Note: This story was dynamically reformatted for online reading convenience.
 
 Warning to Readers : Adult Material.

   To the reader: All the characters and the story are fiction.  Please
stop reading if you dislike possible sexual acts by teens.  The world is
populated by millions of us and there are millions of statistical chances
that all of this has happenned before and will happen again.  Relax and
enjoy the story.

   Phase 1 : Summer

   Chapter 1: Joshua moves in.

   Joshua's family, what there was left of it, moved many times during his
child years.  He remembered no father, although health lessons in school
indicated that one existed.  His mother's name was Jill and she was
protective.  Where possible she took him to work with her.  Or a child care
center would suffice if close by.  Today Joshua and his mother had moved to
an old farm house.  It was next door to, and owned by, a farming couple who
had twins living in a new house next door.  Joshua's mother had worked hard
after his father left.  She continued her education through college and
finally obtained a non clerk, non restaurant type job in a lawyer's office.
She took her new job with attention to detail.  It was fun for her but
required a lot of time away from Joshua who gained more freedom.  Her
rationale was to allow Joshua the time he needed to mature.


Monday:
This day was the first of Joshua's free summer days in his new room. 
The old farm house was empty except for the unpacked possessions of a boy
and his mother who went to work at eight with the promise to return at
five. Joshua was tasked with unpacking.  He was used to the routine. 
Fourteen years of packing and moving, usually at the end of a school term

provided him with the knowledge of the end goal to be accomplished.

   Every year Joshua took more responsibility for moving.  This year he
would unpack all.  There was no phone, no television, no interruptions for
the task ahead, yet he did not jump to the task.  Perhaps some food would
help.  He went to the fridge and stared inside.  A few grapes, milk,
butter, left over fried chicken, and nameless other foods but nothing
appeared to want to be eaten.  Probably there were carrots and other
vegetables in the crisper, if he dared to look in there.  A peeling knife
appeared on the counter.  He proceeded to a box marked "kitchen" and slid
the knife in under the layer of masking tape.  In twenty minutes the box
contents were in the right places.  Joshua believed that logical placement
of the kitchen utensils was all, that was required for he and his mother,
Jill to find them.  He slit the tape along the cardboard box bottom, and
carefully collapsed the box into storage condition.  Boxes were easy to
re-tape when another moving day occurred.

   Trashing the abandoned sticky tape pieces , another box selected,
another tape slit by the knife.  The long rectangular box fell open to
reveal bathroom things.  Scales, some wash cloths, soap and detergent
boxes, a measuring tape, combs, brushes, hair dryers and assorted objects
tumbled out.  Josh placed the bathroom scales and stepped on squatting to
view the accurate reading.  "59" kilograms eh.  "For a long time I was 54"
mused Josh.  "Now I am 59".  He carefully zeroed the scale and stepped back
on.  "59 Kilograms, it is".  Josh stepped against the bathroom wall.  He
made a finger smudge level of sweat with the top of his head.  Next the
tape was used.  It showed 175 centimeters.  "Wow, I have grown a lot this
summer" figured Josh.  He continued the unpack process.  Bathroom things
were sorted and placed as Josh would like to find them.  Joshua noticed a
pencil in the bottom of the box and retrieved it, and finally the box was
flattened for storage.  He calculated with the pencil on the side of the
cardboard 1.75 times 1.75, M+ ; 59 / MR = 19.2653.  "Ok then", reasoned
Joshua ,"Body mass index is 19.3 - Ok so far I guess, and back to
unpacking".

   Several boxes were attacked in the same way.  Some boxes were sorted and
moved to the unpacking location.  This was heavy work for a 59 kilogram boy
on a developing frame .  Joshua did not want to pick up all the boxes
again, though he had carried most of them from the rental truck.  Some of
the boxes were as heavy has he was.  After noticing the sweat and card
board burn marks across his belly, it seemed easier to unpack the contents
one by one and carry them to the required place.  After the fourth card
board box was carefully stored under the steps going to the cellar, Joshua
returned to the fridge.  Still there was nothing to eat .  As he stared
inside, a loud click shattered his thoughts .  The refrigerator compressor
motor started with an unsteady hum dimming the kitchen lights as it spun up
.  A mother's voice reminded him of wasting the planets resources "because
of staring into a refrigerator in July".  Cold air flowed from the top of
the fridge cooling his bare belly and pajama bottoms.  He quickly closed
the door, though he knew his mother would not be home until six PM or
18:00. "Well maybe I can save some energy", mused Joshua as he switched off
the kitchen lights glowing since early morning .

   An unfamiliar sound.  "What the heck?" , mooing cows , took his
attention to the out doors.  Twenty Hereford cattle moved lazily in a
grassy meadow across the road from his new home.  Two humans walked with
them, one in front of the cattle and one behind.  Joshua recognized the
limb movements as they walked through the grass of the rough pasture.  The
gait was similar to his mother , - "a girl" , Joshua surmised, "These were
two girls about a hundred yards away"!  They moved cautiously, although
Joshua knew that beef cattle were not dangerous.  The cattle moved single
file through a gate opened by the lead girl .  A larger cow appeared in the
next field as the girls swung the gate closed behind the last cow, and
locked the gate chain .  The girls retraced their route quickly and
disappeared from view.  The cattle milled around the larger heavy
shouldered animal with much curiosity .

   Finally something in the fridge volunteered to be eaten.  Joshua washed
it down with a large glass of water straight from the tap.  The water
tasted good and sloshed behind his pale stomach muscles.  It was always
fresh.  Somewhere in the cellar he heard the whirr of an electric water
pump recharging the taps with country cold well water.

   By 14:00 there were ten boxes left near the stairs.  Joshua knew they
were intended for the upstairs rooms.  He carried one upstairs and put it
in his mother's new bedroom.  The contents were heavy - "books ?" , at
least 30 kilograms and there were 13 steps with a small landing and then 4
more to the top.  The next box was clothes and the next was more bathroom
stuff.  The boxes with blankets were easy to lift.  As he lifted a box,
Joshua studied the pale ridge muscles below his rib cage.  "A six pack? 
Well maybe a four pack?", mused his mind.  His thin frame carried the boxes
easily, noticing that his stomach muscles automatically retracted to avoid
the harsh cardboard contact.  Carrying them upstairs required balance and
strength in leg calf muscles.  Sometimes he wedged the heavy cardboard
boxes against the corrugated muscles across his belly as he moved them. 
Tiny hairs on his chest and belly were gouged by rough card board and tape.
"Moving man" was not Joshua's dream career but exercise and hard work never
hurt anyone either.

   Windows in the house were closed and the house was warming in the July
sun.  Nose aware , body smell , and heard his mother telling him to wash
his face and hands .  The voice was easy to ignore.  There were several
hours before supper.  Besides, there was no open soap.  He went into the
bathroom often, mostly for water .  The water taps were high enough off the
sink to drink directly from the cold water tap.  No glass was required, and
no glasses needed to be washed.  He had learned the trick of placing his
mouth under the running water, to reduce drinking glass usage.  He splashed
cold water on his face and neck and chest while getting a drink.  Cold
water ran down his chest seeping under the pajama waist band.  It tickled
Joshua's belly, but also soothed the card board burns.

   Carefully pushing the peeling knife away from stomach muscles , Jos
opened another box this time in his new bedroom.  The contents were new to
Joshua , baby pictures, wedding pictures , pet pictures, guinea pig
pictures, a rat, a goldfish.  Joshua always had some small pet to look
after, except for now.  He checked the wedding pictures.

   "Heh , this must be my dad." A tuxedo dressed man with an impish face
and lots of blond hair stared back at him.  His memory of dad was meager,
but this was more evidence that one existed.  He checked the date and
calculated his 15 years on the planet.  Actually he knew he would be
fifteen in two weeks.  But one always wanted to be older than one was.  The
wedding date was carefully compared to his birthday.  The conclusion
arrived slowly.  "Is it nine months , after the ahh mommy daddy thing" ?  "
I, Jos was already in progress on the wedding date"?  Further pictures of a
tiny baby in blue pajamas took his mind back.  He did remember something
about his dad but could not place the thoughts in context.  There was a
picture of a man and a tiny baby sitting in the tub together.  Joshua
noticed the difference right away.  The man had an uncovered and red
looking tube floating just above the water line.  The baby was chubby and
soft supported on the man's upper leg above the bath water.  The baby tube
was small but straight with a conical and wrinkled end.  Joshua thought
about his tube.  He had called it that from day one, with out knowing why.
Fingers slipped in the front of his pajamas to examine the tip.  He
visualized through the pajamas and knew it was same as the baby tube in the
picture.  He felt the wrinkles on the tip one last time and withdrew his
hand.  Joshua studied the man's tube for a long time.  It seemed to have no
wrinkles at all.  In fact the outer covering of skin was way different from
his wrinkles.  It seemed to have no skin at all out front and the tip was
blunt!  "I wonder if there is a PMI as there is a BMI" mused Jos.  "Body
mass index - Penis mass index"?  His boyish grin faded into a curious
thought.  "If that is my dad, why am I so different"?

   He carefully put all the pictures back and carried the box to his
mother's bedroom.  He repositioned the masking tape on the outside.  Four
more boxes were unpacked by five.  Joshua noticed that his mother was late.
His stomach forced him to eat some left overs from the fridge.  Then he sat
on the chesterfield thinking about his mother arriving soon and drifted off
to sleep on the chesterfield.

   His mother noticed his longish blond hair, and perfect oval face , full
lips creamy eye brows.  She often checked him over on these occasions, and
the SMELL.  She quickly located the box with bathroom stuff and led Joshua
to the upstairs bathroom.  Tired but clean was better than polluting new
sheets with sweat and card board dust.  She pulled his clothes off and sat
him in the running bath water.  Joshua awakened enough.  He sat in the tub
a long time.  He checked everything carefully.  Fresh hot water was running
to re-warm the bath tub.  He was peering into the wrinkled tube end when
his mother re-appeared with a towel.  She paused, left the towel and
pajamas on the sink and retreated.

   Jos allowed a tiny amount of yellow water to escape.  Then he stopped
flow and started the flow from somewhere in the bottom muscle groups . 
Without touching the tube at all, start , stop, start stop.  Gee, pissing
in my own bath water.  "Am I kinky" ?

   Jos continued his studies on the tube.  There was nothing to see in
there, yet Joshua knew from the feel that there was some sort of inner tube
from which the yellow water exited.  He smiled as his mother left the room
quickly.  She always retreats, "when I examine myself".

   The starting and stopping muscles caused pleasant feelings near the
tube, feelings which Joshua could not forget.

   It was a routine visit his mother had made for as long as Joshua's
fourteen years, remembered.  Also, he remembered several conversations with
mother about his dad.  The answer was always the same.  "Something about
dad being gay"?

   Lying on his bed after the bath was a favorite time.  Total relaxation.
Warm covers, no work required and no worry.  Tired from unpacking , and
even before sun down Jos was asleep in his bed.  Dreaming of playing in the
baseball league , his friends had been in.  His friend was at bat.  Whack!
Home run to right field, and then Joshua came to bat, practicing swinging
by watching his friends , practicing the cocky stand that pitchers hate,
incoming ball one.  Incoming ball two, "Strike", called the umpire. 
Incoming ball two, "Strike" , yelled the umpire.  Inching slightly closer
to home plate, adjusting toes, flexing rib muscles, Incoming ball "Whack".
Running first , running second , "home run" screamed his team.  Jos crossed
home plate.  "Winning run" , screamed the team.  "Jos , JOS , JOS" ,
chanted from fourteen teen ball-players,, as the other team slinked away
into their parents cars.  All too quick though , his team was gone also ;
no dad watched from the bench.  No dad arrived in a shinning suv to take
him and his ball friends for ice cream.  A lonely boy trudged home to an
upstairs apartment , to await his mother from work.

   Chapter 2 An Unpacking Discovery.
Tuesday:
The next day Joshua with pajamas and his mother were up by 6:30.  She

found cereal for breakfast and disappeared to the office by eight.  After
she left, Jos dozed in the chesterfield till 9:30.  He dreamed of his dad
and what his mother had told him.  He woke up with his mother's words. 
"Your dad left because he is gay.  He will follow his own path separate
from us." Jos returned to the unopened box in his mother's room.  He undid
the tape carefully and checked all the baby photographs again.  There was
another of a new born baby boy sucking his mother's breast.  He recognized
his mother.  Joshua's eyes stared !  The breast was large.  The baby's
little parts were easily visible.  Joshua checked the picture carefully,
comparing the baby tube with his own.  He was definitely different from his
dad.  He searched back through the box to locate the man in the tub.  "So
that's what this gay thing is all about" he mused.  "But I would still like
to see my dad someday", concluded he.  There was another picture of two
babies held by the same man with the written words "Jos-Jac, 1/2 mo".  Both
babies appeared to be identical.  Joshua was not sure what it could mean ?
Carefully the box was re-taped and put back in the exact spot.

   For the next 3 hours Joshua unpacked blankets, winter coats, underwear,
pajamas and whatever.  The house was heating up again so Joshua removed his
pajama top and continued unpacking.  It appeared that his mother never
threw out anything.  There were old pairs of nameless underwear and brand
name underwear, Jockey, Stanfield, Gap, briefs and boxers.  One pair of
briefs with hearts caught Joshua's attention because it was still wrapped
in Christmas wrapping.  There were older pairs of socks and small boots and
slippers and caps and small track pants.  These boxes, obviously, were
unopened from the last move.  Opening the Christmas wrapper, he discovered
a new pair of underwear and socks.  He put the underwear with the hearts
aside re-taped the box and looked for more recent boxes.

   A mooing sound from outside drew his attention to the upstairs bedroom
window and the outdoors.

   The two girls were putting more cows into the field with the big gate.
One opened the gate as the other urged the cattle through.  The big cow was
farther over in the field with other cows.  Two cows were sniffing the
underside of the big cow and jumping toward each other's back.  "Cows look
so foolish when they try to climb on other cows".  The big cow raised the
front feet to straddle the back of one of the cows.  A long reddish tube
appeared underneath and found an opening under the cow's tail.  The big
animal thrust into the cow which resisted with four hoofs braced in the
grass.

   The cow stepped ahead on the first thrust but braced the hooves trying
not to move as three more thrusts jogged the cow ahead with jerky steps. 
When it was over, Joshua glanced back at the girls.  They were laughing and
joking, but he could not hear the words.  "Well, if they're not worried, I
am not worried" as he raised the window to let in fresh air.  The cow with
the braced hooves remained for several minutes without moving, head down
and tail slightly off center.  Joshua understood and smiled to himself. 
The big cow was the farmer's bull.  After the mount the bull stood still,
but continued licking around the cows tail, his long red tube slowly
recoiling away into his underside.  The two girls had noticed the window
movement.  They quieted their conversation and stared across the field to
the upstairs window.  When Joshua glanced back to them they were definitely
studying the boy in the noon day sun in the rented house window.  Jos
stared back and they resumed their chores.  Jos realized he had no pajama
top on.  "That's one way to meet the neighbors, -bare chested", he
wondered.

   Joshua realized a growing need to get rid of some yellow water.  He went
to the bathroom, reached down the top of his pajamas and pointed his tube
through the y-shaped opening.  He checked his belly and chest as yellow
water flowed into the toilette.  Deep red marks etched across his chest
from carrying boxes upstairs.  Yesterdays clothes were still in the
bathroom on the floor.  He put on same clothes.  The underwear with pee
stains in front stretched to fit.  "The track pants were easy to pull up
and not too dirty", he reasoned.  Another box marked laundry stuff, was
carried upstairs.  The peeling knife slit open the box.  This time three
mirrors were unpacked along with soap and dryer accessories and assorted
brushes and hair dryers and combs.  Joshua put the items away in logical
locations in the upstairs laundry room, and bathroom except for the three
mirrors.  Each mirror was a foot square.  He found one hanger on the inside
of the bathroom door and one hanger where a mirror should be in the
bathroom above the sink.  There was no place to hang the third mirror.  He
set it carefully on the floor tilting it against the vanity cabinet.  For
the next hour he checked out the cellar.  There were no screws, or nails or
hammers or screwdrivers to mount the other mirror.  He broke down all the
unpacked boxes and put them under the cellar stairs.  There were spiders,
mouse droppings, undefined trash from the previous rental people and lots
of vacant shelves.  An old bicycle, a baseball umpire mask a small hockey
jock strap, at least Joshua thought that's what it was because a boy he
knew three years ago showed him a jock strap and cup.  Joshua remembered
the fun they had with putting the strap and cup on over their pants.  They
took turns kicking each other in the crotch to test the cup.  It had sort
of worked.  For some reason he remembered what his mother had said about
his dad being gay, and returned upstairs.  "Can women be gay too , and -
but they don't even have a tube".

   In Joshua's mind "gay" had something to do with "the tube."

   An hour later his mother appeared with fast food.  Supper was soon over.
The ritual evening bath happened as before and night arrived.  Joshua's
mother decided to retire the stinky clothes and put fresh ones in view in
his bedroom.
Wednesday:
Joshua dreamed of girls and bulls and herds of cows, and of being kissed
by his mother.  He woke up at nine o'clock still dreaming about the bull
with the red tube.  He finally awoke from deep sleep with a tight feeling
on his own tube.  He felt somewhat strange about the feeling between his
legs.  There seemed to be more pressure than usual on the wrinkled end. 
"It could be just because of a full bladder", as he headed for the bathroom
in his pajamas.  Threading , pulling the wrinkled end through the pajama
slot, and directed it toward the toilet.  The water was slow and
constricted.  The mirror was still leaning against the vanity.  He could
see the underside of the wrinkled tube in the mirror.  It looked bigger
than normal.  The skin out front was a pale color and stretched tight. 
Water dribbled out the end.  By tugging the wrinkles ahead the full stream
returned.  His nose sniffed the fingers.  There seemed to be a new
undefined smell on his fingers.  Josh wondered about his dad.  He wondered

what the boy with the jock cup was doing.

   "Mother's gone to work" .

   There were clean track pants and socks, and brand new under wear and old
running shoes, and a white tee shirt by his bed.  Yesterdays clothes were
gone.  The new under wear was stiff and soap perfumed.  Instead Joshua
found the under wear with the hearts and wriggled into them, then covered
them with the track pants, and tee shirt.  He ate an egg sandwich from the
fridge and descended into the cellar.  Spiders raced for cover as the
bicycle was hauled out of storage.

   Out on the lane in front of the house a fourteen , almost fifteen year
old boy tried and tried to balance his 59 kilograms on the bike .  The
tires were soft.  The pedals were loose.  The seat twisted sideways.  The
handle bars were loose.  He positioned himself on the bike at the mailbox
and tried to stay moving but no good came of it.  About an hour later he
gave up and returned to the kitchen for lunch.  His legs were sore. 
Bruises covered his inside thighs.  His calves were sore.  His back was
sore, and there was unspecified tightness on the wrinkles again.  He looked
at the new house next door.  Two blond haired girls were watching the
bicycle at the mail box.

   Immediately a determination inspired Joshua.  It was unexplainable but
he must learn how to ride that bike.  After a quick lunch he returned to
the bike.  After another hour he accomplished fifteen pedal rotations
before the soft grass at the side of the road consumed his efforts.  "Aww
fuuuu , too fast, how do I STOP ---".  He slammed into the bike as the bike
tangled in the long grass against the fence.  A sharp pain jabbed him
inside the front of the track pants as Joshua's below the belt , crashed
into the cross bar and handle bar.  The two girls immediately appeared from
nowhere.

   Chapter 3: The twins.

   The twins were laughing but also concerned about their new neighbor.

   "I'm Jennifer, I'm Jessica", they chimed.  Joshua's eyes narrowed.  He
could not tell from which face which name was uttered.  The faces were
identical.  He stared up at them from under the tangled bike.  Bright
sunlight shadowed their perfect chests.  The breasts on the left were
dressed in faded blue and on the right, faded black.  A large letter "J"
enjoyed the space between each breast.  A small smile crossed Joshua's
face, as his eyes made contact.  The girls smiled back.  Faded blue and
black denim jeans matched the upper body wear and tough leather boots
completed the twins, as Joshua's eyes moved back to the source of pain.

   "We will help", announced the twins.  "Ahm - am Joshua", replied a low
voice.

   Jennifer tried to help Joshua untangle himself from the bike.  His pant
leg was caught under the sprocket chain wrapped around the rusty sprocket .
At first she wrapped her fingers around Joshua's wrists and pulled but the
bike moved also.  Then she moved closer to Joshua and put her arms around
his chest to remove some weight from the bike.  The bike seemed to move
with Joshua.  Jessica held the bike firmly by the back wheel as Jennifer
tightened her arms under Joshua's armpits and around his chest.  She
pushed-pulled Joshua into sitting position, slid her hands down his abdomen
and locked her fingers under his rib cage, but Joshua's tee shirt was
soaked with sweat and rolled under her fingers.  She slid her hands under
his tee shirt, locking her fingers to his lower ribs and corrugated stomach
muscles that criss-crossed Joshua.  She pulled gently, as the stomach
muscles resisted equally, to the power in her shoulders.  Joshua's body
slowly but firmly separated from the bicycle anchored by Jessica.  Joshua's
trousers slipped over his hips.  Jessica could see the boy's flat belly and
underwear appearing.  Jen was looking behind herself to ensure her footing
in the long roadside grass.

   "Ahh Jen, Jen, a problem".  Jen paused, but the track pants were already
stretched and slipped off neatly as Joshua's feet separated from the
trousers and the bike.  Both girls stared at the little hearts on Joshua's
underwear and at the bare white belly above it.  A bright red bruise in the
shape of the nut on the handle bars grew on the front of Joshua's lower
abdomen just below his real belly button.  The girls surveyed his creamy
milk colored skin and the narrow strip of tiny blond hairs waiving in the
free air.  "My brother calls it a happy trail" , murmured Jen.  A path of
reddish-white blondish hair trailed out of the handle bar bruise toward his
underwear waist band.  Something hidden inside the underwear interested the
girls.  The underwear was really too small.  It made Joshua's private area
look big.  The noise of a vehicle , - a truck went by on the gravel road.
Jennifer and Jessica stood between the road and Joshua and a small bush to
prevent the driver seeing the trouser-less boy.  The driver slowed , and
then sensed all was well.  He smiled , waived and sped on his way.

   Jennifer expertly backed off the bike pedal and removed the track pants
from the bike sprocket.  She noticed his boy smell as she reached inside
the waistband, down the leg hole and pulled the leg hole right-side out
again.  She handed them to the owner.  He raised one leg to put on the
stretchy pants.  A sharp groin pain dropped him on his back in the road
side grass.  Jennifer put her hands under his arm pits and pulled him back
to sitting.  Jessica arranged the trousers in front.  She lifted each leg
by the outer thigh and guided his toes into a leg hole breathing the boy
smell coming from his trousers.  Then she pushed the track pants waist band
up his thighs to the heart underwear, her thumbs brushing Joshua's upper
legs.  Jennifer picked him up by the arm pits again, and steadied his
stance, as twin hands pulled his track pants waist band over the little
hearts on the under wear.  The twins' fingers brushed Jos' tube inside his
underwear.  He seemed at ease with this help getting dressed.  His mother
had done this many times with winter boots and clothing and when evening
bath time was needed.  However, the twins were very much alert after
pulling up Joshua's pants.

   The twins averted there eyes from the front of Joshua's trousers, yet
they moved closer.  Their blue eyes studied Joshua's slender waste, and tee
shirted chest.  They volunteered to tuck the tee shirt back inside the
trousers but Joshua stepped back lightly, almost awkwardly, as his smile
faded to questions.

   "That's my bike" said Jessica straightening the seat, and the handle
bars.  I bought it when I was twelve.  It's too small for me now, but I can
still ride it.  Joshua tried to grin but pain still filled his track pants.
It was uncomfortable to be talking to a girl, let alone two girls.  "My
bike was wrecked by the hay baler", said Jennifer.  "My dad drove the hay
wagon behind the baler over it".  She offered a hand to the thin blond
haired kid.  Both girls studied Joshua's light skin and reddish blond hair.
The happy trail was light but reddish tinged.  "We both have new bikes that
we bought after the beef cows were sold last year." Jos faked a small grin.
The girls were persistent.  They stared at the place where the track pants
had cleaned the dust off the cross bar.  Joshua hoped that the area was
dry. He knew his weakness for letting a bit of wetness into his trousers
when something with great concentration was attempted.  The girls were
matter of fact and merciless.  "You are too tall to ride that bike.  Did
you pee yourself" they chimed?  "Maybe you should not ride a girls bike
said Jessica.  Boys bikes have different parts than girls you know".

   Jos felt a tinge of redness on his cheeks." Well of course boys have
different parts than girls, and what good would a boy's bike be?" he
retorted .  Jessica flashed an evasive smile.  Jennifer tried to think of
an answer.  "I guess you would get hurt in the same place with either bike"
she admitted with a genuine smile.  "I cannot ride any bike" he confided
with slow words.  "I never had a bike to learn riding and I never had a dad
for help".  Jennifer remembered her bike learning days.  "Yeah", My dad and
my brother helped us ride".

   "Am I really too tall", pleaded Joshua?  "Is it too late for me to learn
how to ride this bike"?

   "Well no", laughed Jennifer.  "You can learn bike riding anytime.  What
I meant was that the bike is a little small for you."

   There was a long pause as Joshua evaluated the statement, and continued
his gaze at the twins blue eyes, neither smiling, nor frowning.

   "We learned to ride a bike by helping each other" Jennifer announced. 
We can help you, if you want?" Joshua relaxed.  The pain was still there,
but the pressure from the twins was off.  "I guess your legs will be able
to easily reach the ground and help you get balance", added Jessica.  "It
should be easier for you to learn to coast on this bike".

   Joshua evaluated his body before speaking.  The twins were standing
separately but he could still feel the girls hands on his stomach muscles.
"Something hurts yet "he volunteered.  Jessica's question was sincere. 
"What hurts", she said.  "It's not my tube" Joshua replied.  "I think a
nu-u-aught got crushed ".  "Jessica blurted out, "Hold it for a minute, I
will be right back".  " That can be serious" said Jennifer.  "It is called
a testicle; did you see what the bull was doing yesterday".  Joshua
reddened on the cheeks as his stomach and lungs pushed out one word,
"ye-aah".  Jessica continued, "Our bull fell on the ice around the water
trough last winter.  Probably a cow stepped on his nut sac.  "Ouch" Jessica
reappeared quickly with a paper towel wrapped around several ice cubes. 
"How could that happen", squirmed Joshua still in distress.  "Bulls are
supposed to have a cremaster muscle in their scrotum" replied Jessica. 
Joshua's eyes did not reflect comprehension.  "The cremaster muscle pulls
the testicles, -ahh nuts up into the nut sac, -er scrotum for safe storage.
I guess the ice caused him to fall down too quickly.  Probably another cow
stepped or fell on him, and his testicle, er nut, swelled up bigger than a
softball.  The vet tried to put ice on the sac but he could not manage it
without drugging the bull.  Instead he decided just to spray the nut sac
with cold water for half an hour.

   Both twins wondered, and stared at Joshua's track pants.  "Joshua, We
need to hold this ice cube against your testicle.  It will stop the
swelling and prevent further damage.  "I can do it "?  "Ahh , I guess , -
no let me do it myself" .  Joshua eyed the twins uneasily.  Gingerly he
accepted the ice pack from Jessica and slipped it down the front of his
pants.  He twisted the ice pack half a turn as it went inside the under
wear.  The twins watched closely as his stomach snapped to attention when
the ice cubes touched his testicles.  Slowly Joshua settled the ice against
the damaged testicle.  His face began to show some relief and his smile
broadened.

   "We can hold the ice, if you want".  "Ahh, I know where it hurts, the
most".

   Chapter 4: The twins bull story.

   The twins continued their story.

   " We tied the bull in a stanchion in the barn and washed his nut-sac
er-errr scrotum with cold water from the hose.  The bull would not eat for
three days.  We had to put him in a pen away from the cows to prevent
further injury.  My dad asked the vet if there was any point keeping a
damaged animal.  The vet replied that there were two of them.  Even if one
was damaged the other would still work fine for the life time of the
animal. Joshua seemed relieved until he realized the full story of how the
bull did his "work".  His cheeks and neck blushed.  The twins laughed. 
They enjoyed the cream coloured eyebrows , and symmetrical red tinge on
each of Joshua's perfect cheeks.  Jennifer brushed the blond hair aside
from Josh's face.  "You did see the bull thrusting into that cow, didn't
you?

   Jos smiled back.  He still needed more time to recover from the bicycle
fall.  His eyes shifted from one twin to the other trying to remember their
names.

   Jennifer went on with her story.  Two years ago we had a huge bull.  He
was almost seven years old and dad said that he weighed over a ton.  He
mounted a heifer in the muddy area down by the creek and the heifer fell
down under his weight.  That's what the vet explained.  There was a big
bruise-bend in his penis.  Tips of Joshua's ears reddened as he squirmed
and the story continued.  The bull could not retract his penis back into
the sheath of skin under his belly.  Instead, it dangled underneath for a
whole day.  The vet put the bull to sleep.

   Joshua's face paled.  "What the fuuu?

   Killed the bull?" interjected Jos.

   "No silly", continued Jessica.  "After the bull sank down on his knees
and collapsed from the anesthetic drug, we helped pull the bull's penis out
of the abdomen sheath until the bruise was located.  The vet told us the
component names as he worked.  The bull's tube tip is pointed, and it is
called the glans penis or meatus.  The glans penis is the tip which
protrudes beyond the bull's foreskin.  Three inner blood vessels control
the hardness and strength of the penis.  The center blood vessel, corpus
spongiosum, on the underside surrounds the urethra.  There is a corpora
cavernosa cavity on either side and slightly above the spongiosum.  The
three blood vessels contain a spongy material.  The corpora cavernosa on
each inside is a high pressure blood vessel that runs the full length of
the bull's penis.  All three pressure vessels narrow down and terminate,
just inside the tip or glans.  That causes the glans to remain hard and
sort of triangular shaped for easy penetration.  The bull's blood pressure
fills the cavernosa before he mounts.  Surrounding all three blood vessels
is a semi-elastic membrane called the tunica albuginea.  The tunica
contains the high blood pressure inside the penis, just like a bicycle
inner tube.  There are blood vessel veins close to the penis surface. 
These veins lock as the inner blood pressure expands the spongiosum and
cavernosa.  No blood escapes from the penis but blood can enter the center
through the spongiosum and cavernosa.  This causes the bull's full blood
pressure to elongate the shaft and make it stiff .  It gets really hard
just like the garden hose when the tap is opened on the wall.  Bovine males
also have a penis bone which helps them penetrate the female.  The penis
bone is somewhat flexible and has a retractor mechanism.  It comes into
play when the bull thrusts.  When the heifer fell down the corpora cavity
"exploded" as the vet explained , because of severe bending increasing
pressure in the shaft.

   Joshua was hearing too much too fast.  One hand already had slipped
under the track pant waist line and under wear to hold the ice against his
left testicle, and now the other hand reached just inside the track pants
waist to check the head of his tube which seemed to be poking up the front
inside the underwear.  As Jennifer's story taught him the proper names for
the bull's reproductive system, Joshua's fingers located the same
components in his penis.

   Jessica watched Jos' color deepen.  His ears were red, face and neck
blushed with rich color.  She watched Josh hands stay in the trousers a
long time.  Deep reddish symmetrical patterns displayed themselves on his
soft cheeks.

   Jennifer advanced the story with perfect pronunciation on the bull's
reproductive parts.

   The vet suspected a tear in the inner corpus cavity and tunica.  He
washed the penis with purple fluid, used a scalpel to cut into the outer
skin layer at the bruise-bend.  The lateral corpora cavernosa leaked blood
everywhere, and there was a ruptured tunica.  The vet put a nylon mesh
around the cavernosa vessel and sowed up the tear with 50 tiny stitches. 
Then he sowed the break in the tunica with 25 more tiny stitches and
finally the outer skin layer back together.  By this time the bull was
trying to get up.  We pushed the penis gently back into place as the bull
woke up.  He did not stand for a whole week.  About four inches of the
little red tip, his meatus, stayed out side the sheath for a week.  The
glans penis sort of curled and hung limp.  The vet visited every two days.
He said that the foreskin was too loose because the penis had not retracted
fully, but it would eventually retract into the bull's sheath.  Bulls have
a belly sheath to protect the penis from environmental factors such as
freezing.  The sheath end should be tight and closed when fully retracted.
A tube shaped skin encloses the end of the bull's penis and attaches to the
bull's penis behind the glans and the other end attaches inside the belly
sheath.  This tube skin is called the bull's foreskin, also called a
prepuce.  It is attached near the outer end of the belly sheath and about
one third length back on the bulls penis.  When the penis retracts it pulls
the prepuce back inside making the end snug.  This is to prevent insect
bites and infections.  We sprayed the bull's foreskin with anti-bacterial
foam for three weeks to prevent infection.  Eventually the remaining penis
retracted into the belly sheath pulling the foreskin back inside.  After
three months we put the bull with the cows.  We watched him periodically.
One day a small cow came into heat.  The bull mounted.  One thrust
occurred. The bull dismounted and retracted properly.  Some semen shot all
over the ground, but we now know this is normal.  The cow had a calf as
planned, so we know his stuff worked.  We sold the big bull last year, when
the little one was purchased.  Dad said that two bulls would kill each
other.

   Joshua and Jennifer and Jessica laughed.  Both twins were also
displaying red lips and pink cheeks.

   "Does the little one which I watched in the field still have a damaged
testicle?" wondered Joshua.  "We don't know as much about the little bull"
said Jennifer.  "He does have persistent frenulum." Joshua's face showed a
question mark.

   "Persistent", interjected Jessica, "is when the foreskin does not allow
the penis all the way out, during a thrust; because a fibrous strap
attaches the foreskin to the glans penis along the penis raphe.  The
fibrous strap is also called frenulum.  In most bulls it becomes weak or
disappears after the bull reaches two years old and ".  Jennifer continued
the lesson, "The frenulum should stretch or break during thrusting.  If it
re-heals, the glans penis may be deflected downward as the penis advances.
A persistent frenulum can pull the stiff penis downward into a semi-circle
and prevent the bull's penis from connecting with the cavity in the
heifer."

   "And is this stuff all in a text book somewhere", asked Joshua?  "It
is," stated Jessica but Jennifer and I learn most -er -ah from observation.
Joshua noticed her cheeks redden as she completed the statement.  Both
twins stared intently at the bulge in front of Joshua's pants.  "Joshua, is
the bulge caused by damage from the bike accident?  " "N'ne noh".  "Is the
bulge normal"?  "Don't know, I think so, er well my mother never notices
it, so I think it's normal." Jennifer and Jessica grinned a broad smile.

   Chapter 5: Joshua meets the twins.



   "There are baby cows happening so he must have good stuff.  We think
that a boy's foreskin is different from the bull's foreskin" continued
Jessica.  Does it stay outside the belly all the time?

   Joshua grinned, as reddish color returned to his cheeks, but no word was
said.  "We asked our dad " announced the twins in unison, "but dad just
laughed".  "Could we check your penis for comparison?" ventured Jennifer
slowly pronouncing the words.

   The request seemed ok to Joshua and yet he did not offer an answer.  A
shy grin alerted the twins that their request was under consideration.

   Jessica was enthused, "Please", she added as Jos' raised eye brows and
blue eyes reflected the twin's request.  Jennifer and Jessica edged closer
to Joshua with trusting smiles.  "I am not sure about having a sheath",
replied Joshua.  "We will tell you if we see any problem", sang both twins
in unison.  The twins continued to talk about calves expected within the
next month, but stayed close to Joshua.  He did not move back from them.

   Joshua used his wrist inside his waist band and slowly expanded the
track pants.  The twins stepped closer to Josh belly as the track pants
waste band slipped half way down over the lump in the underwear decorated
with hearts.  The twins ears were now tight on Josh chest, as they peeked
inside his trouser waist band.  Josh slipped his other hand out of the
underwear pulling the ice pack with it.  "Do you need more ice?" asked
Jessica.  Joshua smiled ignoring the question, "I am starting to feel
better now".

   He re-inserted another finger under the underwear waste band and pulled
it away from the handlebar bruise as the base of the shaft moved into the
space between his underwear and belly button.  The girls could see the
glans and dorsal side of a slender pale shaft dropping away into the
underwear pouch.  The foreskin was tight, but completely covered the glans
, at least as much as they could see.  Can you open the waist band a bit
more whispered Jessica.  Joshua separated the briefs waistband to its
stretch limit.  Josh could smell the girls blond hair as they snuggled
close to his chest.  Girls moved their eyes closer to get accustomed to the
lighting inside the stretched under shorts.  They peeked inside the briefs
to see the protruding foreskin narrowing into a conical shape at the end
with one or two tiny wrinkles showing at the very end.  "Pretty small",
exclaimed Jessica.  "That's where the glans penis should be", sparkled
Jennifer.  "Uuh", stammered Joshua, "I have never seen a glans penis". 
"The glans is the real tip of the penis" remarked Jes.  "It's really
covered up by your foreskin".  Jennifer slid her hand along-side Joshua's
wrist.  Since his eye's did not complain she moved her fingers deeper along
the projectile noting to Jessica that the glans was very much compressed
and the shaft was not much larger than her finger as her fingers traveled
the length.  Joshua's pain completely healed itself, until Jennifer's
finger tips brushed against the ice cooled testicle.  A tightening in his
stomach muscles alerted Jennifer to avoid the left nut.  She compared the
size of each nut mentally has her fingers deftly examined the right one. 
"Testicles are not swollen", stated Jennifer to no one in particular.  "Can
I check them", inquired Jessica?  "Yeah, check them both", whispered
Joshua, with reddening and glistening lips.

   A motor car noise on the road startled them.  Josh edged behind a low
bush.  The three kids had been standing in the road side ditch for 45
minutes.  The driver waived and the twins waived back.  Joshua let the
waist bands slip back into place.  "It is filled with blood right now,
isn't it?" asked Jennifer sincerely.

   Joshua blushed without knowing why.  He stood up straight.  A dull pain
pushed his waist forward as he spoke.  The twins could see the wet spot had
dried.  They also noticed the hardened shaft behind the wet spot pushed the
trousers out.  "Tomorrow, you help with the bicycle ?  ", he eyed the two
girls with a friendly grin and blushing face.

   "We are on a health and safety course" announced Jessica.  "On Thursday
we go to the health clinic hall.  This week we will practice resuscitation
on heart victims.  The victims are plastic dummies.

   Josh's eyes showed disappointment.

   Joshua tried to remember the girl's names and which name went with which
face.  "Jennifer", he asked "Do the dummies have names?" Instead Jessica
answered his question thoroughly confusing his mind as to which name went
with the black faded jeans.  "Sometimes Jennifer and I practice on
ourselves.  It's a lot more fun to learn that way," said Jessica.  Jennifer
added.  "We named the dummies Zo and Zoii.  Tomorrow Zo and Zoii will have
an electrical shock accident, and we will revive them using heart massage
and resuscitation with the instructor's help.

   More questions from Joshua, "Do Zo and Zoii have nuts and a tube, ahh I
mean testicles and a penis"?

   "Testicles, and penis", laughed Jennifer.  "The dummies have no body
below the waist".  "Oh - aww", sounded Joshua slightly blushing. 
"Resuscitation?" queried Joshua.  The twins looked at each other, then at
Joshua's inquiring eye brows.  An innocent smile showed his teeth and lips.
Joshua's tongue peeked through the parted rows of perfect teeth.  "We learn
on course and we also play that at home", said Jess.  "I pretend to be
unconscious" admitted Jessica.  Jen raises my shoulders, tips my head back,
seals her lips to my mouth.  She blows gentle air into my lungs and watches
my breasts rise".  "Then we switch positions," continued Jennifer, "I am
unconscious and Jes blows air into my lungs.  We use our fingers to check
for chest expansion along the lower rib cage.  Would you like to see us
practice resuscitation", begged the twins together?

   "Do you do this at the clinic hall" Joshua inquired incredulously.  "No
Josh", joked Jessica.  "We cannot take our bras off in a public place."
Joshua's grin spread to a large smile.  "I like you".

   "How old are you Josh", demanded Jess.  "Almost fifteen", replied Josh.
"How old are you Jess", demanded Josh.  "Sixteen" replied the twins.  "How
do I know which of you is really Jes", asked Josh.  "No one can know that,
except us", replied Jes.  "We can even confuse our parents", replied Jen.
"Where are your parents?", asked Josh.  Twins responded, "Our parents works
at the auto plant.  They are only here on weekends.  It is much easier to
rent temporary space close to the auto plant than to drive every day". 
"Where are your parents?", asked Jess.  "I don't know" replied Joshua.  "My
mother works at a law office.  I don't know my dad".  There was a long
pause in conversation.  I really love my dad said Jessica.  "Is it tough",
she added, "having no dad".

   "Er ah aah aaah I have a dad somewhere" moaned Joshua.  "Everyone has a
dad according to health class".  Joshua became silent.  The awkward pause
continued.  Twins noticed moistness in the corner of Joshua's eyes.  "Do
you have a brother or sister?", asked Jessica.  The awkward pause by Joshua
became even more awkward with a slight frown.  They lost contact with
Joshua's eyes .  His face contorted and drooped downward Twins noticed the
wrinkles on his unblemished forehead, and decided to change the subject.

   Finally the twins continued the dialog, "On Friday we are going shopping
with our parents, and on Saturday there is a family picnic and on Sunday we
go to church.  We can help you learn bike riding on Monday", confirmed
Jennifer.  At that statement, they pulled Joshua to his feet and then, they
disappeared to finish the farm work.

   Chapter 6: Joshua learns to ride a bicycle.

   Joshua smiled, pushed the old bike back to the cellar door and went into
the cellar.  He began to search the cellar again not really realizing the
object of the search until it appeared.  He pulled the jock strap over his
track pants.  But the cup could not be located.  He knew it would be
plastic about the size of his hand.  There was an old hockey bag up on a
high shelf.  He pushed the spiders aside and pulled the bag down into the
sunlight.  The bag contained a broken hockey stick a couple of pucks, and a
long pair of Stanfield underwear.  It was stained with yellow spots near
the tube hole.  At this realization Joshua laughed, "Those girls called it
a penis" and the tip is a "meatus also called glans penis".  Joshua
examined the yellow stains.  He was glad that some other boy peed in the
front of their underwear.  "It must be normal for boys" he imagined.  The
bag contained other assorted winter clothing and a pamphlet illustration on
groin injuries.  Joshua deduced the bag belonged to a previous renter or
family member of the rented house, probably a boy of his size, or smaller.
There was a certain old leather odor in the bag even after many months. 
There were inner pockets on both sides near the middle.  He put his hand
into each and felt something in the canvas pouch.  It was a small cup.  The
owner was likely smaller than Joshua.  He slipped the cup into position and
whacked at the spot with the broken hockey stick.  It worked.  The blows
were completely deflected from the parts within.  There was however a
strange sensation on the wrinkles.  He carefully removed the strap and cup
and tried to gage how much space existed between the wrinkled end and the
plastic when in position.  "I guess it doesn't matter" mused he.  "The cup
works".

   Next Joshua read the pamphlet.  The pictures were black and white but
explicit.  "Groin pain can be caused by muscle-pull damage, puck strikes,
stick hits and many other activities.  A properly fitted jock strap
protects from puck strikes and sticks but cannot prevent muscle-pull.t"
There were lots of pictures showing pre-game stretch routines designed to
prevent groin injuries.  "Skate blades are sharp enough to cause deep
slashes in the scrotum." As Josh read he positioned himself to do some of
the exercises.  It seemed to relieve the injury on the crushed nut,
"testicle", he corrected himself.  My groin injury was caused by crashing
the bike" ,he reasoned.  Joshua put everything else back where it belonged
and climbed the inside stairs to the kitchen, just as mother arrived home.
He tucked the new found equipment under his waist band and tee shirt and
ran upstairs to quietly place it in the bottom of his bedroom closet.

   Joshua's mother was tired but glad to be home.  "Where are the peeled
apples for the pie", she asked Joshua.  There was a small shrug and a half
apology.  "I decided to wait till you got home in case you were late",
sighed Joshua.  It was a lame excuse.  His mother's instructions at last
night's supper table suddenly surfaced.  He had forgotten everything.  A
slight pain still permeated his groin.  Joshua retrieved the peeling knife
from where the last card board box was opened.  The apples in the fridge
were cold and hard to peel.  Stubborn persistence paid off with the dull
knife.  In half-an-hour supper was ready, a pie was in the oven and
Joshua's mother was happy.  Her relationship with Joshua was close, as it
could be.  Supper was over.  The hot pie with vanilla ice cream warmed the
inside of Josh's stomach.  He remembered that he had eaten no lunch today.
Joshua's mother asked him what new things he had learned.  "Well, twins
live next door he announced.  One wears faded blue pants and the other
wears faded black pants.  Their faces are exactly the same." What are there
names" asked his mother.  "I do not know there names", replied Joshua.  His
mother laughed.  She was sure there was more to the story as Joshua's face
showed a slight blush.  "Do they work on the farm next door?  "she
persisted.  "Yes they do" responded Joshua but no new information bubbled
out.  "How old are they", she asked.  "Older than I am" replied Joshua. 
His stomach was full.  His mind was at ease and the groin pain had
subsided. Joshua rested on the chesterfield, his socks up on one of the arm
rests, legs apart, feet dangling over the arm rest, and arms over his head
and dangling in air over the arm rest at the other end.  He fell asleep on
the chesterfield as the sun crept over the western horizon.  His
description of the twins faded off to silence.

   Jill reviewed what she had learned from Joshua about the twins: The
twins lived on this beef farm north west of Toronto.  Both parents moved
into the industrial work force at the automobile plant one and one half
hour away.  As the twins reached teen years, their parents worked the same
shift, to reduce transportation costs.  The farming operations were
mechanized for some safety and ease of use.  Each year the the twins
learned more of the business of beef cattle.  Together they enjoyed the
courses, farm safety, beef husbandry, nutrition, health management,
precondition, and grazing management education.  They relied on parents for
financing and sales timing.  This year responsibilities included beef
reproduction.  It was the last responsibility that twin farmers could take
on.  Financial responsibility would happen when they were eighteen.  The
twins' parents had severed the old farm house property and rented it for
the last two years, and current renter was of course, Jill.  The twins new
house was designed and built to the twins and parents specifications, and
located 50 meters down the road from the farm house on the north, same side
of the gravel side road.  Jill's knowledge of the twins faded away as she
gazed on Joshua.

   Joshua's mother checked over her sleeping boy.  His body had grown at
least 5 inches in the last year.  His face had not changed, perhaps a bit
more elongated, his arms were longer, hips and legs were longer, fingers
were longer.  She noticed his hair should be cut again, his finger nails
were clean but needed to be cut and his track pants were covered with
spider webs.  There was a layer of white gravel dust on his crotch, and
numerous grass stains all over.  The waft of air from his arm pits reminded
her, that her baby was almost 15 years old.  She turned the water on in the
upstairs bath and returned to the living room, lifted each leg and gently
peeled off the sock.  Josh's toe nails were long enough to make holes in
the socks, but she knew they would be too hard to snip right now.  She
raised him to standing position and marched up the stairs to bath, the same
routine for the last thirteen years.  Pulled down his track pants and the
underwear with the little hearts and stepped him into the warm water has
she pulled off the sweaty tee shirt.  His mother realized that the heart
underwear was not too tight because his hips were not wider, just longer.
Josh settled into the warm water.  She noted several bluish bruises on the
insides of his legs, and on his belly and chest.  Bruises from the moving
boxes were almost healed.  She started the process by shampooing Joshua
hair and washing behind Josh's ears.  Josh awakened enough to do the rest
of the routine, face, behind the ears, across the belly and the arm pits,
wash cloth over the tube, -"penis", Josh corrected himself, and so on. 
Then he began to examine his parts carefully.  There appeared to be more
wrinkles than usual and one nut, "testicle", he corrected, was very tender.
Joshua stayed away from the wrinkled opening.  He remembered his dad was
gay and avoided the places that brought strange feelings.

   He sat in the water a long time until it chilled , then meandered into
his bed room, and lowered him self face down on the bed and drifted to
sleep.  Joshua's mother returned to his bed room with pajamas and toe nail
clippers.  She lifted each foot from the bed and snipped his toe nails
carefully catching the nail snippings, while her eyes scanned his back
side. "Josh's body was pale", "He needs to be outside more.  A couple of
bruises near the waist", she noted.  Then she moved to the other end of the
bed.  Josh arms were tucked underneath his body.  She lifted one shoulder
gently till he rolled over on his back, arms out stretched hands open, eyes
closed.  This was the boy who grew inside her 15 years ago and entered the
world with his twin, who remained with her husband.  Joshua remained asleep
as her eyes examined him.  Two little boys were formed in the same womb
together, lived in the same crib together and played with each other in the
toy box, in the bedroom, in the back yard and in the bathroom, mentally
attached to each other until the age of three when they were separated by
court order of divorce.  She remembered the fun times the twins enjoyed
together.  Jill was looking at Joshua sleeping on his back.  She remembered
the tiny baby and compared him to this sleeping boy, perfect face, bits of
blonde whiskers appearing along his upper lip, growing neck muscles
attaching to a ridge of collar bone and muscled shoulders, tight corrugated
stomach muscles taking over where the visible ribs left off, narrow waist
bones, shallow belly button, light blond wisps of hair in a tiny path
leading to a soft blond patch of short slightly tufted pubic hair,
separated by a growing thumb sized shaft nestled lightly and trailing into
the space between the two balls.  One ball appeared to be swollen slightly
and some what blue compared to the other, but this could be just shadows
from the setting sun.  Her eyes moved to the new muscles forming definite
inside and outside thighs, and on to the skinny shin bones backed by
growing muscle calfs underneath.  There were many bruises along the inner
thigh and lower leg bones.

   Jill remembered , jolted , and she hated the court decision that left
her boys separated.  Some day she would tell Joshua that he has a twin
brother.

   Josh stirred, his hands partly closed as she touched his palms.  She
pulled each finger free from the half closed fist and snipped finger nails
right to the pink edge.  Her eyes scanned his pale body again comparing his
form with the tiny infant, she remembered.  Black and blue bruises marred
his shins and thighs.  A blackened bruise on his inner thigh appeared sore.
Another bluish-black bruise below his belly button distorted the row of
blond hairs which flowed into his scarce pubic hair.  His pubic hair had
blond-reddish tinge in the bedroom lighting.  She could see right through
it to know there were no bruises near the sensitive areas.  Finally, she
lifted his legs and slipped the pajama's over his feet, raised his middle
and tucked the pajama waist underneath his back, being careful not to
awaken the tube.  Joshua was already sleeping soundly, with a long slow
breathing pattern as she turned out the light and left the room.
Thursday:
Joshua was up early with his mother at 6:30AM.  She had already wondered
about the heart underwear but put out clean clothes as always.  The birds
were singing, the sky promised sun and there were things to take care of.
Breakfast came and went, and his mother soon disappeared down the lane to a

waiting vehicle that took her to work every day.

   Joshua raced upstairs and located the hockey jock strap and cup.  He
took off the pajamas slipped on the fresh under wear and the jock strap and
cup under the track pants.  Today's underwear was jockey boxers, bulkier
than the hearts under wear but suitable for a 14 year old in a hurry. 
There was some pain in the groin.  Joshua removed the jock strap and jockey
shorts.  He put the jock strap on first, slipped in the cup and then put on
the jockey shorts.  The groin pain was gone.  "Just enough room for the
little cup to protect without squeezing anything", Joshua was elated.  He
returned to the scene of the bicycle crashes with the bike.  By noon he
could ride about ten pedal rotations in a planned path.  Then he would step
off the bike and recover.  By three PM he could pedal and navigate around
the turns required to move from the main gravel road to the house lane
where the twins lived.  He was exuberant and practiced a mile run to the
main road and back.  Every bone in his body was aching, but Joshua knew .
"I can ride a bike , YEE HAW" , pedaling - pumping crazily along the gravel
road.  Stopping , looking , wanting someone to come out and see him riding
. Nobody appeared.  "I will show the twins , my new expertise" , decided
Jos.



   Chapter 7: Joshua's Mother notices.



   When his mother returned from work at 18:00 the chores were done, the
room was vacuumed and the vegetables were neatly cut for supper.  Joshua
was asleep on the chesterfield.  He awoke for supper, and later the bath
and then to bed as usual.  His mother retrieved the filthy clothes from the
bathroom floor.  She noticed the small round cup and strap which Joshua had
left inside his underwear.  It was too late for questions which might
embarrass, and she could hear soft breathing from Joshua's bed.  Well maybe
tomorrow.  Almost routinely she sniffed the cup and strap as she always had
checked Joshua.  A pungent component in the air near the cup cavity alerted
her to new realities.  Where did the cup come from?  It looked yellow and
old.  There were tiny blond hairs on the inside and pee stains near the
bottom.  Most of the smell was pee but the smell of male secretion was
unmistakable.  She had raised Joshua with intimate contact.  Every scent
was known.  Was Joshua's body changing to a man?  What if the odor was not
from her baby?  Could the boys next door who Joshua mentioned be
responsible?  The odor reminded her of long forgotten times when a new
husband started a new family.  She sobbed a few tears and retreated to her
bed.  Joshua had made her so happy.  She moved to Joshua's room and kissed
him lightly behind the ear.  At the same time she breathed the air around
Joshua's body.  It was sweet.  That happiness was not going to be
questioned right now.  She would wait for an opportunity.

   Tomorrow would be a busy day at work.

   Friday:

   Joshua dreamed in wide screen.  There was a bicycle, there were twins.
There was a bull with one blue nut and a bent tube.  There was a hockey
game on an out door rink.  His cup was too small.  He scored - nobody
cheered - suddenly awake.  Groin hurting when he woke up.  Something was
poking into his handlebar bruise.  Joshua felt where the cup should be. 
There was no cup.  He put his fingers on the wrinkles.  A soft fluidy
liquid lubricated his fingers.  He brought the fingers to his nose.  A new
smell permeated his bed.  It was softly pungent and bleach-like-sweet under
the covers.  Joshua's sinus' tingled as his nose sensed the fluid on his
fingers.  "Had the crushed nut somehow broke in the night?" He checked it
carefully comparing the size with the other one.  Both of them felt bigger
than he remembered.  What could be happening?  He pushed his little finger
part way into the cavity of wrinkled skin.  Creamy liquid oozed out.  It
was slippery and the sweet smell filled the bed covers.  New feelings
stirred in Joshua's groin.  He rechecked the crushed nut, -testicle, he
corrected himself, and squeezed it gently.  A sharp pain reminded him of
the bicycle and two girls.  He squeezed the other testicle for comparison.
A dull ache permeated his groin as he squeazed.  At least that is good he
reasoned.  Both testicles were the same size.  Both were equally sensitive
to pressure but one much more so because of the bicycle crash.  The
wrinkles around the end began to disappear as the inside pushed forward. 
Joshua imagined the spongiosum and the two cavernosa wrapped in the inner
pressure tube called the tunica albuginea.  His mind could see the three
long blood vessels inside the tunica, ending in the meatus inside the
foreskin tip.  He pulled the wrinkles forward till his fingers slipped off
the stretched skin, then eased the foreskin back toward his groin until the
skin movement compressed the tip.  Only one wrinkle remained at the tip. 
To push any further made it hurt.  He jumped out of bed.

   It was 9:30AM.  Breakfast cereal and milk and two oranges were carefully
arranged near the kitchen table.  Joshua ate quickly, until he noticed the
note on the fridge.  Notes were often left on the refrigerator front door.
He read the note and continued eating.  There was only a question?  The
words said "Do you want to play hockey?

   A funny smile creased Joshua's lips.  He wrote in plain block letters,
with his left hand.  "MOTHER, I CAN'T SKATE" and returned the note to the
fridge.  He put a new magnet over it to ensure it stayed.

   Up the stairs to the bathroom, Joshua checked yesterday's dirty clothes.
The cup was on top and the clothes were still there.  "Usually his mother
would have put them in the laundry room", he imagined.  Suddenly, he
recognized the meaning of the question on the fridge.  His mother had seen
the cup!  Joshua felt unrestrained.  He knew his mother would understand
when she returned from work.  The cup had a stale pee smell.  He slipped it
into the sink for a quick rinse, then, moved it in place under the
underwear as before.  A small drop of creamy fluid dropped from the
wrinkles where it touched the cup.  Joshua rechecked the cup with his nose.
An odor remained in the cup.  He filled the cup with warm water from the
tap and lowered the wrinkles into it.  Relaxing pee gushed forth spilling
into the sink.  He let the extra yellow water drain into the sink re-rinsed
the cup and did it again with even warmer water.  By holding the cup under
the tap and dipping the end of the tube into the warm flowing water he
watched as the water got hot.  A second urge brought more pee into the
sink. The wrinkles were clean now and the cup was clean.  The water was
almost too hot to enjoy as splashed it from the tap to his elongating
foreskin.  As the urge to pee disappeared a new pleasant urge took over in
Joshua's glans.  He continued splashing the hot water over the glans until
all the wrinkles seemed taught.  The thumb sized rod now stretched half way
to the tap.  But the water was starting to hurt now, so he closed the tap.
Holding his legs tight against the sink , and pressing his hips tight
pushed the tube farther forward then Joshua had ever seen it before. 
Joshua wrapped his left hand around the tube and squeezed gently at first ,
then tighter and tighter as the inside pressure built up balancing his
gripwith ease .  Unsure now , of what to expect Joshua wrapped three of his
fingers from the right hand around his tube , continuing to squeeze hard
until his finger grip tired.  A set of clean clothes was found beside his
bed.  Joshua no longer wanted his penis touching the plastic cup.  His
under wear had a loose waist band.  He put it on first, then the jock strap
followed by the track pants and white tee shirt.  It seemed to be taking a
long time for the foreskin to pull the glans back to normal size.  Joshua
splashed cold water over the glans to hurry the shrinkage.  After tucking
the cup into place he smacked the front of his trouser nonchalantly.  There
was no pain.  "The cup works".

   The bicycle was soon on the road.  Trips to the main road and back took
a couple hours.  Cars slowed to a crawl to get past the unsteady bike rider
on a too-small bike.  Joshua began to look ahead and behind to gage the
traffic hazards as he rode.  Several times he crossed the loose gravel to
the side of the road, to give up the right of way to traffic.  By afternoon
his leg muscles exhausted and balance failing another crash occurred as
Joshua negotiated the turn from the gravel road to his lane way.  The bike
rode down into the ditch and snagged in the grass, pitching his body
forward as Joshua grimaced for pain.  He came to rest against the fence,
and quickly looked around for spectators.  "Good" he thought, "at least I
can recover without extra eyes".  He checked his trousers for the usual wet
spot.  Either the moving air was drying it quickly or less pee had escaped,
and also, "ye-aass NO Pain" there was no pain, just another bruise on the
inside thigh.  "The cup", thought Joshua, "is working as expected." His
track pants were caught under the bicycle chain again.  Joshua studied the
chain and sprocket on the bike.  At first the pedals would not reverse to
unwind the track pants from the sprocket.  "Oh no", realized Joshua.  "Do I
need those twins to free me from this bike, or do I remove my track pants?
He eased the waist band down his hips, but was too shy to remove them. 
There was no bush to hide behind and a car was coming along the road.  It
stopped as the driver smiled.  "Heh guy, yu'ok?  "Yeah".  "Sure"?  "Uhh "?
The truck door drifted shut as the boy approached.  "I'm Adrian".  "Joshua
here , you can call me Jos".  "Be still , just a bit more slack" , as he
pulled on Joshua's track pants leg.  The boy edged close to Joshua, showed
him how to rotate the pedals forward and then backward , each time further
backward until the track pants rotated out of the sprocket teeth.  The boy
smiled broadly, as Joshua returned the favor.  "Now you'll do that yourself
." "Where are you goin so soon?" "My employer is in a big hurrry , just had
to get some supplies for the farm and get back, -see ya Jos"!  Joshua
nodded , "Thanks" , as the half ton truck dissappeared down the road.

   He pushed the bike back to the cellar door and rested while unpacking
more boxes.  The peeling knife opened three more boxes before Joshua's
mother arrived home.  Supper was bean soup and hamburgers.  Joshua's
stomach gobbled the food.  Again he realized that lunch had not happened.
"No wonder I am so thin".

   Joshua mother waited for a chance to ask about hockey.  She sat reading
notes from work until supper had settled for Joshua, and then she returned
with the note from the fridge and held it for Joshua to read.  "MOTHER I
CAN'T SKATE".  Joshua grinned.  "I am sore all over", he confided.  "My
tube was crushed by the bicycle when I fell".  Joshua's mother looked
worried, as Joshua thought, "Oh - oh, she is worried".  Instead his mother
looked out the window at the old bike near the cellar door.  She knew it
was moved from yesterday.  "Are you learning to ride that bike", asked his
mother unconcerned as possible.  "Yes Ma am" said Joshua, "I already know
how to ride that bike", he stated proudly.  "My legs are sore and my arms
are sore, and I rode to the main road five times today.  Yesterday, the
twins helped me when the bike crashed, but today I was able to free myself
with some help from a boy in a truck", stated Joshua.  Joshua's mother was
relieved but still concerned.  "Do the twins have bicycles" ?  "Well yeah ,
they do".

   Now it was Joshua's turn for questions.  "Is my dad coming back", he
asked.  His mother wished she had not started a conversation.  "Yes," she
said, "we will meet him someday when you are eighteen.  Joshua calculated
the length of time involved.  "On my eighteenth birthday" he quizzed. 
"Yes" said his mother as she relaxed that he was not starting the "why"
questions.  Another question bubbled from Joshua, "What does it mean, gay
and can a woman be gay" ?  "There really is no answer, "she nodded".  "It
just happens".  Joshua noticed a tear in her eye and changed the
conversation to himself.  "Am I gay, er, Will I be gay", he asked
"inquisitively" ?  His mother recovered "I am not you "she said.  "I do not
know the answer and a gay woman would be called a lesbian" ?  "Lesbian ? 
Why lesbian" ?  "Because woman who love woman are lesbian" , sneered Jill
realizing a sudden depressing thought.  "I should not have said that" , as
she noticed the perplexed face.

   Joshua had worked up to the final question and he was ready, "Is my
penis normal?" "You are growing up and will feel different, Joshua", she
continued , " --er you are a normal boy in Canada".

   Joshua's eyes narrowed, he would perfect his pronunciation for the last
question, so there would be no mistake in interpretation.  The thought
crossed his mind.  "Is my penis like my dad's" ?  But no words were spoken.


   His mother noticed the pause, but she hoped the conversation would end.
She did not ask about the new scent in Joshua's under wear nor about the
under wear with the hearts.  She relaxed knowing that the conversation had
taken place and the answers given were accepted.

   Bed time was later than usual, and Joshua thrashed around for a bit and
then finally fell asleep as instantly as he had been awake under the
covers.

   Chapter 8: Saturday and Sunday
Saturday:
Dreams of the man with two baby boys on his knees danced in Joshua's
head.  Father's hands held him his waist and as he kicked his toes at the
baby boy across from him.  Still kicking his toes when he awoke, Joshua
stopped his leg movement.  He was on his back , had kicked all the covers

off the bed.

   His slender shaft had pushed through the pajama opening and was still
outside his pajamas when Joshua's mother retrieved him from his dreams. 
The length surprised her.  She pulled the pajama front out away from Josh's
belly.  The elastic waste band kept stretching to allow the shaft to slip
back inside.  Finally the tip slipped inside the pajamas.  She released the
waist band gently as it pulled the tube close to Joshua's belly button. 
The foreskin tip remained poking above the pajama waist band.  "Not much I
can do about that thing mused his mother".  Joshua wondered why his waist
band felt so tight as his mind awoke.  The wrinkles on the end of his penis
were gone.  The skin was stretched into a marker like cone peeping above
his waist band.  Joshua peered into the foreskin opening but could see
nothing.  He dressed gingerly , avoiding clothing pressing his penis with
the clothes by his bed and helped his mother unpack most of the other
boxes. Unopened boxes were stored in the upstairs spare bedroom.  By
evening supper had happened and Joshua took a bath privately without help
from his mother.  The warm bath water first relaxed his tube but then it
expanded rapidly putting pressure on the foreskin again.  Joshua climbed
out of the tub and moved to the toilette.  He lifted the seat and stepped
close.  No pee would come out.  He noticed that the toilette paper roll was
empty and pulled open the vanity door to grab a new roll.  Joshua was in a
peculiar mood, happy but anxious about something.  Gently he lowered the
full roll of paper over the surging shaft and released the weight from his
fingers.  About two centimeters of hooded glans protruded from the other
end.  Joshua noted the reflection in the mirror.  Slowly the weight of the
toilette roll paper pulled the shaft downward until it slipped off the
pulsing tube.  After exchanging the full roll with the empty roll he placed
the empty roll over the shaft.  It seemed to stick out even farther and
rolled side to side on the slender post causing gentle pleasure on the
shaft.  The tip extended even farther, as Josh pushed the cardboard roll
against his pubis.  A small noise behind him alerted Joshua.  His mother
entered the bathroom with clean towels.  Jill laughed easily as she entered
and restocked the bathroom vanity with towels.  "Looks like you are growing
in every way", mused Jill.  "The card board roll makes it appear to be much
thicker".  Joshua and Jill laughed as the tube quickly deflated.  "It just
does that" stated Joshua, "for no reason".  A tinge of blush crossed Jill's
face.  "There is not much I can do about that", stated Jill.  "Perhaps I
can get you enrolled in a soccer league to absorb excess energy".  "I would
rather play hockey", stated Joshua.  But then realizing that that winter
was a long way off.  Joshua dropped the card board roll into the garbage
and headed for bed.  The bedroom was warm.  He slept without pajamas.  More
dreams!  Joshua was in a warm tight dark space.  He heard water like waves
and felt motion as though weightless in a pool of warm water.  Tiny fingers
edged along his stomach.  The tiny thumb flicked his tube.  Joshua rolled
his own fingers into tiny balls but the fingers continued touching him. 
Joshua's own fingers contacted the strangers fingers touching him.  His
hands explored another pair of tiny hands, and wrists and arms and beyond.
His hands explored another complete body , a boy identical to himself in
every way.  They were not his fingers?  They belonged to another complete
boy's belly pressed against his chest.  And they were not his body. 
Joshua's ears were pressed between the other boys legs and the other boys
head was pressed between his legs.  Joshua's lips contacted the tiny tube
on the other baby boy.  The other boy's mouth sucked on his developing
tube. Blissful dreams , eponymous dreams of two Joshuas.  Past midnight
when the air cooled Joshua woke from his dream of exploration.  "I know, I
believe, I have a twin brother", whispered his mind as he snuggled into a
ball under the covers, almost able to lick the elongated tube pushing away
from his pubis.  Joshua wrapped all fingers around it and drifted into
another dream.  The same succky dream where he hits a home run and Still ,
again this time nobody cared.
Sunday:
Mooing cows raised Joshua's head from sleep.  Sunlight shone through the
upstairs window.  He looked out side to the pasture across the road.  A cow
was leading the others to a block of salt in the pasture.  Joshua watched

them gather around and lick the salt block until all were happy.

   No clean clothes were waiting in his bedroom.  Yesterday's clothes were
still in the bathroom when he went to use it.  The mirror on the floor
reflected his profile as he dribbled in the toilette bowl and splashed on
the seat.  "Ok", he thought "I better raise the seat and do this properly".
His mother did not like a pee wet seat.  Still dribbling, Joshua raised the
seat quietly.  The yellow stream was constricted.  He pulled the foreskin
forward until it tightened his groin pulling his ball sac.  A heavy stream
of yellow water danced into the bowl.  Joshua played with the stream
breaking the shiny bubbles as they formed in the bowl.  Joshua stared at
himself in the mirrors as he hosed down the inside of the toilette bowl. 
His stomach pulled itself inward, corrugating the triangular muscled area
below his rib cage, and the groin muscles contracted as the water drilled
into the bowl making more and more bubbles.  Finally the yellow stream went
dry.  Joshua had lost the game.  Bubbles covered the surface water in the
bowl.  Joshua stripped the last drops, put the seat back down and run some
paper around the seat to soak up the pee drops.  He flushed the toilette
and combed his hair and checked his face in the bathroom mirror.  He
noticed the tiny hairs under his nose and more hair was growing on his face
below his ears.  He picked up the dirty clothes and carried them to the
laundry and fired them into a heap, then retrieved clean ones from a
bedroom drawer.  He dressed neatly and proceeded to prepare breakfast for
himself and his mother.

   Jill awoke to the sound of pouring water echoing in the bowl.  She
listened to the heavy stream bubbling.  Joshua certainly had no trouble
passing water.  When she smelled the toast from downstairs she smiled,
pulled on her robe and got ready for the breakfast call.

   Joshua checked that breakfast was to his mother's liking.  Taking double
steps on the stairs, he arrived in her bedroom noiselessly.  "Maam, your
toast and coffee awaits" he announced importantly.  A broad smile enthused
his mother as he retraced his steps.  When she got to the kitchen she
pulled Joshua's hair and held his ears between both hands.  A gentle kiss
attached itself to Joshua's cheek.

   The rest of the day was gone before the enjoyment between them wore off.
Joshua showed his mother the bike and demonstrated his new ability.  She
wondered if the cup was in place when he struggled once to turn around on
the gravel road to pedal back.  Joshua laughed at her enjoyment.  They went
for a walk along a lane that ran into the fields behind the house.  First
butterflies of the summer had appeared, baby birds were learning to fly. 
What a perfect day!

   Chapter 9: The lost heifer:

   Monday

   Joshua's mother rose early and disappeared to work.  Joshua put on the
clothes she had left, faded green track pants, boxer shorts, white tee
shirt, and blue socks.  The cup was fitted on the outside of the boxer
shorts with careful positioning before the track pants covered it.

   Outside the air was clear, but distinctly cool.  Joshua went back up
stairs and located a long sleeve shirt which went on over his tee shirt and
dangled loosely at his waist.  It was 8:30 AM .  The twins were waiting
when he rode by on the bicycle.  He noticed they were wearing matching gold
sweat jackets.  There was a big J on the front.  "I still cannot tell them
apart" he thought.  "Amazing." They shouted in unison.  "Today we need your
help".  Joshua was stunned that the tables had turned so dramatically.  He
returned on the bike, making a perfect stop and disengaging the bike with
ease.  "Yeah" ?  Both girls explained the problem.  Every cow in the
pasture had been counted twice.  One is missing.  Usually a cow disappeared
for one reason.  A calf birthing was imminent.  Joshua understood that
bringing a new calf into the world could be complicated especially as the
mother cow could not be found.  He wished he had put on jeans instead of
track pants.  Track pants were unsuitable for searching the meadows where
scrub bushes and prickly ash grew.

   The twins realized this also.  They were sensitive to Joshua getting
more damage from sharp thorns between his legs.  A plan was made to check
the entire acreage.  Joshua would follow along the stream.  Jennifer would
search the west high ridge and Jessica would go straight across the
un-wooded meadows, through most of the low prickly shrubs.  There was one
pair of walky-talkies.  Joshua had never used them.  He declined.  Instead
Joshua was given a French hunting horn.  If the cow was found he would blow
it, three short blasts every three minutes.  One of the twins would take
the other hunting horn.  If one of the twins located the cow they would
contact the other with the radio.  Joshua was to search the stream area
until it crossed under the main fence line.  If no cow was found, he would
retrace his steps.  The twins drew a map on the gravel road to communicate
the plan.  The map showed Joshua's search path along the stream and all the
way to the south fence if required.  "When you get to the south fence , the
stream goes under it.  Just blow the french horn with two balsts
approximately one minute between blasts.  That way We will know you are
waiting for us", explained Jes.  "And if I find the cow" ?  "Three blasts".
"Ok" nodded Jos.  "Let the search begin".

   They spread out across the meadow checking gullies and thickets.

   Joshua followed the stream.  It seemed endless.  It flowed around rocks
and trees and marshes and clumps of willow thickets.  It flowed through
cedar tree thickets and hardwood thickets.  His running shoes picked up
bits of the muddy path, but at least there was no prickly ash along the
stream.  The cows did not cross the stream.  He had only to search one
side. Frogs splashed in the water and birds sang in the trees.  An hour
later he stepped in something green and messy.  "Just disgusting", thought
Joshua.  "Cows have a nasty habit for messing a path." He moved closer to
the stream and pulled one running shoe off, scraping the gooey mess off and
washing his shoe.  The water was icy cold.  Joshua washed the other shoe
also, in case there was some on it.  He returned to the path.

   "Wait a minute", questioned his mind.  "That green cowy stuff has been
there only a few minutes".

   The sun remained behind heavy cloud cover but the temperature crept up
slowly.  Joshua stopped to determine the best path around a fallen tree. 
He decided to climb on it to view the area and to rest a minute.  Pushing
the track pants waist line down, yellow water from his wrinkled tube
splashed along the rotted tree limbs.  He decided to soak the log in a
pattern of cross-hatching making diamond shapes across the log.  "Why is
pissing always so much fun?" wondered his mind.  Again Josh began to
examine the tip.  "According to the twins, there should be a glans penis or
meatus here somewhere", wondered Joshua.  "It must be inside this skin", he
reasoned because the twins said that the glans penis was inside the
foreskin.  "Anyway, what do they know about human boys." He began to push
gently on the foreskin trying to push it down the soft shaft while
stripping out the last of the pee.  The skin slid easily until the last
wrinkle began to expand over the tip, which was expanding.  Josh felt good
about this.  He wished that there were some friends close by that could
answer new questions related to the girls information and the picture of
the man in the photograph.  The skin began to slow and stretch with a tight
feeling as the last wrinkle tightened began to expand.  The tube was angled
upward now along the thin path of blond hairs below his belly button.  Josh
thought that he could see the glans inside the end as he watched the end of
the tube pointing into new sun shine.

   A slight noise of breathing attracted his attention.  Quickly, Josh
released his track pants waist band , snugging his flat belly hiding the
tube .  He peered around into the shadows but saw nothing.  "Heh, who goes
there", he yelled authoritatively?  There was no sound and yet Joshua could
here breathing.  His mind searched for answers.  Eyes accustomed to the
shadows spotted his target.

   A frightened heifer lay near the trunks of three trees ten meters ahead.
Judging by the flattened grassy areas, she had got up and laid down many
times, obviously unaware of how to go about bringing a calf into the world.
Joshua approached with caution.  The heifer's mouth was frothy.  She was
lying in a distressed position.  Her tail was straight out with two tiny
hooves protruding from the rear.  The hooves were enclosed in a glossy
clear membrane.  Joshua could not recall any other material quite like
this. He put the French horn to his lips and blue three blasts.  The heifer
was startled but did not get up.  Joshua circled the heifer carefully
forming a plan on what the twins had not said.  "What are the instructions,
if I find the cow?" thought Josh.  He moved close to the heifer's neck and
rubbed it gently.  The hair was sweaty.  The heifer did not try to get up.
She seemed to be more at ease after Josh patted her neck and shoulders.  He
could feel her neck muscles tensing while studying the muscle movements
along her back.  The heifer was having a birthing contraction.  Josh moved
his hands along the heifers back to the tail.  He put his fingers over the
tough membrane covering the hooves and pulled gently.  It was soft, moist
and very slippery.  The cow seemed to sense new help as the contraction
came into force.  The calf's nose appeared barely visible inside the
membrane.  The tongue was twisted crazily aside.  "Probably dead", thought
Joshua wishing he had not taken so long to find the cow.

   Far away , a French hunting horn echoed past Jes' ears.

   "I wonder if the twins heard me"?

   Several contractions later, Joshua's efforts had accomplished nothing.
Another three blasts on the French horn echoed through the trees and
meadows.  Joshua felt helpless.  He had no idea what to do or even whether
the twins heard the horn.  He braced his running shoes on a small tree root
and began to pull less gently on the two small rubbery hooves.  The cow
pushed again with a low groan.  A small pink and black nose appeared behind
the crazy tongue.  As the contraction stopped the nose retreated from view.
Probably can't even breath in there thought Joshua.  The nose appeared to
be advanced about one quarter inch.  Joshua was putting more pull power on
the calf hooves now.  After a couple more contractions he began to
synchronize his strength with that of the heifer.  Every time the
contraction came the nose moved a bit closer to freedom and then slid back
inside.  Joshua knew he could lift a moving box heavier than his own
weight. He pulled gently at first and kept increasing force until some
progress appeared.  By now he reasoned that the force was at least 80
kilograms of pull on the calf's front legs.  Wrists aching with the
constant strain , and muscles pulsing with full power .  As each
contraction stopped the pink nose with the black spot receded but not as
far back as before.  And just as quickly Joshua relaxed his grip in order
to rest until the next contraction.

   Joshua wiped his slippery hands on his outer long shirt retrieved the
French horn again.  Another three blasts on the horn.  The horn was now
covered with slippery birthing fluids where his fingers held it.  There was
no way to tell if any one heard or cared about this sweaty boy in the
forest trying to free a stuck calf , and yet was that a yell or whistle
from somewhere in the distance?  Joshua's muscles were bulging , enjoying
the stress.  His tee shirt was soaked with sweat.  Small eyes inside the
plastic membrane pleaded for help.  "Amazing" !  He could see them blink
between contractions.  The pant legs of Joshua's track pants slipped under
his heals into the soft muddy ground.  His running shoes made imprints into
the soft ground eventually stopping on tree roots below the surface.  He
put every muscle into the calf's rescue.  He wished he had worn denim jeans
and a belt.  At least he could have looped the belt over the calf's legs
for easier pulling.  "Sometimes a mother does put out the wrong clothes to
wear" his mind wandered as the contractions seem to have stopped.  Bright
sunlight momentarily cascaded through a break in the tree tops as the
pre-noon sun turned up the heat.  Another three blasts on the French horn
and Joshua removed his over-shirt and draped it over a nearby branch.

   He pulled his tee shirt free from the track pants waist band to let cool
air circulate over-heated chest muscles.  Cool air felt great evaporating
the sweat under his tee shirt.  Then Joshua braced his shoes on a tree root
and pulled again, talking softly.  "C'mon babe do it babe , push that
little cow.  " .  The heifer did push.

   At the next lull in contractions he removed his tee shirt, hung it over
a tree branch and then began to force his hands forward along the calf's
front legs and inside the heifer's cavity stretching the birth membrane. 
He forced his fingers into the birth canal around the calf's head.  He
sensed the calf neck muscles as he twisted the head gently to increase the
passage way size.  "Is this what that bull wanted to do?" questioned his
mind.  Several more contractions followed as Josh became accustomed to the
routine.  Joshua's hands repositioned the calf's head between each
contraction.  He hoped that the repositioning combined with the slippery
lubrication on the membrane would allow the calf to enter his world with
each pull.  "Arriving in this world his tough as hell" , mused Jos .  "I
hope the bull had fun ramming his rod up inside there."



   Chapter 10: The calf:

   The twins appeared as the heifer moaned another contraction.  They had
run for two miles when they heard the horn and now, stood back to get their
breath.

   Joshua's neck and shoulders were straining with the pull on the calf.  A
facial grin and sparkling blue eyes danced on his face.  His tongue edged
out between the rows of teeth as his brain directed the calf rescue.  The
twins watched his biceps expanding as he synchronized his efforts with the
heifer's contraction.  They saw his six pack muscles tighten to steady his
abdomen.  His chest was bare and pale pink with drops of sweat.  His
shoulders and forearms were swelled from constant strain.  Large veins
pulsed blood along his bicep muscles and forearms.  Rigid patterns of his
working stomach muscles decorated his body below the chest.  Their eyes
picked out and followed the large vein along the right side of his belly
button, to where the vein descended below his waist band.  A similar but
smaller vein coursed down the left side from the pale six pack area toward
unsean pelvis muscles.  The waist band of his track pants was soaked with
sweat.  A long wet spot trailed away down the front of his trousers.  Twins
looked at each other.  "It could be sweat, or it could be pee".

   The twins laughed out loud.

   Joshua's grin showed a big smile when he saw the girls.  "I'm alright
but could use some help".  His eyes noticed the big J on each sweat shirt
was wet with perspiration from the girls run.  The twins chests were still
heaving from the emergency run to Joshua.

   The twins stripped off their outer sweat shirts and draped them over
tree limbs.  "This is the best biology class, I'll ever get" Joshua's mind
greeted the twins.  "How did that calf get in there"?  he joked.  "Probably
a bull" laughed Jessica.  I'm sure a bull thrust it in there grinned Josh,
"His frenulum must have broken when he did this." The twins laughed.  They
liked Joshua's humor during stressful exertion and they liked his
intelligence in remembering the details described on the day of the bicycle
crash.

   "Would the bull have done this with one, or two or three thrusts?" asked
Josh, to no one in particular.  "I would not want to work on a four
thruster".  The twins laughed again as they formed a plan.  They continued
the talk, "I would not want to see how big this calf would be if that bull
had two healthy balls", laughed Jessica.

   Joshua's hands lifted the calf by the nose and moved the head side to
side as the latest contraction grew.  A low groan proved the heifer was
very serious about this birth.  At the next contraction Joshua's mind
planned to shove his foot farther under the cow and lift the calf while
rotating it inside the birth canal.  "It looks like your doing a great job
doctor Jos", intoned the twins as they circled the heifer to size up the
situation.  Both twins moved to the heifer's nose.  They began to assess
the heifer's health through breathing rate and eye dilation.

   She was weak.  They did not want to lose a valuable heifer, and the calf
was almost part of the family as they watched Jos manipulate it's nose
inside the birth membrane.  Leaks in the birthing membrane were spilling
fluid on Josh's arms and down the front of Josh's pants.  His belly and
waist band were soaked with either sweat or birthing water.  Josh proceeded
to work on the calf.  Shoes locked under a tree root, his shoulder and
stomach muscles glowed with the tension of the pull as the next contraction
started.  Jos increased the pull force to his maximum strength.  Shoes
pushed farther into the soft earth.  Belly muscles taut, legs slightly bent
yet straightening as Joshua's grip tightened on the calf's legs, he pulled
unevenly on each leg trying to get one or the other of the calf's shoulders
to slip out.

   A huge contraction built up surprisingly fast.  The heifer's uterus
emptied itself with great force.  Ejected from the birth canal with a rush
of water and birthing fluids and blood, the calf seemed to tackle Joshua
.Legs tangled in the track pants.  The leg holes of his track pants were
caught in the tree root as his leg muscles struggled and his feet churned
for balance.  He fell backward pulling the calf over top of himself as he
slipped on to his back into the long soft grass.  The umbilical cord
unraveled, stretched and snapped like elastic bands spraying blood
everywhere.  The calf's long rubbery legs slipped past each side of his
chest and the calf landed squarely on Joshua's rib cage.  His legs and
trousers disappeared underneath, as the 60 pound calf knocked the wind out
of his chest and pinned him into the long grass.  Jennifer and Jessica were
comforting the heifer, but they saw Joshua's chest bounce under the body
blow from the ejected calf.  Jos lacked the air knocked out of his lungs,
his body limp and motionless.  The calf was not breathing.  The calf's nose
settled on Joshua's chin.  Rubbery front legs straddled Joshua's chest and
hooves pushed under his arm pits with Joshua's shoulders pinning the
rubbery legs under him in the grass.

   Both twins stared : Joshua almost disappeared into the long grass.  The
calf remained squarely on top of him , seemingly dead..

   Umbilical cord blood seeped down both sides of Josh bare waist. 
Jennifer rushed to clear the calf's nose of the birthing membrane.  First
she noticed, "I must clean Josh air passages".  She kneeled, straddling
Joshua's ears and cleared Joshua's nose and mouth using the soft material
of her under shirt.  Then she removed debris from the calf's nose.  A long
gurgle of rushing air cleared the calf's throat and entered the expanding
lungs.  She continued to clear away the birthing fluids and bits of blood
and membrane from Joshua's nose and mouth.  The calf withdrew its tongue.
The hooves began to struggle slowly.  A new born calf took its' place on
the planet earth.  There was no reverse to the birthing process.

   Joshua's gasped for breath but could get none.  His color was pale.  His
deflated lungs could not suck in enough air from under Jennifer's under
shirt as she cleaned the calf's nose.  Josh tipped his head back to get
more air.  He bumped his nose into Jennifer's private area.  Jennifer
backed her knees away from Josh face, and put her lips around Josh's mouth
and one hand automatically searched out to the area just below Josh rib
cage where she could feel his lungs expand and contract.  She pushed her
hand along Josh chest taking some of the weight of the calf from Josh. 
Jessica moved close and pinched off Josh nose as Jennifer began a long
breath into Josh's lungs.  Both girl's finger tips measured Josh rising
chest as air filled his lungs.  They waited and felt his belly for the
diaphragm movements signaling expelled air.  Then Jessica began another
breath into Josh lungs and the process repeated.  Again the twins fingers
reached under the calf to detect the movement of the lung and diaphragm. 
Josh was breathing.  Jessica reattached her lips to Josh, and gave another
slow breath holding his nose closed.  Locking her mouth on Josh's mouth and
blowing air into Josh, measuring his lung movement as she blew in her air.
Jennifer looked at the calf's nose and lungs.

   The calf was struggling also.  She decided the calf could breath on its
own.

   Jennifer tried to help the calf get up.  She lifted it's nose above
Joshua's neck.  The back legs and abdomen of the calf were still encased in
the tough birthing membrane.  Jennifer noticed the calf's tangled rear
hooves stretched out behind.  She gripped the membrane with both hands from
behind the calf and began to pull the membrane away from the calf toward
the heifer and off the calf's rear legs.

   Jessica's mouth was still on Joshua lips.  A long sigh escaped Josh's
throat and tickled Jessica's lips.  It was a low guttural noise from deep
within his self.  Josh had never made the gutteral sound before and had
never felt the sensation before in his inner thigh and abdominal muscles.
At first Jessica expected he would vomit.  She had never heard that sound
before from any animal.  Joshua's groin muscles tightened.  She felt Josh's
abdominal muscles ripple under his belly button.  Thigh and belly muscles
contracted pulling Joshua knees under the calf's weight.

   As Jennifer pulled away the birthing membrane, the lubricated flesh
raced along the dorsal end of Jos' penis.  The weight of the calf's belly
kept the slippery birthing membrane hard against Jos.  Jennifer kept
pulling even as Jos tried to scream from the over pleasant glans sensation.
His lungs were too empty of air to produce a yell.  Jessica felt his
anxiety in her lips as she breathed air into his lungs.  Jen pulled the
birthing membrane more slowly, not certain about the connection with Josh.
Both twins noticed his tense round face morphing into an ear to ear smile.
Jessica moved her hand lower on Josh abdomen.  Her fingers felt the rows of
ribs, and rippled muscles below his rib cage as her hand moved between the
calf and Joshua.  Pushing further under the calf, her fingers located his
belly button and then she felt the base of a slender shaft between her
fingers, and by Josh's body reaction, knew it did not belong to the calf.
It felt flexible and yet it seemed very hard.  The shaft was soft to touch
and yet rigid.  It seemed to be a bit bigger than a marking pen, perhaps
the size of a rhubarb stalk.  The shaft trailed away under the calf's
belly. She could also feel the slippery birthing membrane moving against
it. Jessica pulled her hand back.  It was covered with blood!

   For a short moment Jessica's mind yelled "blood".  Oh, "it's just
birthing blood".  She unconcerned.  "Heh Jen, uh ahh - check under the
calf's belly" !

   Jennifer reached between the calf's rear legs.  She could feel the
calf's testicle sac with two round testicles and the calf's penis inside
the calf's belly sheath.  Her fingers wrapped around the sheath and closed
together lightly pinching the sheath.  "It is a bull calf", Jen emphasized,
"That's about all I can feel".  Then something pulsed the back of her hand
from the other side of the birthing membrane.  She pulled her hand out,
turned it over and pushed back under the calf, this time on the lower side
of the membrane.  Her fingers started at Josh's wet socks.  She could feel
her fingers moving along Josh's legs, over the knee caps and between tense
thigh muscles.  "Where is Joshua's trousers?" reasoned Jen.  She expected
to feel Josh's underwear.  Instead her fingers encountered a hard slender
shaft extending toward her fingers.  It was held down between Josh legs by
the weight of the calf and birthing membrane.  She rolled the flesh on the
tip around with her fingers and laughed as Josh face displayed a relaxing
smile.  Jen's hand moved around the slender shaft.  Her fingers closed
tightly on the shaft, noting that there was no body sheath on this one. 
She watched Jos smile grow wider.  She then, checked the size of the
testicles compared to the baby bull, gently rolling them around between her
thumb and forefinger.  Jos rolled his eyes and smiled, "Are mine as big as
the calf"?  "Well it feels like your track pants were pulled off , when you
fell backward", she defended.  "Jos, I did not expect to touch you there."
She looked back to see Jos' lower clothing under the mother cow.  "Its OK",
grinned Jos, "I'm ok ", he announced to the twins.  "I can get some breath
and I feel weak but good, but am still stuck under the calf.  My tube -er
ahh penis is jammed way too tight."

   "We need to get that calf up", exclaimed all three kids at the same
time.

   Jennifer lifted the calf's nose above Joshua's chest, but the calf's
legs were still locked under Josh's arm pits.  She took the weight of the
calf from the membrane allowing it to slide more gently past Joshua's
excited foreskin.  The calf pulled it's front legs back from under Joshua's
shoulders.  At the same time Jessica's arms wrapped around, and lifted the
calf's rear.  The new born bull supported itself on wobbly legs.

   A pale slender shaft erected itself from Joshua's belly.  It pushed
forward seeming to pull Josh with it and pushing a tent into the remaining
birthing membrane.  Jessica was pulling the membrane very slowly now, as
she began to understand the connection between the membrane and Josh. 
"It's ok", breathed Josh.  "I'm ok.  What a way to charge my corpora
cavernosa vessels fully.  What is all that skin for"?  She reached under
the calf's belly to gently lift the remaining material away from Josh's
belly.  Jennifer's fingers held the rigid shaft against his belly button
till Jess cleared all the membrane from the area.  "All that skin is a
birthing membrane", volunteered Jessica, "The membrane completely encloses
the calf as it grows inside the uterus.  IT protects the calf from damaging
bacteria and viruses and disease that may be in the cows body".  Josh could
feel Jen's finger pressure on the underside of his penis.  Jen could feel
the pulsing blood cavities inside the penis as she held it firmly against
Josh belly.  "Corpus spongiosum contains the urethra" she deduced, "but why
is Josh heart rate so slow?" She counted five distinct pulses but much
slower than Josh expected heart rate.  "Heh Jes", she exclaimed, "Joshua's
heart rate is way too slow.  Jessica counted the heart pulses in Joshua's
neck.  "Heart rate is fine", she stated.  "Where are you measuring his
pulse?".  Jos laughed with an out of breath laugh at the girls concern. 
"Jen, you are gripping my tube with your fingers, making it jump by itself.
That's not my heart rate.

   Fresh blood oozed from the calf's cord dripped on Josh's stomach .

   Jennifer and Jessica cradled Josh's head and took hold of his arm pits,
pulling him a safe distance away from the wobbly creature to the deep soft
grass near the stream bank.  Joshua's shoes, track pants and jock strap and
under wear soaked with birthing fluids remained pinned to the ground near
the mother cow.  His chest was blood spattered.  A long translucent shaft
extended from thickening dark blood hiding the base of the penis.  At the
same time, cloud cover for the day was disappearing.  Bright sun light
appeared over the tree tops illuminating the mother cow and calf and the
twins and Joshua.

   The calf remained standing.  Heifer remained down but alert and Joshua
was spectacular.  A real male boy on his back rested in front of the twins
in the bright day light dressed only in wet blood soaked socks.  The pale
cream color, the flat milk colored belly, the slim abdominal muscles,
translucent pale shaft, deep red blood spattered everywhere, were awesome
to the two girls viewing perception.  Each twin sensed the excitement in
the others body, - and in Jos.

   Jen was still concerned about Jos heart rate, "Lets check Josh heart
rate".

   Jess put her fingers around Josh wrist and located a heart beat.  She
sat beside Josh in the long grass waiting counting beats and waiting for
her watch to show fifteen seconds; "Heart rate is 64 beats per minute". 
"Your wrong", exclaimed Jen.  I measured it to be thirty per minute.

   "Impossible" stated Jess, "Josh would be unconscious at thirty beats per
minute.  What point did you measure"?  "Penis", declared Jen.  Twins glared
at each other.  The only way to settle the dispute was to re-measure.  Josh
became concerned at the direction of the conversation.  Still short of
breath, he smiled to show them his confidence.  "Do you need to recheck my
heart rate", he whispered?  Twins responded, "YES.  We need to check two
places, measuring at your wrist and your penis.  "Is it ok for me to
measure your penis", asked Jess, and I will measure your wrist said Jen
sitting in the grass on Josh left side.  They stared at Josh for half a
minute as the sun rays illuminated the forest clearing.

   A bright broad smile formed slowly on Josh face.  Relaxing into the soft
grass, he nodded approval for measurement.

   "Lets make accurate measurements for a full minute", invoked the twins
as they began the measurements.  Jen measured beats per minute by clamping
her thumb and index finger on Josh left wrist.  Jess measured beats per
minute by clamping her thumb and index finger on the undeside of Jos'
penis. The three kids sat quietly as Jess' wrist watch ticked off sixty
seconds.

   Jos' smile increased, his tongue tasted the sweat on his lips, as his
arms relaxed above his head.  Eyes closed.  Abdominal muscles and pelvic
area feeling too tooo good.

   A puzzled look appeared on Jess face as the wrist watch indicated one
minute.  "Thirty one but now increasing in strength" she announced.

   "Sixty nine and increasing", intoned Jen.

   "Jos must have two hearts" laughed the girls.  "I believe sixty nine is
the real heart rate", said Jen.  "His penis does things independent of
Josh", stated Jess.

   "Does it retract back into the body sheath?" wondered both girls, "It
was much shorter the day of the bicycle crash".  Josh was still short of
breath but tried to talk, "Not sure what it does", he announced, "This is
my first time inspection.  It feels so strong.  Check it out if you want."
The twins laughed out loud in wonder.  Both twins had already checked the
translucent pulsing shaft.  Feeling the shaft gave the twins an
unexpectedly pleasing sensation, not to mention what it was doing to
Joshua.

   His arm movements alerted the twins from their trance.  Jos tried to get
up.

   Chapter 11: The twins biology lesson:



   The girls retrieved his tee shirt and positioned it over the flat belly
muscles but it would not settle the shaft down.  Josh re-gained more air in
his lungs and strength in his muscles.  Intense sensations enveloped his
lower abdomen.  A huge smile occupied his face letting the girls know he
was feeling great.  Jennifer and Jessica stared at the slender white penis
pulsing inside the transparent-like tent of tee shirt.  Finally they gave
up trying to cover it and threw the shirt back over a tree branch. 
Foreskin stretched over it.  Tip of the penis pushing with out Jos'
consent. Rigid bands of foreskin constrained the glans penis to a finger
sized point some where inside the stressed tip.  Twin's eyes stared.  "The
tip is somewhat triangle shaped", remembered Jennifer "and inside is the
meatus where the three blood pressure vessels meet.  The pale shaft is no
bigger than a twenty five cent piece but it is longer than my finger",
exclaimed Jennifer.

   The twins eyes moved to contact Josh's eyes.  "I've never been here
before.  What should I do"?  Josh stretched his arms fully over his head
and relaxed in the warm sun.  The lungs had more room to breath as he
stretched his arms full out with palms facing upward arching his back.

   Jen and Jes stared again at the tip of his shaft, no bigger than a girls
index finger, but longer than a girls hand.  They shifted their gaze along
Josh body to the curled reddish blond hair matted under his arms and then
to the grinning face.

   Grayish birthing fluids, membranes and dark red blood decorated Josh
body.

   Both twins found things to do.  Jennifer looked away toward the heifer
regaining strength.  The heifer would be ok in half an hour.  The calf,
almost invisible had settled into the long grass near the heifer.  Jennifer
untangled Josh' under wear and shoes and track pants and jock strap from
the tree roots.  She rinsed the birthing fluids away in the stream and hung
the clothes and shoes in the sun over a tree branch.

   The twins began to clean the birthing fluids and clotted blood splashes
from Josh.  Jessica knelt with knees straddling Joshua's ears, sealed her
palms and thumbs against his chest and corralled the viscous birthing
fluids lower toward the belly button.  Her hands were slippery and moved
easily with light pressure along his belly and right on down till her hands
were stopped by the post of elastic skin jutting from the blood matted
reddish patch of hair.  The birthing fluids drained off the flat belly
muscles and between Joshua's legs.  Colorless fluid bubbled to the tip of
Josh foreskin.  He experienced feelings beyond belief.  His smile
broadened. Thigh and groin muscles tightened.  Sweat beads formed on his
eye browse and along his nose.  His blue eyes misted and neck muscles
relaxed.  Jennifer sensed he was trying to raise his head.  She put her
hands under his ears and lifted his head to a partial up right letting his
head rest in her lap.

   Joshua looked at the tube inching along his pale flat belly.  The tip of
foreskin was lying flat along his belly sort of past his belly button. 
"I`ve never seen that thing so big before", he exclaimed and then his head
and shoulders sank back into the long grass returning his arms above his
head .  "No wonder it has it's own pulse rate!" Twins laughed and grinned
at each other.  "I guess all good doctors make a mistake sometimes",
giggled Jen.

   Jess washed his tee shirt in the stream and returned with it.  She
started cleaning the birthing fluids from his hands.  Josh fingers opened
and closed like baby's first grip as the cold water soaked tee shirt
contacted the palms.  Massaging the blood and membrane particles from each
arm, she worked forward along the extended arms, noting the deep red veins
and arteries in his bicep muscles.  She advanced toward Josh's blond hair
and scalp.  Jessica edged her knees forward over the out stretched arms to
place her knees on either side of Joshua's ears, then peeled off her under
shirt, using it to dry Joshua's rib cage.  Josh's eyes followed the outline
of her bra as it broke the sunlight above him.  His left hand moved to
touch the back side of the bra strap.

   Jennifer removed her under shirt also.  She pulled Joshua's bloody socks
off, using her shirt to dry Joshua's feet and legs.  Jen dried the blood
and fluids from Josh's feet.  When her undershirt became soaked she ran to
the stream, rinsed the blood out and returned.  She tickled the souls of
Josh feet with cold water.  Josh's knees raised to touch Jen's bra.  His
fingers slipped under the back of Jess bra strap and toyed with the locking
mechanism.

   Jess continued washing Josh chest and drying it with the lower front of
her tee shirt.  The twins looked at each other.  They looked at Josh. 
Shoulders laid back in the grass, arms outstretched and palms up.  Awesome
grin!  Bright teeth flashed between his lips.  The tip of Josh's tongue
moved between his teeth.  Beads of sweat high lighted the blond hair above
his forehead.  Tiny chest hairs glistened in the sun.  Tiny brown erect
nipples on Joshua's pectoral muscles quivered themselves separate from his
milky colored chest.  Abdominal ridges above the belly button rippled. 
Josh's penis invented it's own rhythm.  The thin pale skin over the penis
stretched tight pulling his testicle sac up against his groin with each
pulse.  The glans tip compressed into a pencil sized point forcing through
the foreskin.  Deep red veins inside the foreskin carried away excited
blood from the overheated skin tip.  Thigh muscles rippled along Joshua's
legs squeezing his nut sac into a vee shape.  Toes closed in tiny fists as
the cold water cleaned each toe.

   Jos' fingers solved the puzzle on Jessica's bra strap.  It slipped
forward as his eyes studied the curvature from below.

   Jen noticed the bra strap tumble out of place.  Jess and Jen and Josh's
eyes locked.  Three heads nodded, "Consent".

   "Shall we continue"?

   Chapter 12: Shall we continue?  (Joshua's biology lesson).



   First they would decide on the method.  Each twin knew that Josh's
pencil like glans penis would unlikely , be painful, and yet each twin knew
the consequences were forever.  A contest formed in the twins minds.  First
the clothing condition must be set to a fair starting point.  Jennifer's
fingers reached around Jess' breasts and re-attached the bra locking strap.
Now each twin was dressed with equal clothing.  Each took a deep breath,
settled back into their positions and waited as they counted the pulses on
the slender shaft.

   Each twin held up five fingers to show agreement.

   On the fifth pulse from Josh's penis, the twins exploded in frenzy of
movement.  Bra's ripped off, raced to a tree limb, draped over a remote
tree limb and returned to same position in two heart beats.  Jen
acknowledged defeat.  Jess was first in returning to her spot straddling
Josh ears and arms, with Jen last in crouching over his legs.  "Jess are
you actually ready to lose it", teased Jen.  "Jos' tube is pretty small,
especially the tip", announced Jess glancing at Josh's eyes as she spoke.
Josh laughed, he was completely relaxed except for the groin tension. 
"Jess: what will you loose?" asked Jos.

   "Ahh we will , wee wee'l lose our viir".  Both twins stared at each
other , started talking again , slowly , clearly .

   "We twins, are virgins", whispered Jess.  "When human females penetrate
for the first time, skin membrane breaks in the vagina.  Skin is called
hymen.  It can never be repaired.  Do you want to do this Josh?"

   "I want to do it, if you want to do it", whispered Jos.  "Will it hurt
you".  "No" emphasized the twins quickly as though they were unsure of the
answer given, but did not want to change the anticipated outcome.  "Will it
hurt me"?  murmured Josh.  "No more than riding a bike" teased the twins.
"Will it rupture a corpus cavernosum,"?  "No silly boy.  We must be gentle
so that it will not hurt my hymen", stated Jess, "and since your penis is
small as my finger, we can do it, and we , weee waannnt to do it with you",
chorused both girls.

   Erect nipples protruded from the twins breasts.  Josh's eyes rolled back
blue and wide, pupils dilated.  His eyes darted from nipple to nipple from
girl to girl.  Inspiring thought Jos, but, "How can I ever tell them
apart"? Both twins took their shirts to the stream and washed them in cold
water and returned to the same positions.  Jen continued to remove the
birthing fluid from each leg, raising each leg and messaging the area free
of fluid, using the cold tee shirt as a wash cloth.  Her fingers massaged
Josh's mid thighs as drying progressed.  Josh was on his back in soft deep
grass.  His body responded to the cold water with extra blood coursing
through the arteries and veins touched by the tee shirt dripping with cold
water.  The dripping cold water followed by the massage of sensitive
fingers cleaning every pore of his skin satisfied Joshua's mind with
intense pleasure.

   Bits of blood stained his chest and dried to his collar bone.  Jess
massaged Joshua's breast bone while removing the dried blood, with his wet
tee shirt.  Jen found the little plastic cup and held it up for Jess's
view. "This jock cup is very much too small for Josh's penis", she
announced.  Three kids laughed.  To the twin's response from Joshua about
size, "You can measure it again", pronounced Jos.

   Jen made several trips to the stream with the cup to dip water from the
stream and drip it on the dried blood on Josh's abdomen.  The cold liquid
softened the dried blood.  Jess straddled Josh's outstretched arms as she
worked and he could feel the warmth from her inner thighs on his ears.

   Each time the cold water soaked shirts touched Josh chest and leg
muscles his stomach muscles rippled and breathing hesitated.

   Josh's fingers caressed the soles of Jess's feet and his knees touched
Jen's knees as she sat in the grass one knee outside each of his knees. 
The twins blue eyes met again.  They looked at the bright sunlight
reflecting from the pool of water in the curvature of Josh's belly button.
Tiny blond hairs glistened along a path in the bright sun, toward Josh's
shaft, translucent in the noon day sun.  Their eyes followed the blond path
toward the curly blond hairs around his shaft.  Josh's penis struggled to
surpass the foreskin.  Reddish arteries draped around the translucent shaft
supplying oxygen to the stretching tissue.  Most of Josh body was
completely soft.  The foreskin tip was opening from hard pressure within
the rigid shaft.

   Josh's thighs and abdomen felt little sensation.  His penis seemed
separate from his body.  He raised his head under Jess breast to see what
the girls were staring at.  The tip of his tube, - glans penis (Jos
corrected himself) stared back at him for the first time in his life.  It
pulsed with it's own rhythm which Josh had never known.  The wrinkles near
the tip were gone and the tip had forced an opening just wide enough to
allow visual contact with the outside world.  Josh could see colorless
fluid seeping from the glans penis slit and lubricating inside the
foreskin. His eyes contacted Jess and then Jen.  His neck rested even more,
his head nodded yes and drifted back into the long grass.  Jess's body
raised from her position beside Jos' ears, removed her denim jeans and
tossed them toward a limb and at the same time Jen's body raised from her
position over Joshua's knees, removed her jeans and tossed them over a
limb. Josh felt they were racing to see who got back first and yet both
girls returned at exactly the same time.  Jos abdomen muscles relaxed. 
Thigh muscles tightened arching the pelvis a little higher.

   Both twins rinsed their under shirt in the stream and returned to Jos.
Jess' knees straddled Jos' ears and Jen's knees straddled his knees.  They
continued to clean all of the birthing fluid remains from Josh's body.

   Jos' ears were warm, and his thighs were warmer as Jess and Jen moved
closer together.  As Jos head arched back his nose contacted a serene, yet
unknown scent.  Scent, dissimilar to any, he had ever experienced before.
The neck stretched as the nose searched the scent.  Jen was lifting his
thighs, removing the birth fluids that had seeped between his legs.  She
separated her knees to allow room to separate his thighs to clean and dry
under the testicle sac.  She squeezed water from the wet tee shirt to
soften the blood dried on Josh scrotum.  She lifted Jos' waist and
separated his legs to drip cold water from his tee shirt over the testicle
sac ridges and his star shaped anus.  She studied the symmetric ridges
along the sac running her finger prints along the grooves.  "The testicle
sac ridges are like toy tractor tire treads", she told Jess.  Jen's fingers
located the ridge or raphe of skin on his sac.  Her thumb and fore-finger
traced the raphe to the bottom of the scrotum and squeezed the expanded
bulge of skin running under Josh's sac toward his star.  Tiny blond hairs
waived at her fingers each time they touched the "penis sheath", stated
Jen. "Jes I have found the penis sheath", announced Jen.  Her fingers
lifted Josh testicle sac up and squeezed the penis sheath locating the
internal cavernosa on each side and the corpus spongiosum pulsating along
the bottom just below the raphe.  Jess fingers also squeezed the sheath to
determine the structure.  Her fingers followed the sheath til it entered
the abdomen cavity displacing Jos' anus.  Jen's fingers rubbed Jos' anus as
all traces of the birthing blood were cleaned from his body.  Both twins
nodded in understanding as Josh anus and penis sheath were detailed and
their fingers retraced to the sac feeling the contents gently.  They
noticed that Josh's glans penis surged even harder against the foreskin
barrier when they squeezed the sheath below the sac.  They studied how the
testicles position changed with each squeeze of the sheath.  Unlike the
bull calf, the twins could not get their fingers all the way around the
penis shaft at this point.  It was buried too tight in Josh' pelvis.

   Next Jen whispered something to Jen's ear.  Jen attached her fingers
around Jos' left testicle.  Jes wrapped her fingers around the right
testicle.  They began to pull gently, at first, then with more force.  They
watched Jos' eyes, change from carefree to effervescent.  The twins pulled
harder being careful not to crush but only to pull as the scrotum stretched
and elongated.  "Jos , let us exercise the cremaster muscle", proposed the
twins with bubbly vigor.  Jos' eyes nodded consent.  Waves of sensation
washed over his groin as the twins pulled the balls toward his star and
then far apart from each other , then toward his glans covering all
shoreline between the extremes.  Then the twins released the taut scrotum
skin.  They watched intently as the cremaster muscle carefully re-arranged
the testicles allowing them to dangle just a bit, the left one slightly
lower.  After a couple of minutes the cremaster muscle had adjusted the
testicles into a tight little sac, determined by the cool air temperature.
"I wonder if the muscle would relax if we warmed his testicles?" mused Jen.
"Only one way to find out", volunteered Jess.  She placed her cheek beside
the left testicle.  Since no immediate change she put her tongue on around
the left testicle and waited.  Jenn slid her cheek against the right
testicle to do the same.  They held position for a full minute and
released. Joshua gasped as the cool air re-invaded his wet scrotum.  The
twins began to laugh as the cremaster muscle quickly re-adjusted his sack
to an even tighter ball.  Each testicle was now partially pulled inside
Joshua's groin.

   Shallow hesitated breathing from Jos accompanied extreme pleasurable
sensations as the twins examined his penis sheath, sac and testicles.

   Twins poured cold water over the testicles and watched the cremaster
muscle pull the testicles closer to Jos pubis.  More cold water was
dribbled.  The scrotum had almost disappeared now as the testicles receded
inside Josh.  The reduced skin pulled even tighter on Joshua's glans
compressing it smaller, yet allowing the glans more penetration into the
air.

   "I like cremaster exercise", stated Jos.

   Jess cleaned and dried the rippled muscles across Josh abdomen.  Each
time cold water dripped on the muscles, they contracted tighter.  Jess was
astonished by the lean flat muscles.  Her fingers massaged Jos' kidneys
near his back while her thumbs slid over the lower ribs and then the
corrugated muscles extending from his rib cage across his belly.  She
marveled at the thick bluish vein on the right side of his belly button. 
It seemed to submerge in the front of his groin and then re-appear
traversing the entire penis length.  "Perhaps, this the return supply for
Joshua's blood flow surging into the interior cavities of the long slender
pale shaft.

   Jess fingers returned to clean the blood pooled in Joshua's belly
button. They moved down the path from the belly button to the soft reddish
blond hair.  Each time her fingers neared the translucent shaft it seemed
to lengthen.

   Jess reached the translucent shaft and Jen reached the base where it
displaced the sac.  Gentle fingers examined the sac.  They lifted it
gently, cleaning and drying away the birth blood remains.  Jess's fingers
circled the shaft.  They gently lifted the sac toward the penis tip to
relieve the tip pressure.  Jess noticed that the testicles rose tighter to
the groin when the foreskin slid up the shaft.  "This is one awesome
biology study for mammal reproduction", the twins laughed in unison. 
"Thanks Josh for helping us learn." Jos made no comments.  His languid
smile and slow respiration comforted the twins that he was enjoying
inspection and massage.  The taut transparent flesh around his glans
elongated more.  Jen pressed her fingers to Jos above the belly button. 
She noticed the ripple of muscles and slid her finger tips over them toward
the shaft.  All ten fingers mapped Josh's abdomen from belly button to
testicle sac.  Her fingers located the base of the shaft where it enters
Josh abdomen.  The fingers pressed tightly on all sides of the shaft.  "The
body sheath on a male human starts here", she stated to Jess, "except it is
different from the bull because this part of the penis only shrinks, like
we saw it after the bicycle crash.  This part of the male penis remains
outside at all times and it does not retract pulling the foreskin back
inside as is the case with a bull."

   Jos spoke in a veterinarian like manner.  "In contrast to a male penis,"
he stated, "the female penis has not yet been studied".  Three kids laughed
hilariously at Jen's description of male penis.  "The vet calls this
material bull prepuce", said Jess as she pulled on the stretched skin over
Josh's tip."Am I a bull", wondered Josh?  "No", twins shot back.  "We have
never been this interested in a bull's prepuce, unless the shaft would not
retract." "Will my shaft retract", moaned Joshua?  "Jos: Your shaft is not
supposed to retract like a bull shaft".  "How do you know that"?  "Jen and
I saw your shaft, er-r tube as you call it when you fell off the bike and
it compares with the pictures in our biology books".  "You got pictures" ,
mused Jos ?

   "A significant length of your tube remains outside at all times.  It
looks smaller sometimes or at least shorter, but it does not fully retract.
Instead your tool, er tube is covered by a thin membrane of skin.  The skin
protects your glans during day to day activities like riding bikes and
carrying cardboard moving boxes.  The bull's glans is also covered by a
membrane called a prepuce.  The bull prepuce is fully retracted inside a
sheath of skin on the bulls belly.  A bull glans is attached to the prepuce
by a thin stringy material called the frenulum.  When the bull mounts for
the first time the glans is forced out much farther than the frenulum
stretches.  As the bull thrusts into a heifer the frenulum rips free from
the glans.  Your prepuce stretches during your ah er erection.  It appears
to remain covering the glans at all times." "Is that why it seems to be so
compressed at the tip", asked Josh?  "That's our theory", stated the twins.
"Lets see if it works like that."

   The twins wrapped their fingers around Jos' tube and tightened their
grip.  Jos' back and neck arched back slowly as the twins fingers examined
the thin membrane of skin over Jos' glans.  Josh's tongue darted out and
tasted the fabric close to his nose.  His teeth gripped the material. 
Twins pulled on the shaft tentatively to determine the true length.  They
pulled hard enough to tighten the pale skin on the shaft and raise the
testicle sac until the nuts were clearly visible through the translucent
sac.  Josh teeth clamped hard on Jess panties.  The twins continued to pull
the shaft until Josh pelvis raised off the grass.  Extreme joy flashed
through Josh.  His teeth severed a hole through Jess panties as pelvic
tension increased.  "What you see, is what you get" laughed the twins. 
"Appears to be a bit of pelvic tension", noted Jen as she watched Jos'
perfect teeth sever the material in Jess panties.  Jess felt the sudden
pull of panties around and against her inner legs.  "That pair was old
anyway", volunteered Jess.  "Was not", stated Jen, jokingly.  "It's old
now", continued Jessica, "but I think I shall keep this underwear forever".

   They found room to wrap all their fingers around the shaft.  They held a
tight grip to feel Josh blood pressure and rhythmic penis pulses, which
they had earlier confused with heart rate.  "Way more interesting than a
bull's rod".

   They studied the full extended length of Josh penis.  As the skin
stretched along Josh's shaft the prepuce remained closed over the glans
penis.  The twins relaxed their grip and then repeated the shaft skin pull
a second time.  They deduced that Josh had a frenulum and that it held the
prepuce over the glans penis.  When they tried to push the prepuce over the
glans penis Josh gasped, so they stopped, not really sure if it was
supposed to slide back anyway.  "Does this hurt"?  asked the twins as they
pushed the skin down the shaft.  "Too much", gasped Josh, as his tongue
darted toward the hole in Jes' under wear.

   Jos' thighs spread apart pushing on Jen's thighs.  Jess fingers
traversed the prepuce.  They rolled the prepuce side to side around the
glans allowing the glans to push further through.  Jens fingers squeezed
the firmness of the ventral penis.  She clamped her fingers firmly on the
slender pale shaft along the bottom, locating the softness of the corpus
spongiosum, and the pulsations within, then, moved her fingers to the sides
and ventral area feeling carefully for the hardness of the corpora
cavernosum on each side of Josh's penis.  Jos' tongue pushed through the
hole in Jess panties.  His tongue searched for something.  Jess' eyes
contacted Jen's eyes, then focused on the sun's rays glistening in the
fluid on Josh' tip.  Jess's tongue took the left side, and Jen's tongue
touched the right side of the translucent shaft.  Soft breathing carried
elemental sound from the center of Josh's body.  His fingers tugged at the
waist line of Jess's panties.  Jos tongue further penetrated the opening in
Jess underwear, and searched inside.  His tongue touched her control center
causing a shudder through Jess.  Jess tongue darted out to lick the
colorless fluid from Josh glans.  Nothing in Jos' whole life was ever like
this.  His heart slowed, breathing relaxed, head tilted back even farther
allowing the tongue a deeper thrust through the hole in Jess's panties. 
Jen sensed new excitement in Jess.  Their tongues touched together as they
rose up the shaft on either side.  The foreskin veins and arteries pulsed
as the thin shaft skin relaxed with the warmth from their tongues allowing
the glans penis closer to the open air.  The tip protruded slightly, and
yet, in the bright sunshine she could see the glans right through the taut
skin.  Both girls sat up.  They stared at Jos' blue eyes, his erect nipples
and flat corrugated belly.  Jess shifted back over his biceps and lifted
his head so he could see the penis tip for himself.  Josh's blue eyes
focused on the tip staring back at him from his belly.  "Have you ever seen
this before, Jos " ?  questioned the twins in unison.  Joshua's ears moved
from side to side.  His tongue slid between his lips.  "Do you want us to
continue?" chimed both girls.  Joshua's eyes moved up and down.  A huge
grin answered their quest.  "Give us a big yes" the twins implored. 
"Yea-hess, do-oo it", Jos pronounced each word deliberately with soft
breathing as his belly sank inward with the expression of the words..  Jos
was not sure what "it" was.  His body needed something.  His brain cried
for more attention.

   Chapter 13: The twins contest.

   The twins contrived another contest to see who would lower on Josh's
penis.  You will wait a random time and then yell "YES" explained the girls
together.  Jos rolled his eyes at the fun aspect of these girls.  He took
several long slow breaths as though faking an immediate yell.  The twins
did not flinch.  Both twins bent over and tasted the fluids exuding form
Josh' glans penis.  Suddenly a firm "YES", erupted from his lips.  Both
twins sprinted to a tree removed their panties, hung them on a limb and
rushed back to their positions.  Jess was back first snuggling her knees
back up to Josh's ears.  Jen acknowledged defeat as she took her position
sitting on Josh's legs.  Both girls wore only socks and shoes.

   "Whee--aall", said Jen.  "Jess: you are the winner.  You will need to
take my spot if you want to continue.  Do you want to go through with
this?" Jess got up.  She looked at Jen, and then at Josh.  She took hold of
Jen's fingers and pulled her to standing position above Josh's head.  The
twins stood over Jos looking down at him.  Jos' head tilted back, eyes
closed to avoid the suns rays, arms stretched over his head, palms up, and
fingers open.  The bright sun light cast a translucent quality to his
fingers, and ears and penis shaft, and toes.  "He is beautiful" whispered
Jess, "May I".  "He is the most beautiful boy, that we have ever seen.  Why
could there not be two of them?  ..And you may", stated Jen.  Lets ask
Joshua.

   Twin voices spoke as one.  "Jos, do you accept our challenge"?  "What is
the challenge", asked Jos.  "Do you want me to move?" Jess spoke next. 
"You must not move, while I lower on to your glans penis." "Are you afraid,
my penis will hurt you?", whispered Jos.  Jess looked at Jen, "the truth",
nodded both girls sincerely.  Twins answered, "Jos we have not done this
before.  We want you to remain absolutely motionless.  Jess will put your
penis inside her for the first time.  It is her first time.  There is a
skin restriction in females called the hymen which must be broken.  "Will
it hurt me", asked Jos?  The twins nodded.  "We will be very gentle", they
cautioned.  "Will a calf form inside you?", wondered Jos?  The twins
laughed, "We take estrogen pills".  "Essogen?" "Ess-strogen pills
enunciated the twins, to reduce monthly aches and feeling bad".  "Estrogen
is a birth control pill", spoke the twins.  "There will be no calf forming
inside", Jess laughed confidently.

   Both twins stared at Jos' eyes.  "Have you did this before"?  "Nooo and
I wish that I did ".



   Josh raised his head and shoulders.  He studied the pale shaft
protruding over his belly button.  "My foreskin is stretching and growing,
I can see my glans penis forcing through.  There is no pain, I do not feel
anything right now, except perhaps my testicles are really tight.  I will
stay motionless Jess.  It is your move." Josh relaxed back into the soft
grass.  His body squirmed to locate a comfortable spot.  His head and neck
relaxed again.  His arms moved over his head, and then wrist alongside
wrist as his legs moved together.  Josh palms faced upward with fingers
open.  Large splashes of reddish skin decorated Josh chest and belly. 
Veins showed clearly in Josh arms, and neck, yet he was relaxed except for
the purple veins and bright red arteries clearly, nourishing the tip of
Josh's penis.

   The twins rinsed their tee shirts in the cold stream and returned to new
positions.  Slowly, Jen eased her knees on either side of Jos' ears.  Jess
straddled Jos' legs and moved forward timidly.  The girls took turns
licking the fluid from the thin ridge of foreskin circumventing the tip. 
Their tongues bathed the tight foreskin bands in saliva softening the
foreskin, allowing it to stretch without pain.  Jos' smile expanded, neck
muscles relaxed and head hinged back.  Sensory perception from his penis
overloaded his brain until his brain dumbed down all sensation from below
the belly button.  His nose directed the tongue to Jen's outer labia lips.
It located the opening to Jen as her tongue touched the bands of skin
encircling his foreskin.  His tongue penetrated the inner lips and touched
the thin membrane that protected Jen's interior.  The tongue touched each
side of the restricted opening known as the hymen, and then retracted and
searched upward to reach Jen's clitoris.  When Josh's tongue probed Jen's
clitoris her back straightened and her head tilted.  The tongue could feel
Jen's body heat ignite.  Jess moved forward till her breast tips touched
Jen's breast tips.  Jos' fingers were there to roll their breast tips
between his fingers.  Jess spread her knees until a gentle pain pulled on
her hymen.  The twins took a final look at Jos' slender post.  Colorless
fluids bubbled from the end.  They could not believe that a tube
constructed of skin could be so taut, and rock hard.  The glans was
compressed into a finger sized post.  The glans corona still unseen,
compressed by the tautness of the foreskin.  And what about the foreskin.
Wow, the skin was so thin that Jen and Jes could see the arteries and veins
pulsing blood.  The foreskin was translucent showing the full shape and
size and pinkish red color of the inside glans.  Jen guided her body to
position over the compressed tip of the translucent shaft.  Jess shifted
forward to Jos' belly button and pressed on his tensing stomach muscles. 
She could feel the tube pulsing against her pubococcyle muscles.  Jess
hesitated before the final contact.  Jess' chest pressed tightly against
Jen.  She kept her balance and reached behind and under her opening trying
to imagine how the shaft could be fitted inside.  She fingered the shaft
carefully, not wanting to hurt Josh, but wanting to make final
determinations on size and length and glans position relative to her
opening.

   Jen understood Jess' concern.  She also put one hand behind Jes' rear
thigh.  Together, twins examined the slender rod.  They pushed it side to
side and marveled how the soft tissue stretched over the rock hard glans.
"Hard underneath and yet delicate and sensitive", cooed Jes as she located
the tip just under her control center.  She raised the tip and grasped the
foreskin pulling it forward, stretching it into the bright sunshine.  Jen
lowered her eyes to peek through the soft stretchy skin toward the sun.  "
Heh Jess, I can see the gla-a-aah-ns".  Jen's pronunciation trailed off
into a squeek.  Josh's tongue probed Jess from below.  As the foreskin
stretched into the sun's rays his lips sucked together around Jen's
clitoris.  She could not talk.  Jess watched the red glow expand across
Jen's neck and chest.  She blushed slightly herself, watching her twin
sister unable to control her speech.  Muscles in Jen's back pulled her
upright facing Jess.  Her eyes dilated and staring.  Jen put a steady hand
on each side of Jess' rib cage squeezing her chests, and steadying her
body. Her breathing was irregular.  Jen watched Jes stomach.  It was
cavitating as Jos' tongue searched and found the unknown object of quest,
again and again..

   Jes' body transmitted excitement to Jen.  "Jos", Are you having fun"? 
whispered Jess.  Gently she nudged herself against Jos' glans penis and her
body and breasts against Jen.  Heat from Josh's penis and Jen's lips
reverberated through Jess.

   Jos' tongue darted around touching the protective barrier again and
again unsure of the exact method, and then moved back to Jess's peg.  Jos
knew when his tongue touched the little hard peg that this was Jen's
control center.  He liked the sensation in Jen's body each time his tongue
moved over the small peg.  Her hips quivered over Josh's tongue.  Jen
pressed herself down on Jos' lips and hard against Jess' chest.  Her body
was not her own.  Jess held her body and Jos controlled her being.  Josh
ears were firmly locked between Jess thighs.  There was no response from
Jos in reply to Jen's question.  Jess used one hand to do the final size
checks on Jos' rod.  "It's the same size as the plastic tube in which we
keep are camping tooth brush", concluded Jess as she did the final
positioning and nudged herself toward the pulsating tip.  Jen's body
responded to the excitement of her twin sister.  Jes' opening enveloped the
glans.

   Jen struggled for control and lost it, as her stomach and lower abdomen
cavitated against Jos' tongue.

   A wave of euphoria rose in Jos' groin.  Heat and pressure from Jess'
hymen pleasured Jos' foreskin.  His body froze absolutely still.  The tip
advanced by itself without movement into Jes' body.  The foreskin tightened
as the tip advanced.  It forced the tip into a conical pencil like point
which probed and lubricated the passage between Jess's inner labia lips and
the stretched rim of her hymen.  Jen's fingers moved to hold Jessica's
breast tips to steady the trembling and ease the way, even as her own hips
rocked on the tongue.  Jos' hands gripped Jess's above the waste steadying
her body and keeping the connection lined up, at least as lined up
according to the feedback sensations from his glans penis, as Jessica
braced tighter to the pale taut skin on Josh's shaft.  Jessica could feel
his penis pulsating.  She froze her body to be completely still.  The
stretching lip of Jos' foreskin pulsed the rim of Jess' protective barrier.
The compressed tip enclosed in tight foreskin wrap entered.  Gently ,
slowly .  Jess and Jos and Jen relaxed perfectly still.  No one moved.

   Chapter 14: Jennifer wins:

   Jessica's eyes glanced at the panties on the tree limb.  "Her panties
had fallen on the ground.  "Stop" exclaimed Jessica, "Jennifer has won the
contest." But Jos' penis pushed through the last foreskin compression
bands. The restraining bands slipped into the coronal ridge releasing the
compression on the tip and locking return blood flow from the tip.  High
pressure blood raced into the meatus , exploding twice in size and shot
ahead, expanding and occupying it's new space.  Jess felt the sudden
pressure on her hymen and pulsations on her clitoris.  Her leg muscles
twitched as her body leaped ahead off the expanded glans penis.  Josh's
engorged glans penis ripped back out with searing pain to Jess's hymen. 
Jess raised herself with a knee jerk and watered eyes.  Her balance shifted
Jen snugly on to Jos' tongue.  His teeth pressed firmly to her control
center as his tongue circled it.  Creamy fluid oozed from his penis and his
tongue stroked into Jen's clitoris.  Jen breathed with shallow gulps. 
Jen's eyes rolled back as her body shuddered.  Jess held Jen steady to
prevent her from collapse.  Josh tongue and lips took complete control of
Jen.  Each time Jos' tongue passed over the small round peg, Jen shuddered
again.  Jess held Jen tightly as her abdomen twisted lower.  Jos' lips
locked around the little peg and he sucked it.  Jen slipped out of Jess's
grip and collapsed in delirious spasms.  Her thighs clamped against Jos'
ears.  Josh lips remained sucked-in and locked to the peg as his tongue
brought to Jen a euphoria she had never before known.  After many seconds
Jen's body exhausted itself.  Jess moved along with Jen's experience until
Jen exhausted.  "Jess , Jess you're crying", asked Jennifer.

   Suddenly Jess realized she was hurting.  Jess' groin was in pain.  Her
eyes dropped big tears on Josh belly.  Finally her eyes made contact with
Jen.  Slowly Jen regained control.  Her eyes answered Jen.  Her thighs
un-clamped from Josh ears.  Josh released his lips from her peg.

   Jess raised, off Joshua, pulling Jen off Josh, astonished at the
outcome. "Just one thrust", moaned Jess, "and so sharp the pain in
reverse". "No wonder those heifers fall down" cried Jess with tears in her
eyes.  Josh knew something had happened.  Jen was bouncy with excitement.
Jess was quiet, yet his sensations were still in over drive.  The twins
checked Jos' jubilant smiling face.  "No pain there"!

   Then both twins glanced at the tree limb.  Definitely Jen had won,
because her panties remained on the limb.  They looked at each other and
then at Josh, lying on his back in the soft grass, head tipped back;
perfect teeth peering out of a gigantic ear to ear smile.  Ears and cheeks
of his face were red as the end of his penis.  His chest was moving gently
and his hips were tense with legs together.  "His penis--Oh oh".  We can't
leave Josh like that.  The girls checked the tip with great interest.  The
tip of Joshua's penis was huge.  The inner foreskin had started to swell
similar to the bull's penis.  "This is not where the foreskin should be"
Jennifer announced with a veterinarian accent.  "We shall make an incision"
.  "WHHAAT" yelled Josh, his abdominal muscles rippled as his shoulders and
hips leaped to attention in standing position.  Jos looked down as his
blood pressure equalized in the standing position, putting even more blood
pressure on the glans penis.  "OH MY GOD", he said, "fuuuck meee, I AM
GAY?".  The twins surprised at the outburst.  Jen and Jess put their arms
around his chest and pulled tight till his chest stopped heaving.  Tears
leaked from Josh's eyes.  "Most definitely Joshua, you are not gay" they
whispered as four hands held his, against his glans penis.  Jos almost in
tears , alarmed both twins.

   Jennifer volunteered ,"What is wrong Josh?".  "I do not know what is
wrong with me", whispered Josh.  "There is nothing wrong with you", echoed
both twins.

   Joshua explained the baby pictures and his dad's bath tub picture and
his own penis wrinkles, -tried to explain his dad's tube was different. 
"What is a tube demanded" Jennifer.  After a lot of explaining the twins
convinced Joshua that he was normal.  Jos looked at his foreskin.

   Both twins held Joshua's wrists saying over and over.  "You are the most
normal boy in Canada", Joshua Green.  Then they both glanced at his
protruding, pulsing penis.

   It did not look normal!

   Jessica found the jock cup.  She dipped water from the stream and held
his penis in it.  It was as close as she could get to ice.  After several
trips for water the glans penis appeared more relaxed.  Jessica cupped the
tip in her hand with gentle pressure to withdraw the foreskin back over the
end.  Instead the tip got bigger and the foreskin locked tighter.  The
twins looked at each other, then at Josh.  They led Josh to the stream. 
The water was ice cold.  Deep gasps of breathing escaped their lungs as
they moved deeper till Joshua's testicle sac and penis touched the surface.
Jos gasped to catch his breath and hesitated, but the twins supported him
and prevented his escape from the icy water.  They walked him one step
deeper as the cold water covered his genitals and soothed the red mark on
his belly caused by the handle bars.  In less than a minute, the cold water
released Jos' erection.  Jess reached into the water and tugged at the
foreskin to pull it forward over the glans.  Her fingers noted the cords on
the under side of his penis, which pulled the foreskin forward.  "These
frenulum cords are sometimes cut on the bulls penis" she remarked to know
one in particular.  " Don't worry Jos, you need the frenulum to pull the
foreskin back over the glans", continued Jen.  Jess finished tugging the
foreskin cover over the glans hiding it from view.  Immediately it began to
warm and increase in size, even under the icy water.  They moved back to
the edge of the stream where the water was warmer and rubbed Josh's body
with wet fingers to clean off the last bits calf blood from his back.  They
splashed water behind his ears and on top of his head.

   "Still wet behind the ears, my little rock hard baby" croaked the twins.

   Jos felt exhilarated.  He returned the splashes on both girls as they
jumped aside to avoid the cold water shock.

   "I like rock".

   Jessica rewashed his hair and scalp and armpits while Jen washed his
lower abdomen.  Jen studied the pale shaft, and noted how the fibrous
tissue on the underside yanked the foreskin along as the length increased.
Both twins washed the wrinkled tip with their fingers and cold water.  They
marveled at the size and length of Josh penis and all the wrinkles at the
end hiding the glans.  "It really is only as big as a toothbrush holder",
agreed the twins.  Jen and Jess wanted to study the frenulum but it was
concealed, except the anchor point along the underside of the glans.  Jen
pushed the foreskin toward Jos' testicle sac until it stopped with the
gentle finger pressure.  All three kids could see the tip of the glans
penis and the anchor point for the frenulum.  The attention hardened the
pale shaft.  Josh felt light headed.  He moved out of the stream with the
twins following.

   All three returned to the soft grass.  The mother cow was licking her
calf from nose to tail.  All traces of blood were gone.  The calf's fur was
shinny in the bright sun.  "OK", said Jennifer, "Do we continue where we
left off or wait another day."

   Jos whispered".  "But please, Iiii, ahhh still need something, I want
you to help me".  The twins looked at his penis.  The tip was trying to
push through the foreskin opening again.  "A bull only needs one thrust",
joked the twins.  Josh's face implored relief.  "I am not a bull; I am a
boy", rebuked Jos as he and Jen glanced at Jessica's crotch.  "My balls are
hurting".

   "It hurt like a knife" said Jessica looking at the translucent skin
again compressing the tip of Joshua's penis and smiling from ear to ear,
"but it was the sweetest hurt in my life".  A trickle of bright red fluid
crawled down her leg.  She sat down on the soft grass.  Joshua sat down
beside her.  Jennifer checked the source of the blood.  "Do heifers have
the protective barrier", she stated.  She arranged Jessica so that sunlight
shone into the vagina and carefully opened Jessica's legs.  Joshua watched
as the twins checked each other.  Jessica grimaced when her legs moved
apart too far and stretched the fragile tear in the membrane.  They had
checked each other many times before though not in the presence of anyone
else.  "Your hymen is partially ripped", concluded Jen staring at the now
small tip of Jos' penis.  One or two wrinkles adorned the tip.  The glans
penis had retracted again and could not be seen.  "Am I a partial woman
now"?  announced Jessica proudly".  She kissed Jos' lips.  There is still
quite a bit left confirmed Jennifer.  "We can save what's left".

   Joshua and Jennifer marched Jessica back into the water.  This time it
was Jessica supported by Joshua and Jennifer.  They urged her out in to the
stream until cold water cooled the vaginal opening.  Trickles of red tinged
the stream water.

   "Will cold water reduce the pain" asked Josh in a remorseful tone.  "I
am sorry" he said, and kissed Jessica's cheek sincerely.  He noticed a tear
drop forming in Jess's eye.  "Oo-oo-hhh Josh" the twins whispered.  We want
this to happen.  We need it to happen.  You are the sweetest boy we have
ever met, and you are most definitely not, not, and not, a gay boy".  The
three kids emerged from the cold water and sat on the stream bank warming
in the sun.  Their legs were numb from the cold.

   The sun was still high in the sky.  We need to give the calf and cow
enough time to get strength before taking them to the farm suggested Jen. A
distant stare seemed to form as she spoke.  "Is your turn",?  asked Jos
regarding the unfulfilled look on Jen's face.  The twins eyes met with Jos'
eyes.  Jen would take position over Jos' legs and Jess would straddle
Joshua's arms.

   "We will continue", announced the twins in unison.  Jos' eyes flamed
with excitement.  He laid back on the soft grass, arms over his head, legs
stretched out together and relaxed in the warm sun.  Jen slid herself over
his legs.  She laid forward on his belly, her breasts resting on his, her
tongue massaged the soft furry hair under Jos' armpits.  Her fingers rolled
the expanding foreskin.  Jos flinched with some momentary pain in the
delicate stretched tissue.  "I am so sorry", whispered Jen pulling herself
upright again.  "I do not want to hurt you in any way.  This will be a time
to remember forever." Jessica eased her knees up to Joshua's ears and rose
up on her knees to face Jen.  Jess' lips and tongue on Jos' foreskin
reduced the foreskin pain.  Jen's body temperature soared as she remembered
Jos' tongue .  Jos was to be hers.  She had won the contest.  "Josh, Do you
remember the instructions", asked Jen.  "Yes" confirmed Jos, "I promise to
be absolutely still".  "I need this, I want it and I am going to remember
this for the rest of my life", stated Jos, "and I want you Jen to remember
with me, a good thing.  Will you love me forever?  You and Jess have taught
me so much.  Love me forever", implored staring blue eyes.

   "Ok" announced Jen.  "Lets begin".

   Jen eased her body ahead to Joshua's belly button and lowered herself to
Joshua's narrow hips until she could feel light pressure from Jos' penis.
The foreskin compressed the tip into a pencil sized tip.  Jess held
Jennifer's body steady.  Joshua's arms remained under Jess along side his
ears.  Jos' legs moved apart moving Jennifer's legs apart until her groin
muscles complained.  He remained perfectly still and relaxed, back straight
and head arched back.  His tongue located Jess' opening.  It sensed Jess's
blood and the distant smell of himself.  He breathed in Jess's scent and
knew it was different from Jen, as his tongue explored, gently around the
broken hymen.  Jess's swollen clitoris soon fell under the control of Jos'
tongue.

   Jos kept his mind off the sensations flooding his lower abdomen.  "What
is going to happen?".  "I do not know", whispered Jos to himself.  "I will
trust the twins as they have trusted me".  The numbness of tensed groin
muscles was disappearing as the heat from Jennifer's body enveloped his
translucent shaft glans.  Jen and Jes responded to Jos' whisper.  "Joshua,
you are a boy in puberty.

   Jess' fingers echoed the pleasure from Jos' tongue by gripping
Jennifer's breasts tightly.  Jennifer eased her body tight to Josh
corrugated belly muscles.  Her inner thigh muscles enjoyed the rippling
sensation in Josh' belly.  Her cheeks could feel touching by the heated
rock hard shaft.  Jennifer eased herself back slightly toward the pencil
like shaft.  She eased herself toward the post using her cheeks to guide
her cavity toward the post.  Jen felt it slide inward, gently past her
outer lips.  Jen's mind imagined the small penis at the door step of her
protected zone.  Jos' tongue continued to stimulate Jess clitoris.  Jess'
body shuddered.  Her back straightened.  Thighs contracted against Jos'
arms.  Her lips touched Jennifer's lips.  Her fingers pinched the tips of
Jennifer's breasts as Jen returned the favor.  "This is it," dreamed Jen.
"This is my destiny." Jen moved her protection barrier close until she
could feel the tip pulsation on her hymen.  Jos' abdomen was still numb
from the cold water but he felt the tip of his penis enter the inner lips
of Jen's vagina.  He could feel his glans penis pulsing as it entered Jen's
restricted passage way.  Jen and Josh stared into each others eyes.  Josh'
arms were pinned above his head as Jessica relaxed herself on his tongue.
Jess felt the echo of Jos penis on Jens' breasts.  She felt the echo of
Jen's inner passage way enclosing Josh' glans.

   Slowly, slowly Jen edged herself back over Josh's shaft.  She felt the
penis pulsations in her body.  Sensations of blue sky and gentle breeze
amplified along her thighs and pelvis.  Jen looked at Jess.  The twins
looked at Josh.  His neck was flushed red.  His nipples were swollen and
erect.  Tiny hairs along his pectoral muscles rippled in the air currents.
Ridges of muscles traversed his belly and undulated his belly button.  Jess
held Jen's thighs immobilized over Josh's belly.  Josh's penis located the
restricted opening into Jen.  No one moved.  The penis lengthened to fill
the gap and make a new gap.  Pulsations re-ignited Jen's control center. 
"Is Joshua inside you" whispered Jess.  Waves of pleasure danced across
Jen's pelvis.  Jen raised and lowered her head as she stared into Jess's
eyes "Yhee-ee-ee-aa" Jen sighed.  I can feel him inside.  My membrane is
stretching I'm ok.  Jess body picked up the vibrations from Jen.  Both
twins looked around at their surroundings, the meandering stream, breezy
undulations on the grass along the banks, sunlight beaming through white
clouds, silence of the forest around them and the freshness of forest air.

   Joshua's tongue was licking Jess's hardened peg.  His lips closed around
the little peg and sucked.  Jess's pelvis exploded, her body pushing on
Josh's teeth and tongue.  Her breathing slowed, as pulse increased.  Waves
of spasmodic motion emanated from her clitoris.  Joshua continued to suck
until she collapsed on top of him, taking his mind off the translucent
shaft.  Finally she lifted off Josh to give him some air.  His arms were
straight over his head, his palms up and fingers closed around imaginary
supports.  Neck and shoulders completely relaxed and the sparse arm pit
hair glistened with sweat.  His eye lids were narrow slits.  Blue dilated
pupils twinkled back through tears of joy.  An unforgettable smile
traversed his reddish cheeks.  Ends of the tousled blond hair moved in
unseen air current.  Joshua's abdomen was regaining sensitive feelings. 
Sweat on the palms of his feet tickled his skin.  Jess gave Josh a long
gentle kiss on his lips.  She tasted herself on Josh's tongue as it slid
out to greet her lips.  Her tongue lingered on Jos' tongue, while savouring
the sensations and tastes.  Then she moved away to gather her clothes and
get dressed.  Jess gave Jen a parting hug and kiss.  "When I see you
again", she whispered "You will be a woman".  "And Joshua, I mean Jos, you
will be a man twice" answered Jess laughing, "not bad for a little gay
boy". Jos did not hear, nor understand gay.  His body was in a far away
place filled with dancing columns of light and energy.  She bent down to
Jos' ears.  "Jos, are you ok if I leave"?  "Ahh yaaah yaaesss Jessica",
replied Jos, "Thanks for helping me".  "Jos you will be a man soon",
whispered Jess, "I know you will take care with Jen, You will do right."

   Chapter 15: Do it right.



   "I ahh ah have never done this before" confided Jos.  "What do I do
right?  "Just relax everything" whispered Jess, "like you did with me". 
You are a one in a million Canadian boy.  You have survived life this far
with a wonderful eagerness for life and what is right.  You learned how to
ride that bicycle with out our help.  Jen has never done this before
either. She and You belong as one.  Neither of you have a negative brain
cell.  She and you will know what to do and when to do it, just like that
heifer and bull.  No books are required and no lessons are available.  Josh
nodded with his wide open blue eyes.  "Ahh Jen, je comprend".

   Jess stood back from the two kids in the long grass.  From a distance,
she could only see Jen's head and shoulders above the waving green meadow.
Normal forest sounds of birds, and insects, and water gurgles, from the
stream and gentle breezes, and clear blue sky registered this place forever
in her memory.

   Once more, she moved close to Jen.  "Are you ok" asked Jess.  "I will
lead the cow and calf back to the barn if you want me to go." "Yes" replied
Jen with dream like eyes.  "I am not moving.  Josh is not moving but, I, I,
I can can feeeel his shaft growing inside, let us be alone", whispered Jen,
"The pain in my hymen has changed to ecstacy.  My mind will remember this
most beautiful feeling forever.  I will tell you later Jess what happens".

   Jess gave Jen a final hug.  She placed her hands on each side of Jen's
breasts and gently coaxed Jen's shoulders and head down over Josh's smile.
"Teach Josh mouth to mouth breathing", she teased trying to pull both teens
into the same dream.  Jess gathered her clothes and dressed.  She brought
Josh's cup filled with cold water and dabbed on Josh's cheeks and Jen's
forehead.  She brought one more cup of cold water and poured it on Jen's
neck and back.  The cold water beaded on Jen's skin and streamed along the
channel in her back running off her shoulders and waist to drip off her
nipples on Josh pectoral muscles and to the ripples on Josh's belly.  A
pool of cold water collected in Josh's belly button.  Jess watched the
trail of Joshua's fine blond near pubic hair responding to the cold water
as it streamed toward the hidden entranceway.  Jess removed her outer sweat
shirt.  She draped it over Jen's body.  "So you need not worry about sun
burn", she added.  Then she took Jen's wrists and pulled them out stretched
tapping them against Josh outstretched arms.  She weighed gently on Jen's
back ensuring that female breasts meshed with the boys nipples.  The boy
and girl smiled goodbye as they entered the dream of first time boy girl
love.

   Jess moved off into the woods walking the calf in front.  She looked
back one last time.  The green meadow grass protected all from view.  The
heifer followed her.  Jess sang: "Hey, won't you play another Somebody done
somebody wrong song And make me feel at home While I miss my baby, while I
miss my baby" The mother cow was missing her baby.  She followed Jess and
the calf.

   The sound of Jess singing faded into the forest.

   Josh and Jen remained alone on the stream bank.  The pain of Jen's
stretched membrane amplified the heat from the translucent shaft.  The pain
transformed itself to intense sensations.  Faster, slower, almost stopped,
then roller coaster wildness as Josh's penis tip forcing, a new path
through it's foreskin cover and through Jennifer's protective sheath.  Her
hymen .  Neither boy nor girl moved.  Gentle air currents wafted the soft
hairs along their bodies.  Every hair follicle movement stimulated the girl
and the boy.  Jennifer's upper waist rotated forward.  Her breast tips
touched Joshua's chest.  Her arms outstretched to parallel Joshua's arms.
Her fingers pushed into Josh's closed fists.  Her lips touched his lips. 
Josh's tongue sought Jen's tongue.  Jen locked her lips over Jos mouth and
breathed into his lungs.  "Are you breathing ok", she asked.  Josh nodded
"je t'aime".  Heat from the mid-day sun sweated her back.  Her hair fell
forward over Josh's face protecting his eyes from the sun rays.  The
ripples above Josh's belly button along with the exterior reddish blue
veins , locked with the silky skin on Jen's belly.  His thighs moved apart
gently, pushing Jen's thighs apart and increasing the pain on the
stretching membrane.  Except that, It was no longer pain.  Rhapsody. 
Music. It was intense white light all at the same time.  Jen's body
counteracted.  Her thighs closed together squeezing Josh's thighs together,
releasing her intense inner wants but increasing the pull on Josh's
testicle sac as it was forced into a wedged vee shape between his thighs
and her pubes.  The swollen left testicle forced over top of the right one
using up the available skin on the testicle sac which pulled the skin all
along the translucent shaft, tightening the compression on the tip,
allowing further penetration.  Jen felt the slender pale shaft advance
slowly , imperceptibly inside, even as the shaft was not moving.  It was
still growing.  Shimmering sensations danced like northern lights deep
inside her body.  Her vaginal walls detected every pulse and movement in
the shimmering foreskin.  Tingling on Jen's membrane increased as Josh's
blood pressure pulsed in the translucent shaft.  Two beating hearts within
centimeters of each other began to synchronize.

   Jennifer's legs pinched together tightly.  Joshua's legs relaxed like
the rubbery calf legs earlier in the day.  They squeezed his testicle sac
till pelvic sensations over rode the foreskin stretching.  Joshua's
testicles expanded again pulling more skin along the shaft compressing the
penis into easy entry mode deep into Jennifer.  Deeper and deeper into the
cautious protected cavity, taking Joshua and Jennifer's thoughts and dreams
with it.  She raised her lips from his lips.  Their tongues pulled apart.
Tears of joy condensed in her eyes, "Forever, Joshua", she whispered, "This
is forever".  Josh's eyes misted.  His eye lids opened fully.  Deep blue
pupils dilated inside the tent of Jennifer's blond hair shielding the
bright sun.  She could see into Joshua's soul and it beckoned to her. 
Josh's toes reached under Jennifer's shoes.  His toes locked on the sides
of her shoe and pushed it off.  The toes then locked to the sides of the
other shoe heal and pushed it off.  Every movement in Josh's toes pulsed
his rock hard shaft inward.  Next Jen's socks were pushed off.  She was
complete now, lying full length along Josh frame.  His toes caressed the
bottoms of her feet and searched along the sensitive skin mid way between
her heal and toes.  Her legs relaxed and absorbed the feelings from Josh's
legs.  Her ankles touched Josh's ankles.  Her thighs relaxed against
Joshua's thighs and joined together.  Her body length relaxed on Joshua's
body.  Her belly contoured itself to Joshua's rippling stomach muscles.  No
direct movement occurred except imperceptible breathing as Jennifer's lungs
synchronized to Joshua's lungs, and Jen's lips re-attached to Josh's lips.
The feelings deep inside the two kid's bodies amplified Joshua's ripped
foreskin cells and Jen's stretching membrane.  Josh's arms expanded apart
under Jennifer's arms, allowing her arms closer, to lye along side the
moving blood within his veins.  Jennifer's relaxed body allowed her full
weight on Josh.  Her weight shifted lower on to his shaft.  Jen looked into
his eyes again.  "I can feel you deep inside me", whispered Jen.  "I can
feel you inside me", whispered Josh, remaining absolutely still.  "I can
feel your inside canal.  My foreskin pain is no more.  It is moving very
slowly like the moon moves across the earth and I can feel every energy ray
from the centre of you.  Soon it is going to release the glans penis " said
Joshua.  Drops of pale fluid lubricated Josh's foreskin and soothed the
broken capillaries as the foreskin shimmered past the lip of Josh's glans
penis.  The stretched foreskin retracted with a snap ending up completely
against his ball sac.  Glans shot far into Jen.  Two hearts picked up the
bio feedback of the expanding glans free from the protective foreskin
barrier.  The foreskin had completed its fourteen years of coverage.  The
glans was in Jen's protection zone now.  Pulsations of Joshua's blood
pressure no longer exited through the veins squeezed shut by the intense
foreskin pressure as it slipped backward along the glans.  His foreskin
locked into the penis where it exited the ball sac, shutting off return
blood flow from the shaft.  Joshua's full blood pressure locked with no
return path.  It build up inside the penis cavernosums, expanding the blood
vessels to maximum diameter.  Rips developed in the raw foreskin flesh now
forced to expand with the penis shaft.  It pulsed on Jen's control center.
Dual pulsating corpus cavernosa cavities doubled the penis diameter until
it locked inside Jen's canal.  Cells in Jens' hymen began to tear.  Pain
had become rhapsody.  Bright red blood streamed from the ruptured hymen. 
Blood seeped past the glans into the coronal ring mixing with, and
lubricating over-stretched foreskin cells and on down the shaft to pool in
the soft curly pale red hair on Josh's groin.  Bodies breathed as one body.
Hearts beat as one.

   Jennifer's body entered her super relaxed zone, every muscle relaxed and
every crevice experienced joy.  Joshua felt her final tension relax along
the length of the dark red shaft as her body joined to this boy's body at
the pelvis.  The pressure in his shaft increased the final length to reach
Jennifer's innermost zone.  Her northern lights exploded into life long
memories, as his virgin foreskin slid full to the penis base and the full
power of the expanding glans penis head locked inside her cavity.  The
final hymen membrane shards disintegrated in a shower of broken
capillaries, red fluids and discarded blood cells.  They mixed with newly
manufactured pale fluids rising from Joshua's testicles and prostate.  The
tingling in his toes transferred to Jennifer's toes and raced along their
locked bodies echoing from flesh to flesh.  No movement was required. 
Jen's brain began to monitor Joshua's first ever point of no return as it
began in the base of his backbone, traversed his body to the toes, to her
toes and to the brain and to her brain and back to the dual testicle sacs
with the final orders.  Jennifer detected new activity in Joshua's body. 
Tremors in Josh's thighs vibrated the expanding testicles and prostate. 
Amplifying into waves of super nova explosions.  Adrenalin poured into
Joshua's blood stream.  Testoserone followed immediately.  A million sperm
cells fired into his vas deferens ducts leading to the prostate.  Prostate
valves and muscle contractions locked the doors behind them as the living
cells propelled forward into the prostate reservoir of pale translucent
liquids.  Joshua's eyes opened wide.  His forehead tightened.  His tongue
sought refuge in Jennifer's tongue.  His blood flow redirected to the site
of intense glans tension.  His eyes focused on Jennifer's eyes.  Josh's
sensations overloaded.  His eyes asked for her help.  Her eyes dilated, her
body in super relaxation mode made itself heavy and coalesced together with
Joshua's body through layers of sweat and lymphatic fluids.  The vaginal
walls contracted, pulling and sucking his exploding shaft deeper.  Jess's
body controlled Josh's body, his heart rate, his breathing and blood
distribution.  Josh's body shifted to her life support system.  Nothing
could stop the final sequence taking place inside Josh.  Valves in Josh's
penis closed tightly forcing super blood pressure into the corpora
cavernosa.  His glans penis penetrated the passage to Jennifer's cervix and
swelled to lock position.  Jennifer's cervix positioned and contracted and
locked to the penis tip.  Her body gave the final orders to deliver what
was already in progress.  Her eyes signaled Jos' frightened eyes.  "THIS IS
OK".  The message reached Joshua's prostate in million'ths of a second
cascading and amplifying every muscle in Josh's abdomen to finalize the
transfer of sperm from male to female from tube to canal, from testicles to
cervix.  The cremaster muscle detonated pulling the exploding testicles up
into Josh's pubic cavity One heart beat later Joshua's first time conscious
ejaculation began.  Jennifer controlled the time and strength of each
contraction.  Josh was on her life support.  He felt everything but could
do nothing.  He wanted nothing except for this to continue, foorreevver and
ever and ever and ahhhhhhver.  Number one: Every muscle and organ in
Joshua's body except the prostate and penis shut down.  .  The first
prostate contraction pulsed a million sperm through the flow sensors in the
outbound valves of his prostate.  The sensors connected to his brain
recorded the sensations forever of every sperm cell forced through the
portal.  Jennifer's brain recorded Josh's pulsation.  Sperm splashed into
the urethra.  Sperm and, fluid, and lubricant, cells and bi-products became
a tidal bore through Joshua's urethra.  Longitudinal contractions in the
corpus spongiosum carried the white frothy wave pulse to the tip of
Joshua's glans penis.  A hundredth of a second later the creamy pulse
exploded into Jennifer's cervix.  A million lifeforms invaded Jennifer as
she requested.  But she needed more .  Jen's body demanded more life forms.

   Number two: Jennifer's cervix detected the new life forms and contracted
on Joshua's glans , pulling it forward even farther from the locked
foreskin.  Slender filament cords of the frenulum from the ventral opening
in Joshua's meatus to the locked foreskin snapped like high tension wires
as the foreskin fell farther back from the locked meatus.  Josh's blue eyes
began to glaze.  He could see her now without eyes.  He could see her
internal organs pulsating.  Her body quivering.  Nerve endings along his
frenulum recorded every snap of pleasure and registered in Joshua's brain.
Bright red fluid spilled from the broken frenulum conduits.  Joshua's eyes
glazed from rapture.  The order for pulse number two evacuated the prostate
contents into Jos' urethra.  Jen's and Josh's brain recorded the eruption
on flow meters in the prostate exit.  Pulse number two of foreign life
forms blasted into Jennifer's cervix pushing the first wave farther into
her cervix.  Jen's cervix detected the hot creamy fluids splashing inside.
Jen's entire body undulated.  Her cervix delayed, analyzing the delivery of
milky fluids, then contracted again on Josh's meatus compressing it forward
into the inner cavity and stretching the shaft even longer.  The locked
inner foreskin stretched beyond capacity.  More slender cords in Joshua's
frenulum snapped like high voltage wires in a hurricane.  Joshua's frenulum
blood mixed with the shattered membrane blood from Jen.  Jos' eyes watered.
His arms were locked to Jennifer's arms.  His legs were locked to
Jennifer's legs.  His breathing and heart stopped.  His brain recorded the
pain and rapture as his eyes focused on her eyes.  The same message flashed
across as before, "THIS IS OK", "forever and ever Jennifer".  Number three
and four: Josh and Jen's eyes now glazed as her brain over dosed on
pleasure.  Her brain was out of control.  Her tongue was limp and Josh
sucked on it as a baby in the womb would suck it's thumb.  Jen's body
ordered pulse three of life forms..  Prostate pulse three delivered no
fluid, yet Jen's cervix detected the longitudinal pulse of Josh's meatus.
Jennifer's body was in control.  Her body demanded more.  Jen's thighs
contracted against Joshua's thighs.  She clamped her legs together forcing
his legs and thighs to crush the pulsar nuts.  Cervix contractions doubled
up on the tip of Josh's slender pale shaft with the expanded meatus
attached on the end.  The meatus tip advanced and locked again.  His nuts
were compressing under Jen's weight , pushed , no , forced against her
engorged clitoris and all available skin along his shaft pulled tighter to
resist the clitoral vibrations.  Frenulum cords reached maximum stretch. 
Elastic cords jerked the foreskin forward from base of the penis as the tip
advanced to maximum depth.  The redistribution of skin on Joshua's
testicles pulled them tighter together in their pelvic protection zone. 
The out-of-control clitoris locked against the sides of both testicles. 
Both nuts exploded with all remaining possible sperm.  Lymphatic fluid,
immature sperm and blood fired into the vas deferens and then straight
through the prostate organ mixing at the speed of ejaculation with
emergency fluids released from secondary reservoirs.  Massive prostate
contractions ejected the final life forms into the urethra to be swept
along in the longitudinal muscle contractions into the convulsing cervix.
Wave upon wave of half pulses and quarter pulses continued until Joshua was
milked of fourteen years of fluid , and Jen's clitoris overdosed itself
into exhaustion.

   Finally the explosions subsided.  Jennifer's brain regained control. 
Her cervix relaxed.  Jen's eyes recontacted Joshua's eyes.  Her tongue
withdrew from Joshua's mouth allowing him to resume control.  His lungs
took in long breaths of air and his heart distributed oxygenated blood
again.

   Jen's immobile body lay on Josh for long minutes.  Long slow
synchronized breathing refreshed their lungs.  His slender shaft retracted
gradually from Jennifer.  Cremaster muscle rearranged the testicles for
some refreshing cool air.  Every millimeter of movement was tracked by the
pleasure recording centers of the boy's brain and the girl's brain.  His
eyes opened from the dream and signaled their joy to Jen.  No words were
spoken.  No sounds disturbed the wanning spell of extreme human to human
contact.  Josh felt himself loosing size and contact.  His fingers
tightened on Jen's fingers pushing her body closer to his.  Waves of newly
produced stimulants flooded Joshua's brain for the first time.  Adrenalin
and endorphins coursed his blood streams.  Joshua's tube receded into his
foreskin but remained inside Jen.  His balls teamed with activity.  The
stimulants re-activated his reproductive organs.  Millions of new life
forms were being created in case life was required again by the fourteen,
soon to be fifteen year old boy.  A faint rhythm of movement began again in
his penis.  Rippling abdominal muscles pulled his pelvis as his legs
escaped from Jen's clamped legs.  His legs forced outward, up and around
Jen's legs.  They folded overhead and his strong calf muscles and heals
clamped on Jen's back, tightening the compression of his sac to Jen's
pelvis.  Josh's powerful thigh muscles contracted as his legs pulled wide
apart opening Jen to extreme joy and sinking his soft pulsing shaft inside
Jen.  Josh's testicles absorbed the new blood stream stimulants.  They were
pressed toward the top of his sac squeezed by Jen's pubic mound.  Again
Jen's cervix clamped on Josh's shaft yanking the foreskin and penis toward
her center.  His body locked again to her body along every cell of skin
contact between them.  Jen's breathing and pulse stopped.  Her body joined
to Josh.  She tried to scream approval but no sound came forth.  Josh's
body was crazed with testosterone strength.  His second wave of the point
of no return began in the tip of Josh penis tip.  It detonated all the
muscles in Josh and Jen's body, a dual contraction of tremors, vibrations ,
quaking and shifting body components.  A final convulsion emptied the
frenzied squeezed testicles again and again into the prostate reservoir. 
Jen's body spasms synchronized with Josh's body spasms.  Spurts of
lymphatic fluids, blood, new semen and lubricants ejaculated into Jen. 
Fresh waves of sperm recruits flooded from the testicles.  Josh foreskin
slipped to the very base of his penis again, preventing blood from escaping
the expansion chambers.  Boy and girl synchronized voice boxes sang
together into each other's lungs through their locked lips.  Jen's
pulsations moved up and down along Josh locked shaft.  His feet locked to
her back but her movements could not be stopped.  Josh shaft entered super
sensation.  Every ripple of Jen's body amplified sensations in Josh' glans
penis.  Jen's body regained final control by super stimulation on Josh
locked penis.  She continued vaginal pulsations even as Josh groin
tightened his legs on her waist and dug his feet into her back.  The
reproductive organ pulsations slowed but did not stop.  They remained
expanded and locked.  Josh's eyes locked on Jen's eyes.  Their bodies
locked together slipped into a hibernation state as waves of euphoria
washed over their brains.  Jen and Josh brains were awash in first time
stimulants.  Endorphins, testosterone, sonorifin and androgens sloshed
through their bodies.  Minds became one mind.  Bodies breathed as one body.
No movement gave away their location as a spotted deer passed by to drink
from the stream.  A mother duck streamed by with her string of baby
ducklings.  Fox puppies played in the soft grass on the other stream bank.
The forest creatures resumed normal life oblivious of the joined creature,
bathing itself in internal harmony.  Their bodies were part of the forest.
As the waves slowly eroded away, Josh and Jen's minds replayed again and
again their first time joy.  The moments became minutes, and minutes became
an hour as the kids reveled in their rapture and fluids.

   Slowly, the connecting tube joining their pelvis retracted into Josh. 
Jen could feel her cervix muscles relaxing.  Her tongue brushed Josh's
lips. Blue eyes blinked.  Jen felt Josh thigh and leg muscles release his
feet from her back.  Her body moved forward over Josh belly button as she
savored the withdrawal sensation of the softened shaft.  Blue eyes
twinkled. A long smile wrapped Josh face from ear to ear as Jen powered up
her body and raised off Josh.  The sea of warm electrolytic sweat between
their bodies evaporated with a refreshing coolness.  She moved back to Josh
knees and raised to sitting.  Her fingers pulling gently on Josh fingers as
his stomach muscles raised his shoulders and face to face hers.  Their eyes
unlocked and refocused on Josh's tube.  The tube continued retracting in
the cool air.  Tip disappeared as the length shortened.  Foreskin crept up
the shaft and stopped in the groove behind the soft reddish swollen lobes
of Josh glans penis.  Jen pushed herself back just enough to touch the
exhausted penis tip with her lips.  Engulfing the softening red glans into
her mouth, tongue probing away, lips kissing away the reddened skin and
ripped damage of his foreskin and frenulum.  Her mind absorbing the new
knowledge into permanent memory of what she had done to Josh.  Josh rolled
Jen over and around ending up on top of her his tongue probing the damaged
remains where the hymen once protected Jen.  Each tasted the others blood
and lymphatic fluids, each remembering the permanence of what had happened.
Both kids spun around and faced each other again, eye to eye and nose to
nose and lip to lip.  They pulled apart and watched the tube prepare itself
for storage.  Jen could feel her inner organs preparing for storage also.
She placed Josh's fingers on her pubic hair.  The long slender canal was
closing.  The cervix moved into resting position.  Soft air currents tidied
the hair on the two kids pelvis, except darkened blotches of blood matted
the hair at the base of the tube.  Finally it laid flat standing against
Josh belly.  His body jerked one last time as the foreskin snapped back
over the tip removing and compressing the glans from the forest view. 
Jen's outer lips closed shut.  her fur hiding the vaginal opening.  Jens
fingers touched Josh fingers.  The fingers explored the foreskin opening,
which snuggled tight allowing no entry.  Drops of left over fluid oozed
from the closing orifices.  Josh's fingers printed the fluid imprint on
Jen's lips and tongue while Jen's fingers explored Josh lips and tongue and
nose.  They smeared the fluids across there lips like a newborn baby
sucking first milk, and licked it inside with their tongues.  Both kids
breathed deeply.  Their brains analyzed and summarized the previous two
hours through smell and taste and touch.  Two lips mouthed the words in
musical unison, "Je t'aime.".













   Chapter 16: Taking the calf home.

   Jess was gone, and the heifer and calf were gone.  The sun was warm on
Jen's back and Josh's knee caps.  Jen jumped up.  She pulled Josh up by the
hands.  They needed the cool water and splashed into the stream up to their
necks.  The shock of cold water drove them back out laughing and singing.

   They gathered their soiled clothes and washed them in the stream, hung
them over limbs and sat on the bank to dry.  They huddled under the outer
jackets to avoid more sun.  Then Jennifer and Joshua examined each other
with expert fingers from toes to scalp.  Jennifer's back and Joshua's knees
and shins were sunburned but not bad.  Joshua's back had many grass and
twig marks.  Joshua`s foreskin retracted, and fit much looser than before
with tiny bands of wrinkles and rips along the snout.  Jennifer's membrane
was gone.  A gentle but distinct pain lingered when Jen and Josh checked
the full extent of her opening.  Tiny drops of blood sealed the broken
capillaries where the hymen used to be.  It was completely gone with no
remains to be located.  They dressed each other and moved off through the
woods to catch up with Jess and the calf and cow.

   Jess had made slow progress with the calf.  Every few yards she pushed
the calf, sometimes carried it and put her hands under the calf's belly to
help it over fallen trees.  She was almost out of the woods when Jen and
Josh caught up.  Jen put her hands around the calf to help it over final
obstacles.  "Oh my", Jennifer exclaimed this calf really is a bull and his
penis shaft already is as big as Josh's.  The three kids collapsed laughing
while the calf wobbled into the open meadow, followed by the mother cow. 
"In two years the Bull's penis will be half a meter long", announced Jess.
"How long will Josh penis be?" "Josh penis is already long enough" smiled
Jen.

   They sat on a log in the shade of the trees before the walk across the
meadow with the bright sun overhead.  The calf circled around his mother
his tongue licking at everything that hung on the underside.  The mother
licked the calf again from ears to tail.  She licked the calf's belly with
long tongued strokes.  "Mothers really like to look after their baby boys",
said Jen.  "My mother never done that to me", laughed Josh.  "I bet she
did", quipped Jess.  "Your mother must have done a lot of things right for
you", continued Jennifer.  Josh cheeks showed a pink tinge.  All three
faces showed a pink ting.

   Josh mind continued to process the three hours of events leading up to
now..  Jess had a different smell, her voice sounded different from Jen. 
Jen's posture on the log differed from Jess.  It was no longer necessary
for Josh to determine the voice with the black jeans or the blue jeans. 
Josh knew with out visual contact which twin spoke.  His neck remembered
Jess' faded black jeans along side his ears, and his nose remembered the
scent of Jess , and his tongue remembered the taste of Jess' membrane
blood. His brain switched to Jen and overloaded.  "Panties, breasts, the
opening scent, the feelings from her insides channeled through his tube,
rippled through his abdomen, echoed in his rib cage.  Her blood mixed with
his blood, her fluids mixed with his sperm, mental processes stored it all
for a life time of memories and re-enactments.

   The twins noticed Josh eyes close, and noted his withdrawal from there
minds.  They watched the calf fill himself from the slender tubes on the
heifer's udder.  They watched the other tubes dripping their first milk
into the meadow.  The mother cow stood frozen as the calf ravished his
first meal.  Her head low and her body at ease with all that had happened.

   They stood and touched Josh neck and cheek from each side to bring him
back.  His eye lids opened slightly and the blue eyes peered into a new
world.  Jess and Jen were there.  "There is no way to return to my old
self", murmured the boy.  "Josh, Josh, JOSH", his ears heard their voices
and his mind felt their presence.  "Josh, are you ok?", two voices
inquired. Josh lips moved.  His voice tone was lower.  His smile increased.
"Josh , did I hurt you , "asked Jen ?  Jess looked at Jen.  They grinned at
each other.  "I will tell you about the last three hours, someday", said
Jen to Jess.  Josh is flash-backing right now.  I can feel his flashbacks
also.  Jess backed off a step to regard the invisible bonds between her
sister and the lanky blond boy.  She sensed that things had permanently
changed between her and her twin sister.

   Josh voice was different.  His cheeks had a new tinge of permanence.  He
stood up confidently.  Voice tone , lower and the words seemed to come from
his throat as his mind returned and communicated to the twins: "I feel 100
percent fantastic".  His arms turned and wrapped around Jen, pulled her
body close to his.  Blue eyes locked to her eyes.  Jen's arms locked around
Josh lungs.  Jess put her arms around both of them, her eyes watered as she
spoke: "I feel so good about Josh and Jen".  Hug forced air from their
lungs.  They separated as Jess's arms fell away.  The events in the forest
were closed for now.
The kids entered the open meadows and checked the new calf as they
walked past.  Josh walked between them matching their steps until they
reached the gate and up on to the gravel road.  Jen and Jess walked
together with Josh separate from them walking his own steps toward his

house.

   "Will I see you tomorrow".  The words appeared from all three teens as
they turned and faced each other at the same time.  Everyone smiled and
laughed.  "Come over anytime", was the answer.

   There were other farm things to be done.  Josh mounted the bike and rode
it down the gravel road to his house.  His head looked back as the twins
waived.  The bike's path was straight and confident to the cellar door of
his house.

   Josh was entering the house as his mother arrived from work.

   "Did you put out the garbage today Joshua", enquired Joshua's mother,
Jill.  Joshua suddenly remembered her instructions from last evening at
supper.  "No", he replied without offering any excuses.

   "What did you learn today", Joshua.  "Well er , I learned the twin's
names", responded Joshua.  "There names are Jennifer and Jessica",
announced Joshua.  "Soo... they are girls", mused his mother.  "They
certainly are", exclaimed Josh, with twinkling eyes.  Joshua's mother
evaluated Joshua's twinkling eyes.  "Soo what do you know about the twins",
wondered his mother.  "Identical twins", announced Joshua, "I know their
names and can tell them apart." Joshua's mother asked, "How do you tell
identical twins apart." Joshua's face reddened, "I can just tell" jested
Joshua.  His mother sensed that Joshua was reluctant to say more.  She
opened the fast food packages and loaded them in the microwave.  Joshua
selected knives and forks and plates for the table settings.

   Chapter 17: A change for Jill.

   They ate supper while listening to local radio station news.  An
announcement interested Joshua's mother.  Another law firm was going
partnership with her employer.  She wondered what effect that might have on
her position.  The new law firm name seemed similar to the company where
her ex worked!

   Joshua was on a different wave length than his mother.  He wanted to
tell her more about Jennifer, but did not see an opportunity to bring the
twins back into the conversation.  Joshua's mother finished her food and
cleaned up the kitchen.  Joshua helped her, scraping the food remains into
the garbage.  "I guess it is too late to put out garbage this week", he
asked?  His mother indicated that the collection was done around noon and
they would need to store the garbage till next Monday.  Joshua wondered
about a suitable place to store garbage for a whole week.  He would find a
place tomorrow.  Joshua rested on the chesterfield and drifted to sleep. 
His mother worked on papers from work until the sun set.  She realized
around ten that darkness had fallen and she was sleepy.

   She remembered Josh's twinkling eyes.  He had settled on his back on the
chesterfield, head resting on one end with arms shielding his eyes from the
room lighting, legs apart and hanging over the other end.  Her eyes noted
the wrinkled tee shirt.  It appeared to be drip dried, and yet it was
clean. The trousers were slung low on Josh hips.  The trousers also
appeared to be clean and freshly washed.  "Joshua, perhaps is starting to
improve his appearance", wondered Jill.  As she watched him sleep a tent
was forming over his pelvis.  He whispered quiet words that Jill did not
hear.  Jill studied the trouser tent as Josh's waist squirmed slightly to
relieve the stress.  She realized that his tube had extended and trapped
itself toward the left leg.  "Joshua will awake soon", she imagined.  Jill
hurried into the kitchen and poured a glass of cold water as Josh eyes
opened, and realized discomfort in his trousers.  Jill watched from the
kitchen to see what would happen.  Usually, his bladder would force a trip
to the bathroom.  Instead Josh's legs pulled tight to his chest.  His tube
seemed to reposition lying on his belly and pushing under the track pants
waste band.  "Josh certainly could use a few more pounds of flesh." Josh
awoke from the dream.  He went upstairs and prepared for sleep and crawled
on to his mattress.  The air was hot and humid with no breeze.  No covers
were required.

   Thunder crashes awoke Jill before day break.  Lightning illuminated her
room through the open window.  She removed the stick holding the window up.
But the window had swelled from the water.  It would not close.  She
flipped the bed room light switch but the house power was off.  After
working at it for a few seconds the window suddenly tumbled shut with a
crash.  She checked, but no damage had happened.  "So much noise", she
imagined.  "I wonder, how is Joshua"?  She closed the downstairs windows
next.  Wind roaring through the kitchen window had blown the notes from the
fridge and pushed the junk mail off the table.  Lightning flashes and
thunder gradually receded from the rooms as she closed each window and then
returned to the upstairs bathroom.  She tip toed around as usual not
wanting to wake Joshua, though the sounds of the storm were much louder
than her activities.

   "Joshua's window should be closed".

   She headed for her son's room.  Joshua was sleeping on his belly with no
coverings.  By the lightning flashes she could see pale tight skin along
his neck, back, hamstring muscles and ankles.  Tiny red blotches blossomed
along his buttocks.  Miraculously, Joshua was still sleeping soundly.  She
remembered that Joshua had slept soundly from one year old.  Recently he
had been tossing and turning before sleeping.  Nothing seemed to disturb
him when he decided to sleep.  "Whatever exercise he got today must be
healthy", Jill reasoned, as she moved closer to check his back.

   Joshua's back and shoulders had some rash.  Most was on his buttocks. 
She could not be certain about the suspected grass stains.  Jill studied
the fourteen year old closely.  He was long and lean.  She began to imagine
all sorts of reasons for skin rash and grass stains.  None of the imagined
reasons made sense to her, but she chose not to disturb Joshua.  His
breathing was relaxed and slow.  On occasion a small movement of one of the
leg or arm muscles would shift his body slightly.  Lightning danced out
side in the meadows and thunder claps shook the house, but Josh slept
through it, a handsome grin across the side of his face not buried in the
pillow.  Jill relaxed knowing that her boy was happy in his dreams.  She
closed his bed room window and retreated to her room.  "Four AM", by the
wind up clock.  The house had cooled drastically since the storm started.
She snuggled back into bed, knowing that morning would arrive quickly.  The
wind up alarm clock would still wake her in two hours, even if the house
power stayed out.



   Tuesday

   Bright sun rays lighted the rooms in the morning.  The alarm clock woke
Jill and Joshua got up while she was preparing breakfast and her work.  He
grabbed his old pair of pajama shorts, and padded downstairs.  What are you
gong to do today asked his mother as Joshua joined her for breakfast.  "You
first", responded Joshua.  "Oh-kay", answered Jill.  "What am I planning"?
She told Joshua about the news reports of the law firm being purchased by a
larger Toronto company.  "Joshua, your father works for the company which
purchased my company".

   "What impact"?  asked Joshua.  "Not sure"!  replied Jill.  I hope it
does not affect my job.  "I'm sure you will be fine", said Josh.  "You have
survived everything very well." Jill wrapped her arms around Joshua's rib
cage for a hug.  "Thanks kid, and you have survived well also, and I love
you too", she whispered.

   "Now, your turn to answer", she replied.  Jill prepared her self for
work as the conversation followed.  Joshua laughed as a happy smile over
took his face.  "Mom", he stated.  "I am not gay".  Jill smiled with a
nervous tinge.  "How so"?  "Jennifer and Jessica told me", smiled Joshua.
"Are those the twins"?  "Yes".  "Why did they tell you"?  "I just asked
them".  "Are they experts on gay"?  laughed Jill, with a nervous twitch. 
"Yes", stated Joshua.  I have learned a lot since meeting them.  They take
summer health courses, for humans and animals, usually on Friday.  "Wait a
minute, what do they know about gay"?

   A sudden horn blow from the driveway changed the conversation.  Jill
gathered her work things and hurried toward the car.  "I still need an
answer", she said as she skipped out the front door to go to work.

   Joshua laughed as his mother closed the door.  "I hoped to tell her just
the right amount".  He began to pick up papers and notes, pinning them back
on the fridge and organizing them on the table.  A local newspaper caught
his eye.  He opened it and read the news continued on the business pages.
"Local law firm now owned by city company".  Joshua eyed the paper for a
long time.  A black-white picture continued to entertain Joshua.  "Why do I
like that picture", mused Joshua?  Finally, he put the paper aside and
began the day's chores.  The vacuum cleaner whined for the next twenty
minutes downstairs and then half an hour upstairs.  Joshua worked his way
to the storage room where he vacuumed around the unopened boxes left around
from moving day.  A sudden mind change altered Joshua's path.  He completed
the vacuuming and stuffed the hoses back into a closet, then raced to the
photograph box with the peeling knife, slit open the top and searched the
old photos again.



   Chapter 18: My dad.



   At last the baby pictures re-appeared.  Joshua located the package he
had searched before.  It fell open to the special photo.  "My dad",
exclaimed Joshua, "is the chairman of a big city law firm"?  Joshua
retrieved the newspaper and sat on the floor, knees underneath.  He checked
the photographs again and again comparing them with the newspaper.  "This
is my dad, and this is the company chairman, and they are the same", stated
Joshua.  And this picture has two babies and my dad.  Joshua retrieved a
magnifying glass from the bathroom drawer.  He studied the babies
carefully. Same ears, same eyes, same body, same toes, same tubes -
"Identical twins", concluded Joshua.  One of those babies, Jos is me and
where is Jac"?  The back of the photo was not Jill's writing.  The writing
said.  "Robert, Jos, Jac".  So that's my dad's name eh, "Robert".  Josh
checked the newspaper yet another time.  The chairman's name was Mr. 
Green. "My mother's name is Jill Coresland, I am Josh Coresland, my dad is
Robert Green and my twin brother is Jac Green".  Joshua sat for a long time
on the floor with the photograph between his legs.  Water droplets formed
in his eyes.  Slowly his mind returned to now.  Tears wetted his cheeks,
and embarrassed himself.  "I am a man and a man does not cry".

   "What the fuck , I am crying" !  Knew Jos.  "Why" ?  Jos raised himself
, continued to the bathroom and studies his eyes.  "They are dripping".  He
studied himself for a few minutes, composed his thoughts , shut off the
tears.

   Joshua put the photos back in the box and returned the magnifier to a
drawer, then returned to the kitchen with the newspaper.  He read the story
again, looking for details about his father.  A knock on the door diverted
his concentration.

   "Heh: Josh can we come in"?  The twins were dressed in rain proof
clothes with rubber boots.  They slipped their heavy boots off at the door
and entered easily as though they still lived in the house.  "Hi Jen and
Jes" welcomed Joshua.  "Is it raining?" "No", laughed Jen.  "We thought
rain suits would make it easier to keep your paws off us".  "Joshua, did
you not wake up in the thunderstorm last night"?  questioned Jes.  "No
thunder storm woke me up", said Joshua.  "What", yelled both twins.  "You
heard nothing last night, and you have not looked outside this morning"?  A
long pause and quiet smile appeared on Joshua.  He could hear the distant
thunder and noticed rain splashing in puddles outside on the front steps.
"Uh er - my, yes, I guess it is raining now that you mention it".  The
twins laughed and laughed and Jos began to laugh with them.  "Take off your
coats and stay for lunch" asked Jos, passing on his mother's hospitality
but unsure of what lunch might actually be.  Jen cleared her coat first and
hung it on a hangar by the door.  She stepped closer to Joshua with Jes
moving to the other side.

   "Sit down Joshua", while we talk.  Joshua sat on the couch while Jes and
Jen each took a chair.

   "Joshua was unsure of the next step.  When his mother asked someone to
stay for lunch, they always did.  The twins did not answer yes or no, not
even maybe, but they were still here", reasoned Josh.  Twins stared at
Josh. After a pause they spoke.  "It's customary for the host to wear
trousers before serving lunch." Red tinge appeared on Joshua's ears and
cheeks.  He looked down at himself sitting on the couch.  An ancient pair
of pajamas graced his hips.  That was it.  No socks.  No shirt.  No other
clothes.  The threadbare pajamas were at one time winter pajamas, but Josh
had cut the legs off and used them for sleeping shorts, when it was not too
hot.  The leg holes were unusually large, or Josh legs were exceptionally
skinny, but that had never bothered Joshua before.  Still he felt somewhat
uneasy with two girls fully dressed staring at his open legs and possibly
able to see right into his private area.  "Well, they are not too concerned
about it", reasoned Josh.

   An easy silence followed.  The twins smiled.  "Joshua, we want to thank
you for helping us find the calf yesterday.  We also want to ask you about
the calf birth", said Jes.

   Joshua smiled, "I told my mother about you".  Jen looked uneasily at
Jes. Joshua noted the instant change in mood.  "Oh wait", added Joshua.  "I
told my mother, that I was not gay - I did not tell her about the birthing
heifer in the forest".  Jen and Jes relaxed.  "What is your mother's name
Josh"?  "Jill".  "Does Jill know what we did to you in the forest
yesterday".  "No".  Jen explained, "We are very sorry about touching you
yesterday.  We invited you to help us search for a lost heifer and we took
you deep into the forest, knocked the wind out of you and when you could
not talk we assaulted your body".  Tears streamed from Jen's eyes with Jes
sobbing beside her.  "Joshua", whispered Jen, "I love you more than my twin
sister.  I am sorry for what I did.  Jes apologizes with identical words.
You are the best boy we have ever known.  We did not intend to hurt you. 
What we did was way way wrong.  Both girls sobbed quietly.  Joshua was
stunned with the twins crying.  Tears would have appeared in his eyes also,
except he fought the urge.  Instead he asked, "How far did you run
yesterday before you found me and the heifer"?  "We heard you blow the horn
each time.  We ran fast and then faster when you blew the horn again.  We
thought you were in deep trouble.  Under some stream conditions there may
be quick sand along the bank.  By the time of the third blasts, we were
about one kilometer away.  In total we ran three kilometers in one half
hour." "Did you run on a road"?  "No, We ran through the hardwood forest
and then the meadows and then the cedar forest to get to you.  We are so
sorry cried Jes".  "Yesterday day turned out to be very bad.  We should not
have touched you, as though you are some animal" sobbed Jes.  "And so
ladies, when you got to me, you were more winded than I was"?  "Meaning"?
asked Jen.  "Meaning", said Joshua, "that your judgment was affected by the
running as much as my judgment was affected by the calf birth, and so I
conclude that no malice, nor personal gain was achieved".  "We are still
sorry".  "I am not sorry", added Joshua.  I have been looking for a lot of
answers recently.  "Yesterday morning, I was a snotty nosed kid, afraid of
girls and possibly gay.  Today I am still a snotty nosed kid, but I like
two girls very much; I would like each girl to be my friend and you have
told me that I , - I am not gay".  As Joshua spoke he lowered himself to
his knees in front of the twins.  Josh clasped his hands together and
continued kneeing forward toward Jes.  "Will you be my friend, Jes"? 
"Yes". Then turning to face Jen on his knees".  "Will you be my friend,
Jen"?  "I love you".  Jes and Jen launched from their chairs, crouched by
Josh, and threw their arms around him.  They gave him a bear hug that
squeezed the air out of his lungs.  Jes relaxed her arms allowing Jen's
weight to pull Joshua over on top of Jen.  Joshua's legs spread apart as he
landed on Jen and then righted himself to a sitting position on the floor
back against Jen with her arms tight around his chest.  Jes began to laugh
and laugh.  Her eyes alerted Jen to the rising cloth on the front of
Joshua's pajamas.  "You have no idea, of the effect that you have on us, do
you Josh", asked Jes.  "What effect"?  "You are so-oo-oo special", swooned
Jes.  "Wha-aat effect"?  puzzled Josh.  "Do you mind if Jen lowers her
hands to your lap"?  asked Jes.  "No, I do not mind", said Josh innocently.
With a wink from Jes' eyes to Jen, Jen relaxed her arms and let her hands
slide down to Josh's lap.  Her relaxed fingers slipped into the pajama fold
made by Josh flat belly and his extended tube tenting the pajama front.

   "Ok", smiled Jes.  "Do you notice the effect now".  Jen was still
sitting behind Josh.  She allowed her fingers to be perfectly still, though
she could feel the heat coming through the thread bare pajamas from Josh
tube.  She could smell his body scent.  "What effect are you talking
about", laughed Josh.

   Jen let her little finger unfold and close on the pajama tent.  Josh was
suddenly aware of her little finger clamping the underside of his tube. 
Her fingers had slipped right through the pajama front.  Josh ears and face
and neck blushed crimson red.  Stomach muscles contracted even flatter and
the legs closed slightly.  "Uh uh umm, Now I know", breathed Joshua, the
blush disappearing as quickly as it came , and trying not to show his
hyper-ventilating lungs.  "You see Josh", said the twins.  "Sometimes you
are like a six year old with your brain not knowing what your tube is
doing, but you have a fourteen year old mind and you are long enough to be
sixteen.  Joshua considered the statement for ten seconds.  Jen's eyes were
dancing.  She could feel the tube, almost full now with independent pulsing
un-be-knownst to Josh, as his mind evaluated the twins report.  "Josh, You
are doing it again laughed the twins".  A blush appeared on Josh and then
dissipated instantly again.  "This is why we like you", whispered Jes.  You
are so-ooo-ooo swee-eeet and innocent screamed the girls", in unison.  Jes
pounced on Josh legs.  Jen pulled his body down from behind.  Jen began to
run her fingers around Josh nipples, and Jes began to push her finger tips
along Josh calf muscles toward his knees.  "You even smell nice , even
without a bath".  Josh reacted instantly.  His whole body pulled into a
ball, then rolled to his hands and feet and tried to shake loose.  Jes held
on tight with her arms now locked from behind, around his thighs and her
hands gripping his inner thighs and hamstrings.  Jen now laid over Josh
trying to push him back down by pulling one of his arms from underneath. 
The twins yelled at Josh.  "We are going to take advantage, if you cannot
stop us".  Josh relaxed slightly as Jes grip slid closer to his ball sac.
Then with a great thrust his lower abdomen broke free from Jes, and almost
immediately his upper body twisted violently out of Jen's grip.  The twins
pounced again with a major wrestling match ensuing on the kitchen floor,
all three kids laughing and grinning .  Joshua broke free again for an
instant.  He darted under the table and rose on the other side, avoiding a
re-attachment from either girl.  Josh' face was flushed, his chest and legs
reddened by the struggle, but he was free.

   "Heh", yelled Jos, "Over here; I am free".  Both twins began to laugh
hilariously.  Josha , also.  "But you have lost something", laughed the
twins, as they twins stood up .  "I've been thinking that was the best
thing that I have ever lost".

   "You mean - lost virginity - voiced Jen" .  Jos smiled politely , even
coyly at the twins , "Yes".  "No no no , I didn't mean that" , yelled Jen.
"Then what are you talkin about" , grinned Jos ?  From the opposite side of
the table from Jos, Jen dangled Josh pajamas over Jes' head.  Jen arranged
the new head gear so that Jes could peek out the fly hole.

   "So what", laughed Josh, "I am free and bare".  "And you don't care",
chimed the twins.  "No care".  "No pajamas , no underwear , no shirt and I
don't care" !

   Three kids laughed hilariously.  That's why we love you.  "I wish there
was another of you filled with the same life" ?

   Josh stepped well away from the table and stood at attention in full
view.  Perfect form, perfect skin color, perfect sillouette.  His tube
protected inside the outer skin, with scrotum pulled in close to avoid
danger during the wrestling.  "So you see", reasoned Josh, "I am not gay
and I am NOT a push over , and secondly , Do you understand how two
gorgeous girls affect ME" ?

   Chapter 19: Birthday present.

   The twins studied him carefully.  "OK", they announced, "You win.  Can
we dress you now"?  "Sure", replied Josh.  "And so, you are fifteen years
old next week", stated Jen?  "Yes".  "What day"?  "Wednesday".  "What would
you like for a birthday present", asked Jes.  "Already have got my present
during the heifer hunt", laughed Josh, "but it would be fun to do it again
, you know , that virgin stuff".  "What would you like for a birthday
present", asked Jen.  "You", replied Josh, "I want you to strip me naked,
hold me down, and do the calf birthing thing again , - pretend I'm virgin"
. "That could be arranged", smiled Jen and Jes.  "Will you come to my house
next Wednesday"?  "This is your old house", said Josh.  "I want you to
surprise me as you did in the forest", said Josh, "in your old house".  "My
mother leaves for work at 7:00 to 7:15 every morning, and returns at 17:00
to 17:30".  Every day I have some chores, and they are often complete by 9
AM.  What do you say, Jen and Jes"?  "A deal", replied Jes and Jen, "What
to do in the meantime?

   Jen and Jes stared at the naked boy as he talked.  As Josh spoke the
words, his tube partially elongated and then relaxed.  When the twins
replied "deal", his tube expanded and retracted again soon after.  Jen and
Jes communicated, "this boy does not even know what his tube is doing; how
would he know the effect it has on us"?  The twins regarded each other. 
"And that is why, there is sometimes wetness" stated Jen, as she watched
Josh face.  "True", agreed Josh, and then added "My stomach is hurting". 
"It's noon and you need to be fed", laughed the twins just as they would
talk to a hungry calf in the pasture.  "We will make you lunch" sang the
twins, while you get dressed.

   Josh ascended the stairs in jumps as the girls began to search the
kitchen for lunch.  Twenty minutes later, he had showered, dressed, and
used his mother's razor to remove the tiny whiskers under his chin. 
Delicious smell of prepared lunch , bacon , eggs , lettuce , tomato
sandwiches , met him on the down stairs trip.  The three kids gathered
around the table for lunch.  After lunch the girls gave Josh a hug and
headed for their farm to conduct the day's chores.

   Jos washed the dishes cleaned up the basement somewhat.

   Jill returned later than usual that evening.  There was not much
communication with Josh, though he had hoped to ask his mother about Jac.
"Is Jac real" ?  , but no sound was made.

   Wednesday and thursday.  Rain continued as light drizzle on Wednesday
and Thursday.  Jill spent more of the day at work than usual on both days.

   Friday

   Hot sun dried out the land on Friday with the days flying by quickly as
Josh completed his chores.  He noticed the twins a couple of times but did
not get a chance to talk with them.  His mother seemed to be occupied with
other thoughts every day, so Josh decided to mention the subject of Jac and
his father on Saturday.  In the meantime Josh determined to be more
responsible.  To his mother's pleasant surprise, chores were done on time,
house cleaning was prompt, and Josh asked for his own razor, to avoid using
his mother's.  Josh began to wash his own clothes and appeared neat and
dressed in clean clothes every morning.  Jill said no more about the
garbage situation.

   Saturday morning finally arrived, but Jill had to do major shopping and
did not return till late afternoon.  Josh unpacked all the groceries as
Jill prepared supper.  After supper she began to talk about work.  She
explained to Josh that she would no longer have a job beginning October. 
Her company had given her almost three months notice of termination, but it
was still a shock.  Jill apologized to Josh for the last four days of no
communication.  Josh gave her a tight hug and a gentle kiss on the cheek.
Jill sobbed a few tears, as she realized how much Josh had matured in the
last month.  She would find another job somehow, and she would get a better
one than the one ending.  She hoped she would not have to move.  Josh was
definitely enjoying his free summer in the country.

   Sunday morning arrived at 6:00 AM with bright sun, singing birds and
mooing cows.  Josh prepared Sunday breakfast for his mother, serving her
breakfast in bed while fully showered, dressed, and shaved.  Jill thanked
Josh again and again for being such a great kid.  She had heard the stories
of troubled teens and bad influences.  None of the stories applied to her.
She worried about a new job but she enjoyed Sunday with Josh as though
there was no tomorrow.  A walk through the woods, a recap of Josh bicycle
skills, an explanation on the use of the jock strap, and even some more
information on the twins next door made Sunday interesting.  She realized
that they definitely have improved Josh, and he has contributed to they're
lives.

   Josh was happy that his mother seemed relaxed.  He decided not to
mention subjects that would cause his mother more stress.

   Still , it seemed that Jill was somewhat occupied by work issues. 
"Joshua , I may lose my job.  Other employees have been let go already" .
"Oh"

   Monday



   Chapter 20: Mother's Job.

   Jill rose earlier than usual and disappeared to work.  The temperature
over night was cool with the sun not appearing till near noon.  When it did
a hot and humid afternoon prevailed.

   Josh completed his chores, remembering to put the garbage out at the
roadside, and ate lunch alone wondering about the twins and what they were
doing.  He packed a cold pop and rode the bike west till it crossed the
stream bridge and a couple kilometers later he arrived at a cross roads in
the middle of a huge field of corn.  No fences on any side, just gray soil
and seven foot corn plants in all directions.  He decided to continue
straight across and biked another hour, slow leisurely pace.  A bridge came
into view with a small picnic area near the river.  Josh locked the bike to
a picnic table and explored along the river under the bridge.  The water
was cool and slow moving.  Josh sat on a concrete ledge under the bridge,
removed his boots and socks and dangled bare legs into the river.  The cold
water reminded him of last weeks adventure by the stream in the forest.  He
sipped on the pop and splashed his legs.  Cars rumbled over the bridge
above.  Josh was alone.  He became aware of the pulsing tent in his pants
and his mind filled with Jen.  His tube was pushing for relief.  Josh
slipped his fingers under the waist band and peered at the pulsing tube. 
His fingers began to pull and roll the foreskin around as Jen had done. 
The tube responded with full expansion within seconds.  Josh was amazed how
long he had had this thing without realizing how good it made him feel. 
Josh imagined again Jen's body lowering.  The glans performed all by
itself. The foreskin slid back.  Josh watched it compress the glans as it
passed over with moderate pain.  His heart skipped as the glans appeared
and continued to swell larger than Josh imagined it.  Josh bent his nose
forward to smell the glans.  His tongue strained to reach the throbbing
tube.  He was close but could not quite accomplish a lick.  He thought of
Jen licking, and made up his mind to practice stretching the neck and back
muscles.  Colorless fluid bubbled from the glans.  It lubricated his thumb
and index finger and the back of the forefinger.  Josh used his right hand
to pressure his testicles slightly, just like Jen had done.  His left
fingers began to pass directly over the lubricated raphe and frenulum and
the dorsal side of the glistening red glans.  A few more strokes and Josh
stomach shrunk, testicles rose into his scrotum.  A euphoric feeling
enveloped all.  "Jennifer" screamed Josh, "Jennifer, Jeniferrr" , in a deep
throated, but soft murmur.

   The pulsing tube delivered globs of thin creamy coloured fluid.  It shot
into his face, it splashed into the river and it ran down his tube making
the fingers even more slippery.  Josh tried to continue stroking but the
feelings extremed, threatening to blow off the top of his head.  His
fingers could not continue.  The fingers collapsed leaving the throbbing
red glans to finish unloading by itself .  Pulsing, pulsing , slower ,
smaller ; Josh watched it for the next ten minutes.  Thin ridges of taught
skin locked behind the ridge holding the structure horizontal.  Watched and
enjoyed the pulsations each one lifting the the tube almost vertical as it
delivered the remaining drops.  The last drops were opaque and clingy.  As
the pulses dimmed the penis drooped to his trousers and finally into his
underwear.  Without any intervention the glans shrunk, the foreskin slipped
back over the glans.  Josh tube was normal again, safely stowed for
transport.  Beads of sweat dried on Josh chest and forehead as he gently
raised his waist band , allowed the tube back into his briefs and retraced
his steps to ride home.

   The return bike trip was uneventful , as Joshua enjoyed the spring
flowers and blossoms on his ride.

   It gave Joshua a chance to think about his mother's dilemma - to find a
new job as good as, or better than the present job, and without moving to a
new city.  Gliding along on the bike, Josh reviewed his mother's situation,
realizing that she was very worried about being tossed back into the
endless stream of temporary help and low pay jobs.  Josh began to see his
mother as deserving more from all the work she had done.  "My mom works
hard for me", as his foot touched the ground.

   He stored the bike away around 14:00 and located a phone book for
Toronto.  His mother always kept one someplace.  For the next hour he
looked for names for his dad.  Suddenly, it was all unnecessary.  Instead
he looked for the name of his fathers business.  A 416 number immediately
appeared.  Josh wrote it down, and prepared to call his father.  "What
would he say?  What should I ask"?

   It was 15:00.  He waited a few minutes and then dialed the number.  The
law office answering machine provided the usual info.......  Josh dialed
"0" for an operator.  "I need to talk to my dad -er Mr.  Robert Green",
stated Josh, with clear concise speech to the male receptionist.  A series
of clicks and hold signals sequenced through to Josh letting him know that
his request had hit the mark.  "My dad will think that I am Jac", he mused
because our voices will be identical." More clicks and twenty seconds of
elevator music and without further delay a mans voice was asking.  "Jac, I
am glad you called, I have been very busy this last month with the purchase
of that new law company.  "Are you with the swim buddies today" ?  "Getting
a tan or water basket ball" ?  What makes you phone me today?  The
receptionist hinted that you were more direct than usual."

   Joshua formulated his response as his dad talked.  "Dad, I need to spend
some time with you", announced Joshua, "Can you talk to me for twenty
minutes".

   "Sure son", replied Robert.  "Hold on, I will be free in thirty
seconds". A jazzy tune materialized in the ear piece as Joshua waited.  "I
hope this works", he mused as his fingers tapped in tune to the music. 
"What if he hangs up when he discovers who I am?  What if he rejects my
plan?  What if my mother finds out about this call"?  Joshua began to
control the speculation in his mind, by thinking about Jennifer.  "Jennifer
would know how to handle this and she would ...." "Ok Jac, what shall we
talk about"?  "Ahh", (there was a long silent pause), "I am NOT Jac". 
"Well, who are you", laughed Robert caught up in his sons identity game. 
"Er, my name is Joshua err Jos." This time Robert took a deep breath and a
long pause.

   A long pause, silence, and then "Joshua"?  Again , "Joshua" ?  Jos.  ?
"Yeah dad".  "Joshua Green "?  "Coresland" ?

   Chapter 21: "Dad?".



   "No", responded Joshua monotone like.  "I am Jos Coresland".  Another
longer pause, and then "Jos, hold on again, I will be back on in a minute",
replied a new voice.  Jos located a chair and drew in his stomach.  He
flexed his biceps in tune with the music on hold until his father spoke
again.  "Joshua , where are you calling from"?  "Call me Jos", replied
Joshua.  "Ok son", conceded Robert.  "I know who you are, now".  "I am at
my my mother's house.  You do remember Jill.  Jill works for the company
you purchased, and she is unhappy about being terminated", announced Joshua
speaking slowly and precisely.

   Another long pause occurred.  "I am having the desired effect", Joshua
reasoned with himself.

   The voice was low, "Joshua I want to see you as soon as possible, I did
not know your mother worked there, er there are several layers between me
and the partnership team." "No", replied Jos with a cold voice, "You want
to see Jill as soon as possible".  Joshua added that his mother was at work
till end of September, and was upset.

   "But your mother does not want me".  "She doesn't know what she wants",
exclaimed Jos.  "Jos.  Your mother abando ---n."

   "Call her Jill", interrupted Jos.  " and Robert , dad , I found the baby
photographs.  She did love you.  I don't know what happened" .  She loves
me more than any mother could, and she can love you again if you ask
her..." "But I have asked her, again and again an- .  I begged Joshua.  I
love your mother, I love Jill, I do."

   "Then go to her and tell her again , and again , and again until she
hears you" said Josh.

   Several minutes later Joshua's father negotiated a truce with Jos. 
Joshua agreed to see his father and Jac on condition that Jill be allowed
to continue working.  Robert wanted to reunite with Joshua.  He felt that
with the impending lay off with Jill, he would at least have a reason to
talk to her , and she might waive the court order of separation.  It was
agreed that Jac would spend tomorrow with Joshua and that Robert would
contact Jill this afternoon and personally visit her company office
tomorrow with a new job offer.  The communication between Joshua and Robert
was to remain unmentioned for now.  "Jos, did you know that you were a
twin", questioned Robert?

   Joshua became silent.

   "Kee-chryyiisst I am sorry", said Robert.  "I thought you knew." Jos
said nothing.  "Are you still listening?".  Joshua remained silent, and yet
Robert knew the other end of the phone was occupied.  "Joshua ah ahh ? 
Jos" !  Joshua dried his eye with a sleeve.  Robert kept talking as though
he had always known Joshua.  He told Joshua about his law school days,
about the most wonderful girl called Jill, about the birth of twins, two
beautiful perfect boys, Joshua and Jack, about his graduation party and
being seen with bare buddies by Jill, about the divorce, and about the
court enforced agreements.  Jos began to remember his dad's voice.  He had
been only two plus, when separation began, and yet he remembered a gentle
dad with a soft logical voice.  He remembered the pictures in his mothers
box, pictures that she had never shared, and yet she had not destroyed
them. He remembered the picture of his dad with Jack in the bath tub.  Then
he began to remember the real event and he listened intently brushing his
eye occasionally with his sleeve.  Another memory appeared, of Jac and Jos,
nude, peeing in the back yard with Robert beside them.  Silent tears formed
unexpectedly in Jos' eyes.  Running down his face and dropping on the phone
handset and his wrist.  Robert finally stopped talking.  He waited,
patiently unsure whether Joshua was still on the line.  "Jos, ah Jos , are
you on the line"?  Joshua dried the tears and recomposed before speaking.
Finally Joshua spoke in a low voice.  "Dad, ah ahh are yu- are are you
gaiy".

   Robert did not expect the shock question.  "Jill expects that I am",
conceded Robert.  "Thanks for listening to my side of the story, Jos" . 
Joshua became silent again and Robert worried about the un-said thoughts.
"Joshua, I need to know what thoughts are in your mind", persuaded Robert.
"I need to know what makes you breath, what makes you alive, what you like?
It does not matter to me, what you are, because you are part of me , -- are
my son .  I appreciate more than you know the negotiations you have made
for your mother.

   After another pause.

   You have grown into a man Jos, perhaps more than you realize, at this
point in your life.  I Robert Green want to be part of your life as I have
been part of Jac.  Do not respond now, but keep my request close by". 
Joshua realized that he had said only four words in the last hour.  He
remembered his dad, his chest hair , his legs, his sweat , and all the
memories were good.  He remembered his dad lifting Jac and himself from the
bath tub at the same time, water spilling everywhere, his wet body close to
Jac's wet body, and both boys , cold and snuggling against Robert's chest.
Joshua decided to say something, but no words appeared.  "I need to hang up
now", said Robert.  "Dad", whispered Joshua, "I will , I promise, see you
later", and he hung up.

   Robert heard the phone click.  He hung up his end of the phone , sat
silent , glistened face , re-composed himself and re-entered the world of
corporate business structure.

   Joshua took a long slow breath , pulled the belly of his tee shirt up ,
hearing a rip of cotton fabric and wiped the sweat from his face , or was
it tears ?

   "Both", he concluded, "Tears , mostly sweat , - a man does not show
tears in public , - there is no reverse in the process now".  Jos suddenly
became aware that he wanted far more than he originally bargained .  "I
want mum to reunite with dad", concluded Jos.  Perhaps Jac and Jen and Jess
can help me .  Then , he realized that Jen and Jess did not even know that
he had a twin.  More tears flooded from Jos' eyes.  They just kept coming
and coming until he was soaked.  Retreating to his bedroom, Josh crawled
under the covers, into the dark warm place and curled into himself, knees
contracted.  "Jennifer , please , I need you", but no one answered and yet
Jos began to feel better.  "If she was here, she would brush my cheek and
wipe away those tears, and she would say Jos I love you.  Why are you
crying" ?  (long pause) Jos uncurled to a relaxing position.  "Why am I
crying" , and he remembered their private phrase: "Je t'aime".  Jos sprung
from the bed and checked the time.  "If dad did go to see her , I mean Jill
, she will be home late, and that gives me enough time to prepare for her.
I will be her son, like a rock, as she has been my mother these past
fourteen years" .

   Joshua rushed around the house putting everything in its place, dusting
counters , vacuuming floors.  He even found the toilette bowl cleaner and
cleaned the yellow residue from around the bowl , - bathroom spotless .  He
washed the kitchen walls and floor.  Finally, he cleaned ten years of
deposits off the old kitchen stove and finished just before Jill entered.

   His mother was more quiet than usual.  Joshua bowed as she entered the
kitchen, explaining that the day had been boring, so that things were
cleaned.  Jos walked straight to her.  "Hi mom".  Jill gave a hug, before
getting ready to serve supper.  She had a huge bouquet of roses which he
took and placed in an old water jug.  Joshua carefully snipped the ends to
ensure that they lasted for several days.  He did not ask about the roses .
Jill did not venture information.  "We can eat the usual Monday supper",
asked Joshua?  An hour later supper was over.  Joshua noted that his mother
was not unhappy.  He did not understand exactly what mood she was in, but
that was usual situation anyway.

   Joshua rested on the chesterfield as usual after supper.  It had been a
long day.  He soon drifted into an active sleep, thinking of the phone call
and whether it had been successful.  Jill worked on her job papers much
longer than usual.  She noticed that Joshua was asleep around 11 PM ,
(twenty three hours of the day were past) .  The usual process of walking
him up to bed happened as usual.  Joshua's mother stripped away his smelly
clothes, and left him under the covers nude.  "No point in waking him up to
put pajamas on him just to put him to bed", she reasoned.

   The next day went by quickly.  Jill had risen early and returned from
work late.  Josh cleaned some more of the house, went for a bicycle ride
and cleaned part of the basement , opened the box of old photographs again
, closed the box , taped it shut again.  Jill returned with fast food which
the two of them ate slowly but with little conversation, and each went to
bed early.

   Chapter 22: The birthday present for Wednesday.



   Jill was up early around 5:30 AM.  She completed intended work on the
job papers, prepared breakfast and lunch for Joshua and a lunch for
herself. Jill thought of wishing her son, "Happy fifteenth birthday" , but
instead she remained silent thinking she could bring a small cake home at
supper and enjoy it with Joshua.

   Joshua appeared as she was leaving for work.  He had showered dressed in
clean clothes and gave Jill a hug as she left for work.  He noted that she
was definitely happier than the last few days and confidant.  Joshua was
left to do whatever chores the day required.  As usual, most of the day was
free.  He and his dad, Robert had not specified exact times when Robert and
Jac would appear.  Josh presumed they would be here by noon.

   Josh reviewed his actions.  Since yesterday he had learned about
enjoying his body, had felt sorry for his mother being tossed back into low
paying jobs, had placed a direct call to his dad and got a good response,
and had seen his mother's mood change.  Jos was elated that life was good.

   He completely forgot about today being his birthday.  Since all the
chores for today were already done, Josh decided to take the bike again. 
This time he decided he would go to the cross roads and turn north and
explore.  He took a can of pop and decided that 10:30 would be a good time
to return, in case his dad arrived early.

   In the meantime: Robert had in fact visited Jill yesterday and they had
a long talk about old times.  The time spent on personal life required even
more shifting of schedules and determination to make things happen as
planned.  Robert imagined that Joshua had been some what antagonistic.  He
talked with Jac and decided to send him by taxi to spend the morning with
Joshua until Robert could get free, then pick up Jill and perhaps get to
Joshua's house by 14:00 .  Robert was hoping that Joshua would get along
better with his twin brother Jac than himself.  He volunteered Jac to
arrive early.

   Jac arrived by taxi from Toronto.  He paid the driver at the road and
shuffled up the driveway to the old farm house.  "Definitely the right
place", he reasoned re-checking the 911 number on the lot sign.  Jac had
been in a Toronto swim club all weekend, and on Tuesday he had gone rock
climbing with school friends .  Today was his birthday and he was looking
forward to a quiet day perhaps just talking with his twin Josh.  The
parental struggle with divorce had kept Jac and Josh apart for the last
twelve years.  Jac had always known that he was an identical twin .  His
father, Robert, kept no secrets, and had explained the break up with Jac's
mother as best he could, both his side of the story and Jill's side of the
story .  Robert had married Jill because of an unplanned pregnancy when he
was eighteen.  He was still in law school, and knew very little about
himself .  Two years after the wedding, on Robert's graduation day , Jill
caught him with three male buddies in a motel room.  Jill concluded that
Robert was irrevocably gay.  She filed for divorce the next day and had not
listened to him until yesterday.



   After Jill divorced , Robert had dedicated the next twelve years of his
life to long hours, weekend work binges , eventually attaining chairman of
a Toronto law firm.  He had never taken part in any more parties and had
not remarried either.  Aside from work , Jac was his life , although he
tried to remain distant because of Jill's "abomination" pronouncement . 
Robert was proud to be Jac's father.  He had never given up on returning to
Jill, but in the thirteen years of turmoil with her there seemed to be no
way for him to talk to Jill , because of the divorce court decree.

   Jac was always in sports of some description.  There had been wrestling
and kungfu , baseball, hockey for a couple of years and currently swimming
in the hockey off-season .  Robert had warned Jac, about approaches from
older men and woman.  Because Jac had no mother, he was conscious of his
dad's words, more so, than most kids .  Jac also knew himself .  In locker
rooms and track and field, and swimming, and even his dad's company picnic,
Jac knew the effect that his presence had on other kids and adults.  His
discovery of his prepuce three years ago allowed him to release tension and
study himself as his body advanced through puberty.  Jac knew the exact day
that his body had first produced the clear fluids available to his thirteen
year old boy hood.  He had never pushed his prepuce all the way down, but
had asked his dad about it.  He knew that someday it would slide down when
it was ready, but his dad had not explained what ready was.  Several
attempts had been made by other boys and girls and a Sunday school teacher
to touch Jac.  He knew from his dad's instructions , that his mind and body
did not need excitation from other boys or girls in the locker rooms and
swim classes and hockey teams and baseball teams .  Definitely he was mean
to the Sunday school teacher, telling his father , and that was the last
visit to any church .  One girl at his dad's company picnic on a hot day in
July had managed to get his shirt off once.  Jac thought about her
sometimes, symmetrical brown eyes, set wide apart, south east Asian face,
and about the touch of her fingers on his pectoral muscles.  He knew that
his body would accept her if they had continued to see each other.  He
chose to bury himself in as many activities as required , "to delay the
inevitable as his dad had explained", once.

   All these thoughts mingled in Jac's brain as he checked the kitchen
door, found it unlocked.  He removed his shoes and walked through the rooms
calling for Jos.  "Might as well check upstairs", reasoned Jac imagining
that Jos might be, still sleeping.  Jac saw his chance to relieve some
water as he passed the toilette.  He could see himself in the bathroom
mirror and also the un-mounted mirror leaning on the bathroom wall.  "Kind
of neat", he thought watching his penis unload a yellow stream of water
drilling into the bowl.  "Peeing is always fun", he mused as he pushed the
foreskin slightly to tighten the glans into a nozzle.  The fast flow
drilled into the bowl in his game to break as many bubbles as possible.  "I
wonder if I could play this game with Jos".  Jac had urinated into a common
toilette with other team members.  "Pissing with the boys to break
bubbles", was a favorite game.  Somehow the toilette bowl always won, at
least until the flush took it away" .

   Next, Jac checked in the bedrooms and found only neatly made beds.  He
returned to the bedroom nearest the bathroom and sat on the bed.  The early
morning taxi ride and yesterdays activities caught up.  Jac relaxed back on
the bed.  He pushed himself back till his legs were supported , socks
hanging over the end.  Jac could feel himself getting sleepy as sun rays
streamed through the farm house windows making a rosy glow on the walls
across from the bed.

   The twins arrived at Joshua's house.  They felt the unlocked door and
crept inside, half expecting Joshua to appear from no where.  The twins had
grown up in this house and knew all the hiding places.  They searched
silently, basement, main floor and then crept upstairs.  With silly grins ,
noticed Jos sleeping soundly on his bed.  He was dressed better than usual,
but they presumed it was Jos.  Jen and Jes retreated to the kitchen and
made final plans according to Jos' birthday wish.  "Just for the fun of
it", mused both girls.  "Lets immobilize him and then move in for the fun."
Jac still slept on Joshua's bed.  Dreams of a south east Asian girl with
large brown eyes entertained his brain and other parts.

   The twins began to massage Joshua's wrists very gently.  Jac snuggled a
bit into the bed.

   Jen and Jes looked at each other.  Joshua seemed to smell different from
usual.  "He smells even sexier than last week", agreed the girls.

   Jen and Jes had already decided that Jen was to be Jos' girl, based on
the experience in the forest with birthing the calf.  Jes' argument that
"Jos penetrated me first", was overcome by Jen's argument that Jos had
bonded with Jen during their two hour love session on the stream bank.  At
first Jes had argued that she wanted to enjoy Jos in the same way that Jen
had loved him.  The arguments however bogged down when both twins looked
into the future.  Society would not allow one boy to have two wives,
regardless of twins.  The final consensus between the twins: "Joshua and
Jennifer forever".  Jessica would always stay with her sister but must be
an outsider to the love between Jos and Jen.  Jess then told Jen about her
dream.  In the the dream their were two identical Jos.  The two boys were
alike in every way.  Both were fifteen years old, five foot nine and one
half inches, 130 pounds.  Both boys had blue eyes, blond hair, and flat
stomachs.  Both boys were innocent, caring and sensitive.  Both boys had no
idea of the effect they had on girls.  Jen confided to Jess that some
dreams come true.  At that point the girls began to undress.

   "Lets begin", whispered the girls.  They retreated from the room and
completely stripped off their clothes.  Jen, of course would take the
drivers seat this time.  Both twins re-entered Joshua's bed room on tip
toes.  They padded silently to Jos' bed.

   Gently, Jes positioned herself near the presumed Joshua's head and
shoulders and Jen positioned herself close to his knees.  Jes ran her
fingers very lightly along Jac's shirt massaging the collar bone area and
Jen moved her fingers lightly over his thigh.  Jac seemed to snuggle into a
deeper sleep.

   Jes ran her finger tips along Jac's neck being sure not to rub against
the flow of the blond hairs.  Jen let her fingers brush gently over Jac's
knees toward his thighs.  The twins kept in constant eye contact with Jac's
sleeping face.  They planned to touch as much of his body as possible
without awakening him.  The twins also checked his trousers over the tube,
in order to know when arousal started.  Even with Josh sleeping they
reasoned that the tube would respond on its own terms, with no conscious
thought.

   The presumed Joshua's neck relaxed as he appeared to enjoy the
attention.

   After five minutes no arousal had occurred since there was no tenting of
the trousers, but, instead, the boy had drifted into a deeper sleep.  Jen
remained concentrating on light massage of the legs and knees.  Jen's
fingers touched the palms of Joshua's hands and both twins noted the
increased curl of the fingers as there finger tips contacted his palms.

   Jes advanced her gentle massage to the presumed Joshua's pectoral
muscles.  She undid two shirt buttons and made direct contact with her
fingers on Jac's chest between his pectoral muscles.  Those muscles are
huge thought Jes.  I did not realize Joshua's pectoral muscles had grown so
quickly.  The presumed Joshua's smell also began to intrigue her.  It was
different than last week and she did not know why.  "Can a boy change his
smell", she whispered to Jen?  Jen moved her nose close to the palm of
Jac's hand.  "He does smell different", whispered Jen, "Lets check deeper".

   Jac (to the twins-Jos) seemed more relaxed than before.

   Jes undid the top button on his shirt and moved finger tips along Jac's
collar bone.  Jen undid Joshua's belt buckle.  She noted that he did not
need a belt at all.  The buckle was loose.  It came un-done easily without
disturbing Jac's sleep.

   Jes massaged the pectoral muscles gently.  She undid the remaining shirt
button above the belt, while Jen carefully - carefully undid the pubic
button on Jac's jeans.  Again, the buttons appeared to hold nothing.  The
trousers just clung to his hips because of his shape and flatness of his
stomach.  The twins noticed a slight shift of Joshua's body, but no wake up
signs.  Jen fingers began the delicate task of un-doing the three buttons
that protected the private parts of the presumed Joshua's jeans.

   Jes' fingers circled the tiny male breasts on Joshua's chest.  She
massaged the pectoral muscles and included the breasts.  Jen located soft
cottony under ware briefs.  The waste band was soft elastic which she
lifted gently.  It looked like the word "C-IN2" on the band.  Both twins
could see the penis farther inside the soft cloth pouch.  They consulted on
the best way to get to it without waking the presumed Joshua.

   Jac continued sleeping.  He dreamed of his father's company picnic, of a
beautiful brown eyed girl named Wenika.  "Wenika, not now", murmured his
lips, "I cannot do this now".

   The twins looked at each other.  Did Joshua say, "Wenika not now"? 
whispered Jes.  "Who is Wenika"?  They looked at the presumed Joshua's
under wear pouch.  Something was growing inside.

   Jes began to sooth his lips with the soft prints of her fingers.  Jen
nodded at the socks.  With Jes' one hand caressing the lips and the other
soothing his pectoral muscles, Jen slid each sock to the ankle.

   Jac moved his head and shoulders.  The girls expected wake up.  Instead
his lips seemed to expect a kiss.  "Lets do it", Jen mouthed the words
silently.  Jes bent over the presumed Joshua's lips .  She moved her lips
close to his lips, till she could feel the heat from the presumed Joshua's
face .  Gently, her lips contacted Jac's lips.

   The kiss lasted a whole minute .  Jac continued rhythmic breathing
through his nose.  His under wear pouch was bulging a bit.

   "Wenika", you have pretty eyes", continued Jac.

   Jen slid the C-IN2 waist band and the trousers down the presumed
Joshua's belly over the soft blond hairs.  "I never saw these briefs
before" .  She used her fingers along the smooth skin on his hips to move
the trousers and underwear away toward the presumed Joshua's knees.  Slowly
she lowered her lips to the semi erect tube.  She could feel pulsations
with her tongue along the dorsal side of the tube.

   "Wenika, pleeease do it", murmured Jac.

   Jen examined the long foreskin with her lips and tongue.  She felt the
heat and pulsations ramping upward as Jac's pectoral muscles relaxed and
blood redirected to his tube.  Jes committed to another long long kiss, her
tongue met up with the presumed Joshua's tongue, while her fingers slid
inside his shirt massaging the neck, chest muscles and rolling the nipples
between her fingers each time they passed close to a nipple.

   Jen began to slide her tongue around the presumed Joshua's penis.  She
suctioned on the foreskin, getting new taste sensations as the glans pushed
closer to her lips.  The foreskin seemed to slip back a bit showing the
glans tip.  Jen took a taste of the glans.  Her body accepted it eagerly,
but her mind wondered again.  She with drew her lips and used her fingers
to pull the foreskin forward over the glans, and began to communicate with
Jes, as her fingers continued a gentle glans down and up motion.

   "Jes", asked Jen, "Can a boy change his taste".  "No, not really" said
Jes, "How would he do that"?  "Perhaps he eats different foods, uses
different deodorants, different shaving lotions"?  "Wait", said Jes,
"Joshua doesn't put anything on his body, no deodorants, and no lotions"
"What about different foods", replied Jen?  "Maybe Jill bought a different
kind of soap or shampoo"?

   All the while during their whispered conversation Joshua's twin brother
laid back on Joshua's bed.  The twins thought that he was Joshua and the
twins continued massaging.  Jes continued on his chest, rib cage pectoral
muscles and belly and biceps and shoulders as she pushed his open shirt
farther and farther open.  Jen continued rolling his foreskin around in her
fingers, and sliding it up and down in slow motion.  Jac's dream of Wenika
grew intense.  He was still at his dad's company picnic.  He was thirteen
years old, had promised himself to avoid sex for another year, but the
promises were evaporating from his mind as the dream progressed.

   "Joshua doesn't change his foods", whispered Jen, "He eats whatever his
mother brings home, and she eats a steady diet.  Lots of times he does not
even eat lunch".

   "Anyway", responded Jes, "How different is the taste in reality."

   Jen motioned to Jes, "Take a look-see-smell".

   Jes was sitting on the bed over Jac's shoulder.  She leaned forward to
check what she thought was Joshua's tube, but could not reach.  Carefully
she placed one knee on the other side of Jac's head supported herself on
her hands as she paralleled herself above Jac without touching and
awakening him.  Her tongue slipped forward as her face moved along Jac's
rib cage, along his belly, over the corrugations of the six pack of stomach
muscles, past the indented belly button.  "H'mm , I guess the handle bar
bruise would be gone by now" .  Her tongue entered the belly button and
tasted.  Drops of colorless fluid from Jac's glans were everywhere.  Her
tongue tasted the drops on the tip of the foreskin and on Jen fingers as
they slow motioned the skin.  Her lips pushed against Jen fingers slowly
displacing Jes, finger tips along the shaft allowing her tongue under the
glans to the area where the tongue sensed the most taste.

   Jac's dream was pushing his endurance to extreme.  He was barely
thirteen years old in the dream, and Wenika's tongue was asking for
something he had only discovered a few weeks before while playing in his
bedroom.  Jac's logical brain was determined not to go all the way, until
he had discovered him self for at least a year, but real sensations were
flooding his lower abdomen.  "Please please Wenika" , murmured Jac, but the
sound was lost into Jessica's abdomen, as she was now quite close to his
face.

   Slowly Jes tongue rode down the pulsing shaft, pushing Jen's fingers
with it.  Her lips formed perfectly around the expanded glans.  Her tongue
rode the waves of pulsations along the dorsal hood, and circles to find the
taut frenulum and the pulsing beat of his corpus spongiosum.  Jen's
displaced fingers held the foreskin gently not wanting to force it toward
Jac's abdomen.  Her other hand cupped the ball sac, gently squeezing,
fingering and riding down the continuation of the expanded shaft to where
it disappeared inside Jac's abdomen.

   "Yeah , he tastes sweeter" , imagined Jes.  "And he smells even better
than before" .

   The mind battles intensified in Jac's brain.  A growing euphoria arose,
a forest fire of sensations.  Jac's body sensed the heat from Jes' breasts
and thighs.  Blood circulation patterns changed to provide his lips and
tongue with more blood.  Jac's tongue seeked out the heat above it, as Jes
lowered her face into his soft blond fur.  The powerful sensations of
maleness took there toll on Jac's logic and self-promises.  In the final
decision processes the logical component ( the NO component) dumbed down
the sensations from Jac's abdomen.  Less of the signal from Jen tongue was
demanding fluids from Jac's reproductive brain.  But now his face sensed
the aroma and heat from Jes as she leaned forward, one thigh on each side
of his ears.  Jac's tongue searched her vaginal lips and entered the cavity
where only his twin brother Joshua had ever been.  His tongue blundered
around seeking the taste sensations and heat with no control from the
brain's logical component.  Instinct was over-riding logic.

   Jes body felt his probe.  Involuntarily she lowered herself to his
tongue.  Both hands became free as she laid her body on Jac.  Her legs
separated to the extreme limit as her weight increased on Jac's tongue. 
Her fingers slipped under Jac's waist and pushed the trousers and belt and
under wear toward Jac's ankles.

   Jes felt Jen's fingers under Jac's hamstring muscles.  Jen pulled the
trousers, and under wear and socks down to the ankles and off his feet. 
Jen sensed the direction Jes was going.  She moved gently on to Joshua's
bed straddling Jac's legs.  Jen lowered her vagina on to Jac's knees.

   Jac was now pinned tightly to the bed.  Though his brain had dumbed down
the sensations from his glans and Jes' tongue the action was only a delay
to what would happen next.  Jac's tongue searched Jes vaginal cavity.  His
instinctive tongue found the partial hymen still across the protected zone.
Then it moved upward slightly searching and searching.  Jac's tongue
eventually found Jes' control center.  The feedback to his body and brain
from Jes breathing and slow twisting increased blood flow to his lips and
tongue.  His tongue surged around the clitoris and his lips locked to the
tiny erect node.

   Jen sensed what was happening to her twin sister.  There agreement on
vaginal penetration by Jos tongue did not cause her concern.  Jen knew that
Jos would have lots more fluid for her later.  She had already tested his
fourteen year old stamina two weeks before with the calf birthing incident.
Jen was content to let her twin sister enjoy Jos.  Jen put her hands under
Jes and pinched both her breasts, then rolled them around between her thumb
and forefingers.  Jes stomach and hip muscles contracted with increasing
severity.  Her feet began to thrash about and her thighs closed on Jac's
ears.

   Jac's dream was out of control.  His body was physically pinned by the
two naked twins.  The logical part of the brain said, "Escape, You are only
thirteen years old; You have promised yourself to avoid this until you are
old enough to control your own body".  His arms attempted to rise but could
not move.  His legs tried to close together but they were pinned under Jen.
The pleasure and reproductive instincts in Jac's brain were in forest fire.
Nothing could stop the inferno of sensations raining down on his self.  At
the same time his tongue and lips had become a probe for the glans
sensations being dumbed down by his logic brain.  Jac's tongue flicked
against Jes.  His lips began to suck on her erect post.

   Guttural sounds escaped from Jes.  Jen tightened the pinching of her
breasts.  Jen could feel Jac's leg muscles flexing and his knees rubbing on
her vagina.  Jes' lips were locked on Jac's penis.  Her tongue was
uncontrollable as spasms of euphoria started in her lower abdomen and arced
from the spinal canal to her brain and organs.  Her skin flushed blood red
wherever it touched Jac.  Jac's skin flushed red in response.  The forest
fire raging inside Jac and Jes began to flash burn from organ to organ, and
from Jes to Jac.  Finally Jac's brain gave up the struggle.  The full
sensations from Jes lips now avalanched into Jac's brain via the expanded
glans deep in her mouth.  Jes' fingers gripped Jac's waist and ass cheeks
with the full power a sixteen year old girl could create.  All ten fingers
squeezed along the pulsing shaft, from Jac's ball sac to his anus and
partially invading the area no one had ever touched.  Jes' fingers felt the
turbulence in his balls and the fire hose pulsations.

   Jac's eyes opened as the dream crashed into a burning forest .  His
tongue and lips were closer to a girl than he could ever have imagined . 
Jac's brain remembered that he was now fifteen years old on his birthday ,
not thirteen as in the dream.  A huge relaxation swept over his body .  Jac
knew his lower abdomen was already past the point of no return.  He could
feel Jes' fingers cradling his balls , and penal sheath.  His body became
conscious of Jes's thrashing legs and his own tongue and lips locked to
Jes' quivering post .  Jes could not lift herself off Jac, -his arms
restricted.  Sensations from Jac's glans overloaded his brain.  The top of
his head was going to blow off as each contraction pumped fluid into Jess'
throat.  Super sensitization occurred where Jess and Jac's skin compressed
together.  Each pulse of semen echoed euphoria between their bodies.

   Jen could see boy semen running from Jes mouth.  She appeared to be over
loaded but unable to raise off Jac's trembling body.  His strong arms
clasped Jess closer as he breathed her taste and smell, his brain looking
for any stimuli to deflect the wild euphoria coming from his glans and
foreskin.  Pulse after pulse of semen pumped into Jes' mouth.  Gradually
Jac's abdomen unloaded the last spurts of semen.  His hands released Jes
and lifted her off his face.  Jen continued to watch as Jes removed herself
from Jac's face.  She smiled and Jac smiled back.

   Jac looked at Jen's sparkling blue eyes and bright blond hair, then at
his still hard exposed glans, foreskin locked at the top of his shaft .  He
reached for Jens hand and pulled her forward letting her settle gently on
his shaft.  Jen lowered herself slowly as the shaft occupied all the space
in her body .  Jac's strong arms steadied her body till it engulfed his
shaft.  She closed her legs putting intense stimulation on Jac.  His body
began to respond involuntarily to Jen's movements , hips lifting forward,
as Jen settled gently on his pubis .  Jen's mouth moved forward to connect
with Jac's mouth, her tongue tasted his mouth and left over fluids from
Jes.

   Jes recovered from the mouth full of semen.  She also imagined that
Joshua had somehow changed his smell and taste.  Looking for a way to help,
she lifted Jac's arms and shoulders free of his shirt and pulled it from
under him.  She stood up to marvel at the blond hair, symmetrical face. 
"Joshua's isn't smiling like usual", she noticed.  Her eyes studied the
pectoral muscles, "very large for his age, like a swimmer".

   Jac's arms wrapped around Jen's hips, his strong hands gripped her waist
and controlled her movements.  He began to slow her body movement till the
over loaded sensations on his shaft stabilized.  Jen had to synchronize her
movement with Jac.  Her control center was sliding along Jac's lubricated
shaft in slow motion.  Jac knew it would take a few minutes for his
euphoria return.  He knew this stimulant would keep the shaft rock hard
until then.  This beautiful girl was going to enjoy her ride.  Jac imagined
that his second wave would be intense.  After that he would find out her
name and what she was doing in Jos's bedroom.

   Jes began to run her fingers along Jen's breasts.  "Payback", she
whispered.  Her fingers tightened on Jens's nipples.  They were already
swollen from the intense hard shaft on Jen's control center.  Jes pinched
them fairly hard to get even a slight response from Jen.

   Chapter 23 Right Birthday, Wrong Boy.

   Jos had ridden his bike to the cross roads when he remembered the girls
birthday promise.  He pedaled north only a few more minutes, until his mind
took over telling him to return .  On the return ride the hot July sun
heated his chest.  Beads of sweat rolled down his chin .  "I wonder if it
is possible to remove my t-shirt while biking"?  as he waited till a long
flat section of road appeared.  His left hand steadied the handle bar as
the right hand pulled his t-shirt up and over his head, then quickly
grabbed the bottom and stripped it upward to recover vision.  After
clearing his head and right side of the t-shirt, bike control switched to
the right hand while the left was free to finish the process .  Joshua felt
the cool air on his belly and chest.  He pedaled faster to enjoy the
cooling and arrived back at his house, his body invigorated from the work
and his chest soaked with sweat.  The bike was carefully stowed as always .
Joshua carried his t-shirt drying his body as he entered the front door,
shoes and socks kicked off.  He finished a glass of water, his ears became
accustomed to a rhythmic noise from upstairs.  "The twins", he thought. 
Joshua went into the freezer compartment and pulled out a tray of ice
cubes. He carried the tray to the basement where the sound of breaking ice
could not be heard upstairs, and dumped all the ice into his t-shirt.  Then
he refilled the trays with new water and returned them to the freezer .

   One more pinch from Jes, and Jen's control center exploded with orgasms.
Her internal abdominal organs clamped on Jac with all the power in her
thighs .  Jen's brain no longer functioned.  Her body gave in to Jac's post
, and her compression power on Jac's embedded shaft was awesome .  Jac's
biceps and pecs glistened with sweat.  The tighter Jen's contraction, the
slower he moved her over his shaft.  Somewhere from within new lubricants
began to lessen the friction, and to increase the communication between
Jac's inner foreskin - expanded glans and Jen's rock hard control center
and inner vaginal linings.

   Jes watched with wonderment as the boy in Josh bed, who looked like
Josh, but was not Josh continued moving Jen at his own pace.  Jen was
delirious with explosions of euphoria .  She was sweating , water dripping
on the boy's body glistening in the morning sun streaming through the
window.  Jes went over to the window and tried to open it.  She began to
shift the big glass frame knowing that it would take a minute or two to
raise it.

   Jos could still discern a sound above.  He softly climbed the stairs
carrying the t-shirt full of ice.

   Josh peered into his room.  He could see Jen's lithe body snuggled into
his bed.  The noise was like a musical hum coming from Jen's throat each
time her abdomen sank on to his bed.  "That's just so lesbian", thought
Joshua as he dived thru the door and pressed the ice cubes between both
writhing bodies.

   Ice wedged between the writhing bodies as Jac raised and lowered Jen. 
Her nipples dragged ice cubes around Jac's chest.  Ice cubes settled along
each side of his jaw and burning neck.  Jen diverted her gaze from Jac to
Jos.  "Oh fucing -C-C-Christ what have I Done", yelled Jen.  "Josh, oh my
god Josh".

   Jos stared at his identical body locked with Jennifer.  Closing to the
point of reproductive instinct .  His eyes bugged out at the surprise . 
Another boy was in his bed with Jen !  BUUT the boy looked exactly like
himself !!!  Jos watched as the ice cubes cooled but did not extinguish the
fire inside the other boys tube.  Jes gazed back from the open window. 
"What the hell , two of them".  She closed in quickly on Jos .  "I want my
share".

   Jes returned from the window.  Grappling her arms around Jos sweaty body
, undoing his trousers .  With one smooth move she lowered everything to
the floor .  Jos continued to stare at his own body preparing to deliver
ejaculate into Jen , but Jen had already jumped away.  Involuntarily his
toes lifted out of the trousers and under wear on the floor.  Jess fingers
found his soft tube and stretched the foreskin gently forward .  She eased
around Jos and kissed his open mouth .

   Chapter 24 Birthday present comes to right boy and right girl.

   The ice cubes delayed Jac's reproduction surge .  He smiled lamely at
Jos.  "Ple - pleee - Pleased to see you Jos".  "Pleased to see you too
Jac",smiled Jos "and just what are you doing to my girl friend, Jen"?

   "What the hell is happening" yelled Jen as she pulled herself away from
Jac's clamping hands.  She climbed off the bed leaving Jac distressed on
his back.  The ice cubes slithered around his chest.  His foreskin had
already slipped just behind his glans like the pump on a twenty two rifle .
.  But the point of no return did not happen for Jac.  He smiled at Jos ,
his face showing unease .  Jen and Jess retreated to the window to discuss
what was happening .  Jos glared , then stared , then smerked at Jac , a
boyish grin of recognizance .  The distress in Jac's eyes and the teased
red glans loaded by taut foreskin .  "I feel awful", exclaimed Jac.  "Are
you gay" teased Jos .  There was only hurt in Jac's eyes.  "Jac", whispered
Jos.  "I am your twin brother.  I slept and played with you for nine months
in the same womb.  Let me help you.  Jos put his fingers gently on Jac's
pulsing shaft.  He pulled gently but the foreskin only locked tighter.  He
began to ease the foreskin in the reverse direction, pushing gently as his
other hand held an ice cube to Jac's glans .  The foreskin shifted slowly,
slowly and slowly to the fully retracted position of Jac's shaft .  Jac's
eyes danced, his mouth straightened to a feeble smile .  Arms relaxed above
his head .  Jac's penile shaft expanded in length and girth.  The ice cube
was not having the intended effect .  "My real brother , my twin , how can
I help him" ?  His nose detected Jen's scent on the pale hardened shaft .
The answer flashed through his brain.  My twin brother.....  I was in the
same womb....."I've done this already with you before we were born.  Do you
remember Jac" ?

   Mesmerized girl twins watched Jos fingers slide along the smooth muscled
lower chest , lips creeping closer , eyes closed , nose sensing ,
tentatively to Jac's body.  "Happy fifteenth birthday bro", the twins heard
him say as his cheek and then tongue contacted the glistening red glans
-his own glans but also Jac's .  Jos tongue used the technique , learned
with Jes .  Jac responded with softened breathing , relaxing muscles into
the softness of the bed.  Brain tethers formed sixteen years ago , revived
between two identical humans .  Ancient bonds forged by forty million years
of evolution ignited , glowed with recombination in the breezes fanned by
human touch .

   The twins mesmerized themselves with the sight.  Two beautiful boys
where one had been.  Two identical boys !  "Jos sucking on Jos|" .  "How
could that be ?  -and yet it IS .  " Ice cubes moved about / melted on
Jac's chest.  Ice slipped between his legs under his ball sac.  Ice , - no
difference to the fire inside Jac.

   Jen and Jess moved to the bed side , pulled bio-magnetically closer. 
Jen remove ice cubes from Jac's thighs .  Jes pulled ice from Jac's arm
pits.  They checked each other's eyes.  They're both real, ANATOMIC-ally
correct boys yelled Jess in great excitement.  "My dream is real - MY
DREAMS HAVE COOOOME TRUE " .  The twins stared into each others eyes and
kissed in tears of happiness.  "The dream is real", they sang.  Without
thinking , both girls answered at the same time, "This is not a dream."
Twin girls faced each other.  "Should we interrupt" ?  They watched the
dancing eyes of Jos , "er , no Jos called him Jac" .  Dual eye sets studied
the process of Jos meeting his missing twin , reconnecting , touching ,
sniffing , rolling , tapping his finger prints everywhere on Jac .  Jac's
facial smile faded , eye lids trance like , body curling into fetal
development position .

   Again the twins faced each other , "This is much more than casual , this
is something deeper than deep , older than human life on the planet" . 
Both twins touched their hands so gently on Jos toughened shoulder muscles
, caressed his ears and skull.  No return acknowledged .  "He is in a
trance" .

   Twins continued to watch and monitor the transformation of minds between
two lost boys , finding themselves again.  Locked into a million year old ,
tranced , communication channel .  Jos' sub-conscious brain could not talk,
but he communicated to Jac.  Soft tongue talking to the glistening glans,
sliding lips floating over the communication post , nose and inner sinus
cavities remembering Jac's atmosphere , his blood, his essence , and now
his pubic fluids .

   "They are tranced , dreamlike , slow motioned " , whispered Jes , both
twins striving to understand the boy twin relationship reforming ,
complexing , strengthening , - annulling the years of forced separation ,
of having known - then ripped apart , and reconnected , but now with full
male tools of reconstruction.  A complex hum of vibrant lung power emanated
from Jac .  It reached out to the girl twins softly but Jos heard a roaring
ocean of love , of kinship , of ancient mammal music , floating , drifting
evolving from Jac's lungs .

   Twin girls lay down their hands , Jen on Jos back and rib cage , Jes on
Jac's chest and six pack muscles and birthday boy button.  Sub audible
music , babbling , lilting music from another evolutionary eon .  Pulling
Jes closer , trying to understand Jac , though she knew , Jac was centuries
away .  Synchronizing to the lilting sounds , the skin on their hands
breathed the power flows of the tranced boys as Jos sucked out the ancient
life forms responsible for all humans on earth .  The girls could only
sooth the process of Jos tears and crying and acceptance from Jac .  His
sub conscious brain told Jos the separation story .

   A few more minutes later , Jac opened his eyes and peered into Jes's
understanding eyes.

   Jen crawled under the top boy , Jos and moved her mouth over is limp
shaft.  "This is my Jos", she yelled.  "I can tell how he smells and tastes
." Jess moved her mouth under Jos' neck.  She touched her tongue to the
ridges on the lower boy's scrotum as Jos relaxed from Jac's foreskin . 
Jess yelled , "This one is mine", as her fingers displaced Jos' fingers, on
Jac's shaft .  The fingers on Jes's other hand cupped Jac's balls tight .
Jess could feel them releasing even after the long slow pantomime of
pleasure from Jac's body .

   Jess kissed Jac , smelled him and breathed his spent air.  Her hair
buried Jac's face and then his chest and stopped over the spent tube .  Her
mouth found the tube that Jac had just released.  Her lips deflected the
preputial rings and coveted the skin glans.  It responded to her requests.
Hot teen blood poured again into the glans.  Pulsing life returned to his
tube.  "Awesome tool" , she cried as she began to lower herself on to Jac's
pulsing tube.  Tears rolled down her cheeks.  "Oh god it hurts", she
screamed, but she continued to lower herself on to her delirious boy, his
long slender shaft shedding it's boy hood foreskin protection forever.  She
screamed again and again in utter joy as her hymen matched it's strength
against Jac's over dosed glans .  His seamen lubricated her entrance as the
pulsing shaft plunged up into her vagina to a place where no boy had ever
been before , lunging upward, opening her canal in a violent thrust for the
first time .  Her body's sharp cutting pain from the distressed hymen
suddenly flipped to euphoria overdrive .  Locked to the high tension pole
and riding down it until the glans touched her convulsing cervix . 
Involuntary screams of Jessica's sacrificed hymen echoed from her tongue .
Jac's lips sucked her tongue inside.  The pain of ripping frenulum and
over-stretched foreskin became a snowstorm of sensations.  This was Jac's
second , first time .  Previously released adrenalin and sonorphins
multiplied and cascaded through his organs.  Fluids and cells and life
forms erupted repeatedly from his rock hard shaft, forcing their way into
Jessica's cervix.  Even as her canal muscles clamped the outer sheath of
protective foreskin, they could not stop, nor did Jessica want them to stop
the fifteen year olds surge from spurting into herself .  Jessica's first
time real penis orgasm indulged her throat to howl with wolfish delight .

   Simultaneously , Jen rolled Jos on his back and positioned herself over
his post.  Not entirely hard , not totally soft as Jos mind switched from
talking to Jac , to loving Jen.  Yet Jen dropped herself on to his post as
Jess screamed beside her.  The girl twins were facing each other , Jos
stretched out on his back , head adjacent to Jac's feet , Jac's feet
adjacent to his head.

   Jen absorbed Jess pain and bliss as though it was her body's first time
penetration.  The girl twins reached out to each other wondering what might
happen , and what could happen next .

   Jen's body descended his shaft.  Ripping away the healed foreskin flesh
from the calf birthing incident .  His stripping foreskin pain switching to
euphoria , enveloped by Jen's hot interior.  Jen gasped at the same time .
Her fingers locked around Jos scrotum pulling and twisting his balls from
side to side.  Jen wanted , --no, she needed Jos now .  As Jess screamed
beside her on the same bed both of her hands pulled Jos scrotum without
mercy.  Her body sensed the beginning of motion stillness for Jos.  Her
fingers noticed the powerful surges beyond his cremaster muscles.  The
muscles were repositioning their responsibility for maximum delivery .  The
fifteen year old body prepared itself for her demands as best it could. 
She crushed her breasts against Jos pectoral muscles.  She crushed her face
against Jos face and forced her tongue into his oral cavity .  The smell of
Jac's scent was still there.  It pushed her into overdrive, and she
demanded Jos provide his sperm.  Boiling fluids were pumping inside Jen as
her body crushed itself on to Jos pelvis.

   Jac's body shocked itself as Jes pubis locked to his groin .  The
sensation from Jos mouth was nothing compared to the shredding hymen and
hot clamping flesh from Jes' bleeding vagina .  Blood spattered around his
small tuft of boy fir while the other couple - Jos's body responded to
Jen's demands with desperate fluid delivery.  His body racked itself in
delirious spasms.  Waves of fluids and undulations of inner muscles
ejaculated once , twice , three times and then continuous pulsations of
fifteen year old body boy spirits.  Both twins - couples - orgasmed
simultaneously.  Their bodies writhed and squirmed like otters playing in
the pounding surf.  Jen's fingers pinched Jes nipples, and Jes finger
pinched Jen's nipples as tight as fingers could grip.  The girl twins
bodies fell forward pushing themselves on to the pale skin of the boys'
muscled chests.  Each girl continued to pinch one breast of the other girl.
The left hand of each girl twin reached between the other twins pubis and
cupped the ball sac of their partners boy .  Jac's hand reached under Jos
knee and closed on his scrotum, at the same time as Jos hand contacted
Jac's scrotum .  The boys squeezed the girls fingers already there,
pressuring each others ball sacs until the groans turned to howls and then
to screams of euphoria .  The other hand of each boy locked on to the girl
above with vicious ferocity , forcing the orgasming twins tighter to the
surging posts .  Screams of delight rattled dishes below in the farm house
kitchen .  Dual waves of seamen gushed again and again until each boy twin
reached comatose delirium.  Jen and Jes rode the crashing waves like
California surfers on the Pacific growlers, until no more waves came ashore
.  Jen collapsed on to Jos .  Jes collapsed on to Jac.

   As Jac and Jes became one, the ambiance of their love crossed to Jen and
Jos.  Jen could not move with her legs locked together inside Jos's
powerful thighs.  Orgasms multiplied through her body.  The boy twins dual
prostates took over command of the four bodies.  Each heart beat increased
the length and size of pulsing shafts.  Dual glans pushed tightly into dual
cervix.  Twin control centers capitulated to the rock hardness of the
penetrations as each boys hand pulled her self to him.  Balls continued ,
ejaculate mode .  Scrotums tightened.  Instinct to eject life forms
intensified .  Balls erupted , displaced fluids pumped to the exits .  Jos
and Jac's body spasms began again in the powerful leg muscles yanking Jes
and Jos even closer and forcing the female control center into collapse
against the shaft of rock.  Jes screamed and Jos eyes watered.  Every organ
in the kids bodies meshed as the fire hoses delivered fluids .  Their vocal
chords joined in unison .  Jos' low pitch and Jes' higher pitch
reverberated thru Jac and Jen and the walls of the farm house.

   It is said that intense sexual activity releases relaxant drugs called
endorphins into the blood streams of mammals.  Two pairs of twins locked
vertically and horizontally enjoyed the rivers of seamen and endorphins ,
testoserone .  They fell into a zombe like sleep locked together on
Joshua's bed.

   Jes mind fought off the sex induced hormones released by her brain . 
But Jac fell asleep instantly .  Jen watched Jos' eyes flicker and
respiration drop .  She wanted to ask him about his identical body under
Jes , but gentle breeze wafted through the window.  Far away the sound of
Canadian geese sang in the sky.  Her head nodded to Jos's chest.  Her eyes
flickered a few times between light and dark.  Jes could hear the rhythmic
breathing as Jac's lungs and Jos's lungs recovered oxygenated breath ,
under the twins weight.  Her mind shut down.  All questions could be
answered later .

   Chapter 25 Robert and Jill come home.  ==============

   Robert's tasks were made much easier when he informed the previous
owners of Jill's company to keep her.  His day was completed by eleven
o'clock.  After two or three calls to Jill's managers, he convinced them
that she should leave work early.  Robert picked up Jill.  They headed
directly for the old farm house.  Neither spoke for the half hour drive. 
Robert was with his wife.  It was enough for him to remain silent.

   Jill began to evaluate all the events before and after finding Robert
naked with the guys thirteen years ago to the present.  She began to
evaluate Robert as she had done when they first met.  She remembered his
temperament and skill at her high school prom.  Robert was always smiling.
Nothing irritated him.  His voice remained calm even through all the
university courses.  They were extremely tough on Robert, with him studying
all night on many occasions.  Jill remembered Robert's concern when the
charts indicated two new beings in her womb.  She remembered the energy and
weight gain and the pain and joy at the twins birth.  Jill remembered the
only time when he had ever raised his voice.  Canadian medical rules have
changed slightly since then.  The hospital would not allow Robert to be
with her, during the twins birth.  She remembered at least part of the
arguments between Robert and the head of obstetrical department.  She
remembered the tired old nurse bringing all the birthing papers the day
after delivery.  She was still partly drugged from the anesthesia.  Names
were entered for the twin boys.  Registration papers were signed.  A pile
of instructions on how to pick up a baby and feed a baby and circumcision
papers were dropped off.  Ads for breast food replacement and breast pumps
and on and on and on, everything in duplicate for the government and every
advertisement duplicated for each boy.  Jill remembered she had given the
boys names and signed all the papers.  Robert had only to drop in at the
exact visiting hour.  Right on schedule he had appeared.  Near the end of
the hour the old nurse began to shoe out visitors.  Robert would not leave
her.  In desperation he began to read the documents piled on the bedside
table.  His eyes were accustomed speed reading.  Jill remembered his sudden
white face and steel blue eyes focusing on the circumcision papers.  In
bold black lettering, he wrote across both forms.  "NO, NO, NO".  IF you
touch my childs' genitals, I will sue.  He signed his name on front and
back of every sheet, glared at the old nurse until she backed away.  Robert
handed her the papers.  "Tell your doctor friend", he yelled at her, then
left the hospital.  Jill remembered her son lying on his back last week
when she backed out of the room.  She was very happy with Jos.  She knew
that Robert was equally proud of her other son Jac.  Because of her old
fashion rules, Jos did not even know that Jac existed.  She was not sure
that Robert had told Jac about his twin brother.  The court decision was
based mostly on Jill's insistence that the two parents be split apart with
no remuneration from Robert and no communication ever again.  She had
demanded that the court provide her custody of both sons, but for some
reason the judge hesitated in the final decision.  One son was to go with
each parent.  The court decision she realized was based on her religious
insistence rather than any logical motive.  In the end, Robert was defeated
but he at least managed to get one son.  At the time he was not yet a
lawyer.  She wondered if he had lost any court cases since the divorce. 
Robert's car rolled out into the rolling hills north west of Toronto. 
Groundhogs played in the fields.  Deer stood at attention in a tall grassy
meadow.  Jill began to re-think her decisions.  Long ago she had given up
on the blind faith of religion and how it would change her life.  She had
struggled and raised a boy by herself to his fifteenth birthday and the boy
had never seen his twin brother.  Tears materialized in her eyes.

   Robert could see distress on her face.  He could handle a courtroom full
of unpleasantness but knew no answers when Jill was involved.  He began to
drive slower hoping the scenery would change her mood.

   Jill snuffled.  She began to realize that her religious background had
never left her.  She had ruined Robert's marriage and her own son's life
based on principles instilled by her parents and up bringing.  Even her
parents had urged her to re-think the divorce.  Her son had not seen them
for five years.  Her son had not seen his own brother for 13 years.  She
began to sob.  Tears , unstoppable.

   Jill cried harder.  Tears flowed for the first time in thirteen years.
She could not turn to Robert.  His life was ruined enough.  She fumbled
with the car door handle, blinded by tears.  Robert flicked the switch on
his console, "child lock activated".  A tiny lamp illuminated on his
display.  He opened his cell and dialed 911.

   Police cruisers jammed close to front and back of his car.  Sirens
flashed and and the message "PEEL POLICE : PLEASE STOP" echoed through the
car.  He stopped right on the road, one cruiser in front and one behind. 
Robert released the door locks.  A unformed police officer opened his door.
She pulled him out.  Another opened Jill's door and tried to console her
crying.  The police cruiser sirens shut down.  Another siren chilled the
meadows.  An ambulance paralleled Roberts car.  Two paramedics took Jill
from Robert's car.  Her crying intensified.  She could not explain and the
police believed Robert was at fault.

   Robert said nothing.  The paramedics escorted Jill to the ambulance. 
The woman police officer began to give Robert the official arrest spiel
while the other officer radioed confirmation of success.  Cuffs were placed
on Robert's wrists.

   One of the paramedics , possibly nineteen years old , put his arms
around Jill to steady her for the ride to hospital .  His voice was calm
and he used her name, "Jill you will be ok now".  She realized what was
happening .  Because of her, Robert was going to jail .  She stared at the
concern in the young mans face.  "I, I'm ok" she stated.  Please let me go
to Robert .  The paramedic alerted his driver .  "Wait".  "Mam" he
explained , "In one hundred percent of domestic quarrels we must take the
victim to shelter".  "It is not a domestic quarrel" whispered Jill .  "I
have been separated from him for thirteen years but I still -- l - luove
him".  Radio's crackled.  The woman police officer picked up the mike.  She
began to speak kinder words to Robert , now sitting in the back of the
police cruiser.  At the same time the ambulance driver re-opened the rear
door and helped Jill down the steps.  Robert was taken from the cruiser and
stood at attention wrists still cuffed .  Jill ran to him.  She wrapped her
arms around his chest.  Her tears were unstoppable.  The young paramedic
began to talk again as he wiped away her tears.  "Maam", he said "It is ok
to cry.  If you love someone then you must cry sometimes .  My mother cries
lots of times, "he continued, "she loved my dad for twenty two short years"
.  Jill clung to Robert.  She felt the cuffs on his wrists, and motioned
the police officer to free him.  Robert put both arms around her gently as
though she might break .  Jill buried her head in his shirt.  She kissed
him.  The happy smile returned to Robert's face .  Jill had not seen the
smile for fifteen years .  "Will you take me home", whispered Jill.  "Yes,
and I still love you after all this time" .  Jill began to cry again .  The
paramedics disappeared to the ambulance and it roared away to attend
another call.  Two police officers completed their papers .  Their radio
was busy with real problems .  Police cars whizzed away , as quickly as
they had arrived .  Jill and Robert got back in their auto and headed for
Jill's home.
Chapter: 26 Parents surprise.
Jill directed Robert to pull into the driveway of the old farm house .
Robert edged the car just off the road , shut off the engine and walked
around the auto to open the door for Jill .  He followed Jill removing his
shoes and setting them inside the door .  Robert began to look around for
the bathroom .  Jill spoke in a low voice .  "Robert the bathroom is
upstairs .  Everything else in this house seems to make sense" .  Robert
ascended the steps quietly .  Near the top he could see into the first room
.  Some one was sleeping on the bed .  Robert hoped to see Jos and Jac . 
Instead he saw the bare back of one and the bare chests of another
beautiful girls , blond hair falling over the faces of the boys underneath
. Robert could see the rhythmic rise and fall of four young lungs grouped
in pairs of one girl sleeping on one boy .  Robert stared at the couples
bliss , fully asleep , unaware and innocent in a complex world of girl-boy

intimacy .  Memories of his young life slide-showed through his mind .

   He remembered his brief innocent time with Jill.  "Oh oh, perhaps she
should not see this", imagined Robert.  Still he continued to watch the
four sleeping teens while quietly backing down the stairs .  Jill was
relaxing on the chesterfield .  "I did not hear the toilet flush"?  "Guess
I forgot" chuckled Robert .  "Jill, lets go for a walk", suggested Robert.
"We can leave a note for the kids, in case they get back before us",
continued Robert.  The note was in Jill's hand writing .  It was attached
by magnet to the fridge door .  The note said, "Joshua, I am taking a walk
with your father along our favorite path.  If you get back before 16:00 put
the lasagna in the oven .  There should be enough for your friends".  The
door closed with a gentle click as Jill and Robert walked back the lane
behind the house .  Robert looked toward the upstairs windows but the
bedrooms windows were on the other side .  "I am sure they did not notice
us" .

   Jill led Robert along the path, she had walked many times with Joshua.
They walked slowly mostly looking at the path in front .  Sometimes a bird
call would draw attention .  Sometimes a butterfly would lead their eyes .
Jill told Robert every detail about Joshua, and Robert told Jill every
detail about Jac .  They compared notes , then added more details .  Jill
began to realize that each of them had raised a son , - a twin with
identical passion and spirit .  She realized that Joshua would be
disadvantaged because her salary could never have covered the sports, and
camps, and lessons that Jac already experienced .  She began to feel sad
again .  Before Robert realized , she was sobbing , and sank to a sitting
position on a wind fall log on the path .  Robert sat with her .  With no
suitable words he remained silent .  His arm reached around her back and
fingers wrapped snuggly to her chest.  Finally Jill began to talk.

   "Robert, I have wasted your life and Joshua's career because of my
religious doctrine on homosexuality .  Religion did not get me a job . 
Education.  Hard work and sacrifice did.  The sacrifice was Joshua .  I
quit religion over ten years ago, but I did not see the damage being done
to him .  I should have went back to you ten years ago Robert , if only
because every child needs two parents.  There is so much we could have done
together , and all the money I spent living alone could have paid for
hundreds of opportunities Joshua never had ".  Jill's body shook with
sobbing .  Tears flowed until her eyes were useless to see .  Robert held
her.

   Chapter 27 Jacque (Jac) gets to know his brother Joshua (Jos).

   Jac's arm slipped off Jes' back awakening him .  He moved his arm back
on to Jes caressing her slowly .  He remembered his other arm numb under
Jos still holding Jos balls inside Jes fingers .  He nudged Jos sleeping
beside him .  This was a neat way to get to know his twin brother .  Jos
arm nudged him back, then reminded him that Jos hand was still squeezing
Jen's fingers on his balls .  Jos hand squeezed Jac's testicles gently . 
Jac squeezed Jos balls tighter , and Jos squeezed tighter again .  Both boy
twins quickly decided to capitulate to the squeezing game as , "it could
lead to hurt".  Then they let the fingers relax .  The two teens tilted
their heads gently toward each other not wanting to awake the girls above
them .  Jac's eyes and Jos eyes met on equal ground , for the first time in
thirteen years .  They spoke low with voices under their breath.  Jos spoke
first, "You are one fucking good looking kid".  Jac replied , " and I am
identical to you in every way " , as his fingers squeezed Jos balls with
gentle touch.

   "We were together for nine months plus three years, and now we are
together again" said Jos as his fingers pulled Jac's balls gently .  "I
wish that I could know you better", said Jos, "I did not know where you
were , until yesterday , when I called your dad ." "Your dad is my dad and
you can get to know me as much as you like", whispered Jac , " run your
hands along my body, like you did when we were together for nine months .
It will help us to know each other again".  Jac smiled , "You know my tube
quite well already".  "You call your penis a tube also", intoned Jos?

   Jos' fingers touched Jac's , his palm rolled over and the fingers slid
along Jac's outer thigh.  "I have more muscle on my legs than you do". 
"How do you do that", requested Jac ?  "Bicycling , probably", replied Jos
, "The twins helped me learn how to ride their old bike" .  Jos fingers
slid along Jac till they found his arm bicep .  "Wow these are awesome",
complimented Jos , "How do you do that" ?  "I swim in the summer and rock
climb", responded Jac, "and in the winter I play hockey .  I need finger
grip strength and forearms to handle the hockey stick".  Jos let his
fingers search Jac's neck, and head, and eye brows and ---Can I ah touch
your lips", said Jos.  "You did before we were born", answered Jac.  "Close
your eyes", as though you are in the womb, let your fingers go everywhere ,
"whispered Jac.  Jos fingers rode along Jac's lips, moved inside slightly
to feel the bright smiling teeth .  Jac's tongue played with his fingers as
long as they were close .  "Your face is my face".  Jos fingers had brushed
Jes several times as he studied Jac's body .  Jes opened her dreamy blue
eyes and raised her head from Jac's chest evaporating the seal of sweat
between her cheek and his chest.

   Jos motioned her to remain calm.  Jos introduced , "Jes, the boy with
whom you have made love , is my twin brother Jac and , Jac the girl locked
to your pelvis is my best friend and twin sister of Jen and her name is Jes
".  Jes smiled again, closed her eyes and laid her blond hair and cheek
back on Jac's chest .  "Glad to feel you so-ooh-oo close" , mewed Jes , "I
love your muscles, and your smell and everything about you", she whispered
, "and I love you so much .  Jac, you have made me into a woman" .

   "Wow - right on" retorted Jac , "Yesterday I left my friends in Toronto
. I have never had friends like this .  Jos motioned Jac to continue .

   It was Jac's turn to examine his twin brother .  "Jos , sometimes I
dream that you are with me in bed .  It is a beautiful dream.  We are
together in a big pool .  The water is warm .  Someone is holding me from
falling.  I think I can hear her singing softly".  She picks me up and
holds me , and dries me and blows air on my bottom .  When I have that
dream , I smile the whole day.  " "Your mother was and is a good mother",
murmured Jes , as she felt Jac expand inside her cavity .  "Oooh laa lah",
rolled off her lips.  " I have never dreamed about my mother", said Jos .
"I guess, it is because she has always been with me , but I have wondered
about my dad , have wanted my dad.  Jac continued , "Can I check you and
your friend Jen with my fingers and toes ." Jen opened her eyes and lifted
her head to stare into Jos eyes .  Jos introduced again , "Jen, the
frenzied blond boy whom you have sucked into crazy-ness , and the boy who
almost choked you and I , with semen is under your twin sister .  He is my
twin brother .  His name is Jac and he is visiting from Toronto.  I love
you Jen .  You made me into a man .  I shall never forget it and I shall
love you for my life" .

   Jes and Jen were still, partly in dream land .  They looked at each
other, then at the eyes of the boys they were lying on .  They realized
that in the mix up, they were at least attached to the right boy, and once
again they had been intimate with a boy who knew nothing of their
intentions .  Jen began , "Jos, I am so sorry.  I did not want to be
unfaithful to you .  I am so sorry .  You are my first love and you will be
my last .  Tears dropped from her eyes on to Jos' chest.  Jes continued ,
"We made plans to give Jos the best birthday present in Ontario .  Somehow
we found the wrong fifteen year old boy .  Tears dropped on to Jac's chest
.

   A long silence followed.  A whole minute ticked by with both girls
sobbing until Jac and Jos chests were soaked .  Jos decided to speak.  Jac
was unsure of the next step and turned his head slightly to watch Jos
expression.  "Jen, and Jes, I forgot that I was fifteen years old today .
It was one of those times when I forgot about everyone else in the world
except me .  I went exploring by bike.  When I remembered your birthday
promise , I hurried back .  It is true that I found you with another boy in
my bed , another incredibly special boy to you , but even MORE SO , to me .
Incredible to you because you thought that boy was me , and incredible to
me because this boy was half my life for the beginning three years .  In
spite of my error, you have given me a birthday which I shall never forget
. You have given to me , my twin brother and man , who has been missing
from my life for thirteen years .  Do not cry.  Show me your wonderful
smile .  I am happy and Jac is happy .  Jac is my twin brother .  I was in
the same womb with him for nine months as you two were in the same womb for
nine months .  Think about it, nine months in the same space, no schools ,
no churches , no rules , no clothes .  Jes and Jen , "You could not talk,
you could not smell , but you could taste - touch , you could feel each
other moving and responding to outside influence, and you could feel pain
when one kicked or punched the other .  A twin feels and memorizes every
part of the other twin , in addition to every part of himself .  A fact of
mammals existence is to seek out and learn new territory .  I guess, my
desire to seek out new territory was high early this morning, and it caused
me to forget your birthday promise .  Jen and Jes ; will you take my
apology ?  "

   As Jos talked , Jac let his fingers explore Jos , with Jen's body still
locked to his pelvis .  His fingers counted Jos' ribs .  They measured the
thickness of his waist and gauged the muscle strength of the fifteen year
old 's thigh muscles and leg muscles .  The fingers explored Jen's knee and
leg muscles .

   Jac began to talk next .  "A boy suddenly appears in this universe from
where , he knows not .  As a boy changes to a man , he learns to love his
mother, which is also his home and then after birth , his father , then
himself , and then his favorite girl or boy .  When twins are involved a
boy twin learns to love his brother or sibling first , then his mother ,
then his father , then his favorite girl or boy .  My mother disappeared
when I was three .  I have not seen her since , so my mind invented dreams
of my mother .  Until recently , my father was afraid of me .  It is hard
to love someone who fears to touch you , but I do .  I spent nine months in
the same space and time as Jos .  I touched Jos face , Jos lips , Jos
tongue and teeth if he had teeth .  I touched his chest and his belly and
his hips .  I learned to close my fingers around Jos genitals , I licked
Jos fingers and scrotum and I sucked Jos fingers and toes and penis . 
Intimacy for an indentical twin begins before birth .  Jos sucked my penis
, his fingers touched my tiny balls and pulled on my foreskin .  I loved
Jos first and my mother left me .  I love my dad but he is afraid to love
me back .  I cannot compete with my first love Jos .  Therefore I want to
hold you Jes, to touch you , smell you , taste you , suck you and penetrate
you .  I cannot go directly to man because I had no mother , but with help
from you Jes I want to try to become a man .  Jos eyes watered .  Jes cried
openly .  Tears flooded on to Jac's chest again .  Jen buried her nose in
Jos' chest.  She could feel his expanded penis inside her .  Jac continued
. I learned to love myself , but not how to love a girl like you Jes .  You
have taught me that I can be with a girl and make love .  It is a big step
forward for my life .  I apologize for letting you think that I was Jos . I
will always welcome you , and I know, you will always love me .  Thank you
Jes for being my fifteenth birthday present , and for helping me relearn my
lost brother .

   Silence followed Jac's speech .  Each teen absorbed his words, remaining
silent as the minutes passed .

   Jen talked again .  "Jos, when you became a man , I became a woman .  A
woman should remain loyal to her man .  I have failed.  "No", replied Jos ,
"Your intentions were and are good.  You were confused by my good looking
twin", he laughed, "It is I who made a forgetful mistake, and it was my
forgetfulness that caused you and Jen to seduce Jac .  Jac is my twin.  I
learned to love him and trust him before we were born .  I relearned my
love and trust for Jac .  "You watched me sucking him like a baby sucks
it's mother , and I re-bonded with Jac .  I am honored that he has become a
man by you Jes, and I am happy for you .  If you want Jac, take him , but I
still love him as a brother , and as a twin who shared his life with me
inside the same placenta sac." "I love you , I love you", cried Jen, "and I
want you Jos" "And I want you Jen", said Jos, but when Jac is involved, you
can love him whenever you want , and let me do the same .  I will always be
happy and will always love you" .  Jen said , "I loved my twin sister , Jes
first .  Jos , it is ok that you have made love with Jes.  She likes you as
much as I do and she is my twin sister ".

   Another long silence.
Chapter: 28 Everything is Right
Twins looked at each other .  "We accomplished much today .  We have
been sleeping with the two handsome blond haired blue eyed boys for over an
hour .  Our intention , was to give Jos a fifteenth birthday he would never
forget .  Instead we made love to Jos twin , Jac , without knowing we had
the wrong boy .  Second we somehow managed to unite two beautiful boy twins
and everything is right with the world .  And third Jes lost her virginity

to a wonderful boy who also lost his at the same time .  ALL RIGHT ".

   The girls statements were carefully absorbed by teen boy twins.  Jes
could feel Jac's penis expanding inside her.  Jen could feel Jos' penis
expanding inside her.  The twin girls checked each others eyes .  " Want
more " ?  " Yes , Yes, therefore revival time."

   Each girl placed their hands on their boy's chest and edged closer to
the birthday bell button.  They pushed gently collapsing the stomach
muscles inward , then moved their hands toward and above the belly button
to do it again .  Each girl ended up with her hands on her boys rib cage,
pushing it down then letting it up in a rhythmic breathing motion .  Then
each twin laid full length and breathed air into their boy each time their
hands released the boys rib cage .  "Out with the stale air, In with the
good air " , chanting as they continued the revival.  Jac and Jos played
along with the game.  The gentle rocking motion brought about hard posts.
The girl twins began to orgasm almost immediately .  The boy twins relaxed
while the girls impaled themselves every which way they could on the two
hardened posts .  Wild bucking by the twin girls, eyes dimmed with eye brow
sweat, twins femaled themselves to the ever hardening goal posts .  Jos and
Jac's eyes began to glaze , cremaster muscles tightened , Jac's left hand
contacted Jos' balls and Jos' right hand contacted Jac's ball sac.  The
twin girls in extreme euphoria , could only get higher as the twin boys
tubes began to pulsate new life forms deep into their frenzied cavities .
Moaning , screaming , screams as the boys tubes detonated inside them . 
Each boy stared into the eyes of his girl holding her face eyes to eyes as
their bodies writhed in sperm delivery and receipt.  Jen and Jes continued
in rapturous delight even after Jos and Jac had cummed everything that a
fifteen year old body could muster .  The twin boys put their hands on the
sides of their faces to prevent their brains from blowing through the top
of their heads .  They held the pose and looked at each other , studying
self reaction , as the twins frenzied bodies absorbed their fluids . 
Finally the boy twins penises softened enough that Jen and Jes began to
come down from their frenzy .  Jac and Jos remained comatose.  The simple
movement of Jes and Jen pulling away from the boy's peckers sent them
beyond excstasy one more time .  This time the twins could not drift off to
sleep .  They had to break apart for wash room activity .

   Jes and Jen lifted slowly .  Realizing they had over dosed Jac and Jos
with sexual delight.  The twins looked at each other and then placed their
mouths ever so gently over the teens glans .  Using their tongues to coax
the last of the boys sperm calmed the boys .  The twins watched their faces
as the broad smile of approval appeared from ear to ear.

   They decided, they needed to use the washroom.



   In the meantime Robert had started to talk to Jill.

   Robert started to talk.  "Jill, I made a mistake, with my graduation
buddies.  We studied law for years trying to get the best marks in Ontario.
That night started because we had never seen each other naked.  We realized
that some of us had been cruelly assaulted at birth as a foreskin
mutilation.  We fell into self pity and drunkenness that I do not remember.
After you called me "God's abomination", and left, I thought that I really
was a homosexual.  I could not touch Jac for five years.  I was afraid of
infecting him with something.  I hired two baby sitters to watch him grow,
because I could not trust myself to touch him.  For five years I relived
your words over and over.  I knew that there must be some truth in them. 
Finally, I realized what was wrong with me.  I grew up without knowing
myself.  I was nineteen years old and did not know myself.  I had never
played with myself.  I had never loved myself.  How could I know how to
love you.  I used to have dreams of waking up with my penis cut off.  The
dream was always the same.  The dream came every time I slept on my back.
It was a night mare dream, -always left me feeling sweaty, and wide awake
with high heart rate regardless of real hours of sleep.  Another dream
returned on occasion, mainly every one or two months.  The second dream was
worse.  A human shape comes to my bed.  I am trapped.  I cannot move my
arms nor legs.  A bright light blinds my eyes.  A blanket is thrown over my
head.  Something touches my penis.  It feels warm and good, and the penis
responds to erection.  A cold liquid pours over my genitals, but the
fondling of my penis continues.  Euphoric feelings course through my
abdomen until.  --- Excruciating pain hits my penis.  I try to move, but I
cannot.  I try to scream but the pain has paralyzed my brain.  My ears hear
no sound, except a voice which I do not understand.  Extreme pain convulses
my stomach and empties it's contents into my mouth.  I choke.  I cannot
breath.  I cannot yell.  I am held on my back drowning in my own puke.  The
pain is now so intense that my jaws crush the tooth buds under my gums. 
They are holding me on my back and I cannot move.  Finally I pass out. 
When I awake from this dream I do not sleep again for eight to ten hours.
After five years, I traced my dream to the trauma of circumcision. 
Canadian doctors did it when I was eight days old, and I can remember the
details today .  After solving the puzzle of my dreams , I began to sleep
better .  I began to hear what people were really saying.  I became a
listener .  It made me a successful manager .  Jill, we never spent more
than ten minutes in intimacy .  I was afraid of the circumcision dreams and
you with your church were afraid of me .  Instead of relaxed enjoyment we
had sex in fear of circumcision pain and God's wrath .  Our lives were
ruined by stupid decisions on circumcision by the Canadian Medical
Association and organized religions .  You and I are victims of religious
based logic , but our sons are innocent .  Each of us has separately raised
a son with the same ideals , fairness , truth, logic and respect."

   "Jill .  Both of us used the best of our abilities to overcome our
problems .  We have survived and our sons are ok .  I know that they are
more capable than we were at that age ."

   "Your just telling me that to make me happy", responded Jill, beginning
to use Robert's logical thought .  "I know that your boy and my boy are ok
, in spite of us", said Robert.  "Explain", demanded Jill.  A silent pause
from Robert indicated his no decision on providing info to Jill .  Finally
complete honesty with her won the battle in Robert's mind.  "Lets walk back
as I explain," replied Robert.  "Robert described to Jill what he had seen
upstairs in the bedroom next to the bathroom .  He described the two blond
haired bared girls locked in intimacy to two blond haired sons , on their
backs with relaxed smiles in innocent sleep , not a care in the world, the
way life on earth should be when you are sixteen .  "The boys are only
fifteen", queried Jill.  "Maybe we did screw up a little bit", retorted
Robert.  "Anyway, when we get back to the house we will accept whatever
situation exists.  Our boys have done nothing wrong , nor have the two
girls .  Do you have any difficulty with that, Jill" ?  Now it was Jill's
turn to pause .  Robert slowed one step ahead of her.  Jill fought with the
demons of her religious upbringing .  She fought with the fact that her
parents had not seen either of their grandson's for thirteen years .  She
fought with herself for the man who opened her , the man she loved , and
never stopped loving , and her twin sons .  Their grand parents will be
dead soon , without ever having hugged their grand-children , and for what
? -a few words written two thousand years ago .  Jill stopped .  She threw
her arms around Robert's neck .  "Its only 14:30", she replied .  "Let's
leave them alone the whole day .  They do not expect us till 17:00."
"Robert", whispered Jill to his ear, "Do you think that we could make it
last for two hours instead of ten minutes " ?  "I don't know", Robert
hugged her tight .  After thirteen years of waiting, the next attempt is
going to be unpre-dict-able.  "I like the "dic" part of that word",
announced Jill slyly.  "Lets just see what happens".  I know where there is
some tall grass where even the crows cannot find us.

   But instead of stopping in a secluded spot Jill and Robert kept walking
as they talked.

   Jill and Robert had walked back the path and were close to the old farm
house.

   Jac and Jos sat on the bed.  They checked out each other's bodies.  Jac
teased Jos about the overhang on his tube.  "It's new.  There was never any
over hang until Jess opened me ." Jac's face confused.  "I'll tell you
about it someday, about being first timed by Jess but right now I need to
piss ", said Jos , but the bathroom is occupied ." "I need some relief
also", admitted Jac.  A gleem of long ago fun echoed in Jacque's eyes. 
"Can we ah, you know, just use the lawn like when we were three " ?  The
boy twins walked down stairs and out the back side door where they would
not be seen from the road .

   Jen and Jes remembered that their clothes were on the stairway where
they had plotted the seduction of Jos who turned out to be Jac .  The girl
twins left Jos bedroom and walked into the bathroom.  They decided to take
a shower before retrieving the clothes.  Jes and Jen both climbed into the
shower at the same time.  They knew the old house water heater would not
deliver enough hot water for extended showers.  They peeked out the back
window to see the boys bare backs down below.  The boys were wearing
nothing .  They were joking with each other and daring each other to pee
outside .  Standing under the sprinkle of warm shower rain , twin girls
watched the twin boys to see what would happen next .  Jac and Jos faced
each other.  Jac put his hands on Jos shoulders at the same time as Jos put
his hands on Jac's shoulders .  The twins feet moved apart into a wide
stance.  They let their bodies lean toward each other as both bladders
released the unwanted water .  It flowed between each boys legs splashing
on the grounds behind their backs .  Jac kept twisting his abdomen slightly
directing the yellow stream closer to Jos' leg .  Jos responded by twisting
Jac's shoulders to redirect the flow .  The boys were concentrating on
avoiding the yellow streams .  Neither boy noticed the twins peeking out
the bathroom window , nor did they notice Jill and Robert down the pathway
. "PC muscle exercise" , quipped Jos.  "What".  "Pubococcygeus", stated
Jos. "What the fuuu, Jesus who-"?  "Pyoo - boh - cox - SIDGE - ee - us"
restated Jos in queen's English.  "It is the muscle attached between our
pubic bone limits.  Pubococcygeous muscles , if you learn how to use them
can change the organ locations in the pubic cavity " .  Jac's flow flinched
sideways enough to soak Jos left foot .  "Geez, Jac , it feels like you
already have control of the pubic muscle groups" .  "Hah ha, yellow waste
water on the toes, one wet point for me".



   Jill and Robert hugged each other with a long kiss.  Robert was facing
away from the farm house.  Jill's eye noticed the movement behind the
house. She began to laugh quietly into Robert's ear.  Robert perceived that
she was beginning to cry again.  "Jill, what is wrong"?  Jill continued to
laugh.  "They are playing like three year olds in the rain", she laughed in
Robert's ear, "except there is no rain, so they are making it." Robert
turned to watch where Jill was looking. .  Yes, the two birthday boys were
dueling each other with light sabres of yellow water.  Robert and Jill
could hear the excited voices of their twin sons as they danced around each
other trying to avoid wet points.  Jac's water flow scored a second direct
hit on Jos belly button.  "Two points for me yelled Jac.  Jos was running
dry, but with one last bounce and pubococcygeous surge he wetted Jacs chin.
"Five points for a chin", yelled Jos.  Jac removed one hand from Jos
shoulder and took hold of Jos' penis.  Jos did the same taking hold of
Jac's penis.  Phase two announced Jos.  "Bet I can stretch this thing past
your navel." "Bet you can't teased Jac", deliberately pulling his pc muscle
inside, to shorten the effect.

   Robert was enjoying the show.  "Jill, do you think they are out of
control", asked Robert.  Jill's eyes were wide open.  She had never seen
Jos as relaxed or as happy as this .  She remembered that Robert had taught
the boys to pee against themselves on the sand dunes off Lake Huron .  The
boys were only two and and a half , a bit over three when they separated .
"No Robert", she finally answered .  "The boys are in control .  There is
nothing wrong with them .  It is us who have wasted the years" .  She
hugged Robert again, wrapping herself close to every place on his body . 
Robert noticed the girls faces in the upstairs window.  A hand was wiping
the shower mist from the window pane .  The faces were laughing and
giggling to each other .  "Jill, who are those girls"?  Jill replied , "Jos
knows them .  They live next door in the new house .  They run the farm for
their parents who work in the auto plant .  The parents only come home on
weekends .  At first I thought they were boys and I was happy that Jos had
found some friends to play with out here in the country .  Then I was
afraid that they were boys and that Jos was a boy".

   "And and the gay thing" .  Stated Robert ?

   Then Jos told me they were twins .  Later he said they were twin girls
and that he could tell them apart." "How would he tell identical twins
apart" ?  asked Robert .  "You'll just have to ask him", said Jill.  "I was
so busy learning and keeping my job that I did not ask Jos about the
twins." Robert laughed, "It seems to me that Jos has many abilities, which
you were not aware of".  "I was not even aware of myself, until Jos taught
me", stated Jill.  "He always makes my breakfast on Sunday.  It seems to be
his day to treat me." "I think he has treated those girls very well also",
said Robert.  He has learned your skills well".  Robert noticed a tear in
Jill's eyes.  "It's ok said Jill".  This is a happy tear.  Jill wrapped her
arms around Robert again.



   "Shit- it's Dad hugging and kissing someone ?" , said Jac, as they both
stared down the path.  "Holy cow", jolted both twin boys." "That is my
mother wondered Jos?", although he already knew the answer.  The twin boys
stared at each other.  "Your dad is kissing my mother", mentioned Jos. 
"No, your mother is kissing my dad", said Jac.  Lets get some clothes
before they see us frickin nude".  Jos and Jac crept back through the back
door.

   Robert and Jill turned their backs on the old farm house.  "I still love
you", replied Robert as they turned around and retraced their steps along
the flowered path.

   Jes and Jen sighed with relief when the twins parents began to retrace
their steps.  Jos bedroom was a mess with clothes everywhere.  Jes and Jen
wanted to be neat when they met the twins parents for the first time.  As
Jill and Robert disappeared in the distance, The twins finished showering
and went to tell the boys what they saw on the path.  Jos and Jac entered
the farm house kitchen.  Jos noticed the new note on the fridge.  They read
the note: "Joshua, I am taking a walk with your father along our favorite
path.  If you get back before 16:00 put the lasagna in the oven.  There
should be enough for your friends".  Jac read the note again out loud. 
"The note was not there this morning", said Jos, "and secondly, it was not
there when I took the ice cubes out of the freezer." Jac's eyes flashed,
"That means that your mother put the note there while I was er- ahh
sleeping".  "You Were NOT sleeping when I returned and dumped ice cubes on
your belly button", retorted Jos, "You were over dosed on first time sex".
"Your right", Jos.  "We were both sleeping", responded Jac, "when your
mother put the note on the fridge.  Jos continued, "Except, er ah ahh we
were not sleeping alone, and we were not even sleeping.  We were passed
out, over-dosed on sexual frenzy with my girl friend Jen and her sister
Jes." Jac worried, "I do not want your mother to see me like that." "Do not
worry", calmed Jos.  "My mother is my best friend".  She will never mention
it, and she will accept you as the son you are.  I promise you." "She
sounds like my dad", said Jac.  "You are right again bro, yelled an excited
Jos, "so why are the two of them separated if they are both the same
temperament?

   Jen and Jes were tip toeing down the steps to get their clothes.  They
heard the boys excited reasoning over the possibility that the boy twin's
parents might be similar.  Jen and Jes had understood from their first
meeting in the ditch with Jos tumbling from the bicycle, that Jos dearly
wanted something which they could not help him with.  Both girls yelled, "
Jos and Jac, your parents are kissing each other on the path behind the
house." "Say again" asked Jos hesitantly, as he pretended not to believe
the news.  This time both girls approached their favorite boy.  They paired
together and sat on the second stair step.  There was just enough room for
four undressed bottoms snugly fit across the step.  Jes whispered in Jac's
ear and Jen whispered in Jos ear at the same time.  "Your parents are
together.  At least we think the man with your mother is Jac's dad.  He has
blond hair, a lot like you only older." "Yes, that was my dad, Robert",
said Jac, and "That was my mother, Jill", said Jos.  "They were kissing and
hugging", beamed the excited girls, and "We should go find them".  "They
walked back down the path out of sight".  "Did they see us, ahhh you know,
playing water-cross", asked Jac.  "For sure", echoed the girls.  "I feel
awful about my mother seeing me doing it", said Jac.  "Do you remember my
dad teaching us to do that", Jac asked of Jos.  "Yeah.  I remember" said
Jos, and I told you my mother, and your mother will have no problem with
this.  "Then why did they go back down the path without yelling at us",
asked Jac.  "Ok, OK", said Jos.  "Lets go find Jill and Robert and find out
the truth."

   The girl twins rushed to put on their clothes.  Jac and Jos located
their clothes spread around Jos bedroom.  Neither boy attempted to tidy the
bed.  They rushed into the bathroom turned on the shower and plunged in. 
The water was cold in seconds but it did not matter.  Both boys emerged
quickly with cold well water nipples, shrunken genitals and threw their
clothes on.  Within minutes they had caught up to the twin girls brushing
their hair and looking like level ten.

   The kids walked down the path following Jos, as he seemed to know where
to follow the path.  Within minutes the kids had traversed the meadow and
entered the shade of a wood lot.  Jos was having second thoughts about
searching the whole path, as he had remembered the note which indicated
that Jill would be back at 16:00.  The four kids sat together on a pile of
firewood .  Jos discussed the fridge note with both girls and with Jac. 
After all the possibilities were examined, it seemed that the boys had
already been seen in a much more compromising situation than just the water
cross incident.  "Oh my", expelled Jen and Jes.  "I have not even formally
met them and they have seen me seducing their sons ." Jos told everyone in
a calm voice once again.  "There is nothing to worry about.  My mother
likes all of you, even if you were over dosed on first time." "Ahh it was
second time for me", whispered Jen.  "And second time for me ", signaled
Jess.  "It was first time for me", grinned Jac with a huge grin, "but wait
a minute.  Jess was it not first time for you?" "It was not and yes it was"
smiled Jess.  It's a little longer story than you know Jac".  Jac put his
arm around Jess easing his body close to her.  All four teens stopped on
the trail and watched as Jac stared into Jess eyes.  "Was it first time for
you Jess?  Er, was it second", asked Jac.  Staring deeply into Jac's eyes,
she answered slowly.  "Jac, it was the the first time and the last time for
me and you.  You broke my ,ahh what do boys call it?  And it hurt very much
and bled real blood and yes I loved it.  You can only do that once and it
was your first time and you did it perfectly right.  I love you Jac". 
Jac's face illuminated with a huge smile as his tongue located Jess's
tongue, their lips sealed together.

   "Ahh, we are looking for our parents", reminded Jos.  Lets try to be
normal kids till we meet them.  "On second thought , this is normal.  There
are six billion of us on earth, and I doubt that we all popped out of a
cabbage patch" A wave of laughter rolled through the four teens.

   As the discussion continued, the kids scanned the meadows for
wood-chucks and deer and whatever other animals lived here.  They could see
another wood pile farther back the the path took a turn around a trout
pond. There appeared to be some clothing lying on it.  The kids became
quiet as they padded along the path toward the trout pond and toward the
next wood pile.  Water cascaded from a control dam on the pond.  It
splashed and gurgled into a rocky stream several feet below.  At first the
boys did not hear the two lovers at the base of the dam just beyond the
water falls.  Then, they could here a low male voice and giggling.  Jos and
Jac saw their parents first.  The adults were beside a water fall where the
trout pond emptied into the stream.  Their parents could not hear the kids
because they were close to the water falls.  A rythmic action behind the
wood pile revealed Robert and Jill snuggled together in the tall green
grass.  Jill's legs spread to each side around Robert.  Beads of sweat
danced around her neck and dripped on Robert.  Jos motioned for every one
to sit down.  His face and Jac's face were red as farmers beets.  "That's
my dad", whispered Jac, breaking the ice, "and thats my mother" moaned Jos.
The twins looked at each other and then Jen hugged Jos and Jes hugged Jac.
"This is not bad, this is GOOD", smiled the twin girls.  "This is better
than good", this is super whispered the twin girls.  Jos and Jac's color
quickly normalized.  "You are right", responded Jos and Jac.  The twin
couples could hear the sounds of love from Jill and Robert.  Jos motioned
for every one to retreat.  They moved silently away from the wood pile
being careful not to step on twigs and dry leaves.  "I hope they make more
twins" laughed the girls.  The boys were silent but relaxed and happy.  For
the first time in thirteen years Jac and Jos had together parents.

   Jos lead the three kids back the path to the previous wood pile, where
they sat around the lowest logs on the wood pile.  Jos sat beside Jennifer
and Jac sat beside Jessica.  Jac found Jessica's hand.  Jessica
volunteered, "Jac, I am happy that you came to visit Jos today, and I am
very happy for you and your twin Jos, that your parents have connected."
"Such a coincidence stated Jennifer, "--that so much has happened today. 
"Such a wonderful summer is happening for us", said Jessica.  "Who would
have thought about how the summer has unfolded for us, and how it has
unfolded for Jos and Jac .  Our vacation will be so blah after this".

   A long silence followed as each twin imagined the series of events that
had led them all together.

   "It was our decision to learn bovine reproduction", stated Jes.  "No, it
was the heifer's decision to hide in the forest when her calf was due",
stated Jen.  "No", answered Jac, "It was my decision to stay out last night
too late, so that when my dad sent me here, I had to lay down and fell
asleep on Jos' bed.  "We first met Jos, because he tried to learn bicycle
riding on Jennifer's old bicycle", answered Jessica, "so you could argue
that, that event only happened because the hay baler crushed my bicycle
last year because I left it in the field." "Why did you leave your bike in
the field?" asked Jennifer.  "Because the bull was chasing me", said
Jessica.  "So todays events are traceable to that bull who broke his penis
whispered Jennifer".  Another long silent period followed with chortles of
laughter and grinning..  Every one looked at Jos who had been quiet since
they sat down.  Jennifer put her hands around Jos chest and locked her
fingers.  She began to squeeze Jos as hard as her locked fingers would
allow.  "You seem to be rather quiet for a change", volunteered Jennifer.
The harder Jennifer squeezed the tougher Jos' six pack muscles resisted. 
Her efforts left deep red grooves in Jos chest but he showed no emotion. 
She let her hands drop around Jos belt but there was no acknowledgment from
Jos.  Jessica put her arms around Jac and squeezed the air out of his
chest. "Both of you are rather quiet", mused Jes.  "Did we do something
wrong"?  "Other than raping my twin brother", spoke Jos .  "No wrong was
done".  "It was not like that at all", exploded Jac, putting his arms
around Jessica .  "This morning was just a wonderful dream for me".  "This
morning was a wonder dream for us too", soothed Jen and Jes.

   Jos displayed a puzzling expression.  Jes and Jac and Jen noticed
immediately.  They waited for a response.  Jen let her fingers massage the
six pack muscles on Jos .  His face remained expressionless.  Finally, he
spoke.

   "All of this is my fault", began Jos.  My mother lost her job at the law
firm because it was purchased by a larger company.  She felt sick about it
for days." Jos continued to explain his intervention in the affairs of the
purchasing law firm, how he had always known that his father existed
somewhere, how he had located his father and forced him to meet Jill, and
to offer her a new job.  "But that doesn't explain why I was sent here
early this morning", said Jac.  "True", said Jos.  "Only your father would
know that".  "Based on that thought", chirped the twin girls, "We did not
know that Jac was Jos, or that Jos was Jac ---er ".  "I know what you
mean", stammered Jos.  "Remember the first day you saw me fall off the bike
and you pulled my pants off".  "What" said Jac.  "They pulled your pants
off"!  "Not entirely like that", said Jos.  "My pant leg jammed in the
bicycle sprocket and Jennifer pulled me away from the bicycle pulling my
trousers off.  Anyway, there was no way, I could remember which name went
with which girl until we met each other after a calf was born in the forest
by the stream.  That is another story for sure." Jac began to laugh and the
laughter spread to Jessica and Joshua and Jennifer.  "Was that the first
time for you Jess", worried Jac.  "Yes my love", said Jess.  "Did you ah
have ssexx with ....".  "You mean did Jos fuck me"?  She answered herself
as Jac seemed confused.  "Yes he did, with his tongue and just a bit of
foreskin whispered Jess.  It was ..just ...." "Never mind right now",
laughed Jac.  Jos is my twin brother.  I loved him first and you can tell
me some day how the story goes.  My twin brother can do no wrong.  He is a
part of me said Jac".  "And I am part of him", stressed Jos.  "Jennifer
wrapped her arms tight around Jos as Jac spoke".  Jos, you are a hero to
me. You located your father after losing him so long ago.  You forced him
to rehire Jill.  You forced him to come to listen to himself.  That's not
an easy task for a fourteen year old.  I love you Jos, more than that I
worship you, I need you, I want you....."

   Jessica wrapped her arms around Jac.  "You are a wonderful boy.  I am
sorry and apologize to you for what happened this morning in Jos' bed.  Jac
wrapped his arms around Jessica chest.  His bear hug forced the air from
Jessica's lungs.  "I love you Jessica, and I love your sister and boy
friend." Waking up from my dreams with such a beautiful girl does not
require apology.  It appears that Jos has started a sequence of events that
will benefit everybody.  I want to stay with you and enjoy the benefits.

   For both twins, emotion mixed with intimate knowledge of new and trusted
friends released desires never before experienced.  The hugs became tighter
as hands began to wander to normally limited places.  As Jes pushed close
to Jac, her body sensed urgency in Jac.  She ran her finger tips under his
shirt across his taut chest nipples and along the newly familiar six pack
of muscles until her fingers rested on his belt buckle.  Joshua held
Jennifer tight as her finger tips invaded his rear pants pockets, and then
slowly creped out and into the front pockets.  When she felt the bulge on
the front of his jeans, Jen wanted to open the boy's zipper.  She glanced
at her sister and their eyes flashed approval.  The boy twins did not have
that type of rapid communication, because of their separation for so many
years.  Jac was feeling slightly embarrassed as the situation heated and
Jos seemed unsure of heading toward the point of no return of which he had
recently learned.  The boy twins stood up.  They surveyed each other as
though looking at their own aroused bodies.  Jos also noticed the bulge
behind Jac's zipper.  They looked at each other and stepped forward along
the path knowing their parents were only a hundred yards away making love
by the creek reservoir.  The girl twins released the gentle tugging and
followed.  All four teens hand in hand, retraced their path toward the old
farm house.

   Jennifer and Jessica's eyes met again, and darted to a side path which
they knew came into the path from a farm meadow, now covered with meter
high clover.  Each tugged her boy gently to deflect them along the new path
straight into a twenty hectare field of blossoming clover.  It was still
damp near the ground from night-time condensation.  The clover brushed
their knees and shoes making a path behind them, into the field.  The path
became narrow as the teens regrouped into single file, Jen first, then Jac,
then Jes, and last Jos.  After a few steps, Jen stepped to the left and
sank into the clover pulling Jac down on top of her.  Jes followed thru and
did the same with each girl lying beside the other, a blond haired boy
straddling her.  Each girl massaged her boy's shoulders pulling him closer
to waiting lips.  Each boy teen relaxed as they sank beneath the horizon of
mature clover.  The smell of clover in blossom was overpowering.  "Clover
is an aphrodisiac", mentioned Jess.  Jen shifted her body to get closer to
Jos zipper as Jes did the same.  Each girl eyed the other through the
flattened clover stalks as they undid the zipper in front of them.  Dual
soft sighs from two extremely relaxed boy twins high lighted the girl's
progress as two tongues touched the underside of soft prepuce skin and
penis.  By the end of the long sigh the prepuces were stretched and failing
to cover the glans underneath.  Anticipation of what happened in the
morning pushed the boy twins to the no return point rapidly.  Colorless
fluids greeted the girls on the second tongue stroke.  The girls worked
their magic quietly until they felt the boy entering the no return zone. 
Then they stopped as if in mid-tease.  Each boy needed, wanted, had to
have, more, but the more stopped.  Jos and Jac viewed each other's
condition.  As the girls expected the boy twins consulted without words. 
Each girl wondered, "What will my boy do"?.  The boys seemed to be doing a
lot of eye to eye consulting and the girls saw an impish grin not noticed
before between them.  Jac and Jos began to shift their weight.  The girl
twins anticipated having their jeans undone.  Instead each boy twin touched
the others prepuce and slowly-gently drew the skin back until each eye told
the other about stretched skin pain.  The girls began to giggle as they
realized their plan had been altered with new content.  The girls began to
cheer each boy on to push harder on the other boys shaft and to alleviate
the stretching pain they began to lick the taught skin on the frenulum side
urging greater shaft uncoverage.  Jac and Jos pain became intense pleasure
as the force increased.  Each girl reached for a testicle on the other boy
and applied pressure.  Neither boy teen could control his own erection, yet
each could see the other was rapidly approaching the point.  The girls
continued to encourage more foreskin pressure, as their tongue turned the
pain into boy intensity spiraling into spurts of musky cream colored sperm.
The girls face nudged each boys hand to pressure even more foreskin
tension, until their tongues and lips felt the foreskin stretch until the
glans itself popped out pulsing against their tongue and upper throat. 
Each girl choked as the expanding glans filled their throat, but each
controlled the urge to stop sucking, knowing that Jac and Jos were reaching
delirium.  There was no point of no return experienced.  Just a low
throatal growl from each boy twin alerted the twin girls to beware of
flooding, as streams of hot fluid ejected from the rapidly expanding
meatus, into their throats.  The violence of the eruption blasted sperm
into each girls air passage but they hung on with tightly vacuuming lips
until the throatal growls died down.  The boys let go of each others cock.
The girls took full control cleaning the last of the fluid from the meatus
as it pulsed itself to exhaustion.  The girl twins tongues cleansed the
glans as it shrank allowing the foreskin to ride back up the shaft to hood
the penis.  Each girl wondered if they had gone too far as they let the
loose foreskins drop from their lips.  Their eyes consulted each other.

   "Well this trip into the clover turned out unexpectedly", murmured Jen
to no one in particular.  "Yeah", maintained Jes, " We are stoked and the
boys are broked".

   Jos and Jac detected the hint of a challenge.  "Are you an expert on
penisolgy", joked Jac.  "Actually, the girls know everything about our
penis", said Jos.  "But", he added, "they do not know our minds"!

   As he finished speaking Jen curled her fingers around the circumference
of Jos cock.  She felt a slight pulse decidedly not heartbeat and signaled
Jes to check out Jac.  "So", asked Jos, with a wink.  "Jac and I are
identical.  The question is: Which of you can get the the quickest response
from us.  Since we are equals , you control the destiny of my tube.

   The girls took up the challenge.  Jes began a gentle stroking of Jac. 
Jen eased her tongue into the furls of foreskin on Jos.  Within seconds her
tongue detected the expanding tip pushing out to meet her.  She put one
hand over on Jac's tube and decided that she was way ahead of Jes,
announcing "that was easy".  "Not so fast" , said Jac and Jos.  "I meant
the race is on to see who can get another sperm flow first, glancing a
wink. "For that you must relax again", said Jes.  "Lie down in the clover
and let me see what I can do." The boy twins did as directed.  Jen and Jes
pounced on the boys pelvis, undid their belts and stripped back their blue
jeans all in one motion.  Next they tugged down the boys briefs to their
knees and then began to massage the semi soft tubes that already been used
twice that day.  Jes immediately reversed her position a straddle of Jac,
removing her jeans and panties as she moved her pelvis over and behind
Jac's head and used her hands and fingers and thumbs to massage his nipples
and belly and prepuce.  Next she bent her head down and began to suck on
the pliable foreskin.  Jen stayed with her first idea which was to suck and
manipulate Jos foreskin even more, thereby enticing the tiny tip to push
itself into her mouth.  Jac tipped his head back and began to lick the
entrance way to Jes, his emotions and reactions feeding off what Jes was
doing to s foreskin.  Within a couple of minutes both girls had definite
hardness to work with.  A reddish blush deepened around Jac's nipples and
cheeks as his tongue searched out Jessica's hidden point of reference. 
Feeling ricocheted between them , Jac's tongue and lips locked on Jes and
her lips locked on Jac's glans now fully extended from his sheath of skin.
Jessica was panting as she pulled herself away form Jac's tongue and
lowered her pelvis on the throbbing pencil with the big red head, already
open to the world.  In the mean time Jennifer had stripped off her jeans
and panties and began to lower herself on to Jos who was not fully erect
but hard enough.  By pinching the base of Jos' tube Jennifer was able to
lower herself quickly on to Jos .  As her hot body enveloped the tube it
throbbed with a vicious passion inside her trying to push itself out thru
the foreskin opening.  Both pairs were now face to face, tongue to tongue
and pelvis to pelvis but Jac was not yet locked to Jes.  His glans now
outside the foreskin had expanded too big to be nicely fitted inside her
entrance.  She reached down with her fingers for careful alignment of the
throbbing head and dropped herself like a bowling ball on the pin to Jac's
glans forcing it into herself the whole distance in one serious plunge. 
Jac's face cried out baby like joy as his uncovered glans raced into her
soul.

   Both teams now began a slow undulation of bodies working on the human
mechanics of intercourse to bring about the utmost joy and ejaculation.  A
period of sexual intensity began which the teens had never imagined
possible.  The girls rode up and down like painted ponies at the circus
merry-go-round.  The girl twins continued slowly and steadily until they
began to experience the boy connection expansion inside.  Orgasm after
orgasm racked the girls bodies as they tried to gain advantage in achieving
the next boy ejaculation.  Jac and Jos could only relax and enjoy the rides
as their bodies prepared another charge.  Jac began to experience intense
tightness in his groin area.  Powerful muscles forced his legs together
squeasing his own testicles into oval firing position.  Jes noticed the
slight change in his six pack muscles as they prepared for what had to be
delivered.  She put her fingers on his nut sac and began to pressure the
testicles even more, even as yet another surge of euphoria raced across her
body and orgasmed, clamping Jac's glans deep inside her locked against her
cervix.  Joshua sensed the other couple getting ahead in the intensity.  He
pulled Jen down on to himself tight forcing his tube into the final depths,
but still his glans remained inside the foreskin robbing him of the
excitement needed to get to ejaculation.  He put his hands on Jennifer's
groin rolled quickly over on to her body making a new matted area in the
long clover.  Jos put his hands around Jennifer's ass cheeks and compressed
them until his testicles felt the pressure each time his body and Jen's
body mushed together.  Jen's fingers found a way into Jos' most private
area.  Her fingers massaged the rim of his star each time his pc muscles
pushed or pulled.  Jos' prostate , just millimeters from the intense finger
pressure worked over time to prepare the next flood of boy lifeforms. 
Feelings of extreme joy emanated from the prostate base of his glans ,
pushing free inside the foreskin and expanding to fullness against Jen's
upturned cervix.

   The teens did not realize the time passing as they rode themselves into
history books of teen sex.  Robert and Jill were walking slowly back the
path toward the old farm house.  They could see a new path off into the
clover meadow and decided to follow.  Jill could see the activity first. 
She recognized Joshua's back side plunging, again and again into the young
lady and almost yelled as Robert noticed Jac's shoes undulating under the
other girl.  Robert wrapped his arms around Jill and gave her a huge hug
with on the lips kisses.  Jill melted into him.  The parents could hear the
girls humming.  Next the parents ears detected sounds they had never heard
before.  Their sons low low throatal growl beginning first in one chest,
and then echoing from the other boy chest.  Ears recorded the rising chest
growl and tension as it moved from their sons lower body up under the six
pack muscles and then into Jac and Jos ribcage.  Changing in pitch now as
every lower muscle in the boys contracted, Robert and Jill detected the
higher thorax sounds.  Crescendoing into upper throat and the baby like
cries of dual mouths.  The girl twins pumped their bodies mercilessly
caught up in their own glorious orgasms.  Twin girls began to vibrate their
lungs and throats as their own hearts and minds over dosed on the twin rods
of unbending flesh.  Jos and Jac at the top of fifteen year old boy-hood
prime had already cum ten minutes before.  Their bodies turned into sperm
factories by girls over-dosing on orgasms.  Unable to deliver sperm until
it was manufactured, the twin boys could no longer relax through these
sexsations.  Their organs were driven by the cosmic forces demanding higher
performance and more boy sperm.  Out of control demand and impossible
delivery schedules could not stop the sequence, the protocol of high
performance boy and girl teen fucking.

   Robert and Jill could not move, -marvelled, - mesmerized by the music of
teenage performance , perfectly orchestrated with the baby like squeals
superimposed over the masculine throatal overtones of their sons .  Robert
and Jill could only cling silently, until he whispered into her ear, "Jill
, have you ever heard the male human boy's point of no return?" Jill
whispered.  "I want them to stop before someone gets hurt".  She feigned a
move to rush in and stop the girls but Robert hugged her tighter.  "The boy
twins cannot be stopped .  They are past that point."

   Nothing could stop the sequence of events.  Jill did not know , had only
heard of "the male point of no return".  Jill hugged Robert back , as the
low throatal growls changed to higher engine like putt putts , superimposed
on throatal gurgles and pitched baby screams .  The teen boys -turned sperm
factories forced to deliver , responded, --hyper ejaculation , oblivious of
all, growling-crying-spurting again and again as the girls rode their own
train of orgasm humming with the sexual sensations generated by the boys .
Jill and Robert backed up slowly as the boys terminated themselves into
frenzied overdrive, not even dreamed of , and tapering into frothy white
liquid , tired-relaxation.  Jill and Robert tip toed back to the old farm
house, cleaning up themselves and taking up seats in the kitchen to wait
for the teens.

   Jos sensed the euphoric dullness, the contraction of his stomach muscles
and the growing tightness of his groin.  Jen sensed that his rod was
incredibly deep inside her as her orgasms rode over previous ones non stop.
She had already detected the expanded glans pulsating against her cervix,
and now she felt the tension in Jos groin muscles.  She put one hand just
below his stomach muscles and pushed her knuckles deep into his soft belly
while the other hand traced around Jos sheath, behind his balls.  She felt
his balls drawing themselves into his pelvis by means of the cremaster
muscle contractions and her fingers measured the giant pulsations against
Jos star as her own cervix was splashed with delirious delight.  Jes was in
orgasm riding on orgasm and Jac had started ejaculation sequence already
when Jos and Jen reached theirs'.  The wrenching sounds of their success
further pushed Jac and Jes into a higher orgasm orbit.  When both twin
couples finally consumed all their energy, they collapsed and rested for
half an hour as the summer breezes waved the clover blossoms overhead.

   Clover insects walked freely over the teens bodies.  Sweat bees cleaned
their sweated backs for free.  The sex induced snooze-slumber continued,
until spiders decided to build nests around the pooled sweat ponds, -began
walking over Jos' back and awakened.

   Both sets of twins rose out of the clover together.  They helped each
other locate socks and underwear and trousers which seemed to be flung off
at random.  Clover stains were everywhere, as they made their way toward
the farm house, their minds remembering, and reliving the recent orgasms.
They walked dazed without speaking, each wondering about the recent
happening and thinking "not to mention this to anyone, lest it cause
worry". All four teens anxious to get into the upstairs bathroom and wash
stepped quickly through the door and into the living room of the old
farmhouse.

   Jill and Robert heard them opening the door and entering.  Jill saw
Joshua first and said, "Joshua hope you are having a happy fifteenth
birthday".

   The teens stopped abruptly, shaken by the greeting from Joshua's mother.
"Aww Jeeeesus", muttered Joshua, as all four teens imagined their clover
stains, as they arranged their expressions for formal meeting of the
parents.

   "I mean ahh aahh de- delicious day for all of us to enjoy." spoke Joshua
in matter-of-fact manner, quickly smiling and glancing at Robert with a
puzzled look.  "Yes intoned the twin girls", Jennifer and Jessica.  "Today
is a delicious day, and ah- don't you think so?  The boys parents stood up
rather awkwardly to meet their sons, Jacque and Joshua, for the first time
in thirteen years.  Jac's mind was still churning over the romping in the
clover field and the early morning examination from the girls in Jos'
bedroom.  He stared at his father and mother and began to say, "It is a
delicious day" - but what popped out was, "I am delicious to meet you!",
somehow ending his greeting with his typical happy full tooth smile.

   Robert was shocked about two identical boy sons who he had not seen
together for thirteen years and second shocked by his imagination that
Joshua was speaking and yet Jacque had answered his wife Jill.  He settled
back into the old farm house chesterfield to regain composure, as Jill
studied Jacque carefully.  Now everyone began to stare at Joshua and the
sweat shirt on his body.  "Did you get a new sweat shirt for your birthday"
?  asked Jill looking directly at her son Joshua.

   Joshua pulled up his sweat shirt belly to read the stamped, clover
stained letters.  Face and neck turning red as July tomatoes, he searched
for an answer but nothing appeared from his lips.  Jacque bailed him out by
saying, " ahh , yes dad and ah-mum, we had our shirts off because the sun
felt so great and I guess Jos and I got our sweat shirts mixed up".

   "I guess you did too" smiled Robert , as he figured out which son was
his, -"Jacque".  But then his mind recanted again - "I mean - goddam, I
have two sons again", two hansom sex crazed boys , happy as bees in
honey"...  A low but distinct "fuuuc me", emanated from his lips .  Jill
grimaced at the words.  Joshua grinned, smiled, laughed and returned the
comment .  "Robert , I missed you all these years."

   The girl twins noticed immediately other details of costume.  Jessica
reached out and pulled a large four leaf clover off Joshua's shirt.  "This
really belongs to Jacque ", and then she began to laugh as did Jennifer .
Jennifer and I have been troubled recently by who is Joshua and who is
Jacque", as she rolled her eyes with hilarious recollection of what had
been happening since they first met Joshua.  Robert and Jill fell into the
laughter also as Jill pulled a couple of the chairs from the kitchen into
the living room and gently lead Joshua to one chair and then Jacque to
chair number two, as the girl twins had already pulled two more chairs into
the room and everyone took a seat .  A sudden silence began.  Yet the girl
twins continued to exchange glances while fighting to control laughter
bubbling up inside.  Joshua looked at the Jenifer,"What are you laughing
at?".  "You", replied both girls.  " Why are you so pale, too much exercise
in the hot sun.  We would know which of you was which if you got the right
clothes on and kept the correct color" suggested Jennifer to know one in
particular.  "Well I know who I am", replied Joshua showing his teethy
smile.  "I know who I am", replied Jacque , with identical smile.  "I do
not know who is my son ", replied Robert, "I mean the son which I know , I
mean I know , I have two sons".  "I am not sure which son I have known .",
replied Jill , " Robert, a long time ago we loved once .  Somehow we
created two beautiful twin boys, so identical on the outside, as to be
unrecognizable by us, and two twin girls have gotten inside them and found
out the differences.  I can only separate them by the smell " , she
blushed. "Ooh", replied the girl twins, "thats how we found out".  "Found
out what ?" asked Jacque.  Jen and Jes blushed momentarily and looked at
each other.  "Well, I'll tell you later", replied Jes, smiling at Robert
and Jill.  "Are you suggesting that some males smell bad", asked Robert
looking at Jill as he spoke.  Jill and Jen and Jes replied quickly, "No,
not at all, but a mother can tell her boys differences".  "I know that
Joshua my closest son has a certain distinquishing smell, even when he is
totally bathed, and that's how I can tell the difference between Joshua and
Jacque".  Then looking at Jessica she asked , "and when did you notice that
Joshua was different from Jacque"?  "Oh oooh Jill", laughed Jessica, "Lets
just say, it was recent".  She tries to brush the cum stains from Jacques
trousers , but only ended up bringing more attention to them.  She could
see a distinct paring of the couples.  Jill began to sense the ease with
which the girl twins interacted with the boy twins, even in her presence.
She felt extremely relieved that Joshua and Jacque and Jennifer and Jessica
were friends as well as - ahh her mind searched for a word "luvers", she
replied softly to Robert.  But her voice broke a bit and "lovers" was heard
by all.  Robert was remembering his time with Jill near the stream.  Jacque
and Joshua were remembering their special fifteenth birthday present from
the girl twins.  Robert and Jacque and Joshua all answered, "Yes", and then
blushed quickly.  Jill blushed in return realizing she may have gone too
far with these teens, and yet she continued.  "Do you twin girls know which
boy is which"?  "Well", responded Jessica, "This morning, I did not know
even that there was twin boys".  Jennifer and I just dreamed that there
should be twins and then they appeared one by one about ten o'clock.  "We
arrived early just after eleven", and left a note on the fridge, replied
Robert innocently.  "Oh ahhh that note" asked Joshua.  "I saw it when I
returned from biking", blushing profusely because it was a lye.  Robert
ignored, - continued, "When I got here, I was going to use the bathroom. 
When I got upstairs , I decide not to disturb you and Jacque, sleeping."
Jill looked puzzled and protectively at Joshua, asking "Joshua, were you
sleeping in late again" ?  Another silence except for an upstairs ticking
clock .  Joshua reddened again, regained composure and nodded , "Yeah, I
was there after my bike ride" and then he smiled with a glance at Jacque,
and laughing, "Dad, Mom, you two are together again".  "Yes and Yes " sang
out the girls, "We love you together, Jos has a father, Jacque has a
mother, and you are a sweet couple".  "There are now three couples here"
blurted Joshua as he eyed Jacque to keep calm.  A third long silence
ensued, until Jacque spoke.  "Yes dad, and Mom, I was tired when I arrived
by taxi and I crawled on to the upstairs bed and fell asleep.  "When we
came over here to give Joshua his birthday present, I think ah yes , I know
now that we gave the present to Jacque, but it was eeeerr we were confused
by Jacque sleeping on Joshua's bed, and yes Jacque smells different from
Joshua", blushing as she completed the words, watching Jill's face.

   "And then Joshua returned" continued Jacque and I got another birthday
pres - I mean he got a birthday present, also".  "Are you guys going to
give birthday presents, since you are together again" queried Jacque and
Joshua and Jennifer and Jessica?" all at once.  Robert laughed, looking at
Jill, "Kids, we already exchanged gifts and it was not even our birthday",
continued Jill.

   "We know that you gave gifts", blurted Joshua, cause we walked back the
path to the dam on the stream.  "But for sure it is a birthday of sorts, -
a new beginning for you dad, and mom, and I am proud of you for putting
aside whatever drove you apart.  For a long time, dad, I suspected that you
did not like me, just because you never wanted to see me".

   "But I did want to see you son , I did and I do".

   A tap dripping in the kitchen sink.  "plink plink plink".  Somewhere out
on the road , an automobile motored past the farm house.  The gravity of
the comment , reflected on Jos' face as his own mind reviewed what he had
said.

   Realizing the wedge he had just driven between Robert and Jill, Jos face
paled, almost green mouth twisting with grief.  A statement that could
never be retrieved.  Jacque , picking up on uncontrollable grief , --sullen
faced , moved to Joshua's side, sympathetic with his twin brother .  Jos
mind began to pour out all the hidden , never talked about baggage of a one
parent family .  "You never called me even once." his voic growing louder -
yelled .  "I wanted a dad.  No dad ever came .  In fifth grade , I wanted a
dad.  In sixth grade I wanted a DAD.  There was so much-" cussed Joshua, so
much I wanted to tell you .  Every boy , I knew had skates .  When I was in
grade six, every boy had a Bike .  In grade seven , they had Ipods and
Cells and played hockey or soccer or football or Baseball .  I played
nothing cause I wanted a DAD .  I didn't care about all that sports SHIT.
ALL THAT I WANTED IN MY WHOLE SUCKING LIFE WAS A DAD.

   Robert looked at Jill accusingly.

   Joshua's eyes were narrow now, drowning in water .  Face miss-shaped by
years of grief and unspoken need .  Head bowed .  DAD , you abandoned me .
You left me to SUCK SHIT .  In grade eight we had stories about Canada ,
Native boys had families .  Black boys had families , White people had
families , mothers and fathers and brothers and sisters and DADs .  All you
had to do was GIVE MY POOR FUCKING SELF A CALL , but you never did DAD. 
You left me, cause I am useless .  I am shit.  I SUCK." Joshua's face
contorted, eyes darted , legs twitched as if to run away, but there was no
direction to run when the pain comes from inside.

   Jill sobbed by herself as Robert stood stone faced.

   Jacque took Joshua's writhing hands.  Jennifer moved to Joshua's other
side.  Gently , she placed her hand in his sweaty palm.  Jessica put a
gentle finger on his chest.  Kitchen water faucet continued, "plink plink".
Somewhere in the basement the whine of the water system pump started and
stopped.  "Tick tick tick" from the upstairs clock.

   Eyes filling with water, nose filled with snot, Joshua stood his ground
glaring at Robert.  As Jos mind reviewed what he had just said , his anger
, tripled .  Jacque pulled the belly of his own sweater off Joshu's heaving
belly , used it to wipe away the water and tears.  Jennifer moved directly
in front of Jos face .  She stared at Jos , a frightened small boy with
glazed eyes and snotting nose , not at all the hansom prince she had
already known .  Her eyes sought after his .  Jacque noticed his face also
, a tortured boy from another world , drooping shoulders, heaving belly,
and tears too thick too mop up with just his one tee shirt .  He took off
Joshua's tee shirt and mopped up more tears .  "I wanted to see you too
Joshua.  I knew that I had a brother .  Dad told me about you .  He told me
, every year on my birthday , he loved you too.  He told me you were
identical to me.  Daddy loved me.  He did love you Joshua.  He did, he did,
he did , fuuuc he loved YOU JOSHUA.  Another sound out on the gravel road,
another car going home.  Cows mooed in the distant meadows.  Tick , tick,
tick, upstairs.  Plink, plink , plink in the kitchen.

   Jacque's face began to twist with Joshua's pain.  Just wrapped his arms
around Joshua's heaving chest.  Pushing his cheek against Joshua's cheek.
Whispering "Let it be said Joshua.  I can share your pain, the years of
nothing, the years watching, waiting, watching other people's fun .  I am
you.  Let me have half.  " Moans of grief escaped Josh.  "NAW oHHH JAC. 
IT"S NOT YOUR FAULT.  IT"S MY FAULT.  I SUC."

   Jill collapsed.  Robert caught her as her legs buckled.  Jessica rushed
to help Robert.

   "Joshua.  Joshua, Let me hear you", whispered Jacque.  "Your my twin
brother , look in my eyes , I'm cryin too.  It hurts.  IT JUST FUCKIN
HURTS".  He kissed Joshua's cheek.  He licked the salty tears from Jacque's
eyes, and somehow picked up Joshua's eye contact through a cascade of
tears. "JOSHUA, IT 'S NOT MY FAULT AND I AM YOU.  IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT.  I
NEED YOU JOSHUA to speak.  IT IS NOT NOT AND NEVER WAS YOUR FAULT."

   Robert and Jessica arranged Jill on the chesterfield to calm her mind.
Jennifer kissed his other cheek.  She whispered the same words to Joshua.
"Joshua, Joshua , It is not your fault .  I love you now.  I am part of you
and I need you Joshua".  She pulled the tear soaked tee-shirt off his back
and kissed his cheek again and again and again until ....  "I love you too
Jen and Jac" "You pulled me through this Jac and Jen.  You did it.  My
nightmare is over ".

   Joshua stared at Robert's dejected face, tears of frustration, tears of
thirteen years without Joshua .  Joshua's mind replayed what he had just
said, and then.  "Robert, I mean daddy, daddy h -hu -hugg me." Robert
wrapped his arms around Jos bare chest and clutched his back shoulder
muscles.  Automatically pulling him close , as though he was three years
old.  Taps dripped, clocks ticked, and a new sound, muted crying between
father and son .  Intenseness of unexplained sadness and broken spirit . 
Something that most fathers have never had , tried to kindle in Robert and
Joshua .  Jacque and Jessica sat on the chesterfield with Jill.  Jennifer
stood alone watching Joshua fight his night mare.  She watched Joshua cling
to his dad, bury his cheek in his dad's collar.  She saw the grief in his
father's eyes.  The power of restraining-order-from-seeing-his-son kept
away from him for endless long years.  She watched Joshua's fists opening,
closing on his dad's collar, and feeling his ears , and hair.  She watched
Joshua's eyes close , his fingers checking Robert's teeth and nose and
lips. She wanted, she needed Joshua, but right now he needed his dad more,
so she sat with Jacque and cried silent tears.

   Robert picked up Jacque .  Carried him upstairs to Jill's bedroom.  He
put Joshua on Jill's single bed.  Pulled a sheet over him.  Stepped back to
watch him sleep and cry.  Jennifer followed them .  "Fuuc" murmured Robert.
Jennifer whispered to Robert.  "I need him too , I need Joshua so much ,
but he needs you more than me right now .  Robert get under the covers with
Joshua .  Hug him like I want to .  Your eyes are crying also .  You need
him , like he needs you.  She unbuttoned Robert's shirt, pushed him under
the sheet with Joshua .  "But you can't wear trousers in bed".  She pulled
off Robert's pants first .  Then Jennifer pulled Joshua's trousers off and
put him back under the covers.  She moved beside Joshua, and kissed him .
Jennifer tucked the sheet of the single bed around both of them and pulled
the sheet over their heads .  Jennifer sat on the edge of the bed with more
tears .  She could hear Joshua whispering , -no er - or whimpering for his
daddy .  She heard Robert weeping .  Watching them cradle for a long time ,
until the two silouettes meshed into one under the sheet.  Finally she
tip-toed down the stairs.

   Jill had warmed the lasagna for supper but no one touched food.

   Jennifer watched the interaction between Jessica and Jacque and Jill. 
Jessica and Jacque stayed with Jill.  They talked low about Joshua in
school , Joshua at home and Joshua's life .  When it was over Jill began to
tell them about her life with Robert and without Robert and without Jacque.
She ended with more sobbing.  Jessica and Jacque steadied her on the
chesterfield.  She would think of some new detail from Joshua's out burst
and began crying all over again.  "I thought , we were ok.  I thought that
Joshua was growing up ok, without his dad.  I had no idea about what
happens in a boy's mind.  AND I was dishonest.  I told Joshua that his
father was gay, and I used that fact against Joshua every minute of every
day of his life without ever telling him, without knowing myself about the
fires burning in my own mind.  Soon he will realize what I have done.  I
have fucked , "god may kill me for sayin that word" , his mind, and he will
never forgive meeee." Jill had shocked even herself with the language she
had just blurted out.  She tilted her head to the sky as though looking for
lightning bolts from God to end everything.

   "Jill, It is true", spoke Jessica and Jacque.  "What you have said must
all come out.  A thirteen year long lie cannot be put out of sight easily.
But I think that Jos will forgive you Jill, maybe not today, nor next week
but he will".

   Jacque continued: "Mom, you fucked with Joshua's mind, but he will get
through this, and he will be stronger than before.  Joshua was strong
already and he has already figured out that gay is just a religious label".
"Ohhh Jacque and Jessica, how do us parents get into such stupid
quag-mires", utterred Jill.  "What is gay anyway"?

   Jessica and Jacque smiled.  "I guess you are showing us what must NOT be
done."

   Jennifer laughed as the hilarity sunk in.  "Jill, your fifteen year old
son is SLEEPING with your husband upstairs.  How GAY is that"?  Jessica
grimaced at the brutality of her own twin sister, but it had to be said. 
"Thanks Jen" Jill shudderred, "Oh my god, -- oh my boys---to hell with this
shit".  She cleansed her mind as the twins watched.  "Forgive me Joshua and
Jacque and Jennifer and Jessica.  I am the one who has brought this CURSE
upon us".

   Jacque countered.  "Mom, there is no curse.  THERE IS NO CURSE.  There
is only Joshua and me, caught up in your mind war, suspended for thirteen
years, kept apart, Jos loosing his dad and me loosing my mother, and Joshua
did not even know I existed.  Joshua knew his dad for three years and then
there was NONE .  HE was left alone with a wonderful mother but he is a
twin and he lost his dad and his twin at the same time .  Joshua learned in
school that he was not dropped off by a stork.  Joshua remembered me as
soon as he saw me, from three years old, and he accepted me intimately. 
Joshua smelled me, and touched me and suckled me.  My twin brother is
identical to me.  If he is gay then I am fucin gay.  Jill, THINK.  You
conceived us , together in the same amniotic sac, two boys tied to each
other in the same place at the same time.  We grew up inside the same warm
watery protective sac, inside you.  We kissed each other.  We are boys.  We
are males , played with our genitals and each others' genitals, even as you
were creating us.  There was no religion in that zone of protection.  We
probably even sucked each other's youu knoow, that thing boys are born
with- .  By religious standard we are marked.  We are GAY and we should be
killed as God's abominations.  Instead we are living, trying to live on
this beautiful planet.  Jessica and Jennifer have taught me and Joshua,
that we live.  We are alive.  We enjoy this planet and everything on this
planet, including You, MOM."

   Jill sobbed again, she cried, she moaned for her boys and then for
Robert.  An anguished scream broke through her lips from some deep down
mammalian brain.  A brain suppressed by her Sunday school teachings and
training.  A training that had simplified her world into black and white.
The training was useless now, the world was gray, and her mind could not
discard it.  Her deep down brain remembered Robert and their first time,
the intimate marvel of two creatures in luuvve.  Her mind was part of
Robert's for a brief interval in time.

   "Ohhh Robert, I have been so mean, so cruel, so fucked up, --- I need
you Robert, PLEASE -- ROBERT ."

   Jacque comforted her, as Jen and Jess watched.  "You cannot have Robert
now.  He needs what was taken from him so long ago.  He needs Joshua and
Joshua needs him more than the whole world , for as long as it takes. 
Thirteen years cannot be fixed in thirteen minutes.  There is NO schedule.
Those ticking clocks remind us of all the times we have not been together.
You can have me.  I have wanted you to find me and touch me for thirteen
years.  I dreamed about you MOM.  But now I have love from the most
beautiful girl on earth.  Jess is my saviour.

   And MOM there is no curse, there is no outside being directing your
life. You know that already.  KNOW YOURSELF MOM."

   Darkness had fallen on the old farm house.  A cold rain pelted the
outside , passing quickly with darkened clouds .  No lights were turned on.
Only moon light illuminated the rooms.

   A click from the kitchen fridge alerted them of no power from the hydro
lines.  A storm was chewing up Ontario , some where out in the darkness. 
Chilling rain stopped.  Silence and cold enveloped the upstairs.

   Ka-thump from upstairs, woke Jill and Jessica and Jennifer from their
dozing on the chesterfield .  Then silence followed .  Everyone drifted
into unhappy sleep, but was it total silence ?  Jac awoke from a deep sleep
.  A strange inhuman sound emanated from his lungs, as Jess pulled him
close to her chest .

   Jes looked at Jen.  The twins eyes consulted.  They both looked at Jac
cuddled to Jes, in unknown fear.  "Jen , Jennifer , ohh Jess, I can hear
Joshua crying , fuuuuu..  Sub audible , real , like a puppy in a deep
well.. like a separated baby whale , like a seal pup being stalked by
sharks." .  Jes could see his frightened eyes and feel the fear in Jac . 
She pulled him close to her chests , smothering him with love and licking
his face .  Jen's face dropped in fear for Jos .  She crept up the steps in
the dark moving expertly toward the single bed .  "Invisible whimpering" ?
Sounds of a puppy looking for it's mother .  The pervasive darkness
prevented eye contact, detecting a scent , a modified baby like Joshua
scent mixed with the smell of clover stains and dried baby boy tears , and
the smell of fear and worse .  She followed the scent , then the eerie sub
human crying .  - under the bed .  Curled on the floor , cold , sweating ,
whimpering , weeping , crying in a language not known to Jen .  Silent ,
in-audible exhales of grief and abandonment .  She pulled him close to
herself , but the sounds continued as though she was not there .  Jen began
to lick his cheeks , his ears.  In the long eerie ancient oceanic howls , a
single word made sense to her ears , without understanding how or why ,
Jennifer understood "daaddddeee" and she cried a silent mornful sound
herself , as she pulled his body from under the bed .  She licked the tears
from his face .  Jos body was cold .  It was shutting down and she could
not awaken him .  She pulled his limp body against herself, uncurling it as
she pulled , but the lung exhales of abandoned baby boy sounds did not
change .  The unknown weeping whimpering wail of sub audible noise pervaded
her ears .  "Oh Joshua , I need you , please let me in ----".  Desperate to
bring Joshua back .  She pulled his underwear off , cajolled , cradled ,
licked him but no response , only sounds of abandoned baby.

   "daaddaa" .  She pulled the covers up from the bed , silently crying for
Joshua's pain .  Cradled , lifted and lowered her little boy into the bed ,
from which he had fallen , and tucked the cover back over him once again .
Snuggling again , smelling his dadee , Joshua curled closer, but he was
reversed .  Whimpering feeling , pulling his daddee close .  Face nuzzelled
into his fathers belly , womb like searching .  Nose pushing , displacing ,
face nearing into the pubic hair of his father .  Jos used the only tools ,
he had to reconnect with his lost father.  He suckled the tube of his
creation.  Whimpering and weeping for a dad .  A dad who abandoned him
thirteen years before , a dad who disappeared, who left with no goodbye and
took two components of Jos' mind with him .  Robert stirred in a comatose
sleep .  His lips bonded on Joshua .  The feedback of life continued and
Jos' lungs began to breath again.  The sounds of death at the bottom of a
well faded away.  The sharks detected no more fear.  Moon light flooded the
bedroom.  Father and son re-learned the biological intimacy of planet earth
sweeping through space and held by the tether of gravity that no human yet
understands .  Jen tired and despondent sat on his bedside .  She wanted to
turn on a light but the house was without power .  She wanted to see her
Joshua to make sure he was breathing , to make sure he had not given up ,
when so close to his goal , but dark clouds blocked off the moon light
again.

   She waited until the boy sounds of breathing , suckling, filtered into
the room , and then crept downstairs.

   There was no more sound from upstairs so everyone relaxed again.

   Jes released her hug on Jac .  His panic was gone.  She breathed his
lung exhalations.  "Free of the fear".  Jac opened his eyes in the dim
light and kissed Jes.  Then he pulled Jen into himself and whispered ,
"Thank You , Jen, and wait till morning.  I love you and that means Jos
still loves you.  He is needing his dad, but he will want you when he
awakes." Jes and Jen dozed again with Jac between them.  Jen sobbed .  "He
abandoned me".  "No" , stated Jac , "Jos has found his dad , and my dad .
Jos is ok now" .  "Come on Jen , I'll show you" .  Jac pulled her hand . 
She followed Jac upstairs, but it was too dark .  Jen guided Jac to his
father's bed .  They kneeled beside it , and listened.  "They're gone for ,
as long as it takes" , he whispered.  "They're gone to a place , even I do
not know" whispered Jac "A place that is thirteen years away and yet is
also now , a place so distant from us , that we could not wake them even
trying .  Jac took Jens hand.  He guided her hand under the covers to Jos
face, let her feel the warmth of a snuggled boy .  She marvelled at the
silent union between Jos and his dad .  She felt his lips quiver on Roberts
limpness .  Jac guided her hand to his dad's face , and she felt again
Joshua's limpness in his dad's lips .  Silent sleeping , breathing , warm ,
protected .  "Jos told me to Thank You Jen for easing the pain .  He IS
coming back in the morning , because of you Jennifer.  He WILL hug you
again , like this .  Jac wrapped his arms around her , pulled her close to
his face , and his shirtless body .  She felt Joshua's heat and strength ,
- his human-ness .  She lived , and her boy love lived against her girl
chest from a long far away space bridged by Jacque for her to confer with
him.  She rose up and led Jacque down the black hallway , down the steps ,
and sank into the old chesterfield.  Jen put her lips on Jac , so he could
feel her smiling, and know that she was ok.

   Jessica and Jennifer awoke again " Its real late Jacque.  Will you be ok
here with your mother?  "I dunno" ?  "Do you want us to stay all night?" "I
will let you have some time together" , said Jill.  "I dunno".  Jennifer
and Jessica pulled Jacque upright .  Checked his face , a sad but confidant
looking face for a fifteen year old boy.  " Jill, we will take Jacque over
to our house if that is ok with you" ?  "We will look after Jacque until
chores are to be done in the morning .  If Jack wants, he can help us . 
Will you be ok Jill with that." "I will be ok" stated Jill.  "Take Jacque
and keep his mind off what I have done."

   The twins lead Jacque out the front door , through the moonlight.

   "Hoo Hooo", An owl hooted in the tree by the barn.

   "Wait , mumbled Jac I need to see Jos .  I need to make sure he is ok ,
one more time for you Jen" .  The girl twins stopped.  He broke away from
the girls and returned to the old house, up the stairs and straight to Jos
. Laying his head under the cover on Jos head, Jac sniffed , and licked ,
and whispered in some unknown language into Jos ear.  Jos responded in same
.  Jac put his arms around his dad and Jos.  He pulled them together again,
and listened to heart beats synchronize until only one was heard .  Jac
crept back down stairs , met up with the girl twins where he had left them.

   Extremely tired again , he sought out Jes and Jen.  They moved him along
the road and back into their own house .  They stripped him bathed him ,
and washed him free of the clover stains and yesterdays baggage .  Jessica
put him in her bed .  She talked with Jennifer for a while.  "Our parents
are on the afternoon shift.  They will be coming home tomorrow, and we have
a vacation starting the next day .  Do you think our parents are ok with
keeping Jacque here with us ?  Twins looked at each other.  It took us
years of searching to find this boy and his brother .  They will accept him
.  Remember , we already told them that we are no longer alone on the farm
. "And Jac is identical to Jos" , Jessica concurred .  "Jessica I wish that
I could sleep with Joshua but he needs his dad .  At least you can have
Jacque for the night.  Who knows what this roller coaster will bring
tomorrow" .

   It can only start going up again laughed Jessica and then she crawled
into her bed with Jacque.  Finger printing his body as he slept, Jes glided
her fingers over every centimeter of Jac.  Sniffing , licking , squeezing ,
soft breathing, and a re-adjustment of position was the only response.  "I
want Jac, but I want him to want me" , reasoned Jes.  "I guess his twin
brother used all Jac's energy also." Finally Jes snuggled - wrapped - and
nosed herself so close that she could lay her tongue on his neck.  She
licked his ears and cheek and collar bone until falling asleep.

   Moon light came and went.  Birds were chirping, Cows were mooing and
traffic on the road dusted the road side grass.  Jennifer peered into Jes'
bedroom.  Only one form was visible under the covers.  She closed the door
, dressed in farm garb and proceeded with the chores by herself.

   Jill had slept on the chesterfield.  Stiff and still tired , she awoke
at sunrise and visited the bathroom.  Peering into her room , on the way
back , reminded her of last evenings nightmare , of her son Joshua coming
apart , self destructing it seemed , and of her husband unraveling from a
hansom lawyer to a tear stained man felled by the court ordered separation
launched by herself a long time ago .  Her eyes sought to greet smiling
Joshua and Robert .  Instead her eyes saw a man , Robert and her son ,
Joshua , reversed in bed together bodies curled in sin , uncovered .  Cheek
to thigh .  Jill forced herself closer wanting lightning to kill them all
at the same time.  She saw the mutilated mess that circumcision had
bestowed on Robert.  She knew and re-checked the perfect tapered cover of
Jos' penis .  She wondered what would have happened to Jos if the business
of free money for circumcision had affected her son.  But the son was not
hers anymore .  He was his dad's boy , smiling , laughing in sleep .  The G
word floated in the sun rays and danced in the shadows.  Gay , gay , gay ,
kill , kill , kill .  "Let the lightning strike him - wait a minute
lightning already has mutilated his penis - ahh I am so confused" ,

   The flames of destruction roared again in her mind .  God's bolts of
lightning may kiiill - but nothing happened , and she controlled the
destructive thought patterns .  Shaking with fear but forcing herself into
her room .  Brushing gently Joshua's ear and then Robert's cheek , Jill's
inner thoughts pushed the training aside .  She loved both of them , and
she remembered Jennifer's words from last evening .  "You cannot have
Joshua .  He needs his dad , and his dad needs him more than this world" .
Then Jacque was talking to her.  "---cannot have Robert now- he needs what
was taken from him so long ago".  Lightly teared, Jill caressed their
bodies from head to toe .  She sniffed their presence and watched the sun
rays dancing on their bare skin .  They snuggled closer together nose to
penis , as though an outside influence was too much to handle .

   Joshua dreamed of a ball of fire illuminating his room.  He dreamed his
dad was with him, but his dad was wounded .  Blood poured from his genitals
.  Still his dad showed no weakness .  His dad carried him along a garden
path to where a rainbow touched the flowers .  Rainbow rays washed his skin
and massaged his body .  --Inside a fountain of rainbows--- His dad was
with him in the protected zone .  He whimpered and his dad held him tight .
He kicked and his dad let him go.  He pulled and pushed and nuzzled his dad
.  His dad nuzzled him .  The ball of fire edged closer to them .  Rainbows
emanated from the ball of fire .  Neither Joshua nor his dad moved , as the
ball engulfed them , hot but gentle hot.  Closeness .  Another boy ? .  But
now Joshua was not alone .  Another boy was with him .  An identical boy .
Joshua felt his face and arms and chest .  The other boy felt his face and
arms and chest .  They touched each other in a shower of sparks , until
both boys had the same energy .  The boys clung to each other tight .  So
tight , that the ball of light could not shine between them .  Both boys
became one boy one body but with two minds .  The boy body melded into his
father .  Skin cell to skin cell .  There was only one nebulous form now ,
but with three minds .  The bright intensity grew touching every cell of
Joshua and Jacque and Robert .  Joshua could see the planet earth far away
rotating it's path around the sun .  In the other direction , the moon
smiled.  A million stars, from a million different times and spaces bundled
them together in cosmic rays , weaving a glowing cocoon around the three
minds .  The cocoon sucked it's energy from the stars .  It grew larger .
The ball began to shed energy .  Lightning bolts ripped apart the ball into
three human forms .  Joshua grew bigger.  Jacque formed from another energy
burst and moved away .  His dad smiling .  He began to laugh and smile. 
When he woke, the sun was shining on him and his dad.  The bed covers had
fallen to the floor .  Joshua checked over the mutilation of his fathers
penis .  He understood now what his father had been through .  He kissed it
and pulled the damaged flesh over the calloused glans , until his dad awoke
.  Robert's eyes focused on the most perfect form in the universe .  The
soft skin of a perfectly shaped penis attended his cheek .  Both of them
showered, without talking .  Robert washed his son under the warm shower
rain.  There was no towels .  They returned to the bedroom and sat facing
each other, drying in the sun's rays.  Easy smiles of freedom glowed from
Robert and Joshua , who reached for his dad, climbed on his dad's lap and
hugged him .  Robert wrapped his arms and fingers into Jos flesh .  The boy
had found his run away dad.  And the dad had found his abandoned son .  Jos
pointed to his genitals.  "Tube dhadee" .  "That's what it is laughed
Robert".  "Dad , do you pee yourself when concentrating on something really
hard" ?  "Yeah".

   "Dad , do you wake up in the night with your tube poking out" ?  "Yeah's
Jos" .  "Do you piss in the toilette bowl trying to break all the bubbles"
? "Yes son".  The boy peppered his dad with ten thousand questions, each
one, answered concisely by Robert.  And then the second round of questions
began such as: "Dad , what should I do with my tube when it gets so big in
the middle of the night." ?  "Jos , you are growing from boy to adult hood.
You are perfect in every way .  Jos I am not perfect .  I am marked by
organized religion .  In a way , through the trauma and pain of my
childhood experience they still control me .  I cannot tell you , Joshua ,
you a perfect boy , with a healing mind.  Your puberty and your body will
grow and react with your surroundings , can I say Jen .

   "Jen for sure".  Every boy on earth will ask that question , and there
will be that many answers .  Someday , I hope to ask you the same
questions.



   Jill returned to the kitchen.  Normally it would have been a work day.
Her mind canceled work .  She wandered outside to look for Jacque , and
found Jennifer doing chores for the herds of beef cattle.  Jill joined her
. No questions , no words .  She helped Jennifer with a stuck water valve
feeding the watering tanks .  Leaking water and stomping hooves had churned
the dry ground into foot deep mud .  Jennifer and Jill worked with pipe
clamps and screw drivers and vice grips and pipe wrenches to tighten a
water hose clamp .  Jill took the pipe wrench from Jennifer and steadied
the pipe as Jennifer applied a clamp.  As the water spill stopped the hose
filled with water forcing the pipe wrench to slip .  Jill stumbled,
recovered, dropped the heavy wrench and over balanced herself into the mud
pool face first .  She tried to scream as Jennifer pulled her out but only
mud came out of her mouth.  Fires of hatred ignited again, but Jennifer was
laughing .  "Aric done that last year she laughed .  Forgive me Jill, but
you are sooo pretty when you are covered with red clay and spitting mud" .
She pulled her tee shirt off and cleaned Jill's face and hands.  " Farming
is as silly an occupation as it gets".  I did not choose it , Jess and I
just grew up with it, and we are farmers.  Our parents could not survive by
farming, so they got jobs at the auto plant, but Jessica and I were too
young to work in a plant so we just worked at farming .  Jill began to
laugh with Jennifer.  They picked up all the tools , put them in the garage
and then Jennifer showed Jill the garden hose by the side door .  "Let it
run slow" , she said leaving Jill alone to fight with the drying clay .

   Jennifer turned her attention to the next priority on the farm.

   Jill turned the faucet on the hose to a slow stream and began to rinse
away the clay .  After a few minutes she imagined that more water would be
better , not realizing that the sun rays on the hose were heating the water
as it flowed on her head .  Adjusting the stream to full speed , she put
the hose back over head to enjoy the warm water taking away the mud from
her blouse , when --"Ahh , so cold , can't breath" -- ah ha aaaaah cold
well water from forty feet down in the earth soaked her upper body smearing
clay and mud everywhere .  Jill staggered to the tap , ripping her frozen
clothes off rebelling skin.  Blouse top , pants , city shoes, socks , right
down to her bra and panties .  Her bra had absorbed the cold water first,
and it was the last thing she removed , throwing them on the grass and
rinsing the mud with cold water.  She gathered the soiled laundry together
under her arm and shivered into the kitchen to find a towel and soap and
warm water.  The distant sound of the basement water pump told her that
water would be available and she knew it would be warm .  Into the utility
bathroom , but only hand towels available , she headed back the hall way
shaking off the cold water pain in her chest .  Her mind was thinking of
cold and wet and warm water and towels.  Around the corner and oh oh
hesitation froze her in mid step .

   "Come on , " said Jessica, "We are about to show-- er".  Jacque flinched
and swung around to avoid his mother's gaze and caught the razor side-on
with the his hardening tube.  "Ee-yow, shit, -Cut, Jessica, as the shaving
cream sting moved into the prepucial cut.  " Ahh , Jill , How did you get
so ooo muddy." -drawing her view away from the obvious.

   Jacque and Jessica had been alone in the main bathroom .  Jessica was
shaving his happy trail with a razor over Jacques lathered pubic skin. 
Just wanted a little bit of touch up to make him perfect" , she tried to
fake a soft laugh.  Jacque grabbed his foreskin as though it had been cut
off .  Blood rapidly coated his hands and dripped through on the tiles. 
"Ohhh Jac, it can't be too bad , only a very small razor.  Jill excuse me
while I check out Jac" .  The foreskin pain with Jes looking for the
damaged skin suddenly became intensely erotic.  Jac's tube was hard as
steel with even more blood spurting .  Jill continued looking at the
ceiling , into the walk in shower, and rinsed off the mud .  Jess pulled
Jac into the shower to wash away the shaving cream and locate the damage .
"Ahh mom , don't look , please get out, commanded Jacque.  Jes laid a huge
kiss on his bloody tool, as Jill writhed in the shower trying to avoid
Jacques eyes .  "Its no use, laughed Jen.  We are all here together in the
buff and Jac needs attention to his tube , -although it looks more like a
straight banana right now.  Jill as soon as you get clean, take a towel and
go to the freezer.  We will need some ice on this .  She massaged Jac's
tube sliding the foreskin around to find the cut.  Jac's mind converted the
razor pain into bliss .  His cremaster muscles pulled both balls up inside
and started the unstoppable.  "Oh oh oh and oooo" , sang Jessica.  Jill did
not clear the path in time.  As she scampered past the spraying sperm
lathered on her and Jess.  Pumping wildly -- uncontrolled emissions left
Jac standing helpless .  Jes put her hand over the deluge of whitish ,
translucent spurts hitting all around the bathroom .  Jill just closed her
mind and ran .  "eeek".

   Then her mind concerned itself about Jac's cut.  As she returned toward
the bathroom, she yelled advance warning.  Jes remained unconcerned.  "
Jill, there are six billion people on this earth.  Half of them have this
thing, except a billion of them have been cut off by religious sickos. 
It's ok , Jac.  The two of you can deal with this.  Jac, I love you so much
for just being you .  Your exactly like Jos .  You don't know the full
effect , which you project on other people.  You are sooo hansom, and yet
sweet , and lovable , and sensitive and lean and fl----".  Jill wrapped in
towels gingerly entered the bathroom .  "Yeeehaw sensitive .  Jac, I had no
idea you could cum in thirty seconds.  You are armed and more dangerous
than Jos .  Except , JAC , you are the same as Jos .  "Physically" ,
interrupted his mother .  I put Jos to bed every night, and I can say that
there is no physical difference between Jos and Jac .  Mentally, I'm
exhausted, about Jos.  As we talked last night, you know that Jos mind has
taken a different route because of me .  I had no idea of Joshua's pain" .
"You are too hard on yourself Jill".  As Jes spoke , she pulled the
thoroughly rinsed prepuce back on Jac .  Both girls examined it gingerly .
The shower was still running .  Jac's face turned red , then redder. 
"Jessica , now mother shit, is there no priva....  Oww , oww ." The girls
located the razor slash on the side of the protective hood .  Jac's penis
was hard again , stretching the gash into bleeding again .  Jill and
Jessica studied the cut, and applied the ice cube, which shrank quickly
along side the engorged shaft.  "I can't stop it" stated Jac .  "I mean the
bleeding".  "Jac , Put your hands up here above your head on the shower
rails, so we can see this in the window light." " Jac you're a fifteen year
old boy , in puberty and fully equipped.  You can't stop the hardness
either" , stated Jess, and you can't stop yourself from cuming again if we
continue .Your mother and I are ok with this.  Don't worry.  "

   "I have never seen Joshua do that , said Jill , but I know it happens in
his sleep.  His bed sheets are covered in goo.  It is fifteen year old
normal boy stuff , Jacque" .

   "But we have to stop the bleeding .  I am glad you are with me Jill, in
case we have to get stitches , the doctor will find out that I cut up a
fifteen year old boy and call the cops.  Strange law isn't it , but they
can hold down a screaming kid and rip off his entire foreskin with the full
force of the law backing them .  Circumcision is pedophilic as God gets."

   Jill cringed to avoid the lightning strike , but nothing happened .  Her
gut fear reaction was not missed by Jacque.  "Are you ok Mom" ?  Yes Jacque
, and thanks for helping with my god fear" .  "Mom , Jess" ?  "What
happened to Jos , I mean the break down" ?  Will it happen to me" ?  "Not
sure why , but I say no" , stated Jes.

   "I know why it will not happen to you Jac.  Joshua's mind was trying to
put Robert into his rightful place , trying to resume his father-son
relationship.  Jacque , understand that Joshua suffered because I used
Joshua as a religious bullet to keep Robert away .  By not mentioning
Robert , it's as if Robert has abandoned Joshua .  By not accepting calls
from Robert , Joshua built a model of his dad based on his idiot mother .
Jos original model could not be reconciled with the new model which I
created in his mind .  Jes , and Jac , make no mistake , I have religious
training , the god fear , and I fucked with Joshua's mind without even
knowing what I was doing .  I am so sorry , and so stupid , and so - have
no words to describe what god fear did to me , and what I did to Joshua .
"Mom , are you ok" , asked Jac ?  "Mom .  Are you ok asked Jes ?

   "I don't know" , cried Jill.  "If I can get rid of God , maybe , if I
cannot , I don't know" .



   Jessica held more ice on the penis until it shrank enough to release the
hood.  Jill watched Jac's eyes for any pain, as she lowered the prepuce to
the penis base, and examined the inside layer.  "It's not cut inside",
Jessica checked the inner liner gently finishing by running her finger
where the cut would be if it had protruded through both layers of delicate
skin.  She tasted the fingers to ensure no sign of Jac's blood on the
inside .  Then the girls re-applied the ice and drew the foreskin back over
the glans .  Jessica held the prepuce open .  As she studied Jac's face for
pain , she popped an ice cube inside the prepuce to cool it , and stop
swelling .  Jill held another adjacent to the slash until the bleeding
stopped .  "You must have good blood clotting platelets Jac .  Even with
the skin stretched over a pulsating glans filled with high pressure blood,
the leak has stopped" .  Are you sore Jac" ?  Asked Jill.  Jac's hands
still gripped the shower rail above his head.  "Nooo mom.  Nothing hurts,
and now there is no blood" .  "Of course nothing would hurt at this point",
stated Jess.  "When Jos penetrated me for the first time , It hurt somewhat
because of my fault .  Jen and I were not sure of exactly what to do.  Jac,
when you took out my , ahh you know hymen thing, it was rhapsody pain . 
Under different circumstances the pain would have knocked me flat , -Jill
listened- but you were perfect , and you are still perfect.  That razor
slash will be healed by noon if we can get a full meal into you .  Jac
looked down as he spoke .  "Jes, did you want Jos to ahh you know, do it to
you first".  "We twins had no plan, really .  There was only one of you and
both of us luffed yo sooo bad .  We will tell you what happened some day .
It was just a silly contest and I won , then I lost."

   Jill sobbed again.  Robert and I loved each other more than you couples
, but we were screwed by religious thoughts , god less sex was like
drinking and driving is now.  Sex out of marriage , was a deadly sin and
sinning made the gossip news of every community.  Love between two humans
could only be sanctioned by GOD .  God could authorize banishment from
family , and even death for breaking the church rules .  Jacque , Jes ,
Robert penetrated me , and impregnated me all within ten minutes .  We were
sooo afraid , and my abdomen pain lasted for weeks.  Then it really started
to hurt later with morning sickness , cramps and ... .  In the end , my
parents were understanding but I was not ok with myself.  I am the one who
destroyed a twins life with his brother , and I destroyed Joshua's dad ,
and I destroyed two sets of grandparents , who have never seen there grand
kids.  Isn't GOD GREAT" , hissed Jill.

   Cold water poured from the shower head forcing Jac and Jes to retreat .
Another couple of ice cubes and everything was fine .  Jes found some of
her mother's clothes for Jill .  She found some of Aric's old farm clothes
for Jac and dressed herself.  We are all very hungry .  Don't worry my
parents are coming in , any time with lots of food .  She lighted the
barbbeque.  "Sit down Jac and relax with Jill.  I will go next door to
check on Jos and Robert".  Thats ok remarked Jen having completed the
chores.  Let me clean up a bit and I will find Jos.  "Stay here Jill , I'll
get them if they are awake." In ten minutes she walked next door to the old
farm house, opened the door and listened.  No sound !  Or was the shower on
low.  She yelled to the upstairs.  "Jos , Robert, the sun is up." "No he 's
not stated Robert but I am".  A sudden commotion of sound occurred upstairs
.  Feet hit the floor , into the shower , increased water flow.  "That
should do it" .  "Can I help up there" called Jen ?  Robert yelled , I'm
ok".  Jos yelled , "ok".  Jen waited on the chesterfield .  Robert and Jac
soaped together in the shower.  Robert and Jos dressed each other .  Jos
put on clean clothes and found some of his larger shirts and pants that fit
Robert .  They bounded down stairs .  "Yee ikes, it's twelve o'clock" . 
"How did we sleep so long into day" ?  Jen rushed to Jos .  "Your my hero
Jos .  I love you sooooo much , wrapping her arms under his tee shirt" . 
Then she addressed Robert .  " If I get married someday , then you will be
my dad too " , swooned Jos .  How could the universe turn so sweet for me
and Jes ?  "Thanks Jen", as Robert kissed her on the cheek .  "You are my
favorite half of the twins" .  "The universe has produced strong kids on
this farm" .

   "My parents are arriving .  Lets go and meet them .  We will have
barbequed steak , and baked potatoes and fresh strawberries with maple
syrup and ice cream and wheat muffins.  "

   They strolled , skipped, back down the road to the new house .  The
twins' parents were already there .  Another vehicle rolled in as she
watched .  Julia and Aric, her older brother and his wife arrived .  Jill
and Robert met as the twins greeted their parents and brother and
sister-in-law.

   "Did you sleep well , Robert" "Perfect".  "And you"?  "No, but I
deserved rotten sleep"?  "Are you ok" ?  "Yes answered Jill, for now, but
no, I know I can never get as close to you as before .  I watched you and
Joshua , sl - ss- l-leep and touch each other and suc-k .  I was horrified
, then I was glad that you two have found each other , but now I know I was
so stupid, so wrong and so everything .  You can leave me if you want .  I
will make no court demands." "W wai wait Jill , You are way ahead of us. 
Whatever happens is not for you to determine .  It is for us, all of us ,
including the twin girls .  Jos has stated his case .  Lets leave it for a
week , and then we will discuss .  For now, I love you Jill .  That has not
changed .  It never will.  Courts of law and omnipotent beings do not write
any more history for this family" .



   Jill and Robert looked at each other coyly , and embraced .  Jennifer
and Jessica watched the extended embrace turn into a hug , exclaimed "oooh
la la".  Joshua and Jacque smiled .  Jos grinned his disarming smile , face
tipped up , eyes laughing from their sockets .  He took Jacque by the hand
and congratulated him .  " We were created by mom and dad's love, It was
meant to beee , Jacque .  We were meant to be.  We are their love product,
one shot and two of us.  Thanks for coming to my birthday party Jacque . 
Thanks for bringing your dad.  And mommy , thanks for looking after me all
those years alone .  We exist together again now , and we have found
ourselves.  These twin girls, Jennifer and Jessica loved me first and then
they found Jac , - found us ---", Joshua's voice softened as he finished ,
not knowing how to say the rest without showing tears.  Jacque continued
using a boyish greeting: "Daddy, mommy, - yo - you brought us to this
planet in perfect love , you faltered, and now you are coupled again. 
Thanks for returning to our lives.  We missed you , but now we know you are
back" .  -As Jacque's voice trailed off unable to continue with tear filled
eyes : Jessica continued .  "Jennifer and I are also twins", brought to
this planet in the same way as Jos and Jac .  How sweet it is that we
discovered Jos first , we loved him more than anyone can know , we let him
inside our minds, and we dreamed , we cried because there was only one of
him - we could not share him in this universe and so we gave him the best
birthday present any boy could ever want , and then we found out that Jos
was Jac.  Then Jos showed up from bike riding.  When we saw both of them in
the upstairs at the same time in the same place we were stunned , because
life has never been that simple for us .  They were both in front of us ,
hansom and bare as the day they were born .  But the rest of yesterday was
a roller coaster with no up track .  - Just lower and lower , fog layers
and swamp until we could not even see where we ended .  " Jennifer took
over next: "Jill and Robert, thank you for Jos and Jac, and for coming to
our farm and our lives".  She introduced the twins parents and Aric and
Julia to all.

   "Ok", replied Joshua, "Lets get going with lunch cause I am so hungry.
It's my fault that last nights supper was never eaten" .  As the steak
sizzled , Jos apologized for his actions.  "I, and only I am responsible
for all the mix ups that the rest of you have suffered", announced Joshua.
"I apologize to my dad and to to you Jess and Jen and to you Jacque, and to
you mom for messing in your lives", and then he explained the happenings of
the previous days and his involvement with Robert in the days before to get
Jill a job extension.  During dinner the twins explained what had happened
to them , and then they continued to tell everyone what had happened to
Joshua the week of the lost calf.  After much steak , the four teens hugged
each other and Robert and Jill again, everyone saying at once "how great
the steak had turned out".

   The girl twins were getting to know Robert and Jill , so Joshua began to
gather up the dishes as he always had done for his mother.  Instinctively
Jacque began to help him leaving the twin girls alone with Robert and Jill
and the twins parents.  Soon Robert joined the boys also.  They loaded the
dishwasher.  They completed lunch cleanup within twenty minutes and
realized that the girls were gone.  Robert and the boys talked briefly with
the twins parents.

   Then Robert and the boys walked back through the old path until they
reached the pond and the dam across the creek.  They sat down on the dam ,
discussing school arrangements and job priorities and eventually getting
around to the subject of a wonderful day, to take pictures and what to do
next , at which point Joshua mentioned the old photos in the box upstairs
at the farmhouse.  They returned to the old farm house .  Joshua decided to
get the photo box .  The pictures prompted Joshua to ask Robert about being
gay.  "Its more of a religious label than reality" suggested Robert,
continuing; "It is true that your mother thinks I am impossibly tainted .
But the fact for me is , that I was pretty messed up when I was your age".
"Why was that" ?  Well I guess I was OK till around ten or twelve and then
I found out that I had been whacked - mutilated .They cut off my foreskin
when I was born.  No anesthetic, no reason .  It was no big deal at first
but later I found out that sex for me was only OK when I used my hand. 
Naturally I wondered, "What would it be like with another persons hand" .
When I graduated law school three of my lawyer buddies, Kalil, Henry and
John had a get-together and we celebrated the exam results with lots of
beer at a motel room.  With our minds free of school, we teased and pushed
one another about our success and the fact that none of us could have
passed the course without each of the others, especially Henry, who
remained calm no matter what the odds.  Kalil definitely was not used to so
much beer.  He threw up all over the place so that we had to wash his and
our clothes.  Kalil was totally beer-logged and so we pulled his clothes
off and tossed them in the bathtub with lots of water.  Kalil held on to
the toilet bowl until he was sick again and this time even his under shorts
were splashed, so we pulled them off and and into the bathtub also.  The
three of us removed our t-shirts and socks and pants and put them in the
bath water with lots of rinsing.  Eventually Kalil sobered quite a bit and
felt rather alone that his buddies were sitting around in underwear and his
was not dry yet.  John dozed off next, but suddenly woke up sick and
splashed Henry and I with more puke, so we threw our underwear into the
bathtub with more fresh water, and finally into the water went John's
underwear.  We were partly happy, somewhat drunk, and a little confused.

   Kalil noticed Henry first as extremely different from the rest of us. 
For a minute he was worried about the long growth over his tube, until he
began to laugh it off normal and that's the way people are born.  Kalil
began to remember his tube being cut and explained to us what happened to
him around eleven years old, - intense pain , waking up without a foreskin
and the month long pain that followed.  John and I remembered nothing
except that both of us enjoyed masturbation but not girls.  We liked girls
but they just did not give us the feelings that our bodies needed.  We
pulled our clothes out of the bathtub and each of us showered letting the
clothes hang around the room to dry.  Each of us, was now watching Henry
mesmerized by the naturalness and we understood why Henry was the coolest
of the group.  He explained that he sometimes squeezed himself with just
two fingers just sitting at the back of class and most of the mess would
get caught by his foreskin, until a trip to the washroom.  Kalil was afraid
to even look at his pecker, yet John and I were intrigued by his
explanation.  We drank another beer and then Henry showed us what happens
when you pull the sleeve.  Henry let John and I touch his cock.  John and I
were able to pull his foreskin about two inches of slack except that Henry'
concentration failed.  His tube pushed right through the foreskin with the
the tip slightly exposed.  Kalil took another drink and then timidly pulled
Henry's foreskin also.  By this time Henry was relaxed on the couch.  We
began to understand what we had missed and where that special Henry grin
came from.

   John sat ahead and tried to pull my foreskin but it was more pinch than
pull and it hurt, as he apologized seeing the look on my face, but slowly
the activity did make it hard.  Henry wanted to know how I masturbated. 
"With margarine", I replied , "or shampoo, sometimes soap, or quite often a
lot of spit.." "No kidding - sick man".  "OK", wondered Henry.  There must
be a way as he gently examined the raw penis head of John and I.  Kalil
into his second post puke beer observed that he had more foreskin than John
and I and proceeded to show us wrapping his fist around his tube.  There
was almost enough skin to roll under his fingers as long as his hand stayed
in carefully controlled area.  To guard against loosing grip Kalil braced
his free hand in front of the moving one.  John and I noted that the hotel
provided a slippery blend of shampoo.  He returned with the bottle from the
shower and put lots on himself and me.  Then we began the circle jerk.

   Then your mother opened the door and history was written.  "GAY".

   Jos and Jac pondered the moment not knowing what to say .  "I'm sorry
dad", came from both twins .  "No no nooooh , sons.  Joshua, Jacque, what
was done to me is no baggage for you, and sympathy will not undo what
religion has done.  The history of my body is forever altered by events
unfolded long before you arrived on this planet .  Say nothing to me
because , you two owe me nothing.  Jill and I loved briefly .  You were the
result.  You were perfect and I made sure that you stayed perfect .  Our
medical system tried to circumcise both of you also.  It was a cheap
procedure for the hospitals to get extra funding .  Money is all they see.
--not the lifetime of damage .  Boys, stay off the tracks of religion and
pain.  Live your lives as this wonderful planet evolves .  Life forms are
here because of love.  You are life forms on the earth".

   "Shit" said Joshua listening intently, "Mother told me you were gay". 
"Thats it - thats GAY", sarcasm showing again .  "Not really", replied
Jacque, defending his dad, "Gay is a lifestyle where men use there asses in
place of women.  I imagine that once your foreskin is gone there is not
much to stimulate the brain , so the brain discovers a new place of
sensitivity.  Thats what I deduced from the net .  Am I wrong Dad" ? 
"Correct" replied Robert , " the gay lifestyle involves much discipline in
eating and even more lubricants and medications because of using the
digestive tract for an unintended cause .  A few men enjoy annal
intercourse in a natural way but many circumcised men understand , it is
the only way they can enjoy life" .  "Dad , am I gay ?  " asked Joshua
staring down at his lap .  "NO and as I have already stated it is a
religious label rather than reality , furthermore who cares", stated
Robert. "Hey hey " laughed the boys.

   "Who in heaven cares" ?  "Just keep in mind that fundamentalists do
care", mentioned Robert.  Fundamentalism removes the love , forces couples
to produce children for the church and then they control those children
until they become sick minded adults , just like me .  They more than care
- They are authorized by God to kill the boys and girls who fail the
training .  Key words are lesbian , gay , bible, god , thou shalt , obey ,
commandments.  English language has hundreds of softer words that are
nevertheless tools for religious domination .  Words such as nigger,
indian, confer baggage to oppressed groups, for the soul purpose of
singling them out for god's retribution .  If you are not part of an
organized flock , you will be pushed aside , down trodded , maybe beaten or
killed.  Today, most Canadians can live and love and enjoy life .  For some
reason Ontario decided to circumcise every boy born from approximately 1945
onward .  Nobody knows why .  Nobody cares now , except those of us who
failed the great experiment.

   Jos and Jac were sad faced and silent while their dad talked about his
early life .  "We care about you dad, mutilated or not .  Circumcision
SUCKS and churches defend it.  "

   A long pause enveloped the room with no one wanting to talk further
about organized religion.

   "Dad" , Jos looked at Robert.  Is it ok to p p" ?  Jac laughed , "Dad ,
there so many questions Jos needs to ask.  Are you gonna stay around and
answer some of them" ?  "Yes".

   "I found other stuff about circumcision on the net" volunteered Jac . 
"During child birth the genital skin stretches incredibly allowing
interstitial space between cells .  Some boys are stretching their
foreskins , forcing the body to continually replace the spaces with new
cells .  It can take twenty years , but it's worth it for you dad, to
become whole , and to fuck the church and abraham once and for all" . 
People burdened with that two thousand year old crap should go to hel ,, oh
fuck.  I'm talkin about my own mom.

   Three boys watched the planet rotate , butterflies flipping about ,
flowers waving in the breeze, the unmistakable scent of a hundred different
blossoms , and the activity of a million honey bees .  Life forms, all of
them , enjoying their time in the sun.  Shadows crept slowly .  Three boys
sat perfectly still .  There was nothing to say.

   Robert shifted .  " There may be a way to help your mother boys.  She is
still special to me also .  I know of a psychologist .  She may be able to
de-program Jill.  It will cost , but money is not an obstacle for me" .




Chapter: 29 Vacation Planning.
A noise at the front door alerted every one that the girls were
returning from a tour of the twins house .  The girls were full of new
information as was Jill who informed the household of the twins vacation ,
starting day after tomorrow .  Robert and Jill announced "wanting to spend
more time together starting tomorrow".  Jacque had to decide whether to
stay at the farm or return to his friends in Toronto .  Since he had a few

more days at a summer swim , he decided to return the next day to Toronto .

   Joshua listened to all the planning and realized that he was not in it,
nor was the farm with all the livestock .  His head dipped , face sullen.
"Who will take care of the farm for two weeks?" queried Jacque looking at
the twins .  "The plan is for my older brother to be here day after
tomorrow and to keep a watch on the animals and the farm for two weeks",
replied Jessica.  "I am going to miss you".  "Sorry Jos", replied Jennifer,
"but I have asked my brother Aric to look after all of the animals
including YOU , not that you need to be looked after, and perhaps you can
look after him.  "Ok , I will be fine", answered Joshua.  "I'll still miss
you.  The group conversed another hour or so and then gradually dispersed
with the twins going home , Robert and Jacque leaving for Toronto and Jill
and Joshua going to bed .  Joshua dreamed of twins in bed with Jac and him.
He did not wake up until Jill was ready to leave with Robert who had
returned from Toronto .  The rest of the day passed quickly for Joshua as
he briefly met the twins parents and the twins and their older brother Aric
who drove them to the airport .  "Guess I am alone for tonight", mused
Joshua as he crawled into his bed.  Again, the dreams of him and Jennifer
occupied his mind in the night.
Chapter: 30 Joshua on his own for two weeks.
Joshua awoke with the smell of semen everywhere .  Under the sheets, in
his belly button , sticky between his thighs and even sticky-ness in his
hands , but he remembered nothing really , just a vague satisfying feel

good sensation which put him in an excellent mood for the day .  "Wet
dream, for sure", mused Joshua, and he longed for someone to talk about it
. A long shower followed until he could no longer stand in the cold water .
After cleaning the house a bit and arranging the furniture, putting on some
old clothes, he sauntered out the front door across the road, through the
big gate and across the meadow .  A thumping of hooves alerted him from the
left as the big bull made ready to charge.  Momentarily freezing , panic -
think - think you fool , - decisions raced in his mind .  "Run back to the
gate ?  - no too far": "Run ahead to the forest edge ?  - maybe !  " :
"Stand and fight?  - christ no, the bull is almost a ton and this meadow is
his property.  " Joshua edged slowly toward the forest carefully guaging
but not eye contacting the bull .  He gained about ten meters in a gentle
arc drifting a bit toward the forest before the bull snorted and charged .
Joshua's feet raced for his life, as the bull bore down on him from the
left trying to close the distance before the trees consumed Joshua.  The
huge bull's nose breathing down his neck put Jos into fear-overdrive .  Zig
zagging and jack rabbiting through the forest , Joshua out paced the bull ,
once inside the forest .  Bull stopped as soon as visual contact broke . 
Joshua continued jogging along the path imagining himself lying with the
twins , knowing that the path would lead to the exact spot where he helped
the twins find a small bull calf , and remembering very well his first time
with the two girls who were now his trusting friends .  The thoughts of
lying on his back with Jennifer writhing her abdomen against his tube were
over powering, and he continued running , as though she was waiting for him
.

   The clearing came into view.  He went directly to the spot where the
twins held their contest to decide who would loose their virginity to
Joshua.  His legs stopped running .  No one was there .  "Crap , I feel
down .  Why am I here , What am I doing , What am I looking for , and why
am I asking rhetorical questions of myself " ?  "Why so" answered Aric from
the downed log by the stream.  "No one is here" !  "Am I a no one" ?  "Ah
err - no you are somebody" , muttered Joshua .  "Aric, I am sorry , It's
just that nobody is here , I mean you are here but my mind had other ideas"
.  "Such as " ?  "Err not like that , I mean -fuck it as Jacque would say "
"Can I help at all " ?  "No" "Are you sure, -- Come sit on the log and
relax, you're still breathing like a bull in a herd of heated heifers.  "
Joshua turned to sit with Aric and then promptly jumped to wrap his fingers
around the tree limb over his head .  Pulling up his abdomen showed off his
flat stomach and youthful six pack of lower chest muscles .  Joshua wrapped
his abdomen above his arms and hooked his knees over the tree limb .  "Bet
you can't hold that position for ten minutes" !  challenged Aric.  "Bet I
can".  "Bet you can't" , grinned Aric as he approached the upside down
Joshua.  "I can stay here till the cows come home" echoed Joshua.  "Bet you
can't stay there if you come" replied Aric, as he examined - moved closer.
"Try me" .  "Really" "Yep, see how long I can hold on", grinned back
Joshua. "Do you mean what I think you mean" ?  Aric appeared perplexed, as
Joshua unfurled his legs from the tree limb and let himself fall to the
ground , his pants remaining low on his hips and t-shirt stuck to the sweat
on his belly .  He stumbled on impact but Aric caught his waist to
stabilize him .  Both boys sat on the grass under the limb .

   "Are you married" ?  "Did you make love to my sister Jennifer" ?  "You
answer first" !  "Yes, I love my wife intensely, and we have a baby on
board, possibly" .  "Wow a baby, a small helpless mammal that needs
mother's milk and parent's love .  " "You didn't answer my question" ,
stated Aric.  Yeah, I did love your sister, I mean I do love your sister
Jennifer and I miss her intensely" .  "Puppy love" , laughed Aric.  "Did
you ever puppy love" ?  Asked Joshua.  "Yeah and I still do", laughed both
boys uncontrollably at the sillyness and seriousness.

   A silence followed as each evaluated the other, Aric was calm , slightly
blushed cheeks and blond hair.  Joshua was still breathing fast with beads
of sweat below his blond hair line, cheeks red, tee shirt matted to
stomach, track pants down on hips .  "My sister loves you" answered Aric
out of nowhere.  "She told me about the two puppies here in the forest". 
"Oh" .  "Actually three puppies looking for a new calf" .  "OH" .  "She and
her twin asked me to look after you", continued Aric.  "How are you going
to do that", mused Joshua.  "She did not say".  "What if I just run away to
be alone" ?  "I understand , you don't want to be alone".  "Oh" "Do you
really want me to help you with the tree limb" ?  "What do you mean" ?  "I
mean , my sisters told me to look after you , so whatever you need for the
next week , let me help you".  "I can get along myself" .  " JOS: You were
almost killed by the bull" .  "I saw you running from an animal to which
you should never turn you're back .  You were lucky , I did not have to
kill the bull.  I was up on that far hill in the open meadow where you can
see for two kilometers".  For the first time Joshua noticed the high
powered rifle behind Aric .  "Would that thing kill a charging bull" ? 
"Probably - instantly , maybe within 5 seconds, but he would not be running
after you, with a high powered 22 bullet in his head, either way".  Aric
relaxed on his back in the grass, as Joshua realized the gravity of out
running a 1 ton hooved creature who knows every inch of the meadows .  Aric
noticed his defeated facial expression.  "Wait a minute, Jos , - I need to
help you not to defeat you".  "Jennifer and Jessica love their brother very
much" , inferred Joshua.  "Did you ever ahh see them nu..  I mean without
clothes"?  "Lots of times, but not the way you see them", volunteered Aric.
"The twins got me together with my wife.  They understood that I needed
something when I was you're age" "I am guessing that you need something
like that also , especially since you have already experienced it." "Ok,
you're right , but there's nobody here to help me with what I need, err how
do we get back to that spot" .  "Just climb back up on that limb, and I'll
try to help you out , though you have to understand that I would not do
this for any one other than my twin sisters, and my sisters best friend" .
Joshua nodded and appreciated being a best friend but he did not move.



   Chapter 31: Aric gets to know Joshua.



   "I bet you can't hang on"?  Taunted Aric.  "Have you ever done this"? 
Asked Joshua.  "No".  "Then how do you know I can't".  "Jos, you've been
with just one girl, I mean my sister Jennifer a couple times .  You've
never played with yourself, before your first experience , at least that's
what Jennifer implied .  My theory is : Your concentration will break when
your tube excites , your knees will let you fall.  " "Tube"?  Mentioned Jos
incredulously "Ahh Jen sa-i- said that's what you call it", laughed Aric.
"You have a really lucky family." whispered Jos , looking at his feet. 
"What do you mean" ?  "You're Jen's brother , and yet she communicates
everything as though the two of you , I , I mean the three of you ,Jes and
Jen and you , consulted each other on whether to include me as a friend ,
not to mention a lover friend .  I am honored to have passed your
inspection" .

   "True and I still have an inspection to do", joked Aric and you're going
to fail.  When I was fourteen I played with myself mercilessly .  Jen and
Jes soon caught on .  You cannot hide something in a close family ,
especially from younger twin sisters , so ahh they helped me on occasion
though there was nothing in it for them .  We had a bet that I could not do
twenty chin ups after a you know --, a release .  If I they won the bet I
would do anything that they wanted for a whole week .  If I won, then they
would humor me for a whole week no questions asked.  " "What happened"? 
"They won the bet".  "So the girls savaged you for a whole week"?  "Yeah,
but not in the way you might think .  They were extremely good natured over
the whole thing , more excited about having won a bet over their older
brother than actually making me do anything .  We still mention it a lot ,
and I think it allowed us to get closer as a family .  They knew that I
needed my space sometimes and so I let them have theirs and then we often
discussed things later .  Actually , that loss , humbled me , and that is
one of the reasons that I volunteered to look after you this week .  " Jos
concerned himself , "Aric , the method that was used between you and your
siblings , releasing yourself in front of the twins ?  Was that not kinky
in some way" ?  "Not at all Jos" , laughed Aric.  "They just measured my
heart rate - respiration , sent me into my room for two minutes and then
measured my heart rate when I came back out .  The twins could tell if I
actually cum , just by my facial tone , but they made a great game of it
with the heart rate-respiration measurements of before and after" .  "Aha
ha aha ha aha" , laughed Jos .  "I guess you already know , but they were
more open with my heart rate - respiration measurements when the calf was
born .  Both of them are great girls , and I love them from my whole
body-mind " .  " My sibling twins mean everything" , laughed Aric ,
"absolutely" .

   "That's incredible , My family was split by religion when I was two
years old .  My twin brother and father disappeared for thirteen years .  I
lived with my mother and she never even told me about my father Robert ,
and she never once let my father contact me .  I began to think that I was
hated by my father , because she protected me so well .  After I met Robert
, my mind came apart .  I could not stop it .  I yelled at everyone , even
Jen could not sooth me" .  Jos eyes began to glisten .

   "I know what happened Jos , and I know that none of that crap was your
fault .  Shit Jos, I feel , offended that you had such a rough life because
of two thousand year old church dogma." "As it happened , it was not rough,
but I missed out on life cause I did not know, and my mother would not or
could not tell me about him or even why he did not come to see me , except
she kept quoting gay gay gay .  " "It still stinks".  The boys sat and
watched the flowing water .  Ripples in the stream appeared , disappeared
by unseen turbulence below the surface .  Brook sounds of water trickling ,
rippling , around objects on the stream bottom .  Jos was now struggling
with his mother .  He tried to know why she cocooned him .  Glistened eyes
produced tears .  Aric pretended not to see them .  He put out a hand on
Jos' shoulder , then an arm , then pulled Jos against himself .

   A branch floated past, caught in a gentle whirl pool of water , around ,
around , around -ever widening circles and finally escaped into the main
stream on the thirteenth whirl .  Both boys had been counting .  They
watched an ant clinging to the branch caught up by the ripples and then the
rough wave water tossing the branch up and down until it bobbed out of
view. Jos put his head in his hands .  "Aric I don't want to go to that
place in my mind which tears me apart" .  Aric looked at him and lifted his
head till they could see each other's face , smiled into the sad fifteen
years old eyes.

   "It's not good to ride the roller coaster every day , Jos .  But when
you do ride it , I am honored to go with you .  Lets get off this fucking
ride and enjoy today" .

   Jos smiled at his smile.

   , , the spell broken .  Jos smiled again.

   Jos studied Aric : "About two inches taller , close cut hair but long on
top, roundish face similar to Jen and Jes , at ease young looking face ,
alive eyes , easily studied , light blue , possible green or brown
depending on light , reddish hair , no visible hair below the throat ,
great body shape , no extra pounds there for sure , easy view of the groin
area , with legs mostly apart , sitting on the log beside him ."

   "I am Aric and pleased to meet you", laughed Aric, "And so why exactly
did you come running to this place"?  "I dunno".  "What was in your mind
when you got here" .  "Lonely , frustrated , Why could Jennifer not be
here" ?  "And if she were here" ?  "She would have comforted me , Aric ,
but you have already done that" .  "Then I would love her like we did last
week" .  "Maybe" , stated Aric.  "What the fuc, why" ?  Jos, my sister Jen
is a separate person from you .  She loves you very much but there will be
days when she wants to be alone .  Do you understand" ?  "No, I mean I
guess it's possible that Jen might want to do something else besides love
me." "Jos, if that happens , then you need to be able to get through the
day without teasing a one ton animal hangin out with the cows ." Jos put
his head back into his hands , for five minutes.  They sat in silence, each
hoping the other would break the silence .  Finally Jos talked: "Let me
learn about about myself , I will stay away from the memories of my mom ,
right now ".  Jos studied Aric's face .  "Do you have any conditions" ? 
"Conditions , you mean - like aids" ?  "Well er fuck me , but yeaah ",
apologized Jos.  "My sisters have taught you well" ?  "Right on".  "My wife
and I were thoroughly tested by the medical profession before we , you know
did what boys and girls do and got married".  Jos laughed and high-fived
Aric, first one hand then both as the two boys stood up and faced each
other .

   "And you Jos" ?  "Ahh I don't know so, cause I've never been to a doctor
, that I remember , unless you call the school nurse a doctor ." "School
nurse checked you over" ?  "Last year, I played road hockey at the back of
my school .  I had no jock and I got hit bad .  My mother knew the school
nurse so we just went to her home nearby .  The two of them checked my
testicles and tube very well , even though it got hard as they looked at it
and checked for swelling and bruises .  Thats it for being seen by a doctor
.  I am not , I mean I never even played with my tube before meeting your
sisters and no one else did either.  " Aric considered Jos logic.  "It's
true Jos, You can not get a sexually translated disease from your own
fingers.  " He stared at Jos unhappy face again.

   "I like you Jos .  You're easy to talk to, you're cute, and you seem to
know how to manage that ." "What happens if I lose the bet" ?  "Then you
will do everything for me that I need for a week".  "U2" stated Jos.

   Joshua rose slowly .  After a few practice jumps he found a solid grip
on the limb , wrapped his legs through his arms and over it and hung upside
down .  "Are you ready, and is the bet still on" ?  "Yeeass".

   Aric stepped close .  With Joshua hanging by his knees head down , Aric
was eye level with Joshua's track pants where they split into the legs . 
Joshua's eyes , though upside down , were level with the same area of
Aric's trousers .  "Jos, may I undo your zipper" ?  "Yeeaah" Aric undid
Jos' zipper , and pushed his track pants up to his knees hooked over the
tree limb , so Jos adjusted the track pants under his calves to make the
limb softer .  "Can I look in here?" Aric breathed on Jos underwear . 
"Yeaaaah", came the reply , "I need somethin , so see what you find" . 
"And can I do the same to you Aric" ?  "I am married to a wonderful girl ,
Julia.  You know that , we will need to discuss an event like this with her
, and with my twin sisters when they get back from vacation" .  "Yes , we
covered that already" , sighed Jos , "but I wanted to ask you again if boy
sex was ok with you" .  "If you want ", answered Aric .  "It cannot affect
my love for Julia in any way , nor will it affect Julia's love for me" . 
Jos felt the fingers tugging at his underwear, he felt the cool air on his
cremaster muscles as Aric pushed the underwear up to his knees and then
tunked it under his legs with Jos trousers.  Jos released Arics pants
buckle and button and helped let them fall.  Jos knew that if he
concentrated on Aric , his legs were less likely to let him fall .  If his
own tube got too much brain time , he would start to cum , his legs would
release , he would lose the bet , and worse he would fall upside down on
the ground .  Jos could not see what Aric was doing , only feel it , and
similarly Aric was too close to know what Jos would do .  "Pretty soft for
a married man" .  "Hard and out of control already", replied Aric .  "Wow
this is tight - no wonder you don't play with it .  Does this hurt ?", as
Aric put finger pressure on the foreskin mid way up the shaft working it
both ways gently .  "No -aannhh - a bit -bu but Jennifer was able to deal
with it" .  Jos planned his move .  "What is your wife's name, Aric" ? 
"Julia".  "Does she like you a lot?  " "Sure" .  "Would she approve of what
we are doing" ?  Jos wanted to keep Aric from concentrating on a plan . 
That way he would get a head start on pushing Aric to ejaculation .  Aric's
knees almost buckled as Jos lips entombed Aric's pecker .  Suddenly it
expanded and pushed back .  Jos tongue found Arics head quickly slipping
itself into the foreskin cavity beside Aric's pleasure centre.  "Some knee
trouble here" , laughed Jos as his hands rode along Arics inner groin . 
Next Jos began to swirl his tongue around the entombed tube as his fingers
rode along the raphe right thru the ball sac and almost back to the star
opening .  Jos set the pace as he could feel Arics body responding .  Too
get better feed back , his hands pulled up Aric's tee shirt and massaged
their way up and down the tiny male breasts , the muscled six pack area and
then the testicles and down the raphe .  Each time Jos detected a response
point his fingers put special attention on that area.  "I know you're havin
some concentration issues ", laughed Jos .

   Aric was indeed , in danger of being swamped by sensations .  He was
trying to figure out how to deal with Jos pale translucent shaft where he
could only push the foreskin so far but it would not slide over the glans .
He put his mouth over the whole thing and sucked it into his throat in one
gasp.  His hands were gripping Jos kidney area concentrating mainly on the
six pack muscles .  He detected a slight shudder as his upper throat
contacted the raph along Jos long slender tube.  Aric wanted to say "you
won't last long now." , but his throat was occupied .

   Jos responded by sucking on Aric's glans as his hands continued to
search for new pleasure points on Aric .

   Aric could feel himself loosing it .  At first he reasoned that for him
to cum , was not really loosing the bet anyway , but he reasoned that once
that happened , he would be incapable of stimulating Jos to the point where
his legs would let him fall .  Something more had to be added to his
procedure to bring about quicker response from Jos .

   "Ahh Jos, do you want me to unsleeve this little crocodile of yours" ?

   He felt a tremor in his glans from Jos and decided it was a yes.  Aric
released his lips to the very end of Jos tube, positioned his fingers right
at the bulbous part of Jos glans .  His own sensations were like rolling
storm clouds in the top of his head .  With one motion he positioned his
other hands fingers right at Jos tiny star and mercilessly brought the two
hands together , stripping Jos tight prepuce over the lubricated glans down
his long rigid shaft right into his nut sac where all the skin jammed up
together pinching his nuts into turmoil .  At the same time feeling Jos
shudder , his mouth applied a tight suck to Jos glans as it expanded-popped
into his waiting curled tongue .

   Jos had located Aric's perfect pleasure point , short strip of prepuce
where it attached to the base underside of Aric's glans-shaft junction . 
He was applying cosmic pleasure to Aric by pushing the glans against his
lower lip and stretching Aric's frenulum when his own foreskin avalanched
into his brain .  Jos fingers gripped Aric's lower rib cage on both sides
with his thumbs pressing into Aric's lower stomach muscles .

   Aric felt the pulsations in Jos shaft as his stomach muscles resisted
the new power in Jos grip .  One more complete bottom to top foreskin push
rippled right over his turbid glans and then rippled it right off the glans
to the bottom of his ball sac pinning the pumping testicles against Jos
star .  Two giant hot pulses of Jos spirit slammed into Arics tongue and
spilled out the sides before even Jos could react.  Aric felt his whole
body torquing as Jos lost his knee hold on the limb.  Jos wrapped his arms
tight around Aric's stomach locking them against his upside down rib cage
as his stunned cum-producing body collapsed into Aric's grasp.

   On Jos third pulsation of semen his lips locked on Aric's head as his
lower teeth brushed Aric's taut frenulum .  He fell from the tree limb
sucking Aric's pulsations in rapid succession .  Both boys collapsed on the
lush grass by the stream Aric taking the hit first as Jos fell into his
locked arms and landed on his chest.  Aric's stomach muscles were still
convulsing with semen as Jos rested on him , both boys on the ground . 
Jos' body and Aric's body continued to spasm, four testicles ejecting their
loads simultaneously and unstoppable .  Jos released his teeth grip on
Aric's meat slightly and then twisted his balls to encourage pumping them
dry.  Aric's finger had pushed right into Jos' star.  Again, he extracted
Jos' prepuce up the thin pulsing shaft , releasing the nuts, ripping back
over the trim uncontrolled spurting red glans still pulling , even as his
tongue got caught inside the taut foreskin with the glans .  Pulling until
Jos foreskin seemed to stretch beyond stretching and then reversing the
direction using the whip stretch action of the taut foreskin rebounding
back over the compressed glans , popping-expanding into his lips as his
fingers rammed the foreskin against Jos testicles forcing them to eject the
last drop of Jos' bubbling spurting spirit.

   Jos was totally overcome or over cummed.  His fifteen year old frame
racked spasms initiated by his testicles, pumping themselves dry into
Aric's mouth.  Still he managed to suck Aric's shaft so deeply that his
throat bent the shaft as it spurted into his stomach.  After landing on
Aric's chest one hand zeroed in on massaging Aric's testicles.  His finger
perforated Aric's star deeply colliding with Aric's over extended prostate
causing spurts and spurts until his throat choked and he had to get a
breath of air.

   Both boys held their grip, so as not to admit defeat.  The spasms of
orgasm eventually died away but neither boy moved, instead choosing to
enjoy the closeness with another human and / or more likely, to inflict
un-forgetting pleasure and bonding until their brains cried out for air. 
Jos collapsed into sleep first, a huge smile forming on his face buried in
Arics genitals.  Aric felt him collapse with the full weight of fifty nine
kilograms pressing on his rib cage and belly.  The weight was beautiful,
warm and pressing Aric's body into the lush grass.  His mind followed Jos'
into that special place where only two boys can go after a sensational
pleasurama.

   Sunshine moved in and out of the fluffy white clouds.  Streams of water
flowed past with occasional gurgling.  The sounds plus the direct rays of
sun on the back side of Jos ball sac relaxed them into sweating.  Jos tube
shrunk into his foreskin.  His cremaster muscles let go all as his balls
dangled down against Arics' nose pinned underneath.  Aric awakened to the
pressure of a squeezed bladder from Jos collar bone, still groggy and with
little feeling in his own penis, the bladder just dumped itself, yellow
water seeping out the end of his prepuce with some pooling on the palm of
Jos nearby hand.  Gurgling stream and warm water flowing over his hand
released Jos bladder.  Yellow fluid rushed through his recoiled shaft , out
through the small prepuce opening, spilling over Aric's face and neck, and
blocking his eyes and nose .

   Both boys woke up with a jump.  "What the fuck was that"?  "Can't
believe , I just pissed myself"?  "Oh ahh , I got piss in my eyes , up my
nose and in my ears"!  Jos pushed his hands to the ground, lifting himself
off Aric.  His pecker continued to dribble on Aric's face.  "I do not feel
any water escaping but it is", confided Jos as he climbed away to avoid
peeing on Aric.  Jos turned around and began to lick the pee from Aric's
face as Aric raised himself to sitting position.  "Jesus Christ, that was
epic", declared Aric.  "Eponomous", quoted Jos.  "Arotica named after Aric
- I have slept in another heaven murmured Jos.  "You feeling better now"?
Asked Aric.  "I am Aricotized", boasted Jos, "Why did I wait fifteen years
for this to happen?  - but it was still more fun with Jennifer".  "Glad of
that, I would not want my twin sisters to think that you wanted me more
than them, especially Jennifer, although you must tell me exactly what
happened with the calf incident.  There seems to be more to the story than
the twins indicated."

   "Ok - I will".

   Jos stripped off his remaining clothes and then stripped Aric.  He
washed the clothes in the stream and hung them over the drying limb, then
pulled Aric to standing position as they studied each other's nude bodies.
Both sets of eyes noticed the tube activity was not totally exhausted. 
Aric pulled Jos toward the stream, but Jos resisted trying to put Aric in
first.  Aric was a few kilograms heavier than Jos and seemed to have
wrestling experience beyond Jos fifteen years.  Eventually he pinned Jos
against the ground with his body.  Then he tried to move Jos to the stream.
Jos sensed his lessened grip, pulled in his legs and catapulted Aric with a
double leg kick into the deep cold water, then - not knowing if Aric could
swim, Jos dived in on top of him, both boys struggling against cool water,
no footing and each other.  The water wrestle was a draw with no one
winning control.  After intense splashing and yelling Jos feet stabilized
on some good footing.  Grabbing Aric by the tube skin with both hands and
pulling him into shore.  Both boys climbed on to the bank.  Aric then
pulled Jos by his tube skin over to the bark-less log and both sat
straddling it facing each other.  They climbed close , using each other's
body heat as air dried their bodies.

   "Promise me Aric, you will not tell your sisters my story of what
happened .  They obviously wanted that to remain unknown .  I don't think
it matters too much now, after what happened with my twin brother." "What
happened with your twin brother" ?  Aric squeezed Jos foreskin and Jos
returned the favour as they talked .  Aric was stunned that Jos had
defoliated two virgins , that day without being aware of the permanent
changes for Jennifer and Jessica.  "At least I tried not to do it too
deeply into Jes" and there was a lot of hymen left inside inside her
passage ", stated Jos.  "From the story of their mistaking you for your
brother Jacque and Jessica raping Jacque , it all balances out to A plus"
continued Aric.  "Except rape is not the word .  My twin brother was fully
aware though he pretended to sleep even as his pecker went crazy inside
Jess.  Would you not have done the same thing"?  Aric began to laugh
happily and grinning, he pulled Jos foreskin closer as Jos pulled his. 
Within seconds new cum splashed on the log until both sets of balls
exploded in final empty-ness.  "Fuck me - supreemo" , Jos.  "You first"
laughed Aric." "My dad" , explained Jos, "says that anal entry is practiced
by guys who were circumcised at birth".  "Shit - I was only joking",
explained Aric, "Still if you want to try it, this is our chance.  I've
never been involved with boy puncture and I know my wife would not level
for it , though she will let me do most anything to me, " blushed Aric. 
"Thanks , but I am pretty young for anal stuff -though once in a lifetime
opportunity should not be turned down, especially with a trusted friend
like you Aric." "Thanks with the trusted friend stuff".  With that both
boys noticed that their tubes were not totally exhausted.  They remained
tube to tube on the log for another half hour turning the clothes on the
limb often to get them dry.  Aric studied Jos .  Jos studied Aric until
their bodies dimensions were permanently remembered .  "How would we,
start", asked Jos?  "No idea , Jos".  "Would there be err some of your crap
in there Aric." "The large colon is a temporary storage area, I think -
once it is voided, there will only be residual stuff until the next need to
have a crap".  "Mine is pretty small .  I'm only fifteen.  Would it hurt
you"?  Aric sized up Jos' diameter as he spoke, "It depends, I guess if you
want to try it inside me, Can I try mine inside you" The decision for Jos
was harder to make as he checked over - stroked over and double stroked
Aric's pecker to see what the greatest diameter would be.  Both boys
peckers were fully extended , but still covered with their respective
foreskins, although Aric's was most likely to pop through the prepuce at
any time .  Aric got down on his knees and draped himself over the log ,
straddling it pointed away from Jos .  "Try it in me, and if you don't like
it ok , then I 'll try mine inside you".  "We won't be able to tell anyone
about it but at least we will know what gay people have to do." Jos
positioned himself behind Aric .  Aric experimented with several positions,
trying to line up Jos tube with his star.  Jos could felt his prepuce
extremely tight and hot and lubricated as the colorless fluids pumped into
and spilled over the end, each time Aric pushed it into the crack leading
to his star .  After twenty or thirty manipulations Aric put more pressure
on Jos tube , bracing himself on the log with one hand and using the other
to put force on Jos' ass .  Jos felt the tension mounting in his groin and
lower stomach .  He relaxed on Arics back as his hands reached under Aric
to milk him cow-like.  Aric dug his fingers into Jos ass pushing his
fingers deeper into the star as the self lubricated tube entered his cavity
.  Slowly , ever so slowly Jos foreskin was pushed back over the glans
until - "Ow - I mean fu--, that's different, and yet it feels big",
whispered Aric .  Jos winced as his glans expanded inside.  Aric thrust his
fingers deep into Jos star as Jos penetrated to the full depth.  Aric's
finger pressure on Jos prostate released tons of the colorless lubricant
pre-cum.  Jos was in heaven even before his testicles began to respond. 
His hands automatically milked Aric, massaged his underbelly and his tiny
hard breasts.

   Then Jos completely withdrew his tube from Aric .  "Ahhhh nnnn" "What
happened man Jos ?  - Was it hurting you"?  "Was it hurting you, Aric" "No"
"It was not hurting me either.  I want you to continue .  This time lay
down on the grass on your back so I can see your face when we , er, you
know.  May I , Might I cum inside you"?  Aric moved to a new place on the
ground.  The entry process was re-attempted but Jos foreskin had slipped
down over his glans allowing it to expand.  There was no way to get it back
inside.  After some time Jos waded into the stream and pulled the foreskin
back up over his glans .  Aric found a depression in the ground which
raised his butt a couple inches to a new entry angle .  They tried again,
with success.  Aric feeling the water cooled tube inside himself .  Jos
slid smoothly inside, this time looking deep into Aric's eyes as his
fingers gripped Arics ball sac .  Jos began a slow motion gliding up and
down relaxing his entire weight on Arics chest each time he sought out what
his body needed .  Aric relaxed letting himself go with his partners
commands from the slender pink shaft.  Within minutes , his balls were on
fire, stomach collapsing as Jos plowed into him crushing his prostate with
each stroke .  Jos reveled in the complete control of his friend .  His
body became his tube .  Everything synchronized with no way to back down or
stop .  His crescendo mounted after detecting Aric's tube firing first ,
again and again as though tomorrow was dead , --now was everything .  The
new pressures in Aric translated to Jos forekin tension and once again it
slipped itself out of the action sliding back to his ball sac and cutting
off the blood flow out of his expanding tube .  "Ahhhh - Ainnnn Cannn't
stop screamed Jos , Let me cum , let me cum, for fuck sake" ?  Aric pulled
him closer as their tongues collided and lips locked.  Aric's hands grasped
Jos pale groin muscles and pulled himself into Jos until the scream let
lose .  "Ahhh Ahhhhh Ahhhhh Cummming" muffled words into Aric's mouth. 
Then he blacked out falling on Aric's spent tube still pumping between
there sweaty pubic skins.

   "Ten minutes later Aric aroused him, lifted his body, lead him out into
the stream, washed his genitals, pulled his foreskin back over his glans
and lead him back out of the stream.  Aric dressed him and began to carry
him toward the path to the road.  After a few minutes Jos motioned that he
would walk.  Aric steadied his body , as they emerged from the forest and
crossed the road to the old farm house and to Jos' room upstairs.  Aric
prepared supper and served Jos in bed .  Then he went out side and gave the
farm one final check, called his wife and mentioned that he would stay with
Jos tonight because he was feeling lonesome.  Eventually, all chores taken
care of, Aric returned to Jos room, showered, and climbed into Jos bed with
him .  Jos did not wake up.  Aric cradled him as they slept until sun shine
around five AM peaked into the room .  Jos pulled himself away from Aric ,
surprised by how great he felt, sang in the shower and danced down to the
kitchen makin breakfast for Eric.

   After the boiled eggs and cereal, both boys talked a long time.  The
bond was complete except -- "Jos, yesterday was awesome.  Do you think I
will ever get a chance to be your top guy"?  Asked Aric.  Jos paused , "It
takes a lot out of you.  I promise to do it when the time comes.  Let me
rest for a week or two.  Then we will find a place for you to defrock me,
or whatever it is called.  Thanks for letting me go first.  It was epic. 
Boy sex is extremely powerful when you trust your partner" stated Jos.  It
sucks, that the church messed with dad's foreskin and then his life and my
life and Jacques life for thirteen years and for what , to keep us from
what our brain craves and needs.  No wonder there are sooo many drug
pushers suckin on the church's asshole." "Ehmann" closed Aric, "Are you
sore"?  "Are you ok"?  "What are thinking about, that requires so much
concentration"?

   "Yeah, but I am thinking clearly and right now I feel I could walk on
the moon, I am ammm hiiieigh as a kite on life and I might not come down
for weeks.  Lets have fun for the next week Aric.  I need you to teach me
everything you know about guns and weapons, and cows, and bulls and sex,
and wives, cause I want to be like you and I want to marry your sister
Jennifer and I hope Jacque to marry your sister Jessica, and I want to have
babies who will never see a fucking church and if they are boys , I want
you and Jacque and me and your wife and Jessica and Jennifer to raise them
like boys should be raised, and if they are girls, then just like Jen and
Jes.  My mother and dad can help if they can get rid of that two thousand
year old bullshit blasted out by organized religious fools who mess with
peoples minds and bodies.  Your parents can help, cause they produced
excellent mammals for the planet called Aric, Jennifer and Jessica.  "No ,
I do not want to get between you and Julie in any way shape or fuck, whoops
form.  Call her and let her know what we did, and why we did it".  Honesty
works in your family and it will work in mine, and it will work in the
family , I want to create, with your help Aric".  "Jos , you need to mature
some, whatever that means, get an education, get income, and there is no
guarantee".  "I know that.  My mind has been reminding me ever since my
first time with Jen.  Are you going to call your wife and somehow tell her
what we did"?  "Yeah, but not right now, She will finish work about two PM
today but then she has to go into the city for dental work.  She cannot
come back to pick me up until Thursday so, I will talk to her then"
"Excellent, so what do we do till then"?

   Chapter 32: Jos gets firearm training.

   "Do you really want to do firearm training?" "For sure Aric.  Can you do
it for me?" "Sure".  "Where , er how do we start"?  "With the theory and
then practice.  It's serious stuff Jos.  Are you sure, you want to do
this"? "I promise Aric.  Give me a chance to prove myself.  " "Lets get
started then.  I will need to use some pencils and paper and will ask you
to do tests at the end of each session.  A session will last from ten
minutes to one hour.  If you get tired.  Let me know and we can resume
later.  Lets teach for an hour, then we need to do some farm chores and we
might get another session before Julie gets here."

   Aric retrieved his twenty two caliber rifle from the gun cabinet in his
parents house.  Joshua put on his clothes.  They found some pencils and
paper and Jos sat at the farm house table as Aric began.  He went though
the basic stuff about safety and respecting other property owners land and
animals.  He added his own notes on being a land owner and what to expect
from hunters from the city.  There were firearm rules for transportation,
for storage and for general use.  There were rules on authorization,
obtaining firearm licenses and buying a gun and ammunition.  Aric created a
checklist as he went.  After an hour , he provided Jos with a blank paper
and a pencil, and then began to query Jos on his new knowledge .  Jos was
frustrated because of all the regulations and Aric's merciless questioning
, but he bit his lip and continued no matter what.

   They talked and tested for two hours, about rim fire cartridges, about
center fire cap cartridges, about water, and weather action on a firearm.
Finally Jos called a pause.  "Lets go do the farm chores now Aric". 
"Thought you would never ask".

   The boys dropped everything.  Aric stowed his firearm and they proceeded
to do all the chores which the farm required.  By the time the chores were
finished and they were walking back to Jos kitchen it was almost supper
time.  Jos elected to do the cooking.  After supper the two boys talked
about guns and ammunition , scopes, rifle grooves and target sighting. 
They're conversation then moved on to general life philosophy .  Jos
continued until bed time asking questions about how big he might grow, what
he might do for a career.  As they talked he produced tea for seven and bed
time glasses of water for ten.  At bed time, Jos selected his mother's bed
and Aric took Jos's bed.  The boys met in the bathroom at seven AM, both
nude.' Ah , we have to work out some morning schedule' , suggested Aric. 
"No need to start separating into different times", spoke Jos.  "I want to
continue with the gun training and , of course, helping with the farm
chores.  "I guess , if Jennifer and Jessica had spent more time with me
before their vacation, I would be able to look after the animals and the
farm by myself".  "Then you would not have met me in the meadow by the
stream, Jos ".  "So, are you suggesting that a higher authority is looking
over us", suggested Aric.  "Probably Julia and Jennifer and Jessica",
finished Jos.  "They seemed to always know what I was doing and they helped
me, lots of times.  "Same with Julia", replied Aric.  "Our girls are
awesome even when not here".  The rest of the day happened with gun
training on handling procedures and farm chores.  Cattle were counted and
put in another field .  Water hole was checked, and each cow was examined
with binoculars for health and fitness.  Aric did the supper preparation
and the evening drinks and some cookies .  Aric finished washing the dishes
to discover Jos asleep on the old chesterfield .  Pulled his socks off,
pulled his tee shirt and pants off, noted that he could use a shower . 
Aric tried to pick him up from the chesterfield but his feet hit the floor
and just kept walking with Aric walking alongside , up the stairs, guiding
to the shower, pausing as the water warmed, climbing into the shower and
sat down .  Aric stripped off his clothes , climbed into the big bath tub
with Jos, put the bathtub plug in the drain and let the shower rain down on
both of them behind the curtain.  Jos remained in semi-sleep as Aric soaped
himself and then Jos, noting that Jos was completely relaxed by the warm
water.  Eventually Aric pulled the plug, and finished rinsing both of them
with more spray, making sure that Jos was toweled dry.  By the time Aric
got him to his mother's bed , Jos was not as groggy.  He nodded no and
pulled Aric into his own bedroom.  Both boys slept together like newborns ,
touching, elbowing , pushing and squeezing each other all night .  In the
morning , they awoke at seven, dressed ate and continued with the firearm
training.  Aric took Jos to an old gravel pit with some targets and the two
boys shot off a box of rim fire 22 shells .  Jos was eager to learn.  He
became excellent at judging the distance to the target and compensating for
bullet trajectory.  After the chores were complete they walked toward the
old farm house.

   Chapter 33 : Jos meets Julia thursday

   Julie appeared as they sat down in the kitchen.  Jos noted that Aric's
face reddened a bit as Julie asked him how the farm sitting was going . 
Jos sensed that she knew Aric had done something out of the ordinary.  "Hi
Julie", Jos drew her attention from Aric .  "Hello cutie", she replied to
Jos.  "Aric's sisters told me you were hansom , flat stomached and muscle
packed .  Aric told me that you were built same as him only weighed less."
I am impressed with the advance information, and I see that you are more
than they told me ." Jos blushed slightly as Julie enjoyed the pink tinge
on his cheeks and neck below each ear." Julie walked over to Aric and gave
him an extended kiss.  "How did yesterday go"?  "Excellent", replied Aric
and Jos together .  Julie noticed the simultaneous answer.  She wondered
how excellent things really were ?  "Ah today, I am taking weapons
training", said Jos.  "Did you learn some weapons yesterday Jos"?  "Er -we
did", replied Jos and Aric simultaneously , "but different ones".  "Have
you had lunch boys"?  "No".  "It's almost two.  Do you want something to
eat ?  I can make it for both of you" .  " Yeass, I would really like
that", echoed both boys.  Julie noticed that the blushing cheeks had spread
to both boys neck and even a bit on the fine hair showing in the vneck. 
She started looking in various kitchen drawers and cabinets for food and
cooking utensils.  As she looked, Jos ventured more information.  "I like
your hair Julie.  Aric said you were irresistible when he first met you .
He didn't tell me how sexy you are now .  He didn't tell me how
irresistible you are" ?  This time Julie blushed slightly .  She was
attracted to Jos but did not want to show it in front of her husband . 
"Aric and I.  We got to know each other very well yesterday and I wanted to
tell you about it, because that is my character", explained Jos .  "Yeas",
replied Aric .  "I have something to tell you, about Jos and me and you".
With that introduction and Julie continuing to make lunch Jos continued the
explanation.  "I met Aric in the south pasture by the stream .  He
impressed me in an epic way, and I wanted to get closer to him .  I saw him
without clothes and he saw me without clothes.  I put my hands on his , his
, his thing you most like about him Julie." "Whats that".  "You love him
very much, you know what I mean".  "Oh, er ok".  "And what did my favourite
boy do"?  "He responded ".  "Are you talking about playin with his
butterfly", asked Julie.  Aric's face reddenned.  "Yeaaah".  "Do you like
him"?  "Handsome, reminds me of my twin brother".  "What did you do Jos" ?
Whispered Julie as she served pink salmon sandwiches.  "I think you know
what I mean"?  Added Jos.  "I kind of got to know him - well.  I guess he
is my friend now and forever, as he is your friend and lover".  "And lover
boy , my Aric , what do you say"?  "It is true, Joshua is closer to me than
a brother , you could say he is closer than a twin" .  "Probably not
possible" , echoed Julia.  I have seen twin bonding .  The boys and Julie
sat down at the table and continued eating.  Slowly , the message seemed to
sink in to Julie's mind.  As she made tea she asked Aric , "You still love
me more than Jos" ?  "It was not like that was ever questioned , nor did
Jos expect me to change my love for you", added Aric.  "And Jos, Do you
still love Jennifer, though she is away on a vacation with her parents
right now"?  "Jennifer loves me just like she did in the meadow for my
first time", whispered Jos.  "I love her more than - but differently from
my twin brother Jacque .  I re-bonded with Jacque again, since meeting him
last week , but Jennifer will always be my first love." "Thank you for
telling me Jos".  I am glad that you have met my husband, because he has
never had a brother, and now I think he has more than a brother.  A part of
him has been filled that never was.  I hope you enjoyed yourselves .  Boys
playing in the woods is quite an erotic thought for me .  I understand that
no one meant harm ", Julie continued, and then she wrapped her arms around
Joshua and planted a kiss on his lips that made Aric nervous for a second .
Then Julie went to Aric .  She put her arms around his chest and drew him
out of the chair to standing .  Running her fingers down the front of his
pants until both of them noticed the front trouser tent .  "It seems that
no harm has been done at all", smiled Julia, as she led Aric upstairs to
Jos bedroom .  We will be busy for a while declared Julie".  Bring me and
Aric a cold drink around three and wake us up , in case we are sleeping. 
Ok"?  "Three sharp - 15:00", declared Jos.  "Ice cubes is my specialty". 
"You will have to tell me about that someday", laughed Julie as she
disappeared with Aric upstairs.  Joshua's bed was the first one, they fell
on .  Jos heard the springs complain.

   He tidied the kitchen, reread the firearm training questions and answers
already asked by Aric.  He found some junk mail near the driveway and read
it, often musing over items that people would actually buy .  His favorite
was the soaker hose.  "Why would anyone want a hose with precut holes" ? 
For some reason, this reminded him of his father Robert.  He had a notion
to call Robert at that point just to hear how his mother and his father
were doing, but decided not to do that, as it was almost time to wake up
the two who slept in his bed .  Joshua made a pitcher of iced tea, with
sliced lemons and oranges.  Three marachino cherries bobbed around in the
completed mix .  At fifteen hundred , Jos loaded two tall glasses with ice
cubes and started up the steps, unsure of what he might see or say when he
got to his own room.

   Joshua's bed was bare, no blankets, no sheets, just the mattress cover.
Julie and Aric occupied it.  Happy but totally spent guessed Joshua.  After
a shy "hello i'm comin in", he waited to see if they would wake up.  No one
stirred so Joshua entered.  "The scent of love".  His eyes glanced and then
double glanced and rested on the love sight of Aric and Julie, both totally
spent from what must have been serious coupling .  Still no response to his
presence or deliberate rattle of the iced tea pitcher.  They were on their
sides, curled together, legs intertwined.  Joshua moved to the other side
of the bed , to put the pitcher on the night table his mind argued but in
reality to get another look at what -- he might have looked like with
Jennifer in the same bed.  Aric's tube had began to come free from Julie .
The foreskin completely hid his soft shaft but still clung to Julie's
sensitive area , at least as far as Joshua imagined - all girls have
something in there which demands attention after a certain point is reached
in human love making.  Rattling the pitcher again brought no response even
as Joshua stood in the window light to cast a shadow over them.  "H'mm
Julie did want to be awakened".  Joshua chose one of the ice cubes , deftly
slipped it between Arics foreskin and Julie's opening, and waited.  No real
response from that either, just a murmur of a giggle from Julie.  "Man ,
these two really stoked each other" muttered Jos.  He selected another
partially melted ice cube.  He walked behind Aric, spread his cheeks gently
and tucked the cube inside Aric's star.  Aric stiffened , started to laugh
- Julie also.  "Ahww, this was just a candid camera thing , wasn't it",
begged Joshua looking around as though there really was a camera crew
behind the mirror.  "Thankyou for wakin us", chimed Julie.  "Could I have
some iced tea?  Where exactly did you put that last ice cube?  "Where I put
my tube yesterday".  "Did you like doing that Joshua"?  "I ah don't know. I
know that I could not stop once started.  I know that I somehow got immense
satisfaction, as though I was in the driver's seat and Aric was powerless.
It was incredible , and yes, I enjoyed it so much.  My tube still hurts a
bit." "So you put an ice cube inside Aric to sooth his side of the hurtin",
laughed Julie.  She was beginning to understand when complete trust is
established and what happens when a boy penetrates another.  "What did you
feel Aric"?  "I felt you were going to rip me apart .  You warmed me up,
mouthed my tube , stroked my foreskin till it started to drool fluids, then
you thrust it inside the temporary storage place .  You rode me like a race
horse which I could not stop.  You pinned my body cross ways on Jos bed,
with my head and arms dangling to the floor.  Still I was powerless.  I was
in your spell.  I was controlled by my supreme master until my balls
exploded.  They did not want to do that because of yesterdays busy day, but
you forced them to deliver sperm .  I hope this time my seed can overpower
your ovaries.  Maybe a baby has started." "Aww fuctastic" , encouraged
Joshua .  "Awwmen" , yelled Julie.  "You have never told me before your
thoughts on my body controlling yours .  I do understand you're feeling of
complete control Joshua ", and turning to Aric , Julie asked again.  "What
did you feel Aric while a fifteen year old, tubed your star into cosmic
clouds" ?  That was the question , I was asking, but I am glad you told me
like what our love making today was." Aric delayed response, reliving the
moment with Josh as he spoke.  "First of all, I thought , I would not like
it, and I thought that Joshua would give up also.  It was not easy for us
to figure out how to do it.  Boy sex requires a lot of experimentation. 
Remember Julie, our first time, you were stoked to forge ahead, but I was
basically just armed for an adventure.  When boy meets girl, I should say
when you, Julia, decided to let me do it, I felt lucky and out for
adventure.  It was expected of me to do it right and I sort of knew what to
do.  I am really lucky that the first impression was a good impression or
to be blunt, our first time boy-girl sex was so much fun.  Nature allows
girl-boy interaction bingo.  With Jos and I it began as more of a boast or
bet.  Joshua is a hansom kid , but it was his demeanor, perhaps character ,
his confidence that pushed me to him .  I had all the cards , a wife , a
job , a hansom body , experience and a gun and he had none , and yet he
challenged me to a bet hanging upside down by his knees on a tree limb.  I
wanted to look after him as my sisters asked, but instead I fell under his
spell.  I wanted to experiment with him, because he was missing Jen and he
seemed to need a boost.  So we agreed to test each other with a bet that
Joshua could hang by his knees on a limb and cum without falling off . 
"That seems pretty unfair" , stated Julia.  "He would eventually get tired
and fall anyway".  "By then I was under the spell of his boy-ness .  I
asked him , if I could take off his pants, and then I did that.  He just
put them under his legs to make the tree branch softer.  I asked him , if I
could strip off his underwear, and he said yes and asked me if he could
undue my pants".  "Let me get this straight I mean gay", laughed Julie. 
"You were standing at his crotch and he was hangin upside down playin with
your tube " .  "Yes.  I did not feel anything as Jos dropped my pants, but
I knew that I wanted to put my mouth over his slender tube.  It was
straight and hard and almost see through-like, yet still covered totally
with thin foreskin .  It looked right in my eye and there was no tip, just
some precum.  Then Joshua put his lips over my , ---over your tube Julie. A
bond of trust with Jos burst and reformed itself harder than steel.  I
mouthed his penis so far inside my mouth that choking resulted , and still
I wanted to put more inside.  Joshua wrapped his tongue around my glans,
and got my attention, but meanwhile I decided, I had to get Joshua to cum,
and to cum inside my mouth." And the more Joshua exited my brain , the more
my brain wanted his semen , his personal seed, his essence, whatever you
name it.  "That is what I feel , I mean when I get eye to eye with your
tube Aric." Aric often went for days without saying much but now he was
talkin and he kept talkin : "Can't explain it, I never had these feelings
for anyone before.  I asked Joshua if I could unsheath his crocodile"? 
Julie and Joshua laughed.  "Joshua gave me a nod, but I still was not sure
how to do it, except, I knew I had to do it to get his cum.  His skin
protects him.  Joshua was strokin your tube Julie, and it was almost no
return time for me, but that was just a dream for me.  My real task was to
get Josh to cum before I did.  I put by right thumb and forefinger around
his glans just in front of the bulge and used the rest of my fingers to
tighten up on the skin on his shaft so that it could not slip or escape. 
My other fingers and thumb gripped his testicles.  They were right at my
eye level.  I could see his star back there and knew what I must do.  The
longest finger rode back his raphe to the star and pushed right inside with
the other fingers still gripping his testicles.  Joshua smiled: "I felt the
finger and tried to concentrate it out of my mind as my tongue stroked that
little tight piece of frenulum on the underside of Aric's shaft.  I could
feel Aric's balls with drawing for climax and knew I would win the bet."
Aric continued: "My mind desperated for his cum.  It was as though I could
not cum until I tasted his in my mouth.  But I could not even taste his
glans because of the protective cover.  My hands forced themselves
together. Joshua's foreskin opening ripped itself over the huge glans
inside.  My fingers pushed, stroked, ripped , even molested the soft
translucent skin.  It bunched-rolled itself up into an elastic type band
almost inside his ball sac, and I felt his mouth close on me as my own
balls sought release.  My brain felt Joshua bite on my shaft just behind
the glans and knew that Joshua was affected.  At this point my brain had to
trust Joshua not to bite my tube , because I had to do it again , maybe
three or four times to get his boy liquid pumping.  I felt my legs buckling
and repeated the prepuce pop on Joshua.  One finger pushing into his deep
prostate, the others pulling his prepuce up the shaft back over the huge
glans forcing it back into a narrow bulbed tube.  I kept pulling his
prepuce so hard that it stretched right out of my grip.  This would have
been extremely painful for Jos if done under different conditions.  I knew
his attention span was reaching climax when his knees unlocked and he fell
against my stomach muscles taking me down on my back with him on top."

   "Is that when, he e-ee-eentered you"?  Asked Julia.  "Nope" "He stayed
on course with my tube rakin his upper teeth along my frenulum till my
balls exploded in to his mouth".  "Then you won the bet"?  "Not exactly.  I
was pumping fluids but still had not tasted Joshua's cum.  During his fall
on to me , I squeezed his foreskin so hard and pushed it right back through
his ball sac till it touched his star, and my longest finger reached inside
Joshua to detonate his testicles.  It worked, his cum pumped into me so
fast that most went straight to my stomach or into my sinus cavity.  The
stuff was hot, it had a boy scent like beyond words.  My sinuses still
remember the soft white-ish fluid sticking to my tonsils and running into
my nose.  I lay on my back, Jos genitals on top of my face filling it with
cum, and I was most satisfied as ever I could be.  Bliss, heaven, whatever.
The experience built a bond of gold between me and Joshua, but the best had
not yet happened.  "What was the best?" whispered Julie.  She was sitting ,
facing Aric as he talked.  She widened her legs and pulled Aric as close to
her until his awakening tube partially entered her opening.  Joshua poured
glasses of tea for them and watched the two lovers interact as Aric
continued his story.  Joshua returned to the kitchen and brought a glass to
enjoy the iced tea with them.  When he returned Aric was describing how a
fifteen year old boy penetrated him.  I mentioned that I thought I would
not like it and it did hurt or at least feel full when Joshua's probe
entered.  By that time , precum was everywhere and once we got the angle
worked out it slipped inside and made me feel uncomfortable, and yet I went
along with it thinking Joshua will probably give up.  When Joshua pulled
out of me , I felt totally abandoned and that I was right in thinking he
had quit : But he quickly returned.  He entered me face to face and we
kissed until I felt his shaft overdrive me .  The foreskin must have
slipped back as he oscillated.  His glans was sooo far inside that ripples
and waves of motion rolled against my prostate.  I submitted totally to him
and he took my trust to a higher understanding than either of us could ever
have reached.  This was the third cum time within the hour for Joshua and
me, and yet it happened to us as though we had never cum before.  Joshua
started telling , even yelling that he was ready, and I began to pump on
his stomach as he pumped me.  He fell on me full weight crushed his balls
against my ass cheeks and his pubes against my balls.  His arms locked
around my waist.  We were completely relaxed except for the stiff cascading
spurts , just kept cuming and cuming and cuming.  After a sleeping spell ,
I got up and washed Joshua.  He was completely baby like .  I carried him
half way home until he got enough strength to want down .  That afternoon I
called you Julia and told you that Joshua wanted me to stay the night with
him .  Both of us slept like babies together all night in this bed.  Today
Joshua is fine as you can see and he is my brother.

   As Aric talked , Julia fingered his flaccid tube noting it harden then
soften then harden again as Aric retold the story.  When the story was
complete she bent down to study the tube at eye level noticing that it was
pushing on the foreskin to escape.  Joshua sensed that Julie wanted to be
alone again with Aric.  He refilled their glasses and began to retreat, but
she said.  "Joshua, is it true that a boy's character comes from his tube.
Can you show it to me.  Don't worry about Aric and me being ready for
another round, but let me see what Aric and his twin sisters saw.  I am
always curious about what makes a boy a man.  Joshua looked at Aric for
support, then smiled at Julia.  "It is hard for me to control it sometimes
Julia.  I might do things that Aric and you would not like".  "I think you
were thinking that you had already done that".  "True, ah ahh I apologize
to you Julia and to your twin sisters Aric." "Aric and Julia, I er ah ---"
Julia picked up Jos tearful eyes, "Jos leave it" "No I want, no I need to
tell you this" Julia.  "I needed something , I needed a lot of something,
-I guess it all came forward at once and Aric assured me he was ok with
using the temporary storage space" "Jos, continue then".  "I don't know
what I needed, I know it was not right, and I know it could end my
relationship with Aric's sister but I did it anyway, I fucked Aric, and I
apoligize to you.  Aric told me everything that happened Jos , and he told
me, you are a special friend and you needed confidence .  Aric was right,
and I agree with what he did .  You need not tell me more details .  Aric
also explained your over protective mother and absent father .  Aric told
me, absolutely everything that you told him .  Somehow from the depths of
your existence you pulled yourself up straight and you made a plan and you
executed that plan to get your dad and mother back together after thirteen
years of abandonment and over protection .  You are young to know that type
of skill in people management .  For a boy of fifteen , it does not happen
often .  Jos, I congratulate you on finding the people skill .  After your
plan succeeded you were left all by yourself, because none of them know you
now as well as Aric and I do.  We got our information from the twins
Jennifer and Jessica .  What Jennifer and Jessica believe , I believe . 
Those girls are made of gold , and you have made them so happy .  When they
get back from vacation they will ask you about two weeks on the farm , and
I know that you will give them the correct answers.  That kind of boy grows
in Ontario once every century , and you are him .  You don't know your
skills yet , but you must be given a chance to learn what life is .  I will
tell you what Aric and I know to be the truth .  Your plan succeeded too
fast .  Your father hardly knows you .  You were not told of Jacques
existence , but learned it from interpreting the news .  Jennifer and
Jessica love you soo oo much that they would have tore you into pieces ,
but you solved their dilemma by bringing your brother to this farm .  All
your new friends had other plans and schedules to meet, except your mother.
She has got you this far in life .  She loves you more than herself , and
she sacrifices herself for you every day as a parent does .  But your
mother needed a break from you , and she has guided you as far as she can
go .  You Jos are now in control of your own destiny .  Many boys are never
in control of their own life flow on this planet .  You went to sleep and
you woke up , every one was gone , but the twins knew you would need more .
They contacted Aric and me .  We promised to look after you , because those
twins have no concept of no .  It is good that we did.  You were stunned by
your success except that all the evidence was gone the next day .  Do you
remember walking across meadow where the big bull lives?  "No".  "You
walked across a farm pasture , and do you remember the bull?" "Yeah" "Why"
"He would have killed me".  "The bull is not an intelligent animal, and yet
he came within an eye blink of erasing you." "You did not hear the bull
because you were still in stunned mode , and it could have cost you.  That
would have cost Jennifer and Jessica a lifetime of grief , not to mention
your side of the family." "I was stupid".  "No you are not stupid Jos . 
You are a boy, a fifteen year old boy who will need many answers in the
next five years and you have started on the course that will allow you to
unlock the doors of human minds , especially your own .  You are doing what
a boy must do , challenge your environment , learn from the reaction . 
This period of your life will only get better , but we need to watch you
unfold .  You took the first steps to meet us .  Jessica and Jennifer told
us about the road side bike crash , about finding the calf and they made
plans for you .  They made plans for you and Jacque in their hearts .  Five
percent of all boys never get to that point in their first loves heart . 
They like you and we like you.  Do you understand that each success will
bring a weakness" ?  "I am starting to understand " .  "Do you know that
those two girls worship you" ?  "Worship me , love me." ?  "Yeaass.  That's
it.  They told me about the day of the rain storm , and that they could not
keep their hands away from you , and when they got close you dived under
the old table and teased them from the other side.  " "Did not".  "Jos, you
know you did not and I know you only wanted to be a small boy that day ,
but the twins wanted to touch you and you found a way to make yourself
scarce to them.  " "So why did I fuck Aric ?  "I will let Aric tell you ,
what he told me " .  "ah so - yeah i was shocked at first .  Anal sex is
what special boys do .  It is not an easy life style, and yet you sort of
propositioned me , having known me for only a few days .  I think you were
in awe of your accomplishment with your dad and mother .  Your blood was
boiling and hormones were flowing freely , as they should in a fifteen year
old .  You have no sports .  No knowledge of what to do for yourself .  A
fifteen year old is in danger in this form .  You remember at first you
just mounted me from the rear like I have often seen two male deer in
rutting season , or two male puppies screwing each other silly .  But what
happened" ?  "I wanted to stop".  "Why"?  "I wanted to see your face Aric".
"And that is when I turned around and faced you on my back.  " "You watched
me, you studied my face , my neck, my chest and my own tube .  Your eyes
were focused on my eyes , and I focused back and then you entered me ,
perfectly, eyes locked to me .  Your eyes knew what I was experiencing ,
your eyes knew I was relaxed and that I wanted you .  With each stroke, you
gave me more pleasure and yourself more pleasure .  At that point we were
un-evolved humans .  We were using our sub-conscious brain .  Ancient human
boys bonding our minds together .  You put your finger tips on my stomach
and on my belly button and on my tube .  You were now in your mothers womb
, with your twin, inside the same sac of nutrients .  Your eyes were
staring into mine but your mind was on Jacque , you were giving Jacque the
pleasure denied to both of you , an intense pleasure , a pleasure so sweet
that only twins would understand that place in the universe .  You kept
going until I started to explode and then the same for you .  Afterward you
realized that I was not Jacque , you were quiet.  Did you think you had
just ruined your friendship wih me Jos"?  "I deid, and I thought Julia
would be pissed about it".  "But what happened" asked Julia" ?  "Both of
you accepted me as a package, unwilling to pull apart or change me in any
way" .  "Did you change anyway" ?  "Yeah" "How" ?  "I was thinking about
Jacque and Jennifer all that day.  I now realize that I love my twin
brother as much as I love Jennifer .  When I first met Jac after thirteen
years separation , I sucked Jac's tube , into me.  My mother inferred that
it was dirty and my dad was wrong .  In some way what I did may have been
to spite my mother.  I am not sure.  What I did was not dirty .  It was a
human boy response to being separated thirteen years ago .  In the process
I re-bonded with Jac .  I am forever grateful to Aric for teaching me that
. I learned that Aric is the best friend a boy could hope for.  Aric has
taught me what I could never have learned from my mother or my dad ." "In
fact the more friends that you make , the more you will learn , and that is
the essence of a human boy" stated Aric and Julia.  "I need to give my
friends more support.  I need to call my brother now stated Jos.  I never
told him how much I needed him to be with me.  We have a hole of thirteen
years to fill in." "I feel - oh no - i feel danger for Jac right now" . 
"Go for it".  "Ahh , I'll use the phone downstairs" .  "Behave".  Jos
hurried downstairs, consulted his fresh list of new phone numbers , dialed
Jacque's cell.

   Ring.  Ring.  Ring.  Ring.  Ring.

   "Heh".



   Chapter 34 : The Pool Accident

   Jos heard the voice .  It was not Jacque.

   "Talk to mister Green please" "Who are you"?  "Joshua".  "Joshua who"?
"Go get Jacque and tell him, I want to talk NOW " ?  Jos heard an extended
pause, possibly water splashing , then a pop and then POP" "What the fuc
was that" ?  "The pool shed is smoking , yellow fog what the fuc" ?  Jacque
yelled "Everyone NOW, out of here NOW , over the back fence".  Silence. 
Jos dialed 911 immediately , and gave the dispatcher all the information
that he knew for fact.  Then redialed Jacque's cell.  Busy.  Busy.  "What
the hell , wtf"?  Jos waited a minute and redialed.  Ring.  "Yeh". 
"Jacque, I need to talk to you." "Joshua, you just called me"?  "Yeah". 
"Thanks Jos , we were in the pool", cough - cough.  "Pool shed pump motor
caught fire , ignited the pool supplies .  If you had not called , all of
us would be under a scum of yellow-green gas .  We might not have survived
. The fire trucks not here yet.  Serious crap Jos.  I could be dead ."
"Fuuuck --, you ok now Jac"?  "Yeah, for now , i think , I don't know if we
breaf an of that stuff , can't feel sinus , eyes on fire -can't see the
cell calling numbers , c cc can't taalk".  "I called 911 for you".  "Tell
the fire guys that you might have brea--thed some yellow gas".  " Ha-ere
now , pumping foam into the sh-e-d, awe- cough cofff ".  Silence on the
cell and yet Jos could here emergency vehicles, sirens , yelling voices".
"Hey HEY ANSWER ME".  Joshua screamed into the phone.  Julia and Aric
appeared but Jos heard no sound from Jacque , yet the line was still open.
"My brothers hurt" , cursed Jos.  "I can feel hurt in my sinus and lungs.
He's gotta answer me" .  Julia located her cell and dialed the local police
department.  What seemed like endless voice menus suddenly disappeared. 
"Detective Rastle speaking , can I help you." Julia explained Joshua
Green's concerns.  "Yes I 've located the Toronto residence , three boys
taken to Peel Memorial Hospital , suspected chlorine gas poison .  Its bad
stuff .  You can call the hospital directly Julia, or take Joshua there
yourself .  Is that enough info to help you" ?  "Yes" said Julia "and
thanks and thanks" as she hung up, she motioned to both boys.  " "Where are
we going".  "PMH - this is serious " .

   Jos listened again on Jacque's cell .  "shhhhhh ----shhhhhhh
-----shhhhhh", and in the background he heard the wine of rubber on
tortured pavement, and the whaling siren of Peel emergency vehicle 16. 
"destination PMH", "is this a gun shot victim ?  " "no - pool accident " "
pool fire ?

   "Jacque , Jacque" Jos yelled as Aric and Julia locked the doors and all
piled into Julia's car, which bore out of the lane way toward Brampton , a
million other cars in the way.

   "ha ha how do you burn a pool ?  "hold 0n " "what's wrong" Another tire
whining curve .  Hold on , this boy does not look g--.  "he's beautiful ,
hansom , oh fuuuk" "erratic heart" The hiss of oxygen tanks continued.  Jos
felt unknown pains in his own chest.

   "heart stopped - oxygen - quickly" kathump, "another defib" , kathump -
Jos body convulsed in synchronized pain with his brother's shocks.  "Give
him those".

   "Tell the driver police escort." Tire whine and engine noise stepped up
a beat .  The ambulance driver was on max speed, waiting for arrival of
police escort to clear the road ahead.  "no heart rate" , " I said no beat"
, "do it again", kathump "wait -- wait ok".

   Jos heard more sounds, his ears could hear "could it be , but it was, I
hear his heart beating yelled Jos".  Pains in Jos own chest subsided.

   "Jac's cell is on his chest, I can hear it beating".  "Hey young man ,
you must like this one a lot", came on a grizzled voice.  "Yeah mister, I
love him" sobbed Jos.  "Thanks for talkin to me, Jac's my twin brother".

   "I'm Bill and it's my job and thanks for knowin a fine young man like
this".  "Ok".  "Yeah , can't give you much time were approaching transfer
zone , gotta go , see you at the hospital.  He is stable for now.  I'll put
his cell in his speedo, byebye" "Bye Bill".  Jos laid back in the back seat
, as Aric reached around and attached his seat belt , and pilfered his
wallet.  Looking for Jos heath card was actually easy, and he returned the
wallet to Jos .  Julia's car headed on to highway 407, non-stop speeding
toward Brampton.  Forty minutes later they pulled into PMH .  Julia had
already called ahead to discover the room number but no info was available
. "Thats it screamed Jos, PEV16" .  An OPP police car , lights flashing ,
siren screaming , peeled away from in front of the big cube van as it
finally made it through the Brampton traffic .  Julia parked the car while
Aric and Jos rushed to the emergency vehicle 16 door.  It was Jac.  Info
tags attached to his ankle, pale blue facial skin , heaving chest , in a
red speedo , under the emergency sheets .  Doors slammed and motors whined
. Respirators shhhhed.  Attendants rushed the stretcher through emergency
rooms , non-stop - intensive care .  Jos held on to the stretcher going
where it went .  Aric was stopped by the guards .  Julia caught up with the
Peel Emergency Vehicle 16 truck as a man closed the rear doors.  "Bill"? 
"Yes".  "Joshua thanks you".  "I love you too", planting a huge kiss on his
lips with her hands wrapped around his head.  "All in a days work Maam ,
but you just made today a keeper --- thanks, we have another call", as he
took his position in the truck the heavy van roared out of sight .  Julia
searched for the reception desk and Jos .  She found Aric .  Then the guard
escorted them to a receiving station where Jacque was admitted to PMH using
Jos health card .  "It just saves time".  "If they do not get a card they
will call Jacque's father and his mother will freak." "We'll call them as
soon as we find Jos and Jac" .  Walking , walking , walking, through the
corridors of PMH until, a local reception desk appeared.  "Jacque, er yeah
I mean Joshua Green's room please".  "That's a controlled area, Sorry.  Are
you relatives"?  "Yes".  "Relation to Joshua Green"?  "Aunt".  "There is a
young boy with the victim now.  He came with the emergency crew.  Do you
know his name"?  "Joshua , er I mean Jacque Green"?  "Height"?  "178
centimetres" "Weight"?  "Fiftynine"?  "Eye colour"?  "Pale blue" "Ok ok ,
you know this boy very well .  Put those things on , come back to me .  My
name is Mary".  Within a minute Aric and Julia dressed in PMH visitor garb
followed her past the oxygen in use warning lights, past the positive
pressure green lights past a hundred other warnings and cautions to a
breathing trauma room .  Aric and Julia stepped inside the door, and
watched Jos palpitating his fingers gently over Jac's chest , avoiding the
heart monitor probes , the breathing feedback monitors .  Jac under an
oxygen mask - pale .  Jos grinning at him in some impossible communication
mode, never before observed by the nurse .  "We could not get him off the
other boy", informed Mary, "he punches, kicks and threatened to bite".  Jac
was spread out on his back arms away from his chest, one hand free to move
anywhere on Jos' chest..  As Jos fingers searched out a location on Jac's
chest Jac's fingers moved to the new location on Jos' chest .  A cell phone
protruded from the top of Jac's speedo , right out of the Canada flag.  "He
is extremely lucky and hansom" said the nurse, checking over Julia and Aric
as well, and then returning to Jos dressed in pajamas , un buttoned at the
top and the bottom , Jac's arm inside his pajama top moving around Jos rib
cage .  Nurse could see everything on Joshua, unconcerned as a puppy in a
meadow of fresh snow .  "They're incredible, and they're inseparable", she
observed , incredulously observing the miracle hand communication between
them .  Twins"?  "Yeah".  "Good boys" ?  "Yep, Super boys and lucky boys
and my friends", stated Aric.  "They ok"?  "The one on his back will be
going in to the breathing chamber for tests.  You need to distract the
other, try to find him some clothes .  He is so beautiful, he distracts my
staff , and me", announced the nurse.  "He does not hear us.  Does he speak
?  , Does either one of them speak" ?  Julia and Aric smiled at the nurse,
as she was asking if they could speak .  They spoke to the nurse to reduce
her suspicion that something was wrong .  "Identical twins grow in the same
amniotic sac.  By birth time, they already have their own touch language,
of which non-identical humans are ignorant , and so on and so forth. 
They're learning curve is exponential and began around eight weeks after
creation , whereas our learning curve is linear , but you know all that" .
Tears of understanding appeared in the nurse' eyes.  "I was trained in a
religious school .  My instructors did not understand two boys nude in one
sac, nor do they yet understand , but I have seen what I have seen , and I
believe my instructors wrong" .  A gentle hiss of oxygen release, a low
level din of electronic monitoring equipment and increased awareness of the
positive pressure fresh air atmosphere in the room pushed Aric and Julia
and the nurse closer together if only in awareness.  Again , they became
aware of Joshua and Jacque intimate finger dances on his pale flesh. 
"Hypnotizing for us singlettes" stated Julia.  She motioned toward the
nurse.  "Pretend they are siamese twins, Mary.  Take Jos where ever you
take Jacque for tests.  You call the shots around here, and to hell with
two thousand year old year old homo bullshit." The nurse, Mary tapped some
numbers on her communication device.  A medical student and two orderlies
appeared and began to move Jac and Jos down the hall toward the test room.
At first Jos sat on the bed as it began to move, then he pulled up his feet
and snuggled under the white cover with his brother Jac's oxygen mask and
supply oblivious of the change in location and the hospital workers.  Julia
smiled at the nurse .  She winked back.  "I really do call the shots on
this floor and there is going to be changes to our procedures about
admission of kids and their brothers and sisters .  Thank you Aric and
Julia for coming to my floor of PMH.  You two should have partial results
in about two hours, you can chose to wa----, What's this ?  Bed carrying
Jos and Jac stopped before leaving the room .  Jos foot jammed the bed ,
dead in the door way .  The orderlies just looked at the head nurse who
looked at Aric and Julia.  "Jos".  "What is it Jos"?

   Chapter 35 : Where is Thierry

   Jos rolled to face the nurse , smiled , "Another boy , Thierry
Robertson, was in the pool with Jac .  We want to see him ." and Jos
returned under the sheet against Jac .  More finger signal communication .
Jac coughed , setting off an alarm on his chest.  Aric looked for answers
from the nurse .  More tapping on the nurse cell phone , more calls , as at
the same time the boys propelled down the corridor toward testing .  Mary
stopped smiling .  Aric and Julia saw her distress .  Within a second Mary
recovered , she repeated the news to Aric and Julia.  "Thierry R.  came
here twenty minutes before you , - unknown lung function - was air
transported to Toronto General with failed lung capacity , now in critical
condition possible brain damage and or requiring lung transplant" .  "Jesus
Christ" blurted Aric, "I don't even know the kid and I feal weak ." "Thanks
Mary", replied Julia softly.  "Aric will take this news to Jos and stay
with him .  I am going downtown to TGH.  "We should not tell those boys
about the other one" , suggested Mary.  "Aric must tell him the truth" ,
stated Julia, " no matter what" .  She planted a quick kiss on Mary and
returned to the long corridors .

   "I will let Jos know that you are staying Aric".  "Yes, give me a minute
or two, I wait in the waiting room, if you need me."

   Julia added Mary's phone number to her directory list , and was on her
way down town, rush hour merciless traffic and endless delays, all the
while making calls from her cell, though she suspected it might be illegal
. One hour later, arriving at the fabled TGH.  Making her way to the first
visitors entrance , querying about Thierry.  "Receptionist, how can I help
you" "Thierry Robertson status and location" ?  Julia understood the
directions and bolted for the location.  "Not sure what I can do for
Thierry" .  She ran at top speed across two corridors and took 3 stairwells
rather than wait for an elevator".  "Will I be able to see him , if I am
not related"?  Regaining her normal composure Julia appeared at the nurse
station.  "Thierry Robertson" commanded Julia.  "Relationship"?  "Friend".
"Sorry, we cannot al,,,".  "But I must see him, I love him".  "He needs
that sure enough, who are you"?  Julia provided her name and particulars.
"Nobody has called about him" stated the nurse, " - he needs somebody now".
"You must wash, shower, put on this sterile clothes.  Are you familiar with
our infection control"?  "No".  "Then I will come with you.  We'll use that
room." In a minute Julia was germ free and wearing TGH garb.  They
proceeded through several locked doors to isolation ward 3.  Through the
last door into a maze of wires and lights such as Julia had never seen. 
Two doctors moved aside to talk to Julia.  "Keeps asking for Jac"?  "Are
you Jac"?  "No, I am a friend of Jac .  I just came from Jac , he is asking
for Thierry".  "Go ahead, he has a microphone and ear speaker to hear you".
Julia moved close to the support equipment automating Thierry's life. 
"Thierry , I have good news.  Jac wants to see you", she repeated softly.
"J "?  "Yeah, he is with Jos and Jac loves you" "Ya" Thierry was slow to
respond .  Julia looked at the reams of instruments, blinking lights and at
the closest doctor who motioned her to come close.  They walked into
another room.  "Thierry talk to you"?  "Yes, I told him that Jac loves him.
Jac is a friend of mine and he was in the pool accident with Jac".  "At
least we know he has some mental capacity", stated the second doctor.  "I
knew that Jac's friends would be intelligent" , stated Julia.  "No , I mean
, his brain is oxygen starved, can't breath on his own." "Thierry has
unspecified lung damage from chlorine-bromine gas".  "The damage continues
as we speak , and may continue another twenty hours or so until all the
cells affected by the gas began to regenerate or not".  The doctors voice
became lower but Julia knew the end result.  "Do his parents know"?  asked
Julia.  "They're on vacation in Greece, have not been located as yet.  An
older brother is coming from Greece." "Then I am his parent said Julia . 
My husband, Aric and I know this boy enough to be his parents.".  "Assuming
we are right.  What is the last thing we can do for Thierry asked Doctor
number one." Julia closed her eyes.  She could still see Jac and Jos under
the white hospital covers in Brampton.  "His friends Jac and Jos should
come here and be with him whatever happens and what ever it takes".  "If he
dies, it will be with his friends".  "Doctor one looked at doctor two". 
"May not get here in time to see - --" "Ok, then air t".  They nodded. 
Several minutes of communication with Brampton followed.  Somewhere within
the millions of Toronto hustle and traffic , a flight crew powered up an
emergency helicopter , -giant turbofan engines responded.  Air transport
helicopter dispatched to PMH landing pad.  Two boys and Aric boarded. 
Above the clouds and traffic , and half a million commuters , medical air
transport headed downtown.

   Julia talked to Thierry again.  "Jac and Jos are coming to see you
soon". Thierry's eyes opened , closed , contorted face, "don wan em see me
di".  "You are alive Thierry, and you will be alive tomorrow at this time".

   Thierry's eyes rolled back into his sockets as he spoke .  Warning bells
detonated , buzzers rang.  Doctors , nurses , ran to Thierry , stripped off
his hospital garb.  " Postion one , position two , ok" , kathump .  The
defib machine tossed Thierry to the other side of the bed.  "steady ,
holding" Slowly the team dissipated elsewhere into the hospital.

   Twenty minutes later a bed with Jac and Jos arrived in Thierry's
isolation ward.

   Julia searched out Doctor one and Doctor two in the consultation room.
Doctor one,"What do we do now"?  Doctor two, looked at Julia?  "Put Jos and
Jac together with Thierry in the same bed, quickly".  "Ah that is agai..."
" Doit growled Julia".  "bu ....wh the ....."?  "He has no parents to see
him off .  Thierry has nothing to lose except his whole life , and if he
must go, then that is the way out of this world , accompanied to the end of
it by boyhood friends .  He was not born with a twin .  He may die with one
." "Ok" "Ok"

   Julia knew the stress was overcoming her.  She found Aric and left the
hospital for hours and wandered through streams of pedestrians going about
normal life routine.  Somehow the rush and hassle of a big city environment
soothed her thoughts.

   "Orderlies brought in a wider hospital bed and carefully lifted Thierry
to the new bed.  Jos was put on his left and Jac on his right.

   Julia made calls to all the people in her life to let them know the
news. She apologized to Robert and Jill for directing them to Brampton
where they watched emergency transfer of Jac and Jos to an air transport
helicopter .  Julia returned at six to check on Jacque and Joshua.  She was
told that both were fine.  "And what about the other boy with no parents in
this country.  Thierry?" Julia got the answer that she wanted to hear. 
"Alive, lung function still deteriorating but more slowly.  We can pray for
Thierry".  "God does not care whether he lives or dies as long as he gets
another soul", remarked Julia.  Aric and her left again for a small
restaurant dinner.  When they returned they listened to the doctors on
duty.

   "Did you see that", spooked Doctor one"?  Those boys tossed aside the
property of Peel Memorial Hospital gowns.  Then they removed Thierrys and
tossed it aside.  They're under the sheet, three of them nude." Aric looked
at Julia as she spoke.  "I knew it.  All in one sac, no skin separation. 
Those boys are going to take Thierry with them back to his home.  " Doctor
one.  "Consult the lung trauma unit again.  Is there any drug to stop the
lung deterioration ?.  Doctor two.  "We have done everything in the known
universe of medicine".  "If he is alive tomorrow at this time, then the
hyperbaric chamber and 50-50".  "Will it harm the other two boys"?  "You
mean they all go in together"?  "If there is room"?  "And if not"?  "Then
Jac will go with Thierry, provided his lungs are well enough.  If not then
Jos.  The boy will not die alone if death does come" stated Julia.  Aric
stated "Amen".

   Julie and Aric accompanied the afternoon doctor to watch the boys.  Jac
needed the oxygen mask .  Thierry was still alive no longer able to talk
but Jac and Jos talked to him through finger language , and Thierry had
learned enough language to respond .  Jac and Jos were relaying his
messages to the doctors and nurses.  Modifications were made to his
respirator mask .  Temperature requests were adjusted with heaters or
coolers .  When Thierry wanted ice on his chest, he got ice .  When he
needed to change position, Jac and Jos moved him to reduce his oxygen
requirements .  When Thierry needed liquids they ordered liquids.  When
Thierry needed to void himself Jac and Jos became his muscles and when he
had to pee they hooked up the drain to his tube .  Electronic monitoring
continued, through out Thierry's lung decline , as the technical staff
increased his oxygen content, they instructed Jac and Jos to check Thierry
for intelligence to make sure the oxygen in his blood was not poisonous, an
important double check on the array of instruments stuffed into Thierry's
nose and blood stream.  Thierry's brother was on a plane from Greece,
destined to arrive at 8:00 AM the next day.  "Just twelve hours away
signaled Jac to Thierry and you will see Jayr".  "Your mum and dad are
still on vacation", they signaled.  Thiery's fingers traced patterns and
signals to Jac's chest.  "My friend"?  Asked Thierry.  "Oh Oh".  "First
letter of name is A"?  "No".  "B"?  "No".  The magic of hand signals was
slow but Jos speeded it up by writing the characters where Thierry could
detect them best, and far away from the damaged lungs, below his belly
button across Thierry's pubic region.  Julie and Aric and the doctor on
evening duty cheered each time a new letter of the girls friends name and
address appeared.

   "Ok , we have all the info", said Julie, handing it to the old doctor.
"I expect you will know how to let her know".  "Yes replied the doctor.  I
have done this so many times, and it is much easy than the other news."
Aric and Julie winced.  "Ring ring ring".  Jos grabbed Jac's cell and
whispered under the covers.  "Yes Dad, I am ok".  "In TGH".  "I am ok". 
"In Toronto General Hospital, do you want me to spell it"?  "Yes mom , I am
fine".  "Is this Jac"?  "No".  "Let me talk to Jac".  "He wears an oxygen
mask and can't talk right now".  "Why"?  Joshua wanted more time to spend
with Thierry.  "Mom, Dad, call Julia's cell, I am too busy, love ya, bye."
Seconds later Julia's cell announced that the Greens wanted answers . 
Julia explained what she knew slowly and patiently, and put Robert on hold
until she could locate the old doctor calling Thierry's girl friend .  She
cross referenced his data with the Greens most likely auto route and
Thierry's girl friend location.  The route matched .  More phone calls by
the the doctor.  More calls by Julia, and the plan was finalized .  The
Greens would make a stop on their route into TGH and pick up Thierry's girl
friend .  Finally , her and Aric made final checks on the doctor who
checked Thierry's statistics.  Blood oxygen content was dropping more
slowly now.  Aric and Julia were ahead of him with the math.  "At that rate
Thierry will stabilize around three to five AM".  "Not that simple,
explained the old doctor".  Embolism, I mean bubbles in the blood, coming
out of the lungs can kill a healthy heart not to mention a weakened one
starved of the exact mixture it needs .  Secondly , the lung deterioration
is not linear .That is why it is so important for Jos to keep talking to
Thierry.  Often the instruments will alert us but they do fail".  Aric and
Julia dropped their faces.  "There is not a linear decline either, it could
increase or decrease based on anything , even Thierry's mind".  "Remain
upbeat", replied the old doctor.  Jos and Jac are taking their strength
from you and Aric, not from me.  I am only technical support for this boy.
It gives me more time to plot plan B and plan C and plan Z if we need to.
Jos and Jac will not see their friend die." "Ohhh".  Julia and Aric hugged
the old doctor.  He was on their side.  The gift called life was in his
hands and Julia felt them.  Julia and Aric dozed in the waiting room, till
almost one AM.  A voice awoke them.  "Julia, Aric".  "Yes" "Jill and Robert
Green to meet you", stated Robert.  "But where's Thierry's girl friend". 
"Ahem, -- here sir .  I am Joseph Alnot".  Aric and Julia looked at him,
sixteen maybe , red hair, green eyes , perfect face , perfect complexion
but no freckles everything .  "I am sorry Julia" said Aric.  "I thought you
knew , er ah male friend".  "Ah hello Joseph".  "Long form is Joseph, but
nobody calls me that except my grandfather.  Could I talk to Thierry and
could my new friends here the Greens talk to Jac and Jos" ?  The old doctor
appeared as Julia began her story at the beginning, explaining what
happened, who was hurt, who was fine.  After she assured the Greens that
Jos was attending Jac who was ok , she added , that they were now helping
TGH with a difficult case .  I will turn my story over to the resident
doctor to explain to Jo.  Robert and Jill, lets go take a break in the wait
room, until the doctor can call us.  Jo dropped into a chair as his knees
buckled, realizing the gravity in Julia's voice and why was this old
gentleman doctor going to continue the story.  "No, no ooooh" The doctor
explained as he fitted Jo with the hospital clothes.  They walked through
the layers of locked doors to ic 16.  The old doctor took Jo by the hand as
they entered the room , lights dimmed now to night time settings.  He led
Jo to Thierry's bed and to Jos side and passed his hand to Jos who passed
it to Thierry's hand.  Joshua crushed them together and whispered in Jo's
ear.  "Glad to meet you Jo.  Thierry is critical .  Loosing lung function,
can't talk, shallow breathing, low blood oxygen, he asked for you buddy .
He wants you, he needs you.  Thanks for showing up Jo, cause Jack- and I
can't hold on to Thierry all night.  He is slipping away from us.  Do you
read me."?  "Yes ".  "Do you want to help" "Yes".

   Chapter 36 : Joseph arrives.

   "Strip off that hospital stuff and get in here against Thierry so he can
know that you are close .  Jac is best at communicating with him through
touch language .  I am best at making the hospital staff understand .  You
are who he needs to make it until day break".  "Ahh no, I can't" "Can't
what" "Can't strip" "The room is dark, nobody will see".  "Can't" "Can't
what" "In a bed with another boy ,,, shit fuck no no I will not".  "Why
will you not"?  And why the excrement word.  Are you a clean freak"?  "Get
in here, I will not touch you, I want you to touch Thierry .  His lungs are
shutting down .  That means death man".  Joseph went to the bathroom, and
Jos followed .  Joseph barfed into the toilett.  "I am sorry , really sorry
Joseph .  Forgive my ignorance" .  Joseph washed out his throat.  He looked
at Jos nude body, slender hips, developing six pak, lightly muscled upper
body, standing without remorse or shyness too close to Joseph.  And Joseph
liked him.  "Call me Jo".  "Want to get in bed with Thierry now"?  "There
are no rhetorical questions here ?  Life and death should be free of the
two thousand year old male-male crap.  Are you a male, Jo"?  "Yeaaah". 
"Show me." "Can't".  "Thats ok.  You have no love for me, so say no." "No".
"Now, my parents brought you to see Thierry.  Why?" "I want to see him"? 
"Why do you want to see Thierry"?  "Call him Thi".  Jos put his hands on
either side of Joseph's face.  "Do you like me"?  "Yeah"?  "Why"?  "You're
han - som." "What else" ?  "Jos, your cute".  "Do you love Thi"? 
"Ye-a-a-hhh".  "Yee-haw, then let me do this, pretend I am Thi." Jos untied
the crude hospital gown around Jo.  Unbuttoned the gown, and let it drop.
"You are well built, slender, handsome and you love Thi".  Jos put his arm
around the slender boy and led him through the darkened room to Thi's
hospital bed .  Pulling up the hospital sheet , "Get in beside Thi so he
will know you are here in his last few hours on this planet.  Now please. "
Jo slid in beside Thierry.  "Jo can I get in bed with you?  I will not
touch the part that belongs to Thi.  I promise he grinned".  "Go foit". 
"Thanks Jo, I was feelin left out".  Jos guided Jo's hand to the respirator
clamped to Thiery's face, to the wires on his chest and to the blood stream
monitors in his groin.  He taught Jo the rudimentary touch messages used to
communicate with Thierry.  "Take Thierry from here Jo.  I will help you. 
Jac will help you, though Jac has an oxygen mask and monitors for his own
safety".  "I call him T H I as in thigh", replied Jo , as Jac touch tagged
the news of Jo to Thi.  Thi returned a message.  "Jac, I am dieing".  Jac
was brutally honest.  "Thi you might die".  "I am dieing".  "Outcome not
certain".  "Jac , will you help me".  "Yes Thi".  "Jac, I love Jo".  "And
Jo loves you, -right".  "Jac , I want Thi inside me".

   Jac took a deeper breath of air from his mask, and signaled Jos.

   The old doctor at the monitor heard every word, He noted Jac's questions
and answers and the monitor blips for Jac.  Jos talked to Jo.  "You love
him"?  "Yeah".  "Anybody else know"?  "No, - Jos".  "Do you care".  "You
already know the answer to that Jo.  I care about Jac and his friend and
now you Jo.  I more than care about you Jo.  I need you to enjoy life." "I
mean do you care about gay" ?  "Gay is nothin - Love is Life and life is
fleeting".  Jos moved Jo's hand down to Thi's soft tube.  "Have you stroked
Thi before"?  "Yeeeah" Jac gently moved Thi's fingers to Jo and slid them
down his chest to Jo's tube.  "Ah - ah - god that's good.  ---Lots of
times, but we never completed".  "Why"?  "I am afraid".  "God"?  "Fuuuc"
Jos slid his fingers gently between Thi and Jo, until he found Thi's
fingers and the tube they gripped.  He was looking for Jo's foreskin.  He
found nothing .  "For christ fucking sake", moaned Jos.  Jo has no
foreskin, he is afraid of god." "Then he is afraid of life, concluded Jac,
but it is not his life we must save".  "Jac's voice was strained but
determined to be heard outside the mask.  Jo you must conqueror your fear
now.  Thi needs your life and love.  If not he will die before the sun
rise".  "Uncontrollable sobs and tears , a release of tensions held in by
his fears for the last sixteen years shook Jo." "Thi , I want you to live,
NO I NEED YOU TO LIVE my life, my love, my Thi".

   Tears streamed from the old Doctor sitting at the instrument monitor
station, his ears hearing everything that Jac and Jos and Jo said and his
mind screaming for some positive sign for Thi.  "At least Jac is talking
again , but I know the damage in his throat is hurtin bad , he has
recovered too quickly from the chlorine-bromine gas poisoning, but he is
recovering .  Four o'clock in the morning or will it be mourning for Thi",
as he checked through the instrument readings.  He noticed the blip on Thi
heart rate when Jos put Jo's fingers on his pecker.  He noticed the blip on
Jac's monitor when he talked.  "It hurts him to talk, but he talks anyway.
Jacques throat feels like acid is eating it away and yet he talks to keep
Thierry alive.".

   Jos began again his reasoning with Jo.  "Jo, Thi has none of his life
left.  He needs you, not god.  He needs you to tell him that you like him
and that you love him and tell him the grim reaper can just go fuck itself
, cause nobody here is leavin .  My parents drove you downtown because
Julia said you could help.  You agreed to come with them and your parents
agreed to let you go to be with Thi.  You are so fucking lucky kid, but you
are killing yourself with irrational fear, and you are hurting us, because
we trusted you to help.  You must help us.  You must help Thi .  He will
die.  Forget god, remember your parents did let you come here.  "No they
did no", stated Jo.  "My parents are gone since I was six years old.  My
grandfather told me to stay.  I came here because Julia talked to me." "Jo
, I am in love with Julia's sister, Jen.  She is the most beautiful girl in
the universe and her sister Julia is the smartest.  I am here because Jac
and Thi are like brothers.  I want Jac to live and be happy.  That means
Thierry is on my list of living now and forever.  Now remember the good
times you have had with Thi, the glances in the theater, touching when no
one was looking, and the secret messages in school.  I know that you have
done this, because it is the hidden result of organized attacks on boys for
thousands of years.  I was attacked in a different way, separated from my
brother Jac for thirteen years because my mother thought that my dad was
gay.  I did not chose my time to enter this world, but I did enter with
identical twin Jac.  We began life together in a single egg inside a single
sac inside my mother, because my dad loved her.  That's why you are here
Jo. Your dad loved your mother barely sixteen years ago.  They gave you
life so that you could pass it on.  Your foreskin was a precious part of
that life, but the church has taken it away from you.  Fuck the church Jo.
Fucc everybody.  Go where you want.  Go where your life leads.  Only you
will know your destiny.  Can you tell me what your mind is asking"?

   Jac rested as his twin brother's speech continued.  He wanted to talk
but his throat pain intensified.  A monitor beeped new warnings on the old
Doctor's monitor display.  A nurse appeared with new medication for Jac. 
Within a minute she was gone, waving at the Old Doctor, as she passed.

   Jo looked into Jos face.  "I hate everyone.  Myself included.  I hate my
grandfather, and my mother and my dad.  They brought me into the world and
then left me , alone." Without a blink, Jos stared into his face again. 
"Jo, hating everyone includes you.  You are suicidal.  You have nobody, so
why don't you just leave here and jump off a bridge." The old Doctor
dozed-listened as the words continued.  He had not heard this tact before,
but - yet - but this was a different argument.  He could not have sad those
things to Joseph, although he wanted them said.  He smiled to himself.  The
monitors on Thi had not stabilized.  Slowly, inexorably as the planet
rotates on it's axis, Thi's lungs were failing and no force on earth could
stop that, unless, --but blood oxygen was dangerously low.  "Should I stop
them "?  "No", he answered himself, "because Thi would already be a
vegetable if the helicopter had not brought Jac to guide him".  The old
doctor had already forseen plan Z.  Notify the parents, fill out the organ
donor forms.  Sign the death certificate.  "Should I let Jo get in bed with
his lover.  Jos has already solved that dilemma for me"?  "What will happen
to Thi's blood oxygen if Jo does respond.  Will it kill him?  Then Jo will
self destruct.  What more can Jos and Jac do for this boy in peril?  They
have kept him alive to this point, but can they keep him until day break ?
The answers all lie with love of life.  I have seen life fail so many
times. God does not control life.  Love controls it , and love can save
Thi. Boy-boy, boy-girl, girl-girl means nothing.  Love means life and I
want Thi to live." The old doctor realized that he had become emotional and
immediately called another doctor recently retired .  "George, I need your
help".  "It's four AM".  "George , a life is about to pass.  Help me".  "I
am coming Bill.  Give me half an hour."

   Jos was loosing his argument with Jo.  The fear of god and faggots could
not be trumped as easily as Jos had hoped.  "Yeah , I knew it took me
thirteen hours to deal with it".  Jos answered himself.  The accident means
that Jo must do this in thirteen minutes.  Again Jos began, "Jo, where were
you when the accident happened"?  "School".  "School is closed, it is
summer break"?  "I go to a religious school cause my marks are bad".  "What
do they teach you"?  "They improve my english for university entrance". 
"No , I mean what does your religious class teach you"?  "To love god, to
love life, cellibrate god's existence." "Do you do that"?  "I thought that
I was freakish, because I cannot love what I fear." "Why"?  "I do not know
why I fear"?  "Jo, You were strapped into a limb restraint at three days
old.  Four hundred million nerve cells were cut away from your brain.  The
hormones kicked in at twelve years old.  Your logical brain was already
programmed by the church, but your sub conscious brain, the part that
initiates reproduction and love is looking , remembers that mutilation ,
without pain killer, without your choice.  They killed your hope, your
ability for spontaneous life .  They replaced it with god programming . 
You fear your self .  Your logical brain is wrong .  Let your deep feelings
guide you through this .  Let your sub conscious thoughts free .  You are
under covers with me , with no clothes .  I will protect you from god's
lightning strikes .  OK, - Do you hate everybody?  " "Ahh ye - no." "Do you
hate me?  Do you want me dead"?  "Fuuck off".  "Answer me Jo"?  "Is there a
single person in the six billion people on this globe, that the rising sun
should illuminate." "No", cried Jo.  Jos put one hand on each side of Jo's
face and kissed him.  "Do you want death for everyone on the planet"?  "No"
screamed Jo.  "There is one boy".  "You are wrong" yelled Jos back into his
face.  "There are two boys, who love you.  Thierry and Joseph".  You need
to provide Thi with a shelter where his life can be suspended for a while
and his lungs heal.  Ok"?  "Ok".  "Thi has a respirator on his face. 
Without it he will die.  With out you he will also die.  Chlorine gas is
destroying his lung cells, millions by millions." "You cannot look into
Thi's eyes but you can look into mine.  You will see Thi." Jos rolled
himself to half sitting.  Putting his face close to Jo.  He imagined the
love between him and Jac.  A new look appeared on Jo.  "Jos, I feel Thi".
Jac began to massage Thi once again to ensure that his mind remained clear.
Thi searched for Jo's tube again .  A slight flicker of acknowledgment
echoed back .  His air passages rippled more synthetic air.  New oxygen
arrived in his blood .  Jo felt Thi squeeze his tube , and he kissed Jos .
"I love you Thi".  His hand reached out to Thi's tube .  Tentatively , half
hoping that God would strike them both dead at the same time .  Jac soothed
his fingers to manipulate Thi's foreskin tip .  Nerve endings in Thi's
foreskin recorded life force .  His fingers squeezed on Jo again , and so
it began , a micro channel of feelings between two teen boys held apart by
church logic , but forced together by a life support team .  "I love you
Thi .  I am sooory about not telling you earlier .  Christ knows I love you
and have since we first met ." Jos realized the new world immediately . 
"Jo, I need you", he whispered.  "I need you to show me , your love ,
before I ah leave the planet ." Jo gave Jos one more kiss , then slid
farther his face on Thi's chest .  Thi felt hot tears , and the frustration
of life inside Jo .  His fingers moved slowly over Jo's tube .  He wanted
to do more but he could not .  Automated sensors detected low oxygen . 
Computers and lamps lit up the old doctors console again .  Thi's oxygen
concentrations changed automatically in obeyance to the mindless processing
units providing support .  The hiss of regulated air in his respirator
changed slightly .  More oxygen was provided , just enough by the machine
to keep him alive another two minutes .  Silent weeping tears flooded Thi's
chest .  Fluids filled with joy and love rained down on his lungs ,
absorbing into his smooth skin , like soft rain on fields of wheat .  Thi
responded .  Jac could feel Thi's life ebb , could hear the low beeps
changing cadence on the console .  He whispered to Thi , "Relax Thi, relax
yourself , let it happen , do not try to help yourself .  We will do it for
you .  Jo will do it now ." .  Joseph had been taught never to lick another
human , but that was his logical brain .  The mammalian brain was in
control now .  A forty million year old brain , evolved over forty million
earth disasters now guided Jo .  His tongue reached out and comforted
itself on Thi's nipple .  His lips followed the tongue .  More beeps on the
console .  More respirator hiss .  Jac tried to talk again but he was at
the limit of damaged vocal chords .  He signaled Jos , who took up the new
space beside the respirator hissing over Thi .  He tried to reach an ear
with his tongue and succeeded .  "Thi, it's Jos" "Jac is with you man . 
Jos, is with you man , Jo is now with you .  He is healthy, his mind is
healed .  Let him do what he must do .  You have done all that you can . 
Relax and whatever happens will be good .  The doctors and machines will
keep you alive .  Do not move .  Let your body go on auto pilot .  Your
brain needs very little oxygen to realize life and love from Jo .  " Jo
straddled over Thi's legs at the bottom of the bed , his tongue and lips
and fingers and wrists closing to Thi's private area .  Happy tears
continued to rain on Thi .  Tears containing pheromes and hormones of the
mammal kingdom rained down on Thi .  His body did relax , even as his mind
was taken to a secret place by Jo .

   Another doctor appeared with the old doctor , an even older man,
challenged and bent by stress and death.  "Bill".  "George".  "All that I
explained is coming to pass .  Thi's boy love is with him for beginning or
ending.  I called you because I was loosing logic to emotion .  These
monitors and this computer software know only narrow bands of life and
death .  They cannot compensate for love , expressed as it is happening now
between two boys .  Both of us know the old way and the high tech way but I
need your help with resuscitation by love .  We can do this using Jac and
Jos as sensors if the system crashes ." "Yes, we can" .  "Is there anyone
else in this hospital at four AM" ?  "Yes".  "She is an atheist , but she
worships life" .  "Can we ask her for help".  "Device number 362537" . 
"How you remember numbers , wow" ?  "Her name is Sath , and I will call
her" .  Minutes later Sath appeared .  Jet black hair , pony tail . 
Surprisingly alive even under the hospital uniform .  "Sath a sixteen year
old boy's life is ticking away", and so began the story, retold again by
the old doctor , Bill as he assembled his team for life support or organ
transplant .  "Lets prepare three tubs of medicine, " Bill continued . 
"Tub A prepares for the best outcome, minor problems anticipated".  "Tub B
to recover a failing heart and lungs if our computer crashes." "Tub C is
organ preservation, in case , the worst."

   Thi did relax , mind reliving his life .  Body on life-support , Jo's
tongue massaging his foreskin , now closely wrapped to the awakening shaft
. New lights ignited on the monitor station .

   Jos slipped his fingers under the respirator to monitor Thi's pulse . 
Jac monitored his lung movements for expansion and contraction .  Life
giving oxygenated air currents flowed through the damaged lungs' capillary
channels .  Channels assaulted by Chlorine poison and regenerating channels
filled with new blood.  Heart pump faltered , missed one beat , rested
itself , blood pressure falling , monitors screaming for attention .  The
life support team exploded with activity .  They would not allow this boy
to die now .

   Jo continued to get closer to Thi than he had ever allowed himself . 
His lips had found the gold-red pop sicle of life for every boy.  Tongue
engulfed the glans emerging from the preputial ring.

   Heart restarted , automatically , pump pressure better than before. 
"False alarm for the team" .

   Jo understood the heart pump pressure on his lips .  He understood the
missing beats and felt the renewal surge in the river of bright red cells
under his tongue.  Jos fingers moved in random detailed patterns , trying
to detect , to feel the disaster killing Thi's living lung cells.  As Jo
massaged Thi in one place , Jos massaged him in another , sometimes feeling
the energy of cell rejuvenation , but often detecting no lung cell
activity. Fingers savored the texture of Thi's prepuce , a texture that he
did not have .  "At least I now know what they have taken from me .  At
least I can enjoy Thi, while he still lives , no fuuc, I - I - I mean he
will still live - I mean fuck off god , get out of my mind forever" . 
Sobbing again , Jo started crying , pulled away , but Jos held him.  "It's
ok Jo , Go back to Thi" .  "I can feel his energy when you massage him". 
Jo remembered the finger communication language , --He told Thi through the
ageless language of touch about hanging on to life .  Jos sensed his fear ,
"Thi will die - someday Jo , but Not tonight .  He asked for you because he
wants you , needs you , he has not given up on life yet .  This is your
life Jo and Thi's life together , or not.  It is not your choice tonight .
It is Thi's choice who brought you here with his friend Jac and myself . 
We ask you to give him what he needs .  We ask you to prove your love for
Thi, before he dies .  Thi will stay on this planet if you complete with
him .  Jo crept back over to Thi , holding him , fondling him , feeling the
blood in his veins and his hardness .

   Tub's prepared.  Doctors in attendance.  Sath visited the boys.  First
she talked to Jac, introduction, who I am, what I do, how are you, can you
talk ...."are you Thi's monitor for respiration".  "Yes, a few words, Hi
Sath" .  Then she talked to Jos , the same things in the same order except
last question , "Are you the captain" ?  "It only , appears that way Sath"
as she gazed upon a rare smile under life-death conditions.  Then she put
her hand on Jo's shoulder.  "You are my new hero Jo , You love someone
dearly and you are here to prove it.  I love you and I wish that I could be
you .  Thierry is beautiful .  Make it count for him, and he will reward
you." She spoke into a tiny microphone connected to Thierry's ear, but she
wanted all the boys to hear her message .  Thi, you are affected by toxic
gaseous chemicals from a pool accident .  That was over twelve hours ago
and you and Jac are still alive .  Your lungs are not permanently damaged ,
but they need time to rejuvenate new cells .  Life forces , -love- is what
creates new cells.  You have beat the odds already , because you have been
loved by your parents and your peers .  And for you Jac .  Lucky is not the
right word to describe your life , with an identical twin , a twin with so
much energy in love that you are recovered early .  You died in the
ambulance , and your heart was restarted twice .  And the fan out of that
love from you and Jacque has nurtured Thierry into a new day and early
morning .  Hope is increasing , but there are obstacles.  Jos, you must
monitor Thi's heart rate .  Jac , monitor his respiration .  Jo, let out
the love that you have hidden from Thi for so long .  He needs it now.  As
the two doctors, Bill and George, entered the room, she continued , "Our
team for life is in place" and we have the backup of the entire hospital if
things get ruff.

   The six AM clock tones sounded as the team took up their positions. 
Shift changes in the rest of the hospital brought new staff and new
processes but intensive care remained frozen in time from yesterday .  Sath
would not allow a change to take place on her shift , and it did not end
until noon .

   Jos could tell as Thi's heart rate increased .  Close to Thi's neck he
could feel the neck pulses in his cheek.  Jac's cheek adjacent to Thi's
chest .  Hearing the living cells , sucking oxygenated air inside .  Thi
could only hold his grip on Jo , but Jo was free to show his love for Thi .
Sath watched her instruments, and listened to the cadence of the warning
tones, on the automated monitors .  As Thi's lungs exhausted reduced oxygen
the machines reprogrammed the respirator for a new air mixture and thus the
time passed , the software of computer processing compensating for the
failing lungs , but it would not help , if Thi lost hope for life.

   Jo noticed Thi's grip tighten on his tube .  He continued licking and
sliding Thi's foreskin slowly , faithfully , realizing the power returning
to Thi , responding to treatment .  Jac and Jos could feel his strength .
Jos kept talking .  "Thi your heart rate is seventy five , can you give me
seventy .  I know you can do it .  Smile inside the respirator for me . 
Pull your cheeks back to your ears .  It is relaxing and it releases
hormones .  Let Jo do the work , as he has wanted since he first met you .
Jos' ears noticed a decrease in the heart monitor tone and he could tell
that Thi's brain was logical .  The toxic gases had defeated Thi's larnx
but noises could still be made .  A low growlish animal noise rising from
indescribable throat pain and intimate intensity preceded Thi into his new
world of love with Jo .  Jac knew the sound as did Jos , as did the old
doctors and Sath .  It was a planned event for them .  For Thi it was epic
, pulses of first love single celled life forms filled the bed .  Jos
continued his talk .  "Right man , I am soaked with splashed sperm .  That
was awesome for me , but I know it meant planet earth for you .  Jo did it
man .  He did it ." All the while Jos listened to the heart rate monitor ,
tone steadily increasing .  Jac detected the increasing lung speed as Thi's
sperm fired forth uncontained by Jo's overloaded throat , as he pulled away
choking for breath.  Jos began again .  "Thi , lower your heart rate for me
again, please man." This time it did not work .  Thi's heart pushed toward
eighty pulses per minute .  His worldly existence emptied into Jo's cheek .
Jac placed both his hands over Thi's straining lungs , he willed them to
slow down , mentally pictured them straining inside for more oxygen , as
the drugs of sexual gratification cascaded through the high pressure
cavities of life .  It was a race of time now.  A balance of life and death
.  The doctors and Sath watched gleefully as Thi's lungs recovered -
delivered new oxygen , not enough to keep Thi awake but enough to keep his
heart pumping for yet another five minutes .  For Jo, panic .  Thi's eyes
rolled back , with stillness , motionless , breathing .  "Thi , Thi come
back to me .  I want you again .  I need you.  " New floods of tears rained
down on Thi , yet he did not respond .  But this time Jo did not give up .
Jos could feel rapid healthy heart pound .  Jac knew that Thi was ok , as
did the medical team .

   Jo hystericalized .  He dropped his face on to Thi's belly , rolling his
cheeks like a dog shoves it's nose into his master .  Rivers of tears
flooded the single celled boy life forms , to all corners of Thi .  Tears
and Pheromes streamed and seeped through the soft trails of Thi's boy fur ,
his happy trail and beyond .  Sath came close .  She put her hands on Jo's
neck to cool his brain .  She talked to Jo.  "Jo, you are perfect, you have
done what Thi needed." "You have demonstrated your love and Thi knows
that."

   "I have hu hu hurt him cried Jo".

   "No, you have cured him , at least given him another two hours to live .
The flow of love releases internal drugs far more powerful than ours .  Put
your fingers on his chest .  Feel his heart pulsing strongly .  Feel the
blood pressure in his tube .  He is alive and he is dreaming of you ." Jos
put Thi's hand back over the semi hardened rod poking from Thi's pelvis .
Jac pulled him forward and thrust his ear into the steaming sperm and Jos
said : "Listen Jo, Listen for the rhythm of life, for thumping heart and
for rising and ebbing lungs .  He is perfect and he is your's.  Smell his
love forces , his cum .  Let it roll on your tongue and in your throat . 
It is for you Jo .  " Jo stared into Thi's face through the respirator
glass , as his eyes opened again , a slight grin , inside the respirator ,
his lungs now hurting and heaving with the first joy of boy sex .

   "That was easy" spoke Sath as the two old doctors examined the streams
of electronic data flowing from new life.  "You can see the deterioration
slowed when Jos and Jac appeared , but it did not stop .  You can see a
further stabilization when Jo crawled into his sphere .  Now you can see
the lungs are improving as we watch .  Millions of new cells, replacing
those stripped away by the poison .  Next , we must guard against blood
damages , with so much waste being flushed away .  Did Jac have this
problem" ?  "Jac was not even brought to this hospital" , talked Bill . 
Jac died in the emergency vehicle on his way to Memorial hospital , but the
road crew revived him twice .  Then Joshua appeared from nowhere in his bed
at Memorial , and now he is at least eighty percent , except for the
damaged larnyx - sinus complex.  " "Does Joshua love Jacque" ?  "More than
that", explained George.  "Jacque and Jos are identical boy twins , formed
by some twisted miracle of life inside one womb , inside one amniotic sac,
loving each other , protected from the world until they were born , and now
protecting others."

   Seven AM toned the clocks.  "This hospital takes credit for another
saved life, and a big one at that", stated Bill.  Teen lives are the
greatest in my book .  And TGH claims a teen twin named Jacque Green.  That
will make the morning news , except too young to mention names , -- Oh , I
guess it is already morning ." Sath and the two doctors and two orderlies
pulled Jos and Jac from the bed , direted them to the staff shower attended
by Sath to ensure that Jac's lungs would survive without the respirator and
to provide new hospital clothes .  Cleaned out all the trays as though
nothing had happened , and ditched the sperm soaked bed .  A new bed was
pulled from storage complete with sterilized sheets .  Thi and Jo were
transferred to the second bed .  Thi's respirator was replaced with a
different one , requiring less hook up to the computer monitors, making him
more mobile , for movement to another floor .  Doctor George congratulated
each member of the team, then waited for Jos to return from the shower. 
Jos found some soap and cleaned himself thoroughly , he was tired and
hungry and had not yet located the hospital clothes when he met Doctor
George.  "Jos".  "Yes".  "I like you kid".  "Ok with that.  Everyone likes
me when I'm nude and wet behind the ears".  "Uh no Jos , I mean I did not
mean it that way" .  "I had a son like you until last year .  He was born
late in my career, and he was my pride ".  He was beautiful as you and that
is why I want to talk with you privately ".  "No , I can talk to you with
Jac, but I cannot talk alone .  Jac and I have committed no crimes against
this hospital."

   "Will you introduce me to your parents"?

   "Jac and I will do that.  My parents are understanding and yet I would
rather inform them myself , of exactly what happened here this morning" .
George smiled , "This kid is so much like Arthur was".

   "My parents will be in the floor waiting room at eight o'clock , so I
need to hurry with final things to tell Thierry and Jos.  Sorry about being
nude in front of you doctor George.  " "Ha ha .  Thierry has an excellent
chance for survival and Jo is staying with him, cause his parents will not
return to Canada until next week .  His brother is incoming from Greece . "
"Yeah, thats all ok but I must talk to Jo about what we did this morning
and why we did it .  It was abnormal for Jo , and I want him to understand
that accidents bring life and death challenges, one would normally not
encounter."

   "Jos, thats super thoughtful .  May I help you.  You may use Bill's
conference room .  I will ask Bill to convene a meeting" .  "It's seven
thirty already , but this matter remains at the top of my list .  Let's do
it .  Do you know where I can get clothes ?  Why am I always nude ?  "I can
help with that laughed Sath", emerging from the clean laundry room behind
Jos .  "Go ahead, get those guys in the conference room if Thi is able .  I
will be there in five minutes if Sath is willing." "Are you willing", asked
Sath in a private voice .  Jos wilted in Sath's presence.  "No silly girl ,
though I would like to know you later .  I have a wonderful girl friend and
lover but I need you as a friend , Sath." "Was that a proposition" ? 
"Maybe , but mostly respect for you Sath , and for the spirit of life which
glows around you .  Sath laughed as she placed the hospital gown around Jos
and then hurried off to Jo who received the same treatment in the staff
shower .

   Chapter 37 : The conference

   Five minutes later everyone met in the conference room .  Thierry in a
respirator on the guerny , with Joseph walking beside him .  Jac wore a
nose tube with portable oxygen supply .  Joshua stepped to the front . 
"Jacque , Thierry, Joseph, George, Bill and Sath .  Please acknowledge that
what happened here this morning was accomplished in desperation for Thierry
.  We wanted to keep him alive until the poison gas effects stabilized .  I
feel that everyone has accomplished that.  Further release of any thing
that happened in this room is unnecessary .  "Joseph .  Do you understand
what could happen , to you if any of my actions were released to morning
news" ?  "Sort of yes" , Jo answered Joshua .  "Secondly Joseph , can I
call you Jo, I apologize to you Jo .  Thi needed your help .  Thi is a
friend of my twin brother Jac .  To give him the best recovery possible , I
destroyed your faith in your god .  I put pressure on your mind that no kid
should ever endure .  You will need help because of this .  Humans do not
change overnight with out suffering later problems and you Jo are a human ,
like all of us in this room .  A human with a logical brain a-top a
mammalian brain , both of which are required for life .  You allowed your
logical brain to be over-ruled .  It is now up to us and your other friends
to stabilize your head for your life journey .  " "For now say absolutely
nothing , to nobody , about last night and this morning .  Especially tell
your parents nothing about the procedure ." "That will not be too difficult
", explained Jo.  "You see , my parents are split , and both are gone .  I
live only with my grandfather ".  "I am sorry for you , that no parents ,
can steady your life at this time", said Jac , "I understand you , because
I had only one parent forever , for thirteen years , but a teen boy needs
both parents to prosper , as I am still discovering" .  Jos continued, "Jac
and myself can be extremely tight lipped .  We expect that Thierry and you
, Jo will do likewise.  The hospital staff, Sath , George and Bill .  You
of course , are very much aware of young careers and the impending damage
caused by information published in newspapers and on city news stations .
There are reporters who seek out events which appear to violate the
boundaries of organized religion .  Organized religion has a powerful grip
, through media business dealings .  Jo, do not go with them.

   "We have a hundred years of experience in being quiet" , explained Sath
as Bill and George nodded.  "All traces of what we did are erased , except
the electronic records kept in those tiny computer brains .  I will handle
the technical staff questions should any arise .  Are we ok with that" . 
Sath stepped forward and hand shaked Joshua and both smiled and announced
thank you.  "This conference is over" .

   "Wait, wait" , argued George.  "I must have my say now.  Please listen ,
two more minutes , all.  All of you know , my son , my pride, my entire
life , died last year.  He had planned on medical school from five years
old .  I set funding aside for him , but it did not work out.  I am an old
doctor now, retired and comfortable , but I have no son .  As much as I
know, that you cannot buy such things , I am willing to provide financial
support to you Joshua Green and / or to you Jacque , if you wish to make a
career in the medical field .  It is an exciting offer for me, and I
realize , I may never live to see it happen , but it would let me die in
piece to know, the recipients.  So , if you Jac or Jos want that career,
then I will help you as much as if you were my own sons .  I have seen you
two advance medical knowledge by fifty years , and I hope you will consider
my offer over the next six months .  Thanks gentleman .  The conference is
over" .

   Joshua and Jacque stepped forward to hug Doctor George.  "George, I have
no explanation on death of a son.  It's got to be ripping your heart out as
mine would be if my brother Jac had not recovered .  I apologize for my
vagueness near the shower.  I guess this is another lesson , which I must
learn , each time I find a new friend " .  Joshua hugged the old gentleman
and planted a kiss on his cheek.  Jacque did the same thing .  "Welcome to
my field of heroes old gentleman.  We will keep in touch no matter where
our careers go".

   Immediately afterward , the group , less Thierry, destined for
hyperbaric treatment, headed through the air locks and corridors back into
the hospital normal atmosphere .  They congregated in a waiting area where
Jos parents and brother-in-law and sister-in-law were already waiting with
an old man , holding a bible .

   Jac and Jos accompanied Jo , to meet his grandfather .  Greeting quickly
over .  Then Joshua spoke first to Jo's grandfather.  "We , mostly your
grandson saved a life early this morning .  Jac and I congratulate him for
this achievement .  "God works in great ways" exclaimed the old gentleman.
" "No , man" , stated Jos again.  "I said that your son Jo saved a life. 
God did nothing".  The old man straighted himself with the rebuke.  Then
Jac and Jos accompanied Jo to meet Robert and Jill and Aric and Julia . 
Jac and Robert hugged , as did Jill and Jos , long minute wrenching hugs
until Aric and Julia could not resist .  They joined the mass of
celebration, hugging and re-hugging , until Jo was swept into the family
frenzy .  Joshua and Jacque ended the ceremony by wrapping their arms
around Jo from both sides , as Aric and Julia wrapped another layer around
them .  Somehow Joshua's hospital garb slipped off , but they still kept
hugging him , as the old gentleman retreated with the bible .  Finally Jill
recovered enough to open her suitcase , retrieving street clothes for Jos
and Jac and Thierry .  She lifted Jos' foot guiding his underwear over the
toes as she had always done , one foot at a time .  Jac through off his
hospital garb as Robert dressed him in the same way .  The Green way of
natural life frightened the old man and yet it awakened in him a
thoughtfulness not experience since his own youth .  "Ah there is one more
set of clothes", yelled Julia , for Thierry but he is not going home" . 
She pulled out boxer shorts underwear and socks and pants and red running
shoes identical to Jos and Jac's clothes .  "Joseph, we want you to put
these on , just like Joshua and Jacque .  Will you do it" ?  As she spoke
Aric undid the robe protecting Joseph's body .  Jo let it fall on the
waiting room floor for all to see .  His grandfather cringed a bit with the
new customs .  Julia handed the old gentleman the boxer shorts .  "I will
put them on him", he spoke softly .  Within a minute the three boys were
dressed in identical clothes .  A stunning appearance for those in
attendance to see the transformation .  Bill and Sath and George sat at the
back watching the spontaneousness of the Green family , compared to the old
gentleman who seemed to be floating in a separate vortex of life , if only
temporarily .  Robert noticed the staff at the back of the room .  He
caught up with them preparing to leave.

   "Pretty girl, two handsome doctors , congratulations on successful
outcome" .  "Mr Green", began Sath, "I came into this emergency by an
experienced doctor looking for a way to prevent lung deterioration
resulting in death .  Your son Jacque Green and Thierry Robertson were
caught in poisonous chlorine - bromine gas yesterday around noon .  Often
fatal .  Jac was revived twice by the road crew before they reached
hospital in Brampton .  His twin brother Jos somehow got to Jac even before
the hospital staff in Brampton .  From that time on Jac made spectacular
gains to his damaged lungs .  Jill and the old gentleman with the bible
began to pay attention to Sath .  Jac recovered enough to ask for his
friend Thierry , already in the grip of toxic gas lung poisoning .  Thierry
was located by Julia in this down town facility and immediately drove here
to locate a boy within one hundred percent of death , given the typical
history of Chlorine poisoning.  Julia took responsibility for Thierry based
on him being a friend of Jac .  She quickly discovered that Thierry's lung
deterioration would mean death for him before his parents and brother could
possibly arrive to wish him farewell .  Julia's motto "He shall not die
alone" pushed her to ask , er no demand that Joshua and Jacque be brought
here to the downtown hospital .  Air transport did in fact do that , on the
humanitarian basis "no one should die alone".  Brampton doctors made the
decision to send Jac with lung function as is, because Thierry should not
die alone .  This chain of events saved young Thierry's life , because his
attendance by Jac and Jos reduced the rate of lung deterioration , and Jac
was able to determine one friend that Thierry wanted to be with him, when
he died .  That friend is Joseph Alto .  Joseph from the first minutes of
your contact with Thierry , the lamps and monitors recording Thierry's
dying lungs reversed direction .  This morning Thierry is in recovery . 
Somehow Thierry and Jacque emerged from a nasty accident as survivors .  In
my opinion Joshua started this chain of recovery by phoning his brother
Jacque at the exact moment of the accident becoming fatal.  Drawing his
twin brother's attention away from fun in the pool - from certain death by
chlorine gas inhalement .  Second Joshua , because of Julia's adamant
request , Jac arrived here with his twin brother .  There is no greater
power than the power of friendship .  This is the message that I will be
providing to Thierry's brother and parents when they arrive .  Thank you.
Tears formed in the corner's of Joseph's eyes .  The old gentleman stared
at his grandson and detected quality that he had never before seen .  He
moved to hug the young boy , something that he had never done , with both
arms and hands .  The bible fell to the floor as Joseph backed off from his
hug .  Jac and Jos put there arms around the old gentleman , as tears
filled his eyes , he recalled the viciousness of his daughters divorce and
the spiraling depression of drugs and alcohol that Jo had endured .  He
remembered a daughter in law now living in another country with no access
to Jo, not wanting access to his grandson , who he had not talked to-- for
seven years .  He began to speak , but Sath ushered him and Jo into a
private room .  "Jo, remember that you have new friends here now , these
are permanent friends like stars in the night sky .  They are here for you
no matter what .  Go forth on your own course , and let no one set your
destination .  She closed the door on the private conference and hoped for
the best .

   "Julia and Aric, Jac and Jos, Jill and Robert, It is now almost nine AM.
I must spend the next hour with Thierry and the breathing technicians. 
Please welcome Thierys brother when - if he arrives.  Goodbye.

   Doctor George returned with more information on Jac and Thierry .  "Jac
is ok to leave pending these instructions .  Thierry will be here a couple
more days in case of complications".  As he finished a young man entered
the room looking for Thierry.  "Hi, my name is Jac and this my brother Jos"
volunteered Jac .  "Are you Thierry's brother Jayr"?  "I am Jayr". 
"Pleased to meet you Jac and Jos.  " Jayr looked at the two Green brothers,
identical clothes , identical people , identical faces.  "You are confusing
for me", stated Jayr.  "They are extremely confusing to us also"
volunteered Robert and Jill and Aric and Julia.  "Those identical twins
have confused all of us since they have gotten back together .  Sit down
Jayr.  Thierry is in testing for the next hour or so, but we can tell you
all we know if you are willing" ?  Jayr leaned back in a comfortable chair
as the story unfolded for him .  When it was all done he thanked The Greens
for their effort and mentioned his own information on Thierry .  "He is my
younger brother .  We grew up together in the city .  He is special to me
and my parents , so special that we decided to leave him here as we
vacationed in Greece .  Thierry has always told us what he wants and when
he wants it, though he is not pushy.  He has confidence in people that most
boys do not realize .  When he said that he would stay here , we just
assumed he would be fine , because he looks after himself in every way ,
and he looks after the rest of us when we are with him.  So it was, a
separate vacation was decided to give him time to mature.  Now I am
confused that my parents were wrong to leave him .  He was almost dead ,
except for yourselves." Robert spoke up: "That's ok Jayr .  Almost does not
count .  By the way , have you met Joseph" ?.  "For sure I have.  " "Jo and
Thierry are buddies , happy when together."

   At that moment Joseph and his grandfather emerged from the private
office.  "Hello little one" called out Jayr to Jo.  "Hi Jayr", and this is
my grandfather as you know Jesse.  " "Hello Jayr" replied Jesse.  "Are your
parents still on vacation" ?  "Yes, I am on my own back in the big city. 
My parents just found out and they know that Thierry is going to be ok . 
They will be away for another month .  " Jesse spoke slowly.  "Jayr your
family seems to enjoy each day and each other more than I can imagine.  I
need to go south to find my daughter and somewhere else to find my
son-in-law .  Jo deserves a better life than I can ever provide .  He has
made me see that , and that it is still not too late for me .  If you would
accept , to keep Jo for a month while I search , then I would , - would
concentrate on finding my family , er Joseph's family and try to temper
they're differences , over old religious doctrines."

   Silence pervaded the bustling hospital room .  Orderlies dropped their
work in progress and vacated --- .  Joseph squared off in a defiant stand
facing the old man.  "Whaaat" , whispered Joseph ,"I won't go with you" !

   "No no whispered the old man, none of my problems are yours Joseph."

   "Whaaat the fuuck do you mean" ?

   "I am the problem in your family Jo.  You are innocent.  You are a
victim.  You do not need to change.  I will change.  You told me last year
-a hundred times in a hundred ways , that I was wrecking your life , just
as I had wrecked your mother's life.  " "Bu but .." "Let me continue ,
Joseph Alnot .  You were right about me .  But I ---, I could not see your
words , -until now.  I need to patch my life before , I die.  I need to get
out of yours , Joseph.  Since your father left and your mother went away ,
You have run your own life , alone for years, just as I have , the two of
us , like cats and rats, never compromising , never happy, fueled by
ancient training drilled into my mind from another time and a backward
religion .  Joseph, You need me gone.  You need to make your mark on the
planet .  You have done that already .  Thierry is alive , because you are
here , against my wishes.  Accidents happen all the time but you are not an
accident .  You are a sentient human being, brought into this world by the
love of two people who over ruled my religion .  They created you and then
I drove them away from you.  Someday I want to accept you at least once
like Joshua has accepted you already.  "

   Jesse's words echoed off the hospital walls .  Joshua walked across the
room to stand beside Joseph .  Jacque followed dragging , clinking the
oxygen bottle behind him .

   Morning sounds of thousands of commuters and workers permeated the room
. No one created and sound in the room .

   Jayr addressed Jesse.  "Ooh a big change for you Mr Alnot , for sure .
But , Ahh Jesse, our house is being renovated while we are gone .  Thierry
promised not to pester the construction crews .  Not sure if there's room
for myself , let alone three of us , but I will let you know" .  Robert had
heard the conversation and spoke up .  "Jesse, I will let your son Joseph
stay with us if he chooses , and as long as he needs.  Jac and I live close
to your neighborhood .  I hope that you find what you need and want ,
because life is fleeting .  Guarantees are not refundable".

   Finally the doors swung open again and Thierry's wheelchair rolled in to
everyone's applause.  Jayr pulled Thierry out of the wheelchair and held
him bear hug till his monitors squealed .  Then Jo took his turn.  With no
hesitation , Jo threaded his arms around Thierry's chest , under his robe .
His face buried inside Thierry's collar , his lips seeking to touch bare
chest .  Everyone applauded, as Sath' shift wound down .  "Joshua does it
again" she sang as the elevator took her away .

   Jos and Jac faced Joseph .  "Congratulations".  Jac continued . 
"Thierry has always looked out for me, like a brother that I never had . 
He was one grade above me in public school .  He protected me from the
public mischief that happens to single kids in a big city .  He mentored me
, when I lost a hockey game and his strength reflected from me to the whole
hockey team when we won .  We won the cup that year because Thierry is my
friend .  And my life is anchored to him even higher than to my dad .  My
dad has always given me every choice that I could make and Thierry helped
me with those choices , until I succeeded with each one .  The pool
accident almost took him away .  Joshua's phone call saved me that day. 
Then I tried to save Thierry .  I and my new brother Jos tried to keep him
alive , but his lungs were being dissolved by poison gas .  We failed to
stabilize my friend .  Thierry wanted you Jo, because he knew he was dying
, and you came .  You - you came man , when we - h - he needed you.  And
now , Thierry will be here if I need his help again " .  Jac and Jos
squared off with Jo , ending with double handshakes , their faces
glistening with respect .  They walked over to Joseph's grandfather. 
"Jesse , Your son will be ok with us and when Thierry gets home , then you
can follow your new dream for his family and for yours.

   Joshua and Robert and Jacque gathered together to say goodbyes. 
Everyone else added themselves to the gathering.  "The doctors want me to
stay for two more days" , motioned Jac painfully.  "I will be fine alone ,
back on the farm." said Jos .  "No" , added Aric and Julia .  "We need to
get back there to check on those animals .  You can return with us" . 
"What about Thierry", added Jac, "and Joseph" , added Jos.  "Doctors will
keep Thierry at least three days longer", stated Sath .  She had appeared
from nowhere , and surprised the group.  "Joseph Altos is a hero now, but
he is also at risk", stated Jos.  "I destroyed his faith and his family ,
and maybe even his Grandfather, to save Thierry , and I know that it will
affect him .  I want him to be with somebody at all times." Sath stepped
forward .  "Jos, I realized that also, have taken steps to put him with
Doctor George for three or four days until Thierry clears this hospital .
George lives only a few blocks away from here .  He has lots of room, and
wants Jo to stay longer if he wants".  Joseph returned from attending
Thierry, joined the gathering also.  "Jayr is with him right now".

   "And Jesse", mentioned Jos.  The accident itself is over but the changes
in peoples minds are not".  Sath stepped forward again.  "Jesse has the
toughest task of all, she said.  He is fully aware that he might never see
his family back together .  He has thanks for all of you , and has already
boarded a local passenger flight to the south .  Jesse wanted me to thank
you , specially you Joshua and you Joseph .

   Jos looked at Robert and Jill.  "We need to get back to work", stated
Jill.  I might become a special assistant to the company's marketing
division".  She looked at Robert for approval.  Bad news is , I start
tomorrow and in Toronto.  Next week , there is a psycholgist doctor who
Robert has mentioned .  I hope that I can come back to my twins Jos and Jac
, with a modern attitude" .

   "Ok", stated Robert, I guess we all have places to be tomorrow .  I
suggest we make a note of the names and numbers of new people we have meant
as a result of the accident .  Perhaps we can make this near tragedy ,
something to be remembered .  And Joseph , Jos has said that you now belong
to our group .  Please , recognize that we want to talk with you every day
. We want you to tell us everyday about the new order in your life .  In
order to make that happen , I have taken out two more cell phone contracts
. One for you and one for Jos".  Sath handed out two new cell phones
complete with configurable skins .  "You can change them to whatever color
you like , and you can use the prepaid accounts for a whole year .  Joshua
and Joseph , you can call anyone at any time from any place .  Jos , You
have taught me much about communication in the last two weeks .  I owe you
communications equipment for all the lessons learned .  He watched Jill's
eye's for approval" .

   "Hey, it's got a built in camera", yelled Joseph as he walked around
snapping photos of everyone laughing.  "Good bye all, I got to go get
pictures of Thierry."

   The group dispersed.



   Chapter 38 : After the emergency

   A day after the emergency hospital trip dawn arrived in the old farm
house bedrooms as it always had .  Bright rays streamed through the
upstairs windows illuminating Jos , dreaming of Jen .  "So bright, so
bright" .  Jos rolled over the bed sheets , toward his stomach to avoid eye
contact with the sun .  "Wtf"?  A sudden pubic pain.  "Aww, what am I gonna
do with that log", mused Jos .  By partially lifting his butt and letting
his body slide backward on to his chest the thing was covered up and pinned
between his stomach and the bed .  Eyes gradually closing, Jos fell back
into the dream of Jennifer.

   Aric had already breakfasted and sent Julia off to work .  He could hear
the cattle getting wresless and wondered if Joshua would help him with the
chores.  Get him up or not to get him up .  Aric did some of the chores and
then walked over to the old farm house , opened the front door and listened
.  Kitchen sink dripped and clock ticked .  No Joshua .  "Guess he did have
a serious work out yesterday with Jac's accident".  Aric sat by the door
listening to morning in the old house .  Walls creaked, floors re-adjusted
to the heating arrangement of the suns rays moving across wood floors .

   Lips grinning, face laughing , hips tensing , Jos' dream erupted into a
river of colorless sperm flow.  Mouth moving, closing, sucking for Jen. 
"Ahhh Jen, Jen, Let me cum".

   Aric laughed aloud.  "At least I know he's ok".  He walked up stairs
making a moderate amount of noise to signal Jos.  Walking into Jos bedroom
nonchalantly whistling, "Jos, morning.  Wanna get up for me."?  Rolling
over from his dream , Jos sat up into the bright sun to stare at Aric. 
"Wanna do the rest of the chores , with me" , asked Aric, as Jos eyes
opened to the greeting.  "Yes , sure thing " , replied Jos.  "And you
should store that thing, before going outside" , laughed Aric, "I have
never seen rainbows of cum before.  Jac looked at his lap, pulled the
sheets over himself and then , "What the fuc Aric, you know this happened
maybe twice in my whole lifetime before I meant your sisters" , tossing the
sheet on the floor.  What's happening to me.  I don't even remember what
happened".  Aric laughed.  "Yep, and are you feeling guilty about your mind
not telling you what happened or about so much fun without Jen even
knowing" ?  "How did You know" ?  Jos stood up and faced Aric.  "Because
the same thing happened to me" , answered Aric.  Even after two years
sleeping with Julia, sometimes I awake, not knowing if Julia did it or , my
pecker and my mind were playin man-the-pumps again.  Aric put his hand on
Jos shoulder .  Its' no big deal.  I overheard you screamin for Jennifer a
coupla minutes back.  If she had been here, I would not be awakin you for
at least another hour.  "Why" ?  "Sometimes, that happens to my sleep ,
Jos. Always in the morning just at sunrise.  When Julia hears me calling,
she deals with the log, just like Jen would do for you." "Oh" Jos pulled on
barn clothes , and followed Aric to do chores, grabbing a couple of oranges
from the fridge drawer as they passed through .  An hour later , chores
completed, Jac and Aric returned to the new house kitchen, and had early
lunch.  The conversation moved from completed chores to next year and Jos
intentions, to pros and cons and grades and Doctor George's offer to pay
education costs.  "Hey Aric, I have a cell now.  He retrieved the pocket
device and snapped the first photo on the new machine.  "Ahh that's no good
Aric" .  Jos sat beside Aric put his arm around his shoulder , and held the
cell at arms length to capture two smiling faces .  "That's a good one". 
Aric pulled out his cell phone to compare devices.  They talked for another
hour until each had shared all their known knowledge on cells.  "So still
photo, video, texting , talking and some internet viewing capability". 
"Your dad likes you a lot Jos, to give you a cell like that " .  "I know
that Aric .  But there is a lot , that I do not know".  "Such as"?  "Aric,
Is it ok, -is it normal for me to wake up in a pool of boy juice."?  "Oh
Jos, I can tell you , do not worry about what is normal.  You are a
wonderful boy , maybe even man.  If you are worried, you have a few friends
to draw info on.  You have me, you have Jac, you have Jenn, you have Julia,
You have George , You have your dad, and don't forget Joseph and your
mother.  Everyone will have a different answer.  Did you say you played
baseball one season.  Did you have fun when the baseball rule book was used
or when your team buddies just played their best" ?  "Aric, I love you for
that answer.  Of course, the less rules , the more fun we had." "Then you
know the answer already on the boy juice" , smiled Aric.  "Go ahead, now
that you know your answer.  Consult your friends to see where they fit". 
"H ' mm what did I do before, cell phones and friends" , mused Jos.  "Aric
, what is your answer" ?  "Yes" , laughed Aric.  "You have not seen that
movie yet and I do not want to spoil the movie for you." Jos jumped for
Aric's throat , wrapping his fingers tightly.  "Tell me, tell me Aric,
about morning boy juice spilt all over my bed." "What do you think your dad
would say about boy juice" ?  " I don know".  "Aric faked a huge gag and,
"Ha ha laughing my ass of as they say Jos." A kid moves from protected zone
to family, and from family to school and friends , and then into the
unknown world.  It's your life, and you're enjoying it now sooo much.  Let
me not spoil the good parts.  Just let me and all your friends ride with
you as the planet does what it has been doing forever".  "Ok Aric , time
for more gun training.  Teach me all you can about necessary things".

   By the time Julia got home, Jos had absorbed all that could be learned
on paper about guns.

   Julia parked her car, and walked in on Aric and Jos, smiling to see Jos
in his eagerness to learn from Aric.  "Jos have you tried out your new cell
phone for voice yet"?  "No" "Try it out , while I try out Aric".  She
winked at Jos , leading Aric away to her bedroom.

   Two hours later , Jos had touched all the cell bases.  Jen, his dad and
Jill, his brother-Jac, new friend-Joseph, and George and even Sath ,
learning that each of them had filled him in on their friends.  Thierry was
not the best but coping .  Jac was talking a few words .  Jill and Robert
were still sort of together .  Jes and Jen were having a great vacation
with their parents .  Text messaging was tested .  Jos could not believe
that George was the text message king of downtown.

   "H' mm , well my stomach muscles demand food", signaled his growling
stomach.

   Jos returned to his house and searched the kitchen for sustenance.  He
was soon found by Aric and Julia and invited for supper.  Left over steaks,
left over lasagna , freshly cut vegetables and all the fruit that could be
eaten.  Julia and Aric discussed jobs and babies and birthing and .... 
When they checked on Jos at 20:00 hours, he was sleeping in the favorite
chesterfield.  Julia pulled him to sitting , walked him up the stairs, into
the shower bathtub, turned it on , soaped him, rinsed him , dried him and
walked him to bed.  Jos rested on his back with the bed sheet covering his
body and tenting.  Julia laughed as she told Aric about the tree under Jos
sheet.  "What should we do"?  "Jos already asked me about that thing
laughed Aric." "Well".  "I told him that, "If I told him what to do , it
would spoil the movie he is in".  Julia and Aric laughed until they were
afraid of waking Jos.  As the sun lowered on the horizon they quietly
locked the doors, closed the windows and crept over to their house.  A
storm seemed to be moving in, as they settled together in the guest bedroom
of the new house.  "What do cows do in a storm"?  "They stand in the cedars
and pretend it's not raining" , said Aric.

   Chapter 39 : Power outage.

   A storm pushed in from Lake Michigan across Michigan state and rolling
across Lake Huron .  Stars twinkled out, moon disappeared.  Overcast
evening blackened to nothing.  Forest animals that see in the dark bumped
into each other.  Warm wind snaked about checking the countryside for
weakness .  Heavy black clouds positioned over head.  At first gentle drops
of warm rain dived about planting themselves in the thirsty vegetation
around the farm.  Heavy rain began to pelt the ground.  Rain spouts
activated, roofs rattled with the wind borne rain.  The seasons first hail
appeared drenching, beating the crops against the ground.  Jos curled in
his bed, alone in the farm house.  Doubt about the structure had never
entered his mind..  No storm could alter the fact that this house and
surrounding hickory trees were established in the last century, and they
would stay.  He listened to the waves of hail strafing the metal roof. 
Pulled himself into a tighter ball, knees on chest.  The human logical mind
drifted on a sea of of warm amniotic water.  Pressing atmosphere of cold
refrigerated air engulfed the farm.  Cold air seeped through the vents and
door sills and window cracks, cooling Jos bedroom .  Only the cotton sheet
covered him from the cold refrigeration and distant snapshots of lightning.
Ancient conditioning and reflex pulled Jos into a tighter ball, neck
wrapped inside the knees, legs apart covering his inner body organs. 
Dropping temperature and thundering sound , the smell of rain soaked ground
, mixed with ozone generated in the upper atmosphere, now pumped into Jos
bedroom by the down drafting currents.  Jos body curled, -rolled on to it's
strong legs , head tucked under itself making the smallest presentable
footprint to the storm raging on the roof and walls.  The logical mind
slept, unworried by the strafing hail , and exploding lightning bolts.  Jos
was in complete care of the mammalian brain , the brain that took his lips
to the first taste of mother's milk .  Toes curled , legs retracted ,
separated , protecting his torso, upper body wrapped around the soft
exposed organs in his belly, presenting the bony backbone to the outer
world.  Crackles of thunderous lightning split the atmosphere in every
quadrant, but the logical mind slept, without fear , without desire ,
without need.

   The storm knocked out a power transfer station twenty miles away.  Ten
square kilometers blackened the landscape , reminding the rural inhabitants
of earths power over tech.

   Night mare movies , fighting parents , coercive goons, over bearing
teachers , GOD fear and religion were not a part of Jos' logical mind.  It
relaxed deep into the sub communication layers of Jos' brain, like a hotel
door "do-not-disturb".  Vibrations of wind, rain and temperature changes
rattled and snapped as the old house cooled with an inch of hail-ice
killing the outside vegetation.  Jos body congealed into it's original
space, womb like , but the dropping temperature spurred thoughts of
nutrition , sustenance.  Ears blocked by the large warm leg muscles,
breathing slowed to conserve body energy, lips moved, quivered and found a
target, a soft warm material, a comforting place , pleasurable , not food
but next best thing .  A tongue darted into the folds of coiled skin.  Four
hundred million nerve endings replied from another place in Jos' brain , a
place under reconstruction , a new development of complex structures
spurred by the boy's pubotic hormonal surges.  A tip of blood nourished ,
hardening , flesh projected into Jos's lips.  The logical brain drifted on
gentle amniotic liquids , separated from body , but the lower brain needed
more than sustenance.  It needed pleasure and comfort to prevent the storm
's atmosphere from interrupting the logical brain's placental protected
pleasure .  Compressed , Complete , perfect .  Jos subconscious brain
feeded itself on the four hundred million pleasure nerve endings in the tip
of his penis.  Brain cells from autonomous body mechanisms delivered their
pleasure to a sub-conscious forty million year old life form evolved from a
younger planet, an earth shaped by cosmic collisions but also by life
giving pleasure , by creatures torn apart in storms and quakes , and raging
fires , surviving on short term , self derived pleasure .  Jos glans ,
slipped through the pre-pucial rings into his lips , and welcomed his
hungry tongue.  Outside house vibrations , raging storm clouds , plunging
temperature , meant nothing to Jos' internal-ness.  Forty million years of
developed pleasure cascaded into his body , a body so relaxed , that outer
nerve cells detected the static charges of each passing cloud , detected
the storm induced vibrations in the house structure.  Nothing awakened the
logical mind .  It relaxed on the amniotic ocean where it was created. 
Nothing could stop the sequence of feed-backing pleasures.  The spiraling
pleasures of reproductive instincts exploded in Jos brain , like staked
dominoes , like a building in demolition , like earth quakes shaking the
planet.  Jos' sub conscious brain first time over-dosed itself on the
youthful hormones and pubic reality of fifteen year old logical reality. 
Boy semen clogged his throat, coated his tongue , lathered his nasal
sensors with smell and texture of itself.  A tiny group of newly built
muscles detonated and re-detonated in the streams of sub-conscious hormonal
surges, consuming every storage bin of stock piled sperm and prostate
additives.  Millions of sensor-cells along Jos lips and tongue analyzed the
results of pleasure packed sperm and milkish fluids.  All quality records
were updated with the star of A plus approval.  Jos' sub-conscious brain
began to taper off , as new currents of pleasure awakened Jos.



   Julia and Aric in the new insulated , weather stripped, vapor protected
house next door cuddled each other as the storm swept through.  Fingers
touched and chests brushed .  Logical brains discounted the noise and
outside lightning.  Yet somewhere deep , deep inside Julia a tiny new life
form road on the waves of perfect protection , not jostled , not crowded ,
but sensing the static electricity in the wind driven fury high overhead ,
feeling the vibrations of nature , and then the vibrations of human love as
millions of new life forms spurted nearby , followed by the hormones of two
humans loving , pleasuring and synchronizing themselves to each other ,
just as a single sperm from Aric and a single egg from Julia had
synchronised themselves four weeks back.  Julia's body monitored ,
nourished , and protected the inner life form, regardless of it's form or
function.  Too early to tell in the scheme of future events?  Was there two
beating hearts forming inside Julia's protected zone ?  Her sub conscious
brain knew already but the logical would not find out for many months.

   Chapter 40 : Bill and Joseph and viaducting.

   Morning dawned with overcast sky.  Julia went to work.  Aric began the
farm chores , and Jos wandered into his kitchen , mouth savoring the
special delivery during the nasty storm, hungering for food , but not
really food , something else -- JEN --.  "Jennifer where are you , please
tell me".  "From where did that thought bubble up" !?  Jos calculated the
time in Jennifer's vacation world.  Already mid morning there !  Retrieving
the cell .  Setting the numbers .  Pressing talk.  "Hello".  "Jen" ?  "This
is Jes.  Hold on Jos , I love you too, but Jen loves and owns you.  Would
that be love plus owns -lowns you" , her voice laughing as Jen took the
cell away from her.  "Hello blond boy".

   "Oh - awww Jen , I have dreamed of you all night but I can't remember
what happened.  Do you lown me" ?  "Yes silly boy, you , your mind, your
body, your feet your toes, and every thing in between, and I dreamed also
about you, but I cannot remember what happened either".  "Jennifer, I need
you , but you are far away, but your voice is close.  I can feel your
lips." "Joshua , your voice is deeper , I can feel your lips also and I
need you as I dreamed of you this morning.  There was a storm but you were
safe , protected." "Thats correct , and the power was off last night,
though I did not realize it." "You must have been zoning in another
universe" , laughed Jen, "And I was with you.  I know that a part of me was
with you, but my logical thought say that can't happen".  "IT DID HAPPEN
Jen".  I know the storm somehow connected us.  Jen, my mouth sucked myself
last night.  I recall thunder and lightning , and hail, and you.  You
sucked me with my mouth." "Ohhhh Joshua it's true , the dream is true.  I
dozed off on the beach this morning , a long sun drenched doze , so deep
that Jess , covered me with sun tan lotion without me awakening." "It can't
happen".  "It did happen".  "I came too.  I wanted to call you right away
but Jess was calling Jac." "We better not use a whole years cell account on
trans-Atlantic calls" , whispered Jos.  "Lets each take a picture right
now, so we can remember this instant when I can touch you".  "You did touch
me last night".  "Click , click .  Cell phone shutters opened and closed as
the boy and girl closed their conversation." "bye Joshua , LOWN you".  "bye
Jennifer , LOWN YOU TOO".  Call terminated.

   Jos dressed , wandered outside , looking, looking for - "There is Aric
way over in the far meadow, across the road." Jos felt his legs carrying
him across the road through the gate across the meadow.  "Yikes , The bull
, he's out there some where" .  Jos backed up to the gate climbed the fence
post effortlessly and "Yep , there he is , and Aric is in the next meadow
on the other side of the fence." Jos waived to Aric who waived back.  He
waited for Aric to complete the task , hoping to talk to him about the
dream, but Aric had found a broken fence rail.  He stayed to fix it , not
wanting the animals to get free.

   Jos bored himself with trivial stuff, and then.  "I have other friend to
talk things through".  Fingers tapped in Jac's numbers.  "Ring , ring ,
ring.  A girl's voice answered, "Joshua".  "Sath." You are so cute.  Are
you looking at me with no clothes again".  "Yes, are you looking at my
uniform or chests"?  "May I talk to Jac" ?  "He is in hyperbaric this
morning , with Thierry .  Call again around noon, and thanks" .  "For what"
?  "I ' ll keep watching your flesh all day long , Jos , no matter what
trauma scenes attack me today.  Seeing you, talking to you is how I survive
the debris of broken flesh and minds that roar through here daily , and
Jos. " "Yeah Sath." "Jos , I am mostly girl oriented , but in another time
and place , I would love you to ends of the universe.  You do that to
normal people, cause you just do.  Bye." "Cell phones are great".  I
suppose dad is working in some tall Toronto tower.  Fingers tapped in more
numbers.  "This is George , hold a second till I get the other phone."

   "Hello George." "Joshua ?  Or Jacque" ?  "Joshua it is", laughed Jos. 
"Your first guess was correct" .  "Can I talk to you" ?  "Yes, retirement
can be boring, but you never are." "Are you thinking of my education
offer." "Bill you are thinking I am older than I really am .  Two weeks ago
I was fourteen .  Now I am fifteen .  I do not know what I am , let alone
what career I want to take .  I called you because , well because I am
young and stupid .  I need someone with the experience of life and of love
to tell me about my prospects .  What are my prospects in love, in
education , in university" ?  "All that stuff is way in the future, way -
way in the future Bill , I am , was in a dream with Jen".  "She is two
thousand miles away Jos".  "It seems not too matter" .  "Jennifer and I
were in the same dream .  Is it possible" ?  " Aww Jos , you are raising
memories of my son , you are so much like him, I am going to need a second"
"sigh".  "No Bill , I am sorry" , panicked Jos.  "Oh , I am fine.  I have
millions of photos, and memories and ...  but there are never enough." Jos
discussed the dream with George but his mind was side tracked.  After they
finished on the dream , Jos said.  "George , I am going to switch phones.
Going to hang up and call you from the wire line in the house".  He hung up
and raced across the road .  "Shit there is the odd traffic on this road".
Automobile anti lock braking kicked in on the gravel.  Dust and dirt roiled
up from the rain soaked gravel.  A secondary crash of metal in the box of
the pickup spooked Jos as though he had been crushed .  Jos walked to the
side of the truck .  A jumble of shovels and pick-axes and steel bars had
rammed themselves into the front wall of the pickup box.  "Ahh sorrry,
motioned Jos .  I am so sorry." "No problem , you ok".  "The kid got out of
the stopped vehicle and shook Jos hand.  I saw you coupla weeks back with
the girls , -wondered what they were doing to you .  Blood rushed to Jos
cheeks, his neck and ears .  "My name is Joshua , I live here for the
summer.  Can you come back someday when I am not busy"?  "Sure" said the
kid.  "I work on the farm two kilos down, and come by here every day". 
"Glad to meet you , but got to go" "My name is Adrian".  Jos hurried on
into the house and punched George's numbers into the old residential phone.
"Hi George".  "Thanks for callin back".  "George , I have as much time as
it takes.  I want to find out what happened to your son.  I wish that I had
known him"?  " I wish that I could have learned from him about all the
things that I need to know, and want to know.." George sat down and thought
about the baggage he may be adding to Jos.  A long silence began. 
"George"? "Yes Jos"?  "Its too much for you.  Way tooo much" "Nuo , NO -
George, It is time you told me.  You are forgetting that I have Jac to
share.  I can take your memories and thoughts no matter what.  I can share
them with Jac and split the hurt.  Tell me" , commanded Jos in his best
queens English, with the same authority he had used for his dad about
Jill's layoff notice.  "Tell Me Now".  The story of George's son and George
unfolded in front of Jos mind.  George spoke as though it was yesterday, as
though he was frozen in the time and events of an accident so tragic that
he could not pull himself from the wreckage from two years ago, a wreckage
that he wished he had been in, if only to have prevented his son from the
date and time with death.  A story of events and conditions and time and
space where a young man died, and his father cried and still was crying. 
When the story ended Joshua remained tough.  His face ashen , but George
could not see that, his voice rock solid, Jos answered: "George none of us
knows how we got on this planet earth or why it is the only beautiful
planet in the solar system.  I know that my dad and mom created me in love
and respect.  I know that you and your wife created one boy in the same
way. There are billions of us on this earth.  Many, will never stand , at
the level and understanding that your son achieved.  There is not a gate or
water way or air passage to unite him with you.  I was there , without any
way to get back to my dad for twelve years.  I had all the love that my
mother could smother on me, but I wanted MY dad, and I found out that my
dad WANTED me more than than all the offerings that this earth can offer .
My dad had one son with him and yet the empty-ness drove him to create an
entire company of lawyers and clerks and accountants specializing in the
due process of law .  In spite of of all that , he could not talk to my
mother Jill, because law was not the reason for separation of my dad and my
mother.  The reason was religion and my dad still cannot come to religious
terms.  I cannot hope to understand the feelings inside my father's mind ,
but I know my dad's love, and you are older than my dad .  Your mind faces
hurdles of mountainous proportions .  I only know that , somehow in this
universe of galaxies and planets and stars and space that you will see him
again , and when he left this orbiting , rotating , planet side sweeping
through the space of a million other stars , I believe he left a marker ,
to re-locate the last point of contact with you.  You are called upon to
save lives even in retirement.  You are special , as Jac and Thierry and
Joseph and I have discovered .  This is my message from ME, a boy who has
never worked to one who has worked hard and lost everything .  But wait .
Except George , You still have something .  You have all the lives of
people that you have saved , and you have Jac and me and you have our phone
numbers .  I know that these thoughts will drive you deeper into the land
where even religion won't go .  The land of what if's and whys and if
only's.  The land of "end-it-all , George I need your guidance , and trust.
"Are you ok now George" .  "Yes".  "Are you ok Jos" ?  "Yes , but I asked
you first".  "George , Wait twenty minutes after we hang up , then call me
back , so that I will know you plan to stay on this planet another day". 
Aric still worked in the far meadow, so Jos called Joseph's cell.

   "Hey".  "Jo, remember me".  "Jac".  "Can I forget about being born and
more than forget you." "What are ya doin" ?  "Jo , I talked to George .  It
has been two years since his son died and yet he lives it yesterday." "He
told YOU" ?  "I have suggested that he tell me yesterday and now to-day ,
cause he's sick Jos, not physically but mentally.  He is trapped in time
and events that should not have happened but did happen .  I was caught in
that type of stuff , and you let me out Jos .  I know I still need help,
but I have youth to help.  George has nothing right now.  He needs some
speck of hope to go forward, like my grandfather, caught up in mind numbing
games without ever ...." "Jo, can you help George" ?  "I have tried Jos.  I
still have mental prisons of my own relating to my grandfather.  My
grandfather wanted me circumcised in the spirit of his great god , and you
were right .  It hurt me more than you could know.  I have not responded to
Jesse's calls since he told me , two days ago on a phone from the New York
." "Joseph, are you ok - but no forgiveness is available for my
grandfather." "For now - yes , but someday the fires unleashed by religion
will get bigger and ---." "Joseph, THAT MEANS , THEY STILL CONTROL you.  Oh
man , they have you yet.  You only escaped for a day or two.  Religion is
drilled and drilled and pushed into your brain from the time they cut away
your foreskin.  In some strange twisted way, your brain adjusts to the
mutilation by absorbing too much religion .  And it compensates in other
ways also .  Joseph : My dad and I and Jac : We believe that a boy loves
another boy for two reasons , no forget that , I love you Jo but I do not
want to live my whole life with you .  We believe that the brain can be
programmed before birth to make you the way you are , and / or , We believe
that your wounded brain will re-assign another area to replace the millions
of sensitive nerve endings destroyed by the destruction of your foreskin.
Do you know what that means Jo" ?  "Nooo I am catching up to what you have
said".  "You said that my brain-wounded brain would re-ass -, oh fuc yes
Jos, I am so screwed up" , sobbed Jo.  "If I had realized that two days ago
, I would have taken the viaduct".  "Jo , promise me , only me NO , promise
Me and Jac that you will let us know , you are going." "JO", DO YOU AGREE"
? "Yeah , for now".  "Jo , as you said you are young, but George is old,
and he needs help today.  "Joshua , I cannot help George right now" "Ok,
fair enough." "Joseph !  Let me know what George is doing right now." "I'm
on your dads cell outside his garden door.  He is in the house somewhere."
"Jo, I asked him to tell me the story of his son, and he did tell me
everything, but that means he will relive it again like a living day
dream". "He has not called me back as I asked.  Please go check on him". 
"I 'll call ya back Jos .  Bye".  Jo sauntered into George's living room.
Looked upstairs as he pretended a trip to the bathroom , looked on the main
floor.  "H'mm , he was just here , got to be here somewhere .  Got to find
George, maybe the basement." Jo bare footed his way down the basement steps
.  He never wore shoes in George's house , out of respect for the old
gentleman.  Walking though the utility room into a basement den, where he
had not yet seen".  "YOH GEORGE" .  "GEORGE".  Then he saw the empty
whiskey bottle and he saw two pain killer bottles , empty.  Through the den
into a small bathroom, he found GEORGE sitting on the closed can, with a
large glass of whiskey and another glass filled with capsuls.  "George , OH
MAN GEORGE , I NEED YOU TO HELP ME find my own self".  He sniffed George's
breath, He kissed George , wrestled the pills away and the last of the
whiskey.  Jo pulled George to his feet and walked him back to the den. 
"George , Did you take any of these pills" ?  "Two." "George , why".  "Did
you drink the whole bottle" ?  "Not yet".  "Do you know my name , Jos just
called, he wants you to phone him back"?  "Ok".  "George , forgive me , for
this question but WERE YOU GOING TO TAKE THE VIADUCT" ?  "I do not know,
Every year on the anniversary of my son's death , I come in here because
this was his room.  I wait for him and sometimes , think , I might go and
find him.  Is that what you mean by taking the viaduct" ?  "Yahh, a friend
of mine crawled out on a huge via duct north of here two years ago.  He
never said nothin.  He just fell to d - dd death.  It was two years ago
yesterday.  I miss him and fuccc I want him, - to see him, but there's no
--- answer back from" "Jo , I am a bit drunk , but I am not viaducting
today".  "Are you going for it"?  "No." "Where were you yesterday, Jo"? 
"At the viaduct".  "Did you go there to put flowers , or , did you go there
to crawl out on it." "To crawl out on it".  "Why did you come back".  "You
seemed to be despondent George.  You should have been happy at saving
Thierry's life , but you were dull and without smiles.  I decided to wait
one more day , to make sure you were ok." "What the fuuc".  "Royal what the
fuuc" "Rip roaring fucking queen and god and holly fuckaroo ..." George
handed Jo the last glass full of whiskey.  "To all , that happened which we
did not understand , and to all the memories that we want to keep." Jo
downed the whole glass.  The two of them began to talk .  An old man
burdened by the death of his son and a young boy tortured by religious
demons let loose by his grandfather .  Jo told George about his battles
with his grandfather.  George told Jo the story of his son , Arthur.  They
found more whiskey in the upstairs bathroom , and drank it straight from
the bottle , finally collapsing in the bedroom where Jo had slept for his
stay with George .  Jo said " George did you ever hug Arthur" ?  "No , my
religion frowned upon male to male contact." "You loved your Arthur, but
you never hugged him once in his whole fucking lifetime" .  "No and I am
sorry Arthur, I did love you , and I was so proud of you and --".  "Nobody
ever hugged me either" , said Jo.  "I thought there was something wrong
with me because my parents took off and my grandfather never once pulled me
close and hugged me" .  I wanted anybody , even SANTA CLAUS to hug me at
christmas , but it never happened.  My grandfather belonged to the school
of anti hug tradition.  But ME , I needed to be hugged , god damm , why is
life so fucccckking complex for me, why does the whole world hate me" .  "
George do you hate me" ?  " Jo , I grew up in the same religious context ,
different world as you.  I never ever hugged my son because of the anti -
gay rhetoric." " GEORGE , I am gay , at least I think I am gay" Is that why
, you hate me" ?  "Jo oh Jo , it is not that at all" .  "Then what , then
why have you said dick all to me for the last two days" ?  "George give me
an honest answer .  I told you I was at the viaduct yesterday .  I can go
there tomorrow, and it will not be a trip to put flowers on my friends
grave" .  " George we are the same" .  "You cannot forget Arthur because ,
you never knew him ".  You obeyed all the laws of your church , Arthur
obeyed all the laws of your church , but if you had just hugged him once ,
you could let him go , to next dimension".  Bill collapsed on the bed , as
Jo watched .  Jo pulled his pants and socks away, and pulled off his
sweater and tee - shirt.  Jo tucked him under the bed covers, and cried .
George through off the covers and sat up.  He stared at Jo, and he knew
what Jo had said.  At first a few tears flushed his eyes, and then more and
more .  "Jo - Joseph, I do like you , I want to touch you .  My son was me
, and I loved him, but I never touched him .  Oh fuc , how could I have
been so stupid .  He's dead Joseph .  He was killed in an accident , that I
should have been in." "No George" , added Jo.  Accidents are random events
. You are trying to rationalize your life away for Arthur's life.  It is
too late.  It does not work .  Dead is dead is dead.  George put his hand
on the shoulder of Jo.  Jo put his hand on George's shoulder.  "We might as
well kill each other, to simplify killing ourselves".  "Viaducting or
end-it-all , suicide is painless , it brings on many changes , as the song
goes." "Jo , let me see you , you are young, you are where my son was five
years ago.  " "Jo , can I hug you like I should have loved Arthur" ?  The
whiskey on Joseph's brain felt warm and sweaty.  He pulled his tee - shirt
off.  Then Bill leaned on him again.  "Jo , I saved your boy friend from
death by poison gas.  It was like , I was saving my son, but when I got
home , he was not here".  " I know that whispered Jo, I could see the
collapse when you got home.  I talked to Jos today and I told him you were
hurtin .  Jos wants you to call him." "Joseph, he is like my son, but he is
far away , you are here , you are with me, because both of us are
suicidal". " Viaducting or whiskey and pain pills" ?  "Who would care" ? 
Joseph tried to sit up , as the whiskey tried to put him down.  "Joshua
would care" , Jac would care , Bill would care , Sath would care.  Is that
enough people to keep you on the planet" ?  "So what about you on the
viaduct ?  Who would care , who would give a rats ass for you" ?  "The same
humans, Joshua , Jacque , Sath, Bill " .  "I guess we should stay for now ,
but it is so hot in here ." Joseph stripped off his shirt .  He tumbled
beside George.  They slept in a whiskey sleep of drunkeness .  George and
Jo slept together and tried to forget why they lived on planet earth .

   Phones rang.  Doorbells rang.  Bill and Jo slept on the bed, oblivious
of reality .

   Jos waited by the phone.  He waited for half an hour.  Then Aric
returned , chores completed.  They could not plot a strategy.  Jos called
Jo , and Aric called George .  No one answered.  They called Sath , but no
answer.  Aric called the other doctor , Bill, by asking for help from the
downtown hospital desk.  Time dragged on, as doctor Bill was located.  "
Bill , It has been one and a half hours since I called George " , stated
Jos.  "I'll go over there on my break", stated Bill.  "Good ahh good". 
Half an hour later Jos and Aric jumped at the old residential phone .  "
Two years ago , George gave me my own key to his house" , said Bill. 
"They're ok , both of them are just dead drunk on the same bed" , laughed
Bill .

   Chapter 41 : the lesson

   Jos laughed but still wondered about Jo being drunk.  Then Aric
mentioned that Jo was under age for alcohol.  "Lets go see George and Jo
tomorrow and find out what happened" , asked Jos.  "I am concerned about
Jo's mind , and now George's mind" .  "It's true" , suggested Aric , "that
those who give away all that they own are mentally looking for a way out".
"Are you talking about the medical education promised to Jac and I by
George" .  "Yes".  "That means we have two people under the same roof ,
both looking for a way out" .  "Lets go see them tomorrow" , volunteered
Jos.  "I agree" , stated Aric.  "We need a reason for going and we need to
agree on how to ask without causing more difficulties.  I have already
brought about so much stress for Jo" .  "No Jo".  "Modern religion has
forced this condition .  Do not let them lay cause on you.  You have your
own issues caused by that two thousand year old dogma .  Nope , Jos , as
you become more accustomed to the way religion operates , you will see ,
yourself , nothing but another hapless suck caught in a spider web of
religious deceit .  Resist it , resist any suggestion from anybody that you
a fifteen year old boy can , in any way be responsible for two thousand
years of religious logic" .  "I can't get over it."

   To prove his point Aric jumped on Jos , wrestled him to the driveway ,
pinned Jos on the hardened gravel road .  Shocked , Jos twisted, and
writhed .  Aric's hands crept on to Jos' throat to apply the choke .  Jos
body curled to a ball like protective mode , re-balanced sideways from
under Aric and lashed his head with the full calf muscle power kick .  Aric
reeled unsteadily but re-gripped Jos neck , this time with head-lock
accuracy .  His face grimacing and Aric's face laughing in his eyes , Jos
threw himself left and right and tried to free his arm jammed under Aric's
knee .  Jos struggled , in vain.  Superior muscle power and expertise
crushed his will , but Jos was now cornered , a frightened boy between
extreme choices .  Negotiate or give up ?  Waves of adrenalin pushed Jos
into anger and strength at the same time .  "Get off me Aric , I hate you".
"No , Jos , you are the one who must capitulate" .  "I am the god of
civilization .  You will do as I say".  "Get off me you giant fucker , or I
will --".  "Jos , give up , god has beat you" .  "Fuck you".  Slowly, Aric
applied neck pressure knowing that Jos would soon pass out .  "God is great
, mouthed Aric" .  "God sucks".  A noise in the driveway alerted both boys
that Julia was returning from work.  The big vehicle came to a stop.  Julia
stepped forward to view the war .  "Aric , Jos , what is happening" ? 
"Aric jumped me for no reason" .  "Jos has stated that he feels responsible
for two thousand years of religion.  "What do you mean Jos" ?  "I mean ,
it's my fault.  I should have done more.  I should have called Jac last
year or two years ago.  I could have called mother's bluff five years ago"
. Julia stared at him , "No Jos , you are a young boy .  You are fifteen.
You recently found out what freedom was .  Before your puberty started and
before you gained those biceps and prominent collar bone muscles , you were
a young boy , in your mother's arms.  Two centuries ago the church would
have disciplined you to a subservient life , unless you recanted.  Do you
recant" ?  "Nope" "Then I will cut off , your foreskin , in the name of the
lord god of abraham" .  "Fuck off".  Julia kneeled beside Aric.  Jos
writhed and struggled , tiring himself to exhaustion.  She undone Joshua's
zipper and pulled out his pride.  "Jos" , are you responsible for any
religious crap in you entire lifetime" ?  "I could have done something , I
could have" .  "No Jos , YOU were too young to resist the dogma of
religion" .  Jos twisted , writhed , punched and kicked until Aric hurt but
he held tight.

   Julia reached in Aric's pocket and pulled out his pocket knife ,
activated the blade .  She tipped the blade to reflect the sunlight into
Jos eyes.  Grabbed Joshua's prepuce and pulled it tight toward her knee .
"Do you still think , you could have changed Jill' s mind two years ago" ?
"I dunno".  Julia bared the sharp edge on the point where Jos prepucial
rings merged into the foreskin.  A thin red line of blood decorated the
blade.  "Aaaahh , no , Aric , Julia , I agree.  I am fifteen .  I could
never have changed Jill , and if I had tried she would have destroyed
herself , or I would have destructed with drugs and booze.  She wiped some
of the blood on Jos lips.  "Religion authorizes us to cut your foreskin
right off Jos" .

   "Have you seen this happen to someone" ?  "Joseph's grandfather
destroyed his son and his daughter-in-law .  Joseph resisted by taking
drugs and alcohol , even as his mother and father left the country" .  " OK
Jos , it's all over" .  "Can we release you" .  "But you are holding me ,
against my will , yelled Jos" .  "Not entirely , Jos .  Your inner thoughts
have led you to this fork in the road.  Do you agree" ?  "Maybe".  "Yes
maybe or no maybe"?  "Yeah , you are correct, Aric and Julia.  I was pretty
cocky , projecting my new status back into my child hood .  Thank you Julia
and Aric.  I realize , that there is nothing , I could have done .  My
reaction to Jill , was the best of all possible outcomes , given the
circumstances, but now , I know that what I did , and when I did it was the
correct action" .

   As Jos talked , Julia stowed the knife, and Aric released his death grip
, slowly , gently , but Jos remained on his back , his limp tool draped
over his fly opening .  Julia and Aric looked down at him .  Julia smiled
at Jos.  An ear to ear grin smiled back .  Aric offered a hand.  Jos took
it , pulled himself up.  "Will there be more lessons like that" , asked Jos
, "checking his preputial ring for cuts and blood" .  "Jos , life is
unpredictable , as it is beautiful .  Aric and I apologize to you for this
lesson".  She stepped forward and kissed Jos , then knelt down and kissed
his pride .  Aric apologized and stepped forward , knelt down and kissed
Jos pride also.  It remained limp as Aric tucked it back inside and
completed the zipper.

   "I understand" , said Jos.  "You used the rules of brute force and
religion to draw attention to my judgment error" .  "Jos , It is the same
rule .  Brute force is religion.  What you saw , and learned from your
mother was mother son love.  You are and enjoyed the second generation of
religion .  Your mother was not as lucky .  Bombarded by religious messages
from the church from the day she was born , programmed her into a narrow
slot bounded by irrational rules .  Eventually you would have joined her ,
or destroyed yourself with drugs and self pity .  Joshua, there will be
weaknesses ahead , because modern religion is relentless and hunts the weak
, forever mobilizing them into sheep , under a fake umbrella of protection
. When a sheep realizes that the umbrella is false , then life
de-stabilizes.  The sheep may submit to the wolf -to be involuntarily
eaten".

   Jos smiled again at Aric and Julia.  "Would you really have slashed away
my foreskin" ?  "Jos , Julia and I , We fought over the details of this
method .  It is one of those issues that has severe risk and unlimited
benefit.  We would not have gone that far because we do not have the
religious back ground that allows god to mutilate another sentient being" .
"I did not know that" .  "Jos , as you already know , be reminded that each
experience reveals , or leads to another , ever increasing knowledge ,
depending on the outcome" .  "I'm ok with that".  "You may or may not be
ok" , stated Julia.  "We humans have forty million years of evolution in
our favor.  History has shown that we may abuse our position of planetary
trust".  "Aric , Julia , you wrestled me into submission.  Were you tempted
to , you know , abuse your position".  "A free human mind sets it's own
boundaries, Joshua .  Suppose , --imagine that I had ripped your trousers
away , and held you against the gravel road while Aric raped you from
behind" .  " N o fuck me Nope , I cannot imagine you and Aric hurting me
that way".  "That is why we did not" , stated Julia.  "Jos , Is your mind
free from your mother's" ?  "I cannot unlove my mother" , stated Jos ,
Therefore she is my weakness" .  "Jos".  "Yeah".  "Beware of those who
would be your mother".

   The day wound down with Aric and Julia , and Jos consuming an excellent
supper.  After supper , Jos asked , "I want to go to the hospital tomorrow
and accompany Jac's release , and I want to tell Jac what I have learned .
Secondly , If Jac agrees , we want to find George and Joseph" .

   Aric and Julia regarded the request.

   "Do you and Jacque realize Joseph's baggage .  Joshua , your friend ,
and Jacque's friend , Joseph has endured more crap than you or I understand
.  I am not sayin that your task is impossible , but , remember you are
younger than Joseph" .  " I know that , but I also know that George and
Joseph are living on the same flood plain" .

   "Ok then , discuss what you must do with Sath and Bill , and Robert . 
Aric must stay here because another calf may be born tomorrow, and I will
be at work until afternoon".  "How will I get downtown" ?  "I will drop you
at the bus terminal, you will transfer to subway , and pop-out in the
downtown station adjacent to the hospital where Jacque will be released".
"Can you handle that".  "Yes Julia , and thanks , both of you for boot
camp" , grinned Jos.  "My pleasure , see you at six in the morning".  "Yes
maam" .  Nighttime arrived and past quickly.

   Chapter 42 : Jac is released from hospital.

   By 8:30 , Jos was sitting outside the hospital front door checking the
"you are here" maps .  "To phone Jac , or find my way to him ?

   "Joshua Green , How are you grinned Bill" ?  "Same as you Bill" ,
"enjoying life on this planet of fun" .  "Wow , do you want a tour of the
labrynth to Jac's room" ?  "Yes sir".  "Walk with me , kid into the casbah"
.  Ten minutes later Jos was left on his own approaching Jac's room . 
Consulting the nurse' station , ten doors down the hall and right turn into
Jac's room.  "Jac" , whispered Jos when he saw that Jac was sound asleep,
his breakfast half eaten.  Jac stirred but did not acknowledge , instead
Jos heard his voice , "Jessica , Jess , Jesss".  Jos knelt beside the bed,
reached under the covers.  "Jes , let me , please , I need you" .  "Aww ,
I've been there too" , he whispered to himself.  Jos listened for hospital
activity but all was quiet.  "Slipping his face under the covers , Jos ,
followed the trail of heat his fingers tapping the message of welcome on
the shallow pubic hair below his button, until his lips anchored on Jac,
displacing the taut skin .  Seconds later , his other fingers felt the
cremaster pulling Jac's balls into his pubic cavity, and then the river of
Jac's joy in his mouth and sinuses and throat and everywhere that single
cell life forms could splash or swim.  "Jes , Jes , Jes , Jes" , Jos
finished the task , withdrew his head and kissed Jac exactly as he imagined
Jes.  "Jes - Jos what the fuc".  "Ok Jac , do you feel better now" ?  "Like
a million swimming dollars".  "I believe it to be average two hundred
million".  "Yeah, but this is the second emission today".

   A new voice behind them as Jos stepped back.  "I think it is time for
you to get free of this place" , laughed a doctor.  "All yesterdays results
are one hundred percent".  "Am I free" , enthused Jac.  "For sure" , I've
already contacted your father , Robert , and you have a couple of other
visitors already waiting.  Your clothes are ready in this bag Jac and ahh
you are jos" ?  "Yes Sir".  "I would guess three hundred million .  There
are still a couple on your cheek" , he winked.  Jos pulled the bottom of
his tee shirt inside out and touched his face .  "Thanks Doctor , and
thanks for looking after my brother" .  "Jos , I was here , when Jacque
arrived emergency air transport , and I watched you and Jac work on
Thierry's chest .  I contacted the nurse , in the hospital that admitted
you .  Mary has confirmed that you saved Jac's life .  I accept your thanks
but offer mine in return , because Jac and you did pull Thierry from an
early date with death .  That is what I want to do.  It is my profession .
Thank you Jos and Jac for showing me , my profession" .

   Jos opened the bag of cloths.  He grinned at Jac , pulled the hospital
clothes off.  "Ahh Jac , your covered with the single celled life forms" .
"Doctor , I'll take him now.  Can I shower him around here" ?  "Straight
through that door and to the right" , laughed the doctor , "I'll send
someone with towels , cause I think her shift is ending about now" .  Jos
found the shower dragging Jac.  Adjusted the water flow , and looked back.
A boyish grin greeted him.  Jac pulled Jos clothes from his back and torso
, both boys entered the shower .  Slow water setting , almost too warm . 
No soap.  They pawed each other with baby strokes, from toes to calves to
thighs and .... .  And from hair to ears to noses to mouths to collar bone
to boy nipples to rippling chest - stomach - abdominal muscles , and beyond
.  Fetal puppy paws traced each other in warm rain , in a long ago world.
Gentle warm water trickled , two fetal brothers explored themselves in
duplicate , creating their own tranced, protected zone .  Touching ,
hugging , feeling , until , boy spurts of fluid splashed and dribbled with
the amniotic rain .

   Sath , tired and sad from her work shift of trauma victims , sat outside
on the floor , with towels , watching and dreaming of her own self ,
immersed with them .  Her mind rested on the beauty of boy twins in their
comfort zone .  Mind weeping for something to pull herself away from the
human abnormalities where her mind worked .

   Jos and Jac sensed a girl weeping .  They found her outside , took her
with them , into a watery zone of zero logic and mammal instincts . 
Sniffing .  Petting her puppy like .  Touching her everywhere .  Licking
her hurts , as though she was one of them .  Sath' tears carried away her
logic and learning and trauma baggage .  Her baby instincts re-ignited with
the boy's petting , under warm protected zone rains .  Sath joined the
twins trance inside her own placental sac , separate and yet curled , tight
with them .  Her mind searched for Jos and Jac , but found only one boy's
mind .  She felt herself passing through her protective membrane , into his
space .  Sath's mind intertwined with the boy's mind .  She was suckled and
she suckled him .  She pushed him away and he pulled her close .  Then she
pulled him inside her , and felt the wonder of planet earth , of flowers ,
and trees , and mountains , and thunder clouds , of a million life forms
evolving , swimming , moving with indescribable animal love .  Deep inside
her body , a new spirit conceived, a desire , a compulsive strength , an
entity , human like without form but with the knowledge of a million
evolutions , to continue her life in persuit of those who have none .  To
bring them home to her house , to shower them with what life is.  Now two
minds split away from hers'.  Sath found herself outside their cocoon again
.  Her path was mapped toward distant stars , and the boys path obliqued
away toward another quadrant .  She tried to see if their paths crossed
hers again.  Then she knew that "It does not matter.  " "Sath , you will
know it is us , Jac and Jos, where ever in this world , until we meet
again" .

   The boys found themselves with Sath and shut off the water dried
themselves and her with Sath's towels.  Three of them stepped outside the
shower.  Sath first.  She saw them come out.  Cloudy , then mind clearing .
They pulled her to themselves dried her and wrapped themselves around her ,
until she could smell their boy hood forms , detected her , separately , as
distinct creatures .  Four hands dressed her , her bra , her panties , her
socks , her street clothes and combed her long black hair .  Dressing
themselves at the same time , until , three humans emerged into the
hospital corridor.  The self closing doors rattled behind them as Jos and
Jac and Sath traversed the long sterile halls.

   "Hi Thierry" , yelled Joseph , as they met with Thierry and Jo and
Robert and Bill , and George.  "Jac is free to go home" , spoke Robert. 
"But there is something , that I want to do before that" , asked Jac.  "Jos
and I want to go with you Jo and George to your house, to talk about our
education plans".

   Robert congratulated Thierry on his progress, and wished Bill all the
best.  He studied Sath's face refocused and looked again , rejuvenated
beyond what his mind had pictured .  Bill and Robert and Jo and Thierry ,
noticed also.  "You are toooo well now , for me to look after".  Sath
smiled at them , "rejuvenation comes in many forms" , and headed down the
exit hall .  Bill and Jo and Thiery noticed Joshua and Jacque smile a tiny
smirk.

   Robert delivered his hope and goodbyes to Jac and Jos and George and Jo.
"Sometimes accidents make us stronger , but Sath is so radiant" , mentioned
Robert.  She makes the hospital walls glow" .

   " Sath is the hospital walls , and she is the floors and rooms, and
lives and deaths therin , mused Bill.  "Thierry , perhaps , one more day ,
two max , and you can join them" , offered Bill , as he returned to his
hospital duties.

   Thierry shook Joseph's hand , thanked him and George for coming and
hustled away to the last round of tests , "hopefully" .

   Jac and Jos , with George and Jo stepped into the opening elevator and
dropped to street level.  It was a ten minute walk to doctor George' house
. "Everyone come inside , and see my lair , welcomed George , deftly
squeezing a key fob in his pocket as the door opened.



   Chapter 43 : George and Joseph and the visitor

   George motioned to Jo.  "Lead the way " .  The twins studied his house
carefully , learning from his environment.  Jo led them to the living room.
Jac picked a chair and Jos picked another on the other side of the room .
George selected the lazy boy in front of a huge tv , and Jo sat on the
chesterfield , and tickled his toes on a huge bearskin rug.

   Jac examined the labels of cd's and tapes.  Jos regarded the music cd's
, thousands of them , organized into two groups.

   George leaned back in the big chair.  "Jac , Jos , Jo , welcome to my
lair.  It's a bit messed.  There is a house keeper twice a week and some
laundry service.  You see photos of my family from long time back, and lots
of book cases through the house.  I never get tired of reading.

   "Jos , I have told you about my son in the accident two years ago .  Did
you get a chance to tell Jac any of the story" ?  "Not yet George , We just
got him out of the hospital today" .  "And how are you Jac" , queried
George ?  "One hundred percent .  Jos and I did an exhaustive evaluation" ,
commented Jac .  We got additional help from Sath in our shower this
morning .  I know it is hard to believe , but I am fully recovered from the
pool accident .  I expect that we helped Sath a bit also.  Her job is
tough" .  "Have you told anyone else the story , George" ?  "Jo and I did
talk about it yesterday , somewhat" .  "George , do you want to go through
the story with all three of us once more.  We would like to know as much as
possible about him." ?  "Well Jos , as I told you yesterday , it is not a
story with a happy ending , and I am unsure if Jo would like to hear it" .
"That's ok George , we did talk about it yesterday while we were having a
drink" stated Jo.  "So what did happen yesterday , George" .  "I waited for
you to call back but it did not happen" .

   A pause of perhaps unease permeated the room.

   George seemed uneasy about how to proceed , so Jac changed the subject
to the organization of the music cds.  "Two separate groups of music , each
organized within itself but some cds are duplicated in both groups" ?  "Ahh
yes" , answered George , "one group was my son's collection , and the other
belonged to my wife and I .  Observant of you to notice the distinction" .
"George what was your son's name" , asked Jac.  "Arthur".  "When did the
accident happen" ?  "One day ago plus two years" , added George.  "What
would he be doing today , excepting the accident" , asked Jac.  "Arthur
would be finished with the first year exams , and probably loading the car
for a trip to a cottage with his friends" .  Jac picked out some cd music
relating to cottage-outdoor life and held it for George's view .  "Is this
one that Arthur liked" ?  "Yes Jac" .  "May I play it for us" ?  "You may".
Jac loaded the cd into a player , flipped on an amplifier power switch and
checked the label display to make sure , it was loading music" .  The
selection was natural music of a loon far out on the lake , coming closer
to the listener.  George' face glistened as the haunting music echoed
across his residence.  "It was Arthur's favorite" , mentioned the old
gentleman , " Call of the loon is good , but the eighth selection is the
best" .  Jo sat back in the chesterfield .  "It's beautiful music .  I have
never heard it .  What is it , Call-of-the-loon" ?  "A water bird makes
those sounds Jo" .  "It is a lonely sound " , stated Jos.  "The loon is a
social animal looking for family members" .  "Yes" , mentioned George ,
"Arthur told me that the mother loon on his lake had three baby loons . 
The next day , there were only two baby loons .  A week later , only one
baby loon was left.  The father loon and the mother loon call for the
babies to return" .

   Jo looked at Jos and then George , his eyes misty , face pale ,
unreadable.  "It's always a sad story when a family member does not return
. George , remember , yesterday when I told you about taking the viaduct .
I told you that my best friend in the world took the viaduct" .  "We had
too much to drink yesterday" , concluded George.

   Jo continued, "It was two years ago plus two days , and it was my
brother.  He took the viaduct Jos.  Said nothin to nobody.  He took the
viaduct George .  He plunged a -undred feet into the Don Valley . 
Paramedic could not help.  Doctors could not help him .  Nobody could .  HE
never said a word , just disappeared .  My grandfather said "God called
him" .  I believe he was hurting from something , my grandfather said" . 
Jo stared straight ahead , unable to face his friends and unwilling to show
emotion.

   George pushed his chair aside.  He sat beside Jo and said nothing, but
his eyes and face told the same story as Jo.  The music continued playing ,
an owl hooting in the night accompanied by backgrounds of crickets , and
frogs , and random insect sounds transported their environment into a shady
forest .

   Jos looked at Jac .  "Last week I cried in front of all my friends Jo. I
cried like a two year old, because - I guess that was my age , when my dad
and my twin brother left me" .  "At least a two year old can still cry" ,
said Jac .  "Does that mean , that the older we become , the less we show
that emotion." "Yes" , said George .  "Arthur was born late in our careers
. By that time , my wife and I - , We were respectable doctors.  And a
doctor cannot cry" .  "A doctor cannot hug his son either " , whispered Jo.
"You told me that you had never hugged your son Arthur" .

   George responded , "And you told me Jo, that your grandfather never
hugged you once in your whole life" .  Jac and Jos watched George and Jo.
"Were they trying to make the the other one cry" ?

   Neither gave in , and so Jos , said , "Jo has any body hugged you in
your whole life" ?  "Yeah" .  "Who" .  " You did Jos , at the hospital" .
"Yes Jo , I did hug you to get your attention , not to make you cry .  I
know that it hurts to cry .  It makes you exhausted and ill ."

   "May I hug you now Jo".

   Jo looked away , but did not move.  Jos sat beside Jo on the sofa , with
George on his other side.  Jac looked at George , "Did you ever get hugged
by Arthur" .  "When he was two or three , he hugged me.  It's my favorite
photograph" .

   Selection three on the music cd started with a wolf cub howling for help
, a long drawn out muted howl , loud enough for the parents to hear but
soft enough so as not to alert predators.

   Jac stood .  "That's you Jos last week .  You had fallen out of bed ,
you were howling for your dad , a low sub audible yowl.  Jos began to make
the same sounds , and then asked Jo .  "Can you do it with me" ?  Putting
an arm around Jo , beginning the mornful howl of a lost cub , and Jo joined
him.

   Jac sat on the other side of George .  Putting an arm around George and
lifting George's wrist , gently tucking it around Joseph.  George moaned to
him , "These boys are right Jo.  We cannot hide from our emotions lest we
affect our lifetimes" .  "Doctors are humans also" , reminded Jo , as the
eerie wold cub howl of the music system echoed from room to room.  Jos
disappeared , returned with glasses of water and lemon for each guest. 
Adjusting the music a bit higher , and listening as baby kittens searched
out their mother , standing by the cd player , as baby ducks quacked to
locate a parent.  Jos watched George and Josephs face .  With a few more
question he discovered what had happened , and why no one could call him
back yesterday.  To summarize yesterday , "Jo , you returned from the
viaduct two days ago because George was despondent yesterday , because
Arthur died on that anniversary .  Jo you wanted to be with George on his
most desperate day , and that means that you could not take the viaduct ,
where your brother died.  Jo sank back into the soft sofa .  "It's true Jos
.  I watched George save Thierry's life at the hospital and then he came
home trashed.  HE saved a boy's life but it seemed to mean nothing to him.
I knew he was hurting and I knew I had to stay around to help him .  "Jo ,
Why did you want to help George ?  Is there another reason" ?  Jo looked at
Jos .  "It's you Jos.  You are the other reason , that I wanted to save
George .  George offered to send you to medical school at his expense . 
That's more money than I hope to make in twenty years of working .  You
talked to me in the hospital , like I was a person , like an adult , and
you reasoned with me , and you gave your body to me a stranger so that I
could communicate with Thierry .  Jos you taught me more respect in one
hour than my grandfather in a whole lifetime .  I can't explain why you
have that effect on me , but you do Jos , and I wanted you more than
anybody in the fuckin world to go to medical school , because I had already
determined it , impossible for me .  I love you Jos , I don't know why .  I
don't even know what your career might be , but keeping George alive was
easy for me , until yesterday .  "What happened yesterday Jo" ?  "Yesterday
George and I talked .  I found him in Arthur's room , when you asked me to
look out for him.  That day was the anniversary of the accident that killed
Arthur .  George had two bottles of pain killer capsuls in a glass and
another full of whiskey .  George was waiting , thinking of going to look
for Arthur , and that's when I told him about my friend going viaducting .
George and I realized , I think , that if we got drunk enough , then the
desire to go viaducting and searching for Arthur would pass .  I think that
the whiskey saved us both .  George told me that he had never hugged his
son , Arthur , after his first birthday , and I told him that no one had
ever hugged me .  We drank whiskey , to keep ourselves talking.  Then I
told George that he could never let go of Arthur because he had never
hugged his son , and did not know him .  I told George that you cannot say
goodbye to your son , because you never knew him .  George never argued
with me .  Perhaps he knew , that I was correct , or perhaps his doctor
training forbade him from down loading more baggage on me" .

   "Jo , did Thierry ever hug you" ?  "No".  "Why not" ?  "Thierry , saw
the look in my eyes , a fear that God would strike me dead .  Thierry knew
that hugging me , would kill me" .  "Do you still believe that , strike me
dead stuff" ?  "Jos , you KNOW I no longer believe it , You told me it was
two thousand year old CRAP.  I trust you Jos , as I trust Thierry .  Jos ,
you do not realize the effect that you have on people .  I know a thousand
kids from school , but Thierry and you are on my trusted list , until
yesterday.  I now know that George is on my trusted list .  But you know
what ?  I never had a trusted list until now.  I do not know what to do
about trusted people .  I am afraid to contact them and tell them what
hurts me .  And Jos you also said that circumcised boys be hurt so bad by
the mutilation that the brain may move the center of pleasure .  If that is
the case then I love Thierry because of the circumcision , and if god has
swayed my mind in this way , then I hate Thierry , along with God and all
the father son and hohly ghost of eternity what ever the fuck that is.

   Jos and Jac grimaced at that , a statement of HURT larger than the
universe.  George acknowledged , "Jo , I should not have added my baggage
to you .  My problems were created by myself.  Yours are force-fed.  You
are innocent and deserved better in life.  You have the eyes of a native
North American , yet slim tan hair and lithe body as an Irish descendant.
Can you tell me about your family" ?  "I hate them".  "Humor me , -- my
ancient ears Jo." "Tell me anyway , not about your grandfather , but about
your mother and father" ?  "My mother left first".  "Then my papa
disappeared".

   George asked "Her hair was --" ?  "Blond".  "Her face was --"?  "Like
mine , oval , like mine , eyes not wide apart , but gentle blue" .  "When
did you last see her" ?  "I never did see her last .  Grandfather took her
to the train station when I was at jk school .  She sent me a postcard from
Belfast when I was six , that's all .  I got it from the mail man before my
grandfather found it".

   The cd player continued.

   "And your father ---" ?  Coaxed George.  "He weft me in the wain at the
bus stop , and I walked home".  "His face was --" ?  "Weddish wike my
grandfather" .

   Jos and Jac sat staring ahead.  The cd music stopped and restarted
playing again automatically , this time playing the selections in random
order.  The wolf cubs howled for their mother.  Jac refilled their glasses
from the fridge.

   George brushed Josephs hair away from his eyes.  "Jo , your father was a
Native American.  He was raised by the churches , deemed-indian.  Your
grandfather , almost certainly was a residential school victim.  Stripped
of his parents , sent to a school run by the churches that professed to
protect me and Jos and Jac's parents.  But your grandfather , Jesse ,
probably not even his real name , was stripped of his parents , his name ,
his uncles, his aunts , his siblings , his culture and his whole universe .
Jesse was made into a church member.  He imposed the values of a foreign
church on your parents , reflecting exactly his own condition .  But your
father rebelled , as I can guess.  All young men seek out truths at puberty
and ideas .  But your father , I am guessing here , sought something that
he never had on top of all the young man things that promise themselves to
life on earth.

   Naturally , the war between your father and your grandfather was the
same war that my church imposed on him .  It seems , your dad sought out
the most beautiful girl in his world , and loved her and created you .  My
guess is your mother was not of the same religion as your Grandfather , and
you are a product of one christian religion fighting another christian
religion on top of a heritage already overloaded by residential schools
from the last century .  Eyes sweating , chest sucking short quick breaths
, "I can't even talk about it" , spoke Jo.  "I can't cry like you did Jos .
I don't know how to do that .  I can't even communicate , I' m screwed , by
my history , fuc-no hope" .

   Jos faced off with Jo.  "There is a chance for you Jo .  You do not need
to viaduct .  You DID communicate with Thierry through chest finger padding
.  You told him you were beside him , and you pulled him back from death by
lung poisoning .  Jo , you were brought in to this world by parental love .
You have dealt with your condition thus far and have triumphed .  The same
condition that wrecked your life can harden your mind as in Jesse's case ,
or they can be used to make you tougher , and stronger.  You are under
rating your ability , as I under rate mine -- you said that to me Joseph. "
.

   " Jos , I am crippled , mind warped by religious infighting , my body
mangled by two thousand year old church logic ".

   Cupping his face in his hands Jos talked slowly to a sad faced beaten
Jo. "Jo , there is still a method .  You KNOW there is a method to talk ,
the way you talked to Thierry , padding with the finger tips , massaging ,
what ever you want to call it , it works .  IT works between Jac and I ,
because we are twins.  We learned that language first in our mother's womb
. It is a language of human mammals , a dna language , requiring no
training , only a desire to move an idea between two sentient animals ".

   "Jo collapsed forward into Jos' arms forcing Jos to kneel on the floor
holding his weight.  It's no use for me Jos.  I have tried to communicate ,
have taken every drug invented by man.  I don't know why.  Nothing works
and I cannot forget the viaduct" ?

   "You must never forget the viaduct , moaned George.  It is where your
brother died .  I do not want to forget Arthur's accident either".  "I went
to a shrink" , yelled Jo , "a professional , hired by my grandfather to get
me through my brothers death .  She tried to make me forget the viaduct
screamed Jo.  She tried to fi ---".  "Joshua let Jo slide from the sofa ,
burrow into his soft belly .  Jos understood the sounds of a wounded animal
, now a frightened confused animal .  Jac and George squeezed close to his
side , trying to steady his body wringing with the assaults of his
grandfather and his parents and an internal christian war between orange
and green.  Watching his brother climb out the huge viaduct structure ,
unable to stop him , unable to hear his cries for help , -watching his
fingers let go , falling , falling , ,

   Jos holding his body , his mind dropping into an abyss of eleven years
without parents , and sixteen years of being wrong , with guidance from a
grandfather with no compass , screaming for a mother who never came and a
father who left in the rain , alone , neglected and without reason .  Six
hands steadied Joseph against the fires burning in his mind.  Jos whispered
into his ear.  "Joseph , NEVER EVER LET ANYONE make you forget your brother
and the marker where he got off this planet.  Your brother left the marker
for you .  It points a path into where he has gone.  The viaduct is a
sacred place to you and your brother .  But the message was not getting
through.  Joseph's mind was fighting itself .  The neurons of his brain
divided themselves between orange and green and red blooded North American
Indian .  Church programmed neurons marched in sacrificial rows against
identical church neurons , both of them flanked by a third group of neurons
set lose by Joseph sub-conscious instinct to keep himself sane.  Sweating .
Water pouring from pores , tears ducting away rivers of grief.  Jac looked
at Jos face .  "We are losing this Native Indian - Irish boy to the very
fires of hell defined by our own christian religion" .

   Doctor George knew the end result.  "Drugs will stop his mind " he said
, "but they cannot affect the fires .  He has been through this before ,
pshyco affecting drugs , both legal and illegal with , exstacy , and crack
cocaine .  I checked Jo's records and he has been treated three times for
every over dose imaginable .  We can call 911 and the medics will come . 
This time he may become a vegetable in the hospital .  I say , no drug can
fix this boy's mind .  He will do it with your help or viaduct.  Jos took
one more look into George's face , then he signaled to Jac for help . 
Twins held Joseph tightly , laying him on the giant bear skin rug .  They
pulled off his soaking tee shirt loosened his belt and placed his body like
a curled up wolf cub on the bear rug.  George went to Arthur's bedroom.  He
found another skin , a wolf skin tatooed with Arthurs name across the end
and wrapped it around Joseph , and Jac and Jos.  Yet another search from
his own bedroom , returning with a huge buffalo skin expertly tanned , soft
heavy indestructable hide .  George lowered it like a teepee over Joshua
and Joseph and Jacque and crawled under it with them.  In the darkness of a
residence , filled with every modern convenience , two boys and a retired
doctor held a wolf cub , crazed from a mind killing itself with millions of
warring neurons.  Epileptic seizures quaked Joseph .  Cold sweat flowed
across his chest , viscous like colorless blood leaked from boyhood pores .
Mammal pain moans emanated under the buffalo hide.  George placed the wolf
hide in his grasping fingers .  " Joseph , Joooseph , Joooow" , called out
Jac , "please - will you stay with us".  But Joseph was far away in a treed
area under the viaduct.  Joseph saw his brother crushed and mangled by the
fall.  Joseph wanted to cradle his brother , to help him leave the planet.
As he stepped closer he saw his brother's lower body , mashed by bouncing
falling gravitational plunge to earth , clothes ripped away , the mutilated
circumcised member owned by God , taken from him after he was born by the
power and authority of church run institutions.  Frightened , nauseated ,
can't go closer --- want to touch my brother , no matter what , but bolting
, and .  , aimlessly running until exhaustion wrecked his body , tumbling
into a crevice between two tree stumps , except they were not trees .  Two
adults were holding him immovable .  Joseph felt the fingers exciting his
tiny penis , stroking it to hardness against his will .  The never before
experienced erotic pleasure of another human finger on his tiny newborn
foreskin , and then , cold , cold alcohol assaulted his senses and
absorbed-sickening , dizzying into his blood stream , then more finger
touches petting the tiny foreskin to stretch and show itself to the new
world , ohh god no , fuuuck , mommy , daddy , h h hu hurt , cold blunt
stainless steel probes ripping his flesh apart , a sharp poke like a safety
pin right thru is skin , -then pliers crushing a huge swath of screaming
nerve endings .  "Jesus Christ help me , mother help me" - The knife
cutting , slashing away , deliberately , trimming away the skin like a
gutted baby pig at slaughter, 400 million nerves , "GOD PLEASE" , NO GOD
WHY, but God did not answer , , his brain seeking each one of those slashed
nerves , rationalizing but never resolving their loss to unexplainable
circumcision trauma visited on him by two thousand years of religious
dogma. .  Joseph's brain resisted , fought with , but could not control the
power of unimaginable pain rendering his tiny body to fearsome adrenalin
highs .  His stomach emptied it's contents into his mouth , held on his
back by brute force humanoid monsters , breathing stomach contents back
into his lungs , choking , drowning in his own puke , unable to get air ,
unable to cry out for his mother , unable to scream as the circumcisers
knife continued to cut and hack away living flesh.  Jo's brain dropped back
into the last survival function .  Exploding his bowels into the temporary
storage space , then the large colon jettisoning all outside , with stomach
contracting again and again in choking convulsive violence until every
liquid and solid that could be dumped was voided.

   Jos and Jac picked up Joseph's writhing dead weight body and carried it
into the walk-in shower , pissing and convulsing and puking as it went ,
shedding their clothes under the soaking streams .  George pulled Joseph' s
trousers away with the socks and all other reminders of Josephs human-ness
, -ditched his own puke covered clothes soaked by the shower rain.  They
washed away Jo's stomach contents and jettisoned excrement .  Jos held his
body between his thighs , arms around the boys ribbed chest cavity ,
sitting under the shower , running his fingers under Jo's tongue , between
tremors , to remove the lodged stomach contents .  Jac and George cleaned
the bear rug and the wolf skin and washed the excrement and puke from the
path over which they carried him.  George re adjusted the shower to warm
gentle rain.  He and Jac brought in the buffalo hide .  They positioned it
across the shower curtain and turned on the ultra-violet-infrared lighting.
.  Jos stood up .  George and Jos , picked up Jo waddling , and washing
away the last excrement from his body , cupping the warm rain against his
ears and neck and eyes and mouth increasing the water flows to remove the
jettisoned body waste .  .  Then Jac joined them , six hands cuddling ,
cupping the water over his chest , back , genitals and anal cavity and legs
and feet and toes.  Placing his body gently into the shower rounded corner
of curved tiles , then sitting.  George re-adjusted the spray to gentle
rain.  He found a half step stool, and sat on it in front of Joseph and Jos
sat against the adjacent corner wall beside Jo.  Jac took the wolf skin
into the shower and wrapped it around Jo , and behind him padding his head
from the hard tile wall, letting his fingers close again on the soft tufted
edged once more .  George facing Jo .  With Jos on his right and Jac on his
left , they fingered his mouth again to remove the stomach residue from the
last convulsive stomach wrenching brain wars .  Re-examined his anal cavity
to wash away the dumped solids.  They watched the warm rain on his heaving
chest and shielded the long-ago , but still freshly mutilated glans from
the falling water droplets.

   Jos and Jac began to finger pad the sides of his temples , under his
ears, the back of his neck and chest.  They messaged a forty million year
old un-evolved language known to identical twins , long ago lost by
mainstream humans.  George slid himself down on to the floor using the
stool as a back rest .  His fingers checking Jo for heart and respiration.
The warm glow of four super watt glowing lamps beamed down , like ancient
sun light in a warm watery world along side a huge buffalo.  Jac and Jos
continued the messages of communication, as Jo whined and whimpered and
then then cryed , but this time a hopeful cry as in a cub calling to it's
parents .  Jo's lungs howled on warm moist air intake , --exhaled the
whispering gurgles of a baby boy infant looking for it's own kind .  His
fists opening closing grasping for siblings to answer the ancient
communication protocols , let go from the wolf hide and moved out to touch
the message generators .  Jac and Jos snuggled close to him , answered in
rapid succession , unaware now of why or how Jo knew what to do , or how to
signal back .  But Jo did talk to them in the language of mammal dna. 
George watched , awestruck , then stunned by the rhythm of Josephs fingers
answering back , arms outstretched wrapping around Jos and Jac on each side
, face empty , blank eyes , his fingers strumming on the six pack muscles
of mammal boy flesh , as though unseen guitar strings criss-crossed their
bodies .  Eyes fluttering , George studied and watched and learned .  Under
the glow of the ultra violet lighting , the muscle patterns of boy flesh
responded to Joseph's fingers , dancing vibrating strings in tune with
Joseph's finger print dances.  Then communication reversed .  Jos and Jacs
fingers tapped out new messages into Jo 's temple brain regions .  George
studied the accompanying responses from Joseph's facial muscles , dancing
laughing rippling the falling water as they responded .  He re-adjusted the
water flow and heat , resumed his position in checking Jo's heart and
respiration .  He watched three perfect boys , eyes closed , neutral faces
expression-less , water dancing on themselves.  The finger padding - muscle
dancing pattern continuing from head to toe, encompassing every muscle
group , available to the human skin surface ending with the bulbocavernosa
muscles .  Jac and Jos and Josephs fingers traversed , petted , palpitated
Joseph's mutilated foreskin.  Analyzing , measuring , massaging the brains
trauma to a lower level , releasing the God fear from Jo's neurons ,
re-inforcing his loyal neurons to starve the religious neurons out of
existence.

   Far away the living room stereo amplifier continued with natural nature
sounds of a music cd on loop.

   Joseph's heart and respiration normal , they carried him to the darkness
of the basement bedroom , which was Arthur's room.  Placing his sleeping
body on the large bed , to which Arthur had never returned.  Distant from
traffic noises and city din , windows and blinds closed , the darkness of a
mother's womb.  Jos and Jac climbed in on either side of Jo.  They drifted
to sleep within seconds , as George slipped upstairs.  He telephoned Bill
and Sath and Robert and Aric and Julia , explaining as much as each needed
to know , and that the boys were sleeping , as long as required.  George
activated the outside door cameras , and deactivated the door bell , and
phone ringers and activated the perimeter monitors.  Dusk had fallen , as
he sat in his living room , A low indicator buzz alerted him that a visitor
had appeared on the external monitor.  It was Bill,

   Chapter 44 : visitor

   George and Bill sat together all night , keeping each other awake and
watching another infrared monitor on Arthur's room .  The boys tossed and
turned and rolled the covers .  Joseph , suffering an unhappy sleep ,
tortured by events and forces beyond his knowledge and control .  Joshua
and Jacque stayed beside him giving him more messages in the ancient
language .  At first their messages soothed Joseph , but new forest fires
of neurons ignited in Joseph's brain .  They were loosing Joseph again ,
slowing him soothing him , but unable to douse the fires of internal
hatred. They seemed to be restraining Joseph , rather than reducing his
turmoil .

   It happened around three o'clock .  Bill saw a shimmering doctor in
unknown hospital uniform .  Hovering beside the three boys - wtf -
invisible lower legs , from another planet , perhaps , another time and
space .  Both Bill and George watched the inter planetary traveler touch
Jac and Jos , then raise it's arms dropping plasma light into each sleeping
twin as though recharging them , giving them new power and new knowledge to
contact , communicate the three warring factions of Joseph's brain .  A new
plasmatic path of electrified light arose from Joshua and Jacque .  It
twisted and curled and bounced from Jacque through Joseph and on to Joshua,
current through Joseph along his entire body.  The boys muscles responding
again like slow motion guitar strings excited now not by finger prints but
by a nebulous glow permeating between Jac and Jos.  Joseph's muscles were
silent and yet his writhing body subdued , quieted itself and then his
muscles began to respond in unison with Jac and Jos.  The traveler , nodded
it's head "yes" , glided to the abandoned desk and brushed over a paper ,
it re checked Jos and Jac , nodded approval and de-materialized.  The
monitor display suddenly re-adjusted to a darker room , as though a light
extinquished.

   Bill and George continued to watch until day light illuminated the
living room .  All windows in the basement were blocked.  The boys
continued to rest .  At nine thirty another beep from the exterior monitor.
Sath , was finished her shift .  She joined the two doctors in the living
room , not speaking , not wanting to break the peaceful slumber. 
Eventually George moved to the kitchen , put on coffee and nuked some
muffins from the freezer.  Sath mentioned that she was working in the west
wing facing George's residence around three, when a meteor appeared over
Toronto .  Bill and George discussed the eerie visitor as the boys slept.

   At noon , Arthur's room came alive .  Jac and Jos and Jo arose together
. Jo directed them to the small bathroom .  All three boys urinated into
the bowl laughing , joking crossing the streams and breaking bubbles . 
Sath and Bill and George watched the monitor and laughed.  "Shall we tell
them , they are on camera" , laughed Bill .  "They already know we are
watching them" , spoke Sath , and they know that I am here .  "They are
pointing to a paper on the desk , holding a photograph up to the camera in
the corner of the room .  The photo was a young boy from long ago hugging
his dad.  George looked at the photo and collapsed into Bill and Sath. 
Writing on the photo , in Arthur's hand writing , "Love you dad" .

   Jo rummaged through Arthur's bedroom , to find clothes for the three of
them.  They appeared in five minutes in the living room and ran to George
recovering from the faint.  Bill and Sath revived him as the boys appeared
. Jos carried the photo .  "The writing was added by the visitor" .  "I
know" said George , "Arther wrote that message at three o'clock this
morning".

   Sath good-byed the boys , as she hurried away , knowing that she needed
to sleep and that her next hospital shift would start soon enough.

   Chapter 45 : Jo , finds more demons.

   Bill and George studied the three boy's faces.  Jos and Jac' faces
Sprouting stubble beard , lack of sleep eye shadows , .  Joseph's face
tired , wrinkled patterns across the left and right temple.  Thin redish
strips of uncut stubble under his nose.  "Will you stay another day" ,
asked Bill ?  "George says this place is lonely at night" .  "Is it ok with
you George" ?  George studied the three boys faces again.  "I am grateful
for a chance to see Arthur's clothes being worn.  I would be the happiest
dad in Toronto if you stayed here forever" .  Jos looked at Jac.  "I think
we need to rest another day" .  "Jo is it ok , that we stay here with you ,
one more day" ?  A sub conscious smile from a tired , happy face radiated
from Jo.  "I would like that" .

   A flurry of actions followed as agreement settled.  Bill left for home.
Jo and George planned for lunch and breakfast all at once.  Jos and Jac
realized they had no clothes , no tooth brushes , no stay all night things.
They saw the new hope in George's face and Jo's face and decided to take up
the offer.  "A sleep-in , no , were too old for that , a barbeque , too
young , binge party - don't think so ....  lets just enjoy the company
until we decide what it is" .

   Jos and Jac retrieved their cells.  They looked for a place to be alone.
George guessed their intentions.  "Jo show your friends the top floor loft
, I will call the house keeper and the cook" .

   Jo stepped forward , "Jac and Jos , you have welcomed me , let me show
you the rest of George's lair" .  "They followed Jo through the main floor
bedroom , up a long narrow stairwell , entering the loft.  Floor to ceiling
windows on all sides , domed roof , skylights , with Toronto skyline all
around .  Jo took their paws and sat them , Jos and Jac , on soft english
leather upholstery , special swivel chairs without back-rests, but with
perfect lower back support .  He disappeared and returned minutes later
with cold milk .  "Look around" , said Jo.  This place is designed for
humans.  I will go and help George with breakfast-lunch.  Jos and Jac
wandered around .  They used the spacious loft bathroom never missing a
turn to make and break the bubbles .  The door closed behind Jo descending
the stairs.  Jos and Jac studied the Toronto skyline of monolith erections.
They sat in silence as the rays from the ninety three million mile away
furnace were blocked by one monolith and then reflected from another and
yet another into the loft.  They absorbed the rays at the center of a man
made universe , like pegs on a sun dial clock , catching direct and
indirect rays until their bodies formed new shadows in every direction. 
Jos located his cell in Arthur's shirt pocket.  Jav found his in Arthur's
cargo pants.  They put the man made devices on a glass surface ahead of
them , then tried to imagine the time in vacation land for twin girls.  Jos
and Jac drank the milk , minds dozing , away , away on the vapor trails of
a jet plane to another time zone.  They sank together into the soft leather
, slowly swiveled the chair to follow a vapor trail across the sky , seeing
the smiling faces of girl twins in the patterns of clouds.  Both cell
phones rang into their minds.  They answered , "Hi Jen", "Hi Jes".  Dual
voices "Je t'aime".  One hour later Jo returned , opened the loft door and
peeked through.  Softly asking , "Jos , Jac , may we join you"?

   Jos and Jac responded from their puppy nap dream.  "Yeah, for sure ,
come on in" .

   Jo and George entered carrying trays of food followed by two rent-a-chef
caterers , and then Aric and Julia, and Robert and Jill.

   Everyone found a soft leather seat , pushed and arranged them into a
circle like ceo's in a penthouse meeting.  The caterers worked their magic
of food amid the contrasting rays and shadows reflecting from the man made
monoliths of the skyline.  They laughed and talked , in awe of the roof of
George's loft.  He began to give them the names of the buildings in view.
He talked of seeing the international space station speck of light
traversing the mid-night sky , of aurora borealis , and meteor showers. 
Robert and Jill , Julia and Aric and possibly one other small life form
relaxed into bliss , and George and Jo conversed .

   The caterers noticed that the three boys consumed everything offered .
They brought in more food for the boys .  When everyone finally stopped
eating , two bottles of wine with glasses for everyone appeared .  Jill
looked at Robert , as though to deny the wine , but Robert , looked at
George smiling , and George looked at Joshua and Jacque .

   Jos and Jac stood up as George and Jo approached .  Jac held them at
arms length until Jos could speak , "From re-united twin boys to a man who
moves life and death .  George , this hug is for you" , wrapping their arms
around the old doctor's chest and pushing their cheeks against his.

   Jos and Jac stepped back and regarded Jo.  They sipped the wine .  "From
re-united twins to a boy-blood-brother who has been and seen life and
death" .  Jos and Jac stood at attention as Jo neared them.  Jo put his
arms high in the air , as the the boys high fived, hands snapping as raw
skin smacked .

   Then Joseph proposed a toast.  "To all the mammals , on this planet and
everything bad and good from the wreckage of old religions , from
viaducting death , to oxygen producing trees , to butterfly wings and to my
new brothers and dad" .  Joseph turned to George.  "This is first-best hug
from a boy who needs one, to a dad denied one .  Everyone sipped the wine.
They looked at Joseph and George , standing , faces glistening in the
sunshine .  Joseph opened his arms upward and wide and George connected
around his chest , enjoying the Irish red stubble piercing his neck and the
chest crushing first time hug.  "Love you" , pronounced Jo , stepping back
and pronouncing "from a mutilated-half-breed-irish-indian-boy to a
white-anglo-saxon-protestant-doctor" , then George opened his arms wide and
Jo plunged into him .

   Julia and Aric hardly sipped their wine .  They squared off standing ,
facing each other and then the group .  Aric spoke .  "To my brother Jos
and his twin , and to my new brother Jo" , motioning to Julia who continued
, "Jos and Jac made an impression on my two sisters that will last four
lifetimes .  They have rescued each other from a separation , and from
accidental death and they have brought about the re-union of two people ,
their creators .  Robert and Jill .  May we all remember this event as long
as the sun and earth play together.

   The celebration ended with house keepers removing the dishes and
returning the residence to normal.  Julia and Aric and Robert and Jill ,
good-byed , returned to daily duties.  George retreated to his bedroom for
a pre-evening nap , leaving three boys, alone in the loft.

   They sat together on one cushion letting the soft natural sponginess of
the leather cushions push them together.  A sliver of day light moon
entertained there eyes , between giant fluffy clouds high above the skyline
.  Jac and Jos explained there cell phone call to Jo.  They told Jo about
being brothers , and twins.  Jo responded with memories of his brother ,
one year older than him , of climbing in trees , and racing down park
slides , of racing the trains across railway tracks and of clinging to each
other the day their mother went away.  When Jo went to the washroom , Jos
and Jac followed.  They pissed together , forcing mountains of bubbles in
the high tech toilet bowl .  Jo became silent .  They dragged out new
demons and put them to rest .  They talked about Jo and the mind wars that
he survived.  "Jac - Jos , I remember everything , sweating , puke , the
sickness , the shit , in the shower , You babied me , and you held my mind
on the bare essentials of life" .  "Do you remember what caused the
seizures" , asked Jac.  "Yes" "Can you tell us about it".  "Yes , well
maybe".  "Can you tell us what pushed you into the seizures" ?  Jo began to
whisper, "I saw my brother fall from the viaduct.  It took ten minutes to
get down to the place where his body stopped falling .  His trousers were
ripped away , belly gashed open by bouncing from the steel superstructure.
His penis was half torn away , leaking blood.  I tried to run to him and be
with him but my own mind short circuited.  My worst night mare confronted
me in broad daylight , pain , terror , incomprehensibleness of three humans
ripping me , my penis head apart.  I froze Jac , I just fuucing froze , I
wanted to hold my brother but instead I ran .  Jos , my mind still
remembers the circumcision .  Pain , terror , calling for mommy and daddy ,
and then my whole body shed everything , saliva , piss , shit , cum , puke"
.  "We saw it Jo , We saw everything you described .  We were scared .  I
think even George was frightened , but he did not give up on you , nor did
we" .  "Jos , I apologize for pissing and puking on you".  "You shit on Jac
and I also".  "I am so sorry , I di---".  Jac and Jos put their hands on
his lips.  "Jo , you are a brother .  Nothing in this world needs apology
between us".

   Jac and Jos watched Jo recover from the circumcision revelation.  "I
feel shitty all over again , thinking about it".

   The three boys stripped off all clothes and walked into the shower.  Jo
adjusted the infrared-ultraviolet ceiling lights and then the shower flow
to warm trickle not hitting anyone.  Jac directed a three person huddle. 
"Each bro forms a corner of a triangle , puts his right hand around the
next boys neck and so on.  Then each boy puts his left arm around the next
boys neck.  Now adjust your feet into a moderate crouch with comfortable
footing" .  Jos continued the next step.  "Jo relax your muscles just
enough to let some pee escape .  Can you do it".  Jo nodded , concentrated
, but nothing happened .  Jac added , "Jo imagine just yourself all alone
peeing into a toilet bowl".  Jo nodded , smiled , but nothing.  "Ok , Jo" ,
whispered Jac , "one more time.  I thought I saw yellow water on the tip of
that ugly glans".  Jac removed one arm and cupped some warm water in his
hand sprinkling the warm water on Jo's glans .  Slowly a tiny amount of
yellow water appeared , triggered by the sprinkled water.  "Ok Jo , Stop".
Jo stopped the water.  "Ok , start".  "Stop".  After several test runs Jo
discovered that he could start and stop the yellow flow at will.  Then the
three boys completed the pee huddle again.  "OK ALL OF US , count down from
three to zero , let the yellow water rip as fast as possible soaking as
much of the opponent as possible.  "Three , Two , One , Zero" .  The water
cross game began.  Yells of yeow , hoser , and worse language echoed around
the shower as first one boy , then another got yellowed.  The game ended
after all the bladders emptied.

   Jos increased water flow and the boys huddled under the shower.  "Ok ,
lets try to wash each other with our feet" , yelled Jo .  For the next ten
minutes the boys experimented , each lifting a foot and trying to caress ,
wash , touch the next boy.  Exhausted , they sank into a knee crouch , arms
still locked around each other.  Jos and Jac released their arms.  Then Jo
did the same , the three of them crouching knee to knee.  "At this point ,
we play pecker pull, stated Jos to Jac , but Jo has no prepuce , so lets
try organ pull.  Each boy put the right hand around the adjacent boys neck
and wrapped his fingers around the penis of the boy apposite his left hand.
"Ok , now no one is supposed to get hard", stated Jac.  "Is that a joke" ,
asked Jo ?  "Think one of us is out of control" , voiced Jo.  "We will need
to practice this game , perhaps with ice cubes" , stated Jac as his left
hand released Jo.  Jos , Jac and Jo stared at the hard tool.  Jo started to
say sorry , but Jos and Jac quickly pinched his neck with their arms.  They
began to laugh and yip , and push and pull each other .  Wet puppies with
no care in the world , Jos and Jac and Jo enjoyed the shower until water
logged.  Then they shut down the water and exited the shower . 
Mysteriously , three dry towels sat folded in the doorway .  Each boy
wrapped himself in a towel and took a seat on the same chair , settling
down into it allowing the cushion to push each one against the back of the
other to form a boy rib cage triangle.  They began to talk again about
having no foreskin.  "I heard it was done to prevent aids".  "No , to
prevent masturbation" .  "No , it was to stop stds".  The argument ended
abruptly when Jo said "Thanks Jac and Jos for tryin to get me to accept it
but I fuckin hate it .  I still have night mares when I sleep on my back .
The circumciser comes again tears my foreskin away.  You know , I have
never slept on my back , because once the night mare happens , I cannot
sleep for three or four hours" .  "What do you do" ?  "I used to crawl in
bed with my brother and cry".  "Geessus".  "We are listening Jo , continue"
"And after he died , er ahh mean he viaducted" , Jo straightened his back
against the other two , went silent and then croaked .  "Jos and Jac , we
are brothers , do not sugar coat , or patronize .  Treat me equal .  If you
see shit then say it" .  Jos and Jac studied Jo's face.  "What did you do ,
How did you survive after your brother viaducted" ?

   "Sometimes I suffer , often puke , Lots of times I go to the place where
Liam's body died , and I sit and and ask him why".  Geesus FFUCKIN CCHRIST
SSUCKS blurted Jos and Jac.

   Chapter 46 : Jo recounts his brother Liams death.

   Three boys sat on their towel watching the lake clouds sweep in over
Toronto , and the last of the sun rays choked out by tall buildings. 
Shadows of night , and millions of office lights over ruled the sky and
stars .  Jo sobbed quietly , Jos sobbed and Jac sobbed .  The darkness of
religions inhumanity began to oppress each boy.

   "Enough of this shit" , uttered Jo.  Jac and Jos , "I have too much
weight and do not want to pull you two into hell" .  "There is no hell" ,
snapped Jos.  You can't drag us to one of those mystical christian places"
. "There is Jos and me and you Jo, and Thierry.  Tomorrow Thierry will be
released from hospital.  His parents are not in town.  Lets get together
tomorrow and go to Liam's marker" .  "In the meantime , Jo , you will stay
, eat , sleep , shit , and piss , and curse that fucking evilness called
god and circumcision with us".  Jo squirmed , "Yes Jos , yes Jac, But I
know that my thoughts , my life is on a meterorite headed into the sun.  It
is only a matter time .  Liam was right to get off this planet , and I will
follow him , when the time is right.  The boys looked around , wanting to
go find George , and finally they noticed the camera in the corner.  They
grinned into the camera , "George , omnipotent seer of the Toronto skylight
, would you come up stairs and help us" ?  Within a half minute , George
appeared .  "I heard everything" , stated George .  "I understand the
frustration of Jo" , face trashing itself , "wait no , fuck that shit , I
cannot understand any more than yourselves Jos and Jac .  It is mind
control through trauma flashback , common in torture victims.  Unless you
have been exposed , ie tortured like that , there is not a chance of
understanding the victim.  I am a flesh doctor , having no training in
assessing the fears of a boy who cannot go to sleep on his back , on
penalty of circumcision trauma" .  "They come and do it to me every time I
fall asleep on my back" whispered Jo placing his head in the old mans
collar.  Jos and Jac stood with Jo.  "It hurts you Jo .  Jac and I can feel
the hurt.  When we carried you into the shower yesterday , Jos and I felt
you screaming , felt pain in our minds never before experienced , even as
you puked and shit and pissed on us" .  Last night a visitor helped us calm
you Jo.  We learned to off load some of your uncontrolled brain activity to
ourselves.  It works , but we need to stay with you at all times and we
need to learn how to handle the pain , and then teach your brain how to
manage the circumcisers" .

   A pause occurred in everyone's thoughts.  "There are a few doctors who
specialize in genital reconstruction .  It might be possible to help you" ,
stated George.  Then his face laughed , "Did you really mean omnipotent
seer" ?  Jos and Jac put their arms around Jo and George , almost stopping
his heart with pressure.  "Tomorrow" , offered George , "The four of us
will visit some of the best flesh doctors in this city and one of them may
lead us to help" .  As he spoke , he opened the top of one of the chairs
and pulled out refrigerated food from the midday feeding.  They ate from
paper plates , tearing the food apart with their fingers , enjoying their
time without rules, without thoughts and without religion.

   George pulled the chairs away from a windowless area on one wall ,
pressed a button on of the wall , and got back.  The whir of electric
motors lowered a king sized bed into the loft.  He studied the boys , the
twins Jac and Jos and their new brother Jo were still away on another
planet , unaware of the technological instant bed marvel.  "There are
infrared heaters in the ceiling.  They automatically bathe you in gentle
heat .  No covers are required up here" .  But the boys were not listening
to George.  He moved between Jos and Jac and addressed Jo.  "Jo do you know
where are the toiletries" ?  "Yes responded Jo.  I'll put them to bed , ahh
no , George , you put us to bed" !  George smiled.  "Ok men , I will be
back in an hour or two , to put you to bed.  Ok" ?  Three heads
acknowledged the approach of bed time.

   "But George , Thierry will be released from the hospital tomorrow".  "I
know that Jo , Thierry will come with us".  "But George , Jos and Jac and
me are going under the viaduct tomorrow.  Jos wants to see the marker , the
place where Liam died." "Oh Jo, I am sorry, forget the flesh doctors
tomorrow , all of us will go to Liam's marker".  Jos and Jac watched as the
new father and son came to consensus.  "It is a sacred place to you Jo . 
That means , it is a sacred place to all of us.  There will be a marker
there , a pointer to the place in space where Liam went.  We will go there
with you.  I will ask my parents to attend , and Aric and Julia if they can
get back into town .  Can you give the street directions and best means to
get there" ?  Jo provided answers, and cell phones were used to arrange a
meeting.

   George found toiletries for the boys and three pairs of Arthur's boxer
shorts, as he noticed a visitor at the front door , and pushed a remote key
fob to release the door.  The boys brushed each others teeth and combed one
another's hair.  As promised, Jos and Jac went with Jo , to do his waist in
the toilette.  They washed him on the bidette .  Emerging from the toilette
laughing , partly crying and each boy put on a pair of Arthur's boxer
shorts.  Jo found George staring out a floor to ceiling window .  "It's
that way Sath and Jo , up there in the mists" .  Jos and Jac crowded to the
same window , sensing new pain in Jo.

   Sath stiffened to attention , "Hundreds of kids have been brought to
emergency from that viaduct".



   Jac explained , "My dad was sad every time the news announced a viaduct
death .  Often I would talk about those suicides even when my dad was
uncomfortable , but he always tried to help me understand , why .  I think
that Dad and I had to check that his lost son was not somehow involved . 
Dad sometimes tried to call you Jos but there was never communication with
you .  Jos we never mentioned your name , but we were always afraid for
you. Liam and a hundred other young humans spent their last minutes on
earth up there .  Each one of them left an imprint in the ground below , as
though they used the gravitational pull of the planet to slingshot into
another space".

   Jo shuddered , his body cold with sweat .  "I know why Liam left , w wh
why , why he viaducted" .

   George argued , "You do not have to tell us right now.  "

   "I came home from the park late in the evening , drunk , I had been
fighting , no shirt , tired , fell asleep on my bed , face up .  Half an
hour later the circumcisers came , I screamed and cried , Too dizzy to get
up , calling for mommy .  Liam picked me up .  Put me in his bed and went
back to sleep.  ".  But Grandfather found me in bed with Liam.  He beat
Liam with a belt buckle , called him a faggot , blackened his eyes with
fist blows.  My grandfather whacked me on the neck knocking me clear out of
the picture .  Liam just stood there , until he collapsed , didn't fight
back , didn't cry , nothin .  He was restless all night , didn't sleep at
all, nor did I.  The next day , I saw him leave the house around five in
the morning.  I started to follow him , lost track , and then realized
where he was going , and ran to the viaduct.  I saw Liam out on the viaduct
, saw him let g - g oh , ohhhh , owww , ow fuuuccing ow, chrizt he let go.

   Then I ran down into the valley to find him .  I wanted to pick him up
and hold him , but instead I saw his belly ripped open , intestines
exploded , penis half ripped off and I ran , and ran along the river until
I collapsed , believing that it was just another dream , oaaw god dam ,
just another circumcision night mare , ffuuucc .  I start to crawl into the
river , let my face into the murky water .  No reason to live on a planet
of hate and massacred dreams .  But something brushed me , at first I
thought Liam is alive !  It was not Liam !  Nor was it a dream .  It was a
dog , maybe , it was furry , I could tell , like a big dog but strong . 
This animal came and licked my face , my eyes were full of pain and trauma
. It licked my ears and cheeks and the bruise on the back of my neck.  It
teethed my belt , tugged me away from the water , then dropped me .

   I heard the ambulance and paramedics radios.  They tried to revive him ,
their radios crackled , they took Liam away .  I went back to the place ,
and tried to believe it did not happen .  I prayed to god that I could be
circumcised one more time if only Liam would come home .  But when I got
home , the news talked about another Bloor street viaduct suicide .  I
tried to find Liam .  Oh god I looked for Liam.  It was just another dream
wasn't it ?  The cops talked to grandfather , but he never told me what
happened.  Never said nothin .

   "I was on duty that morning" , stated Sath .  Paramedics brought Liam .
fThere was nothing that we could do for him except wonder why , and what
was the point of it" ?

   George urged the sobbing Jo to his feet , lead him to the bed and
lowered him, let him curl into a ball.  "I am sorry George , and Sath .  I
tried to hold him.  Fuuck , I tried , instead , I ran away."

   Sath took a spot beside Jo, kissed Jo's cheek , and watched the first
drops of rain pelt the skylights.  Jos and Jac sat on the bed with the
curled , sobbing boy .  George left the loft and came back with the wolf
hide , placing it over Jo and fearing for the boy's mind, and life . 
Pelting rain blotted out the million window lights of Toronto , distorted
the tall building skyline with streams of deflected skylight water.  Sath
held his head , on her lap.  Jos tapped his fingers along Jo's head and
neck.  Jac massaged his backbone.  Absorbing his pain and soothing his
nervous system preventing the conscious brain from gaining access to the
boys body.  The battle of orange and green brain neurons kindled itself
again .  Phalanx of orange and green neurons assaulted each other .  George
monitored his heart and respiration.  "Temperature going up watch him Sath
, I 'll be right back" .  George returned quickly with some pain pills ,
but Jo could not swallow.  George returned again with a hypodermic syringe.
He pulled Jo's trusers down to his knees and jabbed the needle in to his
hip and delivered a light sedative.  Lightning danced over the city , and
the sound of rain pelting glass reverberated the loft.

   Jo's own conscious brain began to babble , "MATHAIR (maw-hrr) , DAIDI
(daddy) , love you" .  The babble was understandable !  Jos and Jac
repeated the words , " mathair , daidi, love you".  Jo began to talk , "I
am ok Sath, I am ok George, I have two anchors now , my brothers Jos and
Jac" .  No one spoke.  They let Jo talk , and talk , convincing himself
that this storm was harmless.  "We will go to Liam's marker tomorrow ,
won't we Jos" ?  "Yes Jo".  "We will go to Liam's marker tomorrow , won't
we Jac" ?  "Yes Jo".  "We will go to Liam's marker tomorrow , won't we
George" ?  "Yes Jo".  "We will go to Liam's marker tomorrow , won't we
Sath" ?  "Yes Jo".  Unseen currents of energy caressed from Jos and Jac to
Jo , as lightning punished the city and rain tested the skylights.

   Jo uncurled himself , pushed every one aside and walked to the window
facing the distant Bloor viaduct .  They stood beside him and behind him
without touching as Jo talked slowly , deliberately Irish-like accent. 
"Fuuc yourself good.  You don't oawn mee noaw.  You've no power left to
wreck my life .  Fuc oaff and let me be" .  Zaps of lightning and
thunderous explosions ripped apart Toronto's atmosphere.  Jo stared ahead
trying to see the shadow of the viaduct as lightning stalked up the Don
River valley.  Jos and Jac felt Jo's energy surge.  They gave him more
space but anchored his body with their fingers on his bicepts.  He
confronted his tormenters .  Body standing attentive , soldier like ,
tented boxer shorts.  And you don't oawn thdat either reasoned Jo.  Keeep
on to that little snipit of my skin, cawse it is all you are eever reaping
from me.  The great gawd of circumcisions has failed to thumb print me into
your sheeple moulds .  Be gone".

   Jo turned around , his face beaming with energy , picked out doctor
George by the light of the crackling lightning , kissed him on both cheeks
, -- the same for Sath .  Then Jos and Jac moved in squeazing his rib cage
, licking his ears and pawing his face , and burying their cheeks in his
boyish six pack muscles, like wolf cubs finding another.  Sath and George
re-attached themselves to Jo and Jac and Jos, pulled them back down on the
bed , laughing in a heap of mammal instinctive fun.

   Thunderous explosions triggered by super heated air currents walked up
the Don River cowering , intimidating , sending the inhabitants to their
shelters.



   Jo rolled on his back , head tipped back , arms outstretched daring the
Lord to strike him dead .  "O great god who cuts babies foreskins ,
terrorizes their lives and kills their brothers , show me your power now".
Jos and Jac stayed close to Jo, sensing his new energy , but cognizant of
the roller coaster that must come down at some point .  Sath sat at Jo's
head between his arms and George between his feet in the darkened room ,
illuminated only by the planet atmosphere of rain and wind.

   Sath relaxed as she spoke , "Joseph , this is your time .  Your rebirth
, your bold entry into a new world .  Your quest for leaving the past and
joining a gray world of infinite complexity, where black and white are rare
, where men are not created equal , but seek equalness to further their
dreams".  Jo stared into her eyes, Sath stared back into a distant Irish
boy with a Native Canadian father and an Irish Canadian mother.  Jo pulled
her face close to his lips.  Kissed her , and caressed the woman in her ,
leaving her eyes glossy with hormonal rush.  Pivoting to face George,
reaching pulling the old doctor against his chest , Jo whispered in his ear
, "Tomoorow , the viaduct , and the neext dai , you're doctor friends ,
DAIDI .  Jo shook off his sibling brothers and walked to the viaduct window
as the clouds cleared away.  He stood at attention erect and facing the
viaduct in defiance of all that had happened.  Stars poked through the
night sky mists.  Away in the distance the shape of the famous landmark
appeared.  Jo kneeled facing the aquaduct.  Jos and Jac kneeled beside him
, George and Sath at his back.  "I love you Liam , I miss you , and I will
never forget who we half breeds are .  This is my promise to you bro Liam"
.

   Spinning around then kneeling and facing his new friends , as they stood
up Jo crawled to Sath .  She petted his ears , and on to George who ran his
hands along Jo's unclothed back, and then to Jos and Jac , burying his
cheek into their boxer shorts like a puppy seeking guidance after running
away from the pack.

   The skyline , with a million lighted windows returned.  Sath said her
goodbyes , but promised to be at the viaduct.  George disappeared to the
downstairs.  Jo and Jac and Jos sat on the bed.  "It's almost midnight" ,
stated Jac relaxing on the big bed .  "Did you hear George say , there are
no covers because the ceiling is intelligent and monitors our body heat".
Jos stretched out on his back on the other side of Jo.  Jo remained
sitting. Jac let his eyes wandered from skylight to skylight studying the
skyline.  Jos listened as Jac found a recognizable land mark.  Both boys
noticed that Jo remained sitting.  "I'm coming down from the roller
coaster" , stated Jo.  "Not sure if I dare to lay on my back and watch the
land marks.  My circumcision dream is going to ffu ---".  "Come on Bro , We
are here if you need us".  Jac put his arm around Jo's ribs gripped his
belly muscles and and pulled him back flat on the bed .  Both twins stuck
their tongues in his ears.  "Oh ho , what's this" , peering at the hill in
the front of Jo's boxer shorts" ?

   "It's my problem Jac .  Understand that it pops up all the time when I
least expect it.  But the circumcisers rubbed my foreskin and popped it up
also, until I could not resist and then killed me with pain overload when
they ripped away the flesh.  I am so fuuked by the thing popping up and
then my mind expecting to be circumcised" .  Jac and Jos looked at Jo's
face.  They knew that the fear had returned by Jo's darting eyes.  They
knew that Jo was right.  There was no logical answer.  Every boy hood act
of puberty would trigger the circumcision trauma.  "God dam circumcisions"
, muttered Jac and Jos.  "Jo Is it ok for us to keep goin with this
subject" ?  "I mean , can you tell Jac and I the exact details as you
remember them" ?  "Start from the beginning".

   "I dunno Jac, I don't want to go back into that spot again.  It's a
black pit with no walls and no way out." .  "Jo , you trust us , you can do
this for Jos and I".  "Do you want your dad to be here ?  Yes, Ok" .

   "Hey dad , yelled Jos and Jac , can you help us" ?  "They waited but
there was no answer , so Jos went down stairs to find him." George was in
his own bed on the main floor , sleeping .  Jos crawled into his bed and
brushed his head and body and back until he awoke.  "Jos , or Jac what the
, Oh wait I can tell, you 're Jos" ?  "Yes George , and we need your help".
Jos explained yet another reason why Jo was loosing his mind , and that Jo
had consented to go back there one more time if his dad would help.  Jos
teased George , "You don't wear pajamas" ?  " I respond faster to requests
for help" , said George.  "That gives me an idea" , stated Jos as he
whispered to George.  "Lets do it".  George and Jos returned to the loft
and crawled on to the king size bed with Jac and Jo.  George and Jos
removed Jac's boxer shorts and looked at Jo in the dim ambient lighting. 
"Is it ok Jo" ?

   Chapter 47 : re-enactment

   "Yes , lets proceed" , mouthed Jo.  "Turn the lights on then" , said
Jac. "Why" , asked Jo.  "Jo" , I trust you to remember the circumcision as
it really happened.  This is is a re-enactment.  "Ok".  George pushed a
button on his key fob and light burst forth.  "Geesus" , said Jo ,
"Bright". "He can't help you" , stated Jac , "Remember , they circumcised
him right in a in sheep manger".  "Fuuc it".  Jos produced a large tea
towel , pulled Jo 's boxer shorts off and tied a large hand towel around
his genitals just like a baby diaper.  "Ok , I get it" , stated Jo.  "Dim
the lights to low level, and then raise the lighting when the circumciser
pours the alcohol on my genitals" .  "Ok , and don't forget that they
pushed a safety pin through my skin before starting" .  Jac and Jos cringed
pulling there legs together.  "Now , I'm ready".  Jo rested on his back in
the dimly lit room.  Jac approached from the left and Jos from the right.
They pinned Jo 's arms and legs stiffly to the bed.  George gently removed
the makeshift diaper , pulled Jo's penis up from it's resting place against
his balls.  George poured some Canadian rye whiskey on Jo 's genitals and
then hit his key fob button increasing the lighting to full brilliance. 
George stroked the underside of Jo 's penis brushing it toward the head as
though the foreskin was still attached .  Jo tried to resist but his arms
and legs were pinned.  His mind tried to stop the penis from getting hard ,
but gradually Jo 's penis responded .  George dipped a safety pin into the
alcohol and held it above the penis as though measuring the foreskin length
, then gripped the cock roughly and jabbed the safety pin through the tiny
scar left by the previous circumciser.  Jo yelped , and twisted in pain ,
as George retrieved a blunt cold steel probe and jabbed around Jo 's glans
pretending to rip away the baby foreskin.  Jo eyes rolled back in his head
, hyperventilating , in anticipation of the extreme pain conditioned into
his brain so long ago.  Nothing happened.  Instead George licked the
whiskey from Jo 's glans , then Jos and Jac did the same.  They examined
the stitch marks and pulled Jo to sitting to show him the safety pin.  "So
that is what that hole is for" ?  "Why did they do that to you" , asked
Jos. George answered.  "Most circumcisers used a safety pin to mark the
extent of the skin to be removed.  In many cases the hole is still there on
the boys penis , plugged by scar tissue and bacteria.  "Why did you stop at
that point" , George.  "Well Jo , you were hyperventilating in anticipation
of the traumatic pain.  From that point on your mind would have anticipated
the rest of the steps as it does in your nightmare.  I wanted to make sure
that your sub conscious mind would register the hyper ventilation and then
experience a tongue , ie a pleasant sensation instead .  It is a method to
deprogram the fear that the church instilled .  "Jo , did you notice that
you asked me to re-adjust the lighting after the first step" ?  "Yes , and
that's wonderful".  "Why" ?  "If I had thought about the process logically
, I would have realized that the circumcisers do their shit in bright light
to avoid cutting off the whole glans." "Yes , excellent" , yelled George.
"George , will you pull this saftey pin back out , it's freakin me." ? 
Pouring more whiskey over the dorsal skin , George pulled the pin out
quickly.  He began to examine the mutilation around Jo 's glans penis. 
Made some mental notes and then checked Jo 's face.  "You ok Jo".  "Yes"
"Your penis is relaxed , Jo" , noted Jos and Jac.  "And so is yours
George". "Were all normal" , laughed Jo.  "What the fuck does that mean" ?
"What do you mean Jo" ?  "Aw shit , fuuc me" , minced Jo.  Does this mean ,
I am normal as in NOT GAY , and if that's the case then what do I tell
Thierry" ?  George laughed "Boys do not need to worry about all that
religious homo shit .  When you are with Thierry, you and he will know . 
No one else cares , except your two new brothers , may want an explanation
at some point down the road.  Remember Jo .  It is no one else's concern.
You and Thierry will know .  George hit the light off button on the key fob
, and everyone saw nothing for a full minute until their eyes accustomed to
the skyline light.  George and Jo and Jac and Jos relaxed on the big bed on
their backs.  Admiring the night skyline.  Each drifted to sleep.

   George awoke first in the morning sleeping on his back.  The boys slept
on their sides slightly curled, toes touching each other .  His chest was
pinned by Jo 's arm from one side and Jos on the other.  Jac's arm looped
over Jo 's rib cage on the other other side.  George began to admire the
wonder of these three boys, sleeping , breathing and being so close to each
other and yet so different in mind.  Watching a vapor trail burn across the
skyline , George let his arms outstretch beyond his head and resumed his
sleep.

   Jac awoke as something pushed into his hand .  His hand responded by
wrapping his fingers around the shaft , feeling the full glans of Jo 's
shaft.  His fingers searched managing to find enough pre-cum to slide his
fingers around Jo 's glans slowly but effectively.  "No circumciser fear
here now" mused Jac .  Jo 's other arm sought out another glans , covered
with soft satin like skin .  He pulled it slowly forward , -- slid it back
and forth admiring the texture with his fingers , as Jac snugged a bit
tighter on his glans.  George awoke again with Jo massaging his foreskin
and Jos arm over his chest just beginning to awake .  Jos pulled a little
tighter on George's chest , sensing the ebb and flow of air through
George's lungs .  Jos sensed that George was going to rise.  , Jos put his
arm over George's arms dissuading them from any response .  Jac's fingers
teased Jo , patting his glans , measuring the bulbocavernosal responses ,
while Jo imagined his fingers gliding - sliding along a full satin finish
foreskin.  Jos monitored George , keeping his arms in the outstretched
position.  Jos began to talk to George .  Relax George , let the boy have
his fun .  As you said , it is a private thing between two boys .  If you
stop Jo now , he will be confused , as though the circumcisers have
prevented fulfillment again .  George , you are from the generation of
brain cleansing religions also .  You know that the church professing to
protect you was at the same time ripping the fabric of humanity away from
Native Indians in a hundred residential schools .  You were born before the
doctors of Ontario decided to do the routine infant circumcision on every
baby boy in Ontario .  You are extremely lucky George .  Relax , and let
some of your luck flow for Jo .  Jac teased Jo 's glans with his finger
prints sliding the colorless emissions around his glans , carefully
monitoring what produced results and what failed .  Within a minute he
found a tiny piece of the original frenulum .  His finger prints
concentrated there.  Jo 's fingers had no such trouble.  They glided
effortlessly along George's ramping excitement .

   Jo 's excitement affected George in the same manner .  Jo 's glans
expanded itself .  Jac relocated the tiny piece of frenulum and
concentrated it again through his 100 million finger print nerves .  The
half breed Irish - Indian boy glans exploded with frenzious fury , his
fingers oscillating George's satin prepucial rings to the same hight.  Jos
felt the old gentleman's frenzied hear and long deep respiratory demands
for air.  An inaudible rib cage growl from George accompanied the animal
sounds from Jo.  Jos and Jac winked at each other across the bed.  George
and Jo snuggled together in a communication pool of human spirits.

   Jos and Jac got up first , went downstairs to shower and search for
food. They found more of Arthur's clothes and dressed themselves as
civilized human beings .  Jos located a mother load of freezer food , and
taught Jac the basics of bacon and eggs and buttered toast --for four
hungry people.  They loaded two trays of breakfast food complete with milk
, peeled-segmented oranges and coffee thermos , sunny side up eggs and
bacon , and returned to the loft , pulling chairs close to Jo and George
bed , pulling them apart , dragging their consciousness back into reality ,
allowing them to absorb the reality of their relationship and the beauty of
planet earth as sentient minds want it to be.

   Jo and George , conscious minds , scurried into the bathroom ,
embarrassed by two perfect chefs serving them breakfast .  They closed the
door , but Jac and Jos could here the male-male games of bowl bubble
braking and boy gasps in cold refreshing showers .  They emerged within
minutes nude .  Jos wrapped George in a thick blue towel and Jac wrapped Jo
in a thick mauve towel.  The twins directed them to seats and served the
father and son .  Sun rays broke over the tops of the distant monoliths on
the skyline illuminating two servants and two excited boys.





   Chapter 48 : Under the viaduct .

   By 8:00 they were in the hospital dragging Thierry from his sterile
sheets.  By 10:00 they had assembled in the splendour of greenery under a
century old land mark.  Sath , Jo , Thierry , Robert , Jill , Aric , Julia
, two Toronto police officers , George , and Bill and a few other unknowns
.

   Earth smell permeated the ground floor of the river valley.  A million
plants sensed their presence, hundreds of urban life forms detected or
watched the procession lower itself into the quietness.  Traffic noises and
city din faded away .

   "You came to my grandfather's house" , conceded Jo , to the police
officer beside him.  "Yes Jo".  "You told my grandfather but you did not
tell me , about Liam".  "Yes , the old gentleman felt that you should be
spared".

   "My grandfather is the reason he is dead , and told me that God wanted
Liam in heaven .  Sergeant , I hate the old gentleman".  "I wish that I
could have taken you away from there stated the cop.  I saw you.  I saw
your countenance and I knew that Liam was your brother , because I have a
younger brother who looks like me .  You were , what , fourteen when Liam
left.  Your face is still etched in my brain , from that day .  Cops
experience human life , as all humans do.  I was with the paramedics when
we took Liam's body to the hospital .  It is difficult for us to forget the
day to day stuff that we see .  I now understand that I should never forget
what Liam did , and what he was.  I guess it is human for those who see
another human in pain to try and make them forget it " .

   "Nao" , said Jo.  "It is a programmed response from a religious
perspective forever counteracting human emotions in favour of their god's
allegiance .  I am a half breed , a North American Indian mixed with my
mother's European Irish spirits.  I was raised by my grandfather , who was
raped by the residential school system in Canada.  My grandfather was a red
blooded North American Indian straight jacketed by two thousand year old
religious dogma.  He drove away the parents who created me and brought me
to this wonderful earth and he , had me circumcised and raised me in an
atmosphere of religious frenzy".

   The cop acknowledged , "Thanks for letting me come with you today Jo. 
Your grandfather cannot be prosecuted for ripping away your living flesh ,
but he can be prosecuted for child abuse , if you want to take that route"
.

   Jo picked his route carefully , keeping an easy path for those following
, the cop beside him , Thierry behind him , winding down a makeshift but
seemingly well used path.  Below and into the roots of two million bustling
people .  Chirping birds , circadias , dragon flies , earth worms , a
family of woodchucks , and more recorded the procession with Bill following
accompanied by another younger policeman.  Bill caught up with Sath , her
long pink dress caught on a tree branch.  The younger policeman helped her
release the dress.  "It's beautiful , your dress , maam" .  "Thankyou" ,
smiled Sath , " My best dress , for his place is sacred ground".  "I came
here with my brother , he's the cop up front.  We came here a couple days
ago .  "I know that" , said Sath.  "I saw you and your brother in tan
camouflage shirts and pants".

   "Yes , that was us" , confirmed the cop.  "I did not see you Sath".  "I
was here very early at sunrise and left as you two were entering .  Liam's
place here has become a beacon for the people of this city who miss their
friends and understands why they left the planet at this point.  There were
fifty people here on the anniversary of Liam's decision" .

   "I was still in cop school when my brother came home from Liams
suicide".

   "I had just started my first shift in the trauma center of the hospital"
, whispered Sath .  And Bill and George were the doctors who tried to
revive Liam" .

   They stepped carefully around a patch of bright purple asters , followed
by a clump of dandelions.

   "It took a long time for us to understand that Liam did not want to stay
on earth" .  "All of us studied his angelic face , the reddish complexion ,
hazel-green eyes , distinctive red hair.  We could not see into his mind ,
and we never will know why he took this route .  Liam had many friends. 
All of them know the unspeakable two thousand year old words about
--suicide is wrong--.  They have been counseled to forget this place.  Yet
every very year a few more of them show up on the anniversary.  They are
making their own decisions about life and death , about evolution of life
on earth , and from where we came" .

   Jo stopped and talked as they waited for the others to catch up. 
Deducing the insignia on the uniform - "This is it , Sergeant" exactly as
it was when Liam's body landed here.  "Yes" , replied the sergeant.  "This
is the place".

   The remainder of the group caught up to Jo and the sergeant.  No one
spoke, they formed a circle around a single trillium blooming in the soft
soil.  Some looked up , some looked down and some stared straight ahead
into the luscious greenery below the city of Toronto.  Planetary orbit of
the earth motioned the sun to provide direct lighting on the trillium ,
spreading it's petals as Jo and his friends watched .  Someone noticed a
movement down at the river .  A doe and fawn stared back.  A hawk
intercepted their sun light space , momentarily shadowing across the group.
They stood in silence of the valley.  The animals of the earth were saying
all that needed to be said.  Birds sang in the trees.  Ducks quacked on the
river.  Insects chirped and cricketted their songs.  "These animals
understand" , said Jo , "and I now understand why Liam came here.  He was
my older brother.  I was fourteen when he took this viaduct.  It was two
years ago plus three days , on a beautiful summer day exactly as today.  I
was drinking in the park the night before.  I was drunk when I got home,
stumbled to my bed on my back.  It was stupid of me because I am
circumcised and my mind replays the details.  When I go to sleep on my back
, it is guaranteed that my circumcisers will return in my dreams.  I knew
all that , but stupid me , I fell asleep drunk on my back.  I tried to wake
up but they were holding me immobile , the pain caused my stomach to dump
into my mouth and lungs .Unable to move , drowning in puke , one tiny
scream emerged ,but my mother never came , but Liam came, like he had done
many times.  He picked my body up , washed the puke from my face , stripped
off all my cloths and his, and put me in his clean bed, then went to sleep
with me .  My grandfather came home from church and saw me sleeping with
Liam with no clothes .  He beat Liam with kicks and punches.  Liam did not
fight back.  Our grandfather was all we had to look after us.  Liam could
have run away and survived but he knew that I could not .  Grandfather
finally knocked him down all the while calling us faggots and gods
abomination , and other words that defy even the language of the streets.
Tough , street hardened , yet still terrified .  Crying in the night , but
Liam was silent, restless , just stared out the window , letting blood and
tears run down his cheeks .  Liam could not absorb my pain and he could not
fix it .  In the morning he was gone before sun up.  Following him , out on
the street , early morning shadows, as he turned a corner.  I lost him ,
could not find which way , then I knew , somehow I knew and I ran to the
viaduct.  Liam was up there" , as Jo's eyes raised .

   Everyone looked up .  A million patterns of sun played off the stainless
steel safety bars.  "They were not there then.  Liam climbed over the
railings and lay down on the narrow edge.  Eyes glowing in the day break
rays.  On the edge and then , just rolled over , tumbling over and over. 
When I got down here , I ran to him , I wanted to pick him up but his belly
was ripped open , blood on his genitals and I panicked .Liam mouthed
something , but I could not hear it.  My circumcisers chased me again in
daylight now .  I wanted to pick up my brother and say goodbye .  Instead ,
I ran down there along the river.  I guess you all no the rest .  I never
said goodbye to Liam .  The cops and paramedics said goodbye for me ,
because I could not control my own fears.  My own fears instilled by my
rape , by the church trumped my most basic need to say goodbye to Liam" .

   A bumble bee whipped by riding on air currents generated by the hum of
it's powerful tiny wings.

   "Urgent call from a biker", said the sergeant.  " ---I responded
-----got here with the medics.  They tried to stabilize him , Piercing
green eyes looked back at us , and then refused to look , but we took him
to emergency".

   Sath and Bill and George stared away at the streams of moving water . 
"There was nothing we could do .  Liam did not respond.  We could not get
his attention .  Haunting , handsome even after suicide , Liam was a
picture that you cannot ever forget .  A most beautiful child of the planet
.  If only , If -does not count , oh god he was quick to leave this
planet".



   The younger policeman stepped forward.  "I saw my brother come home from
his shift.  My brother is a cop .  He is strong and he looked at me and
blubberred , and I cried with him, for a boy my own age who came to this
planet and decided to leave this planet.

   George wandered with the group , yet by himself.  He spoke to the young
policeman and to Robert and Jill.  "Bill called me as the paramedics raced
Liam to life support.  I was there within minutes.  ---------I was sixteen
years too late !  Two days later , my son Arthur died by car crash , and
once again I was sixteen years too late .  Thanks Jo and Jos and Jac for
bringing me to this place.  A place , below the city of a million people ,
a place where our training has always told us is low , below ground and
evil.  I can see with my eyes the beauty of this place guarded by a giant
land mark high overhead , an oasis of life , in the center of an
over-achieving city , endlessly building upward and ignoring the roots and
evolution from where we came" .

   Aric and Julia and Robert and Jill stared up into the giant land mark
superstructure , a viaduct built by man to join two worlds together.  Jos
and Jac sided together with Jo .  Eyes misted , imperceptible faces ,
nealing on the soft earth floor .  Facing the trillium , delicate petals
open.  Tongue rolled back high inside , preparing the throat and rounding
lips , Yips and howls from million year old dna patterns reverberated
through the forest .  Young mammals saying goodbye to a sibling brought to
this planet through the wonder of two peoples love , then destroyed , gone
to another plane .  Birds stopped singing , branches of the trees whispered
in air currents, No gurgles of water currents in the river , the ducks
silented.  A bee taking nectar from the trillium winged away.  The rest of
the group looked down .  Three boys lower now , knees on the earth , faces
almost in the soil , yipped and barked , an ancient language known to all
mammals on the planet earth , again saying goodbye to a sibling .  Air
currents stopped .

   From the center of the silence and unmoving valley floor.  They saw it
come from a thicket of ferns and yellow grasses , invisible , then visible
, dog like , -coyote like - wolf like - animal blending it's color to the
backgrounds it crossed.  Green eyes and reddish fur , tufted silvery neck,
staring at Jo , powerful shoulders grayish sheened behind , blending into
the soft gray earth even as it stood unmoving .  Again moving without
walking , maintaining a thirty meter margin on the group , But yipping ,
matching the balance and cadence of the three mammals facing it , answering
them in it's own communication of grief .  Each mammal howled in unison to
their abandoned sibling , ancient eerie greetings between social creatures
of the earth , from forgotten time and vocabulary.  The animal adjusted
it's ears , listened stood , implacable face , glowing eyes , yet wanting
to communicate -----Closer , eyes shifting, almost yellow now , sniffing ,
wanting to ---, deciding , there were too many .  It backed away , but Jo
crawled forward by himself , whining rolling in the soft ferns , advancing
half way .  The animal was big , advancing to Jo, almost invisible with the
camoflauging power of it's furry coat to the greenish yellow background .
Jo remained on the ground motionless .  The animal closed in , licked his
cheeks , his neck , his chest , his ears and nose finishing on Jo 's head ,
leaving long strips of his reddish hair curled into tongue licks .  It
licked his hands and his shoes , Jo , now motionless on his back , trusting
accepting .  Contracting stomach muscles pulled Jo to sitting with the wolf
facing him between his knees.  They sniffed each others mouths and lips. 
Then the wolf looked around at the rest of the group , unreadable eyes ,
ears alert neutral face.  It stepped backward , four paws in reverse , then
vanished , without moving the ferns and grasses .  The small group of
people spell bound , stared after the path of the animal .  No one , except
Jo , saw it leave .

   Jos and Jac stood and approached Jo standing.  They rubbed their ears
and cheeks against Jo as he watched the animal separate from him .  As
though some physical bond between the wolf and Jo was being stretched
between them , deeper , and farther into the valley , until Jo only saw the
glowing eyes , and he knew that his world and the wolf's world could only
meet on Liam's sacred ground .

   Jos and Jac stood up , Looking , necks straining up toward the viaduct
where Liam made his decision.  Thierry tread through the soft earth to
comfort Jo , arms around his chest to chest, but Jo , eyes glossy , head
rolled back loosely from Thierry's grip, moaned forth a magical howl
pulling the power and strength from two sets of adjacent lungs , rolling ,
modulating in tone , echoing , under the giant land mark , reverberating
between the cement sub structures and steel girders , across the Don Valley
to both sides of three million people.

   Somewhere from the misty depths , an answering howl , floated , lilted ,
echoed warbled signaled to the valley life forms , that life is good . 
Birds chirped and sang.  Ducks resumed their river conversations .  Doe and
fawn resumed their trip .  Bees collected pollen.  Groundhogs chewed on the
tasty shoots of new foliage .

   Jo walked through the group , lead the group up the path.  They stopped
and took one final look to the white trillium and the human tread marks
left in the soil around it .  Resumed the path , continuing to the landing
where they had assembled.  When everyone was re-assembled Jo addressed
them. He walked to the center of the group without seeing them and began to
talk speaking to no one , while wandering around and through the group .

   "I came here three days ago on the anniversary of Liam's decision .  It
was not the first time here for me , nor for many others , --fifty or sixty
people .  Many were Liam's friends , and many others came because one of
their friends took the viaduct.  We kids , ah --- I am a kid , sixteen
years old, one tear older than Jos and Jac , but in many ways ten years
less developed and yet , thirty years older in tears and torment .  Kids
are brought to this amazing world by the forces of life .  We can not
control when we arrive .  Life force , levies the time on us .  We want to
make our own decisions as we move out into the sea of life, but there are
forces , unseen forces based on two thousand year old concepts.  We kids
are subjected to those forces from the day we are born.  These forces have
words to define black and white, which must be applied to all the colors in
the rainbow..  They create tension that we cannot absorb.  The forces mould
us into forms defined two thousand years ago.  Often we cannot conform.  We
are not to blame for what we are , or where we stand on this wonderful
planet.  Liam's decision to leave WAS NOT A SIN .  It was his decision to
protect me .  I defended myself against my grandfather but I could not
defend myself from my own mind .  Liam and I were Irish - Indian half breed
brothers our minds polluted with the black and white religion or more aptly
called by the press , Orange and Green.  Liam , simply showed me the way to
paradise .  I have been to this viaduct many times .  Most of those times ,
I was not carrying flowers .  I came here myself , perhaps looking for
those who created me and brought me into this world.  I came here following
Liam when I was fourteen .  I did not know why , my parents conceived me on
this planet .  I do not know why I dream of being held immobile while my
body flesh is ripped apart by pedophiles.  I hate myself .  This place is a
portal for those who seek help , a refuge in turmoil created in a kids mind
by exposure to mind games carried forward from two thousand years ago . 
For those born to this beautiful planet , and subjected to modern day
religion from birth , the viaduct is a portal , a passageway, after all
hope has been stripped away.

   You know my story now, and you know enough of Liam's story .  And you
know that this landmark now prevents those who would use the portal .  I
watched the construction workers place them .  Fitting the entire bridge
with stainless steel bars high overhead to keep people like me from
following my brother Liam .  Our society does try to protect us from
jumping but our society never asks us why we jump .  In that respect , I
apologize to all those humans who deal with kids like us .  I apologize for
Liam because he caused you grief .  I wish -----, I want---- , I need the
stainless steel bars to remind me , to prevent me , from making my own
decision , because I now have two brothers and I have a friend Thierry .  I
trust that I will not put them through that grief , and then I remember
George and Arthur.  Accidents happen regardless of religious dogma .  Even
after deciding to stay , we don't know for how long .  I trust that you
will make up your own minds about why Liam jumped and why I did not. 
Hoping that the two thousand year old rules are broken especially the one
that says suicide is a sin .

   The group dispersed to resume their lives , each human , now more human
than before .  George invited everyone to his loft apartment , but the day
of goodbyes for Liam had taken a toll.  In the end Jo , Jac Jos, Thierry ,
and George returned to George's house.

   Chapter 49 : More trouble in Joseph's mind

   George had alerted the home maker to clean and replentish the home. 
George activated the door unlock and everyone trudged inside , George
picking a chair .  Jos and Jac and Thierry and Jo sat on the chesterfield.
They took turns staring straight ahead , and going to the washroom . 
George began to talk about the valley.  "I have never been down into the
valley before , stated George .  It is a wonderful place full of earth's
plants and animals.  Thank you Jo, for showing me a place of refuge.

   "Thank Liam" , explained Jo , staring at the soil o his shoes , "He took
me there for the first time when I was six .  We spent the whole day there
spiting our grandfather to find us.  When we returned , he saw the mud on
our shoes and the soil on our bodies.  He knew where we had been and he
yelled at us so much , that we wished we had both crawled off the ledge."

   George continued , "Jo , your grandfather was not a father .  He was a
brain washed terrorist designed by the residential schools to espouse
christian values".  We may not change the flow of time , nor all the water
flowed under the viaduct.  We can only go forward into the future and we
can affect where we are going , except for accidents.

   "But I am marked , mutilated from the past , sneered Jo.  How the fuck
can I follow my own path carrying the trauma of watching , feeling , and
hearing my own flesh excited , excised , stretched ripped , slashed away by
pedophiles .  Irish people do not circumcise their boys, and neither do
Indians, so what the fuck is my history all about ?  Laying back on the
chesterfield and letting his head slip through the undone zipper for all to
laugh and ridicule .  Liam and I were raped by eons of church crap and Liam
paid the price first .  Can I get through sixteen more years without paying
the price" ?  Can I get through one more year ?  Look at my pecker , all of
you .  It is what makes a boy , a boy.  It defines us as human males .  In
a private moment it should be soothing .  But I have never had a private
moment .  My cock was taken by god.  I don't own it.  I can piss through it
, but I can't play with it .  There is a hole in my developing brain that
will never learn what a foreskin would teach me .  The hole is getting
wider as puberty drops the hormones commanding me to seek pleasure and make
a new human .  I am a human , a very sick human , and so I will never
create another human .  There is a ring of missing flesh stripped from my
cock without anesthetic nor consent.  "It says grown by Joseph , raped by
pedophiles , now owned by god" .

   Thierry stared at the soft tube, afraid to touch it lest God strike them
both dead .  Jos leaned close , kissed the glans and tucked it back inside
Jo's trousers .

   "Tomorrow we will meet some flesh doctors" , stated George.  "I have
located three doctors based on advice from friends and trusted aquaintance
.

   A phone call penetrated the moment as Jac's cell rang for assistance. 
"Oh shit , we are guilty , totally forgetting to call Jess and Jen today" ,
said Jac before even answering the cell.  At the same time Jos cell asked
for assistance.  "Jo and Thierry and George , please excuse us .  We will
be back .  Now is the time for us to recharge".  Both boys flipped the ear
piece open and wandered down stairs to Arthur's room for private
conversations with Jennifer and Jessica.

   Thierry and Jo looked at each other , and George , who promptly got up
to leave them alone.  "Naow" , stated Jo.  "Daidee you've got valuable
experience in your lifetime, watching people kill themselves and others and
trying to fix them.  Will you help Thierry and I , well especially me cause
I don't want to fuck up Thierry's life like people messed with mine" .

   George waived and continued to the kitchen.  "Come on boys , into the
kitchen .  We will all talk as we prepare supper."

   They examined a huge roast in the slow cooker.  They pulled out
vegetables , peeled , and sliced them for the vegetable offering , and
continued.  Thierry and Jo seemed to be avoiding each other , as perceived
by George .  He gave them both peeling knives and one container knowing
they would have to face each other while cutting the vegetables . 
Eventually Jo spoke , "Thierry , I ahh , I sucked you in the hospital .  Do
you remember"?  "Yeah , like a wonderful dream" , smiled Thierry.  "I , I'm
not sure if I meant it , Thierry".

   "Ohh Jo , you got the job done" , mentioned George.

   "Yeah , that , at least , I did accomplish" , agreed Jo , "But Jac and
Jos forced me , naow , not forced , ahh fuuc no , can't say that , Jac and
Jos asked me , ah aahh convinced me , to do it for you Thierry , to su -
suuc you off".  "And you did it , and I loved it , and I wanted to stay on
earth with you Jo".  "I know you love me Thierry , but , it is me that is
so fuuced up , I do not know if I want to love you my whole life , First ,
I have enough religious baggage to kill you .  Second , It is possible that
my brain simply needs a strong male grip because of the loss of sensation
caused by the pedophiles .  If my brain really wants you rather than just a
, ahh , er annn " ?  "Fuck buddy" , stated George.  "Prostitute" , stated
Thierry.  "So how do I know , if this is what I want" , asked Jo .  Jos and
Jac are lucky to have found what they want".

   "True" , stated George.  "Jo , there is not an answer from us.  You will
know when you are with Thierry".

   "Not true" , responded Jo.  When I am with Thierry , If he touches my
circumcision scar , and my mind goes ballistic on the circumcisers , what
the fuck then?  I will be hating him , even as he tries intimate
communication.

   George fidgeted with the slow cooker , then got a bowl for the vegetable
dip and pulled the rest of the peppers and vegetables from the crisper. 
Thierry cut vegetables into smaller and smaller pieces.  Jo stared at the
mess he had just cut the ends off eight or ten carrots instead of peeling
them for the vegetable tray.

   "They looked at each other laughing at the cauliflower cut into tiny
twigs and the un-peeled carrots blunted by the knife.  "These veggies are
gonna be hard to dip into the vegetable dip" , laughed Thierry.

   Jo continued , reasoning with himself as much as George and Thierry . 
"Suppose , I am one of those boys ,who has no sensation left because of the
circumcision .  Yet my sub conscious brain is flooded by the hormones
designed by evolution to cause cave men to reproduce .  My brain has four
hundred million nerve endings destroyed by the circumcision and a cubic
inch of brain cells looking for that sensation , and my conscious brain
remembers the puke and shit and pain and ,, ohhh fuuc .

   My grandfather washed me until I was twelve years old because he said I
should be clean .  He would rub my cock , until my mind exploded , and then
sneak away to play with himself .  He used to put his fingers right up my
asshole and ask me if it felt ok while licking my cock.  I know he did
worse things to Liam".

   "You said , he washed you until you were twelve" , quoted Thierry.

   "Yes, but Liam and I put a stop to that" .

   "Can you tell us what happened" , asked George ?

   "We lived in the north west end of the city , at that time.  Liam went
to high school but I was still in elementary .  Liam went to school around
7:30 and I went for 9:00.  My grandfather woke me up every morning as soon
as Liam left by rubbing my cock , and sucking my balls, what ever the fuucc
.  He used me like a sex magazine to get excited .  Then he would go in his
room and jack off.  But one day was a school pa day .  I did not have to go
.  Liam an I made a plan .  He would skip the day at high school and I
would meet him in the parking lot around nine .
Jos and Jac returned from their cell phone conversations .  They stood
in the kitchen watching the food preparation , and listening to Jo's
intensity , unfathomable faces on boy twins learning about the real impact

of religion .

   My grandfather awoke me at the usual time .  He pushed himself under the
covers on to my cock , sucked until my mind exploded , and then went into
his room as normal , while I went to the shower to wash off his slobber and
hate myself one more time .  But then he came in the shower with me .  I
tried to get away , pushed , shoved , yelled , but he subdued me with a
head lock under the shower , soaped my asshole again and again , dragged me
to his bedroom .  I fought viciously , kicking , punching .  He put his
fingers in my mouth and forced it open , and I bit his fingers hard . 
Running to escape the house , but he caught me because all the doors were
locked, dragged me back into his bedroom .  This time he rolled my wrists
with masking tape and tied them to the bed frame under the mattress, and
then tied each foot to one end of the head board holding me on my back.  It
took him an hour to subdue me .  Also put masking tape over my mouth .  My
mind went crazy, being immobilized that way .  He was putting pillows under
my ass to raise it .  My mind recalled it's glans being skinned alive and
scissored off , when my stomach started heaving , emptied itself , no place
for it to go , had to re-swallow part of it and the rest puked into my
sinus cavity and came out my nose .  I could not scream , nor yell nor
breath .  I remember him trying to mount me anyway .  Somehow I did make
sounds , which I can't understand how , even today .  There was a huge
crash as the bedroom door disintegrated by a baseball bat .  I could see
out of the corner of my eye .  Liam knocked the old bastard off me , and
cut the tape with scissors .  The old man recovered and yelled at us about
god's will.  I side swiped him , swinging a lamp against his chest,
crushing his fingers in the door as he chased us .  Liam and I ran outside
in the tiny backyard, and he followed .  Then we ran inside , slammed the
door shut and locked it .  He kicked , pounded on the door , but it held .
Liam , calmed me , dressed me .  I was ok till I saw the bat .  I picked it
up , began smashing every fucking thing that belonged to my grandfather ,
radio , stereo , photographs , tapes , wrist watch , television , dishes ,
stove , microwave through every room in his house .  Exhausted finally ,
Liam pulled me aside and peeled my fingers away from the baseball bat .  It
was full of broken glass shards and dents and colors and textures of a
hundred smashed items and appliances .  Then we went to the back door and
opened it , Liam holding the baseball bat .  Grandfather had heard us
smashing everything , --faced us .  He was a frightened old man .  He saw
the damage and swore .  Liam held the bat higher .  I would have killed him
, but Liam showed him we were now in control .  He swore .  He swore --- ,
that he would never touch us again .  I thought that we had won.  Then Liam
began to cry .  It shook me up so badly .  Liam , my brother , my ---my
hero , broke down when the old man promised to stop touching us.  I took
the bat from Liam and led him back into his room .  Me a twelve year old
street hardened kid trying to help Liam , my fourteen year old hero-brother
from crying .  I still had puke in my nostrils and eyebrows , cradling Liam
on his bed .  Maybe the puke acting like smelling salts .  Liam recovered ,
but not before he told me that the old man had raped him since he was nine
years old .  We left the old man that day , and we played in a kiddie park
like six year olds .  Liam and I smelled of puke and piss all day in the
park .  No body came close to us .  That evening we used our school lunch
money to buy something to eat.  When we finally went home after sundown ,
we showered together , stepping around broken glass left in the bathroom.
The next morning grandfather completed sweeping up the broken stuff ,
pretending everything was fine .  But nothing was fine .  We had crossed
the line from boy to man , at twelve and fourteen.  We accepted nothing
from the old man except room and board.

   A week later we moved to another location , this time a seventh floor
apartment.  We never talked about the other house again.  We went to new
schools and Liam and I never left one another alone with him again .  But
grandfather did not keep his promise .  Two years later ,, ---fuucing
stupid me .  I have already told you about my drunken binge , having the
circumcision dream , puking again , and Liam taking me to his bed , and
grandfather assaulted Liam.  In the morning Liam took the viaduct" .

   Jos and Jac winced , continued to stand attentively in the kitchen . 
They studied each others face for signs of weakness .  Jos and Jac decided
that Jo deserved strength , maintained the stiff upper lip.  Each time Jo
talked , he had added new details to the life of two brothers born on earth
but raised in hell .  George put the vegetable dip on the counter and
placed the vegetables beside it .  Thierry had cut the vegetables into
millions of tiny pieces and Jo had whittled the carrots into nothing as he
talked about life (and death) with grandfather .  As earth rotated slowly
into sunset , the slow cooker seemed to be cooking a meal that nobody would
eat .  One of the old clocks in George's residence began to toll the supper
hour.  Then another from a farther room repeated the message.  George and
Thierry and Jac and Jos remained motionless .  Jo had stopped talking .

   The slow cooker made a long gurgle releasing some delicious steam into
the atmosphere.

   Jac signaled to Jos , went to the pot rack and pulled out a huge wooden
pot .  Jos dumped all the vegetables nonchalantly into the big wooden bowl
, dashed the vegetable dip on top , stirred it , mixed it with George and
Thierry and Jo watching.  Then Jac took the wooden mixing spoon , dipped it
into the mess and offered a bite to Jos.  "Mixed vegetable shavings
mmm-m-m" , grinned Jos.  Jac , grinning , offered a wooden spoon full to
Thierry.  "Yeah , just what we need , crushed vegetable shavings with dip
included" , sucking the spoon dry , "Good for all that ails you" ?

   Jac scooped out some more on the wooden spoon and brushed Jo 's lips. 
"Jo, you made it , try some on your tongue".

   "Ok , we do need to eat , if we are going to stay" , mouthed Jo.

   Jac fed George a spoonful and started over again with Jos .  Then he
served the group in the same order as before but this time spilling some of
the vegetable shavings on each persons face .  By the fourth serving
everyone had vegetable dip all over their face .  By the fifth serving , in
their hair , and by the sixth serving dabs of vegetable and dip drooled
from ears down their necks .  George began to laugh .  Jos and Jac high
fived each other with dip spattering it everywhere .  Then Thierry and Jo
high fived with more splashes and smucks .  Jo put a head lock on Thierry
and held him against the kitchen counter , as George tried to grab the
wooden bowl to prevent it from upsetting .  He slipped on the floor dip ,
but was grabbed by Jac , around the chest , before falling , causing his
arms to heave the whole bowl into the air , hitting the ceiling , upsetting
, coming down on Thierry and Jo 's heads.  Vegetable bits rained down on
everyone.  Laughing , smiling , grinning like four year olds in a mammoth
food fight , the grim reality of Jo 's life gave way to levity and
spontaneity .  Thierry began to lick the food from Jo 's face .  Dip had
seeped down his neck to his back and chest .

   George noticed the door monitor bleep , released the entry lock.

   Julia and Aric and Robert and Jill entered the residence , and stood in
the living room laughing until their lungs ached.

   Robert spoke , "Hi everyone , vegetables are good for your health".  Jos
grinned at the four newcomers , "Jac , it seems that whenever your father
arrives , we are in a pickle".  Jac answered , "Yep , but it is dip - not
pickle , and your mother seems to be enjoying it , except it is a
vegetable".  Thierry , still wearing the vegetable bowl like a south east
Asian hat , laughed as Jo licked the dip from his ears.  Jos pulled a piece
of carrot from George's head and offered it to Jo.  "No thanks , Jos , I
've got all that I need right here , laughed Jo" .  Jill's face changed
from dismay to laughter .  "I can see that the boy twins are enjoying life
, ah ahh , as it should be".  "And they have dragged Jo into a mammoth
vegetable slurry pit" , laughed Robert.  Julia fingered a bit of dip from
Jos' neck and fed it to Aric.  "Just right seasoning" , asserted Aric ,
pulling another finger full of dip from Jac's cheek and offering it to
Robert's mouth.  "All these boys taste fine" , admitted Julia , stepping
back into the living room , carefully avoiding lumps of creamy dip on the
floor.

   George addressed the new comers.  "Everyone , thanks for coming , grab a
seat.  We will be having supper , as soon as the vegetable dip is all gone"
.

   Thierry and Jo went to Arthur's downstairs bedroom to clean up.  Jac and
Jos went to the loft bedroom to clean up and George served them some wine ,
then used the main floor bathroom.

   Aric and Julia and Robert and Jill tidied the kitchen , then set out a
pile of plates and biscuits in the freezer to nuke.

   Everyone re-assembled in twenty minutes.  They each took a plate and
served themselves from the slow cooker and microwaved biscuits.  George
served more wine for everyone, though Jo declined.  They enjoyed the supper
hour , with no mention of religion nor god .

   After supper , George invited them to the loft to watch the moon rise ,
served them with ice cream and chocolate syrup and Columbian coffee.  By
21:00 everyone had left, except Jac and Jos and Thierry and Jo.  Jos and
Jac and George abandoned Jo and Thierry in the loft.  Jos and Jac sat with
George for a while watching a tv show about wolves re-introduced to
Montana. George dozed in his favorite chair.  Jac and Jos put him into his
own bed , and then went downstairs to Arthur's room.  They read Arthur's
books for a time .  Jos worried about the trip to the viaduct , about the
new details spat out by Jo , so much emotion for George.  Tip-toeing
upstairs to the main floor , raiding the fridge , for juice, he thought he
heard a sound and checked George .  Jos went downstairs , retrieved Jac .
They climbed into George's bed on either side wrapped one arm on him , and
slept till sunrise .

   Chapter 50 : flesh doctors

   Jos rose first , washed up , and visited the kitchen , preparing bacon
and eggs and toast and juice wearing an old pair of Arthur's boxers.  Jac
and George soon followed.  They had eaten and put away the used dishes when
Thierry and Jo appeared.  "Hey , Jo , Thierry , Canucks can not turn down
Canadian bacon , and eggs and toast" , as he served them.  Jac served them
juice , "Did you sleep last night"?  "Yeah" , answered Thierry and Jo. 
"And is there anything salvageable".  "I did not kill myself" , stated Jo.
"The breakfast is excellent" , stated Thierry.  "Was there any further talk
on Jo 's motives as we discussed after the viaduct trip" , asked George. 
"There were" , stated Thierry sadly.  Jo stood up walking around them
eating the bacon strips with his fingers.  "Jac , Jos , George , I am so
fuuced up , I mean confused.  Thierry and I slept all night together , no
clothes , clear minds because you guys helped us get through yesterday ,
ending with the roller coaster on neutral tracks.  We touched each other
but I saw Liam and not Thierry , and Thierry saw me , in need of mental
support more than anything .  We wrapped our arms around each other . 
Thierry licked my head and ears and neck , and then the sun came up . 
Nothing has been proven or dis-proven" , finished Jo as he laughed and
showed off the tufts of reddish Irish hair still stuck in cow licks , or in
this case Thierry licks.

   Jac spoke up first , "Lots of good stuff , basically a third grade sleep
over .  No one sleeps with an enemy as soundly as that.  You two are
friends , for certain , and thinking of Liam .  He would be happy to know
that you Jo have a serious friend , made all by yourself , not to mention
Jos and me and your new dad George .  "And you know what I also see"
,grinned Jac, "Jo , you're laughing.  When was the last time , you woke up
in the morning laughing" ?

   Jos continued , "Yesterday was an emotional day for all of us .  I think
that we , in some way helped Liam discover who he was , and Jo , it is
fantastic that you slept with him once again .  When that wolf came out of
the ferns yesterday , it was Liam thanking you for acknowledging his
decision .  These recent events are full scale intensities .  They will
grow in your mind Jo , eventually dwarfing the sickness of your grandfather
.  It is up to us , but mainly you to ride the coaster higher whenever your
mind offers a choice between Liam and Thierry versus the teachings of a
foreign religion from your grandfather" .

   George concluded breakfast.  "Jo , all the questions in your mind about
Thierry will be re-written again as new information is added .  Jac is on
target .  You trust Thierry , and you trust Jos and you trust Jac and me.
These trusts will grow in your mind displacing the anger and fear and
judgements of your grandfather.  In time we will try to find your mother
and father.  In the meantime , get ready to be examined by the good side of
the medical profession.  The doctors you are about to meet have never
circumcised a helpless baby.  They have survived a career of insults by
avoiding what the church wants doctors to do.  Lets all get dressed . 
Thierry , Jos , Jac and I are going to glue ourselves to you as you consult
with each doctor.  Jo , you know , what you want .  We will stay silent
unless asked for help , but we will be beside you .  These doctors
understand your condition because they chose to identify circumcision for
what it is" .

   George directed Jo and Thierry downstairs to Arthur's room.  ---a tear
in one eye , he opened a closet , gave to Jo , a wardrobe of Arthur's
clothes.  "Put them on Jo".

   Jos and Jac followed downstairs.  They sat on Arthur's bed watching the
transformation of Jo from street class to casual-formal wear city citizen.

   George lifted Jo 's arm , fitting the new shirt sleeve over one hand ,
then the other.  Thierry closed the snaps on the vee neck.  George undid
his street trousers and underwear .  They redressed Jo in clothes he had
never experienced.

   Jos and Jac watched , eyes wide open .  Jo became prince henry look
alike .  George stood back to admire the transformation , "Does Joseph
Alnot look like a Native-Indian-Irish-Halfbreed now" ?  Thierry's eyes
glazed at the handsome young man .

   Jo stared back , "Be all of you staring at what ---" , catching a
glimpse of himself in the closet door mirror .  "Fuuuc .  This is too good
George .  I can't wear these clothes" .

   "Yes you can" yelled Thierry and Jos and Jac!  "Naow , naow , shit ,
It's too good , It's not me , I was never bread for this role".

   "That is not fact" , stated George.  Half breeds can be the most
beautiful people on this planet , especially Irish and Indian .  Do you
know how much your dad and mom loved each other ?  They most likely knew
that every rule of Christianity was against them , and yet they created
Liam and you Jo.  Beyond that , Liam and you were never allowed to write
even the smallest paragraph into your own history book .  Your history was
written by religious doctrine.  It is a great honor and time , that an old
man , who spent his entire life worshiping God , acknowledges that you are
beautiful , regardless of Indian heritage .  A boy created by a
religion-green father loving an religion-orange mother from Belfast.  I
hear the song in my mind:

   "Oh, it is the biggest mix-up that you have ever seen.  My father, he
was Orange and me mother, she was green "

   , except your even more special Jo.  Because your mother was orange and
your father was Native-Indian and green.

   Jacque remembered all the statements from the emergency personnel who
tried to save Liam , --wanted to save Liam and failed and choir refrain
words popped into his mind.  He looked at Joshua and both twins realized a
hymn from attendance at a long ago church service , the words : "God sees
the little sparrow fall, It meets His tender view If God so loves the
little birds, I know He loves me, too."

   Jac and Jos mouthed the words , maintaining the original tune as best
they could , except it came out: "Jo sees the little Liam fall, It meets
His tender view If Jo so loves his brother Liam, I know He loves me, too."

   The twins and George looked at each other.  "Where did that come from" ?
"IIt ccame ffrom a church service that my parents took us to , the day
before they split" , said Jac and Jos.

   Jo continued humming the tune "He loves me too - He loves me too" ,
while staring at the hansom prince in the mirror.  "The practicality of my
life is that God has a sick way of loving me , and Liam .  God does not
love half breeds and God does not love me , and ...fuuuc ...  that is what
is wrong with me , isn't it George , and Jac and Jos , and Thierry .  If no
one ever loved me , how can I love anyone else .  I have no foreskin and
have never even played with myself so I do not love myself .  That is why I
see the viaduct as a portal , a place of hope .  And that is what Liam saw"
.

   Thierry moved into the mirror reflection with Jo.  "Jo your own anchors
are broken , but mine are strong.  Jos and Jac and George are strong . 
Lets make an agreement .  You agree to stay with us until the next
anniversary of Liam's decision .  In return we will provide anchors for you
, no matter what the storm" .

   Jo watched a tear in his reflection.  It dripped from his cheek
splashing on the vee-neck snap .  Thierry undid the top two snaps and let
the vee neck separate showing a bit of Jo 's neck and chest.  Thierry
talked , "Jo , baby-step-one is , you will learn to love yourself before
you can love someone else .  I believe that happens naturally for a boy who
has a foreskin .  The genitals constantly change with temperature and mood
and after puberty with almost any stimulus , continually drawing your
attention to the fundamental human life force to find a girl and settle
down .  Your nerve endings were destroyed , and your glans surface
calcified from constant wear and tear under your clothes.  Your brain is
disconnected from your genitals .  Our search today aims to address that.

   Everyone headed out the door on George's command.  They boarded buses ,
subways , and go-trains.  Waited in crowded waiting rooms , in hallways and
private residences.  At the end of the day three medical experts had
checked Jo 's mutilated penis.  Surgery and stretching and combinations of
both were offered.  Jo remained stoic through out the process of
examinations.  The three experts had seen all this before , and much worse
, as Jo found out circumcision has risks of C difficile ,
methicillin-resistant staphylococcus , herpes , warts , aids , human
papillomavrius transmission , and occaisionaly a baby boy just dies.  Jo 's
medical records were checked and rechecked.  Jo was tested for every
imaginable condition spread by circumcision , and and sex for that matter.
Nothing was found, only the destruction of his foreskin.  Jo was relieved ,
as was Jos and Jack and Thierry who under took the tests also.  George made
sure that all the boys would know their sexual status.  "There are already
too many pressures on young minds, being clear of std's is a wonderful
plus".  By the end of the day everyone had returned to George's residence.

   They stopped walking in the loft , sitting in the most comfortable
chairs designed by man, but everyone uncomfortable.  Thierry and Jo sat
side by side , with Jos and Jac and George on separate chairs.  They began
to stare out the loft windows at the skyline.  George asked for input on
supper , unsure of whether anyone would actually eat.

   Jo finally spoke , "I do not want doctors fucking around with my penis ,
no matter what".  Jos and Jac decided to call their dad , and girl friends,
and moved downstairs.

   George ordered chineese food for delivery, then went downstairs to the
kitchen to retrieve water and juice and milk for whoever.  As he returned
with a tray with cups and two jugs he heard Jo asking Thierry about his
penis.

   " Thierry , can I ahh see your penis again .  You're one year older than
I" , asked Jo ?  Thierry laid back on the chair and released his belt and
zipper.  Jo pulled out the snake and began to study it.  He turned the
lighting on maximum brightness to get an idea of the penis structure,
arteries veins ?

   George decided to got downstairs again , but Jo asked him to stay. 
"George , stay with me.  I need a doctors help on making this decision , a
doctor that I can trust , and Thierry is lending me a look at what I want.
I mean George , I do not want , I mean I want to learn what has been cut
away from me , and try to make a decision about fixing it" .  George rested
on a chair facing Thierry as Jo studied Thierry's foreskin.  Jos and Jac
were returning to the loft as Jos talked.  "I only know the street names
for this snake" , mused Jo.  "How can I understand what all those experts
said" ?  Jos pushed his chair close to Jo, as did Jac.  "We know most of
the names and we know how it works" , stated Jos.  "Do you want us to give
you a biology lesson in reproduction and the tube" ?  "How did you learn
all that stuff.  They don't teach it in school , and I have to lie about my
age on the internet even to see what the circumcisors done to me".  "II
kknow Jo" , agreed Jos and Jac.  "We learned from Jennifer and Jessica ,
and they learned from animal husbandry".  "We can give you a lesson on how
the human penis works , when it is not pedofiled ?

   "Yeah , I guess so , and George , would you oblige me also" ?  "Jo , my
age will show a huge difference between my tube and Thierry's ---" "For
sure , That's why I want to see your er ahh tube , and I want to see your
tubes also Jac and Jos, because you are a year younger than me .  Not so
long ago , I expected to be struck by lightning when wondering what a
normal young tube and older tube looked like .  Maybe , it would not have
been such a big thing for me , if God had not ripped mine away.  Is it
normal for a boy my age to want to see tubes or am I what the church calls
GAY." ?  "First of all , forget GOD and GAY commanded Jos and Jac and then
forget all the words invented by the church to subjugate your mind into
their prison".  George's face dropped with the shock of Jos and Jac's
convictions, but he recovered quickly.

   "Ok all of us" , exclaimed Thierry.  Whip out your tubes and let Jo see
what he wants to see.  Let's not discuss the fucking moral shit that most
of us have been saddled with" .

   Thierry pulled Jos to standing position lowered his trousers and boxers
and sat down.  Then Jos pulled Jac to standing and lowered his trousers and
boxers and sat down.  Next Jac pulled George to standing lowered his
trousers and boxers and sat down.  George pulled Jo to standing , lowered
his trousers and boxers and sat down.  "Thanks everyone" , stated Thierry.
"Now were all nude for you to see and touch if you want Jo.  Remember our
agreement request that you stay on the planet at least until the next
anniversary of Liam's decision.  "Yes , I have not made any promises on
visiting the viaduct" , stated Jo.  "every time I get close to making a
promise to you Thierry, my mind discovers another absurdity forced on me my
pedofiles hiding under religion.  They did so much shit to my body and my
mind that I should be Jesus re-incarnation.  Instead , I look to the
viaduct as way to escape".  Everyone remained facing each other on a
separate chair.  The room track lighting was full brightness.  Jo studied
each of the twins younger than him , then George , then Thierry.

   "All of you please remove your shirts , also" , asked Jo.

   He walked around starting with George and gently pulled the loose skin
on the end of each tube .  As he did , Jos announced the component names ,
like a toy telling a preschooler what button he had pushed , except the
words were genital words .  The words that religion has banned from use on
radio , and tv , and from classrooms.  As Jos pronounced the names Jo
repeated them and then every one repeated the name.  "Prepucial rings"

   Jo repeated his learning round , in the same order , this time pulling
harder on Georges prepucial rings, then Jos , then Jac , then Thierry. 
Next round was to slide the prepuce toward the abdomen .  He pushed
George's prepuce back against his balls exposing the entire shaft.  On to
Jo , "Oh oww".  "Fuuc , I am so soory Jos cried Jo." George explained, "The
younger boys have tighter prepucial rings".  Then Jo pushed Jac's prepuce
back more carefully , but it did slide right back to his balls.  "I thought
identical twins had identical tubes" , mused Jo.  "Each boys tube is a
lifelong growing process" , offered George , "depending on the mammal that
owns it".  Jo ended the round with Thierry , pushing his prepuce back
easily as he had done in the hospital.  "Ahh , we are all different" ,
stated Thierry .

   Jo stepped back and compared sizes of each tube as the exposed glans
penis was announced.  "All different again" , announced Jo .  "Jac , your
prepuce has already slid back over the glans.  It looks like Jos's tube
again" ?  "The frenulum pulls it back to the protected position" , stated
Jos.  "But George's prepuce and Thierry's prepuce is still behind the
glans" ?  "My tube requires the foreskin to be reset manually" , stated
George , "and always has been since birth , I guess".  "My tube is kinda
stuck behind the glans because it has expanded" .  "You do not need to
explain that expansion Thierry".

   The examination continued several more rounds.  Jo noticed as did
everyone that Thierry was red faced and leaking colorless fluid, while Jos
and Jac and George , and Jo remained soft .  George looked at Jo's face. 
"Did you cum in the hospital with Thierry , Jo" ?  "No" ?  "Were you close"
?  "No , well maybe " ?  "Do you play with , er masturbate often" ?  "No ,
cause most of the time it hurts".  "Can you tell us about it" ?  Jo stared
at the faces of his friends .  He remembered extreme pain from his
circumcisers but could never remember the circumcisers face .  Of course
the doctor who pedofiled me prevented me from seeing his face.  Jo stared
the faces again and saw only genuine concern .  Talking softly ,
maintaining composure , "When my tool expands , the shaft skin hurts like
fuuc .  If I persist the hurt changes to good feelings but damage is being
done , because after I cum , the pain returns and it hurts for two ,
sometimes three days , with broken skin and bleeding from the tiny
capillaries.

   "GGGoddam fffuuc" , voiced Jos and Jac and Thierry.

   "I thought so" , said George , "you are so wounded by circumcision that
your shaft skin never grew long enough to allow for the full extension of
the shaft after puberty started .  This has set up a pain threshold lose
lose situation , such that your mind suffers skin damage pain even when you
need to be relaxed the most" .

   Jo grimaced at the truth of his condition.

   "Am I right , Jo.  That you have only ever masturbated twenty times or
so since puberty , and that the sensations caused by your grandfather
always started with intense pain and ended with intense pain , with a brief
mind blowing spurt in between" ?  "Yes Sir" .  Stated Jo.  You got it
right" , he sobbed , "except my pedophile grandfather made me cum before I
was able to produce fluid.  It was so dry and hurt sooo bad , and then
suddenly fuuuc my mind is exploding with too much , and then pain, pain all
day in school , and the next day , and the next day".  Jo was sobbing ,
tears flowing down his cheeks wetting the reddish sprigs of hair on his
chest.  George , wrapped him in the wolf hide .  Thierry sobbed also, but
Jos and Jac showed fire in their eyes even as they tried to neutralize
their faces to keep Jo stable .  George pulled Thierry over , sat him
beside Jo.  "Thierry , do you understand some of the new issues we have
identified with Jo" ?

   "Yes George , I understand physical damage now .  I know why Jo can not
love me , Not only his mental capacity , Jo is afraid I will hurt him ,
like the pedophile circumcisers" and Jo is afraid of the physical pain
experienced when his tube expands .  As his shaft nears maximum size , he
also feels maximum skin pain .  I suspect that during ejaculation the pain
temporarily changes to extreme pleasure , ripping the roof out of his mind
for a second or two , and then the pain re-registers with all the shaft
cells reporting stretch damage of circumferential rips around the shaft ,
which is what the second penis expert was describing under a times ten
magnifier".  George continued , "After three to five days , the
circumferential skin rips heal in the non-erect position , quite often with
scar tissue present .  The scar tissue is what the second expert was
noticing.  Repeating the expansion again will cause even more
circumferential scar tissue, which is less elastic than normal skin ,
ensuring that the pain will be even more intense , and last even longer".
Thierry asked , "But George , I wake up every morning with a snake pointing
at my chin .  It just does it automatically.  Jayr said that it is normal
and all boys do it" .  "Yes" , added George , "All normal boys have night
time erections" .

   Jos and Jac managed to hide the rage brewing in their minds , knowing
what they had experienced with the girl twins and what Jo had experienced
with his is rotten life .  Then both twins stared at each other eyes wide
open.  "I understand my father , and why he was the way he was , always
holding back , reserved" , signaled Jacque , always afraid to just touch me
and or give me a hug .  "My dad is a victim of circumcision also" .  More
than ever , the twins understood Liam , and they understood : "Suicide is
not a sin .  Suicide is a symptom of mind and body disconnection , of
having a sub-conscious brain looking for pleasure that it can never get,
and a logical brain fighting the sub-conscious urges , trying to stay awake
forever to prevent the painful nocturnal erection , terminating in a
powerful wish to get the hell out of reality , --- out of life , without
even fulfilling the planetary life force needs of survival of the species ,
and all the while , those who do survive the two thousand year old dogma ,
follow the guidelines and reproduce new humans , to be forced into God's
servitude" .

   George and Jo and Thierry waited patiently , studied the the twins ,
with drawn conversing in their own language , wondering what was being
discussed.

   "Jos , Jac" ?  "Oh awh George , it's ok , we side tracked , but were ok
now.  Jos regarded Jac as the final conclusion apparented itself to the
twins.  Jos spoke to Thierry.  "Thierry , you understand what Jo needs". 
"Yeah , but it's gonna hurt him , and fuuc ---- fuucccing GOD almighty , I
will not hurt Jo".  "We know what you need to do.  Thierry , my prepuce was
so tight when I met Jen and Jes , that it would not uncover from my glans.
They showed me how to do it, and Thierry you can do it for Jo , if you want
to.  You can pay him back for rescuing your lungs.  Do you know what I
mean" ?  "Jac , can you go to the freezer and bring some ice cubes , in
case , but first , George , lets have supper to relax us , and then we will
help Thierry , learn about circumcised boys.

   A few minutes later the chineese food arrived.  George went to the door
and collected it nude.  "They always send the old delivery guy who expects
weird customers" , stated George returning to the loft.  Everyone grabbed a
paper plate and dug into the food.  The plates were flimsy with Jo loading
too much , on his lap , one of the hot chow mien pieces dropped on to his
tube .

   "Oww" .  "Did you notice where the heat felt hotest" ?  "On my shaft".
"Yes , because the circumciser left mostly inner shaft skin , which is
designed to be immersed into a vagina , it is heat sensitive.  The glans is
equipped with a different ratio of skin sensors , mostly touch, but you
would not notice that because it has been exposed so long to the abrasive
atmosphere of underwear cloth.  Basically the circumcision destroys the
heat sensors in your outer foreskin and destroys the glans touch sensors
because they are inside out .  That is why the religions do it.  They want
your thoughts to remain on God" .  "Fuuuc God", toasted everyone as they
chowed into the food licking the sauce from their fingers.  Jos talked to
Jo:
"Jo , I have noticed that my foreskin has millions more hot cold sensors
than my glans.  I realize that your circumcision irrevocably changed all
the dynamics pertaining to your reproductive organs .  How much love would
you be able to give one of your off spring conceived in stretched skin pain
- exploding mind sperm burst , then unpleasant pain for the next three days

while shaft skin rejuvenates" ?  Jac squirmed: "The same truths stand for
my dad .  He loved me more than anything but he was always afraid to touch
me .  Thierry , has been my friend for many years and pulled me through the
dark days when my mind tried to connect with my dad .  Thierry , I love you
man and now that Joshua is with me , I realize how much you helped me
stabilize my boy hood time".

   Within a half hour supper was finished , and the mess put out of sight.

   Everyone had beverages and then returned to the circle of chairs.

   "We are ready to help" , stated Jos and Jac , holding a cold thermos
full of ice.  "Are you ready to watch the miracle doctor George" ?  "Yes".
"Are you ready Thierry" ?  "Ahh I need a bit of instruction to get started"
.  "Fair enough , and Jo , do you trust us to release your tensions without
hurting you" ?  "Yeah, but".  "Whats the worst that can happen" ?  "It's
gonna hurt muttered Jo like when my grandfather raped me".  "Jo ,
-------Jac and I promise , trust us , on this".  "How so"?  "Jennifer and
Jessica taught me how first time sex is beautiful .  Let me show you how".
"Ok , lets do it , what do I need to do" ?  "Lean back in the chair" ,
asked Jos , as Jac pushed another soft plushy chair behind him , "Put your
arms over your head out here on this chair and your back on here" .  Jo was
now spread out on his back totally nude arms over his head and feet
over-dangling the edge of the other soft chair.  "Thierry , just do gentle
licks , with the tip , let your fluids flow.  Your saliva will allow Jo 's
shaft skin to relax and stretch .  If Jo shaft gets hard too fast , we will
cool it with some ice , to prevent permanent damage" .  "Ok" ?  "George, we
want you to monitor Jo 's heart and respiration.  If he gets too excited ,
signal us to cool it a bit and of course we can use ice cubes if you
request them" .

   Thierry moved in between Jo 's feet and gently , gently lets his tongue
ride along the top of Jo's tube.  As the response developed , he began to
lick the top side of the glans.

   Within five licks , Jo began to feel stretch pain , face distorting. 
"Fuuc it's gonna hurt" !  "Ice , ok ice , this is not going to work" ,
intoned Jos , as he cooled the shaft with ice .  "Jo needs something to
take his mind away from turning the tube on too fast".  "Thierry can you
ahh turn around and dangle that thing against Jo 's lips , and Jo , is that
ok with you ?  Do you understand what will happen if your mind distracts to
something else" ?  "Yeah , do it Thierry, if you want , or Jos if you want
to do it , that's ok".  "Thierry , you can do this .  Distance your self
enough on Jo 's shaft to allow it a long response time but you must also
provide some entertainment for Jo 's lips to keep his mind off his tube .
In our calculations , the unknown is , if Jo truly is a boy guy , he will
excite too fast , and we will fail to solve the pain , and in which case we
need to find a girl , but my guess is he is pretty straight/normal , just
fucked up by his history , and will not get over loaded by boy to boy
contact" .  George smiled at the logic and calculation displayed by Jac and
Jos.  "I think you are correct , Jos".

   Thierry groaned at the thought of Jo being normal.  -- positioned
himself gently over Jo , letting his knees sink in to the soft leather
beside Jo 's ears , until his foreskin gently brushed Jo ' s lips , lowered
his own lips to Jo 's mutilated tube and began again.  He licked the
scarred glans until big droplets of his saliva ran down Jo 's shaft ,
carefully spreading it with his tongue.  Jo relaxed letting his tongue play
with Thierry's prepucial rings , wishing , yearning for the same feeling in
his brain from Thierry, but that could never happen.  Several times within
the half hour , Thierry stopped , Jos and Jac applied ice , but the process
continued with George talking Jo into a deeper and deeper relaxation.  Jo
's eyes began to flutter sleepily , his respiration dropped, and his lips
massaged Thierry , slowly taking a bit more of Thierry's shaft until the
glans appeared and announced itself to his tongue .  Jo 's tube extended ,
stretched the shaft flesh immersed in saliva.  Thierry took the full glans
into his mouth , rolled his tongue around and under the lobes, slowly
edging to the tiny frenulum piece left by the knife .  Jo began to smile
wider , his eyes danced now as his lips pulled Thierry inside .  Thierry
engulfed Jo almost to his pubes using his tongue to spread the seething
colorless fluids and saliva up and down the shaft .  Thierry kept his
fingers behind Jo 's balls pressing gently on the area just outside Jo 's
prostate.  Thierry and Jos and Jac and George each had a different
component of Jo to monitor.  Jos and Jac cooled his belly button with ice
and watched the ripples in the six pack muscles develop like waves in a
gentle breeze.  Thierry could feel the cremaster muscles pulling Jo 's
balls up inside his pubes.  George kept fingers on Jo's heart and lungs. 
Jo grinned wider , arms over his head relaxed , fingers out stretched now
with palms open , pulled Thierry into his own throat exciting Thierry's
brain and all parts in between .  George watched as Jo 's eyes rolled back
in their sockets , then returned to focus , his tongue and lips pulling
Thierry's flesh covered shaft into excstacy .  Jos and Jac detected the
waves of rolling muscle power across Jo's stomach muscles , Thierry felt
his shaft super harden as it stretched his shaft skin to maximum.  No pain
now, only total relaxation ,and life force happiness.  Jo 's eyes rolled to
the back of his eye sockets again and stayed there , filling Thierry's
mouth with gentle pulses of boy semen .  His brain hardly even detecting
his first pulse of happy cum , as his lips and mouth sought to suck Thierry
into the same excitement .  Thierry groaned as his own muscles tremorred ,
then popped forth the boy stuff of wet dreams.  Pulse two and three and
four continued from Jo , filling Thierry's mouth and throat , as he tried
to contain it.  Pulse five and six began to avalanche Jo 's brain, into
demanding more from Thierry .  Jo's lips tightened ,sucked ,throated
Thierry until his back arched and Jo could feel his mouth screaming for
pleasure on the rock hard super stretched skin shaft .  Each boy wanting to
out pump the other to keep the cum coming.  The guests watched as Jo 's
balls yanking upward into his groin , back arching in final delivery mode ,
bulbocaverosa muscles , overloading Theirry's nasal passages with
broadsides of cum until both of them collapsed , with Thierry now tight on
Jo full length their bodies sweating together , communicating at every
millimeter and pore and sweat gland.  George and Jac and Jos sat back and
watched the spectacular cum show , each of them unable to avoid the
powerful images from affecting their own tubes.

   "What do we do now" , signaled Jos and Jac .  They're ok , our girl
friends are thousands of miles away.  George , I sense that you had a super
life long relationship with your girl , but life does not allow us infinite
time in these matters .  What do you recommend since your girl friend-wife
is no longer here" ?

   "Just do it , Boys will be boys as they say." Jos and Jack moved closer
to George .  Jos stroked Jac , Jac stroked George and George stroked Jos .
Within a minute Jac and Jos unloaded boy sperm until the floor seemed to
flood, and a minute later they concentrated on George until he flooded
evreyone's hands.

   "Thats a powerful lot of fun dumped here this evening" , stated the
three of them as they tidied and cleaned around Thierry and Jo , oblivious
of there surroundings.  Jos , Jac and George drifted off to beds , Jos and
Jac to Arthurs bed and George to his bedroom on the main floor, leaving
Thierry and Jo to find out how long they could intimately sleep.

   Chapter 51 : after the experts , what does Jo decide ?

   Morning sun illuminated the loft first .  Thierry and Jo untangled
themselves peeling away layered droplettes of dried sperm.  No covers , two
boys reversed still lying , facing each other's tubes.  Thierry slimed Jo's
tube again with saliva and moisture , hydrating , the stretching shaft skin
once more.  George appeared with a capsule of vitamin E , --- squeazing it
, lathering it over Jo 's tube, to ensure healthy skin.  "Don't worry
Thierry , this stuff can also be taken internally , and will make your skin
softer also" .  As he left the loft , he glanced back as Thierrys tongue
darted along the scar tissue on the mutilated tube.  Jo sniffed the closed
preputial fold on Thierry.

   George descended to Arthur's room , found the twins sound asleep ,
snuggled together like puppies in a bread box.  He watched the boys sleep ,
marveled at their development with out each other for thirteen years and
then their ability to back date in time and rekindle some of the lost
generation.  Dreaming of Jen and Jes , no care in the world .  Broad ear to
ear smiles on fair skinned faces under reddish blond hair.  The boys rolled
over.  He thought they were awaking .  Instead the twins pulled each other
tighter chests and stomachs forced together.  George wondered if they were
in fact dreaming of the girl twins.  Sweat drops formed on their temple as
unseen morning logs squeezed between their pelvis.  Lips touching each
others cheeks , breathing irregularity , and the long sigh afterward told
George , that they were either in the womb together or dreaming of Jes and
Jen.  George picked up a favorite book from Arthur's collection and read
for an hour , happy to be with living organisms enjoying life.  Eventually
Jac opened his eyes and regarded George.  "Good morning" , grinning in that
carefree manner of youth.  Jos answered back "Good morning".  Then George
answered "Good morning" , trying to echo their grin on his older face. 
Both twins uncovered and stood up , allowing George to see the smeared
remains of youthful exuberance hanging from the strip of sparse reddish
hairs leading to their tubes.  "I could not resist watching the two most
beautiful boys in Toronto sleep" , exclaimed George, and when you go home
to Robert , I shall miss you.  I sat here while both of you wet dreamed. 
Boy hood puberty one-OH-one.  "We did dream , volunteered Jac, we dreamed
of togetherness in amniotic sac , protected , nurtured , learning the life
force of the earth's rotation , of the moon's orbit and our own existence .
It is dream that makes us want to stay on this earth as long as possible.
It is a dream that follows us when we are with Jessica and Jennifer.  And
it is a dream which barriers the knowledge of Jo and Liam's earth bound
experience , as it contrasts with ours.  When I get back to my dad's house
, I am going to hug him regardless of his self composure , until I force
him to see me as the baby boy , I once was.  At that point he will hold me
as he held Jos , on the night Jos tore himself apart in front of all of
us". Jos put his hands on Jac's shoulders.  "You pulled me through my worst
nightmares ever , Jac" .  When I fell out of my dad's bed , I felt
abandoned by him all over again .  But it was not my dad's fault .  He is
mutilated like Jo.  He does not know what to do when his abandoned son
needs guidance.  Jac, you sent Jennifer to put me back in bed with my dad .
Under church rules, that would be at least a million lifetimes in hell. 
But Jennifer side stepped church logic .  She put me in dad's bed backwards
, and I recontacted my dad in a way that shocked both of us.  I sucked my
dad and he sucked me until our minds became one mind.  We re-started our
communication at the level zero".  The twins looked, regarded , stared at
George's face looking for any sign of fear , church sub-jugation , or
derision.  Jac and Jos saw understanding.  They saw a wiseness , a statue
of stability, unprogrammed by illogical rules.  "George" , how have you
survived on this planet so long without picking up the baggage of
religions. "My parents did not believe in taking me to church until I was
sixteen" , answered George.  "They foresaw the disasters of exposing me to
religion as a youth.  I grew up loving life and everyone in it.  I was
protected from the evangelical and fundamentalist forces .  They sent me to
a private school where sports and competition trumped god.  Perhaps that is
why I became a doctor, to pass on my optimism to others in perilous
circumstances .  Looking back on it now, is pretty much the way I raised
Arthur.  When he died , I tumbled into a period of roller coaster downs ,
but that is all past now since I have met you two.  It was the pool
accident that changed my life again to riding on the upper rails.  It was
also the pool accident that dropped Jo into my mind.  A boy so tortured and
twisted that his history , if written on gold bars , would melt a billion
of them into water.  We , all of us , are screwed up , using perhaps fifty
percent of our mind to throttle the other forty percent into conformance.
Ten percent is left for creative thinking .  In the case of Jo , you Jac ,
and you Jos are rewriting a million of his neurons every day.  I can see Jo
changing every day, you are with him , just as you brought Thierry's lungs
back from chlorine - bromine poison gas.  And Thierry is helping also.  He
knows that Jo is most likely going to drop his love , and go for a pretty
girl , once his mind figures out life one-oh-one.  Thierry still wants to
help Jo , because you two will not give up.  The two of you are one in a
million.  Joshua and Jacque , I would like to ask you one question about
Thierry .  I want you to tell me to fuck off , if you are perturbed in the
least by the question.  On the other hand , I want you to tell me what idea
- concept surfaces in each of your brains when I ask the question .  Will
you help me with my search for knowledge.  "Yes".  "Yes".  Both boys stood
attentively , in their birthday suit as George formulated his question and
talked:
If Jo leaves Thierry , for a wonderful girl, what will Thierry do and

what can we do to help him.

   The twins listened intently to George's question , and then acknowledged
it.  Then they disappeared into the shower.  George returned to the main
floor , as Jo and Thierry descended from the loft , ready for a new day.

   George and Thierry prepared breakfast .  George studied him as they
prepared toast , and juice and waffles with butter and jam.  George
explained his request to Thierry and to Jo , as hypothetical , yet real
world , what if.  He also explained that the bonding between each of the
boys and himself was impossible to break .  In other words , "Friends are
friends no matter what" .

   They set plates at the table and sat down as Jos and Jac appeared. 
Every one took a seat and lunged into the food.  Jac spoke first.  "Thierry
and his brother Jayr are rock solid persons.  Thierry can take whatever
happens to him , and he will prosper.  Thierry is well aware , that a
permanent boy-boy lifestyle requires far more sacrifice in terms of diets ,
sexual relations, use of the temporary storage area on a forever basis.  My
best guess is that if Jo finds a girl and produces a child one of two
things will happen.  One: Thierry will stay on Jo 's perimeter as a guiding
, protective force even when he is with his wife.  Any off spring from Jo
will become offspring of Thierry.  Two: Thierry stays on Jo's perimeter as
in case one, but does meet an exceptionally attractive girl , and he does
produce offspring which are also deemed offspring by Jo.  In effect I see a
win-win relationship , two boys traveling through life and space on the
same wavelength , inseparable .  I trust that whatever female becomes
attached to them will understand their boy-boy relationship along side the
boy girl relationship.  More waffles were consumed .  George considered the
answer , "And you Jos , your answer"?  "Ditto".  Jac and Jos grinned. 
Thierry and Jo and George laughed and laughed.

   The conversation continued including Jos and Jac returning to the farm
or returning to their dad's place , with pros and cons .  It bounced to
Thierry and Jayrs plans for the summer.  Jos and Jac wanted to stay out of
their parents house until their relationship stabilized.  Jac added , "Now
that we understand my dad and the fact that he is mutilated like Jo , there
is no forgone conclusions about what life will be like between Robert and
Jill.  The fact that Robert is physically scarred by circumcision will
adversely affect his attitude toward sex , and toward church .  If Jill
cannot let go of her early childhood church programming , then they will
separate a second time.  Jos twisted in his seat.  "Are you suggesting Jac
, that I may have got my dad and mom together only for a short time" ? 
"What-if's are premature conjecture" , admitted Jac.  "So how can we aid
their healing process" ?  "By continuing to be the Green twins" , suggested
George.  "Parents identify , that is - they live much of their world
through the eyes of their off-spring.  If the off - spring prosper , then
the parents prosper".  "And if the off-spring die" ?  asked Jo suddenly ,
bringing himself up to speed.

   "Fuck Jo" , replied Jos and Jac , "We can't go there right now" .  "I
can go there" , mouthed George.  "When an off-spring dies , the part of the
parent that interfaced with the off-spring dies also.  I mean the mind
components most satisfied by the off-spring die.  It is best to shed the
components over a period of time , otherwise the mind can un-stabilize
itself".

   " Fuuuc me" , Jo squirmed again .  "Tis the same with circumcision isn't
it.  My mind killed off the cubic inch of brain cells attached to my
foreskin a long time ago .  At puberty the hormones affected the remaining
debris , giving me desire that nothing can deliver.  Eventually my mind
will destroy the cells turned on at puberty".

   Jos and Jac sat up.  "Jo , What you say is an extrapolation , a what if
, a logical progression of events from the past into the future .  We do
not agree that there is only one roller coaster connecting the past with
the future.  You can affect the future , in the same way that Jos brought
us back together" .

   "But Jos , You admitted that your parents must make huge adjustments ,
Robert must get over his genital mutilation to truly enjoy Jill , and Jill
must drop all that childhood church programming to enjoy Robert."

   "Ok , Jo , you are correct , but you know that Jos and I are still in
the Robert-Jill equation , and we intend to affect their future" .

   George applauded.  "It is true Jo.  Jac and Jos reinforce each other to
accomplish a common goal.  You and I and Thierry have seen their success
rate".

   "Agreed" , staed Thierry.

   "Not" , stated Jo.  Liam killed himself" .

   " I take a slightly different view , but a key one" , stated Thierry. 
"Humor me , Jo .  You described Liam on the ledge , and rolling off ,
hardly a full fledged attempt at killing one's self.  All I am suggesting
is that Liam is dead but complexities in his mind cannot be transferred to
your mind .  You and Liam were involved in a living tragedy .  Liam's death
will never ever subside for you.  Your close friends , Joshua , Jacque ,
Theirry , George respect Liam and his life , because he chose to respect
you , despite all subjugation and derision from the power of the church
through your grandfather , Liam knew you , loved you , and predicted that
you would survive , and by the holy fuck of the great god of half breeds ,
you are surviving , and you will prosper".  "Thanks Thierry .  Jac has also
said you have so much optimism for our lives on this planet.  Ok , OK , I
Joseph Alnot do promise to respect Liam's prediction and do promise to stay
on this planet at least until the next anniversary of Liam's decision" . 
George , and Jos and Jac , and Thierry stood up at attention , "Welcome to
Trauna".

   Joseph smiled , "Fuuc yeah , now that , that decision exists , be I
trying to think about the penis experts and what action to take" ?  "There
is always do nothing".  "Nope".  "There is a series of surgical operations"
?  "That surgery is not covered by any Ontario medical plan" , hissed Jo ,
"They can rip it off a newborn baby but they will not pay for trying to
undo the pedofiles work" .  "Jo , We are your friends .  If you go along
the dark path of hatred we may follow you .  Your tone of voice is on that
track" .  George faced Jo , put his hands on Jo 's biceps , then cupped his
face .  "Jo , I have the resources to pay for that surgery , and I will pay
whatever cost those experts demand" .  "You don't neeeed too do dthat" ,
whispered Jo , eyes watering.  "Peity for me , will kill me" .  "No pity is
involved , Jo.  You must pay the funds back later".  "I can't , I don't
deserve , Aww fuuc , - George - your makin me come apart again" .  "Jo ,
you are with us , friends are going to help you , whether you like it or
not" .  "Jo , I thought I was a normal kid , until my father returned into
my life .  I discovered that my mind had hidden so many questions.  When my
dad appeared in reality after thirteen years of absence , the questions
surfaced.  They took me from a normal fifteen year old boy to a babbling
abandoned baby crying under his bed .  That' s when Jac sent Jennifer to
help me.  He knew , I was incapable of response , and in immediate danger
of my mind permanently destroying it's only memories of my daidi, and that
Jennifer would do what was needed .  She did exactly that".  Jo regarded
Jos through the waves of tears streaming his cheeks.  His mind struggled to
stop the tears and failed.  Jos and Jac stood ready to catch the
avalanching soul.

   George studied his face carefully , tightened his life saving paws on
Jo's biceps , wrapping his fingers around , thumbs penetrating and
monitoring heart vibrations under the reddish arm pit hair that is Jo.  He
saw a frightened boy at six watching his parents disappear forever .  He
saw masks of confusion and hatred forming from the ridicule of school
encounters gone bad , with no one at home to deflect the pain.  He saw a
ten year old boy cringing in fear as his brother Liam was raped by his
grandfather in the next room .  He saw a twelve year old boy base ball
batting , breaking , swinging , smashing every object in his grandfathers
house , with Liam beside him , inert faced , already dead .  He saw a
fourteen year old boy under the viaduct being licked by a wolf , the only
animal left in the entire universe to comfort Jo.  Each event created a new
mask over his Indian-Irish-half-breed face .  But George did not blink . 
He saw beyond the immediate pain , to a new layer of hope just beyond , as
the old layer of judgements , the masks of childhood damage , shed
themselves like melting glaciers.  Thierry was drawn to Jo , wrapping his
arms and fingers into Jo 's chest from behind.  Pinned between two rocks of
optimism , the masks melted , dissolved into torrents of weeping and
sobbing .  Glacial ice layers created by discrimination , religious fervor
, and self-deprecation melted in front of Jos and Jac and George .  But Jo
's muscles weakened .  His brain --sub conscious unwilling to stay in
reality, unable to stand , but at the same time his mind searching for the
reasons of sickness, casting them off .  Ten years of living in hell with
his grandfather .  Another mask formed -- two years of blaming himself for
Liam's death , --- guilt mask melted , with Jos and Jac on each side
absorbing Jo 's pain , now leeching away sixteen years of intense
circumcision trauma , of not owning his own body , of having the
circumcisers reapppear when ever he slept on his back .  Thierry felt his
stomach churn , but he did not let go of the lower rib cage , only pulled
it tighter as his cheek and tongue comforted Jo 's neck .  George held
tight , both paws .  Feeling , conducting away Joseph's pain , Jos and Jac
shudderred as the layers of religious orange and green flames , fanned by
the forces of a residential school victim , ruptured , and disintegrated ,
and extinguished .  Jac and Jos steadied his head , fully erect fully proud
of who he was , and who he is.  But Joseph's mind could not be stopped now
, determined to purge itself of all that had tortured it .  They watched
Joseph go into the Don River valley .  They saw Jo , running , fearing for
his genitals , as his own brother's life ebbed away in to the roots of
Toronto .  They saw the wolf again licking Josephs wounds away , and they
realized now , they knew , they were not his only friends in the universe ,
understood that Joseph had friends beyond the human phalanx , beyond the
human social world , perhaps beyond the ancient mammal world .  Unable to
fathom the depth of Josephs despair and determination to win they felt his
body collapsing , forgetting to breath , heart sporadic.  They let his body
, him , Joseph half breed Alnot , down carefully flat on his back , not on
the kitchen floor , but on the shower floor, on the wolf hide and the great
bear rug , anticipating the worst .  Pulled off everything that he wore .
They licked his wounds and cried for him , as Joseph's eyes sunk back into
their sockets and rolled about uncontrolled by his troubled brain .  Jos
and Jac tried to absorb his trauma , faces contorted with pain , howled for
Joseph to return , as the masks of living hell melted and drained to the
floor .  Sath appeared --had detected some message , some mind disturbing
vibrations from a star over the viaduct , or from a howling wolf in the
depths of ferns and grasses and trees at the bottom of the valley. 
Kneeling , Jac and Jos , then stripping and pressing their own fingers and
wrapping their own bodies around Jo.  Sath and Thierry at his knees raising
his legs to keep blood flowing to his heart and brain .  George sat on the
shower floor at his head , fingers gripping his arm pits , monitoring ,
measuring , wondering if artificial respiration would be required , as the
first witch doctor must have done ten thousand years ago .  The eerie howls
of unrelenting pain , from Joshua and Jacque summoned a being from another
universe .  A meteor careened into earths atmosphere , disintegrating into
an entity with no matter.  Existing suddenly , inside George's residence ,
the shower atmosphere brightened , shimmered .  Infra red and ultra violet
light bathed the room .  The shower heads activated with water , reflecting
auroras of rainbows .  Not one , but two spacial disturbances , attended
Joseph's body .  They watched the mortals lick his wounds and they argued
over Jo .  One entity resembled Liam , and the other Arthur.  Liam motioned
the rainbows into endless patterns of fear , suffering , deceit , ridicule
, and distrust .  Everyone knew instantly that Liam wanted Joseph to go
with him beyond the planetary hell where Jo had popped into existence
sixteen years ago , to Liam's new place , free from the two thousand year
old forces .  Jac and Jos tightened their grip on Joseph , their bodies
stressed , sweating , convulsing from the short circuited energy lasing
from Joseph , and Joseph's body falling into uncontrolled twitching loosing
nervous system control.  His body abandoned by his own brain .  Jos and Jac
signaled Sath for help , unsure of what Sath was , or could do , but
knowing that they could not keep Josephs body functioning much longer , --
knowing that Joseph's mind was warring with internal damage , no longer in
control of it's own body requirements , no longer supporting it's body
ability to live .  Sath , eyes glowing at Liam , "We need him here on earth
, this was his first choice .  He stays here with us" .  Liam and Arthur
faded to the back of the shower, rainbows of light encircled their minds
with flashes of pro and con agreement.  Jac and Jos continued to hold
Joseph on their life support , recovered control of Joseph's lungs ,
commanding his heart beat and his lung muscles to labor , to breath in the
atmosphere of planet earth .  The entities drifted closer .  Arthur ,
watched his earthly father holding Jo 's body , watched Sath and Thierry
manipulate his legs to keep his blood flowing .  Sath's eyes glowed at Liam
, "He stays here .  He has friends now".  Liam hovered over Jac laying ten
glowing fingers on each rib of Jac's rib cage , fingers searching , locking
into Jac's ribs like powerful magnets attaching to metal ribs , and Athur
hovered over Jos brushing his radiant fingers across Jos' rib cage .  His
fingers seemed to drift , to feel and drift again and finally lock on right
through Joshua's skin to his internal rib structures.  The atmospheric glow
inside the bathroom intensified.  Cosmic plasma flowed from the spacial
entities into the essence of two twin boys , undulating them , charging
them , empowering their dna , and muscles and consciousness with charges of
healing power .  Sath smiled at George , and Thierry.  Jac and Jos
redirected their fingers along Thierry's form .  Sucking , craving new
energy from Arthur and Liam , pumping it into Jo wherever the balance was
missing .  Smoothly and rapidly their fingers covered every pore of Joseph
even as his mind continued the internal struggle , Joseph's mind knowing
that his body was automatically controlled concentrated on rogue brain
neurons .  Jos and Jac felt the final masks of distrust and hatred loosen .
Ripping , tearing and absorbed away from Joseph's brain .  Convulsive
tremors terrorized Jos and Jac as they exited Joseph and dissolved into the
twin boys consciousness , only to be neutralized by new waves of neuron
energy .  Shuddering one final time with the distress , and suddenly none,
as though the whole room filled with cold oxygenated air.  Sath stared at
the spacial entities, imploring them of one more favor .  Rings of light
again flashed between their heads .  They looked at each other , they
looked at Jos and Jac , weak in shock from the baggage handling they had
accomplished for Jo, and shook the thought off , then Thierry implored ,
and again more rings of communication , then looked at Sath and at George .
The spacial entities needed to confer with Joseph .  He opened his eyes
glowing with green light , and flashing communication to Liam and Liam
nodded "yes Jo".  Joseph looked at Joshua , moved his fingers toward
Joshua, but too weak to touch what he wanted .  His eyes flashed again to
Liam , and Liam flashed to Arthur.  Arthur agreed .  Liam spoke to Sath .
She nodded "yes".  Sath looked at Joshua .  "Will you provide a model for
Joseph".  "What"?  "It is what Joseph has requested from Liam".  "Joseph's
model is wrecked as is Liams' .  Joseph has requested that he be fitted
with a copy of your tube." "I donn't understand".  "You don't need to
understand Jos" , she whispered to him .  "But Joseph needs you .  Do you
agree to provide a copy for Joseph's tube" ?  Jos and Jac consulted ,
nodded.  Jos and Jac studied Sath , "Sath we twins , and the girl twins own
each other .  We can not give away what is not totally ours, but we can
give you a half copy of each .  The entities smiled knowing , already ,
what would be the answer .  Sath's eyes relayed the message to them .  Then
Sath pulled Jos on to his back and on the other side of Jo , she placed Jac
on his back .  She connected the adjacent hand of each boy to Jo 's hands ,
then pulled his arms over his head where George pinned them between his
knees under his weight .  Sath instructed Thierry to hold both of Josephs
legs.  Arthur hovered over Jac , as Sath lowered her fingers around Jacs
tube and Liam hovered over Joshua as Sath's other hand connected to
Joshua's tube.  Sath eyed her message to Liam and Arthur and they gave her
the final instruction .  Momentarily releasing Jos and Jac , she nodded ,
pulled her shirt and bra off and resumed her grips on Jos and Jac's tube.
Bending forward taking Joseph's tube into her mouth her lips massaging
Joseph .  Liam and Arthur kneeld , connected their fingers to Sath's chest,
each spreading their fingers to each of her ribs , adjusting , re-adjusting
until the spacial entities finger tips blended into Sath's living flesh. .
Atmosperic glow increased as Liam and Arthur charged Sath's lips with the
exact copy of Jos and Jacs tube retrieved from her finger tips.

   Sath fingers examined , pinched , pulled , learned Jac and Jos tubes ,
the texture, color and glans hidden within, as her lips descended slowly
down Joseph's slender tube .  His body writhed and twisted , brain
registering neuron connections cut away by the circumcisers , sixteen years
ago.  At this time , Jos and Jac detected no pain .  Instead Joseph was
sharing his pleasure with Jos and Jac .

   Sath's lips glowed with prisymic color , shimmering , morphing as she
dispensed the dna details of delicate boy skin , of evolving mammals
foreskin evolution information .  Joseph's cells relearned the secrets of
forming new foreskin tissue , not what was cut off , but a new composite of
Jos and Jacs foreskins .  Her lips pulsated along Jo 's tube synchronizing
with her synchronized fingers pulsating Jacque's foreskin and Joshua's
foreskin with identical patterns.

   George at his head confining his arms and hands gripped tightly by the
twins , and Thierry at his ankles confining Joseph writhing body against
the great bear rug cushioning him on the bathroom tiles.

   Sath's fingers squeezed deep into Jac's foreskin structure , her other
hand directing fingers tighter and tighter on Joshua .  Joshua and Jacque
absorbing Joseph's excess pleasure through their hand grips on Joseph's
hands , even as their own sensations fire worked inside.  Their central
body muscles rippled conditioning their hearts and lungs and rib cage , the
place where Josephs excitement mixed with theirs .

   Joseph's body twisted , warped , arms tensing under George's weight. 
His head tilted backward eyes imploring George to stop the process , too
much , fuuc too much.  George moved forward gripping Josephs temples with
his knees and urging Jac and Jos to control Joseph's hands.  George
whispered to Joseph.  "It's not going to hurt you son .  It's going to
transfer a copy of Joshua and Jacque's foreskin to your unique dna .  Bare
with me son.  Liam and Arthur will replace what was stripped from your body
.  You will get what you asked for , perhaps more".

   Joshua and Jacque restrained wrestled , signaled Joseph , "Relax your
body Joseph, Let your mind control it" .  Finger tip to finger tip , palm
to palm relying on the palm sweat lubricant forming between their tight
hand grips to convey the message of serenity.

   Joseph's mind turmoiled again , trying to accept the reversal of the
circumcisers knives , pliers and pinchers.  His brain heard Jos and Jac and
felt their messages .  His mind listened for Sath , locating the cubic inch
of no man's land inside his cranium .  The disaster zone of destroyed
neurons created by the circumcisers became targeted .  Joseph's logical
mind located the wreckage of his circumcision tormenters.  His neurons
assaulted the internal barriers around the reproduction control center of
his brain , forcing through the layers of flesh cutting pain , of boy rape
and all the barriers assembled by his own mind to isolate those neurons
over sixteen years .  Sub conscious mind taking control of bodies life
functions , logical mind "check".  Sub conscious interface to foreskin
control center , logical mind "check".  Sub conscious feelings of pleasure
from Saths glowing lips , logical mind "I like that".

   Sath's fingers detected the lubricating colorless transparent fluids
seeping from the twins prostate glands and bubbling into and between the
muscous membranes of their glans penis and foreskins.  Her fingers had
already moved the structure of the twins pepucial rings and smooth tissue .
Now she sought out the dna instructions required the crucial area of
Josephs shaft skin , where his foreskin would be attached were it not for
two thousand year old dogma.  Her fingers leveraged the twins prepucial
rings expanding them , compressing the hidden glans as her own tongue
transmitted the hardness , tightness , compression , Joshua's pain and
Jacques pleasure into Josephs mutilated cock.  Joshua braced for her next
move, knowing that she had to do this for Joseph .  Jacque relaxed into
bliss .

   Joseph's mind listened to the George's voice in his ears and Thierry's
tongue on the soles of his feet.  Joseph's brain recorded the constant
streams of information coming from Jos and Jac's finger tips .  They calmed
his mind , even as his brain took control of the circumcision neuron damage
zone.  Josephs brain gained access to his reproductive system bridge . 
Natural boys explore and discover these controls even before birth and
explore constantly before puberty and again after puberty , but Joseph's
mind was going to be forced to accept all the sensations of the new hood in
one momentus surge.  Jos and Jac had agreed to provide the functional
details of normal boy sex .  Sath's was the conductor.  Liam and Arthur
increased the cell energy again , tile walls now glowing with bright hot
plasmatic sequences.  George and Thierry felt the new buffeting from
Joseph, and clamped his arms and legs tighter , whispering again , "Jo ,
release your logical mind to the viaduct forest , to plants and animals ,
to your local friends and to your spacial friends" .  Josephs eyes focused
on Liam , on his beams of modulating light emanating from greenish eyes. 
His mind understood inter-time communication from a spacial entity to a
real boy's brain.  Joseph stopped moving .  His eyes now riveted to Liam .
Jos and Jac and George and Thierry felt the relief from fighting Joseph's
body .  Jos and Jac took over life support , signaling the lungs when to
breath and the heart when to contract.  Joseph's brain maintained control
of his own penis for the first time .  It would belong to him now, as soon
as the last informations were transmitted by Sath and activated .

   Joshua and Jacque felt Sath's fingers learning , searching , tightening
, forcing , perfectly synchronized to get all the data in the exact
sequence .  Saths , rib cage locked to two alien interlopers through
intersticial fingerous fabrics , lips and tonque hovered glowing with white
silky plasma spreading it evenly , heaping on the top of Joseph's new
lightning rod.  She signaled to Arthur , flashes of light from him to Liam
to Joseph , and Joseph's pleasure exceeded anything that he could ever hope
to manage .  Vibrations of pleasure cascaded into Jacque and Joshua , and
Sath knew the time was now.

   Thierry licked Joseph's toes and and the soles of his feet , urging them
to relax.  "We will not , we cannot hurt you Joseph , Let us do it Joseph"
.

   Her fingers stripped both boys prepucial rings to maximum stretch ,
forcing the thin foreskin rapidly over the reddish purple knob called the
glans penis.  "Lungs and hearts of Jacque and Joshua absorbed the excess
pleasure from Josephs shaft at the same time as their own foreskins
avalanched down their shafts , moving like snow sliding on Mt.  Everest ,
everything synchronized by Sath's rib locked power of concentration and
lips on Joseph's new lightning rod .  The information stage now completed ,
Jacque's penis and Joshua's penis and Josephs penis exploded into sudsing
whiteness , frenzied gushers of life force spewed into the world and into
Sath's throat, a by-product of the dna activation process .  Jacque and
Joshua and Joseph comatosed as cold white snow plasma engulfed their minds
. Their minds unable to handle the power of the spacial aliens healing
processes.  Sath continued to hold Joseph in her mouth , the spacial beings
intensified again .  Becoming aware of Joseph's hardness expanding again
and again , unable to stop her lips and tongue on Joseph , and not wanting
to stop anyway .  Her hands registered the returning hardness from the
comatose boys , and she knew that the final registration of new dna and
flesh was imminent .  Sath's rib cage and breasts and nipples glowed with
the white plasma flows entering her body from Liam and Arthur .  Her own
senses knew orgasm was impossible to stop and that she would have to
control the final dna activations for Joseph at the same time .  George and
Thierry relaxed , knowing that the process was now far beyond their
capacity to understand.  They watched as Sath generated a cocoon of living
orgasmic white ringed flesh around Joseph's denuded shaft .  They felt the
unconscious boys intensities as Sath squeezed their glans into pencil sized
cylinders of orgasmic flesh as her tongue lathered layer upon layer of new
cocoon like whitish translucent skin cells around Joseph's tube . 
Disciplining herself , holding herself from the orgasmic dream the three
boys now entered , Sath completed the building of congealed living pale
white flesh over Josephs shaft and then she added an inch more for good
measure , leaving only a tiny hole for pee just as the second dream like
waves of cum flooded forth again.  Joshua and Jacque and Joseph's body
comatose , held still by the power of the aliens , but ejaculated in spite
of their power , demonstrating the evolutionary human life force.  Finally
letting go of Joseph's lightning rod she held Joshua and Jacque , fingers
gripping their purplish glans so hard that cum blasted through right to the
ceiling , it's smell evaporating into the air , letting her own life force
free , Sath's lungs produced a low harmonicing woman like hum reverberating
through all present , continuing in modulation as Liam and Arthur held her
immobile through their dextrous extensions locked to her ribs.  Sath pumped
Joshua and Jacque until new spurts of boy fluid zapped into the charged air
, seeming to evaporate into Liam and Arthur beings .  She examined Joseph
in the operating theater lightning generated by the process.  Joseph's
shaft .  Josephs tube was now embedded with an inch thick coating , a
cocoon wrapped around his shaft from the advent of the bulbocavernosa
muslse to the glans meatus plus an inch , a pale cocoon encased Joseph's
shaft .

   Sath and George and Thierry noticed the bathroom lighting return to
normal .  The water stopped .  They're eyes re -accustomed to the low level
window light .  Liam and Arthur entities were gone .  Jos and Jo and Jac
were comatose.

   They began to tidy their surroundings.  , pitching their wet clothes ,
redressing in clothes provided by George.

   Jacque and Josuha woke first finding themselves in Arthur's bed with
Joseph tucked between them.  Stomach muscles growling for food.  Jos stayed
beside Joseph .  Jac put on boxer shorts and staggering , like a hung-over
drunk , wandered upstairs unsure of time or day .  Emerging into kitchen
and seeing no one , but noticing note on fridge .  "Jos or Jac , do not
leave Joseph alone , nor wake him" , Jac read the date and time twice . 
"Yikes , we have slept thirty two hours , have never done that
before---what the fuuc , were we drinking , where were we , can't remember
yesterday "!  George caught up with him getting water from the fridge . 
"Liam gave us instructions for his brother , before he left .  The
operation performed on Joseph must be allowed to heal for two days , before
Joseph walks again .  By that time , it is expected that his blood
capillaries and lymphatic system will be developed enough to continue
growing the new foreskin flesh .  I apologize for keeping you and Jac here
another two days .  I really hope you will stay with Joseph , until he gets
mobile , and secondly , we do not want Joseph to get any stimulation
leading to erections for a couple of days .  Have called everyone of your
friends and parents letting them know that an extra-ordinary event has
occurred to Jo and that we will let them know progress reports.  Your dad
has been keenly interested in Jo 's progress.  You should tell him every
fact that you remember , when the time is right.  And remember that your
dad is a human like you , only wounded , and I suspect badly wounded like
Jo .  ---- Make sure that you or Jos stays with him until his mind consumes
the new facts .  Remember that each time you learn new things , your mind
sometimes interprets them in a destructive manner .  Circumcision is
inhumane , cruel and every other word of stink found on the planet . 
Circumcision was used by the sultans of Persia to change kidnapped Balkan
boys from fun loving mammals to cold blooded killer soldiers ,
Jannissaries. It alters the mind irrevocably .  In Joseph's situation ,
significant mind altering has already been done to repair the circumcision
damage , starting with Joshua's attacks levied on Joseph in the hospital ,
in oder to convince him to suck Thierry.  Arthur has told Sath that they
were called to earth by forces beyond their own comprehension with
instruction to take Jo with them .  Only your and Joshua's intervention
saved Jo to stay another year on earth.  Actually , it seems that a wolf
intervened also.  Jac, I know that Thierry is special to you and that Jo is
special to Thierry, and because of that bonding , your twin also has bonded
with Joseph .  I do not know where this is going but then I never pretended
to know future events , but I would say , as you already know , Joseph is
more than a tortured street urchin picked up by Thierry .  I love him
because Arthur is gone , and now I realize that Arthur and Liam somehow
saved this boy because your friend Thierry started the progress when he met
Jo.  The progress would have ended if Thierry had died from the pool
accident .  Thierry did not die , Thierry connected you to a tortured
street urchin needing more help than any hospital on this planet could
provide .  Perhaps all sentient beings on earth have some ability to help
one another.  In my experience , it would seem that Jo's career will go
farther than any of us imagine , because he has suffered and won over the
blackest deeds of organized religion .  Joseph Alnot , half breed
Indian-Irish orange-green war survivor -raised by residential school abused
grandfather , and the streets of Toronto , has friends way beyond our
universe , and way back in our universe judging from the wolf in the
valley. To you , perhaps more so for your brother , these concepts , are
self evident .  For me , I have spent a whole lifetime to acknowledge this
level of being .

   The caterer has prepared piles of good to eat easy to carry foods . 
Please grab a quick snack , whatever you want , then go to Jo.  Let Joshua
return here where I will give him this information.  Am leaving the
situation in your capable paws .  Thierry has already left to stay with
Jayr , agreeing that he has done all that he could for Jo, and is looking
forward to your progress reports on Jo .  Jayr is aware of the
extra-spacial healing and he has promised to watch , stay with , sleep with
, whatever it takes to keep Thierry stable , for even good deeds can
unleash troubled thoughts on us uncomprehending humans.."

   Jacque refreshed himself eating a few apples and oranges in the cold
shower , grabbed a huge glass of milk for Jos and returned to Arthurs room
. Within minutes Jos returned to the kitchen , getting the same information
and food as Jac .  Then he returned to Joseph's bedside to watch him sleep
off the operation effects.  Jos and Jac signaled each other some primitive
agreements on how to manage Joseph for one more day.

   George alerted everyone of the new status reports , including the girl
twins on their almost completed vacation .  Over the next day or two Sath
and Bill attended regularly, every one agreeing that Toronto had failed
Liam , but would NOT FAIL JOSEPH.  Jayr was contacted hourly to issue
reports for Thierry's well being.

   Joshua and Jacque spent the next six hours with Joseph feeling and
watching every move and breath , but not so close as to wake him.  They
took a flashlight under the covers and checked his tube , hourly .  At
first , cocoon like silky white flesh , then pinking as blood capillaries
developed , then shrinking tighter to the existing base skin , then blueing
as the growing flesh outstripped the oxygen supply and , then pinking again
, then shrinking thinner .  They kept cool water for sponge baths of the
new flesh and plastic bags in case his kidneys needed room for waste water.
Joseph rolled in his sleep , almost said words a couple of times then
drifted back into dreamland.  Jos and Jac finger padded his muscles from
head to toe and back again , constantly monitoring for any sign of distress
.  At supper time they took turns away from him , always skin to skin
contact with him somewhere.  After they had eaten both boys attended Joseph
.  They wrapped themselves around him fetal position .  His lips and tongue
and fingers searching for one boy or the other constantly , as though
Joseph was in an embriotic sac with the boy twins .  By the next day , the
cocoon of flesh was forming a shape , very similar to Jac and Jos tubes .
White color was displaced by pinkish tinge .  Bluish-red rivers of high
pressure blood vessels advanced from the center of his tube into the newly
formed cocoon of skin , capillaried through the thin dual layers of
foreskin folding meshing and emerging into bluish veins traversing Joseph's
tube , exiting on the surface , carrying the living fluid back into pelvic
circulation.  Joseph lips sucked his own thumb , until Jac located a baby
bottle and gave him filtered crushed oranges and milk.  Josephs hands
explored .  His fingers located his own growing flesh , thumb and each
finger on each hand padding the new flesh with gentleness like touching
jello .  Jo 's face was touching his face , when his tongue licked Jos'
lips .  His fingers squeazed Jos' tube , as though it too were made of
jello.  By day three Jo had explored every inch of Jos and then he sought
out Jac.  For the next day his lips licked Jac not just face but chest and
belly button and everywhere.  He seemed to want more ,.  Jac let him locate
his own tube , which Jo licked , sniffed , and breathed.  George and Sath
and Bill were watching on the fourth day when Jo sought after Jos again
pulling him close so close that his body surface contacted Jos everywhere ,
and then rooting around till he discovered Jos tube , licking , smelling ,
finally tonguing Jos prepucial rings , then touching them with his fingers
, again with the gentleness of picking up jello .  Jos was face to face
with his pinkish new prepucial film like skin, could see the nubile raphe
along the bottom .  Jos moved his mouth so close to Jo 's new skin ,
carefully , gently patted the new film with his tongue.  There were no
rules now , The aliens had known that Jos would know what to do when the
time was right.  Jo began to dump urine stopping and starting as though in
a game of yellow water.  The twins collected it in sandwich bags , which
Sath took back to the lab for anaylsis.  Jo 's tube rippled now , cremaster
sensing the new front end pulling it tight letting it go massaging his
testicles as a normal sleeping boy would after puberty.  More juice and
milk and on the fifth day Jo said "daidi" and later "mathair" , then
Thierry , Jos , and Jac.  His hands now searching Jos , Jac .  Thierry came
to him stripped and snuggled him .  Jo searched him finger padded him and
located his preputial rings with fingers and lips , then back to his own
flesh , now thin , translucent , displaying the full glans deep inside his
foreskin , with visible arteries and veins pulsing life blood through the
new capillaries , shedding pee more often now , requiring sponge baths . 
Thierry was face to face with Jo and he opened his eyes in the dim room
lighting , lips and eye brows and cheeks puffy from such a long horizontal
stretch.  "Love you Thierry" , then back to sleep .  Thierry went home and
Jos took his place .  Again Jo touched , finger patted Jos temples ,
forehead , neck , everywhere down to his preputial rings and beyond to his
toes and soles and Jos answered with his own finger patted signals .  Jos
opened his eyes again .  "Jos , Jac , I love you".  Jos whispered back , "I
love you too Jo".  Jo turned to Jac , same routine and then "I love you
Jac" .  Jac answered , "I love you Jo".  His lips formed a smile .  They
kissed Jac and then Jos .  Then Jos said "Would you like to get up with me
Jo".  "Yes Jos , will you help me get up" ?  Jos and Jack lifted him out of
bed turned his body to standing and let his toes on the floor to test their
strength.  They let his weight transfer slowly as his nervous system , his
muscles powered up.  Then they picked him up and put him back on the bed .
In an hour the same routine , this time they took him to the bathroom ,
sponge bathed his body , spilling warm skin temperature water on his
glistening pinkish pale shaft.  They held him upright as his bladder
unloaded , gave him more juice , more milk , until his jaws started to
operate.  The twins came home from vacation.  They travelled to George's
residence , briefed by George and Sath and Bill.  Jen and Jes descended the
stairs into Arthur's room.  Jes pulled Jac to herself and Jen attached to
Jos .  Thierry was there , he lead Jo around until his walking automated .
Jo met Sath , hugged her , kissed her mouthed her face , leaving her
breathless with his power.  "I love you Sath" , and she replied "I love you
too, Jo" .  "Thierry loves you , Jos loves you , Jac loves you , George
loves you , Bill loves you".  "I know" , replied Jo.  "Liam loves me" . 
"Arthur loves me" .  "Ru loves me".  Sath replied , "I know Jo , Ru loved
you in the valley.  Ru loves me also .  I go to the valley every year on
the special day and Ru licks my face .  Ru protects you Jo .  Each of us
protects you , until your strength returns" .  Jos and Jac returned with
Jen and Jes.  They met Sath and George and Bill again , conversing of
everything except Jo.  Jen and Jes hugged Jo .  He kissed each one of them
, as Jac and Jos watched.  "They turned to George "Can we take Jos and Jac
to the loft" ?  "George smiled "Of course".  Jo looked at Jos , "May I go
with you and Jac and Jen and Jes" .  Two sets of identical twins answered
"Yes Jo".  Thierry and Sath helped him walk up to the loft , following the
twins.  They could feel his strength increasing.  George asked if they
would like to eat in the loft and all answered "Yes and also lets everyone
go to the loft for supper"?  George called the caterers for food , and
found clothes for the three boys who had worn nothing for many days. 
Everyone dressed , caterers serving and everyone ate.  They watched Jo
nibble and then mouth as his stomach and food handling system returned to
his nervous system.  One thing was left to return to his sub conscious
brain .  No one mentioned it during supper or after.  Everyone left leaving
Jo in the loft with Jac , Jos , Jen and Jes .  Jo listened intently , aloof
, as Jos and Jac explaining to Jen and Jess , every thing that happened ,
the accident , their hospital including Jac near death , and Thierry worse
, the hospital release , including Jos sucking Jac and the shower with
Sath. Every truth was mentioned over the next four hours.  Then the twins
filled in Jac and Jos about vacation.  Jo listened , watched , learned. 
Finally he spoke about his life to the girl twins .  They cried , they
hugged , they cried again , so many times that the girls ran out of tears ,
as Jos and Jac sat stoic , listening .  They watched Jo , his reactions ,
his manner.  Jo 's voice was steady , concise , without fear and pain ,
only logic .  The girl twins asked about his new flesh .  He smiled ,
rolled back on the soft chairs , arms above his head in a signal to Jen and
Jes .  They moved closer , opened his fly , and peered inside .  Jen and
Jes lifted it out so gently , as though it was made of jello .  Whispering
"It's identical to Jos and Jac , except the snout is a half centimeter
longer".  They stripped all the clothes from Jac and Jos and Jo.  Compared
their bodies with ooh and aah as each boy was examined .  The twins
stripped themselves .  They took the boys into the shower and finally
returned to the huge bed as it rolled out of the wall .  Jo took a seat
away from the bed.  He watched the twins play , learning fitting his own
logic around the life force of love as it flowed from boy to girl and back
again .  He watched Jos and Jac succumb to the power and need of the the
girl twins as they riding the boys like ships anchored to living posts.  He
watched the girl twins caught in the grips of unbridled lust by the the two
boys .  Jo felt their orgasms and ejaculation running his fingers along the
twins back and breasts as they neutralized each other after long weeks of
separation.  All the while Jos and Jac studied Jo for reaction from his
tube.  There was none, but Jo seemed to be gaining strength absorbing power
from the twins.  Eventually morning arrived with the sun , finding Jos and
Jen snuggled on one side and Jes and Jac on the other side with Jo in the
middle.

   Chapter 52 : the city revisited

   They dressed and shaved and found George in his bed on the main floor.
Jo awoke him with kisses and hugs , pulling the old gentleman to his feat
and into the shower , shaving his face and helping him dress while the
twins prepared breakfast of sausage , and egg , and toast , and fresh
squeezed juice , and milk.  They agreed that Jo was a different person , a
confidant person , proud person yet humble , a slight Irish accent with a
fast spoken lilt.  Jo was in fact the boy , he would have been if the
circumcisers had never visited him, but he was more than that .  Every hour
he seemed stronger, as though knowledge of his friends was being converted
to strength and character within his biology.  They dressed as normal boys
would except Jac wore an extra hoodie over one of Arthur's satin shirts. 
That day began with the twins taking Jo with them to the sights and sounds
of a downtown bustling city , towering skyscrapers connected by underground
trains.  They squeezed on a bench , Jo in the center , watched the traffic
, the crowds , street cars , buses , bicycles , cars , and the street
merchants.  The twins watched Jo smile , in bright city sunlight , his red
hair curled in the breeze , pinkish Irish cheeks with the odd freckle but
with the Native prominent cheek bone.  His shirt , actually one of Arthur's
shirts top three buttons undone , sunlight illuminating two or three
reddish chest hairs.  Rays providing a hint of the young collar bones under
the shirt.  Jo enjoyed the new city , a city he had never seen , though he
had lived there for sixteen years.  His vision learned , collected ,
absorbed the scenery of bustle , occasionally glancing at the eyes and
faces of his friends , wondering why they were studying him , yet enjoying
being looked at , because inside his body was whole , perfect as a half
breed.  Jac providing , acting as tour guide , they boarded a street car
and jostled north ward , stopped , disembarked into a treed area .  The
twins smiled at each other , poked each other .  Jo imitated their radiance
, gaining more knowledge of ancient social customs as practiced in a modern
upbeat city.  He watched the streams of new comers , blending with
established professionals hippie type beings and street merchants selling
the masses what they wanted.  Then they boarded a subway, popping out in
the city where Jo went to high school , purchased sandwiches at the subway
station.  Jac continued talking pointing out the best of every neighborhood
.  When he finally seemed to be looking for words .  Jo took over , walking
ahead of them leading the twin sets to the places where he had sought
refuge in his previous life.  Jo showed them a small opening between two
buildings , through which they walked , entering a clearing bounded by
walls on all sides.  A huge sheppard dog met them.  He sniffed Jo , who
gave him the last of his sandwich.  The dog confronted the twins , sniffed
them , looked at Jo and let them enter.  It was a private spot in a giant
city , a place to sit away from the tides of people.  An old man approached
them , smiling at Jo , and Jo smiling back for the first time ,
acknowledging his existence.  They were sitting beside a shrine, maintained
by one of the nameless institutions providing people in need with what they
needed.  The old man sat on the ground in front of them , excited
displaying life as it should be .  The twins watched him lean forward to
touch Jo 's fingers , cautiously but gently as he had done a thousand time
before to a frightened boy in a giant city.  This time the boy stood his
ground , he did not run away .  Jo relaxed his knees , not jamming them
together not hiding his hands and fingers and crying .  The old man , took
his fingers like he would hold a dogs paw , respectfully , he bowed and
returned his eyes to Jo , smiling unafraid , enjoying this encounter as he
had dreamed that it could happen.  The old man withdrew and approached each
of the twins individually , same routine , taking their paw , bowing ,
returning his gaze to their face , until he had met Jos and Jac and Jen and
Jes.  The old man made a sound , and the dog appeared it checked over the
twins , then went to Jo , raised it's paws on to Jo 's pants and moved in
close between his legs nuzzling Jo , licking his throat and neck .  The
twins on either side of Jo rested their hands on the dog's neck .  Jo
remembering things from previous visits , under dire circumstances , of
sleeping here in the court yard wrapped up by this giant dog , of cowering
from the old man's basic attempts for communication, but choosing to stay
because no where else existed in his mind.  Jo reached is arms around the
dogs back , pulled him close to his cheeks , and thanked the dog .  Then he
stood up , smiled and faced the old man pulled the old man into his chest
and bear hugged him for minutes , trance like , but smiling , cheek to
cheek with the old gentleman .  "Welcome , young man , you have come to
show me your friends".  Jo stepped back from the old man .  Leading him to
Jacque and Jessica .  "Welcome Jacque and Jessica" and on to Joshua and
Jennifer , "Welcome Joshua and Jennifer".  The twins hugged the old man
politely , sensing that this old gentleman had kept Jo alive many times. 
When they finished the greetings , the old man smiled at all of them .  "I
knew Liam first.  He brought Jo here many times two most beautiful brothers
on this planet.  When Liam left , I tried , but this boy was inconsolable.
He could not approach me , nor tell me , so we greeted each other through
Ra holding our paws".  The dog appeared on hearing his name.  The twins
watched happy eye droplets forming in the old man's eyes.  His leathered
face wearied from thousands of hapless souls asking for help.  "This makes
up for all the storm in the universe , whispered the old man".  My green
eyed friend has brought to me , not one friend , not two friends , not
three , but four beautiful earths creatures .  Thankyou Jo , I am grateful
to you, because my universe has expanded by knowing you and now you have
knocked out all the walls that were blocking my progress.  I saw you at the
viaduct last week.  I heard your ancient communication with Ru .  I also
heard two other puppies using the same language" .  He turned to Jos and
Jac: , "Joshua and Jacque , you kept Jo on this earth , when he would have
abandoned it.  You chose to shelter him when no one else could , and now he
is growing , strong , a friend , an ally , a green eyed lost boy with all
the knowledge of street warfare and humiliation is now standing with us as
equals.  His humbleness does hide strengths and skills that we may never
know.
Congratulations on your new ally .  Even , as a down trodden street kid
, he has friends in high places.  There must be great hope among them as

they monitor his progress.

   Joseph listened , imaging himself before , and now.  "It is true , I
came here for my mind to die , but with each visit Ra lent me the will to
survive until the next visit.  And when Liam died , Ru came to me and
pulled me from drowning myself in the river .  I am yet a boy , a half
breed Irish Indian cross.  My first dream on this earth was from my
mother's womb , not knowing when I would enter a beautiful earth.  But this
planet was not beautiful for me.  I was cut in a horrific ritual with
illogical values imposed on my mind .  Soon my parents would abandon me ,
to my grandfather , his own world trashed by the residential school system
. I do have friends in high places , remote spacial entities willing to
help me.  I hope that I can fulfill their dreams .  Jacque , and Joshua
linked with Jennifer and Jessica .  Thank you for pulling me through my
darkest days .  I sense that our lives are intertwined on this earth .

   The thing called man is now much more than a benign life form on a giant
water globe rotating through space .  Man is capable now of destroying this
planet .  I am a man and I want to defer the destruction as long as
possible.  Perhaps that is why they look after me.

   Chapter 53 : The Streets cough up a new victim.

   The old man sat on the ground with Ra watching them preparing to leave
the compound .  Ra spotted a new visitor , a girl with international gray
eyes was entering the street gate.  Her light gray hair matted , maybe
loused , dirty clothes , wrecked shoes , knotted laces and broken belt on
her slacks.  She was sullen , not knowing why she was coming through the
gate , but Ra knew .  He pulled her sleeve toward them , to the old man .
The old man offered his paw , but she would not touch it.  Ra offered his
paw .  She took it in her dirty hands and put her cheek on it , softly
crying without tears , nor expression , voluntarily collapsed at the dogs
feet .  Ra licked her neck and ears, lay down beside her.  The old man
retrieved some granola bars and water , offering it to her.  She accepted
nothing , so he left the water in a bowl for Ra and the granola bars beside
her.  Ra continued to clean her face and cheeks.  She lowered her head and
drank some of his water.  Then she took the granola bar and broke it in
half , eating one side and giving the other to Ra.  The twins watched her
eat the bar .  Jo approached her , got down on the walk to her level.  They
faced each other , a green eyed boy staring into grayish blue eyes and
recognition flickered , extinquished , flickered into existence again.  She
put her paw out toward Jo and he kissed her paw.  It was enough for her. 
She turned to leave , but Jo said "Wait young one , there is more here than
meets the eye .  Stay with us" .  She stopped .  The old man retrieved
another bar and more water.  She took it , without asking and ate ,
drinking more water from Ra's bowl.  "How old are you" ?  Queried Jo.  "You
were in my high school class.  I know you .  I gave you my old coat last
winter" .  The girl stared at Jo , small glistening drops forming in the
corners of her eyes.  Jo put his arms around her carefully , pulled her to
her feet as he stood up.  "Young one , come with us".  She looked at Jo and
his friends .  "You are beautiful , I am am ugly".  Then Jac peeled off his
hoodie , removed the satin shirt and handed it to Jo , putting the hoodie
back over his chest.  The girl watched Jo 's eyes .  They communicated ,
unspeaking .  She stood , let him pull off her dirty blouse.  Unbuttoned
her bra and dropped it on Ra .  The old man and Ra and the twins watched Jo
viewing her , studying her bare breasts in the bright sunshine , watching
her grayish hair move over her shoulders.  Jo lifted her arms , fed them
through the satin shirt sleeves and buttoned the buttons over her breasts.
"You are now one of us , I remember your name , Una .  Come with us , the
old gentleman and Ra need some time to recharge".  The group watched her
transformation from street kid to satin shirt radiance.  Her nipples
unrestrained visible through the shirt fabric.  They retraced their path
across the city , , ending at George's apartment , two set of identical
twins Jen and Jes with matching blouses displaying the J between their
breasts, Jac and Jos with khaki cargo pants , a small J etched on their
belt buckles, and a former street kid-boy and a broken girl in a satin boy
shirt , from the same high school in Toronto.

   Jo found George and Bill still conversing in the loft .  He led Una to
George .  "Daidi" , please see my friend .  Her name is Una.  "George and
Bill studied Una , -- defeated face , slouched body language , wrecked
shoes knotted laces , filthy jeans.  "Hello Una" , whispered George.  "Hi
Una" , said Bill , "I guess I should get going , See you later all" , high
fiving Jo and the twins on his way out.  The twins left George alone with
Jo and Una , returning to the main floor and preparing supper.

   George gave Una a short tour of the loft noting her demeanor interacting
with Jo.  In spite of Una's condition , her body elicited response from Jo
. Una was not totally destroyed , as Jo was , when George first met him .
Una was down but he sensed a short term down .  Jo was responding to her
and she was responding to him.

   He left the boy and girl alone.  Jo removed her satin shirt led her into
the shower , the radiant lighting the warm soft spray , removed all her
filthy clothes .  He returned to one of the chairs and watched Una , water
streaming down her cheeks and breasts .  She looked frightened , so he
stripped off all his clothes and joined her , then washing her from head to
toe over his fingers massaging her everywhere .  Una was tired and hungry .
Jo visited the main floor and gathered food trays for the two of them . 
They ate in silence .  "Jo , I am not what you think".  "I do not think" ,
said Jo.  "I just need to recover for a few days , and I will be gone .  I
cannot pay".  "I do not expect pay".  Jo watched a tear form in her eye as
she dozed in and out of consciousness.  He located more of Arthur's clothes
, boxer shorts and tee shirt , slipped them on to her body, and walked half
carried her to the loft bed.  She curled into a ball , and Jo beside her.



   Chapter 54 Una

   In the morning Jac and Jos and Jennifer and Jessica returned to the
farm, with hugs and good byes for George and Jo , and Una.  George and Jo
took Una to the street clinic.  She took all the tests for std's and , then
visited the doctor for a check over.  Jo cornered the doctor as Una
redressed .  "Is she going to be ok" ?  "Has she suffered abuse" ?  "Is she
virgin" ?  The doctor laughed "fine".  "Physically ok , though weak from
lack of food".  "She is a wonderful young lady.  She deserves privacy
regarding virginity".  " I can not tell her mental state , whether abused
or not".  They returned to George's residence .  Una and George and Jo sat
in the main floor room.  Jo went to the kitchen to prepare lunch.  Una and
George talked about her parents , about what she did after her parents
left. "Una , why did you go to the compound" .  "I don't know.  Last winter
, my parents split .  My dad stayed for a while , but he showed , me he was
a crack addict , that I had a full life ahead of me , and that he had none.
He told me that my mother was also addicted , and that she would not be
back.  Jo saw me in math class , followed me out of the school and gave me
his coat.  He brought me to the compound , but I would not stay there alone
, and he could not help me further .  Yesterday , I knew I had to go
someplace , to survive." "Where are your parents now" ?  "I don't know". 
"Are they looking for you" ?  "No , they are looking for themselves".

   Jo called them to the kitchen , for lunch.  Una ate readily ,
apologizing for having no money , and George told her , "Ok".  Afterward ,
she told them her story , about parents gone , frightened at night , hiding
under her bed with druggies breaking into her apartment , taking whatever
they needed to get the next high.  "You called 911" ?  "No phone" .  "You
went to a police station." ?  "The police would think I was a prostitute
--- I am not a that , I've never did that" .  "Una , you may stay here ,
until you decide what is right for you .  We will help you .  In two or
three days you will start to feel alive again".  "Jo is here because he
needed help , learning to control his life .  The two of you seem
destined". Thierry came over often to see Jo and Una over the next couple
of days.  They played much of Arthur's music and watched many of his movie
collection.  Her stamina improving , every day , Una and Jo and Thierry
searched out bargain clothes , wearing Arthur's satin shirt , laundered by
George's house cleaning staff.  They found themselves in a big department
store.  Una led them to the womens section.  Jo and Thierry held bra's
around their chests modeling them for Una.  "I like this one".  "So do I" ,
added Thierry wrapping it around his chest , to the consternation of the
store's security staff.  "Hey look , you can get two of these for one
price" , as he wrapped one bra on his face and another across his chest".
Una began to smile again .  Her laughter , echoed inside Jo and the fun
loving Thierry.  Thierry knew that he was loosing Jo to this most pretty
girl .  Both boys watched her daily character improve and her radiant body
as she purchased the bras on George's card , tucked them inside a bag
provided by the clerk.  They loved her best without a bra , the gentle
bulges of her chests , tiny nipples showing through Arthur's satin shirt .
Una's eyes checked over the bulge in Thierry's trousers.  She knew her
effect on Thierry but not on Jo.  She had seen him without clothes.  She
had slept with him two or three nights , and Jo was inert, neutral .

   Back in George's residence , she talked to George after Jo and Thierry
had taken off downtown together.  "Are you feeling better now Una". 
"George , I am so happy here .  But I feel that Jo does not really like
me". "Jo brought you here".  "Maybe , just out of pity" ?  "How so". 
"Today , I started to feel on top of the world.  I am healed .  Jo and
Thierry came into the little little booth where you try on clothes with me.
They fitted me with a new bra , tucking it firmly around my , ahh --"
"Breasts" , added George , "You are a gorgeous girl , Una.  You make me
wish that Arthur had spent more time with girls".  "For sure" , continued
Una.  "Thierry and I and Jo in that tiny booth , me with Arthur's satin
shirt , off , and both of them clowning around fitting me with bras.  I
brushed Thierry's trousers, and his you Knohhh , Know , boy thing was hard
. I guess I thought , yeah , that happens to them , but Jo was not
excited". "Why" ?  "I don't know , I saw Jo in the shower with me , he made
me feel wanted , almost like a brother would have helped me.  George , Jo
is the most gorgeous boy.  But his boy thing is deformed.  "No Una , you
are wrong , Jo is a perfect boy .  Una , Jo does not know that he is a
perfect boy yet".  "Thierry loved him even when he was not perfect -----" ,
and George told Una some of the general details of Jo 's life , not wanting
to frighten her , but to let her know , that Jo was brutally circumcised ,
--- about the new body that Jo now has , and the new mind that he is
developing.

   Una looked at George , frightened , tears , sobbing , "I am afraid for
Jo .  I knew a girl in public school.  She talked to me cause I often
smiled at her .  Two years ago , I heard that she killed herself by jumping
from the viaduct .  Her parents came from Africa.  One day her two uncles
came , and cut her genitals.  This was before I knew her.  She was always
so frightened when any boy came near her.  I went to her home once.  When I
was alone for a few minutes her brother came into her room .  He showed me
his great big boy thing .  Jo is not like that at all.  His boy thing is
covered with a long whitish skin and it never gets big .  "Una , Jo IS now
normal.  The brother of your girl friend who jumped was also circumcised.
Boy circumcision affects every victim differently , - many survive their
entire lifetime , never knowing what is wrong , or even if there is a
wrong. If you cut one fin from gold fish when it is born , and if it
survives , it will swim crazily for the rest of it's life , it's tiny brain
trying to keep it swimming straight , without ever understanding that it
was crippled.  Perhaps it is an evolutionary trait that allows a mammal to
block out the trauma of having it's flesh ripped off at a young age. 
George cupped his hands on Una's face , looked into the soft blue-gray eyes
, "Jo is normal now.  His circumcision was undone , was repaired by forces
beyond this planet.  He is normal , but he does not know that , because his
operation was only a week ago.  His logical mind knows that he is normal ,
-cured .  His subconscious mind is till exploring , learning about the four
hundred million new nerve cells.  "George , I am not so , now so frightened
for Jo." "I hope that he gets better soon".  George told Una about his own
son , Arthur's death ant the pool accident events and how it happened that
Jo was with George.  He told her about Thierry and Jo , and about Joshua's
prediction , in the event that when Jo recovers , he discovers girls,
instead of boys.  George and Una talked about her parents again , and where
they might be , and when they were done talking Una had learned so much .
She fell asleep leaning on George.

   When Thierry and Jo returned , they found Una sleeping in a soft chair
in the loft leaning against George watching the sun set over the skyline.
Thierry and Jo made supper and then joined George and Una in the loft to
eat.  Thierry and Jo decided Una should go for a couple of days into the
country , and George agreed.  "I will arrange to pick you up when you want
, to come back" .

   Jo called Joshua , and as usual Joshua made the arrangements for them to
stay in the old farm house , consulting with Jac and his dad and mother now
living in Toronto , and with Jen and Jes.

   Chapter 55 Una and Jo visit the countryside , camping.

   The next day Thierry and Jo and Una traveled to the country side , a
wonderous trip for Una , who had never lived outside the city.  They met up
with Jos and Jac around 10:00.  Jos and Jac had lots of things lined up for
them , partly through help from Jen and Jes who were still doing farm
chores.  "Jo , Una , Thierry , we're going fishing in the trout pond. 
We've got poles and fishing tackle and matches and a hatchet.  We have a
lunch packed and plenty to drink.  Are you up for it guys?  "Yes man". 
"Sure".  "Maybe".  "-Maybe- is a bit soft" , stated Jos and Jac to Una. 
"We'll take a butterfly net for you".  "Ok".  The new comers stowed their
baggage in the old farm house.  After some preparation time , everyone
congregated on the path leading to the trout pond.  Jos and Jac noted that
Jen and Jes had finished the farm chores.  They stalled the group for a few
minutes explaining fishing techniques and how to cook trout.  Jen and Jes
arrived carrying two folded four person pup tents.  "Hi everyone , we have
tent space for eight puppies" , laughed Jes.  "Are we stayin in the
wilderness all night" ?  "Yes Una.  Can you do that." "H'mmm , I ge-guess
so".  "Everyone , wear old clothes and carry personal medication if you
have any .  We will be leaving into the forest in ten minutes." Jos and Jac
made last minute checks assembled blankets and ground mats and everyone
started the trek back the path behind the old house.  Jes and Jen took Una
with them leading the way.  Jac , Thierry , Jos and Jo followed carrying
the tents , food , drinks , and bedding .  Mid morning sun made each part
of the walk in the shade enjoyable.  The group gradually spread out over
thirty meters , or so , as Jos and Jac and Jo labored under the warm sun
conditions , walking quickly in the sun , then slowly in the shady path
areas , allowing their sweat to perform it's cooling function.  Jen and Jes
had slowed a bit to give Jo and the twin boys a break from carrying the
camp supplies.  Jo continued forging ahead as the path seemed well defined
at that point.  Jos , Jac and Thierry and Jo wanted to stop for a yellow
water break.  They put down the loads , as Jen and Jes slowed to wait for
them.  The boys stepped off the path to release , when --.  "Ahhh ahh
aaalp" , reached their ears.  They rushed forward to help Una , already
attended by Jen as Jes arrived.  "Someting there, T-here it is" , yelled
Una .  Jo jumped in front of her , grabbed her as she fainted .  Jos and
Jac vaulted past him with Jes and Jen .  "It's there in that thicket
whispered Jo , I can feel her fear .  Back up , back up" , commanded Jo
passing Una to Jen.  He neeled in the soft grass , remaining motionless ,
staring into the overgrown shrubbery long ago escaped from residential
confines.  "Back up everyone , Sit down , be very quiet , do not breathe".
Every one sat in the long vegetation.  "Be careful Jo" whispered Jen , as
Una recovered in her arms , staring at Jo.  Jo was showing no fear.  He
waited , watched , waited until Una wanted to run to him .  "No Una , stay
there, I'm ok , wait you will see".  Jo whispered to Jos , "I need a piece
of meat from our food supplies".  Jos and Jac retreated quietly , dragged
the supplies forward and retrieved two boiled eggs from a cold bag , -
handed them forward to Jo , motionless arms outstretched palms upward
facing the thicket.  Jo began to make noises , language , words from one of
earths oldest socialization .  Jo edged forward with the boiled eggs, then
retreated , then forward again slowly , ever so slowly , feeling ,
experiencing , the fabric of earth life's existence.

   A shape materialized from the shrubs , first a nose , then grayish paws
, then shoulders .  The wolf face eyed Jo and his group wearily.  She moved
completely into the light , yellow glowing eyes , ears back , showing the
tips of razor sharp eye teeth , crouched waiting , for Jo to acknowledge
her.  Jo edged backward , as did his group , giving her more room ,
returning her territory.  Her ears perked sullenly , the razor eye teeth
concealed in her mouth.  Jo uttered more guttural words .  The group
strained to hear and understand Jo 's language .  Jos and Jac smiled
understanding enough to whisper to Thierry and Jen and Jes , "wolf cubs".

   The group remained still as the grass and leaves , trying to blend into
them , as two tiny noses protruded from the shrubs , furry wolf cubs eyes
wide open staring at Jo , then eyes darting beyond Jo to the hushed group.
Tiny wild furry mammals materialized on both sides mostly under their
mother .  Una and Jen and Jes face melted , wanting to run forward and
touch them , but knowing that is not allowed between these two groups on
earth.  The cubs noses sniffing , tongues licking .  Jo sank lower into the
long grass , arms out stretched offering two boiled eggs.  Jos retreated
silently to the food supplies , retrieved two more eggs , forming his lips
and larynx making inaudible , but wolf understandable airy sounds from his
deep throat .  Very slowly , advancing in behind Jo and passing the eggs
forward.  The mother wolf crouched lower .  The cubs crouched , as the
three wolves moved closer , to Jo's fingers.  He placed the eggs on the
ground and backed up a foot , as the cubs and mother advanced at an angle
to the frozen humans. .  Jen and Jes , and Jo and Thierry could see the
mother's breasts waiting to be suckled , but these wolves were going to get
more .

   The cubs were perhaps half grown .  In human language , that would be
about fifteen years old.  They were strong with beautiful gray-brown fur
maintaining a position just inside the shadows of the trees and close
enough to their mother to feel her lungs and heart beat and the trust
developing between her and Jo .  Jo signaled that everyone was to lie flat
on the grass but to keep watching , understanding the social reaction
between mother and cubs .  Jo 's group watched spell bound without
breathing .  Ten minutes passed as the humans and wolves studied each other
, but the minutes seemed like seconds .  One wolf cub advanced another wolf
length to the egg on the ground , mouthed it backed up and released for his
mother.  Forward again , mouthing another egg , and retrieving it for his
sister cub , finally one more move to get the last egg for himself .  He
stood his ground watching Jo a mere wolf length away from his nose ,
sniffing , ears heightening .  "Can a wolf smile" , thought Jo.  He
whispered to the wild , yellow eyed half grown cub , backed up his mother
and sister cub , using guttural sounds from a location in his larynx , "We
come in peace , take our food , as your food".  Jo backed away from them ,
signaling his group to back up behind him.

   The male cub mouthed the egg , squeezed expertly , extracted the boiled
egg from the shell and swallowed it.  His mother and sister did the same.
They retreated backing up at a different angle , then disappeared into the
tree shadows.  Jen and Jes discussed what they had seen with Jo.  "Why did
they stand their ground , and growl at you Jo , Why did they not just stay
out of sight.  They remained in the grass sitting wondering , understanding
that three of the most beautiful and most frightening creatures on the
planet had accepted food from them .  No one moved , as Jo had not given
further signals , his mind trying , to fathom the reality .  Closing his
eyes , preparing his lips and throat , lengthening his neck and head
tipping back , he howled a short low level yip .

   Something answered , the same .  Feelings of fear and pain crashed
through his sub conscious , as the group watched.  Jo 's face contorted
understood the plight of his new friends.  Jo signaled his group to lie
down again.  A bigger wolf face appeared , shoulders , limping , dragging
one front quarter , paw useless and trapped by a double clamped jaw of
steel on a broken chain .  His teeth enamel chipped from severing a steel
chain , the big wolf stared at Jo , eyes crying in blinding pain.  "It's a
muskrat trap" , whispered Jes .  Jos edged forward .  "It will take two of
us to release it Jac." Jo remained still , as Jos and Jack moved to his
side.  "Thierry , we will need one of those steaks from the cold bag for
the wolf, to keep him from biting us".  Thierry undid the cold bag zipper ,
and moved forward with a partialy frozen steak removing the wrapper as he
edged forward, sweating with fear as he handed the steak off to Jo.  Jo
edged forward with Jac and Jos , within a wolf nose of the once proud
creature .  Jo could see the cub beyond the large male wolf waiting , or
guarding his father.  Jo was not sure.  "Fear is not an option , he
whispered to Jos and Jac.  I will offer him the steak and he will clamp it
in his teeth while you and Jac release both ends of the trap.  Can you do
it Jos and Jac" ?  "Yyes echoed both boy twins".  Jo made more larynx
noises telling the big wolf to have no fear, and to come forward.  "The
large male wolf edged closer dragging his useless paw , trap attached.  Jo
held the steak tightly with his fingers close to his chest as the big wolf
clamped his jaws to the other side of the steak.  "Now Jos-Jac , both paws
, squeeze those end clamps".  Both hands on each end clamp of the trap ,
biceps straining wrists expanding , Jos and Jack squeezed the clamps
allowing the trap to slip off the wolf's paw, the release of pain causing a
surge in the wolf' adrenalin and growling, severing the frozen steak as his
teeth slashed through it.  The wolf dropped the steak and licked his
wounded paw .  Jo , Jos and Jac remained exactly same.  The wolf backed up
a nose length and sat on his rear end in the grass , licking the paw ,
eying the boys , smelling their scent , learning their scent.  Jo
re-offered him his side of the severed steak.  The wolf looked into Jo 's
eyes and into Jos eyes and then Jac .  Each boy saw a slightly different
eye color in the wolf.  The wolf saw three siblings offering food ,
siblings who had released incredible pain.  He stood up and moved closer to
Jo lightly burying his nose in Jo 's belly .  Jo touched his head softly ,
remembering his brother and remembering his own times of weakness in the
valley.  His touch communicated thanks to the the wolf and the wolf licked
his belly , communicating thanks back , then backed away , taking the steak
with him .  He backed away until close to the male cub behind him turned
and dropped the steak for him , came forward and took the other piece ,
turned and carried it back into the thicket for the the female cub. 
Thierry had been watching from a safer distance with Jen and Jes.  He
returned once again to the food supply bag and returned with another boiled
egg , passing it ahead to Jac , who held it at arms length for the big
wolf. He stepped forward took the egg gingerly , backed away , crushed the
egg and ate the contents.  Then Jo and Jos and Jac backed away from the
animal rejoining their group of humans.

   Jen rushed to put her arms around Jos.  Una rushed to put her arms
around Jo.  Jes rushed to put her arms around Jac.  The girls kissed ,
hugged , sniffed , then licked the sweat off their boy.  Thierry sat back
watching the girls show their release of tension , watched them putting
their hands and fingers around their boy's ribs.  He picked up the supplies
and watched the shrubbery , imaging that the wolves were still in there ,
as Jo walked quietly behind him .  "Woof" , he shouted as Thierry's legs
jumped a foot in the air.  "Fuck me Jo , that scared me so bad , laughed
Thierry".  "Not sure about going that far Thierry , but thanks for bringing
that food forward.  It is not easy facing down a wolf in his own
environment".  Jac congratulated Thierry also and turned to Jo , "Awesome
Jo , the way you approached a pain crazed wolf , knowing what he wanted ,
and releasing his pain" .  "It's true" , stated Jo somberly , "I was in
that condition until Jos and Jac took me to George's residence with Sath
and Bill.  They worked with me and released my pain in similar fashion ,
and someday I will tell all of you , what I felt as they released my pain.
For now , believe it .  They set my mind free , as I set that wolf free".
"Jo , where did you learn to face animals in great pain".  "I faced my
grandfather , and I faced school bullies , showing no fear , just as Liam
taught me.  Now I have taught all of you how to do it".  "But you were
covered with sweat .  Would not the wolf smell fear in your sweat" , asked
Una ?  "Jes and Jen and You , Una marched us quickly for the first hour. 
We boys were already soaked in our own sweat , and also the sweat from our
, you know , our prep - .  "Prepuces" .  Stated Jen.  "Yes , it is true
boys our recognized by the smell of sweat and secretions under their
foreskin .  Tiny amounts of the foreskin scent are detected by the wolf .
"The wolf detected you as the alpha male of our group" , deduced Jen.  "And
Jen and I detected the difference in smell between Jos and Jac by their
foreskin smell also.  Excellent knowledge , we have learned here today" ,
stated Jes , "Now we need to get walking , to get to the second trout pond
where we camp.  There is a shallow beach area where we can clean up and
pitch the tents.

   Everyone gathered their personal supplies as the boys resumed carrying
the tents , blankets and food supplies.  Jes and Una and Jen set the pace
again , the trail rising forcing more effort on the three boys.  An hour
later they emerged on to a flat beach area beside a five acre trout pond.
Jos and Jac and Jo and Thierry were soaked with sweat.  Jen and Una and Jes
were mildly soaked.

   Jen helped the boys release their back packs and relax.  She pulled
Thierry's tee shirt off at the same time as his back pack , then released
his belt to get at the hatchet and fire making supplies.  "No need to worry
about clothes right now Thierry" , as she stripped him naked and hung his
sweaty clothes on a post.  Looks like you are first for the swim , as she
pushed him toward the pond beach.  Jen proceeded to light a camp fire in
the circle of stones as the others stripped off as much as they wanted
.Everyone followed Thierry's lead and soon became nude.  The pond water was
cold , and Thierry was soon refreshed and out even as Jo and Una entered.
Each of the group rinsed their sweaty clothes in the cold water and hung
them to dry by the fire.  Within an hour they were all back sitting on the
stones around the fire .  When dusk hits we will have some mosquitoes , so
lets get the tents pitched.  Jen and Jos and Jo and Una set up one tent
while Thierry , Jac and Jes pitched the other tent , checked the mosquito
netting for holes .  They tied the rest of the supplies into a netting and
pulled them ten feet up on a limb between the tents.  Finally the camp was
official.  Every one put on the pond clean clothes , paired up , sitting
around the circle of stones watching the fire as darkness descended. 
Noises of the night began with crickets , whippoorills , frogs , and loons
and the sound of trout snapping insects from the water.

   The campfire was used to cook the remaining steaks , as the teens mused
about catching trout for the next supper , to replace the food given to the
wolf.  Water was boiled for tea in metal camping cups.  Everyone eventually
found a spot for waste fluids and stuff .  Una was unimpressed by the crude
facilities but Jen and Jes showed her basic camping survival guide.

   Jos looked at Jac and posed a general question , "We have two tents for
eight people and that is ok but we have one boy not paired and so I am sure
Thierry is wondering where to sleep tonight".  "Well he can sleep with me
and Jes" , replied Jac.  " I have slept with him lots of times , sleep over
stuff , not the other.  He is a sound sleeper".  "He can sleep with me" ,
added Jo.  "I have slept with him also .  Thierry was my first love , when
I was so fuuced up by the religions of this world , but not really any of
the what you might image stuff happened between us".  So as not to be left
out Jos added , "Thierry can sleep with me also , if he wants".  Jen and
Jes and Una piped up , "Thierry can sleep with us also".  Thierry laughed
and laughed , "I will be busy tonight ha ha hah , but on a serious note , I
do not want to affect any of the paired relationships already in progress .
I can sleep between the tents.  My sleeping bag has built in mosquito
netting and the tents have flaps to shelter me from the dew".  "Nope" ,
yelled everyone , "your going to be inside with one of us".  Thierry
sobered at the offers being made realizing that the group would more than
make allowance for him.  "I am honored by all of your hospitality .  So I
guess we need to leave the actual selection to our planet".  Una asked ,
"Thierry , do you snore" ?  "How would I know" ?  "People who sleep on
their back are more likely to snore" , stated Jo.  "I have never slept on
my back because of the night mares , though I am hoping , they will fade
away , now that I am healing".  Jes and Jen asked for more details , and
for an hour or more they coaxed Jo 's life story , -circumcised a few days
after birth , the nightmares of pain-trauma , -grandfather raised by the
residential school system , -driving away his son and Irish bride when Liam
was eight and Joseph was six , -Liam being raped , drug and alcohol abuse
by Jo, -the baseball bat destruction , -Liam's suicide , -the trip into the
valley , and the wolf , -rescued and deprogrammed by George and Jos and Jac
and Sath and unbelievable events of the circumcision restoration.

   Una, Jes and Jen and Thierry had not heard the full details before.  In
fact Jos and Jac had never heard Jo mention them as candidly as this night.
Jos and Jac learned that Jo appeared to be stable and free from the past.
"I guess the wolf caught in the muskrat trap , knew you were the alpha wolf
of our pack" , communicated Jos.  "I don't know" , replied Jo.  "What makes
an alpha" ?  Jac shifted , "Not quite true Jos , the wolf accepted you as
the alpha male in his pack , and among us humans".  Jo regarded his friends
, "The thing -- , I do not know what an alpha dog or alpha male human is -"
.  "Am I somehow different than you Jos" ?  "We know that your foreskin , I
guess we think your foreskin is identical to us twins" , stated Jos.  "We
know that every human has his own mind" , stated Jac.  My mind is quite
different from my identical twin Jac.  Even before birth , in fetal stage
the human mind begins to learn.  For me and Jos , in the same placental sac
together , learning was an awesome experience , with each of us able to
stimulate and receive responses.  My parents separated when we were two and
from then until we were fourteen , our minds developed apart from one
another.  When our parents got back together it made some long forgotten
area of the mind more comfortable , but seemed not to make any difference ,
at first.  After a few days , though , things were wrong for Jos, way wrong
.  His mind in the absence of his father had created all sorts of models of
his father's mind and why his father abandoned him ---" Jos stiffened and
began , "I had some sort of mind breakdown , which pushed me closer and
closer to disaster.  All that I was thinking was that my dad should have
called me at least once a year , but when I started to hear my own words
say that to my mother and him , my mind disintegrated to instability. 
Thanks to Jen and Jes and Jac , I recovered quickly.  They put me in bed
with my father , and I li ---".  "You don't have to tell us all the details
Jos , because all of us may not understand the pit your your mind had
tumbled into and how you got out so quickly.  Let me say , though that the
framework which religion forces on us often prevents us from ever
recognizing the real truths about our own minds.  We are social animals ,
mammals and so on , and we need interaction , constantly in order to become
adults.  When those interactions are twisted by religion at the teen stage
, each of us is in danger .  Jen , Jos ,Una , Thierry , Jo , Jes , because
my twin and I were ripped apart at two years old , it is important for me
to accept those who would be our friends and to try and help them in every
manner at our disposal .  That's where you came in Thierry and you brought
your friend Joseph.  We are very proud of your new found stability Joseph .
As long as you are with us and or George or Bill , or Sath , you will be
fine.  Guard your mind carefully when and if you come face to face with
your grandfather and if your parents ever return , recognize that your mind
may be keeping thoughts to itself.  Those thoughts can be devastating if
they appear at an inopportune time.  As each of us grows and learns about
our mind , we become more stable, excepting drugs , alcohol and religion.

   Una stepped forward as Jos and Jac stopped talking.  "Jo found me at the
compound near his high school last week .  My parents were hooked on drugs
for years , finally could not manage their lives and separated .  I was
frightened alone in the apartment where my family , ahh , we grew up. 
People recognize you somehow in times of weakness .  Predators know when
you are in trouble .  A man followed me to my apartment , and tried to rape
me .  "Ggeesus fuck" , exclaimed Jos and Jac and the twin girls."

   I escaped the apartment and never went back there , leaving my life and
my parents life , forever .  After three days wandering the streets , I
went to the compound run by the gentleman with the huge sheppard dog called
Ru.  My mind was in disaster , perhaps in panic , plus survival , plus
instinct all at once.  And for some reason Jo was there , with two of his
greatest friends on earth .  Even so , I did not recognize him , until he
spoke personally to me .  That's why I am here with you , instead of some
nameless foster home .  Thanks everyone .  Being with Jo is like walking
with Jesus , I mean the mystical man who represents christianity , not the
man who has caused so many wars .  Jo has been so gentle with me , and
nursed me back to good times.  If my parents ever get over their addiction
, I would be able to meet them on solid ground.  They brought me into this
world through girl-boy love , and lost their way .  I forgive them , easily
, but I side with Joseph on his grandfather .  There is no place in my mind
for him , regardless of the forces that created him.

   As Una stepped back from the fire , Jo stepped forward .  As stated , I
do not know what alpha is , and yet a mammal from another social group ,
the wolf pack , seems to look after me , and in return , I must help them
when they need help.  My brother Liam and I lived hell from six years old
until fourteen , then Liam left.  I do not know why I stayed , except for a
wolf , coyote , or some mystical dog like creature residing in the valley
under the viaduct.  I met Jos and Jac because of Jacque and Thierry's pool
accident.  When they tried to help my mind , it got worse , and worse.  But
each time they persisted , with George and Bill and Sath , and some off
planet help which I cannot explain .  Perhaps my experiences have made my
mind stronger , now that I am healed.  When I was sick , my mind needed
something which I could never get .  I had several girl friends before I
met Thierry.  High school girls wanted to please me ,but when they touched
me , extreme pain.  Thierry was gentle , seeming to understand without
asking , my difficulty .  My mind remembered , unable to block out the
extremity of pain during my circumcision.  For that reason , anyone who
touched me there became a hurt to me.  Somehow Thierry , though he never
completed an act with me was able to give me hope that someday my body
would recover , and then my mind would recover.  Now with Thierry's friends
help , I am recovered , and if you see tears by the light of the camp fire
now , they are happy tears , and they are for all of you who rescued me" .
As Joseph spoke a meteorite burned it's way across earths atmosphere .  The
group saw it behind Jo and their eyes alerted him to turn and watch it
disappear.  "This time , the spacial entities are helping someone else". 
"How did they help you" , asked Una.  Jo smiled at her.  "It's kinda
private , because of the boy twins".  Una looked at Jos and Jac for
direction.  "It's ok Jo , there are no secrets between us .  Tell Una
exactly what they did".  The story of the two spacial beings linking beyond
earthly healing to Jos and Jac and Sath intrigued Una .  When Jo ended with
his foreskin being somehow regenerated , like silk worm cocoon covering ,
Una cried for him and the sixteen years of endured pain.  She walked to
him. "Joseph, even when suicidally sick , you gave me your coat outside the
school that day.  I knew you were the one, but I could not find you again
until the compound.  "My grandfather beat me for losing that coat , intoned
Jo , kept me out of school for a week.  When I got free , I found the
street drugs to carry me one day at a time.  Four months later , I was
climbing out of that abyss with help from some cops and social services, an
accident dropped me into the direct contact with Jos and Jac , and here I
am.  I am so sorry for you Una.  No one deserves to be abandoned" teared
Jo. "No no , it's ok" , stated Una , "I understand that you were helping me
, even as you were riding the coaster into hell.  I am so sorry for not
grabbing you at the time and telling you , how much I loved you Jo". 
"Several girls had already tried that with me and they never got near my
mind , so sick was I at that time".  With that statement Una snuggled her
arms around Jo 's chest , compacting his rib cage and developing six pac
muscles to her own.  Everyone cheered .  "Three cheers for Una and Jo"
"Three cheers for Una and Jo" "Three cheers for Una and Jo" , yelling at
the tops of their voices , for the whole continent to hear .  But
civilization was four hours walk away.  Instead a nearby gutteral yip
answered three times followed by a single slightly different pitched yip.
Jo and Jac and Jos answered them from the bottom of their vocal cords , a
sweet reminder that these boys would not be alone again in the forests of
earth.

   Jen and Jes listened for the entire evening spell bound by the
interaction , the pressures of feeling out who you are , the roller coaster
of teen life in an over-achieving city .  After the cheer for Una and Jo.
They smiled at each other and Jen whispered to Joseph and Una , "You are
both virgins , like we were , until we with Jos and Jac".  "Yyes" , they
answered together.  "Neither of us knows , really , what sex is about. 
Somehow we have been left behind in a stream of life".  "No" , retorted Jen
and Jes and Jac and Jos .  You two are the luckiest boy and girl on planet
earth .  You can chose to do it anytime , knowing there is no return to
before times , or you can wait for when you are ready .

   "I am not ready , or at least , I am not sure" , stated Joseph .  Una
smiled from cheek to cheek , "I am ready Jo and I will wait fifty years if
I have to for YOU." Smiling , Jo watched her eyes , as her finger prints
registered across his back , his brain analyzing each of the ten fingers as
they slid below his belt line curving to the gluteus maximus cheek muscles
still aching from the hiking of the tent supplies.  "Well that's the one of
the first steps" , enjoyed Jo , those muscle groups were hurting me and I
stress the word WERE.

   "Ahh if you do want to first time it , we can get lost for the evening"
, stated Jes , looking for consent from the rest" .  Una began to laugh ,
"Jes , no-one is leaving me in the middle of the forest in the middle of
the night .  I learned that sleeping alone is not all , it's cracked up to
be, and sleeping alone at night is dangerous" .  "Are you suggesting that
you want to sleep with Jo in the day time", laughed Jes ?  "That's a great
idea, but of course , Jo would need to qualify that".

   Chapter 56 fishing

   As the girls bantered about Thierry constructed a long fibre glass
fishing rod and deployed some shallow casts into the pond .  Left , right ,
far out to center , and "Yee Haw yelled Thierry , we got one.  He pulled in
an eight inch trout , attached it to a fish stringer , then tried again. 
"They will bite for an hour or so after sunset" , mused Thierry , reeling
in another.  Next , Jac took the casting rod , waded out into the beach
area aiming for the current which seemed to be moving farther out.  Ten
minutes later he pulled in a bigger trout.  Joshua was amazed at the ease
with which supper could be attained.  He waded out into the water beside
Jac.  "Quiet Jos , move very slowly .  They're easy to spook , then they
won't bite" .  After ten minutes Jac had taught Jos basic trout fishing. 
He stood back while Jos practiced his new skill .  Nothing seemed to be
happening for Jos .  Eventually Jen waded out waist deep to help him.  "I
am not too good at fishing Jos , but I think you have to plop the spinner ,
wait a second for it to start sinking , then reel with just enough line
tension to bring it back toward you , while letting the spinner ride or
sink just below the surface.  You can tell in the moon light by the way the
water ripples , how it rides" .  Jen took the reel and cast as far as she
could throw the lure, to show Jos .  Remaining still as the the lure
eventually returned , the three kids watched as Jen lifted the pole high .
"Wow did you see that" , whispered Jos .  "One followed the lure right back
to where it came out of the water".  "I saw it , too" said Thierry and Jac
, Let me do it , Let me do it , please Jen" .  Jen handed the reel back to
Jos as Jess waded out with them .  Jes took the reel .  With a huge swing
she plopped the lure half way across the pond , passed the reel to Jos and
let him bring it back just as he had seen Jen.  Nothing happened and Jos
was getting disappointed .  "You're doing perfect now Jos.  Try a few more
times before we get a chill in this water.  "Nothing happening at all ,
except --- what the fuc" ?  As Jos lifted the lure above the water to
perform another cast , a large bass jumped into the air latching on to the
trout lure.  "Gee Haw" yelled Jos as the big fish fought to free itself .
Jen kept providing new advice , "slowly back up to shore , - everyone form
a line on each side, - slowly slowly drag him in between us , keep the pole
bent not too hard" .  Jos kept backing up , tiring the fish , slowly
pulling it into shallow water , where it could not fight.  Finally Jos was
standing on shore and the fish was too tired to fight.  Jes scooped it
ashore , where Jos and Jac and Thierry pounced on it , released the hook
and attached it to the fish stringer.  Everyone came ashore , proud of the
tomorrows dinner already caught.  "Where is Una and Jo", asked Jac ?  He
took a peek into the tent and could see two shapes , one in each sleeping
bag side by side.  Jo and Una were asleep.

   "Guess that settles it Thierry" , stated Jac.  "You are sleeping with
me".  "No Jac , I don't need to sleep inside".  "Need is ok .  I want you
to sleep with Jen and Jes and Jos and me , five people in a four person
tent.  We can do it.  Just try .  Ok" ?  "Try , I can" , replied Thierry ,
"but what about your brother" ?  "He already has slept with you , remember
when your lungs failed" ?  "What about Jes and Jen" ?  "Thierry , please
sleep with us in out tent" , spoke both girl twins .

   Jac and Thierry secured the campsite , checking for the usuals , in case
it rains , in case an animal tries to get food and so on.  Everyone hung
wet clothes to try and slipped into their sleeping bags.  Jac and Jes
rezipped their two bags together , as did Jos and Jen.  Thierry bedded down
beside Jac against the inside tent wall.  Jen and Jes knew that the boys
would be tired from hauling all the camp supplies , Everyone settled and
fell asleep , as Jac told Thierry the details of Jo 's preputial rings and
foreskin as repaired by Sath.



   Night hawks piercing calls lulled them to sleep .  From some where back
the path a lone wolf yipped , announcing that all is well.  Jo woke semi
woke up at day break , drifted back to sleep and began to dream .  "No Una
, not yet , I am not ready .  You are not ready .  We need to know each
other more".  Una rubbed her eyes , looked at Jo , rolling , sleeping on
his back.  She pulled her hand free from her sleeping bag lowered it
carefully on his sleeping bag chest.  Let her fingers roam toward his
pelvis , encountered a hard post inside .  She crawled from her bag lowered
her face on Jo 's ear smelling his sweet scent inside the bag.  She could
not stop herself from licking his neck and ears.  Gradually Jo awared
himself of her.  Returned her kiss , then became aware of his own log.  Jo
jumped up and ran outside to pee out of site , but he could not pee.  His
shaft was swollen , a strange feeling of pain , well no not pain , of need
to do something , filled his brain.  Una followed when he did not return .
"Jo , what's happening .  You Ok" ?  Thierry slipped out of the other tent
and talked to Jo.  "You can't pee , right" ?  "Yeah Thierry , somethings
wrong with my tube" ?  "Jo you are perfectly healthy".  "Una , give him a
hug , tell him , it's ok".  They moved away from the sleeping twins tent to
let them sleep longer.  "But I can't pee and my tube is frozen way too
big." "No Jo , that is perfect.  It happens to me all the time , always in
the morning , around sunrise.".  "I suppose this has never happened to you
before , because your mind was throttling your instincts in order to
prevent the circumcision pain" .  "That's it , I guess" , figured Jo.  "Is
it alright whispered Una" ?  Thierry stepped forward , crouched at Jo 's
crotch.  Una , is it ok if I take a close look ?  "Yeah" , cause I don't
know how to help him".  "Una , open Jo 's boxers , or just pull them down
very slowly , without letting them touch the tube.  It could be tender
after all the new skin regrowth.  Una crouched with Thierry , undoing the
boxer shorts and carefully slipping them to Jo 's knees.  Eyes opening wide
, respiration increasing , Una studied Jo for the first time with morning
log .  "It is identical to Jac" , exclaimed Thierry.  "I have seen him lots
of times like that , it is normal - no worry".  "But what do I do murmured
Jo.  I feel so excited , like , I have just run a mile".  "Not exactly" ,
stated Thierry , -like you want to run a mile" ?  "Yeah , that's it",
replied Jo.  "Una , Jo , strip off your clothes follow me into the pond".
Thierry raced across the open area across the beach and slipped into the
cool , almost cold water as the suns warmth peeked over a row of trees. 
Una and Jo followed him , until they were almost to their necks.  Thierry
swam between them and around them encouraging them to push each other ,
dunk their heads and get in the fun.  Jo and Una tried swimming as Thierry
did .  They had attended some swim classes and soon grew accustomed to the
cold water , swimming , though not as sleek as Thierry "the fish".  Within
a minute or two the twins joined them swimming with them , pulling their
toes and feet trying to catch each other , at least Jac and Jen and Jes
were excellent swimmers.  Jos was in over his head , and floundering.  Jen
grabbed him immediately , rolled him on his back , arm around his neck and
hauled him to shallow water.  "You ok" ?  "Yes" , spluttered Jos , " I am a
very stupid swimmer" ?  "It's ok , we will help you learn" , whispered Jen
as everyone raced ashore to hover in the sun , until Thierry got the camp
fire roaring again.  Jac retrieved the camping fry pan , as the twin girls
retrieved the fish , cleaned them and plopped the meat into the sizzling
fry pan .  Within an hour or more , everyone was well fed and relaxed , as
the sun crept half way into the sky.  "Oh man , that was good" , exclaimed
Jo and Una and Jos licking their fingers to get the last of the butter and
fish protein.

   "We need to catch more fish" , exclaimed Jos.  "You need to learn how to
drown proof" , replied Jen.  "Ahh I need to learn what to do with morning
log" , admitted Jo.  Everyone studied Jo and Una.  Jes and Jen told them
about learning to deal with the hard tube and tightly stretched skin. 
"That is top priority , then swimming lessons , then fishing" , stated Jes.
"One of those things can pop up anytime" , mentioned Jac , and Thierry. 
"When it does Jo , you are sixteen years old , with teen male hormones in
flood .  You will have no choice , but to deal with it" , stated Thierry
authoritatively.  "Will it hurt" ?  Jos answered , "Yes and no .  It can be
as beautiful as fresh falling snow or it can hurt .  But Jo --" .  "Yeah" .
"Because we are identical twin boys , we have learned to feel and to detect
pain in our friends" .  "Point" ?  "Jac and I , when you were having the
circumcision night mares , W - We massaged your brain and backbone and ribs
and spine .  We matched our prints to your rib cage connection points , -
we fucking learned how , to suck the pain away from your nervous system ,
and in so doing , we felt your pain , and it hurt us so bad , and yet your
body just kept falling and falling into an abyss of - -- ieeyy ieeyy -
there are no words to describe - what we felt Jo .  Our minds were raped by
the same power that destroyed your foreskin .  The energy released by your
body in the form of pain summoned Sath from her home , and still , we three
, could not absorb the pain that your body was emanating .  You were headed
for one place Jo , death by nervous system overload , where every organ in
your body functions out of sequence , forcing so much pain back into the
nervous system that total organ failure materializes results , fatalizes .
Somehow , perhaps directed by Sath and or George , or both or all of us ,
the power of our bodies began to radiate your pain into a focused beacon
into space .  That is why the time-space travelers came to our aid and
ultimately to yours Joseph .  "Nothing can hurt you as much as those
bastards who ripped and scraped and cut away your baby foreskin while you
were held down by the full power of the Ontario medical community .  You
were physically modified to match some one's religious fervors , at your
most precious moment of life on earth.  As you were hurt , yes our minds
were hurt even as fifteen year olds , we were unable to absorb but
unwilling to let you die , so horrid and senseless a death .  Liam knew
that already Jo , that no force on the planet could provide the happiness
robbed from him .  Liam knew that those who would try to bring his mind
back to the race of sentient human mammals , would perish along with him.
Liam is my hero Jo , and Jac's hero , as he is yours" .

   Everyone was sitting in the sun now , as the planet rotated toward noon.


   Jen and Jes had already sensed the emotion radiating from both boy twins
as Jos and Jac revisited the night on the shower floor bear rug , leading
to spacial visitors.

   Jos slouched against Jen breathing deeply allowing her to cradle his
head and neck , drawing strength from her and the sun.  Jac continued
speaking.  "It's true , both of us were in danger of losing ourselves Jo .
Sath recognized that we had taken on something far more than just a
poisoned lung .  We were in peril that night because we would NOT LET YOU
DIE JOSEPH ALNOT" .  Jessica sat beside , holding Jac as he sweated , to
say what had to be said .  She let his head rest on her chests and lap as
he finished talking.  "We were , and still are young and foolish boys for
attempting your rescue , playing with something beyond our comprehension .
Thanks to Liam and Arther , we are survivors , and you Jo are a super
survivor .  You were raped , and when we tried to help , your mind raped us
, for that is the way sentient humans respond to ripping , cutting ,
scraping flesh from a newborn child on this planet .  What is done to
children will be repeated .  No power on this planet can stop that" . 
Jessica and Jennifer , eyes dripping pulled their blouses over Jacque and
Joshua's eyes letting the twin boys rest , heads buried in trusting flesh
and blood of their bonded friends and lovers.

   Thierry crouched , alone yet close to and in front of Jacque and Joshua
, trying , massaging Jacque's fingers , doing what he could to sooth Jac
and Jos through the final moments of the boy twins further revelations on
the night of the spacial entities.  "How could one boy's circumcisional
rape so affect two innocent beautiful twin boys" ?

   Joseph blanched slightly , wanting to defend himself and Liam , "It was
not one boy's circumcisional rape , I also felt the rape of my brother Liam
by his grandfather , and his circumcisional rape , and yes his grandfather
also raped Liam's mother -my mother- when Liam was three years old .  That
is why she left me , with despair deeper than the deepest ocean .  I Joseph
was the repository of power and greed bread by organized religion and
protected by the churches , and countless other kids destroyed by the
religious environment.

   "Una , do yo ahh , ah are you prepared to help Jo , I mean --" Jes
whispered to Una , "Do you take birth control pills" ?  Una smiled "Yeah ,
Jos and Jac can absorb , ameliorate pain that you might have Jo , They have
learned methods from the ancient world and probably more than that from the
spacial entities".

   "Una , I am not ready ,yet .  When I was sick , I thought Thierry was my
love .  Thierry is still my love but you Una, are also my love.  I am
confused.  How do I know what I want , and Una , if I am wrong you will no
longer be a virgin , and that cannot be undone.  I need some sort of help
to discover what I really want .  In the meantime Una , stay with me , I
love you and Thierry stay with me too , cause I will always love you" .

   Thierry regarded Jac , studied his posture , then Jos , then Jo , could
see the confidence in each boy teen .  He watched the girls faces , studied
Jen and Jes and Jo and Una .  He began a thought process with the group .
When I was near death in that hospital bed with you Jac and Jos , I asked
for Joseph , and you found him .  I wanted more than anything in the world
for Jo to , t- to take my organ in his mouth and to put his inside me" . 
Una spoke out , " It's ok ,Talk it out Thierry , let us know what you
felt". "Joshua , you convinced Jo to do that , against his years of
religious training and fear.  It is a miracle for you Jos to have
accomplished that .  You are the group master in persuasion .  I remember
dreaming in my oxygen starved brain about you Jo , about you pushing that
massacred tube into me , into my temporary storage place.  It gave me a new
will to live .  I was too weak to accommodate you inside .  Jo your gift to
me , I thought would kill me , but I wanted you to do it .  You did suck me
, Joseph , and I expected to die .  Instead my poisoned lungs went into
overdrive to regain life and function .  Now Jo , you are healed , you are
a real boy , unfettered by the old dogmatic logic doom , of gay and porn
and black and white labels.  You are confident now , and your confidence
has attracted a beautiful girl , but I still love you , and only you .  We
do not know when we will be born , nor when we will die , nor what lover we
will chose .  I am great friends with my brother Jayr and with you Jacque ,
but I am more than that with you Jo .  One thing , for certain , you
brought me back from the edge of death and , I will always remember that
time in my mind .  This small group of friends have no preset judgements
with regard to you and me.  If you want to try me out , I would like that ,
and there are no consequences on me , as there would be with Una.  Joseph
gave Thierry a light hug and then Una.  "Likely , it's crazy for the rest
of you to imagine .  Right now I do not have logical answers .  Yes I am
sixteen years old , yes the teen boy hormones are obviously working .  Look
at the upper lip red mustache that has appeared since yesterday" .  Jo
pulled his shirt away from his belt .  "Look at this Irish red happy trail"
.  He glanced at Una and then Thierry.  I can see the desire in your eyes
Una and Thierry" .  Jen and Jes laughed , "Jo , you are exciting all of us
with the happy trail .  "You have matured into a strong ally for us and the
wolf pack" .  Jo continued , " I know that all of you are my friends and
all of you would do anything for me , including satiating my lust , desire
, what ever the teen boy thing is called .  But in my mind , right now
there is no desire , no urge , nothing at all to tip my logical mind toward
those desires that should be overpowering me .  Do each of you understand
my condition" ?

   Joshua answered .  "I do Jo.  You were crippled by the church and
circumcision .  Your mind basically civil warred when I convinced you to
suck your best friend.  Jac and I , We took your pain , we felt it , and as
I stated already , you hurt us to extreme , and we know that ten years of
programming in your brain was destroyed during that bathroom episode.  Your
circumcision destroyed four hundred million neurons by cutting their
stimulus off .  Your brain civil war destroyed good and bad neurons ,
obviously with a small number of the good left on the battlefield . 
Meanwhile , you have a growing foreskin , a lush forest of new sensations ,
looking , needing to be reconnected with the area of your brain which you
were born with .  But that area was destroyed .  Jac and I , know that the
human brain has unused reserves of neurons , millions of them .  Each time
we experience new sensation , that we enjoy , more neurons are programmed
to perform the enjoyment.  It takes a normal boy 12 years before puberty
and five years after puberty to sort out life desires.  You Joseph have had
only a week to accomplish that.  Like a boy who has never learned to swim ,
you are past the optimum learning age , just as I am in the water.  Joseph
, I fully expect Jac and Jen and Jes , and Una , and Thierry and you to
teach me to swim , as though , I had learned to swim at four years old".

   "And for me" , stated Joseph , "I fully expect you Jos , and Jac , and
Una , and Thierry , and Jen , and Jes to teach me how to have boy sex ,
girl sex and whatever sex , because , it is a necessary component of being
what I am , a male boy-human.

   With the ending of Jo 's speech , the entire group of kids stood up and
high fived Jo and then every one else until their paws were sore from
slapping together .

   Chapter 57 swimming lessons

   Jennifer put her arms around Joshua , "It is time for a swimming lesson"
, undid his buttons and pulled away all his clothes .  She led him to the
beach , with Jes and Jac and Thierry .  Every one stripped except Una and
Jo who sat on a log to watch the lesson progress .  The teens seemed to
arrange themselves in a long line in neck deep water .  They held Jos ,
buoyed his body flat and floating on his back in the water , holding his
head to avert any fear that his nose would go under water .  The first
lesson seemed to be floating lesson , but Jos's fear of drowning could not
be relaxed.  His eyes darted side to side , unable to let himself totally
free to float , although , each of the teens demonstrated perfect floats
for him.  Thierry was last to demonstrate a relaxed back float letting his
back arch legs and feet sinking just below the water surface , head
submerged except for his face and mouth and nose.  Jos watched his lithe
body ripple with the waves on the pond .  The teens had one goal , for
lesson one and that was to get Jos floating by himself.  "How do we relax
him" , laughed Thierry , "his own body floating like a wet noodle on the
pond".  Jo shouted from the shore , "It seems that the boy who can be most
persuasive has no control over his own mind , in that regard" , and then he
apologized , "Jos , I just relized that I had no control over my fears for
ten years , I am sorry , I said that".  "It's true explained Jen and Jes",
I think , I know what to do about his fear of water .  Lets try one more
thing , as she guided him to shallower water where Jes and Thierry and Jac
could support him and Jes extended her toes to the pond bottom , raised out
of the water just enough to put her lips on Joshua's cold shrunken tube ,
without putting and weight from her breasts on his chest.

   Jo and Una watched from the shore as the lesson progressed .  The teens
in the water were felling chilled but they wanted Jos to experience the
idea of floating .  Jos , shrunken cold tube responded to Jen's lips
massage .  Thierry cupped his hand over Jos scrotum encouraging the rapid
blood flow from internal organs to heat his pelvis cavernosa and spongiosum
muscles and arteries .  Jos began to smile , as his cremaster musles
relaxed his testicles.  Jen could feel his prepucial rings tightening under
her tongue .  Jes put her lips gently to Jos' mouth and sucked his tongue
and cheeks , locking and lifting his head buoyed by the water.

   Una shouted encouragement from the shore as the teachers relaxed the
student into bliss-full floating.  Jen locked her lips around Jos' relaxing
foreskin , tighter and sucking a bit harder on the swollen glans inside his
sheath .  She motioned Thierry and Jes to gradually let go , as her own
lips tried to pull his pelvis out of the water .  Facial muscles grinning
from ear to ear , back arched , Jos' toes and legs sank just below the
water line and his ears did the same .  Jen 's lips released and then
sucked , released and then sucked , pulling Jos body up and dropping it
gently into the water , floating for a short instant , then buoying it with
her lips and throat sucking again.  His mouth opened automatically to
breath air , then closed as she pulled him higher and let him drop farther
into the cool water.  Jos was not cold at all .  Heat from his body
radiated into the other teens exciting them to cheer.  Jen continued the
sucking , pulling buoying action until Jos ball sac seemed to come above
the water line , even as his face sank just below the water .  Eyes still
sparkling , face grinning arms outstretched now , floating in the water ,
as Jen continued to suck him and float him .  Una and Jo cheered from shore
as Jos' cremaster pulled his balls into their pelvic cavity .  Jos was
breathing in sync now with Jens' lip action , his face sinking , as his
pelvis was pulled higher and then floating back to surface and suck in new
breath as the water line reclaimed his balls .  Thierry and Jac cheered ,
"Jos , we are not touching you now , you are floating , accept for Jen's
life support suction" .  Jos' eyes danced , cheeks gasping for air each
time they floated up and exhaling each time his face sank .  Jac and
Thierry each put one thumb and finger on Jos' foreskin , clamping tight
enough to send Jos into ectazy each time Jen's lips pulled him up and
dropped him.  Gradually her lips began to push his foreskin down the glans
shaft letting drops of cool pond water mix with the precum lubricating his
tube.  Jos began to take bigger air gulps and letting his head sink farther
below the surface , in feedback enjoyment from the bobbing lips and throat.
With Thierry and Jac's fingers achored to the pond bottom and Jos' body
floating up and down , his foreskin became the limit of his floating .  Jes
lips tightened , her tongue sliding inside his foreskin licking the
throbbing glans , until Jos felt the point approaching .  Totally relaxed ,
allowing his brain neurons to absorb the sensations .  Jac put his fingers
gently on Jos' ribs and began to enjoy his sensation also.  Jes felt the
heat from his body and found that she could suck his shaft readily with her
nose above the water line.  But she wanted to keep Thierry entertained
also. Jes put one hand on Thierry's hard tube as her mouth attached to
Jac's tube , his own body absorbing the pleasure emanating form Jos , his
body now floating , bobbing with the waves on the pond and synchronized to
Jen's suction force.

   Una and Jo stacked some dried branches and ignited the camp fire, then
returned to the lesson watch.

   Jo and Una watched as Jos body gulped one last gup of air , stiffened
slightly , head and face sinking below the water line , spewing his boy
stuff into Jen's throat .  They could hear his voice humming under the
water , as his body ejaculated .  Jac felt his flood of pleasure and pumped
his stuff into Jes lips .  Jos face floated back to the surface as Jen let
his foreskin fall into the water , glans still pumping boy sperm to the
surface.  Jes released Jac from her lips , letting his sperm mix in the
water .  Thierry tasted the sperm , as Jen and Jes concentrated on his
excited tube , with four rows of finger pads riding his foreskin up and
down .  Thierry relaxed back into the water floating, body bobbing with the
pond waves as Jen and Jes pumped him into spermition frenzy .  The girls
laughed at the scene of boy sperm floating everywhere on the surface and
under the surface, enjoying the three boy teens in their frenzy of sper
delivery.  Jos was left completely floating .  The girl twins stepped out
toward shore as Jac allowed himself to float on his back head against Jos
and Thierry, the three of them floating head to head now in the cool pond
water.  Jac whispered to Jos .  "You ok Jos.  We have drifted out into the
pond where the water is too deep for you too touch, but you are floating
perfectly Joshua .  You have completed lesson one.  Thierry rolled under
the water wrapped his arm around Jos throat , his chest under Jos partially
buoying his head .  The two strong swimmers brought Jos back to shore
effortlessly .  Jen and Jes and Una and Jo watched the strong swimmers pull
Jos back through the thinning pools of boy sperm , without Jos even
realizing , he might sink.  Everyone emerged from the water , gathered
around the fire for warmth .  Una and Jo attended each teen with towels and
rub down to warm their bodies quickly by the fire.

   The camp meal was prepared with the last of the fish and some canned
beans and buns.  Everyone laughed and joked that the amount of sperm in the
water might hurt the fish , but Thierry was sure that the new boy protein
would make the flesh very good to eat.

   The sun set effortlessly as the teens adjusted to camp living and once
again decided where Thierry should sleep.  The decision was settled with
Una and Jo dragging Thierry to their tent , arguing that The twins needed
to have some alone time , after all the lessons.

   Una and Jo and Thierry crawled into their tent , as the twins entered
the other one.  The night was getting colder than normal for July .

   Thierry noted that Una and Jo crawled into separate sleeping bags.  To
enjoy more warmth , He showed them how to split the bags , rezip them
together as one double bag .  Una asked Thierry and Jo to unzip and rezip
the three bags all into one three person bag , which they did.  The three
teens stripped to their shorts and crawled into the bag together. 
Thierry's body shivered , still cool to touch against Jo and Una .  They
rubbed him again to warm his skin , pulled his shorts off to allow maximum
warmth transfer.  but something elso also warmed .  Jo and Una took turns
stroking Thierry .  In turn he showed Jo where to place his finger pads on
Una's tiny post .  They helped her remove her shorts and Jo removed his. 
Una snuggled Thierry from one side and Jo from the other.  Within an hour ,
he was warm as toast and hard as a rock .  Una checked Jo regulary , but
his shaft remained soft.  "Thierry continued , "Jo , you can help Una but
avoid any penetration by reversing yourself .  Put your lips on Una's hard
peg and just relax.  Let your subconscious mind do what it wants.  Thierry
retrieved his flashlight and gave it to Una.  "Study his tube Una .  Tell
me what you see as Thierry licks your peg.  She began to explain the soft
furled skin at the tip .  As Jo 's lips touched her peg , Thierry explained
to Jo how to put his fingers on Una to sense her body reaction to his
tongue .  Jo learned quickly how to make Una swoon win new sensations. 
Thierry watched them.  It was enough for him to see Jo enjoying this girl.
Thierry had no jealous thoughts in his body .  "A best friend does not have
jealous thoughts no matter what his friend does" , explained Thierry to Una
and Jo.  Una's mind began to leap frog itself as Jo 's tongue and lips
cradled her hardened post.  Thierry explained to Jo how to locate her
blockage with his tongue and how to be so gentle with it, until Una , alone
decides.  "Her hymen is a part of her body , just as your foreskin was
before the circumcisors.  Let her enjoy that skin until she decides it's
fate.  Jo 's tongue returned to her post.  His lips locked around it
sending her over the edge into orgasmic serenity, as her lips massaged Jo
's tube.  But she was becoming too anxious to make Jo cum .  "Una , I am
not ready , do that to Thierry for now.  She put her lips over Thierry's
rigid tube and within seconds pumped his sperm dry , into her mouth as Jo
licked her post until she dreamed with pleasure.  They fell asleep
listening to the murmurs of love and lust of the twins in the other tent.
They heard the twin girls warble with delight , then later , the
unmistakable sound of twin boys gasping for breath as their abdomens pumped
out synchronous boy fluids , commanded and required by the girl twins.

   Morning sun warmed the mist away from the camp site .  Thierry and Una
deep in the bag awoke as Jo thrashed about .  Thierry found Jo 's morning
log with his fingers , and softly touched the pale foreskin tip , as Jo
slept .  Showing Una how to touch the prepucial rings , ever so gently with
soft pads on her fingers.  "As if you wanted to touch jello , but not
wanting to melt it" , he explained .  Jo dozed into deeper sub conscious
dream as Una , watched Jo , feeling his reaction .  Thierry crept out of
the sleeping bag , and quietly to the other tent pulling carefully on Jos
to awaken him.  Carefully creeping back into Una and Jo's sleeping bag ,
Jos attached his finger pads to Jo 's rib cage , not knowing whether he
would feel pain or pleasure .  Thierry watched carefully hoping that Jo
would be ok , knowing that Jos and Jac could help him if things went wrong
. Jos 's face grimaced slightly.  Thierry hurried to get Jac , pulling him
gently away from Jes and Jen , still curled in sleep.  Jac unzipped the big
sleeping bag , slipped in behind Una .  She continued to hold Jo 's tube in
her fingers.  Jos communicated to Jac in their twin sign language .  "He's
hurtin inside .  What should we do" ?  Thierry and Una faced off ,
realizing that they were far from medical support , if that was required
for Jo.  "Unless the doctors were understanding they would probably
circumcise Jo" , stated Jac quietly.  "We are better off without that kind
of emergency doctor" .  Both twins finger padded Jo from head to toe ,
momentarily displacing Una's fingers as they checked the swollen log . 
"It's the boy hormones kickin in again" , murmured Jac .  His tube is
bigger than ever , and pretty stretched.

   The girl twins arrived to see what the quietness was about.  Jen and Jes
looked under the bag to see Jo 's swollen tube.  "It's completely covered
in foreskin , mused Jen , just like Jos was when we found him , only a bit
worse" .

   Jos eye's began to flutter , and then focused on each of Una and Jac and
Jos and Thierry and Jen and Jes in turn.  "Am I in big trouble, asked his
face showing some pain from the lower body" ?  "Not big trouble Jo , but
some nevertheless.  They told us that this may happen " , mentioned Jos .
"So what's the solution" , asked Una ?  "There is none , only choices" ,
answered Jac.  "Fact :The hormones cannot be controlled on a sixteen year
old boy".  "Fact two : Once his tube has been , e - ej you know ejaculated
, the hormones will get worse and worse , possible splitting , tearing the
new foreskin" .  "Fact three : The longer we wait the worse his pain will
get , and the more pain, his night time dreams" .  Jo stared at everyone
again.  "Nothing could hurt as much as having your skin ripped away as
those bastards mutilated me , when I was born" .  "Jo needs to be relieved
in much the same way that I was" , stated Jos.  "It has to be slow ,
delicate , with complete satiation" .  Only thing left to decide then , is
who is going to help Jo out of his misery , and can anyone do it" ?  The
teens looked from one to another realizing that any one of them could do it
, and a decision should be made quickly or else the process aborted until
the next time the hormones struck , probably , the next night sleep.  "Who
should do this" ?  " Any of us can do it .  Actually Jo himself can do
this. In a normal boy the process would happen starting at puberty and
continue for a couple of months or even years depending on the boy
situation".  "It is a good hurt" , stated Jo.  Jos looked at Jen.  "That
heifer had a calf.  The stretching took seven or eight hours but the skin
did stretch , allowing the calf to be forced into this world" .  "Yes" ,
stated Jen and Jes .  "We know how to do this but we think that , for us to
help is to meddle in something best left to two lovers , or , perhaps three
lovers in this case" laughed the twin girls.  The boy twins faced each
other.  "It is decided then , Thierry and Una will attend to Jo , unless of
course , he wants to be alone , and that is fine also".  Jo arose from his
sleeping bag , pulling on his shorts which held the log against his groin.
"It will go away in a minute or two" .  "Yes , It will" , agreed Jac and
Jos , "but your mind is healing every day and that means your puberty
hormones will take more and more liberty with the morning log.  Your log
has a newly grown double layer of foreskin , and the sensory nerves have
not yet fully grown to the outer extremity of the the new growth .  Jac and
I and Thierry had several years to grow up with our tube.  We do not really
know the answer , so we recommend that you are the best judge of your own
foreskin, as it always should be.  "Ok" , said Jo.  "Let me do this in my
own way .  Watch me from a vantage point but let me learn on my own , how
to manage my new foreskin.  On the street, we had a code word , which was
never used , except when death was imminent" .  "So what will be your code
word" , questioned Una ?  "It is a word that I have used since Liam taught
me street defense" , mentioned Jo.  "The word is --" "Wolf" , yelled Jen
and Jes and Jos and Jac , at the same time.  "Right on" , retorted Jo. 
"But how did you know --" ?  "Sath and George and the rest of us have
observed that you Jo have certain protections that even you do not
understand .  We believe that you have communication channels extending
backward in time into the instinctive knowledge of other social animals. 
Liam must have known this from his experiences , and given you a protection
code word that extends to humans , but beyond humans.

   The twins and Una watched his face contort as Jo knees buckling ,
settled back on to his sleeping bag.  All sign of the swollen tube
disappeared from his shorts .  His face weakened , suffered .  "Fuuc fuc ,
I remember said Jo.  Now I remember , when Liam was critically injured
under the viaduct , his lips moved -formed a word , I -- I didn't
understand.  No sound , but that was his last word to me , and then I ran
into the river and prepared to drown , but something pulled me out of the
water, back to shore , fucc , god dam , why can't I control ---" The twins
spoke above Jo , "Sath told us , about the attending paramedics seeing a
huge wolf dragging you from the river and dropping you, as they rushed to
help Liam".  "Why did I not remember that before.  Liam was using the code
word and I left him to die" , screamed Jo !  "No NO NO-O" yelled Jos ,
holding Jo with both hands on his face , staring into his eyes.  "Liam ,
had already decided to leave this planet .  He was using the code word for
you.  His last act on the planet earth was to save you from drowning
yourself and he did.  He did do that , He called that huge animal to stop
you from drowning" , yelled Jos and Jac , because Liam already saw a path
for your survival.  He was your brother Joseph , but he was much more than
that.  He saw a path , a pleasant path for you , much different from his
own .  Liam wanted you - Jo - to stay on this beautiful planet Liam was
right ".  "He was always right" , murmured Jo , with Jos sitting on his lap
holding his face and staring at him.  Jos lifted himself and eyed Jac and
the girl twins with relief.  "You ok , Jo" , asked Una , as she began to
realize how close Jo had come to loosing conscious control.  "Jo , oh , Jo
, tell me your ok" , begged Thierry.  "Ok as an Indian - Irish half breed
can be , traipsing through other peoples property"!  Jac faced Jos , as the
realization of the comment sank in .  "Joseph : You have every right to be
on this planet earth.  You have earned that right and Liam has confirmed
it. You are the master of your own body.  The church does not own you , nor
any part of you.  Consider your grandfather to be dead.  Consider George to
be your father.  And that huge rod , now cloaked in soft nebulous new
foreskin is yours to enjoy".

   Jo stared at Jos and then Jac's face.  He let his eyes wander around
each of the boy twins , faces .

   Una put her arms around Jo , "I am understanding now what is going on
Joseph.  You were cruelly stripped of your foreskin.  Your grandfather gave
you trouble everyday , probably for even holding it to pee.  And the pain
involved in just stroking yourself , told you that it did not belong to
you. I am so sorry for you Jo.  I had no inkling of what goes on in your
head with regard to your own body.  Only Jos and Jac have an understanding
of your inner pain, and they have been burned by it through keeping you on
a positive path".

   Thierry also stepped forward to touch Jo.  "When I was lying in the
hospital unable to breath , I remember every word that Jos said to you Jo.
It makes sense to me now.  You are not a boy-boy man Jo.  You were just so
screwed by your grandfather's two thousand year old dogma, and by the
torture of your foreskin being ripped away by those bastards.  You were
four years old when your parents disappeared and for the last ten years ,
you have mostly subsisted on beliefs burned into your mind by your
grandfather.  You do not love me as a boy would love a boy.  You love me ,
as you loved your brother , because I filled in where he left off.  I
provided you with a neutral reality to teen age growth , a happy reality ,
which you used as a model for your development .  But the pool accident
changed all that.  Your only worry with me Jo , is "You do not want to hurt
me" , as I still represent your brother .  But Jo , do not worry about me.
I am your friend for life , no matter what.  The fact that I love you as a
boy and not as a brother is irrelevant to you.  Just take me as I am , none
of your learned responses can predict what is between us.  These friends we
have with us in this forest camp do not question the bonds between us , nor
do the social animals called wolves question the bonds between other pack
members.  As Thierry ended his wisdom, Jo evaluated the logic .  "Come here
to me bro" , asked Jo.  Thierry , "You know me better than I .  I need you
Thierry as a friend.  I was afraid of telling you my truth , in fear of
losing you , aww fuck man , you know I need you , and you know , you are
right ".  Returning his eyes to Jos and Jac .  "The pool accident put me on
a collision course with you Jos.  You did not know me , but you chose to
know me and you forced me to help my friend , against my own sick mind. 
Jos , I am the luckiest kid in Toronto for meeting you.  From the first
time that you met me , you trusted me to rescue your brother's friend
Thierry and I now realize , that type of trust is transferred to me because
of your brother Jac.

   Jo out stretched a hand to Thierry .  He took the hand and the two shook
hands , ending with arms wrapping each other , as the other campers watched
.  They could see new confidence and strength in Jo.  Una saw it also , and
with it she saw a boy growing into a man .  Una studied his collar bone ,
six pack , biceps and cheek bones.  She saw a real Indian Irish half breed
boy.  Gray , maybe green eyes , reddish blush on the cheeks and ears ,
reddish blond wavy hair , muscled neck , tapering to assertive shoulders ,
biceps , wrist muscles fed from deep down arteries and nourished by dark
blue veins carrying his lifeblood through the upper body limbs.  Una's
stare was followed by Jac , and Jos , and Thierry and Jen and Jes , to the
six pack muscles blending his heart cavity - rib cage into another river of
arteries and veins pulsing above Joseph's kidneys connecting his upper body
to the hidden part behind his shorts.  Una reached out to trace the
blue-purple veins on either side of the birth button.  The veins swelled
slightly , then slipped behind the waist band of his shorts.  Jo returned
her stare , unwaivering , unashamed in knowing that she was studying his
every detail.  The other campers watched as Una and Jo edged ever closer to
each other, unaware of their friends who stepped back slightly , giving
them room to do what young blood wants to do.

   Jos and Jen and Jac and Jes , backed away farther.  They motioned to
Thierry , to let the two be alone.  Jos turned to Jac and high fived both
paws slapping loudly high in the air.  Jes and Jen smiled approvingly. 
They took Thierry with them back to their tent , undressed and headed for
the swimming area.  Jes and Jen and Thierry and Jac were continuing the
swimming lessons with Jos.  The lessons had advanced for Jos to being able
to cover twenty or thirty meters with quick breast strokes , although at
the end of the strokes , Jos would be tired , and short of air.  "Hey Jos"
, hollered Jac, "Your learning quickly , and you no longer need feet on the
bottom , because you can just rest on your back and float when you get
tired" .  "It's true" , replied Jen and Jes.  "Lets practice some rescue
swimming".  "Thierry , you and Jac are the strongest boy swimmers .  The
rescue mission is you two , swim out about fifty meters and Jes and I will
swim out to rescue you.  We do mouth to mouth at the same time as we bring
you back to shore.  Jos can watch us , and see how it is done".  "Ready ,
set , Go".  Thierry and Jac raced arms thrashing out to the rescue zone ,
lithe bodies churning the water for traction.  Jes and Jen followed at a
leisurely rate, yelling at the the victims to remain calm , role on their
back and float, but Thierry and Jac winked at each other and pretended
serious floundering , beneath the surface , for thirty seconds and then up
for air using floundering swimmer strokes.  Jen got to Jac first and began
to role him to his back with her arm around his neck dragging it above
water , while Jes took hold of Thierry , trying to do the same thing.  The
boys were struggling realistically .  Jes and Jen water wrestled them
mercilessly to control their refusal to obey, unable to give them mouth to
mouth but retrieving them to shore quickly .  Jos watched them with laugher
and encouragement.  Next it was the girl twins , who swam out first and
then refused to listen to Jac and Thierry trying to drag them back ashore
without letting their nose go under the water.  The rescue attempts evolved
into great fun with much yelling and exhaustion each time a person was
rescued.  Jos got in on the fun by desperately swimming out to the rescue
zone at the same time as Jac and Jes.  Now it was Jen and Thierry who had
to rescue three drowning persons.  Jen reached Jac and Jes first.  She head
locked both of them and yelled for Thierry to get Jos.  As she dragged Jes
and Jac at the same time , Thierry dragged Jos , giving him mouth to mouth
until they arrived on shore.  The games continued until everyone was water
logged and cold.  They retreated to the tent area and found Una and Jo
boiling water at the camp fire.

   Everyone had boiled water camp drinks while the swimmers warmed by the
fire.  They discussed the great fun they had enjoyed and decided that ,
they would need to return to civilization , because the food was low.

   Thierry and Jos grabbed the fishing rods.  "If we catch enough fish we
can stay one more day".  As sun set the boys did catch six more trout,
definitely enough for another hard day of camping.  Thierry and Jos and Jac
squeezed into the twin girls tent leaving Una and Jo together for the
evening in the other tent.  As in previous nights Jo released a short
yipping howl to alert the forest creatures of his night time sleep .  A
similar yip from two wolves across the pond told the kids that they were
under protection by another social order.  By midnight everyone was
sleeping.

   Chapter 58 : morning at the camp

   Drizzling rain pattered on the tent as Jac and Jes awoke.  They were
close and sweaty together face to face .  Jos and Jen were still sleeping.
Jac realized that Thierry was not crowding them in the tent, as Jess
snuggled herself on his bicep muscle as she tightened her grip.  Their lips
touched gradually as the rain increased .  The sound of falling rain masked
out the sound of the two teens intimatating beside their sleeping twins. 
Within a short minute or two Jac and Jess undid all the stresses between
them and tumbled into another deep sleep together , even as Jos and Jen
awoke and did the same thing.  Water pouring in streams over the tent
covered the long slow breath of air exhaling from Jos and Jen as their
bodies singulated , and redrowsed .

   Thierry had intended to return to the tent but he noticed that Jac and
Jess needed some time by themselves.  As the rain increased in intensity he
slipped inside Jo and Una's tent noticing that they were still sleeping. 
Thierry lay on his back beside Jo listening to distant thunder clouds and
heavy rain .  He watched Una and Jo sleep , snuggled together , like they
belonged that way, two innocent kids agreeing to figure out a complex world
on their own terms without pressure from peers nor tv ads , nor religions.
"Una and Jo were completely free to do whatever they wanted , and they had
done nothing" , mused Thierry.  "They had not slipped into lustful sex ,
and they were happy together anyway .  I too , am lucky that Jac , and Jos
and Jo pulled me through the pool accident.  What fun would I have , being
dead" ?  As his mind wandered again toward Jo and his new untested foreskin
sheath , Thierry''s own tool enlarged subconsciously pushing itself into
the air above him.  A distant crack of thunder opened the eyes on Jo and
Una to see Thierry asleep but light housing the whole tent.  Una smiled at
Jo.  Both teens reached for the light house.  Una lifted Thierry's soft
foreskin covering up and let it slip back as Jo cupped his ball sac gently.
Thierry drifted into a dream place of total pleasure until his lighthouse
began to pulse sperm , spaying the roof of the small tent , splattering on
the laughing Una and Jo.  After the eruption died down , Thierry opened his
eyes face to face with Jo and Una, sheepish , perhaps fearful , then
sensing the fun in their faces , he began to laugh hilariously , with Una
and Jo laughing with him.  "It seems , that you have spilled your seed"
added Jo in a rediculessly rigid voice.  "You shall be banished to hell" ,
monotoned Jo and Una together, as Thierry rolled in laughter with them. 
They arose and poked around outside the tent.  Fog obscured the sun but Jo
knew it might be around seven thirty , as he spotted the twins emerge from
the other tent.

   Thierry poked at the camp fire , soaked beyond wetness.  "I thought we
were up before the first crow piss" , exclaimed Thierry , "But this black
wet camp fire mess is definitely crow moisture.".  Everyone continued
laughing , but how to get a fire going ?

   Jen and Jes opened their stash of dry things , to produce eight or ten
pieces of card board from a womens dry pads box.  Jen located a bit of
birch bark from a nearby tree .  Within a few minutes a tiny hot flame
began to dry the wet twigs being fed to it.  Hot water and campers tea was
soon served.  Within an hour the sun had stripped away remaining fog , as
the kids packed their garbage and tents and soaked cloths , leaving the
site forest clean.  They began the trek back to civilization.  Sun
continued without clouds as they neared the half way point two hours later.
Jac , Jo , Jos and Thierry lagged behind as the girls forged ahead with
their lighter loads.  They kept constant talk to speed the walk and
spirits.

   Thierry talked , "Jo , you are an amazing kid , able to be complete
friends with Una , without ahh you know-"?  "You mean fucking her?" teased
Jo in his best crude street talk voice.  "Well , Yes", answered Thierry and
Jac and Jos.  Jo laughed at his friends .  "I am a young man of sixteen"
"But inches is not what I mean" "When I do love my girl" "Her hair and mine
will curl" "Meantime , let it grow straight".  The boys began laughing ,
picked up speed a bit and eventually caught up with the girls at the trout
pond only a half hour from the farm.  "We can go on home anytime , now
spoke Jos .  Lets stop here and rest awhile".  A huge oak tree on the north
side of the dam lured everyone closer without discussion.  The kids sat on
a wood pile acknowledging a wonderful camping trip and new friends. 
"That's where we saw your mom and dad kissing, volunteered Jess".  "They
did more than kiss , mentioned Jen".  "Yeah" , began Jos as he and Jac told
everyone the story of themselves , finding out they were twins with the get
together of their parents after thirteen years.  "Wow , that's a long time
of separation" , stated Jo.  "I hope to see my parents again some day".

   Jac and Jos and Jen and Jess looked at each other surepticiously.  They
hoped that Thierry and Una and especially Jo had not heard Jac's
conversations on his cell with Julia and Aric.  In order to keep Jo in the
dark about his parents , Jenn and Jess had suggested the camping trip,
while Aric and Julia arranged travel information.  They knew that it would
be a great surprise for Jo and after his comments , they now knew he
thought of them often.

   "Would you recognize them to see them" , asked Jos.  "There are places
reserved in all mammals memory for those who gave them life on this planet"
, replied Jo.  "My parents loved me and Liam.  They brought us to a
wonderful planet.  I feel that and my memory remembers that.  I have my
mother's red hair and green gay eyes and my father's physique.  I want to
see them somehow , to hug them again like I was four years old.  I am
feeling strong , like something has been settled in my mind over the last
few days .  All of you have taught me about friendship -- me , a street kid
, and you loved me like a brother.  Una has slept with me every night . 
She has taught me about my own feelings, awakened my spirit.  She has
taught me what my parents taught , to be patient , to wait, and to prepare
for strategic events in my life.  When the time comes , Una and I will
become one.

   The twins high fived Jo , watching a smile spread across his face ,
watching his chest muscles move as he talked and his trouser front tighten
as he complimented Una.

   With that statement , the group of friends continued their walk until
they reached the old farm house where Aric and Julia waited.  After
greetings , Julia invited all of them for barbeque steaks at the new farm
house.  Everyone agreed to meet in two hours.  Camping equipment was
cleaned , dried .  All seven kids crowded into the old farm house upstairs
shower , enjoying the hot rain , and then the cool water and finally
yelling with cold excitement as ninety foot deep well water over powered
the hot water heater and cascaded their bodies.  They crowded around Jos on
his bed as he told them the story of first meeting his brother Jac under
the two girl twins.  All their clothes washed or replaced with clean ones ,
the group moved next door to three picnic tables on the back lawn.  One
table was covered with a huge bear skin rug.  The other tables were normal.
Jo took Una's hand and sat instinctively at the bear skin.  Everyone else
took the other tables as Julia and Aric brought out vegetables and dip and
bowls of fruit.  Jes and Jens parents arrived first .  Then Jac and Jos
parents arrived , but no one sat with Una and Jo, who seemed to be
wondering.  Julia and Jos and Aric delivered choice of fruit juice , or
cold well water , or milk ,or chocolate milk.  Everyone relaxed.

   Jo and Una watched the other tables enjoying the evening with the smell
of steak permeating the air.  They shared each other's drinks and fruit.

   Chapter 59 : The Game.

   Julia announced a game whereby the contestant would be blindfolded and
then kissed or could kiss some one else.  A spokesperson for the contestant
would try to guess whether the contestant would guess correctly .  The
contestant would then try to guess who was the kissed person and could kiss
them several times in order to determine name.  The game bounced back and
forth with first Jos , being kissed by Jess and Jen predicting the answer
correctly.  Then Robert guessed that Aric would know that a kiss from his
mother.  Then the contestant selected was Joseph.  He sat quietly as Una
blind folded his eyes snugly.  At that point a red haired mother entered
the yard quietly.  She stood before the blindfolded boy and gently kissed
him on the cheek , as she had done so many times and such a long time ago.

   Joseph reached out for her , but she had stepped back.  Face grinning ,
he yelled "Mawhir Mawhir" , and staggered forward arms reaching out. 
Joseph's mother and father stepped in to grab hold of Joseph.  "Daidi ,
Daidi" , and dropping into his street language .  Oh fuck , yeah "Mawhir ,
Daidi.  Joseph wrapped his arms tight around both their necks, so tight
that Julia stepped forward to release the blindfold.  Joseph eyes blinked ,
they stared at his mother and then sweld with rivers of tears.  Not letting
go , he dragged them down to the picnic table, perhaps not realizing that
his sixteen years was much stronger than being four when his parents left.
A stunning conclusion to the game , as everyone forgot about it.  They
crowded around Joseph , and his parents , as Julia introduced Sabina and
Yahto .  Joseph tears stopped momentarily , as he gazed upon Sabina , never
releasing his grip on her arm.  An extended howl of joy escaped his upward
lifting throat pushing through his lips and into the evening air.  In the
quiet space after the howl two howls from distant wolves echoed back to the
group.  Joseph pulled his mother close , and licked her face so tenderly
and slowly.  The older parents looked away , while tears formed in Julia's
eyes and spread to Jess and Jen and Una.  Jac and Jos and Thiery saw that
Una was left out.  They ushered her into the nucleus of the group ,
wrapping her arms around Joseph until new tears broke into cheeky streams.
Nobody cared about tears.  They cried with happiness for Joseph.  A few
clouds drifted across the night sky.  Crickets chirped in the long grass
meadows .  But Joseph's face switched from happiness to pain.  Finally
Joseph spoke.  "Daidi , Mawther " I am so sorry .  Liam is gone.  He can't
be here with you" Jos and Jac watched his face change to failure , with the
horrendous mental suicide scar , which would never heal .  Sabrina and
Yahto held Joseph's face.  Face to face :"We love you and Liam as much as
all the stars in the sky , murmured Sabrina.  Yahto and I found each other
and we will never leave each other again and , We will never ever leave you
again Joseph , as sure as stars shine on your life and the wolves guard
your pack".  "Mawther , Mawther , Mawther , I am so sorry" .  Sabrina
pulled his face into herself.  She licked the sobbing boy's neck and ears.
She cupped his cheeks in her hands.  Yahto steadied Jo by putting his
shoulder under Joseph's armpit and sitting them together on the picnic
table as Sabrina tried to console his pain.  Joseph felt himself weakening
, sliding backward into the pit of religious torment , he so recently , had
left.  His face buried in the the fur of the giant bear rug , Yahto chanted
a native lyric .  It soothed Jo as his lungs exhaled a tortured howl of
grief for Liam .  Answering howls returned from the wolf pack much nearer
now , probably on the path the kids had walked four hours ago.  The group
heard and watched approaching head lights and another car parked alongside
the road , the occupants climbing out to join the group.

   "Hey , were in the backyard" , yelled Julia , "Come on in George and
Bill and Sath".  We have lots of steak and baked potatoes.  Sath approached
Joseph uneasily , glancing at Jos and Jac and noticing Joseph's pain in
their faces.  She sat on the bench against Joseph and whispered into his
ear.  "Jo , I feel it , and your friends Joshua and Jacque and Thiery feel
it.  The wolves feel it but you are too strong this time to give up.  And
now , there is another here to guide you past the turmoil .  Una , I am
pleased to meet you.  You have picked a boy who has seen the worst that 2
million people and religion can dish out.  You love him .  I can tell.  You
love him because every person here loves him.  And we will stand together
with this boy when he experiences rough water.

   George and Bill began aquaintance with the twins parents as they
explained the miraculous recovery made by Jac and Thiery.

   Joseph had rolled an end of the bear rug over his head, and Sath
carefully unwrapped the red haired boy raising his head back to her eye
level.  "I heard you Sath" , said Jo , and I heard Mawther and Daidi , and
I still lost control for a minute.  I have let you all down again , I am
failure -".  "No you are a boy , a beautiful red haired green eyed boy ,
still young , still maturing , growing , and I stress growing stronger
every day.  You have made us so happy , because you stayed with us , and
now Joseph , we will stand by you .  We will stand by you until the earth
stops spinning .  You will not fail.  " Joseph stared at his mother and
then father.  Mawther , Daidi , you ARE together.  I heard you say that ,
and Sath has told me again .  Mawther I can feel one other , but it is not
Liam , but I feel my brother.  OH Daidi - Mawther What is happening to me ?


   Joseph's parents looked at Joseph as the group turned their eyes on
Sabrina.  "It is true , yes , It is true Jo.  You have a baby brother
growing inside me.  This time , we know how to raise a baby human and you
can tell us whenever we mistake.  You have a new brother Jo.  It happened
right after Yahto and I got together.  We were not sure about this but it
did happen.  The doctor reported this morning that you have a baby bro. 
Joseph slammed his head with both hands , he grinned , and smiled and
hugged his mother once more .  " Fuck yeah , Liam has returned" , laughed
Jo.  "Did everyone hear what I said".  Josephs lungs released a howl of joy
echoing from the tallest tree tops into the night., frightening the old owl
by the barn and sending hundreds of bats scurrying for cover.  A resounding
howl returned from the treed area behind the house .  Five distinct wolf
howls crescendoed into one ear piercing howl.  The older people in the
group were stunned by the response but Joseph and Thiery and Jos were
ecstatic.  Jo was now free of his mental wars.  He was free to choose his
life and his friends and his destiny.

   He looked around to find Una and pulled her close to himself.  "Mawther
, Daidi , Sath , George , Bill , Joshua, Jacque , Thiery , and all the
parents , look at me , I am free , and I have friends" , while stepping on
to the top of the picnic table, shoulders back , "attention everyone". 
There is a girl in the world who will spend her life with me if she says
yes".  Jo pulled Una to the top of the table with him .  He left her
standing there and sat on the table bench.  "Una , will you spend the rest
of your life with me , will you mary me , will you have my baby , our baby
, will you say yes.  There's no rush , but I want to know now with all my
friends what we can aim for and what could happen to us when I finish
school.  Una's eyes glistened with anticipation of all the things she had
wished for in her life.  She put her hands around his cheeks , pulled them
up from the bear rug , to seek his eyes, now grayish green in the darkened
evening , reflecting the sky behind her and a thousand universes beyond the
planet.  She had a million words to say , but only one was heard .  "YES".
A chorus of wolves voices echoed through the night.  The group began to
sing along with the wolves.

   Julia and Aric and Thiery and Jos and Jac served hamburgers and potato
salad and baked potatoes to every one.  Thiery whispered into Aric's and
Julia's ear.  Five more steaks were seared on both sides for three minutes
.

   Joseph and Una placed their paper steak plates on the bear rug, joined
by Sath and Bill and George and Yahto and Sabrina.  The feast began .  Then
Joseph and Thiery took the 5 seared steaks into the darkness of the tree
thicket behind the back yard.  They found a small clearing in the moonlight
and stood quietly as five wolves came forward , each taking a seared steak
and bounding away.  The boys returned to the feast .

   Joseph and Jacque began to talk as they feasted.  Helped by Jennifer and
Jessica each time they could not produce the exact word required the four
friends explained their summer.  Then each of the other persons did the
same .  Another car stopped on the road after supper.  A young man
approached the backyard, looking for Joshua.  "He is right here" ,
exclaimed Julia.  "Let me put another steak on for you .  Stay here with us
for awhile.  Jac, and Thiery , bring some paper and matches from the house
and light the bonfire in the middle of the yard.  "And so ahh young man ,
why do you want to see Joshua"?

   Chapter 60 : Adrian

   " My name is Adrian .  Well You see , I almost killed him with my truck
four weeks ago, and I have wanted to apologize to him ever since.  I saw
the group of vehicles and thought for sure he would be here." She sat
Adrian on the picnic table bench beside Joshua , and they rapidly
accustomed themselves to each other , but Jos noticed that Adrian often
looked across at Thiery even as he talked.  After a few minutes , Julia and
Aric asked Jos and Jac to help serve new beverages.  When Jos returned
Adrian was accompanied by Thiery.  The two were discussing sports , and
wrestling , and hockey , and swimming , as fast as either could think of a
new sports hero.  Jos and Jac moved over to another table where the older
parents were talking animately about the Jays.  Jos and Jac joined the
conversation motioning Jen and Jes to join them.  Adrian and Thiery were
alone on the dark side of the back yard now.  They enjoyed each other .

   Thiery and Adrian left first around two AM.  in Adrians truck.  Joshua
and Julia thanked Adrian for stopping to apologize to Joshua.  Thiery
promised to be back by sun up.  The evening ended about three o'clock. 
Everyone suddenly noticed the time , and remembered the next day was here ,
- like three hours ago !  Everyone had places to go except Sabrina and
Yahto.  Jen and Jes and Julia made the final arrangements as to where
everyone still there , would sleep .  They placed Uno and Joseph and Yahto
and Sabrina in the old farm house next door , warning them of the
possibility of early morning rain and how the house responded to rain.

   Jac and Jos looked at the twins parents as Jes assigned herself and Jac
to her bed , Jos and Jen to Jos bed .  The twins mother seemed concerned
but their father was ok with it .  "I hope you boy twins become my
twin-son-in-laws" , he told everyone.  My little girls can do no wrong and
I know that you boy twins belong with them.  He went into the kitchen and
brought back a six pack of beer.  Julia sat them all at the kitchen table ,
set out small paper cups for everyone and divided the beer equally.  Jac
and Jos and Jen and Jes were excited to be treated as adults .  "Here's to
many more seasons just like the last one" , spoke Aric , to cows and calves
, and bulls and boys and girls and to Julia and my new child." The twins
parent choked on their sip of beer.  "That's so fantastic" , they exclaimed
together.  "We have not yet decided on a name" , announced Julia.  "Aric
has always wanted a son named Joshua but that name is already in our family
now".  They continued the conversation for a short while longer and then
disappeared to bed , with Aric turning out the lights and closing the
doors.

   In the old farm house , Yahto and Sabrina snuggled into the double bed
which Joshua used.  Jo and Una took the single bed upstairs .  As four
oclock rolled by on the clock the first patter of rain announced itself on
the old farm house steel roof.  Gathering clouds and gusty winds rattled
the doors and sent lightning razors across the sky , followed by thunderous
claps.  Jo awoke first and began to lower the windows.  He moved into Yahto
and Sabrina's room noticing they were still asleep and very close together
during lightning flashes.  Quietly maneuvering the window to closed
position , a loud clap awoke Yahto and Sabrina , who momentarily watched
Joseph closing the window and retreating.  By the time he got back to his
bed Una was awake.  She lodged herself close to him , not letting go for
the rest of the night.



   By morning the rooms had warmed and everyone had kicked off their covers
, but slept soundly as the clouds pattered new rain intermittently on the
roof.  Sabrina finally stirred around ten in the morning .  She pulled
Yahto downstairs with her , checking quietly that Jo and Una slept soundly
as they passed their room.  Yahto cooked eggs and bacon and toast and hash
browns .  A wonderful breakfast appeared .  The smell of cooking soon
pulled Una and Jo from the upstairs to the kitchen table.  Everyone sat
down to eat and discuss their lives.

   Julia was concerned , as Thierry had not yet returned by seven.  Joshua
and her discussed the gravity of the situation , as Jac appeared.  The
three of them distinctly remembered Thierry promising to return by morning.
Then Jes and Jen appeared .  There is always a solution to these things
stalled Jac .  I know Thierry best, apart from Jo , and I say he is late
but not in difficulty at all.  "Lets try to call Thierry on his cell". 
Everyone concurred.  Jac punched in the numbers .

   Chapter 61 : Adrian's Truck.

   Thierry and Adrian had left around two AM in Adrian's truck.  "I liked
Jos a lot" said Adrian as the truck engine purred along the road.  "Me
also" , continued Thierry.  "But Jos , I mean Joshua is already spoken for"
.  "No wonder to that" muttered Adrian , taking quick glances at Thierry as
his eyes scanned the road ahead.  Both boys took to staring at the road
ahead , not knowing where they were going but knowing they were going
together.  "Stop" , yelled Thierry, as Adrian quickly arrested the truck.
"What's up" ?  Thierry stared ahead .  "High beams".  Adrian flicked the
light to high beam.  Both boys saw the animals eyes on the road, yellowish
, bright spots separated by , "I dun know what it is" , stared Thierry. 
"Tall for a racoon".  "Too short for a deer".  Adrian let the truck move
slowly ahead.  "Light off" spoke Thierry.  Adrian turned off all the truck
lights.  "It could be paralyzed by the lights".  The truck gradually came
to a stop all on it's own as the animal stood on a small hill on the road.
It seemed to be very slowly moving to the side but keeping the eyes fixed
on the truck.  Adrian reached down to the floor and under the seat ,
looking for a flashlight .  "Flashlight , where are you , must have rolled
over here ahhh oh oh"!  Thierry felt a jolt of adrenalin as Adrian wrapped
his fingers around Thierry's leg.  "Whooo hooo" cried out Thierry as Adrian
dropped his leg in search of the light.  "Su- sorry Thierry".  "But I liked
it".  "You sure" Thierry and Adrian stared at each other in the dimly
lighted cab.  "Yep".  "You do it on purpose"?  "Do what" ?  "Grabbed my
leg".  "I swear there is , i mean , there is a light under this seat
somewhere"?  Thierry reached under the seat on his side , carefully
examining familiar objects , don't know , -is it a box of cigarettes ?  ,
pliers , tape , a plastic cup - , "got it", as he pulled the flashlight
into view.  Both boys looked ahead to see where the animal had been. 
"Guess it it got bored" mused Adrian.  "Guess it did" "You bored"?  "No".
Thierry flicked the switch on illuminating the cab of the truck.  "The
light will attract mosquitoes".  "They can't get in here unless we open a
window".  Thierry noticed Adrian's pants tenting.  "Could be just loose
fitting trousers" , his mind reasoned.  "Can I do somethin with it"? 
Adrian stared straight ahead.  "Want me to do somethin for you Thierry"? 
"Yikes , there is one mosquito in here already suckin your blood" ,
exclaimed Adrian .  He lowered his hand quickly on to Thierry's neck. 
"Hope another one bites me" ?  "I 'll bite you one" , laughed Adrian as he
pushed his mouth on Thierry's neck.  "Just try it" The two boys scuffled
around in the truck trying to pin each other.  "Think I see one down here"
as Thierry pulled Adrians shirt and released a couple of buttons , sliding
his fingers across Adrian's chest.  Another scuffle ensued ending with
Adrian's fingers inside Thierry's shirt and Thierry's finger gripping
Adrians right tit.  "Back off or I rip it off".  "Adrian's fingers deftly
undid Thierry's belt and slid down the front , as Thierry groaned "Fuck
yeah, I need that man".  His fingers located Adrian's groin.  "Ok if I
check your tool".  "Ok if I check yours".  "And Adrian , you saw Jos
briefly and his group of friends , -what do you think of them" ?  "I am not
sure , -where's that question coming from"?  "No , It is where's this
question leading" ?  "Jos and Jac and Julia and Aric taught me to be very
careful of who I sleep with"?  "Std's" ?  "Yeah".  "Do you think I might
have an std"?  "I am sorry Adrian , our friendship has moved too fast , but
I need to know , because I thought I felt a box of cigarettes under the
seat and I am not too keen on being with someone who sucks cancer sticks."
"I do not smoke".  "Does your friend smoke"?  "Not sure , you should ask
him , his name is Thierry" , as both boys laughed .  "What about that box"?
"I said , I don't smoke and Thierry , look at me , read my lips" , as he
planted them on Thierry , "I do not lie either".  "Not possible for me to
tell a fib".  Adrian toppled over on Thierry as though aiming to lick is
belt buckle .  He took a deep breath of air from Thierry's pants , and at
the same time retrieved the box , from under the truck seat.  "Does this
look like a cigarette box"?  , holding a condom package in front of
Thierry's face.  Thierry began to laugh and jab at Adrian .  Adrian did not
respond.  He noticed Adrian's face.  "-oh no Adrian , I am sorry , I
apologize , I distrusted you .  Adrian continued to stare out the front. 
"Adrian , look at me , there is nothing out there.  "Racoon and babies". 
"Aww they are cute , spooky at this time of night but cute".  "Adrian , I
am sorry".  "Thierry , you called me a liar , in so many words"?  "Yes , I
did that .  But Adrian , I was wrong on all counts.  You do not have
cigarettes and you are trust worthy.  Secondly you are hansom.  You have
blue eyes and brown hair and when you smile , I think you are smiling at me
.  Is that true ?" "I could be" , smiled the other boy.  Thierry undone
Adrians shirt and pulled it free.  "Wtf Adrian , what is that mark"? 
Thierry stared at a ten centimeter scar running diagonally across Adrian's
six pack.  The scar started on his left lower stomach muscle group and
descended across the happy trail into the right area hidden by Adrians belt
and jeans.  "I do not have std's but I have a nasty scar".  "Can you tell
me about it?" "I was twelve years old .  There was an accident".  Thierry
examined the mark with the flashlight but the battery was dimming.  "Lets
move down the road a bit".  Adrian stared the truck and drove slowly for
several kilometers till a gate popped into view from the moon light between
fleeting clouds.  "Open it".  Thierry unhooked the chain , struggled with
the gate until learning it's weight and soon returned to the truck chased
by a mosquito or two.  Adrian drove the truck into a stubble meadow clipped
short by haying .  He parked the truck out of sight from the road under an
overhanging tree .  Almost total blackness , when he shut off the truck and
lights .  Thierry and Adrian sat in silence.  Whack , "A mosquito got
inside".  "Both boys listened for the characteristic high pitched drone of
the incoming sucker.  They both went for the same mosquito and whack -
slap. Adrians hands were clasping Thierry , there eyes becoming somewhat
useful in the dim light.

   Adrian continued his hands along Thierry and unbuttoned his shirt ,
pulling it free and storing it on the dash.

   Adrian released Thierry's seat belt.  Thierry released Adrian's seat
belt.

   Thierry retrieved the flashlight and poked it into Adrian's six pack
belly muscles locking the bright light on Adrian's crotch.  Fingers gently
pulling aside a faded pair of boxer waistband and freeing the live animal
struggling inside.  "It's a beauty Adrian".  "Can I pet it"?  "Yep , go
ahead make friends with it".  "Can I pet yours"?  "Yeeaaeh , fuck yeah". 
Thierry felt around Adrian's tool trying to locate that special spot, that
would make him take note.  He felt rough farm hardened fingers soothing his
own foreskin.  Their mouths touched each other as Adrian slid into the the
middle of the bench seat, pulling the seat lever as he did until it moved
back for maximum space.  "Oh man , I need this now".  "Do it Thierry". 
"Don't stop".  "Make it hard".  "No need to ask for that"?  "Make it cum".
"Can do."

   "Ohhhhhh , fuck me , I can't -".  Adrian's foreskin had not even cleared
the tip.  A bubbling milky fluid released itself on Thierry's fingers. 
Thierry did not stop , continuing gently masturbating his new friend . 
Adrian's brain demanded a break but Thierry kept working the foreskin
slowly as Adrian's fingers commanded Thierry to release fluid.  Thierry's
stomach muscles contracted , knees closing together , legs straightening
"Ahhh , do it , aaaahhhhhh --" His genitals exploded pumping the creamy
juice over the radio knobs , spotting the windshield , splattering his belt
buckle and waist band.  All movement ceased when the pulsations stopped.

   Arian, snuggled into Thierry , dosing in the bliss of released fluids.
Thierry's eye's opened to a distant thunder clap.  Instinctively snuggling
into Adrian .  No more mosquitoes buzzed through the cab.  Evaporating
sperm laden moisture fogged the truck windows.  The night grew darker with
a gentle rain pattering on the outside.  The boys were safe in their cocoon
, and had snuggled eye to to toe on the bench seat.  Adrian began to
incorporate the sound of the approaching storm into his dream.  He could
hear a tractor engine and a hay bale elevator.  Clutching Thierry tighter
and tighter until both of them sat up , eyes open in the pitch blackness.

   Wham , lightning , instantaneously blasting a six inch wide gash of
forty feet of tree bark lighted the truck with bright white .  A silvery
glow of ionized burning air accompanied bushels of exploded bark raining
down on the truck.  Intense plasma flash left both boys blinded , smelling
boiling tree sap , and burnt tree bark.  "Fuck , that was close" , both
boys spoke.  "You ok".  "Whaa" "Can't see".  "Whaa" "Can't hear".  "I can't
hear" , yelled Adrian.  Thierry felt around until pushing the flashlight
switch on.  Adrian reached over to the truck cab lighting button and
activated it.  "Fuck , I can not see" , yelled Thierry.  "At least , I
heard you yell" , yelled Adrian back.  "I can't see either" , yelled
Adrian. "Why is it so quiet" ?  "Whaaat" "Why IS IT SO QUIET" , yelled
Adrian.  Thierry remembered the pool accident , the small explosion in the
pool shed.  "THE THUNDER CLAP WAS TOO LOUD" , yelled Thierry.  "Our ears
are damaged and our eyes are burnt out".  "No , no" , exhaled Adrian. 
Thierry put his hands on Adrians cheeks.  "Hold still for a while .  In the
pool accident , I lost my hearing but it returned after a few minutes. 
Probably temporary damage.  Did you hear me , Adrian".  Adrian nodded,
"Thierry just hold me as tight as you can for a few minutes." "That' easy".
Thierry pulled Adrian over on top of his lap , then rolled on top , pinning
Adrian to the seat , letting his weight settle Adrian into the soft truck
seat.  Thierry remained straddling Adrian , lowered his body on to Adrian
and began to lick his face, and neck , and ears.  Pushing his tongue into
each ear lobe , getting a taste of ear wax , but Thierry loved it.  He
sensed Adrian relaxing after many licks, and let his tongue wander into
Adrians lips, which parted just enough.  "I love you Adrian".  "I can see ,
again" , whispered Adrian.  "And your hearing will come back also".  The
explosion could not permanently hurt us inside your truck with the windows
up.  "Now what was that fear about" ?  questioned Thierry.  Adrian nodded
his head , but made no sound .  Thierry persisted in his licking until his
tongue reached Adrian's neck.  "It was like , I was twelve years old again
with my accident" , stated Adrian.  "I am sorry to spook you.  Am ok now.
Thanks for stayin with me".  Thierry continued with his tongue and lips
down Adrian's neck to his chest.  He felt the hardened farm boys muscles
neatly arranged in rows across his chest.  His fingers carefully undone
Adrians belt and trouser snap and then deflected his underwear.  His tongue
detected the soft tissue between Adrians leg muscles and six pack rows.  To
the left a bit and Adrian sighed.  "Oh Thierry , oh man , that feels
great". Thierry's tongue tasted the spent sperm left over from an hour
before , deciding it needed fresh produce.  "So relaxing , soooo
relaaxxing".  "I guess there is gentle rain falling , but I never heard it
coming".  "But that's because you were so tense , you just spewed cum every
where in three seconds flat.  Let's try it again and see what happens." "No
, I mean about the storm .  It frightened me Thierry because I was dreaming
of the accident".  Adrian found Thierry's belt and slipped his hand inside.
"You're hard as steel".  "You are too".  "Will this be another three second
timer" ?  "No lets do this better".  Thierry let his tongue contact
Adrian's tube.  His tongue felt the tube in a strange way , almost
expecting it to be hard but it was soft , unresponsive.  "Adrian , you're
still in that dream - yes , maybe"?  "I am .  Hurt more than anyone could
know.  Ripped my belly wide open , till I could see my own guts".  "What
the fuck Adrian .  Can you tell me what you dreamed just before the
lightning struck"?  I was on the hay bale elevator.  The barn was almost
full of hay and I put too many bales on the elevator.  It stopped.  I
thought a fuse was blown.  Crawling up the elevator to remove the hay bales
, because it will not start with too much load on the electric motor.  But
the the fuse had not blown.  I was up near the top.  IT was just a two
minute power outage.  The power came on.  The elevator started and pushed
the hay bale against me forcing me through the upper door into the barn , -
tried to wriggle away from the bale but I hit my back on the side of the
door , and fell on the elevator chain.  An elevator spike pushed me over
the top but my belt caught on a bolt.  I was hanging by my belt upside down
.  There were no bales left on the elevator.  Could see the next bale spike
advancing toward my belly , tried to move , tried to grab the underside of
the elevator and push myself up - and off the bolt.  I was too slow.  The
bale hook contacted my belly.  I could feel it ripping the skin open , like
a can opener in a can of beans.  It hurt , ohh , ooo hhh it hurt.  Blood
spattered my face from my belly.  You know the artery that runs down the
surface of the belly near the upper leg muscle .  That artery was ripped
wide open and spurted blood everywhere.  I could still see another bale
hook advancing for the kill.  I pulled out my pocket knife and cut my belt
in two along with the waste band.  Just as the next hook threatened to tear
me open again , I fell out of my pants and underwear , into the hay bales
already tumbled into the barn.  Left a trail of blood across the bales down
the ladder and outside.  My mother found me heading toward the house.  She
screamed and frightened me even more , but soon recovered , and called an
ambulance.  She loaded me into the family car , bleeding like a headless
chicken and we met the ambulance five miles down the highway.  When the
medics got me in the ambulance I passed out , and forgot everything for two
days.  When I woke up they had patched my wound and I had a tube stuck in
my penis , and tubes in my arms.  It was dark in the hospital room , as my
fingers moved around the bandages on my belly.  When I found the tube in my
penis , I tried to pull it out but a nurse magically appeared and took
control.

   A long silence followed Adrian's talk on the accident.  Thierry spoke to
break the silence.  "We are both lucky kids .  You survived a war with a
hay elevator , and you beat it man , You solved the problem , and you beat
it , you saved yourself.  I was in a pool accident with my friend Jac.  The
poisonous fumes got in our lungs and stopped our respiration.  Jac was
rescued by Jos.  Then they airlifted Jac and Jos to my hospital bed
downtown .  I was saved by the hospital trauma center and by Jac and Jos
and Joseph.  I would have died , but all those people pulled me away from
death.  Now I am here with you Adrian.  We - ahh both of us have already
enjoyed a sweet release.  That's how Joseph saved me.  Then we had to save
Joseph , but that is another story.

   "Let's celebrate Adrian.  We , both of us are accident survivors".  "We
just survived a lightning strike , also" .

   "I do not want to celebrate.  I just want you to hold me so tight , that
I forget my own name" , smiled Adrian.

   "Did you ever ahh , do you want me to help you forget , how can I say
what I would like from you Adrian" ?  "Do you want to , cum inside me" ? 
"I have never done that"?  "That's not my question , Adrian"?  "If you have
never did it , why the box"?  "Just dreamin".  "Can I be in your dream" ?
Thiery patted the long scar with his fingers , used his lips to trace out
the sensitive riff of roughly healed skin.  Then re-attached his lips to
Adrians foreskin, sliding his tongue inside the sensitive skin.  Adrian
allowed him to remove all his clothing and then Adrian removed Thierry's
clothing ending up sixty nine style mouthing each other slowly , tasting ,
learning softness of untested foreskin.  Thierry recovered the condom box ,
removed one , positioned it and guided it along Adrian's pulsing shaft. 
Thierry arranged his body on the truck bench seat , allowing Adrian to
press his tube into his cavity.  The lubricated condom slipped inside
slowly as Adrian probed .  Adrian gasped .  Thierry held his position ,
then moved slowly , reaching and holding Adrian's cheek to push deeper and
deeper , as Adrian gasped louder.  "Oh , ohhh oh fuck , yeah Thierry , You
know how to do this, but stop .  I want to see your face".

   Thierry pulled away from Adrian , rolled over and slid himself to the
edge of the seat , as Adrian positioned his body to align the peg with the
hole.  Carefully , pressure , more pressure , and success.  Body conforming
over Thierry's chest , his lips contacting Thierry's mouth as his tube slid
slowly inside the coveted temporary storage space.  Slow , rhythmic as a
boat moving up and down on deep waves.  Adrian's sensations overloaded, yet
Thierry continued to move him up and down .  Adrian could not speak , he
could only grip Thierry's ass enough to almost stop the movement but it was
still too much.  "Ahhh , cumming , oh christ cumming Thierrry".  A grin
spread across Thierry's face as Adrian's tongue sought relief through his
lips.  Adrian's body spasmed again and again as Thierry laughed .

   Finally Adrian recovered , and withdrew.  Thierry pulled the spent safe
off Adrian.  "ahhh , man that's sensitive".  Thierry gave Adrian no relief
, as his tongue once again began to coax Adrian to hardness.  Within
minutes Adrian was rock steady again , as Thierry dressed him with another
condom.  He took the same position as before and gradually wiggled Adrian's
long slim cock into his space.  Thierry began the long slow wave motion
again.  Adrian was grinning now also, his sensation overloaded into a
permanently hard state , road into and out of Thierry.  Both boys sweating
now , behind steamed windows , disappointing the millions of hungry
mosquitoes who could see the hot flesh but could not touch it.  Clouds
moved across the moon.  A distant owl hooted but Adrian heard only
Thierry's moaning as he started to unload cum , spraying it , pulsing it
into Adrian's happy trail.

   Adrian began to feel the new tightness as Thierry ejaculated.  The
rhythmic movement accelerated between them , neither boy realizing the
auto-pilot motion under way, each boy feeling extremeness in sensation ,
lips on lips, stomach whacking stomach and Adrian's genitals slamming into
Thierry each time the two boys made maximum contact.  Thierry's ejaculation
dimmed but Adrian's cock kept accelerating , pumping , pushing , as
Thierry's ass experienced new sensations.  Adrian gripped Thierry's cock
between them with his fist , determined now to dish out to Thierry what he
had already done to Adrian.  Adrian's fingers snugged tighter and tighter
to Thierry's hardening member, using the fresh cum as lubricant , his thumb
and forefinger tightly squeezed on Thierry's glans as his rock hard tube
plunged into and out of Thierry.  Adrian concentrated on Thierry's cock ,
oblivious to his mounting need , his brain and body striving to deliver
sperm again, without rest.  Thierry's moaning became howling , his ass
resonated with Adrians cock , and Adrians grip on his glans pushed both his
buttons to extremity.  Thierry's legs began to stiffen.  Adrian could feel
Thierry's glans expanding and his anal ring tightening for all out war. 
Adrian put his mouth squarely over Thierry to absorb the cries of delight
as he dragged , forced , and offered his total-ness to Thierry.  Without
warning to either boy Arian exploded again into the tortured condom inside
Thierry .  His expanded tool triggered Thierry again , his sperm pulsing
between the two boys until nothing remained.  Adrian had no time even to
cry out as his brain overdosed on the fury of spasms consuming his legs and
stomach muscles and lower torso.  Thierry howled into Adrians mouth as his
body answered Adrian , sperm for sperm and pulse for pulse.  Adrian tumbled
on top of Thierry as both boys automatically shut down .

   Breathing patterns eventually stabilized as the boys slept , steamed
windows , lathered in cum as the mosquitoes watched.  Thierry heard the
cell ringing first but he had to awaken Adrian to get it from the discarded
clothes pile on the dash.

   "Hewwoh".  "We have breakfast waiting for you" , beamed Julia over the
air waves.  "Oh , ahhh Ju - Jul -Julia it's quite early for breakfast". 
"Breakfast at eleven is almost brunch" , laughed Julia.  "Oh man , eleven
o'clock" , mused Thierry.  "Ahh give us a few minutes , about twenty , and
we'll be there".  "Adrian and you" , laughed Julia?  "Only two of us , I
think" .  "Ok".  "Se you in twenty".  "Thanks , by".

   Adrian and Thierry stared at the dried cum sprayed every where in the
cab of the truck.  Both boys dressed over top of the millions of dried
sperm cells and spent cum.  Adrian started the truck and arrived back at
the old farm house as Julia came out to greet them.  "I trust you two
enjoyed last evening" , stated Julia .  "We are going to have sausage and
eggs and tomato and bacon sandwiches" , spoke Julia as she eyed the condom
wrappers and spent condoms on the truck floor.  "At least you didn't throw
them out on the ground for the wildlife to choke on", as she hurried back
to the kitchen with orders for the cooks Joshua and Jacque.  Thierry
regarded Adrian .  "She is ok"!

   Chapter 62 : Stuck in Sand.

   Joshua , Jacque , Joseph and Aric decided to go for a day hike.  Their
parents had left already for a shopping trip.  Their girl friends were
spending the day at a girls only group.  Eric gathered them together on the
gravel road.  With a sharp stick , He drew a map in the gravel , of the
farm territory south of the gravel road.  "First we need to gather a few
things to take with us.  I will take the 22 and some drinks.  Joshua, you
take the rope and Joseph you can carry this stick to poke away branches in
things because we will be walking through thick brush along the stream. 
And so who's left ?  Oh Jacque.  You can take a backpack with some
sandwiches".  Joshua stepped forward .  "I have already taken the hike by
the stream".  "Okay" , said Aric , "You and Jacque" as he drew a second map
on the road, "can walk alone the farm ridge of hills on the south east side
until you eventually come to the property fence , following it west to the
stream and come back along the stream.  At some point we will meet
depending on who walks the fastest or the slowest".  "Ok men , Lets get
going" , exclaimed Jacque.  "Sounds like a good plan" , said Eric.  "I have
already made sandwiches so let's packed them into two back packs.  Joseph
you can carry my backpack and Joshua you take the other.  Let's divide up
the drinks between the two backpacks.  "I have a compass" , volunteer
Joshua.  "And I have a compass" , mentioned Aric.  "It seems that we are
good to go." "Now one last word before go" , explained Aric.  "the cows and
the bull are in the North Meadow and so we shall not have to worry about
being chased by that ugly male cow" .  Aric regarded Joshua's face as did
Joseph and Jacque.  "Ahh , I'll have to tell you about the male cow
someday" , said Joshu grinning .  The boys found another backpack , divided
up the sandwiches and drinks and moved off the woods into the south meadow
as planned.

   Joshua and Jacque set a quick pace , arriving at the long string of
glacier built drumlins stretching off to the south.  They bantered back and
forth as twin boys often do , about sports , about the girls , about sex ,
and whatever else they wanted to talk about.  Fifteen minutes later they
had climbed to the top of the leading drumlin , and sat to rest , and have
one of the drinks as the summer sun welcomed them to the summit.  Both boys
gazed out over the spectacular forests and meadows strung out to the west
and south.  Joshua told Jacque about his death run in front of the ugly
male cow , and Aric's description of the event.  "Obviously Aric was up
here on this hill top, and that is the meadow where the cow , ah I mean the
bull chased me, way over there by the gravel road and into the forest
toward the stream".  Jacque laughed and laughed at his twin's experience ,
with his enthusiasm transferring to Joshua , as they resumed the hike.

   Joseph , followed by Eric took the path across the meadow until they
came to the stream bank .  They followed the stream bank as it disappeared
into the dense forest.  Heavy marsh grass and willow bushes gradually gave
way to the shadowed still waters in the stream, flowing peacefully ,
through a lush green forest of maple and oak and hickory , with other
deciduous trees.  Sand flies and deer flies gave way to the odd mosquito
and occasionally , a black fly.  Aric allowed Joseph to follow the path and
determine the best route , and stir up the biting insects.  Once in the
shade , only the mosquitoes seemed to be able to settle on Joseph's
backpack , occasionally biting him behind the ear.  Aric stayed close
behind often crushing the tiny flying blood seekers before they were able
to bite Joseph.  Aric and Joseph talked and bantered about growing up and
realizing how a boy learns and becomes responsible for himself and later
for the girl he has chosen to love.  Mostly Joseph asked Aric questions
about his boy hood , and finding Julia and how he made the decision to love
Julia and make his world part of hers.  As they talked and hiked the path
beside the stream returned to lower ground with long lazy stream changes in
direction , making Joseph realize that the hiking leader often had to look
ahead a long way to discover the final hike directions.  A few times , he
made a wrong decision and the boys were forced to retrace their steps ,
because the path ended on the stream bank.  "Some of those paths are beaver
or muskrat paths.  When they get to the stream bank they just start
swimming" , laughed Aric.  "We did not bring our swimming trunks".  "We
don't need swimming trunks anyway" , concluded Joseph.  "When Una and
Jennifer and Jessica , and Joshua and Jacque and Thierry and I , went on
the camping trip in the early summer , we just swam in whatever was
comfortable".  "What was comfortable" ?  "Nothing really, I mean -most of
the time we just went swimming , with the same clothes we were wearing . 
Several times , that was no clothes at all" .  Aric enjoyed Joseph's
confidence .  He marveled at all the bullshit this teen had encountered
already in his life , and how he was able to be a normal boy.  "You really
are a great kid to be with" , entertained Aric.  "I am glad that we split
the hike into two groups .  The one on one conversations allow us to be
free in our discussions .  Did Joshua and Jacque change you or did you
change them".  "Mostly the boy twins allowed my own mind to take
responsibility .  After I was circumcised and raped by my grandfather , my
mind did not own me.  I was like two people.  One of them was a scared , -
a scarred boy searching for his own body and the other was a growing kid
without any rudder , trying to forget every drop of yesterday , and last
week and last year.  The twins taught me "Never surrender to those hate and
pain experiences".  As for me changing the boy twins ?  They are the most
awesome friends I have ever had.  I am not sure how , but I hope that I
have left my mark on them somehow" .  Aric regarded Joseph's face as they
slowed and broke out into a small clearing on higher dry ground , with the
bright sunlight and quiet stream nearby.  "Joseph , you have affected the
twins.  You have left your mark on them already".  "How so".  " Your fight
back ability , your spirit , your quest for what you want has provided
enthusiasm for Joshua and Jacque".  Joseph stopped , until Aric caught up ,
put his arms around Aric and hugged tight, as Aric felt himself doing the
same to Joseph .  The hug became tight , then tighter , each trying to
squeeze the other into submission , each grinning into the other's eyes ,
an inch between their faces .  The boys could feel each other's lungs
grunting to get that last breath .  Their faces touched nose sliding past
nose to cheek.  Both mouths braced as the distance between them narrowed to
zero.  Now there was no space to get air even if the lungs could expand .
Aric , with five years more strength than Joseph , seemed to be winning the
unmoving-wrestling hug.  Joseph's legs buckled as they fell into the soft
summer grass, but neither would give in.  Joseph wrapped his legs around
Aric , gaining control of the terrain and rolled on to Aric crushing , and
locking him to the ground .  Both sets of eyes , studying , staring and
subduing the mind behind the eye balls.  Without sound , nor growl another
set of piercing yellow eyes consumed Aric's view .  "Fuuuck" , whispered
his mind, as a huge wolf appeared in Aric's field of vision beside Joseph's
face.  At first he thought that Joseph was morphed into wolf.  "What the
fuck" ?  Aric let go out of fear of being eaten .  Joseph laughed and
laughed , "I am so sorry Aric.  I did not know that my protector was so
close.  "I could kill him with the rifle on my back" muttered Aric.  "Not a
good move Aric.  I must show the wolf that we are not fighting".  Joseph
began to lick Aric's face and lips .  Putting his nose against Aric's cheek
and his tongue on Aric's lips.  The wolf relaxed but did not move.  Aric
licked Joseph's face , as Joseph released his arms from hugging Aric . 
Joseph raised his body away from Aric , unbuttoned his chest and licked
Aric's heart muscles pounding beneath the skin , lowered his tongue even
more to Aric's belt licking , pinching as his tonque located the happy
trail.  Gently Joseph pulled Aric to the sit up position as the wolf backed
away into the forest.  Aric caught his breath and relaxed as his fear
turned into other instincts.  He stared into Joseph's face , his eyes ,
took him by the ears and pulled him close.  "What the hell was that"?  "One
of my nature friends".  "Joshua and Jacque and Jennifer and Jessica told me
about those friends" , intimated Aric.  "His fingers penetrated Joseph's
pants to locate a long slender piece of meat, as he spoke.  "Now I believe"
.  Aric gently unzipped the meat , freeing it from Joseph's underwear until
he could view the shaft.  "It is a beauty".  "Yes" , replied Joseph , "and
do you understand the full story of how it was raped by circumcision and
then totally repaired by something extra-terrestrial and bearing the name
of my suicided brother Liam".  Aric nodded " Hearing , understanding , but
seeing is ninety percent of the process.  Joseph , I knew that you had
protectors but know I know that you are protected.  I felt raw fear when
that wolf appeared over top of me.  Was there really a wolf there ?  , or
was I hallucinating something you wanted my mind to see" ?  A remote growl
from the clearing shadows convinced both boys.  Joseph licked Aric's face ,
then his chest , finally freeing Aric's tool and lipping the end slowly but
with hot firey effect on Aric.  Aric's pelvis straightened , total muscle
relaxation dropped him on his back.  Within sixty seconds , Joseph withdrew
his tongue , watching the man writhing spurting , pulsing the whitish film
strips , high into the air and raining it down on the forest grasses and on
his own chest.  Joseph eyed the wolf , motioned it , and whispered , "Aric
you must totally relax with our trust .  You will not be harmed".  Joseph
placed his tongue on Aric's lips , relaxing him .  The ancestor of dogs on
earth moved close to Aric , sniffed , then licked his cheek , then applied
his soft tongue to Aric's chest , sensing the strong powerful heart muscles
pulsing inside.  Joseph's hand released Aric's tool to the soft tongue,
watched it lick Aric's balls and some of the white film drying in the sun.
Without hesitation the wolf's tongue closed around Aric's tool with the
heat of wolf - human bonding.  The feelings in Aric overloaded his softened
tool, his pelvis , then rushed to his mind.  Aric watched the wolf lick his
own genitals , and the exposed glans , rouge with massive blood pressure
surging inside.  Aric's eyes rolled backward and forward as the wolf's
tongue found ancient consensus.  Aric exploded into cum , long stringy
ropes blasting skyward and over Arics head , settling on his face and
throat and chest.  Joseph leaned forward sensing the expended fluid with
his own senses .  The wolf sniffed deeply into the air molecules of human
sperm , then backed away , disappearing into the forest.  Aric felt the
wolf's fur brushing him , the warm sun , and an ancient bond with a
creature that had always stuck him with fear , then comatosed .  Joseph
tucked in his tool , carefully reset his underwear and zipper.  He waited
about ten minutes, then gently licked Aric's ears and throat until he awoke
.  Sitting up .  "What in fuck happened to me".  "Your mind is correct in
this matter".  "I can show you the wolf tracks in the soft mud by the
stream".  "No , I believe you Joseph".  "Did I ah er cum with you sucking
me" ?  "Yeah , you did Aric".  "And did a wolf su -k I mean lick me off " ?
"Yeah , -Aric it is an act of ultimate trust from one wolf to another". 
"Am I a wolf" ?  "Aric , you do not need a 22 for protection from wolves.
You have their trust .  As you know trust is a two way bond .  You trust
the wolf" ?  "Yeah , I do trust the wolf" .  " Then it is certain that the
wolf trusts you".

   Aric stood up eyeing Joseph.  His trousers bulged.  Joseph , I will help
you with that".  "Not yet , I am n- not- not ready Aric .  The nerves have
not fully regrown into the new flesh.  I have talked with Joshua and Jacque
and Una and Jessica and Jennifer.  They took me back to the old doctor
George and I met a cosmic go-between called Sath.  All of us have agreed
that , when the time comes for me , I will know.  My own mind will know
when to use it.  It has been tough for Una but she understands , not as
much as you understand , but she is aware of my fucked up boyhood .  When
my parents returned , I talked to them also.  All my friends , old and new
- - - Aric , they agree .  It is because my child hood was robbed .  I will
wait as long as it takes , for me to want , no need to come.  When that day
happens , I will be ready.  My brain , sexually is still young - perhaps
thirteen.  Sath has explained what was done by the circumcisors and how my
tool was fixed.  Lets leave it for now.  Someday , I promise , will let you
know at the same time as my other friends" .  Joseph arranged himself for
comfort , pulled a can of pop from the back pack , opened it and offered ,
"You will need more fluids after that fountain shot".  Aric prepared for
more hiking .  The two friends pushed farther along the stream bank ,
sharing the pop until Aric crushed the can and stuffed it back into his
back pack.  Now the current of the stream was faster.  The lazy swirls of
water gave way to agitated places where the water rushed over some unseen
object below the surface.  They walked past the place where Joshua and Aric
had played the boy games .  Aric watched Joseph's face.  He volunteered the
brief facts of the event , and then ended with - "But this hiking trip has
turned out to be about you , Joseph.  You can ask me more about it later ,
or you may ask Joshua".  A few hills and valleys ended abruptly at the
stream bank as Joseph continued leading the way .  Sometimes their hike ,
found footing very close to the dancing waters and fast moving ripples.



   Jacque and Joshua descended the long narrow hill at it's southward tip ,
and began the ascent of another higher drumlin , through dark cedars ,
through the mid-range conifers and up the steep slopes past the hard maples
and deciduous trees.  Neither willing to admit any tiredness , they arrived
at a clearing on the the south end of the drumlin .  "We are about one
kilometer from the third drumlin" , expressed Jacque , "remembering Aric's
stick drawing on the gravel road.  "Lets stop and eat a sandwich".  "Naw ,
Lets go down through this valley and we'll stop at the top of the last
drumlin , where Aric described a big open area where you can see for twenty
miles".  Jacque continued on slower than before , followed by Joshua.  Down
into the valley through the cedars and back up into the pines as the
terrain got really steep.  Jacque , unsure of his footing slipped several
times backward until Joshua caught him.  Finally Joshua got out the rope.
He tied it through his own belt loops and then measured off about three
meters.  Jacque stopped climbing as Joshua fed the light duty rope through
his belt loops and handed him the rest .  "Wrap some around your arm to
anchor it.  I'll follow along behind climbing behind you.  There are lots
of tree saplings here.  If you fall drape the rope around a tree trunk, and
if I fall drape the rope around a tree for me.  That way , we cannot slide
down this slope more than a meter or two , and if both of us fall , we'll
still snag the rope on something" .  Jacque nodded , and the twins began
again the ascent.  Jacque was sweating streams when they finally pulled
each other over the top .  They walked about a hundred meters along the
drumlin ridge , enjoying the open air breezes , to the edge of a hill top
clearing.  Jacque stopped in the shade , let himself down on a tuft of moss
.  Joshua caught up and sat on the same patch of dry green moss.  He began
to open his backpack but he had tied the rope through it also .  Jacque
watched his twin deal with the adversity , then moved close to un-thread
the rope .  Pulling the twist rope back out of Joshua's belt loops set off
an unexpected signal in Joshua's groin.  Every belt loop vibrated as the
rope twists , was pulled through.  "Bro , look out - what you are doing to
me".  "Ha ha , it's a tiny bulge" , laughed Jacque.  "Talk about a small
package , where are those sandwiches?  I am starving" ?  "What package do
you want to eat Bro" ?  "The little one of course" , joked Jacque.  "Give
me one of those cans of pop , and snap it up a bit".  Joshua pretended to
hurry but slowed to a snail progress as he finally removed the backpack
from the sweaty spot on his back.  Jacque moved in to grab the first
sandwich but Joshua took his hand in his saying "Wait your turn".  The
struggle ensued , each twin trying to get a sandwich , and prevent the
other .  Joshua ended up , pressed into the moss on his back with Jacque's
crotch across his chest and his face pressed against Jacque in a headlock.
"Say please bro".  "You say please dick".  "Dick" !  If you don't quit
fightin me , you are really going to get a dick".  Both twins laughed as
the words escalated .  Joshua put his tongue on Jacques face , absorbing
the sweat from his eye sockets , and brows.  Joshua's unpinned arm wrestled
itself into Jacque's rib cage his hand slipping below the belt.  Jacque
returned the favour , tightening his head lock and using the other hand to
squeeze Joshua's small package tightly.  "Give me a sandwich or I crush
yours".  "Ow!" With a tremendous energy rush , Joshua upended Jacque ending
up with his crotch over Jacque's neck pinning him to the soft forest floor.
Jacque's fingers unzipped Joshua .  Retrieved his half hard tool and pulled
it into his lips.  "This is not so bad, I can get a snack here". 
"Likewise".  All struggle ended as the twins attended each other.  Joshua
was hard as a rock even before Jacque unsheathed him.  He was very careful
with the steel strength tool as Joshua brought Jacques's tool to the same
condition.  Both boys relaxed into a slow 69 suck , playing with their
twin's tool like a girl with a big ice cream cone.  Several crows flew over
the boys on the edge of the clearing , rapidly decided that nothing was
going to die and flew onward.  A weasel cautioned itself about getting too
close to the slow motion suckers.  Slowly , gradually , the foreskin
manipulations on each tool expanded in amplitude until the lubricated tip
was traveling from above the tip of the glans down the slender shaft
followed by a tongue and that followed by sucking lips , and the hot
interior of a boys mouth , and throat.  Deep red streaks of blush appeared
on both boys cheeks .  Then the dense blood cloud beneath their skin pitted
their chests with red spots.  Each boy moved the others stretching foreskin
a bit farther on the up stroke and a bit closer to the balls on the down
stroke .  A fox moved down wind to sense the essence of the two boys , but
there was already a bigger animal there.  Large yellow eyes watched the two
boys and sensed the air as the boys bodies released their essence into each
other's throat.  The boy twin's bodies spasmodic movement notified the wolf
of their trust in each other.  The wolf watched curiously as each boy's
rhythm slowed , stopped and slept for a few minutes.  The wolf moved
quietly closer , remembering the scent of Joshua and Jacque from the
camping trip meeting.  A ray of sun peeped through the trees touching the
wolfs ears as Jacque spotted it fifty yard away.  Joshau quickly cued in on
the silent movement also.  Both boys stared in awe as the creature regarded
them.  Joshua cautiously removed a sandwich of ham from the backpack ,
offered it to Jacque , who declined.  Both boys turned to face the wolf ,
knowing that there was often more than one.  Jacque took a big bite ,
Joshua took a big bite and then they crept on all fours a couple meters
closer as the wolf did the same.  The distance narrowed to fifty feet. 
Joshua tossed the half eaten sandwich half way as both boys watched,
sweating , learning , exuding confidence at the same time.  The wolf moved
half way toward them, sniffed the sandwich and accepted it, carrying it
away to the far side of the clearing and over the crest out of site.

   Both boys stared at each .  "Holy fuck" , blurted out from each face. 
They opened the pack pack , got another sandwich and a can of pop ,
consuming them in the manner of hungry twins boys.  "We just fed a huge
wolf a half eaten sandwich".  "Not enough food for a weasel".  "I think the
sharing of the food was the point".  "If it is hungry , will there be a
return" ?  "Nope , it came to learn from us , not to eat us".  "How do you
know" ?  "Did you see it watching us , while we sucked each other" ? 
"Negative , I was in my zone ten".  "You" ?  "Zoning also".  "Lets do it
again to see if the wolf returns" ?  "Yeah lets do it".

   This time the twins worked for a few minutes to harden the slender
shafts .  They stripped off all their clothes , nestled against each other
and talked of Jenn and Jess.  Both tools responded as they talked about the
latest technique Jenn and Jess had used.  The slow undulation of their
pelvises against each other continued for twenty minutes.  "Bro , did you
ever p put that thing inside another boy" ?  "No".  "Have you" ?  "Well er
yeah , I tried it once".  "Why do you ask"?  "I guess I wanted to tell you
about me and Aric and Julia" ?  "Julia too".  "No dumbest , Julia found out
later and discussed the significance of the event with Aric and me".  "What
was the significance"?  "I think it is like what were doing to each other
now , but a different level".  "Higher or Lower"?  "That's debatable , but
definitely different.  -wanna try it here" ?  Jacque stared around the
clearing as though someone was watching , then studied his brother's face.
"You are serious aren't you" ?  "Yeah , but only if you really wanna do
it". "Dun know".  "Who would do who"?  "I have already done it with Aric ,
so I will let you , do me , if you want , just for kicks , I mean , every
one should try it once in their life.  - ah I mean every boy".  Just lay on
your back , Jacque , and I will try to ease your tool into my place .  I
see lots of lubricant on there so it should be possible".  Jacque stretched
out on the moss.  Joshua positioned himself and worked to get Jacque inside
himself.  Jacque's erection subsided somewhat as Joshua twisted and turned
himself trying to get that perfect angle of entry.  Suddenly the
penetration happened .  Jacque felt heat and tightness as his cock slipped
inside Joshua spilling more lubricants as it re-expanded for duty.  Joshua
felt some discomfort and confusing fullness.  He re-adjusted until
comfortable.  His movement elicited a warm groan from Jacque.  "Oh man just
keep doin it Bro".  Joshua maneuvered around until he could face Jacque ,
but felt uncomfortable still.  "I got an idea".  Joshua pulled away form
Jacque and laid himself on his back on the moss his pelvis resting on the
backpack.  "Come here Bro".  Jacque complied re-entering Joshua with ease
and slowly working into a gentle rhythm , his balls soon caressing
themselves every time he pressed hard into Joshua, and Joshua's prostate
taking the movement of the steel hard shaft , lubricated with previous cum
and the bunching up of the foreskin.  Jacque snuggled closer and closer
until his lips could touch Joshua , as his piston receded and rammed his
hole.  Jacque began to massage Joshua's foreskin as his body crazed itself
on automatic boy sex movement .  His lips caressing Joshua , his balls
hammering against Joshua , his fingers operating Joshua's foreskin with
synchronized strokes.  Again , Jacque could see the big wolf watching in
his peripheral vision and motioned to Joshua.  The twins continued into a
sexual frenzy blasting each other with boy cum on the outside and the
inside until total exhaustion felled them.  Joshua on the bottom awoke
first with the wolf licking his face He nudged Jacque , to get off , as the
wolf retreated watching the long spent tool being pulled from Joshua.  Two
boys and one wolf regarded each other as the boys rapidly returned to
reality.  "Bro , this is awesome".  They opened the backpack and retrieved
the last sandwich filled with egg salad and offered it to the wolf.  Slowly
, carefully the wolf backed away and Jacque placed the sandwich on the
moss, as both twins moved back.  The wolf returned , sniffed the sandwich
and then the boy cum which Joshua had spilled everywhere.  It ate the
sandwich and loped off into the forest.  The twins high fived , and high
fived their toes , before they dressed.  They gathered everything together
and continued the hike , locating the property fence and turning west into
an open meadow area.  Descending the drumlin to a lower meadow was easy for
the boys.  "So what do think Joshua"?  "The anal"?  "Earth shattering ?  No
, scale one to ten - well your my identical brother so , of course ten". 
"Really"?  "Well , really" ?  "Ahh , I feel a bit dirty , because of using
the ahh temporary shute , yeah the asshole".  "And me too , blasted full of
all that cum".  "It's not that bad" , conceded Jacque.  "I would never to
that with anyone but a very close friend".  "That's what I figured you
would say Bro".  "When I am with Jessica , it is like we were built for
each other , but with you Joshua , I liked it as much as you can know , and
I am glad that we did it".  Jacque regarded Joshua as they trudged through
tall cedars.  "Joshua , You have taught me so much , since we twins got
back together , and you are the one who got us together and then I found
Jessica and you have Jennifer .  I want this to go on forever but in the
fall , will you be in the same school as me ?  Will Jessica be in the same
school ?  We've got to make some big plans and soon.  Summer has a only few
more weeks left.  Joshua grinned at Jacque.  "You are talking to your
identical self bro.  Jacque continued ' "In the next few weeks we need to
decide what to do about you being one grade behind me , and how to get into
the same school as Jessica and Jennifer , and what to tell our old friend
George about a career in medical school, and on and on".  Joshua listened
to every word.  As both boys stopped talking he found a toppled log and
directed Jacque to sit .  The two boys sat straddle on the log facing each
other , knee to knee.  Many ideas were aired until the the two decided to
find Joseph and Aric and repeat the process.

   - - - -

   Aric was following Joshua now about ten paces behind him trying to
re-adjust the rifle strapped over hi shoulder .  When he looked ahead again
, Jos was "what the fuck" - Joseph was gone.  Aric rushed ahead to where
Joseph was last seen , almost slipped - that was close .  Joseph was upside
down , his feet and legs struggling in open air , his head in quick sand
below the stream bank.  "It might be too deep to jump in there" , raced
thoughts through Aric , as he pulled the rifle off his back muzzeled the
sky and fired three times .  Aric emptied released the chamber bullet , and
tried to reach Jo's flailing legs, but he was in danger of falling also. 
"Can't breath in that sand - already been in there almost a minute cursed
Aric as he lowered the rifle butt and the strap over one of Joseph's boots
, quickly twisted the rifle barrel until the ankle was tied .  Bracing his
feet on the mud stream bank , Aric hauled with all the strength in his
body. Jos had sank past his crotch , his body slowly reversed .  As Aric
increased pull force Jo seemed to stop struggling his body raising slowly ,
now his belt re-appearing , then his arm pits.  Aric's muscles were burning
now with overload but his strength waivered none .  "Got to be almost two
minutes now" , screamed Arics mind.

   Joseph's mind contorted with pain.  Something was holding him immobile ,
can't breath , can't even cry for help.  Feeling fullness of abdomen and
the power of his grandfather raping him.  Choking , vomit , ass numbing
intestinal distress.  Heeeelp scremed his mind.  For Joseph help was close
by , thanks to his new friends.



   Intense pain racked Joseph's abdomen .  The rapist was gone now. 
Instead circumcisers immobilized his being.  They began to cut away his
living flesh , - no sound , - no explanation , - just the terrific white
pain as the knife bled away the arteries and veins and circular muscle
groups contracting forever to protect Joseph's most sensitive body part. 
The foreskin circular muscles failed as they were slashed separate from the
body blood flow, still twitching as the knives and scissors pulled and cut
away living muscles.  The circumcizers continued stripping and ripping away
Joseph's flesh until the pain overloaded into trauma and then the disaster
mode of numbness.

   A wolf howled on and off in the forest behind Aric but his mind focused
on one task.  Jo's head was still under the water and sand .  Another force
gripped his arms .  Two more arms pulled and heaved Jo's head free from the
water .  Joshua lifted his body back over the bank as Aric assisted by
Jacque finally broke Jos body free of the sand water-death trap.  Joshua
was applying respiration techniques to Jo's mouth even before his body
stretched out on the stream bank.  Aric was ripping his backpack and shirt
off as Jacque wedged his legs to the ground , allowing Joshua to continue.
Puke suddenly appeared in Jos mouth as they rolled the body over as Jacque
heimliched Jo violently , Joshua clearing the puke with his tongue without
breaking the forced breathing rythym.  Aric noticed two wolves from the his
peripheral vision raising their jaws to the sky.  Long howls of grief
echoed through the forest , but Joshua continued "in with the good air ,
out with the bad" , or was it welcome .  On the third howl Jos eyes
fluttered , -- opened .  "Fuck yeah" screamed Aric and Jacque.  The howl
pitch changed slightly to match the boys tone as two wolves and two boys
yelled.  Joseph's hand raised just enough to push Joshua's mouth away from
his .  "Jo , Welcome back grinned Joshua , You know I love you, Una loves
you , those wolves want you , Aric and Jacque loved you back to this world.
Joseph returned a feeble smile , and whispered , " heard the wolves howling
first , then Liam was there , was telling me to wake , er hell , how could
that be" , as he sank back into Jacques arms .  "Quiet Jo".  Joseph was
quiet .  His face grinned as Aric and Joshua and Jacque returned removed
the rest of his clothes , washed them in the stream and hung them to dry.
They sat on the green grass.  Joshua shared the last of his water bottle
with Jo , letting him wash the remaining taste of puke away.  Joshua and
Jacque studied Joseph's eyes and face .  "It happened again didn't it". 
"Yeah " slurred Jos , "My arms were held , I could not breath , I felt them
cutting my foreskin off again " cried Jo.  "Gaauuod dammit , those
bastards" , yelled Aric.  Joshua pulled himself close to Joseph.  "But it's
ok" , grinned Joseph .  "They did not get it and they will never get it" ,
as a huge grin took over Joseph's face.  Aric and Joshua and Jacque
laughed. "You are a fighter Joseph".

   They returned the drying clothes to Joseph, dressed him , picked up
their back packs and garbage and continued the hike back to the farm house.


   Una met them in the meadow before they reached the road with Joseph's
parents not far behind.  "I knew you were in trouble Joseph" whispered Una,
"My lungs , I felt breathing pain".  "I'm fine Una , -i - i was in trouble
, i slipped into quick sand , but these guys pulled me out".  "I'm ok". 
Una regarded Aric's bent rifle barrel .  "You pulled him out with that"? 
"Yes Una"!  "Incredible"!  as she held Josephs face against her's.  Jos
undid the rifle strap and pulled the rifle from Arics back.  "We can never
use this a gun again"?  "Fine by me", issued Julia as she caught up to the
group headed to the house.





   Chapter 63 : Finish

   Julia welcomed Joseph's parents to the farm lunch , or brunch which took
place at two PM.  She offered them pending approval by the girl twins
parents , a month's free rent giving them time to find a place to stay ,
explaining that Jos and Jac did not need to stay there any more.  "A chance
to develop a new life" , exclaimed Yahto .  "We are extremely grateful ,
but of course we cannot take your hospitality.  "Yes you will" , exclaimed
Julia.  Jo and Una need some time with themselves and with you, and
Joseph's friends howled again this morning asking for Jo to stay here.  You
must at least stay here long enough to tell us about yourselves and
ourselves.  You must stay even if you insist on paying rent".  Sabrina and
Yahto agreed looking for acceptance from Jo and Una.  Everyone smiled
"Yes", and so the ground work was laid for a new family to re-find itself
and plan for a positive future.



   Phase II : back to school

   Chapter 64 : George and the medical school offering.

   For the next few days Una held to Jo where ever he went.  Joshua and
Jacque discussed their plan for back to school with many conversations with
their mother and father.  Joshua's mother was still prone to condemming
herself because Jos was a year behind Jac in high school.  Jen and Jes
intervened often in phe plan, wanting to make sure that they were part of
the whole plan.  For two or three days much was considered but no progress
was made.  Jo and Una had listened to much of the logic.  Finally Una said
, "Split up the situation into smaller pieces - deal with them one at a
time".  Jac and Jos smiled, "Fine by be".  "First : Lets tell George our
career strategy".  "Which is" ?  Asked Una.  "Jac and I want to be lawyers
like my dad".  Jo winced.  "George will be dissed by that".  "We know "
stated Jos.  "But we must do what we want to do and dad has promised to
help us with funding".  "The , you should tell George immediately".

   "Yes , tomorrow ".  Jos called George by cell and asked to visit . 
"Tomorrow" Jac and I will tell George our plans".  Una and Jo frowned.  "We
think you should stay with him a few days , in case".  Don't worry about
your school plans until George is ok with your decision.  "Una and I have
worked out our school plans and we will find out the best options for you
Jos and Jac.  Tomorrow , you must tell George and his buddy Bill and Sath".

   Chapter 65 : George's pain

   Next day George met Jac and Jos at his door with a huge smile.  Jos and
Jac smiled gently back.  George dashed through his house retrieving their
favourite food , making Jos and Jac at ease , as they took seats in the
upstairs open area overlooking the Toronto tangle of river valleys and
highways .

   "George" spoke Joshua and Jacque checking their glasses of orange juice.
"Could we have some Vodka in this and you could have a glass also"?  "Sure"
, as he vaulted to the liquor cabinet and retrieved a bottle of vodka. 
"Both of you are too young for this stuff".  "Lets say , we have all earned
a right to just a little bit" , ordered Jos.  George poured a shot into a
new glass for each and reseated himself.  "Two the best Doctor in Ontario"
, motioned the twins as they sipped the alcohol.  An hour later , after
much conversation about the summer events , and several more glasses, Jos
and Jac looked George straight in the eye and delivered their message.  "We
want to be lawyers.  Our dad will pay for us as long as we get good marks.
He said , it was a much better deal than his dad , er our grandfather ever
gave him".  George slumped a bit , face distorting from the news.  "Ahh
it's ok George , to be pissed with us.  Tell us your real thoughts". 
George got up and the twins followed him , unsure of the reaction to
expect. They ended up in the bathroom.  Each unbuckled his trousers and
pissed into the bowl.  "There goes my dreams of trying to buy a son or
two". Jos and Jac waited as the old gentleman finished.  Everyone rezipped
and returned to the Vodka.  Jos poured a double shot for everyone, cutting
the orange juice and delivering mostly crushed ice to each.  "It is better
that we try to become what we want out of this life" , mused Jac.  "Ditto
to that".  "Ditto".  Each of them stared out a window watching the
sprawling city sending it's workers and students and a million other
persons home to supper.  George called his favourite delivery boy for
pizza. "At least he will do what I want for my money" , laughed George. 
Jos and Jac called their parents to tell them they were stayin a couple of
days.

   George retired to his bedroom an hour later assigning Jos and Jac to the
loft, but Joshua asked for Arthur's room .  It seemed to perk George a
little bit that Jos and Jac would ask to sleep in his dead son's room. 
"There's no tv , to speak of in there , er are you sure"?  "Were not tv
people anyway", stressed Jac.  "Were just twins".  A smile appeared on
George.  "Have at it then".

   Chapter 66 Arthur's Room.

   The twins were partially drunk but fully determined to get throught the
next few days and leave George happy.  The problem was , "HOW".  "Kinda hot
in here" , as they flung everything off on the floor, sitting back to back
against each other on the bed, backbone to backbone.  "I am fifteen and
George is five times older"?  "What the fuck can I do" ?  "At least try".
Jos began to push Jac who pushed hard back .  The twins pushed harder and
harder trying to force the other off the end, but each had two feet on bed
headboard and foot board.  Neither noticed the twisting bolts in the frame
until WAPP.  "Jesus Fuck".  "You broke the bed".  "No you did it".  Both
twins unloaded themselves as the head board toppled forward into a shelf of
books and trophies.  "Great".  "This'l make the old man happy" sarcasted
Jac.  The twins put a stack of books under each side of the bed to keep it
from collapse , then tidied the rammed shelf.  "Hey med preparation books"
, remarked Jac.  "So what , were not being doctors" , mocked Jos.  He
openned the book anyway , aimlessly looking at anatomy.  "We already had
the lessons on reproduction" , laughed Jos in a tipsey but better mood. 
His fingers detected a loose page and tried to stuff it back straight but
Jac pulled the page free and read it out loud , "Andy , I think there are
two of us now ".  Both twins received the message.  They put the loose page
back in the same spot and tidied the whole shelf.  Both fell asleep
clinging to each other.

   In the morning George tip toed into their room , supplying ice water
with a slice of toast.  Joshua and Jacque headached badly.  They stared at
George.  "Best thing is for you to take some water , lots of it , and the
toast if you can" stated George.  The twins tried.  Half of a toast crust
later , each used the bathroom , then a bit more water , as George sat
quietly on the broken bed.  Jos and Jac dressed and sat beside him.  They
took more water from the thermos and began to feel better.  "We did break
your bed".  "It was Arthur's" "I am totally sorry George".  "No matter" ,
finalized George.  "A son is my problem.  My heart is aching.  The bed can
be fixed".  He wandered off leaving the twins alone again.  Jos and Jac
determined to drink all the water.  They began to search carefully through
everything that belonged to Arthur.  "We're looking for ?" "Don't know"
"Just keep lookin , and put everything back exactly as it was".  "Andy , I
think there two of us now"?  "What does it mean?" "That's why were lookin"!
"Shut up bro - keep lookin".  After two hours Jos and Jac had meticulously
examined evry cd , cd cover , attached notes and musical class.  They found
that Arthur had taken music lessons, Arthur had had kept much of his notes
from public school and from highschool and pre-med school.  Finally Jos
attacked Jac.  "We need to sort this stuff by date , starting with most
recent and working backward chronologically".  "Then we can't put it back
in the same order we found it".  "Let's call George".  "Wait" " Fuck ---
Wait , I said"!  "Look this note , left by the spacial Arthur is still
exactly where he put it".  "We know that Arthur was mostly left handed -
you can see it in his writing".  "So ---point asshole".  "My point is that
Arthur stored everything in a manner that was logical for him and the
information power.  Look at the public school notes , way at the back ,
look at the musical books and attempts to write music.  They are not
important to him now".  "So what was important to him at nineteen years
old"?  "What will be important to you"?  "Sex , as much as I can get from
Jen".  "You just learned about that, it'l wear down".  "What else"? 
"Friends".  "Agreed".  "We are social animals like wolves, we need
friends." "Agree and Agree".  "Two of us must be correct.  Lets look for
specific items such as notes from friends , number of friends, friends
interests such forth".  Half an hour later Arthur's room was paying
dividends for the twins search.  "Here is a med-school book loaned from the
downtown university , but look it is old.  Why did Arthur keep this in the
important information place "?  Jos let the book tumble open as eight
hundred pages rolled by on the bed.  Jac watched the pages like a goalie
watching pucks.  "Stop".  "Back about a half inch of pages" "Go" "Stop" Jos
carefully backed up exposing each page in reverse.  A ring pattern
magically appeared .  "He kept condoms in this book , mused Jac.  I know
that shape" "Condoms for what"?  "What do you do with them stupid"?  "Heh ,
no need to infer intelligence on sex drive".  "Still , we have not found
Arthurs top friend." "A boy that age is still a boy and it appears that he
was more aloof from George than either of us from our parents".  "So -- he
hid his top friends from his parents"?  "Probably".  "Why"?  "We don't care
why , we care who".

   At that moment George reappeared with lunch and more ice water.

   Chapter 67 Arthur's friend?

   "Have you found what you need"?  "Err , what the ell "?  "To be honest ,
NO." "George , We want to know Arthur, like you knew him , but more than
that." Did Arthur have a cell ?  "Why"?  "There is not a why at this point
but perhaps who." "Did everyone know about Arthurs accident"?  "Did
everyone come to his funeral"?  George face frowned.  "The accident stunned
me so much".  "I am sure all Arthurs friends were not there.  Mostly just
my friends".  George sat with the twins on the bed.  They ate in silence ,
but George was thinking in a new way now.  "Ohh the cell".  He retrieved a
folding cell phone from a side cabinet.  Jac plugged in the charger ,
waited a few minutes.  Jac examined it, for contacts.  "Arthur had the cell
only two days, before he died" , volunteered George.  His eyes watered.  He
reached into one of Arthurs shirt drawers and pulled out two shirts.  "You
two should wear these ", as he returned with the food plates to the
kitchen. Jac found two numbers.  One number was George's phone.  "The
other"?  "Who would be the other"?  "A university dorm , from last year"?
"What are the chances of tracing that"?  "My dad will know" , yelled Jos
dialing his own cell with instant results.  "Dad , I need your help". 
"Joshua , you got it".  Jos explained the number and the likely hood of
locating Arthurs friend from last year before his death.  At the same time
Jos conferenced Jac's cell to the same call.  "But why do you need this
info Jos.  "Were not sure" , answered Jac ,"But please, help us find it."
Several clicks and holds later , a young clerks voice appeared on the line
from the downtown university.  "I need to meet you twins before , I can
help you".  "Ok , today at noon".  "No can do".  "Tomorrow at ten in room
1412 of blah blah".  Jac captured the numbers as Jos thanked her.  A minute
later Jos dad recalled.  "You guys ok with the answer".  "Thanks dad". 
"We'll keep you in the info stream in case you can help us again".

   The rest of the day moved by river like.  Like a leaf caught in a
flooded stream for George and Jos and Jac.  No one was sure why they were
persuing the dreams of George's dead son.  "Can the dreams of a dead man
affect the living"?

   Next day Jos and Jac found themselves talking to a young lady in the
university achival office.  They traced the number to two occupants in the
dorm.  "I trust that you will use this info for said purpose only and that
you sign here beside your father's name".  Within ten minutes they were set
to leave , when Jos smiled at the young lady again.  "Miss " , I mean Ma-am
we really need to locate one of those persons for Arthurs father.  Is there
a chance , you can search the university registers for a forwarding
address. "My name is Sally".  "Err Sally , can you help us again" ,
repeated Jac with his perfect pronounciation and flashing a smile identical
to Jos.  Sally studied the twins faces.  "Arthur must have been very
important to you".  "I'l refer you to another person in the registrar
department".  Jos and Jac found themselves in another room talking to a
much older man.  They explained their situation with George and his
eagerness and then his dissapointment .  "I know George , explained the
man. He has helped me many times.  George is a rock , never asks , but
always gives help.  He has changed since Arthurs accident.  Sometimes
things work full circle as giant invisible wheels appear and fade into and
out of our recollections.  I understand that you twins , young as you are ,
are providing the power for these wheels.  I will help you locate which
ever of the two dorm mates was Arthurs friend , but I cannot help you
locate the other.  In short , you must give me a name , at least a clue to
identify the person of interest".  Jac's face dropped , but Jos loved this
argument.  "But sir , the two were dorm mates for several months.  What
possible harm could come from us finding the wrong person, a fifty fifty
chance it is , and the person we find will almost certainly know the name
of the other".  The registrar smiled knowingly, and since you twins are
less than eighteen, I could not be affected by a court in providing the
information" , he laughed.  "I can tell you that the dorms were co-ed and
that there was one male and one female in that dorm".  "Female", yelled Jos
and Jac.  The registrar entered a few more keystrokes, produced a name and
home address.  Jos and Jac stood up as the registrar escorted them to the
door, and offerred his hand to seal the trusted information.  Jac and Jos
stepped close , wrapped their arms around him and informally kissed each
cheek.  "Thanks , and we love you for helping us , and George".  "George is
in good hands after all this time " , mused the registrar blushing and
bowing the exuberant twins out of his office.  Late in the afternoon , the
boys had reported to their dad on progress and stood outside the apartment
building of last known address.  They found the apartment door and rang the
bell.  A tv camera adjusted itself as the twins smiled at it.  The door
unlocked immediately and without question.  Jac and Jos tumbled into a long
hallway , pole vaulted the stairs to the fifth floor and knocked on the
door.  "Please do come in Arthur".  "Whaaa"?  "You are wearing Arthur's
shirts.  That was his favourite , and that was his second favourite.  He
came here to see my daughter last year.  Are you friends of Arthur"?  Jos
and Jac were off guard.  They remembered the note they had signed and the
promise to use this info only as directed.  "Mam , we are friends of
Arthur".  "We want to help his dad".  "Do you have some hours for us to
talk , as we need to inform you of Arthur no longer being with us." "I have
all the time you need".  The twins went over all the details of the
accident with Arthurs friends mother.  When her husband arrived later they
went over the exact details again.  The two parents sobbed but knew the
answers could explain their daughters distress.  If only now they could
relocate Melony , before it was too late.  "You see " , sobbed Melony's
mother.  "She dropped out of premed school because of marks.  She was
depressed." "But why" , asked Jac and Jos , their faces now hurting for an
answer they had already guessed.  "Melony was pregnant.  She was sure that
Arthur was the father .  He had been here perhaps a dozen times always
wearing one of those shirts.  Then he never came here any more and his cell
was never answered".  "Keerist" blurted Jac , "why does crap add up to
total disasters for some people " ?  "Ok ok Jac , I know the answer to that
Jac" , mumured Joshua.  It is because we are social animals.  We need
friends in the worst way but when those friends dissappear without warning
, then we humans cry.  It is our destiny".

   Melony's mother and dad looked on at Joshua , crying but finally
realizing the truth to their daughter's nightmare.

   Joshua could not control his tears for the tragedy unfolding.  He sat
face down on the kitchen table hiding his eyes as his own terror at loosing
his father suddenly surfaced.  Jac held the conditions and explained his
brother's special skill quickly.  He motioned for a ten minute break ,
offering to help Melony's parents with supper preparation.  In the end Jac
cell phoned his father explaining as much as he could and that the person
Melony , Arthurs friend was depressed and possibly in danger .  A 911 call
was placed to alert authorities of a depressed girl with a year old son,
and a growing number of people wanting to help her.  Jac's dad had several
friends in the social workers and police officers city dwellers but it was
Jos who recovered and added more.  "Sath , I know Sath will know what to do
.  She knows this city .  Without waiting for assurance Joshua dialled her
number for the first time on his cell holding it on speakerphone mode.





   Chapter 68 Melony

   "This is Sath Jos".  "Melony needs our help".  A pause , another pattern
of clicking on Sath cell.  Another pause as Jos filled in the details of
Melony to reinforce Sath's knowledge.  "Blonde hair , hazel eyes added
Melony's parents, five feet two inches tall , one hundred pounds , a small
boy same hair , same eyes".  Sath began to visualize Melony.  "Yes Jos ,
she was here yesterday and treated but was released.  She gave her name as
Melon , had no id, was treated as a homeless person.  There was no baby
boy. Melony's parents were coming apart .  Jac and Jos held the condition
red as the search began for Melony and her tiny lifeform.  Jos alerted Bill
to go to George's residence and let him know what was happenning.  A single
depressed person was now listed as missing in a city of two million people.
Melony's parents cried.  Jac and Jos continued communication with Sath. 
"She was muddy , green muddy" , explained Sath.  "Green slime"?  "Nope"
"Green mud".  Jos grabbed Jac's cell and dialed Joseph, asking him to
explain green mud on speakerphone mode.  "From the old paint factory on the
lower river edge".  Melony's parents grabbed their residence phone calling
the detective line given by the 911 request.  Two of the city's best
detectives raced along the valley to the abandoned paint factory.  Night
was never dark under the street lamps and big city glow.  Here on the
river's edge the light from a flashlight was useless.  A search copter
appeared.  Flares from the helicopter turning the river edge into day light
as the the two detectives stumbled waded and cursed along the banks through
green mud draining from a factory overflow pipe.  "Where's that search dog
, when we need him" "We are the dogs tonight" , as they waded ashore into
the abandoned plant .  Searching meticulously the loading bay , shipping ,
manufacturing, packageing room , derelict offices , and lots more.  "There
are tracks , but older than a few days".  "No person has been located on
these premises" , reported the radio to search head quarters.

   Jos regarded Melony's parents.  "Where would she go"?  As soon as he
asked , he was sorry for them, two parents caught in a disaster still
unfolding, unable to fathom the reality of their daughter.  Jos called
Joseph again.  "Sorry bud , but can I keep askin you for help"?  "Sure Jos
, your help has put me permanently on the planet again.  Do you want me to
come there"?  "Yeas , but We need to find Melony.  She has been affected
more than a year by Arthur's death.  She has a baby unknown to George ,
most likely by Arthur before he died.  "Fuuc".  "Jo : call Sath, and try to
determine where Melony might go as a voluntary street person".  "Give me
twenty minutes".

   Jos began again with Melony's parents , but too late as the 911
detectives arrived to talk with all of them.  Jac visited their kitchen
returning with glasses of water to try to relax the atmosphere.  He smiled
at the female officer , offering her water , knowing that she would
decline. With the questioning in ernest now to gather all the facts , the
detectives quickly discovered that Melony had moved out , but did not seem
to have a place to live about three days ago.  Supposedly staying with
friends , but none of those friends reported seeing her or the little boy.

   The female detective answered her cell.  "The little boy is found , but
this is not good news for Melony.  The little boy is in a hospital setting
having been abandoned two days ago.  Jac and Jos grimaced.  "Have never
seen this girl but she was a great friend of Arthur , even as George did
not know".



   Joshua's cell rang.  "Joseph"?  "This is Sath".  No guarantees but we
say Melony will try to find Arthur, and when that fails , then the subway
station train closest to where Arthur lived.

   "We have twelve officers and two detectives to locate Melony" , added
the detective.  Let's work on that theory as he uploaded pictures of Melony
to police station sites everywhere.  Also , we will release a photo to the
local radio and tv stations and to local stores with active video cameras.

   Jos called George' friend Bill.  "Bill , I need your help".  Ten minutes
later , Bill was outside George' house on the street, just hangin around
watching the pedestrians.  Bill started asking street vendors about a young
lady with no desire to stay on the planet.  On the fourth vendor at a busy
intersection , he purchased a sausage bun as the vendor recalled his
guests. "She was here , I think , yesterday around supper , paid me ten
dollars for a four dollar snack.  And quickly left." Bill passed the info
to Jac and he quickly handed his cell directly to the note taking
detective. A chart of sightings in chronological order began to take shape.
Jac and Jos conversed together.  "Should we tell George"?  "Yes before he
starts to see pictures of his possible daughter-in-law missing".  "Yoooh ,
Joshua, go with this inspector to George's house right away" , asked the
detective.  Sath and Joseph have been proven correct.  Melony may pass by
George' house again.

   Joshua rode with the detective , letting him hop out on George's street
as the detective found a place to park.  Jacque remained with Melony's
parent going over every detail the parents knew.  Jac also called Joseph to
come as soon as possibe.  He was sensing hat somehow Joseph and Una would
know what to do to find Melony.

   Jos waited for the detective and they walked up to George's door.  He
let them inside.  After an explanation from the detective on the missing
person , Jos explained why he and Jac had sought Melony ending with "we
think that your son and Melony created a child, but due to the accident
Arthur was unable to contact Melony after she messaged him that she was
pregnant.

   "Not possible" !  "Yes", confirmed Jos.  "You are denying it".  "No
way". "Yes".  "You prove it"?  "Lets go to Arthur's room , -come on
detective".  They moved off down stairs to Arthur's room.  Jos quickly
located the old medical book and openned it to the page where someone had
wrote :"There are two of us now".  The detective began to search through
Arthur's books , taking over where Joshua and Jacque had left off.

   Chapter 69 George - Melony.  George's face dropped .  "I was so worried
about my loss , that I neglected everything else that Arthur might have
done.  Now his girl friend is missing after giving up her baby boy.  She
must be in extreme distress.  Only person I know who has already been there
is Joseph".  "Joseph" ?  Enquired detective.  "Jo and Sath came up with the
idea that someone in Melony's condition would return again and again to
Arthurs house , hoping to see him one more time", returned Jos.  "And
Melony has in fact been on the street near Arthurs house"?  "Joshua , can
you get Jo and Sath together down here at George' house".  "Already
arranged" , expressed Jos.  "Sath will be here around midnight and Jo about
an hour later." "Four hours"?  "Mostly travel time , when you don't have a
car".  "I will get him a police car to expidite him through traffic" ,
urged the detective, as Jos provided Joseph's cell number to allow the
police car to locate Jo on public transit and taxi him downtown to George's
residence.  Around midnight Sath appeared and Joseph.  The detective
questioned them without mercy.  In conclusion Jo and Sath concluded Melony
would be found in the labrynth of Toronto ravines , and eventually would
disorient to point of ending her life perhaps accidentaly on purpose. 
George retired to his bedroom as the words sunk in.  Jo was having trouble
keeping positive about the outcome but still controlled the mood with sath
helping.  Jo and Sath followed George to keep his spirits up, leaving the
detective to plot a course.  "Joseph , why does your friends recommend you
to help"?  "Cause I used to be alone and suicidal, and my brother Liam did
suicide".  "Sorry Jo, I apologize".  "No need sir , we must be honest with
each other to accomplish the goal".  "No time for sentiment right now". 
"Agreed".  "And you are no longer suicidal".  "I now have friends Jacque ,
and Joshua, and George and Sath , er long story but I am stayin on this
planet till the sun burns out." "Four friends"?  "There is one more , much
more than friend , Una".  Detective smiled.  "You are stable".  "Does
Melony want to be found"?  "Yeah but by Arthur".  "How can we locate
Melony"?  "I will try to locate her".  "But fifteen hundred cops across
this city cannot find her".  "If they look in the right place"?  Sath and
Jos returned having leftGeorge resting .  "That's what we need Jo and Sath
, the right place to look"?  "Will do" , conceded Jo.  "All my friends have
helped me through unimaginable torment detective.  I know that I can help
them, though it sound impudent to you".  "Supplies , equipment"?  "No
nothing on me to confuse my ancient buddys.  They must know that I am at
their mercy".  "Lets try it".  "I need both trusted friends Jos and Jac and
Sath." "Dangers"?  "Risks must be taken , but danger , ahh nope".

   Half an hour later Jac reunited with Jos and Jo and Sath, each with
their normal cell and with Jac carrying personal clothing from Melony.  "A
pair of her under pants, we found in her parents home neglected under her
bed.  Probably worn about two weeks ago".  "They're sealed in plastic until
we find the big guy".  "This city is crisscrossed with wild ravines,
populated by inhabitants who would rather live with coyotes-wolves than
people."

   Chapter 70 The ravine.

   Within an hour the small procession of people armed with flash lights
and ear pieces to prevent any noises from their cell phones, descended into
the valley of the Don.  Mostly pitch black but some light from a partial
moon helped when the clouds scatterred.  The detective stayed back about a
hundred steps forbidden by Jo to move closer to Jos and Jac who followed
about ten steps behind Sath and in the lead Jo moved deliberately into the
blackness of the valley toward the point where Liam had left a marker.  The
detective had ordered special cell phone channels allowing all the phones
to be permanently on the same talk channel.  "Are we going to Liams' place"
, asked Sath.  Several steps later , Jo answered "Yeah , to the place". 
City noises of cars and trains and airplanes faded away and total blackness
enveloped the procession.  A police radio operator listened intently to the
progress toward the place.  Jo lead the group down and down .  An odd
mosqito buzzed close to Josephs lips as he whispered the group thru the
blackness, the high pitched mosquito wing noise appeared instantly in each
persons ear drum.  Jo continued whispering as they climbed down into the
gorge.  Describing rocks and tree stumps and bits of litter on the forest
floor as sign posts for each person to understand relative position.  Each
member of the group gradually learned the breathing pattern in their ear
piece of other group members.  Joseph whispered regularly.  "About a
hundred yards left now".  "Big stump on the left".  "Fallen tree - climb
over".  "Thick mud for three steps".  "You can se the lights on the suicide
mesh way above through the trees".  "About thirty meters".  The group heard
Joseph's breathing change as Jo carefully neared the last place of his
brother Liam on planet earth.  "Way more than a marker now".  "Can feel
this place".  "It hurts but it is good".  "No sounds permeate the blackness
sphere around me".  "No night birds make noises".  "When a rat hears a
noise it is already dead in the claws of the Owls".  "A few insects dare to
make noise with their wings".  "That noise vanishes inside the jaws of the
bats down here".  "When you hear a noise other than me , you must remain
silent".  "About ten meters".  "A new object is here , extremely black yet
shiny." "It is Liam's place".  "Liam's place is my place".  "This is where
I saw him die".  Breathing increasing as Joseph's lungs strived to keep his
alert brain engorged with the life of earth's atmosphere.  "This is where
Liam and my friend can talk.  I failed you Liam.  I shall not fail again",
as silent tears filled his eyes and the raw power of life and death pulled
Joseph to his knees in the soft muddy earth protected with moss and ferns
and forest flowers".  "The flowers await dawn and the sun" , as Joseph
began to hunch all four limbs hands and feet now holding on to the planet.
Sath remained close to Joseph , as Jac and Jos carefully arrived behind in
the place behind Jo.  No words were coming from Jo now.  Sath and the twins
sensed that he was using Liam's place to enter the valley's open door way
to a place where no man lived except thousands of years back, to a shared
place between humans and wolves and coyotes.  The detective stayed well
back unable to see , but hearing all that would make noise.  His fingers
also walked continually over a small gps guidance unit pinpointing his
place in the galazy with the high tech of orbiting satelites.  Jo began
faster breathing, almost a pant.  His tongue cooled itself , curled and
emitted a series of yips indestinquishable from near wolf conversation. 
Jos and Jac submitted to all fours , crept forward to each side of Sath
pushing themselves against Sath , standing and Joseph's waist now almost on
the ground.  Four humans became one ancient creature , as the sounds from
Jo pervaded the valley floor.  Jo continued the yips as Sath's and Jacque's
and Joshua's breathing synchronized.  The detective could no longer discern
four breathing mammals.  Suddenly all stopped.  Silence .  Mosquito whirred
close but stopped, as though Jo had consummed it.  A distant warning yip
appealed to their surrendered ears.  Cadence of the yips from Jo changed
then silence again.  Jac and Jos held one leg of Sath as though anchoring
her to the forest and the the other arm wrapped itself around Joseph's
waist.  Then something touched Joseph in the pitch black, a soundless
animal but with lots of fur sniffed Jo as he sniffed back.  Jac, Jos ,Sath
and Jo felt the prescence of the forest predators.  Sath openned the
plastic bag of Melony's under cloth.  The predators sniffed , trying to
understand , kill and eat or find and protect.  Jo snarled , yipped ,
barked.  The predators understood.  They backed off making their own yips
to the east and west and north and south.  Then silence.  Nothing.  No
insects were allowed to break the distant reponses of communication.  Bats
hunting for insects curtailed their ultrasonic tunes.

   A poll was being conducted across the ravines and wild areas.  Again and
again the local predators came close and sniffed, then retreated and yipped
sometimes howled.  Primtive communication systems strived to locate a
messed up female of the human race .

   Crouching lower , to stretch his muscles , Joseph's lungs and throat
emitted a primitive mornful cry for help across five miles of ravines ,
repeating and repeating .  Joshua and Jacque felt the signal as a chill
from Sath.  They're lungs learned the sounds and chipped in unison .  A
three throated synchronized howl of communication echoed through distant
ravines spurring the local coyotes and wolves "search harder for her". 
They're own lungs returned the yip that signalled ,"Yes , we will find her
, the messed up human , give us time , more information".  The distant
variations of howls and rehowls echoed north and south with a communication
link now spanning the valley of the Don River.  Still no confirmation of
sighting returned for Melony, the messed up girl human.

   The detective's eyes accustomed to the dim light .  His ears heard the
requests and return communication.  "Will they find her ?  Yes, but when ,
alive or dead.  Melony was spotted near George' street.  Melony was at the
abandoned paintshop.  Where is she now.  These animals can not know who is
on the streets , only who is in the ravines".  His mind drifted as the yips
and commiunication protcol between species continued.  "Six month from now
, someone will report human remains found .  Likely found by their pet dog
while walking ...  ah that's it , Can these wolves of the ravines
communicate with domestic dogs , and how can that help"?  The detective
openned his transmitter to police base station and asked for them to put
the live signal over local tv and radio with his special telephone number.
Across the giant sprawling city local radio stations already primed to look
for Melony issued a 30 second live sound clip of Joseph and the wolf
communication.  "Someone or something in this giant city knows the
whereabouts of Melony".  "Joseph and his friends are attempting a miracle.
It is my job to find missing persons and Melony is that person here and
now"!  Joseph and Jacque and Joshua and Sath became aware of increased
activity in the city.  New animals began to howl in houses along the
valley. Ten miles downstream a husky shepard cross answered the radio left
on by her owner as she prepared for shift work early in the morning.  Her
dog "Cocoa" howled at the radio , howled at his owner , demanded attention.
The pet owner called the radio station , with Cocoa howling in the language
of northern sled dogs.  The communication stream of Cocoa reverberated into
the local radio studio , astounding a sleepy night dj with insistent yips
and barks , as the shift worker tried to explain what could not be
explained.  The dj openned the studio microphone .  Thirty seconds of
Cocoa's plea echoed across the city to bars and night clubs , to a million
different places where people and pets work.  More calls reverberated to
the now alert dj.  The pet owners did have news.  Cocoa was taken on a walk
in the afternoon.  Rover was out in the evening.  Rex was barking now about
a walk in the evening.  Joseph was getting feed back now from pets barking
in apartments along the river.  The wolves copied and relayed the messages.
The detective began to pinpoint his map with dog walking routes.  Within
minutes a pattern emerged near the abandoned paint factory.  At the same
time Joseph's communication detected new information from ten miles
downstream.  Joseph forwarded his info to the detective and collapsed. 
Joshua pulled him close as Jacque and Sath checked vitality.  "Joseph , you
have done your job.  You have helped us .  Melony will be found , but
Joseph did not hear .  He was unconsious.  Sath and Joshua pulled him to
standing and Joshua and Jacque took his weight on their shoulders as they
laboured back up the ravine in darkness.  Sath continued to monitor his
breathing and repiration.  Within ten minutes a helicopter appeared over
the abandoned factory.  Teams of searchers moved relentlessly through the
murky water and the abandoned rooms above it.  This time they had their own
search dogs , trained to locate missing persons.  And there was help coming
from local wolves on where to look first .  The two search dogs understood.
Dragging their handlers through brush and garbage to a side shed near the
abandoned factory.  The search dogs yelped excitement telling their
handlers and the wolves about a human in need , a live human with weak but
real life signs.  Radio's crackled .  Emergency medical staff rushed into
the shed as the searchers fell back.  Their search lights illuminated a row
of yellow eyes at both edges of the river.  Yips of "yes" reverbed back up
the valley.  Joshua and Jacque had stopped to rest in a lighted area where
the city sky reflected into the ravine.  They waited for the detective to
answer his phone once again but Joseph awoke first with the sounds of the
wolves.  "They found Melony - she is alive"!  The detective confirmed . 
"Yes she is alive and on board ambulance to the General.  Very little
traffic .  She will be with intensive care within a minute".

   Sath and Jacque watched a shadow appear beside them .  Joshua felt it's
fur brush by his legs.  Large paws appeared on Joseph's chest .  The
detective took a deep breath but steadyed himself.  "I know you " ,
murmered Sath ."You come to Liam's marker every year.  You have yellow eyes
when there is no light and green eyes when reflected.  Joseph hugged the
big wolf close.  "I know you too.  You tried to help Liam but no body could
help him.  Then you helped me.  You saved me before I wanted to be saved.
Now you have helped me help my friends".  A flick of the wolf's tongue
across Joseph and a kiss from Joseph to the big wolf and it faded into the
darkness.  The twins continued shoulder walking Joseph up the ravine and
the steps and finally to a waiting emergency van.

   The detective completed paper work as the van arrived at Toronto
General. Sath and Joshua and Jacque with Joseph entered the openning
emergency doors .  "I remember this place also" ,mused Joseph .  "This
where I met you Joshua and this is where you revived Theory .  You set my
mind straight that night .  You and Jacque saved my best friend from lung
poisoning".  "No , you saved your best friend" , returned Jos.  "I met all
of you here" , whispered Sath.  "It is where I work and you helped me bear
the weight of this job.  We humans under estimate the power of helping each
other , until something really bad happens.  But I work here every day with
bad things happenning.  This is the first time , I have helped bring a
patient to the hospital.  I will never forget it boys".

   Sath hurried off along a corridor dragging the boys with her to an
information office crammed with old computer.  She entered some pass key
info and found Melony on floor twelve.

   The detective caught up with them just before they raced into an
elevator , collected his loned equipment and wished them "luck" , though
not one member of the group believed in luck.  They arrived in information
twelve.  "Look who you are dragging into this clean room" , as Bill shoved
some towels at Jo and Jos and Jac and Sath.  "I smell river mud".  "Sath
take them for clean up".  Nobody moved.  "Oh Melony , malnourished , weak
from exposure.  She will live , if she wants to.  Her parents are on their
way and they will see her first .  She will have some strength by morning
and will be awake then".  "Sath take these boys to George' house and sleep
with them", laughed Bill.  "You have worked hard enough this day".  Sath
smiled coyly, "Not normally a boy person Bill".  Bill laughed as they
re-entered the elevator.  Within ten minutes they were at George' house and
the door was lighted and open.  There was no sleeping .  George was
ecstatic.  "Did not find my son but found my grandson , and his mother
because of you guys.  I shall never forget how stupid I have been in my own
grief to have missed out on the son that Arthur left in his place before
his death.  All of you come inside .  Aric and Julia are watching the farm
so Una and Jessica and Jennifer are here.  It is one hour before sunrise.
We are going to party until the sun comes up.  Then I am going to see my
son and my daughter-in-law if she will allow that to happen.

   Chapter 71 The End.

   Una appeared first .  She escorted Joseph to the upstairs shower and
Jennifer and Jessica took the boy twins to the lower shower.  Everyone
found something of Arthur's to wear and reappeared in half an hour in the
upstairs loft with iced tea and milk and juice.  They remained silent as a
new day illuminated the east windows and a million commuters made their way
to work.  Jo openned one of the windows facing the valley.  He could almost
hear his wolf friend at Liam's marker telling the pack to arise for a new
day.