I am here by choice. You would never have forced me into the cupboard, you let me make the choice, knowing I would make the right choice. It`s also not a bad cupboard...it could be a lot worse. It`s an understairs cupboard and most of the space it taken up with my bed...but by the door there is just a square of concrete floor and a drain. You do let me out of the cupboard....we eat together once a day. You open the door....note that i say open and not unlock...i am here by choice and wouldn`t ever open the door becuase that would unmake my choice and then i would have to leave. You open the door and i shower and dress and we have dinner...we sit either end of the table and eat and converse and for all intents and purposes to the outside world we look like normal people, doing normal things. After supper, you always ask `do you want to go back?` and I always say yes. You shut the door of my cupboard and i lie and watch the shaft of light that comes through the hole until you go to bed and turn off the light. It`s strange, we`ve come a long way together...when i first met you a lot of what we did was about sex. Thats what i needed then. Now? I don`t need anything beyond to stay here becuase that pleases you. The hole in the door is my only source of light but it is also the only point of physical contact i have with my Master...so most of the day is spent carefully listening for the sound of your footsteps stopping by the door. The sound of a zip. The rustle of clothing. Initally i used to press myself against the door when i heard you there...to be close to you. The first time your cock appeared through the hole i took it into my mouth... and then you pissed copiously and i spent the rest of the day crouching smelling of your piss, unable to crawl back onto my bed. For days after that i avoided your cock in the hole.... and missed the times you ejaculated...precious spunk dripping into the drain... and those times i did cry. I didn`t understand why you wanted me to be here....i only knew i want to be here. sssssh....listen. you are outside the door now....zip...rustle...shuffle... and I`m staying on my bed....and now your cock and now your piss... as the stream lessens i can lean forward and take the last drops and lick you clean.... I don`t need to get soaked to play my part in you pissing. Its taken a long time..careful listening, trial and error to learn what you want from me. For weeks i stayed in here...at first the door was locked...at first i ate in here....at first i had to shit and piss into the drain. But then i began to learn. And eventually the door was left unlocked becuase you knew i`d stay. And more recently we have the pleasure of our time together outside the cupboard. Even more recently still is my realisation that my returning to the cupboard creates a feeling of contentment that far outweighs the shallow happiness of leaving it to eat and talk and shower.... becuase THAT is for me...for my sanity...to keep my body healthy... whereas the time in the cupboard is for you.... ssssh again...listen to the difference...you are standing slightly differently...zip...rustle....no shuffle of feet.... keep listening and ....if i listen hard i can here your breath alter.... this time you are masturbating. I go to the door and kneel....mouth open. And wait. Sometimes it only takes a couple of minutes....sometimes far longer... sometimes you put your cock away again and leave me here. But when your cock comes through the hole i know i have to be there....to catch your cum in my mouth. To hold it there...savour it and swallow it. I used to try and keep your cock in my mouth to pleasure you with my tongue but when i did that you kept your cock away from me.... and i missed it. longed for it. needed it. And so i have learnt...to lick clean...to catch and swallow and be good. They are the only thingsi need to be able to do well. What? Do i think you`ll ever let me go?... no...that choice again is mine. I can leave whenever i like. Or maybe one day you`ll just decide there is somewhere you`d rather i was...some other task to learn.... and then i`ll have to make a new choice.