Note: This story was dynamically reformatted for online reading convenience. THE NEW BIRTH - Part 1 by Psychmstr SykeMstr@gmail.com Read all of Psychmstr's stories at: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/The_Leather_Room/ CASTRATION ANXIETIES It's hard for me to believe i am about to walk into my own operating room, letting my own surgical assistant perform what is, after all, a fairly simple operation, but one that will always have special poignancy to a conscious male animal. Today is my forty-fifth birthday, and i have been in service to my Master for about ten years, as it has been about a decade that i ran afoul of the law, could not pay the fine, and the courts auctioned me off into slavery. i am a physician by training and run the Master's surgical center for his staff and slaves, and am also Master's Chief Overseer. As i await my surgical assistant's preparation and the arrival of my Master, his family, friends, and interested business associates, all invited to witness my voluntary castration, images and thoughts tumble through my mind as my anxiety increases and the adrenaline pumps throughout my system. My body wants to escape, to leave, to run as fast as my legs will carry it, but my mind is settled and determined. i will be strong for my Master and give an excellent show. The fact is, i don't really have a choice; or, rather, i already made my choice when i decided those many years ago that i would not try to fight my enslavement, as the fight would be futile and my life completely forfeit. As time passed, i see now, so vividly, how a pragmatic accommodation became an enthusiasm, a mission, a purpose, and the love of my life. It is, i believe, really a small matter that my balls be cut to please my Master. i remember our conversation just last week when he had me in his bed. "Jackson, I have made a decision about your future. We two have a very unusual relationship, as you must realize. First and foremost, of course, you are a piece of property, owned by me, to be used by me any way I see fit, so it is understood I do not owe you an explanation. But the fact is, my beloved muscle stud, I have permitted myself to love you as only one man can love another, fully and completely. "It's really weird to say this. Who would have ever thought the re-introduction of slavery would be so psychologically complicated? Here I am, naked, in bed, with you, also naked, my cock deeply implanted in your beautifully muscled ass, making love to you as if you were a woman, but also recognizing that you can be nothing but a tool of my will. You know that you have fully submitted your self--that is, your body, your spirit-- completely to me and to my dominance of you, yet here I am explaining to you what the two of us already know! "Anyway, you have been so many things to me. I expected to have a hot muscle stud to fuck whenever I wanted one when I first bought you. Little did I realize that, in addition to having purchased a really fine stallion, I also purchased a animal with outsized intelligence. "You have exceeded all my expectations and have gone far beyond them. Your ideas and actions have made me a wealthy man beyond even my dreams! You have organized my businesses, my household, and my slave holdings and every thing you have touched you have improved dramatically. "What can I say? I don't owe you gratitude, since you are nothing but a slave that I own, you are a subservient tool of my will in all things, yet I cannot help but be thankful. Since I don't believe in gods or in religion, I trace my good fortune to the fact that you fucked up, broke the law, became enslaved, and I just happened to be the fortunate man there at the auction, at the right time, to purchase you! "Well, Jackson, as you know, since you did the research and implemented the New Birth program in my slave business, that when a slave reaches the age of 45 years, if he's in excellent physical condition as you obviously are, we have the ability to extend his useful life by another 20 to 25 years. "Testosterone production in a male declines over time, so that by middle age his lean muscle mass becomes significantly reduced. Putting the slave on a program that includes both a customized steroid cocktail and significantly increased weight training, after the age of 45, gives the slave a second youth--it's as if he is 25 again and major muscle mass gains are once more feasible. "The downside of such a program is that the testes shrivel up. A slave that once sported balls the size of jumbo-sized eggs now sports nothing more impressive than a pair of peanuts! For field & construction slaves, this is no big problem, as they are not usually used for sex. But you are very different, of course. And this is where we come to my decision about your future." Master obviously was working himself up to this point, for he had stopped thrusting into my stud cunt, raised himself slightly by placing his forearms across my own arms pinned to the side and slightly above my head. i inhaled the intoxicating pheromones sloughed off by his sweaty pits and tightened my legs slightly around his waist, hoping that he would signal his pleasure at my effort to pull more of his huge cock into me, and he did smile in the dim light. Then he kissed my lips once again, forced my mouth open, and penetrated my throat with another passionate tongue fuck. God, how i loved him inside of me! How could i pay much attention to his lecture, when so many of my pleasure points were exploding in my body and in my head? His mere touch was almost more than i could stand under the best of circumstances, and here he was playing my body as if it were a rare Stradivarius violin! "Jackson, let's stop for a minute." "Yes, Master." "I am going to give you to my young wife as a pleasure slave after you have completed the New Birth program. You will still have business duties to perform for me, some surgical duties of a supervisory nature, and, of course, your physical training will be significantly increased, as you will begin the New Birth program tomorrow with your first injections." "Master, your will is my pleasure. i will, of course, do whatever you and the Mistress wish, with enthusiasm and devotion." "I have so many demands on my time, Jackson, I am afraid that I have been neglecting this new wife of mine, and she is rather demanding sexually. She really likes tall muscular men--I mean really muscular, masculine men with big chiseled bodies. She also tends to like Daddies; otherwise, she would not have consented to marry me! "Now it seems to me that we have a couple of problems here to which you are the perfect solution. Obviously my wife is fertile, so it is important that no fertile sperm be implanted into her. I will be the father of her children, but neither of us wants to be bothered with children until she reaches at least 28 or 30, and she's only 24 right now. "From time to time, Jack, I will still want you in my bed; perhaps the wife and I both will have you at the same time! But principally you will devote a certain number of hours per day to servicing my wife, travelling with her, and, since she is somewhat exhibitionistic, she will obviously wish to display her new fuck-toy to all her friends. "She will not be permitted to inflict any permanent damage to your body, Jack, no breaking of skin, for example, but she may very much wish to inflict a little pain on your body for her delight and pleasure. If she and her friends do this to you, you will respond enthusiastically to the pain and take genuine pleasure in their using your body in that way, just as if I were using your body, do you understand?" "Yes, Master," i said. "On your birthday next week, Jack, we are all going to celebrate your New Birth. On that day we will assemble in the surgery center and you will voluntarily submit to castration. Your assistant, Dave, will perform the operation, without anesthesia, so you can experience the full physical, emotional, and psychological response to what your Master is doing to you. You will remember the experience more intensely than even what you experienced during branding, nearly ten years ago. Everyone will be watching to see whether you can take the pain and what the men in the audience will regard as your humiliation, your 'unmanning.' Of course, you and I will know that it is not possible that you will feel humiliation. How can a slave ever object to what its master wishes to do with its body? "The experience will be an excellent teaching demonstration to those in the audience who do not now own slaves how slavery today actually works, and that the slave anticipates the changes made to his body with joy and pleasure. Even the excruciating pain you will experience will be a source of pleasure to you since you will be submitting to your Master's will. To that end, there will be no restraints at all on you during the procedure, unless you ask. If you faint from the pain, we shall revive you. If you wish, Jackson, I have consented to allowing you a shot or two of whiskey to take the edge off, but I am sure that is as far as you would wish me to go in dulling your sensory perception of the pain. "Your complete and joyful submission to what some might regard as a brutal disfigurement will become the source of unending wonderment and delight for your audience. The operation will be videotaped, in a first-class professional production and the tapes will be sold to spread the message far and wide. We'll even have interviews and you'll probably be asked a lot of questions. Not that a slave's opinion should matter, but for those in the wider audience who have not yet embraced slavery and fail to make distinctions between men and slaves, your contribution here will be a benefit. "As to the operation itself, the cameras will lovingly and painstakingly document your facial and bodily reactions as your scrotum will be opened in the back with a vertical incision, your nuts removed, and prosthetic testicles inserted. They will be larger than your natural balls, since the wife likes obscenely large balls in men and also, your body will grow significantly more muscular as a result of the steroids you will be taking. We want the balls to be in proportion to the body you will have, not the body you have now, as beautifully muscular as it is. Without those shots, Jackson, your body will not retain it's lean muscle mass over the next 20 to 30 years. But we are going to go one better; your body will be better, bigger, more muscular, and more defined , than it ever has in your entire life! "Also I should say that the prostheses we've selected will be relatively quite heavy. You have a large cock, Jackson, ten inches the last time I measured it at full mast, and it hangs about seven inches when it's flaccid, just resting on your nut sack. The wife wants a low-slung ball-sack, so these heavier prosthetic balls will, over time, stretch the sack down quite a bit so that it will extend one or two inches below the tip of your resting cock head. "You're going to look great, Jackson. No one will suspect that the balls aren't your natural nuts. In fact, your Mistress even has some sexual tableaux planned for you where your balls are severely manhandled, yet you will be able to withstand the terrible mistreatment of your testicles, since prosthetic balls don't hurt when they are crushed! "Master, i am looking forward to this castration. You have already milked me for many years, so you have stored all the sperm you will ever need, and now i will be able to pleasure my Mistress without any danger of inseminating her." "There's more, Jackson. Since your body will be nude, as all slaves are, but publicly displayed, your Mistress wants your body properly ornamented for her pleasure. Prior to the castration, all your body hair, except for your head, will be permanently removed. After the scrotum has healed, your Mistress will decide whether she wants to have you circumcised. She may have you cut then, or decide later to have you cut. "I suspect, Jack, that she will eventually have to have you cut to reduce the sensitivity of your penis. She is a sexual athlete and will want you fully tumescent and hard as steel as you use your cock to give her clit, cunt, and ass the continuous orgasmic pleasure she requires. You will be expected to go hours without climaxing yourself. "Indeed, I think she hopes you can avoid coming altogether, even though you would only be shooting seminal fluid, not sperm. That way you will always be ready to pleasure her with your hardened and leaking cock. In public I know she expects that pre-cum will more or less be constantly dripping from your cock, and the best way for that to happen, Jack, is if you avoid coming altogether. Giving you a high and complete circumcision will significantly reduce your sensitivity, affording you much less pleasure but increasing hers. It is a kindness, really, to you, since I know you will always strive to maximize the pleasure your body gives to your Master and Mistress, yes?" "Master, maximizing her pleasure will be my purpose. Having my foreskin cut to increase my stamina has no downside for me at all, since you will that it be done. May i make a suggestion, Master?" "Yes, slave." "Perhaps Mistress would enjoy my being circumcised without any anesthetic. She will be able to tell from my body language, facial expression, and my cries that the cutting is causing me real pain, but that this pain is also causing me immense psychological pleasure since she would be so pleased with the performance." "Jackson, my beautiful muscle slave, you have an absolute gift for understanding the psychology of the Master-slave relationship. Your eager desire to have these things done to you, things that will cause great pain to your body, fills me with so much love for you, so much devotion to your animal welfare, that I really don't know what to do with the intense emotions your words have inspired in me. Surely you are one-of-a-kind!" "Master, i say nothing but what my duty as a slave demands. You and Mistress are my world. i can conceive of nothing other than joyful submission to your will." "You will then enjoy being used as her personal canvas as she ornaments what will become a deeply striated physique, with its layers of chiseled muscle mass and thinly stretched skin tightly moulding an idealized male animal. She visualizes encasing your cock and balls in a wide cinch ring, forcing them to jut out from your body, displaying to fine effect your extraordinary tackle. The cinch will, of course, reduce the flow of blood coming back from your cock, so the cock will remain semi-erect most of the time and full erections will increase considerably and last much longer. "In addition to the cinch-ring, your cock will have what they call a Prince Albert piercing at the end of your cock head, through the urethra. It will be gauge 4, which is the thickest and heaviest practical ring, having a diameter of about an inch and a half. To complement the PA, you will also have large heavy nipple rings. Your tits are large, but these rings are so heavy the piercing will have to be behind the nipple and through the aureoles so that there will be enough skin to support the ring in an attractive manner. During sex play it is probable that other objects might be attached to these rings to cause increased amounts of discomfort; but, in most cases, I suspect, alligator clips will be attached directly to your nipples, bypassing the rings entirely. We don't want to risk the skin's tearing, do we?" "No Master." "Finally, Jack, as a symbol of your comfort-slave status, a large barbell-shaped stud will be inserted in a piercing in your navel. You already have, of course, my personal branding on your left ass check, in the crack, but no other branding will be needed. "When you go out in public, my fine muscle-stud, you will look absolutely stunning. The jewelry would mean nothing, of course, if it did not ornament a body that is as extraordinarily beautiful as yours is. You really don't need the jewelry and probably in a few years, your Mistress may decide that particular fashion will be obsolete. So be it." T __________ As Master's recalled words burned their way into my consciousness, the door to the operating room opened in front of me and one of the slave staff motioned for me to enter. i padded out on the painted concrete floor of the OR in my bare feet. Indeed, i was completely naked. All my body hair had already been removed permanently through electrolysis. "Step up to the wedge, Jackson, and place your feet so that those pads rest behind your ankles, " said dave. i moved as he directed. "Get some surgical tape and fasten his cock to his stomach," dave directed to one of his assistants. To me, he said, "Now bend over the wedge and grip the hand holds under the other side to keep your body immobilized." As i bent over an operating table designed like a large wedge, i fully exposed my scrotum to the surgical lights and, at a farther distance, the video cameras. my head extended beyond the wedge so my mouth was free to breathe and even scream if the pain grew too intense. The wedge was then raised slightly and the portion next to my legs split in the middle, to give the surgeon easy access to the rear of my ball sack. dave, my surgical assistant, started the preparation. he began to stretch my scrotum, pulling just the skin down, attaching clamps to hold its leathery surface taut against the small white platform that he had moved into position and stabilized. he then applied antiseptic to the rear of the sack along the seam. Testicles, of course, are encased in a sheathe of muscular tissue whose purpose is to raise and lower the testicles in response to temperature. There really is no practical way of extracting the testicle from its sheathe and inserting the prosthesis, enabling the fake balls to rise and fall as if real; consequently, the testicles in their sheathe would be removed and the tubes connecting the main body to the testicles cauterized and sealed, to eventually wither away. _________________________________________________ "Family, friends, and invited business associates," began the announcer, Mark Evans , "we are about to witness a most extraordinary event, one might say, unprecedented for our video audience, of a real-time, genuine castration of a slave by the name of Jackson, owned by Steven Lord, Chairman and CEO of American Service Industries, the nation's leader in slave technology and services. What is remarkable about the events you are about to witness is that this slave is submitting himself in a wholly voluntary manner to the gelding process. We understand that no anesthetic will be used as a vertical incision is made by the surgeon, the slave's testicles clipped and removed, and new prosthetic testicles inserted. The slave's scrotum will then be stitched together, again without even a local anesthetic." "We have Mr. Lord's press secretary here, Dan Williams, who will offer analysis as the procedure continues." "Dan, what is the surgeon doing right now?" "Well, Mark, as our viewers can now see, the surgeon has prepped the vertical length behind the scrotum where an incision approximately 2 inches will be cut, in order to extract the slave's testicles, one at a time after each has been clipped. The incision must be long enough both to extract the existing testicle and permit the insertion of considerably larger prostheses." "Dan, why will the prostheses be larger than the originals?" "That's because this particular slave has just started what we call the New Birth program. Slave Jackson here has already begun a treatment of massive amounts of customized steroid cocktail to induce really spectacular muscle growth. Combined with the daunting physical training Slave Jackson will be doing, this extraordinary specimen of ideal physical animal will become more muscular, more densely layered, and more finely striated, as hard as that may be to believe, for he demonstrates outstanding physical development even as we speak, don't you agree? He will emerge, perhaps in 12 months, a veritable slave superman, exhibiting what Mr. Lord regards as a whole new phase of youthful living for this particular slave." "Other than making supermen out of slaves, Dan, what is Mr. Lord's purpose here?" "Mark, the purpose is to increase the value of those slaves already owned, by increasing the span of their natural working lives. One does not expect, at present, a 45 or 50 year old slave to do the physical work of a trained 25 to 30 year old slave. Mr. Lord's program is designed to effectively double, from 20 years to 40 or more years that a slave can continue to give top performance. As it is now, many 45 or 50 year-old-slaves are euthanized since they are just worn out or they just can't perform at the level of a younger male animal." "That's just remarkable Dan. I see that the surgeon has begun the castration of this slave. Let's join our floor correspondent, Katie White, who will give the blow-by-blow commentary. Katie, explain what's happening right now to our audience." "Thanks Mark. We are going to move to slit-screen mode in a few seconds, Mark, so that viewers can simultaneously see close up what the surgeon is doing and at the same time have the other two cameras focus closely on Slave Jackson's facial features and the larger view of the slave's whole body." "Arrrgh!!! . . . Aooooogh! . . . ." "That unearthly sound you just heard, Mark, came from the slave as the surgeon used his scalpel to complete the incision. As camera 2 shows us, the body of the slave is trembling slightly, as if it were under great tension, as, of course, it is. The skin, I think you can also see, is pouring forth sweat all along the animal's back, glutes, and, as camera 3 shows too, his face. Clearly the slave is suffering a tremendous amount of pain in this procedure." "I think you can just see, Mark, that the surgeon is inserting two clamps. Once both are fastened on the tube that connects the slave's testicle to the main body, the surgeon will clip the tube and extract one of the two testicles with the lower clamp and cauterize the upper tube." "Say Dan, just out of curiosity, do you know what will happen to the extracted testicles?" "I am glad you asked a question that will be on a lot of viewers' minds. I spoke with Mr. Lord earlier in the day and he said that, since he was planning on making this slave a present to his young wife, just as soon as the slave completes the New Birth program, he will also present her with her new pleasure slave's extracted testicles in a beautifully designed, hollowed crystal egg resting on a gold pedestal with encrusted jewels, worth, I am told, close to 2 million dollars. The testicles, which will be immediately preserved once extracted, will swim in a clear, slightly viscous preservative, enabling them to gently float." "That sounds like an absolutely fabulous conversation piece the new Mistress will most certainly wish to place on the coffee table to show all her envious friends, doesn't it Katie?" "It does, Mark. I know I would certainly relish having such a piece of almost-living sculpture in my home. By the way, Mark and Dan, the slave just moments ago fainted a second time as his remaining testicle was clipped by the surgeon. We have the shot in instant replay if you look to camera 1. Attendants are now reviving the slave, as it was the wish of his owner, Mr. Lord, that Slave Jackson receive the castration experience in all its painful dimensions. "I need to tell you gentlemen that it appears the slave has lost control of his bladder and urine is puddling on the floor below the wedge-shaped operating table. Fortunately for our viewers, and the surgeon, of course, the slave had inserted into his rectum a really large butt plug to keep him from accidentally voiding his bowels. Our viewers need to understand that castration is an extraordinarily painful event to endure, Mark, but Slave Jackson wanted to experience it, to demonstrate his completely submissive attitude toward his Master, to show that extreme pain can also be a source of pleasure if the slave understands that it is his master who wishes him to endure it. Quite a remarkable performance, wouldn't you say, Mark and Dan?" "Absolutely, Katie. Dan, it looks as if the surgeon is now inserting stitches into the back of the scrotum where the incision was made. That has got to be one hell of a pain to endure, don't you think?" "Yes, indeed, Mark. Slave Jackson is turning out though to be an absolute role model for slaves. It is really hard, I am sure, for our viewers to conceive of the degree of love and devotion this slave has for its Master, that it would willingly endure this incredible pain, just to prove its loyalty and submission. Remarkable, really." End of Part 1 TO BE CONTINUED . . . (C) 2004 Syke Maste