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o This part of my collection offers a very wide variety of stories. o
o They have been submitted by people from all over the world. Also from o
o alt.sex.stories (Newsgroups). There is no particular order to this o
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o therefore I don’t type things myself." I think it’s a lot more fun to o
o browse around and find 'little' surprises, and topics that you might o
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o Lest we forget!!! This story was produced as adult entertainment o
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An Essay for Mistress N
By Slave J. W.
February 27, 1994
Subject: My feelings and thoughts this Sunday evening.
While spending this afternoon and evening under your complete control
as your slave, you have dismissed me for the time being to write about my
feelings. Since I'm not quite sure what you have in mind, I hope that
what I write will be appropriate.
I very much enjoyed the whipping that you gave me... fifty sexy
strokes from your cat-o-nine tails whip (or "fringe-like whip", as you
called it occasionally) as I was completely powerless to avoid the sting
of each lash. The last several times that I had the honor of receiving
such pleasure-pain from you, you denied me the luxury of being bound.
This adds a new dimension to it, since I must not only deal with the
pain, but must concentrate on exercising a great deal of self-control to
repress my instinct to avoid the pain. I find the psychological aspect
of this means of domination to be extremely sexy. Your control over me
rarely seems more real and absolute as when I must force myself to submit
to you completely to endure whatever pleasure-pain you choose to give me.
While kneeling at your command, waiting for the first lash to strike
my skin, I always feel a very nervous anticipation. I wonder what
implement you will use. Whether or not I will be asked to count. Will I
screw up the count? How hard will you strike me? Will I be able to take
it without moving? Part of me wants to get up and call this whole D&S
aspect of our relationship off. But I know that I never will. I know
how much I really need it.
Once the whipping has started, I may seem very intense about the
pleasure-pain that you are giving me. Especially when I am not bound.
This is not completely due to my efforts to deal with the physical
sensations. It is also due to other psychological factors, in addition
to those that I have mentioned above. The idea that I have voluntarily
submitted myself to such a situation - one in which I have no power to
control the outcome - is just one factor that I am dealing with.
Another very powerful one is the physical manifestation of submission to
you, a real, living, breathing dominant female, in this way and no longer
just a dreamy fantasy of mine. And finally, it is very important to me
to appear as strong as possible to you so that you don't think of me as
being weak; and so that you feel free to increase the intensity of what
you are doing to expand my limits.
You have become quite adept at the art of verbally humiliating me at
will. You have no idea how effective at this and downright intimidating
you can be. At times, I feel mild, but very real, forms of shame, guilt,
and fear. I find it quite awesome that you can intimidate me into being
incapable of having an erection just by your words alone. And while
doing this, you turn my mind into mush. I can't think straight. I find
it difficult to respond to you intelligently. I get a nervousness about
me. I feel genuinely inferior to you in every way. But I also feel
extremely content. I can relax in a way that is not usually defined by
the word relaxation. I feel that I can leave the responsibilities of
being a strong man for you behind, if only for a little while.
I really enjoyed the new vibrating latex cock harness that you had me
slip into. While you were holding and manipulating the variable speed
controller, the control you hold over my sexual pleasure took on a new
(and literal) meaning. The pleasure it gives is rather intense. And it
was given in precisely the amount that you chose to at your whim. I like
that! What I'd like to do is to take it a step further and convert it to
a remote-control device so that the wires don't restrict your range of
control over me as I'm wearing it. This very idea has always been a very
prominent fantasy of mine.
Once again you have brought to my attention how non-conversational I
become when we are doing these things. I continue to try to work on
that. It's definitely not because I want to be that way, but because
there is so much going on in my head at the same time. I feel a mixture
of very powerful positive emotions that seem to come and go in a wild
churning motion. And because of this, it is often hard to focus on one
particular thought to express to you.
It seems to be increasingly difficult for me to constantly switch
back and forth between conversing about the more mundane aspects of our
lives and the session dominance activities (both physical and
psychological) that we are doing. Please Mistress, don't consider this
to be complaint for I am genuinely grateful for what you are giving me.
And, of course, I have a strong interest in enjoying these sessions with
you as often as you will allow; even when you're not completely in mood
to be your best as my Dominatrix. I typically get into a deep mind set
of submission and the sudden changes back and forth really take away from
the experience. And the pleasure-pain starts becoming regular pain. I
certainly appreciate how difficult it would be for you to be 100%
dominant for the longer periods of time that we tend to be into the
Mistress/slave mode. But may I ask that we consider a smoother way of
making this transition and do so less frequently?
-Your deeply loving slave,
J. W.