His Victim
By Masoman
I met this guy
on the net who seemed interested in my dark proposition. Many
freaks had answered my add and visited my site and offered their
services, but one guy stood out. He had the same dark desires to
inflict mayhem on a human body as a sadist matching my own masochistic
wishes. This is the story of how we met, the contract and my
death.
Six months before, I had been given a death sentence
by my doctor. I had inoperable pancreatic cancer and had only
one year to live. I had always been into BDSM and pain, but I
didn't relish being slowly eaten away by this disease and dying in
ceaseless agony. I began to devise a method of suicide to include
my extremely ghoulish and gory dreams and feel my death on my
terms. I wanted a few hours or days of incredible violence with a
final bloody and horrible ending that sane people can only imagine in
their nightmares. If I was successful, I would be able to carry
this out myself, but I soon realized that I might lose consciousness
and be saved. I finally decided to find the right type of
help.
There are so many sadists on the web out there in
the sick world of cyber perverts who would be more than willing to have
a willing body to abuse and torture. I simply had to weed out the
fakers and fools from the rest. I didn't want to be a slave, I
wanted to be the willing participant in a wild and brutal execution at
the hands of a truly evil man. I had some very specific wishes
for the violence against my body and I knew my executioner would have
his own fetish for pain.
The ad was simple: Needed: a special man or woman
capable of extreme violence and torture to help a true masochist end
his life over 24 hour period in a way fitting of medieval times.
A contract will be written to satisfy both my needs and yours. If you
have what it takes, I will be your victim. I can travel and
disappear, leaving no trail to you. The subject here is gore,
blood, and consensual snuff. Serious offers only.
You
would not believe how many freaks wrote to me offering their own
demented take on this. Most, if not all, wanted to have me for
months and endlessly torture me if for no other reason than to inflict
pain. That is not what I wanted. I wanted pain, mind you,
but sudden violent bloody pain in vicious attacks both by my hand and
my executioner until, after some hours, I give the word for him/her to
finish me in a way so gruesome as to drive most men insane.
After much weeding out, I settled on one man in the
out west who seemed sincere in his desire to help me and also evil
enough to handle what be required. My executioner would have to
be cold blooded and be able to freely inflict pain and then finally end
my life without the slightest hesitation or feeling. He would
have to be a wanton murderer. Jack was such a man. He sent
me some pics of some of his work. They were real. He had
obviously done this before with both willing and unwilling souls.
The scenes were brutal and gory in nature with dismembered parts,
gutted corpses and pools of blood. He was in every shot and I had
no doubt these were real. I had never seen such violence
committed on the human form other than war scenes. Jack was head
and shoulders above the other pretenders out there who vied for my body.
We talked endlessly about his past and mine and how
I wanted to die. He had many incredible ideas more horrifying
than even I'd imagined. He really wanted to whip and beat me for
some time before getting on to more lethal attacks on my body. I
wanted to indulge his dark desires as well as my own so I agreed to his
terms.
I wanted to take an active part in this final
episode of my life and death and we came up with a plan where he would
slowly torture me as he wished until I could take it no more and then
I'd be handed a
knife. The torture would only stop when I used the knife on my
own body. He would choose how the knife would be used. At
that point my desires would be quenched until I was unable to go
on. Then and only then, he would proceed to some truly horrible
acts of violence to include; dismemberment, gutting, sexual mutilation,
etc. I
liked that since I've always fancied being stabbed to death and hara
kiri is my favorite form of suicide. We could easily combine our
demented desires.
Jack was my dark soul mate. He was my twin in
his dark desire to have me as a victim. He said it was so
difficult to find people like me who are either terminally ill or who
have a fantasy role play desire and don't realize his part is
real. They discover too late that he is a murderer and not a man
to be tempted with such powerful feelings. The murderous rage is
what I'm looking for. Few have what it takes to be Jack or to be
me. My fate was sealed by my disease. I had no choice, but
to live out this final desire or to die a long slow horrible death.
We decided on mid June as a good time. It
would be warm and where he lived, there would be no one to discover us
during these final hours of my life. Jack had a 1000 acres of
desolate
property. He had a place specially laid out for his many victims
and perversions. I would be tied to a tree early in the day and
be totally immobilized, but with both arms free. I would be
naked, of course. He would then begin to beat me lightly at first
and then with more and more ferocity. This would not be my
favorite part, but as a compromise, I agreed. After a time, he
would pull out a large bull whip and threaten me with it.
He would hold up a large knife and say, "If you do not agree to
use this as I say, you will be whipped to death."
The sound would be enough to frighten anyone. Without warning, he
would snap the whip at my body and I'd yell in pain as my flesh burned
red from the leather. I would be like so many British sailors
being flogged until I could not take it anymore.
I said to him, "You can't force me to kill myself."
The whip again hit my tender skin over and over again. Each time
I'd flinch from the searing pain. After repeated hits to my body, the
blood began to ooze from the wounds. It was horrible and I
couldn't take it anymore, but I wasn't sure if I could really stab
myself as he wanted. I cried out in pain from the next hit.
He would then ask, "Are you ready to use this knife as I've asked you
to do?"
I just looked at him in misery and with flailed skin and said in a
raspy voice, "Please give me the knife. I can't take it anymore."
He smiled and handed the knife to my already bloodied hand. I had
tried to fend of the whip with my arms, but now they were torn up. He
must have whipped me two or three dozen times. As I held the
knife, he told me to thrust the blade into my gut as deeply as I could
and let it remain inside me. I knew I'd be dead soon no matter
what, but in my perverted haze, I wanted to experience many kinds of
murder and suicide in these final hours. I could only imagine
what the pain would be like as the blade entered my body. I
cringed and shook as I held the knife high. He threatened me with
the whip and told me to hurry.
Suddenly, I found a new strength and the fear went away. I
slammed the knife into my gut to the handle with one savage
thrust. I immediately let go and screamed in a horribly painful
yet gratified growl. I looked down to see all six inches inside
me. I could not believe the site. My gut was on fire and
the whipping was now a faded memory. I looked at Jack and he was
amazed. He had always committed the acts of violence, never
before having one of his victims do this.
We both smiled and then the reality set in as the fire in my belly
grew. My head drooped and I placed my hand on the handle.
He whipped my again and again saying, "Pull it out and do it
again."
I looked at him in disbelief, but pulled on the knife just the
same. It eased out as I screamed and the wound closed, leaving
only a bloody slit to ooze both blood and some clear fluid from my
intestines. I held the knife up again and looked at him.
Before he could raise the whip, I fucked my body with the knife more
viciously than before and tore into my right side. I again let go
in pain and my body drooped against the ropes unable to move. I
felt the whip hit me over and over again, I could barely look up
at Jack. Suddenly he pulled out the knife and I felt his hands on
my genitals.
"You promised to do this for me." he said. I just looked at him
and smiled, but he knew I was too weak to do it.
I just looked at his face as I felt the knife push up under my balls.
As he held my scrotum, he quickly slashed the knife across the thin
sack and with that, my testicles were on the ground. I looked
down to see him now holding the knife tightly under my penis. It
was semi erect and I cursed at him. In one smooth slice, my cock
was free from my body in his hand and held up for my eyes to see.
I was no longer a man or even a viable body. I now longed for death,
but there was one more move.
As my body bled in pain and the shear horror of this moment, Jack did
as we agreed and pulled out a small butchering knife and looked at
me. I just nodded and smiled. We both looked down at my
midsection. He slowly pushed the blade into my right side and
gave it a firm tug to the left starting a large gash across my belly.
"Are you ready to die John?" he asked.
"Open me up and let me die." was my final reply.
He forcefully pulled the knife all the way across my body and then up a
little as the hara kiri book teaches. He just stood back and
watched as my belly opened up on its own. A great deal more blood
and then clear fluid poured out followed by the first view of my
insides. I felt only a tugging and then I opened up all the
way. It was as if my entire insides spilled out over my groin,
down my legs and onto the ground. Only a peice of bloody sausage
looking strand of my intestines hung to my body.
Jack really got off on this scene and watched intently as my body
slowly died and bled to death. We really did it. I died the
way I wanted in control and with the type of pain and horror I
craved. I gave Jack something special also. He was a sadist
and derived great satisfaction from this.
I hope you have enjoyed this and can
help me find this kind of satisfaction.