Note: This story was dynamically reformatted for online reading convenience. Dee Does HS 12 By peregrinf "Is Peggy home?" I asked when Mrs. Hughes came to the door, trying to assess the situation. She didn't look good. She looked tired -- an older, slightly plumper version of Peggy. There were dark circles under her eyes, and she had a vaguely rumpled look that was totally unlike the woman I remembered. It'd been a while since I'd actually visited at Peggy's house, but her mom shouldn't have aged that much. God only knew what she'd been going through since last Friday, what she knew. Maybe she didn't know any more than I did. Peggy tended to bottle things up. What the hell was I going to say? What could I possibly do? What did I think I was doing here? But here I was, and it was too late to back out now. "We've missed her at school." "Come in, Dee. She's upstairs, in the bathtub." She gestured wearily up a short flight of stairs that led to the bedrooms. "She's been spending a lot of time there. She won't talk to me. Maybe she'll talk to you. " That was scary. As far as I knew they'd always had a pretty good relationship. Peggy had never complained about her mom -- well, not much, anyway. Since Peggy had been the first girl in our class into The Program I'd assumed her mom had volunteered her. Though, come to think of it, from the way Peggy had talked about being naked in school the week before it started, it didn't sound like she'd been consulted. Shit! Sometimes parents do the dumbest things. Maybe that was the problem -- suddenly finding herself naked in school had been a shock. But that didn't make sense. Even before that tangle with the Tweedles and Worthington she'd appeared to handle being naked pretty well. Even after that screw up she'd posed willingly, letting some lucky boys touch her lovely young breasts, even her shy, virginal pussy, and she'd seemed to enjoy it -- a lot. She'd come at least once, I know, and she'd seemed fine right up through lunch the last day. No. Something bad had happened to her Friday afternoon. "May I leave my pack here?" I asked. "Of course." "Thank you." Setting it beside the front door, I drew a deep breath, squared my shoulders and headed upstairs, where I knocked gently on the bathroom door, then a little louder when there was no answer. "It's me, Dee. May I come in?" When there still wasn't an answer, I cracked the door, relieved she hadn't locked it, expecting I'd find her floating on her back, her ears underwater so she hadn't heard me. But what if I found her floating face down? That thought stopped my heart. Stop it! The Stick gave me a defib kick, sounding as scared as I was. The scent of bubble bath engulfed me -- Mr. Bubble was her brand of choice, same as mine -- and I relaxed. Who'd drown themselves in Mr. Bubble, after all? That'd be positively un-American, or something. I peeked around the door. She wasn't on face or on her back. She was sitting in the tub, facing away from me, her head down on her knees, curled up, hugging her legs, scrunched up in less than half the tub at the spout and drain end. "Hi, can I come in?" I asked softly. Her only response was a faint shrug, barely a lift of her shoulders, so I took that as a "yes" and pushed the door closed behind me before I sat on the toilet seat. "'S'up?" I asked. <<shrug>> Okay, where to I go from here? "Missed you at school." <<shrug>> I couldn't see her face. Her skin was lightly tanned, the line of her swimsuit bra across her back a fainter, lighter stripe. She'd never been one much for sunbathing, wore a modest two-piece suit, a good swimmer, but mostly just enjoyed splashing round in the pool. Now, here, every line of her body said something, and I tried to figure out what it was. Depression? Yeah, seemed maybe like that. A few inches in front of her the bathtub spigot dripped, the "bloop" of the drop landing in the tub loud in the room. She'd been in there long enough the bubbles were patchy islands bobbing on the ripples. Her fingers probably looked like prunes, but I couldn't tell. Tension? Oh yeah. She was clutching her arms around her legs. I could see the strain in her shoulders and arms. Fear? "Would you like me to wash your back?" <<shrug>> Again, an almost invisible one, barely a twitch of the shoulders. Taking that as a yes, I knelt by the tub and picked up the bar of soap. Lathering up my hands, I slithered them around the back of her neck, across her shoulders, but it was awkward to reach her. One thing I could tell was that she was really, really, really tense. I wondered if I should risk it. "Mind if I join you in the tub?" I asked softly. Bloop! <<shrug>> Moving slowly and softly, I stripped, and stepped carefully into the tub behind her. The water was lukewarm. She generally liked real hot baths, so it confirmed she'd been in there a while. I managed to awkwardly fold my long legs. Scrunching myself behind her so I didn't touch her with anything but my hands, I began soaping her shoulders and back, working my way down to water level. I felt somewhat akin to a grasshopper, my knees sticking way up on the sides so I was working between them. Her skin was soft and slick, warm, but I could feel the rigid muscles in her shoulders and neck. I let my hands slide down her arms, back up to the sides of her neck where I gently massaged her knotted muscles with my fingertips, slipped my fingers forward, sensed the tension in her jaw muscles before gently tracing the curl of her ears. She'd pinned her hair up, but a few stray, sodden tendrils had escaped to trail around my fingers. I returned to her shoulders and back, sliding my fingers along the sides of her spine, tracing the outlines of her angel-bones before slipping more out to the her sides, back up again to her shoulders, putting more pressure on her poor, strained muscles. She was so miserable I felt like crying. After a few minutes my legs were cramping up, so I shifted my feet, slipping them cautiously on either side of her butt. When they brushed her hips she didn't react, so I slid them further along beside her, straightening them, sighing softly with relief as I resumed gently washing her back. I could sense her ever so hesitantly relaxing, and got a little bolder, letting my fingers stroke her ribs along her sides. One time, in day care, we'd gone to a petting zoo. While other kids were fascinated by lambs or bunnies, I'd been taken by an armadillo, of all things, which had, for some reason, roused from its usual daytime sleep. Probably the din we were raising right outside his door had something to do with it. He had reacted to my boisterousness in the way of armadillos and I, being a kid, rolled him around like a ball, laughing. One of the keepers gently stopped me, showed me how to treat it more gently. Explaining what it was, explaining what "nocturnal" meant she said it probably needed a nap. As I held it quietly in my lap it slowly relaxed and unrolled, its sharp claws scratching my bare legs, his long, sticky tongue tasting me before the keeper convinced me to let it slip into its deep burrow so it could go back to sleep. Peggy was like that armadillo, slowly accepting my touch, the tensions slipping away. Finally I was able to take her shoulders, uncoil her and draw her back against me, her back against my chest as I leaned back against the end of the tub, extending my legs full length, her hips between my thighs, her legs almost straight out in front of her. I gently cuddled her, my cheek on the side of her head, and she began to cry. I put my arms around her and just held her and held her and held her, my hands resting on her soft, silky tummy over her innie belly button, on the little cushion of her little bit of remaining baby fat, while she cried and cried and cried, until my heart was breaking, until she ran down. Once she'd cried it out she let me use my toes to turn on the spigot to add hot water to the tub until it had warmed up some, and then we talked -- well, she talked, barely a whisper. I listened. It was really, really hard for me, but I managed to stay relaxed and calm as she told me what had happened. But if Worthington had been within reach I would have been at his throat. I would have flushed his head down the toilet -- after I'd crapped in it -- the toilet, not his head, I mean, though that's not a bad idea either. She made me promise never to tell anyone about what happened in his office Friday afternoon, and the details don't matter. It was easy for him to get her down there. He'd sent a note that she'd been accused of a program violation. It was the last school day of her week in The Program, and I wasn't there to go with her. Why hadn't I been there? Why? I felt like shit. I don't know how long Peggy and I were in the tub, but the water was getting cool again, so it must have been a while. Finally, Peggy's mom knocked gently on the door and asked how we were. Peggy flinched. "We're okay," I assured her mom, "but could you call my mom and tell her I may be a little late getting home?" I was probably already late, but I'd taken my watch off. "Would you like to stay for supper?" "I really can't, I do have to get home, but thank you. Just call my mom, please?" "Will you be out soon?" "It'll be a while. Tell Mom I'll be home in about an hour, but not to worry if it's longer." "What would you like for supper, sweetie?" "I'm not hungry," Peggy answered, her voice rusty from crying. "Maybe some soup?" I suggested softly. "Alphabet?" Peggy asked in a whisper. "I'd like alphabet soup." The ultimate comfort food. I relayed the message. "What am I going to do?" Peggy moaned. "I feel so filthy, the things he said to me, the things I did...." "You didn't do them,"' I answered firmly. "He did them to you." "But I let him ...." "It was not your fault," I informed her firmly, trying not to let my anger show. Anger? I was furious to the point of homicide. "He did it..." "But I let...." "Repeat after me, 'It is not my fault.'" "But...." "Say it, please, for me, for yourself." "It's not my fault," she whispered. "Say it like you mean it, again, and again, and again." She did, over and over, until it became a mantra as I repeated it with her, changing the "my" to "your." With every repetition I could feel her relaxing a little bit more, sounding a little bit more confident, stronger, angrier. I took her hands and slapped the water with them with every "not," with every "fault," over, and over, and over, harder and harder and harder as we chanted it, until we were splashing water all over the place and she was doing the swinging, not me. I could only hope her mom was downstairs and couldn't hear us, or she'd think we were both nuts. I don't know why I did what I did, but it seemed to help. She began to slow down, finally stopped, probably exhausted, and I was cradling her, enjoying the feel of her body against mine until at last I managed to help her up and opened the drain, her misery draining away with the bath-water. After we got out she stood there while I tenderly dried her off, and wrapped her in a robe that was hanging there, her mom's robe, I guess, it was so big. She looked so tired, drained, that I just had to hug her again, before I dried myself and dressed. "Now, will you come to school tomorrow?" She looked scared. "I'll protect you. We'll protect you," I assured her. "Our whole lunch bunch will." "But everyone will know...." "Nobody will know anything," I insisted. "I'm sure not going to tell anyone, and he doesn't dare tell anyone. They'll just think you've been sick." "But he'll be there." She was near tears again, and I held her close, her hair cool and wet against my cheek. She barely came above my shoulder. "He's been hiding in his office ever since he got stuck in The Program for the week." Neither of us used his name. "He's in The Program?" It actually seemed to cheer her up a little. I nodded, still holding her. "New policy. Faculty and staff, one at a time, have to be in The Program for a week, and he got the short straw this week. The only time I've seen him was Monday morning, when he first came out of the school office, naked, and he scurried off to hide under his rock. I guess since then he's sneaked in early, and slipped out late. As far as I know, no one has seen him." I risked kissing her head. "You're not in the program anymore. He doesn't have any power over you, you won't have to go near his office. I promise you, you won't see him, and no one will know what happened. No one. Please come back, we miss you. I miss you so much!" "But eventually...." "There's no 'eventually' about it when it comes to him," I promised ominously. "I'll make sure he's history." "But what'll you do? He warned me it'd be my word against his, and who'd believe a <<choke>> slut!" I gave her a squeeze. "You are not a slut!" "But what...?" "I don't know yet, but I'll think of something. It may take a while." "How long?" "A week? Maybe two. Give me two weeks." I was thinking of the committee. That would meet formally next week, but it wouldn't be much help, probably. "Two weeks, I promise." I wanted to stamp that worm into the pavement. He was going to regret he'd ever messed with one of my friends, that he'd ever heard of me. "Welll...." "Two weeks he'll be gone," I vowed, "sooner, if possible, and we'll watch your back every minute until he's gone, and even after. I promise you." "Welllll...." "Please?" I pleaded. I had the feeling if she didn't come back now she never would, and where could she go? "How about I come by here tomorrow and I'll walk with you to school, and one of us will be with you, every moment. Please? We need you. Lunch is just not the same without you." "I'll try," she agreed reluctantly. "I'll be here tomorrow, bright and early. Now come on, let's get some of that soup into you." "But what's going to happen to ... well, later?" "He will be gone." "But what about me? What should I do? I'm scared. I'll always be scared." My own mind was already wrestling with that. "Well, one thing I want you to do. You know Ms. Andrews?" "Sure, everyone knows her." "I want you to talk with her." "But she's middle school!" "It won't matter," I assured her, crossing my fingers. "Trust me, talking to her will help." The high school counselor was a man. Peggy would never open up to a man. It had to be Ms. Andrews. "What do I tell my mom?" she asked as we were about to go downstairs. "Right now I'll tell her it's boy trouble, that there's this boy you really, really like, and he was really nice to you last week, but that he likes another girl, and then you did something really embarrassing in front of him, and you don't want to talk about it." She nodded seriously as I guided her into the dining room. I could smell soup heating in the kitchen. "Now, you sit at the table, I'll help your mom with the soup," I alibied quickly, leaving her wrapped in that big robe, looking small, and vulnerable, and worried at her place at the dining room table. "How's the soup?" I managed to ask as calm as could be. "How is she? What's wrong? Is it something to do with The Program? I should have told her I'd put her name in." I grasped at that straw. "Well, she was surprised when she got called up, but she handled it. I assumed she'd told you she was in it when she got home." "Oh, she did, once she was, but she didn't say much about it. It's ... well, I'm kind of uncomfortable talking with her about sex and stuff. I thought that thing you did last year had pretty much covered -- the birds and the bees and stuff." "Oh, it did, and she did fine last week from what I could see." If Peggy hadn't mentioned the Tweedles I wasn't about to. And, truthfully, I hadn't seen what had happened Friday. Oh powers of persuasion, don't leave me now, I pleaded, and I could feel The Stick bolstering me. I'd already rejected the idea of telling Mrs. Hughes her daughter had been molested. No way was I capable of dealing with a hysterical Mom and daughter. I'd leave that to a trained professional, but Ms. Andrews wasn't available right then. So I gave the woman a real song and dance about this neat boy and a monster crush, and she'd thought he really liked her, only it turned out he liked another girl, and yada yada yada. "But I'm her mother!" "And that's why she can't tell you about it right now. She's really, really embarrassed. She'll tell you when she's ready. Just be here for her..." I don't know where this bullshit was coming from, but it just kept flowing. "I'm going to take care of things at school. I'll come by and we'll walk together tomorrow, but right now she needs you here just holding her when she asks. Okay?" I was doing my best to sound calm, cool and collected, trying to keep her calm. She looked at me. "Why am I listening to you? You're a fourteen year old, and I'm her mother!" I didn't tell her I was still only thirteen, feeling like I was three hundred. "Mrs. Hughes, please, trust me. If you try to get her to talk it will only make things worse." Yeah, like if the truth comes out before Worthington was properly dealt with, she or her husband would probably take a shotgun down to the school to solve the problem. Or they'd just come into the office screaming and before we knew it the whole fucking town would know what had happened to their daughter, and that would destroy her. For the moment they were better off not knowing. "Please, believe me, in a couple of weeks this will all blow over, but right now all she needs is to know that you love her, and her dad loves her, too." "He's -- not around -- right now," Mrs. Hughes stammered. "Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't know." "We're trying to work things out." Oh great! Peggy was going to need Ms. Andrews more than ever, but if I mentioned "counseling" that would really set off alarms. Well, I'd cross that bridge when I came to it. Shit! I felt so fucking alone in all this! And where was Missy when I needed her? I could always trust her to .... Missy! Oh shit! She was in The Program this week. Sure as anything, that worm would try to get his filthy hands on her next! I tried not to be paranoid, but couldn't avoid the thought he was trying to get at me through my friends, not just satisfying his twisted desires. "Please, Mrs. Hughes, trust me. Don't pry, not right now. Please, promise me!" She looked at me for a long time, until the soup started to boil and she grabbed the pot off the burner. Some of the soup splashed on her and without thinking I grabbed her wrist and shoved her hand under the tap and turned on the cold water, not too hard. "That's what my mom does when I burn myself," I explained, holding her hand under the cold stream, which was true, at least, and it works, too. "You're sure it's nothing?" she asked, letting the water run over her hand before she turned the water off and grabbed a dish-towel to blot it dry. I knew she wasn't asking about her hand. I suspected she wanted to believe me rather than to have to face the truth. I wondered fleetingly how the hell my mom had managed to hold it all together without a husband to support her. "Boys and hormones," I answered. "I've been there myself. Now, go share some soup with her. I told her I'd be here to walk her to school in the morning. She's afraid her friends will make fun of her. I'll make sure they don't." She tittered nervously, and I wondered how close she was to hysterics. "I hear you got a little wild on Sunday." "Yeah," I admitted as she dished out two bowls of soup, while I found the crackers and put some on a plate. "It was an experiment that went wrong, part of outreach for The Program and I got a little carried away. In a way it's good. People are so busy ragging on me they won't bother her." "You're awfully brave!" I shrugged. "Well...." "Mom, I'm hungry," Peggy complained from the doorway. Bless her! It looked like she'd pulled herself together enough for now, I hoped. Cripes, what time was it! Shit! I had to warn Missy! After repeating my promise to be there to walk Peggy to school, and giving her another big hug, I shouldered my backpack and trotted out the door, praying that I'd doused that brushfire, at least for the moment. Damn, it was already getting dark. I set a new personal best for the mile with full backpack and banged through the front door. "Sorry I'm late," I called as I took the stairs to my room two at a time. "I gotta call Missy, and then we need to talk." I couldn't leave Mom out of this! No way, no how! I could trust her to keep her mouth shut, but she had to know what was going on. "Missy, it's Dee," I announced when I got her on the line. "I was gonna call you, it's nothing about me, but...." "It has to wait a minute," I interrupted. "Why...?' "Just listen, please. Whatever you do, do NOT go down to Worthington's office alone! If you have to go, take someone with you. Take Mike with you if you can, or someone else, but don't let him get you alone! Understand?" "Yeah," she answered slowly. "But I thought you ought to know something funny is going on with him." I felt a chill. "Like what?" "Madge -- she's the sophomore girl in The Program this week -- Madge got a note from him at lunchtime today accusing her of a program violation, ordering her to come to his office at the end of the day." "Shit! Did she go?" "No. She had a dentist appointment and her mom picked her up from her last period. She told me he could wait 'til tomorrow, that it had to be a mistake. I know Madge. She'd never screw up." "You call her right now and tell her what I just told you -- if she goes, take someone along, preferably her partner in the program, that's what they're for. And don't stop with her. Get the word out, quietly, to everyone in The Program. No one goes to see Worthington alone. No one!" "What's going on?" "I can't tell you, but, well, cross your heart promise that you won't go there alone, and pass the word. Okay?" "Okay." That was the Missy I knew. She trusted me. I heaved a sigh of relief. "Thanks. I'm sorry, but I gotta go." I hung up -- well, punched the "end call" button -- before I put down the cordless phone. I wonder where that "hung up" expression came from? "Supper's waiting," Mom announced from my door. I didn't know how much she'd heard. "Is everything okay?" "No, it's not, but it's better now. We can talk while we eat." "If I have any appetite," she responded dryly. "I can hardly wait. What kind of a mess have you gotten yourself into now?" I knew Mom was smiling that wry, loving smile she had only for me. "Is Elaine here?" I asked as I followed her down the stairs, my legs shaky. "She's got two women in labor, and a third is probably going to be doing the same thing any day now. We won't see her for at least three days, I suspect." "Good." Then I realized how that sounded. "I mean, well, what I've got to talk about, well, it's got to stay between just the two of us." "This sounds serious." "It is." When she heard me out as we ate -- grilled cheese sandwiches -- she agreed. For a moment she sat there, and I wasn't sure if she was stunned or just thinking. "Something's got to be done about that ... that ... monster!" I growled. "I'm trying to figure out what," Mom responded, "and how." God I hope I can respond to an emergency as calmly she does, but I guess I've given her lots of practice over the years. I let her think. "Who is there at school that you can trust?" she asked. "Mrs. Devers." That was a no-brainer. "But this can't wait until morning," she mused. "How can we reach her?" I remembered. "I've got her private phone number!" I dashed for my backpack. "Ask her if she can come here," Mom asked as I punched the number in. "Tonight. Right now. I'll make some coffee. I think it'll be a long night." Twenty minutes later the Vice Principal was at the table with us. After I'd filled Devers in -- well, I'd never seen her eyes turn that shade before, talk about storm clouds! She reached for the phone and made some calls. An hour later a full war council was convened around our dining room table. Besides me and Mom and Mrs. Devers there were two plain-clothes cops, an Assistant District Attorney, and a woman from Child Protective Services, and I was arguing passionately that Peggy had to be kept out of this. The cops didn't think my promise to Peggy meant much, but since I'd refused to give out her name they were stymied, and Mom, Mrs. Devers and CPS took my side. The Assistant DA was thinking, then she came down on my side. "Whoever she is, it would be her word against his," she pointed out to the cops. "We'd never get a conviction, and the whole thing would come out in the open. It would be a circus, devastating for the girl." "Quit wasting time, I'm not going to tell you who it is anyway," I growled, and Mom patted my hand to calm me down. "We need to trap him, get him to give us enough rope and then you can hang him with it! Put me in The Program next week. " "No!" Mom snapped, a mama bear protecting her cub. "We need to move fast." Mrs. Devers was deadly calm. "We need to protect the young ladies, not just the one who's already suffered," CPS said. "It has to be handled quickly." She was quiet and calm, a plump, conservatively dressed woman even at this hour. Framed with graying hair, her dark face was as ominous as Mrs. Devers's. "It's got to be done quietly," Mrs. Devers pointed out. "It's got to be done in a way that he can't worm out of it," the Assistant DA explained. "The evidence has to be rock solid, so strong that he'll be glad to accept a plea bargain...." I exploded. "A plea bargain? You want that ... that ...." Well, I totally lost my couth and put myself in debt to the curse jar to the tune of about fifty bucks before Mom got me settled down. Even the Assistant DA was impressed by my eloquence. "Believe me, if we get the evidence we need, it'll never go to trial. We will put him behind bars for a long time. I guarantee he'll do hard time and once he comes out -- if he survives jail, even convicts don't take to his type, since many of them suffered abuse as kids -- he'll be labeled a sex offender. He won't be able to even drive an ice cream truck anywhere in the country. "The only question is, how to we get it the evidence, fast?" The head cop shook his head. "No way we can slip an undercover cop into the school, into The Program. It's got to be someone already in the school." "Me!" I wanted him so bad! "Not you, Dee," Mrs. Devers told me, waving a calming hand at my mom. "You've already crossed swords with him, so he'd be suspicious. Besides, we can't just shove you in The Program before next week and we need to move fast. What we need is someone already in The Program this week." I was fuming, and wanted to ask why I couldn't be put in the program, but held my tongue for a change. "From the little you've told us, Dee, he seems to be picking on the underclass girls," CPS observed. "Yes'm," I agreed. After putting out my warning Missy had called back to tell me that the sophomore girl in The Program last week had also been called down by Worthington, but he'd creeped her out so much she'd split before anything happened. She'd been too afraid to say anything, dammit. If she had it might have saved Peggy. "Who do you have in the program this week? Is there a good candidate?" the senior cop asked. "That's asking an awful lot of a high school freshman or sophomore!" CPS protested. "Missy." The name sort of fell out of my mouth by accident. "Who?" the cops and the Assistant DA asked in unison. "Millicent Wilson," Mrs. Devers answered thoughtfully. Oh shit, I thought. Missy, what have I just done to you?