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First Time Fag (mm-teens, bi, 1st-gay)
By Anonymous Author 

**

It was late fall in my senior year of high school. Late fall in 
this part of Washington (near the coast in a dingy, small logging 
town) meant rain, lots of it. I wasn't really happy. My best 
friend's mother Shelly had received a job offer taking her and Paul 
out of state for good. I was really missing them both, for 
different reasons. Paul's mother had introduced me to love-making. 
And now they'd been gone for a couple of months and my mood was as 
dark as the weather. 

Most of the local girls had boyfriends and those that didn't were a 
little hard to date without working transportation. I'd finally 
bought a car, only to have it break down on me frequently and suck 
dry my savings. Right then, my car was the only thing that was 
doing any sucking! (Sure, I had a bad attitude, but I was a 
teenager, what do you expect?)

So, I was riding the bus a lot. It beat wearing out the shoe-
leather, at least in the rain. A couple of times on the bus, I'd 
noticed a guy I kinda knew, James. He was a junior and pretty 
quiet. One day, I decided to sit by him to have someone to talk to 
on the way home.

He seemed pleasantly surprised by the attention and we talked for a 
while. We talked about almost everything except girls. Whenever I 
brought it up, he changed the subject. I didn't think anything 
about it, I just figured he was shy in that regard. His stop was 
before mine and he invited me to come over. I begged out but that 
seemed ok with him. This pattern was repeated for a few days, only 
certain things would change. He started sitting a little closer to 
me each day. At first I didn't think anything of it. I didn't mind 
his leg touching mine. I really didn't think about it.

One day, he stumbled a bit as he was getting up and his hand ended 
up brushing my crotch. It seemed perfectly innocent, but I felt my 
cock jump at the touch and was afraid he did too. That night I had 
erotic dreams. Nothing was clear in them, but I do remember James 
and I being naked together. I awoke with a painful erection and 
came almost instantly after touching myself.

That day I took the bus home, even though the weather was nice 
enough to walk. I was happy to see James on the bus as I boarded. 
We sat together as usual. Since it was a little warmer than usual, 
James took off his coat and laid it across our laps. We were 
talking about nothing in particular when I noticed his leg pressed 
firmly to mine. Without thinking much, I pressed back. Very 
casually, he put one hand under his coat, resting on his knee. 
Slowly, he moved his hand to my knee.

Was this what I wanted? Did I really want to open up this can of 
worms? Conflicting thoughts ran through my mind. I was worried that 
I'd be turned off to women, that I'd start acting effeminate. But I 
couldn't deny the attraction I felt to James just now. I also 
couldn't deny that his hand, moving slowly up my inner thigh, was 
getting me seriously hard.

"James, I don't know, man. I..." I whispered low. "Just be cool, 
Mark. spread your legs a little. Relax, if it feels good, do it." 
he replied.

At that point, I gave up. I spread my legs a bit and felt James 
move his hand higher, caressing my balls. I practically came in my 
jeans right there! "My stop's next. Coming?" he said with a grin. I 
just nodded, grabbed my coat to cover my erection and followed him 
off the bus.

I followed him to a nice, clean house. He unlocked the door. "We've 
got the place to ourselves for at least 3 hours. My mom won't be 
home till then and my dad split years ago." he licked his lips as 
he looked me up and down. I was nervous and scared still and I told 
him so. He said he was pretty sure I hadn't been with a guy before 
and that we could stop any time I wanted to. I told him that I 
really wanted to go through with this, at least once, but I needed 
him to take charge. He responded by putting his arms around me and 
pulling me close. He looked in my eyes as he brushed my hair back 
from my face. When we kissed, it was closed mouth at first. It 
seemed as if he was giving me the chance to get used to the idea of 
kissing another guy. 

Soon, he had opened his mouth and was licking softly. After a bit, 
I opened my mouth and let his tongue in. It was so gentle. I was 
getting so turned on. Soon our tongues were dancing, intertwining, 
moving from mouth to mouth. That was when I noticed the other dance 
we were doing, our crotches were grinding against each other in a 
strange rhythm. 

"Let's get some clothes off, Mark. No, let me." First, he took off 
his shirt, then mine. Then came his shoes, I kicked mine off. He 
quickly lowered and stepped out of his pants and underwear, 
revealing a substantial erection. He then unzipped me and I stepped 
out of my pants. Finally there we were, naked except for our socks, 
standing cock to cock. He drew me back into his arms for more 
kisses. With one hand, he grasped both our cocks and began jacking 
us off as we kissed.

My hands weren't idle during this. I caressed his back, pinched his 
nipples (This brought a low moan in response) and kneaded his ass 
cheeks.

Our kisses grew more passionate as the pace of his hand on our 
cocks quickened. I started to groan as I felt my nuts tighten. Soon 
I was spraying my load on James's belly. That seemed to set him 
off, as he unloaded a gusher on me. We kept kissing for a while, 
both still feeling hot. After a while he took my hand and led me to 
the bathroom and turned on the shower.

Without a word, he began to soap me up. He paid special attention 
to my nipples as he lathered my chest. Working lower he soaped up 
my belly, then my pubic hair. His hands worked magic as I began to 
get hard again. He left my cock twitching as he went to work on my 
back. When he got to my ass, I bent over slightly to give him 
access. I almost came when I felt one soapy finger probe me there! 
Soon it was my turn to return the treatment. He refused to let me 
linger though, rinsing us off and then drying us both off with a 
soft towel. We went into his bedroom and laid down on his large 
bed. 

For a while, we just embraced and kissed. Then I reached down to 
feel his cock. I started to stroke it gently and play with the 
head, rolling around the pre-cum that was leaking there. I figured 
I'd surprise him by showing some initiative and kissed my way down 
his body to his cock. He did seem surprised as I kissed his balls 
and inner thighs. I looked up at him as I reached out with my 
tongue to lick the length of his cock. I'd never sucked a cock 
before, but I knew what felt good to me so decided to try.

I took just the head in at first, swirling my tongue around it. I 
was pleased to hear James groan at that. Then I tried to take his 
whole length down my throat and didn't succeed.

"Whoa, that takes practice, Mark. You don't have to deep-throat me. 
You're doing great as is!"

Encouraged, I continued to suck and lick his shaft, head and balls. 
I bobbed my head on his cock as I took his balls in my hand. I felt 
them tighten as he told me he was about to cum. I groaned something 
and he let loose in my mouth. I tried to swallow it all but some 
leaked out. I laid on my back, my mouth and jaw more than a little 
tired. James took over at that point, kissing me, licking and 
nibbling at my neck and shoulders, sucking my nipples, running his 
tongue down my body. When he got to my crotch, he took each of my 
balls into his mouth first, licking and sucking them. 

Then he released them and slowly began to take my cock into his 
mouth. An inch at a time, he went down, his tongue working and 
swirling. Soon I felt the head pass down his throat. Then I looked 
down and saw that his face was buried in my crotch, he had my 
entire cock down his throat! With treatment like that, it wasn't 
long before I shot my load. He didn't miss a drop. I guess 
experience does count for something.

Afterwards we laid there snuggled. I was amazed to find that his 
cock was hard again. He explained that sucking always turned him 
on. I asked him what he would like to do about it and he responded 
by grabbing a tube of KY from the nightstand.

"Look, James, I'm not sure about that." I said.

"You liked my finger up there in the shower, this is just longer 
and wider. And I promise to stop if you ask me to." He replied.

He had me scoot down on the bed and raise my legs into the air, 
spread. I did so and felt the cold jelly being applied. He worked 
it in with first one, then two fingers. After applying some to his 
hard cock, he lowered himself on me, it wasn't a comfortable 
position, but he could play with my cock and kiss me as he screwed 
me.

With a very little bit of pressure, I felt the head of his cock 
slip in. I almost cried out in pain at that, but it was quickly 
over. He eased the rest of his tool into my slowly, kissing and 
stroking me all the while. Soon I began to enjoy the feeling. His 
cock was stretching me but it also felt awful good. Before long I 
was hard again and wondering if I would come that way. He picked up 
the pace a bit and I was starting to fell like I would come when he 
cried out and I felt him spurting inside me. I almost felt cheated 
as his cock shriveled and came out with a plop. However, he was not 
to let that go by. He lubed up my cock, the cold jelly helping to 
stave off my upcoming orgasm, and got on his hands and knees.

"Take me this way, Mark. I love it doggie style!" I eased inside 
him, intending to give him a slow screw. He would have none of 
that, however, urging me to go faster and pump harder. At first, I 
just teased him, going slowly. As his requests became more urgent, 
I pumped faster and reached around him to grab his cock. I was 
amazed to feel it hard! I stroked it in time to my pumping and as I 
shot my third load of the day, James came again as well. We lay 
there for a while and talked. He told me that he was gay, had never 
liked girls. His mom had thrown his dad out for beating him up 
after catching him with a neighbor boy, Randy. I knew who he meant 
and that came as a shock, this guy was one of the biggest jocks in 
high school.

We took another quick shower, both of us too tired to get it up 
again. As James kissed me goodbye he told me that I was always 
welcome to stop by his place after school.

On the walk home, I started to feel guilty. Was I gay now? I 
thought about it a lot and realized that terms like Gay, Queer, Fag 
were just labels. I knew I still liked girls but also liked guys, I 
could have it both ways.