Note: This story was dynamically reformatted for online reading convenience. Title : Mother Fucker Author : MeatBot Keywords : Mom/Son Incest, Fm Date : 20150520 Mail : meatbot777 at gmail dot com This story : HTML - http://www.kristensboard.com/forums/index.php?topic=24983.0 text - /files/Authors/MeatBot/MotherFucker%20-%20Inc%20Fm.txt My other stories : HTML - http://www.kristensboard.com/forums/index.php?action=profile;u=26255 text - /files/Authors/MeatBot/ Synopsis : A teenaged boy realizes he is in love with his mother, and has to convince her to engage in a physical relationship. Disclaimer : Copyright by the author. Permission is granted to archive, repost, or publish in no-cost or low-cost archives, periodicals, anthologies of this type of material if unaltered and attributed to the author. This is a work of fiction. The author does not condone any sexual activity among persons under 16 in real life. These are just words, people. Just words. If you have a problem with words see a competent shrink or an English teacher. This story is all made up. Don't try this at home. This shit don't happen. It's just a story. --==+==- The whole thing started when Dale moved out. My mom and Dale had been together a long time, but finally she just had enough of his crap, and kicked his ass out. I was glad to see him go, he and I had never gotten along very well, we basically lived in the same house and ignored each other. I felt a lot of satisfaction to see him go, and I wanted him to know it, I wanted him to know I felt like I'd won, but I didn't say anything, and I stayed out of his way. I figured he'd feel like he didn't have anything to lose, now. I know he'd wanted to pound my ass for years, and I didn't want to have that as a going-away present. Anyway, by Sunday night all his shit was out of the house, and my mom was going to call first thing Monday morning and have the locks changed. I went to school nervous for her, I was afraid I'd come back home that afternoon and find him back, and everything like it was before. I was relieved to find him still gone, and her still resolute. I asked if he'd called, and she shook her head. Good, I thought. Good, and goodbye. That night I went and got a pizza and we ate in the living room, watching TV. She finally hit the mute and had a long rambling talk about what she hoped to accomplish with her life now that Dale was gone and stuff like that. She apologized to me a hundred times for letting him stay for so long and she got all weepy and finally I just held out my arms and she flew into them and I held her while she cried. "Well," she finally said, sitting back up. She looked at me and laughed sheepishly. I smiled. "Well, Rob... if I ever get into something that screwed up again, let me know... I'll listen to you, from now on..." I laughed. I knew it wasn't that easy. But I nodded. "I'll tell you, mom... but please... don't do anything for a while... until you get him totally out of your system..." "Yeah," she said, "I know. I will, don't worry, that's the last thing I want right now. I just want to feel free, now. I want to be myself again." We sat on the couch and I held her... she was nice and warm and smelled good... and now, she didn't belong to anyone. Anyone but me. I think, I really think... although it was probably already inside me, somewhere deep in my mind... but I really think that's when it all started. --==+==- I felt great, that first night, even though I cried on the couch with Rob for a while... I felt free, like a huge weight had been lifted from me. I don't think I realized how much Dale oppressed me, I guess I'd just gotten used to him, or something... but I felt like my life was starting all over again, now that he was gone. I couldn't have been happier, although, like I said, I did cry some. Well, that's understandable, the whole ordeal was pretty emotional, and of course Dale played the sympathy card to the hilt, all his usual crap. He was a master of emotional manipulation and I'm just now starting to see how much he played me. He couldn't do it with Rob for some reason, though, Rob seemed immune to his... powers. Maybe it only worked on girls, I don't know. Anyway, it was a relief to finally have him gone. I looked forward to sleeping alone for a while and getting to run my own life. As I lay in Rob's arms on the couch, I thought, I'm free, I'm finally free. Looking back, it seems like to me... I know this sounds crazy, but it seems like the whole thing between Rob and me started that night, that night that Dale left, that night that he held me in his arms. I know that's crazy, it'd have to be something much deeper than that... but that's the first time I noticed the... the attraction. --==+==- Life went on. Things were definitely better. My mom was her old self, she laughed now, at funny things, and at even not so funny things. I hoped that she could realize how much Dale had weighed her down and I think she did. She seemed to enjoy life more, much more. I was happy for her. Things weren't going that well between Celeste and me. We finally had a long talk and decided to just be apart for a while. I dunno what her real problem with me was, she could never really seem to get it across. Like my mom and Dale, it was a relief to finally walk away from her. I mean, we didn't say that's what we were doing, but I think we both knew it. It was over, what little of it there had been. I was actually relieved because I knew I wasn't making her happy. I didn't know what she wanted and I'm not sure if she did but it didn't seem to be me. --==+==- Rob didn't let me into his life very much when Dale was around. Plus, there was just that secretive nature of teenagers. I figured out he was on the outs with Celeste from a few things he'd said and I finally asked him. We had a nice talk and he told me he was through with her. Good, I thought, although I didn't say it out loud, what little I knew about her I could tell she was a jealous, manipulative little bitch. We women just know. I felt like he deserved better. I was glad she was gone. And I actually did think to myself, he needs somebody like me. Somebody that really cares about him. I could be like that, now that Dale wasn't smothering me. I had time for Rob, now. I tried to comfort him as best I could, and make him realize that Celeste had been a learning experience, a lesson, and the next time it would be better. It had to be. --==+==- My mom was pretty sympathetic about the whole Celeste thing, and I told her a lot more than I would have ordinarily. Well, more than I would have if Dale would have still been around. I felt much closer to her now that he was gone. I liked my mom, she was good to me, and she was young and hip and... I faced it... she was attractive. She had appeal. That night... I dared to first think it... she had sex appeal. She was foxy. Every bit as the girls I went to school with. I got a kind of thrill as I thought... yeah... I'd do that... It bothered me to think that about my mom, but it didn't bother me that much. As the days went by, the idea solidified in my head. I started watching her closer, looking for something to not like about her. There wasn't much. She gave me my space without being intrusive, but I still knew she cared about me. Hell, I gotta say... I knew she cared about me when Dale was here, the distance that was between us then was pretty much my doing. I guess I resented her liking him or something. Now I felt like... now I felt like she was all mine. I could tell I was more possessive of her than I'd been before. I realized that once when we went shopping and I kept noticing guys staring at her. I realized I was getting all pissed and it amused me. I was acting just like I'd acted with Celeste at the beginning. I wondered... was this the beginning again? I realized how much I hoped it was. Although... that idea is crazy... I mean, my mom? Crazy. That night I did something... pretty far out. And the effect it had on me was pretty far out, too. We'd gone to bed, and I was just laying there... thinking... I was slowly stroking myself, and thinking... something that I'd seen that evening occurred to me, again. I quietly got out of bed, put my shorts on, and crept down out to the garage, where the washer and dryer were. I was nervous to turn on the light, but if she caught me I figured I could say I was looking for some underwear or something. That was kinda true, anyway. There, on the floor, was the dirty clothes basket that was usually in the bathroom. I dug through it... and... pay dirt. I fled back to my room, my prize crumpled up in a small ball in my hand. In my room I examined them closely. Beautiful. A pair of her panties. With high expectations, I pressed them to my nose. Oh god... I cannot describe the rush... I am smelling her pussy, I told myself. I am that fucking close to it. It was heavenly. I turned on the light on my table, and I could see a white streak where I imagined her pussy would have been, and the tiniest hint of a brown mark where her fabulous asshole was. I felt a closeness to her that I'd never felt before, I felt absolutely intimate with her. It was beyond words, almost. I'd smelled pussy before... well, just Celeste's... I'd smelled her on my fingers, a few times... but this, for some reason, was incredible to me. Just knowing who's scent it was... it turned me on like nothing ever had before. I don't think even a pair of Celeste's panties from the start would have affected me so. I just lay there, breathing her wonderful odor in. I swear the panties were almost still damp... my cock was harder than I think it had ever been. I finally jerked off, her smell thick in my nostrils, and had an intense orgasm, way off the scale. I was so in love it hurt. --==+==- Life went on. After a few weaselly attempts to jerk me around Dale seemed to give up and move on. I think he somehow knew I was through with his crap. I changed the locks and finally got a new number and he seemed to be out of my life for good. It was nice just to sit around the house of an evening and do nothing. To not have anything expected of me. I read, and watched TV, stuff like that. I even got a little bored and that was a surprisingly new experience to me. Rob was a help, and we even played some board games and he showed me some games on the computer. Although, to me, board games were much funner. Rob seemed at loose ends too, now that he was done with Celeste. I don't think they'd seen each other that much, well, I think that she'd very carefully controlled their time together... but he seemed kind of aimless, at the moment. I understood, I felt that way, too. That Friday night, just for something to do, we went and saw a movie. And old fashioned movie, or as Rob called it, an analog movie. It was fun, just going out was fun, and afterwards we went and had some chili dogs, although I was afraid I would regret that, later. I didn't, it was worth it, and it was doubly fun to be doing things with him. I felt bad for all the time I'd missed out on, while Dale was pulling my strings. Rob has had it hard, I sometimes think, his dad has always and still totally ignores him, and then I take up with an ass like Dale. I promised myself again never to do that again. I liked our new closeness; I never wanted to lose it again. I knew he wouldn't be young much longer. I wanted to savor each little moment of his youth. I wanted to suck youth from him like a vampire. --==+==- That Friday night we went and saw a movie together, the movie was long and boring but I knew she was enjoying it, so it was okay. I was proud to walk around downtown with her on my arm, and I wondered if people might think we were a couple. I know that sounds crazy. She looked good in a knee-length skirt and white blouse, she looked very cute, and way younger than her thirty four years. It could happen, people, I thought. It could happen. Just so you know... it's not just me. My mom is beautiful, classically beautiful, as they say. Everywhere we go, even when I was a kid, I would notice men staring at her. And the brave ones would try and chat her up. When she was with Dale that didn't happen much, I think just the look on his face scared them off. And of course, she was with someone. I saw that happen, time and time again last Friday night. Not the chatting up part, but the men staring at her. She's a fox, no denying. She just damn good looking. And, of course, now that she's free of Dale, her personality shows through, and she's as good looking there as anywhere. She's just a nice person, through and through. --==+==- That night, when we got back to the house, we sat around on the couch, and tried to watch TV, but nothing was really on. I finally got up and poured myself a glass of wine. I halfway offered some to Rob, but he refused, so I felt a little prouder of myself for raising him right. He did mumble something about it tasting nasty. It's an acquired taste, I guess. I downed one glass, and poured myself a second. I'm not an alcoholic, but I do like my wine. Two glasses make me comfortably warm inside, but doesn't really get me drunk. It got later and later, and I thought, what the hell, and had a third. I woke up with a start, and looked around. I was laying on the couch, my head in Rob's lap. He was sound asleep, his whole body curved down towards me. I thought, what the heck, and just closed my eyes again. In the morning I woke up as he was stirring around, and we both finally sat up, giggling at ourselves. I still felt kind of woozy, and I stumbled into my bathroom, and took a long hot shower. I went to the kitchen and made us some breakfast, and before long he came in, and we ate. The day passed, and soon it was night, again. We played more games, and finally we ended up on the couch again. This time his head was finally in my lap, and soon he was asleep. He tossed at turned, and although I didn't really want to spend another night on the couch, I figured I'd give him some time, at least. Finally he was turned facing me, his face literally pressed into my lap. I stroked his hair, and finally, about midnight, I woke him up and sent him to bed. --==+==- Saturday night was cool, and fun. We played games, and watched TV. Well, she watched TV, and I watched her. I was feeling a stronger and stronger attraction to her, I'm still not sure why... maybe just coming off the Celeste thing, I dunno... but it made me happy just to be with her. My mom had gotten a little tipsy Friday night when she drank that wine, and she seemed to be a lot more free with herself. I wish she'd do that more often. It was sexy to me to sleep with her on the couch, I told myself later, I slept with my mom. Yeah. Sorry if that sounds dumb. It was cool, though. Saturday night we did about the same thing, but this time my head was in her lap. I pretended to be asleep, and I wrestled around a little until I was facing her, and I put my face right into her crotch and breathed her scent in until I thought my lungs would pop. I smelled, I could literally smell, the fainted hint of her pussy, I thought. I remembered the smell from her panties, and there it was again. I was turned on beyond all possible belief, laying there, thinking I am smelling her pussy. From the source. Not just a pair of old panties, from the source. It turned me on like nothing else had, and when she finally woke me up I pretended to wake up, and then I had to wait until she got up and re-arranged my hard dick so I could get up. I jacked off that night, thinking, shit, I smelled her pussy, I smelled her fucking pussy. --==+==- The first hint that I had that Rob was seeing me... sexually... came one day when he was at practice after school, and I did laundry. I took a fresh change of bedclothes up to his room, and yanked the old sheets off. When I pulled the sheets from inbetween his mattress, something fell out, and I bent down and picked them up. It was, of all things, a pair of my panties. At first I thought maybe they were Celeste's, but when I looked closely at them, I was sure they were mine. They were my size, at least. My butt's not that big, but I'm sure it's bigger than little miss priss's. And... they were not clean panties. I was embarrassed to notice some white streaks in them... and worst of all a little brown stain. Shit, I thought, and I don't cuss very often. I wondered for a moment how a pair of my panties got inbetween his mattress, then I confronted the obvious. He had put them there. Shit again. What did this mean? Was he simply turned on by them? Did the fact that they were mine have anything to do with it? Were they just available? I shook my head. This bore some serious thought. I carefully replaced them, and then, after some thought, made his bed back with the old bedclothes. I placed the fresh linen on his bed when I was done. I didn't want him to know at all that I'd found the panties. I didn't want to embarrass him. I thought about that all day, all week, in fact. I wondered again and again what those panties symbolized to him. Did they just mean... pardon my french... pussy to him? I knew that to guys it doesn't always matter who... did it matter to him? Was it just about a pussy smell to him, or was it about me? And... and I must admit this thought caused me a little titillation... what exactly did he do with them? Did he smell them? Did he rub himself with them? I hadn't seen any stains on them... that I probably hadn't put there... He's a teenage boy, I told myself... of course he... masturbates. It's just what boys do. I had two brothers, I actually know quite a bit about boys and their masturbatory habits. I used to watch my brothers out my bedroom window as they played with their little weenies, in the back yard. I'd even seen them let our dog lick them, at times. I remembered the spray of white liquid that came at the end of those sessions. It had taken me a long time to understand what I'd seen, all those years ago. Those were actually old familiar memories now, not even disgusting anymore. It was funny, almost. I wondered, again and again, what Rob thought of when he masturbated. Masturbated, jacked off, jerked off, whatever. I wondered if it was me, time and time again. I had to admit, against my better judgment... it turned me on a little, to think it might be me. I know I'm still in good shape. I know I'm... whisper it... sexy. I like being like that. It's just how I am. Dale suppressed that, to a great extent, wanting all that for just himself. I feel like, now, I'm coming out of my shell. I'm getting back to being me. And the real me is... face it... kinda sexy. How was that affecting my teenage son? I wondered. I wondered if I should stifle myself. Well, maybe not, but I sure shouldn't rub his face in it. That wouldn't be fair to him, or me. --==+==- I don't remember what night it was, I think Thursday... it had been a long boring week. We were just laying around, my mom and I... we had just made a run to the Burger Shack, and got some hamburgers and fries. We ate, sitting on the couch, and we were goofing around. I wrestled her down, and tickled her, loving the feeling of her soft body beneath my hands. I wondered if she'd ever know how much I loved her, how much she turned me on. Probably not, I just felt like I didn't have the nerve. I felt like it would screw our relationship up totally. Those things just never worked out. But I wanted to tell her more than anything in the world. We ended up with her on the floor, and me dragging her by one foot across the rug. Our hamburgers had toothpicks in them when we got home, and at some point she'd dropped hers on the floor. I know it wasn't mine because I'd already used mine for a toothpick. Hers had gone on the floor. I dragged her across it, and it poked her, hard, in the butt. I could tell by the look on her face that something was wrong, and she put her hand back there, and when she withdrew it there was blood on it. "Something poked me," she said, "and I think it's still in me." She touched it again, and got more blood. About that time I noticed half the toothpick, on the floor. "I bet it was that," I said. "The other half is probably still in you." "Oh, poop," she said, holding her hand on her butt. "Let me look at it," I said, concerned for her, but also hopeful. "Rob... it's my... bottom..." she said, acting embarrassed. "Mom... you might have a toothpick in you... let me look, at least. Here, sit across my lap." I sat down on the couch, my knees out. I indicated for her to lay down. She seemed reticent. "Rob... let's just go to the... minor emergency place... they'll know what to do..." "Mom, let me look. It might be nothing, or it might be serious. But let me look first. We're both adults..." Yes, I thought, we're both adults, but it's a foxy female ass I might get to see. I'll stress again, that, yes, I was concerned for her. I knew she was still hurting. She finally slowly lay across my knees, her body halfway on the couch. I looked down at her beautiful ass. She was wearing a pair of loose white shorts, and they were already streaked with blood. I lifted the leghole where the stain was, and immediately saw it. It had stuck right through her shorts, and into her left buttock. I could literally see it, beneath the skin. I felt bad about the whole thing, I felt like it was my fault, since I had dragged her. "Mom," I said. "It's still in you. A little is sticking out, and I could probably get it with the tweezers, if you're tough enough. Or, we can go to the clinic." She carefully got up. I knew she was hurting, just from the way she moved. "Well," she finally said. "Whatever you think. If you're willing I'm willing." Hell yeah, I thought, I'm willing. If I get to see your ass, I'm willing. I went to the little bathroom in the hall, and dampened a washrag, and found a good pair of tweezers. When I returned, she was still standing by the couch, and seemed kind of indecisive. "It's up to you," I said. "I'll be glad to try, but I don't want to hurt you further. I'll get the car if you wish to go." "Well," she said again. "I don't really want to have to sit on it. Let's try, at least..." "Okay," I said, and sat, again. She started to lay down across me, but I stopped her. "Mom," I said. "Your shorts... drop them, at least." She did stop, at that. "Rob..." she finally said, "Are you sure..." "Mom, it's up to you. But it will be pretty difficult, if you don't. And you'll still have undies on." I wondered right then if she was wearing underwear. That thought did turn me on, and I felt something stirring in my pants. Oh shit, I thought, and I'm fixing to have her lay in my lap. "I guess..." she said distantly, and I saw her slide the shorts down her leg and step out of them. She was wearing panties, of course, sexy pink panties... damn, I thought, as she turned and steadied herself against my shoulder... those panties are damn near a thong... getting to the toothpick would be no problem, in those... My dick was really getting hard, now, seeing my mom in a thong. Damn. She finally got all situated on my lap, and I took the washrag and carefully wiped all around the wound. I'm washing my mom's butt, I told myself, in case I hadn't got the message. But my dick told me I'd gotten it. I carefully placed my hands on her ass, getting the tweezers ready. It was enough, just to touch her there. It was more than enough. Enough of the toothpick was sticking out that I was able to easily grab it with the tweezers and pull it out. She yelped, and I apologized, and she apologized for making me apologize. I just sat there, and held the washrag on the little hole in her ass, trying to get the bleeding to stop. We talked, about inconsequential things. I tried and tried to see if I could tell where her asshole was, but the panties weren't that transparent. Damn. I checked the wound. Still bleeding a bit. Well, just have to sit here a while longer, and hold a washrag on my mom's ass. I wondered if she could feel my erection, it didn't feel like it was pressing against her... that much... in a way, I wanted her to feel it, a little at least. I wanted her to know I was human, or something. All that crap I said earlier, about not wanting to screw up our relationship, I still felt that, but in a way, I wanted her to at least know she turned me on a little. At least a little. --==+==- That whole toothpick thing was embarrassing. And, it hurt like heck. And what I'd said earlier, about not wanting to rub his face in it... a day later, I'm across his knees, with my butt right in his face. And on a day I'd picked, for some crazy reason, to wear a thong. Jeezus. I was glad he got the toothpick out, I would hate to have some doctor at a clinic have to do that... and then I thought, yeah, it's much better that your hyper-hormonal teenage son put his hands on your bottom that some middle-aged stranger. Doofus. I had been intensely aware of his fingers on me, on my bare bottom... and then, of all things, I was aware of something poking me, on my side... down there... oh my gawd, I thought, he's having an erection. Jeezus again. It was almost too much, and I almost started laughing. Funny how things work out. I just lay there, perched atop his erection, while he held a washrag on my bleeding bottom. What a day. --==+==- Getting to see ninety percent of my mom's ass was just about too much for me. She had a perfect ass, you'd never believe it was thirty-four years old if you saw it. It was tight and firm and didn't have a wrinkle or a bit of cellulite on it. I know it was firm because I pressed my hands into it, when I got the splinter out. I leaned way down to look, like I needed to get that close, and breathed in her scent again, just in love. I swear I could almost smell her asshole, a sweaty smell with a hint of shit, and it turned me on so much I almost came, right there. I know my dick was harder than steel, and I wondered then, and wonder now, if she felt it poking into her. I don't think it poked that much, the way she was laying, but I could feel her a little, on the end of it. I wanted her to feel it, in a way, like I said, I wanted her to know she turned me on. Anyway, I finally put a cotton ball and a band-aid on it, and she lay on the couch for a while, on her stomach with her head in my lap. She still had her shorts off, and as she watched TV I watched her fabulous ass, barely an arm's distance away. I was surprised she hadn't put her shorts back on, but pleased. Nothing could please me more. Well, maybe getting to sink my fingers or face into it... --==+==- I probably should have put my shorts back on, but for several reasons, I didn't. I wanted the bleeding to stop, and he'd have to check it before I went to bed. And, the worst reason... I knew I was exciting him, and, crazy as it sounds, I wanted to give him that. I wanted to make him happy. If he wanted to look, he could look. I knew that was as far as we could go, but I didn't fault him for that. I know that's evil, or wicked or whatever, but I wanted to give him a little pleasure. I just never dreamed where it would lead to. Not at that stage. --==+==- When I finally went to bed that night, all I could think of was my mom's beautiful ass. And how much I wanted to squeeze it and kiss it and lick it. I was consumed with it. I wasted no time getting my dick out, and pumping away as I thought and dreamed of her. I hoped to get to see it again tomorrow, when I checked the wound. She'd had me check it before we went to bed, and although I'd spent the last two hours staring at her nearly-bare ass, I still loved it. I replaced the band-aid, and we went to bed. Where I tossed and turned and jerked off and almost violently ejaculated, thinking of her, wondering if she knew what I was doing. How could I not? How could she not know? I'm a guy. It's just what we do. --==+==- The next day was a little more laid back. Before I went to work I let Rob check my butt, and this time I wore a respectable pair of panties. It still felt weird to feel him lift them up and peer beneath them, and change the band-aid. I wondered what he'd done last night after he went to bed, after he stared at my butt all evening... I could see him sometimes out of the corner of my eye, and I knew he stared at it. And hell, why not, I know I have a cute one. I know I should feel bad about thinking like this, but it just seemed... kinda... I don't know, kind of natural. I knew he loved me, and I loved him. I wonder now if it was fall-out from the Dale thing... a rebound, or something. I don't know. Looking back, it just seems like a progression of events that pressed us together... although I know that some of them he made happen, and, I have to admit... some I made or let happen. I should feel way worse than I do... --==+==- The next week passed normally, nothing really outstanding happened, school sucked, and Celeste ignored me, which suited me just fine. My mom's ass healed nicely, and didn't scar. Finally, it was Friday night. She went out to eat with some ladies that she worked with, and I cruised the strip with Randy Worthington and his sister. His sister likes me, but she's a big old ugly thing, I should feel bad for saying that, but I can't imagine kissing her. Or anything. I finally had them drop me by the house, and my Mom was home. We talked a bit, and finally settled in front of the TV. It was still pretty early in the evening, at least. I felt like anything could happen. My mom finally got up and poured herself a glass of wine, and that pleased me. I liked the way she got loose and clingy when she drank. I was pleased, when less than an hour later, she had another. When she started on her third, I thought, cool, maybe I'll get somewhere, tonight. I know I should feel bad for thinking like that, but I don't. Just to lay on the couch with her and hold her would be enough. I knew I'd probably get that, at least. --==+==- I know I had too much to drink that night. I know I gotta watch that. I guzzled almost a whole bottle of wine, and it really loosened me up. Too loose, probably. The next thing I remember, I was laying in Rob's lap, as he held me and whispered silly things in my ear. "Rob..." I finally said. I almost had no idea what I was saying, but I felt the urge to talk. The urge to get some things straight between us. "Yes, mom..." he said, his hands around my shoulders. I finally sat up. He tried to pull me into his lap, but I resisted. I felt more and more like I just had to talk to him. "Honey..." I started, not really even knowing where I was going with all this. "Rob, honey... you are my life, and I feel like I almost lost you, and now I've got you back... I love you dearly, more than anything... I don't ever want to go back, to the way... the way it was when Dale was here." "I know, mom..." he said, getting serious. "I feel the same way..." "Honey, I'm just trying to say, you're young, you've got your whole life in front of you... you need to go out, and find somebody, somebody who loves you for what you are, for what you can be..." I didn't feel like I was getting across what I wanted to say. I wanted to tell him not to fixate on me, but I was a little nervous... what if this wasn't about me, at all? What if I was just imagining it? I didn't want to embarrass him. "Mom..." he said slowly, staring right into my face. "Mom. I love you more than life. You are all I need, all I'll ever need. I just want to stay here with you." "Oh, darling..." I felt myself starting to choke up. I realized then that it was all about me, from what he said. "Rob, honey. Don't make me the focus of your life. You're just starting out... don't waste it on me... I'm an old lady now..." "No, no you're not. You're perfect. You're perfect, and I love you," he simply said, and, to my shock, leaned in and kissed me, right on the lips. I let him kiss me, I was kind of shocked, although there's nothing wrong with letting your kid kiss you. This kiss, though, just felt different, and went on a long time longer than it probably should have. Finally I pulled away from him. I could feel his hot breath in my face. My heart was pounding a million times a minute. And... I have to admit... I felt a tingle... from... down there. Dang it, I thought, not now. Don't start that stuff now. There was no denying it. I forced myself to face it. My son was sexually exciting me. His hand was on my bare leg, and it almost burned, it was so hot. I was hot, both physically... and mentally. Emotionally. I was burning up. I didn't know what to do, so I started doing what I usually do when I don't know what to do. I started crying. "Oh, mom," he said, and I swear he was almost crying too. He grabbed me and pulled me over to him, and crushed my body against his. I was almost horrified at how right it felt. What is happening to us? I had time to think. He put his head beside mine, his chin on my shoulder, and just held me. It felt good. It felt, like I said... right. It felt right. I let him hold me. His arms felt strong and I felt safe in them. Let this go on, I thought, let this go on forever. I'm happy here. I'm safe here. Let this go on. "Mom..." he was almost whispering, his mouth in my ear. His breath felt good on my ear, good and hot. It felt sexy. Stop that, I thought, stop thinking like that. He's your kid. Stop it. I couldn't, though. I just melted in his arms. He continued to whisper. "Mom," he said. "We love each other. We are all we have. We are all we need. Whatever we do for love is right, is good. There's nothing bad about love, nothing wrong. How could there be? Doesn't this feel right?" He paused, and I hiccuped, not sure what to say. I felt like I knew where he was going with this, but I was powerless to stop him. "Mom..." he finally said. "Let me love you. Let's do the right thing, let's do what we both want. Let me love you." He pulled his face back, and kissed me again. This time, for reasons I'm still not sure of, I didn't pull back. He was right, I thought, this is right. Well, it's not right... but it was what we both wanted... I had to admit it to myself. I wanted it more than anything in the world. I knew it wasn't right, I knew I was breaking every law and convention in the world... but, god... I wanted it. His lips felt soft against mine, and I tasted him, I tasted his saliva in my mouth... he tasted good, I could even taste a hint of toothpaste. I don't remember enjoying a kiss so much since I was a teenager. That thought brought me back. A teenager. I was kissing a teenager. My son, in fact. I slammed my head backwards, and stumbled off his lap to my feet. I was crying, again. I looked down at him. He looked crestfallen, or something, like he was disappointed. I knew he was. I knew he wanted more, I felt it. "I'm sorry, Rob..." I mumbled, tears in my voice. "I'm sorry, honey..." I staggered out the door and to my room, and threw myself on my bed. I was sorry. I didn't know what I was sorry for, for what we did, what I allowed, or for ending it. I just laid there, in confusion, and cried. I heard him enter the room, and felt him sit on the side of the bed. I snuffled and sniffed, and finally raised up. I just looked at him, and melted again. Before I knew it I was in his arms, and he held me as I cried some more. "Mom..." he said. I sighed, and waited. I almost felt like I knew what he was going to say. What did I do, I thought to myself, to get him in this condition? Had I led him along? Was this my fault? I didn't feel fair in blaming him for it, he was just a kid. How had this started? "Mom," he said, "please. You didn't do anything wrong. Please don't cry..." I looked up at him, helpless. "Rob..." I finally said, "I know what you want... and I have to admit, I want it, too... I know it's wrong, and you know it's wrong... we just can't, honey... it has to end here... I've already let it get out of hand, and I'm sorry..." "Mom," he interrupted, "don't. Don't say that, and don't feel that. It was beautiful, you have to admit. You feel it, too. I know you do. Don't worry about what society thinks is right or wrong... trust your feelings. Trust me." I sighed, and cried some more. Once again, it felt good to just lay there in his lap and let him hold me. I tried to think about what he was saying. I knew he was just saying it because he wanted me. That didn't make it right. But I felt for him. I wanted to make him happy. But I couldn't... I just couldn't. I knew what was right, and what was wrong. We talked, into the night. I tried to make him understand, and I think he did understand, but I think he just wanted what he wanted even more. He tried make me come around to his point of view, and he was very persuasive. I felt, more and more, an attraction to what he was saying. To just give up, and drown myself in his love. I hate to admit it, but I have to admit it. The attraction was strong. I kept looking at him and thinking, what are you doing, what are you thinking... this is your son... this child came from your body... are you insane? He was finally silent, and I just lay there in his lap, exhausted. --==+==- She finally went to sleep, laying there on my lap. She'd stopped crying, at least, and I felt like she was listening to me, to my arguments. I almost felt a little hope that I was winning her over, but I knew how strong a lifetime of conditioning was, at the same time. It felt good just to sit there on her bed and hold her, she was soft and warm and smelled good. I wanted to lay her down, and lay beside her, but I knew she'd wake up if I tried that. At least she knows, I thought, at least she knows how I feel about her now. And she took it better than I thought she would. --==+==- I woke up. I was still laying on him, my upper body in his lap, my head on his leg. He was patiently waiting for me to wake up, I guess, or for morning to get here. I raised up, and looked at the clock. Jesus, it was almost three. I woozily sat up, and looked over at Rob. He stared back, solemn, solid as ever. I felt a burst of love for him that dwarfed everything so far. I felt like I realized how much he loved me. I could almost feel it as a physical thing, from him. I sighed. Nothing was going to be easy, from here on. "Mom," he said, and I raised an eyebrow at him. "Mom, just lay down and go to sleep. It's three AM." he said, and he stood beside my bed. I scooted up to my sleeping position, and put my legs beneath the blanket. He sat again, on the side of my bed, and put his arm on my waist. I searched my mind for something to say, something profound, something to make all the confusion go away, and put us back in a normal mother son relationship. My mind was totally blank, though. He spoke before I could gather my thoughts. "Mom. You know how I feel. I love you. If you don't say another word about this in the morning, I'll never bring it up again. Things will be the way they were. It's all up to you, as it should be. Just never forget how much I love you. Promise?" I was silent for a moment, mulling over what he'd said. Over his offer, basically. I respected him for offering, although I knew that probably we could never really go back to things the way they were before. This incident would flavor our relationship from now on, for better or worse. You can never go back, as they say. But I believed him. He'd try. I knew he'd still want me, and I'd still want him. But we'd try. That's how it had to be. I motioned him to me. He leaned in, close to my face. I pulled at his body, and he crawled up onto my bed, laying beside me. I pushed against his shoulder, and he finally figured out what I wanted, and laid back against me, his back against my stomach, spoon-fashion. I wanted, for some crazy reason, to give him some of that intimacy he seemed to crave, before I pushed him away forever. Just tonight, I thought. Just what's left of tonight. I leaned my head up over his head, and whispered in his ear. "Rob, honey... thank you... thanks for seeing how it just has to be. Darling... I'm so sorry... no one is sorrier than I am... but it just has to be like this. We just can't, honey..." I felt him nod. I hoped he understood. I hoped I wasn't mixing him up by holding him, one last time. I clasped him to me, and tears began to drip from beneath my eyelids. I kissed his ear, and lay my head down behind his. --==+==- Even though I felt like she was telling me no, it was sexier than hell to lay in my mom's bed and have her hold me, just like I was a little baby. I wondered if this was the last time, the only time, we'd do this. It was almost enough, although I kind of wished we were reversed, and I was holding her. But, it was enough, for now. It seemed like she was going to ask me to do what I'd said, go back to simply being her son. I'd try, if that's what she really wanted. But always, deep down inside, I'd love her, as much as I did, right now. I'll do what she wants, if that's what she wants. We'll go back to just being mother and son. It'll be hard, and I'll always probably love her just a little more than I should, but I'll do it for her. I guess I have no choice. I sighed and closed my eyes, and let her hold me. --==+==- I was suddenly awake, and took a look at the clock on my dresser. It was almost five. The sun should be coming up, here in a bit. Rob slept beside me, his breathing steady and even. I touched his arm, and it was cold. I pulled as much of the blanket up over him as I could, and nodded off again. I got up long before he did, and showered and changed into some fresh clothes. I fixed a nice breakfast, and he stumbled in, at last, and we ate. I went shopping later with Cindy, and I'm not sure what he did the rest of the day. We caught up again that night, and I cooked a pizza and we settled in front of the TV, like we usually did. He seemed true to his word. He didn't hang over me, or moon over me. It seemed like old times. And, weirdly, by the end of the evening, I realized that it was just not enough. It's me, I told myself. It's really me, doing this. Feeling this. I longed to feel his arms around me, again, like he had done last night. I longed to hear his steady breathing, in the still of the night, and feel his warmth next to me. Except this time, I wanted him under the blanket. Under the blanket, with me. I forced myself to stop, and be objective. What could come of this? I asked myself. Nothing good, myself answered. Things like this aren't done, and aren't done for a good reason. Maybe we just never hear about the times it works, my mind said. Maybe we just hear about the bad ones. Maybe it works, hundreds of times. Thousands. Maybe it is love, true love, not just familial love. Maybe we were meant for each other. Considering how I feel about him, hell, it's more than maybe. Awww, my subconscious piped up, you're just rebounding from stupid-ass Dale. This is just a little puppy-love thing. A year from now you'll both laugh about this, and have girlfriends and boyfriends of your own. Parents don't fall in love with their children. They're already in love with their children, but a different kind of love. Shit no, said my pussy, I'm wet. He makes me wet. Thinking about him makes me wet. See? Shut up, said my subconscious, who asked you, you stupid cunt. Fuck you! said my pussy, bristling. I stopped the conversation. It was stupid, and proved nothing. Maybe sometimes these things did work out. Could I be so lucky? Could I finally have found the love I'd spent my whole life searching for? Could I be enough for him? What would the future hold, when I was an old lady and he a middle-aged man, with the needs and desires of a man? Would this just be a spring fling, if I went ahead and flung it? Too many questions, I thought. I moved two feet over on the couch, and reached for him, and leaned him down into my lap. He lay easily. I put my hand on his neck, and stroked his head. This head, I thought, this head, at one time, came into the world through my vagina. I made him, inside my body. He came from me. He was part of me, for a while, until the cord was cut. He doesn't remember it, but he's already seen my pussy. From the inside, no less. I realized, with almost horror, that I was anticipating showing it to him again. The thought had occurred to me, without realizing the ramifications, that I needed to shave again, so I wouldn't be... prickly for him. I realized that something had happened, without my knowledge or involving me in the decision making process. I was preparing myself to have sex with him. With my son. With my own flesh and blood. I knew that's what he wanted, deep inside. I felt it from him. I felt his lust for me, and I hungered for it. I had some of my own, for him. How had it gone this far, this fast? I asked myself. What the holy goddam fuck is wrong with you, girl? All that blasted through my mind in just a few moments. I realized my mind was made up, for better or worse. I wanted what he wanted, and I wanted most of all to make him happy. To give him what he wanted. "Rob," I leaned down and whispered directly into his ear. I knew from experience that felt sexy, when somebody did that. It always make chills go up my spine. "What..." he whispered back, and I could hear the puzzlement in his voice. "Robert," I said, starting again. He sat up, seeming to know that something momentous was happening. "First," I said, "you must always remember that I love you more than life, than anything or anybody in the world. You. Only you. You are all I have. I cannot afford to lose you. Not over something as silly as... us making love, or something of that nature." He nodded, still seeming puzzled. "If..." I said, "if we do... allow our feeling for each other to run full course, you must promise me, promise me your most sacred strongest promise never to let it get out of hand. Never let it get to the point of regret. If we feel that starting, we have to pull back. We have to. We cannot risk damage to our relationship." He nodded somberly. I think he was starting to see where I was going. "The odds are against us. We'll have to try, really hard, if we choose this path, Rob. We'll have to fight everything from human nature to mental conditioning that we don't even know we have. Please, please... please make it worth the fight, if you choose this path." I stopped, and stared him right in the face. He stared back, an understandably serious look on his face. "Rob," I said, "I'm going to bed. Sit in here at least an hour, and think about what I said. Think about it harder than you've ever thought about anything in your life. This is almost an all-or-nothing thing... I mean, I think we could recover, if things didn't work out, but it'll be harder than hell. Consider the risks, is all I ask. When you decide, either go on to bed, or come to me. If you go to bed, we'll never speak of this again, and I'll move heaven and earth to continue on just as we were, before this. If you come to me, I'll... I'll... we'll just see what happens. Just remember most of all that I love you, you are the most precious thing in my life. I will die for you. I love you." I finally shut up, I felt like I'd started rambling. I leaned forward, and kissed him, and I thought, maybe this is the last kiss. I held it longer than I should have, and felt his lips moving beneath mine. I finally broke it off and stood, and left the room, never looking back. --==+==- I felt like I understood her completely. I admired her and loved her all the more for what she'd said. I already knew what I was going to do, of course. My mind had been made up, long ago. It was just a matter of getting her around to my point of view. I knew she was right, that we were risking damage to our relationship, but I felt like the rightness of what we wanted was stronger than that. I felt like it was simply meant to happen, and I was glad that she was seeing it that way, now. What will happen, I thought, later? When I'm say, thirty, she'll be what, forty eight? Will she be enough for me, then? Will she still be sexy? Will it matter, after that much time? Is this just a fling? I wanted it to be more than that, I wanted it to be forever. I didn't care. I just wanted her. Something inside me wanted her more than life, even. I could survive without her, I knew. I just didn't want to. I'll give her that hour, I thought, and then I'll climb in her bed. I won't press her, though, this, the first night. I'll just hold her. That's what I want most of all, anyway. Just to hold her, and feel her next to me. To know she's thinking of me, as much as I'm thinking of her. I heard her in the main bathroom, brushing her teeth. Shit, I thought, remember to do that yourself. I looked at the clock. Just an hour to go. --==+==- I knew good and well his mind was already made up. As made up as mine was. I felt happy, almost giddy. My subconscious was blessedly silent, the little bastard. I went into my bedroom, leaving the door half open. I languidly stripped my shorts and shirt off, and after a moment of thought, my bra and panties. I stood for a moment, naked, and ran my hands down my body. I still felt firm and tight, even as over-critical as I am about myself. I knew I looked good. I knew I was sexy. Not bad, I thought, for middle age. Not fucking bad. I crawled in bed, still naked. It excited me to think of what he'd think, when he came. I knew he'd come. There was no doubt in my mind. I'd given him a choice, though, like I should have, and I think I'd honestly tried to present both sides. To at least make him stop and think. Maybe, maybe not. I think by now I wanted it as much as he did. I took a deep breath and relaxed. I knew there was no way I'd go to sleep before he arrived. I looked at the clock. Fifty five minutes to go. --==+==- I was a little torn over what to wear. What is the proper attire for climbing into one's mother's bed? I finally decided to sleep with her as I slept normally, naked. That took some nerve, but I did it. I made it to fifty minutes, and stood, turning off the TV. I dropped my pants and shorts, and took off my shirt. Oddly, my dick wasn't hard, though it had been as I sat and thought about what was possibly going to happen. Like I said, not the first night. I wouldn't push her the first night. If this was for real, there'd be plenty of time for that, later. --==+==- I came to with a start. Something had made a tiny noise. I knew what it was. I whipped the bedclothes back, and he climbed in beside me. I could barely see him, in the dim light from the hall... and damn... he looked naked, even. I admired his courage. I pulled him to me, and felt his naked skin rub against mine. Sweet jeezus, I was turned on. I never felt it that strong, not even when I was a teenager, losing my cherry in the back seat of a car. I was almost crazy. I pulled him against me, and smashed my mouth to his. I tasted toothpaste, and giggled, and he giggled back. My tongue touched his, and fuck... it was sexy. --==+==- All that shit I said about not tonight... shit... she was on me like a tiger when I crawled into her bed. I had thought of a half-dozen things to say, to explain myself to her, to tell her how much I loved her and was going to love her... but I didn't have a chance. Our mouths were glued together, and her hands were all over me. I grabbed her waist, and pulled her against me, and fuck... she was naked, too. My dick just exploded, I almost thought it was asleep until that moment, but it was hard in two heartbeats, and damn... damn she felt good against me. I dropped my hands and seized her beautiful ass, burying my fingers in it, running my hands into her sweaty asscrack, loving the hot wet feeling of it. Goddam but she has a sexy ass, and I knew now my dream of having it on my face was almost a reality. My cock rubbed against her belly, leaving a trail of pre-cum. I was fucking turned on, major. --==+==- I have no idea what came over me when Rob climbed into my bed, except for simple animal lust. I felt like it was my first time. All those other times didn't count. Those other times were simply having sex. Those times with Dale? That was simply having sex, being his sperm receptacle. This time, now, I was going to make love. I was going to be made love to. It was going to be done right. I felt his hands in my butt-crack, and I growled in his mouth. I bit his tongue, and heard him snort. I scratched my way down his back, and grabbed his ass, and gave him some back. I even touched his asshole, causing him to snort again. I laughed in his mouth, and poked my finger into him a little. He did jump then, and I really laughed. He moved down, and I felt his mouth on my nipple, and shit, did that ever turn me on. I wrapped my arms around his back, and pulled his face into my chest. His mouth was hot and wet on my hard tit. --==+==- She was just fucking crazy, there's no other way to describe it. She was going nuts, and I was just about as crazy. We just attacked each other, basically. Our legs were tangling together, crossing and uncrossing, and I smashed my waist into her crotch as I sucked her fabulous tit. Her tits were incredible, I hadn't seen them yet, it was too dark in the room, but I could feel her huge fat puffy nipple in my mouth, and I almost shot my wad then and there. How, I thought, how am I ever going to keep from cumming when I push into her sweet cunt? I'm not sure I can even make it that far. Jeezus. I was turned on. Celeste had never had this effect on me, I was a proper gentleman with her. I'd rubbed her pussy and felt her boobs, but she'd just sat there, like she was tolerating me. Nothing like this. My mom was eating me alive, almost. She was blowing my mind, I could tell how bad she wanted it, how bad she wanted me. She was so aggressive she almost scared me. I wondered how long she'd held this in. I'm sure Dale didn't satisfy her, he was a selfish bastard, he probably only cared about his pleasure. I promised myself to give her more that I took, to make this something special for her. If I could, shit, this is my first time. I just hoped I could get inside her before I shot off. --==+==- I wanted him, bad. I was hungry for him. I wanted, right then, dammit, to feel his cock inside me. In my pussy, my cunt. I rolled around and wiggled and pulled him back up, away from my breasts. I was finally laying on my back, with him on top of me. I grabbed his head, and whispered in his ear, "Rob, honey... fuck me... fuck me now!" I don't know if he was shocked at my language, but I was. What have I become, I had time to think, but then the sensations blasting through my mind blew it away. His hard cock scraped across my pussy, literally rubbing my clit, and I almost came, I was so turned on. I reached down and grabbed his cock with my hand, and tried to guide it into my cunt. "Move up a little, honey," I said, and he did, and finally I felt the head of his cock inbetween my pussy lips. "Mom..." he said, "I'm still... a virgin..." "Not anymore," I grunted, grabbing him by his ass cheeks, and pulling him into me. I was wetter than shit, and his cock slid into me like a piston. Fuck, it felt good. I'm not the tightest ship on the sea, I mean, hell, I've had a kid, but I'm no loose goose, either, and damn he felt good, sliding into my cunt. His cock felt ten feet long and a foot across, it just blew me away. I've looked at it, since then, and it's probably about average, but that night, it felt like King Kong was fucking me. Or King Dong, whatever. Damn, anyway, he felt good inside me. I haven't had a satisfying fuck since Rob's dad left me, probably, but this one was the most satisfying of my life. This is the standard, I thought. I pressed my mouth against his, and breathed his breath into my body. --==+==- My mom basically raped me, and it was sexier than fuck. She grabbed my ass, and smashed our waists together, and my cock slid into her pussy perfectly. Her pussy felt like wet silk on the head of my cock, and I almost came that instant, but I somehow managed to hold back. I felt my balls, even, grinding against her, down by her asshole. Damn, it was sexy. I pulled out, and pumped in, and she gasped and groaned. I could tell it felt good for her. I started pumping, and she moaned and wiggled underneath me, it was almost like riding a bucking bronc. I finally got my hands beneath her, and buried them in her sweet ass, squeezing and kneading her. We just simply fucked for a while, pounding in and out, and I finally poked my index finger in her asshole a bit. She growled then, and I knew it was a good growl, and before long I was pumping my finger in and out of her asshole as my cock went in and out of her cunt. It was just way too cool. When she came, I almost lost it, she just went totally fucking bananas, bouncing and crying out, it just blew me away. I had no idea chicks really did that, I thought that was just for the internet and shit. She dug her fingernails into my back, and arched her head back, her mouth open, her eyes squinched shut. She came hard, I could tell. I just pumped away, and finally she calmed down a little. "Thank you, honey," she murmured, and I laughed. Shit, I thought, you pretty much did it all, I just tried to hang on. Finally my dick just couldn't take it any longer. I felt my legs start to cramp, and something inside me squeezed hard, and I started cumming, and it was the best cum I've ever had, bar none. My finger was still in her ass, and my other hand buried in her butt cheek. I gave a big groan, and she opened her eyes, and smiled at me, as I came. When I was done she put her face in mine, and we kissed again, for a long time. It was incredible. --==+==- I hope I made his first time special. I think I did. I was kinda selfish, I was fucking him for myself, first, I think, but I still think it went well. He came as hard as I did, it seemed like. When it was over we just laid there, exhausted. I remembered I'd told myself earlier to take it slow, and I laughed to myself. Damn. I was possessed, or something. I guess I had needed that, for years. A truly satisfying fuck, I thought. Finally. Thank you. --==+==- That's it, I guess. I got my greatest wish later that morning, I crawled down her body and tasted her sweet pussy on my lips. It was sexier than hell, although it tasted slightly of my sperm, it was still unbelievably good. She has one sexy cunt, for sure. Even though it needed a shave. I made a promise to eat her pussy every night for the rest of my life. And her asshole. It was as sweet as her cunt, and it didn't have a spermy aftertaste. I ate her ass like candy, and loved it. That's it, that's our story. We'll see what the future holds, I guess, we'll see if we can pull this off. Simply keeping it a secret is going to be hard work, I want to let the whole world know, I'm that proud of her. But I know the way it has to be. No one can ever know. We're just a simple mother and son, living in the suburbs. What we do when we're home alone is nobody's business but our own. Surely you can respect that. --==+==- I know it's not going to be easy, but I think we're off to a good start. There is a fiery passion to our relationship that I think will take years to cool, if ever. He is consumed with me, and I him. We have a strong love, and so far, this has done nothing but make it stronger. I have confidence that we can pull this off. I have confidence in him, and most importantly, in myself. We're young, and in love... love will make it work, for us. I hope that everyone, at least at one point in their life, can feel what we feel. I hope that for everybody. --==+==- IF YOU LIKED THIS STORY, LEAVE ME A COMMENT. HELL, LEAVE ME A COMMENT EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T LIKE IT. THANKS FOR READING. http://www.kristensboard.com/forums/index.php?action=profile;u=26255