The Courier
Copyright 2008 by EC
EC's Erotic Fiction - /~caligula97030/

(warnings: erotic discipline, sex between adults, medical fetish, public nudity, 
harsh police interrogation)


Chapter 6 – Nothing to be proud of

Cecilia was awake as soon as it started to get light outside. She started 
breakfast for the household, roused her nephew to force him to get ready for 
school, and finally laid out a pressed shirt and suit for Victor Dukov. Up until 
late April, most of those tasks had been handled by Mrs. Dukov. Cecilia took 
over the household responsibilities shortly after the cancer diagnosis and had 
been in complete charge of the house since May.

As Cecilia pulled a stack of dishes out of the cupboard and started distributing 
them around the dining room table, it suddenly occurred to her that Maria 
Elena, if she remained in Victor’s house, could take over most of the 
housework. The idea made sense, because it would automatically give the 
Colombian a place to live and right away make her a useful member of the 
household. More importantly, having Maria Elena take over the chores would 
free Cecilia to concentrate on her own responsibilities at the university. She 
felt that she owed it to the Dukovs to help out when Mrs. Dukov became sick, 
but she had no intention of taking care of the house more than a few weeks. 
Four months had gone by and there was no sign that Victor was ready to 
assume any of the household responsibilities, or any sign that anyone else was 
about to come in and relieve Cecilia. Now, possibly, she had stumbled across 
a solution to her problem.

Cecilia woke up Maria Elena and ordered her to join her in the kitchen. She 
continued to cook, but told the Colombian to start taking food to the dining 
room and to clean the pans. That freed up Cecilia to push her nephew to get 
ready for school and to check his homework. She then checked on Victor, 
who was close to being ready to go downstairs. Ordinarily Cecilia would have 
started making his bed, but she realized that she could have Maria Elena do 
that. Yes, she thought to herself, Prisoner # 101025 is gonna earn her keep 
from day one.

Once the table was set, the Colombian stood quietly, not sure whether to sit 
down or not. Cecilia made sure that Victor, as the head of the household, was 
properly seated before Pedro could sit down. Then she addressed Maria Elena:

“Kneel. Once Victor gives you permission to join us, you’ll need to thank him 
and you can take a seat.”

Once Maria Elena and Cecilia sat down and started eating, Cecilia explained:

“You’ll have to kneel before each meal, ‘cause you’re a criminal. It’s not just 
you; Jason has to do the same thing when he comes over. It’s not so bad, 
because Victor is at least letting you sit at his table, which is a favor in this 
country. In a lot of households criminals have to eat in the kitchen because of 
the shame they’ve brought upon everyone else. There’s a lot of parents who 
won’t even allow their kid to sit on any of their furniture if he’s collared. He 
has to eat standing up and kneel if he’s talking to anyone. Victor won’t make 
you do that unless he’s pissed at you.”

Cecilia briefly talked to Victor in Danubian to present her idea of having the 
detainee permanently stay at the house in exchange for helping out with the 
chores. He was much more receptive to the proposal than Cecilia had 
anticipated, which meant that the only person she still had to convince was 
Kim. If the Spokeswoman agreed, then Cecilia would simply tell Maria Elena 
about the arrangement and she would be expected to comply. 

However, as she considered the prisoner’s situation, she decided that she did 
at least owe her an explanation. She asked Victor to take Pedro to the school 
bus stop while she and the prisoner would remain behind to clean up from 
breakfast. Once the kitchen was clean, she ordered Maria Elena to sit down in 
the living room so she could braid her hair. Since properly braiding her 
companion’s hair would take about 30 minutes, Cecilia used that opportunity 
to explain the plan of having her live with Victor Dukov permanently.

“There’s a couple of things I’m worried about. First of all, I’ve got my classes, 
my fiancé, my nephew, and 60 exchange students to deal with, and I’m not 
doing any of that very well because I’m having to take care of Victor. I owe 
him a lot, but I also have my other responsibilities and I need some help. Also, 
because of your language problem, you’d have to stay here for a couple of 
months anyway, so I figure we can make that permanent from the outset. That 
way you won’t have to worry about where you’re gonna live, because that’ll 
be taken care of. So, we’ve got a solution to several problems. Does that make 
sense?”

“Yes, Cecilia.”

“Now, you’re not here to relax. You’re here to help me and Victor, and you’re 
here to do what I tell you. Eventually you’ll know what needs to be done, and 
I’ll expect you to do it automatically. Victor’s OK with the idea, so the only 
person I need to talk to is your Spokeswoman. I don’t know if she has any 
other ideas about where you should live, but if I have my way, you’re staying 
here.”

With that Cecilia told Maria Elena to stand up and look at herself in the mirror. 
The prisoner looked very different with her hair tightly braided. She did not 
like her appearance at all. Cecilia picked up on her disapproving expression:

“You’re in Danubia. This is the way women keep their hair. A lot of those 
strange looks you got yesterday had nothing to do with the fact that you were 
naked or collared, it was because of your hair. Women just don’t have loose 
hair in this country. That’s something that actually they’ve gotten stricter 
about over the last couple of years, I think because they don’t like the foreign 
tourists coming in with their hair flying all around.”

Cecilia grabbed two large sacks of books and student papers to take to the 
university. She handed the heavier one to Maria Elena and the two women 
exited the house. They walked several blocks along tree-lined streets before 
entering the main campus of the National University. Because classes had not 
yet started, the university was largely empty, with the exception of grounds-
keepers and several groups of students who were exercising. 

The prisoner was shocked to see that the majority of the people on campus 
were naked. Cecilia explained that exercise was normally done in the nude, 
since swimwear and most athletic clothing were prohibited by law. The 
students who were running wore shoes and nothing else. As for the grounds-
keepers, most of the older employees were dressed wearing nothing but knee-
pads, aprons, and wide-brim hats, while several collared criminals working 
under their direction were as naked as Maria Elena. This was one weird 
country: they made such a big deal about braided hair, but no one cared about 
public nudity.

Cecilia noticed the gardeners and commented: “This might not be a bad job 
for you, working in the garden at the university. It’s right next to where you 
live, it would fulfill the work requirements of you being out in the open, and 
wouldn’t require much language. I don’t think your Spokeswoman thought 
about grounds keeping as an option. I’ll suggest it when we see her.”

Maria Elena said nothing, but inwardly cringed. Digging in the dirt with her 
hands? Certainly that was beneath her; she wasn’t a peasant, after-all.

Cecilia led her companion to the exchange program office to drop off the 
books. She then told Maria Elena to follow her to a professor’s office to 
introduce her and request that she be added to the exchange program’s 
Danubian language training group. Cecilia ordered the prisoner to kneel 
during the introduction, but then told her to stand up. The professor and the 
program coordinator talked briefly before she turned to Maria Elena:

“OK, you’re in luck. The professor’s gonna add you to the program. To make 
sure you’re not totally lost in class this afternoon, right now he’s gonna give 
you the basics of Danubian and teach you the alphabet. I need to meet with 
some of my students anyway, so I’ll just leave you here.”

For the next two hours Maria Elena received an intense class in Danubian 
language training. The professor grilled her on the alphabet and taught her 
some fundamental phrases and questions that she needed to know for simple 
survival. She learned numbers and how to say her legal name in Danubian, 
she learned how to ask for permission for basic needs such as going to the 
bathroom, and she learned greetings appropriate for a criminal. Finally the 
instructor gave her a study guide from the class and ordered her to review it 
until Cecilia returned.

Twenty-four hours had passed since Maria Elena had been arrested, but 
already her new life was beginning to take shape. She had a place to live, she 
knew what her legal situation would be, and she had learned a few words and 
phrases needed to exist in the country that held her captive. She understood 
that there would be no transition for her. She already was considered a 
criminal and as such, had her established place in Danubian society. No one 
considered her as Maria Elena Rodriguez-Torres, the Colombian detainee. To 
the Danubians she was Prisoner # 101025, property of the Danubian Republic. 
The people around her would assist her as much as they could, but only to 
help her understand and assume her duties as a criminal. No one was 
interested in helping her regain her freedom or return to her old life.

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Three hours after she departed, Cecilia Sanchez returned to pick up her 
prisoner and escort her downtown to the Central Police Station. Cecilia 
explained that within a few days Maria Elena would be expected to make the 
trip by herself, pointing out which trolley routes she needed to know to travel 
downtown and to return to the university:

“Downtown’s pretty hard to miss. It’s got a huge wall around it and if you get 
lost; just look for the cathedral.”

Maria Elena noticed that with her hair properly braided, she did indeed draw 
less attention than she did the previous day. Of course, most of the men at 
least noticed her, but their glances were not much more than she got in Pereira 
when she wore her favorite mini-skirt. On interesting difference was that the 
men who looked at her were much better behaved than many of the younger 
men in her home country. There were no remarks, whistles, or cat-calls, 
because the Danubians considered such behavior dishonorable. The men were 
free to look, but whatever thoughts they had about the naked prisoner they 
kept to themselves.

When Cecilia escorted Maria Elena to Kim’s office, Criminal # 98946 was 
waiting in the reception area to let them in. The Spokeswoman invited her 
assistant and her two guests to have tea with her in the back office. Cecilia 
reminded Maria Elena that it ultimately was Kim who was her mentor and it 
was with Kim that she would have to work out the details of her future life as 
a criminal.

Cecilia conversed with the Spokeswoman in English, explaining her idea of 
having Maria Elena stay with Victor Dukov permanently and possibly request 
work at the university as a groundskeeper. Kim seemed satisfied that her 
prisoner already had received her first class in Danubian. She asked what 
Maria Elena thought of Victor. When Maria Elena answered honestly that she 
wasn’t sure what she thought of him, Kim responded:

“Did you know that I used to work for him?”

“Yes, Spokeswoman Lee-Dolkivna, he told me last night. He also said that 
you were one of his favorite employees.”

Kim turned her head slightly. She tapped her neck and glanced at Cecilia, who 
shook her head.

“Did you know that when I worked for him, I was a criminal?”

When Maria Elena heard the translation, she wasn’t sure she had understood 
correctly. Spokeswoman Kimberly Lee-Dolkivna… a criminal?

The Spokeswoman called her attention to a tapestry hanging on the wall 
behind her desk. She took it down, revealing several objects from her own 
past. There was a brightly-colored t-shirt with a marijuana leaf on the front, a 
criminal’s collar with a broken latch, and a small picture of herself with the 
following inscription:

“Zék nom. 98945 - Kimberly Lee – USA”

Maria Elena studied the mug-shot. The image must have been taken about 
seven years before, when Kimberly Lee was only 18 years old. Her hair was 
very short and her expression reflected pure terror and bewilderment, a total 
contrast with how she currently looked, sitting confidently at her desk.

“For two years, my name was Criminal # 98945. I served a two-year sentence 
for smoking marijuana behind the Temple of the Ancients. For two years I 
wore this collar you see hanging on my wall and I wore nothing else. Do you 
understand what I’m saying?”

“I… y… yes… Spokeswoman Lee-Dolkivna… I understand…”

I am telling you this, because I want you to understand that I had to endure 
some of what you will have to endure. You have no right to assume that I 
really don’t know what you are going through, because I was there myself. 
Seven years ago, I sat in that same chair where you’re sitting, the very same 
chair. Just like you, I sat naked on a towel, because as a prisoner I was 
forbidden to wear clothing. And just like you, I went on trial and was 
punished. I know how you feel right now, because everything you are feeling 
I felt myself. Do you understand me?”

After listening to Cecilia’s translation, Maria Elena managed to respond:

“Dóc-doc, Advodkátna Lee-Dolkivna.”

“When I told you yesterday that the Path of my Life was to serve as your 
custodian and your mentor, I actually meant that. I have a Path in Life, which 
was laid out by the Creator before I ever set foot in Danubia. That is why I 
was arrested and that is why I served a two-year sentence. You will 
understand that you too, have a Path in Life, a path that brought us together.”

Maria Elena face was blank, because she had no clue how she should respond. 
The Spokeswoman continued:

“I am telling you this, because I don’t want you to assume your life has ended 
just because you were arrested. It hasn’t. Your life has changed, but it hasn’t 
ended. Nor has your life been suspended. You will lead your life day by day, 
and your duty to the Creator, to everyone around you, and to yourself, is to 
make the best out of it. And those words are not mine. They were from my 
own Spokesman, something he told me the second day of my sentence.”

Maria Elena was silent. Finally she was able to respond with a question: 
“So… Spokeswoman Lee-Dolkivna… I was wondering… what’s gonna 
happen to me? My life… the one you’re talking about… what is my life gonna 
be like?”

“You’re screwed legally, and I’m telling you that up front. You’ll probably be 
wearing a collar for 55 years, like the arraignment committee told you. So, 
you’ll live out the rest of your life just like you are now. No clothes, no 
makeup, no jewelry. No drinking, no drugs. Your purpose will be to serve 
society and those around you. You will lead a demanding life, but you will 
also always understand what is expected of you. No one will lie to you, and 
you won’t lie either, because you won’t have any reason to lie. At some point 
you’ll come to terms with what happened, and when you do, you’ll learn to 
speak Danubian, make new friends, and probably fall in love with someone. 
Then the years will go by and you’ll get older, just like everyone else. That 
will be the Path of your Life, as they say here.”

“The Path of my Life…”

“The Path of your Life… you will understand… just like Criminal # 98946… 
just like me… just like all of my other clients.”

Maria Elena’s thoughts returned to her conversation with Cecilia, and the 
possibility that she might have been double-crossed and murdered had she 
completed her trip to Germany. Her mind was full of doubt… was she 
extraordinarily lucky, or unlucky? What really awaited her in Frankfurt… la 
plata or el plomo?

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The Spokeswoman did not give her client much time to reflect, because there 
still were several issues that she needed to resolve, the most important of 
which was making sure she was gainfully employed. Cecilia immediately 
brought up the idea of having Maria Elena work as a gardener at the university.

“Yes, that’s better than anything I was able to think of. The best thing 
would’ve been for her to work for Victor, but since she can’t ride a bicycle, I 
guess the university is her best option. I’ll call over there and see if they need 
anyone.”

Kim picked up the phone while Cecilia told Maria Elena what had been 
decided. It was obvious that she was not at all happy with the prospect of 
being a gardener. Cecilia responded:

“What’s wrong with being a gardener?”

Maria Elena couldn’t express what she was thinking, but what bothered her 
was the idea of ruining her hands. Even two days after being arrested, her 
manicured fingernails were intact, the final link to a former life that allowed 
her to worry about her appearance. At any other time in her life she would 
have dreaded getting her hands dirty, but in Danubia that fear was even 
stronger, because it was her last shred of personal vanity, one that she had 
hoped to preserve.

“Please… can’t it be anything else?”

“Yes, it can. You can change jobs after you learn to speak Danubian. But right 
now you can’t communicate, which limits what you can do. If you don’t like 
gardening, then that’ll be an incentive to do well in language class.”

Maria Elena paused, desperately trying to think of an argument that would get 
her out of the gardening job. Meanwhile, Kim put her hand over the phone’s 
receiver and asked Cecilia in English:

“What’s the language class schedule for your students?”

“13:00 to 16:00, Monday through Saturday. In the mornings they go out on 
city tours.”

“What about P.E.?

“16:30 to 17:30.”

“Do they want her to participate in that?”

“Yes, to be in the language program, she’s gonna have to participate.”

“OK, then I’ll have her work from 9:00 to 12:00. I’ll have to petition the 
Ministry to get it approved, because that’s a reduced schedule. I want her to 
learn Danubian and, for the moment, that takes priority over working. Also, 
you can tell her that if she’s getting a reduced work schedule, she’d better bust 
her ass at night for you and Victor. You tell her I’m doing her a favor.”

Cecilia translated, adding that she wanted Maria Elena to thank her 
Spokeswoman. The prisoner did not look happy at all. Cecilia became irritated:

“What’s your problem? That’s a huge break for you! You’re only gonna have 
to work three hours a day! I wish I could work just three hours a day! Now, 
you get on your knees and you thank her!”

Reluctantly the Maria Elena did as she was told, repeating a phrase she had 
learned that morning:

“Spakéebo dék mene.”

Once the prisoner was on her knees with her hands resting on her thighs, 
Cecilia realized why she was so reluctant. She had beautifully manicured 
fingernails. Obviously that would change the moment Maria Elena’s hands 
went into the dirt. Well, that was just too bad, because Danubian women (even 
ones that held professional jobs) didn’t let their fingernails grow out or wear 
nail polish. One more thing for her to get adjusted to… 

Criminal # 98946 stuck her head in the door to let Kim know that the police 
had just brought in a new detainee. It was obvious her time with Prisoner # 
101025 had ended, because now she had to deal with her newest client. As the 
women exited the back office, they saw a cop standing over a very depressed 
young man. He was completely naked and was kneeling with his hands cuffed 
behind his back. Unlike Maria Elena, whose detention had not really been 
normal, the young man had been photographed and assigned a criminal 
number right after being arrested. After exchanging salutes with Kim, the cop 
handed over the client’s paperwork and introduced him as Prisoner # 101048.

Cecilia commented in Spanish:

“We need to go. Kneel and say good-bye.”

Once they had exited the Central Police Station, Cecilia addressed Maria 
Elena’s fingernail problem, explaining that painted fingernails were similar to 
unbraided hair in Danubia; something foreign and not considered appropriate. 
“… in a way it makes sense because, look at yourself, for example. Here you 
have this really great work schedule and all you can think about is ruining 
your nails. Don’t think I can’t sympathize with you because I do. You take a 
look at my pictures before I came here, and you’ll see I liked bright red 
lipstick and bright red nail polish… and they always had to match. I was 
thinking about that all the time… but once I came here I had to give it up.”

Cecilia glanced at Maria Elena’s hands:

“You got ‘em done in Panama?”

“Yes, sort of a last treat before my trip.”

“Well, enjoy them for now, because when we get home tonight you’ll have to 
cut ‘em short. It’s not because you’ll be digging tomorrow, you’d have to do it 
anyway. No matter where you’d work, you’d have to cut your nails.”

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Thirty minutes later Maria Elena was sitting in a class with 15 exchange 
program students. Most of them were from the United States, although there 
were two Canadians and a guy from Ireland among them. After being able to 
forget about being naked in public for several hours, in the classroom she felt 
very intimidated because she was the only nude person in the group. She 
noticed the guys constantly looking at her, but as best she could, tried to 
ignore them.

The professor came to her aid by watching for anyone paying more attention 
to the naked Colombian than to his class and calling on that person. Time after 
time he tripped up inattentive classmates, until finally they were able to focus 
on the fact that they needed to concentrate on Danubian vocabulary and not on 
Maria Elena’s body. The professor avoided calling on Maria Elena the first 
day, but she knew that he’d expect her to participate after the newness of her 
situation wore off.

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After class the students immediately headed to the gym, while Maria Elena 
stayed behind to wait for her translator. When she showed up at the door, the 
prisoner was shocked, because Cecilia was completely naked except for a pair 
of running shoes. In her hands was another pair of shoes. It turned out the 
extra pair of shoes were Maria Elena’s, borrowed from her seized clothing.

“Exercise time. I need to go out with my group, and you’re coming with us. 
Put these on.”

They left the language faculty building to join a group of about 30 women, all 
of whom were completely naked except for running shoes. A group of naked 
young men had gathered about 100 meters away and already were standing in 
formation. Maria Elena recognized them as the male participants of Cecilia’s 
exchange program. In both high school and at the university, men and women 
always exercised in separate groups, to prevent them from being distracted by 
members of the opposite sex.

The women were all from Cecilia’s exchange program. Four larger-breasted 
women who had obtained medical waivers carried folded sports bras in their 
hands. However, they would only be allowed to put on the bras when the 
group was ready to start running. During the stretching exercises and 
immediately after the run they would have to take them off.

A female Danubian fitness instructor, who was equally naked, was in charge 
of the class. She picked up a leather switch and snapped at the group in 
Danubian. The women quickly lined up and spaced themselves for stretching. 
The instructor used the implement to point at a couple of students who had not 
positioned themselves properly within the group. Very quickly they complied 
with her commands.

As scary as the scene might have been for someone who had never seen a 
fitness class at the National University, it was obvious that Cecilia and her 
students were used to what they were doing. Fitness was a serious matter for 
all students and participants in the foreign exchange program were no 
exception. The students had been informed about fitness classes during 
orientation and had to sign waivers upon entering the program. The instructor 
kept a sharp eye on everyone in the group, and a quick swipe of the switch 
across the bottom or thighs was the penalty for anyone not putting full effort 
into her exercising. Nearly everyone in the class, Cecilia included, had taken a 
stroke or two at some point. 

Maria Elena was included in the fitness group because she would be attending 
language classes along with the US students. As long as she was studying 
Danubian with the exchange program, she would have to exercise with the 
North Americans. Cecilia explained that the newcomer would be expected to 
stretch with the group on the first day and perform some of the more basic 
exercises, but for the moment was excused from running. Within a few days 
she would be expected to run with the others, once she was completely 
recovered from her experience at the airport.

An hour later Maria Elena joined 30 very exhausted women in the shower. 
The women chatted in English, but there was one student from Miami who 
spoke some Spanish and was able to communicate with her. She commented 
that a couple of the guys in the group also spoke Spanish, one of them fluently. 
That was heartening news for the prisoner, the hope that she might be able to 
converse with someone besides the bossy Dominican.

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Upon leaving the shower room, Cecilia told Maria Elena to pick up her study 
materials and follow her back to Victor Dukov’s house. They were joined by 
Cecilia’s fiancé, who would be accompanying the two women back home. 
Later Maria Elena would learn that anytime Cecilia traveled around Danúbikt 
Móskt, she liked having Jason go with her, even if she was wasting his time. It 
was not because Cecilia perceived any danger in the Danubian capitol, or 
because she wanted to show him off. Instead, she suffered from real anxiety if 
she was separated from him for more than a few hours. Maria Elena later 
calculated that Cecilia could spend up to six hours without Jason in her sight: 
anything more than that made her nervous and depressed. She didn’t merely 
love him: her feelings towards him came much closer to a desperate need for 
him.

That night, however, Cecilia was not wasting Jason’s time. The couple would 
be going out on a date, to a place called the Socrates Club. Cecilia promised to 
invite Maria Elena in the future, but informed her that night she needed to 
clean the house, cook dinner for Victor and Pedro, and study Danubian for the 
next day’s lesson. “After your trial, you’ll have plenty of time to go to the 
Socrates Club… you’ll have the rest of your life to hang out there.”

Cecilia left instructions in the kitchen for dinner: a salad, boiled potatoes with 
fried vegetables, and blackberries for dessert. Victor helped Pedro with his 
homework while Maria Elena cleaned up from dinner and straightened the 
house. She laid out the clothing that Victor would wear the next day and 
changed his sheets. Finally she managed to take a bath.

After that she sat down to do something she hadn’t done in three years… 
study. She had dropped out of school at age 16, missing graduation by only 
one year. A wasted opportunity, just one out of several chances in life she had 
passed up. At first it was hard for her to concentrate, but suddenly a long-lost 
feeling of hope welled up inside her as she tried to memorize the guide book 
given to her by the professor. She now had a goal for the following day, 
something that was achievable. She was determined that, if called on in class, 
she would give correct answers and outsmart the norteamericanos.

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Two hours later Maria Elena was too tired to continue studying and was 
satisfied that she was adequately prepared for the following day. She decided 
to make herself some herbal tea before going to bed. She quietly slipped by 
Victor, who was in the living room praying in front of his wife’s portrait. 
There was something very sinister about that black prayer robe… she thought 
to herself… very medieval… from a different time… 

She pushed that thought aside and quietly boiled a kettle of water. She poured 
herself a cup and proceeded to take it upstairs when she noticed Victor just 
standing in front of that picture. In a flash she realized she had a very good 
opportunity to ingratiate herself with him, by offering him a cup of tea. She 
took the cup originally intended for herself and walked up to him. She lightly 
tapped the spoon against the cup to avoid startling him. As soon as she was 
close to him, she knelt, and without saying anything, offered him the tea.

It was a small gesture, but it had a huge effect on Victor. With trembling 
hands he took the cup. Then he held out a hand to help Maria Elena rise to her 
feet. His eyes were full of tears. He pointed at the picture:

“Minák jínokt. Onákt nad Juní mortk dék.”

He took a sip from the cup. After a long pause he spoke again:

“Spakéebo dék. Spakéebo.”

Maria Elena was able to ask him one question, something she had learned that 
afternoon in class. She knew how to ask if he would be alright:

“Ved búdkt doc-doc dék?”

He nodded. “Dóc-doc… dóc-doc…”

However his expression told her something very different. It was clear that he 
wasn’t going to be alright. She tried to give him a sympathetic look. He drew 
a deep breath, wanting to tell her that he deeply appreciated her effort at 
condolence, but also knowing that she would not understand what he was 
trying to say. He drank the rest of the tea and handed back the cup.

Finally he touched her hand and repeated:

“Spakéebo dék.”

“Doc.”

With that Maria Elena figured she was dismissed and returned to the kitchen 
to clean the cup and put it away. When she re-entered the living room, Victor 
already was gone. She decided that she too, needed to go to bed. She brushed 
her teeth and noticed her fingernails. With deep regret she searched among 
Cecilia’s items in the bathroom and found a fingernail clipper. She held the 
device to the first nail, took a deep breath, and clamped down. She clipped as 
quickly as she could, but could not prevent tears from welling up in her eyes 
as she contemplated her ruined nails.

Maria Elena looked at herself in the mirror: her uncovered body, that horrid 
collar, her face without any makeup, her ears devoid of earrings, and those 
weird braids. It was surreal and terrifying to think that the image in the mirror 
was what she had become. On the inside she didn’t feel like what she saw in 
the reflection, but she knew that it was only a matter of time before what she 
was on the inside would match the image she saw in the mirror.

She heard a question in her mind, from a voice that was as clear as if it had 
come from someone standing next to her: 

“Is becoming different really so bad, Maria Elena? Can you tell me that you 
actually liked who you used to be? Is there anything you’ve ever done with 
your life that you can say you’re proud of?”

She turned around with a start, but there was no one in sight. Even so, she 
could feel the presence… of something… or someone… and it was enough for 
her to answer out loud:

“No, nothing to be proud of… nothing… absolutely nothing…”

She returned to her room and lay awake on top of her sheet for a few minutes, 
but finally forced herself to go to sleep.