My name is Amanda, or Manda for short. I'm 18 years old and all
my life i have been consumed by sex. It started when i was a
little girl,and hasn't let up since. My father loved both me and
my older brother Jason. But it was obvious to me even when I was
little, that Jason was the the favorite. I was 8 at the time, He
was about 5 years older than me, and dad had moulded him into a
sport fanatic, adrenaline pumping boy. He was 13 years old and
was easily one of the best looking and fittest kids in the
neighborhood. But he had a dark side, a side of him that would
lead to me becoming a simple trophy in his and my fathers eyes.

I was a happy enough girl, a fiery little red head who was always
getting into trouble. Dark brown eyes in contrast to my very
white skin. I was a thin girl with a small amount of freckles
sprinkled over my cheeks. I'd taken after my mother. She had died
when I was only 3 years old, it hit all of us really hard. Dad
was hit particularly hard, he lost his job shortly after and we
ended up moving away from our home town. Dad got a part time job,
mainly nights. This left us kids to look after ourselves, and
Jason and i got along fine. 

 I was at that young innocent age where clothes were more of a
hinderance than a necessity. Any time I could it was off with the
clothes and running around joyfully. Of course I never noticed
that my brother was taking a LOT more notice in me. There were
times when my dad was bathing me and his attention called him
elsewhere and Jason would tell him that he'd finish me off. I of
course couldn't have cared less I was too young to care, I was
more concerned with splashing them to care. Sometimes, my brother
would take the opportunity to slip his hands softly between my
little legs and rub a little. 

He'd say he was washing my special spot, and act as if it were a
game. I of course would go along with it. Then after a while he
would disappear for a while and return to get me out of the bath.
Dry me off roughly,touching my little body a bit more than he
should have been, then slipping my clothes on. This was common,
and it was more often than not that my brother bathed me in the
evening. One night my dad walked in right as he was rubbing my
young little pussy and there was a big argument. I remember that
night they both yelled at each other and I was sitting at the
bottom of the staircase listening in on it. 

It continued, though only when dad wasn't home and jason and i
were alone. It was a common occurrence  until I was at least six
and was a bit more conscious of my nakedness around both Jason
and dad. 

I remember around the time I turned eight I heard them arguing,
so i walked to the doorway and peaked at them. My brother had his
hand on my dads shoulder as he sat on a chair. He had a smile on
his face, my dads was more of a worried look. They saw me peeking
and i ran back to my room, closing the door behind me.a little
later that night I stirred to the noise of my bedroom door
opening. Being eight I was still scared of things that went bump
in the night. I was scared as I listened for more noises,
quivering below the sheets. I heard nothing at first, just
silence and then something brushing against my bed sheets. 

I felt my bed sheets moving, and then something brushed against
my feet. I jerked and tried to get out of my bed but suddenly my
legs were being held down on the mattress and i couldn't move my
lower body. I was really scared now, I cried out for dad a couple
of times before strong hands gripped my upper thighs. I tried
desperately to get out of my bed but I didn't have the strength
to get away from whoever was holding me. 

Suddenly a pair of hands slipped up my legs and pulled my pants
down to my knees, then moved straight back to holding my lower
body to the bed. I could see now the big rise in my bed sheets,
just making out legs sticking out of the end of the bed. I tried
to kick a few times but I was powerless to achieve anything from
it. Then came a familiar sensation, rubbing. Something was
rubbing between my legs through my underwear. I was a bit
confused at what was happening but the same feeling as bath time
began to come over me. I was still scared at the invasion, still
trying to wrestle free, but the rubbing began to get faster and
there was little I could do about it so....I laid back and caught
my breath.

"that's right,relax for me manda" said a voice from under my
blanket.

I immediately recognized the voice, it was Jason who was In my
bed. Part of me began to relax and soon i was focusing more on
the slight warmth growing inside me. The rubbing was starting to
feel kinda good. For the first time the hands holding down my
legs let go a little and I moved my legs up a bit, the thought to
jump out of my bed had left my mind somehow. Jason took the
opportunity to grab the hem of my underwear and slip them off
down to my ankles with my pajama pants. My bare pussy was now
exposed to him completely. I felt a bit anxious now, what was my
brother doing? Why was he touching the area I use to pee?, why
was it making me feel so good?.

Soon the rubbing began again and the feeling from before was
coming back. My little head was spinning as all these feeling
started. I felt my hips buck at one point as i was touched in a
place that had never been touched before. I let out a little
whimper as my brothers fingers began to caress and rub parts of
me that felt good when he did. I began to feel different down
there, my brother rubbed one of his fingers against my thigh and
left a wet streak across it. I jerked a bit, I was wet down
there,had I wet myself?

"don't worry sis, that just means you like it is all" said Jason
as if he was reading my thoughts. 

Soon those fingers of his were going deeper and deeper inside of
me. It felt strange..but good, I felt like I was getting warmer
and warmer. I began to bite my lip and and stretch my back a bit.
As the fingers slid in and out of my 8 year old cunny. Then
something soft and wet joined the fingers and I let out an
audible yelp. It had taken me by surprise but it had also felt
incredibly good!. By now my head was focused on such pleasure
that was engulfing nearly my whole body. My little legs flexed
and by back arched as jason's tongue explored my little pussy. I
let out another little whimper of sheer delight.

Jason's fingers left my crotch, leaving just his tongue. Jason's
hands gripped both my thighs from underneath and slid up to my
bum. He took firm grip of my cheeks and pulled my lower body off
the bed, holding it up in his hands. I was happy at that point to
let him do what he wanted and again let out a groan of girly
delight as his tongue probed deeper into me. Jason had started a
rhythm and was driving my little body insane. I felt my loins
getting hot and kind of tingly, My mind dazed. I just wanted the
feeling to go on forever. Almost involuntary my body began to
flinch and my hips buck. 

Jason's tongue was reaching areas deep inside of me and I could
feel something building. He held my ass up off the mattress and
flicked his tongue around like it was a worm searching for
something. My breathing became heavier, quicker and quicker. Then
I felt my hips buck again and again as the feeling built and
built until finally jason's tongue reached somewhere that just
made me cry out in sheer pleasure. My little body shaking as I
experienced my first ever orgasm. My heart racing at a million
miles an hour, my body sweating a little bit. I lay my head back
as I recovered from the experience. 

Jason let go of me and slid away from between my legs, letting
the sheets fall and rest on me. Through the light from the window
I could make out Jason beside my bed. He stood there for a moment
and then placed a hand on my chest. 

"your mine now Manda, even if you don't know it yet, I own you
and I will always own you" said Jason softly to me. Then he
patted me on the top of my head and left my room. 

I reached down underneath my bed sheets and pulled my underwear
and pants up, not before feeling around down there and making
sure everything was ok. I pulled my pants up and turned to my
side ready to go back to sleep. But soon enough my eyes were open
and my mind was going through what had happened just now and what
my brother had said to me. I also couldn't help thinking about my
body as well, and why it had reacted the way it had. As I closed
my eyes again, my left hand slipped down my pants and down to my
pussy again. I sighed and tried to drift off to sleep, whiles't I
explored my young body for the first time.

That was the first time I'd been exposed to anything sexual. Now
I'd become confused, was this something siblings did with each
other?. I didn't mention it the next day to dad and Jason didn't
even act any different. I ended up forgetting about what had
happened, and for the next few nights I slept uninterrupted.
However an urge was growing inside of me, as young as I was I
couldn't get over how good it felt, especially when something
happened inside me, an explosion of sorts. As the nights went on
I continued to seek that feeling out. My sexuality had begun and
I was very curious. 

The next thing I really remember was about five nights or so
since my brother had been in my room. I was almost asleep, in
that place between being awake and out cold. As I was drifting
off I felt the bed moving ever so slightly, followed by the the
feeling of my bed sheets being pulled down to my legs. This time
i was knew it was Jason, who I assumed was here to do what he'd
done before. But this time he was over me, I made out his
silhouette in my dark room. 

I felt warmth on my neck and soon moving up to my ear. It felt
like someones warm breath against my skin. I closed my eyes,
waiting for him to make his next move. Soon enough his hands were
on my chest,sliding done to my tummy. He lifted my night shirt up
and asked me to put my arms up. For some reason i obeyed and did
as Jason asked, not sure what this was all leading to. He removed
my shirt completely, leaving my upper body completely exposed.
His hand were back on my chest and he placed them both around my
little nipples. Almost massaging the entire area. 

The feel of his warm hands rubbing and massaging me there felt
kinda good. Though this time I felt some hesitation, something
about my brother touching me like this felt wrong. He removed his
hands and I could see that he was taking his shirt off as well.
Then I heard I sound of a belt unbuckling and before long he was
sliding his pants off and He was in bed with me, completely
naked. I was a bit worried by all this but I still went with it.
Jason began running his hands all over my body, my tummy, chest,
neck and shoulders. I could hear his breathing from beside me as
his hands wandered over my young body.

I started to think back to a few nights ago and how good I felt
when he put his fingers up inside me. My young mind began to
crack and I could feel myself giving in to him. I felt weight on
top of me and soon there was pressure on my tummy. A small light
came on and I could see  Jason kneeling over me, his naked crotch
was only a few inches from me. For the first time in my life I
saw his erect penis, it bulged out from his body. It was
something I'd never seen in my life and it was kind of weird to
an eight year old girl. 

"tonight its your turn" said Jason as he moved it closer to my
face. He moved back a bit and got me to sit up so I was leaning
against the head rest. 

He moved closer to me and again his rock hard dick was only
inches from my face. He placed his hand on my face and stroked it
softly. "hold it with your hand and then put the tip in your
mouth" he instructed. 

I hesitated for a few moments and then did as he asked, taking
hold of it with my left hand. It was large and warm in my hand, I
could feel it throbbing as I held it. Nervously i moved my head
forward and brought the tip of his dick to my mouth. Not sure
what to do I stuck my tongue out slightly and let it brush the
tip of his dick.

I immediately heard Jason let out a faint groan, his hand moved
from my cheek to the back of my head. I kept going and put more
of his penis into my mouth. I began to taste something quite
salty, I shuddered a little bit but Jason kept my head in
position with his hand. He then pushed my head foreword a bit
more and I felt his dick go right into the back of my mouth,
brushing across my tongue and toward the back of my throat. I was
a bit startled, not liking the intrusion. He let my head fall
back a bit and pulled his penis from my mouth. 

"your doing great manda, keep doing that but quicker, back and
fourth, suck on it a little" said Jason thrusting foreword into
my mouth. 

I didn't really like it that much but I moved foreword and took
his penis into my mouth. This time I moved my tongue around a bit
and as he instructed moved my head foreword and back. Using my
hand to grip it I pulled it into my mouth as I sucked on it. I
kept going as quick as I could. The salty taste was back and I
didn't like it very much. I could hear Jason breathing deeply
again, interrupted occasionally by low moans. His grip on the
back of my head tightened and his other hand was grabbing hold of
my chest, twisting my nipple between his fingers. 

I kept going as long as I could, back and fourth, back and
fourth. His groans got louder and I felt his penis in my mouth
tremble slightly and at that moment he grabbed my head with both
hands and pulled it foreword violently. I was virtually choking
on his dick when I felt something being sprayed into my mouth,
and mostly down my throat. I was gagging on my brothers cock, my
face going red, my breathing restricted.

He held my head like that for a few more seconds before finally
letting go of my head completely. I started coughing and
spluttering immediately, as I tried to catch my breath. The taste
in my mouth was slightly salty but not completely unpleasant. I
spent the next minute coughing and bringing some of the stuff up.
Jason had gotten off the bed and was putting his clothes back on.
I laid flat on my back again, still in some discomfort. 

I felt used by my brother, I was not fond of the experience. I
made my mind up at that point that I wouldn't let him do that
again. He left my room shortly after, without so much as a word.
I wiped my eyes and my mouth and tried to go back to sleep. I was
angry and a bit frightened, I began to realize that I probebly
wouldn't be able to stop my brother. I told myself that If he
tried it again I'd tell dad. That never happened. A few nights
later Jason came into my room again, before I could react he had
my pants down and I gave into him again. That night he brought me
to orgasm again and he told me that we'd take turns. 

This became a regular thing, at least five nights a week my
brother would pay visits to my room and he would finger me and
lick my pussy until I came or I would suck his cock until he did.
I began to get used to blow jobs as he called them. In fact after
a month or so I was getting exceedingly good at it. It hadn't
gone passed oral sex yet, thank god. Though my mind was starting
to wonder, and i was stupid enough to think it hadn't struck my
brother yet. It had, in fact this was all leading up to my first
time having sex.

The weekly visits went on for a long time. It must have been a
good two years, something he said we were keeping secret from
dad. By then I wasn't a stranger of my body, I was beginning to
realize what excited me and how to achieve it. Jason was also
becoming a bit more daring with this. One time when dad had gone
out to get some groceries. Jason cornered me in the kitchen until
I sucked him off. After a short wrestle I submitted and blew him
until he came. That time really made me think about it and how
how wrong it was. I was only ten after all. I went to my room and
shut myself in, waiting for dad to come back. 

My body's development was going steadily and as early as ten my
breasts were coming in. Dad told me we'd have to go bra shopping
soon and also that soon my body would start to change. I had been
told by other girls what happened when you reached around
thirteen or fourteen. One of them had said it was the beginning
of the stage where I became ready to start fucking. I hadn't
heard that word before, though I figured what it meant. I was
becoming much more aware of why my brother was doing what he
was. 

Soon after, I told my brother that I didn't want any of this to
happen anymore. I told him it wasn't right that we did it and to
forget everything we had done. I still loved my brother and in
some way I didn't completely hate what we'd done. He didn't
really give me an answer, but for a time the visits to my room
and the requests during the times dad was away stopped. I was
happy and I felt as if my life was that of a normal ten year
olds. 

It didn't last, around 6 months later things got even worse. My
brother had brought friends around, they were all around his age
and much older than I was. He seemed to ignore me while his
friends were over, barely acknowledging me. One time I noticed a
pair of my underpants were missing. After looking around for them
i noticed them in my brothers room. One of his friends was with
him and when they saw that I had seen my underwear in his room
they smiled and Jason grabbed them. 

"give them back!" I said to them, demandingly. 

He just smiled and looked at his friend. 

"I'll give them back to you.....if you show us both your cute
little body" he replied in a slightly evil tone.

"no way, give them back or I'm telling dad!" 

"huh!, dad won't care, he never has" said Jason now grinning.

I stopped as my mind raced, had dad known about my brothers
visits to my room?, had this all been given his ok? Did dad not
care what my brother wanted from me or did to me?. I left my
brothers room, refusing to do what he asked of me. I refused to
play his game, I had developed some pride. I went to my room and
sat on my bed, feeling like I meant nothing to my brother or my
dad. Brothers were meant to protect their little sisters, not use
them for their sexual needs.

A few more weeks passed and I had reached my eleventh birthday. I
had very little to do with my brother since then. I didn't trust
him anymore and he had a girlfriend now. I had a few friends and
my life was pretty good. On my birthday my friends came over and
the day was really good. Dad gave me an iPod, my Grandparents had
sent me my first make up kit. I was really excited about it.
Jason also gave me a present, it was a cell phone, a really
expensive one. I loved it of course but I couldn't believe he'd
got me something that cost so much. I thanked him a lot and spent
the rest of the day one happy girl.

The next night dad had gone out to work, Jason and I were alone
together before his girlfriend christie came around. I was in my
room watching tv, Jason and his girlfriend were watching a movie
in the lounge with together.  

The night was going ok until I could hear them making out on the
couch while the movie was on. I closed my bedroom door to block
em out, Christie was a noisy one. Not five minutes later I could
hear Christie shouting and yelling about something. I opened my
door a little and peeked out. I saw Christie grabbing her things
and storming out of our house. Jason looked really upset, really,
really angry. I shut my door and went back to my bed, hoping he'd
calm down and go to his room. At first nothing happened and I
figured he'd gone to his room, but it was too good to be true. 

I heard footsteps and then then my door was flung open. Jason had
a look in his eyes I hadn't seen before in my life. He walked in,
looked at me for a bit and then walked over to my dresser. He
grabbed the make up kit and held it up. 

"tonight you pay me back for that phone I got you"  said Jason in
a very calm and collected tone.

"yeah I don't think so!, I couldn't care less about that phone so
take it, see what I care" I shot back, I knew what he wanted.

He walked over to me and leaned over, holding the make up kit in
his hand. 

"You'll do whatever I say Amanda, and I think its time you had a
lesson in sex education" replied Jason, his eyes looking over
me.He dropped the make up kit and went to grab me. 

I went to get off the bed but he jumped on top of me, pinning me
to the bed. He spun around and grabbed hold of me, forcing me
onto my back. I tried to wrestle out of his grip but he easily
held my arms against the bed, above my head. He leaned down and
began kissing my neck, over and over, I was still trying to get
out of the hold he had me in. He pinned himself against me and
let go of my arms, simultaneously he shoved a hand up my night
shirt, feeling for my small developing breasts. 

"ah just starting to become a woman Amanda!, now I'm going to
show you the best part" he said kissing and sucking on my neck. 

Jason began to move more, his breathing becoming more heavier, he
was getting really excited. He let go of my other arm, I
immediately tried to push him off me but he used the hand on my
chest to keep me flat on my back. With his spare hand he grabbed
the top of my pajama pants and pulled them down with ease. I
cried out as I felt him immediately place his hand on my crotch,
slipping it between my legs. I was really trying to put up a
fight but he was so strong I couldn't do anything. I was becoming
exhausted just fighting against him. 

Jason had slipped his hand underneath my panties and was rubbing
my bald pussy. I tried to close my legs but with his body laying
over mine I could barely move a muscle. I felt him working my
pussy with his hand, getting his rhythm going as he rubbed and
rubbed. I cried out for him to stop, to please just leave me
alone. He had no intention of stopping, his fingers were slipping
between the slit of my pussy and working me over. I couldn't help
but let put a little sigh as he found my weak spot. This
encouraged him big time, his fingers picked up pace and soon they
were penetrating me deeply. My pussy was getting wet and was
becoming  well lubricated. 

"Jason please!, stop now I beg you, i will tell people you did
this!" I said, begging him to stop. 

He ignored me and continued to finger my pussy. I was helpless
and had given up fighting him. He realized this, feeling my arms
leave his chest. He took the opportunity to pull my panties off
and unbutton my night shirt, all with little force. I looked into
his eyes and gave my most saddest look, he placed his hand on my
face and stroked me softly. 

"you'll like this amanda!, sooner or later you'll learn to like
this!" said Jason,removing his hand and undoing his belt. 

He moved his head down  and began licking my tummy, moving his
tongue up over my navel then back down to just a few inches above
my vagina. After a few more seconds he ran his tongue up my tummy
to my chest, licking right up to my nipple. I shuddered at this,
to my horror the feeling inside me was growing again, the good
one. This, combined with my pussy being fingered was causing my
body to betray me. I breathed deeply as Jason took my left nipple
in his mouth and sucked on it a bit, even gnawing on it ever so
slightly. That made my body get that tingly feeling all over,
goosebumps were all over me. I couldn't hide the little moan I
gave and this was his signal to go fourth. His fingers pumped in
and out of me for a few more moments, then he moved up over me. I
was looking directly at his neck.

He had slid his pants off and his hard erect cock was sticking
into my thigh. He slid a hand up to my left shoulder and held me
kind of tight. He took hold of his cock in his other hand and
rubbed it against my inner thigh for a few seconds. As I looked
down I could see the pre cum glistening in a small trail on my
upper thigh. He placed the head of his cock at the entrance of my
pussy and rubbed it up and down the slit. I was bracing myself
for the inevitable, there was no stopping it. The thought going
Through my mind was that my first time was going to be with my
own brother, my own flesh and blood. 

The thought was interrupted as I felt the head of his cock push
into my young vagina. I let out a small, soft groan as I felt him
begin to enter me. He inched himself in, first the head popped
inside me, then the rest slowly slid further into me. 

"ugh!...ah..ah....hhmmnn...agh!" Was all I let out as my brothers
cock split me open and worked its way deeper into me. 

Then he pushed forward and I felt a twinge of pain hit me, one
that caused me to cry out and grip my brother tightly. He took
hold of my sides and pulled out a bit, then back in, causing
another moan from me. I looked down as he pulled his cock back
and saw it had blood on it. I was fairly alarmed, even freaking
out a little. Jason just held me tight and thrust back inside me.
My tight pussy clamping down on the evading cock like a vice. He
groaned loudly and thrust into me back and fourth, then almost
automatically i raised my legs, bent my knees and wrapped them
around jason's waist. Our bodies were rocking back and fourth in
unison, I felt every inch of his cock going deeper inside me. 

"told you.....you'd like it" whispered Jason as he fucked me. 

That almost brought me to tears, mainly. Because I knew he was
right. It didn't feel right, but as he fucked me i held him
tight, wanting him to hump me harder and deeper. His cock in my
pussy felt amazing,I could barley hold back,I just panted and
moaned as he fucked me. I was starting to sweat as muscles I
didn't know I had constricted around my brothers dick, like it
was milking it. I clutched my brother tightly and used my legs to
pull myself into him as closely as possible. I was now just a
slave to my young body. It was experiencing this pleasure for the
first time and it was desperate for more. 

Jason fucked me deeper and deeper, my body almost convulsing when
slammed into me as hard as he could. I let out a cry as he
hit,then pulled back slightly. He slammed me a few more times and
then began to pick up the pace. Slap! Slap! Slap! Slap!, he began
fucking me as fast as he could. A loud smack of flesh slapping
flesh as his balls collided with my ass. His pace didn't let up
and for about two minutes straight he jackhammered into me as
fast as he could. My young body was being shaken back and fourth,
my butt bouncing off of the bed as he fucked me with all the
energy he had. 

Jason groaned loudly and pulled out of me suddenly. With his dick
in his hand he aimed it over me and almost simultaneously i was
sprayed with his cum. It landed on my chest and stomach mainly. A
few streaks of it reached my neck. Jason almost collapsed beside
me, exhausted. I was surprised it was all over,my pussy had
calmed down but I hadn't had the release i was after. I had no
shame left, I stuck my hand down there and  fingered myself until
I came. Moaning in pleasure as my body shook in ecstasy. 

Jason recovered,got up and put his clothes on, he looked at me
and smiled,before leaving and closing the door behind him. I fell
face foreword into my bed and buried my face in my pillow. Tears
began and the shame of what had happened hit me again. I sobbed
for a good hour or so, heading into the bathroom and washing the
gross semi dried semen off my body. As I showered I felt a dark
feeling grow over me. What had happened was horrible, and I felt
used and hurt. The thought that my brother could do that any time
he wanted scared me. 

But what scared me the most was the feeling inside me that
despite what had happened, was a little turned on by
this....taboo!. Just like the first time he'd performed oral sex
on me, i had been left both confused but also....kind of
excited!.



More to come.....