Prelude:
Life thrives on this planet earth.  It adapts , propels itself forward
enjoying habitable conditions.  The human component enjoys an enviable spot
on the ever changing earth's surface adapting and re-adapting .  This story
is a tiny arc of human existence as it circles and spirals onward into time
and space governed by our existence on earth , third planet from our solar
system sun , in one of the spiral arms of the Milky Way bar galacy.  Life
grabs at ideal conditions , enjoys itself and overpopulate's .  Many of the
humans now populating this planet are here , not because of life enjoyment
, but because of religious power .  The human population explosion will be
curtailed by conditions on the planet as they change .  The planet does not
acknowledge who of us is here because of the life force versus the
religious force.  Religion sucks it's power from the millions of new
parents created by religious creed.  Those new parents in turn create
children educated with the will of their religion!  Enjoyment of life is
meaningless where religion dictates two thousand year old dogmas.  Those

who cannot enjoy life care less about the planet we enjoy.

   This story is a continuation of "JoshuaTeenAndFriendsGrowingUp.txt".

   WARNING TO READERS : Adult Readers Only

   This story and contents are fiction.  In this story : Words describe
ideas and actions different from the spectrum of organized religious
tolerance .  You the reader must consider your own cultural status.  Do not
read this story if you are under eighteen years of age .  Do not read this
story if you are programmed by organized religion.  If you the reader
objects to this description of a particle of the life force as it concerns
teens , then please quit reading this story .  To the people who continue
reading , please enjoy it .  Life needs to enjoy itself in order to thrive.
Our time on this planet should be enjoyable and every new born including
every child deserves the same .

   Phase one : Summer

   In the previous story <JoshuaTeenAndFriendsGrowingUp.txt> a fourteen
year old boy makes some life long friends , enjoys the security of his
mother's bond , only to find , that bond is poisoned by forces beyond her
control.  His mind comes apart , crashes , but is rescued by his new
friends , then adapts to the new reality and then enjoys it immensely.  In
this story he discovers the power of religion as it applies to extraverted
and open minded individuals.  As in real life , he must learn to deal with
over whelming events.

   Phase 2 : Fall (the season of change)
Fall: chapter: 1 : the letter
Jos dived back into the kitchen carrying some advertisements and an

envelop.  Reading it eagerly - pupils scanning the official blue text . 
"Chrishit".  "Jos , ehh , let it go".  "Jos : Let us in on this , you've
suck-in all week." "This's crap"?  mutterred Joshua as Jennifer , Jacque
and Jessica looked on.  Joshua crumpled the white paper back into the
envelop and stuffed it in his jean pocket.  "Whatthefuw"?  "What's with
you" ?  "Yu've left us out - all week"!  Jennifer and Jessica put their
arms on Joshua's shoulder's.  "May we see the note"?  "Wat a fuc the
point". "Jos , we want to know , as a friend".  "It'l not make it right"!
"Hiding the official news from that high school will not change it".  "Crap
...  it's crap on me.  I never asked to be in any particular school before.
I always did what they asked , and jus once in my life I do ask and they
say I'm stupid and can't handle the learning.  They can goit to cow shit ".
Jennifer's hands caressed Joshua , back into reality as Jessica and Jacque
pulled the crumpled note from his trouser pocket , openned it and read:

   << Dear Mr.  Coresland , We have taken account of your request to attend
the same high school as Jacque Green and Jennifer and Jessica Roggeres. 
However , our guidance department strongly anticipates your presence at
Bakker's High.  It is a much better school for you and trust you will do
well in the smaller classes and hands on learning environment.  >>

   << blah blah blah - blah blah blah >> Joshua's eyes and face steeled as
Jennifer read out loud.  Jacque put his hands on Joshua's shoulders
kneading the collar bone muscles.  "It's no big deal broer " "Damm right
Jac , - IS A BIG DEAL" , pushed back Joshua.  "I want to go to the same
school as my identical twin and my girl friend.  I will not be pushed into
a monkey school by banana guidance counsellors".  Jen's lips curled into a
smirk , then a full time laugh as did Jess and Jac.  "Monnkeee school high"
?  "How to peel the fruit from the yellow goodness"?  "Hey hey we eat
NaNnas and we like NANan-aroound." A small acknowledgement from Jos' eyes
soothed his friends.  "I meant Jos , that the message is no big deal and so
don't give up or do rash , cause guidance counsellors always say no.  I
have dealt with them lots of times.  YOU , bro , you tell them what you
want and then you do it.  If they refuse I will get my dad - er your dad to
launch a formal request.  Guidance teachers cringe when parents appear ,
and my dad will not let me down".  "S'addressed to Coresland , - not
Green". "See , they havn't really accepted you as part of the green family
. We are identical twins .  If I can get in that school with Jessica and
Jennifer , then you can ".  A small smile criss-crossed Joshua.  "That's
the spirit" cheered Jen and Jes.  "Let's re-write that note and send it
back".  "What the fuc"?  "Ehhh--".

   "S'No time left - BAStards - could have told me two weeks ago"!  A long
silence drifted back over Joshua ending in a depressing frown.  "Jac , they
only took you cause you play hockey and football".  "So what "?  "Your
point is"?  "Trust Jac on this " endured the twin girls.  "You can most
certainly change their plans and the----" "What if I fail ---" ?  yelled
Jos , face sinking deeper.  "No Jos.  You will not fail".  "Who says"? 
"Your friends will help you do whatever the curriculum asks for". 
"Whatever "?  We will not let you fail Jos." Jos sank to the floor face to
face with his friends jeans .  Hooked his fingers in Jen and Jac's pockets.
"You know , I would do anything for you Jen.  And for you Jac , bro and
twin , there's nothing between us , and now this stinkin counsellor has
separated us again.  I guess , I find confusing , too much confusion for
me, when the river flows the other way and I am in drowning danger".  "Oh
Joshua -You are not not in drowning danger"!  Jen and Jes sank down to Jos'
level.  "We would have helped you learn bike riding but you did it all
yourself.  We'd have helped you re-unite your parents but you did it ,
Joshua Coresland-Green.  You did it all by yourself".  "Jos , you have
wants and needs and dreams".  "We can help you with them just as you helped
us.  Please tell us your dreams." Jos face raised , then dropped.  Jac
stepped forward in front of Jos.  " Aric told us of the bull chasing you
across the pasture land .  Remember the bull chasin you thru the meadow? 
He tried to kill you bro but you got out of that too , -outsmarted that
crazed animal all by yourself , without even a rip in in your pants or a
hoof on your ass".  Joshua's face smiled - then frowned again.  " I failed
myself .  I broke down , cried like a baby the night of my parents
reunion". Jac put his fingers on Jos face , stared into his twin's
identical eyes.  Lowered his voice : "You did break broer.  You broke bad .
Events you cannot control overwhelm".  "I worked so hard to get them
together".  "That's part of the crash you had Jos.  You worked real hard
and had much invested.  When your dad and mom got together - you walked on
diamonds .  When the reunion seemed to fall apart you came apart".  Jen
massaged his forehead.  "You did break , but you're more than perfect
since. You rescued Jac from lung poisoning by a pool accident, and you
worked night and day to stabilize Joseph.  Joseph wants to become a doctor.
Do you know where he would be without your help?  -a drugged vegetable , to
be watered and fed by government for the next thirty years or until the
drugs took their final dues.  Jos you are awesome , and you can do this
cause we will not allow you to fail , not this year , not next year and not
all the years you have left on this planet".  "I your twin brother , will
help you through this.  I have more experience than you in dealing with
this school guidance crap".

   "Wait - WAIT a big minute , three months actually .  But , but he has
-er Joseph has serious problems yet that he will not talk about.  Una told
me they never have done it.  Joseph has never a ahh er you know - he's jus
not enjoyin his life.  It's possible he may decide to take the viaduct even
now.  They're both older than me.  Una and Joseph have been together all
summer.  I think they're both virgins.  Una has confided in George also
about Joseph - has never gotten hard , not at least since Una met him.  I'm
worried that Joseph is loosing his battle with enjoying life on planet
earth.  I like him a lot.  I put so much work into his life - it's true ,
but it may be for nothing - just not fair .  Jo and Una avoided me for the
last two weeks .  What's up with that "?  Jen lifted his chin.  Jac looked
Jos , straight in the eyes.  "First of all lets break the problems in two.
Right now your problem or wish , Josh , is to get into the same high school
as us.  Second Joseph does have some problems left.  What the fuc -k do you
expect after what he has endured , abandoned by his parents , suicided
brother , drugs , sleeping on the street for weeks last March and abandoned
by his grandfather not to mention his issues with gay or hetero , though
Thierry still loves him.  This earth is a wonderful place but all Joseph
Alto ever knew is the stink and greed of religion and power.  Raped by his
grandfather !  How do you get over that Jos ?  It's magnitudes worse than
what religion did to us Josh !  How do you get over your brother suiciding
before your eyes?  Jos whispered : "You don't".  "If anything ever
happenned to you Jac - well lets not go there right now"!  "But Jos , you
did help Jo".  "You helped his mind immensely , teaching him how to put
overwhelming events into perspective - taught him how to place those
memories in a special area accessible under controlled mindset.  "And , Jos
, you did pull out of that parental reunion nose dive.  You brought us
Jessica , Jennifer together into a friendship that will never end. 
Jennifer and Jessica pulled you through that failure because they loved you
, and they trusted you at the highest level.  In essence you gave them
their woman hood and they gave you their total attention when you failed".

   Lifting Jos chin , Jac straighted his neck .  "Can you tell us what
happened when Jen put you back in bed with my dad - er your dad , cause
whatever it was , you cured.  No body gets over what the world did to you -
I mean or - to us for thirteen years, separating us like pet sheep going to
new owners.  Even the humane society tries to keep stray siblings
together". "You did it Jos".  "You did it Jos" chimed the twin girls.  "You
defied the forces of organized religion and divorce court and you won
permanent friends".
Fall: chapter: 2 : Jos friends convince him to go for it.
Jos eyes flashed back defiance , brushed his blonde hair aside , then
rock solid.  Then smiling.  Lips parting to reveal a gentle confidence. 

"It's true , I did break , and I did recover.  You helped me , all of you ,
especially Jen".  "Thanks".  "Jen , you changed me when the calf was born.
I was trying to help the heifer survive the calf birthing and you raised me
to a new level of confidence .  You brought my mind in line with my body ,
in an unforgettable way".  "But you still recall your child hood"?  "I
still go there sometimes in my mind with dad , it's like a place , or a
garden except there's no flowers , -- a perpetual winter without the cold
and snow.  But dad and I go there because we were were forced to stay there
for thirteen years.  When we come back , then the world is a jolly happy
place".  "What about the break down Jos"?  "It was black that night with no
hydro in the house.  Awoke under the bed crying like a puppy dropped on the
road-side, then - Oh - I remember now - Jen you found me in total blackness
, you picked me up.  I know it was you .  I could smell your scent, and you
put me back into bed with my dad - I was in that little bed against him but
reversed, with my nose on his ahh and his nose on my ---- .  My dad and I
-er we communicated without talking , I guess it was instinct.  My dad was
hurt too, -cause of trying to contact me , if only to get a birthday card
or a "hi daddy" once a year.  But all that is past now.  Both of us are
cool.  My Dad is my friend now , more than a parent.  A parent is not
always trusted but a friend-dad is tops in the field of trust.  Do I need
to tell you more"?  Jen and Jes listened intently.  A blush crossed Jac's
face as he studied Jes' face.  "Hey you twin girls did not tell me THAT" ,
expressed Jac.  "You mean yuh sucked EACH other an--- and -- " Staring
straight into his brother's eyes , Jos interrupted .  "Jac I did suck your
dad and he sucked me.  He's my dad too.  The details are hard to understand
.  My life is way different from yours !  This area of our language fails -
descriptive words do not exist.  Flacid and it did something for both of
us. Some life force between us equalized.  Unspoken fears melted.  It was
confusing that night but comforting beyond the sky and the next day , I
began to understand what I missed.  And I understood what my dad missed ,
-- me just as much or MORE.  You saw my breaking point .  Remember that .
You know what was forcing my mind to look back .  You saw me , your equal ,
incapable , babbling , my mind stripping itself to a core of values which
no longer existed , er whatthefuc .  I am still remembering details of what
happened .  I remember looking into a hole , a deep well and seeing my Dad
and you Jac way at the bottom and me at the top unable to ever get down to
you , and afraid of falling , with my mother holding me with both hands. 
There's really no explanation ", murmered Jos.  "Will it happen again?  We
do not know the future , only the past.  I talked with my dad that night at
a level of communication rarely used.  If similar events overwhelm me in
the future , then Jac , Jennifer and Jessica , I ask you to give me the
same support as before".  Jac and Jen and Jes moved closer to catch every
detail and nuance.  "Can you give us a bit more detail"?

   Lowering voice to a whisper , "Yes we did , yes, - we sucked each
others's tool - and we healed.  Some ancient communication mode .  Dad was
cut by the forces of religion when he was born.  My Dad has no feeling , no
foreskin , in fact .  Without realizing , my own nightmare of learning that
my mother separated us for thirteen years , I connected to Dad with his
nightmare of being raped by pedophile foreskin harvesters .  Thirteen year
gap shrank immensely .  Dad has no fearful feelings about the thirteen
years , nor do I .  And I understand my Dad's problem with having no
foreskin and I feel great that both of us broke all the rules , took all
the risks for each other and WON .  You Jen set me up for that experience
and you won also.  My mind is free of all that baggage of no dad , and no
precious twin brother for all that time - except , I went to a lot of
crappy schools cause my mother always ended up in the worst communities ,
and I think , aw crap , I remember now that I failed grade five, but my
mother just moved to another town that fall and they stuck me in grade six
anyway".  "Technically then , you are a partial grade behind me " , grinned
Jac.  "Do you think those idiot guidence cops know that".  "Jos nobody ever
fails grade five".  "Well they failed me , but it didn't bother , cause my
mother just laughed them away".  "She said I was too cute to fail".  Jen
softened , "Jos you are cute , your handsome and your fifteen , blonde hair
blue sparkle eyes , boy thin yet developing serious biceps and ever so
tantalizing happy trail.  In grade five , at ten years you would a been the
cutest boy in all the school".  "I wish my dad- your dad had been there ,
because he would have told the principal that it was his fault for having
crappy teachers.  Like they say - Nobody ever fails grade five." "I can't
say it was bad teachers , I know they try hard , but teachers have families
and they bring that to school sometimes".  "Definitely matters NOT"!  "Can
they find out by searching old records"?  "Why would they search - Nobody
fails five".  "Nope er , they may have found out if my school records are
searched".  "It's pointless for anyone to hold that against a fifteen year
old".  "Forget it Jos".  "S'not us to worry over stuff five years back ,
and if they do mention that , then your Dad will tear their logic to
pieces".  "Jos - YOU are going to Bridge Work High - NOT Bakker
crap-school".

   Jen and Jes stood up pulling Jos with them , as Jac shifted his weight
to lift also.  "I still say - SN'o big deal JOSHUA GREEN".

   The usual smile continued to broaden across Jos and reflected the same
in Jac.  "High fives for all".

   Slap slap slap slap.

   "OK we are going to do this all by ourselves.  If our system fails , we
drag in our parents for a confrontation with guidance , but we will not
fail".  "So your sayin guidance counsellor has already lost".  " Tomorrow ,
is the first day of your new high school Jos.  You are coming with us and
if - if you go then we go.  Tomorrow we meet , I mean all of us - meeting
time with guidance department, right after our last class.  Jos , you will
be in my class all day , and if anyone wants to make a deal of it , my cell
will be texting Jessica cell who will be texting you and Jen.  That way we
all have identical information".  "What about the other problem - my former
friend , Joseph".  "I know bro , you're not dropping him , just because he
has been an ass for a week or two.  You have done enough already for
Joseph. He and Una are great friends - if not lovers.  Right now he needs
more time to adjust but school is rolling over him also.  He has a poor
school record and yet -- promised George that he can be a doctor.  Joseph
is aiming for a doctor career , a great life.  Even if he flops he'll still
have a fantastic education , and Una by his side - I think she is talking
about university and doctor , also.  They'll survive Joshua .  Don't worry
about them.  In fact you worry about yourself only , cause if you succeed
they succeed.  Joseph likes you - er he admires you , he loves you broer.
You are his guiding light , his hero.  Joseph knows you are the reason for
his existence and he knows you are the reason for George's trust to offer
him a doctor's education .  The reason that he ignores you now is to
concentrate on himself and Una.  Keep this thought in mind Bro.  Joseph ,
for the first time in his whole life is making his decisions.  You started
that process Jos when Jo arrived at the hospital and you forced him to help
Theory.  He knows what you have done for him and yet he knows that he must
make it on his own , with Una and the doctor degree.  That's his plan bro.
You'll see".  "Yeah to Friends" , mouthed Jessica and Jennifer.  "Yeah to
Joseph Alto , my friend going it alone".


Fall: chapter: 3 : Preparation for school.

   "So what must we do , er I do to prepare", asked Jos on an upbeat note".
"Only one thing really matters to all of us , and that is confidence , the
power to look into someones eyes faaar senior and demand a response.  To
get listened to , you , use their language and be tough , with careful
thought behind each response no matter what is thrown at you.  Be firm , -
a rock , a talking rock that accepts one outcome".  As Jen talked she moved
her fingers along Jos collar bones , pushing her finger tips into the tense
muscles on his chest.  Jac nudged the backs of Jos legs as Jes let him
settle back on the floor.  Jac pulled the curtains closed on the old
farmouse windows and returned after closing the outer door , flipping the
aluminum latch to lock.  Jen looked into Joshu's eyes ."You need to relax
Jos.  Will you let us help with that"?  Face grinned , Joshua's body fell
limp.

   A creak and rattle came from the door.

   Joseph and Una openned the old aluminum door easily by pressing on the
right place on the door frame.  Entering the kitchen noislessly , they
moved close to Joshua and Jacque and the twin girls.  "Come on in " ,
motioned Jessica and Jacque.  "We are going to relax Joshua for school time
in the morning".  "Oh , can we help " , asked Joseph.  "Joseph , You're
definitely unrelaxed also" , chided Una.  "You've been quiet all day , well
for two weeks , for that matter and you've treated Jos badly by ignoring
his calls".  "Yeah , I know".  "Why"?  "School starts tomorrow". 
"Point--?" I promised George , about getting good grades an bein a doctor.
I don't know if I can get good grades"?  "So what , why punish Jos".

   "S'not punishing to Jos at all , S'my way makin my own decisions".  "A
colossal waste of money for George".  "Hasn't happenned yet".  "George does
not see it that way".  "But that's my view " stated Joseph , "and it's
gettin heavy as school approaches.  All I wanted in school was to be
ignored and just above failing grades is the best place for that - and now
suddenly I am expected to know everything that I tried to forget, last
year. My grandfather used to praise me for getting grades above C and so I
learned how to get minus C without actually failing and being beaten to
hell by the old man." "Add another one to the list for relaxation massage"
smiled Una.  Jen and Jes invited Una and Joseph to sit down with them. 
Joseph delayed a second ,"Jessica , Jennifer , Jacque , I want to apologize
for my actions over the last two weeks.  School or the thoughts of it are
dragging me around like a mouse by a cat".  "We can do two relaxations at
once", stated Jen and Jes and Jac.  "Lets pretend to hypnotise Joshua and
Joseph.  "Joshua is pretty much zonked out on the floor , so Joseph , It's
your turn - ahhe are you up for it"?  "Looks like I need to be down for it
" , retorted Joseph.  "Get down here with your buddy Joshua", replied Jos.
"Joseph , is it ok , and er playin a little game of hypno"?
Fall: chapter: 4 : The code words
"I know my bro , pretty much anything in this game of relaxation goes.
How bout you Jo ?  Do you have a code word or sign to let us know if we are

doing something wrong" ?  "Yeah , my brother Liam is dead but him and me
had a code word".  "Not that one " warned Jac.  "That code word is between
you and your brother.  It's ok but it carries a load of weight that you
should be free from for now - do you get my drift "?  "Anu".  "Anu" ?  "Yea
, if I say anu , then give me some slack".  "Fair enough , Jen , Jes , Una
, Member the timeout word for Jo is Anu - h'mm good pick Joseph your
favourite girl friend's name spelled backward "?  "She is my only girl
friend.  Una and I want to give our lives to each other".  "Then , Lets
begin ?".  Jac and Jes eased Jo to the floor beside Jos.  "Does Jos have a
code word - er timeout word"?  "Joseph" , whispered Jos.  "But that is my
name." "Ahh no , sorry ", responded Jos.  "It's just that you and I are
like cats and rats this last week , no communication , and so your name is
at the top of my list , er not really my timeout code".  "Jos , I didn't
know you were that much pissed about Jo", admitted Jac and Jes.  "I knew he
was not having a good week" , volunteered Jen.  "Geez , I mean Jen , I am
sorry you were worried about me too.  I don't like being like this" . 
"It's ok Jos " smiled Jen.  "If you were feeling crap but acting happy I
would be REALLY pissed at you.  We don't do that here.  Lots of changes
happen to us , with some we don't expect.  The ones that we have worked
hardest on are the ones that cause the most anguish .  And so - What is
your time out word Jos.  I think I have been so happy with you all summer
that I forgot you were a real human , because of all the great times "?  "I
dohn have a word .  Jac do you have a timeout word"?

   An automobile noise moved past on the road outside.  Somewhere in the
fields a cow mooed.  "Jac" ?  "Jac"?  Jen and Jess stared at Jacque ,
noting his facial unease.  The old refrigerator picked this time to stop
running , shaking the kitchen glasses as it siezed.  Silence in the room
deafened.  Outside a squirrel chatterred.  "Y'ok Jac"?  "Yes bro , and I do
have a code".  Another car disturbed some gravel outside on the road. 
Jac's eyebrows narrowed .

   "Yes I do , cause my dad and I worked out this stuff when I was playing
sports.  I think you should have your own code words for how you feel , -
you know in case your minister is trying to fondle you or imminent danger
appears but you cannot publicly scream rape".  "Hell - er Hello , my mother
did none of this with me.  She always stayed so close to me , that there
was never a chance for danger".  "At least you had a mother .  All I got
for bein born was a church programmed grandfather".  Jos stared at Jo , at
his face.  "I love you Jo.  I told you that , the night we met in the
hospital.  Do you think , I said that so you would save Thierry"?  Jo
stared back .  "At first , I did , and I did save Thierry .  I sucked his
boy thing , and he exploded.  Una smiled.  Jo had told her many times about
this part of his life and how Jos brought about the changes in his life
leading to permanent friends and stability.  "T'was my first time Jos.  It
did save Thierry.  Sath told me , the instrument monitors on Thierry went
wild that night".  "Jo , your action saved Thierry and now he has a
permanent boy friend Adrien , both working , contributing to this beautiful
planet".  Jos shook his blonde hair back into his eyes.  "The story " ,
smiled Una , "has a happy ending for Thierry and Adrien.  I can only
imagine how difficult your world was when your mind alternated from rage
against your grandfather to gay friend Thierry ".  "Then I say again - Jo ,
talkin to you Jo , I love you" , as Jos brushed the hair away from his eyes
.  "I know that Jos .  I understand now , what I mean to you but do you
understand what you mean to me.  You Jos , your much more than a friend to
me.  You ,, yu you are almost Liam but I can't let you protect me anymore.
Joshua , I love you equally as much and I want to be like you.  I want to
run my life exactly as you do Jos.  To do that I must call my own decisions
and run my own life".  Jos grinned : "Proud of you Jo".  "Una kissed him".
"All of us are proud of your accomplishments Joseph, and doubly so for
Joshua".

   Jac tousled the redish hair back into Jo's green eyes , then tousled his
brother's hair ending with a sharp ear pull".  "Ow".  "I love you also Jos
for getting my world to intersect with yours".

   "Back to subject matter .  Code words".  Jac's voice weakened: "And with
us friends , there is never danger , at least , not from corrupt officials
or religious fundamentalists , but returning to school puts us beside
untrusted people in positions of power .  Think about three words , one for
disgusted , one for danger and one for help.  You may never use it but
every year some teens are bullied , coerced , even raped and murdered by
people in power.  You are with friends today , but before the first class
tomorrow you will give us three code words , only Jen and Jes and I will
know.  If you ever use them , I promise hell will unfold for your
adversary." "Add my Dad to the list also and --- Jac , Did you ever use a
code word on Dad"?  Click of the refrigerator motor ignited the humming
noise from the kitchen.  Crows called to each other far above the farm
house.  "Jac"?  "Ohhhh Jac , Jos talking to my twin brother"!  Jos and Jo
watched Jac's face , fear , disgust ending with shame.  Jess moved to his
side , steadied herself with him , but Jac's face still stood alone.  "An
innocent question" , as Jess rocked against Jac.  "Yes".  "So what's the
point"?  "None unless you know the context and it's gonna hurt".  "That why
were all here" , mused Una.  Jac continued , voice whispering , "I had a
friend in grade six.  He was just like you , Jos, blond hair skinny ,
likeable .  I used to sleep over with him on weekends.  He smelled sweet.
We experimented a bit with things that boys do and religious parents hate.
He was really my first best friend , and he would do anything for me , and
I would do anything for Hal.  But , as we continued through public school
he grew uneasy , unable to control his life.  We drifted apart , - no - oh
no , he drifted away from me.  I often called his house but his parents
said he was unwilling to come out.  I asked to have more sleep-overs but he
refused.  His parents sent him to a religious school .  I only saw him on
weekends.  By grade eight he was high at that school on drugs.  I gave my
heart to him , and he refused it .  Jess it still hurts.  At the time , I
did not know why , WHY oh why ?  Last year Dad told me that a priest
confessed to abusing boys in his church.  Gould dammit , the fuckers !  It
was happening to Hal and I didn't know .  I thought he just wanted to be
alone , or maybe he didn't like me , cause he never told me.  My Dad sat
with me the whole day , kept me home from school and went through every
detail of me and Hal.  Dad knew and I knew that Hal was still in my mind
every day.  The next day I heard worse baaad news .  Could not concentrate
, --Wanted to be alone.  It was like the priest was raping me and I could
not - cu cou - could na not get rid of HIM.  I skipped school and went to
ravine park.  I stood on the bridge where the subway comes above ground. 
Why was I standing there?  Something in the trees below howled a mournful
tone , but I heard it say - "Call Dad" and I called Dad at his work number.
I told him the code word , the topmost one meaning I'm sick - need help.

   Ohh Goddammit this is hurtin me even now".  Jessica held Jac as he took
a long pause - continued.  Jen returned with a glass of water for Jac.

   "My dad called the cops , got police escort straight to ravine park . 
The cops were extremely good that day.  If they had come near me , I would
have run - jumped on the subway.  Unstable , and sick , -- I felt".  Jo and
Jos , and Jen and Jes moved closer to an almost inaudible sound.  A whimper
, or maybe a cry .  Jac continued took a sip of water , " That was the day
I learned from Randy , one of Hal's druggie friends that Hal stepped into
the path of a train.  I was going past Hal's neighbourhood .  Randy was a
year older than me , maybe.  Saw me walking quickly and stepped out in
front of me.  His brown eyes were blood shot and caught my attention . 
They were full of grief when he stopped sayin the words.  "Not fall , not
push , Deliberated it.  He did to'imself"!  Hal could not tell anybody what
was going on in his head.  At first I disbelieved .  I pushed on away from
Randy , I pretended the drugs were talking , but inside I was coming apart
and there was nothing that my mind could do.  That's how I got to the
railway track bridge.

   The cop threw off his gun belt , his pull-over uniform , his bullet
proof vest , his flash light and cell communicator.  He watched my face and
approached me like Dad would , sort of like a dog approaching a cornered
puppy.  My face was frozen , but he stuck me with eye contact - got closer
and closer , then sat down on the bridge.  I stared at him for the longest
time , while the rest of the cops went crazy on the edge of the ravine and
far below the subway tracks seemed quiet and restless.  Finally my body
just sank on to the concrete walk , my face was crying now , something ,
that it never ever did.  The cop eased close.  We sat there looking at
clouds until I said , "I'm ok mister".  "So what happened with Hal".  "I
still was not ok , but I had agreed to not jump on the subway tracks". 
"And Hal , His friends - Me , I dropped him, His grades failed.  His
parents fought with him and his teachers threatened to put him in a reform
school , -all for nought.  Meanwhile his boy hormones were kicking in
making him grow , -confusing his mind.  I would have helped him somehow but
I did not know what to do and Hal would not - could not -talk.  He found
some hope with drugs but that soon spiraled.  His parents were religious
and aloof and his best friend - me folks - failed to comfort him.  Yet from
grade six to grade eight a preist was abusing him.  It came to light when a
four year old boy told his parents that the priest pulled his pants down
and his parents called the cops.  After the priest admitted raping some
kids the police asked for people to come forward.  Hu Hu Ha -Haaal
should-ahh come forward but I had abandoned him , his parents nothing, he
was too far away from me or anyone by that time to step forward.  Chiiisst
why didn't I know,--- Why didn't his parents know what was really wrong -
godam world of sodding priests , --- H - Ha -- Hal stepped in front of a
subway train ." Jess face collapsed , her eyes locked on Jac.  Sobbing over
rode the clock ticking and the refrigerant gurgling in the old frig.  A
crow disturbed the air outside with caw , caw , caw.  Jos kept his brother
talking , hoping that the news was still wrong.  Jac took another sip of
water.

   "Did Dad know"?  "Well yeah - t'was on news".  "No - I mean did Dad know
that you and Hal were really good friends" ?  "Yeah - Dad knew , he always
visited Hal's parents before our sleep overs.  Pretty much uneasy with them
but Dad knew .  Then I told Dad everything , - that Hal used to pull my
cock and I would pull his to make it grow and in grade six , we had sleep
overs we wrestled undressed".  "What did Dad do "?  "Nothing about our
games.  He said it was just boys playing , " a part of life" , but about my
using the code word ---

   Dad approached me carefully on the bridge , after the cop sat down with
me .  I donn know if they tried to call the transit people to stop all the
trains or what.  Not a train moved down below after the cop sat down beside
me.  Then Dad got to my side I could not even tell him what was wrong and
he didn't ask .  He just took me home , with the officer following and
pretty much sat with me in my bedroom in the dark for a whole day.  Finally
I tried to speak but instead cried.  I told Dad about Hal .  I told Dad Hal
was hurting so baad and nobody fucking knew or cared - GOOODDDAM .I told
dad that Hal was not born on this planet to be used like a toilette paper
and tossed away.  Jes began to stroke Jac's shoulders.

   Dad cried with me.  I told him , I wanted to go to Hal's funeral and he
understood about the priest , newspapers - I guess.  I wanted to see Hal
one last time but there -- was none - no last goodbyes - nothin - no --
funeral.  Suicide's a sin if you are devout .  Hal is stuck in my mind all
the time , like permanent marker on my hockey gloves , like rotten food
that can't be eaten , like a dead crow on the roadside.  It was just his
parents and a cremation I guess.  Much later , I saw Hal's mother watching
me at one of my hockey games last winter , so I stopped in the hall after
the game.  I wanted to say something but there was nothing , - there is
NOTHING , NOT a THING any body could say , and there never will be nothing
to say , sooo I uuuh spoke my truth: "I cried for Hal when I heard of his
death , cause I loved him and I would have wanted him to tell me about that
priest , and I wanted to go to his funeral" , and then I just stared at her
as she came forward by the dressing room door.  She was coming apart. 
Other players had to step around her with awkward skates .  I never saw
anyone come apart like that before - one minute - ok - the next a bawling
mother , - She put her arms on me and her head on my shoulder pads and she
cried - screamed - wailed on my chest.  She clung to me until I was
frightened , - no adult ever did that before.  There is no peace in this
universe for a mother who has lost her son , Hal is gone.  Yes - forever.
Why didn't the goodam Priest know that.  The crying continued until her
husband found her.  He apologized to me , and - and I do not know why , or
for what.  I was still reliving the winning goal when she approached me. 
After the crying I was shatterred all over again.  I went into the dressing
room to change.  I was not the kid my team mates knew.  They came to
congratulate me on the goal but I was not there , not with them .  I was
still with Hal so many years ago .  My team mates left.  I took all my pads
off and fired a puck into every light bulb in that room , exploding them
one by one till it was pitch.  Dad came to find me sitting naked in the
dark.  Dad sat down with me amidst the broken glass and the smashed hockey
stick pieces and broken lockers.  He didnt care about the lights , nor the
dents in the lockers nor anything except me .  He said he saw Hal's mother
taken out on a stretcher and explained that Hal had turned his life around
, at least until the preist confessed .  Hal also had scored the winning
goal on his first game of the last season in his league.  His parents were
going to move him back to my school where we could play together.  They
thought , school was making him ill , and they knew Hal and I were best
friends.  And we would be happy --- " Jac took a long pause, replayed his
thoughts and then --- staring into his bro's identicle blue eyes -- "I
still miss you - Hal - and Dad told me , I will always miss you , forever ,
and Dad said That's ok."

   Jo waited with Una , standing quietly , facing Jac.  Jos got to him
first.  "Ohh man , Jac , Why didn't you tell me about Hal and that
Gawddammed priest"?  The priest is still free and his rights are being
protected by the police and the press until the justice system moves
forward.  Hal's rights were never there - he was just a kid to be booted
and abused by the pawer of giant stone buildings and two thousand year old
writings".  Jen coughed , " the church separated our parents from us , and
prayed upon us like weasels sucking the life-blood from unprotected
puppies".  Jacque continued: "There is nothing to learn from this except
teens need code words.  Jos , you see .  I found a friend almost identicle
to you .  Obviously , I was missing my brother in grade six.  Dad knew that
and hoped for the best .  Yet for me and Hal ---the worst.  My best friend
deaded by a stinkin Priest .  I was too young to know what to do but old
enough to understand what happened to Hal .  We are born on this planet and
as we grow we learn.  Learning from a best friend's death -sucs --sucs
--suuucks .  It's the worst time and kind of learning .  Yet , IS to be
remembered forever.  Do you agree that code words are important.  "?  "Yes
Sir : we all need to make code words".  Jos stood up , -put his arms around
Jac .  "The two of us could have stopped Hal he would still be alive today
, but still hurting.  Sometimes you learn by being hurt.  I am hurt for you
Jac and I know now , WHY , you did not mention this before".

   Una wiped tears away from Jo's face.  His green eyes were sunken.  As he
put his arm around Jac .  "Jac , I understand Hal as perfectly as Liam. 
This hurts me at so many levels , haunts me , torments me and ---tortures
like falling bouncing , braking apart in mid air.  I also wish I had known
Hal.  Hal was just a kid , looking for what every kid wants.  Love ,
happyness.  Instead he was attacked by trusted members of a protected
society.  He was targeted and destroyed by religion .  Religion says that
boys who kiss are going to hell.  Well fuck them , - fuck all of em I say
", as he put his arms around Jac , hugged him close, their faces touching.
Joseph kissed him , intimately as his friends watched.  Then Jos did the
same ," fuck the church and the power of god".  He kissed his bro until
both could not hold lungs from taking air.  In a minute , three boys stood
back from one another and regained their normal spaces.  Una brushed the
reddish hair from Jo's eyes".  " After all this school bullshit is under
control the three of us will find Hal's parents and go to his marker.  Jess
and Jen and Una, you will come with us.  We'l need help oor'selves.  Death
is finality .  Irreversible .  When the decision comes from within , none
of us , and nobody on this planet should judge us for our actions.  When
there is nothing left then death becomes life.  Liam taught me well".  "And
now Hal taught me again ".

   Jos studied the pain on Jo and Jac.

   Jen and Jes and Una agreed .  "Thanks Jac for letting us know the
importance of code words.  Jac's information on Hal is a lead-in to our
relaxation.  It has brought all of us together as friends."


Fall: chapter: 5 Hypnotism ?

   "Hypnotism 's not the right word " , whispered Jen.

   "Tranced - " stated Jac.  "Jos and Jo will be in the quiet zone , see
and hear nothing.  Only touch will affect them".  "Then how will Jo tell us
the code word , if he sees and hears nothing"?  "He will not need a word
for us".  Jo and Jos were aligned on the floor side by side with Jac and
Jes between them and with Una attending to Jo on the outside and Jen
attending to Jos on the other outside. .

   Jac looked at Una.  "Una , follow Jen's methods .  Whatever she does to
Jos , You do it to Jo -- Ok"?  "Ok".  Jen held two fingers in front of Jos'
eyes , put her other fingers over Jos's heart and then petted his eyes
closed ten or fifteen times , each time waiting for the eyes to open.  Una
did the same with Jo.  "Close your eyes See nothing Hear nothing until you
feel the fun"



   Jes undid Jo and Jos shirt buttons , soothing their neck as she advanced
button by button toward the belt.  Jac undid their shoe laces , carefully
removing their shoes .  Summer odour of foot wafted past them .  "Time to
get new footwear".

   Jos ' eyes began to flicker first as Jen performed the eye closings over
and over and whispering "Relax Joshua", as she put him to sleep.  Una
continued the same process with Joseph , over and over .  Finally Jo began
to flicker his eyes and drifted off .

   Jac removed the socks from Jo and Jos , as Jes removed their shirts. 
"They're not really asleep , but more like in a brain thought process.  As
each boy slid deeper into the trance , Jac raised their buttocks gently to
allow Jes freedom to remove the trousers .  A blanket was placed over each
boy to reduce air currents and distraction.  Jen worked her tounge and
fingers all along Jos' chest on her way to point zero.  Una watched but did
not follow suit on Jo , as yet.

   Jac lifted the sleeping boys weight again as Una removed the pants and
underwear from Jo , and Jen removed the underwear from Jos.

   Jac adjusted each soft penis as Jen let her tongue curl around the soft
foreskin tip releasing the circular muscles .  A purr of content swept
forth from Joshua as Jen's tongue curled itself inside the circular
preputial muscle bands and encircled Joshua's glans penis.  The tip , the
head meatus expanded involuntarily as Joshua slept.  Jac manouvered a
finger under his maximus glutius muscles toward Jos' star as Jen's oral
massage targeted the tauting raphe of skin leading to the frenulum. 
Gradually Jac digited the star and pressed upward inside compressing his
bro's prostate toward Jen's tonque.  Una watched Joseph's face and his
package.  She wondered when Joseph would want to engage her , remembering
George' explanation of the horrific circumcision sufferred by Joseph and
the mysterious new foreskin that had grown back on him.  Una and Joseph and
the twins had inspected it many times, but it was, of course, the sole
property of Joseph and was his flesh to excite when the time came.  "But is
it entirely Joseph's"?  Una recalled the exact wording told by George and
Joshua and Jacque.  The cosmic forces were told to create Joseph's foreskin
as an identicle model of Joshua!  Una imagined that Joseph's new foreskin
may actually be connected in some unknown manner to Joshua.  As she watched
Jen perform Joshua's foreskin into a tight frenular ring Joseph's muscle
also twitched in the same way.

   Jo was responding !  and Una was doing nothing!  Jes checked both boys
heart rate and breathing and she pronounced them both tranced.  "How can
this be "?  whispered Una.  They're both sleeping , but Jo is responding to
Jos massage by Jen.  Jac grinned ."We have found out why Jo never has , had
a hard on.  He has not yet accepted that his new foreskin is his.  It still
appears to be Jos'".



   Joshua's eyes rolled back behind his closed lids , his nostrils
widening. Una watched the same signals affecting Joseph , the eyelids
flittering to relax and close and the definite bulge inside Joseph's
foreskin.  Una wanted to do exactly the same sequence on Joseph as Jen did
on Joshua .  Something was happenning with Joseph's foreskin .  Una had
never seen it stretched and yet so smooth , it's white translucent skin
gleaming.  Joseph was part Irish and Native Indian.  His skin was
noticeably different from Joshua , except for his new foreskin.  It was in
fact identicle to Joshua's, white , almost see through papery thin , yet
the glans and underlying flesh was a darker red.

   "Lets help both our friends into a relaxation zone where they have never
been" , whispered Una.  Jac and Jes and Jen concurred.

   Joseph and Joshua were totally stripped side by side with Una attending
to Joseph's point zero and Jen attending to Joshua's point zero.  "Jo is
sleeping but ,, - look his penis is expanding inside his new foreskin". 
"Lets prove Una's observation".  Jes returned from the freezer with a
couple ice cubes.  "Experiment time for Jo".  "Una , just watch , no
touching yet - if your theory is correct Joseph's glans will shrink when
Joshua shrinks.  She carefully loaded the ice cubes against Joshua's penis
bringing about noticeable shrinkage to his member.  All eyes stared at
Joshua and then at Joseph.  His penis also subsided.  "Amazing".  "Even
spooky".  "Now we know" , whispered Jac.  When Joshua's penis expands ,
then Joseph's expands".  "No wonder ", mentioned Una.  "Jo has never let me
turn him on , because he does not even control it.  Does this mean , that I
must have sex with Joshua to get Joseph hard"?  Jes and Jen shrugged
laughing.  "Who would have guessed"?  "Ahh right now that increases
complexity too much Una".

   Jac sat between the two prostrate boys with one hand under each.  Jes
sat between the two boys with one hand on each boy.  Joseph like Joshua
became limper and limper as the ice cubes cooled Joshua.  Both boys
breathing slowly, and rythmically .  "They're synchronized"!  The words
slipped out of Jac as his fingers moved closer to each boys prostate access
.  "I'll have to wash my fingers after this scene " , laughed Jac as one
finger from each hand pressured each boy's prostate.  "They're out and yet
they're synchronized".  "Yes".  "For sure".  "Affirmative".  ----confirmed
Jes , Jen and Una.

   "So - where to from here"?  "I don't want Jo to be forever in the power
of Jos" , lamented Una.  "No - that's not the case" issued Jac.  "Jos
doesn't wield power like that"!  "Then how"?  "The boys are very close to
each other , and we know that Jos has some pretty special healing powers ,
being able to heal my lungs and Theory's lungs after the pool accident. 
Jos is not controlling Jo , but simply trying to heal the wounds in his
mind from the horrific circumcision and rapes sufferred by Jo and Liam."
"Point".  "My point is , and my theory is that my brother's brain waves are
being felt inside Jo's brain also.  They're both beyond consciousness but
still extremely alert brain wise.  " Una still stared at Jac.  "I am saying
, that you Una want to be noticed by Jo but have had no success all summer
with getting Jo hard .  Is that correct" ?  "It is".  "Una there is a
question that I cannot ask you , but it needs to be answered "?  Jes
responded to Jac.  "Yeas , I know what to do".  She stood up taking Una by
the hand into the living room.  "Una you are a virgin.  No boy has ever
crossed your hymen.  And in the same sense Jo is a virgin boy.  Since his
foreskin restoration by the cosmic forces , he has never had an erection ,
never ejactulated , never sexually loved any one , and yet he is a
fantastic friend of yours.  The two of you enjoyed each other all summer ,
rather like brother and sister.  Una do you want to be perforated by Jo "?

   She stepped back from Una after whispering the question.

   "Don't answer straight away.  There's got to be someone out there on the
planet who can help you decide.  I am suggesting that you consult and give
your answer in a half hour or so.  We will keep these two sleeping boys on
hold till then.  Jac suggests that Jo needs you to make that decision for
him and you.  Jo has never been allowed to decide about his genital status.
He is a full male boy , whose foreskin was cut off by pedophile doctors
based on church doctrine.  He is a full male boy physically but he is
scarred mentally to a point of chaos , by rapes and bullying from his
grandfather and by witnessing the suicide of his older brother , to a point
of not even knowing what a full male boy should do for his best girl.  "
"ahh - err oh kay".  "His life force has been beaten , suppressed ".  Una
and Jes returned to the old farm house kitchen where Jac and Jen had
covered the nude sleeping boys with blankets.  Jac looked questioningly at
Una , then blushed a bit .  " I'm sorry Una.  Didn't mean to force you into
anything".  "Oh So's ok , Sometimes we need a kick , and when it comes from
a friend such as you and your bro , it is an honour ".  "Jac , what was it
like for you"?  "I was asleep on my brother's bed .  Jen and Jes did it for
me , thinking I was Jos.  At first I dreamed of my dad telling me to hold
off as long as possible , and then of a girl who liked me at my dad's
summer picnic.  Then I dreamed that , what was happenning was not a dream.
Jes did everything right and I awoke slowly into a world , never the same
again, to a world where just hearing Jes voice at any time of day or night
, brings a pleasantness , a desire , a smile and yes even some of my single
celled life forms to the front.  Being locked in love is friendship
squared. It's the top layer of life and human-ness.  It's what advances the
human race to do things , develop new technoligies , explore new worlds and
yes , to populate those worlds when the time is right.  It's what makes my
world turn , and it's what makes Jos' world turn." Una watched Jes as Jac
spoke , her eyes , her face , glowing with the knowledge of having a full
male boy , of having his body , and his mind and of having the confidence
to have his children when the time comes".  "Forever" , stated Una . 
"Everything changes but true love freezes the lovers forever".  "Forever".
"Forever".  "Una , this decision is yours to make, yet it affects all .  It
is the first step in bringing another human to planet earth, and not to be
taken lightly" .  Jac smiled .  "It creates complexity and yet it
simplifies life and fun".  Una searched thru Joseph's trousers .  Pulled
out his cell from the tiny pocket and entered the code of keys activation.
"One person can help me more than you ", as she pushed the speaaker phone
button and connected to George's phone in the big city.  "Hello".  "Hello
George, how is Melony and the baby doing"?  "Great".  "Hey George , you're
on speaker phone with Jen and Jes and Jac .  "The baby is my boy now , at
least when his mother is out.  Right now she is at work.  Did you want me
to leave a message"?  "Na No but George".  "But wait , I need your , ahh
need your help.  It is about Jo and me".  "You know , you have my help at
all times" , confirmed George.  "Doctor Jo , - can I speak with him also".
"Not right now .  He's sleeping with Jos" George Chuckled , "A year ago , I
would have smirked at that but no more" stated George.  The top species on
this planet often needs human comfort from another same".  "George" , spoke
Jac into the speaker phone , " We are helping each other get ready for
school tomorrow and all the new changes happening this summer.  Jo and Jos
are asleep and we are providing them with happy summer thoughts but Una
needs you to help her with a serious question.  You know that Una and Jo
are friends but we are suggesting they take it to the next level.  Growing
up is full of great and not so great stuff.  Growing up with the right
person sets a prevailing course , a condition , perhaps a habit that will
shield them from whatever happens at school.  Will you help?" "Of course ,
you bet I'll help".  "George you've got more years on the planet than all
of us combined.  Do you remember our conversation about two virgin lovers ,
Una and Joseph "?  Do you think it is time ?  Will the doors unlocked help
us get through the next phase of life , meaning school and another year of
trying to be adults , which we are not".  The kids could here laughing on
George's phone , then a stillness as his voice continued , "Una you are a
most beautiful teen human.  You must do what you want in your heart.  Jo
must do what he wants." "But Jo is asleep".  Jac pretended to talk exactly
as his brother.  He explained to George the exact condition of the teens in
the old farm house , finishing with the desire by Jen and Jes and himself
to support Jos and Jo ."No matter what".  "No matter what "?  questioned
George.  "Teens do not often create that type of pact.  I mean they do but
it doesn't mean a lot when the pressure comes on .  Do you understand"? 
"Jo and Jos understand " , answered Jac and Jes.  "We have already seen the
commitment of Joshua and you have seen the changes in Jo ".  "Yes". 
"George laughed again.  " All of you know that my commitment to pay Jo and
Una through medical school is real.  That is my commitment.  I suggest , no
I recommend that you make your decisions carefully and stick by them.  I
will do the same.  After all real humans are humans because we commit
ourselves , we promise , we sometimes make mistakes but that also means we
fix them."

   Una smiled "George , if Jo and I take it to the next level , there could
be a new human created".  George laughed again .  "I know that , and I know
my son knew that and when it happenned he hid it from me and then the
tragic accident".  "I'm sooory to remind you of that tragedy , George". 
"An accident happenned but a new human was not an accident.  I have a
wonderful little boy here with me who proved that." "Una , I am not
concerned about another tiny human.  I am only concerned on helping you and
Jo get the best out of life as I have and as my son would have.  Is that
clear to you ".  "Yes George , it is clear".  Jes continued , "Una you are
not absolutely sure , and that is great.  There is another way for the boys
to relax and that is each other , as Jos and his Dad".  George chuckled as
he gave his goodbye, "Jos will know what to do even sleeping".  Jac and Jes
and Jen and Una looked each other eye to eye.  "Plan B - it is".  "B for
boy" , added Jac.  Carefully , Jos was rotated and stretched out , belly
facing Jo's belly with his face adjacent to Jo's new foreskin and Jo's face
against Jos' foreskin.  Una whispered into the ear of Jo , " Jo talk to
Jos".  Then they waited , Jes and Jen holding their breath with
anticipation.  Jac continued to massage both boys.

   Primal nose hairs twitched as the tranced boys awared themselves of the
new arrangement.  A tip of tongue emerged from Jo's lips as his fingers
moved around Jos' limpness , cupping it to his lips.  Slowly the tongue
worked it's way inside the tip.  Curling into a cylindrical channel
allowing the tongue full access to the unexpanded glans penis nestled
inside.  Jos rolled his eyes incredulously as the full pleasure erased all
his thoughts.  His lips and fingers voluntarily cupped Jo and began the
same method of connection.  Working carefully on the the tighter foreskin ,
his fingers on both hands cupped the limp penis into a straight finger
jacket .  His tongue slipped into the deep jacket of new foreskin, forming
a cylinder of hot boy flesh locked inside Joseph's papery tight foreskin .
Both boys relaxed their tongues like wrapping on a halloween candy ,
allowing their host glans to enjoy the new environment inside another
organism's tongue.

   Jac monitored both boys with his his fingers along the penis shaft where
it dissappeared from outside the body running deep inward under each boys
star.  Jac whispered to the girl twins as he felt the pulsations mounting
in each boys prostate gland.  Jen monitored Joshua's balls and heartrate
and breathing.  Una copied with one hand cupping Joseph's ball sac and the
other gliding along his lungs and rib cage.
Fall: Chapter: 6 : unintended consequences

   For a full five minutes Jo and Jos remained connected with each tongue
curled into a half moon inserted deep into their host's foreskin.  Nothing
seemed to be happening as Jen and Jes and Una and Jac monitored them.  Jes
stepped back to get a full view of both nude boys.  She noticed the changes
in flesh colour on the connected boy's backs.  Distinct reddish blush
started at each boys waist and shimmerred along their backs in both
directions and then rapidly surrounded their rib cages with deep reddish
colour.  " Their skin is openning tiny blood corpuscles to expand allowing
their blood to flow very close to the surface".  Jac watched as his
identical twin became flush with blood coloured skin.  Jen and Una watched
their boy friends heart rate and respiration increase .  Likely their
respiration and rate is increasing to supply oxygen to all the new skin
cells now bathed in blood flow.  "I wonder if the internal organs are also
- so relaxed" , asked Jes?  Jac answered.  "They're prostate glands are
doing a pulse dance of sorts .  Furthermore , take a look at the expansion
of their tongue cylinders.  They can no longer circle each boy's glans
because the shaft is getting rock hard as it turns deep red.  The expansion
did not force the glans out of their foreskin , but instead increased the
compression of the tongue now caught between each boys deep cavity and the
rock hard head forming inside.  They're tongues are caught in there so
tight !  "The tongue raphe must be closely coupled by the frenulum" .

   "Heart rate is : -Wh- what is this- heart rate of each boy is
synchronized ?  The beat in each boy occurs simultaneously and the beats
per minute are identicle" , stated Jen and Una.  "Just like one boy with
two hearts and two lungs all beating to the same signal ", whispered Jac.
"And two boy things pumping at the same rate " ?  mused Una and Jen. 
"Incredible " , replied Jac .  "Jes slip your finger to the edge of the
star here on each boy.  "Wow" , stated Jes .  Joshua's whole reproductive
system and Joseph's whole reproductive system are vibrating , at the same
rate.  Both prostates are going wild in duplicate.  Deep reddish blush
invaded the lower cheeks and facial cheeks of both boys .  Nipple area
glowed with with surface blood flow.  "These boys are headed for a
relaxation with capital R " grinned Una.  "I am glad for both of them. 
They needed to rest and relax" .

   Una and Jen counted the puckered lip pulsations now deforming the
connected boy cheeks.  Their throats added deep vibration to the curled
tongues , their tongue tips taut like bow strings against the stretching
frenulum on the underside of the glans.  The connected boys eyes closed as
some automatic process took over pushing each one two the brink of a
catclysmic cum.

   "Aww code word CUM on the way " , whispered Jac.  "My body can feel my
bro and he is going to go it all the way to Mars.

   Jen and Una felt it also, unexplainable but "Ohhh Joshua - We're all
going to cum at the same time .  Jes put her arms around Jac and Jen and
Una as their eyes rolled back.  One slow SLOW breath in - BREATH IN and
mass excitation.  "Ohh my fucking brainballs" , moaned Jac.  "My passage,
my brain passage ", moaned Jen and Una and Jes together.  "Awesome - Epic -
AAAAAhhh".  Jac slid his longest digit into each boys star as their
sphincters pulled his finger prints tight to the prostate engines.  Boy
sperm blasted into the deferrens , pulsed into the prostates and roiled
with the reservoirs of thin white boy fluids , then ejected with fire hose
velocity into the urethra and finally the boy tongue at the end , flooding
the curled tongue cylinder with milky liquid.  Una and Jen and Jac stared
at each other: "Look at us - Jac and Jen and myself - Una frozen in
sensation cumming and orgasmming selves with no control .  We are overtaken
by master sensations generated by Josha and Joseph".  Jes remainded alert
enough to watch the entire group become pulsating amoeba all moving to some
synchral force field.  "But how could this be happenning " , she wondered.
Just Jos and Jo are supposed to be tranced "?  She checked Jac's crotch
visually and sure enough his genitals had dumped huge loads of cum such
that the fresh smell was pushing her mind to the edge.  Jes felt a strange
sensation to remove all her clothes and connect too.  She looked at Una and
Jen suprised.  Una had removed already her upper body clothes as had Jen.
Instinct removed her clothes also as a nude Jen snuggled between the
connected boys , unconnecting Joshua and stealing Joshua , and a nude Una
unconnected Jo , snuggled against Jo.  Removing her own clothes first , Jes
fell upon Jac pulling his clothes off !  Finally his cum soaked under wear
yielded a still pulsing shaft of flesh.  Each girl rolled her boy on his
back and lowered herself .  Jen dropped on to Joshua like a Dove landing in
the park, as Jes slid down on to Jac with the motion of lubricated oil
rams. Throaty sounds like a four engined cargo plane arose from Jo and Una.
Like a cargo plane landing with heavy load , her vaginal cavity aligned to
runway Jo --- dropped dropped dropped on to the landing strip at one
hundred miles per hour.  "Gaaaa gaaaahhha" , escaped Joseph and Una's lungs
as the two teens colided - connected into one .  "Ahhhhh my my ahhhhh
ripping flesh " , screamed Una and Jo , but they did not slow.  Joseph's
new white foreskin end ripped two ways as the rock hard glans perforated
through the tiny outer skin oriface.  Una's full pelvic muscle power rammed
herself on to Joseph's Native American-Irish red pole forcing it so far
into herself that Joseph's balls colapsed between his prostate and her
pelvic muscles.  Glans forcing , arresting by the breaking tissues like a
fighter plane stopped by cables on an aircraft carrier.  But in this case
the fighter plane explodes it's head .  She screamed in pain as the glans
detonated again deep inside her cavity pressed against the cervical curve
of her vaginal canal.  Pieces of bloody protective skin , - remains of her
hymen shatterred as she screamed and then dissolved into her passage way.
"Ahhhhhhh - ooohhoooo -" Joseph's armed muscles pulled her body against his
chest collapsing her arms and shoulders .  Joseph's lips locked to hers. 
His brain percieved the new signals , pain , fantastic good pain ,
emergency cum , code red cum.  Arms locked , Fingers locked , and tongues
locked thru lips .  Within milliseconds Joseph and Una locked together at
every skin cell.  His prostate over driven by emergency requests pumped
twenty shots of cum into her cervix with machine gun accuracy .  Two
million troops forced into her passage way , overcoming all obstacles. 
Within milli seconds they reached the holy grail of cum .  A single living
cell ejactulated from Jo's crushed ball sac flooded with fluid , mixed with
two million others , dam bursted down the spillway to sieze a large single
celled entity.  Joseph and Una saw their destiny .  Jen and Joshua , and
then Jes and Jac knew already felt the news.  Planet earth created a baby
as though it was easy as instant birthday cake.


Fall: Chapter: 7 Jo and Jos tranced
After Jo and Jos fell asleep nothing was recorded or remembered until
the end words "until fun".  Both teens remembered lying together on the
floor until memory went blank.  With acute surprise the connection tongue
to foreskin restarted the memory when as the first prostate transactions
attained synchronization between them.  Jo and Jos awoke to
ultra-experienced sexual pleasure as they described it later to the group.
Jos was first to describe coming out of the trance.  "Light shining through
the window seemed to be burning my eyes without hurting them , igniting my
flesh .  I saw flames er - well not flames - saw heated steam rising from
my own chest".  Jo remembered "his lower abdomen feelings er like a banjo

playing along the raphe of my foreskin.  In the kitchen-living room of the
old farm house Jo and Jos sat on the floor on a blanket with Una and Jen .
Jes and Jac sat with them , everyone partially dressed , with underwear and
under a blanket.  "And so You two don't remember connected by tongue to
foreskin to each other" ?  smiled Una , brushing the hair from Jo's eyes.
"I remember you petting my eyelids and dreaming".  "Dreaming like "?  "You
were not in my dream at first.  I wanted you to be there but instead Jos
was there telling me to relax , but he was not talking.  My ears were not
hearing , yet my dream told me to relax".  "How"?  "By putting my tongue on
his raphe".  "I also dreamed of tucking my tongue on his raphe".  "Raphe" ?
"Well , you know that ridge of skin on the bottom of my foreskin" .  "but
the raphe is on the outside of the foreskin".  "I know , I know and when I
put my tongue on his it just found a better spot all by itself by getting
inside right on his renulum.  " "I dreamed the same".  "I am sayin dream,
cause there was no sound and when I tried to tongue his raphe , it
automatically sought the frenulum".  "I woke up - I mean not physically but
mentally when the connection happenned.  I could feel everything inside
Jo's body".  "I could feel everything inside Jos' body" , smiled Jo.  "We
were both awake , at least on the inside.  It was euphoric feeling way
better than any stimulant " , added Jo , "and you know that at some point
in my life , I tried all of them.  No drugs do what Jos' tongue connection
did." "Ditto for me " , responded Jos.  "It was like my brain was in his
body , or rather his body and my body were one boy and we had two brains ,
two minds , - er that's how close we were.  Una bare chested Jo as he
continued .  "I wasn't sure bout the relaxation process.  Now I'm hunderd
percent.  I was uneasy all last week and this week because of trying to get
ready for school.  Before , my granfather just sent me to a Catholic school
, but I wanted to be with Una and she moved schools .  Finally , I did get
into her school but that only made my unease worse , cause it is not the
best school for doctors and second I want to be a doctor but all my grades
sucked.  George has done so much for me.  I was glad to pay back some of it
by helping him find his grandson and Melony.  Still , I do not know if I
can get grades good enough for university - er and then medical school". 
Una continued her massage and lower rib cage with one hand using the other
to rub Jo's neck and collar bone - shoulder muscles.  "I want and Una wants
us to be a medical team of husband wife , but there are so many things that
must happen - er no - there are so many things I must do to attain that. 
When this group laid me out on the kitchen floor with Jos , it was like -
oh well - try any thing with the people you trust.  I recall sleeping or at
least a quietness after the eyelid closings.  Then something connected to
me like never before , something that seemed to know me better than myself.
My glans seemed to be hiding inside it's cover and yet something found it .
At first , I thought of Liam and the wolf by his marker .  It was licking
my - you know the place I avoided all summer.  Since the events in George's
house were all dream like , I was never sure what all happenned there.  I
remembered Jos in the hospital yelling at me to help my friend Theory , and
I did help him.  That was the first time , I ever helped anyone.  Liam
looked after me when my parents left and I never had to help or even want
to help anyone.  I remembered crying and hurting and Jos carrying me into
the shower covered in my sickness and worse and I recalled the night that
Sath came to me and the two space travellers.  They rebuilt my foreskin in
one day .  Awesome , but it took me a month to get used to it being there ,
so much sensitive skin .  Each pee was like making me cum.  Then all of my
life started to line up .  I knew , I wanted Una , as more than a friend
but I had to make her wait , which she was happy with.  I wanted to help
George and when Jac called that night , I knew that was my chance , and I
did it.  It gave me confidence , and so I told George I would become a
doctor.  The full weight of that promise has hit me for the last week. 
That weight was dragging me backwards to my Grandfather's influence
separating me from reality and from my friends and even Una.  Something
pulled me out - relieved that weight , - made me weightless , -bodyless. 
Jos tongue wrapped around my glans.  It told me to complete the loop .  I
put my tongue on Jos , on his - wh - wher - where I thought I would be
lightning-ed by god to death.  I did it because I trust Jos and Una was
holding my body and Jac was steadying me against all that old church stuff.
Lightning and death - NO- weightlessness , like floating in space , like
being underwater in deep blu but not having to breath.  I put my tongue on
Jos and it auto-drilled itself into his skin , wrapped itself around his
glans so tight.  I laid there without moving , nor hearing , nor seeing ,
wanting only to get closer and closer to Jos.  My fingers held his cock so
tight and his fingers held mine tighter , both our tongues now locked
inside because of the expanding glans.  Jos frenulum cut into my tongue
like a thin chord .  No - not hurting but forming a channel of instant
communication .  I felt Jos' fingers tighten as mine tightened but the
harder we squeazed the closer my mind moved into Jos mind.  Awesome
feelings of good.  My brain burrowed inside Jos brain.  I could feel his
mind and I could feel Jen's fingers on his skin , - ahh yeah in my mind I
could feel Jen's fingers on Jos.  Our bodies were soo closely coupled that
my tongue could feel his tongue through a whole meter of boy flesh".  Jes
and Jac and Una and Jen and Jos listened without interruption , their faces
glistening with the wonder in Jo's eyes describing his trance.  "I could
feel the same feeling that Jos felt when Jen did it for him.  I could feel
the good times they had in the clover and I wanted that feeling to happen
to me with Una.  Sooo- bad - I mean good - I wanted it , my glans swelled
so big that Jos could not remove his tongue.  Locked on -- my frenulum
cutting his tongue as his was cutting mine.  Pain but good pain.  We did
not move , don't even think we breathed , my heart and his heart
syncronized to the good vibes and after that I could not feel my heart or
anything except vibrations in my penis.  We were not moving , not breathing
, not even knowing to be alive , when my cock , - i mean his started
pumping.  No thought of right or wrong , or church bull , -- just goodness
, AND his sperm was pumping into my tongue like hot dairy cream , every
pulse a burning envelope of taste and information going straight into my
brain, - er Jos brain.  I was in the meadow by the stream , bright sunlight
burning my skin , a girl was on top of me , did not want to move , hell , I
was locked there by my legs and arms against the green grass my face buried
in Jes , tween her legs , -everything happenning - could not stop it , did
not want to stop it.  Soo- my brain and Jos brain enjoyed the time of their
lives , penises pumping , prostates violinning each other , and then my
dream tranced to even greater levels .  Jos brain disappeared and all his
thoughts left me open to , -what could possibly happen next I was like a
lake freighter unload but now with way too much balast - er it had to be
dumped.  My body was separated from Jos , held rigid against the kitchen
floor and my balls were ordered to perform to produce - to dump that
ballast .  The top of my head felt the pressure of blood purging the old
thoughts out and Una appeared , my good friend - very special precious
friend was there when I needed to dump ball sperm , not the colourless
lubricant , it was already everywhere , but the the real boy stuff .  I had
never felt so good before , my balls seemed to be right inside the glans as
Una landed herself on it.  My mind became with her.  She said -I want you
Jo - I need you Jo as her pelvis aligned the giant pole and closed against
mine.  It was spurting before my glans perforated my foreskin ripping the
end open like a rupturing balloon and then oh my - oh my my mine and her
mind - kept closing together .  I felt Una scream and knew I had hurt her,
but she was not crying at all - laughing like a baby with too much milk ,
her protective barrier split into a thousand pieces of blooded capillaries.
She kept pushing closer , and I was cumming and closer and still more cum ,
until my brain and hers overdosed together on sharing something forever ,
something that we can never do again , but can remember forever.  I felt
our brain pushing me to cum until my balls screamed and crushed under her
weight and she wanted me even bigger and harder and more cum.  We both
looked down from the clouds , could see two million sperm heading for the
goal.  They teamed over one another catapulting their speed , multiplying
the hitting power until the fastest sperm penetrated the goal.  Now Una is
listening to me and wondering if it happenned ".

   Fall: Chapter: 8 : Is there a new baby"?

   Pulling her hand from Jo's underwear , Una wafted her blood and Jo's
sperm past her nose.  "It did happen Jo.  It did.  IT DID.  I'M with baby".

   Jen and Jos and Jes and Jac smiled.  "You might be , but I doubt you can
tell right now.  If the female egg is detached , floating around in space ,
it cannot communicate with you until it attaches to your uterus.  Do you
want to have Jo's baby"?

   Una pulled off Jo's underwear , settled him back on the kitchen floor
blanket , and began to lick herself from Jo's penis.  "Does this answer
your concern"?  Jo shudderred as her tongue revived the pole.  "This
relaxation technique demands attention.  I feel another flood of sperm
about to be despatched".  Jo laid her down under the blanket , licked her
private places like he remebered from the dream .  The boy twins did the
same for the girl twins .  Jos announced the logistics> "Requesting
permission to tongue lick the landing strip" , as three tongues rolled over
the separation folds of skin.  "Preparing for penetration" , as three boys
aligned their bodies to three girl landing strips".  "Ready Jos " ?  "Ready
Jac" ?  Ready Jo"?  "Permission granted".  Three teen boys lowered their
penis to the landing strip and entered slowly , a world of lubricating
fluids , compressed flesh , and - "Ow - Oww ".  Una felt fresh pain as Jo's
new foreskin split itself for the second time against the raw wound where
her hymen grew for sixteen years.  Then all the teens heard the new command
.  "Jo , I want you , love you , NEED you NOW.  Give me the full power.  Jo
licked the tears of pain from her face as his old friend forced into her
body cavity .  Jen and Jes held a hand on each side of Una and squeezed
tight as Jo's performance ramped higher and higher.  His mind now at thirty
thousand feet pumping enough fluid to kill a forest fire, as Una writhed in
another world of rapture.  The rythym of the the three boys intensified as
their girl friends braced for a frenzie .  They whispered to Una that the
best part would come again.  Jos and Jac glanced at Jo between them.  "Just
do what you need to do boy", they signalled to Jo.  Each boy dropped into a
rythym , of slow ups and accelerated downs as their tools glided past the
girls over heated posts.  Frenzie hit the girls first as they moved from
receipt of action to clamping tight orgasmic moaning.  Impossible to stop
the sequence now, the boys dropped into a robotic pedulums never slowing
and getting imperceptibly bigger even as the passages clamped on to their
tool rams.  Deep reddish blushes and dropping tears of sweat , then tears
of joy for all.  Six balls contracted into their pelvic slots as sperm
flooded into stage two.  Their prostates mixed the new life forms with
expanding watery life giving creamy fluid , increasing the delivery
pressure to overcome the total contractions of each girls pelvic muscles.
Ahhh - eeeeelp - sqeeked three female voices overcome with sexual pleasure
, their passage ways contracting into impossible pressure , -unable to stop
the blood engorged boy rams bearing - pistoning now as sweat poured from
every boy gland, foreskins now unable to keep up with the high pressure
friction fall back against the boys balls now positioned into their
protective pelvic gaps, and getting ready to blast .  First the left ball
and then the the right ball detonated in pulsing sequence , next the
prostates pumped the high pressure ejactulate down the urethra and deep ,
deep into the girls under ground convulsing cavities.  Una and Jes and Jen
and Jo and Jac and Jos marvelled at their unique gutteral sounds coming
from deep within each boy as their reproductive engines revved into
overdrive and then finally , complete exhaustion.  The girls laughed at
each other as the boys fell asleep on their breasts .  "We always cum out
ahead" , laughed Jes and Jen as Una grinned.
Fall: Chapter: 9 : The last supper of summer.
A half hour later everyone crowded into the upstairs farmhouse shower
knowing that everyone had to get rinsed quickly .  Just as the last drops
of cum washed away the water turned deep well cold.  "Here cums the cold
water" , yelled Jo as the kids splashed it around sharing the cold and
diving for the exit.  Within minutes the boys were dressed with the girls
complete behind them.  "You know guys , that my parents are home today" ,
whispered Jen and Jes.  "They will want to feed all of you supper , - er
some of that great beef raised on this farm".  Jo and Una argued ," We do

not want to force your parents into feeding us supper ".  "No way" ,
grinned Jen and Jes .  "Wait till you see , who all is invited and did you
know caterers are doing supper".  The twins and Jo and Una walked over to
the new farm house.  They entered the front door , Jo and Una first , "Wow
, Hi George , Melony , and DAD and Mum , and Jos and Jac's parents !".  Jos
and Jac smiled and greeted Aric and Julia and everyone else as they
entered. "Hey gang , everyone , all my friends are here.  We are stayin for
supper for sure." Another car parked on the roadside as the driveway was
full.  Sath and Bill smiled as they entered.

   Jos and Jac's Dad , Mr.  Green seated everyone and then announced the
official closing of summer and the beginning of fall.  He finished with a
special comment.  "There is one boy here who has worked overtime all summer
, has given everything without fail , his entire body and spirit for us. 
He is a boy that , not even I knew anything about until midsummer , and now
look at all of us.  We are all here to honour one boy who simply does not
know "NO".  He has an inner strength that dominates and he is the son I
never knew.  Joseph Green , your mother must be extremely proud of your
accomplishments this summer.  You have brought enjoyment and more to
everyone in this room and you have accomplished this with spirit and
knowledge.  When your goals looked unattainable , you simply made more
friends to help you.  As I pour this wine , I encourage all of you to raise
your glass in honour of the boy of summer , and let's all remember the
times when each of us needed help and Jos was there for us.  Son , er Mr
Green-Coresland , if there is anything that you need for fall , let me
know".  Glasses of wine tinkled and then George stood up and said the same
thing.  Next Jacque stood up and said the same thing and around the table ,
Jen and Jes thanked for help with the calf , and Jo by kissing Jos , and
finally Jos' mother stood up as another bottle of wine drained into the
glasses.  She held the tears as she spoke about trying to help Joshua grow
up and then whispered , "I am the one who grew up instead.  I loved Robert
with all my heart and soul , but I was sacrificing him to a God that does
not exist.  Thenk you , Thank You , Thank You - Joshua for helping me grow
up - for helping me get my life together after thirteen years".  Tears of
happiness tumbled from her face as she kissed her son lightly and then
Robert helped her into a chair.

   Thierry stood up next and made a toast to Jos.  "Thanks for walking
across the road that day and almost getting hit by a pickup truck.  You got
Adrien and me together and we will not forget how that happened".

   A little boy with mint green eyes regarded the comments from his
mother's lap.  "Josyu fund my Granpa an my mummy is so appy.  I don't ave a
daddy .  I can never ave a daddy cause he's dead.  I want a daddi .  He
stared at Joshua as Joshua acknowledged his pain.  His face twitched as the
little boy poured out his pain.  "Young man , I feel your pain " , as Jos
collided with the boy and raised him in his arms for all to see.  "Don't
worry young man , We can and will help you with your daddy.  No power on
this planet can stop us from helping you".  A boy must have a dad and I can
be that dad and Jac can be that dad and Jo can be that dad" - er and I can
be that dad " , mouthed Aric as Julia smiled.  "And I could be that dad ",
laughed Thierry and Adrien.  Jos continued: "And so - you see young man ,
you can ave a dad .  None of us can be your real dad , but each of us will
be your dad.  It's up to you to pick a favourite , and when you understand
more , I know that Joseph can take you to a place called a marker and - er
".  Joseph took Andrew Jr.  from Joshua , held him close as Melony held her
tears.  "Andrew Junior, you have green eyes , similar to mine, and Liam's
and you already know about markers.  As soon as my school classes are going
well , I will take you to find your real daeddi's marker.  We will stay
there a while until we learn about your dad , what he would want , what he
would do .  He has already returned to help ".  Jo glanced sideways to
study Sath , as he hugged the little boy .  "Andrew Jr.  your dad helped me
, and I know we can help him to help you" , as he returned the young boy to
his mother as her tear drops glistened.  "Don't cry mommie - look at all
the dads i can ave".

   Sath stood up , George stood up, All the parents stood up and then all
were standing and joined a hand to form a huge circle around the table with
Melony and Andrew Junior sitting.  Melony fought her tears but stood . 
"Andrew was my prince , he was my life , my living hero , and he left to me
a young human before he knew that he could not stay on this planet.  I
loved Andrew so much , that I thought of ending everything.  You taught me
Joseph.  Somehow , you found me and you taught me about myself.  You did it
because you have been there and you know more than I , about the finality
of ending it all.  I propose another toast to you Joseph and to you Joshua
and to my prince and to Liam where ever they are , from a small earthling
boy and a sad-happy mother - Thanks for finding me".

   At this point the caterers brought in several inch thick steaks.  Within
an hour happyness enveloped the extended family , making a fitting end to
the summer as everyone goodbyed.










Fall: Chapter: 10 : High School Day one .  Round one.
Jac , Jes , Jos and Jen were ready early Monday morning.  Jac and Jes
had studied the school floor plan produced by Jes to make sure they
understood their first room and then noted the position of the class
relative to the general floor plan.  Aric drove them to the high school. 
"This way , we will not be influenced by any incidences that the system may
dish out.  This way , we control our destiny".  Realizing that the school
had a dress code , Jac and Jos wore identicle tee-shirts and pants and

socks and new shoes.  They filed into the first class .  Jos accompanied
Jac to his home room.  Jes and Jen went to their preassigned room.  "Name
one , present Name two , here Name three , Yes" The call of names proceeded
as Jos openned his cell and discretly texted Jen , Jes , Jo , Jac , Robert
: "code words - (1) nej -(2) nejnej - (3) nejnejnej -well it's my gf name
spelled backward , er hope I never have to use it".  -- and so went the
Name announcement and the corresponding confirmation until the teacher
tallied the results and counted the class members.  "Whose name was not
called".  "My name , sir".  "And your name is -"?  "Joshua Coresland " ,
announced Jos , standing at attention.  "Cutie" , echoed a girl from the
front as she turned around to determine the stranger.  "He's gay".  "He's
OKAY".  "Wowie" , bounced another girl from the right side.  "Hot hot hot",
squirmed another girl.  "Please : Class , Order"!  The class quieted
somewhat.  "er You may sit down Mr.  Coresland".  The rest of the class was
rules , expectations and text book announcements and class room schedules ,
interrupted as the classroom audience took discreet notice of the new kid
in school.  The teacher passed Joshua a note at the end of the class
without providing a schedule.  "May I have a class schedule , sir".  "Ohh
Mr Coresland , if you read the note it says ---".  "May I have a class
schedule"?  And then Jos quickly stepped back as Jac approached from the
other side.  "May I have a class schedule , sir"?  The teacher quickly
handed out another schedule to Jac but realized it was the same person as
before and tried to hang on , but Jac quickly spirited the paper away and
into his note book.  "Thanks Sir".  "ure welcome" , responded the teacher
in a low voice.  Thirty kids had watched the exchange , including the two
girls hanging around to meet Jos.  They exited the room slowly and found
themselves outside the room unable to determine which way to go as the main
group had already disappeared.  A couple of other kids , one heavy set and
the other short , also hung around waiting to follow Jos.  "Way to go Jac".
"Right on Jos" , as the two teens high fived.  "Shit , there's two of em" ,
yelled the girl in pink.  "Ahh Joshua Coresland , can you tell us which way
to the next class room , er ne I think 412 for me and Annie"?  Jos took her
paper gently and smiled as he explained her shedule to her ".  Flipping the
paper over non-chalantly he zeroed on 412 quickly and directed her to the
stairs and turn left at the top.  "Better hurray on it , We do not want to
mess on the first day".  She smiled pecked him with a kiss and grabbed her
friend and took off.  The short kid contacted Jos next .  "Joshua" , Do you
know which way to 312.  "Yep , Jac and I goin to 313.  Just follow us men."

   "We got to hurry though".  Jac and Jos rushed along the hall followed by
the two boys , but the heavy boy made his way slower.  Finally reaching 313
, Jac and Jos escorted both boys to 312 , then returned to 313 which they
had passed.  The door was closed , so Jac openned it and entered with Jos
close behind .  Welcome to Bridgeworks High , " The coming school year will
be - er - and uhh interupped by two late students on the first day" , said
the teacher.  "Please take your seats , as marked".  Jac glanced along the
rows one by one.  At the same time a girl in row three motioned him to the
empty seat ahead of her .  A paper on the seat listed Jacque Green.  "Ohh ,
it's your seat Jac" , as Jos grabbed the seat and quickly openned his
notebook smiling".  Jac grabbed an empty seat at the back of row three. 
"As I was saying before the interuption ", continued the teacher " Welcome
to Bridgeworks High .  The coming year will be busy for all of you. 
Unfortunately my text book is not available.  We have only enough for one
third of you." A groan of disgust accompanied the remark.  "Secondly ,
there is an unplanned person in this class".  "Will that person please go
to the vice principal's office".  "It's Ok " , responded Jos , "I will
report to that office at the end of classes".  Several boys noted the shift
, elicited by the response.  "He's cutie" , announced another girl.  "Hot
poker time", whispered another.  "Any girl would make passionate love to
him all day and all night".  "Cutie , cutie , cutie" : echoed the room. 
"Please class , respect on the fist day " , chimed the teacher.  The class
continued as normal and ended with the buzzer.  Everyone was gathering
belongings and exiting .  As the vice principal entered , classroom banter
subsided.  He went directly to the teacher who pointed out Jac giving
directions to another girl on where the next room would be.  As he
approached Jac , Jos stepped in front of him and then offerred another girl
help on the floor plan as Jos quickly exited.  Three girls with the two
asking questions banterred about as the principal missed his chance to
ferret out the newcomer.

   Everyone sped to their third class leaving the vice-pricipal wondering
what happenned.  Jac and Jos were almost first into class three , noting
the seats were not marked , but there appeared to be fewer seats.  "Welcome
to BridgeWork High" wrote Jos on the blackboard , ending with the
ubiquitous smiley face, as they both grabbed seats in the front row.  The
class was a smaller group this time.  "Health for us , and gym for the
other half " , mentioned Jos to a heavy set girl looking for her friend. 
She smiled longingly as Jac looked on.  Everyone took seats and openned
their notebooks , as the teacher began.  "Welcome to BridgeWorks High . 
This class will - er be -".  A last minute arrival burst through the door
and tried to locate a seat.  His face burning with embarassment and too shy
to ask about seating , he stared up and down the rows to locate a place ,
any place where he could get out of the spotlight.  There was none.  The
class titterred at the unexpected twist on the latecomer's face.  First
reddened and then terror .  The small statured red headed boy turned to run
but the door had shut behind him.  Two boys on the right sneered , "Where's
your mummy crybaby"?  A quick flip from an adjacent seat and his notebook
fell to the floor as he turned to face the class.  Tears wetted the front
of his pants.

   "Uhh , here man , take my seat ", commanded Jos , as he shifted into the
isle , grabbing his notebook from the desk , as Jac approached from the
other side and picked up the dropped papers , shuffling them neatly and
putting them on the desk for the late comer."I am Jos and this is Jac". 
"And your name is ---"?  "Ives" , replied a low teary voice.  "faggot". 
"gay" , from the side of the room.  Joshua returned a glare for the lack of
respect.  "Point ?" , replied Jacque.  Jac and Jos returned their attention
to Ives.  They saw a boy not fully grown but likely one year older than
themselves.  Reddish to straw coloured hair , sensitive pale green eyes and
oval face.  The facial muscles appeared sad and without smiles for some
long time.  "Faug"!

   Jac and Jos stared down the two bully's.  The classroom gasped , then
quieted automatically .  The bullies sank into their seats but noted the
new balance of power in the class.

   Jac re-selected his seat.  Jos went to the back farthest from the door ,
pulled a spare chair from the stack and sat on it.





   At the end of the alotted time , "Class , there is no cafeteria service
today and afternoon classes are cancelled , except for the extra person who
is requested to stay here .  As the buzzer marked class time over , two
girls moved close to Jos and then they saw Jac still sitting two isles
across.  "Gee, woowee there's two of them , identical " , motioned the
girls.  The shy boy , late comer remained in his seat as the two boys who
had bullied him continued to stare threats.  Jake muffled his voice
,"Fauggot"!  Rob grinned , "Faggot".  The biggest boy walked around the
back row and past Ives tipping his papers on the floor.  Both of the boys
laughed heartily but determined to leave quickly as Jac bypassed the girl
admirers and got to the door before the second one could exit, and delayed
. Jos approached the big kid from behind as Jac gave him the message,
"Apologize to Ives".  "Ha ha".  The door closed automatically leaving Jac
and Jos staring at the big kid .  Ives stood up at his desk , trying to
make his small frame look bigger beside his desk.  He sat down , then stood
up again and tried to stare at the bullies but soon lost nerve and stared
at his own feet instead.  The two girls began to gather their belongings
and watched the males vie for dominance from the back of the room.  Jac
spoke again monotone like , "Please".  Cornered and separated from his budy
, "Ok I apologize fag" , whispered the assailant.  He bolted for the door
as the vice-principal rushed in the other direction.  Whuump .  The big kid
lost his papers and the vice-principal lost his authority of entry.  "Oh ,
it's you Rob , take better care leaving classrooms ", he barked rushing to
the front of the classroom to locate the teacher .  Jac finished texting
Jes.  As the principal and the teacher assessed step two , how to get one
of them back to Bakker High.  "Please stay in this room you two", hurled
the vice principal.  Jac and Jos showed no emotion and approached Ives . 
"Your name again , ahh I'm Jac Green and my bro here is Jos".  "My name ,
er yeah Ivan , but call me Ives".  Jac and Jos looked the boy up and down
with the possible scottish accent .

   Ivess was shorter than the twins , by a bit.  His slender body
highlighed by the long arms and legs made him look almost as tall as Jac or
Jos.  He seemed unable to stand at ease.  The light green eyes flickered a
bit with facial pain but melted a bit to show a shyness and a tiny grin ,
easy to recognize as friendly.  His complexion was darker than Jos and Jac
with almost a permanent tanned look.  Ivess boyish face was oval and
symetrical and highlighted by a hinted tentative grin hidden under the long
red- brown eyebrows .  The twins scanned his narrow shoulders gangly elbows
and narrow waist.  Ives wrist watch band appeared out of place because of
the long wrists and delicate fingers.  Jos reached forward.  Ivess shied
backwards uncertain , yet wanting , hoping to be accepted.  Jac stepped
behind him bumping his retreat.  Jos took the partially frightened hand
into his and Jac stood solid preventing a retreat.  Ives shoulders dropped
a bit more , but Jos and Jac grinned from ear to ear , breaking into a
school boy smile.  "Pleased to meet you Ives spoke both boys in unison.  Is
this your home --" ?  "That's him ", motioned the teacher as the vice
principal changed direction.  "Is this your home room Ives "?  "Yes , but I
was late because someone took my schedule in the last class".  "Rob ?". 
"Aye ".  "How did you -"?  The vice-principal interupted Jac's conversation
again.  "You are Jos".  "No Sir." Jac looked again at Ives , "If this is
your home room Ives come here about ten minutes before your first class
every day.  Jos and I will work a plan to avoid the big guy".  Ives lips
widened into a grin.  , " Thanks Jos and Jac , this school term is going to
be great " , assembled his papers and left quietly.  The two girls followed
Ives noticing his eyes were teared from the encounter , trying to extract
information from him about the two hotties , Jos and Jac.  The classroom
emptied.  "Mr Vice-Principal , My name is Joshua Green and this is my
brother Jacque Green.  Pleased to be in your school.  The principal smiled
. "Hello Jacque.  It is not as easy as that".  Jos face dropped but only
for an instant as Jac planned his next move.  The principal moved to step
between them but Jos and Jac stayed close .  A cell phone alerter broke the
silence , and Jos grabbed his cell , noting that Jes and Jen were almost
there.  The classroom door burst open again as Jes and Jen entered followed
by two girls and Ives and two more girls.  "Yea , I told you this was their
last class", spoke Ives.  "And they're still here".  "Sweet".  "How hawt
can twin boys get"?  "H'mmmm , steamy".  "Steamy hot hawt haawt"!  "Love at
first delight".  Jen and Jes watched and laughed the effects of their boy
friends on the girls.

   Outside two bullies shared a smoke, then another.  "Made you apologize "
?  , sneered Jake.  "You sucked him off also?".  "NO SHITHOLE".  "Then what
, you never had to apolgize before?".  "Go kill that fag".  "Fuck you ,
then I'l do it myself".  Jake punched Rob , knocking him against a tree
trunk.  "There's two of them".  "TWO OF THEM " , mimed Jake.  "Well then ,
go get Ralph , and I'l meet you there".  "Ralph does not even go to school
, he's nineteen"!  Jake punched Rob again knocking him flat against the
tree trunk: "I said go get Ralph , that's what I meant maggot".  A police
car stopped.  "Everything ok boys"?  , enquired the cop.  "YGFY".  The
officer appeared to nod acceptance and the car moved on along the street as
Rob hurried off to find Ralph.

   "The two unknown girls continued to stare at Jac and Jos .  "They're
doubles , er two cuties".  "I like his butt".  "Bet he carries a load of
juice"!  "Double juices" , grinned the other girl.  "Hot doubles juice". 
Ives returned , waited near the door as though he might leave.  The
principal gave up trying to get between Jac and Jos as the group of girls
closed in around them.  He looked at the teacher hanging around the front
of the class .  The teacher approached the principal and pointed out the
extra boy again , but then motioned "I don't know".  Both teacher and
Vice-Principal went to the front of the classroom to plot a strategy.  "Ok
, as I was saying that boy already is registered at Bakker .  The school
funding formulae will not allow us to take another .  I want --- "
Fall: Chapter: 11 : The bully returns.
Bursting through the classroom door re-appeared Rob and his buddy ,
Jake. They moved toward Jos reeking of smokes , paying no attention to the
two teachers at the other end of the room.  The girls were busy flirting

Jos.  "Cutie".  "Think I like you".  "Do you have a name"?  "Jos" "Think I
like you , mine's Fran".  But Jen noticed the stress in Rob and Jake.  She
remembered them from last year in another classroom and another fight. 
Ralph stormed into the classroom pushing aside Ives, "Get the hell out of
here or I'l kill you too farty faggot".  Jen dialed 911 on her cell and
left the phone on line.  "Well well cutie-fag , were gonna show you how to
puke your guts ".  Jake side stepped , close to Jos pushing aside the girls
and sucker punched him past Fran, in the groin, then the soft belly tissue
and below the rib cage , --then body slammed him into the row of desks,
dropping Jos like a garbage sac into a twenty foot bin.  Girls screamed in
panic.  "Run".

   Jake watched him collapse enjoying the hatred on Rob's face and the
moment of fear stalking the room , "one fag mops the floor".  Jac vaulted
himself over the row of desks catching Jake with his left shoe , a viscious
kick on the side forehead , leaving him unconscious , - his dead weight
draped over , crushing the adjacent desk .  Then Rob and Jac squared off on
either side of a row of desks .  The vice -principal and teacher stunned by
the flare up , rushed forward to split the boys .  Joshua recovered enough
to move.  His struggling body contacted the teacher's feet who fell against
the bully's feet tripping his balance.  Rob recovered , pushed the teacher
aside toward Jac , knocking both out of the way.  Ralph's steel toed boots
crashed into Joshua's back as Jake nailed his groin.  Steel toed boots
kicked Jos from front and back , his body slammed around the isle against
desks and tables ribs snapping , bladder leaking urine , Jos body wrapped
around table legs , unable to pull itself into a protective ball and
kicking continued.  The big teacher pulled himself out of entanglement with
Jac.  Ralph and Jake grinned at each other, "Mission accomplished".  Jen
and Jes rushed to comfort Joshua .  "You ok Jos, oh gawd".  "Nej".  Jen saw
the tongue move "nej" , and then the stream of blood trickle from his lips.
Jac pulled out his cell and dialed 911 , then kicked the desks and tables
back smashing them against each other.  Preparing to deal as Rob struggled
to clear his entangled foot from Jos belt.  Ralph assessed his next victim
. Rob growled with one final kick to Jos but he was already gone dragged
out of there by Jes and Jen and two other girls.  Without warning , Jac
drop kicked Rob's neck even as the principal yelled "STOP IT ".  A
resounding smack shook the room.  His new shoe split at the sole with the
force of contact and an audible crack of bone echoed the walls.  "Oww OOOO
Owww, Fuck it , Jeeseus , God Almighty, blessed trinity , I'm hurt , hurt
bad , ceehrist , fucker , fag " , screamed Rob , as he tried to recover but
could not.  Shoulder hanging loosely at a weird angle .  Fierce pain over
came him destroying his will to make mischief.  Ralph's attention slipped
as Rob crashed against a table in his bid to remain vertical.  Jac ducked
the viscious poke , accosted Ralph fists closed as he approached , striking
their target left and right, but Ralph did not go down.  His broken nose
seemed only to make him stronger.  " Stop that fighting , I am calling the
police" , yelled the vice principal.  "Give up faggot , or I break your
faggoty back".  Jacque smiled sweetly, as Ralph moved in for the kill.  A
wiry boy with fierce green eyes pounced on Ralph from behind diverting his
attention again from Jacque.  "Stop it I say , Stop it NOW" , demanded the
principal.  Ralph elbowed , then punched Ives visciously in the ribs
knocking him to the floor and kicking him twice with the clear crack of a
rib , from the steel toed boot, then returned his attention to Jacque. 
SMACK.  Two feet at the end of spring loaded leg muscles crushed Ralph's
face into his brain.  The momentum fired downward by both of Jac's shoes
blasted his body weight under a school table amidst crushed chairs and
broken tables .  Jacque tumbled into the next isle , his momentum , not
totally absorbed by Ralph's broken nose and crushed cheek bones.  Ives
pulled himself upright to address Jacque ."Guess we showed the--m - huh ".
Jac's ear drum detected a muffled word , "nej nej--".  Leaving Ives - he
rushed to Jos - bent over , keeping a careful eye on Ralph.  "Where is
Jos"? Satisfied that the threat was controlled Jac revisited his twin
brother.

   "Jos ?  --- Jos ?  ---- Oh man , bro , bad news Jos , what the fu"!  Jos
smiled a twisted grin " nej" , ending with coughing blood from his mouth
and face turning blue.  "Jos , Jos hang on , for Jen's sake hang on , we
need you".  BridgeWork High school principal rushed in.  "Principal : Call
an ambulance and a hellcopter , NOW".  "Jen , Pick-Roll him on his face so
his lungs can drain".  "Hey bro , bro don't go yet , stay here , were gonna
stay in this fuck school, both of us , and your gonna be a lawyer some day
and your gonna be a dad and your gonna have baby boys of your own with Jen
,-- Joshua : please hang on....".  Jac pulled his brother's head to one
side , delivered long gentle breaths of air from his own hyperventilating
lungs.  Jen took the next breath pushing life giving oxygen into lungs that
no longer functioned , as Jac wiped the blood from his cheeks...  A dozen
cops burst through the classroom door as Jen and Jes absorbed blood from
Jos' mouth.

   Jac yelled " Bring a goddam doctor and medics - FAST , my brother has
lost consciousness" , neck and body turning blue.  The police stormed Jac ,
taking him down.  Four cops held him immobile swat team knees on his chest.
They called the medics .  But Jac continued to yell , "Call the helicopter
now , or my bro will die".  "Shut up NOW and get down " , yelled a cop. 
Ives stood up straight side-stepping two cops to get to Jos.  A third one
nailed him with a tackle taking him down as he pleaded , "Please , a
helicopter NOW , for Joshua .  Oww fucig--- uumpf" .  The broken rib
ruptured right thru Ives under his arm chest high - "Gaaagg fag goit" . 
Intense pain shocked Ives into collapse as his own blood gushed from a
chest wound caused by the broken rib puncture.  The vice-principal dialed
911 ,"Yes sir the copter is already enroute ".  "Get that kid under control
NOW" , yelled the senior swat team leader".  "Yes sir , yes sir , the
copter is already in the air, -will be in your Bridgework parking lot in
two minutes".  Police are cordonning off the landing area now".  Ives
raised his head - pointed to the window.  "Get down and SHUT-UP." .  "T's
cum Jos .  T's com for YOU" , but Jos no longer heard his new friend's ,
frenzied plea .  Jos body was blue , bright blue eyes wide open motionless.
Principal yelled at the cops , "there's an old landing pad on the roof . 
It still works , Get the helicopter up there" .

   Cops allowed the medics forward with oxygen cannisters , drug trays and
first aid bandages .  Jos needed more, a lot more.  Blood spurted from his
nose and mouth , --breath shallowed.  His oxygen mask fouled with coughed
blood before it was fully applied.  Body could not be stabilized , blood
pressure falling and gurgling respiration .  Two medics strapped the
fifteen year old body to a carrier and contacted emergency trauma room : "
Respiration uncontrolled , blood pressure falling , gurgling blood ,
ruptured lungs , death imminent" .  The vice-principal shocked at the stark
trauma request.  "But he can't die here at this school".

   Paramedics rushed him to the nearby roof elevator shaft and cursed the
creaky , rattling lift rising slowly to the top as mobile radios delivered
continuous streams of information to the far away trauma team.  Finally the
roof door openned .  They rammed the body carrier from the elevator shaft ,
then to the waiting helicopter , unwilling to wait for the giant rotors to
slow.

   Jacque forced himself to relax allowing the three cops to release him a
bit.  He forced a smile , spoke to the top cop wrestling - starring him
down.  "Sir : Let me go , I'm Joshua's twin brother - my name is Jacque
Green." "Let me go , I beg, on the helicopter with Joshua so I can be with
him when he dies".  Jacques bright blue eyes , misted.  He stared past the
cops swat team training , into the place where a cop goes when his own son
is dying.  "Please Sir, Please Mister"?  Both cops released , stunned by
the lucid youth asking for politeness and help.  Jen and Jes spoke to them
, trying to undo the swat team training , "Let Jaque go , so his brother
will not die alone.  The principal , rushed to Jac .  Jen and Jes and Ives
motioned the cops away from Jacque as he grabbed his cell and tried to
catch up with the medics .  The old freight elevator arrived on the roof at
the same time as Jacque traversing the stairs with the principal running
with him openning the stairwell roof door.  They were stowing the body
carrier aboard and locking it to the floor when the blast of high pressure
rotor air was interrupted by Jacque vaulting through the helicopter doors
closing.  Giant engines revving already toward emergency hospital pad
--helicopter roared to full power , catapulted itself high into Toronto air
space, above the high school , above traffic and above Bridgework High
bullies.

   A hundred or so Bridgework High students still on the school grounds
were boxed in by police officers .  They marvelled at the rare site covered
their ear drums as the copter lifted itself from the roof.  Full engine
power to a hundred miles an hour , the rotor tips leaving a sonic crackle
fracturing the sound barrier and young ear drums .

   Aboard the helicopter medics attended Joshua , glancing between the
similarity of the two youths , one in super health as a young student could
be, blushed face tousled blond hair almond eye lashes and the other
identical , but marginally alive floating between death and coma .  "What
happenned boy"?  "Name's Jacque".  "What happened Jacque"?  Bullies ,
called him faggot - vicious pernicious attack on my bro Jos without
warning".  "Medic acknowledged".  Clouds of turbo-fan exhaust followed the
copter as it rose.  "I tried to stop them , if only I had tried harder". 
Birds dived crazily away , as the copter seized air space.  "Jos never hurt
anybody in his life.  He trusted everyone .  Jos did not understand he was
targeted.  They punched him three or four times in the stomach , body
slammed him into a row of school desks , then kicked him from both sides at
the same time with his ribs breaking like match sticks, and poking thru his
chest like knitting needles".  Air waves crakled with terse communication:
"Blood pressure low , respiration gurgles to none".  "Broken ribs -
punctured lungs and punctured chest , - heavy blood loss via the mouth,
-likely severed lung artery".

   Attendant replaced the mask with another to avoid blood running back
into the victims nose.  Oxygen masks provided life giving air to Joshua. 
Vacuum tubes attempted to clear the deep red fluid.  Copter turbo-fans
eased from violent lift to forward speed.

   "The boy will die soon".  "Give the drugs ".  "Heart palpatations -
blood flowing from lungs out his nose ".  "Can't stabilize this boy - how
old is he "?  " - fifteen ", responded a dejected face , why in fuck could
I not stop them".  The medic second-looked the victim and his bro.  "Oh boy
, your identical twins - Fifteen , first day of high school".  "Ok men ,
though we can't keep him alive , we delay his death".  "Pilot new
destination downtown -FAST" "Change destination to downtown"!  "Requesting
permission to change air space".  "New destination , Toronto General". 
"Acknowledged".  "More oxygen"!  "Pain killer"?  "JOS OH MY JOS I'M SORRY ,
I SHOULD HAVE STOPPED THEM".  The chief medic calmed Jacque with a gentle
hand rest on his hand .  "Get those belt restraints on Jacque , rough air
ahead".  Turning to a paramedic: "Rip open more drug packages"!  From the
pilot , "Rapid turn warning".  Abrupt change in air pressure jerked Jac's
ears.  Gravitated and pulled close to the floor , A saftey harness was
wrapped around Jac as the turbines whined out a scream of deflected power.
Jac braced - felt the whirr of the engines , grabbed on to the deck-locked
carrier - accelerate as the helicopter responded to a ninety five degree
turn.  Jos' blood pooled on the cabin floor and then pooled again in
another corner as gravity and centrifugal force raked across the helicopter
, the suns ray spinning from the front to the right hand window.  "To the
Pilot , Sir , Make this ship faster".  "I'm on it sir , - Warning
-Thunderclouds coming off the lake.  This ride will be short -- ruff". 
"Top speed reached , arrival in four minutes ..." Cabin pressure and
lighting dropped as the flying machine challenged a huge black cloud. 
"Three minutes if we go straight though the cloud-".  First medic looked at
Jacque , then Jos-- "MAKE IT THREE MINS SIR" More engine thrust spiked the
occupants back against the safety straps.  "Engine power now at emergency
level - We are going downtown FAST".

   Dark shadows flooded the copter.  Cabin lighting switched on by crew. 
For half a minute the engine scream and cabin vibration drowned out all
talk.  Dark and darker clouds swirled about.  CRACK - ZZZST .  The giant
rotors seemed to stop in mid air as lightning strikes grabbed at one rotor
, then another , bouncing around the ship , throwing two medics flat, but
tethered by harnesses.  Ear splitting roar of thunder attacked the
toughened glass and steel fuselage.  Pungent blue glow of ionized air
permeated the ship but nobody paid attention .  Jacque massaged his
brother's neck and back ignoring the choking-spilling blood.  Joshua heard
nothing - felt nothing as lightning bolts strobed the ship highlighting his
blue deathly face.  Jacque held one hand on his bro's chest and one hand
gripped the deck carrier lock.  "Jos , I know you can still hear me Jos,
cut down on movement , relax every muscle , - Jos save your energy.  I can
feel your heart Jos .  It's beating just like the day Jen un-virgined you,
relax everything".

   The chief medic continued to work on Joshua , clearing the blood as his
lungs flung it out in short gasps.  He marvelled at the boy controlling his
brother's emotions , and noted the drop in heart rate and respiration as
Jacque talked his brother into a state of complete in-action.

   Rotors screamed in triplicate as the ship plunged four hundred feet
inside the hellish black cloud separating Joshua from the hospital trauma
team waiting in the drenching rain below.  Whine of the turbo fans dropped
below pain threshold.  Jacque held to the sled holding his brother ,
muttering "If there is a god , you can give Jos a hand now"!  "The oldest
medic commented , "Ehmen to that - fifteen years old and , same as my son
--- -taking Jac's hand in his pushed the blond hair aside- stared into
desperate blue eyes , "Were gonna keep your bro alive boy except god strike
us all dead".  "Doesn't give a fuck" , blasted Jac , recovering ".  "What's
your name again"?  "Jac".  "Ur twin"?  "Jos" "Ok men - Cut Jos clothes off
, all of them".  "My name is Ben".  "It'l save time on the ground and this
boy has no time left".  "Jacque , your bro needs you.  Not your fault. 
Bullies are everywhere.  Promise me Jacque , be strong for your Bro.  He
knows that you are with him".  A paramedic cut every cloth from Jos leaving
the school coloured clothes in a bloody heap on the cabin floor.  Scream of
the turbofan engine doubled to stop the ships plummet.  Sweet automated
voice: "Two thousand feet and falling".
Jac was forced flat on the floor into his brothers pooled blood by the
rotors tubulent air flow maintaining the ships descent , above the fifty

story down town buildings.  The pilot checked his instruments disbeleiving
barometric pressure ...  er goddam hail - were landing in a hail storm
team--" !  " Automated voice : Fifteen hundred , falling too fast"!  Jac
and Ben glanced at balls of ice ricocheting off the cabin door windows. 
"Hail's gettin bigger"!  "Automated voice : One thousand feet , warning"
Pelting rain and hail greeted the trauma team gathering on the H-PAD
perimeter.  Somewhere above them a giant airborne machine struggled with an
atmosphere that no one cept desperate men and the grim reaper of death have
known.  Ben pulled Jac's fingers aside from the choking blue lungs and
black swelling welts , then taped a small green monitor device to Jos chest
ignoring the broken ribs and bleeding flesh.  A new sound permeated the
ship with the chomp chomp chomp of the air foils and the scream of the
turbofan engine - weird wailing winds of crystals downdrafted past the
cabin windows.  "S'that noise"?  "It's the hail Jacque - the hail stones
wail as the air foils slice them into ice crystals".

   Automated voice: "Four hundred feet , warning - crash imminent".  Pilots
voice : "heavy hail".  "Come on Bro - Stay with us Bro- Your gonna have
three kids with Jen".  Ben put one hand on Jac's .  "Jac - there is no
better trauma team in Canada- you'll see".  Automated voice : "Three
hundred feet".  Pilot: "Hell Hail".  Wailing wine of chopped ice increased
as the giant bird dropped from the sky.  Automated voice : "Two hundred
feet - ground warning - too fast".  From the trauma team , "Were ready Ben
, get that kid to us , fast".  Automated voice: " One hundred feet too fast
- crash iminent".  Experienced pilot treadled the chopper controls
disrupting the giant falling bird to ease into land.  Gravity and rotor's
breaking violent air slammed the riders against the cabin deck.  This time
Ben's chest soaked up Jos pooled blood.  "The team already knows whispered
Jac"?  "Yes".  " Hell - his eyes just opened and closed , this kid is
fightin - get another mask - this ones fouled with blood".  Another
bloodied mask tossed on the cabin floor, long eye brows separated along the
bluish eyelids and two blue eyes stared into the medics face , blinked . 
"neyyyyy".  "Fuck , hes fightin , Jos , JOHHSS ".  Jac grabbed his
brother's fingers , stared into the blue irises.  "BRO - Hold on BRO - love
yuh , Jen loves yuh , but relax , we are near the hospital , relax Jos". 
Jac felt the limpness arrive in his fingers again , he saw pain , and he
felt Jos' pain, a stabbing everywhere two thousand year old white pain of
hatred beating.  "Rip open more of those packages"!  "More pain shots"
"Fifty feet and landing-- " The deathly blue stare of unconscious eyes
returned.  Another shock of air vibrated the ship as the ground blast
stabilized the hovering monster and rotor angles dropped the lift pressure.
Automated voice : "Twenty five" "Pilot to trauma team - five secs .  Danger
zone - lightning imminent -" Cat-eye sized hail pelting the helicopter ,
and ricocheting in the downwash .  Automated voice : "Five feet , landing
normal".

   Cloud to cloud and cloud to ground lightning scavenged the area
following the trail of ionized air from the turbo fans.  THWACK -A
THUNDEROUS roar of lightning zapped the air ship - dissipated into the
grounded channels under the H-Pad.  The pilot-copter shifted - jumped -
re-aligned and dropped solidly to the pad.  Automated voice : "Landed". 
Pilot: "PERFECT - LANDED - WELCOME ABOARD".



   Jen and Jes stunned in room 213 in the pool of Jos' blood .  Ives
snuffled , tried to talk - .  "I knew him for three hours.  I knew he would
stop the violence from these bullies".  Other girls cringed along the
sidelines unable to leave as the school lock down took effect.  "They're so
cute.  Two of them.  They must be twins.  One wasn't even paying attention
to the bullies.  They sneaked right up and suckered him!  The other one
would have killed those bullies if the stupid cops had not stopped him. 
Instead they ignored the bullies and attacked the cute one.  They should
have called the medic first , --- wasted a whole minute on taking down a
kid defending his brother.  This just stinks so bad , I could puke".

   "Huuu ahh - whats err are you the dead boys girl f- friend"?  Jen
fainted to the floor as Jess held her .  Ives rushed to catch her fall . 
His broken rib shifted to unbearable pain and he crashed to the floor
afraid to breath but forcing small breaths of fresh air.  Two more medics
appeared to attend Ives , with another carrier -quickly attached his body
to the carrier and radioed information to another ambulance already
arriving outside.

   "Yeah , the boys were twins , and Jen and I (Jess) are twins".  "Oaww my
, I am so ssooo sorry , - I'm Fran and this is Mallory.  Those brutes Jake
and Rob in the same grade for three years - terrorized this school for
three years - should be graduated out of here by now".  "Ralph is a
newcomer , doesn't even go to this school , brought here to help the
bullies - Guess?".  "What happened to them"?

   "Rob was taken to hospital under police guard , suspected broken collar.
Jake with the head kick had more paramedics attending his brain concussion.
I dunn know where they took him - hope they dropped him in Hell , cause
that's what he did to us".  "And the other bully?".  "Ralph , who the fuc
cares?"!

   Jen stirred as Jes pulled her to sitting.  "Lets call my parents and
Aric and Julia - I am tired of this place".  Nobody can leave until we are
finished " , yelled a lady cop as Jen and Jes stumbled for the door
followed by Fran and Mallory.  "How the fuc are you , snot face " , shot
back Jes.  "Let me out of here now or we call the cops - I've done nothing
except attend school".  "I am the cops".  "Then I'll call my parents". 
"Fine".  "They'l save us from you pigs." "Two more officers restrained Jen
and Jes." Fran and Mallory stepped in for the defence ,"Where in hell of
shit bin have you pigs been while those thugs terrorized this school , and
why now is it so important to throttle us students for being here - Let us
go now fuccers".  The cops took down Jes and Jen , but Mallory and Fran
joined in the fray .  "Let us go now - pigs".  Jes moaned with the wait of
three knees on her chest" "Oh shit , fuc ,horse piss , why did they have to
sack Joshua , WHY WHY , he trusted everyone , he didn't even see them
coming .  Joshua - josh - Jos , please hang in there for me , where ever
you are as a tazor stung through her school vest.  Jess colapsed under the
cops , biting her tongue and shedding urine as the tazor destroyed her
ability to function.

   Jess and Jen's parents arrived an hour later but were held outside the
school by armed cops.  No amount of argument would allow them entry as the
sun set.  The crowd of worried parents could only wait behind police lines
as the moon rose.  Jes sat on the floor in her soiled school uniform with
Jen .  Mallory and Fran were taken to another room for questioning.

   Police finished questioning at ten o'clock in the night , releasing the
students one by one to their parents.  BridgeWork High remained closed for
the next two days with the tentative plan to re-open on Thursday.


Fall: Chapter: 12 Jill and Robert visit Jill's Parents
Jill and Robert took a long weekend from work.  On the back to school
Monday they were driving three hours out of Toronto toward Jill's parents
house.  A leisurely greeting was taking place with Jill's parents.  They
discussed the immense distance placed between Jill and Robert and between
Jill and her parents who last saw their grandchildren Jacque and Joshua as

two year olds.  "Someday , I would like to meet my gran boys again",
lamented Jill's father.  "Life is too short for all of us and I am calling
quits to all the religious dogma separating us like refugees without
passports in a third world country".  Jill's mother was in agreement ,when
Robert's cell located a cell tower in western Ontario.  Immediately a call
found them from BridgeWork High School secretary.  Ring.  Ring.  "OK - er
Nobody knows where we are except Jac and Jos and Jen and Jes".  Ring. 
Ring. Ring.  "My business message taker will get that" "It's true moaned
Jill , We have been corralled into small pastures by the force of an
organized God, who cares nothing about family and friends , nor wives and
husbands.  I hope that ---" Ring.  Ring.  Ring.  Ring.  Robert finally
located his cell and pressed talk.  "Mr Green we have an important event
for you".  "Please call the principal of Bridgework High School at blah
blah blah blah bla --- as soon as you get this message.  Robert put the
cell on speaker phone and let the message continue again for Jill and her
parents.  "It's their first day at the new high school , so perhaps there
are some decisions required by us , although I made it very clear to my
sons that they are the destiny of their own lives , and that the decisions
they made would be supported by me.  ---- " Ring.  Ring.  Ring.  "Everyday
is like this in my business " stated Robert.  "I was hoping for a quiet
visit with you folks to get to know what makes you two and Jill special to
me".  Ring.  Ring.  Ring.  "Can't even use this thing because of the
incoming ringing, Jill may I use your cell to call that number and
principal what's his face"?  Jill searched out her cell and was just about
to hand it over when Ring.  Ring.  Ring.  She handed it to Robert anyway.
Both of them plus Jill's parents listened to the same message again and
again.  "This is definitely headed into a black week".  Robert stuffed both
phones under a pillow and asked Jill's parents if he could make a phone
call.  "Sure , Please DO .  It's the first time Robert , you have asked us
for anything".  "When you are acused of being gay in this country , you
don't have any friends to ask help from ---".  Robert placed the call as he
responded , "Yes for sure the chasm between us was ten miles wide and then
it became ten thousand while my son and I put in thirteen years without
Jill and Joshua".

   The residential phone quickly located BridgeWork High principal.  "Hello
, this is principal Kinner".  "Robert Green here".  "Oh err , ahh Mr. 
Green there was a fight this morning at our school and your son was taken
to hospital".

   "What the fu , kind of fight "?  "Yes , it was actually not your son but
a twin of your son .  Your son stated he was a twin and that he intended to
attend our school".  "What the - what hospital "?  "We think the ambulance
was redirected to a downtown facility and should be there before now". 
"Why would they do that ?  The down town traffic would be at least an hours
ride".  "No Robert , the ambulance was air transport".  "KEEEERIST"! 
Robert's face bypassed surprise , changed instantly to grave concern.  Jill
and her parents picked up the severity in Robert's voice.  "What the fuc
happened there"?  Jill and Robert and Jill's parents gravitated the call
intensity and meaning.  "AIR AMBULANCE - Why !?".  "I am going with you",
yelled Jill's parents.  "Christ , what have they done to my grand son"? 
Robert and Jill grabbed their ringing cell phones as her parents piled into
the car , hardly waiting to lock the doors.  "I am so sorry for all this
religious crap".  "Just forget it " , stated Robert , "We have a three hour
drive and then some".  Jill's mother cryed.  " I am so afraid for that boy
, er I wish I had got to know him Jill".  Jill sobbed , "I hope you still
get to know him".

   Fall" Chapter: 13 : The Emergency Room

   Hail pelted the H-pad.  Rain challenged the landing.  Staggering trauma
team members climbed on the helicopter before it touched ground.  Scurrying
, clutching in hail and rain , trying to catch the machine as it pivoted in
the final turbulance.  Flinging the doors wide-- as overhead rotors
shredded the globs of hail.  They pulled the carrier with Jos body in to
wheeled mode , cut across grass and bouncing over curbs , leaving a path of
wheel tracks and blood in the fresh hail , through the automatic doors
before fully opened, - the small green monitor voiced it's own concern
three quick beeps and then : "heart failure - heart failure imminent "-
There's no time , straight to emergency trauma room one - red lights
warning all bystanders to get aside or be tromped.  Security staff rushed
ahead pushing aside bystanders huddled from the hail under the emergency
ramp roof.

   Sath had just finished her shift .  Unease shuffled her body , the
copter noise , the storm - hail , flashing lights on the H-pad - lashing
rain, lightning ?  And she returned to the OR as out patients and
bystanders huddled under the emergency awning were being shoved aside by
security staff. .  "Why am I going back to OR?  OH eeek ---- eyes spotted a
blonde haired blue eyed corpse shielded from the hail by another identicle
boy , his body laced with hail stones , his chest stained by blood--- it's
got to be my Joshua " , screamed her mind.  Two men with a doctor leaning
over , --- limp blue blond blood soaked angel in body bore past the second
set of automatic doors.  "Fortunes - I loved him " , she cried , " The only
boy I ever loved .  Damm to hell , Why , Why did this happen , he trusted
the whole world.  Joshua would not hurt a spider.  And I loved him , oh
hell , if only -- " .  Sath and Jac were stopped by the OR doors slamming .
Sath grabbed Jac's hand - "We cannot help your brother right now" , led him
with her through a private stairwell to a small observation deck high over
the OR.  The body was unstrapped and thrown-gentle-dropped on the OR table
. A dozen hospital gowns rushed forward .  Cuts and incisions split the
carcass open as the little box on his chest beeped ominously.  Jac gasped
as the new pain numbed his senses".  A team of technicians attached
electronics.  Chirping electronics yelled for help.  "Warning - warning
heart failure".  "Warning - warning heart failure".

   Jac eyes closed in terror as his identicle twin body felt the raw
intrusions of knives and scissors and bone saws, - succumbed to the trauma
unit .  Spurts of Joshua's blood lapped the sterile walls.  Films of
Joshua's blood spread over the table.  Sath pulled Jac's hand to hers.  "I
loved him too Jac , he was so - just so - so innocent , trusting , -- tell
me what happened --- please ".  Spreader clamps jerked open the bloody cuts
on the chest cavity.  White pain tidal waved through Jac as his brother
flinched-out to the assault of knives and saws.  Jac's head dropped into
his knees , but Sath pulled his head upright.  Slight colour returned to
the corpse as a skilled hand massaged Jos heart coaxing it to beat one more
time - "at least his heart is undamaged".  "Bastards could not kick it
dead"!  Jac stared : "Sath , I can't , I can't watch , help me Sath ".  She
put her fingers on his ears and over his eyes , used her sleeve to soak up
the eye water oozing from closed lids and running down the long eye lashes.
"You can watch Jac , You can - , and I will watch with you , We can be with
Joshua and we will NOT give up ".  Sath studied Jac's face , She felt Jos
raw pain and knew that Jac was feeling the pain of the knives and spreader
clamps on his bro's body , watching Jos.  "Listen Jac , listen , s'no time
for anesthetics to work.  They have to cut Jos open now." Tubes , machines
, computers , chemicals , electronic sounds replaced the rasping breathing
sounds from Jos' rib cage.  "Jac , hold my hands and watch".  "We will
watch to the end , regardless.  That is all we can do".  Jac and Sath
shared Jos' pain together , watched together from high above.  Huddles of
surgeons surrounded the carcass mostly signalling with fingers and hands ,
often underscoring the gravity with a "Not sure - or can't hurt", and
sometimes a nod.  Seconds passed , "Respiration unstable".  Minutes passed.
"Keep squeezing his heart muscle".  "Blood bypass unit - is it ready?". 
"Heart failing - a a again".  "Need ten pints now".

   Bill appeared and George and Melony arrived in a private waiting room
,watched on closed circuit , unable to help as split second decisions
turned into minutes , and minutes grew into hours.  "Cracked ribs -
interior organ damage and broken ribs perforating the outer chest wall". 
"Two critically broken ribs - the ends are razor sharp --", "Ruptured
spleen" .  "Ruptured - lungs cavity - ".  "Groin trauma".  "If he gets any
blood pressure it will leak through into his left lung punctured by the
razor end of the broken rib".  "The right lung has blood also".  "Here it
is broken rib has punctured that artery , then stabbed right though into
the lungs cavity".  "Get the heart specialists - We'll stop his heart
before it quits ?  More doctors appeared in OR.  "The heart-lung machine
finally connected".  "Temp clamps in place".  "Spreaders over here"!  "No
that hole is wrong place - Cut another one here where that broken rib
penetrates".  Sath answered her cell , listened intently as a long red
snake of blood streamed through the transparent hoses from Jos chest. 
"Bill , yes this is the boy who saved his twin three months ago".  "George
, Yes this is the boy that located your son's girl friend and your grandson
- it's Joshua for sure.  Beaten by school bullies".  "Ohh Bill , I am so
terrified here .  Jac is with me, --Yes , I love this one too , Heh hees,
he's the only boy I ever loved ".  "I know ", replied Bill.  "Everyone who
sees those twins loves them".  "Some of the staff remember him helping out
after the boys lungs were poisoned in the pool fire".

   "Er , did you say the waiting rooms are filling up with his friends". 
"I can't talk anymore - timeout".  "Sath , Joshua has more friends coming
from his new high school.  He was only there for three classes , but I
heard a quarter of the student population is demanding info".  "They know
he was on the chopper".  "The hospital telephone operator is getting
hundreds of calls".  "Bill Jac and I need to be alone".  Sath pressed end".
Bill called hospital security to alert them of Joshua's new friends and
asked security to direct his closest friends to the his private room.  Sath
and Jacque held each other staring intently at the process below.  Pools of
blood and bloodied instruments spread across the tables .  Piles of red
soaked tissue clung to the floor and stainless tables.  Splotches of
escaped blood fired at weird angles gave proof to the power yet stored in
Joshua's heart.  "Nothing is pretty about trauma specialists" , ventured
Jac.  "It's true" , whispered Sath , " and Jac" .  She steadied herself
looking into Jac's face.  The trauma team knows you and I are here .  They
know that this body is your twin and that Jos is more special than all the
other two million people in this city.  While the helicopter was bringing
you and Jos , the attending medics were on open mic.  The trauma experts
already knew what happenned -er what you told the medic, to Ben before the
hellicopter landed.  Una and Joseph are waiting in the corridor , having
gotten the news from Aric and Julia in the waiting room".  "Colapsed and
ruptured lung".  "Stop this blood hemorage somehow--- " .  "Got it" "More
tranfusions".

   Out of town the weather seemed clear.  "A huge black cloud overhangs
downtown", as Robert and Jill entered the big city traffic.

   Then Aric and Julia with Jen and Jes and their parents raced through the
hospital information centre..  The vice-principal appeared at three AM . 
Ives , ribs taped appeared with his parents.  A constant stream of people
were arriving .  Students from BridgeWork , Joseph and Una and his parents.
Hospital security called in more off-shift workers.  A constant movement of
doctors , technicians , care people moved around and through OR.  No one
volunteered a word on Jos' condition.  There was no time for hypothesis ,
no time for analysis.  The sequence of events were re-actions to every
wheeze and cough emitted by Joshua's body and the cyborg like machines
attached to it.

   No word , no news on Jos.  Waiting rooms were filled.  Pieces of
conversation stuck in peoples minds: "His first day in his new high
school". "He wanted to go there".  "It was not his high school"?  "This is
the school he wanted"?  "That place is a bullyland disaster." "They have
two bullies now repeating their third year in the same grade , names are
Jake and Rob"..  "The bullies are cousins , related to somebody , a big wig
in the health care who runs a hospital".  "Oh my god , I heard , the cute
one was dead".  " -er no they have him in OR".  "Well then , where is the
other cute one"?  "Hell , There were three attackers".  "Where is the other
twin"?  "The helicopter landed on the roof of our school"!

   "I dunnknow, lets find Ives , he seems to know what happenned".  "Ives
was taken to another hospital by ambulance , I saw them carry him out". 
"What happened to Ives" ?  "Who is Ives"?  "He's that really shy kid , the
bullies hated him".  "Last year they put Ives in hospital for a day with a
pelvic hernia".  "When Ives re-appeared in school , last year they called
him fauggo".  "Ives had broken ribs sticking out of his chest .  I saw them
break when the cops threw him to the floor".  Rumours invented themselves
among the students from BridgeWork trying to understand how their school
was suddenly a horror story in reality , a dirty place on the evening news.

   Tears dribbed from Sath.  Jac hugged her.  Jac's eyes watered , and Sath
hugged him.  Joshua's body turned blue again.  More drugs injected.  More
blood trans.  Hours passed as a frantic Robert and Jill motored into down
town with Jill's parents hoping against all the odds that the helicoptor
had got there in time.

   Jos body was cooled and cooled below normal .  Heart specialists
appeared from Ottawa to repair the artery punctured by the end of a razor
sharp rib bone .  Thirty six pints of blood and OR continued.  And no news
on Jos.  Lung specialists sewed and glued a gaping hole in the left lung
tissue .  Then they taped the sharp ends of broken ribs , "we'l reset them
if he lives?  ".  Joshua's blood continued to leak on to the table and
pooled on the floor with the new transfusions -.  The door behind Sath
openned abruptly.

   Doctors located Jac and Sath and brought them downstairs into the OR. 
"Someone called Julia insisted that Jacque be allowed beside the OR with
Joshua".  "We don't know what else to do anyway ---, the body is on
multiple life support right now" "How, What"?  " -er yes sir they are
respiration , circulation and temperature".  Sath took Jac to an air lock
room , stripped off all his clothes, doused him and herself through a
shower , then sprayed antiseptic .  She dressed herself and him in anti
viral- germ free garb and entered the room with Jos.  "Left lung is
collapsed and right lung ahh - partial function.  "This boy is technically
d--e--a--".  "No yelled Jac , S' alive , I caan feel him." Two doctors
stared down Jac : "Take the boy out of here - no ?" "The boy's his twin ,
leave him here".  "I can feel my bro's pain --- means HE'S ALIVE".  "The
spleen is leaking every time we try to stabilize pressure.  "He's a
fighter"!  "Like fuc - Snot a fighter" , yelled Jac , "I mean he is a
fighter but he didn't start it".  "Remove the spleen" , "No yelled Jacque".
"Decisions must be made now." "The boy will die if we leave his damaged
spleen".  "One of the broken ribs punctured it each time the body was
kicked".  "My bro will not die , not with this much pain...  " Jac called
his parents and the Greens conference was No.  Jos will survive with his
spleen.  Nothing is to be removed.  A gynecologist appeared next. 
"Swelling of both testicles is severe".  "Jacque stared down the head
doctor .  Nothing is to be removed".  "They will only get worse and your
brother will have immense pain ".  Jacque glared at them - eyes defiant -
face resolute.  "The epididymal structures will perforate as the swelling
increases in the testicles.  Your bro could die as a results of the
additional pain".

   "Jos can handle pain , I can share his pain .  He can't handle NO
BALLs". "We can give him hormones for the rest of his life".  "Jos girl
friend needs him , as a real boy , not some eunuch sheep".  "We can recover
some sperm before the orchiectomy".  "No, I SAY NOOO NOOO NOOO, my twin bro
was born identicle to me , that fact stays untill we die".  "Your bro can
die of infection young man".  "My bro will die in old age with his
grand-children at his side.".  "The doctors consulted again : "Get the
cheif gynecologist .  This boy will need another four hours .  Fourteen
hours later the wounds were closed.  The OR clean-up crew moved in behind
as Jos and a hundred tubes and machines shifted - moved into a critical
care stage room.  Security identified four more people entering the
hospital.  "This way Robert and Jill".  "Jill , your parents must wait in
the general waiting room".  "Your separating us to inform that my son is d
-de -dea -ead".  "Uhh no nooOOOOHHH".  "AWWW god , WHAT have you done to my
baby "?  "Ma-aam"?  "Then what".  " We have no info on that at all Jill ,
but your parents must stay in there , and you will come with us".
Fall: Chapter: 14 , Waiting for life signs



   Jill and Robert left Jill's parents and followed security to CC.  The
waiting rooms were filled.  Security determined Jill's parents to go to
Bill's office.

   Security took Aric and Julia to Bill's private office.  Julia spoke
first , "We loved those twins.  First Jos appeared early summer.  Somehow
he became my twin sisters boy friend.  Then Jac appeared and everything ,
every fact , every smile , every action from those two boys has made me see
a world of boy wonder , a world unfolding as it should ".  Aric continued ,
"They are fun to be with and fun to talk .  Their optimism infects us. 
They carry an aura of innocence ".  Bill listened , added " Joshua projects
a good feeling into everyone who sees him.  He touches you with out
realizing his power.  " "Then this happens , there truly are some sick
people amongst us."

   After many hours in lockdown and questionning a few BridgeWork High
students managed to get into the general hospital.

   Parents came searching for their high schoolers.  Robert heard them
arguing in the halls : "Come on home son , you only knew him for half a
day".  Ives stared at his feet.  "Noah Dad , Someone was gonna break the
spell of terror imposed by Rob and Jake .  I don't care what they say - I
want to be here with Jacque and his friend who wanted to go to my school."
Robert stopped - "Jill listen.  They are talking about your son .  He has
made a lot of friends at BridgeWork High".

   Jill stared at the forlorn parents appealing to their son his ribs taped
, visible pain racking his face , sunken green eyes , wispy red body hair
cut too short to hide the blackened swollen skin around the left eye.  Er
hi , it's - I mean , I am Jill Coresland , mother of the boy who was
beaten. His name is Joshua and I love him".  "It's a pleasure to ---". 
Ives grimaced with pain , then stood his ground , "Misses Coresland , I am
deeply sorry about the tragedy of your son Joshua .  I am Ives Smith ,
normally a very shy kid , b-b-bu bullied for two years by Rob and Jake. 
When Jacque - er I mean Joshua came to my school he showed me what bravery
means , --- He respected me for what I am , a shy weakling kid with no
desire to harm a fly.  Joshua did not like what Jake and Rob did to me, and
he challenged them.  Nobody in my world has ever stepped forward for me
before.  I will stay here forever , until Joshua gets better".  "But you
can't mean that ", as Ives dad stepped forward.  "YES I CAN dad , I can do
what I need to do for Joshua.  In five minutes Johua showed me how I should
be and what I should be , and I intend to become the person that Joshua
entrusted me to be".  "Son , there are big dangers in fighting bullies". 
"I know that Dad , That's why I have no friends That's why the students
travel in groups of three or more.  Anybody who ever talked to me in high
school was threatened with death".  "Son , what if they come after you?"
"Sorry Dad , but a boy , er a man has to take a stand for a friend and I
have been without one for a long long time.  ".  "Son"?  "If Joshua dies ,
then I will--- ".

   Jill put her arms around Ives .  "Ives , I've not seen him yet , but I
know he will need all the friends he has ever made --- plus.  Thank You
Ives".  "Thanks Ives".  Jill and Robert stepped into a preparation room for
a visit to CC.

   On the streets , police gathered at strategic corners to assist people
finding parking.  Rest of the city rushed about normal business unwilling
to know about another beating.



   Fall: Chapter: 15: Moving Joshua to Critical Care.

   Sath and Jac knew they were preparing to move Jos.

   They waited with Jac dressed in hospital garb in the super clean room.
The body had colour again as Sath attended the critical transfer from OR to
CC.  "Critical Care can end in death even after so much work".  Sath
searched the faces of the remaining doctors and nurses.  "Chances?" No eye
contact.  "Chances?".  No eye contact.  As the last doctor moved aside
letting the body into the hall , she detected a bit of eye contact as did
Jacque.  "Please mister gynecologist , let me know how much time - what
chance of survival - ODDS"?  He stopped and looked directly at Sath , then
stared into Jacque's eyes.  "Sath , please introduce your friend ".  "Oh hh
- I'm sorry ", whispered Sath.  "Sometimes the days and nights blurr." "Er
- my friend is identical twin of the boy you fixed .  His name is Jacque
Green".  " You are a beautiful boy Jacque as is your brother .  This
hospital has delayed his death.  It may happen at any time.  The boy is
hurting , as you know , -on three life support systems.  You are the same
as him , but you have a whole long life ahead.  Stay with your twin brother
no matter what.  He will know that you are with him." "But ".  "Jacque as
Sath knows , I do not deal cards nor gamble with life .  I assure you that
everthing we did for your brother was the best that could be done.  There
are no predictions on ODDS and chances.  As I stated - Stay with Jos no
matter what.  There are many things that medicine cannot do.  And I know
you have seen what care , respect and love for your brother accomplished
when you had the pool accident".  "But ---- how did you know abo-"? 
"Jacque , the doctors talk to pass the time in OR.  We know Jos story , and
we know what Jos means to everyone he touches.  Jos is a one in a million ,
a ray of golden light , he is more than a teen idol , because Joshua lives
and practices above that level , and everything in between.  Joshua can do
no harm.  Joshua does not give up on what he wants.  This event has been
the most disturbing of my entire career , but nobody in that room gave up ,
though he was dead on arrival".  The eyes glistened , unfocused and
dissappeared as Joshua's body took up residence in critical care.

   At six in the morning Sath tried to start a new shift , but decided to
go home and rest.  Jac stayed with his bro , honouring the doctors words on
infections but holding identical limp hands in his .  Dozing and closing
his eyes , because of visual pain , his fingers moved along the wrists
noting the pulsing arteries and veins in his bro's bicepts , contacted the
smooth fleshy muscles on his shoulders and across the collar bones toward
the damage zone.  Eyes tight , -shut , blindly touching , two tiny nipples
, surveying , two or no - three textures of tape , metal clamps - holding
Jos' ribs in place , dozens of stitches in assorted locations across his
left and right rib cages.  Moving ever slower fingers located the holes
occupied by drainage tubes and monitors , the anchor points of the wires
and tubes sewn to taut tortured skin.  "Life lines of tubing exiting his
body carrying away excess fluids to drainage shoots ".

   Again Jac felt the increasing pain of his brother's condition.  His eyes
cried but Jac sealed them tight , no tears escaped.  "Jos will never see me
cry , never hear me cry.  I will be his rock.  I will be his anchor until
he frees himself .  I AM A ROCK for you BRO".  Defiance of his bro's
impending condition released courage , needed to control emotion and to
help his brother , -- to absorb pain of swelling organs and fractured bones
, and open wounds , of clotting blood and internal organ stress.  The pads
of Jacques's fingers burned with pain now , sucking it away from the
bruised beaten flesh of his brother.  His hands could not see what lie
ahead.  The eyes refused to look.  They simply explored and sent back the
brutal details.  But Jac's mind gathered strength : "My bro was beaten by
steel toed boots and faggot haters - FAGGOT HATERS - GO TO YOUR HELL of
HELLS".  A light tremor passed through Jos .  Jacque twitched with the
increased pain sparked by his bro's involuntary movement.  "No bro , NOPE
your not leaving me here alone on this planet".  His right hand deviated to
the carotid artery , checking for the life line of sustaining pressure
pulses under the oxygen mask , then returned to what used to be Jos' six
pack of lower chest muscles.  A nurse rushed into the room as the array of
alarms audited the process of Jos' life.  Jacque openned his eyes to
question her presence .  "Thanks nurse er - My bro is s'ok".  "I wish that
you could help my other patients in CC".  She retreated as another emegency
in another room unfolded.  Jacque's eyes glimpsed the savage bruises on his
bro's lower chest and then his eyes welded shut again as the exploration
continued.

   Hands finished with the six pack area .  They hovered gently on the
bruises below Jos navel , detecting the slim remains of the pubic hair ,
shaved away by the trauma team , and then - "Christ oh KEERIIST" - His
fingers detected the pears that used to be Jos balls.  "They'r huge ,
swollenn globs".  Jac's mind rebelled , -openned his eyes and levelled his
head over Jos pelvis.  "Ohhh awww faggot haters - why , Why - WHY did you
do this to my bro"?  Tears forced thru the tightened eyelids and dripped on
Jos.  His face contacted Jos' pelvis and cried , and cried until forced to
withdraw to his upper chest.  "I will never leave you bro , - never- YOU
HEAR - NEVER ".Then the survey began again the finger pads now moving
through an ocean of tears , advancing this time without stops across the
bruised groin , over the exploded testicles , counting the drainage tubes
drilled into his testicles, and across the ridges of broken skin and kicked
in cartilage.  His fingers retreated from toe to chin , crossing over the
battle field one more time , of destroyed flesh to the undefeated beating
heart of his brother.  "I hear your heart bro , I see your heart , and I
feel it beating - the BASTARDS COULD NOT STOP THAT AND NOW it will
regenerate your body Joshua.  You will be like you were when I meant you
after thirteen years of exile.  You will be better than that.  All flesh
will be rejuvenated and you will be BETTER.  AND YOU WILL GET BETTER AND
BETTER.  JOSHUA , I WILL TEACH YOU TO FIGHT LIKE NO MAN HAS EVER FOUGHT FOR
HIS LIFE AND ---- " -tears subsided now -whispered - "I will walk out of
here WITH YOU BRO".

   Eyes steeled straight ahead , emotion locked out , Jacque opened his
eyes and tossed off Jos cover sheet.  "I am going to study every inch of
you Jos , every broken rib , every bruise and every drain tube and every
testicle and after my eyes accustom themselves to your body, I am going to
be your ROCK and I am going to seek all the pain you can share with me. 
Give me your pain Bro , before it overwhelms .  I can take it ".



   More people arrived outside the CC room.  Thierry and Adrien and two
more girls from BridgeWork High , who had watched Jac defend Ives and then
his brother.  "Jos did not even see the punch".  "They preplanned this to
beat up the newcomers , cause they thought he was gay.  " "Jake and Rob -
they still lost - haff brained idiots".  "Hey curls , did you see what
happened to Jos" , asked Thierry.  "Is Jos your friend".  "Jos is more than
that to me" , expressed Thierry.  "What's your name "?  "Thierry". 
"Yours"? "Fran"?  "Thanks Curls - er Fran , and this is my best bud
Adrien". "And this is my girl friend Mallory".  "We were in the classroom
at BridgeWorks when these idiot bullies Jake , Rob and Ralph burst in. 
They beat Joshua Coresland senseless before he even knew what hit im". 
Thierry and Adrien moved close to Fran.  "CHEEESUS , Joshua is the most
trusting kid in To".  "And then"?  "This other guy looks identicle to
Joshua - Keerist - He kicked Jake in the head and knocked him out".  "YEAH
YEAU , thats my buddy Jacque".  "Then Rob and Ralph started kicking Jos
until two twins girls dragged him out of there.  Then Rob went after Jacque
, but SMASH --- Jacque dropped kicked him into hell , broke his collar bone
- it did - I heard it snap like a wooden pencil ".  "For fuc sake " ,
yelled Adrien We could have helped Jac if we had known , Gaudddamm -
Somebody is gonna pay for beating Joshua".  "Then Ives jumped on Ralph's
back and distracted him , and Ives was whacked to the floor , then kicked
in the chest".  "Geeeeessse"!  "SMACK : I almost puked at the sound - "
"What the fu"?  Jacque did it , er he got back about three meters when
Ralph was puchin Ives and both feet crushed Ralph's face .  I could see the
day code of Jacque's sneaker on Ralph's forehead - heard more broken bones
like maybe a cheekbone , dunno , knocked him senseless right through the
school desks .  Ralph never moved after that".  Thierry and Adrien high
fived , "Yes burn in your hell bullies".  "Not that easy men" , responded
Fran.  "You're right about Joshua , there is - was nobody like him , I knew
him for three classes and I loved him like everyone else , but he' in this
hospital now , and he may never leave --- oh aww damm thos bastards for
beating him".  Mallory moved in to help Fran , as the flood gates openned.
Thierry moved to her side to steady Fran , grabbing her limp body as
gravity took it to the floor.  Mallory attached herself to Fran , " thanks
Thierry , thanks ever so much , We have been up all night waiting for news
and there is none about Jos.  Maybe now , he is even gone - Why in hell do
bullies kill people"?  She began to take deep breaths and then ,Mallory
collapsed , as Adrien broke her fall.  Both boys steadied the collapsed
girls in the corridor along the wall.  "Come on Fran : Wake ".  "Mallory ,
wake" .  The boys looked at each other , - each picked up a girl and
carried her into the waitng room , but it was full.  Adrien held Fran
stoically with one arm , grabbed a coupla cushions from a corner and both
boys put a girl on a pillow in the middle of the waiting room floor.  They
looked at each other , "Mouth to mouth on a girl ?  Adrien locked lips with
Fran and watched her chest size increase as Thierry did the same for
Mallory.  Anxious crowd of on-lookers silented the room.  Only sound was
the breathing of Thierry and Adriens' chests.  "Where am I " ?  "Er you
passed out , er sorry "?  "Fran and Mallory looked up , "think I can do
this now " , sitting up.  Each girl wrapped her arms around the boy rescuer
and after a couple more seconds , they planted a kiss , a long slow easy
kiss".  The crowded waiting room erupted with laughter and cheers , as a
security appeared.  Adrien stared at Fran.  "Why did the bullies beat up
Jos"?  "Well they said Jos was gay".  "WHAT , WHAT THE FUCK , JOS ?  "AND
Thats why the bullies beat up Jos"?  "Jos was so cute and so polite and a
model boy for every one in high school.  He respected all of the students ,
and he is NOT gay".  "Hell no , Jos is my buddy and he is not gay.  I am
the one who is gay and if I ever see Jake or Rob or Ralph I promise to brea
-every fuckin--" "Ahh Adrien , Thierry , Look LOOK AT ME , ahhh we are in a
public waiting room".  "I don't care if the public knows I am gay , and
niether does- " "I don't care neither " mutterred Thierry as he drew
himself to full hieght and flexed his farm boy muscles.  "I never would
have guessed" , ventured Fran , , then she whispered into Adrien's ear :
"Please don't make threats , like Jake and Ralph - We can be above all that
crap".  Adrien's face pouted , "Sorry Fran - riiight - Jos taght me that
too - We can and we will be above that crap".  Mallory dejected, "Gay". 
"Well Mallory , I cannot be someone , I'am not".  Fran stood up , "Guess
it's our loss , but I can still love you".  Mallory and Fran wrapped
themselves around Thierry and Adrien and kissed them in front of the
crowded waiting room .  A cheer of appreciation rose from the waiting room.
"We don't care either yelled Ives, parents , ALL WE WANT IS FOR JOS TO GET
BETTER".  "Yeah , we want Jos in our high school".

   A dull silence repermeated the room.  It stuck to the yellow walls and
ceiling.

   "O - aww - Fran , no need to pay us back and thanks for filling us in on
Joshua's news".  "Mr.  Guard , they're ok now , we'll watch over them a few
minutes , I guess they were disturbed by telling us what happenned to Jos".
"Adrien , - er Thierry , you guys close friends of Jos"?  "Jos saved my
life last summer in a pool accident".  "Yo bet he is a friend".  "Come this
way please"?  "Can we go with yo-"?  "Only , please , only close friends or
family".  "But I want to see-".  "Very sorry girls but only Adrien and
Thierry ".  Adrien grabbed Fran and Thierry grabbed Mallory and gave them a
long kiss : "Sorry but friends only" , and then gave his cell number to
Fran.  "Call me and I will get you into see Jos somehow".

   They hurried through the crowded corridors.

   Some waited , some prayed , some sat quietly , some fidgeted .  Mallory
and Fran resumed their positions holding each other against a corridor wall
, too tired to stand but refusing to fall asleep sitting.

   Fall : Chapter: 16 : In the CC room

   Jac patted his hands against Joshua and remembered Jen and Jes. 
"Stressed overload , - forgot about them." Jac -retrieved his cell ,
regarded the sign about no cell use and texted Jes anyway.  "Jes I am with
him , - he's critical but alive".  Jes hugged Jen and showed her the text.
"For the first time , there's a chance".  "Yes - a chance".

   Jen and Jes refused to wash the blood from their hands and clothes, but
a doctor appeared and motioned for them to follow.  Jen and Jes followed
her as she talked.  "Sath told me to find you two and take you to CC when
trauma unit finished".  "Can you tell us , please , how is Joshua"?  "Life
is a prescious thing and can exist in many forms".  "You might know
something that can help us.  Joshua was special.  He trusts everyone , and
he helps people regardless .  I am Joshua's girl friend and I luff him and
I will marry him.  Please give us some info".  "The trauma team has worked
miracles but no one can now tell what damage may be done to his conscious ,
or how well he responds to the attackers".  Jen sank to the hospital floor
as Jes steadied her knees.

   .  Outside the hospital , two million people transited to their Tuesday
workday.  Jos would not see another school day.  The doctor instructed Jen
and Jes on hospital infectious diseases and watched them strip and wash ,
donning the hospital clean garb.  They hurried past the air locks and
corridor alerters to Jos room entering quietly.  Jill and Robert were
arriving also.  First they saw Jac : Eyes closed pressed against his
brothers face , nestled amongst a maze of tubes and monitors and wires and
absorbent cloth.  They moved closer imagining Jac asleep and sensing the
powerful antiseptics .  Tired yet alert eyes detected them , cautioned them
.  Jac sought out Jen's fingers and brought them to Jos wrist holding her
fore finger on the exact spot where Jos heart lived.  He motioned all of
them forward.  Eyes studied the breathing tubes , the oxygen mask and the
iv fluid lines , slowly zeroed in to Jos angelic face , blond hair , a few
wispy nose hairs under the mask , perfect face with one forehead bruise. 
Jac kissed his brother as they watched in silence, licked his face as if a
puppy .  Slowly lowered the sterile sheets below his neck , along his
lungs. Two boy breasts exposed , then , black-blue blood bruises crawled
into view , rib bandages and boot tread marks riveted his rib cage .  Every
rib that resisted a boot had crushed the muscle and imprinted itself on the
outside surface as blue black marks.  Stunned eyes watched the surgery tape
and metal bars holding Jos ribs in place , moving with the rise and fall of
respiration.  Knife marks and access cuts rode up and down with chest
cavity rising and falling to the tune of computer driven machines aiding
the autonomic nervous system.  Jacque held his brother with both hands now
his face against Joshua's chest .  Jen and Jes and Jill moved closer to his
bed.  Rows of stitches criss-crossed the body.  Jac reached for Jen's hand
, guided her fingers along the tortured curves of damaged flesh , over
welts and bruises and staples and stitches.  "Dad , Mom , and Jess .  Get
back to the door .  I don't want you to see my brother's condition all at
once".  When her fingers got to Joshua's waist , Jac helped her lower the
sheet further.  More tubes exited Jos' abdomen .  The blue -black bruises
left no place for his tanned summer skin to show.  Surface arteries and
veins on Jos flanks threatened to burst with blood surging beneath them. 
Bulges of black skin pushed at uneven directions as the internal organs
swelled and jostled with the hatred inflicted damage.  Bigger bruises
pulsated with the heavy flow of blood - Joshua's heart trying to keep his
organs alive.  Finally the sheet slid to Joshua's knees.  Jill , standing
farthest away fainted .  Jes and Robert caught her , but Jen continued to
remove the cover - Joshua's groin - a gaping mass of black blood bruises
distorting his pelvis and below.  Tubes conducted fluids directly away from
his over working kidneys .  They watched the transparent catheter tubes
shed blood into a cath bag.  .  Open body cavities emptied blood into drain
tray bags to be analysed by the trauma team , as Jen watched .  Jacque
watched her face - he knew fear and what would happen .  The last thing Jen
remembered was a ball sac beaten and destroyed by hatred boots.  Joshua's
balls were swelled into pears , and bigger distending his scrotum and the
ice packs carefully wrapped around them.  "Dad , come and grab her" , as
Jen collapsed on to Joshua.  Drainage tubes intersected with the swollen
mellons dripping blood and fluid and boy sperm into the drains.  Her tears
flooding Jos' wounds , her sounds pitched but controlled.  Jen sobbed
herself into un-control , as Jac steadied her weight from falling against
Jos.  "Hang in Jen".  "bbb ut busted balls - Chee - just can't look". 
Jacque took a deep breath .  "He's alive".  Jacques changed to a ten year
old's voice - no emotion - tour guide like - as he continued.  "Hang in Jen
, you're gonna have his sons and daughters and you will spend your whole
life with him , cause I will not let him die.  Jos brought me and Thierry
back from the pool accident .  S'my turn to help my bro.  No matter what he
looks like , every second that he lives is a miracle and a recovery.  Jen
stirred , she kissed Jac and then Jos again and again and again as a nurse
revived Jill.  Jac held Jen close as her mind took control and eyes
remained open.  Then Jill looked again.  They steadied her until she
motioned to go .  "I cannot look at my Joshua like that".  "Jill Please - I
meann for your son , please come".  "If there is a god , then fuck yourself
god , you let me raise him thinking you would protect him and now I know
you are fake".  Robert displaced the doctors holding her.  "He was my
beautiful son , a boy so sweet that sunshine bounced away from his face".
"Jill open your eyes and come close to your son".  "Joshua was my reason
for living".  Joshua needs you .  Please Jill, he needs you more than at
any time in his life.  She struggled her feet to move forward to Jos' bed ,
Robert dragging her as much as helping.

   Jac , caught his mother's frightened eyes , twisted face.  "Repeat this
for me MOM" "I am strong for you Jos , I birthed you, I loved you , I
raised you to trust all people ".  Jac whispered to her , "Mom, no apology
is accepted".  "I am strong for you son , I nursed you, I loved you to
trust all people .  Forgive me" "MOM NO and NOPE - we do not accept your
apolgy.  YOU , You mom , You raised him perfectly.  The bullies are what is
fucked up.  Your Joshua was perfect and he will be perfect again.  Be
strong for your son.  He's perfect just the way he was." Jac pulled his
mother close to Jos.  Kissed her gently.  "Mom , Jos still loves you , he
needs your thoughts and support .  Jos was beaten because God says that
gays should be killed, but he is not dead.  He's fighting .  His heart is
strong.  You can help him fight for life.  Nothing else matters.  I and my
twin , we love you mom , you will see Jos rebound , stronger than before".
Jill put her hand on Jos' cheek .  "But Jos is not a gay ??  ". 
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   "No matter" , nodded Jac , "The christian god ensures that bullies
should drive gays from the flock and no proof of gay is required , Action
only - speaks".  Jill began to cry again, this time a controlled wail for
her only son.  Robert lowered himself to Jos , laid his head on the son he
just recently knew .  "Jos , Do not leave us now.  You must stay and create
a family with Jen.  We , all of us , and all the people out there in the
hospital need you to complete your life here on planet earth .  There's
many more projects here for you to work on".  "Jac and Robert pushed their
knuckles together.  Every second is a recovery second leading to one more
second".  Jac forced a limited grin: "Bro , I need you and Jen to make
kids. They will play with the kids that Jes and I will create.  We'll make
a chart , we'll er on the same day - our kids will be born on the same day
and each one will have two dads, and two mothers."
Fall: Chapter: 17 Una and Joseph at high school when Joshua attacked.
Una and Joseph had skipped the first day of their high school.  They
made sure the registration details were complete and picked a trusted
friend to attend the classes and pick up the time tables and book lists. 
The two teens were on cloud nine with love.  Both had told their parents
that this was to be their day alone , a day to celebrate Jo and Una , no
cell phones , no communication.  They were at Georges house when George got
a call to come to the hospital.  George checked on them , when the call
came through.  Jo and Una were locked into a seamless silouhette , moving
gently .  He let them continue , knowing that no one could help Joshua at

this point .  He was cared for by the best trauma team in Canada.  Una and
Jo awoke on Tuesday morning and read the note from George.  They hurried
into the hospital fearing the worst for Joshua.  Hospital security directed
them to the general waiting room , packed with people.  Jo and Una held
each other close , searching for a recognized face.  "Huh , it's Julia" .
"Glad to see you two".  "Any status on Jos"?  "None".  "His parents are in
there now with Jen and Jes".  "Hold on Jo, er wait here , only a few people
can see him at once".  Ten minutes passed with no words exchanged.  Then
Jill appeared , eyes red , tears spilling .  "My Joshua is beaten badly .
The son I raised to trust everyone has been beaten to dea ee eet--eathh ".
Jo and Una pulled her to a space by the wall to support her.  "If he had
played more team sports he would have defended himself , but no , I thought
the great god of man kind would protect him.  That did not happen.  Jac
protected him but there were three attackers ooooh oooo ooo what will
become of him".  Joseph shuddered" "Misses Coresland , he will survive ,
Joshua has strength that no one else possesses .  Jos will survive , and I
will make sure but I must see him".  Jo and Una prepared in the antiseptic
room , then were led to the CC but the doors were closed, no entry.  A
hospital security guard and a police officer stopped them.  "You can't go
in there right now".  "Una glared at the officer".  "I will give you five
minutes to tell me why not".  "We need to get photos of the victim for
crime analysis".  Both guards moved to block Una.  "I will ask them how
much longer it will take".  The officer produced a handset and talked with
the photgrapher inside .  Jo side stepped the guards and stepped through
the door.  The photographer was taking pictures of both Jac and Jos side by
side in the same pose.  "What a boy should look like and what the bullies
did to Jos , ---ah it was my idea " , stated Jac studying Joseph's face as
the gravity of the damage to Joshua sank in.  "Holy crusty pedophile pope ,
what have they done to you Jos".  The sounds of electronics augmented by
the camera flashes beeped .  Jo stared , zombied , then forced himself
toward his beaten friend.
Fall: Chapter: 18 Jo sees for the first time his beaten friend.
"Aww crist man , I am so sorry , I missed this fight .  Jac , I could

have fixed those bastards for goo-".  "Naww they would have not attacked if
the sides were even".  "I will EVEN them " , screamed Jo sinking .  "No
Jo". "Fuck the BISHOPS and fuck the POPE and all the ministers and priests
and religious sots - YEAS".  "Com'ere Jo - now".  Green eyes yes glaring
with raw street hatred , red hair prickly at the temples , Jo moved to Jac.
"Jo - JO take my hand and Jos' hand".  Face breaking apart with tears ,
eyes raining , hyper-ventilation , Jo sank to the floor as the photographer
snapped final pictures.  "I was beaten a thousand times by my grandfather
for cussing his church , and I was raped but --- but never , never , never
in all this planets cruelity like that".  Jo's face piled on Jac and Jos ,
his muscular frame sinking as his recently recovered sixteen year old mind
despaired and began to slip back into the terror of his own child hood. 
"Jos - ohhh JOS , You halped me when no one else would , You broke the
power of my religion indoctrination , You made me see who I am , I n-n-n -
need - NEED you Jos , CRIIIST I need you - Jos I need you to teach me and
show me how to survive this world" . .  Wild tears rained down.  Jo cried
out to Jac .  "He's beat up worse than Liam , Oh godddaam , why , who ,
Joshua never hurt anyone , he helps anyone".  "I need him too", whispered
Jac.  He was my twin bro , kept apart from me by organized religion because
they said my dad was gay".  Jac used the cover to clear the tears from Jo.
"Be strong Jo - like Jos taught you , Be tough and set the best example for
all of us to follow".  Jac stuck to his resoluteness.  "Jos supported you
when you were down".  "Buu - bbb uuu "Jos supported me when I was down -
Jos made me happier than at any time since I was born".  The face switched
back to anger , "I will kill those INSECTS of hate ".  "No , hell no , not
now , there are four hundred kids at Bridgework rooting for us - no need to
change that picture - enough violence - , when Jos gets better , then we
will all get ev -- , er that's not what I mean - We can all celebrate Jos .
For now concentrate on anything you can do for my bro".  "Whatthefuc can I
do , They kicked his balls off , broke his ribs , shoved the ends through
his lungs , tried to kill him -because they thought he was GAY" , as Jo's
voice increased intensity.  "Jo - please --- Jo , talk about Joshua - LOOK
AT HIS WOUNDS-- .  Joshua would help us some how , someway if you or I was
layin in this CC room clinging to life ...  -- agreed?".  " I' sorry Jac ,
I sawrry - you'r right , Jos is riiight." "Jo do you remember the
deprogramming at George's house , the times Jos held you like a baby ,
while half your mind fought the other half over religious dogma and mental
breakdown.  - member when Jos carried you into the shower after your mind
relived the rape .  Jos stripped your clothes , washed away your puke and
excrement".  Jos did not give up on you - Jos never once said "fuck it" ,
Jos knew he wrecked your mind and he knew , he had to fix it , when Thierry
was in the hospital and wanted you - , and he took the rest of us with him
to show you , and us , the way".

   "No I mean to help , let the bullies go for now - but what - There is
always something that one can do - Joshua taught us that -by example". 
Joseph stared into Jos face.  "We must stay with Jos constantly.  Jos must
never be left alone and we will talk to him every hour , every minute ,
every second he liiivvees".  Jo reached over Joshua.  He pulled Jac and Jos
together - "Pact of friendship and BLOOD - --".  "I am going to phone every
one that I know and we are going to keep this room a visitor room , or
whatever room they put Jos in .  Jos door will be open until he walks back
out through it".  The two boys caught eye contact for a long minute , face
to face , nose to nose , blue eyes to green eyes .  Jac lowered his chest
on to Jos bloody leaks.  Jac connected with Jo's fingers and together they
smeared blood from a leaking chest wound across their chests.  Then Joseph
retreated to formulate a visitor plan for his best friend as the guards
finally released Una to enter the room.  Jo took her hand , slowly, led her
to the pale beaten fifteen year old boy , beside Jac .  "Do you want to see
what they did to him " ?  "NNN no , please don't make me".  "Una if you
fail to look at my bro then the bully has won, -fear is a sinister force".
Jac took her hand , "Una please look at my bro , He needs you ", taking a
new breath , " He needs you to understand his condition.  You can do that
by being tough and looking at what they did to him.  CriiisstThere are no
words - no sounds in this world that describe - just look - juuust loook -
please Una , you can do this for Jos".  "I'm sorry Jac , but ok , ok , I'l
look and I will be professional like the doctor I want to become".  She
watched attentively as Jo removed the cover from his Bro.  "Ahhh aaa what
the fuccccc - is there no one in that putrid school that could stop them".
"Careful Una - You want to become a doctor - just say -serious injury - err
Jos will get better".  Una's face dropped , twisted , then "ahh Jos will
get better - ahhh yes he will".  Jac and Jo and Una hugged again.  Una put
her hand on Jac.  She saw the blood on Jo's chest - looked at Jo.  "Jo do
it for Jos - rub some blood on my chest - er - " .  Jac eased her chest
over his bro until the blood smeared.  Jo completed the ritual in silence
with Jos blood on his fingers he smeared the spilt life between Una's
chests.  Jac did the same.  "Prescious life blood of my bro , completes our
pact".  Joseph and Una left the room.
Fall: Chapter: 19 Thierry and Adrien see Jos.
As Una and Jo left they met Thierry and Adrien coming from the clean

garb room .  Adrien noticed the blood on Jo's shirt and then on Una. 
"CHEeesus".  Thierry saw Jos body , he stumbled .  Adrien missed his lurch
as he screamed in pain and collapsed on Jos as Jac shielded his bro. 
"Heartless , heathens of heaven and hell - oh what have you done to Joshua.
Criiyst I can't look - but can't stop looking".  "Godamm frightful fucking
fascist fuckers - " A wall of tears and crys and un-intelligible moans
escaped Thierry.  "He was a brother to me , a friend , A best friend , He
lifted me from that pool disaster and now this - THIS you fucking heathen
in heaven - WHY.  BECAUSE I'M GAY - AND YOU HAVEN't PUNISHED ME enough for
that ?  What - why - where - who did this to you Joshua my friend - Who did
this ?  Cause as sure as sun rise tomorrow you fuckers will be skinned and
hangin from the bucket of my tractor.  Thierry tossed off the cover ,
lowered himself again to Jos , licked his wounds and feathered his fingers
over the tortured contours of pain.  Adrien lifted Thierry gently from Jos
chest but Thierry lowered himself again crying , begging , licking ,
sniffing for signs of life.  Only electronic regulators and mechanical
gizmos kept Jos heart beating.  Jac placed a hand on Thierry's head ,
cradled his cheeks : "IT's the same reaction from everyone who sees my
bro". "Nobody deserves to be beaten because of gay".  "No Jac , Adrien and
I luffed him more ".  "The christian God uses pain to unite his followers".
"The followers are no longer human".  "They kill in the name of religious
rhetoric".  Jac raised Thierry's cheeks to eye level , contacted his eyes
with the blood stained cover soggy with tears of pain.  Adrien crowded
close to Thierry.  "Thierry , Thierry , please , Thierry look at me , You
loved me , and you loved Jac but you loved Jos more , -maybe even more than
Jac and Jen".  Adrien ground himself against Thierry , both faces now
dumping rivers of tears.  "Jac , we are much different from you and Jos".
"Because of that we shun most , but you, YOU and your brother Jos, were
different also.  Jos showed no fear of us , and the way we are.  Jos
returned our love with deep respect , and for that he's top friend and
trusted -capital TEE".  "And Jac , you have respected me even before I
meant Adrien or Jos.  But your brother , he was just so cocky - so special
and both of us wished him our souls in trust.  He was that one in a
millionth person who understood us , and now he's beaten by the thugs that
threaten us every day of our existence.  We love Jos , we trust Jos and we
are devastated by the hatred of those bullies".  Jac squared faces with
Thierry and Adrien.  "You two were special to Joshua also.  He always
wanted to know you two better , often asking me , ""What does it mean to
love another boy"".  Jos experimented with loving another boy , so he could
understand your role.  That was Jos , my bro , - he would not let
differences deny respect".  Adrien kissed Thierry , hugged him and then
both of them rolled into Jos , but no reaction.  "Oh - sweet puppy of love
my Joshua , if only I could make you well .  If only I could wand the hurt
away , or return with you to that place where god sent him to be beaten ".
"Thierry , Adrien , we must be strong , we must find a way to help Jos get
through this and get better.  I am staying with my brother .  I am going to
smile and laugh and love my twin , and my best friend until he smiles and
laughs back.  I shall be his guardian and his care giver because if Jos
could , he would do the same for me".  As Jac spoke Thierry smeared the
blood leaking from Jos wounds and dried it on the chest of his shirt ,
gathered more and dabbed it on Adrien , gathered more and dabbed it on Jac
, -"aww but you already have Jos life on your chest".  Jac smiled.  Adrien
and Thierry returned the smile.  "Count us in".
Fall: Chapter: 20 New friends declare allegiance.
Fran and Mallory watched in aww as Joshua's friends passed back through
the corridor , resolute , set faces, teary eyes , the zomby walk,
determination, - blood smeared on their chests and eyes straight.  "We
can't get to see him , but we can do that murmured Fran and I'm gonna get

Ives and my sister and her friends and ....."

   Jac slept with Jos , breathed with Jos , attended his hospital routines
and talked to Jos constantly.  The care givers looked forward to meeting
Jac , always smiling , always cheery and respectful of all.  The care
givers responded in same .  Each one gave Jos the best possible care,
except a hospital administrator who visited from a recuperation hospital.
He complained constantly to Jac.  "So kid , what are you sleeping with your
brother for , know how dirty that is"?  Doctors dropped in at the end of
their shift to meet Jac and his twin bro.  Over the next few days CC raised
the body temperature to normal.  Later: Further operations were done to
set-tape Jos' ribs.  Eventually blood circulation pumps were removed.  Jac
could feel Jos heart thumping on it's own but nobody could know if Jos knew
his-self was still alive.  "Come on Joshua , bro , make it back , you were
dead only in theory" .  When Jac had to leave the room Joseph took over. 
No minute of time was left for Jos to be alone .  Jo could not get
agreement from the hospital on the open door policy at first.  After a week
of negotiations involving a very persistant woman , Julia and several calls
from the law firm run by Robert , a program was set up whereby Jos door was
to be open at all times yet guarded by security in the normal manner and
access controlled by the nurse's station in order to control incoming
diseases and bacteria and virii that might damage the patient.  A security
camera was mounted in Jos room , so security and medical could check at all
times.  A guest list was created outside the door , where all visitors ,
signed their name and date of visit.  When all was finally agreed Jac and
Jo left Jos with the first visitor on her own with her son.



   Jill cried continuously , at first from the far side of the room, then
closer and finally she began to touch her son , to caress his blond hair ,
the tiny blonde nose hairs and long amber blond eye lashes .  She
remembered " Jill's parents implored the doctor for information , but there
was none , except : There's a chance".  Jill began to speak to Jos.  "Son".
"You're gonna be a lawyer".  "You're gonna be a daddy".  "Your gonna have
baby boys and baby girls to raise".  "You're gonna love Jen for the next
ninety nine years and your grankids are gonna be like you".  As Jill's
visit ended she watched two beautiful boys come through the door , serious
but smiling boys , coming to see their friend.

   Thierry and Adrien began with him.  As Jill left , she knew her son was
in good hands -- , she heard them say : "Jos you're gonna have a gay son
and he will become Prime Minister of Canada and it'l be easy for you cause
they start out as lawyers".

   Aric and Julia arrived .  Thierry and Adrien heard them begin as the
midnight shift greeted the morning sun.  "Jos you're gonna grow up to be a
lawyer , the best lawyer in Canada for people abused by organized religious
gangs".  A routine of visits seemed to help everyone .





   Robert called Jac to his office .  "There may be a law suit from Jake
and Rob and Ralph : "Basically you hurt them badly".  "But dad - they
killed Joshua".  "Not yet".  "The whole school seems to hate Jake and Rob
and Ralph - it will be hard to separate truth in adult court , with under
age testifying against adults".  "Your behaviour is exemplary but a strong
case needs much more , it needs another input , another point of view , if
you will , and right now , adult court may take the words of the adults
more so than the younger teens".

   "But Dad , --" "That's just the way humans are" , stated Robert.  "You
are the best defendant a lawyer could have son , but keep on the look out.
There most likely is more to this case than what we now know".

   Jos passed the "other point of view " ideas onward to all his trusted
friends.

   Meanwhile Jo's schedule of visitors expanded.

   Aric and Julia visited Jos.  Julia kept talking as her eyes recorded. 
"Stunning , the wounds inflicted by hatred last forever".  "There are no
noises that describe , just look and feel Jos' pain ".  "He was my bro too
" , returned Aric , like a younger brother to me , full of life and fun. 
Jos has become a part of me , and I shall not forget his life force.  Julia
and I can feel it in this room".  They looked at Jos , unblemished face ,
deep blue eyes under the long eye brows, fuzzy blonde traces of whiskers
and then they took the journey as Jac removed the covers.  Julia continued
."The journey travels through hatred and religious training , through the
valley and shadows of human greed and power , through ruts and slime and
feces of religion .  Normal humans could not inflict this much damage on a
trusting teen boy.  What has happened to the minds of the men who did this
"?

   Jill determined to keep up her visits for weeks but began to suffer head
aches and depression.  She was admitted to another hospital.  Again Joseph
re-published the visitor schedule and organized visits to Jill also when
too many visitors came to see Jos.  Jill's parents moved between hospitals
praying for a recovery , but when ?  Weeks rolled by.  Ives began to visit
in Jill's place.  His ribs healed , allowing him to breath freely again. 
Ives was happy as his ribs healed but some inner fear drove him .



   The rumours among BridgeWorks High intensified.  A constant flow of
students from BridgeWork High appeared every day and waited.  They wore the
school uniform with blood painted on their chests.  Depending on a good day
or a bad day for Jos , some of the students were invited directly into Jos
room .  They wanted to help the boy who challenged the high school bullies.
"Jos must get better - We need Jos at our school".  "Jac the blood pact is
spreading.  Principal Kinner is unable to prevent the student population
from wearing his uniforms with red die spashed on their chests".
Fall: Chapter: 21 Loose Ends

   Jac confided in Jo on one of his visits.  "Jo , this might be important
for me - been thinking bout those bully bastards - just in case they press
charges - you must do something for me- Get my dad to retrieve the clothes
I was wearing when BWBAD happenned.  My dad can sign to get them out of the
hospital.  And replace my shoes with new ones , only wear them for a day at
your school to scuff em up a bit , then put them back".  Jo listened
intently : "riiight".  A day later Jo returned .  He grinned at Jac.  Jo
leaned close to Jac and whispered his ear."Your dad and I laughed about
this for two hours.  He already did that.  The shoes will have no trace of
Ralph's cheekbone , nor Jake's dna.  Jac , did you know that the force on
your left shoe split the sole.  If the sole had not split and transmitted
the total pressure , you might have killed the jerk!" Jac smiled and Jo
returned the smile.  "Saved by the skin of my shoe.  Fuc Jo , the cops
wudda jailed me for ten years for that ".  Jo closed in on Jac's face . 
"Jac you are lucky to have a father who knows the law.  It can work both
ways and your dad knows that better than any lawyer.  If I had a dad
growing up , I would want your dad Jac".  The two boys licked each other's
nose, "Someday I will teach you how to defend against street bullies". 
"And someday , I will teach you Joseph how to break the sole of your
shoes". Jac and Jos high fived as a suited man entered the room.  Staring
at Jos .  "Sir , did you sign in the register" , reponded Jac?  "I expect
they will be dumping you in my hospital " , young man.  "What do you mean
responded Jac"?  "This room costs plenty.  When you are moved to my
hospital , you will act properly and be humble in front of my staff".  "Sir
, I assure you , Jos will be good in your hospital"?  "He better be".

   Joseph remained silent despite the suited man's attitude as he walked to
the door and waited for the suited man to leave.  Joseph stepped in front
of him as he left .  "Sir sign the register".  The man tried to brush past
Joseph , but he held his ground as the man fumed , and swore.  "Ge hell
away".  Joseph smiled , "Sir please sign the register as a visitor to Jos
room".  He handed a ball point pen to the man , who quickly scribbled
something on the visitor's pad.  "Thankyou" , issued Joseph stepping aside.
After he left Jac called his dad.  "Whats up with this guy".  Robert
responded .  "Jac they want to move you to a recovery unit .  It's also
very near your high school.  I gave them the OK , though suspect it would
happen anyway".  "Just the tone of voice thing , that's all" , responded
Jac.  Robert listened , " I will ask Bill to save the video tape from that
day".  "I can take care of myself and Jos".  Robert relaxed in his office ,
"Yes Jacque , I know you can".
Fall: Chapter: 22 Rumours
Rumours in the high school grew daily about a boy in two places at once

, about special healing powers , about a boy who said NO to bullies.  "He
must survive".  "We need more students like Jos".  Rumours spread about Jac
about kicking an opponent unconscious.  Conversations ran wild.  "Does his
bro sleep with him in the same bed"?  "Yes , he's always there , stuck to
his twin bro".  "Is there another boy who sleeps with him?" "Yeah , Jo ,
he's from another high school?" "Jo is even tougher than Jac .  He's Jos
buddy and friend and blood brother".  "Jo goes to another school.  Has red
hair and green eyes and he's not very big but my brother saw him take on
two idiots in a video game store".  Rumours and comments continued: "Jos
has sooo many friends , I can't get near him".  "He's a special boy , like
his brother".  "So many friends guarding him at all times".  "And what's
with the blood on Jac's chest "?  Ha ha , look at mine , Kinner's
annoucement banned the the red dye and you know what happenned , the whole
fuckin school is wearin a red splotch , even some of the teachers wear red
splotches in the mall".  "Let him try to stop this"!  "The bastard should
have protected Joshua"!  "Well we don't know Kinner's side of the bully
fiasco".

   They spotted Jac in the hospital corridors and rumours started that he
was walking.  Jac began to wear a sign.  "My twin bro is in critical care".
As more and more of the students visited Jos personally the rumours began
to change into factual information.  Jo and Jac and Jen and Jes visited
most often .  "Does that girl sleep with her coma boyfriend"?  "Yes , she
spends a lot of time there".  "Name's Jen : She says , he still has a brain
and he will walk , someday".  "She could spend some time reviving me - what
a bod"!  Each made a special pledge to show every student Jos' bruises and
broken ribs and general day to day condition as long as one of Jos' doctors
deemed the personal visits ok for Jos.

   BridgeWork was now open again for the fall semester , with a permanent
police officer assigned to Jac's room , but Jac did not go to school.  "Jos
and I will attend together" , he told the principal and his parents and
then with a sudden uneasyness, "Maybe the cops will get to know what's
happenned, and stop tazering innocent girl students."

   Adrien and Thierry sat with Jos on many days.  When Jac was free from
the room , he counselled the continuous stream of students : With the flash
of long blond eyebrows : "Hey man : Making a diff".  "Oh Kay girl , love
the red patch - bullies beware".

   Fran and Mallory called Adrien and Thierry often.  "If we can't be your
lover , we can be your friend".  Adrien did get Fran and Mallory in to see
Joshua.  At first Fran and Melony were ecstatic to see Joshua.  They
accompanied Adrien to the hospital room.  First , Fran saw Jac , his eyes
closed snuggled against Jos.  Adrien whispered to her .  "Sometimes I wish
Jac would sleep with me like that".



   "Wild dreams for sure " echoed Jac as Fran and Mallory edged closer. 
"Joshua" ?  "He sleeps, er coma , and your name er "?  "I'm Fran".  "I'm
Mallory".  "I'm Jac , and this is my bro Jos, and I recall you two at the
classroom where my bro was beaten".  "I was there with Mallory and Jen and
Jes.  We wanted to see you , the cutest boy at Bridgeworks , then we found
out there were two of you , then the bullies hit , - hell Jac , I am so
sorry".  "Nope , I do not accept apolgies like that" , Jac stared his blue
eyes into Fran and Mallory.  "You girls are not at fault.  The bullies are
at FAULT".  "And thanks Mallory and Fran for draggin my bro's body away
from those zombies.  I appreciate your help , as does Jos".  Both girls
stared at Jos.  "Jos , do you remember everything that happenned that day?"
"In living colour!" "He's so handsome , you're so cute".  "Thanks Fran and
Mallory." "May we and Adrien see more"?  "My Bro was not shy about anyone
seeing his body.  I can give you a tour of the whole disaster , if you
want." "I don't know if you are allowed to look at a nude boy because you
look same age as me.  "Ok er sixteen", mentioned Fran , but we do not blab
our experiences to the rest of the school , and secondly , that rule sounds
like a religious ruling , and we are atheists".  "No god ehh - fine by me -
god had every chance to help my Bro , and instead sent faggot haters to
beat him to death".  Fran reached out to Jac , "We'l go there with you
someday but today we are here to see you and Jos.  We want to see Jos ,
because we love him.  We know he has already a beautiful girl ffriend , but
we love boys and you two are sooo special to us , and not to mention , to
eight hundred other kids at BridgeWork , girls and boys.  Jac , did you
know that some of the boys in BridgeWork are gay"?  "Y'approximately one in
ten, it's no deal at all to me or Jos".  "Er Jac , yes I know that you have
gay buddies and I love you for that quality , but what I meant to tell you
was ,"The gay boys have never had a lighning rod to attract them like you
have , and the straight boys like you because you are more than tough with
bullies"?  "Soo , point"?  "Jac and Jos , you two have united the entire
student population , or at least ninty percent of it." "Fran , Jos does not
see a difference between gay and straight.  He never did.  I grew up in a
different world from Jos and I never saw a difference either".  "But you do
see a difference between boy and girl"?  "Same as every mammal on this
planet , I have preferences", smiled Jac , "and Jos has preferences
different from me.  Some prefer , some prefer females".  Fran smiled at Jac
, then moved into his space , "and as for the girls , you set the standards
for handsome ,cute ,hot and a hundred other qualities girls want , ha ha
including the rod".  Jac laughed , do you godless heathens really need a
tour of my brother's beating , or did you come to see my rod"?  Fran and
Mallory side glanced each other .  "Yes we do , Sirs".  Jac smiled at them.
"Promise not to touch"?  "We promise".  "Fran , Mallory , your help may
have saved Jos life from those zombie bible thumpers".  "Do you have boy
friends er are you sure you can look at me and Jos without clothes.  I know
a bit about girls "?  "Yes we know about boys parts " , stated Mallory ,
"We both have little brothers".  "Then you promise me , to protect those
brothers like I am protecting mine , YES?" "Yes"!  Mallory and Fran shook
Jac's hand , then pulled their blouses up ".  "Love it ", stated Jac as he
watched the pattern of red splotches breath between their breasts.  "Canada
flags bullies!" "Did you know Jac , a quarter of the girls in BridgeWork
now have a red splotch on their bra and the boys are putting red splotches
on their chests under their shirts and on their shirts".  Mallory grinned ,
"Their is a tatoo place in the strip mall specializing in the legends of
your kick boxing and they do a maple leaf with a red splotch like a hard
maple in the fall".  "Tatoos hurt , don't they?" "They also carry status
and Bridgework students want that".  Adrien unbuttoned his shirt to flash
his own red splotch.  "We can be friends ", smiled Jac.  "And we can be
friends with a red splotch pact also", whispered Mallory and Fran.  "Close
your eyes girls".  Jac rolled the bed cover into a ball and tucked it
behind his neck.  He took the exact same posture as Jos.  Fran and
Mallory's eyes drifted open.  Two boys lay on the bed before them nude ,
one vibrant , boyish and shining health , the other , pale beaten ,
unconsious , comatose .  "We are identicle twins , I mean we were
identical".  Whispered Jac.  Compare my pectoral muscles to Jos.  Go ahead
just one hand though to touch.  Fran and Mallory gasped ,"Mother of
mothers".  Jac took one hand from each girl on himself and one hand from
each girl on Jos.  Guiding their hands and fingers softly over the pectoral
muscles , the predeveloped six pack , and the pelvis through to the groin
and back .  Faces smiling , then twisting then fearing , wonder , joy ,
then tears flooded over the bed.  Jac slowly covered the bruises and
swelling again.  Fran and Mallory struggled to stand up.  Adrien helped
them to regain composure.  "The girls stood staring at Jos as though he was
still nude".  Tears still seaped from Mallory and Fran.  Softly Adrien
began.  "Girls , there are no words , there are no descriptions .  Jos is a
hundred times recovered from when they brought him to this room , but still
not enough.  We guard Jos , we talk to him , we touch him and we argue with
him to talk back and someday he will".  "Ohh Jac , I wish , and wish that
we could help Jos get better , and I also remeber everything that happenned
that first day of school , and I wish I had done something different to
stop those freaks".  "For now Fran and Mallory , keep an eye out for your
young brothers and yourselves .  Jake and Rob and Ralph and other zombies
like them are free to roam the halls.  That is why we wear the red
splotch". Jac climbed out of bed to bid them farewell.  "Fran , Mallory ,
you are more than welcome to come back soon , but please help Jos any way
you can.  I am short on words like you are right now, but words will come
back .  Thank you for coming to see my Bro.".



   Jo showed up later in the day and heard the story of Fran and Mallory's
visit.  Jo re-adjusted the visitor schedule to include more visitor
students , more homework sessions , more tutoring .  Jac learned some of
his curriculum from helping other students.  "Hey Jac , when you and Jos
move to the recup hospital , you will be a kilometer away from Bridgework
High.  I am gonna work heavily on that schedule to get as many students as
possible in to see you and Jos.  Local newspapers are not allowed to print
the word genital for a fifteen year old boy.  By letting each student visit
and know the truth improves our public mission to let everyone know what
gay bashers do.

   Ives and Jo were present when doctors removed the final drain tubes from
his scrotum.  There were no secrets behind closed doors.  When healing
progress marked a new phase , the news quickly spread to every student and
parent.  For the students , every day was new , as someone reported the
news".  "They took drainage tubes out of his scrotum"!?  "His balls are not
swelled as bad".  "Yeah - Jos might be able to cum afterall - eerr if he
ever wakes up".  "Shouldn't be a problem , I cum in my sleep all the time".
"And I hope Jos does the same".  "His brother sleeps with him always".  "My
brother sleeps with me on long bus rides to hockey games".  "Would you
rather sleep with your brother or one of those church protected
pedophiles?" "Do you know Jen.  She's in one of the higher grades"?  She
sleeps with him too , at night all by herself , cause the door is always
open and I was there when my brother got appendicitis .  I walked by Jos
room and I saw her and waved.  She was reading a math book to him in his
bed with just a tee shirt".  "could see her nipples right through it". 
"Jen and Jes are a year ahead of Jac at school.  Jen and Jes are the hotest
females in this school".  "So what's that make Jos ?  First he was cute ,
then he was faggot , or so the rumours spread by Rob and Jake, now he
sleeps with his girl friend"?  "These rumours make no sense".  "And a
mystical protector at the top of all that religious crap about gays and
lesbians in the burning fires ofg hell makes no sense either".

   Jac and Jos were moved to the recuperation hospital the next week . 
Three hundred students showed up , cheering widly, as the patient transfer
truck delivered Jos to the new room.

   Jac was a rock for his brother and for all the staff at the general
hospital , and for his friends and visitors.  And so it was for the
recuperation hospital.  Jes and Jen noticed the strain on Jac with caring
for his twin brother and constant public relations work , weighing Jac down
as the days advanced into autumn and the cold rains and gray skies of
November advanced.  Jos healed slowly .  The wounds changed from bloody
stitches and punctures to scars.  But the physical wounds were no longer
important to Jac.  "Jos , if you can hear me , give me some sign".  Jac
stared at his comatosed brother yet one more hour in a stream of unending
hours and days and months.  "I want my brother to talk to me again ".  "He
will talk to you some day".  "Why can't I get him to answer me".  "Jac ,
we've been through that , you know the answer and you know that Jac will
talk to you someday".





   Jen and Jess decided to organize a holiday for Jac.

   "Jac needs a holiday , a separation from his bother for a day".  Texted
notes between Thierry and Adrien and Joseph and Una and Jac's parents ,
until a plan was enacted.  "We need to be in school today but you can visit
us Jac.  Be there for our spare .  Jac you need to take a day for yourself,
a day to do what you want to do.  Forget Jos today.  This is Jac day . 
Adrien and Thierry will guard Jos today and take care of visitors".

   Jac waited till Adrien and Thierry appeared for Joshua , then put on
Thierry's winter coat and big green boots and took the rest of the day for
himself.  He slogged several kilometers from the hospital toward the high
school , which he had never attended since his brother's beating by the
bullies, arriving at the rendevous place in time for Jes and Jen's spare
class.  The weather was cold and raining .  He ducked into the bus stop to
avoid the cold wind and rain in front of the school.  Winter coat hood up ,
eye lashes peeking out as the twins arrived.  "Fall is never a great time
for walking , and yet walking made me feel good" , replied Jac to the the
twin girls when they found him.  "You need to exercise those leg muscles
for sure " quoted ,Jen and Jes as they coralled Jac inside the bus stop. 
"It's pretty cold in here ", suggested Jac as both girls pinned him to the
back plexi-glass wall , ignoring the water draining from his soaked coat.
Twins checked each other's faces and nodded , "Yes , we can fix that". 
They undid Jac's coat , actually Thierry's coat releasing the zipper ,
leaving the hood over his head.  Jess put her fingers inside the coat
undoing Jac's shirt and bypassing his undergarment tee-shirt by sliding her
hands under the bottom.  Her fingers slipped around both sides of the
delicate six pack muscles triggering cold reflexes as they advanced.  The
fingers adroitly released Jac's belt and dived into the under wear. 
Gasping as her cold fingers sucked the body heat from his shrunken penis ,
studying his eyes and face in the back of Thierry's coat hood .  Jess
looked at Jen inquisitively, " I found his trouser snake .  Not sure if we
can recue it.  Pretty small and contracted in the rain and cold air ,
possibly in hibernation"?  "Jess , give me a second with that ".  Jen
checked outside the bus stop.  The breeze was unpleasant , the cold rain
drizzled creating fog along the street .  "Yo ho" , exclaimed Jen , "fog is
good , I like this weather".  "Jess mused " No one from the school can see
inside this shelter in that fog".  She ducked back inside pushed Jac's back
, tight to the plexi-glass wall , and crouched in front of Jac's openned
fly .  Her tongue examined the tighlty locked sphincter muscles of cold
foreskin protecting the glans , then slipping her lips over the contracted
foreskin .  Her hot tongue ignited Jac's eyes and everything below .  Jen
worked her magic as Jess held him upright.  Imaging a noise , she quit
after two minutes and ran to the shelter door to ensure no one was coming ,
his penis now five inches of struggling snake, drooling colourless fluids.
Jess tried to align herself to the give the struggling snake a refuge.  Jen
watched the door .  Jess lowered her right foot and then the left into
Jac's big green winter rubber boots right over top of Jac's feet , pushing
her toes down along side his ankles as though toe dancing.  "They're
Thierry's boots laughed Jac , but you can wear them with me".  She pelvised
her hips against the struggling snake and pushed gently on the blood filled
animal tube ,wrapping her arms around Jac's chest .  Locking her fingers
together behind his shoulder blades.  The writhing trouser snake sensed her
heat.  Gasping , as it penetrated the hidden entrance way spilling a path
of colourless lubricant twisting and burrowing to maximum depth in one long
slide.  Her groin muscles tighened and Jess knees pushed away on the
plexi-glass lifting her warm passage off Jac to the full extent until his
foreskin almost fell free , then plunged back to maximum depth.  "New power
in my legs now Jess" , Jac grinned , as Jess repeated the process , slowly.
She intended to climax Jac quickly , with no thought or time to get herself
off.  Jen kept watch.  "Jes make it quick , there's someone coming".  Jes
clamped her pelvic muscles hard each time her knees pushed away from the
wall.  "Awwww Jess, Awww Jes aww Jes".  "Jes , Jess , Jessica , oaww
Jessica " , mouthed Jac as Jess undulations excited and refuged his snake ,
working the foreskin back along the shaft.  Jen called again , "Jess , ahhh
Jess stop now , we are going to have a visitor".  Jess did not stop .  Jac
heard nothing but his own larnyx voicing into Jess' mouth.  Jen peeked into
the heavy scarf of the visitor.  "Ohh Ives , it's you , if you can excuse
us just a minute , er what are you doing here?".  "Sure Jen er Jess, but
can I wait in here , we got three minutes before the bus arrives and it's
cold out here".  Jen took Ives hand , checked through the foggy cold rain
for more people but saw no one.  Come on in here, but just don't look over
there on the back wall, winking at Ives.  Eyes accustoming to the shelter
lighting, Ives looked over at the back wall and smirked.  He could see a
boy pinned to the bus shelter wall by Jess , her feet stuffed into the tops
of big green winter boots , her body oil-welling controlled mechanical
suction on some inside connecting rod almost obscured except when maximum
separation occurred.  Jen grinned at Ives and he blushed back , checking
the slow piston partners on the glass wall.  "Better hurray , this bus is
never late and students will be arriving for the next class".  Jen smiled
at Ives , "Ives a big favour for Jac, Can you help us guard the shelter
when that bus comes.  Please , Please.?" Ives laughed , "Jen , I want to
help Jac, whatever it takes" ,his face now bright red.

   " Ives , be relaxed if you can , this is important relaxation for Jac ,
putting twenty four hours a day work into his brother's recovery.  Most of
the students will take off straight for their class , If one does come
toward this shelter door , then we will try to stall him.  OK "?  Ives
control his emotions.  "Jen , I've never seen anyone relax like that
before, but I want Jac to be strong .  There's a cop on that bus , always
is.  He will be changing shift with the one in the school".  Swoosh ,
brakes screeueeking , Toronto transit , BridgeWork High on time , echoed an
automated voice as the rear door and front door flew open.  Five students
exited the rear , and two exited the front door.  Ives ran out to them ,
"hey girl , hey man" , come here , I need your help , please , please guys"
.  Half the student population knew Ives because of the bullies pranks in
previous years .  Four of them turned to help Ives.  Jen's face surprised :
"No Ives , noo roz , I meant no nooo attention".  "S'ok Jen , trust me,
cause there's a cop on that bus , and we don't need him messin with your
sister and Jac ".  Ives gathered the four new students to standing in front
of the bus shelter door , whispering "keep the cop outside - Jac is in
there with his girl , just needs a minute or two".  The students giggled
obliged , planting their feet firmly inside the shelter door, sneaking
peeks of the excitement along the back plexiglass.  They watched as the
officer stepped on to curb level , adjusting his uniform , take two steps
toward the school entrance and then immediately noticed the students
gathering.  Jen grimaced "Oh no , it's the old guy ", as the cop moved
straight toward the bus shelter.  "Step aside please , step aside".  Jen
grabbed Ives neck and pushed his face against his , Ives trying to return
the kiss with passion , ignoring the officer.  The officer studied Ives
blushed face , bright red neck , even redder now with the intimate contact
. Two other students glanced behind them , could see the steam condensing
on the inside glass around Jac and Jes.  Two boys began to kiss and the
third boy and girl snuggled together avoiding eye contact with the officer.
"I love you , I love you , I love you ", excited Ives as Jen and him
continued to ignore the officer's request to step aside.  The officer
backed away and strode to the outside back of the shelter trying to peer in
, but condensation from inside obscured the view.  He crawled down on hands
and knees , could see Thierry's big boots shifting around .  Raising up
straight , he noticed the big winter coat slammed against the inside wall .
He returned to the shelter door and pushed aside Jen and Ives, to get
inside but the the other four students closed ranks against him inside the
bus shelter , preventing his movement to the the far end.  "Step aside "
yelled the old officer, but no one heard him speak.  Jen and Ives wriggled
through the door behind the cop and pressed him against the street side
wall , other students doing the same.  "Step aside or face arrest" , yelled
the cop.  No student acknowledged.  The cop pulled out his billy club and
struck Ives a light poke on the chest.  "Get back or I will put you back",
he yelled at the students.  Ives wilted , with the fear of authority
overcoming his attempt to protect Jac.  Jen swung both arms around the old
officer and kissed him on the ear.  Ives recovered and did the same .  Then
Jen whispered in his ear , "The students are only in love today , there is
no reason to arrest them".  She began cheer leading "hip hip hooray , have
fun today".  The remaining students joined in "hip hip hooray , have fun
today".  They chanted inside the shelter as the officer moved outside.  Jac
locked his leg muscles and leaned back against the glass .  The shelter
began to vibrate , resonating with Jess pelvis as she pushed the trouser
snake to new limits .  Condensed breath from all the students covered the
inside glass.  The cop stepped back inside but was blocked again by the six
students, kissing and hugging each other.  Everyone could feel and hear the
bus shelter resonating with Jess hips.  Jac imagined being pumped dry but
determined to give Jess as much fun as possible before it happenned.  He
put his lips on Jess scalp and licked her head when she moved closest to
his chest.  His hands reached under her coat and bra finding a path under
the inner shirt and displacing her bra.  Each time Jess chest came in close
, his hands gripped the tiny nipples on both sides and stretched them as
Jess chest retreated.  Jac detected her nipples hardening as Jess knees
closed tight against his pants .  She began to tighten her pelvis on the
wild snake pushing it far into her interior , then pulling it far away as
possible without loosing piston contact.  Involuntary noises permeated the
shelter as the connecting rod pistoned between them.The shelter roof
rattled in sync.  Eye lashes closing slightly , eyes hiding in partial eye
lids , the trouser snake was now in full animal mode taking control of Jess
and Jac.

   The students grinned and began to sing the hip hip hooray song again to
enure that the cop heard nothing suspicious.  They gave him surrepticious
eye contact ensuring the old cop that no harm was in order.  Jac began to
feel incredible leg power , his lungs ventilating , his fingers now locked
to the two nipples using Jess entire breast structure and bra elastic as a
stretch spring to draw her chest back to him , each time her knees pushed
her body away.  White flashing lights , danced in her pelvis, Muscles
locked to the connecting rod ramming it into herself farther with each
stroke until Jac's foreskin jumped the tracks into the protection gap
behind the glans.  Jess full compressed pelvic muscles locked to the head
of the swelling trouser snake.  She began to hum with the same chant as the
impromptu cheer leaders , louder and louder .  The old cop tried to
determined , to discover right from wrong .  His mind knew this to be wrong
, but his senses combined with the other six students chanting .  The
police officer stood at attention.  Jac's legs began to oscilate with Jess
pelvis.  Still holding her nipples like stretch brakes on an air craft
carrier , his mind and Jess mind forgot where they were , but not the final
motions that set the two balls cavitating sperm into the prostate and
shooting it upward into Jess at bullet speed. 
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh".  She buried her face in Jac's winter coat
, as the boy sperm mixed with her vaginal contaractions .  "Hummmf hummmf
hummmf" , voiced their lungs vibrating to get enough oxygen into the
overloaded blood streams of a boy and a girl locked intimately.  Connectees
lungs deflated , hearts froze as the trouser snake pumped two months of
high speed sperm into Jess body.  She looked up at his growing smile and
glazed blue eyes under the long reddish lashes.  Suddenly the shelter
stopped vibrating , the students stopped cheering .  Silence filled the
shelter, except the soft pelting of rain drops on the outside roof.  The
students stood at attention with the police officer , arms raising a salute
to him, as they heard the commitment of two teens on a cold gray November
day.  "Jaaaaac , I will love you until the sun burns out ".  "Jess , I will
love you until the sun burns out." The by-standers peaked sides ways .  Jac
gripped Jess by the chest and gently lifted her body free from his boots,
lowering her down into her own school shoes.  Both kids quickly pushed
pulled and zipped their clothing back in place .  Jac and Jess stepped
forward to address the old cop.  Jac blinked his blue eyes and Jess smiled.
"Sir , what we did , we had to do because we are humans.  Please excuse us.
The old cop recognized Jac from the recuperation hospital and recognized
Jen and Jess as students of BridgeWorks.  He quickly smiled to the
students. "thank you students for protecting my hero , Jac , he is a
student member , and thankyou to the six students for protecting each
other".  There is no reason for me to be here , except , to ensure you are
all totally safe from harm.  "I am sorry for misunderstanding the situation
, I saw when getting off the bus.  Everyone , continue to class or home as
case may be".  Then the old cop bolted and headed for his regular shift in
the school corridors.  He met the inside officer leaving shift.  The old
officer filled in the news from the bus shelter.  The students milled ,
momentarily, realizing the meaning of the police force gesture , suddenly
erupted into a big cheer for the old cop.  "We love you man cop" they
chanted as everyone dispersed.  School bound students ran to catch up with
the old cop as he met up with the inside cop coming out the door.  Jac
stepped outside the shelter to begin his walk back to the recuperation
hospital.  Ives was still there .  "I missed my bus to the doctor".  Jac
smiled , "Ives your physically good , any girl or boy could see that". 
"I'll tell you someday , ahh soon Jac ".  The inside cop stepped in front
of Jac.  He smiled.  "Jac , I know yu've had a difficult time for the last
two months.  And I know you've got a lot of support from your close friends
and today from your girl friend , and thanks to this fine young man , even
unknown students show you support .  You are young but you are settting
examples for students years older than yourself .  Normally , there is a
divide between us and you as wide as the Don Valley .  You and your
brother, with a few friends have narrowed that gap between cops and
students to a narrow creek.  Today that creek ran dry for just a few
minutes.  As a cop , I have never seen the dedication that your peers have
for you.  The older cop here today is a tough man , a twenty five year
officer.  He has seen the worst that a city of one million people presents.
Today he saw the best , cried , as he walked into that school the other
students walking with him , not in front , not behind but with him.  That
is an honour that trancends all the times in his life when he dealt with
the soul of this city.  Come with me Jac , you need a longer break from the
hospital .  I know you want to get back to your bro.  I promise you he is
in good hands.  Call your father and let him know you are riding with us ,
the rest of the afternoon".

   Jac's eyes lighted brighter than the first day of school.  He had his
dad on the line before the cell appeared from Thierry's coat pocket .  "Jac
, s'everything ok"?  "Yes dad ,I'm riding with the cops for two hours".  "I
know that Jac , they've already contacted me and Jill".  "Dad".  "Yeah". 
"I love you".  "I love you Jac , and everything you stand for , have a good
time with the officer".  "Ives , join me in the back seat of the cruiser ,
we will take you to your doctors office , you might be late waiting for the
next bus".  Jac laughed as they rode through the streets in the cruiser ,
as the cop told him about learning and checking the name of every student
in the class , with the goal of finding those whose lives were affected by
the bullies.  "Ives , you are near the top of the list.  I hope you will
reconsider our offer to interview you for details".  Jac looked at Ives. 
Frightened look , on his face.  The officer continued.

   "By last week , I realized that I had never seen you at the school.  I
knew why Jos was not here.  I asked my chief about you, because your name
is on the class list , and he told me to call your father.  So you see , I
was ready to see you as my shift ended when your girl friend told your
father the time of your visit here.  I had no idea of the method you used
on the old cop or what happened in the shelter but , as I said a new bond
has grown between you and us - basically a bunch of snotty nosed kids and
the old pigs who try to keep them safe.  Jac choked with laughter with the
cop as the cruiser glided through the streets , lights flashing to the
doctors office waiting to see Ives.  Jac amazed himself as the street
cleared in front of the cruiser , most drivers finding a way to let it
pass. "Ives , let me know what happens in there " , added Jac as Ives
openned the door and climbed out.  "Ives , I am going to ask why you turn
down the request for information and Ives , Thankyou for sheilding me in
the bus stop".  Ives continued to close the police cruiser door .  Jac
jumped out of the car , and ran around to Ives .  "Ives you're much more
than meets the eye at first glance.  I love you" , and he grabbed Ives and
planted a big boy kiss on his lips.  "Ahhh " , gasped Ives.  "It's ok Ives
, the cops have respect for all as do I".  "What if the doctor saw you kiss
me?" "What if he did"?  "Ahh he--" "He might think I love you , whats wrong
with that , You want friends , --right!" Ives shook his head tousling his
hair and dissappeared inside.

   Next they went to a drive through restaurant where Jac ordered his
favourite in triplicate .  The cop asked Jac ,"What next Jac"?  At Jac's
request the cruiser visited Joseph and Una's high school at the time he
knew they finished class.  Jac grabbed them from the throng of students and
pulled them to the cuiser.  "Get in , get in Jo and Una , This can be your
day also as he openned the back door beckoning them like a hotel lobby
expert.  The officer smiled as Una and Jo climbed into the back seat .  Jac
introduced them to the officer as his best boy friend aside from Josuha and
quickly settled into the front seat , as the car drifted away from the curb
, to allow the traffic movement.  Una and Jo finished off the fast food
with Jac.  The officer began to stare into his mirror and Jo stared back ,
at first uneasily .  Jo looked down revealing his forehead and eye brows.
Then the officers eyes watered.  He tried to regain composure and zipped
the car into a small park on the edge of one of a park ravine.  Suddenly
the officer gulped , pulled the cruiser to a full stop and parked.  "Jeesus
Jac , I don't know how you do it but now I know.  I apologize as a fully
trained officer.  We are not allowed to do this in public.  Jac do you know
why ?  Jac looked at Una .  Joseph stared at the officer with tears filling
his eyes .  "Jeesus Jac , a million people and more live in this city. 
Your best friend is the brother of Liam .  I was the officer who found him
under the viaduct too late , took him to emergency and the trauma team
worked to save him , but he did not want to be saved.  I am Eric's brother
Phil.  It was my first year on the force when Liam , ahh your brother
Joseph jumped from the Bloor Viaduct.  It's hurting me like yesterday ,
like I wanted it never to happen but it did.  It hurt me Jac , on so many
levels with so many stabbing hurts.  Joseph got out of the car , pulled
open Phil's door and met Phil on the sidewalk.  A grown man police officer
eyes re-misted for a suicide boy found two years before , hugged his
younger brother until both of them howled like undone wolves.  From
somewhere in the park a long howl echoed back up into the city .  Una and
Jac held each other as the officer and Joseph went to the place that would
never heal .  Tears seaped through hurting eyes.  They crept closer to the
two putting their arms around a man in police uniform and a boy united
together by a need to communicate "what it really means to to leave planet
earth".  There were no words spoken.  Jac and Una hugged the cop , Phil
against the brother of a boy who took his own life two years before.

   Jac called his dad and Joseph's dad to tell them the twist in events. 
He and Una separated the man from the student.  Jac told Una of the day
they visited Liam's marker , something she had never been able to draw from
Joseph.  The pelting rain returned with cold wetness.  Una's tears mixed
with the cold rain with Joseph as they reboarded the back seat , Phil
beside them , to avoid the pelting cold rain .  Jac got in the front seat
at the cruiser controls, keyed the mike and spoke.  "This is officer Phil's
friend Jac and Una and Joseph and we are currently stopped to enjoy some
moments in this little park".  "Officer Phil , please acknowledge".  "Yes
despatcher , I am fine , Jac has taught me something about myself and my
job".  "which is"?  "I'm a human and I can cry".  "Your a good cop Phil" ,
echoed the despatcher.

   "Phil , phil , ahh phil" , asked Jac as Phil's eyes demisted and
refocused.  "Phil , Joshua , my brother who is in coma , pulled Joseph out
of that spiral of death set off by the grandfather of Liam and Joseph. 
Joshua read from Joseph's body pain, and rescued him carefully , sometimes
minute by minute at a time.  If Joshua could see you now Joseph , he would
be really proud of you .  "I can see you now ", echoed Phil, "and I am
proud of you Joseph.  The boy I saw at Liam's house was destitute ,
frightened animal .  You have changed Joseph.  You have confidence , make
me proud to be a cop.  The officer climbed into the passenger side of the
cruiser .  "Jac , would you like to drive this thing".  "More than the moon
, yelled Jac".  He handed Jac the keys.  "Take me for a ride around this
little park Jac".  "Riiight".  Jac inserted the key and started the engine.
Guiding the cruiser around the one acre park , windshield wipers , lights ,
and flashing lights on.  Jac could see the reflections of the flashing
lights on the rain and wet trees.  Una snugled into Joseph.  "Jac and Phil
I love this ride".  "Yeah".  Joseph grabbed Una and Phil's attention: "Last
time I got to ride in one of these" , was when the cops found me drunk and
stoned dodging traffic on a four lane highway".  I was out there to join
Liam , when the police stopped beside me, an older cop pulled me inside and
I passed out.  I woke up a dozen times in that cruiser and each time I
puked or pissed or worse , because the load of drugs could not kill mental
baggage left over from my parents desertion and my grandfather's treatment.
I am ok now for sure and would really like to apologize to that officer who
pulled me from death , and then delivered me to the detox center covered in
puke".  Phil spoke slowly .  "Joseph I know that man , he is is now
retired".  "Does he live nearby"?  "About ten minutes north of here , are
you sure Joseph"?  "Yes Phil, Will you go with me Una and Jac".  "Yes Jo".
Phil slipped in to the drivers seat.  The cruiser sped through the fog and
rain as phone calls were made.  The car arrived in ten minutes.  Una and Jo
got out in the residential drive way.  They stood there waiting for Jac and
Phil.  "Just go right on in the house , er up the ramp and in.  Don't knock
Jo , he knows you are here" Jo and Una carried their school back packs as
they crossed the ramp and openned the front door.  A huge shepard dog met
them at the door and guided them into the living room.  Jo and Una walked
straight to the retired officer his head beckoning them .  "Oh man , I
didn't know you were crippled blurted out Jo".  "I can still move if I
must".  "This is my girl friend Una and I am Joseph Alnot.  I remember your
face .  You pulled me off a four lane boulevard two years ago .  I was
stoned and drunk and I puked on you and worse .  The cop moved his wheel
chair closer , he smiled , crawled out of the chair , unsteadily , shaking
. Una and Jo rushed to catch him from falling.  "Jo , Jo it's you .  You
have nooo idea how much I remember that night.  The cop put his arms around
Jo and Una.  When Phil called , he did not say who was honouring me . 
Joseph Alnot , I know you .  I check the news every day ,afraid , to see if
you have turned up dead.  Your visit gives me the guts to get out of this
chair and meet you.  And your girl friend , she's so cute Joseph.  Una
kissed the old cop on the cheek".  "Aww it's true Joseph , I am in a wheel
chair now ,but I am getting stronger.  Thanks Jo for coming to see me. 
This is the first time for me out of that chair since it happenned".  Una
whispered , "I am Una , and you are - "/ "Chester maam".  "What happenned ,
Chester"?  Una and Jo , "I was attacked and beaten by three men selling
drugs, beaten with a tire iron and then run over with the cruiser.  They
left me for dead as half of the city police force closed in on them.  I was
in hospital in a coma for a year , and suddenly came out of it a month ago.
My muscles are not strong enough yet to stand , until tonight Joseph and
Una.  You two , successful kids .  You make me glad , I was a cop, and you
make me want to live a hundred more years".  Una kissed him again. 
"Chester , You saved Joseph, and Joseph and Joshua saved me from the
streets".  The shepard ran to the front door.  "Yeah Una"!  "Yes".  "I know
that's how us cops are supposed to work".  Jac and Phil entered the room
escorted by the big dog.  Phil and Jac stopped with the dog.  Phil yelled
"Dad , Dad , I can't beleive your out of the chair".  He grabbed Jac and
danced around living room , then grabbing the shepards paws and dancing
around with him , the dog barking widly.  Finally Phil dropped all and
closed in on his dad for a policeman father son greeting.  "This is awesome
Phil , that your dad is standing".  "Yes Jac because you needed a day off ,
and you decided to pick up your best friend and because he decided to
apologize for something two years ago , My dad can walk.  My dad is
smiling. My dad has hope for the future of the city where he put thirty two
years of service .  Phil smiled : "Una and Jo are here because of you Jac
and your twin kid Joshua and now you have given my dad something that
cannot be ordered , or bought , something only available from one in a
million people , and Jac , you Joshua and Una and Joseph just gave my dad
something , I never dreamed possible.  My dad has kept me on the police
force with mentoring and begging.  When I found your brother under the
viaduct Jo , it affected me every day of my life afterward .  No amount of
cheer and coaching from my father could keep me happy on the police force ,
but now I am happy to be a cop.  Jac and Una openned their arms
accomodating Phil into another tight hug with his dad.  They let Chester
back into his chair and regained their normal distances as humans on the
planet.

   Jo and Una showed Chester their text books for aspiring doctors , and
whispered that they were making the grades but just barely and had to get
moving for the test tomorrow.  In ten minuted the big dog was petted , and
everyone parted in a bouyant mood.  Phil and Jac dropped Una and Joseph at
home first , then Jac back to his brother , and Phil happy after two years
for another work day on the big city police force.



   Meanwhile it was therapy day at the recuperation hospital.  Through it
all Jos slept , iv dripping .  Jos slept through the therapy movement
sessions , and even in the therapy pool.  Jen and Jes accompanied his
therapy team to the pool.  Thierry told the team about Jos learning to swim
.  "He's so sweet , even when he sleeps , I love him , I love his blond
hair , his face , his blond whiskers".  They changed his hospital clothes
to pool clothes .  The therapy trainer lowered Jos into the pool as Adrien
and Thierry climbed in with him.  "Where is our usual therapy trainer"? 
The new trainer tried to complete the lowering into the pool but the winch
jammed with the sling holding Jos above the water.  "Er sorry Adrien and
Thierry and Jos , the usual trainer is on course today getting more
training.  She told me yor names and I am sorry about not introducing
myself.  I'm Justin, and I'm in the preparatory classes for medical
therapy. This is my volunteer work , he smiled".  Adrien and Thierry smiled
back.  Justin tried to free the jammed winch.  Adrien and Thierry regarded
him.  "You have to take the weight off before it will unjam".  Justin's
face reddenned.  Adrien continued ,"Justin , wind it up and lower it
again". "It's stuck , not up and not down".  "Jos is loosing weight .  His
muscles are not used.  Maybe this winch only works for overweight adults.
Justin worked the lift buttons both ways but only the sound of a jammed
winch occurred.  "Get in the water with us Justin.  You and Thierry can
hold Jos weight and I'l release the sling to let the weight off the winch".
"Justin redenned even more".  "er Thierry , I forgot my swim suit under
these med clothes".

   "Jos has never seen his own swim suit" , lamented Thierry.  "Jill picked
it out for him when they started talking about therapy".  Adrien argued
with Thierry , "I think he has seen it , or at least felt it , especially
when you snug it over his tool like that".  "Sometimes , I imagine myself
with him in the pond on our camping trip last summer.  We never wore a
swimming suit in that isolated swimming pond.  Jos is on his back learning
to float in the water and Jac is holding his legs from sinking .  Jos was
completely floating his eyes and nose barely above water line , a grin on
his face from ear to ear.  Then Jen would slowly shift her fingers to under
his ball sac.  It would be all contracted into a little tight sac with the
two balls pushed against his pelvis.  Then the tool would rise ever so
slowly , like a baby bird looking out of a nest".  "Lets take his suit
off", suggested Adrien, "We're alone today and nobody ever comes in here
except the trainer and he can wear Jos suit ".  "Justin , Is it ok , will
you wear Jos swim suit"?t "Er ahh , I guess , it'l save time".  Thierry
smiled at him, " Kick off all that therapy uniform and get in the water and
lift Jos.  When we get the sling released , then I'l pull Jos swim suit off
and you can put it on in the water".  Hesitating , then starting to strip ,
then hesitating , Justin confused his body.  "Maybe , I should not--" "A
bit shy of us Justin ?  Don't fret , were ok with nudity and Jos is a
master at nudity".  Thierry climbed out of the water angled his body away
from Justin's eyes and pulled off his shirt.  "Now Justin , step out of
those pants and don't ruin the press in them".  Justin folded the uniform
and placed it on the wheel chair still angled away from the Thierry's eyes.
"Come on Justin , we've seen all before".  He lowered Justin's jockey
shorts to the floor touched one knee to raise his leg , then the other and
Justin was nude.  "Ok boys , close your eyes".  Justin climbed down the
ladder into the pool feeling much better hidden in the water.  He quickly
positioned his feet on the pool bottom and lifted Jos with trained hands.
"Jos may still have unhealed internal wounds - Very important to lift
carefully on his skeleton frame and let it support his body weight". 
Thierry released the sling.  Justin supported Jos and lowered him slowly
into the water and weightlessness.  Adrien wriggled the swim suit off Jos ,
and then underwatered to Justin.  He lifted one ankle and slipped the
swimming suit over his leg , then the other , then surfaced.  "Justin , the
suit is a bit too small for you".  Thierry was on one side and Justin was
on the other side of Jos body supporting it in the water.  "Ok Justin , let
go of Jos and get the suit puled up".  Justin struggled with the suit
underwater as Thierry and Adrien looked at the roof.  Finally he vaulted
out of the water and re-operated the lift-winch buttons until the machine
started to work again.  Adrien and Thierry began to laugh as their eyes
moved to Justin.  "The suit is a bit small , but it's on there square
enough" , laughed Thierry.  "Justin , your face and chest are red as
cranberry juice".  "That's ok , we understand males and their tool".  "You
must have almost broken it in two to get the suit over it , cause it was
kinda tense down there when I was under the water ".  "Get back in the
water Justin and help us with Jos".  Justin lowered the winch to the
loading position and dived back in.  They gave Jos a half hour long work
out with stretches , extensions and curl-ups , trying to condition his
shrinking muscle mass.  As they worked Thierry and Adrien and Justin
talked. "If only Jos could do like that" , alluding to the log jammed
inside Jos suit".  Justin's face got redder." "It's totally normal Justin".
Thierry's comment was answered with a small grin.  "Jos used to do that all
the time, lots of times we helped him with it".  "Do you have a gf ,
Justin"?  "No".  "A bf"?  "No".  "Well then , how does the boy tool
manage"? "It doesn't , eer cept ".  "Justin , we know as do you about boy
tools".  "Yah whack it , right , you have to or it's stick right into the
apple pie at supper time".  A wide grin flashed across Justin , "Yeah , I
whack it".  Thierry laughed.  "Jos told me , he did that a lot after Jen
un-virgined him" .  Justin grinned , "I wish could get to know Jos better".
"Justin , you can do that".  "While we are stretching his body muscles ,
you can stretch his , tool".  "I do it every time we are in the pool , it's
a muscle also and needs therapy like the others." "The therapy books don't
mention that one".  Thierry and Adrien studied Justin's face , " You need
to release that tool once in a while as well , and we need to stretch Jos
foreskin and cremaster muscles.  Let's combine the two".  "Justin , Do you
like boys"?  "Ahh no - er naww - eh".  "Are you sure Justin"?  "We think
you do Justin , and Justin , we are totally ok with you".  "Take Jos hand ,
tuck his fingers inside his, I mean your swim suit on that rage-ing thing".
Justin hesitated.  Thierry lifted Jos' hand lowered it into the water but
he started to sink under the water level.  "Justin , keep your hands under
Jos so he doesn't injest water".  Thierry tucked Jos hand inside Justin's
swimsuit , carefully wrapped the fingers around the expanded shaft.  Justin
sighed , his face mellowing as Jen watched his brown eyes.  "Jos is totally
ok with this Justin.  I am Jos' good friend.  I know everything about Jos.
He tries new things all the time , especially to learn about boys who like
boys.  Jos refuses to see differences .  He sees only trust and love
between people.  Do you understand Justin"?  Justin nodded as the full
effect of Jos tight fingers clamped on his tool .  The tip forced itself
above the waist band of the swimsuit as Thierry worked Jos fingers along
the rock hard shaft.  They continued to stretch Jos body and relax it ,
just a little letting his hips sink under water and then pulling them above
water again.  Jos tool was right under Justin's chin.  Adrien watched to
see his reaction as the pressure in his own tool deformed the swim trunks
under the water.  Justin stared straight ahead at first , refusing eye
contact .  Slowly his eyes rolled downward to Jos and his face dipped over
Jos tool , now flapping up and down in the waves .  Adrien steadied Jos'
head with one hand making sure his face did not sink below water level. 
His other hand reached for Jos tool , trying to coax some movement , some
kind of life .  "I do this every day that I am here , Justin.  I do it in
Jos bed , in Jos pool and in Jos therapy session in the gym , if no one is
upset by watching.  Are you ok Justin"?  Justin smiled making secure eye
contact , brown eyes to blue eyes no blinking.  "Yeah Adrien and Thierry,
I'm ok except Jos hand is gonna explode me ".  Back and cheeks now blushing
, Justin's face dipped to the bobbing softness .  His lips coralled the
floating tool and sucked it inside , automatically expelling pool water as
his lips sealed against the flacid tool, tonque licking , searching for
something that Jos could give.  Adrien continued to close his hand on Jos
hand clamping his fingers around a hardness that needed solution.  The
swimsuit slid down partially freeing the head of Justin's tool.  They
continued for several minutes in this mode .  Justin's tongue displace Jos
foreskin along his flacid rod and wrapped itself around Jos glans as the
pressure on his own tool inched higher.  Adrien noted that Justin's lips
were now stabilizing Jos' waist against sinking below the surface.  "Justin
, can you tell me if your ok" , He looked at Thierry for approval , "Justin
, Thierry and I need to know if your ok with cum in the pool , Justin we
are totally ok with it , and I know that Jos is ok with it".  Justin nodded
a yes and clamped his lips even tighter on Jos' penis.  Adrien and Thierry
studied Jos , heart rate , respiration .  "It seems a bit higher than ten
minutes ago".  "Justin , can yo feel any reponse from Jos"?  A hesistant
nod reponsed from Justin.  Thierry took a huge breath of air , dived under
Jos and placed his mouth over Justin's pulsing shaft.  Thierry signalled
Adrien to continue by pushing his head agains Justin, and pulling the swim
suit lower.  Adrien put one hand on his ball sac and pulled , and the other
digited his star as his mouth collected the colourless fluids pumping from
Justin.  Adrien felt Jos body tense , then Justin tensed , his lips tighter
, seeking what the comatose Jos could offer.  Thierry held his breathing
under control and expelled his lungs as bubbles and boy sperm permeated the
water.  Justin's face locked on Jos cock.  Adrien could feel his vibration
. At first he wasn't sure what was happenning.  "Were the vibrations from
Justin or from Jos"?  Thierry ran out of air and popped to the surface , a
pool of boy cum floating around him.  Justin was not giving up yet.  Even
as his liquids ejactulated into the pool he searched for the same from Jos.
Thierry took a deep breath , ducked back under the surface and re-enguaged
Justin , with one hand keeping Jos fingers tightly contracted on the
rockyness now going for a second cum.  Thierry put his fingers around Jos
balls and pushed his finger very gently into Jos star , gently at first but
firmly as his lower body seemed to be responding to Justin's demand for boy
sperm.Adrien and Thierry were signalling each other wildly , Jos cremaster
muscle contracted , slow tremors moved through his unused groin muscles and
Justin sucked the boy sperm goodness into his mouth.  Jos body quickly
relaxed but Justin came again , so violently that his mouth opened .  Jos
tool floated flacid from the interior along with some other stuff.

   Thierry popped back to the surface .  Thierry and Adrein stared at Jos
belly awash in glistening waves of cum and blood.  "Ohh cheese " ,
whispered Justin , I've hurt Jos so bad".  "No , Noah Justin , you have
not".  "The bullies kicked him in the balls so many times that blood leaked
into his prostate .  This is dried blood clots .  It's not hurt .  It's
results".  "Two months ago there were drainage tubes directly from Jos
bladder because the beating caused blood clots to form inside .  For weeks
after the beating his piss was red but slowly that changed .  Both boys
kissed Justin again and again , then Jos .  They rechecked his body every
where for more signs of consciousness but there were none.  The timer on
the pool side beeped indicating end of session.  Justin pulled the suit
over his shrinking tool and they put Jos back on the sling and lifted him
out of the pool.  Adrien and Thierry and Justin wrestled Jos body with them
into the shower , rinsed the pool chlorine away, then put him back into the
wheel chair.  Justin pulled off Jos swim suit showered quickly again ,
dried and put on his uniform as Thierry and Adrien dressed.  Justin filled
out the therapy report , then pressesd the purge buttons on the pool
control to get rid of the boy fluids.  Adrien took Justin's cell from his
uniform pocket , and entered his cell number , and Jos and Jac's cell
numbers.  Both boys wrapped their arms around Justin for a full minute ,
giving him the tongue in ear and royal kisses.  "We will keep in touch " ,
they whispered as Justin left for his school classes.  "Adrien , I want to
know every day how Jos is doing, please text me".  Adrien and Thierry took
Jos back to his room.  "He seems more relaxed now", whispered Thierry.  The
two boys grinned at each other.  "Whatever happenned , at the very least ,
excercised one muscle, and that is a start".













   October and thanksgiving was long gone .  Doctors concluded after the
nineteenth MRI and Ultr-S that Jos had no more blood clots .  His internal
organs healed slowly .  They moved him to a hospital recuperation unit near
his high school.  Joshua's ribs healed , his stitches healed , his abdomen
bloating dissappeared , his pelvic bruises generally healed though scars
formed where long term drainage tubes were kept in place.  At least Jac
could now attend school , but he would not unless Jos was with him.
Fall: Chapter: 23 Joseph and Una visit.
Jac remembered Joseph and Una's visit was next .  They arrived together
as usual.  "Er Jac , we went to George yesterday and he confirmed that Una

is not pergnant".  "What - I guess I didn't know." "Jac , We wanted to tell
Joshua and you that Una missed her girl thing last week , but then her
period happened two weeks late".  "Aww , Una - Jo , I'm sorry ".  "Oh no
nooo Jac , Were ok with it.  George explained that things like this happen
and not to worry about it".  Jac nodded.  "We wanted you and Joshua to know
first , and then when it went away we still wanted you and Jos to know what
happenned , in case any rumours persisted".  "I'm glad you told me Jo.  I
am screwed up enough with trying to understand my bro's condition.  If
George is ok with it , -he's a great doctor , - then I am fine by it .  Was
there a name or anything picked"?  "Una was affected a bit by the turn of
events .  For me , I guess it was kind of fun knowing that I'm not firing
blanks , but it was too short of time for me to imagine a loss".  "And you
Una .  Are you OK"?  "Yes Jac , were both ok with it ".  "Sometimes things
just happen , and in some way , we are loving each other closer and closer
each day .  We are taking precaution now to make sure the next baby we
start is fully planned for.  In the meantime , no real explanation and we
don't even know if there was a baby in such a short time of two weeks over
period".  Jac gave Joseph and Una a hug as they parted.  "Thanks Jo for all
the planning you have put into my visitors list.  Everyone here appreciates
the scheduling , er except maybe the hospital administrator but it seems
the staff dislike him anyway".  "See you later Jac and Jos."


Fall: Chapter: 24 Official visitors
Principal Kinner spent some time with the hospital administrator before
visiting Jos room.  They talked about the strain Jos visitors were loading

on the recuperation hospital.  "This place was designed for people who are
destined to get better".  "I know , but sometimes outcomes vary from
reality".  "That Jac kid is a snotty queer who sleeps with his vegging
brother".  "Oh my" .  "My students think much better of Jac than that". 
"Well young people today have too much freedom , and gays are getting too
much freedom all togther.  I don't want them here in my hospital".  "Like I
said , reality varies sometimes from the best laid plans , I beleive you
can find a way to help Jos get better".  I can't get that snotty queer out
of my room because of some agreement made downtown at the general".  "Jac
is perhaps extraverted but should not trouble you beyond that , - He's just
a kid".  "Yeah but he encourages my staff to waste time.  We don't have
time here for that nonsense , and we don't have time for a vegetable
either. He could be here forever.  The costs will blow my budget to hell,
and my bonuses.  "Are you sure , there is nothing you can do to get the
queer one out of here"?  "I will try", echoed the Principal.

   Principal Kinner visited Jac .  "Jac , there is nothing wrong with you!
Come back to my high school".  Jac's unease moved to high as the
conversation progressed.  As Kinner , Jac talked he fingered the cell under
his bed clothes carefully openning a channel to his dad.  " Sorry Sir , but
Jos needs my total attention.  He was beaten to death.  I will not let that
happen again".  "If you would agree to return to school for half days , I
promise Jos will continue to be cared".  "Your father would be happy also
to have you in school".  Kinner stared out the window , watching Canada
geese vee shapes on the horizon.  "OK .If necessary , I can have you
declared truant and the cops will deliver you to my classroom every day. 
You are under age Jac and must attend school".  "My father is a powerful
lawyer with friends in high places.  A move like that will end your career
Mr.  Kinner".  "My job is to push students for the best education with the
provincial taxes allotted".  "I dissagree Mr.  Kinner .  Your job is to
provide an education for every one IN attendance.  You do not get any grant
money from the province for me except when I am registered on your roll
call every morning".  "Ok , then I'm --" "It is not OK what you are trying
to do.  First , I am under age and you should not even be here without
proper supervision by a witness.  Second , Mr Kinner , if you are
threatening me , I shall report all such threats to your supervisor , and
third , there are six hundred students at your school .  Threats can work
both ways if you get the drift of half those kids attending your school and
knowing what is happening here at this minute".

   "Oh er , I apologise Mr.  Green .  I assure you , the two of us can get
along better than this".

   "Then lets do it".

   "Have you got any other issues with this room, Mr.  Kinner"?  "Thanks
for asking Jac, as a matter of second importance I do".  "Proceed".  "Can
you tell them , Jac , that the bloods patches are no longer required". 
"And why is that"?  "Well er , the classrooms are normal now , Rob and
Ralph and Jake are gone".  "That all you care bout , that they're
physically gone , they will stay in every victims memory forever" .  ""The
blood patches distract".  "Principal dear principal , I apologise but not
for the blood patches".  "I apoligize for imaging you to be ut of touch
with today's crowd.  Do you know what the splotches mean"?  "Well er no - I
do not".  Jac snorted , then regained composure : "It means that Jos is
getting better.  It means that every student in your school wears a patch
against bullying and for my Bro , and if , and when my Bro walks out of
here and returns to classes at your school , then and only then will I ask
them to drop the patches".  Kinner shifted : "But Jac , the bloods patches
propagate everywhere , and I want them out of my school - they thwart
learning by marring the uniforms".  Jac's voice lowered , deliberated ,
forced each word on to Kinner.  "So that's what you care about , You did
not want Jos at your school and now that he has fouled your precious
uniforms with symbolic bully blood , you think he is threatening your
academic knowledge.  I dissagree with you Kinner !  "You have the strongest
student classes in all of Toronto if not Ontario .  They feel the pain in
my Bro , because a dozen of them are here every day, and they want my Bro
to get better , more so than Christmas , because he represents trust ,
respect and freedom from bullys.  Your students know the cost of their
freedom because every one of them has seen my Bro's entire body and checked
the medical charts on these walls.  Your students have told me , you made
no effort to stop Jake and Rob over three years.  I interpret that , to
mean you , Mr Principal were ineffective against organized bully tactics".
"Well er I started to ---".  "What effect do you think that has on your
students"?  Kinner's face dropped - the blue eyed stare blinding his eyes.
"In fact I will never ask them .  Bro will ask them when he gets better".

   After the Principal left Jac texted his father about the conversation
and the result.  A text responded within seconds.  "Jac , yo're well on the
way to catching Jos in terms of negotiation.  Even sick , he has taught you
so much - love you Jac and Jos and take care".



   The months of pressure seemed to build in Jac's brain.  Jes and Jen ,
regarded their best friend , "You need another walk outdoors , away from
this place.  We will guard your brother.  Let this be another Jac day. 
Take my parka again".

   "But what shall I do"?  "That question means , do whatever you want". 
"Wha".  "Here , take my parka , put on your shoes and walk outside".  Jes
put her arms around him , sunk her tongue deep into his lips.  "We are
guarding your bro today".  "Ok".  "Ok".

   Jen and Jes nodded, "I'd like to go with you but we need to stay with
Jos".  "I'm goin over to the Rouge valley , It's quiet down there".  Jen
placed a hug on Jac ," A walk out doors even in November rain will help ,
but I want someone to be with you Jac".  "Can look after myself".  "I 'll
need to stay here with Jen".  "Call Thierry ".  "Naww , I don't need to --"
Jess located her cell and dialed Thierry , told him where to meet Jac. 
"Thierry will be there at the north side .  He knows where that is - Ok"
"Ok".

   Jac pulled Jess's parka over his street clothes and slipped out the
front door .  Cold rain misted the streets.  He trudged east , slowly so as
to judge the traffic greens ahead.  An hour later, Jac found himself below
a long sloping bridge conduiting traffic above the Rouge creek.  The water
was dirty and riled .  Bits of ice and slush coasted near the muddy bank.
Jac slogged along the edge , his sneakers soaked , the parka keeping his
body heat close.  This part of the river system was uninhabited , except
for the forest animals that managed to urbanize their homes to this ravine.
Water raced under the wide bridge but there was a path along the edge
continuing under the roar of motor cars far above.  "What the fuck am I
doin down here"?  Jac spoke to himself walking the muddy narrowing path. 
"It never rains or snows in here , the roof is a giant ramp for a half
million cars a day transiting Toronto".  He studied the banks , eyeing the
foundation remains of an earlier bridge when a movement above caught his
eye.  Stopping , he peered ahead and upward twenty metres .  A shape was
lying on the concrete footings above the path.  "Probably a garbage bag" ,
as he continued .  Inexplicably , Jac turned detoured up the steep bank. 
"Geeze somebody sleeeeps here"?  Jac stopped , stared at the dirty camo
parka.  "Ok mister"?  A tiny nod confused Jac .  "Yes - No".  The camo
shifted shape .  A pale face peered out at Jac.  "Yes-No"?  "Noh".  "Want
me to help ".  "Noh".  "You'll die under here , Down to minus five
to-night"?  Jac studied the face , vaguely then remembering , imagining .
"Do I know you"?  Far above , the bridge vibrated .  Several tractor
trailors laboured abreast , up the long west bound lanes , tires ripping
through the cold rain and ice falling on the surface.  "I do - know - you
". "You , you'er , er were Hal's drug buddy-" "El's dead"!  "Jeese Randy ,
I remember , the day you told me Hal jumped in front of a train".  "and he
did , gawwwd he did it".  Jac leaned over Randy , studied the dark brown
eyes and shaggy hair , whiskered components of unshaved face and a long way
yet before mustache.  A face full of pain as clear as the day Jac
remembered the news.  Randy pulled himself to sitting.  Jac sat in front of
him , on a facing concrete foundation.  Two boys studied each other.  "I
had a twin brother , Randy, S'name was Joshua"?  "No ahh , at first I
thought Hal was your twin .  He talked of you constantly , and near the
end"?  "Ahww man , gawwd Randy , why didn't you tell me Rand"?  "Hal
wouldn't let me tell".  "He only told me stuff when he was really stoned .
It hurt him to tell me.  I knew that because he forced me to remain silent
and yet when he was stoned three times over the limit , he would talk , as
though the pot was his only way to communicate".  "Awwff , Chisst , that's
why he could not tell me anything , isn't it Randy".  "He liked you like a
baby Jac , but you never took drugs , you never got stoned and he could not
talk otherwise".  "Ohhh gawd awful Jac , I liked Hal more than you but I
could not tell you what he said , because even when he was not stoned , he
remembered our pact to be quiet no matter".  Jac took one of Randy's hands
, studied the pain in his eyes , the scars on his cheeks and new bruises on
his forehead cheeks and throat.  "Is the pact over now".  "NOH", Randy shot
back , "He killed himself , the fucker , but I promised him ".  "Ohoo ,
wait a minute Ran , s'nothin wrong with what Hall did.  Wern't his fault".
"Deliberately cut himself to ground meat under a subway train" ?!  "No Ran
, Hal was sick ".  "How'd yo kno".  "My dad told me Hal was molested".  "My
dad told me suicide is a sin against God and he''ll spent eternity in
hell". "No Ran , for Hal and for you nooo , DON"T BELIEVE IT RAN".  Jac
slipped his parka hood off , then released Randy's hood.  The coat was army
surplus vintage , reaked of pot , but held the heat inside Randy ,
protected his body from the cold wet concrete bench.  Randy listened as Jac
spoke , tuning out the howl of wet tires far above.  "Randy , Hal was
hurtin more than I could know , Do you know what was happening to him". 
"He took his life , sucs".  Jac held Randy's face to concentrate on his
eyes.  "Randy , what did Hal tell you".  "Not to tell nobody".  "Randy , I
liked Hal , I liked him a lot.  Hal was like a brother to me, and before I
realised that I had a twin brother".  "What did Hal tell you"?  "He told me
about you , Jac" "Me".  "Jac , you and him were gay".  "Ran , the word gay
is a label invented by the church , a negative label and the church
preaches that gays should be destroyed".  My twin brother Joshua is in a
coma because three bullies thought he was gay".  "Matters not " , yelled
randy , "he killed hizelf".  "It does matter Randy.  I loved Hal , but you
loved him also.  You just said that a minute ago".  "Randy , look at me ,
look into my eyes , Do you think I would hurt Hal , do you think I would
hurt you ? .  Do you think Hal wanted to hurt you ?  Do you think Hal
wanted to hurt me?" "Did it anyway , hope he rots in eternity" , Randy's
lips curling into downward disgust.  Three hundred tires whined on the
pavement high above as momentary rain stopped and the water on the bridge
surface evaporated to nothing.  Jac positioned his fingers on either side
of the distraught face , felt the pain emanating from Randy's temples.  He
sensed the brown eyes opening to look at his eyes , and determined to make
a confident smile to Randy.  "Randy , Hal IS dead , Thats true , -talked to
Hal's mother , She cried on my chest for five minutes , the most hurtful
cry is a mother for her dead son , i'l keep it always not far from Hal's
memory".  Jac closed the distance until their noses almost touched.  Both
boys felt the heat from inside the other's parka and both boys scented the
other's .  "Hal is not rotting in eternity.  He is dead but you Randy, you
are alive with me .  Both of us knew Hal for the good times but you knew
him in the bad.  Ran , I need to know Hal's final days , I want to feel
what Hal felt and what you felt".  "No Jac ,it's gonna hurt me to tell and
it's gonna hurt you forever .  Look at me , I'm scared of the train but
when the time comes , I will be there on those tracks or maybe this river
of cold and mud".  "Randy , no one knows when the time comes, Hal did not
know ".  Randy shrugged.  "Do your parents know you're out here".

   My parents are gone , a great fight over the church .  My mom separated.
Hal said I could not call you so I told my mom and Dad about Hal , ---
thought they would call the cops .  Instead they fought over the church .
My dad took me to live in another apartment.  My mother's probably still at
church prayin for my soul".  "And your dad".  "He'l be at home drunk . 
I've not been home for two days , cause I'm the reason , according to dad
that mom left him".  "Randy , come with me ".  "Noah".  "You will die here
tonight , of exposure to cold".  "Didn't die last week , didn't die this
week".  "Randy , the weather's gettin colder every day , if not tomorrow
then the next day".  "Got only four joints left".  "That's stuff don't keep
you warm".  "Wanna join me"?  "Will you tell me what Hal said ?" "No".  Jac
brushed the dark hair from Randy's face .  "How could one kid a year older
than me have so much pain "?

   "Join me with the weed wrap"?  "Go ahead Ran , they say it helps pain"!
"Try me Jac".  From somewhere inside the parka , Randy produced one crudely
rolled joint with a lighter.  Randy lit the end and offerred it to Jac. 
"Suc it Jac , for all your worth".  Jac took a polite draft on the smoking
joint , handed it back to Randy.  Another crescendo of rubber tires on rain
swept concrete and steel , whined through the Rouge valley.  Rain was
increasing , and changing the tire whine to howl.  Randy flung it back ,
"No , no Jac , take a real drag on it at least three lung fulls". 
Cautiously at first Jac inhaled , then another .  "Exactly what Hal did ,
Jac", as mild coughs disturbed his breathing.  Jac's eyes watered as the
drug began to relax him.  "One more , and then it's my turn Jac , Let me
catch up to you".  Jac drafted a long slow inward breath.  The drug relaxed
his airways , then his mind.  Randy pulled the joint away from him and
sucked the last four long drafts from it , coughing as the smoke grew hot
and acrid at the end.  He dropped the burning end inside his parka cuff as
Jac and Randy finished off breathing the finale of hot smoke and drug and
charred nylon.  They sat , eyeing each other for a few minutes, each one in
awe of the slow down of the water in the creek , the fading traffic noise .
"Is this you're first time Jac"?  The words came from Randy but Jac heard
them a few seconds after he saw Randy's lips move.  "Uhh Yuhh".  Randy
breathed in the last smoke , then crushed out the remaining ember.  He
leaned forward , hands on Jac's chest , steadying himself for the promise
he had made to Jac.  "Jac , this is gonna hurt me so bad , and it's gonna
hurt you worse.  Are you sure"?  Jac nodded , then heard the words "are you
sure"?  Hal snugged up his grip on Jac's parka.  Brown eyes sinking , lips
and cheeks quivering.  "Jac , are you sure , you heard Hal's mother cries
of pain but once I tell you the story the pain will be inside you forever".
Jac looked up to the underside of the engineering marvel called the Rouge
Valley Bridge.  He could see through the bridge surface visualising the
traffic into trucks and cars and trailers by the sound of the tires.  He
looked again into Randy's face , the tears , the hurt and Jac tried to stop
Randy but it was late .  Randy started to tell Hall's story as the drugs
had promised.  "Hal told me about the priest.  It was the day after you and
Hal slept over.  Hal told me you pulled his cock and he pulled yours. 
"Something happenned " , Hal said , his cock started jumping like a pet
rabbit, made his whole body stiff , then soft almost as fast.  Hal was
super worried about that , as though he might slip into the fires of hell.
The next day he went to the big stone church with his parents.  They went
into the church service , but Hal went to a group of ten other boys and
girls.  They sat in a lower basement hall and were given soft drinks and
salted crackers.  Hal told me that the priest gave him two pops, urged him
to drink them.  Then Hal had to piss.  He found the toilette.  When he
undid his zipper a priest appeared beside him in the bathroom.  The priest
put his fingers on Hal's cock pinching and releasing the stream until it
harden as a rock and could not finish peeing.  The priest took him through
a door into an office , masking taped a hankerchief over his face and nose
and , flipped him on his belly over the desk.  Hal's mind confused ,
partially drugged while the priest stripped him naked , masking tape held
his hands and feet against the desk .  The priest lubed his ass and entered
him within minutes , pushing his hairy bag against Hal's ass as he tried to
scream.  The cloth had a powerful smell , like alcohol.  I know now , it
was pure alcohol or ether , chloroform , partially knocked Hal unconscious.
When Hal awoke the priest was sucking his cock and re-entered his anus with
a finger until Hal could not stop himself from that feeling.  The priest
raped his ass , then pulled his cock until he dry cummed and the priest
cummed again , once more , penetrating up his ass.  The priest cleaned him
off with a wash cloth , undid the tape and held him like a baby as Hal
tried to figure out what happenned to him and why he had a bad head ache
and strange feelings in his abdomen , like he had to poop and his ass was
so sore .  The priest dressed him , took him back through the door into a
bathroom stall , pulled his pants and underwear down and sat him on the
toilette , while jelly like shit seeped out.  Hal was afraid he was sick.
The priest told him to stay away from too much pop cause it might come out
your ass and not tell his parents or anybody else that he drank so much
pop. This is the story that Hal told me." Randy sat back as the drug
overtook his senses , slumped his head on his knees and slumbered.  Rain on
the tortured surface far above turned to snow.  A great silence filled the
valley under the bridge , a valley already numbed by the smoke weed.  Jac
slumped forward against Randy.  His mind slowly absorbed the burst of words
offerred by Randy.  Dreaming of the hairy ass pressed against Hal pumping
jelly like shit into his abdomen , er not into him.  The priest's cock was
ramming his ass and pumping cum into Hal's ass.  His mind revolted ,
absorbing the words again and the same words again as the pot slowed the
reaction time of understanding.  The pot could not prevent Jac's mind from
hearing every word , only slowed them down.  Jac's mind shudderred as he
imagined hearing Hal trying to scream .  Suddenly , his mind jumped to
Joseph's screams as his gran father raped him up the ass, puking in
George's apartment.  Jac's face greened his chest heaving .  His own
stomach flung out everything hitting Randy's shoulder before Jac dodged
aside.  The world continued moving as Jac spun away spewing puke in a wide
arc.  The world kept on spinning after Jac tried to stop , his stomach
puked until dry heaves awoke Randy.  "Hey , heeye Jac , you ok buddy" ,
grabbing Jac and pulling him away from the steep slope toward the muddy
water.  Randy put his arms around Jac , tried to lift him and pull him over
on to the concrete , but the parka pulled over Jac's head.  Jac's arms were
limp .  The parka flew off as Jac sank , rolled and tumbled toward the fast
moving water.  Randy steadied his mind , willed away the pot effects , lept
down the path to catch the limp body slipping into the cold Rouge creek. 
"Come on dope , get the fuck outta here , let me grab his arms "?  Randy
missed the arms as Jac hit the muddy water .  "Fuck it pothead , do it ,
grab Jac".  The current caught Jac's arms and head tugging them away from
shore , but Randy siezed his shoes dragging in the mud , locked his knees
in three feet of mud and held Jac from the water's grasp.  "Give him back
to me you fucking river of shit" "ive hm bak to me river o SHIT" echoed
back from the high concrete structures.  Randy pulled with every ounze of
muscle , got Jac's shoes close , then his knees , grabbed his belt and
hauled his body upright , Jac's back pressed against his chest his head
slumped forward coughing river water.  Cold river water dripped from Jac's
muddy hair.  He began to struggle sinking his feet deep into the edgewater
mud on top of Randy's.  The ice cold water seeped through their pants into
both boys ass holes.

   They struggled , their minds finally gaining the upper hand over the
cold and pot , but now they were stuck close to the bank but unable to
crawl out feet anchored in three feet of mud.

   "Jac , come-on Jac , give me a hand , the two of us can do this".  "Let
me go".  "Not yet , not till you tell me the pot has worn off.  Jac lift
your foot so I can get one of mine free".  Slowly , Randy gave the orders
and Jac complied until Randy's feet backed up to the shore , and
re-anchored.  "Now Jac pull one foot up and turn around slowly, easy , now
pull the other up and hold my wrists.  The process repeated as Randy inched
ashore , both boys clinging wrist to wrist.  Randy finally detected the
slippery path under his boots , overbalanced Jac as both boys tumbled on to
the muddy path.  Jac stiffenned his neck and turned his face to avoid
smashing his nose into Randy flat on the path.  His cheek laid on Randy's
cheek.  The unmistakable thumping and grinding of a snowplow raced over the
bridge far above them.  Both boys heard nothing as the pot took control
again.  Two minutes later Jac awared himself .  Face snug against Jes but
body freezing cold , muscles crying for heat.  His tongue darted out for
one more kiss but , it was not Jess.  Randy pushed him off.  Jac regained
his feet first , then pulled Randy upright.  The drug was weaker now , but
intense cold shivered Jac.  Randy put his own parka on Jac , sat him down
and retrieved Jac's parka slipping it over his head.  Jac's fingers were
unable to sieze the hood , so Randy pulled it close over his head.  He
openned Jac's parka and found a pair of mitts on an inside pocket, pulled
them over Jac's hands.  "Jac your soaked from head to toe .  We gotta get
you warm and dry soon.  Can you walk"?  "Yeah".

   Randy pulled Jac toward him , he collapsed , picked him up again ,
locked his fingers around Jac's waist and on to his belt.  They struggled
along the narrow path , trying to walk abreast , but risking a tumble back
into the riled water.  Jac mentally cleared the pot , his mind screaming
for heat , let Randy push him along ahead , Randy keeping his hands on
Jac's belt loops to make sure he stayed straight on the path.  They emerged
from under the massive bridge into cold rain and mixed .  Randy moved along
side Jac again but not letting go.  They struggled forward slowly as
Randy's mind sought refuge in a very old movie.  "W'Off to see the wizard"?
Randy tried again ,"Were OFF to SEE the WEEZARD".  Jac joined in the next
line , "the wonderful wizard of oz".  Then both boys got their legs working
together.  They made good progress for a hundred yards chanting the same
words to keep their legs in sync.  "Because becaus because because the
wonderful things he does".

   Freezing rain and sleet pelted them.

   Both boys stopped singing as a third voice chimed in "BECAUSE".

   "Hey Jac and er -didn't recognize you at first "?  "Im'm Randy". 
Thierry touched both boys ,peeked inside their hoods to make sure .  "Are
these the boys , I'm lookin for"?  Thierry breathed relief.  "Jess told me
to be here , sorry I'm late Jac and Randy".  Randy and Jac laughed as
Thierry indicated the car park direction.  The rain was full sleet by the
time they reached the car.  It washed away lots of mud but both boys soaked
in freezing rain.

   Ice had built up over the door handle and froze the key hole .

   Thierry wrestled , both boys to the passenger side .  The ice scraper
was somewhere inside the locked truck.  He stared at the ice completely
covering the door handle .  Jac colapsed almost pulling Randy until Thierry
caught him.  Thierry worried ," Fuck , the lock is frozen".  "Piss on it ,
shot back Randy".  He tried to undo his own pants but the zipper was frozen
solid and his fingers were colder.  "Thierry open my pants , I'l piss the
ice away".  Undoing Randy's belt and Jac's belt and his own .  The boys
pissed a tri-stream of steaming yellow water clearing the ice in seconds ,
as Thierry unlocked the truck door .  Thierry stuffed the two boys inside ,
saving his own piss for the drivers key lock.  He junped into his vehicle ,
the heater set to high and starting the engine.  He sniffed the sweet weed
aroma and studied their shaking bodies..  "Boys , you better get all that
crap off , so the heater can warm you".  "Get the shoes off, then socks ".
They struggled in the seat of the pickup truck bumping each other with arms
and legs as the heater pumped in heat.  Randy shed his muddy shoes , socks
quickly but Jac on the far side could not undo the muddy knots in his
shoes. Thierry set the seat back and the steering wheel ahead as far as
possible , reached over Randy to get to Jac's shoes.  "Oh man , Randy your
pants are soaked and muddy , get em off and just chuck em under up in front
, there".  "er ssure".  "And the shorts , they stink of frozen river mud ,
evrything push em in that pile".  Thierry lifted Randy enough to rip his
underwear off.  "Jac's colder , needs help first".  Then Thierry reached
over Randy to loosen Jac's shoes.  "Hopelessly tangled"?  In the meantime
Jac had wriggled out of the heavy parka and tee shirt which Thierry stuffed
behind the seat , noting that Jac was even wetter and colder than Randy. 
Jac your hair is colour of mud Thierry reached in the glove box to get a
pocket knife.  "Jac can you find a knife in there"?  "ahh thierry , s'lots
of men's ubicated bu'no knife".  "Got to be one there , look again".  Randy
saw the knife first , pulled it out , his freezing fingers fumbled the
blade opening.  The knife slashed a hole in his groin as it fell against
his inner leg muscle and rested against the tool.  "Jeees".  "Chhiisst" ,
Thierry recovered the knife gingerly , from Randy's genital , reached
across them and slit both Jac's shoe laces.  Jac concentrated on his right
shoe , finally pulled it off , and then the left one without untieing ,
then the socks , and finally filthy muddy pants.  They chucked the clothes
in the pile under the heater vents.  Jac was too cold to lift himself. 
Randy twisted toward him one arm behind Jac the other under his rib cage ,
anchored his hands and lifted Jac's weight enough .  Thierry pulled the mud
soaked underwear of his ass cheeks and pushed them to the floor boards with
the others .

   Finally the heavy parkas and pants and water soaked inderwear were
stuffed behind the seat with two deathly cold bare boys shivering , dopey
but hopeful in the pickup truck cab.  Outside the rain pelted ice then
sleet then snow , unsure of exactly what precipitation was ordered for the
day.  Both boys lost control to the pot as the heater air hit them.  Randy
laughed at the pile of condoms in the glove box , pulled one out and put it
over his finger.  "Oh cheese guys , don't do that".  "Jac laughed with
Randy , "well don't break it Randy , Thierry will need those".  He openned
another condom and dropped it on Randy.  "To keep his girl friend from
pregnancy" smiled Randy.  "Er ahh no , can't be right ", as Jac's lips
curved into a grin.  "Well yeah".  "Nope".  Randy side-looked at Thierry ,
noticed the mound poking toward the steering wheel.  His face froze , but
not from cold.  "Want my clothes now".  Jac watched his face : "Randy he
cannot stop that ".  "Wha".  "Thierry is one of my oldest friends , ben
doin that with me since grade school".  "Er I just - why "?  "Randy ,
ther's no why , Thierry just is , he's like that from day born , I guess.
Randy , look at your own tool , it's a bit swollen".  Jac tucked the tip of
Randy's foreskin into an oversize condom , laughing hysterically.  Randy
pulled the condom off his finger and blew it up into a giant balloon.  He
looked at Thierry's lap again.  "Geese , though nothin like that , it'l hit
the steering wheel if it gets out".  Jac laughed , "He has a river snake
alright but it don't bite boys unless they ask".  Randy looked at Jac's
tool and then at his own glancing at the blood seeping from the pocket
knife wound, then outside at the first snow fall of the season pelting the
hood , er i guess were warm now anyway".  "Thierry has a big tool , just
like some boys are over weight , it's normal".  Jac relaxed , letting the
remains of the drug settle him back into the seat.  Randy smiled at Jac ,
letting the drug push him into dreams.  As soon as Thierry put the truck in
gear and began to creep out of the parking lot , both boys were asleep. 
Thierry reached over to the glove box , gently closed the door as the truck
arrived at the exit to the city street.  His mind churned with the two bare
boys snuggled together sleeping in his truck , then realized , oh , oh , oh
, seat belts.  He stopped and stared at the two sleeping nudists.  A car
was entering the park and stopped in front of his truck.  A flashing red
light appeared in both windows.  "Cops".  Thierry froze.  A lady officer
approached Thierry .  He released the window an inch.  Thierry glanced up
the street to the higher parking level.  "We're cold , officer , very
cold". "Are you boys ok , we noticed the truck twenty minutes ago from up
there".  "Thierry smiled , were all fine here officer , but there is one
detail".  "Driver's licence - insurance "!  "Ah yes Ma-am".  Thierry
produced the licence from his wallet.  "Insurance , Mr Robertson , likely
in your glove box"?  Thierry reached over the two sleeping boys , a pile of
condoms fell out on Jac's lap as he grabbed the envelop with the insurance
paper.  "Oh chiisst , am sorry officer , just havin a day of badness here
that you wouldn't believe".  The lady officer detected pot aroma from the
truck as Thierry handed the insurance form to her.  "Well done Thierry , -
now what detail are you referring to" , as her eyes scanned the two boys ,
"not much pubic hair , they both look under age to be with you Mr Robertson
, at least nude".  "I need to talk to them , wake them please".  Thierry
looked at the officer , eyes darting .  "The truth Thierry".  "You won't
believe it".  "Try me".  "I am a life long friend of the far boy , Jac.  I
don't know the other boy , cept as Randy.  Jac's girl friend sent me to
pick them up , but I got stuck in traffic.  Both boys were soaked in cold
and mud when I found em , and possibly potted , I don't know for sure. 
They're sleeping now but were really silly before the heater warmed them
up. I found them down there near Rouge Creek.  I made them strip down in
the cab here and pretty much, s'all I know".  "Roll down the window please
, and the condoms "?  "Well I keep the glove box full".  "And your own lap,
looks like it might break the zipper".  "Yeah , it's true officer , I'm gay
as freak can be but I respect Jac and his friend , and he and I are friends
only".  The officer smiled , glancing at her partner waiting in the cruizer
then stared into his face: "Thierry , you are NOT a FREAK".  My training
tells me you are normal.  "Is Jac and Randy".  "I told you , I don't know
about Randy.  Jac is a friend since grade one".  The officer jotted more
noted in her book , smiled.  The cold air through the window awakened Randy
first , then Jac.  "Were off to see the freako the wonder freko of ooze".
The officer stared at Randy as both boys awakened.  Jac lazily looked at
his lap and gathered the condoms from his crotch and the floor , and
stuffed them back inside the glovebox.  Jac found the very large condom
which Randy had blown up.  He looked at it lazily and stuffed it over the
other condom on Randy's tool.  "Get back in the box you fucking condoms and
don't cum out till Thierry wants you".  Randy noticed the officer , and
screamed "Faaawwwk ---cops ".  Jac put a hand on his , "Ok Randy , were get
in warmed by the heater and were fine , and by the way Thierry and I have
known each other since kindergarden and , Thierry is gay.  I'm ok with
that"!  The lady officer queried Randy : "The truth young man".  "er heall
".  Jac laughed , "it's ok Randy , were ok and Thierry's ok".  "Randy
Mcdoss".  "Why are you undressed"?  Jac and I fell in the water under the
bridge , ook us en minutes oo get out , we're soaked and then walked here
with Thierry in the fuccin freezing rain.  Jac was in the water farthest,
and I pulled him out.  We're almost froze to death until Thierry got us
undressed in this cab and got the heater on".  "And Thierry , why were you
stopped before going on to the street"?  "Officer ,both these boys are nude
and sleepy and without seat belts.  I am gay , they are under age, It would
not be right for me to go that close to attach there seat belts".

   Jac laughed ." Thierry I trust you to put my eat elt onnn".  "And you
Jac , are you ok ".  "Yes officer ".  "OO sleepy"?  "Jac , Why sleepy?"
"Officer I smoked a joint under the bridge , the first and last I'll ever
smoke , I'm sleepy and tired and totally relaxed" , as his head drifted
lower toward the dash.  Officer laughed , "I sure can see that Jac". 
Thierry laughed , and so , can you boys please put on the seat belts before
you fall asleep again".  The officer laughed again , contacted her partner
with the radio as he approached from the other side.  Randy sighed
"Sheeet"! "Hello Jac , you sure know how to lighten up a policeman's day",
laughed Eric as the passenger window rolled down two inches.  Eric studied
the two boys .  "Randy , we are watching you as time permits ,trying to
keep you alive .  I know what you've been through, or at least some of it
with your father and mother fighting and separated by the cops on a
neighbours complaint and your father getting nailed for drunk driving and
fighting in a bar on the strip mall, and I know you took him home that
night and sobered him up and he probably smacked you in the face because I
see the bruises , and I know what Jac has been through in the last two
months , with his twin brother beaten to death on the first day of school
and lying in a coma over at Sunnybroke.  Randy and Jac , I need to know why
you two are together .  Normally the two of you live in different social
structures".  The lady officer regarded Eric questioningly.  Eric looked at
the lady officer , then at Randy.  " Jac and Thierry work as team in the
recuperation hospital trying to get Jac's brother Joshua out of a coma. 
Thierry IS a friend of Jac but was born gay and has learned to control his
life just fine despite the freaky religions and tv evangelists espousing
gay hate.  I know Jac's dad as one of the best citizens in the city and his
son here , Jac makes me wish , I want my son to be like that.  Randy , you
were born to parents who may or may not make it .  Right now you are with a
kid who will make it ".  "Not likely ", whispered Randy , "and after what I
told Jac , he's fucked also , but he made me tell it".

   The lady officer made more notes , handed Randy a card with some phone
numbers.  "Randy , I know these people and we have given their card to you
before .  I also know that a boy your age cannot call out for help because
you've never experienced human trust from care givers .  Jac is one of
those citizens who somehow gains the trust of others , easily .  His
brother was even better , so I've been told .  But Jac's brother is in the
nearby recuperation hospital , his life suspended in coma caused by a
vicious beating by bullies on the first day of school last September".  "I
can't seem to understand anything .  Jac tried to tell me about his bro but
I did not respond , wish I could just sink into the mud and die".  Jac put
an arm on his shoulder.  "I needed you man to save me from drowning. 
Thanks Ran for giving my life another chance".  The officer made more
notes. She noticed the camo parka stuffed behind the seat and reeking of
river mud and pot.  "Randy , this organization purchased that coat for you
. I'l tell them to be real proud , it may have saved a life today".

   Thierry grew attentive .  "Officer when I found them , Jac was freezin
wet past his ears and underwear and he was wearin that parka , that you
gave to Randy".  "Did you give your parka to Jac"?  "Yeuh" "Why did you"?
Randy became silent , stared away at the park trees.  "Jac"?  "wost my
balance, Randy grabbed my shoulders and my parka but it slipped off and I
fell in the river , Randy went in the river and grabbed me , pulled me out
by the shoes , water was freezin my balls , I could not move.  Randy put
his warm coat on me from his own body heat, and pulled the hood tight.  I
guess he had to wear my parka , it's not mine , belongs to my girl friend
Jess"

   The lady cop made some notes and continued, " Somehow , two of you half
frozen and covered with river mud are in birthday suits , muddy , warm and
dry in this pickup truck in a snow storm , but Randy is with blood leaking
from a groin wound and half wearin a condom , er actually two of em now. 
"Ih , I cut myself with the knife , trying to cut Jac's shoe laces". 
"Thierry step out please".  She slid into the seat beside Randy , quickly
closing the door to avoid draft and rolled the window tight.  "Are you ok
Randy"?  "Yes Ma-am".  "Are you ok with me checking that knife wound"? 
Randy stared straight ahead , his mind trying to grasp the officers
question.  "Sa Say Again"!  She spoke slowly : "Randy I need to know about
your knife wound , Will you let me examine your wound"?  After another
pause , "Nn no".  "Randy , as part of our police training , I need to
examine your genitals and the wound".  He watched the snow cooling the hood
and the wind shield.  "Randy , are you ok with Jac examining you".  "Yeuuhh
- er ok".  The officer looked at Randy, then at Jac.  Jac are you ok with
looking at the wound on Randy's inner thy".  "Yuh , I'll do it , yu'ok
Ran". Randy shrank a bit.  The officer watched.  "It's ok Ran , my bro and
I don't worry about all that church homophobia.  Touch me if yo want , any
where you want.  We will not be struck by lightning"!  Randy sighed
approval.  "Jac , lift his penis away from the wound".  Jac lifted the
shrinked foreskin protected penis as Randy stared straight ahead.  "Pull
his right scrotum up , yes that's right - no damage there , now the left ,
right , great".  "Now Randy and Jac , you guys were in to the pot". 
"Right".  How long ago , er are the effects gone"?  Randy sighed , "Yeah ,
I took the last tok about an hour and a half ago , It was stupid".  "Jac"?
"the same, officer , it was my first and last , we had reasons for doin it
, Randy and I and it was stupid".  "Hang on Jac , I brought the pot and I
gave it to you".  The officer sighed , but said nothing.  She looked out to
check on Thierry, he was in the cruiser with Eric.  "Boys , Randy and Jac ,
I want the real reason you smoked it today.  I do not judge the stupid or
not stupid , I want only the truth".  Each boy looked , peered out the
windshield watching the snow melt on the hood.  "Lots of times the
circumstances force us to do stupid Randy".  Randy slouched , "Not possible
ma-am".  "I need to know the circumstances Jac"?  Jac's head dropped ,
Randy hesitated , "Can't tell you Ma-am".  Silence pervaded .  The heater
speed seemed to be speeding and then slowing.  Jac pushed the drug out of
his mind and sat straight , smiled at the officer.  " I can" , stated Jac.
Ran , I've made no pact with Hal or you.  I'l tell the cop , though it's
gonna hurt like nails pounded in my ass".  The officer looked straight
ahead now as though she was not there.  "I needed a day off from watching
my broer.  With Jess' help I left the hospital wearing her parka.  That's
the one Ran was wearin when Thierry found us .  She called Thierry to tell
him where to find me , cause I told her I was walkin in the Rouge valley
under the MCF.  The weather was cold and rainy .  My bro has shown no signs
for three months , since the BWBAD.  I just needed a break from the
hospital.  I found Randy under the Rouge River highway bridge.  Old
memories slammed me.  Last time I saw him , was when he told me that Hal
suicided".  Jac's voice stopped abruptly.  The officer peered at his face.
She saw the blue eyes , the fluttering eye lashes the pale cheeks and fear
in Jac's face.  "I dun wanna go back there".  The officer nudged Randy . 
"No officer , it's gonna hurt worse than a million nails".  They waited ,
watched the snow pellets bounce on the hood.  Jac began to speak again" "I
needed to say goodbye to Hal and I needed to know what happenned to Hal. 
He was my best friend growing up.  Randy had that information but promised
Hal never to tell anyone.  I made a deal with him .  Smoke the pot and get
the talk".  The officer continued note taking , "and Jac , can you tell me
the information"?  Jac stared at Randy.  "Yeuuh Jac , tell her , what I
said , you made no promise to Hal to secret it , tell her before the pot
wears off or it will kill us, goddam if only my parents had called the cops
when Hal got sick----".  Jac began to pull the information out of his mind.
"Hal and I were best friends in grade six.  Hal looked just like me , and I
loved him like my own brother .  At that time I did not know anything about
my real twin brother.  We did boy things together but Hal was worried about
religious retribution, burning in hell and all that .  His parents took him
to church.  Instead of helping Hal, a priest raped him with choroform or
alcohol or ether.  It raped Hal's mind , and he could never talk to me
about it, but he smoked joints with Randy and he told Randy stoned stuuuf.
Two years later , my dad told me that the priest was arrested for sexual
assault and they were asking victims to come forward.  But my friend , Hal
, my best friend , gawwd dam it , fucking priest , jesus be dammed fucker
of the church and bibles - jeesu jeesus fuckers - Hal could not talk to me
or the police by that time.  Why oh why oh why ?  The priest might as well
have cut out his voice box and eaten his balls..  He was killin himself
with guilt and shame and religious fear".  Jac paused , his mind listening
to his own words again and again as though they kept echoing inside his
mind.  Randy slouched into the dash , ears fearful, covering his ears from
Jac's words.

   "I called him daily and all I got was his mother or Dad.  Saying "Hal
won't go over to your house , and he no longer wants to see you Jac".  I
could see Hal in my mind , his life forced into a sewer by organized
religion .  Noo choices left , no life left .  My parents always supported
me but his were pretty religious and aloof from Hal.  He could not talk to
them either, and instead of the police he JUMPED ON the tracks in front of
a north bound train .  Chiiist .  God damm , can't breath for tears." Jac's
face wetted with sweat and tears, heart pounding , body re-absorbing his
adrenalin.  He held his head in both hands as if to squeeze out the pain ,
but no way of relief came.  "Hal's d - dd ddead , Why , why the fucking
Chiist , why?" The officer out breathed heavily.  She quelled her own tears
as Jac slumped forward , the seat belt rattling as it unwinded with his
body , hiding his eyes on the dash .  Ramming his head against the dash
padding to thwart off more pain , water running down the glove box door in
streams , floods of water rained.  Both boys rammed their heads on the dash
, but the thudded sounds did not drown out the words of death.  "Jumped on
the tracks - north bound train" , kept rolling and rolling through Jac's
mind , his teeth gritting , head smacking on the padding with loud thumps.
The truck heater adjusted itself having brought the cab up to full heat ,
windows defogging as the snow danced off the hood and splashed on the
windscreen.  Sucking Jac's tears into the air circulation vents , the fan
blasting them back , condensing on the windshield .  A river of hurt flowed
from Randy's face .  He had been silent but now , his face twisted , jaw
quivering and brown eyes squeezed shut, he talked into the dash : " Jac I ,
Jac , buddy, I didn't tell you the whole story at once .  It would a killed
us both .  Please Jac , Pulease , let me tell you the rest before I die ,
Hal deserves that much".  Randy raised his face away from the dash , wedged
his head with both fists to stop it from banging.  "I could not talk with
him , nor to him .  I touched his face , like it was cold and he was
already dead.  I was with Hal on that walkway over the train tracks .  No
pot and no booze and Hal's mind was underground with shame.  Hal's mind was
lower than the gopher holes in the park .  Hal was behind me , but his mind
was in the gutters of that goddammed church.  There was nothin to say .  We
walked sayin nothin to each other till Hal got to the walkway.  I was goin
over the details.  "Hal was fighting with his parents.  I was beaten by
mine , my mother was tryin to send me back to church and Hal's mother - the
same.  My mother and Dad separated her prayin for me at the church and my
dad drinking a case a day.  Hal and I , We had no money for booze and none
for pot.  My mother took away my allowance to punish me for tellin her that
the priest was a pedo.  Hal 's dad refused to give him money because of
their mother.  I stole two bottles of beer from my dad's case but they
clinked together.  He heard it.  He chased us , with it until we fell over
a garden hose , the bottles broke on the sidewalk and cut Hal's face and
mine .  The weather was raining like early today and I was ahead of Hal on
the path , walking , bleeding blood runnin in our mouth and down our chests
, behond fear , and alone, each of us in a little cube of separation
silence.  We were in a city but we heard no sounds.  Everything I had known
as a kid was gone and for Hal , he didn't feel his own body.  He didn't
even see it.  I stopped on the path and he walked right into me zombie like
, eyes straight, no expression , cold gray face.  Turned to get ahead of
him again, heard a train rumbling and felt the walkway move slightly ,
looked around , FUCKING GOD OF SODDEN HEATHENS , his body was in the train
wheels below, pieces of blood and arms and legs were flying around from
under the steel , Yet, the train did not stawp .  The giant wheels , I
watched his body ground up into pieces the size of woodchucks , liters of
blood spraying the grass and trees and bushes.  Wheels turned red and spit
the woodchucks back out , but not woodchucks.  It was gone in seconds.  I
ran down the bank and picked up his arm by the hand , still warm blood
pouring out the elbow , tried to put it back on , but there was nothin ,
nothin FUCKING NOTHING to do , awww aw awww".  Jac's face banged louder on
the dash as his mind screamed the pain of Hal's death : "Wawwww , faawww".
Lips , tongue , unable to sound any real meaning but still making noises.
Randy's voice whimpered away .  The boys turned to each other.  Jac held
him with both arms crying , both of them oblivious of the cop .  Hal's
death , a current of unfathomable torment , pushed the boys together.  She
continued to make notes as her own tears soaked the pages of truth.

   An ambulance entered the parking lot followed by another car .  A young
woman medic and the ambulance driver tried to separate the two boys. 
Punching her viciously , snarling like wolves , kicking her away .  The
medic retreated.  Adrien and Robert ran forward with blankets and warm
clothes but the boys would not be separated .  They clung together , as
Robert and Adrien and Thierry restraining and carrying them to the
ambulance , placed them together on one carrier , covered them with
blankets.  "The medics wondered , attending to each others wounds. 
"Whatever these bruises on my face can hurt , what ever that kick on my ear
, is nothing like the world has dished out to those two boys .  If we can
only wait for a hundred years time to smear those wounds , I feel they will
never heal".  Robert and Adrien rode in the ambulance with the boys and the
medic.  It crept through the street slowly.  Robert and Adrien restrained
the legs and arms gently and talked to the boys as the medic checked them
over.  "No siren , please , and no sounds" , as she checked for vital signs
on both boys.  The ambulance glided out of the park away toward the
hospital , a police car in front and the other car driven by Jill ,
Thierry's truck following .  A layer of fresh white snow muffled the tires
reducing the tire noise.  "Everything's fine at least physically , cept for
a half inch gash on his groin muscle".  She poured some anticeptic on the
site , and paisted the skin together with surgical tape, replaced the
blanket.  Robert and Adrien relieved their force , letting the boys snuggle
together as one cowering animal under the blanket.  Adrien closed the
window blinds to darken the interior.



   The driver slowed , taking wide turns and gentle stops , as the hospital
neared.  Randy and Jac drifted into hazy stupour.  Ambulance drifted toward
the hospital.  Thierry called Jen and Jes to let them know all was well,
but NOT , no way NOT.  The police car veered away as the ambulance
approached the emergency bay.  Thierry's truck and Jill's car found a
parking space , as Robert and Adrien carried the two boys into an elevator
, then to a padded room on the second floor.  Hospital staff attempted to
separate the boys .  Arms and legs punched and kicked them away.  Growling
sounds and crys of anquish attacked the walls.  Adrien separated the staff
from the boys.

   Randy's dad and mother were notified, then told not to come to the
hospital.  Robert and Adrien and Thierry stayed with them until midnight.
Alternating between intense sleep and bouts of thrashing arms and legs. 
Screams of "Don't jump" and unintelligible terror greeted Jen and Jes as
they took over the watch accompanied by the mental trauma experts. 
"There's no answers .  There are no medicines for this kind of trauma, only
time and love .  It's too early for any medication, unless there is
complete malfunction" .  Outside in the city eight hundred students hoped
for some miracle to cure Joshua but this day was dead opposite.  The
students , unaware that the chief care giver for Jos was in the same
hospital upstairs.  In another wing of the hospital Jill and her mother sat
beside their unconcious son , Joshua trying to understand the violence in a
boys life and waiting for word on Jac .  The exact dead opposite of miracle
day finally concluded.  A hospital doctor read the police report , stayed
for hours with Jen and Jes , helping them to understand the power of
violence laid bare on fun loving boys.  "The true account of Hal's death
experienced by Randy was violent as the original event and amplified
between the two boys , just by reliving it and talking about it".  Jen and
Jes : "Will Jac be changed by knowing the exact details of Hal's death "?
"No human mind , can experience an event like this without changes".  "Such
as"?  Each boy is individul.  Each mind will relive that event until every
part of his brain realizes it is true.  This can take days for a complex
brain.  Eventually the boys will handle the truth .  Only those friends
extremely close to them will ever be allowed to share .  Jac is lucky , to
have such close friends in his agony".  "Randy"?  Randy has Jac to pull him
through ".  Times in the night Randy thrashed about , Jac holding him
subdueing him just enough, and then the clinging again, the closeness as
both boys pulled themselves into cowering animal mode , heedless of all
else.  Jac and Randy slept.  Snuggled , then clinging in each others arms ,
until sun rise , hugging each other with Jess beside Jac and Jen beside
Randy.  Jac seemed ok with letting go but Randy still held him tight , his
mind still screaming in the pain of train wheels and explosions of blood .
Jen brushed Randy's black hair and Jess helped Jac sit up as the sun shone
through the open blinds.  "Where's Jos , I wanna see Jos now, please Jes".
Tears reflowed Randy.  "No Jac , stay .  Please stay here Jac".  Randy's
arms pulled Jac into the body hug again.  But Jac tried to pull away . 
"JAC" , -- asking again for his brother Joshua .  Randy screamed and lunged
but Jac avoided him , out of the bed as Randy's body crumpled smaller into
a frightened animal on it's last desperate mission to live.  Staff came
running .  Jes and Jen stopped them.  "No drugs , No pain pills" Randy was
crying now , blubbering , cowering.  Jac was torn in pieces , go find Jos
or help Randy.  He began to climb back -- , Randy's body was stiffenning ,
straightening with intense abdominal pains as the autonomic nervous system
kicked in to maintain his life.  His bowels and bladder dumped in a last
ditch effort to reduce function to essentials only.  Jac had already seen
Joseph go through this.  He called for the interns to help him carry
Randy's body into the shower.  They adjusted the water temp , and Jac
kissed Randy , picked him up and carried him into the warm rain , his body
convulsing , mind in civil warfare , continuing to dump non essential
functions.  Jes and Jen followed into the warm rain.  They held Randy's
body under the shower caressing , petting and loving him until his limbs
subdued and mind colapsed into sleep .  The beds were clean when Jac
carried him back , a snuggly sixteen year old boy at baby level pulled Jac
against his chest and dropped into coma like sleep , arms and fists locked
around Jac's neck lips touching Jac .  Within seconds Jac followed him to
sleep .

   Jess and Jen looked at each other and nodded .  They rang the nurse,
"Please bring Jos here".  Several arguments ensued.  In the end Robert and
Jill and Julia and Aric arrived at the hospital and demanded that Jos be
moved into the same room as Jac and Randy.

   The suns rays shone bright and noon approached as Jos bed crept into the
room.  Jos was carefully added to the bed beside Jac .  Sniffing his
brother beside him , within seconds Jac awoke , licking his face and then
Randy's face.  The three boys stayed together that day.  They showered
together that evening and ate together , though Jos could not eat with
them. By morning of the next Randy stood up by himself .  Jac vaulted out
of bed to catch him.  "It's ok Jac, My nightmare is over".  The boys faced
off , dropped their hospital gowns and moved together .  Randy turned to
Jac raised both hands above his head and Jac did the same.  Their fingers
clasped then moved down along the out stretched arms until both boys
latched , chest to chest , arms around slender stomachs , fingers clasping
ribs , together snuffing there ability to breath until both ran out of air.
"Jac , I dreamed , more details , more trauma , and I wanted to tell you
but we were asleep".  "You did tell me Ran , I heard you in my dream .  As
soon as Jos and I get well we will go there with you again Randy , but for
now let's live a day for us".  "But Jac , one more question please"?  "I
love you Ran, and thanks for pulling me out of that cold muck".  "Ahh Jac,
Why did Hal do that to me"?  Jac licked his face sideways and cleaned the
eye sockets , whispered , Hal did nothing to you Rand.  He took steps to
end his own self.  Suicide is not a sin , Randy .  We do not judge Hal for
that.  We can only love him for what he was, from memory.  Hal's body was
raped.  His body was stripped away from him by the pawer of a protected
pedophile priest .  It did not belong to his mind anymore.  Just as we
dream and redream the events until our minds understand , Hal's mind
replayed the rape over and over until a million times a day , lost all hope
of understanding the events of the rape.  His mind decided to kill the body
rather than let the priest take it again and again and again .  About us
Randy , our own hurt.  My dad told me that it will never heal , and Randy ,
we must not try to heal it.  You and I Randy were Hal's last contact and we
need to preserve that contact at all cost.  We can only put that place
aside and go there on occaision ".  Randy held Jac tight as possible.  "Jac
, We are doing that now ".  "Yes" , affirmed Jac .  "Each of us loved Hal,
and each of us can heal ourselves , with the memories of Hal and without
drugs".  "Jac , Can we go there now"?  "For a minute or two".  Randy nosed
close to Jac , placed his tongue on Jac's neck and held , finaly taking
another breath , "Jac , Hal was my first friend , he let me do things to
feel good and he mentored me with my difficult parents .  Hal let me enjoy
life , and when he'd die- sui-cided I replaced him with drugs but it did
not work.  I now understand that I loved Hal more than anyone in this world
, and I never told him once.  No goddam , I never told him once because of
the fucking church dogma".  Randy put his fingers on Jac , his face on
Jac's chest and his lips slimed the toned muscles destined to become the
six pac.  "Jac , I love you too , and I love you the same as Hal because
you trust me , you push me to make myself like you .  S'no coincidence that
both of us liked Hal.  But I could not tell him and he could not talk to
you because of that rape"!  Staring intently into Randy's eyes , Jac pulled
his face to his.  Returning the licking to Randy's neck and ears.  "I guess
the bottom line is , love trumps trauma".  "Yes it does Ran ".  " It trumps
all other cards , but religion kills it and replaces it with God's word".
"Randy , you are starting to understand what it means to be a human.  You
are loosing the grip of religious teachings where all boys who touch each
other attract the wrath of the lord.  There is no wrath , and there is no
pergatory".  Randy continued .  "There's no burning infinity in hell" . 
Randy's lips parted , dared to smile.  " I'm gonna leave Hal for now .  How
did your bro get such an advanced mind , and will I ever catch up to him?"
"My bro , Joshua , yeah".  Ran and Jac watched him sleep.  "Jos grew up
with his mother , who rarely worked in one place more than a year.  She
raised Jos on her intuition , without church , without Jos getting
permanent friends.  He had several years of being his own self in school
and developed a stratedgy for survival based on his mother's love.  After
puberty kicked in for him, his independance guided him to the next door
twins.  Jos helped Jes and Jen, and then they awakened Jos.  He began to
realize his own destiny separate from his mother.  He located me and his
father and brought us back into the family.  But that was only the
beginning.  Jos knew that my friend Thierry was gay , but his mother told ,
by her actions , told him gay was bad.  Jos experimented with boy to boy
love , trying to understand Thierry , and he did understand Thierry.  Jos
did all this by the time he was fifteen.  He had a girl friend and he
experimented with boy friends in order to learn".  "Like as"?  On my
fifteenth birthday my brother ,,, -Jos- he sucked my cock in front of his
girl friend and in front of my girlfriend before I ever knew her as a
friend.  The twins , Jes and Jen were moderately religious at that point.
Jos showed them the capability of a human boy unrestricted by two thousand
year old concepts.  He showed me also what I should be and for that I am
forever grateful to him and I miss Jos soo bad".  Randy reaffirmed his
fingers over Jac, his cheeks , neck , collar bone, "I am soo sorry Jac
about your brother Jos, on two levels.  One , I have wasted a lot of your
time already which you could have spent with Jos , and second , I am sorry
to have missed out on knowing your twin brother".  "To know me is to know
Jos , sort of".  "Why did the bullies assault Jos"?  Randy watched the
facial muscles distort , "Oh Jac , I am so sorry , for asking such a stupid
question".  "No question is stupid , Ran".  The two boys said nothing more
, simply content to hold each other and the comatose Jos beside them. 
"Joshua , you will get better , I know you will , you will marry the girl
beside me and she will grow your seeds into capable adults.  Hal can never
do that Joshua , but you will.  Jac and I can only wonder what Hal would
have become , what he would have named his first baby and where he'd be
when we finish college".  As Ran spoke , Jen wrapped her arms around him
over top of Jac's arms.  "In the next ten years , evrything good can happen
for us , but Hal is frozen in a timeless zone , suspended forever , and we
must remember his essence , his fun and ten years down the road , who he'd
be on graduation day.  Jen , I beleive everything good will happen to
Joshua and to you and Jac and Jes".

   Jess and Jen and Jac pulled Ran into their circle.  He smiled at them ,
I will survive too , the cop said I was with people who would make it.



   Police officers at the station continued their work , re-highlighted the
priest rape case .  By the next day a special interview officer arrived to
talk with Randy , with new questions and cross-reference questions.  They
argued with the doctors in the corridor.  "No one is to talk about the rape
and suicide again".  Jen and Jess heard the commotion as it moved to the
lower common room.  Jen followed them and spoke up.  "The boys thrashed in
the night , but Jen and I held them from each side, as did Jos , just by
bein there.  The boys are now thinking about it over and over, and over ,
with Randy almost able to function and Jac ok for now".  Jill entered the
room as Jen spoke and listened quietly.  Jess continued , "We will watch
these boys personally until they organize their thoughts.  Jen and my twin
sister Jess .  We have watched the damage unfold at our high school for
three years regarding the bullies who believe god told them to destroy
gays. We have spent countless nights with Jos trying to contact a mind
badly beaten by those bullies that , but even in coma , he is a legend at
BridgeWork for eight hundred students".  Jen and I insist that the police
be allowed to do their work.  The time for waiting and for protection is
long gone.  The next time the bullies strike or organized religion
soddomise one more kid , it is one more precious citizen reduced to rubble
with secondary lifetime issues for their friends and allies.  Do the
questioning now , and we will care for Jac and Randy and Jos.  Jill took
the argument next.  "When my husband and I married we had two beautiful
indentcal boy twins , but somehow organized religious rhetoric and judges
and laws pulled that all apart such that Jac never saw his own brother for
thirteen years.  It is time to let the police do their work without
restriction .  Doctors do not have a good track record when it comes to
protecting the minds of our children".  With all the arguments on the table
, the doctors backed off.  The police interviewer was taken to the boys
room.

   "Randy we need to ask you some questions.  Please come to the waiting
room with us .  I have reserved the room for us.  We will be alone for a
couple hours".  Randy eyed Jac .  "No".  Jac stared down the cop .  "NOPE".
The officer removed his outer jacket trying to fit in with two frightened
animals.  Randy glared .  "Bottom line officer you ask us the questions
here or get the fuck out".  "Riight men".  He brought a chair and sat by
the bed.  "And this boy , is he ok with the questioning".  "Thats Jos , my
broer.  He's e'coma".  "I could not protect him from the bullies"!  "That
case is still open and proceding" , volunteered the cop.  The officer set
up a video cam corder on the four of them.  The officer opened a note pad .
Taking a deep breath , and prepared his mind for what he knew would take it
to places where hollywood horror stories can not go.  "Ahh Jen and Jes " .
"Yes".  "The questions , I will ask will take us to places of personal hell
for these boys .  I ask you two to leave".  "We will stay , officer , to
comfort our friends".  "OK".  Jen and Jes remained with the the interviewer
as Jac talked and Randy silented , but as before , Randy eventually started
to give the details that Jac had not ever known, all of the details in the
language of a sixteen year old brain subdued and burned and bent for three
years by the forces of organized religious censorship.  One by one the
interview peeled back the "praise the lord" , "sit down" , "shut the fuck
up" , "can't say that", "the rot in infinity" and the concept of burning in
hell.  Peeled away the strife generated between the parents of two boys ,
one boy who took his own life and two other boys who lost a friend before
they really ever knew him.  Question after question of relentless pain ,
minute after minute , hour after hour about a boy who made the right
friends and lost evrything to a church that preaches boy to boy contact
causes hell fires .  Jac and Ran answered evrey question about Hal.  Jes
and Jen could not control their emotions but they could not leave Jac and
Jos and Randy.  Jess moved on camera and steadied Jac .  Jen took up a
position beside Randy.  She put her arms around his chest to control the
sobs.  Taking comfort from Jen , Randy added new information on the days of
Hal's rapes even as his own mind balanced on the edge of almighty hell. 
Hands gripping Jen , seeking comfort as his mind spilled out the details
told to him by his best friend , a friend he was afraid to communicate to ,
except with pot , a friend now suicided .  Two hours later and a two
hundred pages of notes , Randy was clinging to Jac crying cheek to cheek .
The police officer could not stop his own emotions and wept openly as Randy
and then Jac opened the chapters once again , on the death of Hal , an
innocent friend fucked by a church protected pedophile , then discarded
into the waist basket of death .  Where layers of hurt rampaged over deeper
layers of pain and criss-crossing the highways of their minds like tractor
trailers crashing through broken guard rails on icey parkways.  Lastly ,
long sigh , Jen wiping away the tears from the officer , the interviewer
finaly folded his notes , retrieved the video camera and asked all for no
talk to anyone else .  Jen and Jes hugged him as he left , knowing that
whatever might happen next had to be better than now.

   A nurse and a doctor arrived followed by food staff with refreshments .
No one was eating.  Randy was back in bed with Jac , holding on like a baby
holds a bottle.  At the same time Jac held his brother Jos keeping his body
close.  Doctors studied Jac and Randy and Jos .  All three boys drifted
once again unconscious to the world.  Jen and Jes' parents visited in the
afternoon.  The twins tried to explain why three boys were now comatose but
Jen and Jess broke into tears.  The only explanation , they could offer was
, the cops have everything on video and note paper , and "We are never ever
going to church again".

   Down on the first floor Joseph was attending the waiting room where all
the scheduled visitors to Jos original room were meeting .  He quelled most
rumours that Jos was dead because his room was empty.  He explained that
his good friend Jac was simply out for a couple of days resting and that
Jos was in a safer room upstairs.  The doctors thanked Jes and Jen , agreed
that no one else should visit Randy and Jac .

   Both boys were given a pill to take with their juice.  When Randy awoke
he took Jac with him to the washroom.  On returning Jac asked: "Ran , Can
you tell me , do you need a sedative".  Randy pulled Jac against himself
then snuggled into Jos as Jen and Jess tucked in their cover.  "You Jac ,
and you Jen and you Jess are my seditive and Jos is my anchor.  Randy
smiled , "I've had enough drugs for two lifetimes already".  Jac grinned as
Jen tossed the pills into the garbage can.

   In the night the dreams returned to Randy .  A train rumbled through the
room , noisless but shaking the ground , it's wheels cutting slicing
ripping Jac's arms and legs and face.  "Oh gawwd oh christifer his fac ,
his face ", Randy moaned and screamed as the train ravaged through his
mind. Jen grabbed him first , pulled him out of bed ,with Jess helping. 
Jac joined in .  They held Randy upright as his hands explored Jac's face ,
eyes slowly openning .  "It's ok Randy , you're ok " , three voices soothed
his brain.  Jac hugged Randy tight again until his breathing slowed , and
he began to hug back, both boys turning blue , neither willing to let go
until Randy smiled , began crying , a softer mournful cry of baby animals
looking for a lost sibling.

   Midnight rolled through .  Jac dreamed of Jos in a classroom filled with
broken desks and chairs.  The table legs were kicking Jos , beating him to
death .  Then.

   "Help me get up and Jos too" .  Randy jumped first to help Jac.  "Table
legs STOP" , whispered Jac as he realized Randy and Jes' help.  The twin
girls helped Randy and Jac support Jos .  They walked , all three of them
into the bathroom.  Jac dropped his tool over the bowl and sprayed water .
Jen and Jes supported Jos , removed his condom catheter as they had done
many times before , aimed his tool at the bubbles .  "We used to break
those bubbles laughed Jac, but my twin can't do it now.  They looked at
Randy .  Jac aimed Randy's tool at the bowl .  A small stream of yellow
water began , then flooded the bubbles made by Jac.  Jen and Jess cheered .
"We have a new bubble breaker , yah yah yah".  A nurse came running into
the padded room's washroom.  "You ok Jac"?  "Yes mam".  You ok Randy "? 
"Yes mam".  "Were all ok nurse , sorry to interrupt the night time".  Randy
had a dream and we called him out of it".  "Then Jac had a dream and we
called him on that one too".

   Jac took the condom catheter from Jen .  He started to put it back over
Jos' foreskin but noticed some small difference about Jos' pelvic stance .
Without warning a tiny flood of yellow water exited Jos and splashed in the
bowl.  "Yeah yeah yeahhhh " , yelled Jen and Jes and Jac and Randy.  The
nurse returned again .  Each took turns directing Jos flow.  "Were still ok
nurse".  Randy took the condom catheter , re-attached it to Jos foreskin
and they shouldered him back to bed.  In the morning Randy slept past
sunrise snuggled against Jos.  Jac and Jen and Jess waited for him , to
wake up .  He seemed to sleep for a very long time , then dream again . 
Chest heaving , respiration faster.  The blanket was moving near his pelvis
, his legs stiffened.  Pulsing cum pumped out.  A noise was coming up the
hall way , but Jess ran out and stopped the food caterer with whispering ,
"later , wait a half hour , later".

   She returned quietly and took her spot watching Randy with Jac and Jen
and Jos.  Randy rested quietly , a smile crept across his face .  His mind
was with Hal in the school locker room.  Hal's fingers were drawing his cum
and he was masturbating Hal .  His hand reached out and found Jos but Jos'
cock did not respond .  Slowly, slowly the eye brows moved , Randy openned
his eyes , with Jen and Jes and Jac in his face , laughing , smiling ,
chuckling.  "Where were you Randy"?  Laughing with them , then Randy
quieted.  "Were you with Hal"?  "Yeah".  "It's ok Randy, you had a great
dream , tell us ".  "You pulled Jos foreskin ,but he cannot respond".  "Oh
jeese , Jos am I so sorry"!  "Wait , Randy , Jos is ok with that , we are
ok with that.  You cummed in your sleep Randy.  Look at it spread out there
under the blanket.  Wet dreams are good dreams".  " Means"?  "Means you're
conscious mind is taking control of the body functions that it needs to
heal".  "You are almost healed Randy , and you will , with our help".

   In the short term Randy declined to see his father , or mother.  He
ended up at George's house downtown , far away from the influence of
previous friends and drug dealers .  George was super grateful as always.
Randy was not his son , but George accepted him quickly.  Many papers were
signed allowing Randy to stay with George , at least until enough time
would pass through Randy's mind for regular boy life to reinvent itself. 
Randy's old school sent the truant officers to demand Randy re-attend
school .  Nobody met them , and the door stayed locked.  George said that
Randy would go back to school when he chose , and no other decison was
adequate.  "His old school just wants to get him back for a key attendance
day , so they can claim the funding for his education".

   As weeks rolled by , Randy began to take over some cooking and cleaning
and whatever chores had to be done.  As time went on he began to explore
the neighbour hood near George's house.  On many days George and the little
boy Arthur Junior and Melony walked to the park , and often much farther .
Randy would carry Arthur Junior when he was tired , and when he was too
short to see and any other time Arthur Junior wanted to be carried.  George
could see a development of trust between the little boy and Randy , and
eventually the trust spread to Melony and George.  When Randy attended the
first class in his new high school , Arthur Junior and Melony went with
him. Randy's new classmates accepted them as one family , often visiting at
George's house.  Randy called his parents often and asked them to meet him
in the park .  One day they said "yes".  Melony and Arthur Junior went with
Randy to see them.  He steeled himself for the pain of endless rhetoric. 
It did not happen .  Arthur Junior bridged the gap as Melony let him do
what a one and one half year old must do.  Randy's parents asked many
questions but Randy told them , "I have no answers , just accept me for
what you see".  They saw a gentle boy carrying a small boy, laughing , and
crying with him , a sad girl who seemed to like Randy but always careful to
keep her distance , and a one and one half year old , striving to draw the
boy and girl closer.  Randy's parents eventually were asked to George's
house .  They marvelled at the love of life within that residence , and
their exuberant son who mixed his new school friends with Melony and Arthur
Junior and homework and the old gentleman who loved life so well .





   After Randy left for George's place , hospital staff moved Jos moved
back into the downstairs room with his brother.





   Ives began to visit every day , making the trip from high school to
hospital by bus , signing the guest list , often asking Joshua homework
questions and Jac if present would pretend to answer for Jos , until a new
rumour started that any one in need of homework tutouring help could visit
Jos.  Jo reworked the schedules again , this time putting people with
Joshua who could answer homework questions , and secondly scheduling a free
day every two weeks.  This day would be free of schedule.  Joseph called it
Joshua's day.  BridgeWork teachers brought books for Jac to read and began
to ask for the list of visitors and often held tutoring classes in Joshua's
room.  Jac read all the books required for his courses , and Ives brought
him copies of the curriculum tests.

   For the parents of the students : "I wish that boy would get better". 
"He set examples for others to follow - became a hero - but now he is in
coma".  Lets get some old clothes and put red dye on the chest , for Joshua
Coresland".  "Never mind old clothes , just get some red food colouring".
Another text spashed on Jac's phone from Jill.  "Jac , people on my street
are starting to wear clothes with a red splotch".  "Jac's reply , " More
support for my BRO and your son , Mom".  "And Jac , my parents want to meet
you and Joshua"?  "Kay , bring them in , but check with Jo schedule first ,
and make sure no one else is scheduled for an hour after".  Jac demanded
that all medical results of scans and MRI's were free for Jo and him and
any other student to study.  Police detectives used the information to
determine charges laid against Jake and Rob.  The walls of the room were
plastered with mri-cat scans , photos , and homework.  Solutions to
homework questions attracted the best of each class and the worst.

   One day , Adrien and Sath were on duty with Jos.  A girl visited that
day , without a name tag , crumpled clothes , dejected eyes.  She sat on
the floor .  A nurse questioned her to leave "Hi Miss , We can help you
fill in your name at the office".  Adrien understood that to mean : "Come
down to the office for questioning, cause you don't belong here".  Adrien
motioned for the girl to stay , and then , "Nurse can you bring a folding
chair for this little flower".  The girl rose to leave but Adrien caught
her , "Please little-flower , you came here by yourself , you dodged by the
office to get here.  Stay , please stay in this chair and I will get you a
drink".  The frightened girl settled again but stiffly into the chair , as
Sath returned with a pop, brushed brown hair from her eyes.  I know you , I
know I've seen you but my mind does not tell me where .  Please do not
answer unless you want.  Let me guess .  "You have come here because of the
newspaper stories" ?  The head nodded up and down.  "You know Melony " ? 
The head nodded side to side.  "You know Jo" ?  Side to side.  "You go to
Liam's marker under the viaduct" ?  Up and down.  "Owaww you were there
last summer and later in the summer a few weeks later they brought you to
the trauma unit , but you got better and disappeared".  Sath smiled into
the dejected face .  We want you to stay here with us.  I have a friend who
can give you a place to stay.  Adrien moved: You can show her the way now
Sath .  I will stay with Jos.  "Come with me little-flower"?  "The girl
followed Sath to waiting car and an hour later appeared at George's house
front door.  Melony trailed by a year old boy openned the door.  " Jos ok"
? "For sure Melony , but I have a friend who needs help .  Her name is
little-flower - she does not speak .  Can you help her "?  "Come in" ,
smiled Melony as the little boy waved hello.  Sath stayed with them a few
minutes , until little-flower adjusted and then left.  Melony gave her an
air mattress and a pillow and a place to stay in the upstairs.  The
refrigerator was loaded with food as little-flower took a few bits to eat.
George and Mellony worried over her fate.  " I think pregnant , she can't
talk".  "Maybe she cannot hear"?  "She looks very hard at the lips when you
talk".  "Lets call my sign language friend , Bernard"?  After a few simple
signs and responses a story emerged.  "Deaf.  Can not speak.  Fifteen.  No
periods -yes .  By rape.  And imagine this - the rapist might be Jake the
bully.  Has identified a photo in the newspaper taken on BWBAD by the local
news photographer .  Jake the bully was eighteen years old , so they
published his picture.  That is why she came to see Joshua.

   We think she has no home to go to because her parents threw her out when
she dishonoured them.  Days blurr into nights", Sath yawned.  "Some
parents"!!!  Bernard dialled 911.  When the cops arrived he went with them
and little-flower to a very different interrogation room of soft music and
flowers , for victims of rape and family excommunication.

   Bernard texted Sath "Her name is Abra - came to Canada two years ago and
she is confirmed pregnant.  Has made identification as you suspected.  Jake
is now much more than a bully and a new case for justice has started". 
Abra wants to stay with the little boy."

   Police returned Abra to George's house where she was welcomed by the
little boy and Melony and George with writing on a chalk board!  Police
officers and childrens aid officials talked to George.  "Abra is fourteen ,
thirteen when the rapes occurred.  We can only hope that she can somehow
weather the time until the most frightful memories subside.  It is best not
to mention any thing of the rapes .  I think the little boy is an ideal
setting as he will capture her mind away from the reality at hand".  "Abra
, we do not know sign language but we know you.  Stay here as long as you
want.  Teach us sign language ".

   Abra did stay.  She liked the little boy and the quiet boy , Randy Over
the next months , she taught the two year old , Arthur Junior , and Randy
to do sign language.  Working on Melony and George as time permitted.  Art
became intermediary in confirming communication , impressing Melony and
George with his skill in determining what Abra needed.  .  Official police
visits intensified as they built a case around Abra's complaint .  More
than one rape occurred with implication for Jakes friends .  Arrest
warrants were issued for all three bullies.  A dna forensic investigation
began scouring for evidence.  In time Randy and Arthur Junior and Mellony
would introduce Abra to their school .  She was always accompanied by one
of her new family members , even in the school classrooms , until she
decided the classroom was safe for her.





   Back at Johua's hospital.



   Honesty and openness prevailed around Jos .  The constant stream of well
wishers generated every imaginable thought .  But , one thought was never
mentioned .  It just hung on the wall as an unmarked fact.  Every MRI and
test showed normal brain function but Jos did not wake.  Jac overheard the
cops conversation.  "No murder charge till the boy dies".  "Normally a
sucker punch is not that destructive".  "No , it was the kicking from the
second and third attacker that broke his ribs and punctured them through
his artery and spleen and lungs, ".  "Anyway rape is more serious .  They
will be sent to trial for that first".  Jo and Una continued schooling in
their high school , visiting Jos often.  Around them , a core of fifteen to
twenty friends wearing red spotches.  Jo and Una became ROCKS for Joshua.
They talked often of what a bully wants from society.  Jo began to
understand the mind of those who had tortured him and his brother Liam. 
"They were born ok , just regular babies wanting a place on earth and
instead they were indoctrinated to kill".  They met up with Ives at the
recuperation hospital.  Jo and Una discovered from Ives that he was a
continual victim of Jake and Rob until the BridgeWorkBullyAssaultDay as it
became known.  Three other bullied kids came forward.  Jo arranged for them
all to be together with Jac and Ives during the weeks before Christmas.  He
invited the local cable tv news channel and two journalists.  The news
reduced rumours but started new questions on why the vice-principal allowed
two bullies to run his school , and , why did he not call for help when the
bullies returned to the classroom where Jos was being detained ?  And why
and why and when will Jos be released ?  "When will Joshua get better "? 
"BWBAD sucks".

   Another debate continued with Jill and her parents , as she entered the
corridor to Jos room , with them..  "Dad and Mom , I don't know what to
expect when you meet Jac and his brother.  They're fifteen and have not
seen you since two years old, so be patient , let Jac do all the talking
and lets hope for the best".  "Jill , we don't do much hope and even less
faith now .  We realize , you were born into a mystical world of religious
values no longer existing , in fact they did not exist then , and Martin
and I , well - we were idiots to raise you like that Jill , and we are
proud that you found your husband again after thirteen years".  "Dad , er ,
I am still trying to throw off the yoke of my religious training and I DID
NOT find Robert again.  Robert found me because , he still loved me , and
my son Joshua .  His son Jacque came to visit Joshua first because Joshua
set up a visit , and then Robert met me at my workplace because Joshua set
up that meeting also." "Well we are happy for your new happyness with
Robert and pray all will go well".  Jill tremored , "Dad , praying to a
mystical figure is no good now.  It never was.  I prayed every day my son
would be protected , and God did not help me raise him.  I did it , without
help.  After you advised me to leave Robert , I did it , and I knew then it
was wrong to split up a family because of religious dogma on so called gay
actions.  I knew it was wrong but I could not ever call you back and tell
you , so I never called you for thirteen years.  I am sorry , but my
religious training controls me even now.  Secondly I never called Robert
for thirteen years , and I burned the Christmas cards and Birthday cards ,
he sent for Joshua.  Even after all that Joshua and Jack still tolerate me
and the reason I came to talk to you is Robert!" "Robert is why I came to
see Martin and I "?  "Robert expects that I can learn something from
contacting you".  "Your husband is truly caring".  "I can scream at god for
sending gay goons to wreck Joshua's life , but I cannot fully get rid of
that crap.  Basically , if you want to see Jac , then leave all that out
here in the corridor.  If it were not for Joshua getting us all together
and for Jac protecting Jos , there would be no twin boys left".

   Jill and her parents Martin and Trisha walked in total silence , to
information , to Jos floor and finally to the nurse's station to ask about
Jac and Jos.  "Oh - Mr and Mrs.  Coresland , Jac and Jos are such beautiful
boys, They have 24 hour visitors.  Right now there is a Mallory and Fran
and Ives with two other students working on a homework problem.  I can take
you into the room but please wait until they are finished , before
expecting recognition".  Martin and Trisha walked ahead of Jill.  "Strange
that kids today have so much freedom".  "No" , responded Jill, It is
strange that when I grew up , I was taught all sorts of crap about a
mystical human who was not real but demanded me to act in a zombie manner
based on two thousand year old rules".  "I think kids have too much -" "Cap
it" , replied Jill as they were suddenly inside Jos room .  Five chairs
circled Jos' bed .  Ives and Fran and Mallory and two other student girls
worked on a mathmatics question involving two trains.  The nurse scurried
in behind Jill and her parents placing three folding chairs inside the
door. Jill and Martin and Trisha looked for their grandsons , for a glimpse
of boys not seen for thirteen years.  "Maybe this is the wrong room".  "No
mom , this is correct.".  "Then where are my grandsons".  "Wait , Mom and
Dad , you will see." Ives tried to explain when the slow train would meet
the fast train, but Mallory could not grasp it.  Then Fran tried to explain
a solution, but still no understanding.  The other two students waited ,
and watched the process until Ives and Fran gave up.  "We got the right
answer , but we can't tell you how".  "Billy , can you and Marcie explain
this.  According to Jo's schedule you know this one.".  Billy smiled at
Ives , "Riight".  Within a minute Mallory was like " , I got it , I got it
, I never thought I ever would.  Yeah" , as she planted a hug on Billy. 
"Ok men , I mean ladies , the tutour session is over.  Lets clear out for
the next session".  The teens quietly folded their chairs and dissappeared.
"But where are my grandsons".  Jill led them closer to the bed , quietly
pulled the cover .  "My God he's sleeping with his twin"?  "Jac still feels
responsible for his bother's fate.  He stays locked to his brother to
protect him".  Jill grimaced at her father .  "Dad perhaps it's too early ,
do you want to come back later"?  "I want to know why my grandson is in bed
with the other one ".  He pulled the covers away shaking violently , "Oh
great Lord they are sleeping together with no clothes at all".  "Trisha
close your eyes.  Sick sick.  Jill slose your eyes NOW".  "NO DAD - DO YOU
WANT to see your grandsons or not , and don't tell me to close my eyes to
suit your religious bullshit".  Trisha stepped back pulled the chair
forward and sat .  Jill did the same.  They watched the angelic oval faces
of a boy and his brother on their sides , snuggled together in one bed. 
Jac hugging Jos , his face buried in the gentle rise and fall of Jos chest.
"Martin shook violently , my grandsons are queer, oh my GOD just like their
father".  Jill's mother forced a smile.  "Jill they're beautiful , I am so
sorry about all that religious stuff your family has been through".  Jill
spoke low : "Trish , there is a song < you don't know what you got till
it's gone> and you what , they're your family too".  Martin backed up sat
in the chair muttering "goddam boys - queer as -" Jill stood up , pulled
the blanket back over both boys.  "Dad , do you agree to stay here for an
hour.  That's our scheduled time, and fifteen minutes is already gone"? 
"Ahh , Christ --- ".  "Trisha stared him down , "We have talked about this
before .  Your last chance Martin , if you walk out of this room , you are
leaving Jill and your grandson's FOREVER and YOU KNOW WHAT IS TRUE : YOU
MARTIN ARE LEAVING ME FOREVER ALSO"!  "But they're undressed in the same
bed - fifteen years old - OUTRAGEOUS".  "No dad" , You are religious , you
were programmed by the best theocracy from birth - Your grandsons are
perfect boys.  You , YOU DAD are OUTRAGEOUS".  "Queeers".!  "Means nothing
Dad.  A useless label created by the church to divide families and make war
between countries".  "Come on Jill , lets go , I don't what to even know
which is Joshua and which is Jacque" A small voice spoke from the bed , "Mr
and Mrs Coresland , I am Jacque.  I am identicle to my brother Joshua , er
I was identicle to my broer.  We grew together inside a single womb for
nine months without clothes and without rules , a watery pool of protection
from the religions of the planet.  Perhaps they should have killed us both
before birth if in fact two boys together in one bed with no clothes is
problematic".  Jac smiled , the long eye lashes eliciting a response from
his grandfather.  Martin stared away.  Jill and Trisha melted.  "Jacque , I
loved your dad more than the sun and the earth.  Robert was considerate and
respectful of all those around him and , I loved you when you were in that
womb.  I am sure you kicked me a thousand times as did your brother ,
gentle kicks and nudges as you tested the boundaries of your world , but I
loved the two of you so much , and when you arrived I was on top of the
world.  Robert and I created you in love and I apologize for all the
religious crap that separated you from your brother.  You two belong
together forever, and I was so stupid for that".  "No Jill you were
following my orders and Martin's will".  Martin and I are more at fault and
we are willing to take that responsibility now .  Somehow Jac and Jos
survived the most stupid of parents.  It's true that any fool can make a
baby - It takes a man to raise a child - Martin was NOT that man and nor
was I.  Joshua and Jacque created themselves with different parents , and
different schools , yet they continued their father's tradition.  You
parents were torn apart my my religion and you still did the right thing by
ignoring us".  Trish paused as Jill dried a tear : "Jacque , I need your
trust and respect after all these years of distrust and I know you do not
share trust easily.  Joshua is the one who shares trust , and he was beaten
by bullys acting out the two thousand year old dogma of kill the queers.  "
She looked at Martin as his face absorbed the real meaning of queer , the
bully them , beat them , kill them , or make them suicide that all good
christians abide.  Martin sat heavily in the chair , a face ravaged by
doubt as the earth rotated from under him.  Jill continued her gaze on her
dad and the boy twins grandfather: "We are not the centre of the universe
Martin , but a small particle of planet populated by even smaller life
forms.  You are one of those forms nurtured by this planet and provided for
, by generations of your ancesters and parents , just as the earth has been
provided for as it rotates and orbits the parent son , itself a tiny bit of
material in the spiral arm of a galacy of billion stars".  She looked at
Trish and then Martin, , his face cracking , twisting , suffering as mental
turmoil ravaged.  Ten minutes passed with no sound as Jill face clouded
with tears.  Trisha went to her daughter , hugged her , kissed her :"It's
ok baby - it's ok .  We are going to survive this".  Jill recomposed her
face , "And Trish , we will get through this.  Minds should not be messed
up by religious crap , because we cannot fix them immediately.  We have ten
minutes left to see your grandsons." "Lets do it".  Jill dragged her father
over to the bed , she pulled the cover off two perfect boys but one was not
perfect now".  "Jacque let me do the talking , please.  Trisha and Martin
these two boys were perfect twins but they were separated and developed
different personalities from two years old .  My husband , Robert raised a
perfect child in Jacque and I raised a perfect child in Joshua.  Joshua got
me and Robert together again and he and Jacque loved each other at first
sight as though they never parted.  Two beautiful , handsome boys with a
lifetime of fun and learning stretched out before them like stars in the
Milky Way, but it was not to be.  Three boys programmed to kill gays beat
Joshua to a senseless death , only saved by his brother Jac and a few close
friends and then kept alive by the helicopter trauma team.  Now my twin
boys are separated by a conscious - coma rift , with no known way to get
Joshua's mind back.  Jac , Please accept your grandparents , though they
are the stupid most earthlings ever created".  Trisha dragged Martin to the
bed side.  Jill removed the covers .  Tears wetted Jac's face , but his
stealed smile hid the confusion "be a rock - yeas be a rock for Broer".  "I
need a minute alone", Jac pulled the cover over himself and slid to the far
side.  "Mom give your parents a tour of your sons injuries".  Jill started
at Joshua's rib cage.  The kick marks , the staple wounds , the rib
punctures were all gone , replaced with scars and skin ridges , now white
and purple against the tortured patches of skin.  She showed Martin and
Trisha the drainage tube scars and the open heart surgery scars and ended
describing the doctors request to remove the spleen and both testicles. 
"My god mused Martin "They wanted to go ripping out his balls".  "Dad they
were swelled larger than baseballs.  The gynecologist worked fourteen hours
on saving them".

   Jac regained his composure : "That makes my broer far more valuable than
me".  His face detected a slight acknowlegement from Martin.  Jacque looked
at Jill and then Trisha.  "In a galacy of a billion stars .  That's where
we live Grampa.  We can be what we want to be and go where we want to go.
We need a chance , a ray of what could be, to escape the doom of perpetual
religious strife.  We are not bound to one planet but to a universe of
planets.  Don't worry grandpa , about getting your feet back on earth , Jos
knows very well how to re-orient broken co-ordinates .  Jos took a boy
older than himself from a tortured druggy grave of religous torment.  A boy
who watched his own brother suicide from the viaduct span high above the
Don Valley.  This boy was raped by his grandfather , a product of the
residential school system in Canada.  He is now a man who studies to be a
doctor".  Martin openned his eyes to watch the words streaming from Jac. 
"Mr Coresland , my Bro and I , We will get better , you will see.  We will
marry , will have kids .  Your genes will be reproduced but without the
religious content" , Jac ended with a smile.

   The nurse appeared .  Mr.  And Mrs.  Coresland , please be ready to
leave in five minutes.  "Thanks nurse" , added Jac.  Jill confronted her
father.  "Dad can you give Jos and Jac a hug".  "Er" "Come on , if I was
two years old you would hug me , so what's the diff between two and
fifteen"?  Trish pulled him gently to the bed side.  "Come on Marty".  Jac
pulled his grandfather's arm across Jos and himself.  "Thanks for coming to
see my identicle brother.  He is in coma , maybe forever.  Give us a hug of
support for our lives , and what we might be in ten years time.  You had
your chance to make the world better and my Bro and I deserve that same
chance.  That is what life means".  Martin held back , hesitated but Jac's
words cut through his mind.  A saddenned face morphing from fear to family
love and back to fear.  Jacque pulled Jos arm and extended them together to
touch their grampa.  Martin resisted ,then took the suggestion.  "A quick
hug".  Jac pulled him close to his bare chest and to his brothers bare
chest , kissed him on the neck.  Jos body heat engulfed .  The old man
began to cry , at first a trickle and then eye tears and then a rainstorm
of years of water flooded over Joshua , over his scars and beating heart.
Jac let go but the old man stayed on Joshua's chest crying a quiet flood of
water .  Drowning in the cup of water on Jos chest cavity he felt the raw
life form of two fifteen year old babies's hearts beating , one heart
beating to cure a mind that no longer communicated and the other heart
beating in hope for what might be.  He felt the power of fifteen year old
lungs , despite three healed broken ribs amid the savagery of punctured
lungs and severed arteries carefullty stitched by surgery maracles .  "Maww
mawwww gawwwwd" , Martin bawled on Jac's chest.

   The nurse reappeared to shepherd away the visitors but the anquish of an
old man precedented .  She held back , watched as the old gentleman clung
to , - almost strangled a grandson he had never known , a grandson who
could not or would not respond because of the hatred laid on him by a cruel
world .  She heard the plea for god to intervene and the cry for help for
his grandson when the other grandson said , " Ahhh Sir , Mr.  Coresland ,
ahh Martin , ahh grand dad , I love you , and I promise , he will get
better and he will , I mean we , We will be stronger than before.  Come
back and see us grow ".  The nurse's beeper detonated.  She hurried away to
another emergency , unaware of the one in progress.

   Martin pulled away , staggered by his own emotions , and loss of
co-ordinates , shuffled off toward the nurses station , not feeling his own
heart suffering .  Jac regarded his grandmother.  "Trish, can Jos and I get
a hug from you"?  He pulled his mother and Grandmother closer , hugged his
mother and Trish with a bear hug, until they could not breath against
Joshua's scars , then tumbled under the sheets with Jos propping his head a
bit and pulled Trisha's arm around her grandson.  "I know everything about
Jos , and I know he loves you Trish.  Jos and I will get better and we will
walk out of here.  Jac caressed his brother's cheeks , began to talk to him
as usual but - "Eeek", outside the door , a thump - slumped his
grandfather. "Martin , Marty" , screamed Trisha.  "Dad" , yelled Jill.  Jac
flung himself to the floor and vaulted outside his room , beside his
grandfather , his fingers searching for the vital signs of the carotid
artery.  "Mom , get help at the nurse station - I will do the
compressions". Grandma , you must watch my brother , he CAN"T be left
alone. "YOU ARE his protector".  Jac rolled his grandpa on his back ,
forced his fists into the shirt collar , muscles bulging , stripped the
shirt open with ripping cloth and buttons peppering the room.  Grandma ,
check Jos' breathing and heart rate , like I would if I could.  Somewhere
out near the nurse station an alarm began .

   Jac grabbed his granpa's head , raised it slightly , pulled his face
into and between his thighs and began the chest compressions , recently
learned from Jes and Jen.  After twenty compressions Jac locked his lips to
his grandfather giving him three quick lung fulls of air.  He repeated the
process , but yelled for help down the corridor between compressions.  The
group of visitors wanting to see Jos and Jac circled the information desk
and the nurse station but nobody was there.  The nurse was busy with an
emergency at another room.  Jac searched , but he had no phone , it was
lost in Jos bed with his clothes.  The visiting students circled and trying
to grasp the reality of a heart attack.  "Jac is compressing a man outside
Jos room ".  "It's an old man".  "His heart has stopped".  "Call 911 " ,
Jac yelled down the corridor to the visitors , "It's a heart attack or
worse".  The visitors trickled forward timidly , at first, to help Jac . 
"He's my grandfather yelled Jac between compressions".  Jill returned
crying " There's no one at the station".  "Then push the alarm yelled Jac .
Go back and push it again , knowing that his hyper ventilating mother would
soon faint ".  "Hey you there , student in green shirt , follow my mother
in case she faints".  Jac continued the routine , and also kept watch
toward Jos' bed where his grandmother sat watching and checking Jos. 
"Trish - I mean Grandma.  STAY with my brother , massage his back just like
I was doing .  Keep him comfortable".

   The nurse reappeared , marvelled at the nude teen - chest compressing
his grandfather stripped to the waste .  "Jac , the visitors are all
watching - " A high school student stepped forward to help Jac -.  "And I
order you to put on clothes , yelled the hospital administrator , churning
through the corridor to see why alarms were pulled".  Jac's tongue steadied
"be a rock".  As the crowd of visitors closed in Jac retorted , "I need
help man to revive my grandfather ".  "Well er ".  Jac smiled , bent over
to push another breath of air into Martin.  The angy man pushed the student
aside and assaulted Jac.  "Snotty queer is gonna run my hospital " , hissed
the administrator, ripping Jac away from his grandfather , throwing him
against the partially open door .  Jac's neck caught the door .  His head
hit hard in the corridor as he tumbled.  Jill fainted.  The student in the
green shirt was ready.  He caught her , let Jill down easily to the
terazzle floor.  Trisha screamed from Jos bed , "Please someone help my
husband , he's heart attacking , and what happened to my grandson"?  "Jac -
JACQUE - where are you".  She could not see her grandson's crumpled body
behind the hall wall.  The visitors stepped forward , a new mood steeled
their faces .  Three large boys muscled the administrator into a broom
closet .  Two branched off to attend Jac , as two others rushed to continue
the compressions on Martin.  "I know what to do".  "Let me do the
compressions".  "Twenty or is it thirty"?  "Push some air in his lungs".  A
roar of anger emerged from the closet.  "Let me out of this fucking closet
you cock sucher faggots".  But the students did not move.  "Jac was only
trying to revive his grandfather"?  "I am the administrator, let me out
NOW"!  A tall student helped them hold the broom closet door , "You're a
sicko ", yelled the student.  Another student called 911 on her cell ,
"There's a nut case in the broom closet , Please hurry." Two teachers from
Bridgework watched the broom closet door shaking from inside.  Rest of the
students seeking homework answers from Jac and Jos gathered closer unsure
of how to help.  They knew Jacque was not moving.  A calm of sorts
descended on the building except for the obscenity emanating from the
closet.  Police burst through the front doors followed by paramedics.  This
time adults directed the police to the broom closet demanding that he be
arrested for child abuse and attempted murder.  A stream of abusive
language attacked the police officers as they moved in for the arrest.  The
medics quickly stabilized Martin as the nurse rushed to help Jac.  "Oh god
- He's unconscious".  "Over here medics , quickly , this boy has a head
wound , there's blood all over his neck and his mouth".  Trish screamed
again "PLEASE help my grandson , somebody please , help him - they already
beat the other one to near death ".

   "Sir , This is the police , get down hands over your head.  " The
administrator jabbed a broom into the cop's ribs as the second officer
fired the taser.  "Ahhh frummmmdf " Scuffling in the broom closet ceased as
the administrator was taken down , handcuffed and removed.  More officers
produced a straight jacket , they stuffed the administrator into it as a
little girl would dress a teddy bear.  Several students bent over to
examine the nude boy , suddenly stared at Jac .  "He's not beathing - Men ,
MEN he's not breathing!  ".  Medics placed Jac's body on a carrier as 911
despatchers hurried the ambulance.  "But we are at a hospital".  "No we
need a real hospital , this is mostly a recovery unit"!  One of the student
girls could not be removed from Jac by the medics.  "He's got no breath".
"Oh mother my cute boy has stopped breathing".  "What".  Several student
visitors gasped at the turn of events.  They closed in but could do nothing
more than the medics already in attendance.  Cells began texting messages
and calling friends and parents.  "Jos brother's not breathing".  "What is
happenning "?  "Now what is stopping his breathing - , er he's choking". 
"Clear out his throat , he's choking on his tongue".  "His tongue is cut ,
probably bit it when his head hit the floor".  "Suck the blood out of his
mouth".  "He's coming out of it" More students appeared as their hero's
stretcher was carried to the nurse station.  More police secured the
hospital doors.  News teams arrived but could not get inside.  Students
inside texted their stories to the students outside who relayed the words
to the news teams.  Within minutes , listeners were alerted of news events
unfolding at the same hospital where Joshua lay in a coma.  "Chisss that's
bad news".  "What the hell"?  "Why don't they leave the kids alone". 
"These freako's have to be imprisoned".  "Where are they all coming from"?
"From the age of tv evangelism and southern baptist radio preaching".

   Jac's eyes glistened , openned , smiling to the paramedics.  "You ok
son"?  "Respiration improving".  "Heart rate racing , now stable". 
"Where's my granpa"?  "He's ok Jac , with professional help from the
medics".  "Gotta help my bro , please mister , let me go ".

   The nurse spoke "Jac you are hurt by a blow to the head , it may be a
major concussion".  You are going to a trauma unit where they can monitor
brain swelling".  "No noaaahh NOOOAAAH WAAY .  STAY"N M BRO".  The visitor
students began to chant .  "Stay with BRO".  "Stay with BRO".  "Stay with
your bro" Jac spit blood from his mouth .  One of the students released the
carrier straps and Jac vaulted into his room to be with his grandmother. 
"Trish , you gotta help , tell them I am stayin with Jos - NO MATTER". 
Several students chanted , "Protect Jos".  "You can ow, go check Martin".
Trish waivered between loosing her only grandson and her husband.  She
smiled at Jac.  Your my hero .  I'm stayin with you , and your stayin with
Jos.  "Let god take care of Martin , - i mean , you've taken care of
Martin"!  As Jill revived she joined Trish and Jac and Jos.  The police
determined security was ok , they allowed limited numbers into the building
to check with the nurse station as the hospital returned to normal.  Jos'
nurse called for a doctor to examine Jac in his room.  Jac found his cell
and dialed Robert to explain as best he could but he did not remember how
he was slammed into the door.  Robert asserted " Jac , Jac your slurring
words , are you ok".  The code words popped through Jac's mind but , "No
need for that - he mused - I am in a protected zone and will be ok when my
tongue wound clots".  Trish filled in all the details as Robert rushed to
the hospital.  Jen and Jes got there first.  "Jac , Jac , please - not you
too , what the fuc is happenning to us"?  "M'ok Im-OK-ok".  Robert arrived
in Jac's room stashing his cell and running his fingers along the bloody
bruise.  Jess held his face tightly : "You're not ok Jac , Your tongue is
bleeding and the back of your head has a baseball bump with blood oozing".
"I'm oh kay ess".  Robert learned of the story details.  He dialed another
lawyer , a lawyer who specialized in assault and hate crimes.  His mind
churned to control the grief of his son tossed around and punched by the
fifty year old admin guy.  "With his fingers supporting Jac's head ".  "Son
, Nobody in this hospital has tried harder than you to protect your bro
from further damage by the goons of religious dogma." "M'ok dahd".  "Jac ,
I should have started an aggressive justice campaign against the principal
of BridgeWork but instead a higher case will be launched now.  This
hospital admin is rotten at the top , and my lawyer buddy who specializes
in these matters will use our justice system to extract the rotteness". 
"In the meantime , I am demanding that you and Jos be moved to the downtown
location where you have friends ".  "Buch dad , I neehd my newh highs skool
friends here eiin this pace".  Robert shook off the idea at first , as he
watched the students milling about , signing the visitor list and asking
the nurse about Jill's father.  "Jac , you are right , you have lots of
friends here.  We stay our ground".  "Jac smiled with blood trickling". 
"You and Jos will have a police guard .  I will demand that this hospital
be operated by the downtown unit by capable doctors , not by financial
administrators .  Jill , Trish , Jen and Jes , I underestimated the power
of religion to wreck Jac , like his brother.  Jac was correct in guarding
Jos with close friends at all times.  The zombie victims of religious
programming cannot be located until they expose themselves.  Then justice
will take the helm and justice will prevail.  They can no longer hide
behind religion."

   "Jac , my son , you are not yet adult but you have sufferred an
unproviked attack just like Jos , an attack that could have killed you .  I
will stay here myself until Sath gets here.  Then we proceed from there. 
She will examine your head injury with a capable doctor.  No one else will
be allowed in this room , except nurses already cleared.  Thierry and
Adrien will take a few days from work and they will be beside you and Jos
no matter".

   By the next day the hospital returned to normal operation except for the
administrator .  A cloud of concern began to demand his removal starting
with the students at BridgeWork and spreading to their parents their
teachers .  The students sent three hundred emails to their elected
representatives, then told their parents of replys or not.  Political
forces from the top of the goverment intervened to move the administrator
away from public existence .  A stream of off duty nurses visited Jos and
Jac , echoing one sentiment , "He was a real prick to work for , and often
berated us for no apparent reason .  Thank you Jac , and thankyou Jill and
Trish.  You make the world better."



   Still further rumours abounded , "They had to taser the admin guy"? 
Local newspapers lured new readers with lurid accounts , - eye witness
reports and low ressolution cell photos of a fifteen year old boy's
bleeding tongue and oozing welt from the blow to his head".

   Local radio and tv monitored the Green family , " Fifteen year old
caregiver attacked by fifty year old crazed administrator" .  Jac was there
favourite but now he was off line to them as Robert hired an off duty cop
to stay in his room at all times.  Witness statements were sought from all
the visitors at Jos room that day.  Reports and photos varied greatly but
diligent journalists put together a series of stories in print and on line.
Jac was the first victims identical twin and he always spoke politely no
matter how bad his mind hurt.  And now Jac was the victim of an unstable
bully administrator .

   Jac was now guarded by Adrien and Thierry and a permanent police
officer. .  He agreed to submit to help from Sath and a trusted doctor from
the downtown staff.  Mri's and bone scans displayed the tell tale signs of
brain concussion and the dangerous swelling within.  When Jac lost
consciousness another air transport mission delivered him to the downtown
trauma centre.  Quick response to the swelling saved Jac's life from the
terror of permanent brain injury and worse.  Within two days , he was back
in his brother's room, wearing his hockey helmet.  Journalists were
excstatic for access to the boy who guarded his brother and who sufferred
from an in hospital bully attack.



   The news was published , that Christmas would not happen in the Green
family, nor the families of the victims girl friends nor the families of
the victims friends.  Ives' group of friends refused to have Christmas. 
The two girls who witnessesd BWBAD organized friends to "say no to
christmas" .  Out on the street , Reporters cornered the Principal of
Bridge Work High .
Fall: Chapter: 25 : Christmas ?
"Mr Principal , the first question for tonights news is why the red

splotch on your suit"?  And the second question : Are you going to allow a
Christmas dance at BridgeWork , knowing the situation with BWBAD"?

   "Ok gentlemen , it is true , I had conflicting thoughts about wearing
the red splotch.  I DID try to stop the students , and I talked to the
student who lives with his injured brother at the hospital.  The students ,
all eight hundred of them called my bluff and worse the teen in the
hospital called my bluff with the winning hand.  This was the lowest point
in my career and I apologize to all the students and staff and especially
to the injured student's brother and his twin .  BWBAD was a dark chapter
in BridgeWork.  The patch is a reminder of the damage done , and to stop
bullying , but more even much more so , : The patch is a tribute from eight
hundred students to one who wanted to attend my er - their school.  For
that , he was beaten to death and was only saved by quick intervention by
his brother and a few students and only revived by the airborne trauma team
of this great city.  He is a boy teen for all of us to admire.  He shows by
example what his peers should be and the pressure he puts on me was at
first mistaked by my own pride.  Let the records be rewritten .  I have
learned from the teen hero , about respect , about love and about the value
of life.  I have learned more from this one student in three months than
all my previous experience.  These students attending BridgeWork , want
this teen and his brother to stay at this school , even to the risk of
being expelled for painting a splotch on their uniforms.  The red splotch
on my suit is my admission of failing to protect the students when they
most needed protection.  As Principal of BridgeWork High , I wear this
splotch as the highest honour , I can show for a student and his brother
who makes a difference .  Finally the teen who guards his brother told me
this and I quote to you: < Bridge Work students now know the cost of
freedom , because dozens of them visit me every day to wish my Broer
well>".

   A long pause followed as the statements by the principal gouged into
narrowed minds and hovered in the air waves above Canada's biggest city.

   "And the second question : Mr Principal " ?

   "There will be no Christmas at Bridge Work until the injured student and
his brother returns" .

   "No Christmas " echoed the newspapers , until the teen hero returns to
school.  "The red splotch has a life of it's own" , echoed another
newspaper.

   "This high school will celebrate together when their student returns ".
Local newspapers published and republished the facts of Joshua .  They
created a news page for Bridge Work High and printed the lowest point
speech.  A red splotch of printers ink appeared at the top right on the
front page of every issue.  National networks picked up the story of a boy
who respects his peers.  Jac posted some of the headlines on the bulletin
board now occupying two sides of the recovery room.  Fifty students per day
came to see Jos and to support his recovery .  Every student wore a red
splotch as did the off duty police officers hired by Robert to guard Jos'
room.

   A new director for hospital now reported to the downtown unit.

   Despite repeated pleas from seniors , no Christmas lights were placed
around the hospital and official staff parties were forbidden.  "A strange
twist of fate , it is , that the guy in jail for child assault got his way
" laughed Robert.  The new administrator consulted with staff and visitors.
She visited BridgeWork High and contacted students and parents.  The
discussions convinced her .  She spear headed a permanent emblem for all
staff and interns.  The emblem from far away ressembled the Canadian flag
but from close up it was clearly an irregular red splotch for every
uniform.

   Fall : Chapter: 26 Ives.

   Once a week Jo scheduled no visitors for one day and evening , hoping
that some change in routine might bring about a change in Jos.  Jos
remainded in the coma .  Ives showed the change.  Every week Jac saw him
decline.  Jac decided to challenge Ives, knowing that Jos would already
have done it if he was able.  "Ives , do snarky pilles taste good"?  "What
the fu"?  "You're angry but you come here lots".  "Well er , just wanna".
"Ives it's difficult for me too , but I'm a rock for Jos".  "Rock"?  "Ives
, Please come see me tomorrow , alone with Joshua.  He wants to learn more
about you.  Can you do that"?  The next day Jac began the discover session.
"Yes , I failed grade ten because the bullies frightened me so".  "But why
did they pick on you Ives of all the students".  "They didn't just pick on
me, - about six of us were targeted".  "But why you Ives , and forgive me ,
if these questions hurt , but Jos would know this if he could ask".  "I'm
only 171 centimeters tall".  "Ok , I can see that".  "So" "Ives , why did
you not go to the interview with the cops ?  They need to know about those
bullies .  The cops cannot develop a prosecution without help from everyone
of the bully's victims".  "Jac , bullies saw me in the gym , er I mean the
change room and shower.".  "Did you flip your hair at them"?  "Chac ,
nothing like that , for cocks sake".  "Jac , er ---it's , I'ust can't tell
you" , glancing eyes at the policeman.  "Ives you cancelled the interview
with the cops ".  A slight nod moved Jac's head , his face convinced. 
"Ives , I understand you now.  You are frightened , like an animal, that
has been hurt bad"?  "No fucin way".  "Just like a wolf with a paw caught
in a trap , Ives you know what you need to do , but like the wolf you
cannot trust other's to help you".  "Ives , are you caught in a trap"? 
"FUUCCK NO ".  "Then tell me why you declined the interview with the cops
bully investigation".  Jac gathered Ives hand , led him to the policeman.
"Do you understand ---what is trust , Ives?" "Ne ne no".  "Ives ,I trust my
dad .  Do you trust your dad"?  "My dad and his wife , they adopted me."
Jac hit a dead end with that response.  He had no idea what adoption really
meant for a kid.  He changed subjects , unwilling to give up now , "Do you
trust this cop"?  "Yeah".  The policeman returned their gaze.  "Ives ,
you're lying to me.  Tell me the truth".  "Maybeee"?  "Yeah er no , well
what the fuc gives Ives?" "Er "!  "Ives , I can see that you distrust this
cop"!  "Shht"?  "You're bullshitting me Ives".  "Friends do not lie , it
destroys trust and friendship".  "Jac , i'm sooory".  "No Ives , SORRY
FAILS".  "First of all , this policeman is here because my dad trusts him.
That means that I trust him.  But it is great that you do not trust the
cop".  "It SUCKS THAT YOU LIED TO ME"!!  "My broer intrinsically trusted
everyone and it lead to his beating.  I will not ask the policeman to leave
so we can have a private conversation.  Nor can I expect you to talk freely
in front of him.  How would Jos solve this "?  "Ah he'd , er i dun know,
Jos had ways to deal with adversity".  "Jac put his arm around the cop and
kissed his cheek".  A pleasant smile grinned across the cop's face. 
"Chriisssst Jac" , exploded Ives.  "That's the spirit Ives, now I know you
can talk in front of him".  "Did I help you get some trust for this cop".
"Er , a bit"?  "Ask him , his name , where he grew up , anything that comes
to your mind .  I will be right back".
Fall: Chapter: 27 Ives Trusts.
Jac checked his brother carefully , then sauntered down the hall to ask
the nurse dumb questions.  "Somedays you run your ass off for us patients ,
and other days this place sleeps ".  "I like it when sleeping " mused the

nurse.  "Oh nuuurse , Ha ha , got you on that one" , smirked Jac.  Nurse
smiled , then blushed , then retreated as she realized the consequence of
flirting , even unintentionally with a fifteen year old male .  "Jac , you
sometimes become Jos in personality as I have heard his girl friend
speaking of him".  "I wish that I could be more like Jos".  "What'stopping
you"?  "Nurse , there are remnants in my mind of unhappy events , events
which I might have changed had I known what to do ".  The conversation
continued about ten minutes.  Jac returned.  Checking on Joshua again , Jac
returned to the cop and Ives.  "So ahh Ives , what's his name"?  "er Eric".
"Age"?  "Twenty seven"?  "Why does my dad trust him"?  "B b be because Sath
trusts".  "Why Sath trusts".  "There's a marker in the valley where Liam
died, and this cop , I mean Eric's brother Phil found Liam there coupla
years ago, and took him to the General and every year when Liam's marker
shines , Eric and Phil go back to that spot in the valley".  "Do you know
who Liam is or was"?  "He was Joseph's brother.  Joseph told me that story
already and how "Joshua pulled him through when Liam died".  "Do you trust
Eric".  "Yes sir , I would trust him with my life".  Jac watched Eric smile
as though the prosecutor had just demonstrated a major fact in a court of
law.  "Now , sir , Eric , do you trust Ives".  "Not entirely".  "That's ok
Eric but you have some trust in him".  "Yes Jac".  "Why"?  "Because you
trust him to be alone with your brother"?  "So you see Ives" , continued
Jac , This cop is one of us .  He is on our team".  Ives smiled at the
young officer , and shook his hand.  "Ok Ives , lets return to me and Jos.
Jos was beaten by the bullies.  He has a right to know why they hate him.
You can help us with that question , Ives".  "Yes or No"?  Ives sat down
his face fearful.  Jac steadied his face : "It's ok Ives, Eric and Jos and
I are your friends , and we want to know".  "Help us and to help yourself".
Ives slumped further.  "My bro has a right to know".  "I cannn't".  "Ives,
each of us on the planet earth can make it better for our friends. 
Sometimes that hurts and gives us pain but , it's the best way to get to
the end.  Taking the route directed by fear makes for a lifetime of waisted
years".  "Jesus Christ JAC"!  "Ives , help me and Jos"?  "It's my b bu
bul".?  "Ives ?" "bbbulls".  "Ives , Bee ".  "Yes".  Ives , you as in
umbrella"?  "No".  Pain spread across Ives brow.  "Ives , ahh ...  as in
BALL".  "Yes sir".  Jac lifted Ives chin to meet his eyes.  "BALL , your
ball"?  "Yeahh".  Ives murmurred the phrase ,"ave un ball missing"?  Jac
put his ear against Ives lips" and whispered "Say again , Ives".  "missing
ball"?  "You have a ball missing , you mean a testicle"?  "eahh".  "Ives
I'm sorry , for all the times yo'ave seen me nude.  ".  NO NO Jac , it's ok
with you , but the bully Rob saw me nude in the shower.  Uns gone and mi m
y er - "In the shower"?  "ehh".  "I'm not normal JAC " , face contorting.
"Your testicle never came down and so your nut sac never grew bigger , and
you look awkward compared to me"?  Ives' head sagged , dropped then drooped
between his knees , but Jac pulled him upright , out of the chair to
standing and stared blue eyes to tearing green eyes .  Ives , your ok , we
are cool with that.  It's your body and your balls er BALL.  That's the way
you are.  There's no apology required for us , and in fact we would not
understand one".  Jac raised his fingers along the broken rib scars on Ives
chest.  "Ives your rib was broken by someone who hates you .  Is it because
you have an undescended testicle"?  "Geeezus geeezus " , tears tributaried.
"Ives IT'S GOT NOTHIN TO DO WITH YOU, IT"S NOT YOUR FAULT".  Ives's light
green eyes drifted upward to square off with the blue piercing stare from
Jac.  "Ives , how old are you"?  "Seventeen".  "Eric , do you care if this
seventeen year old boy has balls"?  Eric stood up , made full eye contact:
"Ives , I do not care if you have balls , or if you have a tranny or
anything else the streets of this city display".  "We care if you have fear
, because bullies use FEAR".  Jac held Ives tight brushed the straw yellow
brown hair across his scalp , squeezed his chest with both arms until Ives
gasped.  Your breathing ok again now Ives.  Do you realize fear can slow
your respiration , starve you of oxygen and make you an even easier target.
Every day Ives we will work on your balls thing until you can tell my
friends about being afraid and why.  In the meantime Ives , Eric and I and
Jos need to understand what happened in the change room with Rob - OK
Ives"? "OK".  "We got another two hours before lunch.  Come over here , get
in bed with Jos.  Yes , the door remains open , and the security camera
stays on , but Eric controls that camera and Eric will not approve anyone
entering this room except my friends".  "Ok"?  "Yeeaash".

   "Yeap , get all your clothes off and get in there beside Jos".  "First
you are gonna check Jos all over again , and if required me.  Then we will
check your broken rib scars again until you get used to having a broken rib
and one ball".  "We are gonna have a game of sleep over without the sleep".
"Did you ever sleep over at a friend's house"?  "No-oo, I had no friends"?
"Why" "My parents adopted me Jac.  They never allowed any one close to me ,
because of my abnormal testicle".  "Your step parents were afraid you were
abnormal"?  "They took me to a doctor several times.  Each time he tried to
push my foreskin back and it hurt sooo bad".  "Ives , that doctor was a
pedophile , cause foreskin tighness has no connection to undescended
testicle".  "It hurt me , made me feel more freakish".  "That sucs , Ives ,
I am so sorry that you had paranoid parents and pedophile doctors , but I
am not surprised".  "Jac , I had an operation when I was ten.  They found
the undescended testicle and cut it out of there.  That was just before we
moved to Ontario." "You moved to Toronto"?  "Not at first , we ended up
here when I started high school".  "And so you got stuck in a brand new
school with no boyhood friends and with two bullies and still in pain from
a non-descended testicle surgery"?  "I was so ashamed of my surgery .  I
could not mention it to anyone".  "You tried to hide in the back shower
corner"?  "Yeaahh , and they knew I was alone".  "Then lets get started".

   Fall : Chapter: 28 Ives and Rape.

   Eric moved his chair into the entrance mostly blocking it entirely.  Jac
pulled off his own pants and underwear and the same for Jos.  He rolled Jos
gently to the side to start with the drainage tube scar .  Next the small
white flesh wounds in the back of his scrotum where the testicle drain
tubes emptied.  Then the broken rib scars and the scars caused by open
heart massage.  "Ives , Jos and I were identicle , now look at me" , Jac
showed his own muscles and balls and ribs to Ives.  "Now Ives do you trust
me to ask more questions , about Rob".  "If you must"?  "Ives push the
cover aside , Let me see your balls with my eyes".  "Caan't".  "Why"?  "Ohh
Jac , caan't leave me the fuck alone".  Jack slowly pulled the covers away
but Ives held them both fists.  "Do you want me to proceed".  "No , er ahh
I dun know Jac " , eyes watering , "Please , ok , I'l tell you ".  "It was
not Rob"?  "Ives?" "It was Jake"!  "Er Rob saw me naked, er water was
dripping off my only ball".  "He told Jake , I had no balls".  Jac dropped
the cover , and watched Ives , quickly lift it from his lap.  "Ives"
"Yeah". "Your lumber is growing".  Geeze fuuck , LEAVE ME ALONE "!  "Ives
your a boy , it's normal if your GAY and normal if your straight and Eric
and I , WE DON'T CARE what you are" , except we can't be friends with
fear"! "Jac , I'm not scared".  "Your boy thing is fine with me and Eric at
any size.  I cannot sit here and ignore it cause that will make you more
conscious of it".  "Jac , let's stop now".  "Show me your ball".  Face red
as beets , and eyes crying , Ives fist released the blanket , now tented by
a definite pole.  "Show me Ives".  Jac watched the slender rod erect itself
, clad in tight foreskin hiding the glans.  "Ives , your foreskin is tight.
Jos told me that his was like that until Jen unvirgined him.  Are you
virgin "?  "Jac , do you ever get hard"?  "Do I breath , Does the sun shine
, Am I bare as fuck with two other boys in bed ?  Eric laughed out load. 
Ives lips curled a bit as he let the cover tumble on the floor.  "Geeze ,
my eyes , to be smoten by the lumber of Ives".  Ives smiled , laughed
weakly.  "S'ou see , my problem".  "Ives that is not a problem.  We are
boys.  That's the way we piss, and that's the way we reproduce and fuck. 
There's three billion boys on this earth.  WE ALL GOT ONE and THEY GET
HARD".  "I know that Jac".  Jac smiled into Ives face : "Ladies er Boys and
girls of the jury let it be written that this boy agrees , HE HAS A PENIS
and it gets hard".  Ives giggled , his face upward , then laughed , then
sank.  The fear returned with sweat and pale skin.  Jac put the bed cover
over his hood.  "There is more , isn't there Ives"?  "Gawd Jac , heelp.  A
week later they ambushed me , pulled my pants off .  Jake stuck his finger
up my anus.  I screamed and he threw me under a park bench , and pissed on
me.  I never went in the park again".  "Ives , I wish , I could take your
pain away but we humans have complex brains.  I fear you were assaulted
physically and mentally.  Let me keep askin the questions.  Do you agree to
keep answering even through the pain"?  "I'l try".  "Promise me Ives.  This
is where the wolf needs to realize that life will improver if he can get
just a bit closer to the human removing the trap".  " Jac, I was ok for a
few weeks .  Then I fucked up in gym .  Me in gym class .  I whacked a
volley ball through a tile in the ceiling and picked up a detention.  So
Jake broke one also , so he got detentioned.  I was so scared.  If I had
two balls they would have dissappeared looking for each other.  Jake sat
aside me in gym.  I tried to keep the teacher there but we both knew he
would take off to the smoke room .  Chiiist I started to shiver as Jake
eyed me up and down .  I'l never forget that look on his face.  He's ten
kilos heavier and taller.  Jake pushed me in the storage hole , where they
keep the gym mats".  Tears broke Ives brown eyes.  Distress wrinkled his
face.  The soft green eyes sank back under the eyebrows.  "Jake pulled one
arm behind me and arm locked till I thought it would break , stomped my gym
shorts to the floor , and he stuffed my other arm through the shorts and
tied it to the pommel horse handle.

   "He wouldn't stawp, kept pokin and pokin me.  It hurt my ass , until it
rammed inside.  My guts were pressed over the pommel horse.  He kept rammin
and ramin up my ass until it went in all the way and hurt .  It hurt my
insides.  I yelled for help , and he stopped , let it fall out.  He tied my
face shut with an old towel in the equipment room, put one arm around my
neck and re-entered my ass even harder than the first time.  I screamed but
the sound went no where.  He pulled it out again and warned me , if I
screamed , his arm would get tighter on my neck.  Rammed it back inside me
, burning and hurtin my ass.  I did not try to scream , but he kept rammin
me and rammin me .  I felt his pelvis hitting my ass and knocking me
forward crushing my stomach over the pommel horse.  It hurt .  It hurt on
the outside and the inside.  It hurt my mind.  My stomach puked , but he
would not stop.  The puke caught in the towel tied around my face .  Could
not breath , rammin and ramin me till , he put his fist on my cock and
wrenched it below the pommel .Jac he kept hittin me and rammin me and gawd
oh gawwd he fucsed my ass." Ives collapsed beside Jos.  Jac pulled the
covers over his head , wiped away the tears.  "Then "?  , whispered Jac. 
Jac glanced at Eric and knew that he was taking notes.  "Seemed like
forever but S'done in five minutes".  Jake untied me , forced my shorts
back on , dragged me out of there threw me on the stage , spit in my face
and said :"Tell anyone and your DEAD".  He put his hands on my feet to lock
them down.  Made me do sit ups.  I did them , with puke on my chin and crap
seeping into my gym shorts.  When the teacher came back He was making me do
sit-ups.  The teacher loved him for it.  That was my last gym class ever. I
got a note from my parents , no more gym.  There was blood and shit in my
gym shorts .  I burned them behind the football seats".

   "Jac felt pukish but forced his own mind strong".  "Ans'o after that you
were Jake's playtoy".  "I twied Jac, I twied everting but Jake raped me
twice more that year".  "Year"?  "Grade nine , er three years ago".  "Do
your parents know Ives ?  , Jake used you"!  "I I I I I c co cccoul'nt tell
em , Oh god I twied but coul'nt.  They're always so worried abou my buall ,
they're so shy with me , like I'm broaken.  They know I was sick but not
why .  They think I'm dumb and can't learn cause my grades are shit .  Jac
pulese Jac , Jake , what if he comes back and finds out.  Jake will kill me
"?  Eric closed his note book and addressed Ives.  "Ives I have made
official notes of your discussion, but don't worry , you are seventeen,
almost eighteen.  You can take your choice and your life which ever way you
want ".  The notes can be used in a court room if you want or they can be
abandoned forever , as you decide.  Ives looked at Jac!  "S'you'r decision
Ives".  Jac took his face , looked him up and down.  "Ives , is there more
about that first rape, that I must know.  Did you tell me everything". 
"yeaas".  Ives dropped his face into Jac's chest.  "Sure"?  Jac felt the
full weight of Ives head , like it wanted to slither under the bed.  "Noh".
"Ives" , Jos was beaten to death by this monster.  If there is more ,
please Ives , for my broer's need to know"?  Ives turned over under the
covers , began to cry , to cough and cry harder.  "Jos ohh GAWD JOSOH GAWD
-fucking heell ".  Bawling now and coughing Ives puked over the back of the
bed .  His mind descended into the abyss of morality fear , the morality he
had denied and hidden from himself.  "AWWW OORF , guts wrenching JAKE RAPED
MY AASS." Jac pulled Ives out of the bed , ignoring the puke.  "What else
Ives"?  "Goddam , heathens of hell and forkers of assholes".  "What"?  "I
hurt so bad inside , I had to shit , I had to pee , but instead I felt my
stomach convulse as if to puke but I CUMMED, GWAD DAMM HUCKER I CUMMED Jac.
I CUMMED JOS in his hand.  IT JUST DID , FUUUCKK ME.  I hated it with all
my mind and soul but I cummed in his hand and he licked it.  He said it was
soooo good"

   Ives chest was bright red , and heaving with irregular breathing.  Jac
lead him to the little washroom and washed his face and hair and chest.  He
gripped Ives face with both hands , stared into the green eyes : " Ives ,
you were raped.  Do you understand the fear, deceit and wrecked mind.  Rape
is everything rotten to a boy like you.  It hurts , like ripping your
asshole , yet forces CUM from your boy center.  A boy can't stop that from
happening.  Trust me , your fuckin your own mind for nought.  Look at me ,
first of all , it's ok if you cum with a boy.  It means nothin.  What's
hurtin you is just religious bullshit.  LOOK AT ME Ives , at my face ,
second Jake needs to do that for power , it's nothing to do with you or
love.  Jake probably fucks his family dog and the pidgeons in the bird
feeder".  Eric's face curled slightly , but Ives did not respond".  Ives
your mind is turmoiled , your a virgin , am I right , cause your so afraid
of breakin your only ball , complicated by that prick cummin all over you ,
overcome by the boy hormones kickin at the same time and softied by your
worried parents.  Eric is lucky he did not find you at the bottom of the
valley.  S'at riight?".  "Chiisse Jac , I went out to the highway bridge .
Looking down , I saw the cars hundreds of them going underneath .  I didn't
jump".  Jac held him and dressed him.  Deep sighs breathed from Ives. 
"Ives , you've dropped a load of puke and mind baggage".  Stood him up
straight.  "Ives , sometime later we , Eric and I will go through the other
rapes like this.  This will help you.  Trust me.  The main paw trap has
been released".  "Thanks Jac".  He buried his face in Jac's chest , but did
not cry.  Jac held his ears and neck tight.  "Ives , you stay with us here
tonight, now.  I don't want Eric to find you in the valley tomorrow". 
"Ives , Do you understand Jos and I".  "Will you stay here"?  "Bu bu ,
they'l find out why".  "Who"?  "My parents er find out".  "That your gay"?
"NOHM I'M NOTGAY , FUCK IT , FUCK ALL OF YOU".  Ives swung at Jac but he
ducked.  He lunged to grab Jac , but Eric controlled him.  Jac stared hard
both eyes poking into the brown teary pools.  "MY GWAUD , oh no , Jac , I'm
so sorry , I did exactly the same thing as the administrator, I'm so sorry
, might have killed you with another concussion".  Jac closed in on Ives,
hugged him until breathing stopped and Ives hugged him back as his eyes
fauceted .  Water poured down Jac's chest , soaking the two boys together
but neither let go.  They clung and clung as Jac's eyes joined Ives.  Eric
closed his note book for the second time, walked into the hall and stood
outside the door listening as the tears flooded , then retreated.  Jac kept
his arms tight , slid his hands up and down Ives slender back patting his
head and then his back.  "Ok Ives, it's OK Ives , and whats this ", as his
hand slipped over the rigid penis clad right over the tip like condom
plastic.  "Ives we don't care about Straight or Gay .  We care about fear".
"What do you do with this when it gets like that".  "Nothin", returned a
small voice.  "Yeaass , Ives , you do somethin with it.  You are normal
seventeen years old.  Stroke it Ives , just like this".  Jac pulled his own
tool straight , placed Ives hand across it.  Ives stroke mine.  It's
instinct for a boy.  No learning , no instructions , just rub it and
watch". Ives' fingers tightened around Jac's tool , then stopped .  "I need
to get puke out of my mouth".  Jac gave him the rest of the water from a
water glass.

   Jac motioned to Eric , "Need a favour Eric.  Take this guy and hold him
, and love him till I get back".  Eric pulled Ives to himself as the tears
soaked his uniform.  Jac checked Jos , than ran to the supply room ,
returned with a mop and extra covers and a laundry basket.  In minutes Jos
was out of the puky bed , and back in a clean fresh one.  The floor was
mopped and the puke was rinsed away down the toilette.  Jac put everything
back leaving the dirty laundry for pick-up.  He returned with drinks from
the vending machie and high fived Eric.  They checked Ives .  He was out to
sleep face buried in Eric's uniform.  Jac stripped him down , and put him
into a clean bed with Joshua.  Then he called Ives parents to explain that
Ives was staying for the night.  "Ahh maybe it will help Jos" , argued Jac.
"Don't worry , he is guarded by Joshua's police guard all night".  "Can I
speak with Ives" , asked his guardian mother.  "Awwh oh yes but not right
now , Ives is getting a movie to watch.  I'l let im know soon as he
returns. ".  "Ok Eric , now we need to get a dvd player and a movie".  "Ok
" , laughed Eric , " I'm off shift in half an hour , my brother has the
night shift and I'l tell him to bring the portable and a dvd ".  "A dvd ,
portable player , oh man what a pal you are except what's the movie" .? 
"Brokeback Mountain".  "Aw no - er well OKAY".  "It's a love story , of
sorts".  Ives did stay all night .  He slept without worry until ten in the
morning when the therapy trainers showed up for Jos.  Jac awoke him to find
a cheerful seveteen year old teen with a new attitude to life .  "Jac ,
can't beleive I slept for fifteen hours".  "It's ok Ives , Hope your
feeling better than yesterday.  Eric is back on duty and we told your
mother you were watching brokeback mountain and havin a sleepover".  "Oh
man , I slept with you and Jos all night in a hospital bed".  "Not much -
no room for three".  "We did it Ives and we were ok till your lumber stuck
up around four AM.  "Oh hh , you mean".  Ives , you're seventeen years old
and your healthy and your mind is more at ease than it's been for three
years.  Yep , you had wet dreams and you flooded Jos and I".  "Oh man ,
NO". "It's ok Ives, Jos and I , we did it lots of times.  You're a boy and
a boy with one big ball to make up for two little ones".

   "Ives , if your mother asks , you watched BrokeBack Mountain last
night". "I got another hour before she gets here , er I'm gonna watch it
right now".  "Ives do you have a cell"?  "Jake stomped it to hell and my
step parents wouldn't buy me another".  "Here , take Jos' cell .  Practice
makin calls with it and text me every hour for the rest of today.  Ok Ives"

   "Thanks , Jac , Message yu later." Jac gave his cell to Eric.  The cop
watched for text every hour and replied as arranged, passing the cell back
to Jac at the end of his shift.

   Fall : Chapter: 29 How to Communicate with Joshua?

   Over the next few weeks , communication with Jos was attempted at every
level.  The cum and blood in the pool incident was explained by Thierry
over and over .  Robert was consulted and Sath , but a consensus arose that
boys cum in their sleep all the time and so the brain was not involved at a
high level .  "This was the sub-conscious brain , the one that controls
body functions like breathing".  But don't forget added Robert ", That sub
conscious brain has ultimate authority over your body.  It decides when you
live or die and it does not give up easily.  I know that , because my sub
conscious brain looks for my foreskin every second every minute and every
hour of the day.  Organized religion should get circumcsion of under age
kids banned .  They know how to cut it off but they don't know how to stop
the equivalent brain cells from looking for that sensation after puberty
starts".

   Ives and Jac talked to Jos every hour , every minute.  "We will not let
you fail Jos".  "We will not let your new friend Ives fail either".  Jac
and Jo guided Ives like Jos would have.  They talked about Jos : "Jos
helped me for months to get my respect and friendship ", lamented Jo.  "Jos
does not know that he has hundreds of new friends , all for one act of
respect " , returned Ives.  "He is my hero and friend".  "We can not be
sure that Jos does not know".  "Jos got my dad and mom reunited after
thirteen years .  He is my friend and my bro and my twin".

   Jo and Jen and Jac were desperate to contact Jos , but how ?  Ives
joined the conversation and proposed , "for now only comments , no
questions asked , just neutral comments from all of us".  "We could get the
newspapers to cover the story and that would alert every one to think of
Joshua and what a hero he was / er is".  "We could organize all the
students to think of Jos at the same time".  "Get all the parents of every
kid in Jos' class to ask a friend for help".  "Lets ask every friend that
Jos has , to meet on the the school lawn".  "We could go to that place
where I found Una".  "We could have a red splotch day and paint them on all
the chairs and tables in the classroom where it happenned".  "Yeah".  "Lets
get Jos in a pool and suck him off like we did before , at least his pelvic
muscles communicated something".

   "Yeah to all of the above", "There'someone left out" , mentioned Una. 
"There was a dog .  It understood me when I went there and I remember , the
dog frightened me , yet he knew me and he knew that Jo was coming for me.
He kept looking at Jos though .  It was like Jos was above all of us.  The
dog watched Jos and Jo as though he wanted , no remembered them from some
where else.  The dog reacted to each of us differently as though he knew
each of us personally.  Remember how he stared at Jo"

   Joseph's eyes twinkling , " er His name is Ra".  "Really".  "Yes , Ra's
special , a sort of link to the family of canines wild and tame".  Jac
stood up "Lets find him and his owner , I'll get dad to drive us there". 
They warned the police officer of their quest to locate Ra and called Aric
to watch Joshua.  "Aric you are available to guard my bro"?  "Affirmative".
"Today is scheduled as a homework/tutouring day".  "But , I've done no
homework for ten years".  "That's ok , there are always students there who
can share their answers".  "Don't try to fool them , - the students know if
you are bull shitting".  "Ok men - do what you must do".  Jac kissed his
bro and pulled his socks and underwear off and bagged them.

   Regular students visited Jos .  They asked about Jac until the police
officer explained that Jac was ok with his friends on a picnic.  Aric sat
in bed with Jos propping him up as he spoke and began to question the the
visitors as directed.  When he ran out of ideas, he found students who
could solve the problems and when that failed they pressed the police
officer into a teacher role .  Everyone had a great time filling in for Jac
and Jos.  They high fived Aric and Jos as Aric held his limp hand for the
symbolic slap.  "I would like to be a police officer , like you " , quoted
one of the students.  The officer laughed : "This is the best part of being
a cop".  "You can be what you want to be " , encouraged the cop.

   Fall : Chapter: 30 Ra

   Christmas shoppers and Toronto traffic snarled.  Jac's dad , hired a
delivery service bus and driver who knew the area.  Within an hour they had
found the place where a crack between two buildings opens into a court
yard. Robert and Jo and Jac and Ives entered the court yard first followed
by Jen and Jes and Una.  Jac was carrying his brother's socks and
underwear. The sky was gray as the big dog approached.  Ra stopped and
regarded the new comers.  Jen and Jess smiled at each other :"Remember how
we learned how to tell them apart".  Jac dropped the socks and underwear.
The group retreated .  Ra studied the socks, sniffed them , picked them
together in his muzzel and returned them to Jac.  A man appeared on the
other side of the yard.  "I have expected you " , grinned the man.  I
remember that boy called Joshua.  His name is under age but he is in every
newspaper in this city and he is in the hearts of a million people.  Joshua
respects people , no matter , -- he does good things , and that is why Ra
will help you.  He watched Ra as did the visitors.  Jac knelt on the
walkway and held the socs.  Jo knelt and nosed them as Ra had done.  Ra
retrieved the underwear - dropping it with the socks.  A distant spookish
howl began in Ra and echoed everywhere in the courtyard.  Jo howled with
him and then Jac knelt and the three animals emitted a long , long howl
until all three rib cages emptied of air.  The man approached.  "There is
pain with your friend".  Jac and Jo responded , "Yes , that's it" Ra howled
again a short series of barks and whimpers.  "He cannot return until , the
pain relieves".  "But what is the cause"?  "Not known".  "Will you help us
contact my bro".  "Yes , Ra will do that " .  In the bus riding back :
Tears formed in Jen's eyes: "Maybe Joshua was beaten so badly , and has
sufferred so much - maybe he does not want to return !".  Jo stiffened his
back : "No -Noohh , No Jen , You're wrong , Jos is not giving up , or he
would have done that long ago, and not suiciding.  Your boy friend and
lover is tough.  He will not leave you Jen.  Jos will come back but he is
in great pain .  We need to find out where and what".
Fall: Chapter: 31 : Feel what I don't like.
The next day the man and dog visited the recuperation unit .  All
visitors were redirected to a waiting room .  They padded into Jos room as
Jen finished dressing him.  Jos was propped up by the crank up bed, eyes
open - seeing nothing, -face expressing nothing .  Ra moved forward to his

bed .  The policeman stiffened , -called Robert once again to check on the
credentials of this wolf-like animal.  The big dog approached Jos , ears
alert but tips flattened , tail sombre.  He sniffed Jos' feet.  Jac and Jo
fell to all fours and did the same .  Three animals sniffed the fourth
animals foot , first one , then the other , in some ancient routine
practiced in long forgotten history .  Then they howled the long , long
eerie howl of communication , reverberating off the walls and cabinets and
Jos body , telling Jos through vibration , they were ready to talk.  Nurses
came running , but they stopped at the door.  Curious by standers visiting
other patience appeared to view the origin of the wolf like howl.  Students
in the large waiting room stood in silence , not knowing the meaning , and
some expecting the worst.  Ra pawed the boy on the bed , licking his face ,
then his forehead.  Jo followed , "I can feel it Jos".  Jac smiled :
"Licking is therapeutic - releases healthy hormones to the unhealthy . 
Dogs are the experts.  They lick their young and old.  They lick their
wounds and they lick themselves.  Maybe we can learn from Ra" ?

   "Something is hurting Jos".  "But where"?  Jac began to trace his finger
prints along his broer's nose , then over his hair line and skull to behind
his twin brother's ears , then his spinal column at the throat.  His tongue
wetter the hair into a cow lick .  Salivated into the the cavity at the
back of Jos spine.

   "I can feel what jos does not like".

   Ra climbed his front paws on the bed , began to lick the boys face , his
arms , legs , chest , ankles , then back again criss crossing the body with
flics of the canine tongue.  Ra pulled at Jos shirt.  They pulled Jos
shirt. Ra mouthed his back shoulder muscles , his lower neck .  They
revisited every broken rib , every scar and every healed bruise , each one
testing the theory that "you can feel what Jos does not like".  Ra found a
spot where his head and neck joined behind the ears and he howled again ,
then dropped back on the floor.  Jos followed next finger pads , thumb and
nose and cheeks gathering information on evry wound and every drain tube
scar.  They pulled Jos ' legs apart .  Jen rolled Jos on his belly , then
recranked the bed with Jos on his belly lying over the hill in the middle
of the bed.  They stripped all Jos clothes .  Jo and Ra returned.  They
sniffed the entire length of Jos again , the reverse side of the healed
broken ribs , the drainage tube scars , including the testicles ,
translucent skin along his tube and his star , then complete heal to hair,
stopping and howling where his spine entered the head.  Jo repeated the
same, --stopped closer to Jos' head.  Then Jac did the same .  From the
farmost coccyx vertebrae , through the sacrum, the lumbar , thoracic and
cervical.  Jac licked the cavity between Jos' shoulders and stopped once
again in the cavity at the back of his head where spine meets brain.  " The
second cervical vertibrae " , tipped his head back and howled a spooky
howl. Somewhere in the distant communication between man and dog consensus
reached.  The process caught Jen's attention and then she cracked a joke ,
her first since BWBAD.  Jes eyes smiled at Jen.  "I ve been licking the
wrong thing" , laughed Jen .  "That's the first joke , from you Jen, since
the horrific beating".  "Jen , you did everyhing perfect" , echoed Jac.  "I
am his twin and I should have known about this".  "I see Joshua moving , er
no I'm sorry , NOT now but soon , I see Joshua alive" whispered Jen.  "But
Jos is in great pain.  That's why he cannot get better".  Everyone called
the attendant nurse .  "Second or third cervical vertabrae".  "We got to
get another MRI and scan or whatever it takes to find the damage.  A nurse
called for a doctor.  "There is no point in rerunning all those --"?  Ra
growled his ears folding back.  Jac and Jo and Jen stared incredulously at
the doctor.  Ra growled again as the doctor reconsidered.  He stepped aside
to make a call on his cell and quickly returned.  "Ok , er ok , Lets do it
at lunch time.  The doctor entered emergency instructions for a new MRI for
Jos , specific to the top three vertebrae.  "It's a small area and
hopefully the mri will be quick.  Half an hour later , Jos was redressed
for resonance testing, and transported to the magnetic resonance machine.
"You can't go in there sir".  "The policeman called Robert and explained".

   "I'l stay right outside this door".

   Calibrations were done , and then the machine started humming-measuring
the electron activity in Jos lower brain to spine.  "Jen watched and
realized :" Jos' brain needs to communicate both ways with all his
components.  Stimulating the wrong ones will not work".  A technician saved
the results to a memory chip.  Jos was returned to his room the policeman
following like a loyal servant.  Jac and Jo consulted the the technician .
"We are thanking you for working through your lunch time ", added Jo.  "Jos
is in great pain .  He is my twin bro.  Thanks again very much sir for
working your lunch.  We will not forget your kindness , ever." "Guess it's
all in a days work ".  "I have watched the progress of your brother on the
news and I am a Jos admirer !  Jos makes a difference and the spinoff makes
my life better.  I went to BridgeWork high ten years ago.  It was a good
school then".  "Would you sign Jos visitor list ?".  "Yes Sir , already
have ", as he showed his name proudly to Jac.  "Thanks once again Renny ,
you have no splotch but an abrasion mark"?  Renny laughed : "I had a
special shirt for Jos but my dry cleaner went crazy with it , trying to
remove the splotch.  Right now my special shirt has only an abrasion hole
where the splotch should be".  "Riiight ON Renny.

   Ra continued to lick the neck area behind Jos ears.  The big dog put his
paws on Jos chest and watched and waited.  "He's checking the air coming
from Jos's lungs " , mummurred Jen.  I have done that too , all night long.
The mri results were sent to the downtown General.  A doctor downtown
examined the results carefully.  "Yes".  "Yes"?  "There is definitely some
restriction , some change , some abnormal activity on the second
vertebrae".

   A flurry of new activity began for Jos.  More tests were ordered.  More
scans were completed.  On the week before Christmas , Robert Green and Jac
and Jen demanded answers from the chief of spinal injuries.  "We know there
is a spinal problem " , stated Jen.  "We know there is a problem also " ,
stated the chief.  The mri detected something.  "There is nothing we can
do".  There is no specific spinal damage , yet there may be restrictions
due to Jos being bed ridden , or it may be damage from collision with a
school desk or a kick or a coincidental viri infection.  All the MRI
indicates , Is , different activity from normal.  We do not know what it
means.  Jac looked at the computer scan results.  Ra and I and Jo , We felt
what Jos does not like!  That means Jos knows the pain is there".  The
doctor smiled inquisitively.  "It means , Jos' body is trying to heal the
place" , mused Jac.  "I can feel the difference , sense the difference. 
Leave us ,with Jos now.  "We know what to do".  Jac and Jen and Jo returned
to Jos room.  They cranked the bed the opposite way into a hump and placed
Jos face down over the shallow side of the bed slope.  "One way did not
work".  "Try another , but we must be double sure his airways are ok".

   Robert and Jac and Jen consulted on how to to cure the vertebrae.  " Ra
taught us how to do it ".  "Then we must do it ".  "We will take turns , as
long as it takes".  "Should we howl"?  "Ra howled to make sure that Jos
knew he was there .  The vibrations of sound were detected by Jos body". 
"And the tongue releases trace amounts of endorphins and oxycontin and
hormones and whatever happens to be in the person or dog's blood stream. 
It does not really matter except one of these hormones will signal Jos
brain for the better".  "Point".  "The point is Jos is dormant for three
months.  He must be stimulated to , er awakened , and want to communicate
back to us".  Jen smiled at the group.  "Jos must be told somehow that his
friends want to talk".  Jac stared at Robert knowingly.  "Dad , you ". 
"Me".  "Yes , you can communicate with Jos and he can communicate with you
, the same way as when Jos' mind broke at the old farmhouse".  "Oh aww no
nooo".  "Jen stared at Robert".  "Is there still some of that religious
bull shit caught in your brain Robert"?  "No".  "Ehh Ehh"?
Fall: Chapter: 32 : How to help Jac.
"Er yeah , I'll do it .  We must be discreet".  If any of those press
staff get wind of this they will ruin my career and that will ruin our

chances of ever helping Jos".  "Agreed".  "Jac , will you do it"?  "Jen"?
"I already tried and nothing happens" , smiled Jen coyly.  "The
communication must be fed back immediately".  "And maybe Jac needs exposure
to male testoserone and adrenalin or something"?  "I think boy to boy is
best or dad to boy tops all".  "This is soo crazy".  "No , it is just
widening our thinking to another star", stated Jac.  "That is why we must
do it , for Jos".  "Jos was created by your sperm and by my moms egg, Dad".
"You already have experience communicating with Jos at that sub conscious
level".  "It's possible that Jos and perhaps Jac have inherited - learned
the communication protocols required by the connection , just as Jo has
some inane ability to understand Ra.  Remember when Jos said that he did
suck his Dad and that he was proud of that - remember the confidance in his
voice".  "And recall that all three of us have the special ability to roll
our tongues into a cylinder .  Alleles on a certain dna string , they say".
"We'll rethink this all night ", as the group parted.  Another police
officer replaced the one on guard as Jac snuggled into his brother's belly.
The night passed quickly.

   The next day Jac and Robert and Jes and Jen and Jo and Una visited Jos
and made arrangements to take him in a wheel chair on a picnic.  The doctor
consulted with the downtown directors who agreed.  By noon Jos was back in
the old farmhouse .  Jac and Robert carried him upstairs to the same small
bed, nestled his shrinking body into the bed , stripped off all clothing.
Jac and Jen helped Robert undress.  A policeman stood guard on the road
outside , ensuring that curious cameras respected Jos privacy.  "Are you
guys ok with this"?  "Yep" "We have no religious baggage about man to boy
communication".  "I am kinda shy with my sons and their friends ", added
Robert.  "Ok , we'll come back after your'e in bed with Jos".  Minutes
later Jen and Jes and Jac returned to find Robert reversed to Jos under the
sheet.  Gentle fingers helped Robert position himself close to Joshua. 
Robert took his son's limp tool between his lips.  Jac and Jen massaged Jos
along his spine.  Jes monitored breathing and heart rate.  "What do we
expect".  "We expect to discover , that which troubles Bro".  "We should
have brought Ra with us".  "Yeah , but give this the old college try
anyway. We can get Ra next time if required".  Robert relaxed , imagining
himself with Jos the night of Jos break down.  Remembering the dream that
he had with Jos.

   Jo licked Jos , starting with the top vertebrae and ending with the
bottom , leaving a trail of his own fluids , digestive saliva , minute
testoserone traces and more.  His tongue became restless , contacting Jos
star and then the balls hanging nearby.  Robert drifted into a deep sleep
under the covers.  His tongue continued to contact Jos but Jos made no
attempt to re-contact .  But , also no attempt to reject Robert.  Jen
tongued Jos upper vertebrae continuously until his neck hair waved under
her tongue each time it passed.  "Hey" , somethings diff" , whispering to
Jo.  "Let me see".  Jac moved his tongue along the vertebrae , tasting ,
feeling communicating with Jos spine to the lowest unit.  "Yeah , the pain
is less , or at least I do not sense so much".  Jac's tongue was close to
Roberts' , when a small muscle movement attended Jos .  "I think his
cremaster muscle , just moved something", whispered Jac.  Jen held a bright
flashlight alongside Joshua's slender tube as Robert dreamed it.  She
checked Robert's tube close to Joshua's lips , adjusted it slightly. 
"Roberts glans-foreskin is tortured by those religious freaks for sure". 
And then a miracle as small as a tiny muscle contraction.  The lips parted
pulling the tortured glans inside.  They checked Robert but he appeared to
be sleeping as was Jos , yet changes were occuring.  "Jos heart rate is up
", intimated Jes.  "Yeah" , gleamed Jac's eyes as his tongue sensed the
delicate shift of Jos' cremaster muscles , pulling his balls closer to the
pubococczeal muslces.  Jac watched for any tiny movement by Jos.  Jo
continued his tongue massage.  Robert's dream intesified .  He felt his son
a long way away , a howl like echo from the bottom of a great hill. 
"Daaaad I'm here".  "Show me where".  "Can you feel this".  Robert's tongue
detected the shallowing of Joshua's raph.  "Yeah".  "Can you feel this ".
One of Jos fingers closed on Roberts limpness.  "Yeah , I feel it " YEAS I
DO Jos".  "Wait , don't wake up yet , it'l break the dream and the
feedback".  Robert's tongue increased motion inside Joshua's foreskin. 
Joshua's lips folded tightly around the circumcision scar on Robert , his
tongue folding into a tube to contact as much of the glans as possible. 
The dream continued but no more high level communication occurred , until
Robert heard Joshua's thought waves again ."Dad , I can't get closer,
Please Dad help.  I want , I need to talk , ---" , and then like a broken
connection on a telephone , no communication again.  Robert tried and tried
to redream , or dream , or somehow get back to where he had gotten a
response , but nothing.  Finally , awaked he , opened his eyes and spoke.
"Jos is OK , he is OK ".  He flew out of bed jumping wildly , as Jac stared
.  "Dad ahh dad" , your naked as a weiner".  "Jos told me he was ok through
our conversation , but I lost connection , - no longer works." "So what to
do now"?  Una smiled , "Joseph has the exact same foreskin as Joshua". 
Robert , Jen , Una and Jess regarded Joseph ."Ahh would you ?  Could you
connect , -"?  "T'would be greater for Jen" , observed Jo.  "Agreed , but
the connection has to have instant feedback".  Joshua may be too weak to
put his tongue or penis against Jen's communication clit".  "Ok , ok
admitted Jo with the three of them staring him , -er at least his Dad was
able to get a bit of connection." "Jo , you do have an identicle foreskin
to Joshua ".  "But Jac , so do you".  "Jac , you were formed inside a sac
with Jos and the two of you are sure to have connection skills.  Do you
want me to try , or will you try it?" Jo's green eyes stared into Jac's bue
eyes , no blinks maximum pupil size.  "Jac : Do not be afraid .  Use your
fear to make yourself do this".  Jac acknowledged , "You're right Jo , I am
afraid , I'm afraid of failure".

   Robert and Jen and Jes studied Jac's face: "Yes Jo is correct.  You Jac
, you fear failure.  It's because you were beaten and your bro was beaten
by the hatred that crept into your mind".  "Jac , I say, you can do this .
You must not connect with any fear ".  "Your brother was attacked , and you
stopped them .  That hospital goon caught you off-guard and perforated your
defences".  "Jac we have a cop outside on the road.  He is trusted and he
carries a gun.  I assure you , this area is secure for you and Jos".  Jen
and Jes removed Jac's clothes , as they spoke : "Jos was beaten by raw
hatred.  It infests his brain for three months.  You Jac , You can do this
because I saw you change your grandfather .  You switched his mind from
fear to family love , and you did it by stealing away your fear into a
controlled area , not approachable through uncontrolled walls".  "That's
what Jos did to me", exclaimed Joseph.  "You can not rid the rotteness of
hatred , but you can put it in a trash heap forever".  Jen spoke again ,
her eye piercing Jac's , Your eyes glow with new strength Jac.  The white -
whiter and the pale blue deepened like the fresh water stream in the forest
where Jos and I first luffed".  "Jacque , you are Jos twin , and when you
contact him the two of you will be so strong , just like before.  Go for it
, Succeed your twin broer."

   "You're right Jo , I'l do it , if anyone can get through to Jos , I can
, but you will need to monitor Jos with Jen.  If I am to dream , I must be
asleep to allow the sub-conscious brain to talk.  Promise me Jo , and Jen .
When I am unconscious , I can't watch Jos , in the same way".  "Don't worry
about your bro , Jac : We will guard his life with our own and there is an
armed policeman outside".  Jo patched a symbolic spotch of blood on his
chest and then on Jac.  "Do it Jac" .  "True , you can communicate at a
lower level and you will know if he is in danger , plus we promise". 
Robert dressed , watching his son snuggle into bed with his twin.  Jen , Jo
and Jess watched the process as Jac moved his lips closer to Jos ,
carefully drawing the transparent skin of the tube into his mouth. 
Everyone watched Jos as Jac's tongue slid inside the tight foreskin and
curled itself cylindricaly around the interior glans.  "I understand that
not every human has the genes that allow their tongue to curl like that -
in fact it's called alleles - some kind of gene variance perhaps modified
by real world experience".  Simultaneously , Jac edged his own tube closer
and closer to Jos lips, massaging the outer gums along the shiny white
teeth until , - "Wow " , exclaimed Jen , Jac's tube just slid right inside
Jos as the teeth parted.  "Right on" , whispered Robert and Una and Jo. 
"Jen , you and Jes work your fingers along Jos back" "Jo and I'l massage
his spine as before".  The process to contact Jos began again.  Jac tried
to relax , to dream about his twin .  "h'mm too tense".  Jac tried again
and again but no dream , and no sub-consciou activated.  "Jes , I need your
help with this , I can't do it , can't relax - er can you help".  "Not with
everyone looking".  "Please".  "I'l look the other way " , stated Robert as
he began to massage Jac's spine.  Jes moved her lips close to Jos tube . 
Her lips moistened Jac, giving him several kisses.  She could not get a
good kiss on Jac with Jos in his mouth.  "I know what to do , stated Jo ,
as his fingers crept to Jac's star and burrowed to find his prostate. 
Relax Jac , let yourself relax ...  A long sigh escaped as Jac began the
process.  Now Jess re-arranged herself , her mouth and cheeks against Jac's
tube and Jos' face.  She tasted the colourless fluids flowing from Jac's
tube as they spilled Jos.  Jo continued the massage ,"Ahh is this ok with
you Robert and everyone - I mean Jac is relaxing perfectly but if he cums
in Jos mouth with Jos unaware , -er is that rape or is it unethical or what
"?  Robert laughed and Jes smiled : "Jo they are twins , they probably
already did that to each other in the womb , except for boy sperm" . 
"Basically this entire experiment is wrong in the eyes of the great
christian god".  The christians , after two thousand years , oppose
everything that human life evolved for , so lets continue and lets not
mention this".  Jo laughed .  "You know there is something fun about
relaxing Jac like this .  He has been so strong since BWBAD.  Come on Jac ,
You can do this , and you need release".  "Come on Jac ".  "It's your time
to relax Jac , Drift off" , repeated Jess .  "Drift off ",repeated Jen. 
"Drift off" ,repeated Una.  "Drift off ", repeated Jo.
Fall: Chapter: 33 : Joshua moves
Jac stiffenned slightly , -- buckets of white cum flowed from his flacid

tube into Jos mouth.

   Robert laughed , "That is bound to release the sleepy time drugs in
Jac". "and it releases them also into Jos , the pain killers , the
stimulants and boy testoserone that Jos does not have".  "What a flood of
goodness , - I forgot over the last three months that Jac is a human boy
male and he needs to do this way more often", exclaimed Jes.

   Jac drifted into a deep slumber , then a dream and ...  Jos' lips
snugged a bit as his tongue curled to contact Jac's tube.  Jac 's lips did
the same , his tongue pushing into the final crevice where Jos foreskin and
raph meet up.  Robert began the same procedure on Jos , massaging his
prostate .  Jes and Jen monitored Jos carefully looking for signs of
change. Without a doubt , Jos' tube stiffer than ever before.  "Perhaps the
good feeling in Jac is radiating into Jos , - keep at it Robert and Jo keep
Jac hard as rock.  It'l stimulate his testoserone levels and all the other
hormones released with that flood of boy cum, and they will rub off on Jos
tongue and be absorbed into his blood stream".

   "Ok - ok changes murmured Jes".

   Jos is getting rock hard , and better still his heart rate is increasing
slightly".  They watched Jos foreskin grow and stretch with his brother's
tongue locked inside furled around the glans.  They watched the subtle skin
colour on Jos face , the light red blush appearing on his cheeks. 
"Something good is going to happen to Jos , for the first time since the
bully attack".

   Jac dreamed of a watery warm pool with his twin brother , -of warm
lighted fluids and muffled sounds and then , from another mind -- a
distinct thought.  "Jaaaac , Jac , I need help , I need you".  "Yes bro".
"Keep talkin to me , hold me".  "I am Jos , I am , hold me too , keep
talkin to me like I am talkin to you".  Jac's tonque did hold as did Jos'.
"I can feel you Jac , I want it , want to feel you more, can taste your
spirit - it's in my mouth".  "I want you too Jos".  "Jac , Please , I can
do it too if you help me - hold me over Jen so that I can penetrate her".
"OOOk kid , let's do it".

   Jen saw the eye lids close , then open .  Jos eyes focused on her
dancing smile.  She screamed , "Jos' awake".  "Yes HE IS"!  Jes smiled as
Jos respiration shifted and heart rate increased.  Jen fell upon Jos ,
licking sniffing smothering.  "I luff you Jos , I luff you , I just luff
you soo much".  "His lips moved with no sound "Jen".  "Jen".  Jen" .  On
the third attempt Jos voice drifted around the room.  "JEN : where am I - -
I-- I can't move"?  "In the old farmhouse bed".  "I can't move , I'm so
weak".  Robert bent and kissed Jos , "Glad to see your mind is back with us
Joshua .  You have been in a coma from the first day of school until the
twelveth of December".  "Geez Dad , weak".

   A howl ignited from Robert and Jen and Jes and Jac and Jo spooking all
the dogs in the neighbourhood.  Old window panes reverberated the message ,
"Jos is alive".  "JOS IS ALIVE".  Jos eyes twinkled back at them , "Of
course , I'm alive but I am tense and I got to pee and I got --- help me
Jen."

   Jen shouldered into him, with Robert and Jo and Jac lifting his weight.
They walked Jos down the hall to the bathroom just as they had practiced in
the hospital soo many times , but this time Jos knew where he was.  Jen
aimed him at the toilette bowl with her right hand fingers as they steadied
him..  A stream of yellow water excited to bowl making huge bubbles.  Jac
immediately aimed for the bubbles trying to break as many as possible. 
Then Jo and Robert took turns making bubbles.  "Boys have fun things to
play ", lamented Jes.  Jos smiled a tiny smile before they returned him to
the bed , laid him back flat on the covers.  "Hell lll hurts" , whimpered
Jos Jo and Jac and Robert and Una and Jes slipped their hands under Jos and
watched his eyes as they slowly , rolled him on his belly with a pillow
under his tube , and face twisted to the side to breath.  "Great work boys
- This rests my back" , they heard him whisper.  "But I am sooo tense ,
"Jen please".  Jen wanted to help Jos so bad , "but how"?  "Robert and Jac
and Una took one side of the bed.  Jo and Jes took the other .  "Ok lift".
Gently Jos body rose above the pillow , as Jen slipped into the pillow
place pushing her lower opening under her hips to preserve Jos spine shape
as they lowered him back down.  Jen tried and tried but his penis was too
limp to penetrate her passage.  They raised Jos' body again allowing Jen to
duck under his waist.  Twisting her neck just right to touch her tongue to
his foreskin .  Her tongue darted into the crevice between skin and glans
touching the frenulum directly.  "ahhh please , Jen , pulease Jen , do it"
"ahhh - like in the forest by the stream" " again - one more suck ".  "Ok
let me down on Jen again boys".  Colourless fluids lubricated Jos' glans.
Jen stared at the first emissions : "It's bloody - oh Jos' pain is bloody".
"Robert peeked under his son ".  "Show me".  "It's clotted blood left over
from the beating - it's good to milk it all from Jos".  "S'not hurt -
ahhhh", whispered Jos.  Jen connected to his glans with her mouth , used
her fingers to stiffen the tube and her tongue curled around Jos' glans. 
Jac and Robert and Jess and Jo and Una felt the tightening muscles in Jos .
- noticed his body tense , become weightless.  Jos balls pulled themselves
up into the pelvic zone.  Contractions began in his inner thigh muscles and
radiated to the balls.  Blood stained cum poured forth into Jen's mouth
Deep groans wracked Jos' body.  Her tongue continued to coax the clots and
sperm and clumps of destroyed flesh until Jos body became limp weightful
and heavy again .  Jac and Robert and Jess and Jo and Una rested him back
on the bed where his pecker smeared blood and boy milk across the big white
pillow.

   Jes began to monitor his heart and breathing again.

   "He's totally sleeping again".

   Jen spit her mouthful into a cup and rinsed herself in the washroom .

   "Blood , but dried blood , it must have come from Jos".  "Yeah he did
cum".  Jac laughed: "You did id Jen , You milked him like Adriens milking
machine on a prize dairy cow.  "What does it mean "?  Is Jos full of dried
blood"?  Jen and Jes consulted each other , "Oh yeah , remember all that
swelling on his balls , and the drain tubes coming out of them two months
ago"?  "Remember the gynecolgist said the pain and swelling would kill
him". "Most likely Jos organs are all contaminated with dried blood ". 
"Hee it looks like we just flushed some out of his reproduction systems".

   "Let's dress him carefully and take him back to the hospital".
Fall: Chapter: 34 : Jos returns to coma
Jos body was carefully dressed all the while keeping his spine in the
shape which he preferred.  An hour later he was back in the hospital bed ,
but this time Jen put a note on it , that stated , "keep this bed in this

shape.  Do not adjust until Jos tells you".  As the evening approached
Thierry and Adrien took up the watch .They kept their fingers under his
throat and lips to make sure that Jos breathing was normal.  "Jos , Jos ,
Im teling you , your'e gonna sire a gay boy baby and he is gonna be a
lawyer and become Prime Minister of Canada.  And a baby girl , and they'l
nick name her SathII because she will have special healing powers.  " Then
Thierry would start ,"Jos , you and Jac are going to be strong again , only
this time I'm going to teach you what Jac can do with a kick and then Jac
will teach again.  By the time we are done with your training you will be a
black boot in our school of kick boxers".

   In the morning Ives and Aric and Julia continued watching.  Robert and
Jen and Jo and Jac said nothing of Jos activity.  Everyone noted that each
was far more cheery than usual.  Finally , another sunrise .  Jac smiled as
the hospital nurse began the morning routines for Jos.

   "Strip down".  "Sponging".  "How can I sponge him all over on his belly
like that draped over the bed"?  Warming water again .  "Oh baby , your so
cute chimed the middle age nurse".  "That makes me cute too" , issued Jac.
"Jos has pretty scars".  "If I had a boy , I would want him to be like you
Jac and Jos".  Gradually slipping the warm water sponge around Jos ears ,
neck and chest and eventually balls.  "Then I'll get tatoo scars", laughed
Jac.  She saw the balls pull up into their pelvic spots.  "H'mm that's a
new reaction , as she grabbed the pager.
Fall: Chapter: 35 : Jos speaks

   Suddenly "I'm so fuccing hungry".  "Puleassse , I need food".  "Jac ,
don't tease me like that" , chided the nurse.  "I did not say it".  Before
the words were finished the nurse pager set off emergency request for a
doctor.  Within a second , two appeared , but Jos just frowned , "Food ,
please food I said , not the white coated fellows".  "Why are thee here"?
The policeman grinned.  The doctors gasped , then regained composure.  "Yes
Mr.  Green .  Food in ten minutes.  For now , a shot of ginger ale " , as
they immediately ordered food for a patient who had not eaten for three
months.  Ives was arriving as the Doctors rushed in.

   "What the fuuuu".  Jos grinned , slurring his words in the mattress ,
"Uhhh Ives rwhat are you ooing here".  Ives ran from the hospital screaming
, he's alive , he's alive as four of the BridgeWork high school cheer
leaders entered the hospital main doors.  They grabbed Ives , dragged him
back to Jos room and peered in as Jos ordered food again.  "Holy holy High
" , yelled the cheerleaders.  Aric and Julia arrived as Ives ran from the
room.  Then all of them returned.  Doctors tried to chase Aric and Julia
and the cheerleaders out but it was not possible.

   The policeman stood up , hesistated to interupt the spontinaity.  He
called Robert and notified the details.  Jac smiled "Let the cheers begin"!
Jos struggled : "Help me Jac , Caan't eat like this".  Jac and Aric and
Julia picked him up gently , like a fifteen year old baby.  Ives recranked
the bed into sitting form and Jos was placed as he wished sitting.  The
covers tumbled .

   The four cheer leaders took positions in Jos room.  They took discrete
notice of the boy tool standing at attention, as they performed their dance
.  They finished as his legs pulled up showing the girls a rock hard post
clothed to end with foreskin .  "Thanks girls , but all I want right now is
something to eat".

   "Wow , he iiss' s really alive exclaimed the cheerleaders".  "Yeas ,
annouced Julia , Jos and Jos have returned"!  Within minutes the
municipality came alive.  Tv crews , the principal , the mayor , off duty
police officers , radio reporters , journalists , crowded the hospital
halls and waiting rooms trying to get a glimpse of the boy who saved their
school from two bullies four months earlier.

   The policeman called for backup just in case.

   A small cube van rented by the local tv station showed up within
minutes. "Good morning folks , we interrupt your morning routine.  There
will be a Christmas in BridgeWorks after-all .  Repeat , there will be
Christmas.  This is your first news .  Instant TV News provides first
glimpse of hope for our fifteen year old hero .  He is too young to be
identified , but every student and parent and teacher in BridgeWorks High
knows him as the boy who should not have been at Bridgeworks on the first
day of school.  That was BridgeWorks Bully Attack Day , or better known as
BWBAD .  The young man was badly injured by a sucker punch and viscious
kicks from three school bullies and was treated for almost two months in
critical care in downtown Toronto , only to return here resting in a coma.
This morning we have eye witness accounts from one of the bully's victims
and from the BridgeWorks High cheer leader team.  "Cheerleaders can you
tell us what happen five minutes ago in the hospital room"?  "Well , we did
our special dance for (Jos-beep) and when we finished he was being a real
boy , and he's really boy beautiful .  He said thankyou and asked for
food". "And can you do the cheer for us tv folk"?  "OK" "Ready" "Yes we
can"!  High kicks - low kicks "Joshua lives".  Arms out - Arms in "Joshua
rocks".  High kicks - high kicks "Rise up BridgeWork High" "Put away
BridgeWork Low".  "Joshua , Joshua , rejoin our goal".

   Jill was watching the tv program.  She screamed hysterically," Josh ,
Josh , oh my son , Joshua Greeen".  Jac was now beside his bro , grinning.
Two excutives from the Canadian National Broadcasting Network quickly
located the hospital room with permission slips to release his name.  "Mr
Green and Mr Coresland-Green , your parents and this hospital and your
school have consented to making your name public.  The National needs to
get your consent , in trust and fairness.  You Joshua Green and your twin
brother Jacque Green are the men er youths who stood up to a serious
problem in BridgeWork High.  You have the trust of six hundred high school
students and all of the parents in BridgeWork.  Will you consent to release
your name to the national news network , making it public for all of
Canada"?  Joshua threw off the sheet and sat up cautiously , "where do I
sign gentlemen".  Camera's and microphones flashed with the incredible news
, twin brothers stark nude one holding the other upright .  "Of course ,
you know said Jac , The laws of Canada do not allow you to publish our
pictures below our chest and that's where the bullies did the damage. 
Censorship protects them" , smiled Jac as he signed the lengthy documents
and passed them to Jos.

   Ives' dad was shovelling snow when Ives mother rushed into the driveway
dragging him off the ice and carrying a radio.  "Listen , Listen".  Thierry
and Adrien had slept at Adrien's house and were driving to work when their
truck radio interrupted regular ten in a row ."This better be good news ,
moaned Adrien - to stop playin "Brown Eyed g---".  ----- Holy Christ ,
Hoppin Hippopotamus " as the truck swerved to a stop in the snow bank. 
Thierry and Adrien jumped about on the road " Joshua lives - Joshua rocks".
Thierry and Adrien rolled about like otters in the fresh snow.

   Jill's parents heard the news as they prepared ,yet another trip to see
their grandson, "yoowwee , yoweeeeee " , screams of absolute happyness
echoed across their small town.

   Six hundred high school students who hated school last year because of
Rob and Jake heard the same news at the same time and texted it to six
hundred more before the radio station could finish.  Crowds of students
assembled in front of BridgeWorks Secondary School yelling for Joshua. 
School officials appeared on the roof of the school with a loud speaker .
"Class , we are aware that Joshua has asked for food.  Please do go to
class but keep an eye open for more information".  Six hundred students
chanted "Joshua lives".  "Joshua rocks".  "Rise up BridgeWork High".  "Put
away BridgeWork Low".  "Joshua , Joshua , we join your goal".

   Jen and Jes heard the official announcements while preparing for school
and began to sing "Joshua lives - Joshua rocks".

   Area work crews dispatched to municipal cell phone tower systems.  "
Yeap it's overloaded ", nothing we can do , the antenae are free of snow".
" IS it crashed with the ramping volume of text messages and voice call
requests"?  "No sir, still handling it's maximum call load but some calls
cannot be processed".

   Jac and Jos called their Dad.  "We need winter clothes dad".  "I saw the
news , and Thierry is bringing clothes now".  "Dad , the students at
BridgeWorks want to see us".  "Two off duty nurses will take us to the
school in a convolesence van.  The police officer will stay at Jos side no
matter".  "I'll get Jill .  We will meet you there in an hour".

   Within and hour the national news uplink van was plopped on BridgeWorks
High Secondary School snow covered lawn.  Stabilizers deployed , and
satelite uplink established.  A team of executives sought Robert and Jill
and brought them to the high school.  "Until now , residents of this
Ontario town were facing a bleak Christmas as their favourite boy Joshua
Green rested in coma in the recuperation unit.  As you know the boy is
underage , in Canadian law , but we have just recieved clearance from his
parents and school officials and himself.  This boy and his brother are
underage , but they are more man than most adults can ever hope to achieve.
We have just recieved news that Joshua Green is asking for food". 
Canadians everywhere , kick your heels , dance your feet , flash your
lights , and scream "Our hero lives." "BWBAD is officially over".

   At the first period break the entire student population did not go to
their next class.  Instead they assembled without organizers , without
police , and without teachers on the south lawn beside the national news
uplink van.  The snow was quickly stompled into powder by several hundred
students.  "Ontario listen up , Joshua Green has eaten his first food in
three months , since the sucker punch that sent him to hospital.  With us ,
we have his Mother Jill and dad Robert and his twin brother Jacque. 
Jacque's twin brother is inside the school at this minute , reported to be
weak but very much cognizant of three months lost in coma.  In September ,
local papers reported that Joshua was attacked by two bullies.  He recieved
several sucker punches before his brother and a high school friend
destroyed the bullies with well placed kicks.  The two attackers were aided
by a third man not currently attending BridgeWorks and none of them have
returned , but this story is about their victim.  Fifteen year old twins
took on the two eighteen year old bullies and one nineteen year old adult
and parents and teachers and students say " 'they set this school on a new
destiny.  Please bstay wi--- ".  Massive cheering began near the gymnasium
door obliterating the announcers voice.  Students , teachers and everyone ,
listen to the roar of this young crowd .  "I see the crowd parting --- I
see a wheel chair progressing across the snow packed yard maneuvering
through the cheering as it splits to allow passage.  People , I am excited
more than you to see who is riding that chair.  The crowd is parting
viewers , let the camera show--- ".  Adrien and Thierry lifted the chair
over the snow bank and rested it in front of the uplink truck.  "It is for
sure our twin hero men and women , it's Joshua Green ".  National tv
cameras zoomed live to a pale boy nestled in a bright red snowsuit.  "He is
here with us folks , outside the BridgeWorks High School where it all
started last September".  As the crowd closed around the Greens and the
announcers words sank in to the ears of the crowd a cry of Joshua began by
Ives.  It grew and grew until every student yelled with all their power
"JOSHUA JOSHUA JOSHUA".  The chant echoed from the high school bricks and
drowned out all other speech.  Joshua grinned at the cameras , motioned for
the microphone.  Everone , plueese , I needed you to believe me and yu did
, you did , I'm weak , but alive.  Thanks Bridgework for accepting me into
your school".  He dropped microphone as Jac steadied his brother against
the roars of appoval and the cold December breeze.  The tv crew focussed on
Jos red snowsuit as the announcer moved close.  "Joshua Green , how do you
feel"?  Joshua grinned a pale smile , slid down the zipper on his bright
red suit to his waist.  "This' how I feel" .  Thierry split apart the snow
suit to reveal the scars on Joshua's lungs and belly.  The cold wind
wrinkled the skin further into white , and blue and red marks highlighting
Joshua's pain.  Jen advanced from the crowd .  She climbed over the snow
bank .  "This is the scars from open heart surgery.  This is the scar from
broken ribs perforating outside his flesh.  This is the scar from drainage
tubes protecting his internal organs from bursting with leaking blood. 
This is the scar from rib clamps used to hold his broken ribs end to end
while they healed.  There is far more damage and scars inside than I can
legally show this tv camera , but you can see my boy ROCKS".  "ROCKS". 
"ROCKS" "ROCKS ROCKS " chanted eight hundred students.  "ROCKS ROCKS" ,
sang Joshua's friends.

   Jos sucked new strength from the crowd and cold air currents , -motioned
for the micrphone once more : "Tuanks to all you great people and friends
and to doctors and medics and pilot who Bro said , saved my life and to the
policeman who guards me and you .".

   A roar of cheers inundated BridgeWorks.  Jen rezipped the snow suit and
pulled the hood over Jos head , but he motioned the mic once more.

   "Friends , Jen is my first girl friend and she will be my only girl
friend .  I dreamed of her often .  I will get better and stronger and I
will marry her when the time is right ".  Joshua openned his arms to face
Jennifer.  "Jen ahh, Jennifer : will you marry me and have our children"?

   Jen's face ignited with a smile and twinkling eyes.  Adrien and Thierry
moved aside but held the chair stable as she pulled Jos upright on the
chair foot tread.  She threw off her own parka and unzipped Joshua .  Her
arms snaked inside around Jos chest.  She screamed as loud as the rising
crowd :"YES".  "YES".  The students responded "YES , YES YES".  "YES" ,
echoed from the brick walls.  "YES".  They picked up the powdered snow and
heaved it skyward , the brisk breeze carrying it everywhere as six hundred
students did the same.  A whiteout of snow blinded the tv camera's as crews
scurried to maintain visibility".

   After the white out subsided a calmness.

   Every student from the high school assembled around the van.  They
seemed to be picking a spokesman to talk on national news.  Several cheers
and shows of hands ended with one student.  A shy red haired boy moved to
the uplink van .  The crowd parted letting him through.  He strode to the
line of security staff and waited as the announcer moved in front.  "Can
you give us your name please , sir.  "Ives Smith".  Ives looked at Joshua ,
put his arm around the hood.

   "I am Ives .  I was a victim of those two bullies in grade nine for a
whole year ,and grade ten last year.  I hated school , and I failed grades
, because of fear , but something happenned on the first school day of this
year , er last September".  " Can you tell us what - , What happenned
Ives"? "The two bullies dumped my note papers on the floor and a new
student - Jos Green - , asked them to apologize.  They did , but in the
third class they came back and they punched Jos in the guts.  His twin
brother defended both of them but it was too late for Jos.  He was knocked
down and kicked by two bullies , and a third man.  Now, four months later,
he is out of coma.  Joshua ROCKS.  The bullies have not returned to
BridgeWork and we - er all of the students here are thankful for that".  A
long round of applause over whelmed the microphones , causing the announcer
to pause.  "What do you think the school admin should do to prevent
bullying." "Us students have supported Joshua and his brother from day one.
Admin should let him come to our school.  They should bring him here by
helicopter and let him wave from the roof , when he gets enough strength.
That would take some wind from the sails of bully people who want
attention. Thanks for letting me speak for the students who love Jos. 
Every student needs a safe place to learn with friends." For five minutes
the student applause overwhelmed.  When it finally subsided Ives spoke , "
Thank you students for letting me speak and please everyone , keep the
communication channels open and lets get back to our classes ".

   "This is our number one news story across Canada , folks".  Please
standby for more information".

   Students began to disperse inside the school , determined to get a few
minutes of time from their last classes before mid terms.
Fall: Chapter: 36 : Jos starts his new high school.
Jacque and Robert and Jill headed in to the school .  They located the
secretary office and asked for an interview with the Principal.  Within

moments he appeared and invited them to his office.  "Mr.  and Ms.  Green ,
I am honoured by your request.  In fairness , Joshua has not demonstrated
the academic knowledge required for this school.  But Jacque and Joshua
have moved this student body forward two thousand years.  Our system had
arranged a place for him in Bakker High , but Jos insisted on attendance
here".  Jacque clarified his position: "Well Mr.  Principal , This is the
school that Joshua has chosen along with me , his twin brother Jacque.  We
will demonstrate academic knowledge if you would allow both of us to attend
this school." "As you wish young Mr.  Green.  The two of you have not
attended a single class after the first day.  Is that not a tremendous
amount of pressure now levied on both of you to show academic ability". 
"Agreed , but be assured that Joshua and I will succeed this year in this
grade.  We promise to graduate.  If that fails , then we will have failed ,
but at least we tried , and that is all that you can ask of any student".
"Mr.  Green , do you support Jacque and Joshua to graduate this year"?  "No
Sir, my sons speak for themselves , and I want what they want."

   "Gentleman , kindly stop at the registrar's office and we will make the
appropriate changes".  "Thankyou sir" .  "Thankyou sir".

   Fall Chapter: 37 : Highschool tests.

   The next six months of high school for Joshua and Jacque began.  Joseph
teamed up with Ives and Jen and Jess to peer ahead into the next six
months. They held meetings with BridgeWork students volunteering to help.
The problem was stated and restated : "Joshua and Jacque need to graduate
this year , must pass the same test as every other Bridgework student ."
Hundreds of ideas were reduced to a few recommendations to their parents
and to Jac and Jos parents and to school officials and to the local
recreational health clubs.  Jen and Jes compiled a list.  (1)Joshua needs
to continue physical therapy in the local pool, and any student needing
help learning to swim or wanting to help Jos swim may join in to help the
trained specialists work with Joshua.  A local swimming pool would be
approached to hold the classes.  (2) Joshua and Jacque require tutoring in
all school subjects to bring them within passing grades.  A public hall
would be rented for students with highest marks to tutor Jac and Jos for
three hours after school every day.  Teachers would be asked to volunteer
tests and retests on Jac and Jos subjects as they advance through the
learning material already missed.  The same classes will welcome any
student from BridgeWorks who needs tutoring regardless of past failures. 
As Jos ability to walk improved he would stumble and stagger to the
un-official smoking area of drop outs and mis understood students , trying
to entice them into his tutoring class.  The offer to change , when
offerred by Jos was a much easier choice than being forced by a cop to
attend school.  Jac labelled them Bridgework misfits explaining that his
marks were worse than all of their marks together.  They listened and
attended his class.  (3) Police officers would continue to monitor the
halls and cafeterias of the school based on some formulae of time and
volunteerism shared between the local police department and the area
schools.  IT was noted many times by the students that police officers with
real knowledge of the high school were way more effective than a general
purpose swat team approach used only in emergencies.

   Fall : Chapter: 38 : Adjustments to schedules.

   With the awakening of Jos from the coma , Joseph and Una decided to
spend more of their time together and in learning opportunities in their
own school .  They promised to visit Jos at least once per month.



   Jos and Jac took up residence in the old farm house.

   Fall : Chapter: 39 : Jac and Jos regain intimate friendship.

   Jac and Jos finally made it clear of the hospital .  With much
discussion on the merits of keeping Jos longer , Jos took the final say and
asked to be sent home especially after he heard the stories of the
administrator beating on Jac trying to save his grandfather.  They stepped
from the bus into a cold winter wind .  Jos tired quickly , slumping into
the main floor chesterfield as they entered the old farm house.  Jac made
the rounds , making sure windows and doors were closed snugly to prevent
cold air drafts.  Heat from the furnace ramped up after Jac reset the
thermstat.  When he returned Jos was asleep , on the old farm house
chesterfield.  Jac decided not to awaken him for supper .  "It has been a
long day for him".  The twin's mother , Jill had left lasagna in the
fridge. Jac warmed some for himself in the microwave , studied some school
notes and watched Jos sleep as he ate.  "I wish , in a way that he would
wake up and eat with me", thought Jac imagining Jos to be low on energy ,
since they had only a light snack at lunch in the cafeteria.  After supper
he stood Jos on his legs and walked him up the steps to the bedroom ,
settling him gently into the wide bed .  Jac stripped off his clothes and
covered him with the down filled blanket.  He revisted the locks on the
downstairs doors and then returned , stripping and slipping quietly into
the bed in the Jos' old room with the light on.  At first Jac decided to
study , but instead he started reading the returned math test with which
Jos had struggled , comparing Jos answers with his answers and cross
referencing both answers to the test results provided by an A plus student
who volunteered to help Jos and Jac.  Eventuallyl he got all of the
questions perfect , mentally mapping where Jos had made mistakes.  Three
hours later Jac nodded sleepily , turned out the light and snuggled into
the narrow bed.  The wind made noises outside but Jac and Jos were warm .
"Wha"?  Jos was dreaming , but badly.  "No - Stop kicking".JAc rushed into
Jos' room , put his arms around Jos chest gently pulling him close ,
whispered , "I love you Jos" .  "Noa No No - nejnejj".  "Joshua , I am here
, I love you"!  Joshua sat up , "Where am I , JAC, are you here"?.  "I love
you Jos".  Pulling Jac across his chest , Jos moved his face against Jos ,
pulling him until ribs pressed on ribs until his brother's scent , his
nearness was on top of him.  Jos allowed Jac to roll to his side keeping
his cheek against Jac.  "Jac , I feel awful".  "Like".  "Like I've slept
for three months".  "Like".  "Every muscle aches".  "Jos , you have slept
for three months , you need to eat".  "Not hungry".  " 911"?  "No , not
that bad , just feel like nothin , no energy , every muscle is sore".  "Bet
I know one that's ok Jos".  "Can't sleep any longer , but ca't get up
either ".  "I got an idea".  "Which's"?  "Jos take my tube , milk it , suck
out all the goodness , there are prolactins and oxytocin and a dozen other
neat drugs in healthy boy semen.  Sath told me that healthy boy semen is
way better than pills." "You'd do that for me Bro"?  "Anything for my best
friend and twin brother , smirked Jac".  "It's not like I don't need
release either , Jos.  The hell we've been through persists .  Bro I am
healthy and Sath says I am armed with some pretty powerful drugs if you
wanna try them , for free ".  "You're on".  "Will they cure my scars"? 
"Nothing will do that"!  "Are the drugs painful to inject"?  "HaHa ,
rhetorical questions , you should ask that of the clergy"!  "Just
mentioning it help".  "Remember when Jes and Jen gave us our birthday
present , er when we were still innocent children unbeaten by gay bashers"?
"Bro , that was the best present ever for me.  I will never forget that
present , not asked for , not expected, but solid gold".  "Come on Jos ,
let's do it , just to spite all the shit brought on us by those bully
pricks".  "I'm on it then".  Jac pulled himself away around under the
covers until he was facing Jos limpy .  He moved his hands by memory across
the chest scars , massaging them , across the guant ridges of used-to-be
corrugated muscles under Jos chest, marvelling at the rapid improvement
after just a few days of walking and physiotherapy.  Jac felt no response
from Jos until his lips curled around the very tip and his tongue displaced
the soft glans working it's way inside .  Jos tongue searched Jac's glans ,
his tongue getting tighter sharing the space inside his bro's foreskin. 
Tongues pushing into the stretchy frenulum chord , feeling the taste and
smell and texture of his brother .  Jac's finger prints entertained Jos
genitals .  Lips fondled , sucked , rolled Jos balls inside his mouth.  Jos
maneuvered thumb and forefinger and digit finger around Jac's tube with the
ring finger and pinky used to augment the thumb as his tongue tasted the
protected zone under the preputial muscle rings.  Both boys jostled around
for comfortable spots on the bed , each drifting into the ancient
communication mode that only two male humans can know.  Vibrations of Jos
eagerness excited his fingers and tongue.  Jos relaxed , enjoying the feel
of of the tight foreskin slipping back over Jac's tube , revealing a rock
tumbled glans of polished heat .  Jos , nor Jac could talk , their tongues
wrapping and rewrapping as the fingers danced around indentical glans. 
Jos' feelings already running on his own testoserone and adrenalin suddenly
peaked to fever as Jac's balls and prostate rewarded him.  Jos tongue
wrapped tube-shaped around the expanding glans , lips locked in the coronal
ridge , cheeks and lungs sucking hard to grab all the ingredients arriving
in water pistol fashion.  Prostate fluids pumped forth in surges. 
Endorphins ,immunosupressants ,cortisol ,estrone ,prolactin , melatonin,
serotonin , oxytocin filled his throat .

   The new stimulants penetrated Jos tongue flesh in seconds , spray
painting his brain with stimulants and relaxers.  The drugs percolating
into Jos autonomic brain cells triggering waves of strength and boy power
euphoria.  Jac slipped his free hand around Jos balls snugging them tightly
in the circular thumb and forefinger, all the while tonging the glans deep
inside the foreskin .  Jos reserve power ignited knocking his prostate and
balls into overdrive , as Jac's fingers grew tighter .  "Come on Jos , you
can do it , Come on , give me that boy sperm , that I deserve".  Jos began
to vibrate his boy spirits into Jac's mouth.  A few spurts later Jac felt
his own tube tightening again.  Jos was feeling better and wanted more boy
drug.  His fingers and tongue flew up and down across Jac's tube.  Recently
healed lungs exerted full suction on Jac's glans , tongue wrapping ,
tubling , strangling the powerful surges to begin again.  Eyes rolling ,
back stiffenning , prostate pumping .  "Ahhh Jos , Jos , You gotta blow the
top off my head away "!  Tongue strangling , sucking , fingers squeezing
Jac's cock unleashed a dozen spurts of creamy boy stuff , flooding Jos
mouth again and again.

   The breeze outside drifted , stopped.  An automobile rattled out on the
gravel road.

   Fall : Chapter: 40 : Jac and Jos need more help.

   Jac awoke , blue eyes staring into blue eyes , blonde hair obscuring
Jos' head.  "Ahh you ok bro"?  "Army strong , and army hungry".  Grinning ,
"Get up Jos , read this math test again , check out the corrections , as
Jac climbed from bed and handed him the math test marked "F".  Jac returned
from the downstairs after a power cycle with the oven broiler and then a
serving tray , displaced Jos math book.  Cheddar cheese bars slowly melting
over toasted beef lasagna with a giant glass of cold milk shifted around on
the tray as Jac positioned it over Jos .  "Careful with the cheese bro ,
it'l need to cool a bit , and don't drop it on the the boy tube or I have
to clean the burns with my tongue".  "I already got all your medicine " ,
laughed Jos .  Why can't I get those drugs from Jen "?  "Maybe you can ,
but one thing is for certain .  She must be missing your drugs , a lot". 
Exciting itself and it's master , Jos' tongue crept into the lasagna and
cheese building more appetite as the food shared his stomach with boy
protein and feel good drugs.  I know Jen wants it all the time .  Sometimes
I think she declines because I am a weakling".  Jac retrieved the math test
for review , and Jos aced the questions one by one , between mouthfuls of
cheese and ground beef lasagna.  "Have some"?  He placed a fork full on the
protruding tongue.  "Your mom makes the best lasagna in Ontario Jos.  I
already had my fill earlier when we got off the bus" , reponded Jac , his
mouth and taste sensors hoping for more.  "Is it ok to eat lasagna after
midnight?  "Rhetoric will not help your stomach" , laughed Jac.  "It'l be
harder to get up in the morning , but I have the alarm clock on detonate".
"Jac , I love you so much for pulling me through all that coma crap, and
for protecting me in the hospital when I was zombie.  He put the tray aside
and pounced on Jac with puppy legs.  Eased Jac back on the bed and sniffed
him .  "Jac I need more now, I need to get this thing to make up for all
the times in the hospital when I wanted Jen so bad , but could not get
her". "I understand bro , it was no cake walk for me , nor for Jen , nor
Jes either".  "In fact , those bullies hit all of us a wallop we will never
forget".  "Yes , they walloped us , but we are recovering and all the
people they trounced over the last three years are recovering , many of
them growing big and strong as their bodies fill out".  "Wondering what
would happen if those bullies tried to enter the school now"?  "Let's hope
who ever sees them first calls the cop , before they wreck their own life
on such dweeves".

   A new gust of wind rattled the siding.

   "And the girl twins parents , they used to be church goers , but now not
.  BWBAD changed a lot of us forever.  The twins parents wanted Jen and Jes
to give up on you Jos.  That's how bad they were hurting.  Jen told me they
wanted Jes and her to concentrate on grades .  Then the hospital
administrator went crazy , nearly smashing your brain Jac.  Caelen and
Gaila watched the news unfold on the tv.  They made the decision that their
twin girls were right , and the church was just wrong".  "Lets ask our girl
friend's parents if we can stay with them.  Their parents are awesome
people.  If they say no , no big deal , if they say yes , then Jes and Jac
and Jen and you will enjoy this school term regardless of exam stress.  It
will improve our grades".

   In the morning another school day started with Jac and Jos in school
uniforms and waiting for the bus.  Later in the afternoon the big bus
dropped them off , and homework began again.

   "Ok , let's do it" , annouced Jos as he clipped Jac with a tender punch
".  "Lucky , for you that I know you could not hurt me - and that's another
thing , didn't ---" "Jo did promise to teach me street defence and Adrien
and Thierry will teach me wrestling and you bro are gonna teach me how to
kick-in the face of a bully".  "Hey , that's it.  We'll move all the
furniture in this old house into the other rooms and we will borrow some
gym mats and train each other to fight in here, and we'll live with our
girl friends if their parents agree.  Can't hurt to ask"?

   ========================== Fall: Chapter: 41 : Asking for help.

   "Do you think they would let me stay in their house in Jen's bed at
night", asked Jos?  Jac grinned, "lets try it"!  The twin boys visited next
door to the twin girls residence.  Jen and Jes had finished the chores and
were helping with the supper preparation.  Jos and Jac edged into the
living room as Gaila motioned for them to rest on the chesterfield.  Caelen
entered the living room to sit with the boys on the chesterfield.  "Jos and
Jac, pleased to see you men , is life getting more normal with you two"? 
"Getting better", smiled Jac .  "We need to ask you and Gaila a question".
"First answer my question".  Jos forced another smile .  "To tell the truth
Caelen , I am dead tired every night , right now in fact.  I've got three
hours of homework to catch up from missed classes and three hours of new
home work from today's classes and I intend to do it.  But my sleep time is
.." sighing " ...  In the night , the bullies come.  They kick me until I
scream out for my bro.  Last night Jac crawled into bed with me.  He made
me feel so much better , but there is one thing missing in my life , and I
want to be with her more than even Jac".  Jos became silent and Jac
continued the conversation.  "My bro is out of the coma but not out of the
mental stuff .  He pulls me close to him like a baby face to face , ribs to
ribs , sniffs my lips and then he wakes up knowing that all is well .  The
fourteen hour days have no let up , except Christmas day , if we hope to
get decent marks on our finals".  Caelen studied Jac and Jos.  "To be
honest , there is not enough hours in one day and somehow we need to get
time with Jen and Jes.  They give us so much encouragement , just by being
with us".  "Can we stay for supper , I mean , we don't want to invite
ourselves irresponsibly but we need to talk with you two and with Jen and
Jes".  "Perhaps , if we wait until after supper"?  Jen and Jes rushed into
the living room.  "Tonight is our supper prep night , and we demand that
you stay for supper", implored Jes and Jen.  Jos smiled ,"Jen , Jes , you
can't just order us to eat at your table".  Gaila and Caelen laughed as Jos
regarded them.  "I guess they just did it", laughed Gaila.  "Everyone ,
stay here for twenty minutes till we are ready with supper" , sang Jen and
Jes.  "I will get a light drink for us" , returned Caelen as Jen and Jes
headed for the kitchen.  Jac brushed Jos blond hair away from his face. 
Jos forced a weak smile for Gaila.  "Life is way better now with Jos
walking and talking".  Gaila smiled back.  Caelen returned with a bottle of
red wine and poured everyone a drink, diluting it with pop.  Jac explained
the details of their discussion with the principal and the promise to
graduate , then the fast learn education plan to catch up on all the school
lessons missed from September to December.  After supper , Jac and Jes and
Jen and Jos and Caelen and Gaila relaxed around the table nibbling on left
over vegetables and dip.  Fall : Chapter: 42 : Jos asks.

   Jos reopened the conversation : "First of all , Jen and Jes , I am sorry
for all the hassle you have had with the hospital staff and looking after
me , and Gaila and Caelen , please accept my apolgy for all the troubles
and days you missed work helping Jen and Jes look after me .  May I propose
a toast to you girl twins and twin's parents as the finest family in
Ontario.  Jac and I sincerely thank you for the hospitality tonight and
ernestly we thank you for helping my bro and I get through three months of
coma .  Jac and I want to return to the carefree days we had with Jen and
Jes , and yet we realize the impossibleness of that.  With careful
attention to all of the issues facing us , we hope to graduate this school
program and enjoy our lives again with the girl twins ".

   Caelen and Gaila looked at Jen and Jes , faces beaming with pride. 
Caelen began: "When Jen and Jes turned sixteen we made a concious effort as
parents to let them make their own decisions.  We knew that our girls
needed to make their own decisions on what they wanted from life.  By
renting a room close to our work place we saved wear and tear on ourselves
and our car.  We were happy to know that our girl twins decided to befriend
the boy next door.  Jos , we knew you were helping your mother move in and
we knew you were looking after her as much as she looked after you.  Jill
explained her situation to us when she rented the old farm house.  We
questioned the logic of renting to a single mother , half expecting trouble
from the usual single mother scenario that our so-called friends told us
would happen.  Gaila and I , interviewed your mother extensively and we
decided to rent the old house on the basis of her decision to allow Jos
time to mature.  I don't know at exactly what point in the summer Gaila and
I wanted you to be that boy next door, but we indicated nothing of our
thoughts to our twin daughters, not really knowing how they would react to
sharing one boy.  Imagine our surprise when the girls told us one day ,
that , there were two intimate boys identicle boys ".  Jos and Jac blushed
with Jen and Jes.  Caelen raised his hand to reflect any embarassment . 
Gaila and I hold no secrets with our children and they hold none from us ,
at least in our perception.  When the girl twins told us that the boy twins
accepted their virginity , we shocked ourselves and then high fived because
maturity comes from making your own decisions and there is no decision for
a girl more important than a serious boy friend".  Gaila continued : "And
so Jos and Jac we enjoyed our summer knowing that our girl twins had made
some life choices.  By mid summer we began to see a close relationship , a
serious relationship and an more between our girl twins and you boy twins.
To us , as parents , we saw our twins extremely happy with you twins.  We
saw a fun , respectful relationship grow between you four kids.  You were
so happy.  You made us happy and we told our friends and made them happy.
We met your parents Jac and Jos and they were happy also , indeed great
parents , but somehow you two , turned out to be greater than your parents
and you two with our twins made a beautiful summer .  Life does not always
play out in that manner".

   Jos' eyes glistened as he took Jen's hand.  Jac closed his grip on Jes'
hand at the table.

   "On that first day of school classes in September I watched the four of
you leave for high school , confident and decisive, and imagined the best
but NO.  The police , the high school closed off , the helicopter on the
roof , our lives all crashed along with this entire community .  But you
Jac.  Perhaps it was You alone who taught , all of us , what it is , that
boy twins are really made from.  You and your friend Joseph became pillars
of solid stone against the stark reality of your brother's beating and
likely death.  You Jac , you pulled us , dragged us , and pushed us through
a time so difficult for my daughters , that once I wished they had never
met you.  Jen and Jes took strength from you Jac and assurred me that even
one summer with Jos and Jac was still way better than having never met you.
At that point Gaila and I knew that you would somehow rescue Jos from
living death.  Jac , I apologize for doubting your strength.  I heard later
from independent witnesses to the BBAD about your defense of Jos - a brutal
defense but justified against three bullies who terrorized the entire high
school student population.  Gaila and I learned about the swat team attack
on you Jac and how you switched gears from defender to fifteen year old boy
caregiver , convincing the cops to let you ride the air ambulance with your
brother.  You saw straight to the gravity of Joshua's condition and you
stayed with him to save his life.  Gaila and I located your friends in the
downtown hospital.  We found solid people , we found people who deliver
regardless of condition.  Sath , perhaps the most powerful healing person
in Ontario, and we knew in our hearts that you Jac were some how associated
to healing powers beyond age.  Sath , led us to the helicopter pilot and he
told us of the wild ride from the Bridgework High School building roof to
the downtown trauma unit.  The medic was loosing your brother's life signs
even as they loaded him aboard the helicopter.  He is the man who must
trade away the risks of life and death for all aboard and to him Joshua ,
your brother was already dead , with the black sky menacing disaster for
the helicopter and those below where it might crash.  The medic aboard that
helicopter took his direction , his cue - from you Jac.  You kept your cool
, you stayed the course for whatever danger loomed.  Death because time
expired for your brother or fly through the violence of a mid-summer hail
storm.  Jac , you took control and they flew your brother through a
nightmare thunderstorm and they delivered your dead brother to the trauma
team risking lives to carry your beaten brother to helpful arms.  There is
no more leadership quality above that .  You took command and led the
helicopter paramedics to a successful delivery , on time.  There is more
than one book of information about you Jac , encouraging the trauma team ,
preventing them from removing defective organs from your helpless brother
and later protecting him in the recuperation hospital.  Gaila and I did not
fully realize the bigoted pressure on you and your brother in the hospital,
until the administrator snapped.  We were so glad that your dad , Robert ,
found a trusted off-duty police officer to guard that hospital room.  When
your brother awoke and asked for food last week, it was a present to our
twin girls happiness , a present to us and a present to Ontario.  Once
again in our own world , made small and nasty by those bullies , we had
failed to grasp the fact .  It was not JUST about us , it was about eight
hundred students and teachers of a whole high school , a whole medical
staff at two Toronto hospitals and countless friends and followers
screaming for you to get better.  It was about wearing a red splotch to
unify the students against bullies.  Gaila and I , we cried tears of joy
for ourselves and for our daughters when the national news crew broadcast
from BridgeWorks.  Within a half rotation of this wonderful planet we
watched the roller coaster bottom out and ascend a track built by you and
your friends and Jos friends.  Life on this planet for us humans is
wondrous.  Each parent dreams of their own off-spring achieving happyness.
You did it for us Jac and for half the population of Toronto that was
rooting for you .  You brought your brother back from the Bridgwoork Bully
Assault Day for all of us.  Welcome Joshua and Jacque to our family.  Jos
stood up slowly and pulled Jen with him.  They pulled each other together
weakly .  Jen lead Jos into the living room and put on her favourite music.
The two teens swayed to the music locked into each other's eye sight and
arms.  Jac and Jes joined the dancers.  Gaila and Caelen joined the
dancers. As the cd played the last song Jen pulled Jos into her bedroom and
gently closed the door.

   Fall : Chapter: 43 : Jac asks.

   Jac held Jes hand as he spoke to Caelen and Gaila: "Jos will need a lot
of sleep and therapy before he is able to be my equal again.  Jos
Green-Coresland, is my twin brother .  He inspired me to become the hero of
Bridgeworks.  Caelen and Gaila , thank you for a wonderful speech .  I do
not know , how all of us managed to get back to the happyness we now have,
compared with the disaster of BBAD.  My dad never gave up on Jos even for a
heartbeat , he gave all his love throughout the ordeal.  And through dad ,
a police officer guarded us after the administrator melt down.  I got to
know the cops really well through my friend Joseph whom they rescued more
than once from drug overdose and rape.  The official side of the police
force does not let us see the professionalism and courage of Toronto's
best. Your talk has given me the strength to move forward with Jos into
this fast education plan .  We intend to graduate Bridgework with honours
and without loosing a year , when the time comes.  Jos and I are destined
to be lawyers and wish to spend our entire lives with your girl twins . 
Jos proposed to Jen on national tv and Jen said "Yes".  "And so"!  Jacque
stepped away from Jes , looked straight into her eyes and kneeled in front
of her.  "Jes , please , will you marry me and have my children".  Tears
splashed from her face.  "Yes Jac ,Yes Jac , to all the above".  She rushed
in against Jac hauling him to the floor with kisses and hugs.  Caelen and
Gaila hugged each other with the happy tears of their daughters.  Jac
walked back into the kitchen with Jes.  "We will clean up , Caelen and
Gaila , it's your night off , and once again thank you for your support
when the coaster was rollin through manure .  There is one more question
that I need to ask you Caelen and Gaila".  The twin's parents stood at
attention and waited.  "Yes".  Jac returned , met their eyes with his. 
"Joshua is not strong enough to survive alone.  His body is weak from three
months inactivity , his mind is not healed from the horrific beating.  Last
night , Jos was so weak from the days activities.  He could not eat and
despaired momentarily.  I slept with him , in his bed and I gave him all
that I could , to make him feel better , such that he did eat at midnight.
It was not enough.  Jos and I promised the principal to graduate yet we
have missed three months of classes.  I expect that I will be exhausted by
the learning pace for the remainder of the school term and my bro is
already exhausted plus mentally exhausted.  What I am trying to say Caelen
is that --".  Gaila and Caelen pulled Jac against themselves : We know Jac
, what you are trying to say.  We also know about the boy , Randy you
rescued from the Rouge Valley and how the retired police cop , Chester got
better.  These events create new energy in you , but they take energy away
also.  You've got to let us carry some load now.  No boy should go through
what Jos did for you and Joseph , and what you have done for Jos and Randy
and Ives and eight hundred bullied students".  Jac slumped.  "But I failed
Hal, Aaw no , no , I failed HAL" , my best friend is dead cause I did not
help him".  Jac slouched between Gaila and Caelen.  "Do you know about Hal
" miseried Jac ?  They soothed his shoulders with gentle finger massage. 
"Your dad told us Jac.  He told us you were once as talkative and carefree
as Jos but after Hal's tradgedy , you are guarded .  I think you are wary
of the real world and have prepared yourself to meet real world challenges.
Robert told us about the cops finding you potted in the Rouge valley ,
covered with mud and freezing to death".  "It was so stupid , for me to get
potted ".  "No Jac .  No and no.  You did right , you faced a choice ,
forget Randy and by association forget Hal , or discover the truth.  Once
again Jac , you picked the truth , knowing it was hurtful in extreme to
everyone involved.  You drive yourself to discover reality , regardless of
hurts".  Raising his chin , until his eyes contacted Caelen and Gaila , "I
now know why I did that.  I did not face a choice , at all.  Giving up on
Randy was like tossing Hal under the train myself.  No , it was not a
choice for me.  And I realized after potting with Randy , It was not a
choice for him either..  We knew already that Hal would never be forgotten
, and so the train wreck set in motion by that pedophile Priest had to be
stopped by us.  Randy knew he could not do it alone but he promised Hal to
keep the secret.  When I found Randy he was waiting for exposure to dim his
mind enough to fall in the river.  Caelen and Gaila , Just as that priest
gave Hal no choice , I had NO choice and Randy had no choice .  But the two
of us together did have a choice .We worked the pot until the wreck of two
more boys was averted." Caelen smiled , he wanted to pull Jac close to help
him heal , but Jac was still aloof .  An orphan tear glistened on Jac's
cheek as Caelen continued:

   "We talked to Randy and George and Melony , with a little boy who
remembers your name and Jos name like he would daddy.  Melony loves you and
Jos so much because you pulled her from a desperate depression brought on
by accidental circumstances.  And we know that you made a powerful friend
in Joseph .  He seems to know communication skills with other social
mammals on the planet".  "It still was not enough , I failed Hal because ,
er cause I thought he did not like me , oh moses what a stupid mistake"! 
"Jac , --- Jaac , Randy and your dad told us everything about Hal..  We
cried for him also , but Jac as you know , none of us have the ability to
undo the history of Hal.  Jaaac , you did help Randy immensely with your
own words.  Randy is living his life now , and his marks in school are
jumping higher every week.  Randy loves you Jack like a war buddy .  Do you
remember the words you spoke to Randy in his darkest hour ?".

   " I was potted - Randy was potted , and , yet I recall , Yes Caelen , I
remember".  "And - ".  "Those words formed in my mind when I talked to my
dad - about Hal and when I realised that the giant churches cause suicides
by there preachings and that somehow making suicide a great sin covers up
most of them preventing real spiritual understanding and healing".  Jac
paused , stared into Caelen's eyes.

   "Suicide is not a sin , Randy .  We do not judge Hal for that.  We can
only love him from memory".  "And , do you believe those words Jac"?  "Yes,
yes I DO".  Caelen and Gaila kissed Jac on both cheeks.  "Jac , your bro
and you made decisions and accomplishments.  Gaila and I are making a
decision now that involves you twins.  Decisions create consequences. 
Sometimes good decisions create unforseen consequences , and Jac , you and
Jos experienced those consequences in spades.  Caelen called Jes from the
kitchen .  "Jes , it's ok , we will finish cleanin up supper".

   As Jes arrived , she pulled Jac down the hall to her bedroom and
disappeared.  " I will go over and check the old place , since nobody will
be there tonight".

   When Caelen returned , he and Gaila discussed again the events of the
first day of school .  "Basically Jen and Jes run their own lives now and
we run ours in step .  Let's not change any thing in our lives , let's not
do any thing different from before.  Since we have always checked on the
twins before bed , we continue.  Jos and Jac are not the type of kids to be
angered by us watching over our twins.  Gaila carefully openned the door of
Jen's room.  Jen and Jos were already asleep .  Jac and Jes breathed into
each others face , eye to eye not responding to the minimal intrusion of
their existence.

   Fall : Chapter: 44 : The parents consult.

   Their phone rang.  "This is Robert and Jill , Are my twin boys at your
house Mr.  Roggerre ?" "Yes Mr.  Green".  "Call me Robert and my wife Jill.
We are on speaker phone".  "Yes Robert and call me Caelen and my wife Gaila
and we have you on speaker phone." "And Jac and Jos ?" "Robert and Jill, we
need to have a talk with you and over the next few weeks , more talking".
"Yes Caelen and Gaila.  Jos called me from his cell , said very tired and
in bed with Jen and goodnight and Jac did the same , minutes ago, except he
told me was going to marry your daughter when the time comes".  Caelen and
Gaila laughed a smiling chuckle.  "Caelen and Gaila , I know the boys are
dead tired and I know they've been through hell since September".  "It's
true Robert and Jill.  We have all been through hell since September , but
right now we are in happy land.  Your boys , er my son-in-laws-to-be have
made us so happy and honoured .  Jen and Jes invited them for supper and
then took them to bed.  I hope that is ok with you and Jill.  " "The boys
started running their own show after Jos organized Jill and I and his bro
Jac back into a functioning family .  Please do accept our apolgy for all
the hell you have endured".  "Sometimes , life is pressured but your boys
have passed the test .  There is nothing in this universe that can stop
them from enjoying life as it flows forward from this time, and Robert and
Jill , lets get together every week someplace , where we can plan to let
them plan their own lives but protect them from whatever people-bullies are
out there waiting for a chance to make us miserable".  "Well stated ,
Caelen and Gaila , and thankyou for providing them with a safe home." Jill
replied "We old folk don't know how else to express ourselves , except in
the language that Jac and Jos have taught us : We love you Caelen and
Gaila".

   The parents hung up and retired to watch the evening tv , before bed
time.  "Gaila , our kids have always wanted a dog , and I know that Jos is
excellent in understanding dogs".  Gaila laughed , "Thinking the same thing
, the ultimate Christmas present could be a dog, a protective dog and a
loving dog ." "Lets call the Greens again, We are going to make this the
best Christmas ever for four Ontario kids , and we need to collaborate on
what they need."

   More late night calls , and suggestions took place until the present
situation was totally discussed.  Robert located a policeman who trains
dogs for the force.  "There is a dog and it failed training.  The dog
thinks on it's own too much.  It's barely a year old and we want to make
sure it goes to the right family".  "Will the dog interface with the
twins"? "The trainer says "yes"".  "Then lets get him for a christmas
present.  Jos and Jac and Jen and Jes have always wanted a dog and this dog
is above average except on the small side for a sheperd and of course , he
is too easily distracted to be a police force dog , though that may change
depending on the pack members this dog experiences."

   Fall : Chapter: 45 : Bad dreams again.

   Suddenly , Caelen and Gaila headed for Jen's room.  "Naj Nej" , screams
penetrated the darkness .  Doors burst open , Jac was at his brother's side
in milli seconds, behind Caelen and Gaila .  Locating the whimpers and
screams , feeling his way to Jos , wrapping his arms around his brother's
chest even as Jen already did the same.  "I love you Bro.  I love you Bro".
And Jen whispered "Jos , it's me Jen, I love you Jos".  "NEJNEJ".  Jes
followed behind her parents.  Caelen and Gaila stared ,"Do you want the
light on Jac".  "Yeah please".  "Jen , Lets get him on his feet ".  They
lifted Jos from the bed , slid his convulsing body to the end and tipped
him on to his toes on the floor, Jen on one side and Jac on the other.  Jes
flipped on the master light switch for the bedroom.  The bright lights
illuminated Jac and his bro and Jen perfectly bare.  "Oh my goawd" , yelled
Gaila as Jos scars and wounds burned themselves into her eyes.  In
desperation , looking away but stared straight at Jac , his healthy young
body contrasting her flash view of Jos wrecked chest , scarred abdomen , -
eyes bounced back to Jos , - broken rib scars , drainage scars and OPEN
HEART SURGERY SCARS - She screamed again as Caelen caught her in mid-faint.

   Jos eyes dazed , "Wha wha my doin"?  Jac and Jen wrapped their arms
tight as Jos perplexed.  Caelen and Jes steadied Gaila on her knees until
she regained standing.  "Oh Gaila and Caelen , I am deeply sorry to scare
you in this manner".  Jac and Jen did not let go.  "I failed my math test
and I can't get anything right these days.  Please Gaila , I meant no
injury to anyone".  " Caelen , my gawd , do you see the scars on Joshua ,
why oh why"?  "Kids grow up Gaila , If their minds are poisoned with
rhetoric and religious fervour they will do that , without asking why". 
"Why why oh why", Gaila and Caelen stepped closer to Joshua now standing on
his own.  "S'my fault confided", Jos drooping his head, " I should have
fought them." "No , NNOH , yelled Jac , "Jos you are the perfect one , you
were raised perfectly "!  "Didn't even try to fight them Gaila - I suck".
"No and NO Joshua , you do not need to fight"!  Caelen rushed to Jos
holding his head up , as Jen and Jes and Gaila circled his slender frame.
Jac stood straight in front of his bro .  "Then why did you learn to kick
faces"?  "Because of Hal.  For a long time , I wanted to hurt that priest
but finaly decided , he will eventually pay the justice system".  Jen
rewrapped her arms around his heaving chest.  "Joshua you are perfect the
way you are - er were - You did the right thing Jos".  "I couldn't stop ,
kickin and kickin", lungs hyperventilating." "It's my fault Bro , I should
have protected you"!  " I feel the kicks breaking my ribs , I feel the ribs
puncturing my lungs"!  "I'm sorry Bro , aoh awwww sorry - why didn't I stop
them"?  Jes rushed to Jac , his body waivering with deprecation.  "No Jac ,
your wrong , I was there , I saw what happenned .  You defended yourself
and your bro perfectly.  The cops should never have taken you down Jac. 
They made you servient to the disaster, and they were wrong Jac, very
wrong".  She nudged Jac to Jen's bed and sat him down pulling the cover to
hide his nudeness.  Jen nudged Jos to the other side and sat him beside
Jac. There was enough room for Jen to join him "Jos your my hero" , and on
the other side Jes slid under the cover beside Jac , "Jac your my hero".  I
love you incredibly much and I want to have your baby , er when the time is
right".

   Caelen and Gaila stood at the foot of the bed.  "This is the best place
in Ontario for you two sets of twins.  All of you made no failures , In the
hospital Jac told his mother and his grandfather that the bullies were at
fault and twisted teachings of organized religion.  Twins , it is true that
my mind and Gaila's were blocked from seeing the true power of organized
religion.  The final religion straw for us was the tv news coverage showing
a hospital administrator taken from his job in a straight jacket while
yelling death to queers and glory to god, and when we discovered that Jac
was beaten by that man , we stopped religion dead ".  Caelen took Jes' toes
and Jac's toes and held them together.  Gaila held Jen and Jos' toes
together.  "You two twins belong together , to enjoy life together and to
grow on this planet as life itself progresses.  Caelen and I , We loved
each other so much at first and yet our love has continued to grow stronger
as if forever.  Our first born , Aric was and is the most beautiful boy on
this planet with his wife Julia.  Our second pregnancy brought two
indentical twin girls .  These girls are the happiest girls in Ontario
thanks to Jos and Jac".  Caelen pulled the twin pairs toes into one large
group, speaking directly to all four kids , "You are safe in this house ,
you are perfect kids and you will grow into a prosperous and handsome
family.  You are all together now and you can sleep together in this room
and live in this house as long as you want and need.  When I turn out the
light and close the door , you will relax and forget about BWBAD.  In the
morning , you will be prepared for another school day of tests and
learning. And next week is Christmas .  It was a pagan custom long before
the Pope made it his holiday.  We will celebrate Christmas without
organized religion.  Tomorrow , all of us will throw our names into a bowl
and decide who gets a present for who.  I will organize the trips to help
each of you obtain what you want to give.  Goodnight twins and twins". 
Caelen and Gaila released all the toes and crept out of the room flipping
the lights as the door closed.



   Jen and Jes awoke first as sunshine spilled the horizon.  Grabbing their
bathroom first , and almost ready for school , they revisited Jos and Jac
and pulled back the covers.  Jos was in Jac's arms , his face grinning,
legs inter-twined , the two of them pressed chest to chest together in a
space no bigger than one person.  They watched the rythmic rise and fall of
both lungs , synchronised breathing.  "Ooh this is so awesome , can I show
my mother"?  Jes grinned , "I'll get her".  Gaila tip toed into Jen's
bedroom .  Momentarily blushing and then smiling from ear to ear.  "I gotta
get Caelen".  Within seconds the two parents returned to watch Jac and Jos.
Inter-tangled blond hair , nose to nose, neck lines fading into the expanse
of soft human puppy skin along their arms , curving toward the back.  Sun
toned skin along the arms crossing over the opposite chest , rising and
falling in unison.  Jen removed the cover from the bed watching Jos for
awakening.  Gaila gasped again , her eyes crossing Jos rib cage scars ,
comparing them with Jac's contoured flesh.  "We have photos of you and Jes
like that " , beamed Caelen as Jes snapped a digital camera shot of
snuggled boy twins.  "This photo in my mind will keep me happy for years "
, laughed Gaila.  "Better wake them up , because I have breakfast ready for
serving laughed Caelen as he darted toward the kitchen , "Kiss an angel
good morning".

   Fall : Chapter: 46 : The boy twins fight.

   "Did you boy twins enjoy your first night here" , queried Gaila as Jac
and Jos wolfed down pancakes and sausages".  "Immensly".  "Did you girl
twins enjoy your first night with the boy twins"?  "We hardly noticed them
", mused Jen and Jes.  Jos quickly contacted Jen's cheek , "I was so
exhausted by that dream , but Jac told me in his dreams how to deal with
nightmares".  We have a plan for the next time one happens , and Jen , I
promise you , that night will get better ".  Caelen and Gaila laughed as
the twins rushed around for school final preparations , cheering as the
four twins placed themselves on the roadside as the bus arrived.

   For the girls another regular school day , and for the boy twins then,
the extended day to make up for missed classes , then the tests .  By the
school day end , Jos was extremely tired.  "Yuck Suck" , issued Jos upon
learning his fate .  "Jac , how come you always do way better".  Jac
covered his score mark , not to pressure Jos.  "Let me see it ", groaned
Jos , I know you aced it".  He pulled the test paper clear of Jac and
compared his score .  "Dam to hell , beaver fuck , snake ass , - why am I
so stupid".  "Jos you are not < so stupid > ", calmed Jac using his hands
to highlight the comment.  "Yes S'i am".  "No".  "Look at my score " ,
challenged Jos , chucking it into Jac's face.  "Jos you were in coma for
three months , the same three months that I spent with you , but I was
awake with all sorts of classes going on around you every day.  Joseph
organized school tutoring of up to fifty kids per day .  I was awake and
lots of those lessons are close in my mind.  It makes a big diff to your
brain , when learning , to be able to remember someone else asking and
helping the same questions".  "Come on , lets get goin or we miss the bus".
"Let it go".  "Jos we gotta go now"!  A bell chimed in the corridor.  "Jos
I'm gonna put my arm around your chest and walk with you to the bus".  Jos
resisted dragging Jac to the floor.  "Come on Jos , please for me , too
heavy , sinking ".  Jac provided a solid lift and Jos rose quickly , then
bam in the face.  "Mercy bro , that hurts , my cheek".  "Get back Jac ,
leave me alone".  Jac dialed his cell , calling Jen , er "need your help -
it's Jos beligerant".  Jen and Jes got off the bus and released the driver
to stay on schedule.  They hurried into the school to locate Jos and Jac.
"Oh no Jac , your eye brow is bleeding".  "Oh no - blood on Jac - he should
be so special" , mutterred Jos.  Jen looked into Jos defiance , she spoke
calmly ,"Jos your bro was thrown to the floor in a surprise attack by the
hospital administrator a month ago.  He sufferred a concussion requiring
hospital treatment downtown where they first took you after BWBAD".  Jos
face defiance drooped to anger , then fear, "Oh bro , I'm so sorry , I'm so
so so soorry".  "Another concussion could give Jac permanent brain damage".
"I know , I know Jen and I feel so crap and suck." "Bro , we should call
911 and get you looked at".  "We need to be rational , but I feel like
killing somebody , and I don't know why.  I'm not the same person as back
in the summer".  Jos retrieved his cell and dialled his dad .  "Robert ,
dad , I'm ok but , I feel crappy and I punched Jac in the face.  Might have
caused more brain damage , though Jac says he's ok".  A pause on the far
end alerted Jos.  "Dad , dad forgive me , I need you to help me , but right
now I need to make sure Jac is OK".  "The off duty police officer will pick
all of you up and take you to a friend of George , -not to worry , it's
only twenty minutes away and this guy also does head injuries for athletes
. He will look at your bro immediately".  "Thanks dad , I am sorry".  "Jos
, I'll meet you at that office , and we'll go from there on your feelings".

   Fall : Chapter: 47 : Another mri - cat scan.

   Jos re-pocketed his cell as Eric appeared.  All four squeezed into the
police car and sped across the north end to Doctor Lipzig.  An intern met
them in the parking lot with a wheel chair quickly adjusted to lie down
stature , placed Jac on the carrier and raced inside to a ground floor
office.  "Jac , Jac , I'm so sorry"!  "Stawp".  Everyone looked at the
magnetic resonance instrument entrance way.  A checklist of warnings
appeared on a monitor : "No metal ".  "No clothes".  "No boots" "No tooth
fillings." The list continued as Doctor Lipzig arrived with Robert.  "I
feel crappy and I punched Jac in the face".  "Number of times"?  "Once". 
"Intent to hurt ?" "No , I mean yes I hurt him but no , I did not want to
hurt him".  Robert laughed as Jos finished with the doctor.  "If you did
not want to hurt him , then it is probable you did not".  Jos sighed.  He
motioned to the intern to prepare Jac for mri.  Jes grabbed his arm , "I'm
going with you Jac".  "Wait everyone .  One only of you can go with Jac and
the intern who also operates the mri".  "Then let it be Jes", whispered
Jac. Robert and Jen and Jos retired to a waiting room.  "Jos what were you
doing when your bro got punched in the face"?  "Cursing my test mark and
slumping to the floor in misery , - the bus was waiting for us and Jac
pulled me up straight and I punched him , like <leave me alone>.  Dad I'm
so sorry".  Jen , straighened her back , "What were you thinking Jos at the
exact moment?" "Nothing obviously".  "No Jos look into my face , do you
remember what made your hand move?" "Ell er no "?  "Jos look in my eyes -
do you want to punch me".  "So sorry Jen " , course not ".  "What did your
eyes see as you punched"?  "Boots"!  "Whose?" "I saw boots toward me , oh
chiist , I punched Jac cause I thought he was kicking me , chii chhhiiist
fuuuu".  Robert absorbed the sweat and tears on Jos face.  " Jos we all
love you very much , We know you would not hurt another , especially bro.
Do you understand what happened ?".  "I punched my bro , my best friend who
already has a concussion , oh chiist"!  Jen took over again , "Jos you
punched your brother in anger that he was kicking you .  It was an
automatic response .  You still have the night mares of being kicked and
feeling your ribs being broken one by one and pucturing your internal
organs.  Jos , now , you know violence creates more violence.  BWBAD is not
over for you.  Jac knows this and it is a risk that we all take trying to
work school with you at same time as healing your mind".  "Would you punch
Jen"?  "No , course not er nawt , chiisst I dun know , Dad , I don't know
what is happenning inside my head, er eef I punched the boy that I love
more than anything in the world , then I might punch you Jen - chiiist ,
I'suck , I' so stupid".  Jos sank into Jen's arms , steadied by Robert ,
his mind turmoiled by his own body out of control.  Robert hugged both of
them as Jos dumped on himself.  "I'suck , I'suck".  Robert uplifted his
chin , then let it sink into Jen's breasts.  "Jen I love you , I love you
and I love and I love Robert and I love Jac even more.  I promise you I
will get better , those bullies do not own me, and I will become your boy
next door again , like last summer Jen.  Jac must stay with me at night ,
until the night mares are beaten , but Jen I need you all the time, and I
need Jac all the time".  "It's true Jos , and we are going to remove those
bullies from your mind one way or another , and once you are ok , you have
some work lined up ahead of you".  "Such as".  "Your bro is uneasy .  He
still suffers from the BWBAD also, because he thinks he failed you , and
when the cops from the swat team took him down , it reinforced his failure,
in his own consciousness.  These feelings will only cure after you cure
Jos. Both of you have post traumatic stress from BWBAD , though both of you
suffer a different view of the violence".  "I understand Jen , now I
understand what is happenning to me and I know why I punched Jac and now I
see why Jac was so affected.  Jac hides his feelings way better than me ,
but he still has them , and when I get better , I will help Jac get better.
He will not need to isolate himself from me and Jes and you Jen".  Robert
pulled them to attention smiling as Doctor Lipzig re-appeared.  "Brain
bruises are incredibly complex , but , I am quite sure no new damage has
happenned".  "I rejoice at that news " , yelled Jos dancing around high
fiving Robert and Jen, "but where is Jac"?  The doctor smiled , "The
tech/intern has gone home and Jac and Jes are getting dressed in room 1 as
of twenty minutes ago".  Jen laughed , "I'll get them".  "No , I'll get
them with you Jen".  Robert and the doctor squared off , "Doctor Lipzig,
what do think about leaving room 1 off limits for an hour or so?" "No
problem Robert , We can order some take out and wait them out, I need to be
here for an hour longer this evening and I would enjoy talking with you. 
Robert called Jos' cell : :Jos the taxi will be here to take us home in one
hour, guess the traffic is really slow out there tonight er Do not rush
your Bro , he might punch you back".  "This room has a big big chesterfield
dad , Jen and I might sit here and enjoy the view with Jac and Jes". 
"Later".



   Jen cuddled Jac's head retrieving an ice cube from a coffe table
container , holding it gently along the darkening patch of skin.  "You are
going to have a black eye Jac".  "My bro can do that if he wants".  "No Jac
, I can't do that to anyone, It is not me that kicked you - It was a
frightened goof still afraid of bullies who attacked him four months ago".

   Fall : Chapter: 48 : To Remove the BWBAD baggage.

   Jen caressed Jos.  "Jes , Jac , and Jos , what is our plan to clear Jos
mind of the BWBAD trauma"?  "Formost , we cannot clear those memories". 
"We must raise them from Jos sub-conscious brain process to the logical
thinking processes , er that way he will be able to control his actions".
"I'm sure none of us know how to modify another's brain or even our own".
"But we do know how , we go to classes and we learn problem solving and in
fact that is changing the way we think".  "But determining where two trains
will be travelling from Chicago to Toronto at different speeds has nothing
to do with gut reaction".  "So - ahh what is gut reaction"?  The four kids
sat on the huge chesterfield watching fish in an aquarium.  "Jes and Jac" ,
should put your clothes on so we can think about this gut reaction thing".
Jac stared at Jos , "Skin never bothered you before"?  Jos flashed a hurt
look , "Jac you're right".  "Ok everyone , am I a different boy than the
Jos before BWBAD ?" "Yes Jos - you are".  "Good or bad" , Jos rolled the
words off his lips , hesitating .  "Both" chimed Jen and Jes.  "Predictably
so", murmured Jac , " We are changing rapidly anyway from boys to men , if
we aver get there , our minds never stop learning and our bodies will get
stronger physically until we are twenty one or two".  "Jen pulled off Jos'
shirt to compare the two boys.  Jes and Jen noted the differences in muscle
size and the scar differences , "These physical differences resulted from
BWBAD , so it is safe to reason that you boy twins minds are now also
different based on the kicking attack".  Jen mused laughingly , "Jos you
survived boot camp".  "Hey that's exactly it , we are , er were close
physically in size but our minds have vastly different history".  "I
learned to swim at four , Jos learned last summer".  "I learned to bike
ride last summer but you Jac got bike training long time ago".  Jen smiled
, "Jos you were sheathed , er a virgin until last summer".  "And so was I
grinned Jac , Jos beat me to that unsheathing ", smiling.  "Jac , you had
many good friends in your life , starting with Hal and other boys.  I had
only my mother as a friend until I found you Jac".  Jac smiled in a special
way at Jos.  "Ahh sometimes , my memory remembers a little bit about you
Jos from the time when we were together at birth".  "You are my first boy
friend but that was after Jen , but thirteen years ago, you were my best
boy friend .  She was and is my best girl friend even before I found you ,
Jac".  Jen began to think out loud , "So what about sex , I mean the act "?
"Jos , did you ever ahh do it with yourself before you met me"?  "No , er I
was so protected , I didn't know what fun was there." "And you Jac".  "Yeah
, as you know Hal and I made some fun poles ".  "And you Jen and Jes"? 
"Well this is not really about us except where our paths cross you boy
twins".  Jac and Jes begged , "But in the spirit of finding out our
selves"? Jes and Jen giggled.  "We are girl twins and we were not separated
for thirteen years.  We started girl things around thirteen and we still
enjoy each other , though a boy twin is an incredibly higher adventure". 
"I guess Charles Darwin would have reasoned that our species would be
extinct by now if girls acted any other way".  "Ok - ok back to our subject
, what are the differences between our minds"?  Jes stood up still
undressed , "differences don't matter , er I mean , to reprogram or
condition or whatever we define it as , we must work on the boy twins minds
where they are identicle , because that is where both minds have common
history , and Jac and Jos can communicate that common history , er expand
it to reprogram Jos post traumatic stress to a lower level , er I mean to a
higher level where his logical mind can deal".

   "Point".

   "Boot camp is exactly that , a stimulus - response program .  It is
learned at a conscious level and then through repetitious training the
responses become automatic to the stimulus.  When a certain condition
arises the trained soldier will respond without even thinking about the
response" .  Jos sighed , "You mean I could kill my Bro without even
thinking about it".  "Over achieving logic Jos , but worth mentioning"! 
"Jos remember your stress before the first day of school and how we lowered
it "?  "It worked.  I was on top of the world that first morning at
school". "Jes , Jen , Jac , Do you think it would work again"?  "Perhaps
you are right.  If training can create an automatic response , then the
relaxation technique might unprogram that response if done properly".  The
two sets of twins all nodded , "Yes but what is properly".  "Jos , we need
to help you forget the boot attack".  "Can you tell us what happenned in
your mind on BWBAD"?

   Jos checked his watch , "ahh the taxi will be here in ten minutes so
lets get ready to leave .  This converstaion has produced a stop point and
we will plan on this ".

   Fall : Chapter: 49: Jac is OK.

   The twins were dressed and filed out of the room as Robert goodbyed the
doctor.  One taxi arrived to take Robert to his home and another took the
twins home.

   After school and chores the twins found themselves in Jen's room again.
"Is this where we do the relaxation stuff"?  "Yes".  "We better off do that
in the old farm house away from your parents." "No , We need to explain to
them , what we are going to do , er we do not hide anything from our
parents." Jac smiled , "Even you two lesbianing yourselves".  "A poor
choice of words Jac , but again , worth mentioning".  "A deliberate choice
to force an answer".  "Yes our parents know about us playing with each
other and I am sure that's why they were so happy that you boy twins
appeared".  "And do your parents know about gaying boys, well I guess ,
since the night of your breakdown Jos , your parents have already accepted
all that".  Jac laughed , "Our parents , mostly my dad know everything
about us , er hell he taught us some things like breaking bubbles and water
piss cross".  Jos grinned , "Don't worry about my mom and dad.  They are
permanently together and my dad tells my mom everything".  "A boy who has
confident parents will be confident himeself".  "Well said Jen , but my
confidence was useless against three bullies".  "So who is going to inform
Gaila and Caelen of our plan to relax"?  "Should we not have Joseph and Una
to help"?  Jos volunteered , "I will talk to Caelen and Gaila right after
supper , Lets get some of this homework and test results done first".

   As supper finished Jos refilled drinks and served desert to everyone ,
then announced another information session with the girl twins parents. 
Jac and Jen and Jes moved into Jen's room to do homework.  Caelen and Gaila
took Jos into the study , standing in front of their favourite love seat.

   Fall : Chapter: 50: More contact .

   "Caelen and Gaila , us boy twins want a relationship with you as close
as your twin daughters relationship.  Jac and I , are in stressful times .
I am worried that our stress will cause responses that will irritate you .
Your twin daughters are very close to you parents .  Jac and I want to be
that close .  We have methods to help us get through stress but the methods
may not be suitable for sharing with you.  Definitely no violence is
involved but same sex is involved , though not in any way to the detriment
of your twin girls .  Gaila , I need to talk to you like Jes and Jen .  Jen
and Jes are your precious children.  You know them well, but Jac and I
arrived here through different histories far from your family ".

   Caelen docked his eyes with Jos unblinking : "Jos tell me specifically
what you want .  Gaila and I will pass no judgements".

   "I can not ".  "You have an issue with me or Gaila"?  "Gaila".  "Why".
"Because I awoke the other night from a terror nightmare and I badly
frightened Gaila".  "No , oh no Jos, I was frightened by the disaster on
your chest from BWBAD".  "Jos you did not hurt me.  I saw you too quickly
as the light came on full and when I looked away I saw your perfect brother
, developing shoulders and chest muscles and his limpness , a perfect blond
haired blue eyed muscle toned fifteen year old boy.  I stunned myself with
wanting to hold him like Jes does , and then I forced myself to look at
your body Jos , and I wanted to hold you and hug you like my baby and try
to fix some of those awful scars".

   Caelen nodded his head.  "I wanted to just grab you and hug you
unbearably tight also Jos.  Both of us held back unsure of your family
customs , and hesitant to risk a move that might stress you more".

   Jos sagged : " Aww crap , Caelen , Gaila , I can't hide my emotions like
my bro", murmured Jos , tear drops glistening" .

   The last of the sun's rays extinquished bathing the study in golden
light and then none.  "Lets just do it".  Caelen and Gaila grabbed Jos
straightening his posture and forcing his eyes into theirs.  Arms wrapping
tight , faces touching , then Caelen and Gaila pulled Jos head to her neck
and buried him in hugs and kisses and smelling and licking .  "Joshua
Joshua , you CAAN be the boy next door and you can be our son as well as
Robert and Jill's son".  Jos limp body tumbled into their arms , his eyes
crying , and face happy.  They let their bodies sink to the soft leather
love seat and cradled Jos , holding him across their legs letting his
weight rest in the middle.  Gaila laid his head across her breasts as the
floods of eye water wetted her blouse.  Caelen pulled his legs close to his
stomach .  "Let it go Jos , Let everything go" .  Shadows covered the love
seat and occupants.  Jos let himself cry , until water soaked the love
seat. His eyes closed against Gaila's breasts as they tightened the hug. 
Lips moving against her chest as his mind rested.  Caelen pressed his hand
against Jos package as though a two year old was there.  Jos detected the
added support and fell into sleep.  His mind shut down , body safe with new
found friends and parents - overwhelming love !

   Gaila and Caelen relaxed holding their new baby just loose enough to let
him breath as Jen returned .  She watched her parents sitting so close in
the dark and wondered: "Where did Jos go"?  "Shh".  Jen moved closer to her
parents as her dad took her hand , guiding it to Jos ears and neck.  "Aww
mommy and daddy ,he's sleeping , away from harm".  "How long asleep " ,
whispered Jen"?  "Five minutes".  "Do we wake him for bed or --"?  "Sit
here with us a moment " , whispered Caelen , moving aside as Jen squeezed
in against Jos.  "Tell us how you plan to help Jos .  Perhaps we can help
you"?  Jen began: , "We think we can modify Jos concious thoughts enough to
recognize the BWBAD trauma.  That would allow him some time to decide right
and wrong , rather than just lashing out like he did to his bro".  "Is
there negative consequences"?  "Yes .  BWBAD memories are now protected
from Jos consciousness ".  "You mean blocked".  "Yes , probably to allow
his mind to get on with important things in life".  "It's a normal process
for trauma victims to forget the event , but then remember it later in
life. Our plan simply provides a means to help Jos remember the event
sooner , and he will heal sooner".

   As Jen spoke she caressed Jos forehead and scalp , working her hands
along his neck , and back .She released the buttons on his shirt one by one
, then pulled the shirt free of his belt and off.

   Jac and Jes entered the room.  "Have you seen Jes"?  "Yes".  "Jos is
resting , and we want to study his wounds.  Turn the lighting up just
enough so we can see".  "Up a bit more , a bit more - Yes - Perfect". 
"Come find a seat with us Jac and Jes".  Jes pulled some cushions and
arranged them for Jac and her to sit close to the love seat.  Caelen put
his hand on Jac shoulder .  "Jac .  Give us a description of what happenned
on that first day of school.  We can use your description as a starting
place for Jos relaxation".  "It's painful to go there "!  "Like"?  " Like a
movie that you can't stop !  -playin and playin and you can't stop it - you
can only watch".  "When does it stop"?  "When Jos er - wakes up at our
secret therapy session".  "Were you relieved Jac"?  "Yes , at that point I
knew the movie would stop and that my bro would talk to me again".  "Can
you tell us about the worst part of the movie"?  "No , Caelen , I can't go
there right now - it's gonna hurt me and all of you all over again".  "Can
you tell us what happenned at the therapy session"?  "Robert Jen , Jes and
Jo and Una created a plan to awaken Jos from coma".  "Jen and Jes , you
never told me of the secret therapy"?  "It was extreme widening of our
minds Dad and Mom.  The plan came mostly from Joseph and a giant dog , with
the rest of us filling in details according to our theory of awakening
Jos". "A dog"?  Jen acknowledged : "A big dog , a very intelligent dog". 
Gaila studied Jen's face.  "Jen do you think , Caelen and I would
understand the therapy that awoke Jos.  I know that you twin girls have
expanded your knowledge of healing significantly since meeting Jos and
Jac.".  "If you question the big dog , then your mind is not able to fathom
the rest of the healing".

   Fall : Chapter: 51 : A dog ?  "OK , I am questioning the dog, what does
a dog know about humans ?  And secondly who could possibly find out what
the dog is saying"?  Jen and Jes looked at Jos.  "He knows mom , but he is
dog tired".  "Jes turned to Jac .  "What do you know about the dog "?

   "My friend Thierry and I were poisoned by chlorine gas in a pool shed
fire.  Thierry sufferred critical lung damage and was airlifted to the
downtown trauma unit.  Julia recognized the situation and quickly organized
the medical powers to move me beside Thierry , so that he would die with a
friend at his side.  Jos some how knew about my life in grave danger and
called, celled me.  Anyway Jos , at Julia's insistance ended up in my
trauma unit bed with me in the lung trauma unit with Thierry , expected to
die before morning.  Jos found out that Thierry , who could not talk wanted
to see another friend one last time and that guy was Joseph Alnot.  Jos
knew neither Thierry nor Joseph before the accident.  In fact he hardly
even knew me his own brother , but that's another story.  Basically Thierry
wanted Joseph to get inside him before his lungs died".  "Get inside"? 
"Mom Jos didn't even know that Thierry was gay , but thats the way life and
friends are.  To give Thierry his last request , Jos commanded Joseph to
suck Thierry's penis --ah the bj.  Jos succeeded but set off a reaction in
Joseph's mind , I mean he actually made Joseph realize who he really was.
Joseph realized that he was not gay at all , only acting gay to spite his
grandfather.  The bj accererated Thierry's healing beyond any high tech
gadgetry and Thierry survived.  Jos knew , he had started an unstable
process in Joseph and for the next month both of us along with George and
Sath worked to unprogram all the dogma from Joseph's mind only to discover
that Joseph's brother Liam suicided because of rapes by his grandfather and
Joseph was going to take the same action.  Eventually Jos healed Joseph and
got himself and me a friend from a part of the city , that I always avoided
and Jos never knew about.  Joseph has lived on the street .  He understands
the street people and their silent languages and he understands dogs.  So ,
Gaila and Caelen , you've got to have lived in Joseph's shoes and his
suicided brother , Liam's shoes before you can understand the pack
mentality of street living and dogs.  Secondly Joseph is Irish - native
American raised by a grandfather who lived through the Canadian residential
school system, raped by church officials and educators and forced to become
a catholic citizen.Joseph is extremmely intelligent at judging lifeforms
and somehow he can talk to dogs and lots of other social animals , I
presume." "And the big dog"?  "Oh yeah , Jos made other friends at
Bridgeworks , a boy named Ives from Scotland.  Ives organized a problem
session along with Joseph to find cures for Jos , then in his third month
of coma.  Ives chaired the session in partner with Joseph and the dog , the
big dog's name was brought forth.  Within in hours we had Jos underwear and
socks in a sealed bag and delivered them to the dog Ray and his keeper. 
Joseph and the keeper interpreted the dog's howls to mean Jos was in pain,