From woody757@comcast.net Sat Oct  1 08:57:49 2005
Date: Sat, 1 Oct 2005 09:18:25 -0400
From: Mike and Frenchie <woody757@comcast.net>
To: admin@asstr.org
Subject: Mike Our Star Player III-1


 Date: Sun, 11 Sep 2005 14:27:17 -0400
From: Mike <woody757@comcast.net>
Subject: Mike Our Star Player III-I

Sorry for the delay that occurred due to my health problems as well as
having to retire Bagger and then be trained with a new guide dog named
Frenchie.  Now back to the story; if I am able I will try to get a
chapter out every week, if not then every other week.

From the last part:

The next thing I remember was being given a shot for the pain, and waking
up after the surgery to Mark calling me dad, and that made me feel better
even though I felt like shit.  After being discharged we headed back to
our condo and our beds especially since I do not think that Mark slept
too well in the chair in my room while at the hospital.

********************

Mike has asked to give his point of view about what happened during the
latter part of the previous school year, and the summer before football
practice along with school started up again.

Mike's POV:

My dad was really upset with me after Mr. Mike stopped dating him because
of my actions.  I continued to see Marie for counseling during the
summer, so that I wouldn't have to move in with my mother and
step-father, Claude Darr.  I was hoping that dad would allow me to attend
football camp like I had in previous years, but he informed me that both
Mark and Mr. Mike had to no longer be afraid of me before he would
consider it.  It was during this conversation with my dad in mid-June,
that I found out that Mark and Mr. Mike were going to go on vacation for
most of July, before Mr. Mike went to Florida in order to get his new
guide dog.

The two of them had put up defensive walls against me because they
thought that I had purposely thrown the rock at his previous guide dog,
Bagger.

I was really upset when Mark informed me that he was going to stay with
Marie, while Mr. Mike went to get his new guide dog, because he was still
afraid of me.  That was in early August and my boyfriend at one time, the
guy who I loved more than myself, was scared of me.  It did not seem to
help much that he always disappeared when I had sessions with Marie.

August was "HOT, HAZY and HUMID" with heat index temperatures getting
over 105 degrees, when football practice started at New Town High.  Dad
had decided to hold practices early in the morning and after 5PM at night
so that none of the players would get ill from the heat.  Just like when
I would go visit Marie, Mark still refused to speak to me, and it was
obvious the returning players knew the history between us.  So when dad
told the returning players to choose a captain, not captains as in the
previous seasons, they elected Mark the Team Captain with no votes for
me.  After he was elected Mark stated, "We have to let bygones-be-bygones
and play to win as a team".  Was he talking to me?  Did Mark want to get
back with me?

I found out that Mr. Mike was returning with a new black lab named
Frenchie, his new guide dog, and that he was considering retiring or
moving out of the district.

I asked dad if he thought that Mark wanted to become boyfriends again
especially since I was hurting something terrible with him not talking to
me except to say hello and see you at practice.   Dad was not sure where
Mark stood when it came to me, but he did inform me that Marie had been
talking with Mr. Mike during the summer, and she went to Florida to visit
with him on Saturday and Sunday afternoons while he was away.  She had
told dad that he wanted to possibly start dating again, but was still
uneasy being around me after what I did to his previous guide dog.

I asked Marie, "Could we possibly have a group session with your brother
(Mr. Mike), Mark, dad and I?"

I made the request in order to ask them if they would forgive me and let
me prove to them that I am no danger or threat to either of them. If they
would not then dad may as well contact my mother about my transferring to
the school near her home. She asked me more about why I made this
request, and said that it might be a good idea.

I decided to talk with dad telling him the reason why I had made the
request of Marie was because I want him to be happy, and he was the
happiest when he was dating Mr. Mike.  Yeah, you heard me right, I am
thinking of somebody else before myself for once.  If it means no longer
being able to live with dad so that he can re-start dating Mr. Mike, than
that is what has to happen. If Mark is still afraid to be around me,
except for when we are on the football field, than Mark will be better
off without me around totally.

I am suppose to have a talk with dad later tonight after he returns from
taking Mr. Mike out to dinner.  Hopefully dad can convince Mr. Mike not
to retire or request a transfer from the school as it would hurt dad as
well as the rest of the student body at New Town High.

While they are having dinner, I had a three-way phone conversation with
Mark and Marie (he was staying the weekend at her house), about my
feelings for Mark and wanted him back my life again.  I also told both of
them that unless Mr. Mike and Mark could forgive me for my past idiotic
actions, that I had told dad to transfer me to the school near mom and
step-dad.  I explained that I loved Mark, Dad and Mr. Mike so much that
if they did not feel comfortable around me than I would leave the three
of them, so that the three most important people in my life could live
happy lives without me even though it would kill me on the inside.

Just before the phone conversation ended Mark stated," Mike, I do love
you and could forgive you for what you did last year, but it's up to my
new dad on whether or not he and Marty continue to date".

I asked Mark, "What does your gut say to you about Mr. Mike forgiving me
and getting back with dad?"

Both Marie and Mark answered that question by saying that they are both
grown men, but that Mr. Mike still has safety issues with being around me
according to Marie.

Damn I have really screwed up big time I stated, and told both of them
that after I talked with dad either later that night or Saturday morning;
and found out if Mr. Mike would be willing to give me a second chance,
that I want to be sent to live with my mother and step-father so that he
does not have to leave New Town High or dad because of me.

I fell asleep before dad got home from his dinner date with Mr. Mike, so
our talk had to wait until breakfast on Saturday morning.

**** Once again I am sorry that it has taken me so long to start the new
part of Mike Our Star Player, but after having to retire my previous
guide dog Bagger, I went into a mild depression before I ended up having
gall bladder surgery in May.  I decided it was best to take the summer
off from writing, and on August 15th I got a new guide dog named Frenchie
--- she is a real cutie*******

TBC:  I think that the next part should be Mr. Mike and his sister
discussing why he is still gun shy around Mike