Author: Madame Ovary Title: Diary of a Porn Star Summary: James is so gifted that with the help of a close friend, he becomes a top West Coast porn star in the 70?s. This is his story. Keywords: mf, mff, inc, MF, MFF, MM, cons, rom <!--ADULTSONLY--> James grows up alone with a mother who teaches him all about women. After high school, he meets an older woman who falls for him, and with her contacts on the West Coast, she gets him an audition at a major porn studio. It?s the 1970?s and James is rapidly becoming a household name in the porn industry, but he wants more. With the help of his lover and her lover, as well as some of the wealthier contacts he?s made over the years, he starts his own studio. In the end, his studio becomes the first to introduce romantic porn to the world. Diary of a Porn Star By Madame Ovary Sept-Oct 2015 Chapter 1 From a fairly early age, I knew I was physically gifted. About the time I got into high school, I could see the difference between me and the other guys when we would shower after gym. No one in my class ever held a candle to me, and I got a lot of looks and comments over the years about it. My mother had talked to me about those kinds of things early on, but as I got older, our talks became more personal. By the time I was 14 it was very obvious that she had trouble keeping her hands (or mouth, or pussy) off me. Dad left when us when I was 10, and never wrote or came back or contacted me or her ever again. I don't think my mom ever slept with another man - other than me - until I was long gone from the house. I think it was a trust thing with her and other men, and who could blame her? In fact, it was my mother who taught me about sex, and I do mean everything about it. Our first encounter was her catching me jacking off in bed one day. She just stood at the door to my bedroom and watched me, and I could see the fire in her eyes. She casually walked in and told me not to be embarrassed or stop. I can still remember seeing her licking her lips and her eyes glazing over as she approached my bed. I can also remember the look in her eyes and how her breathing picked up when she sat beside me. She couldn't take her eyes off my cock and within moments had asked me if she could touch it and the rest was history. From that very first glimpse of me with a hard-on, Mom told me I had a beautiful cock, and by her actions I knew she came to worship it. That first time in my bedroom, I was too embarrassed to keep jacking off so she cleared her throat and asked me if I would like her to help me. Her hands were like silk compared to mine and the way she played with my balls drove me up and over the edge in just a few seconds. But an even bigger surprise was in store for my mom when I came, because even at 14, I came more than most men do with a heavy orgasm. I warned her to aim it at a towel or something because I could easily hit my own face with it for the first 3-4 shots and this time was no exception. My first shot hit the headboard, and by the look of shock on her face, I knew for sure now that this was unusual for a guy to be able to do. After that first time, she was a lot more careful about where she was aiming my cock when I came, that's for sure. It seemed like her favorite place to aim it was at her gaping mouth as she kneeled on the floor in front of me or when she kneeled over me while I lay in bed. Later, when I got into the porn business, I realized my mom was what guys called a 'cum queen'. There wasn't a time when she didn't want me cumming in her mouth, and she claimed she loved the taste of it, which made sense considering how much she drank down over the next four years I lived at home! As a matter of fact, after that first hand-job she gave me that Saturday morning, she gave me my first blow job that night, and lucky for her, she knew what was coming (so to speak), and frantically swallowed it all down as fast as she could. That was the first of many times mom drank my cum, and she always seemed to get such a kick out of sucking me off and drinking down my entire orgasm. It was also the first time I'd been given head, and the feeling was unbelievable and I wanted more. It never occurred to me that it was really freaky what me and my mom had going on with each other. I knew she was lonely and that my dad had done her wrong, and being only 14, I felt like if I could help her to feel more loved and content, then I would do my part. I'd been 15 for a while when mom first measured me and I found that I was 8-1/2 inches when fully hard, and I could just about fill her mouth when I came hard the first time in a day. My cum was milky and not terribly thick with almost no color variation to it and no lumps for my first and second cum of the day and it only got thicker and more lumpy around the third or fourth cum of the day. Back then, I could cum 4-5 times a day every day, then gradually it dropped back to only 3-4 times a day when I hit 24 years old or so. Mom said the shape of my cock made it the most beautiful she'd ever seen, with a full large corona running around the head and thick veins feeding the shaft, which pulsed when I came. She said she loved the way it stood up so strong and proud with a slight curl back toward me, and she loved the way the head swelled as I was cumming. She said she could feel it inside her and it was always exciting for her, the anticipation of feeling me flood her pussy and feeling the way my cock swelled and surged when I came. She also said my balls were the heftiest she'd ever seen and she showed me how to shave everything down there so I could keep it silky smooth for her. She loved to bury her face in my sac and run her tongue up my ass, but mostly, she just loved everything about my 'package', as she called it. Mom told me at some point early on that I would never have a problem getting girls to go out with me, especially after the word got out about my size. The problem, she said, would be with getting the right kind of girls, and not always getting the sluts. She told me that the size of my cock in addition to amount I came would frighten a lot of the good girls off, and that I would have to be careful there. She warned me that the smaller girls would not enjoy sex with me because it would hurt them. She said that I literally had a 'one in a million' cock, and that I would never have a problem with a woman I was dating going astray on me, but she warned me that they would always be jealous of me, worrying that I would always be looking for that next pussy or mouth around the corner. It was during this early period of discovery with my mom that I also learned that I could cum twice in a row without losing my erection. Mom was clearly amazed and thrilled by that, and loved it as she would get me to cum in her mouth the first time, swallowing frantically to get it all down and groaning all the while, and then let me fuck her for the second go- around and then get me to cum in her pussy. She claimed I lasted longer that way when we finally got around to fucking, and she liked me to last. The first time we ever fucked was a true eye-opener for me, and nothing had ever felt as good as that. Apparently nothing had ever felt that good for my mom, either, judging by the way she acted and the sounds she made. There were weekends where mom wanted it in the morning, sucking me off while I was first waking up, then fucking me while our bladders were still full, then she'd do it again the same way at night, and by the time I was 16, we were pretty much sleeping together in the same bed most nights. Here I was, having a completely incestuous relationship with my mother, who was only 34 or 35 at the time, but I didn't care, and if the truth be told, I didn't know any different. I loved my mom and felt bad for her living her life alone, and not trusting other men. Besides, I was learning everything there was to know about how to please a woman and how to make it last as long as I could before I came, plus I was getting pussy every day, and head from her just about as often. Yep, those days taught me my way around a woman's body and how best to please her, so by the time I was fucking other girls at school, I probably knew more about sex than any other boy my age, and just like mom had said, the girls were flocking around me all the time after that. Mom taught me how to eat pussy, and how to torture a girl with it, stringing her along and not letting her cum until she begged for it. She taught me not to be squeamish about body fluids and about licking her ass or her tonguing mine. I was about 16 when mom first wanted to try anal sex, but I bloodied her ass pretty good that first time with her and she was scared to death to try it that way again. Mom was only 5'3", and not really built to take a cock the size of mine up her ass, no matter how bad she wanted it there. I figured it was kind of like her throat. She groaned in frustration many times because she could never get my length down her throat as she was just too tiny of a woman. I was already 6' tall at 16 years, and my cock kept growing until I was 17, when it finally stopped at just a tad over 10" long. A couple of years later, mom got drunk one night and squirted a good amount of KY up her ass and slathered it all over my cock. She begged me that night to try it just once more, and then she yelled and screamed most of the time I was in her, but I got it in her all the way and really had my way with her, reaming her out good. She bled again that time, but at least I got to cum in her ass, which was a new experience for me. That was the last time I ever fucked her up the ass, but not the last time for me by any stretch (to coin a phrase!). But I never forgot how tight she was in her ass, and secretly I'd enjoyed having my way with her that one time! Mom told me several times that she'd never seen or heard of a man who came as much as I did during an orgasm. She said the only reason she would drink it all down is because it was such a turn on to swallow that much, plus she said mine really had a sweeter, milder flavor than any man she'd had in the past. I guess my mom had sucked her share of cock in her day and then some, from what little she told me about it. Chapter 2 I guess I didn't start to realize just how freaky my mom was and how twisted our relationship really was until I started seeing other girls as I got older. And the more girls I saw on the side, the less I wanted to be with my mom. By the time I left home, I was more than ready to get out on my own and be away from our relationship, which became more than just fucking for her. She was in love with me and was talking about having my child, and that's when it hit me that I had to get out at the first good opportunity. My first what I'd call 'girlfriend' at my high school was Mary Jane Simpson, who gave me a hand job under the bleachers at a football game. I never did hook up with Mary Jane again after that, and I always blamed that on my size, as I can remember how she freaked out about how big I was and how much I came. Strangely enough (or so it seemed that way at the time to me), I got a hand job from Stephy Wilkins the very next weekend, and she even tried to eat some of my cum when I came. Apparently, those first girls talked about me with their friends, and then they talked, and so on. Over the last six months of my junior year, girls were coming up to me in the school halls from not only my class, but also some senior girls and some sophomores and even a freshman or two. They all wanted a date with me, and in the end, they all wanted to see if the stories were true. Word got around fast, just like mom had told me it would, and by the time I'd graduated, I was neck deep in sweet young pussy, and had stretched out cunts from girls as young as 13 to college girls. At first I couldn't believe how easy it was, and I never had to ask a girl out my entire high school years, they just came to me, and sometimes it was like they were standing in line waiting for the chance to be with me! But mom was right, they weren't the kind of girls you'd want to have a long-term relationship with. They just wanted to try out my big cock and maybe to suck me off if they were brave enough. All in all, it was exhilarating to be a 17-18 year old boy who was getting daily pussy from his mom plus getting other 'strange' at least 2-3 times a week besides. There were some weeks when I got either head or pussy every day of the week. And let me tell you, it is a tremendous rush to stuff a 9" cock into a cute little 13 year-old's extremely tight pussy and listen to her whimpering and begging and crying, then pull out and cum in her face while she's got her mouth wide open for it. By the time I'd graduated, I had been with girls from every class in my school from the 7th grade all the way through girls in the local college. And the longer this went on, the older the chicks got. As a 18 year-old, I was screwing women as old as their late 20's because somehow they'd heard about my cock and how much their girlfriends loved it. If mom's and dad's around this great country knew how horny and depraved their little girls were, and the crazy sick things they did when they had their hands, cunts, or mouths around a big cock, they would come completely unglued. But probably the biggest surprise of my high school years came from my English teacher, a Mrs. Knox. I have to admit that Mrs. Knox was really a fine looking woman, and later I found out that she was 26 when we first hooked up. Mrs. Knox was very forward about her desires and one day after the last class, she told me she wanted to suck me off and would I be interested. I said sure with no hesitation, so she took me home in her car and we took a detour, ending up in a deserted ally behind a closed down supermarket. Mrs. Knox was the first woman to ever get me down her throat, and the experience was a real eye opener for me. When I came, she jacked me off into her hungry hot mouth and didn't miss a beat, swallowing down every last drop I gave her. She came up panting for air, and singing my praises as she wiped her lips clean. Cathy Knox and I had many more fun times over the next 2 months until I graduated and then over that summer afterward. She was a real screamer who fucked me senseless and never tired of deep throating me almost viciously in her desire to milk every last sperm cell from my huge balls. I'll always remember Mrs. Knox fondly, but I never knew her husband, thank goodness! It's true what they say about California girls, and that whole scene out there during the early 70's was an awesome time to grow up. Right before I graduated from high school, Mom began introducing me to a couple of her divorced (or not-so-divorced!) female friends who were all very appreciative of my skills and were willing to pay me for them, and that in turn led to me meeting a woman who changed my life. Chapter 3 I was still living at home with mom during my freshman year of college...if I'd gone to college. My income at that time came entirely from women mom knew who had gotten hooked on my size and would pay good money for the privilege of me stuffing it in them. It paid well enough for me to have a shitty car and some spending money besides, but it wasn't enough for me. Not by a long shot. If the married men out there knew how badly their wives craved size and good hard loving, they'd be shocked and dismayed, just as the parents of those horny young girls would have been. By the time I was 19, I had a "little black book" with the names of over 50 women who would pay me to sleep with them, and it was finally starting to be good enough money for me to leave home. Of all the women I'd been with over the years, there was one that a friend of my mom's introduced me to, that I couldn't ever quite get out of my head. "Sparrow" Hawkins was special to me. Why, I couldn't exactly say, but I think it was because she never made over about my size and with her, it always seemed like she was making love to me and not just fucking or wild sex. Sparrow was soft and tender, loving and sweet...and a complete departure from all the others. She rarely wanted me to fuck her hard and rampant, she just wanted to be in my arms and feel me making love to her, gently and intensely, which was easy to do with her. I was 19 and Sparrow was around 29 when we first met, and the more we hooked up, the more Sparrow wanted me to come around, and we spent many hours just laying in her bed talking afterwards. I really liked Sparrow a lot, but I knew as time went on she was falling for me, and that worried me. It worried me because I knew what I was and I knew what she was, and I just didn't think I could ever do her justice in the long run. Sparrow as a good woman who had been horribly treated by her one and only husband who'd left her when she was 25. She didn't date after the divorce, and it wasn't until I'd known her about 6 months that I found out she was also into women. For some reason, that made me feel even better about her. She'd confessed to me once that I was the only man she was sleeping with, and that she had a girlfriend who understood her need for a man still. It turned out Sparrow's girlfriend Judy came from a very similar set of circumstances as Sparrow had been through, and they were crazy about each other. Sparrow knew a lot of people in the movie business in and around the Bay area. These weren't your average Hollywood movie people, these were folks connected with the new porn movie industry that was just getting a foothold and starting to generate some major revenue for the small studios that were just getting their start in the late 60's. It turns out that Sparrow's mom had had something to do with these people when she was younger, and even now, she worked for several of them, keeping their books and such. I was lucky with Sparrow because I knew deep down she loved me and had feelings for me. Soft and tender feelings. So deep down I knew she wanted the best for me and I trusted her more than any other person I knew at the time. The more she and I talked about a possible future in porn for me, the more I knew she had my best interests at heart, and would never be greedy about it for herself. She knew the best producers, and she knew who wrote the best scripts, who offered the best working conditions, and of course, who paid the best. And I was doubly lucky, because Sparrow knew just the person I needed to go talk to. Chapter 4 My first introduction to the world of port was at an office in San Mateo. Sparrow drove me there and acted as my 'agent'. She told me that the man we were going to meet was Eric Bolder, who was one of the biggest names in porn on the West Coast at that time. Sparrow coached me in every aspect of what was likely to happen in the interview, and I was comfortable with the arrangements she'd made for me. At that meeting, I was introduced Eric Bolder who talked with me for a time about my raising and my sexual education to date. His eyebrows raised when I talked about my early experiences with my mom, but he said nothing judgmental about it. They raised again when he found out how much I was making on the side taking care of my mom's 'friends'. He asked me to show him my cock, so I dropped my pants. He studied me for a moment, then asked if I could perform under pressure and I said I thought that would be no problem for me. He buzzed for his secretary then and she poked her head in the office. "Would you have Melody and Jake come in here for a few minutes, please, Jan?" He asked. We continued to talk and then a few minutes later a good looking young gal dressed like a hippy with very short shorts on came in along with a guy with a camera. Then Eric introduced me to my very first porn star, Melody Monroe. "Melody?" Eric said, getting her attention. "We're taking a look at Mr. Baldwin here for his potential as a porn star. Why don't you go down on young Mr. Baldwin here and let's see what he's got to offer us here at Bolder Productions!" Melody smiled and shrugged, and said; "Sure, Mr. Bolder!" "Mr. Baldwin, why don't you stand up right over here so I can see everything that's going on and better judge your ability to perform? Jake, you get where you need to be for the money shots...right?" "Right, Mr. Bolder!" Jake said. I stood up then, facing Sparrow and my left side to Mr. Bolder. Melody dropped to her knees then like a good girl and undid my slacks and fished my hardening cock out. She stroked it softly for a few moments, smiling sweetly up at me, and I noticed her eyes got a little bigger then as I grew. Then she took me into her mouth. It didn't take long for me to get into the groove, and Mr. Bolder and Jake the photographer ceased to exist for me. I did steal looks at Sparrow from time to time, and licked my lips and she knew what I was thinking. I was going to treat her extra special tonight, no matter what happened today. Then I looked down at Melody, who was doing a very nice job of getting me very hard. I'd had a lot of women suck my dick, and only about three could get me down their throats. Melody wasn't the best I'd ever had, but she was damn good at it and she slid me down her throat just like you'd expect a pro to be able to do. While she sucked on me, Mr. Bolder spoke up. "Melody, I'm told that Mr. Baldwin here cums more than we're used to seeing, so when you get him there, please let him cum on your face or in your mouth where I can see just how true that report is. Then when you're done, why don't you fuck Mr. Baldwin over there on my couch, as I'm also told he can go 'back-to-back' as well." "Sure, Mr. Bolder!" Melody said, smiling up at me. She seemed to like the idea of getting a fuck to go with her blowjob. She was really taking me deep now and working me over. I had purposely not had sex for the last 48 hours so I knew I had a huge load building up for Miss Melody. I really hoped to be able to choke her with it, to be honest with you! "Mr. Baldwin, would you be so kind as to let us all know when you're ready to cum?" "Yessir!" I said, groaning now. "She's good, isn't she, son?" he asked me. I looked down at her and smiled as she looked up at me, waiting for my answer. "She's very good, sir" I groaned. "Very good!" I said, winking at her, which she seemed to like. Then I said; "Melody, you really do need to be ready to swallow fast and swallow a lot when I cum, OK?" I said, looking more serious now. Melody's eyes changed, and I think I saw apprehension there. I'd lasted an impressive 10 minutes or so with her aggressively sucking me off, but I was getting closer and my 10 plus inches were angry red and aching to explode. "Almost there now!" I groaned, and Melody backed off and opened her mouth wide and jacked me off with her very wet and silky hand. I threw my head back and somewhere I heard the snapping of pictures as Jake fired away. "Oh, yeah, Melody!" I growled. I was so damn close but holding off as long as I could to make the money shots extra special for all to see. Sparrow had told me this interview would mean everything, and I had to make it as awesome as possible. So here came awesome!?"Oh, yeah, baby!" I growled, and took my cock in my own hand then. Melody played the good little porn star and obediently opened her mouth wide with her tongue way out. We made eye contact as I started to shoot. The first shot was very long and hard and it choked her, so I aimed the second at her cheek to give her time to keep up with the flow, then it was back to the mouth. I'd warned her, and so did Mr. Bolder. After all, she was the pro here...right? The next six shots all went in her mouth and she was frantically swallowing and I heard Mr. Bolder say "holy fuck, kid!" under his breath as he watched from safely behind his desk. I stared intently at Sparrow as I was shooting my load, and I think that made it more powerful. Her eyes were glazed over, and she licked her lips as I came on Melody's face. I know Melody was having trouble with the amount I was shooting at her, but in fairness to her, it had been over two days since my last orgasm, and this one was making up for lost time. By the end of it, Melody's face was coated and she was gasping for air. Mr. Bolder actually clapped twice and guffawed, and Jake muttered something about needing a faster camera! Melody was laughing now. "Oh my god, that was incredible!" she said, still on her knees and wiping her face. "You taste so fucking good!" she exclaimed. I caught Sparrows eye and she winked at me and smiled big. I was still hard and Mr. Bolder said "time to fuck his brains out now, baby!" to Melody, who grabbed my dick and led me to the couch. Sparrow handed her a couple of tissues so she could wipe her eyes, and then she pushed me down on the couch and straddled me. "God his cock is beautiful, Mr. Bolder!" she groaned as she took me all in one shove. "So...fucking...hard!" she squealed in between breaths and slamming up and down on me. Thankfully, Sparrow had coached me on this part too. I let Melody ride me for a while and then she came like a banshee. I lifted her off me and threw her onto her back and like a trooper, she spread her legs I chowed down on her bringing her to another orgasm in a few minutes, and then I entered her from above, pounding her mercilessly. "Fuck, baby!" she said, staring into my eyes. "You are so good!" I went at her like that for a minute or two, then pulled out, twirled her around, pulled her rump up to me and did her doggy style while she whimpered like a little girl. "Oh, fuck me big boy!" she groaned from her gut. I don't think Melody was acting anymore, as I'd heard these kinds of comments all my life. Once again, I looked at Sparrow while I was pounding Melody from behind, and now my eyes glazed over. Sparrow was obviously turned on, and I saw her cross her legs and wet her lips gain. I rolled Melody onto her side with me behind her then and took her that way, then felt myself getting close. Then I pulled out and took her missionary, slowing down now and kissing her hard while taking long slow strokes in and out of her. "Oh, fuck!" she said into my mouth. "So fucking good, honey!" she sobbed, then her eyes got big and her legs were twitching. "I'm cumming baby!" she cried out loudly, and rose up to meet me. She really was cumming, and I felt her tighten up and liquify. I lasted about another minute or so, taking her to still another orgasm, then I pulled out and shot all over her face and chest, and I was still kneeling down between her legs. Most guys would have to crawl up by her tits to hit her face, but I did it from her crotch, and this was my second cum. I knew Bolder would be happy with that! Some of my first shots even splattered onto the arm of the couch, and one hit her square in the mouth again. Melody was a good fuck, but she really didn't do that much for me. I wondered while I was doing her what it would be like to fuck a porn star that really turned me on. Melody came down slowly, panting for a long time afterward. "Mr. Bolder, this guy can fuck!" she groaned, and we all knew she wasn't acting. "Oh, fuck, sweetie baby!" she cooed, and kissed me deeply. "That cock is so fine!" Sparrow told me later the girl wasn't acting and from the looks on Bolder's face, it had shocked him how turned on Melody had really gotten. Chapter 5 I got up and put my underwear and pants back on. Mr. Bolder stepped outside his office for a second, and I could hear him talking, then practically yelling to someone out there. I got a big thumbs up from Jake as he left the office. "Nobody's ever choked me like that!" Melody said in amazement, now that it was just her and me and Sparrow in the room. "Thanks for not hitting me in the mouth with your whole load, baby. I know you did that on purpose to give me time to swallow and catch my breath!" She smiled at me appreciatively. "No problem, Melody. I'm only here to get a job, not make anyone look bad...OK?" She smiled again at me. "Maybe I can give you a celebration blow job and we can fuck again if you get the job, honey!" she offered. "I think I'd really like to take my time with you...and especially when nobody's watching!" And she giggled nervously. I just smiled at her, and a few minutes later, Mr. Bolder came back into his office and shooed her out. The bottom line was, Bolder offered me $350 a week. I looked at Sparrow, and she took over. "Thanks for the offer, Mr. Bolder, but we thought you'd like him better than that. We still have 3 more studios to visit this week and we think we can do a lot better," and she stood up to shake his hand. I just stood there, smiling confidently. We all knew I was good looking, and I knew I could act better than half the male porn stars with experience. Mr. Bolder gulped, then hesitated. "Well, now...hold on just a second" he said with his hands up. "Let's not be hasty here, Sparrow!" he said nervously. She smiled sweetly at him. "You just saw what this young man can do when asked to deliver. Think how awesome he'll be when he has some movies under his belt! And the guy can come twice...back-to-back! Think of the shots you'll get with that kind of staying power. And the way he cums?" she was still smiling, but very confident. "Eric, you have the largest porn studio in the Bay area, but between you and me, you may not be the largest when someone else gets ahold of this young man and his name and prowess gets out!" and she smiled nicely and walked to the door and I followed without looking back. "Hold on a second there, Sparrow!" he said. Just what'll it take to get your boy signed with us?" he asked amiably. Sparrow looked at me, then looked back at Bolder. "I get $150 a week as his agent. He gets $350 per movie for the first six months, then we renegotiate. He also gets $350 a week contract money, whether he works or not that week. Also, that gets renegotiated after six months, as does my fee." Then she stood there watching him. "And...he can still freelance on the side, but privately and not in connection with the studio in any way, shape or form" she added. He looked at her for a long time then, it seemed. Then he looked at me. "What's your porn star name gonna be, kid?" he asked, standing to shake my hand and then Sparrows. Chapter 6 We chose Rod Hardy for my 'movie-star' name. Sparrow and I had a wonderful dinner on the way home, and then I made love to her twice that evening, and from that moment on, I never took a dime for sex from Sparrow ever again, and to her credit she never got possessive about all the other women in my life. And also from that time forward, something changed with our relationship, and I knew I loved her, and I think she picked up on that. Many times over the years, she'd come for a visit and bring me a gift. Sometimes it was a shirt she thought I'd look good in, or a watch or a ring or something. It pleased her to give me things, and I never objected. I returned the favor on her birthday and at Christmas, and was generous with her on those occasions. Otherwise, I usually had flowers or perfume for her when she came over for our date nights. Sparrow always treated me like I mattered and like I was special to her, and that always meant a hell of a lot to me, so I was always careful to be sweet and kind to her as well. I knew I loved Sparrow and there were times when I realized that as much as I was able, I could have had a much stronger thing for her if I led a 'normal' life and if I'd been more her age. She was really an attractive woman with a body that looked and felt more like mid-twenties to me. She almost always wanted me to be good to her in bed, gentle and kind and slow. She was tender and soft and giving in bed, and it just felt good being with her after being with most of the other ladies I was seeing for money. Most of them just wanted the size and the cum and they could get demanding about it at times, but Sparrow wanted me for me. I could see that when I looked into her eyes, but I just couldn't allow myself to reciprocate those feelings, especially not at this stage in my life. It was sad, but Sparrow seemed to understand and accept that, and we remained very close and dear friends during the start of my new career when most women would have quit seeing me. We signed the contract the next week and my first filming was scheduled for the following week. I was the new kid on the block, but as I started to hang around the studio more, I realized that most of the guys didn't have an ego problem and seemed happy to meet me. There were a couple who were assholes, but I was told that unless they were well liked by the viewing public and the girls, they wouldn't last long...not at this studio at least. The girls were usually very nice, some airheads, and others with college degrees or in college and working toward it. Some of them were very intelligent, and most were startlingly beautiful or at the very least had that sexy, raw, girl-next-door fuckable look. Bolder really knew how to pick the girls, that was for sure. Talking with those girls made me start to wonder about my future, and what I should do with my life. I wasn't so starry-eyed as to think I was immortal and that my new career would last forever. But I'll talk more about that later. Word had gotten around fast with the girls 'at the office' about my ability to cum a lot and also to cum twice in a row. There were several who weren't looking forward to being in cum shot scenes with me but there were more who were eager for it, and also to participate in a double cum scene with me. My very first role was as an alien (less the green paint), which seemed to everyone to be the perfect way to introduce me to the public. The alien who could cum more than any other human! And twice in a row! I found that I really enjoyed filming and got a kick out of every aspect of it. I worked really hard at memorizing my lines and even took up Sparrow's suggestion to take acting classes at the local university after that first movie. It was the summer of 1975, and the porn industry only starting to come into its own. At first my 'career' seemed to be taking off slow to me, but Mr. Bolder said differently to Sparrow and me, and Sparrow agreed with him on the subject and told me to be patient and work hard. After six months, I'd been in 15 films (my mom wanted a copy of every one of them), and what really had helped the start of my career was the advent of videotape, Beta and VHS, back in '75 and '76. Remember that? It seems like such a long time ago now when I think back on it. Sparrow and I had another meeting to Mr. Bolder's office at the end of my initial six month contract. She went in with offers in hand from 2 other studios, one that was offering a lot more than Eric was and the other which was offering double. Plus, she had the sales figures on all 15 of my movies, which offered proof that the sales numbers were growing as time went along. She also had trade news clippings about me and my movies, and the reports were glowing. Bolder started our meeting by recapping the last 6 months for his studio and my growth as a porn star. He and I had grown into a more mature "friendly" type of relationship, and he treated me to a good time whenever he threw parties at his place. But it was time to step that relationship up a notch. Everyone knew that porn stars came and went, and I wanted to be a household name in a bad way. One that didn't just come and go, so to speak. He started by saying he'd like to keep me at my present salary arrangement for another 6 months, but when he saw the look in Sparrow's eyes, he put his hands up quickly. "Peace, Sparrow!" he said. "I know what I've got here in our Mr. Hardy!" He looked at me then and said he'd bump everything up by 25% for the next year and sat back. That's when Sparrow started talking about video sales - especially for my movies, and then laid out several reviews of my work and acting skills. He sighed then and sat back. "You've got yourself a real shark here, Rod!" he smiled. "OK, 50% a week more, 25% more for each movie" he offered. That's when Sparrow got up and showed him our best offer from a production company over in Oakland, who was effectively offering me double what Eric was. He turned white. Then Sparrow gave him one of her patented talks, you know, the kind where he can't argue with the logic, and where he couldn't afford to lose me to a competitor? And then she added that I wanted to stay with Bolder Studios, but that he needed to show me some loyalty in return as well. He asked me if that was true, and I said yes. Then she asked Eric if he knew I was taking acting lessons to make myself even more of an asset to Bolder Studios. He closed his eyes and smiled as he shook his head. Eric got up and went over to his bar then. "I need a drink!" he said, exhaling slowly. "Anybody else?" Sparrow looked at her watch. "It's not even noon yet!" she laughed, knowing something big was coming for us both. Eric shook his head and laughed with her. He sat down at the small conference table next to me and Sparrow, toasted us, then downed his double whiskey in one gulp. "Let me see that offer again, Sparrow, if you please" he said quietly. He spent about a minute looking it over, then set it down and looked at us. "OK, guys...here's what I'm prepared to do. Right now you get $350 a week whether you work or not. "I'll go up to $750 starting next week which is $50 buck more than your best offer. And, I'll make sure you get top or second billing amongst the men in your movies from now on until you prove to me you're not worth the publicity any more. I'll also bump you up to $750 a movie besides the salary, and that's another $50 more than they are offering you. Sparrow, what do you need?" he looked at her then. She smiled sweetly. "I think $250 a week would satisfy my needs...for now!" she said. Eric rolled his eyes, but I didn't feel sorry for him. Now that video was booming, Sparrow told me he was making at between $3,000 and $10,000 profit from each movie...and mine were right up there with the top earners for the studio. I knew Sparrow was happy, as we'd already agreed to take his offer if he at least met the best other offer we already had. Now it was my turn to speak up. "There's one other thing, Mr. Bolder" I said, and both of them looked at me. "I'll sign on for a year this time instead of 6 months, but I get a new car as a signing bonus." Eric looked at me in a new way then, and just shook his head and smiled. "I ain't buying you a Porsche, Rod!" he chuckled. I shook my head then. "I don't want a Porsche, Mr. Bolder, just a new 1976 Corvette, and I get to go pick her out next week" I said. "And you have my word that it'll never get out from me that the car was from the Studio, and no one will ever know but us three what I'm making this next year." I said, and held out my hand to him. Eric just shook his head. "Welcome to the big time, Rod Hardy!" he said. Chapter 7 I bought Sparrow a car after we signed the contract, and called it an early birthday and Christmas present for her, but I asked her to promise me she'd tell no one it had come from me. She had no idea that it was coming, and she cried and squealed like a little girl when she saw it. Sparrow had always lusted after Ford Mustangs, and knew all the models like the back of her hand. I had found a pristine red 1971 Boss Mustang with a 351 Cleveland in it with only 4,500 miles on it, and it was so damn cherry it looked like it had just come off the showroom floor. The guy I bought it from had kept it garaged and had babied it for 5 years now. He said he'd cut me a fantastic deal on it if I would sleep with his wife for one night. He told me she loved my movies and wanted to fuck me so badly, but also admitted privately to me that what she was really interested in was sucking me dry! His wife was 42 and kind of easy on the eyes, so I agreed, and I gave her a night to remember. And he was right. She swallowed three of my loads like a champ and took two more in her furry wet pussy. In the end, I got a hell of a deal on that Mustang, as that car had sold new for over $4,200 back in '71 (can you believe that shit?), but I got it for $2,000 cash, and I got to fuck his wife silly all night long in a fancy hotel besides. She confessed to me the next morning as she sucked me off for the third time that I was the best she'd ever had. Sparrow loved me so sweetly that night I gave her the car, so I felt like I'd really gotten a good deal all around with it! The next year was a blur for me. I stayed away from the drug scene as much as possible, and especially from doing coke or heroin like so many of the porn stars were doing, but I smoked a little weed now and then. Sparrow had warned me all along about how destructive the drugs were to porn stars. Most of them were into the drugs or alcohol to varying degrees, and I saw what it was doing to them and their careers, and had to agree with Sparrow's logic. I kept up with my acting classes, and then started taking some business courses. I had this budding idea that one day I'd own my own studio, and wanted to be smart about the business aspects of it. Besides, with Sparrow at my side, I felt like anything was possible. I finally ran my idea by her one night over dinner, and she got very excited about it. I told her it was still 5+ years downstream but there was no time like the present to start thinking about it and planning for it. Besides, I'd need a good accountant I could trust, and Sparrow was the only person for the job! Now that my name was getting out there, and people were becoming more familiar with my face, I was getting offers from all directions. I was doing photo shoots for private studios who only did photos, but I cleared that first with Bolder. He wanted a 25% cut, and I was OK with that. These were mostly photo shoots of me getting blow jobs and cumming all over a girl or girls. Those jobs typically paid as much as $500 for one afternoon's work. Then there were the offers from other studios, just as Sparrow had said they would, but she cautioned me to be a man of my word with Bolder, and I saw the value in that, especially if I was going to run my own studio one day. But the biggest trip was getting offers from women I'd meet as I was traveling around town. I had some drop- dead gorgeous women introduce themselves to me and tell me how much they'd like to suck my cock or fuck me and they offered to pay me for the privilege, and some were paying big bucks. There was one very attractive and high class lady in particular, a divorcee in her 40's who was quite wealthy, who offered me $2,000 to sleep with her for one night, and when I did, she became a regular of mine, calling me about once a month to get her "plumbing fixed" as she put it. I had another one who after seeing many of my movies wanted nothing more than to suck me dry, and wanted back-to-back cum shots in her mouth. This gal had a cum fixation and she swore she came like a freight train every time I shot in her mouth. She gave me $500 for each time I came in her mouth. She never wanted to fuck, only to suck me off. I knew several women like that and even met men who wanted to do me as well. The money was tempting, as a lot of the gay men in the Bay area were loaded. But I just couldn't see doing it with a guy. Then some guy, a wealthy businessman, offered me $2,500 to have me jack off into his mouth, and so I agreed. I had a hard time with that one, but I made it work, and he paid up with a wet smile when we were done. He offered to pay me $3,000 to fuck him up the ass, but I declined. In the end, I let him give me a blow job for another $2,500, and I have to admit, he really blew my drawers off! I had trouble watching him, but from the minute he got his mouth on me, I was in heaven. I still see him on occasion, but he's the only gay I've ever stepped over the line with. I've had a preacher's wife pay to fuck me, and an underage daughter of a millionaire who'd seen most of my movies, who only wanted it up her ass. The preachers wife was an animal, one of the most voracious lovers I'd ever been with, and in the end, she wanted to just lay on the floor between my legs and have me shoot my hot cum all over her body, then she rubbed it in and licked her hands and fingers clean. Wow! The underage daughter wanted it up her ass and only there, and she took it there easier than any woman ever had before. She screamed the whole time, then paid me $1,000 for my 30 minutes of work. I've had rich divorcees, and wealthy married women who knew next to nothing about sex, but they came alive when they were sitting on my cock. I've fucked women from just about every race and culture on the planet over the years, and most of them pay with a big smile on their face. Many of them have become repeat customers, and I now have hundreds of names in my same black book to prove it. I've had a lot of offers for threesomes over the years, but I've never been into that, except in the movies. I tried to avoid fucking strangers unless they looked high class and well kept, and then they paid me well to be with me. On average, I was getting blow jobs from women I'd never met at least once a week during that next full year of my contract, and I was still only 21! One day while I was on campus after a class, I had identical twins - young sweet freshmen girls - come up to me and begged me to spray their faces with cum and offered me $250 for the privilege. I usually would have said no, but they were so damn hot I couldn't resist their offer! It was amazing to see both of their faces hungrily attack my cock, and I'll be honest...they looked so much alike that I couldn't tell the difference between them. I actually gave them $50 back to watch them kiss each other and lick my cum from each other's faces, Now that was a fun date! I told them I'd love to fuck them both, but I wanted to watch them eat each other out, too. They actually agreed to do it, but only if I'd cum on their faces again! I actually took that job for $200, just because they were such a fucking turn-on. I watched those two eat each other out for almost a half an hour, and it was so damn erotic I almost jacked off while watching them! I told them that I was planning on starting my own studio up in a few years, and asked them if they'd be interested in getting into porn. They were very excited about that, and said they'd watch my career and would look me up when the new studio was getting started. I've had two female professors pay me for sex over the years, and a third one who only wanted to give me blow jobs. The offers usually came when I least expected it, and oftentimes they were referrals from wealthy women I'd been with. My answering machine almost always had three or more calls a day on it, and when cell phones finally came out, I wondered how I'd ever gotten along without one! I even had a 62 year-old woman who had lost her husband to cancer a couple of years previously. She turned out to be a special case for me, as she was the oldest woman I'd ever been with, but she loved me long and hard, and wanted to pay me $1,000 for the night, but how could I take her money? She was also the most emotional woman I'd been with and she cried hard after we'd had sex. We sat up a long time talking after that, and then I made love to her more slowly the second time around and she really got very soft and loving and showed me how much an older woman knows about pleasing her man. I made well over $50,000 seeing other women during the first 8 months of my 20th year, and it was all cash under the table. At Sparrow's advice, I made an initial rule to only deposit 20% of this money in the banks, but as the money kept rolling in, I dropped that to 15% and then down to 10% by the end of that 8th month, as I didn't need that kind of attention from the IRS! I watched those deposits closely, making sure they never got out of hand, plus I put them in a different bank than my regular checking account. The rest of the cash I put in a strong box in my gun safe in my new house I'd recently bought up in Sausalito. And once the money went into the safe, I tried to forget about it. I had a new Corvette courtesy of the studio, a nice home that I was paying double or triple payments on, a steady good-paying job, and all the pussy a man could ever want, but I wasn't done yet. If I slept with someone really special, I would eventually ask them if they'd ever thought about being in a porn movie. Most said 'no way', but there were a few that acted interested, so I swore them to secrecy and asked them to either stay in touch or watch my career. I told them if I started my own studio one day, I might have a place for them. The last 4 months of that first year-long contract, I took home another almost $30,000 in tax-free income. I figured I needed to keep that up as long as I could, as the pace was leaving me no time for myself, and I couldn't afford to get sick or let my freelancing interfere with my real job. All in all, I pocketed over $80k in cash from freelancing that year, plus my salary and another 26 movies that first full year, made me net around $130,000 that first year as a porn star. And that was good money in 1976 for a high school grad at 21 years of age. Chapter 8 The advent and spread of video played a huge role in the growth of the porn industry, and Bolder Studios was still at the top of the food chain in the Bay area at the end of that year by a nice margin. Eric Bolder was a shrewd businessman, and he was always looking for ways to take advantage of the new market and finding new ways to distribute video cheaper. At the end of that first years contract, Sparrow and I met with him again to hopefully renew my contract. This time went smoother, and Sparrow didn't need to twist his arm at all to convince him I was one of his top three men at the studio, if not in the top two. My pay went up to $1,500 a movie and $1,500 a week, but now I would also get 1% of sales on my videos, which was a new development, and one we couldn't turn down. It was at this meeting that I shared my thoughts for the first time with Eric about wanting to direct, and he told me he thought that idea had real potential. He wanted to think it over and promised to get back with me in a few weeks. In the meantime, he wanted me to get more involved with the dialogue coach and the writers and see if I couldn't get a little more "realism" in our scripts. He wanted scripts that sounded like people were actually thinking and talking normally...as in having a real conversation, rather than reading their lines from a poorly written book or something. I agreed wholeheartedly. I talked with Sparrow over dinner and we were excited about this new development...as long as Eric was true to his word, and if he did give me a shot at directing. I took Sparrow home that night and made sweet love to her and we fell asleep in each other's arms. Of the girls that I worked professionally with, there wasn't one that I would want a long term relationship with. Well...maybe there was one or two that came and went that interested me, but I knew they'd be fucking a lot of different guys just like I was fucking a lot of different gals, and who could blame them? Still I had friendly relationships with several of the girls at the "office" but it was mostly for companionship and occasionally some good old earthy fucking and sucking, but nothing more ever developed from those relationships, and I didn't want it to anyway. Besides, I chose those particular girls because that's all they wanted as well. You had to be careful with on-the-job relationships, as hard feelings over a broken relationship could lead to trouble on the job, and besides, Eric seriously frowned on that kind of after-hours activity. Sparrow was the only woman in my life that I would have entertained getting together with for something more of a permanent nature, and she would have dropped everything to do just that with me, but I was scared for her heart. I knew Sparrow loved me dearly, but I just didn't feel it near as strongly as she did, or maybe it was that I wouldn't let myself feel it or admit it to myself, and she knew that as well and it broke my heart for her. Oh, I loved her as I was able to, but the truth be told, I knew I could never be true to her alone when it came to sex, and therefore I told myself I could never let my heart get raveled up in her. I could clearly see her feelings for me, especially when we made love, and she knew I couldn't return those feelings, but she happily took what she could get from me, or at least what I was willing to give. Like I'd mentioned earlier, after her divorce Sparrow had developed a taste for other women, and her current girlfriend of almost 4 years now was wired kind of like her. Judy liked cock just as much as Sparrow did, which is to say that she really only liked mine, but Judy just happened to like pussy better, and who could blame her? Sparrow introduced me to Judy shortly after I got in porn, and one night when they were visiting with me, things got crazy and we ended up having a really sweet time of it that night. Judy hadn't been with a man in over 4 years, and definitely had never had a cock like mine, and she went into orbit several times as her and Sparrow shared me that night. Judy was a real looker just like Sparrow, and I have to tell you, it was very tempting to ask them to move in with me as our friendship took off and the trust deepened. The two of them spent many a weekend night at my place and we always had a very good time together. I especially enjoyed watching them make love to each other, and then joining in when I was invited to. And I have to tell you that sleeping with those two women was always a joy, and I loved to wake them up with my mouth on their pussies or slowly sliding my morning wood into one and then the other as they woke up giggling to my attentions. Sparrow taught Judy the finer points of giving a great blow job during this time and once in a while, they shared my cum, swapping it into each others mouths while kissing. Watching my cum drool out of their mouths and down their chests and stomachs was always a turn- on for me. While sex between Sparrow and me had deeper meaning and tones to it, sex with Judy was more carefree and a little wilder, and the two of them together made for an interesting combination, including the fact that one was a natural dark brunette while Sparrow was a natural light blond. Sparrow was a CPA, working for a firm in the SF area, and she was doing well for herself. But she wanted more, and really liked the idea of working for me if I created my own studio. Judy was an attorney, and when we broached the subject with her one night she lit up like a firefly and got really excited. She said right then and there that a studio needs a good lawyer and volunteered immediately for the position! The two of them had been living together and were totally exclusive with each other, and I loved that about them. Neither had eyes for another woman and both confessed that I was all the man they ever needed or would be interested in. Both ladies were still in their very early 30's and still had amazing sex appeal and I told them so quite often. It was times like that they had to remind me (as they chuckled) that I was still a man and in second place because of that! Still, as I grew older and saw what those two were truly made of, the idea of being with them on a more permanent basis had its attractions. Strangely enough, both of them had been married for several years when they were in their 20's and both of them had been treated horribly, which is what eventually led to them seeking out other women, and their first affairs with women had been a pleasant surprise for both of them. Neither had children, and neither really wanted any at this point in their lives. I had developed an active interest in both of their lives, especially now that her and Judy were such a huge part of my private life. I would ask her every time we talked, how her and Judy were doing, as I could see she loved Judy and I could easily tell that Judy was crazy about Sparrow too. I was deathly afraid for both of them should they break up and told Sparrow that. She was relaxed as she answered me and said that she could easily see her and Judy being lifelong partners. Neither wanted another woman and had confessed their love for each other and that their roaming and exploratory days were over. And neither wanted a man in their lives with the exception of me. Chapter 9 Another year came and went, and by the end of that year, I had co-directed 3 movies, one of which I starred in myself. My income was easily 50% more than it was my first full year in porn, and now more than ever, I could see that there was no way I'd be keeping it up for more than a few more years at this pace. At the end of my second full year with Bolder Studios, I was now getting $1,250 a week and $1,500 a movie, plus Eric, Sparrow, and I worked out a deal where I would get to direct 6 movies that next year at $1,000 a movie besides. And Eric bought me a brand new Porshe that year as a sign-on bonus, but he told me I had to trade in my beloved Corvette to get it. I decided instead to pay Eric the trade-in value for it so I could keep it. I just loved it too much to part with it. Besides, it was my first real car, and I wanted to keep it for many years to come. Eric commented on my loyalty to him and his studio as the reason for the directing offer and the new car. Sparrow winked at me when he said that, and I realized that a man of his word was still a valued commodity by some folks, just as Sparrow had said. At the end of my 3rd full year, my directing had taken off, and I found that I'd rather direct than star in so many movies. Eric still wanted me to star in roles where the script was more demanding or where we hired free-lance porn stars for a starring role in a movie that was sure to be a winner because of their big name draw. By the end of my 3rd year in porn, there wasn't a name brand female porn star out there that I hadn't fucked or eaten or cum in her mouth with, and still, Sparrow and Judy stayed with me, confident in my feelings for them even though I still could not be open about them yet. There was still something inside me that wouldn't let me confess how I felt about those two fine ladies, but I knew I would one day...if they were still with me by then. My private encounters slowed a little by choice, and now I was only seeing the most wealthy of customers. I still had my one gay friend, and out of loyalty to him, I only charged him $2,000 to give me a blow job, which still happened about every 2 months or so. I still wasn't ever going to change my ways, but it was easier now to lay in a bed or sit in a chair or just stand in front of Steve and let him suck me off lovingly. Then one day he offered me $5,000 to have me fuck his ass and so I slipped a rubber on and took him for the first time that way. I have to admit it was a good fuck, but I couldn't look down at him as he was on his knees in front of me. He had wanted so bad for me to cum in his ass without a rubber so at the last second I peeled it off and did and he groaned his delight quite loudly as I really tore him up when I came. Steve offered to pay me $5,000 from then on for the same experience, but later when AIDs was known to exist, I wanted him to get checked before we would repeat that adventure. I fucked him at least 6 times that year next year with him sucking me off first then taking me up his ass for the second cum, for which he paid me $7,500. He was my highest paying customer ever, and I made him swear to never tell a soul about it or we'd be through. As far as I knew, he never told a soul, but I knew he'd fallen in love with me as he wanted our time together to be more loving and less forceful as the months went by. The money for Steve was no big deal, as I knew he owned several successful businesses in town and was a millionaire several times over. After about 2 years of seeing him on the side, I approached him about being a silent partner in a new porn studio that I was considering putting together. He agreed excitedly but was hesitant and sad when I told him that it would mean our relationship would have to become platonic should we become partners. "I don't think I can do that, Rod" he said with tears in his eyes. I told him to think about it then and if he had a way around it to let me know. Steve knew that I had two very special women in my life and that they were never under any circumstances to find out about him and me, to which he'd agreed. In the meantime, I had carefully whittled down my client base to about one or two women a week who I would continue to see for a minimum of $3,000 a visit. To a one, they had had no problem with the money I was asking for, and were all just happy that I was still seeing them occasionally. All the other clients stopped by the start of my 5th year in the business. By now, my pay was close to the highest for a male actor in the West Coast porn industry, but I was directing around 12 movies a year now, and only starring in about the same amount. I was 25 now and needed to finalize my plans for my own studio. The central theme for my movies was becoming more and more apparent to me as my time and exposure in the industry grew. It was clear to me that the porn industry was geared towards men and the male mind-set. It was a mind-set that was growing increasingly demeaning toward women and many times was degrading and mean-spirited. I happened to know from my travels to trade shows and porn industry get togethers that a lot of porn buyers and watchers...and I mean a LOT...were women. And the more I talked to them, the more one thing became apparent to me. Those women - and a lot of men I'd met - wanted a gentler type of porn. A romantic type of porn. One that sweethearts could watch together. One that older married couples could watch and not feel like they needed to take a shower afterward from the grossness of some of the scenes. And from all of that a genesis of sorts started in my mind. It was 1980 and I needed to be on the ground floor of this movement and time was growing short. Someone else with money was going to do it first and then I'd be a follower and not a leader in the industry. Chapter 10 That weekend the girls came over for a long day of laying around and loving each other and eating decadently. By now, my relationship with Judy was almost as strong as the one I shared with Sparrow. No conversation or opinion was off limits or taboo with us. We were completely comfortable in bed together, the three of us spending hours in each others arms escaping the world and just napping or tenderly touching and exploring each other. Judy had always made more of a big deal about my size whereas Sparrow had only shyly told me how much she loved my cock and balls. I guess what I'm trying to say is that Sparrow was more relaxed about my size but Judy was more obviously in awe and in love with the size and the amount of cum I gave her when she took it from me. My time with them was a break from the real world, and the way they loved me unreservedly was not lost on me. I respected that and more than that, I treasured it. I was always sweet and gentle with Sparrow and Judy, and always more interested in pleasing them - both in and out of bed - than I was in being pleased myself. Our time together was always special to me and I wanted them to feel like they were the only women in the world that mattered to me when I was with them. That night while after we ate dinner and still sat at the table, I guess the emotions of the day finally caught up to us all. It had been a fabulous day, full of romantic love and tender words. I guess you could say the planets were starting to align for the three of us that day. Sparrow admitted to me that she loved me and always had, and then my eyes teared up when she said she knew that I wouldn't return that love because of my career and all the other women in my life. She'd always felt like I was protecting her heart, and she loved me for that alone, but she didn't hold it against me and said she couldn't even if she'd wanted to. I had to hang my head as I heard the emotion and the love in her voice come out. Judy sat there watching us both but I knew she felt the same way. I asked them both how they really felt about all those other women I was with. They knew there were other women of all ages and walks of life, professional and otherwise, some very wealthy and some not so much. She smiled and said confidently "But I know where your heart is, James." James was my real first name, and very few people in my life knew that but her and Judy, and my stage name Rod was never used between us three, except when they were joking with me or trying to bait me. "I know your heart is with me...with us...even though you won't let yourself feel or acknowledge that." She was tearing up now and it was breaking my heart, and maybe for the first time in my life, I let that love come out. I got up and took her in my arms then and held her close and I looked at Judy tenderly as well. "I'm sorry, Sparrow...Jude." I called her Jude sometimes when we were alone. I said this quietly and Sparrow melted into my chest. "I'm sorry the fates have kept us apart...or at least kept my hearts from you two." I knew she could hear my voice breaking then as I was trying to get this out while I felt it. "I know you knew that getting me into porn was probably going to mean never having me as a monogamous lover, or a husband, and yet you did it...selflessly." I pulled away from her then and there were tears in all our eyes now. "You've always been selfless with me, Sparrow!" I said smiling through the tears. "And you too, Judy. I trust you both more than any person on this earth, and that includes my twisted mother. (They both knew all the gory details of that relationship and how difficult I had found it to break away from having sex with my own mother). "And it's true, my most beautiful and best of friends," I said finally. "I do love you both, and I think I always have and I always will. As much as I am able or will be able to, I love you, Sparrow" I said, looking deeply into her eyes. Then I turned toward Judy. "And I love you too, my beautiful Judy!" I said breathlessly. And if it wouldn't be tearing you and Judy apart, and then asking you to still allow me to have multiple lovers on a weekly basis, I think I'd ask you to be my wife, Sparrow, because there isn't a better person in my life, nor has there ever been a better person in my life than you, dear!" I said, and now there were tears rolling down my cheeks. Sparrow watched me speechless the whole time I was talking, and I tried like hell to avoid looking at the tears that were steadily rolling down her face. "I've waited a long time for that, James" she said quietly, her hands on my arms now. She had that look in her eyes again that always tore me up inside. The look that said 'I'm crazy about you, mister'. "Thank you for saying those things to me. I know they came from your heart. And if anybody in this world knows you have a heart, it's me and Judy, and believe me, we see a good heart. I can't help loving you, James. I'm cursed by that love, and yet I get to enjoy you and see a side of you that no other woman than Judy gets to see, and trust me...she sees it too. And I know in my heart that you wouldn't ever share that part of you with anyone else in this world. That part you just shared with me. So I'll keep those words in my heart, in that special place I keep reserved for my feelings for you. For the rest of my life!" she said quietly and crying softly still. I looked her in the eyes then and kissed her passionately. Maybe more real and passionately than I ever had, and she responded freely and eagerly. Judy got up then and came to me as well then and she and I kissed with just as much passion and I could taste the tears on her face also. I led them both by the hand to my bedroom and gently undressed them both as they did me. By the time we were naked, I was so damn hard I could have driven nails with it. I wanted Sparrow so badly, but I wanted this to be sweet and last a long time and knew I needed to share that emotion with Judy as well. I went down on both of them gently, telling them how much I loved their smells, their tastes, their beautiful beautiful bodies, and the feel of their very wet pussies against my face. And I meant it. And from the looks in their eyes, they both knew I meant it too. "Love me now, James!" she said, with a pleading voice. I got up between her legs and she took me in her hand and gasped. "You're so hot and hard, baby!" she said as she guided me to her slick hole. My eyes clouded up as I entered her and I told her again that I loved her and I know that tears fell from my eyes and hit her face and she reached up to hold my face as I slid gently back and forth inside her, wanting this moment to last forever. "Oh, James!" she sobbed, and her legs came up around me and locked me to her. I knew she was cumming, and our mouths met. "Oh, god baby girl!" I groaned. "It's never felt this good before! Not ever!" I said into her mouth. Sparrow had never much said anything about my size before tonight, but something changed in her and she was different for these moments we were together. "God you fill me up so fine, James! I swear you're up in my chest and I'm having trouble breathing because of it!" she gasped. I rolled us over on our sides then and then I was on my back, letting her control the rhythm then. My hands went from her hips to her clit to her nipples, gently and reverently touching her everywhere. "You're so beautiful in this light, baby!" I said, and there was awe in my voice. She was making a sobbing noise now and I could feel her pussy drench me and I knew she'd cum again and I smiled at her. "I want this to be so good and so right for you, baby!" I said, pulling her down to me and kissing her madly. She rolled her hips and I groaned into her mouth. I pulled her down to me then so she was laying on me fully, and I just held her there. Judy had her mouth and hands on both of us and when she caught my eyes she quietly said; "let this time be between you two, then I want you afterward!" Then she laid down on her side facing us just to watch the intensity of it all and I noticed that her hand was between her legs. Then Sparrow sat up and rotated herself so she was facing away from me. I sat up and hugged her back, then pulled her down to me so she was laying flat again with her back on my chest. Her legs spread wide and she gasped as I gently slid in and out of her. I was wanting so bad to thrust hard into her, but at the same time, I wanted to be gentle tonight and just love her as she deserved to be loved. I kissed the back of her neck and told her how wonderful she felt, how silky soft and so incredibly passionate. She moaned and wriggled up and down my long shaft, making me groan. I rolled us over so she was laying on her belly and me on top of her, then I pulled her up to her knees. Usually this position was for fucking, but not this time. I leaned over and kissed her back, and my hands roamed all over her breasts, her belly, and down to her clit. She groaned and pushed back against me, gasping as I slid in to butt against her cervix. "Oh, God James!" she cried out hoarsely. "It's so good, baby!" she groaned. "I want to see your face, baby!" I said, pulling out while she gasped at the loss of me inside her. She rolled over quickly and held her legs wide for me. I looked down at her and couldn't resist. I took her pussy in my mouth again and teased her through another orgasm, loving the way her legs were twitching in her ecstasy. Then I entered her again and listened to her sobs as I took her a little harder then, then slowed and kissed her, then took her harder again, then slowed and buried myself in her. "God, baby, you feel so huge and hot tonight!" She sobbed, and I crushed her mouth with mine. "You feel incredibly hot and tight and so velvety smooth and so damn wet, baby!" I said into her mouth. Her legs came back up around me and she sobbed again. "Please cum, James. Give it to me, baby!" she said, whimpering now like a little girl. Judy was writhing and whimpering beside us now, too. I looked at Judy, then back to Sparrow. "You're too fine, Sparrow. Too sweet, and wonderful, and desirable, and all that's good. And I don't want to take my pleasure yet. I want to give you more first" I said, and our tongues met and danced as I slid just imperceptibly in and out of her. She whimpered into my mouth and I felt her contractions inside and her legs twitching uncontrollably. "I'm so sensitive, baby!" she said with large watery eyes. "I can feel the ridge of your cock head as it moves in me and I swear I can feel the veins rubbing against my walls!" she closed her eyes, and I moved so very slowly in and out, in and out. "Oh, god, James!" she sobbed and her arms went around me. "Oh please cum for me, baby!" she begged. For the first time in my life, I couldn't get close enough to a woman. I couldn't love her enough. And for the first time, I truly knew what making love was. Up until now, it had just been fucking, but this was for real now, and it was overwhelming to me. "I love you, Sparrow" I said as my eyes teared up. From the look in her eyes, she knew the moment she'd waited for had come. The moment when I told her without reservation just how strongly I felt for her. And while we shared that look, I began to stroke inside her in earnest. Not hard, but just long buttery smooth strokes, in and out, in and out. And Sparrow was cumming again, and now her cries were from down deep in her gut. She was cumming over and over again, and I just kept making love to her! And from the sound of it, Judy was cumming again with her. I was getting closer but fighting it with everything in me. And still I stroked into her, feeling my cock grow and expand in what I knew was the inevitable approach of my orgasm. She looked at me then, feeling the same thing, her eyes getting huge, and her mouth curling up in a sob of ecstasy. "Oh, God, James!" she cried out loudly, trying to pull me deeper into her with her legs and arms. I picked up the pace now, listening to my balls slapping her ass and the sound of my grunting and her sobbing and both of us trying to get enough air to stay alive. "Please, baby!" She cried out in her wonderful agony, and finally, I was there. I picked up the pace even more and now I was sure she was at a place she'd never been before, because I'd been there for a while now myself. I was fairly well ramming her now, still not fucking but loving her desperately and fully. "Please...cum...please...baby...just cum for me!" she cried as I pounded her. She was cumming again and her pussy tightened up to match the final swelling of my cock. Judy cried out loudly, one hand pulling a nipple and the other squishing between her legs. Then I felt it. That magical point of no return where nothing you can do will stop it. Even if you pulled out and plunged your cock into ice water, you'd still shoot your load. And that's when our eyes locked. She knew the language my cock spoke well enough to know when I'd reached that point and she was cumming again in response to it and sobbing as she looked into my eyes. And now her sobs were from real tears as much as from her ecstasy. And when I felt the first shot approaching, I slid fully into her and released my seed as deeply as I could. Her eyes opened wide and she cried out, feeling me spurt into her cervix and beyond, and after the first shot, I pulled out and started really stroking her hard, shooting with each inward stroke and filling her up in no time. And still I came and after something like the 4th shot or so, it was coming out of her pussy, as there was no place for it to go. Looking back on it, I don't think I've ever shot such a huge or violent load, and I was so glad it was with Sparrow. I kept shooting and we kept looking into each other's eyes, and she kept cumming and making those little girl sobbing noises, and then...sadly...it was over, and I fell on top of her, listening to her cry into my neck as she held on tightly to me. "Oh, Sparrow!" I said. "My sweet little Sparrow!" and she cried all the more. I felt her pussy spasm around my cock for almost a minute afterward it seemed, and her thighs and buttocks were still twitching all that time as well. We laid that way for several long minutes, trying to get our breathing back to normal and slow our hearts down for fear of them exploding! It was the most incredible physical experience of my life, and I doubted (sadly) that I would ever feel that high again. Then it broke my heart to realize that perhaps Sparrow was thinking the same thing. "That was incredible, baby!" I whispered. "You were so incredible!" I went on. "Sparrow, I..." "Now you know, don't you?" she said, looking at me for confirmation, nodding to me. I nodded. "Yes" I nodded back. "Now I know, my love." Chapter 11 The bed was a disaster. There was a pool of cum under her ass that would never dry out. I was going to have to buy a new mattress, I feared! We laughed so hard about that, and then I looked at Judy and could see the hunger in her eyes. She took me in her mouth then, tasting mine and Sparrows juices and groaning with her emotion and heat. Judy was as unique as Sparrow, having perhaps the more perfect body and definitely a deeper throat and vagina, but then she was two inches taller than Sparrow. Judy had never failed to turn me on and tonight was no exception. I was hard again in no time, my hands in her hair and speaking words of praise and love to her. Sparrow sat and watched us with tears in her eyes, touching me everywhere, my arms, my chest, my face. Her eyes were searching me out as Judy continued to go down on me. "Love her sweetly, James" she said gently. "Be good to our lover, our sweet Judith" she said with great emotion, then she rolled back on her side and I could hear her fingers in her very wet cunt, making delectable squishing noises as she groaned. Judy got up then and 69'd with me, putting that deliciously wet cunt in my face, her beautiful black thatch of hair as enticing as it had ever been. Her smell and taste assaulted my senses and I groaned as I lapped up her juices. She'd already cum plenty, and her lips were an angry red. I gently grabbed her hips then her ass as I pulled her down to my face, enjoying the feel of her body laying flat against mine, her firm breasts pushing into my stomach. "I need you now, Judy!" I groaned, and I heard her sob once. She spun around and straddled me then, finding my cock with her slick fingers and sliding me back and forth against her very sticky slit. "Tell me, now James!" she groaned, "Tell me, too!" She sounded like she was begging as she looked down at me with hooded eyes. "I love you, Judy...my sweet beautiful wonderful Judy!" I said, not having to fake my emotion in any way. And even as the words were coming out of my mouth, she descended on my cock and cried out in her ecstasy as my very hard cock fully invaded her very hot and moist channel. "Oh, God!" she literally screamed out and then she was cumming, the tears rolling down her cheeks. I let her orgasm pass her by, then I rolled her over and pulled out to take her steaming cunt in my mouth, her strong taste and the heat and wetness of her core making the precum ooze from the tip of my cock. "Oh, baby!" I groaned. "You are so fine...so beautiful!" I choked. Then I got up between her knees showing her how hard and angry my cock was. I knew she loved this view and as her head lifted up and she looked down at my hard on, she groaned and said; "Yessssss, baby!" Then she looked at me and nodded quickly. "Now, James! Please!" she cried out and her legs came up and parted wide for me. Her hand reached down for my length and she groaned as she felt my size and her eyes got wide and her mouth formed an "O". I felt her put me against the opening to her pussy and it was so sticky wet that it seemed to be sucking me into her as my head found its home in that hot hole. Her back arched and her eyes closed as she cried out and cursed "Oh fuck me, darling!" she sobbed. And I did. I was giving her as much of my ten inches as I could and her breath seemed to be pushed out of her as I slid deeply into her hot wet hole. "Oh, God...I'm cumming, baby!" she cried out and then I noticed that Sparrow was cumming again too, as she lay next to us on the bed. I took Judy like this for several minutes, my arms behind her knees pulling her ass up to me and pounding her mercilessly. She was sobbing and crying out now, alternately cursing and then singing my praises. Her lower legs were flopping as I pounded her and she came again as I kissed her deeply, my tongue moving in unison with the strokes of my cock. "Cum in me, darling!" she sobbed and nodded and I noticed there were tears in her eyes and running down her temples. "Oh, pleeeease, baby!" she cried out loudly. My cock started swelling and I knew she felt it too, and her eyes got big then. "Yesssss!" she said, almost greedy in her need now. "Harder now, James!" she cried out, rolling her hips toward me and reaching down between us to scissor my cock between two fingers. "Harder!" she screamed it out now, and so I obliged her. I put everything I had into trying to stuff my entire into her pussy, which became my whole universe now. That and her hot, pliant mouth, which was continuously demanding my kisses. I pounded her hard then, knowing she would be hurting now and worse still in the morning, but she didn't seem to care and if it were possible she opened herself up to me even more. "Yesss, baby!" she gasped. "Don't stop, James!" she sobbed. "Fuck me like you've never fucked before, baby! Show me how much you need me!" I did show her, and I fucked like I'd never done before, and yet I put all the love and emotion into it that I knew how to do. Then, I'd reached that point of no return and she knew it too and her eyes locked on mine as I continued to pummel her harder than I ever had before. I was aware of Sparrow watching us in awe and feverishly fingering herself again, and I could hear her whimpering as she was getting closer to her own climax then. "Yes, Judy!" I cried out hoarsely now. "Take it, my sweet dark baby girl!" I said as I buried myself and bottomed out in her and started to cum. She sobbed and cried out loudly, then her legs and arms wrapped around me tightly and pulled me to her while I finished my orgasm. I felt her twitching and shuddering and by the sounds she was making, I knew she'd cum again, there at the end, and she'd cum hard. For a long time we laid there in each others arms, just trying to catch our breath, and speaking tender words to each other now that it was over. I continued to move inside her, loving to hear her groans as I did. We were kissing passionately and roughly, but Jude liked it that way with me. Then she reached over and pulled Sparrow to us and the three of us hugged and kissed as best we could. "I want to clean him off now, baby!" Sparrow said to Judy, who smiled at her. "Tart!" she whispered, giggling as she released me. I rolled over on my back, still half-hard, and felt Sparrows hot mouth on me then, sucking her woman's cum and mine from my cock and balls while I groaned. We lay there a long time then, just holding each other and speaking soft words of love to each other. Later, we showered together and I reverently washed them both down, cleaning everything including between their cute little toes, and taking my time with their privates, as I knew that Judy especially would be sore. We stayed in the water so long it turned cold and we had to get out, then I dried them both off and later I brushed their hair. From time to time, there were tears in both their eyes, and I began to realize what this night had meant to them both, but especially to Sparrow. And that made me feel even worse, because I knew how long she'd waited for this night. I poured us wine, then we went out on the patio and sat in the dark looking out at the bay and the lights of the city on the other side. We said little as we sat there in the dark. I refilled our glasses again and then went back for another bottle. As I poured her third glass I heard Sparrow say very quietly in the dark "I love you, James." Her eyes were glittering a she looked at me. I kneeled down next to her on the concrete then and kissed her gently, our tongues dancing briefly. "I love you, too, Sparrow" I whispered back. I stood up then Judy stood and took me in her arms and kissed me deeply as well. "I love you, James!" she whispered, but loudly enough for Sparrow to hear. No secrets. "I love you too, Judith" I said with a smile. We stripped the bed and set up a fan to blow on the mattress. Luckily, I used a mattress pad, as I'd ruined a lot of mattresses in my day, and I went to the closet and got out a new pad. The mattress was wet in several places and the room smelled of pussy and cum. We decided to lay down in the room Sparrow and Judy used when they stayed over, and we fell asleep in that bed, coiled up in each other's arms and legs. I awoke in the morning to Sparrow's fingertips ever so gently touching my very hard cock and teasing my sac. I said nothing, but let her play and explore. Her fingertips wandered down underneath my sac and they tortured my balls and the very sensitive skin down there for a long time until I was breathing heavily. By now, the precum was dribbling from the end of my cock and pooling in my belly button. Every now and then she would stroke me, very softly sometimes and then very aggressively at other times, but always concentrating on the corona of my cock head. It was exquisite torture, but she knew that and giggled now and then as my cock bobbed up and down, then swelled up, then receded. "I want to cum inside you again, I want to look into your eyes, baby!" I groaned. I looked at Judy who was now away and taking a strong interest in our activities. She leaned over and sucked the pool of pre-cum from my belly, then she nodded as she fingered herself furiously. "Yes, James...take her now!" she smiled and her eyes closed as she groaned. "Oh my baby!" Sparrow said. She got up and sucked the head of my cock, then took me in her mouth and got me very wet. She was flicking her tongue maddeningly across the tip and underneath it. She knew I was close from my balls rising up and my sac tightening, and then my cock elongated. She rolled over then on her back and I got between her legs, I looked down and noticed that she was very wet and her lips were spread wide apart revealing the hole where I needed to be so badly. I looked up at her then and groaned. "So beautiful!" I said, sliding my cock head into position and listening to her groan loudly. "Now, James!" she cried out frantically. I slid into her wet heat and within seconds she was cumming and a few long thrusts afterwards and so was I, and we both cried out hoarsely. I swear in just that minute or so while we were linked, we were breathing just as hard as we had been after the long session last night! I held her tight while I was fully sheathed in her, and we kissed madly. Judy was cumming loudly and the sound of her fingers in her wet pussy had me really going now. Sparrow felt so hot and wet and tight and just terribly exciting inside, and my cock was so happy to be back inside her that I came quicker than I had in a long, long time. She was glowing and obviously quite proud of herself for the way she'd gotten me worked up. I had to admit I was pretty proud of her, too, and I praised her for how wonderful she'd felt this morning. It was Saturday, and I got up to make us coffee, and came back into the room to find Judy going down on Sparrow, and then swiveling around to 69 with her. I stood there watching them and smiling. I would have loved to take Judy's ass while Sparrow ate her out from below, but I wouldn't ever want to hurt Judy. Not ever. We had coffee, then we showered and decided to go for a ride down the coast and find breakfast somewhere along the way. The weather was fine, and the only debate we had all day was who's car do we take? I gave in to her wanting to take the Mustang, and she clapped her hands like a little girl as I said what the hell, so off we went. And we had a day the three of us never forgot, eating breakfast at a little diner, then walking along a beach in the cold water, just talking about nothing and everything, and mostly acting like three people in love. We couldn't wait to get home that evening, and we couldn't keep our hands off each other. Judy admitted to being pretty sore, but she and I still made passionate love that evening and both of us came away from it exhausted once again and laughing. Then it was time to be with Sparrow again, and Judy left us alone to go soak in the tub. The next 30 minutes were heavenly, and I took my sweet time with Sparrow, my mouth on every part of her body before gently making sweet love to her and telling her the things I'd always wanted to say to her. Being with Sparrow was so different in some ways than being with Judy. Oh, they were both patient in waiting for their "turn" with me, but when it was their turn, they loved me in their own unique way and both of them never failed to arouse me completely. But tonight was extra special with Sparrow, and she made it that way for me as well. As much as I loved shooting my cum on a woman's eager face and into her open and hungry mouth, I really wanted none of that with the girls. I wanted to look them in the eyes now as I came into their hot pussies, with them looking back at me and us sharing words only meant for us. I think I finally became a man that weekend. Chapter 12 Saturday evening turned to night, and I'd had enough time to think about everything. Now was the right time to talk to the girls about my studio idea. We gathered around the dining room table with wine and I started it off. "I haven't forgotten about my dream to start my own studio" I said. "In fact, it's never been far from my thoughts and I think I may have a market niche for us to fit into...one where no one else has had the courage, or maybe the foresight, to go into yet. But the studios are going to start to see this new niche and will begin to exploit it, and soon, I'm afraid." I had their full attention now. "Let's face it, girls...porn is made for men and horny women. It's about women being degraded and even abused, and it's getting worse and will only continue to get worse." I started up again. "We've all heard about snuff movies, and that's just the start of things. Now they have bondage and even mild torture scenes with women who are willing to play the part. And did you ever stop to think that it's the women out there who are being hurt because of that new trend?" I didn't wait for an answer, but they were both staring intently at me now. "I've been to dozens of trade shows and awards banquets and other porn-related public functions, and I've talked to hundreds if not thousands of people, and many want something else out of their porn. They want gentleness. They want a little love to go with the lust." I stopped for a second, taking a drink of wine. "Do either of you know how many women out there watch porn? Would you care to guess how many more of them would watch it or start buying it if it was geared more toward them? Toward women?" I watched as their eyes changed then. "I'm talking about starting a new porn studio where women aren't degraded. Where the actors act more like real people, and can share a real dialogue on tape. And who will act out scenes of romantic wooing and seducing, where there's just a hint of the taboo or the dirtiness of raw sex, but with more of an "I want to make love to you baby!" kind of attitude. Like we've had this weekend so far! That raw, "I wanna look in your eyes when I cum" kind of thing! Where men aren't the aggressors or the forceful ones, but where women have a say-so too, and sometimes they get to be the forceful aggressive ones, but in a sensual, sexy kind of way. No more cumming in faces unless it fits the mood of the scene, no more ass fucking unless it fits also...no pun intended! Maybe we even try out some new amateurs for some lovemaking scenes. Maybe even existing lovers or married couples!" I stopped for a second. "And what neither of you know is that my little black book has about two dozen names of some really special people who would be interested in being a part of a studio like that, and maybe even being silent partners!" Judy licked her lips. "Maybe even girls like us seducing a younger man, for instance?" and she looked at me smiling a secret smile. "Judith Anne!" Sparrow said. "Are you saying what I'm thinking you're saying?" she asked. "I think I am!" Judy said, giggling. Maybe James and I could do a scene or two together. I think it'd be hot!" she said, squirming in her chair. "But what about your career?" Sparrow asked at about the same time I did. "What about it?" she said. "I hate my work now...so...maybe I could start representing porn stars instead? Or working for the studio as an attorney? Or both?" Sparrow looked at me. "Well, my lovemaking with James is too private for me to want to share it with the world, I think!" she said, clearly surprised at Judy's suggestion. I reached out to hold her hand and smiled at her when she looked at me. "That's something we can discuss way down the line, girls" I said, putting a stop to it for then. "We have so much more to decide on before it ever gets that far!" I went on. "Like I said, I have several people who would be interested in becoming silent investors, and who have a lot of money to invest. I have over a quarter of a million in cash, plus at least another hundred thousand in legitimate money in the bank I could part with. I'm pretty sure you two have been saving as well. That's more than enough to get the ball rolling. My contract ends with Bolder in three months. I'm going to approach him and ask if he wants a part of the action, but only as a silent partner. How do you girls feel about that?" They sat there a long time, looking at each other then at me. Sparrow spoke first. "I think it's a brilliant idea, and I think it'll work with the right marketing campaign and the right people involved, but they'd have to share our dream or I don't think we can let them participate on screen, no matter how pretty they are!" she said. I agreed and so did Judy. "Do both of you want in on this?" I asked seriously. They looked at each other then back at me. "I'm with you, honey!" Sparrow said first, and at the same time, Judy yelled "Hell, yes!" That evening, the girls treated me to an especially good time, putting on a very intense show of lovemaking that I just sat and gawked at. I'd seen women with women on the set many times, but it was never real like this. Never true and honest like this. I remember thinking that maybe this was something else we could do. Enlist the help of gay couples to act out their love life on the screen for others to see how passionate and real it could all be. I watched the girls for close to an hour, but by the end of that time, I was so hard I hurt and I needed some help from them and quick. They both got on their knees before me and treated me to the finest and most exciting two-girl blow job I'd ever had, and I finished by jacking off into their faces then watched as they shared my cum before swallowing it, then licked each other's faces and tits off. It was amazingly sexual and that's when I knew we were headed down the right path with the game plan for our new studio. I made breakfast Sunday morning, letting the girls sleep in, but not before just standing there looking at them sleeping in each other's arms, naked as the day they were born. It was perhaps the sexiest thing I'd ever seen in my life, and I realized now that I was capable of loving them, and I was determined to make it work between the three of us. Even if that meant they came first all the time! Chapter 13 I made french toast and bacon, then went in to look at them again. Then I crawled into bed and put my mouth on both their pussies, inhaling deeply of their slightly different and sexy aromas and thrilling to the different taste that came from each of them. They woke up giggling like little girls, and it turned me on and warmed my heart. Soon I was taking turns being inside of first one, then the other, while the one I was inside was eating the other's pussy. I knew then I could be happy waking them up for the rest of their lives like this, and I told them so after I came in Judy's hot wet pussy. With breakfast and dishes out of the way, the girls sat me down for our last big talk of the weekend. "We talked about it this morning while you were out here making breakfast. We want the three of us to move in together! As soon as possible now, James" Sparrow said, and both of them were watching my face carefully. I was speechless. "Y-y-yesss!" I said, amazed and very happy. "We've talked about it before, but this weekend has shown us both now that it's the right thing to do, and now's the right time!" Sparrow continued. I was really eager to see the girls for dinner Monday night at my place, but at the same time, I was kind of scared. Part of me wanted to be with both of them, and I knew in my heart now why I felt that way. I knew I loved Sparrow, and in admitting it to her, I had in effect admitted it to myself officially and out loud at the same time. But there was still more to this than I had let on to myself. And it seems like I was good at not allowing myself to feel things or admit them, doesn't it? But I realized that I loved Judy as well. I loved her because she loved Sparrow, first off. And I loved her because I trusted her, and admired her, and liked her personality. And I loved her because of our intimate times together, which kept just getting better with time. But I also knew that because of the sum of all these things and others, I just knew that I loved her. Period. It seems that opening up to Sparrow was in effect opening up to myself, and all day Monday, I gave a lot of thought to the three of us being together, and that's when I kept coming back to seeing Judy's face in my mind, and hearing her voice, and to just plain feeling good when she was around. And then I realized that I'd been hiding things from myself again. Oh, I could blame it on trying to protect myself or protect Judy, or protect their relationship, but the real blame rested squarely with me. I was callous. Oh, I could be sweet and nice and thoughtful and considerate, but inside, I'd grown callous and cold, and the wall I'd built around my heart and mind was tall and thick and, up until now I thought was impenetrable. But it wasn't. And you want to know something? I was glad for that. Before the girls came in, I'd already made up my mind. On the way home, I bought two huge bouquets of flowers for them and put them on the dining room table with cards for each of them. Inside, I'd written notes specifically for each one, different and yet both very strong and romantic. I had showered and cleaned the house and remade my bed, hoping they would share it with me tonight and from then on. I met them at the door, warmly welcoming them in, hugging and kissing each one sweetly in their turn. When they saw the flowers, Sparrow was the first to tear up, but Judy was quick to follow. "Well, the last time a man gave me flowers was many years ago, and as I recall, all he wanted was to get in my pants!" she said, and the girls laughed. I came up behind her then and nuzzled her neck. "I hope that's exactly what we'll get to do tonight, baby!" I said for her ears only, and she looked at me differently then, and reached behind her to feel my crotch briefly. "Me too!" she whispered excitedly. She smelled incredible and I couldn't wait to be with her. Sparrow had sat down and was reading her card, while that conversation was going on, then she got up crying and got up to hug me hard, her body shaking. Judy looked at her and then at me, and just smiled at me then and winked then shook her head. Then she picked up her card. This is the letter I wrote to her that was folded up in her card: You are very special to me, Judy. You are lovely to me, both inside and out. You are interesting and appealing and challenging and also, yes...very sexy and beautiful to me. And you have a gentle and sweet spirit that is working hard to win my heart, and I'm afraid it has done just that. There's only Sparrow in my life besides you, and even though there are many other women I'm with right now in my life, you two are the only ones I truly care about and trust and admire, and yes...love. I've thought a lot about the both of you this weekend, and realize that I've been lying to myself, saying I was protecting you two from getting sucked into the cesspool of my life, when really I was trying to hide from my own true feelings. The truth is, I love you, Judy. Maybe not in the same way or with the same intensity I do for Sparrow right now, but with the same amount of concern and care and protective feelings that I think are a good foundation for true love. I know that sounds strange to you, me talking about true love, but like I said, I've really examined myself lately, and quite frankly have found myself wanting. I love you with a growing desire to be with you, Judy. As a friend, as a companion, and as a lover. But I only want you if you can still have Sparrow and she can still have you. I love you with a desire to protect what you and Sparrow have and would bow out if there should ever come a time when your relationship with her is threatened by my presence. I want you two to stand the test of time and to always be happy...more than I want me to be happy or for the three of us to work out. My desire to be with you is selfish on the one hand, but is also based on the fact that I realize now that I need you both in my life. I need you for your collective strength, your peaceful ways, your love for each other, and your love for me also. I love Sparrow with a strong and true love, Judy...and in my heart, I know that I will come to love you just as strongly one day soon, if you'll trust me and let me into your heart and share your precious relationship with our beautiful Sparrow. Love, James Judy was crying now and handed the card to Sparrow and then she started crying again. I just stood there and watched them both read each others notes, knowing ahead of time that they would share them with each other, but not caring. Both girls were still adamant about moving in and so I asked them if I could show them something. Today, I'd bought four ornate gold bands, four because I had no idea what size they're thumbs would be. Before I showed them the bands, I said; "If the laws allowed it, I would ask you both to be my wives. But on the other hand, I know you are already married to each other in spirit, and would never, ever, want to do anything to hurt either of you. Still, I feel the strong need to give you both something. A token of my love and devotion to both of you." I opened my hand and there were two bands in my palm. I heard them gasp, and saw the tears then. "Heyyyyy..." I said softly. "If you don't like this idea, it's OK! Really!" They were shaking their heads then. "These are actually thumb rings, not ring-finger rings. I want you to know I didn't do this lightly, nor did I want them on your ring fingers, as I want for you to wear the rings you'll give each other when the state finally says your marriage would be legal. I wouldn't ever stand in the way of that." Now they were crying and both of them reached in and took a ring. As luck would have it, both of them fit nicely, so I said nothing about the other two. I'd return them to the jewelry store later. "These are a token of my love for both of you. When you see them, you'll remember that of all the women in my life, you two are the only ones I love and cherish. I revere you both, and I love you with all my heart." We all kind of lost it for a while then, and I saw them both looking at those rings and whispering together, no doubt wondering at the change in me. We ate our dinner with a nice wine Judy had picked up and talked more. Both girls were red-eyed and tired and I could see my greeting tonight had been emotional for them, as it had been for me. I went into my bath and fixed them a bubble bath and lit candles for them, then left them to themselves to enjoy their time alone while I puttered around the house. At about 10pm, they both came out looking for me, naked as the day they were born, and looking as lovely as I'd ever seen them. Each of them took one of my hands and led me back to the bedroom where they undressed me. For the next hour, I pleasured them and they pleasured each other, but I only with my mouth or hands. The were both constantly teasing me, stroking or touching my cock or balls, and kissing me all over my body. But my interest was in pleasing them and helping them to be excited and participate in their orgasms. In the end, Sparrow laid back on her side and looked at the two of us and it was clear she wanted me to take Judy. Then I made love to her in almost the same way as I had Sparrow that past weekend. Sparrow was patient and just watched with glowing eyes as I led Judy to several long and painful orgasms. I'd already cum twice that day while filming, so I knew I could last almost forever tonight with her, but I was still more excited with her than I had been with the other two ladies that day combined. Judy was submissive and clingy tonight, and very soft and loving, her dark eyes locked on mine as we kissed and I teased her pussy by slowly moving in and out of her. I was rock hard and she was sobbing and whimpering by the time she finally begged me to cum in her. It was almost an instant replay of Sparrow and me on Friday night, but yet it was completely different. Judy was not demanding but she took as well as gave, and she was completely exciting and bewitching to make love to. And that's what it was. No fucking tonight. only sweet lovemaking. And finally when I came, there were tears in her eyes and she held me close as we kissed deeply and I flooded her sweet tight pussy with my juice. To have Sparrow as a lover was heavenly. To have Judy as well was beyond what any man had a right to enjoy. When it was over, Judy clung to me and sobbed in my arms, her legs and ass twitching for some moments afterward until she calmed down. The three of us fell asleep in each others arms, and slept in until almost 8am. I slipped out of bed, and went and made coffee. I had come to hunger for the sight of the two of them curled up naked in my bed in the morning. It was breathtaking and I could only stand and stare. Judy woke up first and smiled at me. "Morning, lover!" she whispered. "You two are stunning!" I whispered. "So beautiful and sexy and just overwhelmingly stunning!" I said, shaking my head. She giggled then opened her arms for me to join her. "Last night was the best I've ever had, James!" she whispered into my ear. "I love you, darling!" she said shyly then. "I love you, too, baby girl!" I said, kissing her lightly. Then I asked "Is it ok if I wake Sparrow up?" and I smiled devilishly and winked. She giggled and nodded. I gently pulled the covers back revealing her sleeping nude form. "I can see why you love her so much, Judy!" I said with awe in my voice. I slipped down between Sparrows legs and parted them carefully then licked her ever so gently, listening to her moan in her sleep. Judy giggled again, and began to finger herself, which turned me on tremendously. I concentrated on Sparrows clit then and soon she was moaning and moving and then she woke up and her fingers went into my hair and she chuckled throatily. "Mmmmmmm!" Sparrow groaned. "I'm so close baby!" she whispered. Judy said "so am I love!" and she straddled Sparrows face and bent over, giving me a view of her ass and slit as Sparrow sucked her clit. Soon both girls were whimpering and cumming and I found it such a turn-on to be eating Sparrow while looking at Judy's ass and thighs as Sparrow ate her out. It was a great way to start the day. Chapter 14 Eric Bolder and Steve the gay guy, and one other wealthy woman I'd been seeing for almost 4 years now, as well as both Sparrow and Judy, all ended up becoming silent investors in my new studio, which I named after my stage name. Rod Hardy Studios was born in July of 1982, seven years after I got my start in the industry. Not only did we find professional actors who wanted to be a part of it, we found lesbian and gay couples who also wanted to try it out. Within a few weeks of the public announcement, I had a call from the identical twins, as well as several others who'd expressed an interest in being a part of the studio. Even Judy and I ended up shooting several scenes together, but only after we'd discussed it with Sparrow first and gotten her permission. We got a lot of great feedback about those scenes. It turns out that there really were a lot of people out there who would watch porn if it wasn't just so degrading and demeaning...to both women and men. Our story lines were smart, and we insisted on realism in both the script and the action scenes. We often let the scenes unravel the way the actors wanted them or felt they wanted them to go, and this proved to be a powerful formula that really came across as authentic and passionate and real, unlike the canned porn so prevalent in those days. Two full years into it,we won the Studio of the Year award, and won it again two years after that. We also won awards for best newcomers, best girl/girl duos and several others. We hit one million videos sold less than 16 months after we started operations, and had averaged making one video a week during those first 16 months. We had a brainstorm in our second year and hired good writers to generate plots for a year-long series of 12 episodes. By the end of that first year of filming, the public was clamoring for more. The reviews were in, and we were at the top of our genre. We'd found a formula that worked, and we were having the best damn time doing it all, too. We paid our actors and actresses well, and our silent partners even better! By the time they were 40, both Sparrow and Judy were millionaires, and now Sparrow had six classic Mustangs in her huge shop on our new property. She never sold that old '71 I bought for her years earlier, claiming it would always be her favorite. I felt the same way about her being my favorite, but that was our secret. Judy and her both worked for the studio and when they hit their early 40's, they turned the reigns over to younger folks and "retired" to pursue other interests. I starred in porn roles until I sold the studio in 1997, when I retired at the age of 40. By that time, the girls were approaching 50 and still had my heart in a way no other women ever would or could. At that time, I became exclusive to and with them, and found that I was indeed capable of loving someone or in this case, two very special someones! And once it was just the three of us, things really took off and just got better and better. The three of us bought houses in Colorado, Florida, and California, and traveled to them whenever the mood struck us for a change of scenery. I sold the studio when I was 44, for way more than enough for the three of us to live lavishly for the rest of our lives on. Sparrow continues to be the one true love of my life, and I adore her completely. Judith and I are still crazy about each other and her and Sparrow continue with a love that I have no doubt will last them the rest of their lives. Finally, in June of 2008, California made same sex marriages legal, and they asked my permission to marry, and I served as 'best man' for both of them. Now they each had two gold bands on their left hands. They are both amazing creatures and I love them dearly and cannot feature life without them. Either one of them. Judith continues to be the Yin to Sparrow's Yang, but that's ok, because that variety keeps all three of us young and in love even until this day.