Author: Madame Ovary
Title: Diary of a Porn Star
Summary: James is so gifted that with the help of a 
close friend, he becomes a top West Coast porn star in 
the 70?s.  This is his story.
Keywords: mf, mff, inc, MF, MFF, MM, cons, rom


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James grows up alone with a mother who teaches him all 
about women.  After high school, he meets an older 
woman who falls for him, and with her contacts on the 
West Coast, she gets him an audition at a major porn 
studio.  It?s the 1970?s and James is rapidly becoming 
a household name in the porn industry, but he wants 
more.  With the help of his lover and her lover, as 
well as some of the wealthier contacts he?s made over 
the years, he starts his own studio.  In the end, his 
studio becomes the first to introduce romantic porn to 
the world.  
 

Diary of a Porn Star
By Madame Ovary
Sept-Oct 2015


Chapter 1

From a fairly early age, I knew I was physically 
gifted.  About the time I got into high school, I 
could see the difference between me and the other guys 
when we would shower after gym.  No one in my class 
ever held a candle to me, and I got a lot of looks and 
comments over the years about it.  My mother had 
talked to me about those kinds of things early on, but 
as I got older, our talks became more personal.  By 
the time I was 14 it was very obvious that she had 
trouble keeping her hands (or mouth, or pussy) off me.  
Dad left when us when I was 10, and never wrote or 
came back or contacted me or her ever again.  I don't 
think my mom ever slept with another man - other than 
me - until I was long gone from the house.  I think it 
was a trust thing with her and other men, and who 
could blame her?
In fact, it was my mother who taught me about sex, and 
I do mean everything about it.  Our first encounter 
was her catching me jacking off in bed one day.  She 
just stood at the door to my bedroom and watched me, 
and I could see the fire in her eyes.  She casually 
walked in and told me not to be embarrassed or stop.  
I can still remember seeing her licking her lips and 
her eyes glazing over as she approached my bed.  I can 
also remember the look in her eyes and how her 
breathing picked up when she sat beside me.  She 
couldn't take her eyes off my cock and within moments 
had asked me if she could touch it and the rest was 
history.   
From that very first glimpse of me with a hard-on, Mom 
told me I had a beautiful cock, and by her actions I 
knew she came to worship it.  That first time in my 
bedroom, I was too embarrassed to keep jacking off so 
she cleared her throat and asked me if I would like 
her to help me.  Her hands were like silk compared to 
mine and the way she played with my balls drove me up 
and over the edge in just a few seconds.  But an even 
bigger surprise was in store for my mom when I came, 
because even at 14, I came more than most men do with 
a heavy orgasm.  I warned her to aim it at a towel or 
something because I could easily hit my own face with 
it for the first 3-4 shots and this time was no 
exception.  My first shot hit the headboard, and by 
the look of shock on her face, I knew for sure now 
that this was unusual for a guy to be able to do.  
After that first time, she was a lot more careful 
about where she was aiming my cock when I came, that's 
for sure.  It seemed like her favorite place to aim it 
was at her gaping mouth as she kneeled on the floor in 
front of me or when she kneeled over me while I lay in 
bed.  Later, when I got into the porn business, I 
realized my mom was what guys called a 'cum queen'.  
There wasn't a time when she didn't want me cumming in 
her mouth, and she claimed she loved the taste of it, 
which made sense considering how much she drank down 
over the next four years I lived at home!  
As a matter of fact, after that first hand-job she 
gave me that Saturday morning, she gave me my first 
blow job that night, and lucky for her, she knew what 
was coming (so to speak), and frantically swallowed it 
all down as fast as she could.  That was the first of 
many times mom drank my cum, and she always seemed to 
get such a kick out of sucking me off and drinking 
down my entire orgasm.  It was also the first time I'd 
been given head, and the feeling was unbelievable and 
I wanted more.
It never occurred to me that it was really freaky what 
me and my mom had going on with each other.  I knew 
she was lonely and that my dad had done her wrong, and 
being only 14, I felt like if I could help her to feel 
more loved and content, then I would do my part.  
I'd been 15 for a while when mom first measured me and 
I found that I was 8-1/2 inches when fully hard, and I 
could just about fill her mouth when I came hard the 
first time in a day.  My cum was milky and not 
terribly thick with almost no color variation to it 
and no lumps for my first and second cum of the day 
and it only got thicker and more lumpy around the 
third or fourth cum of the day.  Back then, I could 
cum 4-5 times a day every day, then gradually it 
dropped back to only 3-4 times a day when I hit 24 
years old or so.
Mom said the shape of my cock made it the most 
beautiful she'd ever seen, with a full large corona 
running around the head and thick veins feeding the 
shaft, which pulsed when I came.  She said she loved 
the way it stood up so strong and proud with a slight 
curl back toward me, and she loved the way the head 
swelled as I was cumming.  She said she could feel it 
inside her and it was always exciting for her, the 
anticipation of feeling me flood her pussy and feeling 
the way my cock swelled and surged when I came.  She 
also said my balls were the heftiest she'd ever seen 
and she showed me how to shave everything down there 
so I could keep it silky smooth for her.  She loved to 
bury her face in my sac and run her tongue up my ass, 
but mostly, she just loved everything about my 
'package', as she called it.
Mom told me at some point early on that I would never 
have a problem getting girls to go out with me, 
especially after the word got out about my size.  The 
problem, she said, would be with getting the right 
kind of girls, and not always getting the sluts.  She 
told me that the size of my cock in addition to amount 
I came would frighten a lot of the good girls off, and 
that I would have to be careful there.  She warned me 
that the smaller girls would not enjoy sex with me 
because it would hurt them.  She said that I literally 
had a 'one in a million' cock, and that I would never 
have a problem with a woman I was dating going astray 
on me, but she warned me that they would always be 
jealous of me, worrying that I would always be looking 
for that next pussy or mouth around the corner. 
It was during this early period of discovery with my 
mom that I also learned that I could cum twice in a 
row without losing my erection.  Mom was clearly 
amazed and thrilled by that, and loved it as she would 
get me to cum in her mouth the first time, swallowing 
frantically to get it all down and groaning all the 
while, and then let me fuck her for the second go-
around and then get me to cum in her pussy.  She 
claimed I lasted longer that way when we finally got 
around to fucking, and she liked me to last.  
The first time we ever fucked was a true eye-opener 
for me, and nothing had ever felt as good as that.  
Apparently nothing had ever felt that good for my mom, 
either, judging by the way she acted and the sounds 
she made. There were weekends where mom wanted it in 
the morning, sucking me off while I was first waking 
up, then fucking me while our bladders were still 
full, then she'd do it again the same way at night, 
and by the time I was 16, we were pretty much sleeping 
together in the same bed most nights.  
Here I was, having a completely incestuous 
relationship with my mother, who was only 34 or 35 at 
the time, but I didn't care, and if the truth be told, 
I didn't know any different.  I loved my mom and felt 
bad for her living her life alone, and not trusting 
other men.  Besides, I was learning everything there 
was to know about how to please a woman and how to 
make it last as long as I could before I came, plus I 
was getting pussy every day, and head from her just 
about as often.  Yep, those days taught me my way 
around a woman's body and how best to please her, so 
by the time I was fucking other girls at school, I 
probably knew more about sex than any other boy my 
age, and just like mom had said, the girls were 
flocking around me all the time after that.
Mom taught me how to eat pussy, and how to torture a 
girl with it, stringing her along and not letting her 
cum until she begged for it.  She taught me not to be 
squeamish about body fluids and about licking her ass 
or her tonguing mine.
I was about 16 when mom first wanted to try anal sex, 
but I bloodied her ass pretty good that first time 
with her and she was scared to death to try it that 
way again.  Mom was only 5'3", and not really built to 
take a cock the size of mine up her ass, no matter how 
bad she wanted it there.  I figured it was kind of 
like her throat.  She groaned in frustration many 
times because she could never get my length down her 
throat as she was just too tiny of a woman.  I was 
already 6' tall at 16 years, and my cock kept growing 
until I was 17, when it finally stopped at just a tad 
over 10" long.  
A couple of years later, mom got drunk one night and 
squirted a good amount of KY up her ass and slathered 
it all over my cock.  She begged me that night to try 
it just once more, and then she yelled and screamed 
most of the time I was in her, but I got it in her all 
the way and really had my way with her, reaming her 
out good.  She bled again that time, but at least I 
got to cum in her ass, which was a new experience for 
me.  That was the last time I ever fucked her up the 
ass, but not the last time for me by any stretch (to 
coin a phrase!).  But I never forgot how tight she was 
in her ass, and secretly I'd enjoyed having my way 
with her that one time!
Mom told me several times that she'd never seen or 
heard of a man who came as much as I did during an 
orgasm.  She said the only reason she would drink it 
all down is because it was such a turn on to swallow 
that much, plus she said mine really had a sweeter, 
milder flavor than any man she'd had in the past.  I 
guess my mom had sucked her share of cock in her day 
and then some, from what little she told me about it.


Chapter 2

I guess I didn't start to realize just how freaky my 
mom was and how twisted our relationship really was 
until I started seeing other girls as I got older.  
And the more girls I saw on the side, the less I 
wanted to be with my mom.  By the time I left home, I 
was more than ready to get out on my own and be away 
from our relationship, which became more than just 
fucking for her.  She was in love with me and was 
talking about having my child, and that's when it hit 
me that I had to get out at the first good 
opportunity. 
My first what I'd call 'girlfriend' at my high school 
was Mary Jane Simpson, who gave me a hand job under 
the bleachers at a football game.  I never did hook up 
with Mary Jane again after that, and I always blamed 
that on my size, as I can remember how she freaked out 
about how big I was and how much I came.  Strangely 
enough (or so it seemed that way at the time to me), I 
got a hand job from Stephy Wilkins the very next 
weekend, and she even tried to eat some of my cum when 
I came.  Apparently, those first girls talked about me 
with their friends, and then they talked, and so on.  
Over the last six months of my junior year, girls were 
coming up to me in the school halls from not only my 
class, but also some senior girls and some sophomores 
and even a freshman or two.  They all wanted a date 
with me, and in the end, they all wanted to see if the 
stories were true.  
Word got around fast, just like mom had told me it 
would, and by the time I'd graduated, I was neck deep 
in sweet young pussy, and had stretched out cunts from 
girls as young as 13 to college girls.  At first I 
couldn't believe how easy it was, and I never had to 
ask a girl out my entire high school years, they just 
came to me, and sometimes it was like they were 
standing in line waiting for the chance to be with me!  
But mom was right, they weren't the kind of girls 
you'd want to have a long-term relationship with.  
They just wanted to try out my big cock and maybe to 
suck me off if they were brave enough.  All in all, it 
was exhilarating to be a 17-18 year old boy who was 
getting daily pussy from his mom plus getting other 
'strange' at least 2-3 times a week besides.  There 
were some weeks when I got either head or pussy every 
day of the week.  And let me tell you, it is a 
tremendous rush to stuff a 9" cock into a cute little 
13 year-old's extremely tight pussy and listen to her 
whimpering and begging and crying, then pull out and 
cum in her face while she's got her mouth wide open 
for it.  
By the time I'd graduated, I had been with girls from 
every class in my school from the 7th grade all the 
way through girls in the local college.  And the 
longer this went on, the older the chicks got.  As a 
18 year-old, I was screwing women as old as their late 
20's because somehow they'd heard about my cock and 
how much their girlfriends loved it.  
If mom's and dad's around this great country knew how 
horny and depraved their little girls were, and the 
crazy sick things they did when they had their hands, 
cunts, or mouths around a big cock, they would come 
completely unglued.
But probably the biggest surprise of my high school 
years came from my English teacher, a Mrs. Knox.  I 
have to admit that Mrs. Knox was really a fine looking 
woman, and later I found out that she was 26 when we 
first hooked up.  Mrs. Knox was very forward about her 
desires and one day after the last class, she told me 
she wanted to suck me off and would I be interested.  
I said sure with no hesitation, so she took me home in 
her car and we took a detour, ending up in a deserted 
ally behind a closed down supermarket.  Mrs. Knox was 
the first woman to ever get me down her throat, and 
the experience was a real eye opener for me.  When I 
came, she jacked me off into her hungry hot mouth and 
didn't miss a beat, swallowing down every last drop I 
gave her.  She came up panting for air, and singing my 
praises as she wiped her lips clean.  Cathy Knox and I 
had many more fun times over the next 2 months until I 
graduated and then over that summer afterward.  She 
was a real screamer who fucked me senseless and never 
tired of deep throating me almost viciously in her 
desire to milk every last sperm cell from my huge 
balls.  I'll always remember Mrs. Knox fondly, but I 
never knew her husband, thank goodness!
It's true what they say about California girls, and 
that whole scene out there during the early 70's was 
an awesome time to grow up.  Right before I graduated 
from high school, Mom began introducing me to a couple 
of her divorced (or not-so-divorced!) female friends 
who were all very appreciative of my skills and were 
willing to pay me for them, and that in turn led to me 
meeting a woman who changed my life. 


Chapter 3 

I was still living at home with mom during my freshman 
year of college...if I'd gone to college.  My income 
at that time came entirely from women mom knew who had 
gotten hooked on my size and would pay good money for 
the privilege of me stuffing it in them.  It paid well 
enough for me to have a shitty car and some spending 
money besides, but it wasn't enough for me.  Not by a 
long shot.
If the married men out there knew how badly their 
wives craved size and good hard loving, they'd be 
shocked and dismayed, just as the parents of those 
horny young girls would have been.  By the time I was 
19, I had a "little black book" with the names of over 
50 women who would pay me to sleep with them, and it 
was finally starting to be good enough money for me to 
leave home.
Of all the women I'd been with over the years, there 
was one that a friend of my mom's introduced me to, 
that I couldn't ever quite get out of my head.  
"Sparrow" Hawkins was special to me.  Why, I couldn't 
exactly say, but I think it was because she never made 
over about my size and with her, it always seemed like 
she was making love to me and not just fucking or wild 
sex.  Sparrow was soft and tender, loving and 
sweet...and a complete departure from all the others.  
She rarely wanted me to fuck her hard and rampant, she 
just wanted to be in my arms and feel me making love 
to her, gently and intensely, which was easy to do 
with her.  I was 19 and Sparrow was around 29 when we 
first met, and the more we hooked up, the more Sparrow 
wanted me to come around, and we spent many hours just 
laying in her bed talking afterwards.  I really liked 
Sparrow a lot, but I knew as time went on she was 
falling for me, and that worried me.  It worried me 
because I knew what I was and I knew what she was, and 
I just didn't think I could ever do her justice in the 
long run.  Sparrow as a good woman who had been 
horribly treated by her one and only husband who'd 
left her when she was 25.  She didn't date after the 
divorce, and it wasn't until I'd known her about 6 
months that I found out she was also into women.  For 
some reason, that made me feel even better about her.  
She'd confessed to me once that I was the only man she 
was sleeping with, and that she had a girlfriend who 
understood her need for a man still.  It turned out 
Sparrow's girlfriend Judy came from a very similar set 
of circumstances as Sparrow had been through, and they 
were crazy about each other.  
Sparrow knew a lot of people in the movie business in 
and around the Bay area.  These weren't your average 
Hollywood movie people, these were folks connected 
with the new porn movie industry that was just getting 
a foothold and starting to generate some major revenue 
for the small studios that were just getting their 
start in the late 60's.  It turns out that Sparrow's 
mom had had something to do with these people when she 
was younger, and even now, she worked for several of 
them, keeping their books and such.
I was lucky with Sparrow because I knew deep down she 
loved me and had feelings for me.  Soft and tender 
feelings.  So deep down I knew she wanted the best for 
me and I trusted her more than any other person I knew 
at the time.  The more she and I talked about a 
possible future in porn for me, the more I knew she 
had my best interests at heart, and would never be 
greedy about it for herself.  She knew the best 
producers, and she knew who wrote the best scripts, 
who offered the best working conditions, and of 
course, who paid the best.  And I was doubly lucky, 
because Sparrow knew just the person I needed to go 
talk to.


Chapter 4

My first introduction to the world of port was at an 
office in San Mateo.  Sparrow drove me there and acted 
as my 'agent'.  She told me that the man we were going 
to meet was Eric Bolder, who was one of the biggest 
names in porn on the West Coast at that time.  Sparrow 
coached me in every aspect of what was likely to 
happen in the interview, and I was comfortable with 
the arrangements she'd made for me.  At that meeting, 
I was introduced Eric Bolder who talked with me for a 
time about my raising and my sexual education to date.  
His eyebrows raised when I talked about my early 
experiences with my mom, but he said nothing 
judgmental about it.  They raised again when he found 
out how much I was making on the side taking care of 
my mom's 'friends'.  
He asked me to show him my cock, so I dropped my 
pants.  He studied me for a moment, then asked if I 
could perform under pressure and I said I thought that 
would be no problem for me.  He buzzed for his 
secretary then and she poked her head in the office.  
"Would you have Melody and Jake come in here for a few 
minutes, please, Jan?" He asked.  
We continued to talk and then a few minutes later a 
good looking young gal dressed like a hippy with very 
short shorts on came in along with a guy with a 
camera.  Then Eric introduced me to my very first porn 
star, Melody Monroe.
"Melody?" Eric said, getting her attention.  "We're 
taking a look at Mr. Baldwin here for his potential as 
a porn star.  Why don't you go down on young Mr. 
Baldwin here and let's see what he's got to offer us 
here at Bolder Productions!"  Melody smiled and 
shrugged, and said; "Sure, Mr. Bolder!"
"Mr. Baldwin, why don't you stand up right over here 
so I can see everything that's going on and better 
judge your ability to perform?  Jake, you get where 
you need to be for the money shots...right?" 
"Right, Mr. Bolder!" Jake said.
I stood up then, facing Sparrow and my left side to 
Mr. Bolder.  Melody dropped to her knees then like a 
good girl and undid my slacks and fished my hardening 
cock out.  She stroked it softly for a few moments, 
smiling sweetly up at me, and I noticed her eyes got a 
little bigger then as I grew.  Then she took me into 
her mouth.  It didn't take long for me to get into the 
groove, and Mr. Bolder and Jake the photographer 
ceased to exist for me.  I did steal looks at Sparrow 
from time to time, and licked my lips and she knew 
what I was thinking.  I was going to treat her extra 
special tonight, no matter what happened today.  Then 
I looked down at Melody, who was doing a very nice job 
of getting me very hard.
I'd had a lot of women suck my dick, and only about 
three could get me down their throats.  Melody wasn't 
the best I'd ever had, but she was damn good at it and 
she slid me down her throat just like you'd expect a 
pro to be able to do.
While she sucked on me, Mr. Bolder spoke up.  "Melody, 
I'm told that Mr. Baldwin here cums more than we're 
used to seeing, so when you get him there, please let 
him cum on your face or in your mouth where I can see 
just how true that report is.  Then when you're done, 
why don't you fuck Mr. Baldwin over there on my couch, 
as I'm also told he can go 'back-to-back' as well."
"Sure, Mr. Bolder!" Melody said, smiling up at me.  
She seemed to like the idea of getting a fuck to go 
with her blowjob.  She was really taking me deep now 
and working me over.  I had purposely not had sex for 
the last 48 hours so I knew I had a huge load building 
up for Miss Melody.  I really hoped to be able to 
choke her with it, to be honest with you!
"Mr. Baldwin, would you be so kind as to let us all 
know when you're ready to cum?"  
"Yessir!" I said, groaning now.
"She's good, isn't she, son?" he asked me.  I looked 
down at her and smiled as she looked up at me, waiting 
for my answer.
"She's very good, sir" I groaned.  "Very good!" I 
said, winking at her, which she seemed to like.  Then 
I said; "Melody, you really do need to be ready to 
swallow fast and swallow a lot when I cum, OK?" I 
said, looking more serious now.  Melody's eyes 
changed, and I think I saw apprehension there.
I'd lasted an impressive 10 minutes or so with her 
aggressively sucking me off, but I was getting closer 
and my 10 plus inches were angry red and aching to 
explode.  "Almost there now!" I groaned, and Melody 
backed off and opened her mouth wide and jacked me off 
with her very wet and silky hand.
I threw my head back and somewhere I heard the 
snapping of pictures as Jake fired away.  
"Oh, yeah, Melody!" I growled.  I was so damn close 
but holding off as long as I could to make the money 
shots extra special for all to see.  Sparrow had told 
me this interview would mean everything, and I had to 
make it as awesome as possible.  So here came 
awesome!?"Oh, yeah, baby!" I growled, and took my cock 
in my own hand then.  Melody played the good little 
porn star and obediently opened her mouth wide with 
her tongue way out.  We made eye contact as I started 
to shoot.
The first shot was very long and hard and it choked 
her, so I aimed the second at her cheek to give her 
time to keep up with the flow, then it was back to the 
mouth.  I'd warned her, and so did Mr. Bolder.  After 
all, she was the pro here...right?  
The next six shots all went in her mouth and she was 
frantically swallowing and I heard Mr. Bolder say 
"holy fuck, kid!" under his breath as he watched from 
safely behind his desk.  I stared intently at Sparrow 
as I was shooting my load, and I think that made it 
more powerful.  Her eyes were glazed over, and she 
licked her lips as I came on Melody's face.  I know 
Melody was having trouble with the amount I was 
shooting at her, but in fairness to her, it had been 
over two days since my last orgasm, and this one was 
making up for lost time.
By the end of it, Melody's face was coated and she was 
gasping for air.  Mr. Bolder actually clapped twice 
and guffawed, and Jake muttered something about 
needing a faster camera!
Melody was laughing now.  "Oh my god, that was 
incredible!" she said, still on her knees and wiping 
her face.  "You taste so fucking good!" she exclaimed.  
I caught Sparrows eye and she winked at me and smiled 
big.
I was still hard and Mr. Bolder said "time to fuck his 
brains out now, baby!" to Melody, who grabbed my dick 
and led me to the couch.  Sparrow handed her a couple 
of tissues so she could wipe her eyes, and then she 
pushed me down on the couch and straddled me.  "God 
his cock is beautiful, Mr. Bolder!" she groaned as she 
took me all in one shove.  "So...fucking...hard!" she 
squealed in between breaths and slamming up and down 
on me.  Thankfully, Sparrow had coached me on this 
part too.
I let Melody ride me for a while and then she came 
like a banshee.  I lifted her off me and threw her 
onto her back and like a trooper, she spread her legs 
I chowed down on her bringing her to another orgasm in 
a few minutes, and then I entered her from above, 
pounding her mercilessly.  "Fuck, baby!" she said, 
staring into my eyes.  "You are so good!" 
I went at her like that for a minute or two, then 
pulled out, twirled her around, pulled her rump up to 
me and did her doggy style while she whimpered like a 
little girl.  "Oh, fuck me big boy!" she groaned from 
her gut.  I don't think Melody was acting anymore, as 
I'd heard these kinds of comments all my life.  Once 
again, I looked at Sparrow while I was pounding Melody 
from behind, and now my eyes glazed over.  Sparrow was 
obviously turned on, and I saw her cross her legs and 
wet her lips gain.
I rolled Melody onto her side with me behind her then 
and took her that way, then felt myself getting close.
Then I pulled out and took her missionary, slowing 
down now and kissing her hard while taking long slow 
strokes in and out of her.  "Oh, fuck!" she said into 
my mouth.  "So fucking good, honey!" she sobbed, then 
her eyes got big and her legs were twitching.  "I'm 
cumming baby!" she cried out loudly, and rose up to 
meet me.  She really was cumming, and I felt her 
tighten up and liquify.  I lasted about another minute 
or so, taking her to still another orgasm, then I 
pulled out and shot all over her face and chest, and I 
was still kneeling down between her legs.  Most guys 
would have to crawl up by her tits to hit her face, 
but I did it from her crotch, and this was my second 
cum.  I knew Bolder would be happy with that!  Some of 
my first shots even splattered onto the arm of the 
couch, and one hit her square in the mouth again.  
Melody was a good fuck, but she really didn't do that 
much for me.  I wondered while I was doing her what it 
would be like to fuck a porn star that really turned 
me on.
Melody came down slowly, panting for a long time 
afterward.  "Mr. Bolder, this guy can fuck!" she 
groaned, and we all knew she wasn't acting.  "Oh, 
fuck, sweetie baby!" she cooed, and kissed me deeply.  
"That cock is so fine!"  Sparrow told me later the 
girl wasn't acting and from the looks on Bolder's 
face, it had shocked him how turned on Melody had 
really gotten.


Chapter 5

I got up and put my underwear and pants back on.  Mr. 
Bolder stepped outside his office for a second, and I 
could hear him talking, then practically yelling to 
someone out there.  I got a big thumbs up from Jake as 
he left the office.
"Nobody's ever choked me like that!" Melody said in 
amazement, now that it was just her and me and Sparrow 
in the room.  "Thanks for not hitting me in the mouth 
with your whole load, baby.  I know you did that on 
purpose to give me time to swallow and catch my 
breath!"  She smiled at me appreciatively.  "No 
problem, Melody.  I'm only here to get a job, not make 
anyone look bad...OK?" She smiled again at me.  "Maybe 
I can give you a celebration blow job and we can fuck 
again if you get the job, honey!"  she offered.  "I 
think I'd really like to take my time with you...and 
especially when nobody's watching!" And she giggled 
nervously.  I just smiled at her, and a few minutes 
later, Mr. Bolder came back into his office and shooed 
her out.

The bottom line was, Bolder offered me $350 a week.  I 
looked at Sparrow, and she took over.  "Thanks for the 
offer, Mr. Bolder, but we thought you'd like him 
better than that.  We still have 3 more studios to 
visit this week and we think we can do a lot better," 
and she stood up to shake his hand.  I just stood 
there, smiling confidently.  We all knew I was good 
looking, and I knew I could act better than half the 
male porn stars with experience.  
Mr. Bolder gulped, then hesitated.  "Well, now...hold 
on just a second" he said with his hands up.  "Let's 
not be hasty here, Sparrow!" he said nervously.  
She smiled sweetly at him.  "You just saw what this 
young man can do when asked to deliver.  Think how 
awesome he'll be when he has some movies under his 
belt!  And the guy can come twice...back-to-back!  
Think of the shots you'll get with that kind of 
staying power.  And the way he cums?"  she was still 
smiling, but very confident.  "Eric, you have the 
largest porn studio in the Bay area, but between you 
and me, you may not be the largest when someone else 
gets ahold of this young man and his name and prowess 
gets out!" and she smiled nicely and walked to the 
door and I followed without looking back.  
"Hold on a second there, Sparrow!"  he said.  Just 
what'll it take to get your boy signed with us?"  he 
asked amiably.
Sparrow looked at me, then looked back at Bolder.  "I 
get $150 a week as his agent.  He gets $350 per movie 
for the first six months, then we renegotiate.  He 
also gets $350 a week contract money, whether he works 
or not that week.  Also, that gets renegotiated after 
six months, as does my fee."  Then she stood there 
watching him.  "And...he can still freelance on the 
side, but privately and not in connection with the 
studio in any way, shape or form" she added.
He looked at her for a long time then, it seemed.  
Then he looked at me.  "What's your porn star name 
gonna be, kid?" he asked, standing to shake my hand 
and then Sparrows.


Chapter 6

We chose Rod Hardy for my 'movie-star' name.   Sparrow 
and I had a wonderful dinner on the way home, and then 
I made love to her twice that evening, and from that 
moment on, I never took a dime for sex from Sparrow 
ever again, and to her credit she never got possessive 
about all the other women in my life.  And also from 
that time forward, something changed with our 
relationship, and I knew I loved her, and I think she 
picked up on that.  Many times over the years, she'd 
come for a visit and bring me a gift.  Sometimes it 
was a shirt she thought I'd look good in, or a watch 
or a ring or something.  It pleased her to give me 
things, and I never objected.  I returned the favor on 
her birthday and at Christmas, and was generous with 
her on those occasions.  Otherwise, I usually had 
flowers or perfume for her when she came over for our 
date nights.  Sparrow always treated me like I 
mattered and like I was special to her, and that 
always meant a hell of a lot to me, so I was always 
careful to be sweet and kind to her as well.   
I knew I loved Sparrow and there were times when I 
realized that as much as I was able, I could have had 
a much stronger thing for her if I led a 'normal' life 
and if I'd been more her age.  She was really an 
attractive woman with a body that looked and felt more 
like mid-twenties to me.  She almost always wanted me 
to be good to her in bed, gentle and kind and slow.  
She was tender and soft and giving in bed, and it just 
felt good being with her after being with most of the 
other ladies I was seeing for money.  Most of them 
just wanted the size and the cum and they could get 
demanding about it at times, but Sparrow wanted me for 
me.  I could see that when I looked into her eyes, but 
I just couldn't allow myself to reciprocate those 
feelings, especially not at this stage in my life.  It 
was sad, but Sparrow seemed to understand and accept 
that, and we remained very close and dear friends 
during the start of my new career when most women 
would have quit seeing me.

We signed the contract the next week and my first 
filming was scheduled for the following week.  I was 
the new kid on the block, but as I started to hang 
around the studio more, I realized that most of the 
guys didn't have an ego problem and seemed happy to 
meet me.  There were a couple who were assholes, but I 
was told that unless they were well liked by the 
viewing public and the girls, they wouldn't last 
long...not at this studio at least.  The girls were 
usually very nice, some airheads, and others with 
college degrees or in college and working toward it.  
Some of them were very intelligent, and most were 
startlingly beautiful or at the very least had that 
sexy, raw, girl-next-door fuckable look.  Bolder 
really knew how to pick the girls, that was for sure.  
Talking with those girls made me start to wonder about 
my future, and what I should do with my life.  I 
wasn't so starry-eyed as to think I was immortal and 
that my new career would last forever.  But I'll talk 
more about that later.
Word had gotten around fast with the girls 'at the 
office' about my ability to cum a lot and also to cum 
twice in a row.  There were several who weren't 
looking forward to being in cum shot scenes with me 
but there were more who were eager for it, and also to 
participate in a double cum scene with me.
My very first role was as an alien (less the green 
paint), which seemed to everyone to be the perfect way 
to introduce me to the public.  The alien who could 
cum more than any other human!  And twice in a row!  I 
found that I really enjoyed filming and got a kick out 
of every aspect of it.  I worked really hard at 
memorizing my lines and even took up Sparrow's 
suggestion to take acting classes at the local 
university after that first movie.  It was the summer 
of 1975, and the porn industry only starting to come 
into its own.  At first my 'career' seemed to be 
taking off slow to me, but Mr. Bolder said differently 
to Sparrow and me, and Sparrow agreed with him on the 
subject and told me to be patient and work hard.

After six months, I'd been in 15 films (my mom wanted 
a copy of every one of them), and what really had 
helped the start of my career was the advent of 
videotape, Beta and VHS, back in '75 and '76.  
Remember that?  It seems like such a long time ago now 
when I think back on it.  
Sparrow and I had another meeting to Mr. Bolder's 
office at the end of my initial six month contract.  
She went in with offers in hand from 2 other studios, 
one that was offering a lot more than Eric was and the 
other which was offering double.  Plus, she had the 
sales figures on all 15 of my movies, which offered 
proof that the sales numbers were growing as time went 
along.  She also had trade news clippings about me and 
my movies, and the reports were glowing.  
Bolder started our meeting by recapping the last 6 
months for his studio and my growth as a porn star.  
He and I had grown into a more mature "friendly" type 
of relationship, and he treated me to a good time 
whenever he threw parties at his place.  But it was 
time to step that relationship up a notch.  Everyone 
knew that porn stars came and went, and I wanted to be 
a household name in a bad way.  One that didn't just 
come and go, so to speak.
He started by saying he'd like to keep me at my 
present salary arrangement for another 6 months, but 
when he saw the look in Sparrow's eyes, he put his 
hands up quickly.  "Peace, Sparrow!"  he said.  "I 
know what I've got here in our Mr. Hardy!"
He looked at me then and said he'd bump everything up 
by 25% for the next year and sat back.  That's when 
Sparrow started talking about video sales - especially 
for my movies, and then laid out several reviews of my 
work and acting skills.  He sighed then and sat back.  
"You've got yourself a real shark here, Rod!" he 
smiled.  "OK, 50% a week more, 25% more for each 
movie" he offered.
That's when Sparrow got up and showed him our best 
offer from a production company over in Oakland, who 
was effectively offering me double what Eric was.  He 
turned white.  Then Sparrow gave him one of her 
patented talks, you know, the kind where he can't 
argue with the logic, and where he couldn't afford to 
lose me to a competitor?  And then she added that I 
wanted to stay with Bolder Studios, but that he needed 
to show me some loyalty in return as well.  He asked 
me if that was true, and I said yes.  Then she asked 
Eric if he knew I was taking acting lessons to make 
myself even more of an asset to Bolder Studios.  He 
closed his eyes and smiled as he shook his head.
Eric got up and went over to his bar then.  "I need a 
drink!" he said, exhaling slowly.  "Anybody else?"  
Sparrow looked at her watch.  "It's not even noon 
yet!" she laughed, knowing something big was coming 
for us both.  Eric shook his head and laughed with 
her.  
He sat down at the small conference table next to me 
and Sparrow, toasted us, then downed his double 
whiskey in one gulp.  
"Let me see that offer again, Sparrow, if you please" 
he said quietly.  He spent about a minute looking it 
over, then set it down and looked at us.  
"OK, guys...here's what I'm prepared to do.  Right now 
you get $350 a week whether you work or not.  "I'll go 
up to $750 starting next week which is $50 buck more 
than your best offer.  And, I'll make sure you get top 
or second billing amongst the men in your movies from 
now on until you prove to me you're not worth the 
publicity any more.  I'll also bump you up to $750 a 
movie besides the salary, and that's another $50 more 
than they are offering you.  Sparrow, what do you 
need?" he looked at her then.
She smiled sweetly.  "I think $250 a week would 
satisfy my needs...for now!" she said.  Eric rolled 
his eyes, but I didn't feel sorry for him.  Now that 
video was booming, Sparrow told me he was making at 
between $3,000 and $10,000 profit from each 
movie...and mine were right up there with the top 
earners for the studio.
I knew Sparrow was happy, as we'd already agreed to 
take his offer if he at least met the best other offer 
we already had.  Now it was my turn to speak up.  
"There's one other thing, Mr. Bolder" I said, and both 
of them looked at me.  "I'll sign on for a year this 
time instead of 6 months, but I get a new car as a 
signing bonus."  
Eric looked at me in a new way then, and just shook 
his head and smiled.  "I ain't buying you a Porsche, 
Rod!" he chuckled.  I shook my head then.  "I don't 
want a Porsche, Mr. Bolder, just a new 1976 Corvette, 
and I get to go pick her out next week" I said.  "And 
you have my word that it'll never get out from me that 
the car was from the Studio, and no one will ever know 
but us three what I'm making this next year."  I said, 
and held out my hand to him.
Eric just shook his head.  "Welcome to the big time, 
Rod Hardy!" he said.


Chapter 7

I bought Sparrow a car after we signed the contract, 
and called it an early birthday and Christmas present 
for her, but I asked her to promise me she'd tell no 
one it had come from me.  She had no idea that it was 
coming, and she cried and squealed like a little girl 
when she saw it.  Sparrow had always lusted after Ford 
Mustangs, and knew all the models like the back of her 
hand.  I had found a pristine red 1971 Boss Mustang 
with a 351 Cleveland in it with only 4,500 miles on 
it, and it was so damn cherry it looked like it had 
just come off the showroom floor.  The guy I bought it 
from had kept it garaged and had babied it for 5 years 
now.  He said he'd cut me a fantastic deal on it if I 
would sleep with his wife for one night.  He told me 
she loved my movies and wanted to fuck me so badly, 
but also admitted privately to me that what she was 
really interested in was sucking me dry!  His wife was 
42 and kind of easy on the eyes, so I agreed, and I 
gave her a night to remember.  And he was right.  She 
swallowed three of my loads like a champ and took two 
more in her furry wet pussy.  In the end, I got a hell 
of a deal on that Mustang, as that car had sold new 
for over $4,200 back in '71 (can you believe that 
shit?), but I got it for $2,000 cash, and I got to 
fuck his wife silly all night long in a fancy hotel 
besides.  She confessed to me the next morning as she 
sucked me off for the third time that I was the best 
she'd ever had.  Sparrow loved me so sweetly that 
night I gave her the car, so I felt like I'd really 
gotten a good deal all around with it! 

The next year was a blur for me.  I stayed away from 
the drug scene as much as possible, and especially 
from doing coke or heroin like so many of the porn 
stars were doing, but I smoked a little weed now and 
then.  Sparrow had warned me all along about how 
destructive the drugs were to porn stars.  Most of 
them were into the drugs or alcohol to varying 
degrees, and I saw what it was doing to them and their 
careers, and had to agree with Sparrow's logic.
I kept up with my acting classes, and then started 
taking some business courses.  I had this budding idea 
that one day I'd own my own studio, and wanted to be 
smart about the business aspects of it.  Besides, with 
Sparrow at my side, I felt like anything was possible.  
I finally ran my idea by her one night over dinner, 
and she got very excited about it.  I told her it was 
still 5+ years downstream but there was no time like 
the present to start thinking about it and planning 
for it.  Besides, I'd need a good accountant I could 
trust, and Sparrow was the only person for the job!

Now that my name was getting out there, and people 
were becoming more familiar with my face, I was 
getting offers from all directions.  I was doing photo 
shoots for private studios who only did photos, but I 
cleared that first with Bolder.  He wanted a 25% cut, 
and I was OK with that.  These were mostly photo 
shoots of me getting blow jobs and cumming all over a 
girl or girls.  Those jobs typically paid as much as 
$500 for one afternoon's work.  Then there were the 
offers from other studios, just as Sparrow had said 
they would, but she cautioned me to be a man of my 
word with Bolder, and I saw the value in that, 
especially if I was going to run my own studio one 
day.  
But the biggest trip was getting offers from women I'd 
meet as I was traveling around town.  I had some drop-
dead gorgeous women introduce themselves to me and 
tell me how much they'd like to suck my cock or fuck 
me and they offered to pay me for the privilege, and 
some were paying big bucks.  
There was one very attractive and high class lady in 
particular, a divorcee in her 40's who was quite 
wealthy, who offered me $2,000 to sleep with her for 
one night, and when I did, she became a regular of 
mine, calling me about once a month to get her 
"plumbing fixed" as she put it.
I had another one who after seeing many of my movies 
wanted nothing more than to suck me dry, and wanted 
back-to-back cum shots in her mouth.  This gal had a 
cum fixation and she swore she came like a freight 
train every time I shot in her mouth.  She gave me 
$500 for each time I came in her mouth.  She never 
wanted to fuck, only to suck me off.  I knew several 
women like that and even met men who wanted to do me 
as well.  The money was tempting, as a lot of the gay 
men in the Bay area were loaded.  But I just couldn't 
see doing it with a guy.  Then some guy, a wealthy 
businessman, offered me $2,500 to have me jack off 
into his mouth, and so I agreed.  I had a hard time 
with that one, but I made it work, and he paid up with 
a wet smile when we were done.  He offered to pay me 
$3,000 to fuck him up the ass, but I declined.  In the 
end, I let him give me a blow job for another $2,500, 
and I have to admit, he really blew my drawers off!  I 
had trouble watching him, but from the minute he got 
his mouth on me, I was in heaven.  I still see him on 
occasion, but he's the only gay I've ever stepped over 
the line with.
I've had a preacher's wife pay to fuck me, and an 
underage daughter of a millionaire who'd seen most of 
my movies, who only wanted it up her ass.  The 
preachers wife was an animal, one of the most 
voracious lovers I'd ever been with, and in the end, 
she wanted to just lay on the floor between my legs 
and have me shoot my hot cum all over her body, then 
she rubbed it in and licked her hands and fingers 
clean.  Wow!  The underage daughter wanted it up her 
ass and only there, and she took it there easier than 
any woman ever had before.  She screamed the whole 
time, then paid me $1,000 for my 30 minutes of work.
I've had rich divorcees, and wealthy married women who 
knew next to nothing about sex, but they came alive 
when they were sitting on my cock.
I've fucked women from just about every race and 
culture on the planet over the years, and most of them 
pay with a big smile on their face.  Many of them have 
become repeat customers, and I now have hundreds of 
names in my same black book to prove it.  
I've had a lot of offers for threesomes over the 
years, but I've never been into that, except in the 
movies.  I tried to avoid fucking strangers unless 
they looked high class and well kept, and then they 
paid me well to be with me.  On average, I was getting 
blow jobs from women I'd never met at least once a 
week during that next full year of my contract, and I 
was still only 21!  
One day while I was on campus after a class, I had 
identical twins - young sweet freshmen girls - come up 
to me and begged me to spray their faces with cum and 
offered me $250 for the privilege.  I usually would 
have said no, but they were so damn hot I couldn't 
resist their offer!  It was amazing to see both of 
their faces hungrily attack my cock, and I'll be 
honest...they looked so much alike that I couldn't 
tell the difference between them.  I actually gave 
them $50 back to watch them kiss each other and lick 
my cum from each other's faces,  Now that was a fun 
date!  I told them I'd love to fuck them both, but I 
wanted to watch them eat each other out, too.  They 
actually agreed to do it, but only if I'd cum on their 
faces again!  I actually took that job for $200, just 
because they were such a fucking turn-on.  I watched 
those two eat each other out for almost a half an 
hour, and it was so damn erotic I almost jacked off 
while watching them!  I told them that I was planning 
on starting my own studio up in a few years, and asked 
them if they'd be interested in getting into porn.  
They were very excited about that, and said they'd 
watch my career and would look me up when the new 
studio was getting started.
I've had two female professors pay me for sex over the 
years, and a third one who only wanted to give me blow 
jobs.  The offers usually came when I least expected 
it, and oftentimes they were referrals from wealthy 
women I'd been with.  My answering machine almost 
always had three or more calls a day on it, and when 
cell phones finally came out, I wondered how I'd ever 
gotten along without one!
I even had a 62 year-old woman who had lost her 
husband to cancer a couple of years previously.  She 
turned out to be a special case for me, as she was the 
oldest woman I'd ever been with, but she loved me long 
and hard, and wanted to pay me $1,000 for the night, 
but how could I take her money?  She was also the most 
emotional woman I'd been with and she cried hard after 
we'd had sex.  We sat up a long time talking after 
that, and then I made love to her more slowly the 
second time around and she really got very soft and 
loving and showed me how much an older woman knows 
about pleasing her man.
I made well over $50,000 seeing other women during the 
first 8 months of my 20th year, and it was all cash 
under the table.  At Sparrow's advice, I made an 
initial rule to only deposit 20% of this money in the 
banks, but as the money kept rolling in, I dropped 
that to 15% and then down to 10% by the end of that 
8th month, as I didn't need that kind of attention 
from the IRS!  I watched those deposits closely, 
making sure they never got out of hand, plus I put 
them in a different bank than my regular checking 
account.  The rest of the cash I put in a strong box 
in my gun safe in my new house I'd recently bought up 
in Sausalito.  And once the money went into the safe, 
I tried to forget about it.  I had a new Corvette 
courtesy of the studio, a nice home that I was paying 
double or triple payments on, a steady good-paying 
job, and all the pussy a man could ever want, but I 
wasn't done yet.
If I slept with someone really special, I would 
eventually ask them if they'd ever thought about being 
in a porn movie.  Most said 'no way', but there were a 
few that acted interested, so I swore them to secrecy 
and asked them to either stay in touch or watch my 
career.  I told them if I started my own studio one 
day, I might have a place for them.  
The last 4 months of that first year-long contract, I 
took home another almost $30,000 in tax-free income.  
I figured I needed to keep that up as long as I could, 
as the pace was leaving me no time for myself, and I 
couldn't afford to get sick or let my freelancing 
interfere with my real job.
All in all, I pocketed over $80k in cash from 
freelancing that year, plus my salary and another 26 
movies that first full year, made me net around 
$130,000 that first year as a porn star.  And that was 
good money in 1976 for a high school grad at 21 years 
of age.


Chapter 8 

The advent and spread of video played a huge role in 
the growth of the porn industry, and Bolder Studios 
was still at the top of the food chain in the Bay area 
at the end of that year by a nice margin.  Eric Bolder 
was a shrewd businessman, and he was always looking 
for ways to take advantage of the new market and 
finding new ways to distribute video cheaper.  At the 
end of that first years contract, Sparrow and I met 
with him again to hopefully renew my contract.  This 
time went smoother, and Sparrow didn't need to twist 
his arm at all to convince him I was one of his top 
three men at the studio, if not in the top two.
My pay went up to $1,500 a movie and $1,500 a week, 
but now I would also get 1% of sales on my videos, 
which was a new development, and one we couldn't turn 
down.  It was at this meeting that I shared my 
thoughts for the first time with Eric about wanting to 
direct, and he told me he thought that idea had real 
potential.  He wanted to think it over and promised to 
get back with me in a few weeks.  In the meantime, he 
wanted me to get more involved with the dialogue coach 
and the writers and see if I couldn't get a little 
more "realism" in our scripts.  He wanted scripts that 
sounded like people were actually thinking and talking 
normally...as in having a real conversation, rather 
than reading their lines from a poorly written book or 
something.  I agreed wholeheartedly.
I talked with Sparrow over dinner and we were excited 
about this new development...as long as Eric was true 
to his word, and if he did give me a shot at 
directing.  I took Sparrow home that night and made 
sweet love to her and we fell asleep in each other's 
arms.

Of the girls that I worked professionally with, there 
wasn't one that I would want a long term relationship 
with.  Well...maybe there was one or two that came and 
went that interested me, but I knew they'd be fucking 
a lot of different guys just like I was fucking a lot 
of different gals, and who could blame them?
Still I had friendly relationships with several of the 
girls at the "office" but it was mostly for 
companionship and occasionally some good old earthy 
fucking and sucking, but nothing more ever developed 
from those relationships, and I didn't want it to 
anyway.  Besides, I chose those particular girls 
because that's all they wanted as well.  You had to be 
careful with on-the-job relationships, as hard 
feelings over a broken relationship could lead to 
trouble on the job, and besides, Eric seriously 
frowned on that kind of after-hours activity.

Sparrow was the only woman in my life that I would 
have entertained getting together with for something 
more of a permanent nature, and she would have dropped 
everything to do just that with me, but I was scared 
for her heart.  I knew Sparrow loved me dearly, but I 
just didn't feel it near as strongly as she did, or 
maybe it was that I wouldn't let myself feel it or 
admit it to myself, and she knew that as well and it 
broke my heart for her.  Oh, I loved her as I was able 
to, but the truth be told, I knew I could never be 
true to her alone when it came to sex, and therefore I 
told myself I could never let my heart get raveled up 
in her.  I could clearly see her feelings for me, 
especially when we made love, and she knew I couldn't 
return those feelings, but she happily took what she 
could get from me, or at least what I was willing to 
give.  
Like I'd mentioned earlier, after her divorce Sparrow 
had developed a taste for other women, and her current 
girlfriend of almost 4 years now was wired kind of 
like her.  Judy liked cock just as much as Sparrow 
did, which is to say that she really only liked mine, 
but Judy just happened to like pussy better, and who 
could blame her?  Sparrow introduced me to Judy 
shortly after I got in porn, and one night when they 
were visiting with me, things got crazy and we ended 
up having a really sweet time of it that night.  Judy 
hadn't been with a man in over 4 years, and definitely 
had never had a cock like mine, and she went into 
orbit several times as her and Sparrow shared me that 
night.  Judy was a real looker just like Sparrow, and 
I have to tell you, it was very tempting to ask them 
to move in with me as our friendship took off and the 
trust deepened.  The two of them spent many a weekend 
night at my place and we always had a very good time 
together.  I especially enjoyed watching them make 
love to each other, and then joining in when I was 
invited to.  And I have to tell you that sleeping with 
those two women was always a joy, and I loved to wake 
them up with my mouth on their pussies or slowly 
sliding my morning wood into one and then the other as 
they woke up giggling to my attentions.  Sparrow 
taught Judy the finer points of giving a great blow 
job during this time and once in a while, they shared 
my cum, swapping it into each others mouths while 
kissing.  Watching my cum drool out of their mouths 
and down their chests and stomachs was always a turn-
on for me. 
While sex between Sparrow and me had deeper meaning 
and tones to it, sex with Judy was more carefree and a 
little wilder, and the two of them together made for 
an interesting combination, including the fact that 
one was a natural dark brunette while Sparrow was a 
natural light blond. 

Sparrow was a CPA, working for a firm in the SF area, 
and she was doing well for herself.  But she wanted 
more, and really liked the idea of working for me if I 
created my own studio.  Judy was an attorney, and when 
we broached the subject with her one night she lit up 
like a firefly and got really excited.  She said right 
then and there that a studio needs a good lawyer and 
volunteered immediately for the position!  The two of 
them had been living together and were totally 
exclusive with each other, and I loved that about 
them.  Neither had eyes for another woman and both 
confessed that I was all the man they ever needed or 
would be interested in.  Both ladies were still in 
their very early 30's and still had amazing sex appeal 
and I told them so quite often.  It was times like 
that they had to remind me (as they chuckled) that I 
was still a man and in second place because of that!  
Still, as I grew older and saw what those two were 
truly made of, the idea of being with them on a more 
permanent basis had its attractions.  
Strangely enough, both of them had been married for 
several years when they were in their 20's and both of 
them had been treated horribly, which is what 
eventually led to them seeking out other women, and 
their first affairs with women had been a pleasant 
surprise for both of them.  Neither had children, and 
neither really wanted any at this point in their 
lives.  I had developed an active interest in both of 
their lives, especially now that her and Judy were 
such a huge part of my private life.  I would ask her 
every time we talked, how her and Judy were doing, as 
I could see she loved Judy and I could easily tell 
that Judy was crazy about Sparrow too.  I was deathly 
afraid for both of them should they break up and told 
Sparrow that.  She was relaxed as she answered me and 
said that she could easily see her and Judy being 
lifelong partners.  Neither wanted another woman and 
had confessed their love for each other and that their 
roaming and exploratory days were over.  And neither 
wanted a man in their lives with the exception of me.  


Chapter 9

Another year came and went, and by the end of that 
year, I had co-directed 3 movies, one of which I 
starred in myself.  My income was easily 50% more than 
it was my first full year in porn, and now more than 
ever, I could see that there was no way I'd be keeping 
it up for more than a few more years at this pace.  At 
the end of my second full year with Bolder Studios, I 
was now getting $1,250 a week and $1,500 a movie, plus 
Eric, Sparrow, and I worked out a deal where I would 
get to direct 6 movies that next year at $1,000 a 
movie besides.  And Eric bought me a brand new Porshe 
that year as a sign-on bonus, but he told me I had to 
trade in my beloved Corvette to get it.  I decided 
instead to pay Eric the trade-in value for it so I 
could keep it.  I just loved it too much to part with 
it.  Besides, it was my first real car, and I wanted 
to keep it for many years to come.  Eric commented on 
my loyalty to him and his studio as the reason for the 
directing offer and the new car.  Sparrow winked at me 
when he said that, and I realized that a man of his 
word was still a valued commodity by some folks, just 
as Sparrow had said.
At the end of my 3rd full year, my directing had taken 
off, and I found that I'd rather direct than star in 
so many movies.  Eric still wanted me to star in roles 
where the script was more demanding or where we hired 
free-lance porn stars for a starring role in a movie 
that was sure to be a winner because of their big name 
draw.
By the end of my 3rd year in porn, there wasn't a name 
brand female porn star out there that I hadn't fucked 
or eaten or cum in her mouth with, and still, Sparrow 
and Judy stayed with me, confident in my feelings for 
them even though I still could not be open about them 
yet.  There was still something inside me that 
wouldn't let me confess how I felt about those two 
fine ladies, but I knew I would one day...if they were 
still with me by then.

My private encounters slowed a little by choice, and 
now I was only seeing the most wealthy of customers.  
I still had my one gay friend, and out of loyalty to 
him, I only charged him $2,000 to give me a blow job, 
which still happened about every 2 months or so.  I 
still wasn't ever going to change my ways, but it was 
easier now to lay in a bed or sit in a chair or just 
stand in front of Steve and let him suck me off 
lovingly.  Then one day he offered me $5,000 to have 
me fuck his ass and so I slipped a rubber on and took 
him for the first time that way.  I have to admit it 
was a good fuck, but I couldn't look down at him as he 
was on his knees in front of me.  He had wanted so bad 
for me to cum in his ass without a rubber so at the 
last second I peeled it off and did and he groaned his 
delight quite loudly as I really tore him up when I 
came.  Steve offered to pay me $5,000 from then on for 
the same experience, but later when AIDs was known to 
exist, I wanted him to get checked before we would 
repeat that adventure.  I fucked him at least 6 times 
that year next year with him sucking me off first then 
taking me up his ass for the second cum, for which he 
paid me $7,500.  He was my highest paying customer 
ever, and I made him swear to never tell a soul about 
it or we'd be through.  As far as I knew, he never 
told a soul, but I knew he'd fallen in love with me as 
he wanted our time together to be more loving and less 
forceful as the months went by.  The money for Steve 
was no big deal, as I knew he owned several successful 
businesses in town and was a millionaire several times 
over.  After about 2 years of seeing him on the side, 
I approached him about being a silent partner in a new 
porn studio that I was considering putting together.  
He agreed excitedly but was hesitant and sad when I 
told him that it would mean our relationship would 
have to become platonic should we become partners.  "I 
don't think I can do that, Rod" he said with tears in 
his eyes.  I told him to think about it then and if he 
had a way around it to let me know.  Steve knew that I 
had two very special women in my life and that they 
were never under any circumstances to find out about 
him and me, to which he'd agreed.
In the meantime, I had carefully whittled down my 
client base to about one or two women a week who I 
would continue to see for a minimum of $3,000 a visit.  
To a one, they had had no problem with the money I was 
asking for, and were all just happy that I was still 
seeing them occasionally.  All the other clients 
stopped by the start of my 5th year in the business.
By now, my pay was close to the highest for a male 
actor in the West Coast porn industry, but I was 
directing around 12 movies a year now, and only 
starring in about the same amount.  I was 25 now and 
needed to finalize my plans for my own studio.  The 
central theme for my movies was becoming more and more 
apparent to me as my time and exposure in the industry 
grew.  
It was clear to me that the porn industry was geared 
towards men and the male mind-set.  It was a mind-set 
that was growing increasingly demeaning toward women 
and many times was degrading and mean-spirited.  I 
happened to know from my travels to trade shows and 
porn industry get togethers that a lot of porn buyers 
and watchers...and I mean a LOT...were women.  And the 
more I talked to them, the more one thing became 
apparent to me.  Those women - and a lot of men I'd 
met - wanted a gentler type of porn.  A romantic type 
of porn.  One that sweethearts could watch together.  
One that older married couples could watch and not 
feel like they needed to take a shower afterward from 
the grossness of some of the scenes.  And from all of 
that a genesis of sorts started in my mind.  It was 
1980 and I needed to be on the ground floor of this 
movement and time was growing short.  Someone else 
with money was going to do it first and then I'd be a 
follower and not a leader in the industry.


Chapter 10

That weekend the girls came over for a long day of 
laying around and loving each other and eating 
decadently.  By now, my relationship with Judy was 
almost as strong as the one I shared with Sparrow.  No 
conversation or opinion was off limits or taboo with 
us.  We were completely comfortable in bed together, 
the three of us spending hours in each others arms 
escaping the world and just napping or tenderly 
touching and exploring each other.  Judy had always 
made more of a big deal about my size whereas Sparrow 
had only shyly told me how much she loved my cock and 
balls.  I guess what I'm trying to say is that Sparrow 
was more relaxed about my size but Judy was more 
obviously in awe and in love with the size and the 
amount of cum I gave her when she took it from me.
My time with them was a break from the real world, and 
the way they loved me unreservedly was not lost on me.  
I respected that and more than that, I treasured it.  
I was always sweet and gentle with Sparrow and Judy, 
and always more interested in pleasing them - both in 
and out of bed - than I was in being pleased myself.  
Our time together was always special to me and I 
wanted them to feel like they were the only women in 
the world that mattered to me when I was with them.  

That night while after we ate dinner and still sat at 
the table, I guess the emotions of the day finally 
caught up to us all.  It had been a fabulous day, full 
of romantic love and tender words.  I guess you could 
say the planets were starting to align for the three 
of us that day.  Sparrow admitted to me that she loved 
me and always had, and then my eyes teared up when she 
said she knew that I wouldn't return that love because 
of my career and all the other women in my life.  
She'd always felt like I was protecting her heart, and 
she loved me for that alone, but she didn't hold it 
against me and said she couldn't even if she'd wanted 
to.  I had to hang my head as I heard the emotion and 
the love in her voice come out.  Judy sat there 
watching us both but I knew she felt the same way.
I asked them both how they really felt about all those 
other women I was with.  They knew there were other 
women of all ages and walks of life, professional and 
otherwise, some very wealthy and some not so much.  
She smiled and said confidently "But I know where your 
heart is, James."  James was my real first name, and 
very few people in my life knew that but her and Judy, 
and my stage name Rod was never used between us three, 
except when they were joking with me or trying to bait 
me.  "I know your heart is with me...with us...even 
though you won't let yourself feel or acknowledge 
that."  She was tearing up now and it was breaking my 
heart, and maybe for the first time in my life, I let 
that love come out.  I got up and took her in my arms 
then and held her close and I looked at Judy tenderly 
as well.  
"I'm sorry, Sparrow...Jude."  I called her Jude 
sometimes when we were alone.  I said this quietly and 
Sparrow melted into my chest.  "I'm sorry the fates 
have kept us apart...or at least kept my hearts from 
you two."  I knew she could hear my voice breaking 
then as I was trying to get this out while I felt it.  
"I know you knew that getting me into porn was 
probably going to mean never having me as a monogamous 
lover, or a husband, and yet you did it...selflessly." 
I pulled away from her then and there were tears in 
all our eyes now.  "You've always been selfless with 
me, Sparrow!" I said smiling through the tears.  "And 
you too, Judy.  I trust you both more than any person 
on this earth, and that includes my twisted mother.  
(They both knew all the gory details of that 
relationship and how difficult I had found it to break 
away from having sex with my own mother).  "And it's 
true, my most beautiful and best of friends," I said 
finally.  "I do love you both, and I think I always 
have and I always will.  As much as I am able or will 
be able to, I love you, Sparrow" I said, looking 
deeply into her eyes.  Then I turned toward Judy.  
"And I love you too, my beautiful Judy!" I said 
breathlessly.  And if it wouldn't be tearing you and 
Judy apart, and then asking you to still allow me to 
have multiple lovers on a weekly basis, I think I'd 
ask you to be my wife, Sparrow, because there isn't a 
better person in my life, nor has there ever been a 
better person in my life than you, dear!" I said, and 
now there were tears rolling down my cheeks.  
Sparrow watched me speechless the whole time I was 
talking, and I tried like hell to avoid looking at the 
tears that were steadily rolling down her face.
"I've waited a long time for that, James" she said 
quietly, her hands on my arms now.  She had that look 
in her eyes again that always tore me up inside.  The 
look that said 'I'm crazy about you, mister'.  
"Thank you for saying those things to me.  I know they 
came from your heart.  And if anybody in this world 
knows you have a heart, it's me and Judy, and believe 
me, we see a good heart.  I can't help loving you, 
James.  I'm cursed by that love, and yet I get to 
enjoy you and see a side of you that no other woman 
than Judy gets to see, and trust me...she sees it too.  
And I know in my heart that you wouldn't ever share 
that part of you with anyone else in this world.  That 
part you just shared with me.  So I'll keep those 
words in my heart, in that special place I keep 
reserved for my feelings for you.  For the rest of my 
life!" she said quietly and crying softly still.  I 
looked her in the eyes then and kissed her 
passionately.  Maybe more real and passionately than I 
ever had, and she responded freely and eagerly.  Judy 
got up then and came to me as well then and she and I 
kissed with just as much passion and I could taste the 
tears on her face also.  I led them both by the hand 
to my bedroom and gently undressed them both as they 
did me.  By the time we were naked, I was so damn hard 
I could have driven nails with it.  I wanted Sparrow 
so badly, but I wanted this to be sweet and last a 
long time and knew I needed to share that emotion with 
Judy as well.  I went down on both of them gently, 
telling them how much I loved their smells, their 
tastes, their beautiful beautiful bodies, and the feel 
of their very wet pussies against my face.  And I 
meant it.  And from the looks in their eyes, they both 
knew I meant it too.  "Love me now, James!" she said, 
with a pleading voice.  I got up between her legs and 
she took me in her hand and gasped.  "You're so hot 
and hard, baby!" she said as she guided me to her 
slick hole.  My eyes clouded up as I entered her and I 
told her again that I loved her and I know that tears 
fell from my eyes and hit her face and she reached up 
to hold my face as I slid gently back and forth inside 
her, wanting this moment to last forever.  
"Oh, James!" she sobbed, and her legs came up around 
me and locked me to her.  I knew she was cumming, and 
our mouths met.  "Oh, god baby girl!" I groaned.  
"It's never felt this good before!  Not ever!" I said 
into her mouth.
Sparrow had never much said anything about my size 
before tonight, but something changed in her and she 
was different for these moments we were together.  
"God you fill me up so fine, James!  I swear you're up 
in my chest and I'm having trouble breathing because 
of it!" she gasped.
I rolled us over on our sides then and then I was on 
my back, letting her control the rhythm then.  My 
hands went from her hips to her clit to her nipples, 
gently and reverently touching her everywhere.  
"You're so beautiful in this light, baby!" I said, and 
there was awe in my voice.  She was making a sobbing 
noise now and I could feel her pussy drench me and I 
knew she'd cum again and I smiled at her.  "I want 
this to be so good and so right for you, baby!" I 
said, pulling her down to me and kissing her madly.   
She rolled her hips and I groaned into her mouth.  I 
pulled her down to me then so she was laying on me 
fully, and I just held her there. 
Judy had her mouth and hands on both of us and when 
she caught my eyes she quietly said; "let this time be 
between you two, then I want you afterward!" Then she 
laid down on her side facing us just to watch the 
intensity of it all and I noticed that her hand was 
between her legs. 
Then Sparrow sat up and rotated herself so she was 
facing away from me.  I sat up and hugged her back, 
then pulled her down to me so she was laying flat 
again with her back on my chest.  Her legs spread wide 
and she gasped as I gently slid in and out of her.  I 
was wanting so bad to thrust hard into her, but at the 
same time, I wanted to be gentle tonight and just love 
her as she deserved to be loved.  I kissed the back of 
her neck and told her how wonderful she felt, how 
silky soft and so incredibly passionate.  She moaned 
and wriggled up and down my long shaft, making me 
groan.  I rolled us over so she was laying on her 
belly and me on top of her, then I pulled her up to 
her knees.  Usually this position was for fucking, but 
not this time.  I leaned over and kissed her back, and 
my hands roamed all over her breasts, her belly, and 
down to her clit.  She groaned and pushed back against 
me, gasping as I slid in to butt against her cervix.  
"Oh, God James!" she cried out hoarsely.  "It's so 
good, baby!" she groaned.
"I want to see your face, baby!" I said, pulling out 
while she gasped at the loss of me inside her.  She 
rolled over quickly and held her legs wide for me.  I 
looked down at her and couldn't resist.  I took her 
pussy in my mouth again and teased her through another 
orgasm, loving the way her legs were twitching in her 
ecstasy.  
Then I entered her again and listened to her sobs as I 
took her a little harder then, then slowed and kissed 
her, then took her harder again, then slowed and 
buried myself in her.  "God, baby, you feel so huge 
and hot tonight!" She sobbed, and I crushed her mouth 
with mine.  "You feel incredibly hot and tight and so 
velvety smooth and so damn wet, baby!" I said into her 
mouth.  Her legs came back up around me and she sobbed 
again.  "Please cum, James.  Give it to me, baby!" she 
said, whimpering now like a little girl.  Judy was 
writhing and whimpering beside us now, too.  I looked 
at Judy, then back to Sparrow.  "You're too fine, 
Sparrow.  Too sweet, and wonderful, and desirable, and 
all that's good.  And I don't want to take my pleasure 
yet.  I want to give you more first" I said, and our 
tongues met and danced as I slid just imperceptibly in 
and out of her.  She whimpered into my mouth and I 
felt her contractions inside and her legs twitching 
uncontrollably.  "I'm so sensitive, baby!" she said 
with large watery eyes.  "I can feel the ridge of your 
cock head as it moves in me and I swear I can feel the 
veins rubbing against my walls!" she closed her eyes, 
and I moved so very slowly in and out, in and out.  
"Oh, god, James!" she sobbed and her arms went around 
me.  "Oh please cum for me, baby!" she begged.  
For the first time in my life, I couldn't get close 
enough to a woman.  I couldn't love her enough.  And 
for the first time, I truly knew what making love was.  
Up until now, it had just been fucking, but this was 
for real now, and it was overwhelming to me.  "I love 
you, Sparrow" I said as my eyes teared up.  From the 
look in her eyes, she knew the moment she'd waited for 
had come.  The moment when I told her without 
reservation just how strongly I felt for her.  And 
while we shared that look, I began to stroke inside 
her in earnest.  Not hard, but just long buttery 
smooth strokes, in and out, in and out.  And Sparrow 
was cumming again, and now her cries were from down 
deep in her gut.  She was cumming over and over again, 
and I just kept making love to her!  And from the 
sound of it, Judy was cumming again with her.  I was 
getting closer but fighting it with everything in me.  
And still I stroked into her, feeling my cock grow and 
expand in what I knew was the inevitable approach of 
my orgasm.  She looked at me then, feeling the same 
thing, her eyes getting huge, and her mouth curling up 
in a sob of ecstasy.
"Oh, God, James!"  she cried out loudly, trying to 
pull me deeper into her with her legs and arms.  I 
picked up the pace now, listening to my balls slapping 
her ass and the sound of my grunting and her sobbing 
and both of us trying to get enough air to stay alive.  
"Please, baby!"  She cried out in her wonderful agony, 
and finally, I was there.  I picked up the pace even 
more and now I was sure she was at a place she'd never 
been before, because I'd been there for a while now 
myself.  I was fairly well ramming her now, still not 
fucking but loving her desperately and fully.  
"Please...cum...please...baby...just cum for me!" she 
cried as I pounded her.  She was cumming again and her 
pussy tightened up to match the final swelling of my 
cock.  Judy cried out loudly, one hand pulling a 
nipple and the other squishing between her legs.  Then 
I felt it.  That magical point of no return where 
nothing you can do will stop it.  Even if you pulled 
out and plunged your cock into ice water, you'd still 
shoot your load.  
And that's when our eyes locked.  She knew the 
language my cock spoke well enough to know when I'd 
reached that point and she was cumming again in 
response to it and sobbing as she looked into my eyes.  
And now her sobs were from real tears as much as from 
her ecstasy.  And when I felt the first shot 
approaching, I slid fully into her and released my 
seed as deeply as I could.
Her eyes opened wide and she cried out, feeling me 
spurt into her cervix and beyond, and after the first 
shot, I pulled out and started really stroking her 
hard, shooting with each inward stroke and filling her 
up in no time.  And still I came and after something 
like the 4th shot or so, it was coming out of her 
pussy, as there was no place for it to go.  Looking 
back on it, I don't think I've ever shot such a huge 
or violent load, and I was so glad it was with 
Sparrow.  I kept shooting and we kept looking into 
each other's eyes, and she kept cumming and making 
those little girl sobbing noises, and 
then...sadly...it was over, and I fell on top of her, 
listening to her cry into my neck as she held on 
tightly to me.  "Oh, Sparrow!"  I said.  "My sweet 
little Sparrow!" and she cried all the more.  I felt 
her pussy spasm around my cock for almost a minute 
afterward it seemed, and her thighs and buttocks were 
still twitching all that time as well.
We laid that way for several long minutes, trying to 
get our breathing back to normal and slow our hearts 
down for fear of them exploding!  It was the most 
incredible physical experience of my life, and I 
doubted (sadly) that I would ever feel that high 
again.  Then it broke my heart to realize that perhaps 
Sparrow was thinking the same thing.  
"That was incredible, baby!" I whispered.  "You were 
so incredible!"  I went on.  "Sparrow, I..."
"Now you know, don't you?" she said, looking at me for 
confirmation, nodding to me.
I nodded.  "Yes" I nodded back.  "Now I know, my 
love."


Chapter 11

The bed was a disaster.  There was a pool of cum under 
her ass that would never dry out.  I was going to have 
to buy a new mattress, I feared!  We laughed so hard 
about that, and then I looked at Judy and could see 
the hunger in her eyes.
She took me in her mouth then, tasting mine and 
Sparrows juices and groaning with her emotion and 
heat.  Judy was as unique as Sparrow, having perhaps 
the more perfect body and definitely a deeper throat 
and vagina, but then she was two inches taller than 
Sparrow.  Judy had never failed to turn me on and 
tonight was no exception.  I was hard again in no 
time, my hands in her hair and speaking words of 
praise and love to her.  Sparrow sat and watched us 
with tears in her eyes, touching me everywhere, my 
arms, my chest, my face.  Her eyes were searching me 
out as Judy continued to go down on me.  "Love her 
sweetly, James" she said gently.  "Be good to our 
lover, our sweet Judith" she said with great emotion, 
then she rolled back on her side and I could hear her 
fingers in her very wet cunt, making delectable 
squishing noises as she groaned.
Judy got up then and 69'd with me, putting that 
deliciously wet cunt in my face, her beautiful black 
thatch of hair as enticing as it had ever been.  Her 
smell and taste assaulted my senses and I groaned as I 
lapped up her juices.  She'd already cum plenty, and 
her lips were an angry red.  I gently grabbed her hips 
then her ass as I pulled her down to my face, enjoying 
the feel of her body laying flat against mine, her 
firm breasts pushing into my stomach.
"I need you now, Judy!" I groaned, and I heard her sob 
once.  She spun around and straddled me then, finding 
my cock with her slick fingers and sliding me back and 
forth against her very sticky slit.  
"Tell me, now James!" she groaned, "Tell me, too!"  
She sounded like she was begging as she looked down at 
me with hooded eyes.  
"I love you, Judy...my sweet beautiful wonderful 
Judy!" I said, not having to fake my emotion in any 
way.  
And even as the words were coming out of my mouth, she 
descended on my cock and cried out in her ecstasy as 
my very hard cock fully invaded her very hot and moist 
channel.  "Oh, God!" she literally screamed out and 
then she was cumming, the tears rolling down her 
cheeks.
I let her orgasm pass her by, then I rolled her over 
and pulled out to take her steaming cunt in my mouth, 
her strong taste and the heat and wetness of her core 
making the precum ooze from the tip of my cock. 
"Oh, baby!" I groaned.  "You are so fine...so 
beautiful!" I choked.  
Then I got up between her knees showing her how hard 
and angry my cock was.  I knew she loved this view and 
as her head lifted up and she looked down at my hard 
on, she groaned and said; "Yessssss, baby!" 
Then she looked at me and nodded quickly.  "Now, 
James!  Please!" she cried out and her legs came up 
and parted wide for me.  Her hand reached down for my 
length and she groaned as she felt my size and her 
eyes got wide and her mouth formed an "O".
I felt her put me against the opening to her pussy and 
it was so sticky wet that it seemed to be sucking me 
into her as my head found its home in that hot hole.
Her back arched and her eyes closed as she cried out 
and cursed "Oh fuck me, darling!" she sobbed.  And I 
did.
I was giving her as much of my ten inches as I could 
and her breath seemed to be pushed out of her as I 
slid deeply into her hot wet hole.
"Oh, God...I'm cumming, baby!" she cried out and then 
I noticed that Sparrow was cumming again too, as she 
lay next to us on the bed.  
I took Judy like this for several minutes, my arms 
behind her knees pulling her ass up to me and pounding 
her mercilessly.  
She was sobbing and crying out now, alternately 
cursing and then singing my praises.  Her lower legs 
were flopping as I pounded her and she came again as I 
kissed her deeply, my tongue moving in unison with the 
strokes of my cock.  
"Cum in me, darling!" she sobbed and nodded and I 
noticed there were tears in her eyes and running down 
her temples.  "Oh, pleeeease, baby!" she cried out 
loudly.
My cock started swelling and I knew she felt it too, 
and her eyes got big then.  "Yesssss!" she said, 
almost greedy in her need now.  "Harder now, James!" 
she cried out, rolling her hips toward me and reaching 
down between us to scissor my cock between two 
fingers.  "Harder!" she screamed it out now, and so I 
obliged her.
I put everything I had into trying to stuff my entire 
into her pussy, which became my whole universe now.  
That and her hot, pliant mouth, which was continuously 
demanding my kisses.
I pounded her hard then, knowing she would be hurting 
now and worse still in the morning, but she didn't 
seem to care and if it were possible she opened 
herself up to me even more.  "Yesss, baby!" she 
gasped.  "Don't stop, James!" she sobbed.  "Fuck me 
like you've never fucked before, baby!  Show me how 
much you need me!"
I did show her, and I fucked like I'd never done 
before, and yet I put all the love and emotion into it 
that I knew how to do.  Then, I'd reached that point 
of no return and she knew it too and her eyes locked 
on mine as I continued to pummel her harder than I 
ever had before.  I was aware of Sparrow watching us 
in awe and feverishly fingering herself again, and I 
could hear her whimpering as she was getting closer to 
her own climax then.
"Yes, Judy!" I cried out hoarsely now.  "Take it, my 
sweet dark baby girl!" I said as I buried myself and 
bottomed out in her and started to cum.
She sobbed and cried out loudly, then her legs and 
arms wrapped around me tightly and pulled me to her 
while I finished my orgasm.  I felt her twitching and 
shuddering and by the sounds she was making, I knew 
she'd cum again, there at the end, and she'd cum hard. 
For a long time we laid there in each others arms, 
just trying to catch our breath, and speaking tender 
words to each other now that it was over.  
I continued to move inside her, loving to hear her 
groans as I did.  We were kissing passionately and 
roughly, but Jude liked it that way with me.  
Then she reached over and pulled Sparrow to us and the 
three of us hugged and kissed as best we could.  "I 
want to clean him off now, baby!" Sparrow said to 
Judy, who smiled at her.  "Tart!" she whispered, 
giggling as she released me.  I rolled over on my 
back, still half-hard, and felt Sparrows hot mouth on 
me then, sucking her woman's cum and mine from my cock 
and balls while I groaned.  We lay there a long time 
then, just holding each other and speaking soft words 
of love to each other.

Later, we showered together and I reverently washed 
them both down, cleaning everything including between 
their cute little toes, and taking my time with their 
privates, as I knew that Judy especially would be 
sore.  We stayed in the water so long it turned cold 
and we had to get out, then I dried them both off and 
later I brushed their hair.  From time to time, there 
were tears in both their eyes, and I began to realize 
what this night had meant to them both, but especially 
to Sparrow.  And that made me feel even worse, because 
I knew how long she'd waited for this night.  I poured 
us wine, then we went out on the patio and sat in the 
dark looking out at the bay and the lights of the city 
on the other side.  We said little as we sat there in 
the dark.  I refilled our glasses again and then went 
back for another bottle.
As I poured her third glass I heard Sparrow say very 
quietly in the dark "I love you, James."  Her eyes 
were glittering a she looked at me.
I kneeled down next to her on the concrete then and 
kissed her gently, our tongues dancing briefly.  "I 
love you, too, Sparrow" I whispered back.
I stood up then Judy stood and took me in her arms and 
kissed me deeply as well.  "I love you, James!" she 
whispered, but loudly enough for Sparrow to hear.  No 
secrets.  "I love you too, Judith" I said with a 
smile.

We stripped the bed and set up a fan to blow on the 
mattress.  Luckily, I used a mattress pad, as I'd 
ruined a lot of mattresses in my day, and I went to 
the closet and got out a new pad.  The mattress was 
wet in several places and the room smelled of pussy 
and cum.  We decided to lay down in the room Sparrow 
and Judy used when they stayed over, and we fell 
asleep in that bed, coiled up in each other's arms and 
legs.  
I awoke in the morning to Sparrow's fingertips ever so 
gently touching my very hard cock and teasing my sac.  
I said nothing, but let her play and explore.  Her 
fingertips wandered down underneath my sac and they 
tortured my balls and the very sensitive skin down 
there for a long time until I was breathing heavily.  
By now, the precum was dribbling from the end of my 
cock and pooling in my belly button.  Every now and 
then she would stroke me, very softly sometimes and 
then very aggressively at other times, but always 
concentrating on the corona of my cock head.  
It was exquisite torture, but she knew that and 
giggled now and then as my cock bobbed up and down, 
then swelled up, then receded.
"I want to cum inside you again, I want to look into 
your eyes, baby!" I groaned.  I looked at Judy who was 
now away and taking a strong interest in our 
activities.  She leaned over and sucked the pool of 
pre-cum from my belly, then she nodded as she fingered 
herself furiously.  "Yes, James...take her now!" she 
smiled and her eyes closed as she groaned.
"Oh my baby!" Sparrow said.  She got up and sucked the 
head of my cock, then took me in her mouth and got me 
very wet.  She was flicking her tongue maddeningly 
across the tip and underneath it.  She knew I was 
close from my balls rising up and my sac tightening, 
and then my cock elongated.  She rolled over then on 
her back and I got between her legs, I looked down and 
noticed that she was very wet and her lips were spread 
wide apart revealing the hole where I needed to be so 
badly.  I looked up at her then and groaned.  "So 
beautiful!" I said, sliding my cock head into position 
and listening to her groan loudly.  "Now, James!" she 
cried out frantically.
I slid into her wet heat and within seconds she was 
cumming and a few long thrusts afterwards and so was 
I, and we both cried out hoarsely.
I swear in just that minute or so while we were 
linked, we were breathing just as hard as we had been 
after the long session last night!  I held her tight 
while I was fully sheathed in her, and we kissed 
madly.  
Judy was cumming loudly and the sound of her fingers 
in her wet pussy had me really going now.
Sparrow felt so hot and wet and tight and just 
terribly exciting inside, and my cock was so happy to 
be back inside her that I came quicker than I had in a 
long, long time.  She was glowing and obviously quite 
proud of herself for the way she'd gotten me worked 
up.  I had to admit I was pretty proud of her, too, 
and I praised her for how wonderful she'd felt this 
morning.
It was Saturday, and I got up to make us coffee, and 
came back into the room to find Judy going down on 
Sparrow, and then swiveling around to 69 with her.  I 
stood there watching them and smiling.  I would have 
loved to take Judy's ass while Sparrow ate her out 
from below, but I wouldn't ever want to hurt Judy.  
Not ever. 
We had coffee, then we showered and decided to go for 
a ride down the coast and find breakfast somewhere 
along the way.  The weather was fine, and the only 
debate we had all day was who's car do we take?  I 
gave in to her wanting to take the Mustang, and she 
clapped her hands like a little girl as I said what 
the hell, so off we went.  And we had a day the three 
of us never forgot, eating breakfast at a little 
diner, then walking along a beach in the cold water, 
just talking about nothing and everything, and mostly 
acting like three people in love.  We couldn't wait to 
get home that evening, and we couldn't keep our hands 
off each other.  Judy admitted to being pretty sore, 
but she and I still made passionate love that evening 
and both of us came away from it exhausted once again 
and laughing.  Then it was time to be with Sparrow 
again, and Judy left us alone to go soak in the tub.
The next 30 minutes were heavenly, and I took my sweet 
time with Sparrow, my mouth on every part of her body 
before gently making sweet love to her and telling her 
the things I'd always wanted to say to her.  Being 
with Sparrow was so different in some ways than being 
with Judy.  Oh, they were both patient in waiting for 
their "turn" with me, but when it was their turn, they 
loved me in their own unique way and both of them 
never failed to arouse me completely.  But tonight was 
extra special with Sparrow, and she made it that way 
for me as well.  As much as I loved shooting my cum on 
a woman's eager face and into her open and hungry 
mouth, I really wanted none of that with the girls.  I 
wanted to look them in the eyes now as I came into 
their hot pussies, with them looking back at me and us 
sharing words only meant for us.  I think I finally 
became a man that weekend.


Chapter 12

Saturday evening turned to night, and I'd had enough 
time to think about everything.  Now was the right 
time to talk to the girls about my studio idea.
We gathered around the dining room table with wine and 
I started it off.
"I haven't forgotten about my dream to start my own 
studio" I said.  "In fact, it's never been far from my 
thoughts and I think I may have a market niche for us 
to fit into...one where no one else has had the 
courage, or maybe the foresight, to go into yet.  But 
the studios are going to start to see this new niche 
and will begin to exploit it, and soon, I'm afraid."  
I had their full attention now.
"Let's face it, girls...porn is made for men and horny 
women.  It's about women being degraded and even 
abused, and it's getting worse and will only continue 
to get worse."  I started up again.  "We've all heard 
about snuff movies, and that's just the start of 
things.  Now they have bondage and even mild torture 
scenes with women who are willing to play the part.  
And did you ever stop to think that it's the women out 
there who are being hurt because of that new trend?" I 
didn't wait for an answer, but they were both staring 
intently at me now.
"I've been to dozens of trade shows and awards 
banquets and other porn-related public functions, and 
I've talked to hundreds if not thousands of people, 
and many want something else out of their porn.  They 
want gentleness.  They want a little love to go with 
the lust."  I stopped for a second, taking a drink of 
wine.  "Do either of you know how many women out there 
watch porn?  Would you care to guess how many more of 
them would watch it or start buying it if it was 
geared more toward them?  Toward women?"  I watched as 
their eyes changed then.
"I'm talking about starting a new porn studio where 
women aren't degraded.  Where the actors act more like 
real people, and can share a real dialogue on tape.  
And who will act out scenes of romantic wooing and 
seducing, where there's just a hint of the taboo or 
the dirtiness of raw sex, but with more of an "I want 
to make love to you baby!" kind of attitude.  Like 
we've had this weekend so far!  That raw, "I wanna 
look in your eyes when I cum" kind of thing!  Where 
men aren't the aggressors or the forceful ones, but 
where women have a say-so too, and sometimes they get 
to be the forceful aggressive ones, but in a sensual, 
sexy kind of way.  No more cumming in faces unless it 
fits the mood of the scene, no more ass fucking unless 
it fits also...no pun intended!  Maybe we even try out 
some new amateurs for some lovemaking scenes.  Maybe 
even existing lovers or married couples!"  I stopped 
for a second.  "And what neither of you know is that 
my little black book has about two dozen names of some 
really special people who would be interested in being 
a part of a studio like that, and maybe even being 
silent partners!"
Judy licked her lips.  "Maybe even girls like us 
seducing a younger man, for instance?" and she looked 
at me smiling a secret smile.  
"Judith Anne!" Sparrow said.  "Are you saying what I'm 
thinking you're saying?" she asked.
"I think I am!" Judy said, giggling.  Maybe James and 
I could do a scene or two together.  I think it'd be 
hot!" she said, squirming in her chair.
"But what about your career?" Sparrow asked at about 
the same time I did.
"What about it?" she said.  "I hate my work 
now...so...maybe I could start representing porn stars 
instead?  Or working for the studio as an attorney?  
Or both?"  
Sparrow looked at me.  "Well, my lovemaking with James 
is too private for me to want to share it with the 
world, I think!"  she said, clearly surprised at 
Judy's suggestion.  I reached out to hold her hand and 
smiled at her when she looked at me.  
"That's something we can discuss way down the line, 
girls" I said, putting a stop to it for then.  "We 
have so much more to decide on before it ever gets 
that far!" I went on.  "Like I said, I have several 
people who would be interested in becoming silent 
investors, and who have a lot of money to invest.  I 
have over a quarter of a million in cash, plus at 
least another hundred thousand in legitimate money in 
the bank I could part with.  I'm pretty sure you two 
have been saving as well.  That's more than enough to 
get the ball rolling.  My contract ends with Bolder in 
three months.  I'm going to approach him and ask if he 
wants a part of the action, but only as a silent 
partner.  How do you girls feel about that?" 
They sat there a long time, looking at each other then 
at me.  Sparrow spoke first.  "I think it's a 
brilliant idea, and I think it'll work with the right 
marketing campaign and the right people involved, but 
they'd have to share our dream or I don't think we can 
let them participate on screen, no matter how pretty 
they are!" she said.  I agreed and so did Judy.
"Do both of you want in on this?" I asked seriously.
They looked at each other then back at me.  "I'm with 
you, honey!" Sparrow said first, and at the same time, 
Judy yelled "Hell, yes!"

That evening, the girls treated me to an especially 
good time, putting on a very intense show of 
lovemaking that I just sat and gawked at.  I'd seen 
women with women on the set many times, but it was 
never real like this.  Never true and honest like 
this.  I remember thinking that maybe this was 
something else we could do.  Enlist the help of gay 
couples to act out their love life on the screen for 
others to see how passionate and real it could all be.
I watched the girls for close to an hour, but by the 
end of that time, I was so hard I hurt and I needed 
some help from them and quick.
They both got on their knees before me and treated me 
to the finest and most exciting two-girl blow job I'd 
ever had, and I finished by jacking off into their 
faces then watched as they shared my cum before 
swallowing it, then licked each other's faces and tits 
off.  It was amazingly sexual and that's when I knew 
we were headed down the right path with the game plan 
for our new studio.

I made breakfast Sunday morning, letting the girls 
sleep in, but not before just standing there looking 
at them sleeping in each other's arms, naked as the 
day they were born.  It was perhaps the sexiest thing 
I'd ever seen in my life, and I realized now that I 
was capable of loving them, and I was determined to 
make it work between the three of us.  Even if that 
meant they came first all the time!


Chapter 13

I made french toast and bacon, then went in to look at 
them again.  Then I crawled into bed and put my mouth 
on both their pussies, inhaling deeply of their 
slightly different and sexy aromas and thrilling to 
the different taste that came from each of them.  They 
woke up giggling like little girls, and it turned me 
on and warmed my heart.  Soon I was taking turns being 
inside of first one, then the other, while the one I 
was inside was eating the other's pussy.  I knew then 
I could be happy waking them up for the rest of their 
lives like this, and I told them so after I came in 
Judy's hot wet pussy.
With breakfast and dishes out of the way, the girls 
sat me down for our last big talk of the weekend.  "We 
talked about it this morning while you were out here 
making breakfast.  We want the three of us to move in 
together!  As soon as possible now, James" Sparrow 
said, and both of them were watching my face 
carefully.  I was speechless.  
"Y-y-yesss!" I said, amazed and very happy.
"We've talked about it before, but this weekend has 
shown us both now that it's the right thing to do, and 
now's the right time!" Sparrow continued.

I was really eager to see the girls for dinner Monday 
night at my place, but at the same time, I was kind of 
scared.  Part of me wanted to be with both of them, 
and I knew in my heart now why I felt that way.  I 
knew I loved Sparrow, and in admitting it to her, I 
had in effect admitted it to myself officially and out 
loud at the same time.  But there was still more to 
this than I had let on to myself.  And it seems like I 
was good at not allowing myself to feel things or 
admit them, doesn't it?
But I realized that I loved Judy as well.  I loved her 
because she loved Sparrow, first off.  And I loved her 
because I trusted her, and admired her, and liked her 
personality.  And I loved her because of our intimate 
times together, which kept just getting better with 
time.  But I also knew that because of the sum of all 
these things and others, I just knew that I loved her.  
Period.  It seems that opening up to Sparrow was in 
effect opening up to myself, and all day Monday, I 
gave a lot of thought to the three of us being 
together, and that's when I kept coming back to seeing 
Judy's face in my mind, and hearing her voice, and to 
just plain feeling good when she was around.  And then 
I realized that I'd been hiding things from myself 
again.  Oh, I could blame it on trying to protect 
myself or protect Judy, or protect their relationship, 
but the real blame rested squarely with me.  I was 
callous.  Oh, I could be sweet and nice and thoughtful 
and considerate, but inside, I'd grown callous and 
cold, and the wall I'd built around my heart and mind 
was tall and thick and, up until now I thought was 
impenetrable.  But it wasn't.  And you want to know 
something?  I was glad for that.

Before the girls came in, I'd already made up my mind.  
On the way home, I bought two huge bouquets of flowers 
for them and put them on the dining room table with 
cards for each of them.  Inside, I'd written notes 
specifically for each one, different and yet both very 
strong and romantic.  I had showered and cleaned the 
house and remade my bed, hoping they would share it 
with me tonight and from then on.
I met them at the door, warmly welcoming them in, 
hugging and kissing each one sweetly in their turn.
When they saw the flowers, Sparrow was the first to 
tear up, but Judy was quick to follow.  "Well, the 
last time a man gave me flowers was many years ago, 
and as I recall, all he wanted was to get in my 
pants!" she said, and the girls laughed.  I came up 
behind her then and nuzzled her neck.  "I hope that's 
exactly what we'll get to do tonight, baby!" I said 
for her ears only, and she looked at me differently 
then, and reached behind her to feel my crotch 
briefly.  "Me too!" she whispered excitedly.  She 
smelled incredible and I couldn't wait to be with her.  
Sparrow had sat down and was reading her card, while 
that conversation was going on, then she got up crying 
and got up to hug me hard, her body shaking.  Judy 
looked at her and then at me, and just smiled at me 
then and winked then shook her head.  Then she picked 
up her card.  This is the letter I wrote to her that 
was folded up in her card:

You are very special to me, Judy.  You are lovely to 
me, both inside and out.  You are interesting and 
appealing and challenging and also, yes...very sexy 
and beautiful to me.  And you have a gentle and sweet 
spirit that is working hard to win my heart, and I'm 
afraid it has done just that.  There's only Sparrow in 
my life besides you, and even though there are many 
other women I'm with right now in my life, you two are 
the only ones I truly care about and trust and admire, 
and yes...love.  
I've thought a lot about the both of you this weekend, 
and realize that I've been lying to myself, saying I 
was protecting you two from getting sucked into the 
cesspool of my life, when really I was trying to hide 
from my own true feelings.  
The truth is, I love you, Judy.  Maybe not in the same 
way or with the same intensity I do for Sparrow right 
now, but with the same amount of concern and care and 
protective feelings that I think are a good foundation 
for true love.  I know that sounds strange to you, me 
talking about true love, but like I said, I've really 
examined myself lately, and quite frankly have found 
myself wanting.  
I love you with a growing desire to be with you, Judy.  
As a friend, as a companion, and as a lover.  But I 
only want you if you can still have Sparrow and she 
can still have you.  I love you with a desire to 
protect what you and Sparrow have and would bow out if 
there should ever come a time when your relationship 
with her is threatened by my presence.  I want you two 
to stand the test of time and to always be 
happy...more than I want me to be happy or for the 
three of us to work out.  My desire to be with you is 
selfish on the one hand, but is also based on the fact 
that I realize now that I need you both in my life.  I 
need you for your collective strength, your peaceful 
ways, your love for each other, and your love for me 
also.   
I love Sparrow with a strong and true love, Judy...and 
in my heart, I know that I will come to love you just 
as strongly one day soon, if you'll trust me and let 
me into your heart and share your precious 
relationship with our beautiful Sparrow.
Love,
James 

Judy was crying now and handed the card to Sparrow and 
then she started crying again.  I just stood there and 
watched them both read each others notes, knowing 
ahead of time that they would share them with each 
other, but not caring.
Both girls were still adamant about moving in and so I 
asked them if I could show them something.  Today, I'd 
bought four ornate gold bands, four because I had no 
idea what size they're thumbs would be.  Before I 
showed them the bands, I said;  "If the laws allowed 
it, I would ask you both to be my wives.  But on the 
other hand, I know you are already married to each 
other in spirit, and would never, ever, want to do 
anything to hurt either of you.  Still, I feel the 
strong need to give you both something.  A token of my 
love and devotion to both of you."  I opened my hand 
and there were two bands in my palm.  I heard them 
gasp, and saw the tears then.
"Heyyyyy..." I said softly.  "If you don't like this 
idea, it's OK!  Really!"  They were shaking their 
heads then.  "These are actually thumb rings, not 
ring-finger rings.  I want you to know I didn't do 
this lightly, nor did I want them on your ring 
fingers, as I want for you to wear the rings you'll 
give each other when the state finally says your 
marriage would be legal.  I wouldn't ever stand in the 
way of that."  Now they were crying and both of them 
reached in and took a ring.  As luck would have it, 
both of them fit nicely, so I said nothing about the 
other two.  I'd return them to the jewelry store 
later.
"These are a token of my love for both of you.  When 
you see them, you'll remember that of all the women in 
my life, you two are the only ones I love and cherish.  
I revere you both, and I love you with all my heart."
We all kind of lost it for a while then, and I saw 
them both looking at those rings and whispering 
together, no doubt wondering at the change in me.
We ate our dinner with a nice wine Judy had picked up 
and talked more.  Both girls were red-eyed and tired 
and I could see my greeting tonight had been emotional 
for them, as it had been for me.
I went into my bath and fixed them a bubble bath and 
lit candles for them, then left them to themselves to 
enjoy their time alone while I puttered around the 
house.
At about 10pm, they both came out looking for me, 
naked as the day they were born, and looking as lovely 
as I'd ever seen them.  Each of them took one of my 
hands and led me back to the bedroom where they 
undressed me.  For the next hour, I pleasured them and 
they pleasured each other, but I only with my mouth or 
hands.  The were both constantly teasing me, stroking 
or touching my cock or balls, and kissing me all over 
my body.  But my interest was in pleasing them and 
helping them to be excited and participate in their 
orgasms.  In the end, Sparrow laid back on her side 
and looked at the two of us and it was clear she 
wanted me to take Judy.  Then I made love to her in 
almost the same way as I had Sparrow that past 
weekend.  Sparrow was patient and just watched with 
glowing eyes as I led Judy to several long and painful 
orgasms.  I'd already cum twice that day while 
filming, so I knew I could last almost forever tonight 
with her, but I was still more excited with her than I 
had been with the other two ladies that day combined.
Judy was submissive and clingy tonight, and very soft 
and loving, her dark eyes locked on mine as we kissed 
and I teased her pussy by slowly moving in and out of 
her.  I was rock hard and she was sobbing and 
whimpering by the time she finally begged me to cum in 
her.  It was almost an instant replay of Sparrow and 
me on Friday night, but yet it was completely 
different.  Judy was not demanding but she took as 
well as gave, and she was completely exciting and 
bewitching to make love to.  And that's what it was.  
No fucking tonight. only sweet lovemaking.  And 
finally when I came, there were tears in her eyes and 
she held me close as we kissed deeply and I flooded 
her sweet tight pussy with my juice.
To have Sparrow as a lover was heavenly.  To have Judy 
as well was beyond what any man had a right to enjoy.  
When it was over, Judy clung to me and sobbed in my 
arms, her legs and ass twitching for some moments 
afterward until she calmed down.

The three of us fell asleep in each others arms, and 
slept in until almost 8am.  I slipped out of bed, and 
went and made coffee.  I had come to hunger for the 
sight of the two of them curled up naked in my bed in 
the morning.  It was breathtaking and I could only 
stand and stare.  Judy woke up first and smiled at me.  
"Morning, lover!" she whispered.  
"You two are stunning!" I whispered.  "So beautiful 
and sexy and just overwhelmingly stunning!" I said, 
shaking my head.  She giggled then opened her arms for 
me to join her.  "Last night was the best I've ever 
had, James!" she whispered into my ear.  "I love you, 
darling!" she said shyly then.  "I love you, too, baby 
girl!" I said, kissing her lightly.  Then I asked "Is 
it ok if I wake Sparrow up?" and I smiled devilishly 
and winked.  She giggled and nodded.
I gently pulled the covers back revealing her sleeping 
nude form.  "I can see why you love her so much, 
Judy!" I said with awe in my voice.  
I slipped down between Sparrows legs and parted them 
carefully then licked her ever so gently, listening to 
her moan in her sleep.  Judy giggled again, and began 
to finger herself, which turned me on tremendously.
I concentrated on Sparrows clit then and soon she was 
moaning and moving and then she woke up and her 
fingers went into my hair and she chuckled throatily.  
"Mmmmmmm!" Sparrow groaned.  "I'm so close baby!" she 
whispered.  Judy said "so am I love!" and she 
straddled Sparrows face and bent over, giving me a 
view of her ass and slit as Sparrow sucked her clit.
Soon both girls were whimpering and cumming and I 
found it such a turn-on to be eating Sparrow while 
looking at Judy's ass and thighs as Sparrow ate her 
out.  It was a great way to start the day.


Chapter 14

Eric Bolder and Steve the gay guy, and one other 
wealthy woman I'd been seeing for almost 4 years now, 
as well as both Sparrow and Judy, all ended up 
becoming silent investors in my new studio, which I 
named after my stage name.  Rod Hardy Studios was born 
in July of 1982, seven years after I got my start in 
the industry.  
Not only did we find professional actors who wanted to 
be a part of it, we found lesbian and gay couples who 
also wanted to try it out.  Within a few weeks of the 
public announcement, I had a call from the identical 
twins, as well as several others who'd expressed an 
interest in being a part of the studio.  Even Judy and 
I ended up shooting several scenes together, but only 
after we'd discussed it with Sparrow first and gotten 
her permission.  We got a lot of great feedback about 
those scenes.  It turns out that there really were a 
lot of people out there who would watch porn if it 
wasn't just so degrading and demeaning...to both women 
and men.  Our story lines were smart, and we insisted 
on realism in both the script and the action scenes.  
We often let the scenes unravel the way the actors 
wanted them or felt they wanted them to go, and this 
proved to be a powerful formula that really came 
across as authentic and passionate and real, unlike 
the canned porn so prevalent in those days.  
Two full years into it,we won the Studio of the Year 
award, and won it again two years after that.  We also 
won awards for best newcomers, best girl/girl duos and 
several others.  We hit one million videos sold less 
than 16 months after we started operations, and had 
averaged making one video a week during those first 16 
months.  We had a brainstorm in our second year and 
hired good writers to generate plots for a year-long 
series of 12 episodes.  By the end of that first year 
of filming, the public was clamoring for more.  The 
reviews were in, and we were at the top of our genre.  
We'd found a formula that worked, and we were having 
the best damn time doing it all, too.
We paid our actors and actresses well, and our silent 
partners even better! 
By the time they were 40, both Sparrow and Judy were 
millionaires, and now Sparrow had six classic Mustangs 
in her huge shop on our new property.  She never sold 
that old '71 I bought for her years earlier, claiming 
it would always be her favorite.  I felt the same way 
about her being my favorite, but that was our secret.  
Judy and her both worked for the studio and when they 
hit their early 40's, they turned the reigns over to 
younger folks and "retired" to pursue other interests.  
I starred in porn roles until I sold the studio in 
1997, when I retired at the age of 40.  By that time, 
the girls were approaching 50 and still had my heart 
in a way no other women ever would or could.  At that 
time, I became exclusive to and with them, and found 
that I was indeed capable of loving someone or in this 
case, two very special someones!  And once it was just 
the three of us, things really took off and just got 
better and better.  The three of us bought houses in 
Colorado, Florida, and California, and traveled to 
them whenever the mood struck us for a change of 
scenery.  I sold the studio when I was 44, for way 
more than enough for the three of us to live lavishly 
for the rest of our lives on.  
Sparrow continues to be the one true love of my life, 
and I adore her completely.  Judith and I are still 
crazy about each other and her and Sparrow continue 
with a love that I have no doubt will last them the 
rest of their lives.  Finally, in June of 2008, 
California made same sex marriages legal, and they 
asked my permission to marry, and I served as 'best 
man' for both of them.  Now they each had two gold 
bands on their left hands.  They are both amazing 
creatures and I love them dearly and cannot feature 
life without them.  Either one of them.  Judith 
continues to be the Yin to Sparrow's Yang, but that's 
ok, because that variety keeps all three of us young 
and in love even until this day.