Note: This story was dynamically reformatted for online reading convenience.
 
 I cannot take full credit for this story which is an excerpt from a story I
read many years ago called, "I, SADIST" I have altered the story slightly
but the majority of it is as written by the original owner

   THE AWAKENING OF DESIRE

   As I lie here day dreaming, I think back to my youth as a naive young
girl just starting to blossom and feel the awakening of desires I did not
understand.  Back to a balmy summers day in the country , back to a
hillside of lush green grass.  Back to...........

   "THE AWAKENING OF DESIRE"

   Life was wonderful as a fourteen year old girl, the world was a lovely
place to live in, trees blossomed and the fragrance of the sweet grass
filled the air with delicate perfume.  I skipped thoughtlessly over the
rising ground, happy and care free, my hair flowed behind me, my eyes
sparkled with the fun of living as my small maturing breasts bounced
delightfully inside my loose blouse, unfettered and free.  My long thighs
tingled with the breeze of pure freshness as I raced up that hillside, my
skirt billowed carefree, whipping loosely about the tanned golden flesh so
carelessly displayed.  I was alone and unafraid, I was in love with nature
and everything seemed in tune with my romantic soul The tiny clump of
bushes hid him from me, I picked my way through the tangled brush,
playfully plucking small shoots and buds in passing.  I could faintly make
out his head, a blonde head with a strong masculine face peering out over
the edge of the hill at the country side beyond.  He must have been lost in
contemplation for he never even heard me, I pushed out into the open and
stopped suddenly, the song of nature frozen onmy lips.  He was naked,
absolutely stark naked, I gasped and the loud explosion of breath attracted
him, he twisted around and I saw it for the first time, a protruding limb
of darker coloured flesh protruding from a thicket of hair that curled and
matted the lower extremes of his stomach.  He saw the direction of my gaze
and laughed, I will always remember thatlaugh, it was coarse, conceited and
filthy.  His fingers flipped the ugly member at me and his lilting voice
beat against my ear drums saying "What's the matter little girl, this the
first time you have seen heaven in the nude".  I was paralysed, my eyes
travelled up from this grotesque thing up to his hairy chest to his
laughing face.  I saw the bright eyes, the wavy hair, the thin lips drawn
back in a snarling mask of lust as his eyes peeled away my clothing and saw
me nude also.  I felt a strange feeling of comfit in knowing that I held
some power over him, in knowing that my body attracted his worst thoughts,
my hands clenched and unclenched as I moved slowly, backing away from the
sight of this man naked, a man with intent written on his evil face, a man
who would take away my one remaining vestige of purity, my useless
virginity.  He bound across the space separating us with that monstrous
organ an invitation to sin, he smiled down at me, his eyes capturing
mine,holding me powerless in a vice of immobility.  He spoke to me through
the haze of depravity that surrounded us "Oh, surely you not frightened by
seeing my prick..  come on, you've seen mine , lets have a look at that
cute receptacle of yours, eh.  I shuddered, he was insane, he was utterly
mad suggesting that I a fourteen year old school girl would deliberately
bare my secret parts to his lascivious eyes, that I should offer myself for
his depraved senses.  I stammered, " Y-- you,-- your insane I won't do
su--such a thing", his index finger and thumb encircled the dangling
roundness of his organ, and he slowly at first, then faster started to
stroke the swelling rod of skin and muscle.  His eyes never left my face, I
could feel the tension building inside me, feeling the overwhelming urgency
compel me to watch his member rise, clasped by his frictioning finger and
thumb to an enormous size, sticking up from the hirsute growth of his
stomach like an angry red poker.  He gave it a few fast jerks that pulled
the loose dark skin back from the satiny head then said "There-- there take
a look at that, lovely prick, ain't it, big and thick, big enough to fill
your little cunt, thick enough to make you cum six times to my one, big and
thick girlie, big and thick and so nice to fuck you and have shoved up your
hot little belly, eh?  His words were so crude, words I had heared in the
school playground but never from a grown man, telling me what he wanted to
do to me, prick, fuck, cunt, words that strangly I repeated to myself,
strange but stiring some thing inside of me, exciting me.  My thighs were
sticky, I could feel the wet ooze from between my swollenlips, trickling
down the itching flesh of my inner thighs.  I wanted to scream and run away
but some mysterious power held me there, I could feel the stirring inside
my body, feel thepounding of my heart inside my heaving young breasts,
feeling the wetness of my genitals urge me to seek some form of release for
the discomfit his ugly, yet strangely, beautiful organ had produced inside
me.  His voice was now softer almost pleading now as he asked me, " Are you
going to let me see your little den, don't you want to touch my cock
....like this "?  His hand was hot and firm as he took mine, guiding my
palm along the hardness of his erection,I felt the hot flesh burning away
my resistance, I felt the smooth swollen helmet swell even more as he
closed my palm over the huge circumference of his rod.  He surged forward
into my encircling hand until the loose skin of his testicles was pressed
against me, I shivered.  This was the first time I had ever held a man's
organ in my hand and the sensation was delightful, I gave in to the urge
and fondled the entire length and width of that strong bow, I felt along it
from the little hole spotting the bloated head down to the curving stem and
down to the testicles so full of pleasure for a woman.  His hands caressed
my arms , then up to my shoulders, his voice cooing gently as he began to
unbutton my blouse.  "There now ...  back and forth again back and forth
along it...ah, that's lovely, you like feeling my prick, don't you/, no
don't stop, I'll feel your tits for you and you will soon want it shoved
into your little wet nest.  " The cool air brushed my naked breasts as he
threw back my blouse, I felt weak, dirty, here I was, a virgin, letting
this filthy man bare my breasts as I caressed his hard penis for him,
listening to his licentious gasps of joy as he took me and sank to the
grass with me beside him.  He leant over me, his eyes fixed on the
swellings of my maturing breasts, "So lovely, so lovely" he sighed and his
hands found them, I shivered, a fire streaking through my chest, filling my
breasts with emotion, sinking shafts of burning passion into my loins.  My
hands now sought his body, both wrapped around the hardness of his penis,
seeking to bare the secrets of that mighty instrument.  I rolled back the
flesh back and forth, I stroked the swollen bulges of his testicles, I
caressed he ridged underside of the stem and I felt the tide of desire wash
and bathe me in it's beautiful ebb, his fingers rolled the tips of my
nipples, they needed the turgid points into seething nubs of lust, they
cupped and fondled the twin mounds of smooth flesh.  He bent over me and
the heat of his breath was an ember that raised my nipples to pulsing test
of fury, his lips caressed the firm tips and his mouth opened and took
delighted teat into the moist cavity, sucking and licking the little
cherries, I was moaning strange phrases that sent him into a frenzy of
action.  "Ohhh--- yes, again, lick it again, suck the left one now--- ahhh,
bite me, no No not too hard ohhh, ahhh it's wonderful, feel them both, feel
them".  I couldn't keep still, I writhed on the grass, my loins ached for
his hands and soon had their prays answered.  Unable to stop, I lay on my
back, my hips twisting out of control, my legs threshing wildly, his hands
felt their way down my sides, stroking the skin, causing goose pimples to
rise.  He fumbled at the buttons holding my skirt, when loosened, he
unzipped the side.  I wanted to yell, to tell him to stop but the sensation
of desire filled me and wanted him to hurry to his target, I knew what he
wanted, knew where he would touch me,knew what was about to happen.  His
hands caressed the flesh of my hips as he pushed down the clinging skirt
and I felt my hips rise, my buttocks lift as I helped him undress me.  He
grunted and his mouth sucked on a flaming nipple, I shuddered delightfully
as I felt the skirt fall uselessly about my knees and his hand move over
the silken covering of my panties, over the wet silk to.....  I felt the
hand of doom use me then, I felt the hand heavy on the satiny velvet of my
groin and I breathed faster, I was under the spell of lust and I didn't
want to be freed.  His fingers traced a hurried line along the wet lips
that pouted and blossomed under his touch, I thrust up to meet his
fondling, I threw my thighs apart and he caressed the wetness where my
vagina poured forth it's lubricating fluid for his final act.  He tugged at
the elastic topped briefs and down they came, I grasped his huge penis even
tighter, furiously stroking it, rubbing on the polished surface of the
gland.  He jerked and his satiny hood penetrated the encircling protection
of my palm and jabbed at the soft flesh of my thigh.  The contact was my
undoing , the heat of the bulging tip on the tender skin of my thigh had me
wild with desire, I rolled and twisted and my briefs slipped down my legs.
Kicking skirt and panties off, I opened my legs and panted, "Now, feel it,
feel it all over, rub the button till I cum off, oh, you lovely lovely
thing, make me go off".  His mouth left my breasts and pressed on my lips,
his tongue a hot dart thatsnaked into my mouth, caressing my tongue,
building fires that would never cease to flame inside me, as we kissed his
fingers worked down through the sparse velvety tufts of hair covering my
prominent mound.  I shuddered as the first finger tip entered the top rim
of my crack, then he was spreading open my wet lips, his fingers probing
down to the furnace of my vagina, through my swollen and itching lips.  As
he passed the button of pleasure, he paused and rubbed it bringing a gasp
of pleasure from me, a pleasure I had known many times in the darkness of
my bed as I had stroked myself to orgasm, imagining what I was now having
done to me.  I ached my body to his hands and felt him searching the moist
interior of my lips, opening the entrance to love with experienced skill. I
moved the head of his penis closer, rubbing the head on the short curls
that covered my vagina, I wanted to feel the thing boring into me where his
fingers now sank deep into the voluptuous orifice that poured forth a
steady stream of sticky fluid on his hand.  His penis was throbbing in my
hand and I listened to his panting with joy, his body jerked madly at me as
he worked his fingers in and out and around and about inside my orifice as
his mouth kissed me feverishly.  He groaned, "I must have you now, open
your legs while I get on you, oh baby, your a hot little fuck, I'll fill
you with spunk and make you cum good".  He clambered clumsily over me,
kneeling between my raised and spread legs, I felt his weight fall on me,
crushing the breath from my lunges, his hand took his prick away from me
and I felt the hot hood slipping along the entire length of my crack, as it
rubbed my clitoris I opened wide the gates of heaven, I gasped loudly "Yes,
yes, put it into me NOW" .  He moaned and I felt pain, pain that made me
scream as the burning thickness of his member forced me open, thrusting
savagely into the tightness of my vagina, I screamed again, "No...no!,
don't do it, ...  your killing me, it hurts too much, STOP, NOOOO!".  His
hands grabbed the flattened flesh of my buttocks, lifting me to him,
raising my body to receive the full stroke that hammered into my pain
flooded organ, I yelled as it felt like a red hot poker ripping me open, it
was enormous, that hard thick thing surging deeper and deeper into me.  He
grunted, backed up and lunged at me again, I felt a tearing, hurting
yielding and the hymen burst asunder and as his penis plunged past the
tattered remains of my virginity it seemed to sink right into my womb, I
felt bloated with this terrible hard shaft stuck into my body.  I felt as
though I had been forced open and filled with something huge and thick, hot
and unyielding, I felt sick with the pain that welled and raged inside my
little organ, he groaned again with pleasure as he slowly withdrew the
awful thing, withdrawing it almost out of my belly.  I cried aloud as again
with one brutal shove he sank that that hardness back into my bloody wet
pussy, shoved it all the way back in until it filled me anew filled and
throbbed in the deepest part of my tight passage.  "Baby, oh!  baby, what a
fuck you are" he panted as his hips started to grind against me.  He was
slobbering at my heaving hurting breasts, his teeth scraping across the
turgid tips of my nipples, biting them in the throes of his pleasure, his
prick was aliving hard bar of steel, plunging in and out of me, thrusting
it's swollen meaty helmet deep into my belly.  I gasped and struggled, my
thighs clung to him and my buttocks rolled in his hands as the pain ebbed
away and died in a glorious welter of pulsing delight, every stroke that
plunged his lovely thick prick into my slushing wet vagina was now a thrill
that filled me with dizziness, filled me with a powerful urge to take even
more of it into me.  I wanted to feel that monstrous thing crawling all the
way past my womb and shoved right up inside my body till it came out of my
mouth, so much did I love the sensation of being filled by him that I
begged him " Shove it into me harder, fuck me harder harder, ohhh!  Right
up me, can't you you stick it up me further than that?, ohhh, again oh yes
faster, faster, ah, ohhh, ohhh, ahhh!  fuck it into me, that's it, NOW.....
SHOVE IT INTOME HARD!!!.....  HARDER!!!, OH!!  GOD yes, don't stop now
Yesssss, aiyeeeeeeee Ï'M cumming, FUCK MEEEEE" I couldn't stop the flow of
words that I shouted from my lips, those obscene words that I never thought
I would use ever , I didn't care, I wanted him to know exactly what I
wanted, I was on fire and the thrills his penis sent through my vagina were
sensational as he pistoned in and out of me.  Pleasure swamped me and my
belly burst open, I itched, I tickled, I felt the throbs of his manhood
increase and the insides of my passage was a roiling, slushing gusher of
sticky juices that spurted past his manhood and squirted over our thighs. I
quivered delightedly as he gasped and his body bounced erratically on top
of me, driving his huge member in and out and around inside my young girls
sex with greedy haste.  The orgasm that rocked me was ebbing when he gave a
loud yelp, "I'm cumming--- God, I'm cumming off now --- fuck me squeeze me,
make me cum good".  I felt the first jet of his seed splatter in the
entrance of my womb then a spurting torrent of hot, thick blobs shot from
his prick and filled me with exquisite delight.  My body bucked and I came
a second time, our movements were frantic as thrills of utterly fantastic
pleasure crashed over us, I felt as though my body had been rung through a
ringer, I sank limply to the grass as his big lovely penis hammered
spasmodically at my insides and it was still ejaculating it's voluptuous
sperm into me flooding me with sensations of sheer delight.  I collapsed in
a whirling fog of emotional turmoil as I felt him give a last effort and
his cock buried it's softening nose in the warmth of my belly and his
weight fell on me, he lay panting, the sweat dripping from him his chest
heaving and his dick goingsoft in my convulsing vagina.  "Did _ you_ like _
it" he gasped into my ear as he lay on on top of me, his hands groped under
my buttocks and slipped around to the furrow of my behind, movingdown and
touching briefly the puckered sensitivity of my anus then down to the
soaked sticky nest of sparse hair that bordered the gaping lips around his
organ firmly gripped within.  I could taste the thin trickle of salty blood
that oozed from my lower lip where he had bitten me at the hight of his
orgasm.  I breathed slowly, trying to stem the rising passion that each
whispered word, each slight movement of his member inside me aroused,
between lips that trembled excitedly I said "Yes, Oh!  Yes, I never knew it
could be this good, Yes, I loved it, Oh!please, make it hard again and do
me that way again, I want to feel it hard inside me , I want to be all wet
again with your-----", I stopped, "What did you call it"?  "SPUNK___SPUNK,
from my cock you got a load of sticky spunk right up your hot tight,
beautiful cunt, you liked it so, lets make it hard again shall we"?  Before
I could answer he withdrew, his cock ?  from my cunt?  and I heard a
violent sucking plop as it came out of me,the mess of slime that still
filled my vagina poured out down my cheeks and I was lying in a pool of
sticky, wet cum.  He crept up my body trailing a slimy wet thing over my
flesh, I shivered as the sensuous wet thrilled me, I knew what it was and
wondered out loud "Oh!, wet me all over with your spunk, make me all wet
with it, I love spunk, I love being covered in your spunk".  He grunted and
heaved himself astride between my budding breasts, his penislay limp and
dripping between those startled, swollen orbs.  I looked down and saw the
goo that coated the loose skin, the helmet now softand flaming red, I saw
the flecks of blood on the shaft and knew that there was my lost virginity
and I didn't care any more.  He held his penis out and moved closer to my
face, his voice was strained, his breathing, fast and excited as he told me
"There now, make it hard the right way, kiss it here..." The red nose was
touching my lips, I gasped, and my mind screamed that this wasn't right,
that this man was trying to make me do an unnatural thing, I didn't care
about natural or unnatural things, I only knew I could smell the tang from
his helmet, the strong male smell of sperm and flesh.  I wanted to kiss it,
to taste the juices made during my first orgasm given to me by this man, I
slipped a tentative tongue out and flicked the tip across the soft satiny
flesh of his helmet head, I shivered delightedly, the salty taste of his
spunk was delicious, I opened my lips and and closed my mouth over that
soft head, licking the pearly dew from the orifice.  He shuddered and bent
forward, pressing more of his cock into my mouth , I gagged until I learned
to suck and lick it with bobbing, rolling motions.  As I sucked on it, I
felt it rise, it got bigger, longer, thicker, till it filled my mouth with
it's huge knob.  He was weaving back and forth on my breasts, his crack
rubbing the flattened orbs continuously, I was aroused even more than the
first time , here I was, no longer a virgin, with her first taste of a
man's penis exploding it's sticky poison in her cunt, and but minutes from
having herself inundated with a stream of hot seed again.  Behaving like a
whore, I sucked feverishly at his cock, hearing the animal gasps of joy
from above as my fingers sought the hairy balls that rubbed my chest and
played with them.  My teeth scraped the surface of his knob, tugged at the
sensitive skin under it, bit the loose flash rolled back from the helmet.
He reached back and clawed at my sticky, gaping hole, his fingers ravishing
the ripe entrance to the cave of passion, I flipped my hips around and
enjoyed the mounting sensations of his fingers rubbing my erected clitoris
and digging into the depths of my vagina.  Then a new thrill happened to
me, he gave two fast humps of his hips and his cock dived into the cavity
of my burning hot mouth, on the second stroke I felt the head swell on my
tongue, then a steaming, spurting jet of creamy spunk shot down my throat.
I swallowed the sticky sperm as fast as I could, gulping as the jets sent
more of his seed into my mouth, flooding that hungry cave and trickling a
salty stream down my chin, I slurped noisily on his throbbing cock trying
desperately to drain every drop of juice from the expanded hole on the
knobs tip.  He clutched and clawed at my cunt, tearing the fine hair,
plucking at the pulsing clitty, shoving fingers of iron into my vagina
ruthlessly.  As he finished ejaculating he slithered from me, panting to me
as he clambered from around my body, "Wonderful, what a sucking bitch you
are, now for some cunt meat, I'll have you off in no time you cock sucking
darling".  I had no idea what he was about to do till he did it and it was
the most beautiful feeling ever as his face brushed against the sticky down
on my cunt, his tongue licking everycurly shoot.  He opened the folds with
feverish fingers and his tongue lapped along my slit, taking my clitoris in
his mouth, he sucked longingly, lovingly on the excited little bud, then
with a swift flip of his hands he lifted my cunt up and his tongue started
working around inside my wet vagina.  I loved this, he munched the hair
that covered the lips, he chewed the folds of tender flesh, he laved the
rigid clit and sucked the hole of joy, licked, poked and tickled every part
of me with his protruding tongue..  So intense was every thrill that the
gushing emission of orgasm surprised us both, I felt the titillating change
from thrilling pleasure to wildly convulsing joy take place in a twinkling
and the nectar of love flooded his mouth with it's bitter, sweet dew.  His
fingers poked at my tightly closed ring, poking till they intruded on the
vibrating flesh, as I felt my rear hole being violated I gave a mighty
surge and his mouth was closed around my down covered muff, pressing
tightly onto his teeth, the juice of my passion draining unhindered down
his throat.  We lay there, wrapped in sensuous tonguing, fondling and
fingering till the sky started turning dark and the cooling breeze of
evening blew over us.  I will always remember his words as we slowly
dressed with several interludes for thirsty kisses and intimate feelings,
"Girlie, you will be a terrific fuck in a few years, I wish I was single so
I could marry you and have that greedy cunt of yours to fuck every damned
night, you will drive men crazy if you let them tear off a piece of that
meat, and the way you suck cock, you are incredible" I left him at the
bottom of the hill knowing there would never be a next time for us, he had
a wife to go home to and I had a few more years at school before I could
safely indulge in the pleasures of the flesh.  Yes, I remember that first
time as though it was yesterday and will always remember that first time
and the pleasure I enjoyed.  No school boy could give to me what this man
had given and no more could I endure the groping that these immature boys
had forced upon me in the past.