Entry 44

I had that dream again last night. I got back from going out
dancing really late I guess, and had one of my recurring
dreams. I’m hurrying to get it on paper- here it is.

   The place was packed. We did go out Diary! We were in
this great dance club, with smoke and lasers and mirror
balls and everyone was jumping and moving and the music was
just shaking my stomach and we had a drink but then my song
came on and I dragged him out there, into the middle
eventually!
   There was smoke everywhere but you could still see the
mirror ball giving off colored twinkles. He was in front of
me; I could barely make out the black outfit. I had that
black sequin gown, with the high slit up the right leg. Wait
it is dark blue sorry. He was saying something and I could
just barely hear him over the thumping bass and noise. I
just smiled and danced over to him. He cuddled his arms
around me and pulled his body against mine, and was like,
whispering, but that was a lost cause it was so loud. I just
looked at the men and women in front of me, dancing, and
felt his hands roam up my sides, over my tummy. I reached up
and felt his face behind me, and his hair. I knew his hands
were going to keep climbing but I didn’t care. It was the
atmosphere. The couple in front was doing that “ bend over
and get driven from behind” thing, you know? His chin was on
my shoulder and I heard him whispering and, I don’t know, it
just felt nice. I was swaying with the music in this fog and
his hands were on my tummy, my breasts, up my arms, down my
sides, then hugging me and our pelvises locked and we swayed
together for I don’t know how long.
   The music changed a little and he said “lets sit down”,
so I said sure and he picked up my things and we sat at this
little table for two right on the dance floor. Everyone was
looking at us, and yes, I’m pretty attractive, but so is he,
which is nice I admit. But let me keep going. We ordered a
couple drinks- Rum and Coke, but it took forever to get
them! I was looking for my handbag and he was talking, I
couldn’t really hear what he was saying, but I looked up and
he was handing me money and said, “Just go up and get them
will you? You’ll cut the crowd better than I.” I shimmy on
over and he was right- I just wiggled on through and ordered
two drinks, and he even gave them to me for free!
   When I got back he was standing, and said, “Come on, this
is my favorite song!” I barely got the drinks sat down when
I was dragged by the hand out onto the floor. We stopped in
the middle of the floor, and instantly were surrounded by
all these people, all bouncing and I felt like they were
watching us kinda. I was kinda getting sexy with it, staring
at him as I slid and slinked to this grinding beat. I
started kinking my butt back and forth, kinda leaning toward
him, and my boobs were really swaying. That is a total turn
on for me so I admit I was really turned on. He held my
shoulders and smiled this weird smile.
   OK,, Ready??? He took his hands and rubbed my shoulders
and arms, and then he said something, I wish it hadn’t been
so loud. It sounded like he said, playdough, or something.
Anyways, I was going to ask him what he said, and I noticed
he wasn’t dancing! Just standing there, laughing. I was
surrounded by this ring of people, all applauding and
laughing. I crossed my arms and felt the scratchy lace of my
black bra. I realized then when we came off the floor a half
hour previously, he had picked up my clothes I had taken off-
dress and shoes! I was standing there in my pantyhose and
thong, and bra.
   The D.J. said over the microphone, “Let’s all give them a
round of applause!” And they all started clapping. I was
mortified. I felt my cheeks get hot, and I turned and
started to run away, but the people were all packed so close
together, it was like pushing through a mob. I dropped a
shoe, and bent over, and somebody grabbed my butt hard! I
yelled “Ass!” and leaped away, but I missed my shoe. I
turned toward it and my date was saying something behind me.
I don’t know what he was saying, I was thinking I just had
to get away. I scurried over to my shoe, sure that sliding
my knees on that Plexiglas floor, with all the lights under
it was going to put holes in my hose.
   I grabbed my shoe and I heard him yell my name and I
looked up at him. I shouldn’t have looked up. He was right
behind me, I kinda felt like maybe he was about to grab me
or something, you know? I turned and god, the crowd was all
around him and me and he said something I think like “it’s
ok” or something. I was furious! I just picked up my shoe
and started to walk over to him. He knelt on one knee and
said “give it here girl”, and I almost passed out. I was NOT
holding my shoe in my mouth! Everyone was whistling and
laughing and yelling things- I had to run, crawl into my
purse and die, but I didn’t know where my purse was! He took
the shoe.
   He said “Good girl, that’s my good girl,” while stroking
his hand through my hair, and down my back. My whole body
shuddered, even my abdomen muscles, and I was like, “I’m
going to throw up”, I just shook my head and I was soooo
about to get up and run away, really! But I heard his voice
like it was Bose speakers in my head, and he said, “Stay!”
My knees froze to the lighted floor. I was clawing with my
hands, but there’s no traction on those dance floors! He
said “Sit baby, SIT”!
   All the energy in my hips and thighs just like, turned
off. My butt hit my heels> I couldn’t look up. I wanted
everyone to die, I wanted to die. I felt his hand combing my
hair, and that shudder rippled through my body again. His
hand went slowly down my back. Then it sort of massaged up
my side.  He said, “Sit pretty for me!” and I wanted to sit
up and slap his face, so I sat up and I pulled my hands up
to my chest, but then, nothing happened! I was sitting like
a begging dog in a room full of people applauding. Tears
were drying on my hot cheeks, and the world was spinning. I
felt the strap on my bra give, and my strapless black lace
bra fell in front of me. I looked down, and gasped, but I
couldn’t even move a paw down to grab it.  His strong hand
grabbed my left breast and started kneading it like bread
dough. That shudder thing happened again, my whole body
shook.
   I looked up and I felt like I was on fire. My body was
sweating, I was moist down there, and I was moving in like,
slow motion. He lifted my boob and pulled to the side, and I
just sort of rolled over onto my back. I needed my purse. I
needed to get dressed. I needed him to squeeze my breasts
like that till his hand went numb. God it felt good. I felt
his hot hand slowly move down my chest, till he was making
lazy circles from the base of my breasts, to my ribs, down
over the hose to my pubic bone, and back up the other ribs.
It was so quiet and warm. His deep strong voice echoed
kinda. “There’s my girl, loves her tummy rubs.” I probably
should have said something, but first I couldn’t think what
to say, and secondly it felt so relaxing, like I was almost
asleep, I just felt the electric pulse from his hand beating
slowly as he petted my tummy the way I liked it.
   “Now everyone can come up and pet her, and tell her what
a good girl she’s been!” I realized my eyes had been shut,
with all four legs kind of in the air. I was breathing
shallow, and was so close to an orgasm I could hardly move.
I had goosebumps all over. I realized people were crouching
all around me, but I just knew if I moved one muscle I would
orgasm, and I was trying to be such a good dog.  A young
woman in a rust colored silk half-shirt and pretty brown
hair was combing my bangs, and running her hand down my
cheek. She smelled like Bath and Body Sweet Pea lotion (I
like it too). She said, “It’s O.K.,, I know what you’re
going through. Don’t fight it honey. Just go with it. That’s
good isn’t it?” I realized she had probably had this happen
too. How many people had? How common was this? A man’s
finger was playing with my lips, and I sooo knew lipstick
was smeared everywhere. I licked him! I started licking his
finger. That’s when my feet went up, and several hands
pulled my hose and soaking wet Hanes undies off me.
   A hand had my right butt cheek in a death grip, and I
heard a man say, “Now who’s the ass?” I had the intense need
to kick him, but see, there were several men and women all
petting me and fondling my breasts, and rubbing my tummy,
combing my hair, squeezing my thighs, and massaging my feet.
SO who would care if some jerk was getting attitude, as long
as he kept running his hand up their inner thigh? I heard my
date’s voice say “Orgasm baby.” I had reluctantly got here
to this point and now I didn’t know what I was doing really
anymore. I just made a weird whiny noise and my whole body
shook in a hot rush. The hands all started pinching and
rubbing, and the climax was impossible to ignore. I couldn’t
help but scream out and convulse in this super orgasm. Oh my
God it was tremendous. It seemed to go on for an hour. I
looked up, and here I was, in my room.
   It’s an hour or so after I woke up, and after my bath I’m
calling my friends and just make sure nothing stupid
happened last night. If I could find my purse I’d be O.K.,
so if I forget this happened, ask me if I ever found my
purple clutch purse.