QUESTIONS FROM READERS - Last updated 07/30/2013 I want to thank everyone that responds to my stories. So many questions that it seems good to answer them inside of ASSTR as well as in email. It's kind of hard to write this stuff - and harder if you don't know if anyone even reads it. Keep asking questions and I'll keep answering them. Are these stories really real? ============================== Yes, they are, or as much so as I remember the situations. I have changed all of the names and a few of the locations to protect the innocent and not-so-innocent. I know it seems like there a lot of the tales about parties and sex and drug deals - but while you folks were all in high school and college I was hanging around truck stops and drug dealers. There was no job, no school and no parents around to give me rules. I had a lot of opportunities to do bad things and took advantage of them. Your stories seem rather dark. Do you even enjoy sex? ====================================================== Many of my stories are quite dark and a few are arguably only a bit about sex. (Couple Disappeared, for instance.) I’m not sure how to flag the ones that are happier. I do enjoy sex though and some of my work has a sunnier disposition than other pieces. I think part of the reason that people tend to think of these works as dark is that they tend to deal with drugs, cheap hotels, and in a few cases even non-consensual or at least reluctant participation in sex. This will make the feminists here flip, but in all honesty over the years I’ve had lots of great sex that began with a man (men) overcoming my reluctance, and some of my best sex has happened when I was probably legally too stoned, drunk or just too young to really have given conformed consent. (If you don’t think you can have great sex when you’re under-aged or stoned, I would have to disagree with you.) Did the cop really rape you in the hospital? ============================================ I was surprised that multiple people came to that conclusion after reading "The Cops Offer," then I went back and read my own words and understand how people might have come to that conclusion. That cop was an asshole and I'm sure he really enjoyed that after so many years he finally had me in cuffs and under arrest. (Which is what gave him the hard-on.) Frankly, they had operated on me and I was a mess, never mind that there were nurses, etc. Looking back at the day I wrote about, and the reports I heard later from the hooker who ended up taking the brunt of the cops anger later that day, I have no doubt that if the cop had it all to do over again, I'd probably have been fucked. (Both literally and metaphorically.) He never did more than expose himself to me though. Were you ever a prostitute? =========================== I did a very many things to stay alive and due to bad judgement that I am not very proud of, but I never took money for actual sex. I did make some money after watching while men and prostitutes had sex - maybe as many as a dozen times - but never took part and did end up taking my clothes off a few times for money. I actually don't look don't look down on prostitutes but rather think they look down on themselves. I've met a least a hundred in my life and met maybe two that seemed happy, so it never looked like something I would do unless I had no other choice. What happened after... ===================== I've received many questions about "what happens next" - usually about what happened after Roxanne left me stranded a hundred miles from home (The Story "Roxanne") and also after my gang/date rape and over dose. (Hitting Bottom.) Those stories will all be answered eventually - or I'll try to. I've got 3 or 400 pages of writing in various states of editing. About the Photographer... ========================= A number of readers have dropped a note about my rather forward behavior when I was with the Photographer. I plead pregnant - which is similar to pleading insanity except your boobs swell up.. Men don't seem to understand pregnancy - it's a real mind fuck that makes you do things you never dreamed you would do and that includes initiating sex with alpha males to help re-enforce your own desirability. If my circle of friends is any indication, it happens more often than most would imagine. Someday, someone is going to do a big movie about women having affairs in the early days of their pregnancies because it is a universal thing, creates situations that are almost comical and the visuals can be amusing if the affair lasts any length of time. (Most burn out quick - but I have one friend who was involved in an affair right up to the time she was in labor. her son has very deep dimples and I kid her that it's from where he kept getting hit in the noggin by her lovers cock.) Also speaking of insanity, this was the ad business, and lots of women sleep their way to the top in the ad business. Looking back, I think my photographer friend probably thought I was sucking up much more than just sucking him off. (People with top talent in that industry would tend to go places and bring people with them . Many have mistresses and lovers that sit on the payroll. At least back then - now with all the laws and lawsuits it might be different.) What about you? =============== (What do I look like, where do I live, etc.) I am keeping this semi-anonymous for a lot of reasons that are obvious to anyone who reads my writing. I won't be posting any photographs and while I used to actually be named Twyla, I left that name along with my past more than a dozen years ago. Now I'm wife, mom and actually a pretty successful business woman and enjoy life approximately 1800 miles from where most of these events took place in the late 1980s and early 1990s. I did end up getting a GED and going to college after rehab. Do you still sell/do drugs? =========================== I happily still light up once and again - usually late at night when the kids are in bed - and drink more than my mother would approve of if she were still alive, though she never approved of anything I might enjoy anyway. Otherwise I stay away from coke though I've been around it at parties and thankfully haven't seen any heroin or other hard drugs in over a decade. Why did you write this? ======================= I am not a religious person, but I realized a while back that there is something to be said for confession - even if it is anonymous. My husband knows some to this - but not all - and my children will never learn of it. That is about all the family I have. I have no priest, shrink, etc. and I would never breath a word of this to any of my friends for reasons that should be clear. "I officially call bullshit. Anal without lube at 17? Are you stupid or crazy?" ====================================================== First off, yes you can get lubricated enough to take one in the ass with just saliva - of course it helps if it's administered by a tongue or helped along with a few fingers to spread it around. You don't have to use a commercial lubricant. Second off, 30 years ago when I was doing most of my early experimenting, we didn't have ads for KY lubricants on MTV. (In my town we didn't have MTV yet.) We didn't have a sex store in our little town and the only think they really sold at the 5 and Dime that might have been appropriate was something like Vaseline. I totally get that lube is what you should use if you're going to take it up the ass. Believe me, I'm a fan, but back at the time these events happened, I didn't have knowledge, didn't have access, and didn't really have a lot of control over what has happening anyway. (When you have a man's dick in your ass, it didn't get there because you are the one calling the shots. Trust me if you haven't been there. There's not much argument who is in charge in those situations.) I didn't like anal then and didn't really enjoy it - but it wasn't about enjoyment it was about submitting. Kind of a weird sort of worship - it was almost good that it hurt a little bit as that made it real. Does that make sense? Got a question? =============== Write me at twylamarie at ymail.com. Serious questions will be answered. Abusive messages or preachy stuff will be happily ignored.