Punk Rock Girl - The School Dance – Ch-2
Mm/f, nc, humil, exhib

By She Cries
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     No one really understood why the line was moving so
slow until Marsha Bradshaw stormed out of the side doors to
the gym, screaming curses.
     In front of me in line were a cluster of seniors;
cheerleader types, popular, chesty, shapely, beautiful, and
full of nothing but disdain for me.  They called out to
Marsha, one of their ilk concerned for her behavior.
     Marsha stomped over to them, a tear smearing her make-
up, “They searched me, right in front of everyone.”
     “They search everyone.” One of the twittering girls
chimed.
     Marsha was wearing a gaudy green satin gown, a horribly
overdone thing with sequins and lace.  It was rumpled and
disheveled.
     “It was totally humiliating.  They gave me two days
suspension.”
     A round of muttering went through the group and the
people standing in line.
     Suddenly it was alike a micro-exodus.  More than a
dozen students stepped out of line and made their ways back
to the parking lot, a pair of girls, a guy and his date, a
couple of Marsha’s friends took her by the arms and started
drawing her back to the end of the line, where Marsha spied
me,
     “What are you looking at you little bitch.”
     I bit back a retort.  I didn’t want a fight right then.
I wanted them to leave so I could go back to having
fantasies about staying in the car with Wade.  I looked
deliberately to the front of the line, trying to pretend to
myself that I wasn’t getting obsessed with the man.
     Probably sneaking alcohol into the dance, I guessed.
I’d never been to one before, and didn’t really understand
all the school rules and restrictions.  There had been a
flyer distributed at the beginning of the school year that
had created a bit of controversy about the dress code, but
back then I never imagined I’d be invited to a dance, so I
threw it away and didn’t think about it any more.
     Still, I couldn’t imagine getting two days suspension
for a dress code violation.  Besides, Marsha looked pretty
typical for girls who took Homecoming dances way too
seriously.
     I wanted to ask someone if they knew what was up, but
all around me the kids were older, squarer, or just people
I’d come to regard as dicks and cunts.  There was no one I’d
be willing to admit my ignorance too, and decided since I
wasn’t doing anything illicit that I really didn’t have
anything to worry about.
     It was shortly after Martha had called me a bitch that
I saw Mr. Christiansen, the vice-principal come running out
of the gym after her.  He caught up and almost had to drag
Marsha back into the gym with him.
     The damage had been done, however, and I saw a pair of
boys dumping out bottles behind some bushes.  One girl
actually appeared to be changing behind a low wall while her
boyfriend stood guard.
     The school apparently was doing some kind of a sting on
their students, and Marsha had let the cat out of the bag.
     I was really close to the front by now, so I figured it
wasn’t worth it for me to step out of line to find out more.
Besides, having stood under the scrutiny of my peers for the
past fifteen minutes, comments about my dress, my boots, my
hair, my piercings, and whatever else they could come up
with, I was just about ready to lose myself inside the gym,
ideally to find a dark corner with Alan where he hopefully
wouldn’t make a pass at me, because I’d be pissed if he took
advantage of the rise his brother had gotten out of me.
     Not that I was going to tell him about that, but I’d
still be pissed at him.  I was already pissed that I had to
stand out here alone.  That boy had some serious atonement
to do.
     Behind me a gaggle of boys, all on the Junior Varsity
team, proudly displaying their jerseys moved up as the
couple behind me made a hasty departure after Mr.
Christiansen went back inside with Marsha.
     Among them was Jerry Robbins, a tall, muscular jock
from my PE class: “Hey Ariel, like that skirt, did you get
it at the circus?”
     I just scowled at him.
     His friend, a tall, lanky fellow with short, choppy
hair leered at me, “How come you're alone?  You don’t think
anyone’s going to ask you to dance.”
     I growled at him, “Actually I came with your dad, but
he stopped to pick up a hooker on the way.”
     Unable to contain his shock the boy’s face instantly
transformed into a scowl of rage, “You little bitch, if we
weren’t at school I’d slap the shit out of you.”
     I turned away, “If that’s what gets your rocks off.” It
was weak, but it was the best I could do.  He was really
scaring me.
     But then one of the guys started playing Good Jock,
“Hey, don’t mind him, he’d just a dick.”
     I looked up at the stocky boy, his face, like mine,
pocked with acne, but otherwise pretty handsome (though he
had this weird, curly helmet hairdo).  “What do you want?”
     He reached out to put a hand on my arm; I pulled back,
“Easy, I’m just trying to apologize for him.”
     “Apologize for yourself.”
     “Hey, I’m not the bad guy here.”
     He had to shut up as the doors opened to admit another
group of students.  It looked like they were letting in
about five or six at a time.  We all moved forward the
requisite seven or eight feet, then milled about as we
regrouped in line.
     “Look,” he was back, “I’m just trying to say you
intimidate people, and… He doesn’t mean it.”
     “I intimidate people?”  I turned to face the boy.
“You’re smoking crack.”
     “Hey Bill,” one of the Junior Varsity boys called from
his cluster of friends, “You’re not trying to make it with
her, are you?”
     He gave his friend a grin, and waved his hand as if
swatting his friend away. “Just ignore them.” He said in a
low tone to me.
     But Jerry made that difficult, “Trying to score with a
punk chick is like trying to get drunk on fucking wine,
man.”
     The five other junior varsity players stared blankly at
him, as did I while we all tried to discern what the hell
his analogy meant.
     He stammered out an explanation, “Like, it’s easy, but
who’d want to.”
     After another pause the boys burst out in a sort of
forced laughter, peering at me as if they expected me to
cringe or start crying.  I just rolled my eyes.
     “Look at her, Bill.” Another guy, a short, dumpy junior
named Ronnie snarled, “She’s throwing herself at you.”
     “Eat shit, Ronnie.” I barked, “You’re letting your
masturbational fantasies delude you.”
     Ronnie stomped up to me, “I wouldn’t fuck you if you
were the only slut in school.”
     “I’m not a slut!” I snarled, punching him in the chest.
     The shithead made that annoying “ooooh” sound, “I’m so
scared,” He said to his laughing friends, “How come you
always dress like a whore, Ariel?” he sneered, making a
taunt the way he said my name.
     I was shaking with so much anger that I could barely
stop from attacking the fucking prick.  I don’t know why I
was so fucking mad, in school I was usually a lot better at
letting this kind of shit slide off my back, but Ronnie in
particular had a knack for getting right under my skin.
     Bill, still playing Nice Jock, stepped in between me
and his friend (who was about an inch from death).  “Hey,
leave her alone.”
     Jerry didn’t feel like it though, and though he stood
well away from me he said, “Shit Bill, why kiss her ass?
Just pull out your dick, that’s all she’s after.”
     Bill turned to me with a friendly, apologetic look on
his face, but I could see the pleasure in his eyes, and how
much he enjoyed playing the part.  I bet he actually got
some this way.  He opened his mouth, but I cut him off.
     “Go on, Bill.  Let’s see it.”  I gestured at his
crotch.
     “Don’t listen to them.” He tried to sound soothing.
     “Look, Bill, if I don’t get some dick soon I’m just
gonna explode, so how about it?” It was much easier, I knew,
to attack Bill than Ronnie or Jerry, who I was really angry
at, but I just couldn’t help myself from going after his
disingenuous nice-boy act.
     The boy was decidedly uncomfortable.  He glanced back
at his friends who were plainly trying to figure out what
I’d do next.
     I tilted my head, giving Bill a piteous look, “Aww,
what’s the matter Bill?  Performance anxiety?”
     They’d all taken sex ed by now, and burst out in
laughter at the expense of their friend, who blushed
furiously, trying hard not to scowl, or lash out at me.  The
reaction was immensely satisfying, almost enough to make me
forget how incredibly horny I still was, amazingly; an
uncomfortable situation that was not improved by the boys’
taunting.  I felt like the slut they were accusing me of
being considering the way I’d acted earlier--not that I’d
ever condescend to letting any of them know it, much less
let them actually come into physical contact with me.
     Bill still hadn’t turned to face his laughing friends,
“You know, you’d make a lot more friends if you weren’t such
a bitch.”
     I put my hands on my hips, “And dressed normally, got a
perm, took out my piercings, listened to top 40 music, and
went out with a football player like you, right?”
     He’d had enough.  Mumbling “bitch” under his breath he
walked back to his friends, making some sly insult which I
didn’t catch, but left me seething as they gave me knowing
glares, sharing their inside joke about me.
     I turned away as the line moved forward.  I was almost
inside.  A couple of girls were ahead of me, the ones who
hadn’t ducked out of line when Marsha appeared, and another
guy and his girlfriend, so I was probably going in with the
next batch.
     I jumped suddenly, realizing that Ronnie was standing
right behind me.
     “What do you want, freak.” I demanded.
     “That’s something coming from you.”
     I just stared at him, backing up as much as I could
without bumping into the cheerleaders ahead of me in line.
He was the same height as me when I had these boots on, and
we glared at each other eye to eye.
     “Is it true you got your clit pierced?” Ronnie asked,
leering.
     “You’re a fucking creep.” I said, glancing at the
cluster of boys a few feet back, knowing they knew what he
was asking me.
     “That’s not saying no.” the stubby football player
insisted.
     “Yeah, it’s pierced, I got a railroad spike right
through the hood.”
     He lowered his voice, “You’re a trashy little whore,
aren’t you?”
     “Eat me.” I snarled in an equally low voice.
     “Maybe, if you paid me.”
     I rolled my eyes, “So I’d have to pay you for sex, but
I’m the whore?”  That brought some odd stares at me from the
girls ahead of me in line.
     Fuck them, I thought, but I had to look away.
Unfortunately Ronnie was still there.  Worse, Jerry had
joined him.
     “This slut’s gonna pay you to fuck her?”
     Ronnie nodded, “That’s what she said.”
     “Fuck off.” I stated, turning my back on them.
     “She said she’ll pay me to eat her out.”
     I ignored Ronnie.
     “Better get her checked out.  She’s probably got herpes
and shit.”
     I tried to ignore Jerry.
     Ronnie gave me a nudge.  It was a weird nudge.  He
nudged me by shoving his crotch at my butt.  I froze, “Hey,
you wanna go down to the creek with me and Jerr?”
     “Fuck off.” I repeated, repulsed at the suggestion.  He
sounded dead serious.
     Jerry quickly jumped on that one, “Come on, I know you
put out.”
     I glared at him, “I don’t put out.”
     “Come on, just the three of us.”
     I wanted to get away from Ronnie pressing himself
against me, but that meant stepping out of line or running
into the bitch cheerleaders in front of us.  I gritted my
teeth and waited.  I tried to ignore him but my mind kept
wandering to Wade, and his hands, stroking me so mercilessly
in the car – not where I wanted my mind at that point in the
night.
     Ronnie decided to press his point, “We’ll take real
good care of you.”
     “You’ll have to pay our way into the dance, though.”
Jerry sniggered.
     “Yeah.” Ronnie joined his friend, “And buy us dinner
afterwards.”  His hand was on my waist, exactly where Wade’s
had been when we were alone in my house.  It felt
disturbingly familiar in that regard, and I had to bite,
hard, on my lip to keep from screaming, or worse, gasping.
     “Look at her,” Jerry remarked, peering closely at me,
“She’s totally turned on.”
     “That what you want?” Ronnie asked, whispering in my
ear, his breath hot on my skin, “You want us to take you
down to the creek and fuck your brains out?”
     I could feel his erection bulging against my backside,
but I couldn’t deny that in spite of the fact that even
thinking about sex with these guys made me want to be sick,
I was still as hot as I’d been when Wade was running his
hands over my naked body in the car. Ronnie’s touch, rather
than repulsing me, reminded me of Wade, and how much I’d
wanted it to never stop.
     “That’s why she came here alone,” Jerry remarked, “To
get fucked.”
     “Leave me alone.” I tried to sound stern, but my voice
was weak, and shaky.
     “What have you got on under that costume, Ariel?” Jerry
asked.  Ronnie moved his hand down, slipping it against the
top of the wrap.  I was paralyzed, afraid to react for fear
I’d go completely berserk.
     “Stop it.” But my voice was trembling.  I heard myself
pleading with them.
     “Why fight it?” Ronnie was really pushing hard against
me now.  I felt like I was being raped, right there in line.
“You know you’re a slut.  You know you want a dick.”
     “I’m not a slut,” I blubbered like a simpering little
girl, tears welling up in my eyes, even as I imagined Wade
fondling my breasts, his hot breath instead of Ronnie’s, his
hands probing down into my skirt instead of Ronnie’s.
     “Ten bucks she ain’t got any panties on.” Jerry
suggested, moving close to me as if he could see by getting
closer.
     Crushed between the two boys I felt Ronnie’s hand slip
further into the wrap.  I felt, rather than heard him say,
“I’ll take that bet.”
     “How about it, slut.”  Jerry prodded.
     “Of course I’m wearing underwear.” I insisted,
hoarsely, the struggle to keep from panting out loud taking
all my control.
     “Split crotch, right.  Or the edible kind?” the asshole
pressed me.
     “N- Normal.  Normal under-“ and I flared up, “It’s none
of your business!”  and I shoved him.
     I couldn’t believe, considering how small I was
compared to him, how hard I seemed to hit him.  Jerry went
tumbling in the grass, laughing out loud.  Ronnie broke off,
also wracked with laughter, as well as all his friends.
“She’s totally turned on!” one of them quipped as I stood
their trembling, humiliated, ashamed under the awful specter
of their mocking laughter.
     As if they had gotten me this way.  Part of me wanted
to cry out that it had nothing to do with them, that they
were disgusting and Wade was beautiful, but I couldn’t give
truth to the lie I told that I wasn’t hot, that I wasn’t
desperately horny, that I wasn’t wearing a hot pink G-string
because it made me feel sexy and trashy.
     I was an inch away from bolting, running off
frantically to go bury my head somewhere and let the tears
flow, let all the shame and pain flow off of me in a great,
cathartic ruin when the door to the gym opened.
     We were next up.
     
     I had quickly daubed my eyes dry with the hem of my
shirt, careful to cover my chest with my arm and my purse
lest anyone see that I was bare underneath but for the wide-
spaced mesh of the dress.
     We were shuffled into the foyer, which was weird since
they let us in by the big double doors for lunch, but I
hadn't been to a dance before.  Inside I saw a pair of
nondescript seniors I didn’t know personally, and the two
cheerleader bitches who had been so kind as to stare at me
with disgust while Jerry and Ronnie taunted me with their
gruesome suggestions of slipping off to the creek, and
myself.
     The guy at the door, another senior, let Bill and
another JV guy squeak in, but tried to stop the rest of
their friends.  They argued with him, stating that they were
all together, and as was I crammed into the tiny room with
the others I had the pitiful realization that I wasn't rid
of the junior football and child molestation league yet.
     The room was about as big as my parents bedroom.
Opposite the entrance there was a frosted glass wall with a
door in it leading too the gym.  On the left side of the
room was another door in the brick wall, and on the right
was a ticket window, but it was dark and blocked off.  The
room was oddly divided by a sort of hospital curtain with a
small table and chair on either side of it.  It parted the
room left and right, and we were lined up as we entered so
we could see both sides.
     The guy who had let us in, Jefferson Walsh, class
president told us to wait for a minute, then left through
the side door.  There were another pair of guys on the left
side of the curtain being patted down by Mr. Schaeffer, the
black, stocky hall monitor who was universally liked and
loathed.  He was immensely likable and very fair, but in
spite of his short stature he was very strong, adept, and
confident.  His presence made me feel infinitely better
almost immediately.
     The music boomed loudly through the glass wall
separating the dance from the foyer, though the bare brick
walls and tile floor of the room echoed loudly enough that
we could hear each other easily.  I looked with apprehension
at the cheesy flashing lights and the vague dim shapes of
dancers beyond the glass.
     Next to Mr. Schaeffer there was an overflowing box of
alcohol, cans of beer, cigarette packs, and other
confiscated party supplies.  Given the size of the box the
sudden dragnet was not all that surprising.  He told the
senior boy at the front of my group to line up next to the
two he was frisking, and made the rest of us to wait in a
line against the wall.
     Naturally the cheerleaders grabbed the only bench in
the room, and I found myself lined up aside the junior jock
league.  To hammer the discomfort home, Jerry cut ahead of
me, and I found myself once again pressed between him and
Ronnie.
     “Look, just don’t.”
     “Don’t what, Ariel.” Ronnie said, innocently slipping
his arm around my waist
     “It’s not funny anymore.”
     “Hey, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make you cry.” Ronnie
said, tugging me in a way that might have been reassuring to
an autistic baboon.  I didn’t fail to notice how his fingers
poked through the holes in the mesh, caressing the bare skin
underneath.  I steeled myself against the feelings coursing
through me.
     “Well that makes me feel a lot better.” I growled at
him.
     “I’m just trying to say we didn’t mean it.” Ronnie said
so looking closely at me that when I turned to look at him
his piggy nose rubbed against mine.  I couldn’t believe that
a man could be so repulsive as this one, his bright, but
menacing eyes, the unibrow, the broad, flat, oily chin.
Everything about him made me want to cringe.  Here he was,
close enough to kiss me and I couldn’t bring myself move.
     “I meant it,” Jerry insisted.  I looked up at the big
boy, leaning on the wall and checking me out.  As if he
really was as disgusted with me as he pretended to be.
     “Whatever.” I said, trying to push Ronnie’s hand off,
but he only slid it further and further down digging his
fingers under the top of my wrap, “Move your hand.”
     “How come you won’t just go with us?”
     I tried to push him away, but Jerry used his shoulder
to pin me to the wall.  The only thing that kept me from
completely panicking was the other people in the room.
They’d never try anything too serious with Mr. Schaeffer
right there.  I contemplated asking him for help, but really
I wasn't willing to deal with the repercussions of that.
I’d squealed once and gotten thrown in the pool in PE.  I
fought my own battles now.
     Ronnie couldn’t seem to navigate any further down, his
fingers caught in the mesh of the dress.  In spite of his
clumsy pawing I found myself once again cringing as the
close proximity of his hand to my butt invigorated the
tingling that had run so rampantly over my body with Wade.
Jerry’s pressure on the other side of me and Ronnie’s hot
breath conspired to engulf me in male heat, breath, the
pressure of his manhood digging into me. My cravings for
Wade's manly embrace were being shamelessly exploited by
these two immature, butt-ugly, assholes (Okay, Jerry wasn’t
ugly, but Ronnie was nasty).  I was breathing shallow, but I
couldn’t keep the faintest of squeaks from filtering through
my lips as Jerry’s tricep rubbed across my rigid, flushed
and sensitive nipple.
     “Please.”
     Jerry couldn’t let that go, “Shit, Ron, she’s beggin
for it.”
     I was getting dizzy and was having trouble breathing,
“Get off me,” I whispered. Once again I struggled with them,
to no avail.  I had no will to struggle and they were giants
next to my strength.  The boys could have laid me down and
slowly undressed me and I'd have let them.  They'd find me
wet and aching for a touch and have no choice but to believe
it was them I wanted.
     All it would have taken was one word.  One cry and
they’d stop for fear of Mr. Schaeffer.  I’d be safe, and
they’d be forced to leave me alone.  But I was just as
scared of all the attention I’d bring.  I was scared that
I’d have to explain myself and the boys would never admit to
their behavior.  I was the school freak.  The girl who
pierced her face, dyed her hair bright orange and wore crazy
clothes.  They’d just reprimand me and send me back into
line.
     Jerry was still looking at me with disgust, as if the
sight of me so excited made him ill, “Admit it, your achin'
for it.”
     “I am not,” I struggled again to dislodge Ronnie’s
hand, but he only fought me with more unbearable pressure,
pushing his hand further down till his fingers were
straining the fabric of the dress.  I felt a tentative index
finger touching the cleft of my buttock and had to bite my
lip as spasms in the pit of my belly threatened to buckle
me.  In spite of all my efforts I let out a high, extended
squeak between my teeth with every gasp of air I took,
drawing looks from everyone in line.
     “I’ll bet you anything,” Jerry leaned down, his breath
cascading over the side of my face, “That you’re wet as my
balls after practice.”
     That startled me enough that I quickly jabbed Ronnie
hard in the gut with my elbow and his hand came free.  I
slipped out from underneath Jerry and scampered a good yard
away before Mr. Schaeffer snapped at me.  “Stop fooling
around, we’re moving as fast as we can.”
     Under the full brunt of Mr. Schaeffer's reprimand I
skulked reluctantly back to the wall.  I tried to insert
myself at the front of the line, but Jerry kept scooting
over until I finally sagged against the wall, hoping it
wouldn’t be much longer before Mr. Schaeffer got around to
searching me so I could go in.
     “Why won’t you admit you want to fuck us?”  Jerry
whispered towered over me.  He got so close that my forehead
grazed his sternum as I looked up at him.  He was so
incredibly bulky that I couldn’t see around him, though he
wasn’t as big as the three seniors, nor Mr. Schaeffer.  “How
many guys you fucked.”
     I glared at him, aware as I met his stare that Ronnie
was once again closing the gap between us, “None.”
     “Bullshit.” He said too loud, then looked around the
room and spoke to me in a lower voice, “Your aching to be
fucked, I can tell.  So can Ronnie.”
     I imagined Ronnie nodding behind me, and as if by some
premonition I shot a hand back and intercepted Ronnie’s just
before he grabbed my ass.
     “Jerry, Ronnie,” I said, looking Jerry in the eye.
“I’m not a slut, I’m a virgin.  I’m not wearing edible
underwear, split crotch, or anything remotely kinky.  I
don’t want to fuck you because I don’t put out, and I don’t
find you, or this slug,” I squeezed Ronnie’s fingertips
hard, “remotely attractive.”
     Jerry maintained his self-assured, smug grin, but I
could tell by his stammering silence and shifting eyes that
I had seriously compromised whatever strategy he’d had in
mind to embarrass me, and he simply couldn’t think anything
up in return.
     Ronnie, however, was much cleverer than his friend,
“Tell you what.” He pulled his hand free, and I turned,
leaning my back against the wall and looked at him.  He
leaned in close, but he didn’t try to grab me again, “I’ll
bet, anything you want, that you are wearing something
naughty under that dress, you are hot and bothered, that
you’re so wet Jerry and I could fuck you without any
foreplay, and you’d beg for more.”
     I was actually prepared for him to go on, but I simply
couldn’t respond with an appropriate denial, since aside
from the last two points, he was absolutely spot on.  I was,
in fact wearing a hot pink satin G-string, and I was
desperately horny, no thanks to these two goons.  “I told
you, I’m a virgin.” was all I could think to say, crossing
my arms.
     He ignored it, probably recognizing the diversion for
what it was, “If I’m right, you have fuck us, any time we
want for the rest of the school year.”
     I glanced at him in disbelief and disgust, “Oh, what an
appealing offer.”
     He grinned, “If I’m wrong, we promise, all of us,” he
gestured to the other football players who were watching
their friend with interest as he rose his voice, “that we’ll
never make fun of you again, we’ll stick up for you no
matter what, and anyone fucks with you we’ll waste’em on the
spot.”
     I could almost laugh at the absurdity of the bet.  As
if they’d be capable of holding up the bargain, much less
intended too.  The only thing that kept me silent for too
long was that I might actually lose the bet given the
condition I was in.
     I gave a mock ‘Hmmmm.’ for a long second, then said,
“Tempting, Ronnie, really it is.  But considering that I’d
have to take off my dress, spread my legs for you, and fuck
you and the big asshole over here just to prove that you’re
wrong, I think I’ll pass.”
     He shrugged, “You only have to hike up that skirt, and
I lose the bet.”
     I had a sneaking suspicion that Ronnie had felt a
little more than the cleft of my ass while he was digging
around down there.  Still, as if I’d ever give him a peek.
     “In your dreams.”
     “We’ll all know in a minute.” He grinned menacingly at
me, and I saw the determination in his eyes.  I got really
scared.
     “No fucking way am I ever going to-“ but I was cut off.
     Mrs. Dee walked in.  She was a short woman, not much
taller than me, but she has a very exotic quality in spite
of her simple attire of jeans and a black button-down long-
sleeve shirt.  She was the tannest woman I’d ever met, and
her jet black hair had these very neat strands of gray
white, which offset the tan.  It didn't make her look old,
but exotic.  She was in her late thirties, and had a lot of
crow’s feet and deep laugh lines, though they were from
frowning as much as laughing, as she was as stern with
students as a teacher got.  As liked and admired as Mr.
Schaeffer was in spite of his role as disciplinarian, Miss
Dee was reviled as queen bitch of the universe by anyone
unfortunate enough to have had her science class, including
myself.  She was also strikingly beautiful for a woman as
old as she.  She had a perfect bosom, and many boys hovered
over her desk to see her cleavage showing through the
buttons of her shirts, or followed her down the halls on
days she wore heels to watch her hips swing back and forth.
     “Whattaya say?” Jerry grilled me, whispering, “Take the
bet, or what?”
     “I said no.”
     “Then admit you’re a slut.” Ronnie drove me.
     “I’m not a slut.”
     “Admit it, or take the bet.”
     “I’m not going to admit anything.” I whispered harshly
at the ugly troll.
     “All right, so you take the bet.”
     “I didn’t say that.”
     Jerry stuck up for his friend, “You said it.”
     “I didn’t say anything.”
     “You took the bet.”
     I glared at Ronnie, “No-“
     “A deal’s a deal.” He grinned at me, but before I could
respond Mrs. Dee was barking orders.
     “Mr. Schaeffer, Mr. Christiansen had to go after Marsha
again, can you take over for him.”
     “You sure, you got a lot of boys here.”
     “I can handle them.” She fixed the football players
with a glare, and I was delighted to see the lot of them
cringe.
     She pointed at the three seniors Mr. Schaeffer had just
searched, “Just wait there until Mr. Schaeffer comes back.”
     One of them protested, but she shut him up with a
glance.  They lined up against the wall on their side of the
curtain.  She pointed to the three girls on the bench.
“Let’s make this quick.  Behind the screen.”
     Behind the screen didn’t mean much because where we had
lined up was in full view of the stations behind both
screens.  The football players crowded in, pushing me over,
to get a better look behind the girl’s screen.
     Mrs. Dee had the girls lean against the screen and sat
at the table with her back to us.  “Okay.” She said,
“Names.”
     The three girls rattled off their names, which Mrs. Dee
jotted down on a notepad.
     “Are any of you carrying alcohol, cigarettes, weapons?”
The girls all shook their heads.
     Mrs. Dee still hadn’t looked up, “Last chance to throw
anything in the box.  You get detention but you get to go to
the dance.  Anyone lying goes straight home and is
disciplined by Mr. Christiansen.
     None of the girls said anything.
     “Are any of you wearing a thong?”  My mouth fell open.
     The girls all shook their heads, and I felt Ronnie
nudging me hard in the ribs.
     “You are aware it’s a mandatory two day suspension?”
The girls all nodded.
     My heart sunk.  Betwixt burning arousal and abject
terror I found myself trying with all my might to sink into
the wall.  I knew I had to get out of there.  If my parents
found out I’d been to the dance, much less that I'd worn a G-
string to one I’d be grounded for months.  I had to get out
of there, but, as if they’d anticipated me, I found Ronnie
and Jerry’s arms, pinning me between them.  I couldn’t
shriek, for fear of punishment.
     Mrs. Dee got up and efficiently frisked the girls,
standing in line.
     “Let go.” I struggled with the boys.
     “What’s the matter, Ariel, got something to hide?”
Jerry menaced me, but they were far too strong of me and
held me prone.
     What kind of idiotic rule was a no thong policy?  No
wonder there was controversy over the new dress code, the
only way to enforce it was to force girls to bare
themselves.  This was the most unfair thing I’d ever heard
of.
     But before I could come to grips with that implication,
I saw Mrs. Dee sit back down.  She called the first name she
had taken down, “Lift your skirt please.”
     The cheerleader was clearly perturbed by the presence
of the boys, “Mrs. Dee…”
     The teacher snapped, “Please, we have a hundred
students outside.  Don’t give me any attitude.”
     The juniors around me suppressed giggles and snickers
as the senior cheerleader eyed them apprehensively, then
hiked up her skirt.
     Halfway up Mrs. Dee said, “Come around the front.”
     The girl swallowed, “I don’t see why I should have to
do this in front of them.” She pointed at the football
players.
     “Pucker up, Miss James,” she said to the cheerleader,
“It’s nothing they haven’t seen before.”  She hadn’t even
looked up at the boys.
     “Fine.” The cheerleader said, and pulled the dark green
gown up around her waist.
     Atop a very fine, slender set of legs that made mine
look like splintered twigs nonetheless were a very nice pair
of solid red panties.
     “Turn around.” Mrs. Dee ordered.
     She looked like she wanted to howl, but the girl did as
she was told, revealing a very nice, rounded ass, covered
neatly by the panties.  The boys around me observed a
respectful silence in homage to the moment.
     Mrs. Dee repeated the same with the next cheerleader,
who seemed less concerned than her friend with flashing her
baby blue gown up and showing her ass, and then with the
senior who was there with her boyfriend.  The girl was
wearing pants, and Mrs. Dee made her unzip them and push
them down enough to show the underwear.  The panties were
fairly narrow, but not quite a thong: a few inches wide.
Mrs. Dee was not content with this.
     “Push them all the way down.”
     The girl turned to Mrs. Dee, “What all the way?”
     Mrs. Dee sighed, “Just past your butt, Lisa.”
     Lisa fretted a moment, watching all the boys, then did
as she was told.  My heart almost leapt out for her as the
panties came sliding down.  I felt the tension of the men
around me as they caught a glimpse of bare ass before Lisa
caught it and hiked them back up.  Mrs. Dee was as sensitive
as ever.
     “Place your hand in the center.”
     “Why?”
     “Didn’t you read the flyer we handed out at the
beginning of the year?”
     “Of course, but,” Mrs. Dee cut her off.
     “Then you should know that the minimum limit is a
handspan.  Now show me.”
     The girl placed a hand on her butt as the boys around
me held their breath (seen it before my ass).  Her underwear
was within the legal limit.
     A minute later the girl joined the other seniors on the
bench, the three girls looking seriously pissed.  Mrs. Dee
got up and saw the six of them, “I’m sorry.”
     She went to the glass door that led into the dance, and
with her key unlocked it, ushering them into the dance
before slamming it shut on its auto-lock.  I made one last
frantic attempt to escape, but I was pinned by strong hands,
which easily spanned the circumference of my arms.  As Mrs.
Dee passed the curtain back to her table she said, “Who’s
next?”
     She had seen all eight of us, but didn’t even bother to
regard the fact that I was one girl with seven guys.
     The choice was made for me, as Jerry and Ronnie thrust
me forward, and I stumbled up to the table next to Mrs. Dee.
     She fixes me with a glare, “Is there a problem?”
     I shook my head.
     Mrs. Dee hated my guts.  I just knew it.  I was taking
her science class, and was a source of constant disruption
as the more popular boys made fun of me, setting up pranks,
like putting porn printouts in my textbooks, or throwing
things at me from the back of class.  Like most teachers,
Mrs. Dee preferred to blame the victim, rather than the
victimizer.
     I leaned up against the wall, my heart pounding
frantically, my breathing shallow, the pit of my stomach in
knots, but in spite of the terror I felt at the impending
humiliation I was facing, I was aghast to realize that the
sensation was almost exactly like I had felt in the car,
like I had felt in line, like I had felt with Ronnie’s hand
in my skirt.  The only difference was that instead of
euphoria I felt crushing fear.  Either my arousal from the
experience with Wade had completely consumed me, or fear and
passion were mirror images, two sides of the same coin, with
the same consequences, leaving me in a vulnerable,
susceptible state where my mind didn’t want to work.
     Mrs. Dee was glowering at me, “Hello Ariel.” She jotted
my name down.
     “Are you carrying alcohol, cigarettes, weapons?” I
shook my head.
     Mrs. Dee didn’t look up from her paper, “This is your
last chance to throw anything in the box.  You get detention
but you get to go in.” she looked up at me, “You lie, you go
straight home and are disciplined by Mr. Christiansen.”
     I just shook my head.
     “Are you wearing a thong?”
     Automatically I shook my head.
     “In front of the desk.” She ordered.
     I scooted in front of the desk, but I pleaded, “I
can’t.”
     She just looked at me, “Lift your skirt please.”
     “Please,” I begged, “not in front of the boys.”
     “I don’t have time for this Ariel, lift up your skirt.”
     Behind her the football players were jockeying with
each other to get the best view.
     “Don’t you have to search me?”
     “Ariel!  Cut the attitude and do what you’re told!”
     She barked at me while Jerry and Ronnie sniggered.
     “Okay, I-I am wearing a thong.” I reasoned that
admitting it now would be better than having to pull up my
skirt and let the boys see me, than to do it and get
punished anyway.
     “Just show me.”
     “But…” I stammered, “I said-“
     “I heard what you said, girl, I need to see it.”
     “No, I-“
     Mrs. Dee stood up, slamming her notepad on the table,
“Look, I’ll come over there and do it if I have to, but I
have a hundred people outside I need to search, and you are
holding everyone up!”
     I felt tears welling up in my eyes as I hunkered down
to pull the skirt up.  I didn’t know how I was going to do
it.  The combination of the pink material and the ruffled
skirt bunched and gathered and conspired to wind up tight
with the narrow hem of the dress.  It was all I could do to
get it to mid-thigh before it just wouldn’t budge.
     Mrs. Dee lost her patience, “This is ridiculous, come
here.”
     My legs even more constricted than before I hobbled
over to her side of the desk.
     “Face the wall.” I turned to obey, trying not to face
the wall of leering faces a few feet from me.
     Her strong, coarse hands grabbed the wadded cloth and
hiked up, but she had little more success than I had.  I
found myself breathing deep sighs of relief.  I was going to
be spared after all.
     “What the Hell is this contraption you’ve got on,
Ariel?”
     I turned to her, wiping the tears from my face with my
arm, “Just something I put together.” I couldn’t help but
smiling in relief.
     “Are you trying to hide something from me?”
     I shook my head.
     “I’ll find it if you are.  Don’t think I’ll let you get
by without finding it!”
     I shook my head harder.
     “Get in front of the desk.”
     I did as she asked, worried once again.
     “How did you get that thing on, Ariel?”
     “I-I have to step into it, Mrs. Dee.”
     The teacher scowled, “You could have told me that and
saved us a lot of time.”
     “I… I’m sorry.”
     “Yes, you will be.  Just take the thing off.”
     Something inside me seemed to explode.  Violent,
wracking surges of fire and heat seemed to rise up from my
nether region; my skin seemed to tingle with living fire.
Suddenly all I could smell was Wade, his hands seemed to
crawl all over me.  I knew I was going crazy, but just
standing still had become a titanic struggle.
     “No.” I whispered, the effort taking all my strength as
I felt my thighs vibrations rapidly, the steady pulse of my
blood thumping hard in my groin as if I were grinding it
while Wade ran his gentle fingers over my rigid, throbbing,
nipples.  “I can’t.”
     Mrs. Dee sat down, “You’ll do it, or I’ll suspend you
for a month.  You’ll have to repeat sophomore year if you
miss your mid-terms.” …and my parents would kill me
outright, she ought to have added.  I was destitute, gone,
and every smiling leering face beyond Mrs. Dee saw it.  I
saw triumph on Jerry and Ronnie’s vicious, heartless faces.
Another of the boys was visibly stroking himself through his
pants, a vulgar display that no one but myself seemed to
notice.  They were all there, watching, waiting, grinning.
Even Bill looked on, his face a knot of anger which burned
into me, but not as bad as the lascivious glares, hungry for
my total humiliation.
     Feeling as if I were floating on red-hot ice I found
myself pulling my arms inside the shirt, like I’d do if I
were to take off my bra in company.  A sob of pain and
humiliation wracked me for a moment as I pushed the dress
down past my chest, but the sensation of the elastic hemline
scraping over my nipples was electrifying, and that sob was
half pleasure, half pain to my surprise.  I couldn’t be
enjoying this, I thought.  But no matter how much the
arousal churning deep inside me conspired to excite me,
nothing could mask the horror of the reality I was trapped
in.
     As if I was feeling someone else, I felt my hands pull
themselves out of the sleeves and tugging hard on the shirt
lest I flash my chest I re-set my arms through the holes,
though that afforded me little modesty.  She shirt-holes
were cut so low that any sidelong glance would reveal my
flushed bosom and bursting pink nipples, as if they couldn’t
already see them erect through the thin material.
     Mrs. Dee said something, hurrying me on, but it hardly
registered, so lost was I in a haze of shame, humiliation,
and terrified arousal.  The only thing clear to me were the
boys, and they were like crystal.  Every nod, every grin,
every silent high-five, shot straight past my eyes into my
brain, planting it over every memory of Wade until Ronnie
and his friends were the ones pawing at me, running
succulent fingers over my shoulders, Jerry’s mauling fists
tracing circles on my breasts, even my hands vanished, and I
found Ronnie plumbing the depths of my groin as the dress
was pushed past my hips by stubby fingers pleasuring me as
his very real eyes bore into me, his conquest at the height
of my degradation fully revealed.  The only thing that stood
between me and utter exposure was a scanty triangle of shiny
pink fabric, engorged with my untrimmed pubic bush and a
piece of string, less than a pencil thick that ran over my
hips, and down the cleft, into the meager patch that nestled
my sex, undoubtedly drenched with the gushing, flowing
arousal that still consumed me.
     The shock of the cool air struck me like a hammer, and
I wavered in place, but somehow remained standing, the fire
in my belly fighting back with hard knives stabbing through
me.
     “Turn around, Ariel.”
     I did, numbly acknowledging to myself that I no longer
had to face the boys, triumphant in the accuracy of their
predictions.  I was a slut who wore trashy underwear,
incredibly hot and bothered, only a hair’s breadth away from
surrendering utterly to anyone who might get the inclination
to make certain.
     I could only hope as Mrs. Dee and the boys scrutinized
the single pink string wandering down my ass that my bony
hips, my minuscule ass, my knobby knees and elbows, and the
ribs which jutted out of my slender, petite frame would put
off any would be suitors for my virginity.
     Mrs. Dee barked and I turned around again, (my body
seemed to be at Mrs. Dee’s command) I knew that I was wrong.
While some of the boys openly mocked my bony frame with
silent laughter, Ronnie seemed to have no compunction about
gleefully staring me down, in all my bare-skinned glory, and
the boy stroking himself had a partner in crime at the other
end of the line.
     Smaller than any bathing suit I’d worn, maybe more than
Wade had seen below the waist, less fabric than would go
into an ankle sock protected my modesty from these boys.  I
may as well have had nothing on.  Perhaps that I could have
defended.
     All the while my body pulsed with arousal, and I
wondered absently in the recesses of my mind what I must
look like, flushed, breathing hard, my voice squeaking,
sweat beading up on me in spite of the cold so I glistened
like a bodybuilder.  My scent filled the air.  I couldn't
help but imagine that the room full of men must be aware of
how aroused I was.
     I hardly heard Mrs. Dee’s next question, and she had to
repeat it, “I said, are you not wearing a bra?”
     I just shook my head.
     Turn around and take off your shirt.
     I did as she asked without question, glad that my chest
would be protected by my back, but so far gone I hardly
cared.
     A bright flash, then another, and another.  She was
taking pictures.
     “Cover your chest and face me.”
     I had dropped my shirt, so I only had my hands to cover
myself with.  Less than a year ago I’d have been able to
hide my breasts completely.  Now my hands only served to
hide the nipples and squish the blossoming mounds around my
fingers while I gulped down a groan of pleasure.  I tried to
pinch my nipples, since I hate that, but it barely
distracted me from the need to knead and caress my flushed
bosom.
     I faced her, and blinked several times as she took more
photos.
     “Profile.” And three more photos came spooling out of
her old, outdated Instamatic.
     She said something about showing them to my parents.  I
didn’t care at that point, as the boys had already seen
everything, and that was just about the worst thing I could
imagine.  That and the flashing, pulsing visions of them, en
masse, running their hands over my body, driving me to the
ultimate orgasm, a crescendo of ecstasy taking me far, far
away where nothing existed but open space; me, and my
defeat, my utter and complete shame.
     I knew I’d have to kill myself the second I got home.
I wondered how those pictures would look to my parents then?
     “Put your shirt on.”
     Still on autopilot, I turned around, wondering if the
view was better for the boys as I bent over to retrieve it.
Some of them no doubt got a glimpse of my boobs jiggling as
I stooped over, and pulled the shirt on.  The rest were
probably watching the piece of string divide my sex as I
bent for them.  Like it or not there was nothing left for me
to hide, so I turned around and waited for the next order.
     Mrs. Dee was busy scribbling down information on what
was obviously the school’s notorious green slip, the
information slip you were to hand to the Vice Principal so
he could recommend punishment.
     “Mrs. Dee!” the door to the dance suddenly burst open
and Jefferson ran in shouting from the far side of the
screen, “We’ve got a fight!  I need your help!”
     “God damn it!” The cranky woman harped, storming around
to the other side of the screen, “I’m the only one here!”
     “I can’t stop them myself.”
     Mrs. Dee whirled on the boys behind her.  She seemed to
have forgotten all about me.  “Just wait.  I’ll be back.”
     And she and Jefferson were gone.
     The guys didn’t wait, and Bill sprinted forward.
     The screen didn’t go all the way back to the glass
wall, and I saw him from my position grabbing the door in
the nick of time.  He was fast.  Damn fast as he crossed the
fifteen feet in about a second, jamming his foot in the door
before the heavy thing slammed shut.
     The eight of us in the room saw our opportunity.
     I lunged for the table, tearing the top attendance page
from the book and grabbing my green slip.  My reverie of
humiliation and suicidal thoughts had turned to a panicked
dash for survival.  I grabbed up my dress in a wad, but two
of the boys I still didn’t know had skidded up to me and I
screamed, backing up frantically until I was slammed against
the back wall.
     One of them dove into the box, producing a bottle of
schnapps and a couple mini liquor bottles.  The other one
heard my scream and looked at me, disdain on my face, “Like
I’d touch your skinny little ass.”
     The pair of them burst into laughter.  I heard sounds
of more chaos on the other side of the wall as the much
fuller box was rummaged through.
     “Come on!” I heard Bill shouting at his friends.
     Jerry was standing behind the two guys at the girl’s
table, “I’ve seen seventh graders that looked more like a
woman than you.” He was looking at me with disdain, gloating
in his triumph that he’d been right about me.
     I shook my head, fighting more tears as the frantic
moments shredded my trance.  The boys were no longer pawing
at me in my mind, but a very real cacophony as they
scrambled for party artifacts.  I was just a half-naked
freak to be stared at on the way.  I turned my back to them.
I didn't care that they could see my bare ass.  I was afraid
to look, waiting for them to be done so I could flee,
feeling every one of them as they scrutinized the minuscule
pink strap that did nothing to hide my butt from their
scrutiny.
     “Hey, punk chick!”
     I looked through the gap in the screen, resenting the
stupid nicknames people came up for me when didn’t know my
name (the sensation was an actual relief from the crushing
shame and humiliation overwhelming me with a wish for
death).  Bill was calling to me from the door.
     He certainly didn’t seem to have any compunction about
checking me out, and I shifted position and pulled the
cluster of my dress to cover me, not wanting to let his
crude eyes pore over the ample skin I had revealed to him
and all his friends.
     He was persistent, “You want out or not?”
     But Ronnie was right there, his stubby fingers on my
arm, “Come on.” He tugged me. “Get out of here or you’re
fucked.” I resisted him, scared of him, knowing he wasn’t to
be trusted.  I was only just capable of accepting the fact
that this was about the only salvation I had coming to me.
If Mrs. Dee came back and I was here alone...
     I turned, breaking free from his grasp, “The pictures!”
     I scrambled for the table, but it was bare but for the
notepad I’d mutilated.  I looked around and saw Ronnie
brandishing a cluster of photos, “Looking for these.” He
held them up.  The girl on top wasn’t me, but some anonymous
girl with her back turned wearing thong underwear.
     Ronnie quickly shoved them into a pocket under his
jersey.
     I stared at him.  Most of the other jocks were gone,
“Come on.” He said.
     I knew I didn’t have any choice, and he held the
partition open so I could slip past him.  The doors were
locked on both sides.  Reluctantly I went to them, and as
was to be expected I felt Ronnie’s scummy fingers cradle my
bare butt, a firm, abrupt gesture that made me gasp.
     Somehow, in spite of the horror, (or maybe because of
it) I was still as aroused as ever, and the little shit
seemed like he knew it, taking advantage of my humiliation
as the pulse in my thighs thundered through me.  I gasped
for air, “Oh my god.” I cried as if I were in the throes of
passionate sex as the worm dug his fingers into my skin,
“Ronnie, please.”  I clutched the dress to my chest as he
cradled and scooped my buttock with his hand, running his
fingers through the cleft, along the line of the string
while I leaned against him, squeaking in pleasure, gasping
in horror, “Don’t!” I cried, “Oh god.”
     He was grinning madly, “I’m not stopping you, Ariel.”
     My eyes popped open.  When had I shut them?  I looked
ahead.  Bill was watching me with interest, holding the door
ajar.  Ronnie indeed wasn’t stopping me.  He was, in fact,
behind me, his only contact with my bare butt.  I had
stopped myself, as if magnetically attached to Ronnie’s
prowling fingertips.
     I didn’t realize it until Ronnie put his hand on my
back and started walking me over, but I still had made no
move to dislodge myself from the squat troglodyte.  I looked
at Bill as I came up to the door.  His expression was very
different than when he’d been playing good cop.  He was
looking at me with a mixture of fascination, and yes,
revulsion.  As if my behavior was so utterly wanton that he
was shocked to find out that he and his buddies had been
right about me.  A total slut who was trying compensate for
being unpopular, ugly, and gangly with my bitchy punk chick
act.  I wanted to explain the truth.  I wanted him to know
it was all a lie, but the way I’d behaved with Wade told me
that it wasn’t necessarily the case.  I certainly was a
virgin, but I sure as Hell wore things like exotic
underwear, and there was no way I could deny the frantic
hormones that were driving me to accept Ronnie’s
molestations and translate them into injections of
passionate arousal, flooding my veins with the very same
venom Wade had stunned me with.
     Bill pulled the door open. “Go!” he said.  There was
actually sympathy in his eyes.
     I took a step, and was about to slide past Bill when
Ronnie grabbed my arm, sliding up to me and pressing me
against the cold steel frame of the door.  I could see
dancers swinging and moving a few yards past, feel the
dashes of flashing light from the party lights and the disco
ball.  I was sticking through the door half naked right now,
and not six feet from me a cluster of boys with their backs
to us watched the dancers.  A simple glance askance and
they’d see me, a naked girl but for half a shirt and a G-
string, only a wad of cloth bunched up in front of her
belly.
     Ronnie wouldn’t let me through, though, “Remember, you
lost the bet.”
     I stared at the boy in horror.  “I never took your
bet.”
     He hooked a finger under the strap of my G-string, “You
said you weren’t wearing a thong.”
     I shook my head, that wasn’t strictly true, “No I
didn’t.”  I looked to Bill, appealing for help.  He was just
watching me, glancing to the front door to the foyer and
back nervously, but he wasn’t going to help.  “I said…”
     “Normal.” Ronnie reminded me, running his finger around
back to the T-junction of the G-string, shivers quaking me
as they ran up my spine.  “This qualify as normal to you,
Bill?”
     Bill glanced down, as if he hadn’t seen them already.
“Nuh-uh.” He said decisively.
     “You lost the bet,” Ronnie said, giving the little
string a gentle tug.
     I cried out, panting sharply as the string grazed my
anus, pinched the fabric and drove the little triangle in
front against my clit.  I just couldn’t hide it any more.  I
was overcome by the sheer volume of the sensations I’d been
riding since I found myself on the front lawn with Wade.  “I
don’t want you.” I cried, but as if I were lying I was
panting with orgasmic frenzy, gasping, barely able to stand
as the pleasure overwhelmed me as I clutched the rigid
doorframe, grinding my body hard against it.
     Suddenly it didn’t matter that Ronnie was a troll, and
Bill, though not ugly, was a jock.  Suddenly it didn’t
matter that I was a virgin.  I was hungry for more, and if
that meant losing my virginity so the sensation wouldn’t
stop, so be it.  I just needed him to keep riding me, to
keep me on the edge of arousal until I exploded, but I
couldn’t possibly articulate that.  I wouldn’t tell them
that.  They’d have to figure it out for themselves if they
hadn’t already.
     “Just admit you lost the bet.”
     I shook my head some more, “Unh-uh.” But it came out
like a moan of pleasure as Ronnie gave another sharp tug,
splitting my sex and wedging the swatch of pink up against
my most sensitive organs.  I was peaking and I knew it.  A
few more seconds and I’d cum like Christ had returned and
I’d be so gone these boys would be able to do anything with
me, if I wasn’t already there.
     Ronnie’s other hand found a bare spot on my belly, and
shoved it behind the wad of cloth bundled in my arms, his
hand snaking up, trying to pry under the vice I held on my
chest.  It was like dying in the desert and fighting a man
trying to give you water.  I could already feel his manhood
forcing me apart, ripping my cherry to bloody shreds as I
cried out, “God, make him stop.”
     Bill shouted at me, “Just fucking admit it so we can
go, Ariel!”
     “You want us to leave you in here?”
     “No!” I cried, afraid of both being abandoned to the
teachers and losing the overwhelming pleasure the mixture of
terrorized humiliation and sexual ecstasy was having on me.
     “Then admit you took the bet.”
     “Fine, just please let me go!” but I knew that was the
last thing I wanted.  I wanted him to clutch me there
forever, or at least until I came, which was a few seconds
away, I was sure.
     “And you lost it.”  I nodded, trapped, knowing no
matter what happened, I was lost.
     “Say it.” Ronnie implored me, his hot steamy breath
smoldering around my neck, the very tendrils of his vapor
rising and cradling me to give a kind of pleasure I’d never
imagined.
     “I lost the bet.” I cried, and I really was crying, my
heart and soul were broken, shattered, even as my body was
set to explode with pleasure.  “I took the bet, and I lost
it.”
     Ronnie made to open the door, but Bill blocked him this
time.  We both looked at the boy, who couldn’t seem to peel
his eyes off of me.  I could feel the waves of heat,
passion, anger.  They pummeled me with their energy, like a
force, embracing me and crushing me underfoot.  I recognized
the source.  He had tried to play me with honey, and I’d
mocked and humiliated him.  His ugly, antisocial friend had
played me with fire, and I’d broken down, crumbled to his
whims, his schemes, and was riding the edge of the knife
Ronnie had shoved between my legs with gusto, even as I
begged him to stop.
     Bill went on, “She only lost the first part.”
     Ronnie didn’t seem to pleased with Bill’s
interpretation, “Come on man, this is the sluttiest thing
I’ve ever seen.” He tugged the string again, and I almost
collapsed, “Why’d she wear this if she didn’t want to be
fucked?”
     Bill looked like he couldn’t draw his eyes away from
the patch of cloth on my bush.  He was fascinated, as
obsessed with my behavior as I was with Ronnie’s prowling
hands.  I realized in that instant that he had crept up
higher, had his fingers on my right boob, and that he was
tugging the G-string in a steady rhythm.  Masturbating me.
     Bill saw that too, “You said she’d be wet.”
     Ronnie was incredulous, “You don’t think she’s wet?”
The bastard had slid his hand lower.  In between my cheeks
his fingers sunk, parting my lips, sliding against my open
sex, gliding against my melted purity and innocence.  I felt
my legs parting for him, and tried again to pull away.
     He grappled me, not moving his hands but grabbing me
roughly, “Tell him.” He turned me to face his friend, his
fingers driving into me.
     I cried out, still panting and moaning, my body a sheen
of dripping sweat.  I met the force of Ronnie's hand with my
own pressure.  My shame overwhelming me, but not enough, “I
can’t help it, Bill.  I can’t.  It’s not my fault.”  It
might have been true.
     But Bill just looked at me with disgust.  Why he was
trying to help me in the first place I don’t know, but he
seemed to discard any pity he might have had in that
instant.  “Fuck it.  Let’s go find out.”
     And finally, they dragged me through the door.