How to deal with hemorrhoids: By Purplecat You probably think that's a dumb title, but this really is about how you can live with hemorrhoids. It's something you don't talk about with anyone, so how to deal with them is a big mystery. I'm talking about the kind that bleeds every time you have a bowel movement and it's a while before you can stop the bleeding. They also bleed when you exercise or do something a little strenuous. I've had them for about six years and believe me they're no fun. I wore Stayfree ultra thin pads almost daily because my panties would be stained with fecal matter and blood if I didn't. It was like they were draining or something. I mentioned it to my doctor about six months ago. I expected him to get excited, put me in the hospital and call in a surgeon, but he just smiled and acted like it was the most common thing in the world and everybody had them. He said there was nothing they could do except surgery, but he didn't recommend surgery. What really upset me was he didn't even want to look at my butt. I mean I have a pretty nice butt, at least that's what my husband says. This guy had the perfect opportunity to look at it bare and he didn't. That was worse than having hemorrhoids. Talk about tearing down a girl's self esteem. I didn't want to be cut on and I'd heard it was a very painful experience. I decided if it was no big deal I would just live with it. I hated it though and was scared to death that they would start bleeding when I was having sex. What a turn off that would be. In order for you to understand what I was going through, so you can compare it to your own experience, I'll tell you what my daily routine was. When I had my morning bowel movement there was always blood in the bowl, lots of blood. I was afraid to wipe hard so I cleaned myself by blotting. I used toilet paper to put pressure on my protruding anus until the bleeding stopped. Then I used a wash cloth and kept blotting until there were no more stains on the cloth. Then I put on my panties and a pad and went about my day. I never knew when they were going to bleed during the day and they often did and even with the pad, blood still got on my panties. Then it happened. I was putting pressure on after a bowel movement and since I was becoming a little frustrated with the whole thing, I pushed harder than normal. It felt like my anus turned inside out, or outside in, whatever! Suddenly I didn't have a protruding anus, it was back to normal and there was no more blood. Now I give my butt a good strong wipe and with another piece of toilet paper push my anus back where it belongs. Then I scrub my butt real good and forget about the pad. Now my panties stay so clean you could use them for a dinner napkin, except for the normal female stains. Mine gets stained pretty well when I'm writing one of my stories. I hope I have helped some of you. Please don't tell me that I'm the only person in the world that didn't know about this. Have a nice day and happy hemorrhoids. Purplecat