Entry 149

   I got out last night, and went to visit Jen at the dive
of a stripbar she dances at. Little place with just enough
room between the bar and the platform for people to walk by,
which causes serious problems when they have like, huge hats
and coats. Some times they act drunk, and “accidentally”
stagger into the dancer. There’s a few tables in the back
near the “dancefloor” 6 foot square, and up front 3 booths.
   I was sitting at the bar, and one of the dancers named
Destiny walked up beside me. Both seats were full of beer
bags with magnetic hands, but she just put her arm around
the one on the right, and lifted him up off the stool by his
crotch! He just said he’d be waiting for her next dance, and
sat somewhere else.
  She bought me a drink and said Jen had told her I was an
actor. I told her about the play we did. The comedy like,
but she got this puzzled look. She sat her clear purse box
down and said, “But I heard you were in this play and had to
be a dog right?”
   Jen had told her a half truth and I decided to go with
it. I said yes, and she wanted to know if we could do a
scene onstage, where she’s walks a dog, or something, wanted
it kinky and erotic and I stopped hearing her voice as soon
as my inner one started screaming. There was this thing I
did, and it all came back to me right then. I couldn’t
believe I was saying what I was, and neither could she.
   I asked “What about your red riding hood, and the dog
does you?” I like froze. I didn’t even breathe. Her face got
all frozen and thoughtful. The man on my left said “Yeah
doggystyle baby!” She looked up from her dos equis  and
stretched her shoulders out, and her breasts were like all
muscle. She was almost 6 foot tall with small breasts but
very athletic. She was laughing, like a man does, that “huh
huh huh” laugh.
   She said, “You know I could break your f**kin neck
bitch?” and I said, “yes.” She started giggling like a
schoolgirl with a crush and said, “OK! Let’s do it!”
   We sat there for an hour getting it all together- she has
the outfit- it’s a showercap thing with ears, and white and
black bodypaint. BUT, I thought she was thinking she’d be
the dog! I don’t know how to wear a strapon! We’re going to
do it this weekend, and Jen will be helping me. I’m
terrified!
  Ill let you know how it goes. They say I might get to stop
taking the shots on Friday too. This whole bloodclot thing
is really frustrating.