The usual warnings apply. This is an adult story, about an adult topic,
written for adults. If you are too young or prefer not to read this type
of material, then don't. This story contains material of an explicit
nature about the relationship between two children. It is not for
children. Do not try this at home. 
 
Now if you have gotten past the warning, join me as I pull another
fantasy out of that dark place in the back of my mind where I keep all
my fantasies. But this is not really a fantasy. It is based on actual
events that have been fictionalized.This is material that shows I am not
as nice as some would like to believe. This story is a little different
from my others. 
 
Ed's Shame Ch. 4
     by Uncle Sky 
 
Ed shook his head as if to clear it when he realized he had been sitting
on the edge of the bed for some time, reliving the dream and the past it
portrayed. He hated doing it but could not seem to escape it. He felt as
if he was doomed to repeat it over and over in his head. 
 
He stood up and went to splash some water on his face. Then to the
kitchen for a cup of coffee. maybe that would help. But as he made the
coffee he knew it was hopeless. He would finish the dream one way or
another so he might as well sit down and get on with it. There was no
escape from his shame. 
 
Eddie woke up early Saturday morning. His mother had left with her boy
friend Friday evening and he was alone. It seemed very quiet and a
little spooky to him. But this was to be his big day. He had to get
ready and so he got up and went in the bathroom to start preparations.
He showered and shampooed. He brushed his teeth and gargled with
mouthwash. He laid out his clothes that he planned to wear for his date.
He checked each item to be sure it was clean and had no holes or any
rips. 
 
He had picked a simple outfit that was easy to get on and off. He
usually wore jockey shorts but had one new pair of boxer style shorts.
He decided to wear them today. He picked a pair of brown slacks that
were nicely cleaned and pressed. Instead of his normal polo shirt he had
a nice short sleeved sport shirt, with a collar. He wanted to look good
today but not quite "go to meeting" good. 
 
Next he went and made himself some cereal for breakfast. When he
finished he washed the dishes from the night before and breakfast. He
looked around and made sure everything was in tip top order. He went
through the house room by room checking. 
 
In the kitchen again, he looked in the fridge. Damn! No soda. He had
forgotten that. He made a mad dash into his room and put on his play
clothes. He grabbed the money his mom had left him and rushed out to the
corner store. It didn't take long and he was soon back with the soda and
put it in the fridge to cool. 
 
It was getting close to time to leave now so he changed clothes and
brushed his teeth again. After he rinsed one more time with mint
flavored mouthwash he felt he was ready. It was time to leave. He would
get to the theater a few minutes early just to be sure he was there
before Judy. 
 
Eddie paced up and down in front of the movie theater. He was nervous.
What if she didn't show up? What if he couldn't convince her to do what
he wanted? What if she got mad at him and broke up with him? All these
things were running through his mind. Then he stopped. There she was. 
 
Judy was right on time. She was wearing a pretty summer dress. It had
yellow flowers on it. She was smiling as she walked toward him. It made
him feel warm and he smiled back at her. He was afraid to kiss her right
out in the open so he just took hold of her hand and squeezed it. He
felt her squeeze back. She started to move toward the ticket office but
he stopped her. It was time to see if he could get her to go with him. 
 
"Judy, you know I love you, don't you?" She nodded but looked uncertain.
"Well, my mom is gone for the weekend and I have the house all to myself
until Sunday. I want very much to be alone with you. I want to show you
how much I love you with nobody watching. We have so little time
together that I thought it would be nice if I took you to my house. Will
you please come with me?" He held both her hands as he waited for an
answer. 
 
Judy hesitated before answering. She knew what could happen if she
agreed to go with Eddie. He would want to do the things she felt were
wrong. But she loved him and did not want to make him unhappy. She had
told him she would do anything for him and she had meant it. She took a
deep breath and looked him in the eye. He looked as if he were pleading.
She let out her breath slowly and answered him. "Yes Eddie. I'll go with
you." 
 
Judy did not look happy but Eddie did. His face lit up with joy and he
had a smile on it that didn't stop. He turned and started to walk back
to his house pulling her along. He almost wanted to run but Judy was
moving very slowly. If he had looked, and cared, he would have seen that
she was not looking forward to this visit. 
 
As they neared his house Eddie assured Judy that nobody ever noticed who
came and went at his house. His mother worked too much and so she was
not very close to her neighbors. They could walk right in the front door
with no problem. And so they did just that. As soon as he got her inside
and closed the door he took her in his arms and kissed her. He told her
how much he loved her and how happy he was to have some time alone with
her. 
 
Eddie tried to play it cool. He showed Judy around the house. She was a
little nervous when they got to the bedroom but he didn't stop and she
relaxed a bit. He took her to the kitchen and asked if she wanted a
soda. When she said yes he got one out and opened it. he poured it into
two glasses and gave her one. Then he took her in the front room and
they sat down next to each other on the couch. 
 
Eddie let her drink some of her soda and relax for a few minutes. He
talked about how pretty she looked in her dress. He told her he liked
the flowers on it. He told her she was beautiful. He told her how glad
he was to have her for a girlfriend. He showered her with compliments.
She smiled at some of them and even blushed a little once. He held her
hand as he talked, and enjoyed the touch. 
 
After a few minutes, Eddie took her glass and put it with his on the
coffee table. Then he took her in his arms and kissed her. Their tongues
were soon slipping back and forth and tracing each other's lips and
mouths. Eddie broke the kiss and moved to kiss her neck and ear. He
whispered in her ear how much he loved her. He even stuck his tongue in
her ear. She giggled at that. It was something Leroy had told him girls
liked. He nibbled on her earlobe. He kissed her and kissed her again. 
 
Judy had to admit to herself that she liked this part of it. But she was
still a little tense. She knew what was coming and was scared. It didn't
take long before it started. 
 
Eddie put his hand on her chest. He rubbed her nipples and pinched them.
He moved from one to the other as he kissed her. Then he put his hand on
her knee, below her dress. He slid his hand up her leg until he reached
her panties. She held her legs tightly together at first. But as he
pressed between them she allowed him in. He was soon rubbing her pussy
through her panties. He continued to kiss her as he pried the leg band
of her panties up and got his fingers under it. He was touching her bare
pussy now and it frightened her. It did feel nice the way he was rubbing
her but it was wrong and she knew it. 
 
Suddenly Eddie stopped. He pulled his hand out of her panties and sat
back looking at her. She could see that he had something else he wanted
and she was afraid what it might be. But she had made up her mind before
coming that she would do what ever this boy she loved asked of her. 
 
Eddie took both her hands in his. In a soft voice he said, "I want to
look at you." She seemed puzzled. "I want to see your beautiful body
with out clothes covering it up." She swallowed hard and almost started
to cry. There were small tears in the corners of her eyes but he didn't
notice. She just sat there and waited to see what he would do. 
 
When Judy didn't say anything he started to unbutton her dress. It
fastened in the back and had a sash around her waist. He untied the sash
and opened the back of the dress. He slipped it down over her shoulders
and off her arms. He took her hands and lifted her from the couch. As
she stood up the dress fell to the floor. Eddie picked it up and put it
on a chair. He turned to look at her and saw she was wearing a slip
again. He wasn't sure how that would come off so he hesitated. Then he
reached down and took hold of the hem and lifted it up and over her
head. As he did, Judy raised her arms to allow him to get it off. 
 
Eddie put her slip with her dress on the chair and turned to look at
her. She stood there in just her panties, shoes and socks. He could see
now that she had very small puffy bumps under her nipples. They couldn't
be called tits yet but it was a start. She was trying to cover herself
with her arms but he took her hands and held them away from her body so
he could look. 
 
Eddie sat down on the couch and pulled Judy down next to him. He put one
arm around her and leaned in for a kiss. While he kissed her he rubbed
his palm over her nipples. Then he pinched and rolled them between his
fingers. He moved his mouth from her mouth to her chest. He placed
kisses all over her chest finally ending up on one nipple. He licked it
and sucked it while he played with the other one. He was in heaven. Judy
wasn't. He wasn't hurting her physically but he was hurting her. 
 
Eddie was oblivious to her feelings. He was too wrapped up in his own
pleasure. When he decided he had played with her nipples enough he
backed off. He reached down and one by one took off her shoes and socks.
This was it. The only thing she was wearing now was her panties. They
were cotton and had little yellow flowers on them like her dress only
smaller. He thought they were cute and told he so. She didn't smile. 
 
He pulled her up on her feet again and placed his hands on her hips.
Tucking his fingers in under the elastic of her panties he began to take
them off. Down they went over her hips and then her thighs. Past her
knees and down to her ankles. He raised first one foot then the other
and took the panties off completely. He threw them over on the chair
with the rest of her clothes. Now she stood naked before him. He
couldn't breath for a minute. It was what he had been waiting for. 
 
Again Judy was trying to hide her nakedness. But he would not let her
and she gave up. She would let him do what ever he wanted to do. She
sighed as he took her in his arms and kissed her again. He ran his hands
all over her back and her bottom and chest and ended with his hand on
her pussy and a finger between her pussy lips. He stroked her pussy for
a few minutes and then stopped. He stepped back again and looked at her.
He wanted more. 
 
"I want you to see me too. I want you to undress me. Please." 
 
Judy didn't say anything. She just stepped forward and started to
unbutton his shirt. She was nervous and fumbled a lot. But she got the
shirt off, then his pants and finally his shorts. As she lowered his
shorts she was right in front of his dick. She had never really seen one
before. She had heard that they were big but his didn't look too big. It
was sticking out in front of him, hard and bouncing up and down. She
could see his balls under his dick too. They looked like a little bag
hanging down. She waited to see what he would do next. 
 
Leroy, it turned out, did not know as much as Eddie thought. And so once
he had Judy naked and was naked himself, Eddie was not sure what to do
next. He had been told how to fuck but not much else. So he had Judy lay
down on the couch and felt all over her body. He touched every part of
her with a very soft touch. If Judy had not been so scared she might
have admitted that it felt kind of good. 
 
Eddie leaned down and licked her nipples. Then he kissed his way down
her tummy, past her navel and to her mound. She was hairless and smooth
at her age. He kissed her all over her pussy and stuck a finger in the
hole he found at the bottom of her slit. He felt the slippery juice that
was coming from her pussy. He used it to wet that bump he had felt at
the top of the pussy and rubbed it lightly. She still didn't smile but
she wiggled her hips a little. Eddie even reached under her and felt of 
her ass cheeks. He slid his finger down the crack of her ass but was not 
sure about touching her ass hole so he skipped that. 
 
After a while Eddie got tired of kissing and licking her and stopped.
Judy thought maybe it was over. She was wrong. Eddie had her sit up and
he took her place on the couch. Now he asked her to do the things to him
that he had done to her. Still not happy but determined to do what he
wanted, she began to caress his body. She kissed his nipples just like
he had done to hers. She ran her hands all over his body in soft
touches. She wanted to avoid it but could not so she kissed her way down
his belly to his crotch. She kissed all around it and finally put her
hand around his dick and squeezed it gently. He moaned. 
 
Eddie had kissed all over her pussy and now he had asked her to do the
things to him that he had done to her. She didn't want to but she felt
he would be unhappy if she failed to do everything he wanted. So she
bent down and kissed his dick. She kissed the tip and then down the
side. She kissed his balls and his thighs. She kept a firm hold on his
dick as she placed kisses all over the front of his body. 
 
She stopped for a moment to think. Had she done it all? No. He had
rubbed in the slit of her pussy. But he didn't have one. She thought for
a second and then decided what to do. She started to rub his dick very
gently. He moaned again and reached down to her hand. He put his hand
over the one she had on his dick and slowly moved it up and down. The
skin was loose and slipped over it as she moved her hand. He seemed to
like that so she continued. All the time she was doing it she was
kissing his belly and balls and every once in a while his dick. 
 
Eddie was having the time of his life. She had kissed his dick and was
jacking him off. He wanted to fuck her but was too caught up in what was
happening. He just let her continue as he moaned and pushed his dick up
into her hand. It didn't take long. Suddenly with no warning he started
to cum. He was young and so he didn't have much but he did squirt a
couple of times. It was so sudden that it surprised him. But it scared
Judy. She looked petrified and jumped up with cum all over her hand. 
 
Eddie explained that it was OK and normal. He told her she could go wash
it off in the bathroom. While she was gone he wondered if he was still
going to be able to fuck her. He was sure at this point that she would
let him. But could he do it after what had just happened? As he sat
there wondering, the phone rang. 
 
The phone scared the shit out of him but he ran into the next room to
answer it. It was his mother calling to see if everything was OK. He
told her it was and that he was reading when she called. She told him
they would be back Sunday as planned and that he should be good and get
some sleep and a bunch of other mom stuff. He thought she would never
say goodbye but she finally did. Boy would she be mad if she could see
him and what he had been doing. 
 
After he hung up the phone Eddie went back into the living room. Judy
was not there. He thought she must still be in cleaning off his cum. He
waited for a bit then realized something. Her clothes were missing. He
had not noticed but they were not on the chair where he had put them. He
ran into the bath room and then looked all over the house. She was gone.
His chance to fuck for the first time was gone. But what had happened?
He thought everything was going along fine. Why had she left without a
word? Was she mad? Was she scared by his cum? He thought about getting
dressed and following her home but decided not to. He might be seen and
he didn't want her to get in trouble. He would see her Monday and they
would talk about what happened and he would make her feel OK about it.
He didn't have a clue. 
 
Eddie didn't go out the rest of the weekend. he stayed home and didn't
even call Leroy. He just wanted to think about what had happened and
about how much fun it had been. He even dreamed about it that night and
again Sunday night. 
 
Eddie was feeling strange Monday morning. He felt like something was
wrong but he didn't know what. He went through his normal routine and at
the usual time was waiting for Judy. She didn't come out of her house.
Neither did her mother. He was worried but what could he do? He was not
supposed to go to her house and he hadn't seen her mother leave. That
meant she could still be there. He waited as long as he dared and then
went to school. Judy did not show up that day. Nor the next day. Or the
day after that. In fact she did not come to school all week and when
Eddie went to her house in the morning to wait for her he didn't see
anyone. Not Judy and not her mother. He was really worried now. 
 
Saturday morning rolled around and Eddie was still not sure what had
happened. He gave it a lot of thought and decided to go over to Judy's
house and see if she was home. If her mother came to the door he planned
to say that they had missed Judy in school and wondered if she was sick. 
 
He almost ran all the way to her house. When he got there he knocked on
the door. There was no answer. He tried again. Nothing. He knocked
louder. No answer but he heard a noise. He turned and saw a lady coming
out of the house next door. She was looking at him and came over to see
what he wanted. He told her he was a friend of Judy and was looking for
her. The lady looked surprised. "If you are a friend then you should
know. They moved away very suddenly last monday." With that she turned
and went back into her own house. 
 
Eddie went home. He was very upset and sad but his mother couldn't get
him to say why. He stayed home most of the time except for school. He
didn't even see or talk to Leroy. He was crushed and didn't know what to
do. Nobody could or would tell him what had happened to Judy and her
mother. He never did find out. 
 
Time heals all wounds they say and such was the case with Eddie. He
missed Judy a lot. But he got on with his life. He just didn't have a
clue what had happened. 
 
Eddie never did have another girlfriend in school. He wasn't popular and
the girls didn't like him. He just plodded through school wishing it
would be over. Year after year was the same. He didn't fit and missed
having a close friend to talk to. For some reason he never did spend any
time with Leroy after that Saturday. He always said it was because Leroy
was bigger and had friends his own age. 
 
One day about four years after Judy went away, Eddie was walking down
the street when he saw a beautiful girl across the street. She looked
like Judy except her hair was nicer and she was wearing makeup. She was
very pretty but Eddie was sure it was Judy. He yelled over to her, "Hey,
Judy." The girl looked at him and kept walking. He called out again,
"Judy, it's me Eddie." He crossed the street to get closer. As he got
near her she stopped and turned. She looked mad as hell. Her eyes were
flashing with her anger. 
 
It was Judy. She pointed her finger at him and yelled as loud as she
could. "You son of a bitch, don't you ever come near me again." And with
that she stomped off down the street. 
 
Eddie was blown away. He couldn't believe what had just happened. Judy
had loved him. Why was she so angry? What had he done to deserve that?
He turned and walked home thinking about it. 
 
As he walked along Eddie thought back over all that had happened between
he and Judy. It took a while but it finally got through his thick skull.
He had destroyed the love of a girl who had nothing else. She had
trusted him and he had taken advantage of her for his own pleasure. He
was ashamed. 
 
Ed sat at his kitchen table and wept. He always did after he had the
dream. He never got over Judy. He thought he had but she always came
back in his dreams to curse at him for what he had done. 
 
And so Ed had lived a lonely and solitary life. He never had a
sweetheart. He never married. He lived alone with his shame. And now
that he was retired he spent much of his time in the parks. He knew why
but would not admit it even to himself. He watched the little girls,
always hoping to find Judy. The little girl he had loved though he
didn't know it. The little girl whose body he remembered in detail to
this day. The little girl with the bright smile and the pretty dress
with yellow flowers and panties to match. 
 
He saw many little girls that reminded him of his lost Judy. He never
touched them or even got near them. But he watched. Carefully, he
watched, in shame. 
 
The end 

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