My "Images" (a term I stole from Suki) are short ideas, images, and sketches written for the amusement of and offered as tribute to my Liege and Lady. They were always longer and never so well crafted as Suki's short masterpieces, and over time, my Images files began to include various email excerpts and other works in progress or ideas for works and became more journal than art, so some juxtapositions may seem odd. Some of my Images follow. They are generally cruel and nonconsensual and of interest only to sickphuxs, so please read no further if such doesn't appeal to you. The Images are impurely the products of a warped imagination, and should not be seen as a reflection of the scene, nor should they be imitated by anyone not interested in a protracted term as the ward of the state. Steven S. Davis --------------------------------------------- My Images are going to the dogs These might perhaps be a bit off the track you'll find at all interesting, but on the chance that they might possibly amuse: 1) An electrified wall with a man in a standing spreadeagle cuffed to it. His cuffs are insulated so he isn't shocked by them, but if he doesn't keep away from that wall he gets painfully shocked. No biggie, except that the dog that his Lady has trained to attack his crotch is leashed right in front of him, growling, and leaps at him whenever he moves a tiny bit forwards, forcing him to stay pressed against the wall squirming and moaning and occasionally pleading with the bitch for mercy, and neither bitch has any mercy for him, his Lady won't move the dog or turn off the electricity and her "Lady" never takes her eyes off him and knows whenever he moves forwards even a little (and they *both* seem to find it very amusing when he backs up into the current and shrieks). 2) Lady's training by his lady includes both "attack the slave's crotch" and "hold the slave's cock". In the latter, she takes it in her mouth and holds tight while eyeing her Mistress for the order "rip him up". He's seen the result of of that command in training sessions (after he's been forced to put his scent on the crotch of the dummy - OK, he's the one putting up with this, so who's the dummy (but the other dummy is immune to her coos and sighs and smiles and pouts and happy looks, and he's not)) and knows that however much Lady seems to like him when she's not sicced on him, she will rip him up if his lady gives the order. Good thing she seems to like him too; he's going to make sure that continues. ----------------------------------------------------------------- Gunplay I'd done some pondering yesterday and today between sardines. (note: "sardines" are my term for the pesky tasks at work which keep one from ever getting any work done). I probably have never mentioned before that probably my biggest fear is foot torture, because of my vulnerabilities. Much as I go on about butterfly boards and CBT, the thing that would really scare me would be having my Mistress order me to a set of stocks next to a hot brazier and instruct me to take of my shoes and socks and put my ankles in the stock. It's also, partly because I've always found the topic very hot when someone else is the victim, and partly because I *am* so vulnerable there, something that's very powerful for me (and, I would hope it would be for her; it wouldn't be for anyone, or be easy for me with anyone, my putting my ankles in those stocks and letting myself be locked in). I'm not sure how I got to loaded weapons play. I think because that too is something where for me to consider it, I'd have to *know* that I was safe with her (and finding out that I'd made a mistake would be emotionally devastating (though in the case of the gunplay, I might never know my mistake; BTW, I do realize how absolutely horrified my lady would be if she was playing with my bare bound feet, a knife, a stiff brush, and several tapered candles, and she did actually let me get burned or cut)). Which got me wondering about danger when one knows one is safe, a paradox we've discussed before. I'm not really sure how I'd react to being held at gunpoint by my mistress (probably depend on many things, including her familiarity with guns). I suspect that my initial surprise would probably be the key. For any sort of play like this to work, I have to trust her utterly, for this I have to believe that I know her and she knows me. If I didn't expect such a thing from her - and I probably would not be involved with someone I would expect it from - then simply her having the gun in her hand would mean that I didn't know her as well as I thought, and so how could I trust her so completely. But let's assume for the moment that it's something that we've discussed often and sort of worked around to where when she tell me to go get her gun and load it for her and hand it to her, I'm not surprised; perhaps discussions about how the *idea* of keeping me at gunpoint is hot for her, something that I'd have no problems with, might lead us towards that day. The idea of danger within safety intrigues. A loaded gun pointed at one is scary no matter what the circumstances (or so I imagine) and held with menace even more so. I would, of course, know that she wouldn't want to shoot me, and wouldn't allow a situation to exist in which I could be shot. She'd know that I was going to obey her, even doing something I didn't like doing, not because of the gun but because I was so inclined (but I do have to admit the gun would help; I really can imagine how, in the right circumstances, the presence of a loaded gun in a scene could seriously effect both our minds, putting me into a special subspace and her into a special domspace (I can also see the introduction of one in other circumstances totally taking me out of any such space)). She's not going to order me to do anything I wouldn't do, and I'm going to obey her. So, in a sense my knowing she's not going to shoot me isn't any different than a scene with someone who might (except that I could better sink into the scene with that background knowledge): as long as I obey I don't get shot, and I'm going to obey. I wonder if, perhaps, this might get intense enough and seem real enough that if I *did* disobey the shock and outrage she felt would cause her to pull the trigger. I doubt it. I suspect that the shock of me disobeying would take her out of that place she was in and make the gun in her hand suddenly a very different and scary thing that she didn't want to be pointing at me. As would, I suspect, any knocking at the door or anything else which took us out of our very private, intimate, and intense space (the dimly remembered Thomas de Quincey essay "On the Knocking at Gate in Macbeth" did come to mind). So I can see how a loaded gun scene - and it would really have to be a loaded gun scene, anything other than a gun which was definitely known to be functional and loaded would not create the same effect - could be extraordinarily intense, no matter how much trust one had in one's partner. Not saying I'd do one; as said, it'd take a lot of building up to to be at the point where, when she leveled the gun at me, I'd be going into the proper frame of mind and not wondering who in the hell this person was. But with enough preparation, when we were both feeling calm and when we weren't hurried and the mood was right, and she said "Bring me the Ruger" and I went to her gun cabinet and got the box containing the Ruger, and brought it to her, wondering if she was going to have me clean this one too, the way the last four or five times she gave such an order she had me clean another of her collection of pistols, or if she might actually want to do that gun scene she'd been talking about for months, being especially anxious because this is one of the ones with the detachable sights, and when I got back to her she told me to take the gun out, and then handed me the test firing cartridges and told me to test the action, and then told me to take out the actual bullets and said "Load it" and when I did she said "Hand it to me", and then she stood back several steps and leveled it at me and said "Get on your feet, slut. Hands behind your head. Mouth shut; when I want it open I'll tell you. Let's go someplace private where loud noises, like gunshots and screams, won't be heard. Start walking", and she moved the gun so I knew where I was to go and she took to the her basement room and had me get against the wall as she locked the door, and then she told me "Strip, boy" and watched me with an evil gleam as I undressed, and then she ordered me to kneel in the bench, facing the wall, and came over and handcuffed and shackled me, them took me by the hair and stood me up them forced me to my knees and walked around me prodding me with the barrel of her gun and rubbing it against me, stopping to reach down and stroke and heft my cock and say "Mine's longer and harder than yours, isn't it boy ? Does that mean I'm more than you ? Well, of course I am. But don't you boys always say that we ladies should want to worship the bigger cock ? Well, OK, don't some boys say that ? Well, I think they're right. At least I do just now, when I've had your cock in my hand and my cock in my hand and my cock is a lot more potent, boy. So get ready to worship my cock, boy. Open wide, boy - I said I'd tell you - and suck my cock. I want my cock staying nice and clean so let me put this condom over it. You can be sure, boy, that if my cock fires it's load that rubber won't be any protection for you. Now suck it boy, suck it good. Worship it, boy, it's so big and long and hard and deadly, take it all the way in, all the way, boy, that's good, now show me how much you love it and how much you want to please it, show me how you worship it. What's the matter, boy, mouth dry ? Is my little boy scared of my big cock ? You'd better get that rubber wet, boy, I think you *really* want to get it wet. Suck my cock boy, suck it slut. Still dry, eh ? Well, where around here will you find some fluid ? Wherever might you find that, slut ?" she said as she pushed me down and back and sat across my face and said "Lick me, lover" and rode and smothered my face as I lay atop my handcuffed hands and tried to pleasure her and suck up her juices and she was getting hot and close and to my surprise she jumped up, a bit shakily, and grabbed my hair and with the gun under my chin got me up on my knees and said "Now suck my cock properly, boy" and put the barrel of the gun to my lips for me to worship more, and this time I got it at least a little lubricated and with her face flushed and her eyes gleaming she said "That will have to do, slut", and stepped behind me and put the gun to the back of my head and her knee and later her foot in my back as she forced me down on my face and knelt on the pillow behind me and spread my lower cheeks and slipped a lubed finger in and around them and then put the barrel against my anus and said "Ready, boy ? Not that it matters" and started working the barrel into me, getting it inside me and moving it back and forth within me as her other hand went back and forth between my cock, saying, "Now, don't you shoot, boy, you don't want me getting any ideas", and her clit but soon she was spending much more time working her clit as she somewhat artlessly shoved the gun against my ass again and again, the barrel fully inside me, as she squeals and groaned and grunted and got hotter and hotter and I got more and more worried about an involuntary spasm of her finger (which I couldn't see was away from the barrel) and them the shoved hard and deep into me, she grabbed my cock and stroked it hard and long (which it already was, whether despite or because of the gun in my ass I couldn't say and probably wouldn't if I could) and then she shrieked happily and threw herself across me rubbing her body into mine like she wanted to merge with me and sinking her teeth into my neck and holding tight as her body spasmed atop me and her energy ran through me and then we both lay there panting and spent and fortunately, we were all that was spent..... ...well, yes, I might be able to see the attraction of such a scene. -------------------------------------- "The Beds" Her eyes kept wandering over to her captive boy, which would have pleased him, had he known. But the hood over his head allowed her to enjoy looking at him as much as she wanted while still leaving him in the dark, so to speak, about whether she was paying any attention to him. It also made it more uncomfortable for him as he struggled to hold himself up. Naked except for the hood and the cuffs on his wrists and ankles and tape around his fingers, he strained to keep his hands and feet on the tubes which surrounded the bed of nails and thereby hold himself above the nails. The nails weren't sharp enough to pierce his skin, at least not when his weight was spread out over so many of them (had he been told that he'd wish for more nails he'd have shocked, but as he'd learned, the denser beds were actually easier than this one, in which the nails were just close enough to keep him from getting skewered but spread out enough to make each nail biting into his flesh a distinct and quite severe pain, and so, of course, she preferred this one, except when she was going to walk on him or sit on him or lay upon or, sometimes, fuck him, as he lay on the nails, in which cases she wanted the denser spread; even aside from the fact that he knew that when she directed him to this one there was no chance of sex, he quite hated this bed and it's few nails (though there seemed plenty of them when he had to sharpen them, and the many "pricks of pain" as she liked to say (usually before inflicting some pain of prick) seemed plenty when his strength failed and he fell back upon them)). They didn't pierce him, but they hurt plenty, and he didn't want them touching them, so he'd hold himself above them, crab-style, for as long as he could, struggling to keep his trembling arms and legs holding him up and his sweaty hands and feet on the smooth round tubes. It'd been easier when he could grip the tubes, before she thought to tape his fingers so he couldn't, and had to balance on his increasingly sweaty palms. She watched him trembling and knew he couldn't hold out much longer, and when his strength gave out and he fell the short distance onto the nails she heard him shriek through his gag and hood and giggled happily. The poor dear. Now he'd lay on though nails, trying not to squirm, until the burning pain from the dozens of points exceeded the ache in his limbs and his aching fatigue and made him hoist himself up again. She quite liked taking him to bed, in every way, and liked not least the mix of fear and lust he showed when she said she was going to bed him, as he wondered which she meant this time, and when she would lead him into her bedroom and have him stand before the three beds, her bed of pleasure and this bed of sheer pain and the other bed of nail, the one of pain with some hope of pleasure and sit back, legs crossed and foot swaying watching him watching her and hope for her until she raised a hand and pointed, his look of ecstasy when she pointed towards her soft bed and his utter look of despair when she pointed towards the bed of pain were both so delicious that often she made him stand so long not just to torture him - though that was fun - but because she genuinely couldn't decide. But since either way meant delight for her, there was no wrong choice. Though she did sometimes berate herself for her weakness in opting to take him into her bed, which meant the pleasure would be so much shorter. There were, after all, limits to how long even the most devoted and diligent boy could pleasure her, even with her taking advantage of all his instruments. But there was no limit to his suffering when she laid him on the bed of pain. Nothing he could do would end the pain, all he could do was shift back and forth between different sorts of pain as each became unbearable in it's turn, until finally he was too exhausted to do anything else no matter how much it hurt. This ability to take him *all* the way was the great advantage over her former game, when she'd locked his wrists and ankles to spreader bars and tied a cord around his balls and raised it till he had to hold himself up as his limbs shook and his muscles ached. She'd always worried too much that if his strength failed and he fell back he'd be damaged, and she didn't want him damaged - certainly not there - she just wanted him to suffer. Sure, she'd had fun letting him down and then raising him up again, but the worry and the need to watch him so intently all the time - that was fun, but sometimes she did have work to do - lest she miss when his was at his limit, and the frustration of always having to stop before he reached his limit, those drawbacks made the game less fun than she wanted. But now he wouldn't be damaged when his strength failed. He'd just hurt a *lot*. More than enough to make him give all he could give and when he'd given it all, that was so sexy. And she could make him go on and on and not have to watch him every second, just when she wanted to - which was almost every second - and not worry that a moment's inattention would damage him. She could enjoy his suffering for as long as she wanted, knowing it got worse ever minute but it would never have to end before she wanted it to end, before her painlust was sated and her wish to be tender with her precious boy would take over, at which point he'd be safe and sound, or well, at least intact. And sometimes he surprised them both by how functional he could still be after these ordeals. Other times, well, she'd have already come several times by then and her painlust and her sexual lusts sated, just holding and comforting him was the finest pleasure. ---------------------------------------------- "Are you sure ?" The man lay on his stomach on the table, naked, his legs spread and ankles secured to rings in the table, his feet held securely in place despite his efforts to move them, as the two rollers turned relentlessly above them and keep their soft bristles constantly moving against the arches of his feet. A posture collar snug around his neck and a chain from the collar to a ring at the end of the table quite taut, keeping his body stretched and helping to keep his head still, though the board clamped to the table and the two thin nails going through his extended tongue and into the board also helped. But the collar and chain did help keep his head still, which was important every 15 minutes when the digital timer a foot in front of his face counted down to zero and shock went through those nails before the timer reset and started counting down again. Aside from preserving his tongue, the tautness of his stretched body helped keep the dozens of alligator clamps on his chest and belly from being moved very much. However, immobility did only a little to help with either the pain from the stretching of his balls, which were cruelly bound and from which hung a basket full of women's footwear, though steel-toed boots with insulated soles for working in steel plants were not what he'd envisioned when this was mentioned. It did help some when the basket wasn't swaying; however, a strappy stilletto heeled sandal kept giving the basket a push to make it swing (which was not what he thought "do you like swingers ?" would mean). And his immobility did nothing to help his arms, neither his well bound hands nor his elbows tightly cinched in (formerly) wet raw leather which as it dried was correcting his statement that his elbows couldn't get any closer, nor his thumbcuffed thumbs tied to the very taut cord passing through a ring above his head then tied around a a bar that couldn't pass through the ring but which could get further from it as the cord which went from it through the pulleys and to the 55 gallon drum, partly filled with marbles, which the cord held off the ground just under a hose from which slowly trickled water into the barrel and slowly raising the man's hands towards his head, to the immense displeasure of his shoulders. A displeasure he'd almost briefly forget when the cat - the one in the cage under the table, just below the hole in which his penis, teased fully erect then locked in tight cock-rings, had been inserted - would notice some slight movement by his cock and start batting it around again. The woman leaned back against her pillows, watching his predicament with a sweet smile that didn't quite match the gleam in her eyes. "Are you sure", she asked, pleasantly, "that you don't have any limits that I should know about ?" --------------------------------- "Red Zone": Some thoughts on a future story I've realized something (I was going to say discovered but that would have been silly since I always really knew this and so can't have discovered it). While I find the concept of a merciless domme hot, I don't really want to serve one. And not in the way I usually think of this, which is that I want to serve someone whose painlust is inside my limits and who therefore never needs to offer me mercy (and who I have less reason to fear I will fail or frustrate with my poor pain tolerance). But that isn't really true. I do want her showing me mercy. I'm just afraid that I might not be able to earn her mercy and find the idea of her having to stop short because of my weakness very scary so it's usually a safer fantasy to imagine that she stops someplace she's happy with because our limits are so close. But a doubly scary fantasy involves her *wanting* to push me hard and see me break, even knowing that I'm very scared to have her see that (another of those paradoxes, and yet another case of how much I, like so many male submissives, really do fail to totally give myself over to her wishes and instead serve, at least as much as I do her, my own idea of what submission is; so even knowing she wants to see me break I'd fear letting her see that and think me weak and resist giving into the pain (which she might like, and knowing me, probably wouldn't last long). She wants me pushed hard and past my limits, which is scary. More scary - though a big thrill - is that (again, probably unsubmissive of me (and no, I don't really think of this as beating my domme)) she's the one who reaches her limits and gives in. And showers me with praise and care and attention when she does call "Red" and stop this because she can't bear to see me suffering that much any longer, even if it does get her very aroused (I wonder would she be so impressed if she realized how much I was holding out not because I want to take pain for/from her, but because of my ego, and my fear of her losing respect for me if she succeeds in breaking me (which probably shows some lack of trust on my part)) and even if she had pushed on after she was very much beyond her comfort zone because she knew I was close and she really wanted to break me (how selfish is it of me to deny her that ?; but would she want me to give in before I absolutely had to ?; the point I guess, is holding out because of my fear and ego (and insecurity, the companion of ego) rather than holding out out of devotion to her (how much would it matter to her why I was taking the pain a little longer when I was obviously in distress ?; probably a lot)). A sort of a "Red Zone scene, both dom and sub seriously past their limits both suffering both wanting it to be over but she keeps pushing because she wants me broken and she's so close and she can't stop now and I keep somehow holding out, biting back the "Mercy, Mistress" or even somehow managing to squeeze "May I have another" out past my sobs when I can finally make myself unclench my jaws long enough, and somehow manage not to crack when she escalates the pain even more, when I can see, or could see if not for my tears (which I might not have wanted her to see and should have learned that since she didn't lose respect for or interest in me when she saw me sobbing that we won't lose respect for me - is that "we" instead of "she" a typo or a freudian slip ? - when she makes me give in - and perhaps she aches to show me this, to break me and then show me such sweet tenderness and acceptance, but I can't yet give her this and she can't yet take it from me) the way determination and painlust struggle in her face with her own fear that I'm going to get harmed - perhaps my interest in female fear comes out here, with seeing lust and power mixed with growing fear, but not fear for herself, fear for me (and maybe fear of herself) - and maybe that she's risking losing me if she keeps going and certainly that she's getting to the point where each additional scream from me is raising her fear and decreasing her lust and instead of it being, as it is in some of my fantasies, a woman submissive struggling with terror and desire balancing so precariously, it's a woman dominant whose fear and lust are struggling with each other until one last additional shock of pain and one last scream and spasm and then she safewords, her lust no longer restraining her fear, and she stops the torture and hugs and kisses me while saying she's so proud of me and she's so sorry she went so far and she's going to take such good care of me now. And when I can, my own guilt at my mixed and too weak and selfish reasons for holding out so long effecting me, reassure her and tell her not to be sorry and that I'm OK, but of course not so forcefully that all that aftercare and praise would get interrupted. And maybe, though not anytime soon, neither of us could handle that for awhile, she'll want to try again, a little more familiar now with her Red Zone and with mine, and maybe sometime we'll both be sure enough of each other and brave enough ourselves that she can stay in her Red Zone long enough for me to let her push me out of mine. Well, I'll have to ponder for awhile before I try writing "Red Zone". -------------------------------------- "Agree ?" He stood there grimacing slightly, and slightly more whenever she moved, and she was moving a lot. The canvas strip with the piece of fur sewn on it wasn't as comfortable a foot rest as she'd thought it would be. But while she wasn't enjoying resting her feet upon it as much as she'd expected to, she was enjoying his discomfort. With his hands tied behind his back and his ankles in a spreader bar and acting as one pole supporting her "foot hammock", one end of which was tied to a ring in the wall and the other end was tied to his balls, her feet resting in the hammock as she leaned back in her chair to look up at him (and give him a nice look at her stretched out below him) were putting the weight of her legs on his scrotum, and while that might not be much - and she was so going to enjoy playing with him when he made some small comment about the weight and she'd pout at him and ask "Are you saying that my legs are too heavy ?" - it was hurting him and hurting him more the longer it went on. So she had no plan to kick off her stilletto heels and curl her legs under her any time soon, though she'd have been more comfortable that way. Her enjoyment both of his discomfort and of the way his eyes were going up and down her were too great for that. And her squirming and turning, which relieved strain on her extended legs, both increased his pain and by giving him shifting views of her, stoked his desire, and what could be better than what increased both his pain and his lust ? "I thought perhaps you might want to know what I have planned for you", she said. "Of course, I wouldn't dream of doing anything to you that you didn't want me to do - you do still want me to rest my legs in this hammock, don't you ? Good. I was thinking that I'd start with a single-tail and put many welts on your back and buttocks. Then, after running my nails over them for awhile - whether I mean my fingernails or something else I'll let you ponder - I'm going to line the welts with those delightful little clamps. Then I'll have you lay on your back a top those clamps, and tie you down on a table, with a thin mat over it. So those clamps won't scratch the table, of course." Turning over on her side, and showing him her derriere and the backs of her legs and her bare back, which she knew he'd be eyeing when the talk was of singletails and welts (he'd never hurt her, but he couldn't help looking at any smooth bare pale back without things of it as a canvas for a whip) and in the press pushing hard on the canvas tied to his balls, she continued: "Then I'll lay on you and kiss you for a long time - for while I love hurting you, love, I do also so enjoy kissing you - and then get those clamps - I'm so glad that so many of them were on sale - and put them all over you. A couple rows on each flank, and I think I'll put a cord through them for quick removal later. Then a circle on your belly, starting on your navel and spiralling outwards. Then similar circles on each breast - would you prefer I call them pecs, dear ? - breasts, then. Now, we know it's bad to leave clamps on any one spot for too long dear, and by this time the ones on your sides will have been there for a very long time. Well, we'll just have to get them off you as quickly as possible ! And then, well, the others can't stay either. But I think those spirals will look so pretty - should I take pictures of those foxy spirals and send them to A ? - and I wouldn't want them gone so soon. So I'll just move them. Just shift each clamp, take it off, move it over an inch, and put it on a new piece of skin. By the time I get done the second chest spiral your first nipple will have had some circulation and I can put a new clamp on it, the aesthetics do require clamps on your nipples, dear. And when I'm done your belly spiral the other nipple will have had enough circulation to be ready for another clamp." Rolling over to her other side and curling a little, pulling the hammock towards her and also giving him a view down her cleavage as she looked happily at him, she went on enthusiastically: "Well, of course by then I'll have to start moving the first set again, for your protection, of course. It's good that those clamps have such small bites - but so tight for such little things - I think that I can repeat this process three or four times before there's no new skin in the path. Then I'm afraid we'll just have to take them off", she said, feigning a look of great displeasure and kicking her feet; it took a great effort not to giggle at his groans as she kicked at the canvas. But at least by then there'll be some nice solid spiral lines on you, instead of broken ones. That will be a much prettier picture." Rolling on her back she looked pensive and asked "But what to do then ? It will be much too soon to stop, don't you agree ? I know what I'd like to do, if you agree, of course. I'd like to ziggarat your cock. Put a clamp on the base, and then a few others circling around your shaft, and then move the hole spiral, after ten minutes when your skin needs more circulation - I know some people say clamps can stay on longer without harm, but I certainly don't want to risk harming your cock, so for safety I say we use a ten minute, maximum, don't you agree ? I figure that the spiral will be close to the top after ten minutes - I mean, I will want to put them on very carefully and it may take a long time and several tries to get the thinnest possible piece of skin in the clamp's teeth and have the clamp hold, so it will take some time - but with two or three 'marchs' up your shaft I should be putting a clamp on the tip of your cock. I think that will look so pretty. And it will look so pretty after they come off, all those little steps circling round it." Suddenly sitting up, bending her knees as she did and her feet pressing down hard on the canvass and bringing him to his knees literally as well as figuratively, she looked so happily and earnestly into his eyes (fighting back the urge to giggle at his pain and at her own brass in adopting such an innocent look; well, some men like their submissives to play the schoolgirl, and she enjoyed playing schoolgirlish with her sub), and asked: "Oh, it sounds like so much fun, don't you agree ? Can we do it, please ? You know I wouldn't do anything that you wouldn't agree to. Would you please agree to this ?", she asked, twisting in her chair and twisting the hammock under her feet. "It will make me so very happy. Do you agree ?" --------------------------------------------------------