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Always With Me - 4
by Secret DC Guy (secretdcguy@hotmail.com)
***
Chapter 4 Growing Together: Brian and J.J. are now 10
years old and beginning to learn more about the world.
On a trip to J.J.'s father's construction site they
share a first preteen kiss and meet the enigmatic Amos
Jones. Things might get a little hotter, but they are
still to wounded kids trying to figure things out. (FF,
bg, b-solo, preteens. ped, s/m, rom, voy)
***
Chapter 4: Growing Together
As she lay on my bed, I couldn't tell what was more
beautiful, Jenny's smooth slim undeveloped body or her
angelic smile, so my eyes kept switching between her
body and her face. However, every time I looked into
those eyes, they told me to come to her—this was the
time. Finally, after entirely too much hesitation on my
part, she quietly said, "Brian, please… This time we can
do it."
I was nervous, but I got on my knees between her legs. I
knew what I was supposed to do, so I started kissing her
belly and slowly worked my way down. I kissed down one
leg to her knee, then back up, and down the other.
Finally, I knew it was time. I kissed the smooth mound
above her privates, then slowly worked my way down.
We had tried it before, but it never worked. Either I
freaked out and started crying or she peed on my face.
Our pasts had held us back until today. But today
everything was right. Tonight I was finally going to
erase Julia from my life. Jenny would take her place as
the focus of my desire. Almost four long years after we
met, we would start to become one.
As I kissed Jenny lower, I began to taste her. I
couldn't remember what Julia had tasted like, but I knew
Jenny tasted different. She was as sweet as the fruit
she was always eating, with a slight and indescribable
tang. It was the greatest thing I had ever tasted. I
wanted to do it forever.
In the background, I could hear Jenny softly purring.
Occasionally, she would let out a whimper, or tell me
that I was doing it perfectly. I could feel her body
begin to tense, as she told me to keep going. Then for
some reason her voice got deeper and she became more
commanding. I felt her hand grab the back of my head and
pull it into her, I could barely breath. All the time
she was telling me how good of a boy I was—how special.
When I began to feel coarse hair against my upper lip
and nose, I knew something was terribly wrong. I tried
to pull back, but the strong hand behind my head
wouldn't let me go. I noticed the hand was way too big
just as a second hand joined it. Suddenly, the body in
front of me arched and let out a familiar scream. When I
could finally get back to my knees, Julia was in front
of me smiling, and telling me all the things she used to
years ago.
I screamed.
When I noticed what was going on, I was sitting upright
in my bed sweating. My mother was behind me rubbing my
back, while my father sat in front of me shaking his
head and looking at the floor. "Was it the same
nightmare again?" he asked.
"Yeah, it was." I replied.
My father muttered under his breath and cursed Julia,
just like he did every time. I had been having the
nightmare for almost four years now. It had started a
few months after Jenny and I took the shower together,
and was the same every time. I would start off trying to
go down on Jenny, but eventually it turned out to be
Julia. It would always be one-sided, about her pleasure
and nothing else. At first, the dreams made it strange
to be around Jenny, and eventually she could tell
something was wrong. Finally, after a few weeks, I gave
in and told her about them. Instead, of being upset that
she was part of the dream, she accepted that I couldn't
control them. Eventually, over the years, she became
very understanding.
After about half an hour, I had calmed down. After a hug
from my dad and a kiss from my mom, they left the room.
Keeping my promise to let Jenny know when I was there, I
still slept with the light on, so my parents didn't need
to turn anything off. When they were gone, I lay back in
bed and looked out my window towards Jenny's room. I was
surprised to see her sitting in her window looking over
at me. I got up, walked over to my window, and sat in
the box looking over towards her.
"It was the same thing again. Right?" Jenny quietly said
across the thin walkway between the houses.
"Yeah, it was." I replied.
It was always hard to guess how Jenny would react after
she found out about one of my dreams. Sometimes she
would get quiet, other times she would be reassuring.
Tonight her reaction was completely unexpected—she
started to cry and beg me not to blame her for being in
the dreams. I was floored! I had never thought that she
might think I blamed her for being in them. In fact, on
the nights after the rare occasions when I had seen her
naked through her bedroom window, I never had a
nightmare. Desperately, I wanted to tell her that, but
something always felt weird about it.
I reassured Jenny for a few minutes that I didn't blame
her at all for the dreams. When she calmed down, she
said something completely unexpected. "I'm happy you
don't. I couldn't live if you did. I don't want you to
leave me or forget about me… Ever! I love you…"
Jenny stopped. I wasn't sure what she meant to say, but
after an awkward pause, she said, "Like a brother… I
mean I love you like the brother I never had. I must be
really tired. I'm going to bed. I hope the dream doesn't
come back."
Before I could respond, she was in bed with her back to
me. Not knowing what else to do, I went back to bed as
well.
* * *
I awoke the next morning to my father knocking on my
door. When I didn't answer right away, he popped his
head in and smiled. "Hey son, tomorrow's your birthday,
so I thought I'd give you a surprise today."
"Um… What is it dad?" I asked.
"That's a secret," he answered slyly. "But I'll put it
this way, you like big trucks and every 10 year-old
needs to start learning a trade. Be downstairs in half
an hour." With that he left.
I rolled over and looked at the alarm clock. It was only
7 o'clock, much too early for a boy my age to be dragged
out of bed. But something told me that today would be
special. My father rarely got excited about things, so
when he did, I knew it was a big deal. If he was excited
about doing something for me, it had to be huge—maybe
even life changing.
Pulling myself out of bed, I looked into Jenny's room. I
expected to see her lying there drooling like she always
did, but amazingly she was already out of bed. Teenage
boys, or those getting close to the teen years, need a
lot of sleep. Supposedly, girls don't need as much, but
Jenny broke that stereotype. The girl could sleep
through anything—anything except her nightmares.
I didn't give much thought to why Jenny was out of bed
so early. We were best friends, of course, but it's not
like I knew where she was at every moment. So I crossed
the hall to the bathroom and got into the shower. For a
long time, I was the typical little boy who hated the
bath or shower, but now I didn't feel awake unless I had
scalding hot water shooting onto my body every morning.
I didn't usually think about much while I was in the
shower, but for some reason today I started to remember
the day four years ago when I was in there with Jenny.
I'm sure it was different today, but remembering her
smooth, lean, almost boy-like body gave me that tickle
in my wee-wee. I was hard before I started to wash it,
and when I did, it was a feeling like I had never had
before.
Almost automatically, my hand closed around it, and
started to move up and down. In a minute, my hand was
moving as fast as I could move it. I was in heaven.
After a few minutes, it began to twitch and felt like it
would explode. Suddenly, a rush came over my body. I let
out a loud grunt, and the feeling passed. I was
exhausted and felt as if I were going to collapse into
the water. Somehow, though, I managed to finish the
shower. After drying myself and getting dressed, I went
downstairs.
Just as I hit the bottom of the stairs, I was hit by a
flying ten year-old girl. "It's our birthday," Jenny
yelled as we fell to the ground. For some reason, she
began to tickle me, which she had never done before. I
thought I was going to laugh until I peed, but in
reality, my wee-wee started to get hard again. Just
having her sitting on top of me would have been birthday
present enough. After maybe a minute, she got bored and
just laid on top of me to give me a hug. Out of nowhere,
she gave me a kiss on the cheek.
"OK kids, get a room," her father laughed. "And it's not
your birthdays, that's tomorrow."
"Yeah, stop the horse play. You've got a big day today,"
my father added.
Jenny, her father, and my father were all wearing old
jeans, as if they were going somewhere dirty, so I was
glad that I hadn't gotten dressed in anything nice. Our
mothers on the other hand, looked beautiful in skirts
and blouses. They were dolled up as if they were going
somewhere fancy. When I asked where we were going, Mr.
Jenkins said it was a surprise, but that it was a place
boys like to be.
A few minutes later Jenny was munching on an apple, as
we all drove up into the mountains in Mr. Jenkins'
pickup truck. Jenny and I were riding in the back, with
the wind enveloping our bodies. Our parents somehow all
fit into the front. It did seem kind of cramped up
there. Mr. Jenkins was driving, my mother sat in the
middle, and my father sat by the window. Mrs. Jenkins on
the other hand had to sit on my father's lap. Luckily
the cab was spacious; otherwise she would have been
squashed.
When we had gotten out of the valley into more open
area, I heard my father let out a moan. "Oh god, that's
nice," he quietly said. At the same time, I heard Mr.
Jenkins say my mother's name. I turned around to see
what was happening, but something was odd. I could only
see the heads of our fathers. Our mothers were not in
sight. My father's head was back against the window of
the cab. He seemed to be breathing heavy. On the other
hand, Mr. Jenkins was red-faced. It seemed as if he was
straining to concentrate on driving. This continued for
a few minutes, and Mr. Jenkins' driving became more
erratic.
Suddenly, Jenny grabbed my hand, and said, "We're going
to crash!" She pulled herself to me and hid her face in
my chest. She was scared to the point of tears. Afraid
myself, I let our bodies sink down into the bed of the
pickup and held her tight. Trying to calm her fear
calmed mine as well.
Then I heard my father let out a moan, and hit his head
against the plastic window in the back of the cab. At
almost the same time Jenny's father shouted my mother's
name and jammed on the brakes. I didn't know what was
happening as Jenny as I slid up and it the metal wall of
the cab. My head hit the metal first and stopped me.
Jenny kept sliding until we were face to face. Without a
word, she closed her eyes and kissed me. The kiss wasn't
passionate and no sparks flew. Instead, it was soft and
tender. It felt natural, as if our lips had no purpose
other than to kiss each other. I could have stayed in
that position forever, but we were interrupted my father
calling back to see if we were OK. Jenny said yes, as we
sat back up.
The rest of the trip was uneventful. However, the
excitement of the trip was subdued. Kissing Jenny had
made me so happy and satisfied, I didn't know if
anything could have matched it. But when we got to our
destination, my life changed.
Somehow we had driven to the top of the mountain into a
cleared area with a beautiful view of the countryside
stretching to the next mountain. You could see the
farms, ponds, and downtowns of several small towns that
made up the small valley. The view was breathtaking.
However, it was the cleared area above where we drove in
that amazed me. Dump tracks, back-hoes, front end
loaders, and other construction equipment were
everywhere. What seemed an army of men were building at
least a dozen houses, and it looked like there was room
for several more. This was one of Mr. Jenkins's
controversial developments. The woods on the mountain
were indeed being ripped apart, but to me the bare dirt,
the piles of rock, and all the activity was amazing. It
was like Jenny's father was a farmer of a different
kind—one who made buildings grow from nothing. I knew
exactly what I wanted to do with my life.
Jenny was as amazed as I was. She exclaimed that she had
never been at one of her father's sites that had been so
beautiful, and started to run towards the construction.
Before she got a yard away, though, her father grabbed
her arm. Snickering, he said that safety came first.
While my father was with us, our mothers had stayed back
at the truck. They called for us to come over and
presented us with hard hats just small enough for our
heads. Each had our name and came in our favorite
colors—pink for Jenny and dark green for me. Jenny
looked so proud in hers. I'm sure I looked the same.
My father and Mr. Jenkins were each putting on hard hats
of their own. However, I was confused that neither of
our mothers was. If Jenny and I were going to be staying
for a while, I couldn't believe our mothers would stay
back at the truck that long. When I asked my mother why
she didn't have one, she told us that they wouldn't be
staying. She and Mrs. Jenkins had only come long enough
to see us get our presents. Apparently, it was going to
be a father/child day, and our mothers were going out
with some friends.
As Mrs. Jenkins was finishing, I heard a roar from the
entry road. Two motorcycles, driven by two women, were
coming up the road. They pulled up next to the truck and
got off. I recognized one of the women, my mother's old
friend from the police force. A few years ago, she had
quit rather than be fired. I'm not sure what it was
about, but I was told it had to do with her personal
life. Since then, I hadn't seen her, though I heard my
mother had. In that time, she had put on weight and cut
her hair short. She almost looked like a guy. I still
thought she was beautiful, though something told me that
even if I were older I'd never have a chance with her.
My mother's old friend gave my mother a hug and shook my
father's hand. She did the same for the Jenkins's before
introducing her 'partner'. It seemed kind of Old West,
the two women riding through the back roads on their
motorcycles partners in crime or whatever they were
doing. The adults walked off a bit and chatted. Then my
mother kissed my father deeply. It wasn't the way she
usually did in front of me. It seemed more like what my
cousin told me he kissed girls.
Mr. Jenkins's was doing the same to Jenny's mother. When
our parents were done, they all walked over to the
motorcycles. Our mother's got on behind the other women
and wrapped their arms around them. It shocked me that
then Mr. Jenkins went in front of the women and in turn
tied our mothers' hands together. They couldn't get off
the motorcycles if they wanted to. After another round
of kisses, the motorcycles pulled away and our father's
came back over.
As they returned, I heard a voice talking slowly. The
voice was soft, but seemed to have the power of a hard
life behind it. "So, these the little ones you told me
about Mr. Jack," the person said.
Turning around I saw an old black man walking towards
us. He wasn't particularly tall or built strong and it
seemed he had trouble walking. However, I could tell
that he was not a man anyone should mess with.
"Amos," Mr. Jenkins said as he turned around. "I know I
stopped asking you years ago, but I've got friends here
today, so will you please call me Jack."
"No, Mr. Jack," the man said with a smile on my face.
"You's ma' boss, and ma' daddy taught me to call ones
boss mister."
"If you really have to, Amos," Jenny's father said
giving the man a hug. "Let me introduce you to some
people. This is Kevin Shaffer, my neighbor and friend.
Oh, and he's also with the bank. You know my J.J., and
this is her friend, Kevin's son, Brian. Everyone, this
is Amos Jones. He's been my foreman since I started
building houses. When we moved up here, he came too.
He's as much a part of this operation as I am."
"Wells, Mr. Jack, you's a good man to work for. You pay
well and you're willing to make a negro a foreman. Not
many bosses in the South gonna do that."
I couldn't help but smile. I didn't know what it was
like to be black in the South, but from everything I
heard it was bad. It seemed as if Mr. Jenkins treated
Amos with a respect that few others would. My parents
had taught me to treat everyone with respect, no matter
what they looked like. Now I could see how much some
people appreciated that.
After a few minutes of discussion some things about the
construction site, Amos turned the conversation back to
the personal. "Mr. Jack," he said, "I saw the missus
leaving with those girls. Looks like you gonna have some
fun tonight."
"Yes I am, Amos, and Kevin too. Seems our wives have
some of the same interests, and we both get the benefits
from them. I'm sorry you're having to stay up here and
don't get to have any fun yourself."
"Oh, don't worry about me, Mr. Jack. I told you I'd be
alright. And I is having some fun." Amos gave a smile
that was both cocky and self-assured. "Yes, Mr. Jack.
I'm having my fun and took care of two of your problems
at the same time. Notice you ain't had no protesters up
here in a while."
"I did, Amos. Are you saying that they didn't just give
up."
"No, Mr. Jack. I always tell you, 'you just have to talk
to the right people'."
"You didn't do anything illegal, did you?"
"No, sir. Amos Jones has never broken a law in his life.
He's too smart of that. But I'll tell you what I did.
You know that cross that got burnt up here a few weeks
ago? Well, I saw the guy who did it and turns out he
ain't the sharpest knife in the drawer if you know what
I mean. See, he drinks at the bar down the hill and
lives in that big house just across the road down there.
Well Amos sees this and decides to pay him a visit. I
takes the money I asked you to leave—not much, just
about $500. So I'm gonna give him the money and get him
to stop, but then I see his wife staring at me through
the door. Well, she's a pretty woman, and I'm betting
she's never been with any other men, let alone a negro
man. So I ask to come in for a drink of water.
Needless to say, that in half an hour I'm giving the
wife $50 bucks after…" Amos paused, "playing some pool
with her. Guy watched the whole time. All the time I was
telling him how much better black men were in… at
playing pool. Afterwards his wife agreed. Now Amos is
going back there for a shower and a nice breakfast every
morning. And I get to have some fun any time I want it.
I don't stay the night though. Gotta get back and watch
this site."
I had no idea how a game of pool could get someone to
stop bothering the site, but my father and Mr. Jenkins
were laughing like they'd never heard anything so funny.
"Well Amos," Mr. Jenkins said, slapping the older man on
the back, "that takes care of one problem, but what
about the other?"
"Well, Mr. Jack, that's where I got really creative. You
see the folks up here might be backwards, but they ain't
got time for no burnin' crosses. To them that's a
backward southern thing. So I got that guy to come up
every few nights and burn a cross. Now those protesters
don't come up because they don't want anyone to think
they's the ones burnin' the crosses."
"Genius, Amos!" Jenny's father exclaimed. "So you're
punishing the guy and getting him to keep the
undesirables away. Are you being careful?"
"No, Mr. Jack, I ain't. If the woman gets pregnant, I
already got her convinced she will have to go over to
New York City and get rid of it. Luckily, she likes the
dark tools enough to do it. She's already gone once.
Didn't even ask me to pay for it."
As Amos was finishing, a young man with a cocky smile
walked over. "Ok Amos," the man sneered, "Let's get your
boss's opinion."
Mr. Jenkins didn't look happy. He called the man a
'little shit' and told him to refer to Amos as 'sir'.
The guy looked furious, but held his tongue. He started
describing a problem with the site. Apparently, they had
to stop building further down the hill because of some
unstable ground. There wasn't much of it, but they
couldn't build over it. The young man was suggesting a
special way of building the street over the area. It
would be expensive, and they would lose several lots.
Amos, on the other hand had a different idea. He thought
the unstable ground was an old stream bed that at some
point in the past someone had filled in. The land was an
abandoned farm, so he figured that the farmers had
blocked it to keep the water on the farm. He suggested
that they dig it out and let the stream go back to its
natural course. The young guy thought it was the
stupidest thing he had ever heard and stated how he had
gone to college for civil engineering. Amos, on the
other hand said he had called a geologist from the local
college to take a look at it.
Jenny's father said that he'd take a look for himself.
So everyone piled into various parts of the truck and we
drove over to the area. The geologist was there with a
couple of assistants, finishing up their work. After
greetings were exchanged, the geologist told everyone
that Amos was completely right. All that had to be done
was for the crew to dig out about a mile and a half of
fill and there would be a stream. He also pointed to a
farm down the hill with a trickle of a stream coming out
of it, and said that they would get more water. And as
an added bonus, the road on the other side of the
mountain that kept washing out would be fixed.
The blocked water wouldn't be undermining it any more.
Amos chimed in that he had already talked to the farmer
down the hill, who was so excited, he offered to pay
half the money to dig it out. Amos had declined, and
asked only that Mr. Jenkins have the 'right of first
refusal' to buy the farm when the farmer was ready to
leave. I don't know what that meant, but apparently
Jenny's father was very happy. After the geologist left,
he told the civil engineer to redesign the development
around the stream or he'd be fired.
The rest of the day was a tour of the construction site
where Jenny and I got to talk to the various
construction workers doing different jobs. We even got
to help with starting to dig out the stream from the
bottom of the hill. As we were loading back into the
truck, I announced that I wanted to build houses like
Mr. Jenkins did when I grew up. All the adults got quiet
until Amos spoke. He said that the era of the builder
was over, and I needed to get an education.
Jenny's father added that in the future engineers would
be planning everything and every house would need an
architect—whatever that was. Finally my father finished
by saying that I could build houses if I wanted, but I
should probably go to college for engineering first.
I was disappointed that I would have to put in so much
work to become a home builder, but I knew what I wanted
to do with my life.
* * *
The rest of the day was uneventful. My father told us
that we would have a joint birthday party the next day,
but it didn't really excite me. Going to the
construction site today would have been hard to beat on
its own. However, the inadvertent kiss from Jenny would
be impossible to top.
I'm not sure what Jenny thought about it because she
didn't mention it again. Sitting in the back of the
pickup truck as we descended the mountain, she was
quiet. She did cuddle up next to me, but she didn't say
much. Even while we were sitting with our fathers at a
picnic table at a drive-in eating pizza and soft serve
ice cream, she seemed to be in her own world, responding
to questions but not initiating any conversation.
When we got home that evening, I noticed my mother
weren't there yet. I asked my father where she was, but
he smiled and said she'd be out late, but would be home
for the party tomorrow. I asked what she was doing, he
responded that her friend had taken her and Mrs. Jenkins
to a party. That made me happy. My mother didn't get to
get out to parties much. Instead when she went out it
was either with my father or with Mrs. Jenkins. However,
she seemed to enjoy it that way.
So after a snack and some TV, my father put me to bed. I
still slept with my bedside light on so that Jenny could
see if I were awake or not. When I looked over at her
room, I saw that her light wasn't on, so I settled down
to read for a while. About half an hour later, I heard
her calling. I went over to the window and waved over to
her. I really wanted to ask her how she felt about the
kiss, but unfortunately she said she was really tired
before I could. So we said good night almost
immediately. Jenny settled into bed and fell asleep
almost immediately. I finished reading fell asleep as
well.
I wasn't sure how long I had been asleep or what time I
was when the sound of the front door slamming woke me.
Shooting bolt upright, I looked at the clock. I was
about 3 o'clock in the morning. As I was still waking, I
heard something fall on the stairs. I was curious what
it was, but I waited for a minutes before getting out of
bed. Before I got to my door though, I heard my father
come out of my parent's room and call my mother's name.
She called that she was OK, but her voice was very
slurred. My father must have helped her up the stairs,
because in just a few seconds, she was peaking in my
door. Luckily I had heard her coming and slipped back
into bed.
After the door closed, I heard my parents talking, but
something sounded different. I noticed it first when my
mother said, "Sir, can I take a shower?" It was odd,
since my mother always called my father by his name or
'honey'. I didn't even call my father sir.
My father's response was even more surprising. "No, you
little dyke. You are going to have to spend the night
with beer and pussy juice all over you," he said. While
he didn't sound angry or mean, it was obvious that my
father was ordering my mother to go to bed dirty, though
I had no idea what 'pussy juice' was.
My mother said, "yes, sir," and walked into their room.
I have to say that I was curious about what was
happening, so when my parents were both in their
bedroom, I snuck out into the hall. Their door was open,
and I was shocked by what I saw. My mother was still in
the outfit that she wore earlier that day, but she
looked much disheveled. Her hair was messy and looked
damp; her shirt was on backward, and her skirt was
ridding up her butt. I could tell she wasn't wearing any
underwear. Scared I would be seen, I hid in the darkness
of the guestroom where I could still get a good view
into their room.
"How was your day?" my father asked my mother.
"It was great. Thank you for it, sir," my mother replied
looking happily at my father.
"You should be thankful. Most husbands would throw their
wife out of the house when they found out she was a
dyke."
My mother's face looked at the ground. It seemed as if
she might cry. "But I'm not really a dyke, sir. I still
want you."
"But do you want any other men," my father sternly
responded.
"No, sir. I do not."
"Not even, Jack Jenkins?"
"No, sir. He is not as powerful as you."
"Then why did you suck him off today?" My father asked.
I had no idea what he meant, but I thought it might have
something to do with what happened in the truck. If it
did, then I couldn't understand why my father was being
so stern. It seemed as if he and Mr. Jenkins were both
having a good time.
"Because, sir," my mother said, looking up at my father
again, "You wanted me to. And I can stand being with
him. He is powerful too, just not as powerful as you
are. Are we lucky we met them, sir?"
"Yes, dyke we are," my father sneered. "You get to have
your pussy play whenever you want, and you get a loving
and caring husband."
My mother started crying. "I owe you everything, sir.
You treat me too well. Please don't ever make me leave."
When my father spoke again, his voice sounded firm but
more caring than it had before. "Of course I won't make
you leave. After all I love you, and you love me. And
you are the best wife a man could ever want. You keep a
great home; you're a great cook; you are the best mother
our son could have; you keep me satisfied; and you've
never cheated on me."
"No I have not, sir," my mother quietly replied. "That
would be disrespectful. I only fuck women, and I always
ask permission first. Thank you for nurturing that side
of me. I never would have had the courage to become a
dyke without your support. Everything I am, I am because
of you, sir."
I was shocked by what I had heard, not only was my
mother using language I had never heard from her before,
but I was surprised by what she was talking about. I was
only nine years old—would be ten tomorrow, but I knew
what she was talking about. My cousin, Tony, had told me
what the word meant a few years back, when walked into
his basement while he was naked with a girl.
He offered to tell me about sex if I promised not to
tell anyone what I saw. I wouldn't have told anyone
anyway, but I still took him up on the offer. Later, I
asked my parent's what sex was. After their story of
'the birds and the bees' and how people should love each
other before having sex, I knew exactly what fucking, or
screwing, or sleeping with someone meant.
I also knew what cheating was. Though I didn't know that
two women could have sex—every explanation I got about
sex required the different parts on a man and a woman—my
mother using the word fuck was revealing enough. I knew
that when two people were married, you were not supposed
to have sex with anyone else. However, my mother
apparently had sex with a woman that day and was having
sex with Mrs. Jenkins frequently. Still my father said
she never cheated. I didn't know how any of that was
possible. I made a note to ask Tony the next time I saw
him.
My parents had been silent for a few minutes before my
father spoke again. "No little one, I am everything I am
because of you. Your love and obedience make me strong.
I will never leave you or make you leave. I could not
bear to live without you."
"Then it is good that we found each other, sir. Isn't
it?" my mother said smiling more brightly than I had
ever seen.
"Yes it is, my beautiful one. But now I need to use your
dyke pussy," my father said standing up.
"Please do, sir. That is what I am here for. May I get
naked for you?" my mother said grabbing the bottom of
her shirt.
"No, pet. We start with your clothing on," my father
said. He pulled his pajamas off and said, "Suck!"
My mother didn't hesitate as she took his penis—I
learned that was the real work for wee-wee—into her
mouth. My father smiled and closed his eyes. He held my
mother's head by the sides and seemed to guide it with
his hand up and down his shaft. Soon, he began to moan.
This continued for a few minutes before my father
stopped my mother's head. He placed a finger under her
chin lifting her to her feet. Then he bent her over the
bed. As he lifted her skirt, he gently rubbed my
mother's butt. He said it was perfect, then said she had
the perfect pussy as well. My mother almost begged as
she asked him to "put his cock in her cunt". My father
obliged by sliding himself deep inside of her. Then he
started to move himself in and out of her.
They continued like this for a few minutes before my
father slipped my mother's shirt over her head, then
pulled out of her and pushed her skirt to the floor. As
they started to have sex again, my mother started to
talk. "Sir, do you still like my breasts."
"Yes, little one. I love them."
"I wish they still had milk in them, sir. I know how you
loved that when Brian was little."
"I did, pet. But I love them the way they are now."
"Sir, one of the women at the party today said they are
making a drug that can make a woman lactate without her
being pregnant. Would you like me to do that for you?"
I don't think my father heard the question, because at
my mother's last words, he started grunting and pumping
faster. He looked like he was in his own world, his eyes
closed and head tossed back. After a few minutes he gave
a loud grunt and slammed my mother's body back into his.
With a grimace on his face, he held her there. As he
did, my mother let out a loud moan. When my father let
go, my mother collapsed onto the bed. My father fell
beside her.
After a few minutes my father spoke, "Now you still
cannot have a shower tonight. I want you to go to sleep
with my cum dripping out of you."
"Yes, sir," my mother replied.
Then the conversation got really strange, as my father
said, "Can you make liver for dinner this week?" My
father hated liver.
"No, sir. I cannot. You don't like liver." my mother
replied in the soft voice she had used before sex. "Can
I eat some of your cum out of my pussy, sir?"
"Yes, pet. You can," my father sighed. My mother smiled
and stuck her fingers down to where my father's penis
had been. I hadn't seen her down there before, so it
surprised me that unlike Julia she didn't have any hair.
She stuck her fingers inside, and scooped out a white
stuff. It must have been the cum my father talked about.
Then she licked her fingers and smiled at my father.
My father smiled back at her, and again asked, "Pet, can
you make liver for dinner this week?"
"Yes, I can if you really want me to."
I expected my father to say thank you, even though I was
still confused about why he would want my mother to cook
something he hated. However, instead he just hugged my
mother and said, "I love you, Nancy. You really are the
best wife a man could ever want."
My mother reply was neither soft nor deferential.
Instead, she spoke to my father in her normal voice,
"Kevin, you are the best husband ever. No wait. You're
the best man ever. I really would be nothing without
you."
They hugged and kissed for a few minutes. It seemed to
be like the kiss I had shared with Jenny—honest and to
the point, as if they were made to be kissing each
other. After a few minutes, my mother said, "Now honey,
we need to get some sleep. We have a birthday party to
put on tomorrow."
"I know, baby," my father responded in a tender voice.
"I'm gonna sleep like this though, so you should close
and lock the door. I don't want our boy see us like
this. He wouldn't understand."
My mother stood up and walked over to the door. She
looked down the hall towards the guest room where I hid
and paused. I tried to be perfectly silent and still so
she wouldn't see me. But she looked at the exact place
where I hid and smiled. Then she closed and locked the
door.
I tiptoed back to my room, and quietly closed the door.
Wanting to talk to someone about what I saw, I looked
over into Jenny's room. However she was still asleep. I
didn't want to wake her. Instead, I lay down in bed and
drifted back to sleep.
* * *
The next day was one of the most confusing days in my
life.
The weirdness started with my parents acting like
nothing had happened the night before. They were
obviously tired, as they kept drinking coffee, but they
were in great spirits. In fact, it seemed to be among
the happiest days of their lives—at least the part of
their lives that I remembered.
As the day went on, things went downhill. Jenny's and my
birthday party was a complete bust. I did have fun with
my friends and Jenny had fun with hers, but the groups
never seemed to mingle. Every one of us or one of our
parents, tried to get some activity going either the
boys joined, or the girls did. But when one group saw
the other was participating, they would hold back. It
made for some interesting happenings where the boys
unhappily made crafts while girls struggled with the
rules of whiffle ball. When left to their own devices,
everyone enjoyed themselves though. The worst part was
that Jenny and I hardly spent any time together.
After all the guests had left, my family sat with
Jenny's in our living room. We had each opened presents
from our friends, and now settled down to open them from
our families and each other. My parents gave me some
clothing, the game Sorry, and some of my father's Hardy
Boys books from when he was a kid—I loved reading them.
Jenny got some similar things from her parents.
Jenny and I exchanged our presents last. Jenny gave me a
record called "Mickey Mouse Disco". It was an album of
disco songs adapted to Disney characters. It might have
been a bit juvenile for me, but I had heard it once and
told Jenny I thought it was fun. I was really happy that
she remembered.
Then I gave Jenny my gifts for her. The first was the
book "Watership Down", a charming book about a small
group of rabbits trying to make their way in a world
they didn't really understand. My mother had read it to
me chapter by chapter when I was little, and I knew
Jenny would like it too. She loved it.
However, when I gave her the second present, she didn't
look quiet as happy. Before opening it, she looked at me
sadly and said she had only gotten one present for me.
My heart melted thinking that she felt bad, but I
encouraged her to open it anyway. When she did, she was
ecstatic. A few months ago we had been at the mall with
our mothers. While they were shoe shopping next door we
had wandered into a toy store, and in the back, Jenny
saw a pair of pom-poms. Suddenly, she started talking as
quickly as she had the day we met and started telling me
how much she wanted to be a cheerleader. After we had
parted ways for the day, I had my mother take me back to
the store so I could buy them for her.
Jenny launched herself onto me, hugging me as if there
would be no tomorrow. All the time, she told me how much
she liked them. Then she whispered in my ear that she
would have a present for me later.
That night I went to bed early, hoping to get to talk to
Jenny. I wanted to figure out what happened at the
party, and also find out what my present was. Jenny was
already settled down in her room when my parents left.
Moments later we were at the windows talking.
When I asked about the party, Jenny didn't really know
what had happened either, but she did know that most of
her girl friends didn't have close friends who were
boys. I admitted that my friends didn't have any close
girl friends either. Jenny said that our relationship
must be different than other people. Then she asked me
if I would still always be with her. She didn't ask as
often as she did when we first met, but still would from
time to time. When I promised I would, she told me it
was time for my second present.
I waited with anticipation as she stepped away for a few
minutes. When she stepped back into view, she was
wearing a cheerleader uniform that someone must have
given her for her birthday. She was holding the pom-poms
I got for her. After asking if I was ready, she started
to do a cheer. It was nice, so I was happy she shared it
with me. Then she told me to wait a minute, a stepped
out of view again.
When she stepped back into sight, she wasn't wearing a
shirt. It had been a long time since I had seen her
without one and her body had changed. Where she once had
small nipples like mine, you could now see a definite
difference. They weren't big like my mother's had been
the night before, but they were definitely noticeable.
More remarkably, I could see that they topped small but
definite mounds. Jenny was growing boobs!
I felt what had become an all too common stirring in my
pajamas as my penis began to get hard. I really wanted
to touch it and feel good like I had the day before
However, I refrained, afraid of what Jenny might think.
Jenny began to start a cheer topless. When she finished,
she stepped out of sight again. She came back wearing
only what I eventually would learn were bloomers. After
finishing, she again stepped away and came back naked
for one more cheer.
Her body was amazing. Besides the breasts, the area
below seemed to have grown too. It wasn't like her
chest, but it just seemed rounder. I could tell that it
was softer. However, she was still hairless down there.
I made a note to ask Tony the next time I saw him why
some women had hair down there and some didn't.
After the last naked cheer, Jenny asked me if I liked
it. I said I had, but asked why she had done it naked.
She thought for a second, then said that for some reason
she just wanted me to see her naked.
We stood in silence for a little while, before Jenny
asked if she could see me naked too. Without saying a
word, I stripped for her. For a while, I don't know how
long, we stood curiously gazing at each other's
developing bodies. I desperately wanted to look at her
like that forever, but I also had a feeling of finality,
as if I would never see her naked again.
When she spoke again, Jenny sounded sad. "It's too bad
we can't touch each other."
I started to think back to the last time, almost four
years ago, we had tried to touch. I had remembered the
effect we had on each other, and almost cried. I really
wanted to touch her, to explore her body, to have her
explore mine. However, last time we had done anything it
was a disaster. I was afraid that if we tried again, it
might be the end of our friendship. I wanted to make
Jenny feel better, so trying to sound hopeful I said,
"Maybe someday we can."
Jenny smiled slightly and said, "Maybe."
I wasn't convinced she believed it, but still initiated
our good-nights. Soon I was dreaming of Jenny and her
body. All too soon it was Julia in the dream.
* * *
For once I was afraid to talk to Jenny about something
that had happened in my life. Usually, I would tell her
everything, but for some reason the picture of my mother
kneeling obediently in front of my father seemed very
personal to them. It was something I shouldn't have
seen, and other people should not know about.
However, over the next few weeks the situation gnawed at
me. Instead of keeping my parents' secret, I began to
feel that this was an important thing that I needed to
tell my best friend. From all of my experience with her,
I knew she wouldn't judge the situation. She was
probably the most understanding person I knew. I kept
the situation to myself though, as I just couldn't find
the right opportunity to tell her.
And the summer passed both slowly and quickly that year.
Every day seemed to drag by, in a good way, with ice
cream sandwiches and Coca-Cola's at the corner store.
We'd play catch in the field behind the houses and ride
our bikes on the street. My cousin Tony was just about
to start college, and was seen as a responsible adult
around the neighborhood. So on some days we would ride
our bikes with him to the other side of town. We'd take
one of the trails up to what he said was a 'parking
spot', though it looked more like a clearing in the
woods at the top of a cliff.
Up there he'd tell us about what he would be doing in
college down in Washington, DC. His college didn't sound
very interesting, but the city did. He would point
across the valley—we could see the whole thing from up
there—and tell us how much better DC was. I had never
been there, but I really wanted to go and see it for
myself. Jenny, of course, had come from there and had
bad memories of the place, so she didn't seem so
interested in his stories.
Even though the days passed slowly, the weeks passed
quickly. Suddenly, it was the first week of August.
School started early that year, so mid-week we realized
that we would only have two more weeks of fun before the
next year of our lives started. Like any school
children, we were sorry to see the summer end. When you
are a child, change, even if it turns out to be good, is
unwelcome.
On Friday morning, we were sullenly sitting on the front
my front porch when Tony came to the house. He had a
book bag filled with books, as was usual for him. He was
"trying to get ahead before classes started," and was
always studying. As he opened the front door, he
announced that we had better be good or we wouldn't get
our surprise for the weekend. Neither of us knew about
anything special, so we sat confused asking ourselves
what he meant.
A few minutes later, we saw a taxi pull up in front of
the house. My mother and Mrs. Jenkins came out,
suitcases in hand. Waving to the cab, they told us that
they were taking a bus into New York City to do some
shopping and have a 'girls' weekend'. Tony would stick
around for the day and we were to obey him. Our fathers
would be home from work early and had a surprise for us.
Sure enough, about one o'clock my father pulled into the
driveway greeted us and ran excitedly into the house.
About half an hour later, Jenny's father pulled in next
door and waved. Over the hour or so we watched our
father's putting two coolers and several bags into the
back of Mr. Jenkins pickup truck. Finally, we saw them
throw in two unmistakable canvas bags. They were our
families' rarely used, but identical tents. It was
obvious we were going camping.
Jenny said that she was running home to change into
something appropriate for the woods, and I decided to do
the same. I wanted to thank my father, but he was in the
kitchen talking with Tony. "Ok, son. You can stay here
for the weekend, but I don't want any wild parties.
Quiet intimate parties, though, I encourage," my father
chuckled.
"No parties for me, Uncle Kev. I was just going to have
two people over. Maybe we can have a beer or two if
that's OK with you?" my cousin responded. He sounded
almost as if he were begging my father to let him do
something the same way I would.
"Well kid, you know that you and your friends are
underage. But I think it would be OK if you don't get
into any trouble. Are you having guys from the wrestling
team over, I know they can get a bit out of control."
"No, sir. I'm done with most of those guys. They're
going to work in the factories or for the power company.
I really don't have much in common with them anymore.
Plus, they're all new so a lot of them are working
overnight shifts. So I was planning on having two of the
college bound girls over."
My father paused for a minute, then continued, "Tony, is
that really a good idea? I mean, one girl is enough to
handle for an evening, but two? Someone is going to get
jealous—especially if alcohol is involved."
It was Tony's turn to chuckle. "Uncle Kev. I'm heading
to a major university to study psychology, don't you
think I've figured it out. The girls are the McDonald
sisters, and they do everything together. And if you're
wondering about me having the time for them, they're
staying all weekend."
My father paused again. "Do you mean the red-headed
twins?"
"Those are the ones," Tony said sound
uncharacteristically cocky.
Once more my father was silent. When he continued he
sounded as if he were going to cry with pride. "Tony,
you really did deserve to be valedictorian. At your age,
I could never have figured out how to work something
like that. I'm very happy to be related to you, even if
it is only through marriage. Still though, I don't want
any accidents coming out of this. There are some rubbers
in the drawer of my nightstand. Use them."
Though I had listened to the conversation, I had no idea
what they were talking about. Why was my father so proud
that Tony was having two girls over for the weekend? I
mean, what were they going to be doing? Tony was a
really smart guy, and helped me with homework from time
to time? But it was summer, so the twins couldn't want
help with homework—unless maybe they were trying to get
ahead for college too. I decided that studying was the
only possibility, so I went upstairs and changed into
old jeans and a t-shirt.
I did wonder what Tony would be using rubber bands for
and why my father kept them in his nightstand.
* * *
Later that evening, we were in one of the nearby State
Parks setting up the tents on opposite sides of a
clearing. Because of all of the gear, Jenny and I had to
ride in the cab of the pickup truck squished between our
fathers. It was a bit uncomfortable, especially since I
couldn't find a place to place my arm that wasn't
uncomfortable. Apparently, Jenny was having the same
problem because she finally grabbed my hand and held it
for the remainder of the trip. I really liked the
feeling, especially when she put it in her lap. It was
warm in the cab of the truck, but for some reason, her
lap felt even warmer.
When we finished setting up the tents, we cooked dinner
in aluminum foil packets. They weren't very good, just
unseasoned beef, carrots, and potatoes, but they were
the perfect camp food. Mr. Jenkins had also brought some
tins of canned fruit salad, but Jenny was the only one
who ate them. Personally, I found them disgusting. We
toasted marshmallows for desert, while our fathers had a
few beers.
Finally, after the sun had set and a few ghost stories
were told, everyone was ready for bed. Jenny and I
started to head in opposite directions when her father
stopped us and told us we were in the same tent. He gave
some excuse about us kids having fun, while the two of
them had some more beers.
Before I knew it, Jenny had happily agreed for both of
us. In our tent, we made small talk for a while before
we decided that we should change. Instead, of one of us
going outside, we decided that we would just turn around
while the other took off their clothes. I went first.
Initially, it seemed natural taking of my clothing, but
then things got weird. Looking at Jenny, I saw that she
was fidgety.
For some reason, that made me excited. My penis got so
hard that I got embarrassed, afraid that even turned
away from me, Jenny could see it. After I was finished,
it was Jenny's turn to get changed. I wanted to ask if I
could watch her like I did back on our birthdays, but
was scared she might get mad at me. Instead, hiding my
hard wee-wee, I sat with my back to her trying to get a
glimpse of her in the shiny blade of a pocket knife my
father had given me over the summer.
After changing, we both decided to go outside and pee,
going into the woods at opposite sides of the site. When
we got back our fathers were talking kind of loudly,
laughing about something. Jenny giggled and snuck over
to hear what they were talking about. After a few
minutes, her eyes grew big as if she were shocked by
what she was hearing. After she waved for me to come
over, I was there in a second. The conversation was the
strangest thing I had ever heard.
"So as I was saying, Jack, you came up with a great plan
for our lesbo slut wives," my father laughed.
"Come on, Kev, you know the slut part is only because we
make them," Jenny's father demurred.
"Gotta disagree with you there, Jack. They don't go
whoring around because they found men who can both love
them and control them. They really are sluts deep down.
That's why they are so willing to do all the crazy shit
we tell them," my father said in a more serious and
correcting tone.
"Ok, you're probably right. But you made the best
additions to their itinerary. What's the full schedule
again?" Mr. Jenkins conceded.
"You just love hearing it, Jack," my father laughed, as
Jenny's father joined him. "Ok, so they get there and
rest a while before dinner at Windows on the World. Then
they get dolled up and work the streets at Times Square
for a few hours. Once they've earned some money, they go
to that bar Amos suggested and get some black dick. I
expect that they'll be getting back to the Plaza pretty
late and with cum dripping out of their pussies.
Saturday morning they have the appointments for the
abortions…"
"Your nephew must feel pretty good about knocking up two
married women in one night," Jenny's father interjected.
"He does," my father replied, "but he's also really
happy that they're making it go away. The boy needs to
be careful; he's got some potent sperm."
"Well I'm glad he liked his graduation present," Mr.
Jenkins said. Though I couldn't see him, I knew he was
smiling. "Anyway, continue."
"Ok, so after the abortions, they may need a while to
rest. But after that, they go down to the Village and
get all butched up. You know, short haircuts and
clothing like men. Then they spend the rest of the day
trolling the lesbian bars looking for lipstick dykes.
They see who can get more, married women, first timers,
and college girls are extra points. And of course, the
winner gets to wear the strap-on that night. Then of
course they go to church and come back on Sunday. Then
we get all of the entertainment Sunday evening," my
father finished matter-of-factly.
"And the makeover is part one of your most genius plan,"
Jenny's father said in a very devious voice. "You're
sure it will work?"
"Sure as I've ever been about anything, Jack. Just think
it over," my father explained. "What local bank would
continue to employ a banker with a lesbian wife? So when
it gets out, I'll get fired. But I'll already have been
giving information to the Feds for several years. So
it'll look like I'm getting fired for being a
whistleblower. That with the charges to the board will
destroy them. Quietly, I'll be hired by your friend from
that big bank out in Pittsburgh, and come back in as a
White Knight running the whole eastern Pennsylvania
Region. You and I will get rich by not only following
the law, but upholding it."
"Genius!" Mr. Jenkins exclaimed. "Now, man, I'm kinda
horny. Mind if I jack off."
"Not at all my friend," my father chuckled. "While you
do, take a look at these pictures I had our wives take
last time they were together."
The conversation was over, so Jenny and I snuck back to
our tent in silence, which was good because I had a lot
to figure out. This new disease called AIDS had been on
the news lately. So there was a lot of talk about gay
men. Coming out of that, people started talking about
lesbians—women who had sex with other women. However, I
knew that my parents had sex—I could hear it quite often
at night. I also knew that Jenny's parents must have had
sex at least once. So if our mothers were having sex
with our fathers, how could they be lesbians, or dykes
as my father had called my mother earlier that summer?
My father had also called my mother a slut. From things
Tony told me, I knew that it wasn't a good think for my
mother to be a slut. But my father was referring to her
in what almost seemed an amused and loving way. Finally,
apparently both of our mothers were pregnant, and by
Tony, nonetheless. I couldn't comprehend what I had
heard.
I don't know how long the silence lasted, but eventually
Jenny quietly said, "I always wanted a little sister. I
guess I won't have one now."
I didn't know how to respond. I had never thought about
having a little brother or sister. To me being an only
child was normal. I couldn't relate to Jenny's feelings,
so I just put my arms around her and held her close. For
a few minutes we cuddled in silence.
Eventually, Jenny rolled away and faced me. Looking
sadly into my eyes she said, "Brian, I feel like you've
been hiding something from me for a while. What is it?"
I was stunned, since it seemed as if she sensed I had
kept what I had seen my parents do the night before our
birthdays a secret from her. I don't know if I felt she
would hate me or my parents, or something else. I just
felt like I couldn't tell her. Now tonight, when I had
never been more confused about life and relationships, I
knew I was going to have to explain it to her. I sighed,
and started at the beginning with my mother staggering
up the stairs. I told her everything in vivid detail,
with the exception of thinking my mother saw me.
Nervously, I waited for a response. I don't know whether
Jenny let out a sigh or a chuckle, but after whichever
it was she told me that the same thing had happened with
her parents. She didn't see what happened, but heard it
through her door. It had happened enough times before
that she knew what was happening.
We talked for a while about what everything meant—our
mothers' submissiveness, our fathers calling them
lesbians, and them getting pregnant by Tony. Based upon
everything we had heard and saw not only did they like
doing it, but our fathers like them doing it. The more
we talked, the stranger things sounded. Finally, we
decided that the only way to understand it was to try
something ourselves.
Jenny quietly got out of her sleeping bag and knelt in
front of me. I stood, looking down at her, trying to
figure out what to do. My mind was blank except for a
feeling that something was wrong. Most importantly,
though Jenny was there ready to do something sexual, I
didn't feel at all excited. Where my penis should have
been hard, it was soft and felt cold.
In silence, Jenny touched my leg. However, instead of
feeling the wonderful sensation I felt when we held
hands earlier that day, the touch felt foreign—
unwelcome. As she moved her hand up the inside of my
leg, I noticed that Jenny was shaking. I found it was
strange that it made me feel better, until I realized
that it was because I was shaking too. We were both
nervous.
Finally, Jenny's had reached my penis. I had hoped that
her touch would make me feel good, but instead I began
to feel lightheaded. Jenny hand didn't move. At first I
thought she was looking for direction, but then I
realized that something was wrong. Suddenly, she jumped
towards the tent door. Without a word she was gone. I
heard her pee hitting the ground right outside of the
door just before my knees went out from under me.
I think it was only a few minutes until I awoke. When I
did, Jenny was sitting with my head in her lap stroking
my hair. "You didn't like it either?" she said. I wasn't
sure if it was a question or a statement.
"No," I replied quietly. "It was horrible."
Jenny sighed, "Yes. It was. Let's not do that again."
I agreed, and in a few minutes we were lying cuddled
again. After a few minutes Jenny turned towards me
again.
"I have something that I haven't been telling you
either," she said. By the way it came out, it sounded
like she was about to make a big confession.
"It's ok. You don't have to tell me if you don't want
to," I lied. Part of me felt betrayed that something big
happened to Jenny and she didn't tell me. Though I also
realized she must have felt the same about me not
telling her about my parents.
"I want to, and I don't know why I didn't. Especially
because it has a lot to do with you," she said. It was
dark, but by the tone of her voice I knew she was
smiling.
"What is it?" I asked. I tried to sound calm, but
something about what she said made me feel excited. I
had never thought about it before, but having an effect
on Jenny's life made me happy. I tried to figure out
what it might be. I thought about the striptease Jenny
had done for me, what had happened in the back of her
father's pickup truck, and how she had been willing to
kneel in front of me earlier tonight.
Suddenly, it hit me. Jenny was in love with me, the way
my parents were in love. She had even inadvertently told
me so the night before our trip to the construction
site. My heart began to flutter. I had only ever thought
of her as a friend before, but in a flash I realized
that I wanted her to love me more than anything else. As
much as a ten year old could imagine, I wanted her to be
my wife.
"Well," Jenny said. "When you gave me the pom-poms on my
birthday, I was a little bit upset. I mean, I really
wanted to be a cheerleader someday, but I was sad that
I'd have to wait two years until we were in junior high.
But when I did those cheers for you…"
Jenny paused, but I gently coaxed her to finish.
"Cheering for you gave me the confidence to ask my
father if he could find some place for me to cheer. So
this fall, I'm going to be cheerleading for the town's
pee-wee football team!" she exclaimed.
At first I waited for her to say more, but soon realized
that her secret had been spoken. Jenny didn't love me.
My pom-poms had just made her realize how much she
wanted to be a cheerleader. I wanted to be with Jenny,
but knew I never would be. My heart was broken, but I
managed to tell her that I was very happy for her.
Then something happened that confused me more than
anything that had happened over the last few days. Jenny
closed her eyes and leaned towards me. She wiggled a
little closer stretched her neck and kissed me on the
lips. It was just a kiss on the lips, but it lasted
longer than it should have—or at least it felt like it
should have.
Even in the darkness, Jenny must have known I was
surprised. I'm not sure she knew it or not, but when she
spoke to explain why she kissed me, she confused me even
more that I could have imagined. Pulling me closer, she
let or foreheads touch and said, "I don't want you to
have one of those dreams tonight. But if you do, I want
you to see my face. So just think about that kiss when
you fall asleep."
With that, Jenny rolled over and snuggled back into me.
Almost immediately, I could hear her snoring. I tried to
go to sleep myself, but thoughts of everything that
happened came rushing back. My parents, our fathers'
conversation, and the kiss—I kept coming back to the
kiss. Still trying to figure out what it meant, I
finally drifted off to sleep.
Sometime in the night, I heard a voice gently asking me
to do something. I knelt between a girl's legs and began
to kiss the insides of her bare legs. Her skin was soft,
like a pillow covered in silk. As I kissed my way up she
felt warmer. At her inner thighs it felt hot. When I
finally tasted her, she tasted sweet like the fruit she
was always eating. However, before I could do much, I
felt soft hair touch my face. As I pulled back ready to
see Julia's face, I noticed that the hair wasn't brown.
It was reddish blonde.
Then I was awake in the tent—sweating. I was about to
scream, but caught my breath, which I had never been
able to do before. That relieved me more than I could
have imagined. I wasn't sure if it was Jenny in the
dream, but I knew it wasn't Julia.
The next morning, I didn't say anything to Jenny about
having the dream or it not being Julia. I have no idea
if she knew I was holding back, but for the rest of the
weekend she didn't say anything. The rest of the day we
spent hiking and fishing, so by evening we were both
ready to pass out. We barely had time to talk about
general things before we drifted to sleep.
Sunday morning as we packed up the camp, I realized that
in the two nights together Jenny hadn't wet herself.
* * *
The last few weeks of summer passed quickly. Our mothers
had come back from New York with short haircuts. My
mother had some odd looking clothing that she told my
father she would 'slowly work into the rotation'.
Otherwise, nothing seemed to be different from her trip
with Mrs. Jenkins.
Jenny and I hung out and talked like we always had, but
something felt different. I thought it was because I
realized that my friendship with Jenny had permanently
changed. For four years we had done almost everything
together, but this fall Jenny would be doing an activity
at which I was not welcome. I could go see her
cheerlead, but something told me that I would be jealous
to see her cheering for other boys. I briefly thought
about going out for football, but my mother and father
both said I was much too small.
Jenny's practices began before school started, so she
was gone three evenings a week. On one of them, I was
feeling lonely and need to hide out from my parents. I
still hadn't figured out what feelings were going on in
my head. What did my parents' relationship mean? What
did I feel about Jenny? Did her kiss while camping mean
more than I thought it did? I just didn't know what to
think.
So picking around the basement, I came across a chest
where my father kept some of his old things. I opened it
intending to grab another Hardy Boys book, but saw
something that I found more interesting, an old khaki
uniform and a beat up old book, titled the "Boy Scout
Handbook". Reading it, I was fascinated. There were
sections about first aid, cooking, and camping. Then
there was the part about knot tying and how to build
things with just wood and knots. I was sold. Jenny had
her new activity, and I had mine.
The next week, I was at my first Boy Scout meeting. That
night, I told Jenny all about it an all the interesting
things the boys wanted to do with their lives. Some
wanted to go into the army; some wanted to be lawyers,
some doctors. She could see my excitement and smiled,
then told me about how worried she was about what I
would do while she was cheerleading. After talking for a
while, we just sat there and smiled at each other. It
was a moment that I knew I would cherish forever.
And I did need to cherish it because even though we
still talked at the window every night, with different
activities and new friends, Jenny and I started to grow
apart that fall.
-- end chapter 4--
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