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 I Shouldn't Have...  But I Did

   By Barbie After a hard day of work, I arrived home.  Removing my dress,
I looked at my 39-year-old body in the mirror.  I thought to myself "Barbie
you can still give the young girls a run for their money."

   My 38DD breasts are still very firm with minimal sag.  I have a tiny
waist, but growing hips.  I seem to still get attention when I wear jeans
or shorts.  It's too bad, I thought, that my husband no longer seems to be
turned-on by me.  The tightness in my shoulders and neck brought me back to
reality.

   I looked out my bedroom window at the steaming hot tub in the back yard.
Maybe a nice soak in the hot tub would help me.  Since no one was home, I
put on my tiniest bikini and went in.  I lay back in the hot tub as the
bubbles soothed the stress away.  It felt so good.

   After a few minutes I heard the sliding back door open.  "Hi, mom can
Lex stay over tonight?" Looking over at my 18-year-old son and his friend,
I said, "Sure he can.  Just let me stay in here for a while."

   "OK mom.  Hey can we join you?" he asked.  Thinking to myself, there
goes the relaxation, while momentarily forgetting how skimpy my bikini was,
I replied, "Sure dear, if you like."

   As I think back on that night, my feelings that my son was lusting after
me no doubt enabled me to do what I did.  For several months leading up to
that night, my son seemed to go out of his way to study my body whenever he
could, and to walk in on me just as I was getting out of the shower.  I had
always attempted to cover myself with a towel, but I began to think his
visits to the bathroom were timed to allow him to see my naked body.

   Frankly, I had noticed that my son seemed to be paying more attention to
my body recently than his father was, and I had to admit I liked the looks
he gave me.  Sometimes I intentional dropped my towel, or left the bathroom
door slightly ajar when I knew my son and his best friend were in the
house.

   Often, when I had my robe on and came out to the living room, I noticed
the boys grinning, unintentionally letting me know that they had watched me
bathe or shower.  I had come to be greatly flattered that these young men
found me attractive.  On a couple occasions, I left my robe open just
enough so much of my cleavage was showing, pretending not to know that I
was exposed.

   On this night the boys got their swim trunks on quickly.  When they got
into the hot tub, I couldn't help but notice the huge bulge in Lex's swim
trunks.  I needed to move into a sitting position to give them room. 
That's when I realized that my breasts were seriously exposed as they
strained in my small bikini top.

   The eyes of both boys quickly moved to my breasts.  I pretended to
ignore their gawks.  We talked for awhile, and they started telling me
jokes.  Some were a bit ribald.  After a few more minutes, I felt a hand
brushing against my thigh.  When I didn't say anything, soon it was on my
thigh, rubbing and moving higher.  The way both of them were leaning, I
couldn't tell who's hand it was, and the way my nipples were growing, who
ever it was could tell that I didn't mind the touching.  As a matter of
fact, although I know I should have reacted differently, I found it most
enjoyable.

   I know.  Most folks would think me wicked, but I was starting to feel
horny, even though my stimulation was coming from two 18-year-olds, one of
which was my son.  I am sure thoughts of 'shouldn't do this,' passed
through my mind, but my body hadn't been given pleasure for so long (damn
husband), and the feel of that hand on my thigh, and the knowledge that
both boys seemed to find me attractive, and were obviously sharing my
horniness...  I threw caution aside without further thought.

   Sliding down a little, I consiously parted my legs a bit.  I know I
shouldn't have done it, but....  My movement allowed the hand to slide
higher, with more access.  I soon felt fingertips brushing my pussy through
my bikini bottom.  I closed my eyes and leaned my head back.  I couldn't
help myself.  I parted my legs more.  As I did so, my legs came in contact
with both my son and his friend's legs.

   Then I felt a thumb pressing against my growing clit, and a soft moan
came out of my mouth.  Gawd, it had been so long since I had last had sex
with my husband.  The thought of not knowing who was touching me caused my
pussy to become inflamed with heat.  Then Lex leaned forward, exposing both
of his hands, as he tentatively moved them toward me, cupping both of my
breasts under water.

   'Oh my god,' I thought, 'It is my son that is rubbing me.' My body
quivered with the taboo thought as my body gave in to a mini-orgasm. 
"Ma'am are you OK?" Lex asked.

   Smiling back at him I said, "Oh yes...  I sure am."

   Slowly I slid my feet up toward their crotches.  As my feet made contact
with their crotches, smiles seemed to cross their faces as they looked
first at each other, then at me.

   I could tell that my son was rock hard as I pressed into him.  Lex on
the other hand was soft, but his size was the same as my son's hardness. 
Then I felt my son's fingers move my bikini bottom, and quickly they moved
into me!  Lex's hands continued to cradle and gently caress my barely
covered breasts.  I could feel Lex's massive cock growing as I rubbed him
with my foot.  It felt quite thick.  My foot moved with the quick pace of
the fingers driving deep into my pussy.

   I heard moans escape both of their lips as my feet continued to stroke
their young cocks.  Finally the heat of the moment got to me, and I let
loose.  Lex's hands fell away as I moved away from my son's hand, and moved
right in between the two boys.

   My large breasts were heaving with anticipation as I reached a hand onto
both of their laps.  The boys just sort of grinned at each other.  Lex's
cock was by then fully erect, and almost twice the size of my son's!  I put
my hands into their trunks and felt the heat of their erections.  I started
to stroke both of them at the same time.

   My son just moaned, "Yes mom...  that feels good." The boys snuggled
close to me as I saw them wink at each other.  Lex quickly followed with
"Yes, yes, YES!  Keep doing that."

   Lex's and my son's hands came up and quickly removed my bikini top. 
They flung it out of the hot tub and onto the porch.  With my breasts then
fully exposed, they each took a nipple into their mouths and started to
suck on them.  Memories rushed back into my mind of the days that I breast
fed my son for almost a year, and the great pleasure I had derived from his
feedings.  I felt that pleasure again as I had two mouths sucking on my
nipples.

   Time just seemed to disappear as we sat in the hot water sharing those
taboo pleasures.  Then I heard the front door opening.  My husband was
home.

   Not sure what to do, I quickly pulled my hands from their trunks, and
extracted my nipples from their mouths.  They both let out sighs of
disappointment, but I wasn't sure what my husband would do if he saw us
that way.  We hastily left the hot tub and went to our separate rooms.

   Like usual, my husband was soon on his computer.  He didn't even notice
that I walked into the room almost naked, and completely horny from the
tryst in the hot tub.  I asked him how his day had been, and he just
grunted that it was a usual day at the office.  I changed and went down to
make dinner.

   At the table, my husband announced that he would have to go back into
the office after he ate and took a shower.  I thought it was a little odd,
but didn't care.  Would that mean that I would get another chance with Lex
and my son after he left?  As my husband pulled out of the driveway, I put
my plan into action.

   I studied myself in the mirror.  I had changed into my short white silk
robe with a tiny white bra and a matching thong.  Turning around, checking
the length of my robe in the back, I smiled to myself since the length was
just a few inches below my cheeks.

   I sat on the bed thinking, 'should I really do this?,' as I slid my
white thigh highs on, and then finished myself off with a pair of white 4"
pumps.  Still wavering between thoughts like, 'this is wrong...  I
shouldn't do this' and, 'I know the boys want me...  and I sure want them,'
I made my way downstairs and into the kitchen.

   I made a quick dessert tray like I always did when Lex stayed over.  I
poured myself a stout drink of bourbon, and drank it down quickly, to
bolster my courage.  I knew that down deep it was my intention that this
time the real dessert was me!  I went down to the basement where they were
watching movies, probably cheap skin flicks on some movie channel, and made
my entrance.  "Well, you boys hungry?" I asked them.

   "Yeah mom, we're starving," my son replied.  I asked, "How about some
dessert?  If you are interested, I have a very special dessert for both of
you."

   "Sure!" they both responded.

   "Well, come and get it." I put the tray on the table next to me.  When
Lex and my son came over to get their plates, I told them to wait.  I
slowly slid off my silk robe and let it fall to the floor.  I placed one
hand under each of my breasts, and as seductively as I could, I said, "Eat
up boys."

   With shit-eating grins on their faces, neither hesitated as my robe hit
the floor.  Immediately returning to the scene at the hot tub, I undid my
bra, and they attached themselves to my tits, like leeches.  I guess they
were still just as horny as I was from the hot tub.  It felt great to have
them sucking on my nipples.  Their hands began to caress my nearly nude
body too.  It felt so good that my pussy got wet almost instantly.  I laid
back on the floor.

   While they were sucking on my nipples, their hands explored my body and
started to probe my lower openings.  One hand was massaging my clit and
pussy, while another was massaging my ass.  I was so turned-on that I
didn't even care which was which, just as long as it felt good.  And it did
too.  All thoughts of "taboo" had totally disappeared.

   Soon a finger was inserted into my pussy and ass at almost the same
time. I exploded in an earth shattering orgasm.  I pulled their heads
against my ample breasts even harder, and started grinding my hips to get
their fingers in as deep as they could.

   Finally I pulled them away and told them it was my turn to finish what I
had started in the hot tub.  I told them if they would like that, they had
to shed their clothes.  I can't tell you how fast shirts, shoes, socks,
pants, and underpants came off and were thrown across the room.

   They both had raging hard-ons.  I marveled at the size of Lex's cock. 
As they stood nude on either side of me, I began to jerk my son off, while
I attempted to take Lex into my mouth.  I flicked my tongue across the head
of his penis, and swirled it around.  Slowly, I managed to take all of it
in.  I moved up and down, up and down, bringing him close to orgasm.

   When he began to moan, I pulled him out, and gave my son the attention
he'd been waiting for.  I took him in my mouth, not noticing what Lex was
about to do.  He got down between my legs, knelt down, and started to eat
me.  Lex pulled my white thong aside, and started to lick my dripping
pussy.

   It felt so good to have someone pay attention to it besides myself.  I
felt my clit grow bigger.  It felt like it was the size of a cherry.  Lex
greedily sucked it into his mouth and started to flick his tongue over it.
He was driving me crazy with his tongue.  Meanwhile, I was sucking my son's
cock.  He was built like his father, long and thick, but hopefully my son
had more energy.  Because that night I wanted to be fucked until I couldn't
walk.

   All thoughts of my lovers as 'my son and his friend' disappeared.  They
were simply lovers who were just as hungry for me as I was for them.

   Lex kept sucking and licking my pussy and clit.  I laid back on the
carpeted floor as my son knelt next to me and I kept sucking his wonderful
cock.  Then I felt hands start to play with my breasts.  My nipples were
tugged on and twisted.  I think that both of them were playing with them,
but I didn't care.  It just felt so good to have them played with.

   Finally, I stopped sucking my son and pulled away.  I stood up and
leaned over the couch.  I told them to fuck me, and that I didn't care who
was first.

   Quickly, I felt a large cock push into my pussy from behind.  I think
the only reason my pussy was tight was from lack of recent use, and nothing
else.  I assumed it was my son, but I didn't care.  I just closed my eyes
and enjoyed the sensations.

   As the cock was pushed further into my pussy, I saw Lex move in front of
me and offer me his large cock.  I eagerly took it into my mouth and again
started to suck it deep inside.

   In that position it was a little easier to open my mouth and swallow his
cock like a small sword.  I reached up and started to play with his balls
as he fucked my mouth.  I could hear groans coming from Lex as I took his
cock as deeply as I could, and caressed it with my tongue and throat
muscles.

   Then it dawned on me.  IT WAS my son who was the one fucking me, and I
became even more excited.  So much so that as he thrust into my hungry
pussy, I orgasmed around his solid member as it was deep inside of me.

   He started bucking against my backside.  As he pressed tight against me,
I felt him shoot his load inside of me.  I moaned around Lex's cock, and
that must have been the final straw for him.  He started to yell, and I
felt a hot pulse of liquid against the back of my throat.  I started to
pull away so that I could taste some of his cum as it filled my mouth.  He
continued to scream as one burst of hot liquid after another erupted from
his cock into my mouth.

   I tried to swallow all of it, but it soon became too much for me to
swallow, and it started to dribble out of the sides of my mouth.  Then I
pulled completely off of him and let him cum in my hand.  I didn't care.  I
just wanted to feel like a young slut again.  Clearly, that night I most
certainly was.

   I felt my son start to pull out of my pussy, and then lean over me with
his hot young body.  I could feel his sweat on my back as he lay over me.
Lex's cock was starting to soften a little in my hand, but not nearly as
much as I had expected it would for what he had just done.  I looked at him
and he smiled back.

   "So Lex, are you ready to fuck me now?" I asked.  I felt a surge of
firmness return to his just-spent cock.

   He looked at my son, then just nodded his head a very firm 'yes.' At the
same time his cock started getting harder again.  I wrapped my hands around
it and started to stroke it a few times, to help him, and was amazed again
at the size of it.  Lex moved away from me, and then I felt my son move
away from my back.  I felt hands grab my sides and pull me upright.

   As I was pulled up, Lex's hands moved around to my rather ponderous
breasts and started to massage them.  My nipples became hard as rocks and
ached for attention.  As I stood up erect, my son came around in front of
me, squeezed my breasts together, and took both nipples into his mouth and
started to suck on them.

   I was rocked with mini-orgasms from the feel of their double attention.
As my son sucked my breasts, I had a fleeting thought that he was
definitely better than his father in giving pleasure to a woman.

   Then I felt Lex's enormous cock pushing between my legs.  The head of
his cock was rubbing my clit.  I started to grind my hips against him as he
fucked my clit.  For a young man, Lex knew what to do to get a woman hot
and wet.

   Then I felt him position himself so that he could insert the large head
of his penis into my pussy opening.  I moved my hand down to help guide
him, and was shocked at just how wet I was.  I nudged the head of his cock
into my pussy.  As soon as it was inside me he pressed some of his cock on
into my body, and started to slowly rock back and forth.

   He was still not really deep into me, but he was hitting my G-spot with
the head of his cock as our bodies rocked together.  Oh...  that felt SOOO
good!  Then he started to push his cock deeper into me, and I let out a
gasp as he stretched my pussy wide with the girth of his cock.  I had just
had it in my mouth and it didn't feel that big to me.

   My son started to suck just one nipple at a time, and seemed to remember
back to his days as a child and was sucking on them like he had as a baby.

   I orgasmed again, and almost expected Lex to cum too.  But to my
surprise he didn't.  He just kept fucking in and out of me with his large
cock.  My son sucked a nipple into his mouth and rolled his tongue over the
tip, and then pushed the nipple against the roof of his mouth and nipped
the base with his teeth.  Then he pulled his teeth over the tip, and then
back down again.

   My body was shaking from all of that sensual attention, and I was
starting to feel my knees go weak.  I panted out that I needed to be put on
the floor or back over the couch.  Lex pulled out of me, took my hand, led
me around to an open-side chair, and sat down.  I looked at him, and he
just pulled me down onto his lap, facing him, on top of his still-rigid
cock, with my legs splayed on either side of him.

   He held his cock for me as I slide down onto it.  Once again, it was
buried deep inside my dripping wet pussy.  It felt so good inside of me
that I just sat there for a minute, eyes closed, luxuriating in the feel of
how much it filled me.  He then started to buck his hips to get my
attention, I opened my eyes and quickly started to move up and down on his
rigid cock.  The look on his face was so good that I felt my involvement in
this 'taboo' scene was all worth it...  if for that look alone.

   In the past few years, my husband acted like he was obligated to fuck
me. But Lex looked like he enjoyed every bit of our coupling, and could die
happy tomorrow.  Then I was surprised to feel my son rubbing my ass behind
me.  I looked over my shoulder and he had his hand wrapped around his cock,
pumping away.

   "Mom, your ass is so perfect, I want to fuck it.  Can I please?" he
implored.  Right that minute I didn't care, and I just nodded my head.  I
felt him run his hand under me and around his friend's cock to get some of
the fluids that were flowing from my pussy.  Then he put it into my ass. 
His finger felt so big in my ass.  It hurt a bit at first.  But as Lex
bucked against me, the finger went further in and the pain subsided.

   I felt my son pull his finger out and move it around in my rear opening.
Next I felt his body against mine, and then his cock slowly pushed into my
ass.  He pushed my body forward so that my breasts were against Lex's face.


   Lex quickly took a nipple into his mouth and sucked it deep inside.  I
could feel my son's cock slowly pushing its way deeper into my backside. 
With both boys' cocks buried fully within my body, I felt an amazing sense
of satisfying fullness.  Both cocks momentarily stopped moving within me,
then started again.  I knew each boy could feel the other's cock next to
theirs within me.  They were but a thin membranes apart inside of me.

   I caught a devilish grin on Lex's face as he first felt my son's cock
move against his within me.  "Feel good?" I asked.  Almost giggling they
both chimbed back, "Yah." Lex went on to say, "It feels really great to be
inside of you, and to feel my friend, your son, in there with me."

   Again I felt an orgasm rush through my body and exit out my pussy.  Lex
started to push up harder as my son pushed deeper into my ass.  They fucked
me in a weird sort of unison that was truely exhilarating.  As orgasm after
orgasm rushed through my body, I could tell I was screaming in pleasure. 
All I cared about was making them explode inside of me.

   I started moving with the rhythm that they set, and I could tell that
they were both ready to explode.  As I pushed back against my son I felt
his cock throb and grow inside of me.  I knew that he was going to cum
first.  As Lex bit my nipple, I screamed in pleasure, and at that same
moment my son let loose his semen, filling my ass with his precious fluid.

   I continued to push back against him, and felt Lex stiffen beneath me. I
think it was the feel of my son's jerking ejaculation within me that caused
Lex to loose his load moments later.  Both of their cocks were pumping
their fluids into me, and against each either at the same time.  The
feeling of having both orifices filled to capacity was amazing!  I had
never had that experience before.

   Finally, my son pulled his cock out with a loud pop, and collapsed on
the floor behind me.  Lex's cock was starting to go soft, but it was still
firm enough to satisfy me where it was.  I looked over my shoulder and saw
my son start to fall asleep on the floor.  I looked at Lex and could tell
that he was tired too.

   Slowly I stood up and felt my knees shake.  I stood still for a minute,
then walked over to my robe.  I could feel their semen slowly ooze from me,
but I didn't care.

   I put on my robe and grabbed my clothes.  I knew the boys would fall
asleep right where they were...  one on the floor and one on the couch.  As
I slowly went upstairs I knew that from then on I would continue to
periodically be fucked by my son and his friend Lex...  and enjoy every bit
of it, regardless how taboo others might find our relationship.

   As it has worked out, in the seventeen months since that first night, my
son and I find times when we can discretely disappear for some shared
pleasure.  Other times I meet with Lex alone.  But we all agree that our
best times are when both of them are with me together.  I no longer care
about my dispassionate husband's shortcommings.

   During our numerous sessions together, both boys have told me about the
girls they date, and what they have done with them.  It seems that prior to
that night that started in our hot tub, Lex had managed to get a girl to
suck his cock a couple of times.  But he said she really did not know what
she was doing.

   My son confided that he hadn't even gotten that far with a girl up to
that point.  It seems that he and his various dates had done a lot of heavy
necking, and he managed to get his hands up under the bras of a couple of
them.  But that was it.

   Since our initial hot tub session, both boys have graduated from high
school and are attending a community college in our city.  We managed to
get one weekend alone together when my husband was out of town on a
business trip.  All three of us climbed in the car and we traveled to
another town several miles away.  We checked in at a motel where (between
occasional visits to the swimming pool) we screwed and sucked the entire
weekend.

   Along the way I suggested to the boys that they needed to get a bit more
agressive with the girls in their lives.  Not pushy, not force themselves
on girls, but let the girls know that they could have lots of great fun
together if the girl would agree to get into bed with them.  I gave them
some 'woman's perspective' hints.

   Lo and behold, three months after that conversation my son (when we were
alone together) proudly told me that the girl he had taken out the night
before had stroked, licked, and sucked his cock as he played with her
breasts.  They were out in his car at a drive-in, and he had managed to get
her sweater and bra off.  He said that she mentioned her parents would be
out of town the following weekend, and hinted that if he wanted to come
over, they could "play some more."

   Sure enough, the next weekend he managed to bed her right in her own
bed. He was so proud!

   Lex had his own story to tell a couple weeks later.  He had taken a girl
swimming at a seculded area on a lake near us.  After swimming awhile, he
convinced her that it would be fun to skinny dip.  That led to cuddling
nude on a blanket on the beach.

   He said she was thrilled when he went down on her, and complimented him
on his pussy-sucking skills.  He proudly reported that he gave her three
orgasms even before he slid his cock into her and gave her another orgasm
just before he shot his load.

   It has become a ritual for them to tell me every detail of their
"conquests" while they are screwing me.

   Yes, what I do with my son and Lex is unconventional, or taboo, or
whatever others may call what I do with my two young lovers.  We have made
a pact to NEVER tell anyone (now or in the future) about our relationship
(with the exception of this story where I have used fictional names).  I
don't want either of them to regret our times together, and sure don't want
either of them to have to explain anything to a future wife.

   We all three maintain the utmost discretion in our meetings and
conversations.  Who knows what the future will hold, but for now..  I am
one happy lady!