give her customers more than they'd paid
for.) When she finished, hand cramping, she tried to go for a walk and
was stopped by Pamela, who reminded her about the injunction on solo
travel and gave her a brief education on the neighborhood she was
planning to walk in. This left her with nothing to do but wander the
lab, flipping switches on unused equipment, with results from negligible
to nearly disastrous -- after which Pamela took her to task again.
Jasmine spent the last hour pretending to read printouts and bothering
Jason for translations of terms.
Despite Jasmine's help, they'd made some progress: six hormones and
two gene sequences had been eliminated through basic deduction. Jason
also sorrowfully dismissed an estrogen control drug that had been
considered as a stall: only a small portion of the growth was estrogen
controlled. The computer simulations said that only an overdose would
have any effect: convulsions and death.
Dinner was a four-way split of a thirty-piece bucket of fried
chicken, and sleep (after the entirely-predictable and unavoidable
bathroom queue) was nearly instantaneous.
"Get your hands off that!" Jasmine pulled her arms back as if the
machine had shocked her. "That's a Mark XII Mutator. Hit the wrong
switch and you'll drip slime." <Not that you weren't there already...>
"I'm bored," Jasmine snarled at Pamela. "I've been sitting around
this lab for two days, I'm out of letters to write, and I'm not allowed
to touch anything. The least you could do is get me something to read
besides these fucking files!"
"Is it my fault if you don't have the brains to understand them?
Why don't consider this as a chance for a crash course in advanced
genetics and do something with your brain besides keeping your skull
from caving in!"
Most of this was in fairly low tones, but the last few words caught
Sadira and Jason as they were coming back from the photocopier. "Not
again," Jason said, voice tired: he was getting sick of keeping the two
separated. "What is it this time? Spontaneous file dump?"
"Like I'm letting her anywhere near the computer --"
Jasmine, having been rejected by the alpha female, turned to the
only possible alpha male available. "Jason, I need something to read.
I'm going nuts from boredom. I've got to do _something_."
"Suffer," Pamela suggested, and turned back to the computer. "I've
got work to do, and if the Princess is feeling a pea under her mattress,
it's not my concern." Sadira stepped forward, about to pull Pamela off
for _another_ private conference, and got interrupted by a very sincere
"Shit!"
"What's wrong?" Sadira asked, stepping in on Pamela's right.
"Bad sectors. I lost the data on the XACT-Q28 site. _Damn it_!"
Pamela typed quickly. "Well, the computer will never write data to that
area again." She sighed. "I never knew this thing had bad sectors.
It's never been this full before. Sadira, I'm going to need another
copy off the zip disk."
"What about the disk you put it in with?"
"I copied pregnancy data onto it. Do you have the zip disk on you?"
Sadira shook her head. "It's at the apartment. I can't fit all my
stuff in these pockets."
"It would help if you used a purse."
"Fine," Jasmine said. "Since we can't go anywhere alone, Jason and
I will go get something to read, and you two go back to the apartment
and retrieve the disk. Is that _fair_?"
Everyone took a moment and looked at everyone else.
"Pamela," Jason finally asked, "can you keep going without the
data?"
"Not on this line of research, and it looks too promising to switch.
And if we all leave the lab, then no one's working."
"If she's not reading something," Jason pointed out, "then we lose
time fixing whatever she touches. And if the three of you go out, I'm
at the lab alone."
Pamela thought it over. She had plenty of books at the apartment --
okay, hundreds -- but she didn't think any of them were within
Jasmine's comprehension level. "It's about time to eat anyway. Jason,
you've got the codes and the keys: use the trains. We'll meet you back
here in --" she glanced at her watch: rush hour "-- two hours if
traffic is really bad. Take her to a bookstore and let her buy out a
few supermarket rags." Pamela turned off the computer and stood up fast.
"Just get her out of my sight for a while."
Jasmine opened her mouth -- and Jason, finally seeing something he
could do, took her hand and pulled her towards the door. Surprised, she
allowed herself to be led away.
Pamela and Sadira watched them go, waited a minute for them to clear
the hallway, and headed for the street.
Jasmine knew exactly what trains had to be taken to get from
Alphabet City to the bookstore, and insisted on going there before
eating. Jason saw why when they got there.
_Bookstore_ wasn't quite the right word: it was a multimedia
wonderland. There were three huge floors, containing books, movies,
music, and software, all subjects, all ages, all around him. He could
have spent a merry two weeks wandering through non-fiction, cheerfully
starving to death, and when they found his body, it would have been
smiling. Someone had spent some time considering the problem, because a
portion of the first floor had been set aside for a restaurant.
Jasmine strode happily through the store, picking books from every
section. Fantasy, romance, mysteries, sports, introductory-level
genetics -- no genre or category was overlooked. Jason watched in
amazement, occasionally working out of the stun long enough to pick some
volumes for himself -- and when Jasmine saw him carrying them, she took
them from his hands and added them to her basket without a word. The
final total was over three hundred dollars, and Jasmine paid cash.
She handed Jason his bag and headed for the restaurant. Jason
looked at the name on the bag: _Borders_. He had fallen in love with
the store within twelve seconds of walking in: it was nice to have a
name to pin the feelings on. He followed Jasmine in and took a seat
across from her in a comfortable booth. Comfortable for him, anyway:
there was actually leg room -- but Jasmine's breasts poked into and
rested partially on the table in her current posture. It could be
resolved by leaning back -- but she wasn't.
"Isn't this place great?" she asked rhetorically as the waiter
dropped off their menus and left walking backwards, staring at Jasmine.
"I come here every time I'm in Manhattan. There's nothing like it."
"You're going to read all that?"
"I'm probably going to read it all by the end of the week." She
shrugged, reached into the bag next to her, and pulled out the _Basic
Genetics_ volume. "I might as well learn some of this shit if I've got
to hang around you three. Anyway -- I'm on the road performing forty-
six weeks a year, and there's a _lot_ of time between shows. I get sick
of trying to remember what TV stations cover which areas, a lot of the
clubs don't have TV's, and the house girls don't always want to talk
because half of them think you're stealing their money. For the feature
dancers, it's either find something to do or go bugfuck. I read. I
didn't use to -- but I had to do something, and now I'm addicted. I
probably know every used bookstore in the country: I'll trade these in
when I'm done."
She smiled gently at him. The change was startling: since he'd
first seen Jasmine, her face had always held some anger. This was a
calm, settled woman, completely in her element. "I left my magazines
under the cot in Phily -- I usually just stick to the local stuff on my
first day in. I was going to go shopping on Tuesday, but this is
better." The smile faded a bit, and she angled a hand under her chin
and glanced at his eyes. "You think I'm pretty stupid, don't you?"
"I never said that." It was a workable defense.
"You were working with Sadira for months. You picked up the
impression. 'No, Jasmine couldn't get through _Time Detectives_ unless
someone drew cute kittens in the margins and named the characters Dick
and Jane.'"
"The first time Sadira mentioned you was the day of the accident,
about an hour before it happened -- right after her presentation got
rejected."
"Well, that makes sense. After all, _I_ didn't get a full doctorate
in four years." Bitterness had entered her voice: Jason could almost
taste it in his mouth. "How old are you, Jason?"
"Twenty-six."
"And how long did you have to go to college before you went to --
GenTree, right?"
"Six years."
Jasmine finally leaned back. "Well, that's fast, but it's a little
more normal. Oh -- and I apologize." She reached out and quickly
patted his right hand, which was holding the menu. "I didn't really
think you thought I was dumb. I'm just used to it from people who hang
around my sister."
"Look --" He put the menu down and folded his hands on the table.
"As long as I've know Sadira, she's never said anything bad about
anyone's intellect except to call _herself_ stupid if she missed
something."
"I've known her longer," Jasmine reminded him. "I grew up with her.
What did she say when she finally did mention me?"
<'I got boyfriends and she stole them.'> "Just that you were a
dancer, her twin, and the two of you never talked."
"Yeah, well, we don't have a lot in common to talk about. Two
parents -- and even with the resemblance, I'm not sure one of us wasn't
adopted. She was reading at _two_. Not sounding out words and seeing
Spot run, working through _The Hobbit_. Straight A's all through
school, National Honor Everything, and then she got that scholarship
offer with a guaranteed job for as long as it took her to get through
college." She held her hands palms-down above the table and jerked them
to the sides. "You try growing up with that for a sister."
Jason said nothing. He had been reading at three.
"All the time, it was 'Look at Sadira. She's the smart one!' 'Look
what Sadira's learned to do now! Jasmine? Oh, we just got her potty
trained.' Really fun, don't you think?"
"I was smarter than my brothers," Jason said, "but it didn't really
matter. Heracles was bigger than me, and a better athlete: he got a
basketball scholarship last year. Castor and Pollux had each other, and
they went on the track team --"
"-- Argonauts?" Jasmine started laughing. "Your folks named you
after the _Argonauts_?!"
Jason stared at her. "You know about --"
"-- I read it last month!" The mirth was escalating. "I thought I
had it bad being stuck in the _Arabian Nights_! Someone's parents were
more nuts!"
Jason started chuckling. "My mom is a professor of Greek Mythology.
We were basically doomed from conception."
"My dad agreed to use Mom's last name if he got to name the kids,""
Jasmine laughed. "Is _everyone's_ family this screwed up, or are we
just lucky?"
"I got off easy," Jason pointed out. "I'm the oldest: I got the
first name in line. You could have been -- oh, Scheherazade --"
"-- that's Sadira's middle name!"
Jason stopped cold. "You're kidding."
"No! Mom and Dad fought for hours: it was going to be her first
name until she threatened to withhold sex for a year --" and that did
it: they both went down laughing, dabbing at their eyes with the tiny
napkins.
The waiter walked by, decided they weren't ready to order, and
walked away again after taking another long look at Jasmine.
The mirth finally bubbled to a halt. Jasmine put the damp napkin
down and said, "I like you, Jason. You're not exactly a normal
egghead."
"You're --" <so changeable. Angry and hissing one moment, laughing
and -- approachable the next> He could understand the sister's
relationship a little better now. He and his brothers had always had an
attribute to themselves -- or shared, with the twins. There was always
something to excel at where the others had to watch and learn. He
couldn't believe that Sadira had deliberately done anything to provoke
the rivalry -- Jasmine had said as much -- but she was taking it all
personally, not realizing that her words were in partial contradiction
to her feelings. And Jasmine wasn't exactly average: he'd seen some of
the material she'd shoveled into her basket. Jason couldn't get through
_Our dreaming mind_ without a flamethrower.
There were still more levels to go through before he got to the full
truth.
"You're not what I expected," he finished.
She reached out and touched his hand again, and this time she
maintained the contact. "You're not either," she said --
-- and the waiter came back.
Jason resolved to give him a huge tip. "I'm ready to order," he
said. He glanced at Jasmine. "You?"
"Sure." She looked back at Jason, who had lifted the menu again,
looking for a side dish. He didn't see her lick her lips. "I'm in the
mood for a big meal."
"Want to eat in?"
Sadira sat down on the bed, zip disk in hand. "Sure. I'll probably
get sick of fast food."
"Bad news, then: I was going to serve cold duck and Won Ton soup.
_Local_ fast food."
"Noodletown?"
"How did you know?"
"I recommended it to you. Years ago."
"Damn." Pamela chuckled and reached into the refrigerator. "We
never got to follow through on most of those plans, did we? You went to
work the day after graduation and I came here. No riding the Cyclone at
Coney Island, no heading out to Shea for a ballgame and maybe a foul hit
in our direction -- and now we're too busy for any of it."
"This won't last forever, you know. We'll have some time."
"Have you really thought about what you're going to do once we get
you cured? You're out of work, you've broken bond --"
"-- no." Sadira put her hands in her lap and stared at the ceiling.
"I mean, I have, but it's not a priority item right now. I keep
thinking that if we find a cure, everything else will sort out."
"Deal with the impossible and the improbable falls into place?"
Pamela emerged from the refrigerator to see Sadira's right hand, still
holding the disk, moving up to cover her face. "I'm sorry. I didn't
mean to say --"
"It was done. It can be undone." Sadira brought her hand back
down --
-- the disk slipped out of her fingers and hit the carpet halfway
between bed and counter. Sadira inhaled sharply, looked at her
traitorous fingers, then got up, walked over to the disk, bent over --
-- stayed there.
"Ow," came the too-soft voice.
Pamela turned away from the microwave and saw Sadira, bent at the
waist, fingers grasping the disk, and not moving. "Your back."
"Yeah." Almost whispering, "Help."
Pamela came around the counter and got on Sadira's right side,
"I'm going to put my arms around your waist and carry you to the bed."
"Why not just help me stand back up?"
"Because you _really wouldn't enjoy it_. Trust me."
"I don't have a lot of choice right now." Sadira was starting to
feel a little silly. Even in the bra, her breasts had swung forward,
and quite a bit of her limited view was impeded. Combined with the
sharp pain, it made for a very annoying set of sensations.
"Brace yourself. I'm going to lift you. Ready?"
Sadira was breathing fast; short, sharp pants. "Honestly?"
Pamela lifted. Sadira came off the floor as a unit, and Pamela
staggered her over to the bed, gently lying her down on the pillows,
then went to the other side of the bed. Sadira heard her pick up the
phone and dial. "The answering machine triggers when someone walks in
the lab -- Hi, Mouse. We're at the apartment. Sadira threw her back
out: we'll catch up when she can move again. Work harder." She hung
up and walked back into Sadira's sight.
"From the knees," Pamela sighed. "I should have told you to reach
down bending from the _knees_, damn it. You're carrying about eighteen,
twenty pounds right now. I let you down --"
"-- Pamela? _Painkillers_."
"Sorry." Pamela headed for the bathroom. "Some teacher I am. You
don't disarm land mines by stepping on them..." She was back seconds
later with three capsules and a small cup of yellow liquid.
"Acetaminophen, 1500 milligrams, with 800 milligrams of Ibuprofen in a
liquid solution. It's over-the-counter stuff, but I upped the limits a
bit. You'll have to eat something with the Ibuprofen."
"As long as it isn't a Powerbar." Pamela smiled and vanished again.
Sadira, who had been in the exact same position since her back had
disintegrated, tried to move her arms. This worked. Her toes wriggled,
and the knees functioned without hassle. She tried to straighten out.
This was a mistake. She stiffened again, bit back the scream, then
reached for the capsules and dry-swallowed them.
"I was saving this for when we got BE-2 in your system and working,
but this seems like a good time. A little pleasure to go with the
pain."
She held the rectangle out to Sadira, who flinched upon seeing the
gold wrapper -- and looked up again as she read it. "Nehaus? You
bought me Nehaus chocolate?" There was something akin to lust in her
voice.
"The shop next to the post office. You're not the only one who can
remember small details." Pamela sat down next to Sadira's legs and
peeled the wrapper. "Take a bite." She held the bar in front of
Sadira's mouth and pushed it gently against her lips until they opened.
Nehaus chocolate was a rare treat for Sadira: it had been nearly
impossible to find at college, and was completely unavailable around
Helena: God knew she'd looked. She asked her parents to send it for
birthdays, exams, and similar special occasions.
She'd _meant_ to take small bites.
"Leave the fingers, Ebs," Pamela suggested, and Sadira guiltily
swallowed the Ibuprofen. "Now we wait. The medication should normally
start taking effect in about twelve minutes -- for your metabolism,
maybe six."
"More positive side effects," Sadira said. "If we could get rid of
the breast growth, we could sell this."
"Probably. But here's the bad news: you have to eat a Powerbar
now. Maybe two. You have to keep going."
"Lollipop before the dentist's drill?"
"You got it." Pamela got up again. "Sewage or wall insulation?"
"Once of each."
Sadira ate in silence until Pamela said, "Just remember, you're
going to burn out the medication almost as fast. I'm putting some
extras on the nightstand: when you feel the slightest twinge, take
one."
"I thought we were going to leave when the pain went away."
"But the injury is still there. I'm just waiting for the medicine
to work so I can move you into a position where I can work on your back.
I know a few quick tricks that'll get you back on your feet until we
can --" <get you to a doctor. Wrong answer.> "-- find enough time for
you to heal."
"I thought I was healing. I've had some twinges before this, but
they always felt better in the morning."
"Better, but not gone?"
"Yeah." Sadira sighed. "I remember what Coach Lynn said. The
part that heals slowest is the knees, and the back is right behind
them."
"Well, if you have to pick something up, it's one or the other,
unless you were planning on developing telekinesis."
"It would be handy -- oh."
"What's wrong?"
"The pain just -- blinked out. No fading; it's just _gone_."
"That was fast." Pamela started shuffling pillows. "Don't try
moving yet. I'm going to get you on your stomach."
"You're kidding."
"New trick. Hang on."
"I'm _not_ going anywhere."
A few seconds later, Pamela slowly straightened Sadira out, stopping
when her ex-roommate gasped: the drugs stopped what pain was there, but
they didn't prevent new agony from appearing. Once the ninety-degree
angle had vanished, she carefully rolled Sadira over and up onto the
piled pillows, leaving her head and shoulders elevated, with her breasts
comfortably resting on the mattress between columns. The pillow groups
gradually lowered in height until Sadira's feet were against the
mattress. Pamela sat down next to her, legs automatically going into
the lotus. "I'm going to have to probe. This might hurt --"
It did, but then it hurt less as Pamela worked her hands across
Sadira back, kneading and pushing here and there. "I had to learn this
in case I ever had trouble and needed a temporary reset. I do a lot of
back exercises -- and I start teaching them to you tomorrow morning --
but this will give you a little time so your metabolism can give you
another partial fix. After that, you'll just have to be careful."
"So I'm going to be a cripple."
"No, you're going to adjust, and I'm going to help you. I told you
that." Sadira relaxed as Pamela's hands pushed and prodded. "You're
going to be okay. Always remember that." The kneading moved gradually
up from the lower back. Sadira, who had almost fallen asleep under the
gentle assault, didn't notice until the gentle pressure reached her
shoulders. She turned her head and unsuccessfully tried to look up at
Pamela.
"Sorry. You're all knots and tangles. I thought as long as I was
in the area..."
"No, go ahead." Sadira was feeling _very_ relaxed, better than she
had since Jasmine had been pulled into the group. Pamela slid her
fingers under the shirt and pushed down the bra straps, exposing the
shoulders for massage. She worked in silence for several seconds.
Sadira's soft voice seemed to waft up to her. "Do you remember the
last time we did this?"
"You never threw your back out before this."
"No, a shoulder and neck message." Pamela remembered. Sadira was
in no position to see the blush. "It was our last week of finals
_ever_. It was about two in the morning, we were still up studying and
getting ready to present our theses, and I just started cramping up."
"And I pulled my chair next to yours and started giving you a
massage," Pamela said softly, remembering.
"You said 'I wish there was a way I could relax you more. Well,
there is, but I'm scared to try it.' I couldn't believe you'd be afraid
to try anything."
"So you said, 'Go ahead. It couldn't hurt.' Were you expecting
it?" Pamela unfolded her legs and leaned closer, almost whispering in
Sadira's ear.
"No," Sadira said. "But I kissed you back..." And she turned over
and kissed Pamela first.
Pamela fell into the kiss, her body responding as she reached out,
arms encircling, all sensation coming from the lips -- and then she
withdrew, and couldn't believe that she had.
"Sadira," she said carefully, speaking from her conscience. "You've
been under a lot of stress lately. This isn't exactly normal
circumstances..."
Pamela's libido looked at her conscience and screamed <SHUT UP!>
Sadira looked up at Pamela. "Ivory?" Pamela nodded. "Shaddap."
She reached up and pulled her closer, and the kiss began again. This
time, it was allowed to finish.
Pamela gently got Sadira off the pillows -- but if the shorter woman
was still in any pain, she was ignoring it. They wound up sitting
across from each other on the edge of the bed.
"Me first," Sadira said, and reached for Pamela's sweater, pulling
the fabric up and over. Pamela wriggled and shifted, trying to help.
Eventually, they got it off.
Pamela sat there, still blushing a little, her face a bright shade
of rose. Sadira ignored it and reached around for the bra hooks -- and
once again found she couldn't get close enough. Pamela saw the problem
and turned, kicking her shoes off on the way and getting all the lower
garments removed as Sadira worked on the black bra.
Finally, she turned back, and Sadira smiled at her. Pamela always
felt a little odd naked in company -- naked in private, for that matter.
Her body was snow-white all over, face to breasts, head hair and pubic
curls. Her breasts thrust proudly, only slightly touched by gravity
(the natural consequence of growing up with an expert bra-maker in the
family) and further buoyed by the development of muscle across her back,
shoulders, and pectorals: any sag was a natural consequence of her
size. There was the faintest suggestion of areola, and a touch of what
imagination could make into pink in the nipples.
She was built a bit broader in the beam than Sadira, naturally
thicker through the waist and hips, and her legs were well contoured and
perfectly shaved. She gave Sadira a small, slightly shy smile and
reached for her sweater.
Sadira pulled back slightly. Pamela's smile became a little
stronger. "You're still beautiful, Ebony," she whispered, and reached
again. This time, Sadira let her take the garment off, and the other
ones, until again, the bra was last. Sadira's hands stayed at her sides
until the last hook was undone and the bra was removed, then reached up
to briefly feel her contours. Pamela looked. It was the same as it had
been in the bathtub, just expanded significantly in all directions. Her
cleavage was longer, but still tight. The nipples, already erect, were
significant. To Pamela, Sadira's breasts were beautiful.
To Pamela, Sadira had always been beautiful, flat or buxom, passive
or leading, because no matter what, the loving smile was always the
same.
She reached and gently lowered Sadira back on the bed, trying to
keep her spine from being jolted. Sadira's breasts sloped off to the
sides a bit: Pamela gathered them back together.
"Now," she whispered, "I'm going to show you what those good things
are like _directly_ --" and she lowered her head towards the left
nipple, teased it with her tongue, a shock of red between white teeth,
then gently, lovingly sucked. Sadira gasped, and Pamela accelerated a
little, then switched breasts.
Sadira's hands reached out, and she began massaging Pamela's
breasts, working slowly, trying to think about returning the sensation
to her friend when her mind was drowning in fire, and the fire was
spreading to every part of her body --
-- Sadira's back arched, but the pain was lost in the flood of
pleasure, a jolt of power that reverberated through every cell and
rebounded at the edges, from breasts to body and back again --
-- she opened her eyes to see Pamela pulled back, staring at Sadira
with shock and worry. "Are you okay? You just bucked and gasped --"
Sadira breathed deeply, riding the last of the aftershocks to level
ground. "That was an orgasm, silly!"
"That was an climax?" Sadira nodded and sat up. "Just from my
sucking on your nipples? Lucky! I thought that only existed in women's
magazines!"
"I seem to recall what does it to you," Sadira softly replied, and
leaned closer. "You told me about this, remember --" and kissed her
friend while her right hand moved down and _in_. Pamela jerked at the
sudden contact, then relaxed and began working with Sadira, the kiss
continuing as she moved her hips against Sadira's own movements, setting
up a rhythm.
Sadira broke the kiss first -- Pamela looked momentarily betrayed --
but she'd thought of a new experiment: she wanted to see if she could
stimulate nipples and pussy at the same time.
She partially succeeded: the best she could do was one nipple at
a time.
It was Pamela's turn to gasp, eyes closing as the rhythm built and
accelerated, pushing against Sadira's hand as she tried to reach between
her lover's legs, fumbling blindly until her questing fingers found the
spot and slipped inside. She was rewarded by a soft, pleased cry and an
increase in momentum: they pulled closer together and slipped deeper
inside each other.
Pamela got her right hand onto Sadira's breasts, massaging the
nipples in turn as Sadira switched breasts on her body, never losing the
rhythm as the barriers between bodies began to break down, knowing each
other, loving each other --
She bit back a moan, then another, then finally tightened her lips,
clenched her teeth, and fell back, her left hand slipping out, the
additional stimulation pushing Sadira past the threshold again: she
cried out as they went down. They wound up with Sadira lying partially
on top of Pamela, and Pamela sprawled backwards on the bed.
"And what was that?" Sadira asked, removing her fingers and speaking
against the breast, using it as a pillow.
"An orgasm. What did you think it was?" Pamela started giggling.
Sadira looked up. "That quiet little thing?"
"I was masturbating across the room from you for four years! By the
time I figured out that nothing was going to wake you up, I couldn't
break the habit!"
"Oh, so it's all my fault, is it?" Sadira's right hand snaked off
out of sight.
"Well, if you'd told me that in the first place --"
"Dem's fightin' words," Sadira told her, and the hand came back with
a pillow.
The smack was solid and possibly even deserved.
Pamela stared at her for a moment, then gave a war whoop and grabbed
for a pillow of her own. There was plenty of ammunition available.
The pillows were well made, so it didn't end with feathers strewn
across the room. When they were finally finished, having landed a blow
on every available part of the anatomy, they were lying side by side on
the bed, giggling helplessly until it seemed like the most natural thing
to reach for each other again and try something different, and in the
end, it was impossible to tell which had felt better, the loving or the
laughter. There was every chance they were the same thing.
17. 53: Status reports
Jasmine stared at Sadira as she walked in, chatting merrily with
Pamela, laughing, moving as if suspended on a cushion of air. Jasmine
considered herself to be a very good judge of body language -- in her
profession, it was the first line of defense. Is the man staring at me
because he wants my attention or because he wants me dead in an
alleyway? Does the manager like to "keep tips safe until the end of the
day" because she's concerned I might lose something or does she like to
take a little off the top? Is this director completely out of his mind,
or will he be fine once the cocaine wears off?
Sadira had spent a lot of time trying to conceal her feelings from
Jasmine -- but Jasmine had put in just as much time learning to read
them. This time, one wasn't even trying, and the other didn't have to
try very hard.
"You're kidding me," Jasmine whispered, and watched Jason go up to
them, seemingly oblivious, inquiring about Sadira's back. <With the
ghost? With _anyone_?> She'd seen the look many times before, but
never from Sadira.
<And if it's all with those two, and Sadira really isn't aware of
Jason...>
"Not really," Sadira said. She reached into her pockets and pulled
out a pill case. "Now I have to take these any time I feel a twinge and
I have to be really careful how I move. I won't get a chance to fully
heal until we stop the growth -- and then my metabolism will slow to
normal, and it'll take weeks."
"We stopped at the pharmacy and got one of everything," Pamela
explained. "She might become resistant to the medication just as fast,
so we'll keep cycling through and make sure we don't hit any bad
combinations." She reached into her purse and pulled out the disk.
"Now if you'll pardon me, it's work time."
Jasmine watched Pamela cross the room from the little desk she'd set
up next to the door. Bingo: all the signs were there.
She hadn't considered this -- she _couldn't_ have seen this angle
coming. It was going to take some thought.
Jasmine turned back to the book. Mendel had been staring at his
plants for three pages, and something interesting was due to happen.
The electron microscope worked perfectly well once it was running:
it just took three to ten minutes to power up. There were some faulty
relays which eventually clicked over -- and cost a few thousand dollars
to repair. Pamela had learned to live with it. Sadira would have
normally stood around tapping her feet and arching eyebrows, waiting for
the damn thing to warm up -- but now she was just staring at the screen,
looking at the reflection of the smile on her face. It was a little
wide, and more than a little silly, and it wouldn't go away.
It had been the third time they'd made love -- the second had been
the last night before moving out of the residence halls, a sort of
farewell -- and then they'd just never brought it up again. Sadira
really didn't know why she hadn't mentioned it in their phone calls:
she didn't know why Pamela didn't bring it up. The subject just never
arose.
<So why now?> Sadira looked deeper into the screen. No matter how
far in she went, it was still black. <Because I've got arteries and
veins filled with hormones instead of blood, and I was relaxed, and
willing, and -->
She watched the smile fade from the screen. <-- because I needed to
feel loved. I needed to feel like someone was attracted to me.>
Sadira was familiar with a term that Jasmine had used repeatedly in
describing both her sister's sex life and the only way she could see her
sister _having_ a sex life: mercy fuck.
<No. Pamela's my friend. My best friend. We _should_ have been
sisters. The times we made love before, it was just expressing that
friendship, as deeply as possible.> She smiled again. <About four
fingers' worth.> Still...
Sadira wondered if her perspectives were a little weird. She'd had
few male friends in high school or college -- she had listened to the
phrase "We should just be friends" often enough to get sick of it. The
ones she chased, Jasmine took -- and Sadira was more than bright enough
to realize that the men who really found intelligence attractive were
hard to find -- at least, the ones who still possessed single status:
they usually got taken early.
In college, there had been work, and lots of it -- while she had
been grateful to GenTree for the free ride, she didn't want to lock
herself into one company for a moment longer than necessary. She and
Pamela had spent many late nights mentally building a genetics lab,
talking about the projects they would research together, the diseases
they could cure. Even after nine months in her own lab, she'd still
thought that on the last day of the fourth year, she would be packing
for New York.
So she'd gone to winter sessions, summer sessions, day and night
classes, with the occasional practical joke to blow off steam, letters
to family to get a view of life outside the classroom, Pamela to keep
her sane. There had been no time to pursue relationships.
<Bullshit.> She'd walked into the dorm, taken one look at Pamela,
and decided that any man she pursued would glance at her roommate and be
lost: by the time she found out the truth...
<Double bullshit.> She'd given up.
So she didn't have relationships, she had friendships, and she'd
forgotten how to look for more -- so when Pamela had kissed her -- and
beyond -- it had been friendship.
It seemed to make sense -- but Sadira knew it was easy to build a
perfectly logical conclusion starting from false premises.
<Do you "make love" with a friend? _Is_ there a barrier between
friendship and -->
She was still staring at the screen, trying to force the next
word, when she saw Jason's reflection in the glass.
"You've got to watch your position. Leaning forward like that could
hurt your back."
"Don't worry." <I _can't_ lean too far forward.> "I'm doped to
the gills right now."
"And you'll feel it when it wears off." She turned around: he
stepped back slightly to give her room. "If you become resistant to all
the conventional drugs --"
"-- then we can get something stronger on the sidewalk." She almost
laughed at his reaction. "I'm starting to think Pamela gave you exactly
the right nickname. You really are a country mouse."
"I grew up on a farm," Jason defended. "You know how to score drugs
and I know how to get my hand up a horse's..." The next moment was
reserved for staring in disbelief, Sadira at Jason, he at himself in the
screen. "Not that it comes in handy all that often..."
"Any knowledge can be useful," Sadira told him. "And I don't know
how to score drugs. I had one cigarette when I was fifteen, someone
else had to buy the pack for me, and I spent an hour throwing up behind
the gym. It put me off going to the next level. Besides," and her
voice dropped, "if the pain gets that severe, then just about anything I
could take would keep me from thinking straight."
"So watch your posture." He stepped behind her, gently placed his
hands on her shoulders, and pulled her back. "Find a comfortable zone
and stay there." The contact abruptly terminated. "I've got to sort
out the rest of these sample hormones. See you later." He stepped back
into sight.
Sadira had part of the first shipment under the scanner. "Someone
else delivered?" She hadn't heard the intercom go off.
"Three minutes ago. He didn't look very happy." Jason shrugged.
"Pamela was right: her reputation is going to be shot when this is
over. Blackmail isn't the best way to influence people." He smiled, a
passable imitation of Pamela's more vicious variants. "Effective,
though."
Sadira watched him walk away and then turned back to the screen,
which still wasn't on. <He gave up his own career for me, he's working
so hard -- a good friend. Like Ivory. A _really_ good -->
Her heart stood up, climbed through the neck until it was standing
behind her brain, and kicked her _hard_.
<No,> she immediately thought. <No way. Impossible. I can't get
_one_ person interested over a lifetime of effort, let alone two at the
_same time without trying_. Mercy fuck. Sympathy. Pamela trying to
keep my spirits up no matter what. Not happening. Not in that sense.
Not -->
It was too late to stop it. <-- not to me. Not for me. Because
I'm a nerd and Jasmine's pretty and I can't get anyone and she takes
everyone and I'm ugly no matter what anyone says stop stop STOP!>
Sadira brought a hand up and shaded her eyes as she closed them,
breathing hard. <They're my friends. They love me as a friend. Don't
they?> She opened her eyes and the screen was still blank. <And even
if it was true -- even if it was possible --> she stepped back and
looked at as much of her body as the screen could reflect <-- look at
me.>
<Pamela kissed me what I was still flat, and she'll say anything,
do anything to keep me going. Jason never saw me any other way until
last week, and even if he was somehow attracted to me, Jasmine is
starting after him: what could I do? Nothing ever worked...>
Sadira looked down. <And I'm almost as big as Jasmine now, and then
I'll be as big as Pam, and then -- where am I when it stops? If --> and
a safety cut in, blocking the car, but it didn't stop the rest of the
train from proceeding. <People find Jasmine attractive, lots of them,
but that's as much manner and cunning as anything else. I don't have
that.>
A smaller voice said <I have a smile> and was lost in the howling
storm.
<The range for zero to normal is nothing to C. D is big, E and up
are extra-large, X and Z are huge.>
<Where does huge end and _freak_ begin?>
She was shaking. She put her hands against the screen, bracing
herself physically if not mentally, trying to get back under control,
but the last thought kept echoing, and she couldn't make it stop.
<Freak...>
"Ebs? Are you okay?"
"I'm fine, Pamela," she lied. "I'm just sick of waiting for this
machine to start working --" and she felt the screen grow warm under her
hands. "Never mind. I stopped watching the pot and it boiled." She
resumed a more normal posture. "I'm going to start checking the
structure of these hormones."
"Okay," Pamela said slowly. "Just take it easy. That stance isn't
good for your back."
"Nothing is," Sadira replied, and began working the controls.
"Are you sure you're --"
"-- I won't be if I don't get this work done."
Pamela looked at her friend, saw the intensity in her face, and
didn't know how to respond to it, how to help.
She walked away.
<Damn!> Pamela hit the photocopier's Start button harder than
absolutely necessary. <She's slipping again. I thought that our little
scene at the apartment had picked her spirits up, but --> One of her
earlier thoughts came back to her, slightly altered. <All adolescence
in a week. I saw those hormone charts: I remember puberty. Keeping a
straight skull isn't easy.> Her direct view was blocked, but she still
threw a venomous glance in Jasmine's direction. <And _she_ isn't
helping. If Sadira feels something for the Mouse, watching her sister
go to work on him won't do anything but hurt. And he's got to feel
something towards her: how couldn't he? He's gone through all this for
her...>
The thought came, and she let it through. <If the Princess took the
Mouse, then it leaves Sadira for me.> Unfortunately, another thought
insisted on following. <Except I like the Mouse too much to see him
hurt that way.> Sadira had told her about some of Jasmine's
"relationships": wham, bam, move on 'mam. <Goddamn it! Why do I have
to like him so much! It would be easier to compete if I had an opponent
I could _hate_, and I can't work it up for him! It's like kicking a
puppy! If it wasn't for Sadira, and...> The concept wouldn't
materialize.
And towards the end of the afterglow, basking in the warmth of
Sadira's body, she'd allowed herself to think, just for the briefest of
moments, <I've won. I've got her with me and she'll move in and we'll
work together and everything's going to be okay...> Happily ever after.
Pamela wasn't as smart as Sadira, not on the raw intelligence tests, but
she felt she was _wiser_. She believed that the instant she assumed all
was going well was the same moment the universe was planning to shoot
her from the front -- it hurt more when she could see it coming and
couldn't stop it. However, _knowing_ it and _remembering_ it were
different things.
She'd thought it, and now she was going to pay for it.
Genetics was the science of fighting back at the universe, taking
all the bad hands people had been dealt and forcing a fresh deal.
Pamela believed it was possible to win -- she just always had to
consider the power of her opponent.
Opponents. One, maybe two -- probably three. Because if she kept
going down that line, she was going to wind up fighting herself, and
that wouldn't help Sadira.
The cure was important.
Collating the copies was important because it might lead to the
cure.
Her feelings could wait.
Somehow.
Jason held the small tube up to the light. Human hormones did not
come naturally in quantity: they had to be collected, filtered, and
protected. This one, roughly an ounce's worth, was an odd gray-green.
He wondered if the color was visible in the bloodstream, little specks
flowing through the red rivers.
He separated a few cells from the cultures he'd modified off
Jasmine's base, then applied the BE-1 virus to them and, looking through
the enhancement port, watched the infection begin. It was almost
instantaneous: contact, invasion, chromosomal reprogramming, death --and
the cells began to send out new messages. The hormone was, in all
probability, going to take a lot longer to work. "All right," he
murmured, staining the culture, "stall like a cheap carburetor..."
He felt eyes on him and looked up: Jasmine was gazing at him, one
hand under her chin, the other marking her place in the book: she'd
gotten about forty pages in. He nodded to her and turned back to the
machine.
<She's really a nice --> and his own brain interrupted him. <Nice
girls can't conjure expressions like the ones you saw in the photos.
Where did that one in the layout come from? No sibling there to triumph
over.>
<But she seems to be -->
<She's a dancer. She's used to manipulating men's emotions just by
swiveling hips and shaking -- other parts. Not to mention the effect on
_male_ 'other parts.' Do you actually think you're immune?>
Jason shared a feeling with every sentient being since the dawn of
time: a desire to find that small, detached, rational portion of his
brain and put a fist through it. <She's coming on to _me_.>
<Why?> The cells were starting to react to the hormone.
<Search me. I thought I had _some_ appeal.>
<But she asked about you and Sadira -- and that one question, about
liking big breasts -- it didn't come across as something normal. More
like she was fishing for something. And you still haven't told Sadira
how you feel, have you? Or has Jasmine displaced that?>
<No. But you saw --> great, talking in second person to himself
<-- how Pamela and Sadira looked when they came in. Especially Pamela.
She looked so happy -- too happy for someone's back going out.>
<So what do you think happened? A fine meal and a good joke?>
<I don't know.> He had a good idea. He didn't want to pursue it.
<But when I lied just "friendship," Pamela said "love."> Jason focused
on the cells: the signals that promoted growth were slowing as the
hormone was absorbed, the cell walls taking on a gray hue --
-- the walls ruptured, and the cells died, flattening against the
slide as their contents flowed out. Jason jerked his head back, unable
to watch.
<So what do you think of that?> the detached part inquired.
<I don't know what to think about anything anymore.>
18. 57: A place of healing
The budget was being stretched in all sorts of creative directions.
Nigilo began to offer various chemicals and drugs to his agents in lieu
of cash. A genetics lab had access to all sorts of interesting,
ordinarily controlled substances that could be converted into cash on
the street. Most of the people he talked to took the offer. He began
to suspect the existence of a network when, three calls later, he was
asked about the neothorazine before he had a chance to bring it up.
Shaw had not posed for a formal yearbook picture, but there was
still a photograph of her in the tome. It was a mood shot -- according
to the caption, it had been taken the day after the Mark XI simulators
had been installed, and it showed Shaw staring at the new controls in
annoyance. She looked as if she was about to bite through the console.
Overall, Nigilo considered the photograph as a lucky break:
yearbook graduation photos were head-and-shoulder: this gave him a
full-body portrait. He spent a lot of time looking at the body before
deciding it added to his "jealousy" theory: Archer had amazing luck
when it came to living with extremely buxom women. He also remembered
Carmody's mention of "roommate experimentation." It said something,
although he wasn't quite sure what. Matching a friend? Some sort of
triangle? Non-monetary or family relationships were outside Nigilo's
field: he dismissed the ideas for lack of evidence.
The photograph was duplicated and faxed to all agents, along with
better pictures of Pterros -- and, just in case, (clothed) images of the
Princess. All pictures of Archer remained head-and-shoulders: Nigilo
was concerned that anyone who knew about the viruses would figure out
the profit angle and sell her to someone else. The original agents had
been told to look for a very busty woman. As the days had worn on, a
few more "very's" had been added to the description.
Carmody slept in his office, took all the calls, summarized and
relayed information, and made himself heroically available. Nigilo
actually appreciated it: it was an amazing effort. Little food, little
sleep, just a lot of work.
The research team found that the five percent of the data which had
dropped out was more crucial than they had originally wanted to believe.
There was no blueprint for the enlargement virus, and several
interaction sites seemed to missing. They were trying to recreate the
work, but they were also testing every piece of it to make sure Archer
hadn't left them false data. It slowed things down -- and even as a
team, they just weren't as bright.
Nigilo knew the rule about finding the average IQ of a group: add
all indexes together and divide by the number of people in the team --
squared. He'd been hoping that whatever points remained would be enough
to solve the problem. So far, it wasn't working. Eventually, he'd had
to admit that his frequent drop-ins on the lab weren't having any
positive effects, and remained in his office.
And as he waited, two dozen agents moved about the five boroughs of
New York City, checking the streets and occasionally risking a direct
inquiry -- after all, they didn't want the target to know how intensive
the search was. There were some areas they didn't check, of course.
No point in checking Wall Street: Shaw's company had no public
trading.
Rockefeller Center? Why would they bother skating?
Alphabet City? No one was crazy enough to put a genetics lab in the
middle of that nightmare.
They concentrated on talking to other labs, asking if they'd had any
dealings with Shaw. All of them said no. Some of them said it a little
vehemently, but that was to be expected when discussing competition.
None of them knew where she was. The supply houses didn't have any
customers by the name of Shaw. They did have one named Delacroix, who
owned the building which Pamela rented in, and got things delivered to
under his name for tax purposes, but no Shaw. Since Pamela had done her
shopping by phone and computer, the face wasn't familiar. Some interest
was expressed in the body.
They searched, and continued to search. If they were in New York,
there were only eight million people to hide among. It was an
distinct improvement over five billion.
Eventually, they would be found. It was just a matter of time.
Sadira's original estimate had been a little off. At five o'clock
on Thursday, she walked out the bathroom with the new bra on and caught
Jasmine on her way in. Her sister froze, staring at her. The
difference between X and Z might be difficult to spot at a glance -- but
Sadira had been wearing an N when they saw each other, and the
difference between N and X was a lot easier to see.
Jasmine was wearing the padded bra to look a little larger, but
Sadira knew it -- and Jasmine _knew_ that she knew.
Sadira quickly drew an equal sign in the air and moved off, feeling
very petty and somewhat triumphant. Mostly petty. <Great. Next thing,
I'll be wearing blouses cut down to my navel with arrows pointing in
from the sides and custom lettering that says 'Look here.'> The shirt
had cost Jasmine forty dollars to have made when they were sixteen:
she'd gotten to use it once, and then Sadira had shown the garment to
their parents. One week grounded each: Jasmine for designing and
Sadira for squealing. "The two of you have to learn to work together,"
Mom had said as she threw down the punishment.
Jasmine had snuck out every night. She hadn't shown Sadira how to
do it, so she'd missed a movie premiere and seen the film the day after
the house arrest ended. The lesson hadn't stuck.
Pamela intercepted her on the way to the refrigerator. "Did you
just change again?"
"Yeah. Every six hours, set your watch." Not quite true: she
slept through the night growth without difficulty. It was just more
uncomfortable when she finally had to change. It meant that one bra
out of every four was being unused.
"Where did you put the old bra?"
"I left it in the bathroom. Why?"
"I was thinking about sending the old ones back to Aunt Susan --
maybe she'd cut me a break, sell them used, or at least suggest
someplace to donate them for a tax break. I can't _find_ any of them."
"Laundry?"
"No. I figured you were just throwing them around, same as usual --
but they're nowhere in the house or the lab. I don't think the Mouse is
keeping them for -- personal reasons, and I'm sure not wearing any by
mistake. Where are they going?"
"Time-release disintegration? Good for six hours of wear and gone?"
"Get serious." Sadira considered the source -- and then Pamela
looked past her, at something moving through the maze. "Does the
Princess always take a bag to the bathroom?"
"If it had a book in it --"
They both moved. Pamela got there first. "Okay, open it."
"What?" Too-sincere confusion. Pamela grabbed the bag and dumped
the contents on the floor. Both stepped back a bit to look down. One
book, one bra.
"Making yourself useful?" Pamela inquired. "I really don't need a
janitor."
"Making money," Jasmine snarled. "I'm losing the week because of
this shit. You owe me something."
"Making -- you're going to sell them, aren't you? Your bags are
stuffed with old bras!" Sadira caught up just in time to see Pamela's
hands push out, straight into Jasmine's shoulders, knocking her back.
"What are you getting? Eighty each? A hundred? More? Look, guys,
bras from when the little Princess was growing up! Never mind that
they've never even seen a full day of use!" She pushed again: Jasmine
reeled. "Going to make money from someone else's misery, you little
piece of --"
A hand came out of nowhere and grabbed her left wrist. The strength
of the grip made her think Mouse until she saw the hand: Sadira.
"That's it! Both of you, neutral corners, _now!_"
Jasmine slowly got her balance back: Pamela pulled in a thin breath
and pushed out "Sadira? My arm..."
"Oh." Sadira let go. Pamela rubbed her aching wrist and decided
that the enhanced ATP carriers were something else they should try to
separate out for sale. Jason came running up.
"What's going on --"
"Nothing." Sadira said. "Jasmine had a plan. She'll sell the old
bras through her fan club, give the original cost back to Ivory, and
split the profits fifty-fifty, since it was her idea. No problem at
all. _Right?_"
"Right," Pamela said, rubbing her wrist.
Jasmine said nothing, but slowly nodded.
"Fine. We have more important things ta worry 'bout than what we're
gonna do wif de fuckin' bras!" And Sadira stalked off.
"Did she just say 'fucking?'" Jason asked. No one answered.
"Okay," Pamela slowly mustered, "The center is holding nicely..."
She'd forgotten Jasmine was five feet away.
"Have you tried a bubble bath?"
They both looked at Jasmine before Pamela said "Yes," and walked
away, gesturing for Jason to follow. They headed for one of the lab's
quiet corners -- literally: the otherworldly acoustics meant that
whatever was said there stayed there.
"We're going to wind up saving the body and losing the soul. I'm
not going to allow that," Pamela said firmly -- and then her voice and
body partially collapsed: she leaned against a support column, arms
falling slack at her side. "And I'm running out of ideas on how to do
it." She looked up at Jason, eyes wide and slightly pleading. "Mouse,
what have you got left?"
"I've eliminated three more hormones, two gene sites, and one bottle
of aspirin. Everything else is 'left.'"
Pamela slammed a fist backwards, hitting the column solidly. (Now
her wrist _and_ hand were aching.) Every one of the next words was a
sentence in itself. "That's not what I meant. We have to keep her
spirits up, reassure her that we will find a cure -- help her get used
to how she looks now." She'd caught Sadira going through elaborate
measures to literally avoid herself -- arms moving wide to avoid contact
with her breasts -- more difficult now, as there was some small overlap
even in the bra. "We've got to make her understand that we love her no
matter what she looks like."
Jason looked at her until Pamela said, "Right. I said we, and I
said love. Now go ahead and lie to me again. Even if the Princess is
leading you by the balls, you _felt_ it, even if you don't now. I want
this said, from both sides."
Jason found a nearby support column and leaned against it, arms
folded. The staring match went on for about two eons. He blinked
first. "Okay. I have --" it felt so strange to say it aloud
"-- something of a crush under the friendship. I feel for her. I wish
I'd found a way to say it to her before this, but --" He shrugged.
"But I'm the kind of guy women like to be friends with. They come to me
when their dates go bad and cry on my shoulder. I'm no threat to
anyone: I'm a very tall teddy bear. The thought that I might be the
cure for those problems never occurs to them, and on the few times I
proposed it, they just looked at me and said 'But you're my friend. I
could never think of you that way.'"
"Then you've been talking to the wrong women. Anyone who needs a
bit of menace to be happy in a relationship is less than sane."
He shrugged again. "Call it a knack. So what do we do?"
Pamela closed her eyes and said, "First, we call a truce. We
haven't been actively competitive that I'm aware of, but she could be
picking up vibes. We work together, we get this cured, worry about the
rest later." She opened her eyes and smiled. "Frankly, Mouse, if it
wasn't me, I'd want it to be you." She extended her left hand.
Jason grasped it, and they solemnly shook. "Ditto." He smiled as
he felt his heart crack. "Two mature adults, aren't we?"
"No, but we fake it pretty well." She felt a dull pain throbbing
behind her ribs.
"I don't think I could beat you at anything, anyway."
"Reaching high shelves," Pamela quipped, and leaned back again.
"Second -- what is up between you and the Princess?" Jason told her
everything. Pamela listened closely and said, "No personal experience:
I'm an only child. Maybe a bitch turns into a beauty when she's out of
range -- but I think with that werewolf, the full moon's always shining
somewhere." <Even if her taking you leaves me free...>
"Third," Jason continued, "we think of a way to keep Sadira
emotionally stable -- which means that we both can't tell her how we
feel. That's not something I want to add to her burden."
<What burden? She loves _me_...> "Right. And it can't be just one
of us, either. So we've just eliminated that little option. What do we
do to cheer her up? Bubble baths won't help, we really can't go to the
movies, sex isn't a proven cure --" Pamela stopped. The last words had
been meant for mental play only.
"I guessed," Jason starkly replied.
"Oh." Just for that one word, her voice was very small and soft.
"I was a little obvious."
"The whistling was a giveaway." He forced down the emotions,
stepped on them, ground them to dust, watched them reassemble. "Which
still leaves us with the original problem."
Pamela sighed and stared at nothing.
Her eyes narrowed, and she looked up.
"I have an idea," she said, "and the best part is, it puts both of
us at risk."
"This isn't the way back to your apartment. Did we pick up a tail?"
Pamela, who had just stopped the car at a red light, glanced over to
Sadira. "No. We're just not going home. It's nearly midnight and we
practically worked straight through. The Mouse and I think it's time
for a little relaxation."
"At midnight? What do we do at this hour?" Sadira had been cold
and withdrawn for most of the day, hiding among the machines, speaking
only in response to direct questions, and keeping her test results in
carefully modulated order. Pamela was getting scared.
"You've been out of the city too long. In Montana, you get to watch
snow fall or grass grow. Here, we've got _options_." The light
changed, and Pamela turned right. "We're going out for a few hours.
Powerbar?"
Sadira took it automatically. "Where?"
"Oh, I don't know. Somewhere." Jasmine had fallen asleep and
slumped onto Jason's lap. It looked perfectly natural. "Let you know
when we get there. If I figure it out."
"You're up to something."
"Sure. Two inches shy of six feet and one inch over five. Relax.
We're almost there."
"Almost where?"
"Wherever we're going."
Sadira got nothing out of her for the rest of the drive.
Unfortunately, they had to wake Jasmine up and bring her with them.
Pamela would have preferred to leave her in the car, but she didn't want
to risk splitting the group up. They were already taking enough of a
chance going anywhere besides the lab and the apartment -- but Sadira's
sanity was at stake.
The worst part was that she wasn't sure if this was going to help.
With the wrong factors and plain bad luck, it could do some major damage
-- and in a minor way, it might not be helpful for either the Mouse's or
her own ultimate goals. When they'd discussed it at the lab, he'd seen
the risk: she'd seen that in his face. He'd also agreed to it anyway.
Pamela felt the risk was small -- but the need was greater.
<This is what love means,> she thought. <Taking a chance for
someone else, no matter how much it might hurt.>
Following Pamela, they walked for two blocks, coming to a stop in
front of an ordinary looking white door with brass numbers embedded at
the top, and a golden doorknob. Sadira had lost track of the myriad
turns, but she could see the World Trade Center if she tilted her head
back: they were near the southern end of Manhattan Island, in the maze
of little streets that bordered the Wall Street district. "What is
this?"
"Someplace different," Pamela replied as she fumbled in her purse,
withdrawing a thin wallet. "A place I'm still suspicious of because
it's too damn good to be true." She rifled through the wallet, finally
withdrawing a small gold card with silver lettering. "It's invitation
only. A man just came up to me on the street one day and handed it to
me. It was a little bit nerve-wracking -- who knows what some of these
people might have in mind -- but two months later, I couldn't sleep and
decided to take a look. I brought -- help in case I needed it, but it
wasn't necessary. Still..." She shook her head and handed Sadira the
card.
It was very simple. Two words in a fancy font and an address, with
a magnetic strip on the back. Sadira read the words aloud. "'Fancy
that?'"
"Exactly."
Jasmine stiffened. Her book nearly fell from nerveless fingers.
"I've heard the name." Sadira glanced back at her. "I never knew
anyone who was invited."
"Well, you're all with me," Pamela said, "and we all qualify by
their rules. They might let us all in. Let's try." She turned the
knob and pushed the door in, and they stepped inside.
The foyer was fairly large, with a coat room off to one side, and a
large, deep burgundy curtain hung across a wide entrance at the other
end. There were several chairs, rich mahogany wood, and one woman in
her mid-forties sitting on a stool, gazing at a large book sitting on
the dais in front of her through wide-lensed glasses.
She was naturally blond and wondrously proportioned, with features
that Michaelangelo would have barely dared to dream. She was also less
than three feet tall.
"No, don't tell me," she said, glancing up from the book at Pamela,
who was standing at the front of the group. "Shane -- shall --- shawl?
Shawl, right?"
Pamela handed her the card. The woman ran it against a small
magnetic reader, colored to match the wood. "Shaw, Grace. Pamela Shaw.
Can I bring some friends?" She pointed at her following. "They need
this place for a few hours." Pamela stood aside and gestured back.
"Although I won't mind if you decide to keep the fake blonde out in the
foyer. Or the cloak room. Just put her on a hanger until we're done."
"Three?" Grace looked carefully at the trio. "Pamela, all or none.
They all need some time here. Perhaps even especially the young lady.
And it's been too long for you if you're speaking that way."
"It's my habit. I happen to like it."
Grace sighed. "I suppose you do. But it's still three or zero."
"Three, then."
Grace handed the card back to Pamela, then motioned the others
forward and passed out cards, with the colors reversed. "These will
give you two more visits before the question of dues will arise. Enjoy
yourselves." She went back to the book.
"Grace?" Pamela said carefully.
"Oh, right! Forgetful of me. Mark!" A man walked up to the front
of the cloak room and put out his arms. Pamela began to strip her coat
off. "Don't get them mixed up, now."
Mark nodded. He was of average height, but well muscled, and held
himself as if he was guarding a treasury. His features were
Afrimerican, and his skin was as white as Pamela's.
"What is this place?" Jasmine hissed.
Pamela looked back at her. "Something special," she said, and
passed through the curtain.
The first thing Sadira saw was the people. And the second, the
third, and all the way up into the hundreds before she managed to look
anywhere else.
Taken as a whole, it was a beautiful place. Everything was done in
rich, dark shades, with natural wood and carpeting plush enough to float
on, but shallow enough to drop keys and not lose them. An old-fashioned
bar, with hanging glasses, brass rails and a liquor selection that was a
wine tasters' wet dream occupied most of a wall. Several people were
sitting or standing next to it, chatting, laughing, and taking drinks
from a large man with jolly red cheeks, a thick red mustache, a laugh
that boomed across the room, and a blindfold. He spun from shelf to
shelf along the beautifully arranged bar, scooping ingredients, mixing
everything from margaritas to milkshakes without pause or mistake. It
was only when Sadira tore her gaze away from his performance that she
saw the blindfold was stretched tightly across his face -- tight enough
to push into the space where there had once been eyes.
There was a dance floor, lit perfectly, slightly elevated with ramps
on every side, accessible from every angle to the wheelchair-bound
performers who were attempting -- and laughing at their failure to
accomplish -- a very intricate square dance. There was no music, but
there was one soft-spoken caller who could barely direct for laughter.
Most of the lighting came from suspended Tiffany lamps, the rainbows
muting and blending into the room. One man in a dapper tuxedo was
waving his arms towards the extra-high ceiling, as if he was conducting
an orchestra -- and automatically avoiding the lights, which his
outstretched limbs were more than long enough to reach.
Tables and chairs, all comfortable, some with unusual shapes to
allow better comfort for their occupants. A closer look showed that the
tables were modular, sections of different angles, shapes, and heights
that would allow an assembly to accommodate any party. There were no
televisions and no jukeboxes. The two most dominant sounds were
conversation and laughter, all taking place at a spirited level.
Sadira saw two other albinos, and a man whose skin was an even
purple hue, as if every inch was a birthmark. Heights ranged from dwarf
to giant, and two of those extremes were engaged in a ferocious darts
contest, the dwarf standing straight and the giant lying on the floor.
There was heavy betting being placed on the match.
There were people without legs, people without arms, sight, hearing,
or speech. None of it slowed down the gesturing or conversation. Some
just gestured with feet or argued with hands.
Most people had a marked physical difference, something that would
get them a second glance on the street. Not all were handicaps, and
seeing how they laughed and played, it was hard to believe that any of
them were. There were some very minor things -- one man had hair the
color of brass, a woman with a extra finger on each hand, perfectly
placed and functional, which she was using for some very animated sign
language. Some people were very skinny, and one short, bespectacled
blonde woman was very buxom, matching Pamela in proportion if not actual
size. They were just things people would notice. There were some who
looked ordinary, but there was something about their bearing that made
them stand out more than the others.
It was, Sadira decided, the one place in the world Carmody couldn't
blend into.
Jason was looking around, a slow smile spreading across his face.
Pamela looked back and nodded to him. Jasmine was staring about wildly,
eyes dancing in desperation from one person to another, looking for
something ordinary to latch onto, and said "Fr--"
That was as far as she got before Pamela clamped a hand over her
mouth. "You too," she hissed, and brought her hand back down. Jasmine
glared, but kept silent. If anyone in the room had even noticed, they
were too polite to even glance over.
Pamela looked around and spotted someone familiar: a woman with
red hair -- pure red, without a hint of orange or brown -- who was
nearly Jason's height. She was watching the darts contest. "I'll catch
up," she promised, and headed across the room. "Hey, Skyler!" The
redhead turned around, smiled, and met her halfway.
Jason grinned again: they'd discussed it at the lab. They were
both supposed to find something to do within seconds of entering, and
then keep an eye on Sadira from afar for the first half-hour. "Excuse
me," he said, "but this country mouse has a hankering for a good old-
fashioned square dance." He strode to the dance floor and, with a
little fast negotiation, got the microphone away from the laughing
caller. "All right!" he sang out. "Swing your partner, dossie-do, line
those wheels up in a row...!"
"Sadira," Jasmine slowly breathed, "what is this place?"
"I don't know," her sister replied, "But they have a bar." And she
went up to it and took one of the high-backed plush stools.
The bartender immediately came up to her and smiled. "A new face!
And a pretty one, judging from the heart rate jump around here!"
Several patrons, males and females, blushed. "What would you like to
drink?"
"Do you have Blackened Voodoo?"
"Miss, there's nothing I don't have -- or can't make up on the
spot." He spun, twirled, extracted a black bottle from seeming
nothingness, uncapped it, and poured it into a mug that had appeared
from the same place. "Blackened Voodoo! Take it slow, it's a powerful
mix."
"Thanks." Sadira lifted the mug and breathed the aroma. She seldom
drank, but her tastes were exotic when she did indulge: Blackened
Voodoo smelled like a forest under a full moon. "How much?"
"How much?" He leaned close and whispered, "Nothing. Ever. For
anything. And don't insult me with tips. But if you are going to
insult me, make it devastating." He danced away to fill another order.
Sadira smiled, took a sip -- the buzz seemed to hit and fade faster:
another side blitz from her metabolism -- and had started to relax when
a voice at her elbow said "Pardon me."
She looked down. One of the shorter denizens, wearing an expensive
brown business suit, a bald pate, and a smile, was looking back up at
her. "You look like someone with far more practical knowledge of
baseball than anyone should have," he said. Across the room, Pamela
watched and smiled: set-up complete. "My friend and I --" he indicated
a Asian woman wearing a sleeveless gown, which exposed her artificial
arm "-- are having a rules debate on Batting Out Of Turn. Could you
help resolve a bet?"
Sadira, who was too far into amazement to add another layer -- and
who suspected that she'd been set up anyway -- clambered down from the
stool and went over to discuss baseball's most confusing rule (behind
balking). She was quickly meshed into the debate, and was soon drawing
diagrams on the table with a damp finger.
Jason, his throat getting dry, passed off the microphone to another
caller, got a drink, and joined Pamela at an empty dartboard near the
fireplace. They each grabbed a set.
"So what was the risk again?" he inquired as he checked on Sadira,
who was moderating a lively debate on the makeup of the ultimate New
York baseball team -- 25 positions, all squads and decades, no choice
allowed to go unargued. They were currently doing their best _not_ to
settle first base.
"The Princess," Pamela replied, automatically checking on the
dancer, who had wound up at a corner table, her book laid open as the
man who had earlier led the invisible orchestra signed it. It seemed
she had found the author. "You can guess what the rest of that word was
going to be. She never struck me as the most tolerant person -- but she
adapts quickly enough once she realizes she's outnumbered." Although
that might be slightly unfair: the Princess was chatting merrily,
trying to ferret out information on upcoming works from a man who was
only too happy to be questioned. But she never looked at the rest of
the room. Pamela wasn't sure what had led her to the big man in the
first place: probably a dust jacket photo.
She gently poked the dart tip into her finger: sharp and ready to
go. "I was worried that for whatever reason, Sadira would take the same
point of view: one among others, if you know what I mean. But I also
wanted to show her that other people had things worse, and they still
knew how to laugh and have a good time. That no matter what she looked
like, there were still people who would talk instead of stare. Look at
her." Jason looked. Sadira was making a push for Keith Hernandez,
which was drawing some support from the younger crowd. "It may be a
temporary pick-up, but we can come back -- without explanation, I hope.
If it was a week from now, people would have to fight the urge to ask
_hard_. But you don't discuss these things here. Club rule."
"And I'm minor," Jason said. "No 'How's the weather up there,'
nothing at all." He looked at Jasmine's companion. "I'm barely
noticeable. Pamela, what is this place?"
"A very private club. International sites: this is the East Coast
branch, and the original. Like I said, it's invitation only. They try
to keep out the fetish fans: plenty of people interested in amputees,
tall and short... One of these days, I'm going to check the newsgroups
and find alt.sex.albino.
"If you get a card, you can try it. You can bring dates, but most
people don't. It's a haven. Somewhere to go when the weight of the
eyes drives you to your knees. If there's anything different about you,
anything that some idiot would think disqualified you from the human
race, you're in. Skin color, height, build -- and that includes
macromastics, although I used to be the biggest one here. And geniuses,
although you'd have to show your IQ test at the door. Sadira would have
gotten in before: a lot of scholars hang out here. Actually, it
includes just about everyone under the right circumstances. On the
right day, you can find admission from being Caucasian. Club motto."
Jason waited. Pamela smiled. "'Nobody's normal.' This place isn't
for skin color or handicaps or oddities or genetic hiccups. It's for
forgetting about them and everything else, at least for a little while.
"The other risk is that she might meet someone really great, and
then we're both out of luck -- but I don't see anyone here better than
me." She smiled, threw the first dart, and proved that someone in the
club was probably better at one thing by hitting the '2.' "Damn. Your
turn."
Jason sighted, threw, and nailed the '16.' "What are the dues?"
"You pay what you can afford. The club gets supported by the
original funding. It's been around for nearly a century. There's
someone powerful behind it, but no one's seen him. Sometimes I think
it's Grace: she makes the final decision on who's in or out. But you
don't bring your troubles in here: club rule. This is for respite.
Someplace to come when there's nowhere to go." She threw the second
dart and got it just inside the '18.' "I still think it's too good to
be true."
"You would," Jason said without malice, and took aim again. "I like
it just fine."
"Yeah," Pamela said, checking on Sadira again. Third base, in true
Brooklyn tradition, had three men occupying it. "So do I."
"Defensive! Ordonez! Maybe he hasn't been around as long, but he
makes the impossible plays like no one else!"
"Sure, but he can't scoop up a routine grounder! We're looking for
an all-around shortstop, and Rizzuto's in the Hall!"
"Oh, so we're not going to even consider active players --"
"Gentlemen!" Sadira threw up her hands, laughing. "And ladies. If
I wanted a war, we would have started with the outfield. Do you think
you can keep from killing each other until I get back from the bathroom?
"Sure," Peter said. "I have other ways of dealing with --" he gave
Elmora a hard stare "-- _Yankee fans_." There was a brief pause that in
many other clubs would have been for the drawing of weapons -- but then
the laughter swelled up, and Sadira headed for the bathroom.
She finished and washed quickly, ready to get back to the discussion
-- someone had to be ready to rally for Duke Snider when center field
came up -- and caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror.
Sadira stood there, looking. <Bigger than Jasmine. Bigger than Pam
tomorrow morning.> She rinsed her hands. <A freak among freaks.>
But here, everything she'd seen in proxy to Jasmine and Pamela was
wrong. People looked at her eyes, talked to her face. The talk was
merry and equal: anyone with an opinion could get in. No one stared.
No one cared what she looked like. They cared about what she had to say
because they wanted to argue it.
Pamela had said it: some people were good. Maybe you didn't have
to be a little bit different to understand, and it was quite possible
that some of those who were would be as narrow-minded as everyone else.
The people of Fancy That were different, physically, mentally, socially,
and perhaps they indulged in self-pity and sorrow when they were outside
the club, but this was the inside, and at the moment, they didn't give a
damn.
And at the moment, neither did she.
She smiled at herself in the mirror as she dried her hands. "This
still might kill me," she whispered, "but if I live through it, then --
it really isn't everyone. No matter how big I end up, there's a place
for me, to talk and laugh if nothing else." <Although they might need
to build a special table module.>
<If the rest of the world laughs and stares -- there are people who
won't.>
And the love issue was still under debate, and whether anyone would
ever find her attractive again could be argued to the point of insanity.
Maybe she'd need a wheelchair with an extended front platform to move,
and all of that still scared her, terrified her sometimes, every day and
hour a little different. But for the moment -- if only here and now,
while it was all still fresh -- it was bearable. <A freak among freaks
-- but _what_ freaks we are!> A precious second of peace.
"Thanks, Ivory," she whispered, and headed back to the debate.
And that night, when she changed into the larger bra so she'd be
more comfortable in the morning, and found herself looking at the label
-- a Z -- and realized she was about to leave the alphabet behind,
venturing into mostly-unknown territory -- it still hurt.
But it didn't hurt as much as she'd thought it would.