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 Jenny

   (story codes: m/f, cheat, guilt)

   Ahhhh I opened my eyes and stretched in my bed.....hmm I could feel
someone in my bed laying next to me, shit, it was Jenny; fuck; what had I
done last night?

   Jenny was my best friends fiancée, Trey and Jenny had been engaged for
two months.  We'd met in a club, I had danced with Jenny and things were
hotting up, I whispered in her ear that I was going to take her home and
give her something extra special that night; she just smiled, when I went
to the bar, Trey told me he was in love with her, and had been since he had
first seen her.  My emotions were killing me, the way Jenny shook her arse
I knew she was good in bed, but I could see the look on Trey's eyes, inside
I decided that I couldn't hurt trey.  He'd been watching me dry fuck her
all night and I think it was killing him.  I called her over and introduced
them, I could see the look on her eyes when I turned my head away from her
and Trey took her on the dance floor, she tried to pull away from him all
night and kept looking at me.  I had to put her out of my head so I grabbed
another and put on show to put Jenny off, I was dirty dancing with this
other and Jenny had an angry look on her eyes.  Trey took Jenny to our flat
and they got together, but as they got closer, the sexual tension between
Jenny and me was getting worse.  I couldn't tell Trey; he was besotted. 
Inside I kept thinking of her in my bed, I knew she was thinking of me too.
This got worse when they told me they were getting married and they wanted
me to be best man, by now Jenny was living in our flat and I was going
through hell.  One day I decided to do something, I came home from work
early before Trey got back and found Jenny making dinner for the three of
us, I saw her over the stove and slowly walked up behind her.  I stroked
her hair and bite her ear as I slowly massaged the her neck.

   "Trey, not now; Ram will be here soon and I don't want him watching us"

   I remained quiet and kissed her neck, she turned around and froze.

   "Jen; it's been killing me since that night; I knew I was going to take
you home."

   "Ram...why didn't you say anything?  Why did you palm me off to Trey? 
Do you realise how hurt I was"

   I kissed her and she melted in my arms, I picked her up and took her to
the sofa and we were kissing, I put my hands under her jeans and could feel
her wet, she made no attempts to stop me, and just closed her eyes.  I
stopped and looked at her "you know I'm fucking you tonight, I feel bad but
I have to have you.  Since that night I've had you in my head" she nodded
her head, Inside I think she had always wanted this too.  Within second we
were both tearing each other's clothes off and I took her hand and went to
my bedroom.  Before I started I made a call to Trey and asked him to pick
some things up from the shops, I knew this would give us a few hours, as
the shops were a good half and hours drive away.

   On my bed I started exploring her body, I wanted to know her inside out,
every part of her, she was naked and I could see a look of guilt on her
eyes, I felt bad too, but this a was something I had to do.  I kissed her
breasts and slowly worked my way down, I had to make this special, soon I
was between her legs, I inhaled; she smelled so good, But she didn't shave.

   "Jen...I don't like it unless it's clean, shave it okay, otherwise I
just can't..."

   She smiled like she already knew this but pushed my head into her and I
wanted this but guilt won over and I pushed back and was breathing heavy

   " I'm sorry.....i can't do this...i...i...want you but..."

   I saw a tear in her eye, she look angry and hurt that i had turned her
down a second time

   "why Ram, I know you want me, is there something wrong with me?"

   I got up and hugged her, since we had become friends we always hugged,
but Jen and I had always hugged extra tightly, nothing Trey would notice
but enough so we both knew there was something else there.  Her warm body
felt so good right now

   "I can't; I want to, but I can't."

   I got up and left her on the bed, every instinct of lust wanted me to go
back and take her right then but I just couldn't.  I walked out of the door
and took a walk to clear my head.  I got my phone out and dialled my
girlfriend's number, shit; since Jen had moved in with us I had neglected
Louise so much.  Already I was planning to break it off with her, she was
nice but was nothing compared to Jen.  When we made love I closed my eyes
thinking of Jen, every time I could go rough and leave her with bruises and
bit marks from the night before.  Inside I hoped she would just walk away
but she wouldn't let go.

   "hi Leese, it's Ram"

   "Ram...how are you?"

   "(I should be with Jen, what the fuck am I doing ringing leese) can I
see you?"

   "yeah, I'm at home; come over"

   "No....come out to stars point"

   "okay, I'll see you, I love you Ram"

   "yeah....."

   I put the phone down.  Stars point was a park nearby.  When I got there,
Leese was sitting on a swing, it was where I had first met her, and the
first time I had kissed her, but right now my head was on Jen.

   "Ram!"

   she got up and hugged me, I pulled her back and kissed her hard, inside
I was angry and still unsatisfied, I grabbed her and bit her neck, she had
soft skin, I loved biting her soft milky white skin.  She moaned, I knew it
hurt her, but I knew she loved it too.

   "Ram, where have you been.  You haven't answered your phone, you haven't
called"

   "(shit, all you give me is stress)...I've been busy"

   she looked hurt.  But stayed quiet.  I think she was just happy I was
with her now.  Louise was a good woman.  She had a kid from some marriage
that had broken up, and at first things had been good.  I was always good
with kids and I think she wanted me to commit to her; but I was young and
couldn't be tied down.

   "Ram...you've been different, why are you like this now, why don't you
tell me whats wrong?"

   I saw a tear in her eye, fuck I couldn't stand seeing her cry; but could
I tell her my heart was taken by someone else.  I just couldn't hurt her
like that.  I hugged her and wiped the tear from her eye

   "I'm sorry Leese, I just don't know what's wrong with me right now.

   We walked to the bench, I took her hand and we sat down, it felt like
before.  But I was someone else now, my heart was on someone else now.

   "Mum thinks your having an affair, I told her she crazy.  That's crazy
right..."

   "...I'm not cheating on you (damn, why don't you just drop her now) life
is just rough right now, I just need some time babe"

   "is it me"

   shit, why do women have to play that game.  I was already angry, I
wasn't in the mood for a heart to heart.  I was still horny from before. 
Going back to the flat was out of the question so I decided to go to
Leese's house.

   "our mom at home?"

   "No she's at work"

   Without another word I grabbed her hand and took her home.  We went
straight at it.  I hurt her, I tore off her clothes and bite her hard.  I
threw her over and made her scream from behind, she tried to wiggle away
but I wouldn't let her.  When I was done she pushed away and started to cry
in the corner; I had hurt her hard.  I was usually gentle, she couldn't
take me usually, I had to be gentle, for the first time I had been rough.
She was hurt but knew I was like this.

   "You weren't making love to me, you were just fucking me.  What is it
Ram, why are you acting like this?

   "(damn!  This isn't right.  I was making love to Jen not you) Maybe you
should just finish with me"

   she started to cry, I wanted to comfort her.  But I had enough of this
lie I was living, I just walked out of the door and headed home.  Maybe
Leese would let go now.

   I got inside and found Trey and Jen watching T.v, Jen acted like nothing
had happened, but I could see the look on her eyes.

   "Where have you been all day, you were out for 6 hours"

   "With Leese..."

   Jen looked angry, Trey stared to laugh

   "It's not like that, I finished with her"

   Trey looked shocked but I saw a hint of a smile in Jen's eyes, I sat
down and laid my head back

   "You okay Mate?"

   "Yeah, I just need to clear my head"

   I took some cannabis out of my pocket and light it up, easing me back,
my head kept drifting to Jen, I knew the next time we were alone I wouldn't
be able to resist her, engaged or not.
   End of chapter one.