Author: Tod Naturlich
Title: Cousins
Part: 13
Summary: Your family goes every Sunday to your grandparent's house, a boring 
endeavor until your little cousins show you there are more things to do. The 
problem now is you can't stop.
Keywords: mf gi 1st cons inc cous impreg
Language: English


===== Cousins =====

*** Apology ***


You spent the next week feeling like shit. The sight of Ann crying and saying 
you hated her stayed in your mind all week. That, coupled with all the feelings 
and thought about Diane, and how *she* had been able to deal with thing much 
better than you, didn't even allowed you to masturbate at all.

Furthermore, as the weekend approached you grew more and more concerned about 
how to deal with Ann. You didn't know how you could apologize to her, what if 
she still expected you to do something with her, could you resist the 
temptation? What if she threatened to tell what you had done? What is she still 
thinks you hate her? There was simply no good outcome that could enter your 
mind. What if she was *pregnant*...

Therefore is was no surprise you were dragging your feet on Sunday morning, so 
much that your mom grabbed you and asked: "What's the matter with you? Don't 
you wanna go play with your cousins?"

You just lowered your head.

"Wouldn't you get bored here, all alone?"

"No..." you looked up at her. Was she for real? with the TV all for you, and 
your computer...

"Well, if you really don't want to go, I guess you can stay."

"*Really*?"

"Sure, I'm not gonna drag you against your will, you're big enough to decide on 
your own." she smiled and continued getting ready to leave, while you stood 
there not believing the feeling of relief that washed over you.

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It was late at night when you heard the door as your parents returned. It had 
been a peaceful, almost boring Sunday, just what you needed after a week of 
worrying. In the back of your mind you knew you were just postponing the 
inevitable, but for now it was nice to be able to relax.

You were watching TV when your parents entered, and it was soon clear something 
was wrong, for you mom looked worried as she sat in front of you, while your 
dad went on to their room without even greeting you.

"We need to talk." said softly your mom.

"What... what happened?"

"Aura's parents told us Aura told them you two were... that you *touched* her 
during the camping trip."

You felt your blood turn to ice, and your face was all the answer your mom 
needed to know it was true.

"Look, it's normal to be curious about... sex, at your age," she moved a bit 
closer to you on the coach, and in the brief moment you lifted your eyes, you 
could see she was close to tears, "but Aura is too young for that. She was 
really scared, she had a health class in school and ran to her parents fearing 
she was pregnant... and... you *only*... touched each other, right?"

What could you said? The image of Aura getting out of the river, her virgin 
blood matting her groin came to your mind. You didn't raised your head, just 
nodded slightly, not even sure what that meant anymore.

"Aura is fine," continued your mom, apparently taking your gesture as a 
reaffirmation you weren't a complete monster, "and her parents understand that 
what you did was... innocent," you almost jumped when she took your hand in 
hers, you were shaking, your palms sweaty and cold, "we're not mad at you, 
just... disappointed, you understand what you did was wrong, right?"

Again you just nodded, not daring raising your eyes. As you heard your mom 
talked it was almost like you weren't the recipient to her words, like you were 
just an spectator.

"We agreed you have to apologize to them, and to Aura... but we're not going to 
punish you... it's... normal, to explore your sexuality, you just have to do 
it... in a safe way, Ok?"

That made you raise your eyes. Your mom was looking at you with love, even as 
the tears ran down her face, *she* was forgiving you for all you've done, and 
even if she didn't know everything you've done, it was a balm to feel her love.

"I'm going to tell you..." she made a pause, this time lowering her own eyes, 
"remember I've been visiting Patricia a lot lately? Well, truth is Diane got in 
trouble, she got herself pregnant, and I've been helping Patricia deal with 
it... I'm just happy that you... well, that this happened, so we could have 
this chat, so you know enough not to get a girl pregnant."

"How is Diane?" you blurted out, the weight of her words loss at the mention of 
you cousin.

"She's fine... she's not having the baby, she's too young for that."

"So she..."

"She had an abortion, almost two weeks ago," she looked at you, "do you know 
what that is?"

The rest of the chat turned into a weird sex-ed class, with your mom asking you 
how much you knew about things, and then explaining them anyways. You only half 
payed attention, still numb over the shock of being discovered, and then 
forgiven. On top of the shame you felt, you also felt angry at Aura for 
telling, at Diane for *not* telling, and at the world for punishing you with 
this when you had finally pushed Ann away. Then back to the shame of what you 
had done, and the fear that Ann would also tattled.

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In the end you had to give a lengthy apology to Aura's parents. You mom made 
you rehears it several times before next Sunday, but at least once it was over 
Louie smiled at you and told you everything was fine. Aura wasn't present, and 
Ann was once again away with her classmates.

From then on you decided to use your newfound freedom to refuse to visit your 
grandparents as much as you could. Attending only when there was a special 
occasion. After a couple months with no more nasty surprises, you started 
breathing a little easier, trusting Ann would not tell, and that neither her 
nor Aura were pregnant.

Next time you encountered Ann, she behaved as if nothing had happened, but kept 
her distance from you, not trying to invite you to play or talk to you other 
than initially greeting you. You weren't sure what she was *really* feeling, 
but accepted her attempt at normalcy at face value and ran with it, hoping she 
had really put all behind her.

You didn't saw Aura again in years. Her parents plan to move failed, they had 
to go even further away and so it would be years before you encounter her or 
Adolph once more, by then Aura was a young woman from the arm of her fiancé.

Diane was perhaps the one that stayed closer to you after all those troubles. 
She always greeted you with a smile and a big hug whenever you visited, and 
behaved in her exuberant and carefree way with apparently no lasting 
consequence of your brief affair. Over the years she introduced you to a 
veritable string of boyfriends, most of them clowns, according to your aunt, 
until she settled with one and had a child, still fairly young. You never asked 
about your previous relation, and she never offered anything else.

For your part, it took you a while to realize how deep the scars of those few 
months went inside you, and it didn't help that you were unable to talk to 
anyone about it. They say you only truly get over something when you are able 
to laugh about it, and it took you years and several relationships to get to 
that point, but eventually you managed, and though it was still a dark stain in 
your past, you've finally accepted it as it happened, and were able to move on.