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 Dairies of Juliet Copyright 2002 Juliet Merri

   bdsm/nc sex/humiliation/toilet

   *Names and places have been changed to protect the innocent.*

   06 June

   For whatever it's worth I decided to keep this diary.  I figure that
some people will get a kick out of it and maybe even get off on it.  So
let's start at the beginning.

   I'm female, 27, single.  I am 5'3" brown hair, brown eyes and I weigh
115 on a good day 120 if I've munched out too much.  I live somewhere in
North America, I could be anyone.  Your work mate, your neighbor, your
girlfriend.

   So what will I include in this diary?  I've decided to be totally honest
about my sex life here.  Did that make you sit up in your chair?  I hope
so. I hope you just got up to close the door and maybe your cock is
starting to get hard.  I love hard cocks.  Nothing to me is better than a
man's orgasm.

   I suppose that makes me a slut.  That's okay with me.  Picture me typing
this, my cunt tingling and my clit hard as a rock aching to be rubbed.  My
cunt aching to be fucked.  That's how it is for me when I write this.  I
wish I could take a break and be gang banged hard.  Used like a trashy cum
dump.

   Does it freak you out to think of a woman saying that?  You'd be
surprised.  Most women would love to be whores.  They are just too afraid
of the consequences of fucking like a bitch in heat.  We want to feel a
hard cock filling us up.  We're just so afraid of admitting it.  Admitting
we'd like nothing better than to be fucked, told to suck, forced on our
knees.

   So I bet your wondering what I'm into besides nasty talk.  I love a
number of things.  One of the things I like to do while I'm bored and
between boyfriends is cyber and phone slutting.  The nastier the better.  I
love playing with my digital camera and taking pictures of my shaved cunt
with men's names on it.  Sending them pictures of my legs spread wide and
their name written with marker on my cuntlips.  I love men who are into
bdsm, humiliation, using women like whores.

   It's so much fun for me.  Especially older men.  I love men in their
late 40's early 50's.  They know exactly what they want and how to use a
slut.  I love listening to them masterbate while I spank myself and bark
like a dog.  I love saying and doing everything that their wives won't.

   What else do I like?  Porn.  Extreme porn like bdsm, pee-sex, super big
dildo's.  Anything that is just plain nasty, wrong, or done to humiliate
and degrade the woman.  I love seeing women forcing a huge dildo in their
cunt.  There is no reason for it but to show her that she's just three
holes to be used.

   Now you know a little bit more about me.  I hope you like the things I
do and I hope you enjoy reading my diary.

   -jm

   ***

   What did I do yesterday?

   Yesterday I was with a friend of mine.  We aren't Master and slave,
formally.  I love to serve him and he loves to use me.  We met after work
and went to his house.  He doesn't have a slave at this time and he knows
I'll do whatever he wants.  He likes pain, forcing, degrading and
humiliation.

   We get to his house and inside.  It's still sort of cool here at night
and he turns up the heat a touch so we'll be comfortable naked.  He smiles
at me and tells me that I should crawl to him and lick his feet.  This
makes me instantly wet and I get on all fours and crawl to him.  I know
he's watching how my body moves, loving having a bitch crawling to him.

   I love how he uses me and I know if I don't do what he wants he'll beat
me with a belt.  I start licking his shoes and he laughs at me.  He walks
away and I crawl after him.  He sits in a chair and pushes his shoes off
and then his socks.  Sitting back with his knees spread I lick his toes and
the skin on top of his feet.  I know he's getting harder by the sound of
his voice and he calls me his little bitch.

   I lick and my mouth is getting drier as my cunt is getting wetter.  He
tells me to stop and sit up on my knees.  I do and he unzips his pants. 
He's very hard and he waves his cock at me.  "Want it?  Want to suck my
cock, slut?" I say I do and I blush even though we've done this before.  He
grabs me by my hair and leads my mouth to his cock.  It's warm, dry and so
hard in my mouth.  His right hand is tangled in my hair and he directs me.
He forces my mouth up and down on his cock while he grunts with
satisfaction and moves his hips.  Forcing it deeper, I am gagging a bit and
he laughs.  He likes the fact I'm having trouble sucking him and he pushes
harder on my head.

   I try not to panic but I do.  He stops for a moment and slaps me across
my face.  He calls me a bitch and tells me to suck better or I'll hurt a
lot more.  He forces me to suck again, using my mouth like a cunt.  I
figure out a way to breath when he pulls out, little puffs of air.  I know
I better do it how he wants.  He's beaten me before.  It feels good after
he beats me though, because usually he'll either fuck me hard from behind
and spank my sore ass cheeks or he'll force anal on me with lots of baby
oil.  So it slides in before I can object.  I love that.  We both know what
he does would be considered rape by ordinary people.  I want it though.

   I keep sucking him as best I can and he is tugging on my hair, forcing
my head up and down on his cock.  This goes on for awhile and he finally
cums, I have no choice but to swallow it and then I finally look up at him.
He says that I'm his good girl and that I know my place as a whore.

   I can taste his cum on my mouth and he tells me to strip.  I stand up
and take my clothes off while he watches.  He asks if my cunt is dripping
yet and I say it is.  He tells me that maybe if I'm really good he'll fuck
it.  I hope I am really good for him.  My tits are bare and my nipples are
a bit hard.  He starts to play with them.  His long finger pinching them
hard.  Tugging them.  I know he wants me to cry and I know he doesn't want
me to fake it.  So I try not to cry.  He slips his other hand down to my
cunt and tugs hard on the lips, twisting them.  I start to squirm and he
slaps my face again.

   He moves faster than I do and he really wants me to cry.  I am near
tears but he isn't satisfied.  He forces me to all fours and picks up his
belt.  He slaps the back of my thighs with it and tells me to spread my
legs.  I do.  He his my cunt and ass very hard with the belt and now I do
cry.  I know this is turning him on, he'll be hard soon.  He slaps my cunt
and ass a few more times and the pain is intense.  My body is squirming on
it's own.  He tells me to wave my ass in the air like a bitch.  I do.  I'll
do anything to please him and he knows it.

   He finally stops spanking me.  I'm crying openly now.  He touches my
cunt and that even hurts.  He knows this and loves it.  He fingers me and
makes me say "Thank You".  I do.  I push back on his fingers because I know
he likes a greedy slut.  He is enjoying this.  I know he doesn't care if I
cum, doesn't care if I am happy.  It's all for him.  I am just there to
please him.

   He moves behind me and I can feel he's going to fuck me.  His hands dig
into my ass and it hurts from the belt.  Everything hurts.  My knees
digging into the floor, my cunt from the belt, his hands digging into my
flesh.  He fucks me without regard.  Doesn't care how I feel and I know it.
That's when I start to cum because I know I'm nothing more than a cum dump
for him.  He uses me for his pleasure, nothing more.  He can feel my cunt
spasm and he spanks my ass cheeks.  He tells me if I love it so much to
fuck him back, I do.  He reaches forward and grabs my hair.  Forcing me
harder and harder onto his cock.

   Finally I feel him pull out and he pushes the tip of his cock into my
ass.  Just the lube from our fucking.  My ass is super tight and I know he
wants to cum.  He pushes in as hard as he can and I almost scream.  He cums
in my ass.  I can feel every spasm of his cock as he cums.  Each spasm
feels like fire on my poor ass.  He's kneading my cheeks and grunting with
satisfaction.

   He stays in my ass.  Telling me to relax.  I know what he's going to do
and part of me wants it, part of me loves that he does this.  He has one
hand in my hair, pulling hard.  The other hand is on my ass gripping me to
him.  We wait what seems like forever.  Finally I feel it.  He is filling
my ass up with his piss.  He is getting softer and so he hurries.  Forcing
it in and when he's done he pulls out quickly.  Slapping my ass he tells me
I better not spill any.  I get up almost running to the bathroom and then
sit on the toilet.  He comes in and watches.  When I'm finally done and
he's humiliated me thoroughly he runs a shower and gets in.

   I know that's my cue to leave.