It all Began as a Dream

                     Chapter One

Are you one of those guys who are sure you know what you want? 
You think you desire to serve a beautiful woman in any way she 
desires. You fantasize about this night and day. You may even 
be obsessed with the fantasy. Well, believe me when I say there 
is a tremendous difference between your fantasy and what will 
happen to you if you are ever unlucky enough to live what you 
believed you wanted. This is written from experience. 

I am a single white male. Fifty-eight years old. I have the 
body of a seventy-eight year old person. I lived as a slave for
a very beautiful but demanding, sometimes uncaring, female for
to many years.

I knew Jessica for five years before I entered into the 
Mistress/slave relationship I was so sure would be heaven to me.
Jessica was little miss everything. She was a 5'4" blonde with
these incredible blue eyes, light blue, sparkling blue. They
could look at you or through you, whichever she wanted them to do. 
They could raise you to the highest pinacle or plummet you to the
lowest space on earth. 

Jessica grew into every guys sexual fantasy. Her ass was one to 
die for, I almost did. She had a tiny waist and 36 C tits with 
nipples that would respond to a stare. Her hourglass figure 
measured 36-22-36. Like every thing physical about her, perfect. 
Jessica had a creamy complexion that went so perfectly with her 
honey colored blonde ringlet curles she like to wear. Jessica 
was/is a flirt. She doesn't even try to be. She always has a 
smile to show off a pretty mouth full of perfect teeth. 

She was in high school when I first noticed her. I dreamed
about her. I had all kinds of perverted fantasies which always
played out with me being her perfect slave and being ever so 
close to that incredible body. Sometimes I even imagined her 
using me in very personable intimate ways. As these fantasies 
continued, I began thinking of perverse things as being normal. 
After a couple years of these fantasies, I saw nothing wrong 
with the perverted things I dreamed of doing. 

I had acquired her email address from a forward I received. 
I put her address in my address book and there it stayed for 
a few weeks. One night I was feeling extra horny and living my 
fantasy where I was a do all and be done all to slave for 
beautiful Goddess Jessica I typed an email to her using a 
fictious name and a Yahoo email address. I clicked, "send".

I told her a little about what I desired. I told her how I 
was willing to do all kinds of things for her. She could do 
anything to me which gave her pleasures of body or mind. I 
wanted nothing in return. I only wanted to serve her. I told
her my age in the email but said I lived in another town. As
soon as I clicked, send, I had foreboding thoughts, yeah, I 
was scared. The next day I was no longer scared and rushed to 
check my email. There was nothing from Jessica. I sent her 
another one being much more explicit. I told her I desired to 
do all of her laundry, how I wanted to eat her panties. I 
stressed again how she could use my mouth and body for anything, 
absolutely anything, her heart desired. I checked my email 
again the next day. There her name was in the inbox. My pulse 
quicken as I quickly clicked on it. It came up so slowly, then, 
there it was. I wilted. It said.

"Look you perverted creep, this is the second filthy email I have 
received from you. My dad is 6'5", muscles, a policeman, and very
tough. If I ever see your pathetic name in my inbox again, I will 
show it to him. He will find you and your body will be mush. Got 
it freak!"

I saw Jessica on a regular basis,like a couple times a week. I
tried my best to smile and say hi. I certainly did not want her 
to ever suspect I was the, "Perverted creep". 

My fantasies continued though. They even branched off into a senario
where her dad found out who I was, beat me to a pulp and took me home 
to my beloved Jessica where she used me for many, many perverted acts.

Jessica graduated high school and went to college several miles away.
She would return for holidays and school breaks. I would usually see 
her. Her body, well you read the description. Somehow it appeared even 
better. Her face was more beautiful. Made up better I suppose. She was 
the most beautiful person on earth. My fantasies became more frequent 
and more perverted, if that be possible. 

I thought about her all of the time. One day I got the opportunity
to work in her college town for a while. I jumped at it. Hell, I 
would have went at my expense. My fantasy could come true, I told 
myself. Her email was all but forgotten, just a bad dream.

I went looking for her as soon as I got to her city. I was there
three days before I saw her. She was setting in a booth at a 
college hangout lounge. I strolled in as casually as I could and 
walked towards the men's room. I pretended to see her for the
first time. She was all smiles, what a greeting. She got up and 
gave me a hug. She was wearing a perfume which I had got a scent
of before when she was dressed up. I worked at getting my tongue
back to its normal size and hoped it would stay in my mouth and 
not sneek down to her pussy of it's own volition. I noticed
I was licking my lips to much as we sipped on Strawberry Daiquari's

Jessica had always been so easy to talk with. It is not always
easy for a forty plus year old guy and a twenty-two year old woman to 
talk for more then a few minutes. We were there for over an hour.
I told her I would be in town for a few weeks, told her my hotel
and room number. I knew she was not going to look me up though. 
Hell, why should she. I was just someone from her hometown. No one
really. 

When she said she had to go. I said I had to leave also. If she was
not there, there was no reason for staying. I did not say that 
though. I insisted on paying for all of the drinks and she readily 
let me do that. I know she expected me to. I learned she was good 
at sizing up people, especially guys. She managed to casually say 
she dropped in there often but never drink so much. She even said 
her last class was over at four tomorrow. I did not know if she meant
to specifically give me that information knowing I would be back,
or if it was merely casual conversation.

I had more wet dreams while wide awake that night. I served my
beloved Goddess in varied and perverted ways. She enjoyed me very
much. We agreed that she would be a permanent fixture in my life.
Til death do us part! My dream of course. 

I began work early so I could justify knocking off and being at the
lounge as soon after four as possible.

I got there at almost four-thirty. She was in the same booth but
so was another girl I had never seen before. She was very pretty
but not in Jessica's class. Well, no one was.

I walked in. Jessica was facing the door and had seen me before I 
entered and did not try to be coy about it.

"Hi Mr. Brown." She said in her low controlled toned voice that made 
her appear to be made entirely of sugar and other sweetnesses.

"I told Leah about meeting someone from my old home town. I knew
you would be here today. I told her how beautiful you think I am, 
and that you had always been an admirer of me."

Jessica giggled through her many teeth revealing smile. Her blue
eyes lifted me higher than I had ever been lifted before. She
told me that as she gave me another hug, longer and tighter 
than yesterday. A lot longer. I wondered, was she doing this for 
me, for Leah, or for Jessica?

She scooted over in the booth like it was a foregone conclusion
I had come in there to be with her. We chatted. I learned Leah 
had been Jessica's roommate for two years. They shared everything. 
They were closer than sisters. Jessica also said she was having 
only one drink,a beer, no more. She said they had not had dinner 
and she only drink on ocassion. She said she would not have come 
today except she knew I would be there and would be soooo 
disappointed if she were not. I smiled as I told her how psychic
she was. 

I paid for our beer and invited the ladies to have dinner with me.
They accepted. It was obvious they had planned that sequence of
events prior to our meeting. Leah said how much they loved Red 
Lobster but did not go very often because of a school girl's budget.
Of course I took them to Red Lobster. Why not, I was in heaven.
I had talked quite a bit with Jessica, but never anything like this, 
certainly not so intimately. I knew I was not a date. I knew I was
just some harmless old dude that they could get to buy them a nice
dinner. That was OK. I would have many fantasies in my mind from 
this meeting.

I met Jessica everyday the first week. I learned she had broken up 
with her boy friend of almost a year the same day as our first meeting. 
She confided she was not interested in dating just yet. She told me
how much she appreciated my company. How she was so lucky I was there 
for her. She mentioned things like that a lot. Our conversation got 
more personal all the time. I told her I got a divorce last year.
I had no one either. My wife and I never had kids. She knew all that.

Out of the blue she tells me about these two emails she received 
when she was in high school. She told me word for word exactly what 
I had written in the first one. 

"I have read them so many times! O.K. I know I am perverted! I
could not believe any guy would think me so beautiful that he
would literally give his health and life, give up everything for
me. He sounded serious! He wanted me to use him until he was all 
used up then throw him away like I would an old shoe! I was frightened
at first, then thinking about it started to turn me on. If he had 
sent another email after a month or so, I would have answered it! 
I am bad arn't I? Like really bad!"

She gave me a small smile and a slightly wrinkled nose, as she 
patted my hand. What fantasies I had of her. If she had said, 
"I got to go pee." I would have been on the floor with my mouth 
open before she could get up to go to the ladies room.

"Leroy," she had started calling me by my first name. "I am a lot
more mature now. I have seen on the internet stuff like that. Leah
and I have rented a few movies. Are there really guys like that?
If there are, are all of them freaks and weirdos? Well, I guess so, 
they would have to be. Or would they?"

She had rattled that off, never giving me a chance to answer.

Silence ------- I noticed she was looking straight into my eyes.
Her eyes were full of questions. My god, could she know? My heart
raced. I could feel my face turning red. 

"Well, what do you think, Leroy?"

I answered without thinking,as I have been known to do. Those 
emails for example. 

"Jessica, I can see why someone would send you such an email. I 
can see why some guy who was lonely would really do those things 
merely for the pleasure of your company. You are an incredible 
aphrodisiac. I could see myself saying something like that except 
for the fear of being totally ostracized afterwards and being a 
laughing stock when it spread."

My god, what did I just say. Did I just say I would do those things 
for her? Did I just say I wanted to be used by her, be her slave?
No, I just said I could see how someone else could. My face was 
getting redder by the second. All of a sudden it was quite warm in 
there. She said nothing, just looked into my eyes, right into my 
soul. Finally she spoke in a very serious voice.

"I would accept you in a heartbeat. I know you are not really a 
freak, you are just infatuated with me. You always have been. You 
have worshipped me from a distance for years. You are still deeply
infatuated with me. It's alright, I do not mind. In fact, I think 
it is kinda awesome." She smiled then. God, she was so beautiful.

"Did you send those emails, Leroy? I will never tell anyone, I 
promise. Did you?"

The sincere way she spoke, her honest look, I could not lie to her.
I do not know why I could not, I just could not tell her a lie
while gazing upon all that sincere beauty. I said nothing. I nodded 
my head up and down a few times. The silence was deafening. After 
minutes, it could have been hours, she spoke.

"Do you really want to serve me? Do you truly want to be my property 
as long as I want you? Leroy, do you really want me to do those things
to you? I can, you know. I really can. I have thought about it a lot 
over the years. Except for the harm I would know I was doing to such 
a sweet person, I could do it. I like you a lot, Leroy."

As she said that she again placed her hand over mine.

"Look at me. Is that what you want? If it is, I want it too. I am
not the person you think I am. I am sometimes not so nice. You
will not have an easy or a good life. The things you said in those 
emails are,---well, downright awful. I am not all sugar and spice. I 
don't think any of me is. Especially that part you made reference 
to but did not name. I know what you were saying you would be for
me. You have my cellie number. Think about it. Think hard but not 
to long. Give me a call,if you truly want that relationship with me, 
I want it too. Leroy, do not tell me you do, then dump me. I would 
forever hate you if you did that to me. So, if you value me the way 
you have said and have always acted, be positive, be sure I am what 
you want. This is a oneway trip. A last time, maybe lifetime, offer." 

Without another word or gesture she slid across the booth to get up.
I moved quickly to help her. I  saw her panties as her ass slid 
acrossed the seat and she spread her lefs to exit the booth. I 
believed she was showing me her pantied crotch on purpose. Something 
to aid me in my life's decision. They were dark blue silk with a cotton 
lined crotch. So small a piece of cotton. So much sweetness to hide.
She turned loose of my hand and walked away. I stood mesmerized maybe
from what she had just said or maybe from the movement of the world's 
most beautiful ass as she walked away.
 
I sat down and thought for a while. I could be so very near that ass. 
All I had to do was dial her number. I could taste the pussy I had had 
so many fantasies about. I could become an extension of her body. What 
a body. I could have it all, in a perverted sense. All I had to do was 
dial the number. I had dreamed of her feminine scent. I had dreamed of 
the taste of her urine. I had even fantasized about the taste of all 
of her body waste. I am so sick, I thought. Not of body, of mind. Now 
Jessica knew. She would never think of me in any other way again. 
Everytime we met she would always see the man who asked to be her 
toilet. I sat there a long time. I came to the conclusion I could 
either call her, or commit suicide. Was there a real difference. One 
would be long, the other short. 

I went back to my motel room. I went to bed but did not sleep. The 
fantasy of my being Jessica's slave had a whole new meaning. Did I 
really want this? Could I really do it? It must be the most awful 
thing in the world. How could anyone really consume such foul stuff? 
The urine would be easy, I would do that right now and be proud to 
drink from her pussy. I would love kissing her ass. I would love 
moving my lips and tongue over her rosebud. To actually eat her 
pussy and have her cum on my face, to swallow it, to have my tongue 
in her love canal as far as I could make it go, to inhale the 
feminine scent of Jessica. God it must be erotic. Why did I not limit 
my email to those things. Why did I have to hint I would actually allow 
her to use me for things much more perverse. No wonder she called me a 
freak. I was so horny when I composed those emails. I had toilet 
service on my mind but now since it could become a future reality, 
well it was different. I looked at the clock, it was after three, I 
had not slept any at all. At least this was Saturday morning. I thought 
some more. I finally went to sleep. I woke up at 10:00. Jessica was 
the first thing I thought of. I showered and got dressed. I went to 
breakfast. Durning breakfast, I dialed her cellie.