I sat in the driver’s seat of the car on our way to the airport to pickup Mark. I looked over at Tammy who had an excited expression on her face and thought about what we went through the past few months. How many people could say they had recently had a sex change? The last time I saw Mark, I was masquerading as a woman. Now I was a real woman! Last time we talked, he didn’t have any clue that Tammy and I were really married and now he knows the truth. This was going to be a very strange day for me knowing what Marks knows about me. How should I react to him? What should I say to him? I guess I’ll figure that out when I see him. We were entering the parking area of the airport and I grabbed the ticket when we passed through the gate and I parked the car. I looked over at Tammy and saw her playing with that big diamond ring she was wearing. She appeared very nervous and excited at the same time. I put my hand on her arm and smiled and said. “Are you ready?” She just responded by shaking her head and I opened the door and waited for Tammy to walk around. Out of habit, I took hold of her hand but realized we would look like a couple of lesbians walking together. I suppose it will take me a little time to break those old habits of holding her hand. I’d have to leave those things up to Mark now. We walked into the airport building and toward the area where Mark’s plan would be coming in. We were right on time so we started walking a little faster. Tammy was getting ahead of me and I could smell her perfume as she walked in front of me. Her little tight ass was swaying with each foot step she took. I had a hard time keeping up with Tammy in these heels I was wearing. That was another thing I desperately had to have practiced doing. Running in heels! I even discovered my boobs were bouncing all over the place as I ran to keep up with Tammy. We arrived at the gate and Tammy got as close as she could to the entrance. The guard was keeping her from entering the boarding area as I stood back and waited. I felt more comfortable keeping my distance from them as they met. I watched Tammy now who was jumping up and down and saw Mark walking her way. I almost couldn’t stand to watch as I saw Tammy wrap her arms around Mark as he passed through the little gate. Tammy was standing on her toes as she leaned up and gave Mark a passionate kiss which seemed to last a long time. They kept talking than kissing than talking some more. I saw Mark slid his large black hands down past Tammy’s waist and feel her ass and saw him say something to her and than they kissed again. It seemed like they were going to stand there forever until they finally turned around to face where I was standing and started to walk my way. Mark had his hand around Tammy’s waist and she had her arm around him as they walked toward me. “Jenny. How are you doing? It’s really nice to see you again. You are looking good!” I extended my hand out to Mark and smiled and said. “It’s nice having you back home safe and sound!” We didn’t say much more as we walked to the baggage claim area and picked up Mark’s luggage. Mark carried both bags while Tammy held onto a small bag and I offered to hold it for her which she allowed me than put her hand around Mark as we all walked to the car. Mark loaded the suit cases into the trunk and offered to drive. “Mark. Why don’t you and Tammy sit in the back seat and let me drive? I bet you have a lot to talk about.” Mark didn’t object as he and Tammy climbed into the back seat together and I drove the car. I was able to see them in the mirror and saw them kissing again. They were whispering to each other so I don’t have a clue what they were saying. It had been about a year since Mark had gone. I knew they had a lot of catching up to do and a lot they wanted to talk about. I thought I’d feel more strange than I did but I really seemed to be adjusting to this really fast. I could hear them talking and kissing as I glanced in the mirror and saw Tammy holding her hand across her face so I couldn’t read her lips. I’m sure she was telling him something sexy! I pulled into the driveway and got out of the car and opened the trunk. Mark seemed to be in a hurry as he pulled the bags out of the trunk and hurried to the front door. I was right behind them carrying the small bag again as Tammy unlocked the front door. Tammy held the door open for us and Mark sat the bags on the living room floor and turned to me and said. “Thank you for your help and driving us home.” We starred in each other’s eyes and I wondered what he was thinking about me at that very moment. What could be going through his mind? Did he feel sorry for me or maybe he was admiring how pretty I really was as a woman? “I understand you met Charley at my old apartment?” I was a little uneasy and pretended to clear my throat. “Yes. I met Charley.” “I talked to Tammy about doing a double date with him soon. Would you like to go out on a date with Charley?” He was trying to set me up with his friend. Maybe he felt guilty about taking Tammy away from me. “I never really considered going out. I guess that would be nice.” “You don’t have to be nervous around Charley. He is a really nice guy and I’m sure the two of you will hit it off.” I had a suspicion that he was trying to completely get me out of the picture with Tammy. Maybe it was the way I felt around Mark. My mind kept playing this out for months. I still loved Tammy and I was jealous of Mark. I wanted to be a part of her life, share everything. Tammy walked back into the room. “Mark. Why don’t you go into the bedroom and see how we arranged everything for you while I talk with Jenny in the kitchen?” Mark smiled as he picked up the last two bags and headed toward the master bedroom. It felt really strange having him living her now and seeing him walk into my old bedroom. The room that Tammy and I shared as husband and wife now belonged to her and Mark. I’ve been dreading this day for weeks, months, knowing that Mark and Tammy would spend their first night together in that room making wild passionate love. I followed Tammy to the kitchen and watched as she poured a glass of water and took one of her birth control pills. She was so beautiful standing in front of the sink. Should I hold her tight in my arms and kiss her and maybe . . . Well. Stop her from sleeping with Mark tonight. No. I had to be strong. I couldn’t let her know how I felt inside. I couldn’t tell her that I was jealous and felt so alone inside. I felt like a child wanting to sleep with her mother as protection and security. Tammy could sense my feelings. She walked in front of me and held my chin and leaned forward and kissed my lips. She was so beautiful with her long flowing red hair and her green eyes as they starred into mine. She didn’t speak. She just put her hands on my waist and pulled me toward her. We embraced as I put my chin on her shoulder. I kissed her hair near her ear as she held the back of my head. I felt our breasts pushing into each other. She moved her arms straight out to take my hands into her own and stepped back and smiled. She laughed faintly and hugged me again as she whispered into my ear. “Jenny. We almost look like twin sisters standing here. You’re the same exact size that I’m and your hair is almost as long and as red as mine. We take the same size dress and you look as beautiful as I could ever imagine.” I stepped back smiling at Tammy. I knew she wanted me to feel good about myself. “Jenny. I know this is going to be a turning point in your life but I want you to know that whatever happens that we will always remain close and I will always love you. I want you to accept Mark as a part of your family.” She laughed as she starred into my eyes. “We’ll always tell people that we are sisters.” I smiled knowing how much she was trying to cheer me up. I got my next shock as Mark walked up to both of us and put his huge arms around both of our waists. I couldn’t have been but several inches away from Tammy’s face as Mark kissed her on the lips as he held us both. They smacked lips a few times until Mark laughed. I felt his body moving as he held me and knew he must have been rubbing Tammy’s ass. He leaned his head back and starred at both of us. “You two women look like twins. I hope you don’t think alike.” Tammy let go of me and hugged Mark as she kissed him one more time. Tammy and I knew we looked alike and even before I started hormones, people would tell Tammy that she had a husband who had a girlish face and figure. Tammy cooked that evening and I made myself scarce spending time in my room that evening. I changed into my pajama’s and decided to read a book. I must have dozed off because I woke up and it was dark in the room. The book I had been reading was still in my hand. I heard noises coming from the master bedroom and I remembered that Mark was with Tammy. I felt groggy as I looked at the clock on my night stand. It was after one in the morning. It must have been the sound coming from their bedroom that woke me up. The sound was getting much louder. I think it was Mark pounding the mattress against the wall. I thought I heard a faint sound like Mark moaning. Minutes later I heard Tammy in the bathroom than heard the toilet flush. My door gently eased open and I could barely see Tammy peeking in the crack. I pretended to be asleep as she slowly walked toward the bed and pulled the cover over my shoulder. She placed a little kiss on my forehead and walked back out of the room The smell of her perfume and a touch of Mark’s cologne lingered in the room. I knew in my heart that Tammy still cared about me but she belonged to another man now. A man! I could barely smell the aroma of sex along with the other scents. I soon feel asleep until the morning. The sun was shining in my window as I gently opened my eyes. I remember dreaming about Tammy coming into my room last night and giving me a gentle kiss. What’s this? I was looking up at the ceiling and it startled me. I was laying in the master bedroom! Oh my God! I turned quickly toward the other side of the bed. Tammy was starring into my eyes smiling at me. “Good morning, Sleepy Head!” Where was Mark? I was confused. I sat up in bed leaning on my elbow and looked around the room trying to figure everything out. “Honey. What’s the matter?” “Where is Mark? Where are his things?” “Honey. Are you all right? Did you drink something over at Jean’s house last night?” It was all coming back to me now. I must have been dreaming about Mark being here last night. I was with Jean. We had sex last night! I must have come home late and dreamed about everything else. I reached under the cover and felt between my legs. My penis was still there. I must have dreamed everything else after I left Jean’s house last night. Jean. I remember what she told me. I remember being afraid and wanting to come home to Tammy. My wife! Tammy leaned next to me and kissed my nose as she stroked my hair. “Honey. You look worried. Is everything all right?” I was starting to remember everything now. I got home after three in the morning and went straight to bed. “Where is Mark? I thought he was spending the night here with you.” She kept kissing my face as she held the back of my head and stroked my hair. “Mark left around midnight last night to go and pick up his friend at the airport. It’s a guy named Charlie who shares his apartment. He lost his credit cards and didn’t have a way to get home so Mark went and got him.” I moved closer to Tammy and put my arm around her waist as she kissed my lips. Everything was coming back to me now. I remembered what Jean had told me about Mark and how hurt I felt. I couldn’t explain it but I felt that I had also hurt Tammy. I had let her down as her husband. She fell in love with another man and it was my fault. I held Tammy close to me as she nudged her face next to mine. She rubbed her fingers against my cheek feeling how smooth my skin had become. Our eyes met and we starred at each other as she stroked my cheek. “Tammy. Have I disappointed you the way this has turned out?” Tammy was thinking. I could see it in her eyes. “Jenny. You never disappoint me. Why would you say such a thing?” I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t want to tell her what Jean had said. She would be hurt. I began to cry as I replied. “I didn’t mean to hurt you.” “Jenny. Please don’t cry. There is nothing that you did that hurt me. You’re just having difficulty accepting the changes that are taking place. The hormones that you have been taking will cause you to be depressed at times. Don’t worry. I’m here for you and always will be.” I wiped my eyes knowing that Tammy carried about me. I didn’t want to discuss Mark at the moment. It hurt too much to think about my wife falling in love with him and knowing that I was the cause. Later that morning we showered together and I tried to forget about Mark. I thought it was very peculiar that I dreamed about a guy named Charlie who shared his room with Mark. I don’t remember Mark ever mentioned his name to me before. The phone rang. Tammy walked into the room carrying the phone. “It’s for you. It’s Jean.” I really didn’t want to speak to her right now but Tammy gave me the phone. “Jenny. How are you doing this morning? Have you given any thought to what I said to you last night about Tammy?” I took a deep breath dreading to answer her question. “Uh. We spoke in bed this morning and I asked Tammy if I disappointed her.” “Jenny. Don’t be silly. She’s not going to tell you that! You’re her husband and she isn’t going to hurt your feelings that way. You have to make a move. You’re the one that is going to have to encourage Tammy. She is hurting inside just as much as you.” “Jean . . . I don’t know what to say . . . How should I approach the subject?” “Jenny, is Mark with Tammy right now?” “No . . . He went to pick up his friend at the airport but I think he’s coming over later.” “Good . . . Jenny . . . This is a great opportunity for you! . . . Here’s what you need to tell Tammy.” I listened as I swallowed hard wondering what Jean was going to suggest to me. “Just go to her and hug her tight and just say to her that you’re so happy for her that she found Mark. Explain to her that you feel relieved that she has a man in her life now and you don’t have to worry about hurting her.” This was almost too much to bare. I knew that if I reassured Tammy the way Jean was telling me that I was sealing my fait. I was basically telling Tammy to forget about me and go on with her life. “But . . . Jean . . . I think she already knows this . . . Maybe I shouldn’t even bring it up anymore. She might get angry with me.” “Jenny. Stop it right now and listen to me. You’re the one that’s fighting this and not her. You know what you need to do, now stop dragging your feet around and talk to her.” I stood crying as Jean spoke to me. “Jenny. Stop feeling selfish. You may have to encourage Tammy on a daily basis as she has with you about your transition. She has given you her support and you at least owe her your support in return.” I felt numb listening to Jean but I knew she was right. I had to give Tammy my encouragement no matter how much I hurt inside. It was up to me now to stop the hurt for Tammy. We hung up and I stood thinking about what I was going to say to Tammy. Tammy was in the kitchen standing next to the sink. I saw my hormone pills sitting on the table with a glass of water waiting for me. She turned and smiled at me. “Jenny. You forgot to take your hormone pills this morning.” She handed me the glass of water and gave me my pill’s one at a time as I swallowed them. She took the empty glass out of my hand and put it in the sink. That’s when I made my move and walked up behind her and put my arms around her tiny waist. I kissed the side of her head and whispered in her ear. “Tammy. I’m so happy for you that you found a man that you can love. I know Mark loves you and will take care of you and I know he will treat you well.” There. I said it!...My heart was beating hard as I waited for a reply. Tammy turned around and hugged me tight. She was crying as we hugged each other. She was holding me very tight. She was finally able to speak to me once she gathered her thoughts. “Jenny. I never wanted to hurt you. I’ve been so selfish myself. I shouldn’t have done what I did with Mark. I realize you need more time to adjust to your transition and I’m sorry for what I have done.” I knew she was trying to apologias for falling in love with Mark but I had to reassure her like Jean said. “Tammy. Don’t cry. It wasn’t your fault. I know what I want in my life and I don’t want to hurt you. Stop feeling guilty about Mark! I don’t blame you nor do I blame him. It just happened and he was there when you needed someone and I understand. I’m happy for you!” Tammy pulled her body away from me just far enough so she could look into my eyes. I could see that she was about to tell me something else. “Jenny. I don’t want you to be upset with me but I told Mark everything . . . I felt that he should know the truth about you and me.” God. It was just like in my dream. Tammy had told Mark the truth about me. I felt so ashamed at that very moment. How could I face that man after trying to fool him? What was Tammy trying to do to me? “Tammy, I don’t know what I’m I going to do now? How can I face him again after lying to him?” “Jenny. Mark understands. We had a long talk about the situation last night while you were gone. I couldn’t go on pretending any longer. He deserved to know the truth!” “I think you should have waited to tell him.” “Jenny. Mark got upset last night that I waited so long to tell him as it was. I feel terrible about not being 100 percent honest with him. I felt that you were being deprived as well.” I walked away from Tammy leaving her standing in the kitchen. I could hear her crying as I shut the spare bedroom door. I didn’t even come out to eat that night I was so upset with the way things went that day. I didn’t hear a peep in the whole house that night except when Tammy got ready for bed. Mark didn’t show up that night and I wondered what was wrong. I lay in bed starring up at the ceiling as the moon light shined into the room. I wondered what Tammy was thinking at that moment.