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 She came to me, as they usually do.  I don't understand why, always with
sad, hard pasts that I offer safe harbor from, warm words and tenderness. I
had noticed her walking her dog months before, with that aura of sadness
that I couldn't understand, this pretty woman obviously out of a divorce
who seemed to have given up on . . .  I don't know what.  I named her Ms.
Lovelorn in my mind and toyed with the idea of meeting her but wasn't sure
how, not without turning myself into a stalker.  She didn't seem to have
the same compunctions.

   There were little things, a flashlight moving by the fence at night and
a woman's voice, the jingle of a dog collar.  And bigger things, the
morning I found a flowered paper towel on my porch and, as I drove off, saw
her holding a similar paper towel, standing over that dog of hers, poised
to clean up after him.  I was a coward, or shy.  No, I was a coward.  How
do you speak to the woman that you wake with in your mind, your hand on
your dick, half awake and gasping, gripped by instinct?  How do you speak
to that woman even when she smiles and greets you?

   Then Christmas came.  It was a troubled time for me, immersed in work
and lonely.  I had taken to walking at night myself, to burn off adrenaline
more than for exercise.  There was a woman in my life that I had begun to
lie to in a struggle to pretend everything was okay.  Women leave me in the
end, out of exasperation when I can't hurt them anymore.  Lights were on,
trees were up, and in the fervor of my loneliness, I was gazing into
windows instead staring out.  And then I saw - her.  I hadn't even known
her house but there she was, cloaked in white lingerie with a transparent
dressing gown in her bay window, lips parted and eyes wide.  We locked eyes
and she tapped it, the glass, with her finger.  In shock and shaken, I
turned and walked up her sidewalk, mind spinning with eager gratitude.  The
door opened a crack before I reached it and I let myself in.  As I closed
it behind me, Ms.  Lovelorn disappeared down the hallway.  I followed her
to the darkened door of her bedroom, leaned against the doorframe, and
gazed in at her on the bed.  I smiled in disbelief and with a touch of
amusement, this pretty woman ten of fifteen years my senior who wanted
nothing more than anonymous sex.  "Would . .  .um, would you have a drink
with me?" I asked.  "Or am I being too forward?"

   She sighed with exasperation, and then let out a giggle that rose into a
laugh.  "Should I dress?" "No.  No, please don't." I moved out of the way
when she reached the door, allowing her to walk down the hallway ahead of
me, which she did without reluctance.  "I dream about you sometimes," I
told her.  She only shook her head.  "You're beautiful.  But I don't think
that's why.  I'm drawn to whatever you lost that I can't replace.  Your
sorrow.  I'm sorry to be so blunt about it.  I've been told that suffering
attracts only sadists and I hope I'm not that." I waited in the den and she
continued on into the kitchen.

   "There's something in your eyes."

   "You have a sweet tongue," she answered.

   "I've had a crush on you for a while.  I thought I should pull out all
the stops."

   "What's your name?"

   "Michael," I answered, finally removing my coat.

   She returned with two glasses and an open bottle of wine.  Silently, I
watched her fill the glasses on the coffee table, admiring her in a warm
haze with lust rising through it.  She carried a glass to me.  "Merry
Christmas, Michael."

   I took the glass and kissed her.  She responded eagerly and for long
moments I stood with her, holding my glass out of the way, noises in my
throat.  I pulled back from the embrace, overwhelmed and glanced towards
the window.  Looking back to her, I raised my eyebrows.  She smiled and I
understood she hoped the neighbors saw.

   We sat on the sofa, close, and her hand moving immediately to my leg,
causing me to leak.  She smiled at me.  "What's on your mind that you
wanted to talk about?"

   "I'm sorry?"

   "You can have me, Michael," she whispered.  "But here we are in engaged
in this nice little seduction.  Is it to ease your nerves?"

   I smiled at her with a trace of discomfort.  "Please tell me you know
I've noticed you." "I do," she said, eyes wide again.  She climbed into my
lap, straddling my legs and kissed me again.  Aggressively, we met each
other, my hands moving to her ass, her hands on my chest.  After several
minutes, she pulled back.  "You fucking tease," she said, but I was already
working to unfasten her bra.  I leaned forward and ravenously sucked her
breasts, her nipples, holding her close to me as she struggled to unbutton
my shirt.  When the last button was unfastened, she stood and pulled off
her panties and I quickly disrobed.  Mounting me again, she fit my cock at
the entrance to her warm pussy and sunk down upon it.

   "Don't cum, don't cum, don't cum," she gasped as she rode me.  I stared
into her eyes, entranced.  Her eyes saw nothing.  When she began to
shudder, I pulled her to me and kissed her hard.  "Michael," she whined.

   "I have to," I said.  "I need to."

   She smiled at me widely.  "How badly do you need it?" she asked, her
muscles contracting around me.

   "I'll beg, if that's what you want," I answered shamelessly.

   "Spend the night, Michael," she said as she sunk to the floor between my
legs.  Long minutes of heaven.  My mouth jabbering those words that women
seem to love interspersed with promises I knew I'd one day break, and
finally, "I'm gonna cum.  I'm gonna cum for you." She fisted my cock,
watching my eyes hungrily.  And I came.