Fantasies of Howard Roark This journal is from Madeline's growing collection of journals at Madeline's YesRoom (http://www.yesroom.com). In addition to more journals, you can find erotic stories and softcore site reviews at Madeline's YesRoom. Enjoy! ********************** Fantasies of Howard Roark by Madeline 7 September 2000 This journal may be reposted to usenet and the web under the following conditions: (1) No fee is charged to view the journal, (2) a link to Madeline's YesRoom (http://www.yesroom.com) is included, (3) Madeline is e-mailed at madeline@yesroom.com informing her of the repost, and (4) the text is not altered, including this copyright notice. Thanks! -- Madeline ********************** I must admit, I really have a thing for men with long hair. Over the past few years, this small fetish of mine was unconsciously abandoned, as all the men I dated or interacted with were short-haired professionals. (Now that I think about it, longer hair in men seems to have gone out of style. What a pity!) Without any decision, I adjusted my desires to what was possible. After all, long hair, as desirable as it may be, does not a good lover make. But finding and re-reading "Swimming in Desire" (at http://www.yesroom.com/journals/jnl003.shtml) made me think about this turn-on again. In that letter to my lover at the time, I briefly mentioned his long hair. Oh what memories that quick sentence has evoked! I can vividly remember the pleasure of feeling that lover's rich, red hair, of seeing it slide through my fingers, of pressing it to his face as I kissed him. It was a whole new body part to interact with, a whole new sexual organ for me to explore. It was a whole new level of arousal. Long hair by itself, of course, will not do. I want long, smooth hair on a narrow, chiseled face. I want long, dark hair on a tall, lean, and muscular body. I want a man who sits in his body easily, completely relaxed with the world. I want a man ready to pounce upon me. I want a man who will take control of a sexual situation, yet will easily cede control to me. Ah, yes. This is my Howard Roark fantasy. My Howard Roark with long hair fantasy. That former lover of mine (from "Swimming in Desire) was the most like Howard Roark of all that I have had, at least in physical presence. He did not have the psychology to match, but that's nothing that my imagination cannot fix in the fantasies I construct for myself today. The thought of Howard Roark with long hair should keep me in good dreams tonight. I must admit that I sometimes wonder whether my lust for long-haired men is really lust for a strange, androgynous mixture of male and female, for the beauty of a woman with the physical power of a man. I do find women more attractive, more physically seductive than men. But I find men more psychologically seductive, more compelling. Long hair might be a way to unite the best of both worlds. But I suspect that my earlier musing about hair being a whole new sexual organ to explore is more accurate. Long hair allows me to explore a lover in different ways, to touch him and see him differently. It gives me one more way to focus on his physical presence. I do not want more woman and less man; I simply want to experience more of my lover. It is no wonder then, that most men enjoy women with long hair. If only such men would reciprocate, letting us fully enjoy them as well. Then all my dreams could be filled with the long hair of my lovers. -- Madeline ********************** Madeline madeline@yesroom.com Madeline's YesRoom http://www.yesroom.com Madeline's YesRoom offers high-quality erotic stories, Madeline's journals, softcore site reviews, erotic penpals, and chat. Updated daily!