Candy-coated
Popcorn, Peanuts, and a Prize
(Newsboy IV)
By Jacqueline
Jillinghoff
I
The
first time I saw Gretchen, she was a tow-headed, half-naked six-year-old
standing on her mother’s foot. She was barelegged, barebacked. A crescent of
white cotton panties hugged her tiny butt. She held one of her mother’s hands
in both of her own and swung at arm’s length over the kitchen floor. Suddenly,
her head dropped backward, unfurling her long hair, and as her mom handed me a
dollar bill, she gave me an upside-down smile.
“Hel-looooo,”
she drawled, her voice as low as she could make it. Then. brightly: “I’m
topless!”
“In
more ways than one,” I said.
“Huh?”
“Gretchen, behave yourself,” her mother said. “Let go. I need both my hands.”
But
the little girl only laughed and squatted like a monkey, putting more dead
weight on her poor mother’s arm. The movement drew her underpants down, and I
found myself staring at the tip of a shadow-line that peeped above the
waistband. I couldn’t take my eyes off it. I didn’t see her bare chest, which
was turned away from me the whole time, and though I tried to rationalize,
assuring myself there was nothing to see, I couldn’t quite get over my
disappointment. For a long time afterward, I imagined that cotton-swaddled ass
whenever I played with my dick.
But
I wasn’t thinking about love. In time, I looked at other girls, jerked off to
other fantasies. Gretchen was always clothed when I saw her, and she became
just another little kid — the cutest little kid on my paper route, sure, but a
little kid nonetheless. She grew up under my radar until a summer afternoon
four years later, when I found myself staring at her again.
It
was one of those steamy mid-July days that beat you into an irritable stupor.
The papers in my bag were thick with ads and stuffed with inserts. The strap
bit painfully into my shoulder as I trudged from door to door, bent over like
Groucho Marx, balancing the load on my hip. My hands were black with ink, and
so was my face, where I had scratched my nose and wiped my forehead.
I
was a sweaty mess, even if, in a vain attempt to beat the heat, I was wearing
as little as possible: a gray T-shirt, baggy gray gym shorts tied with a
drawstring, sneakers and thick gym socks. I left my underwear at home —
strictly for ventilation, I assure you — and that seemed to help. The miniscule
breeze I stirred up as I walked dried the sweat on my balls. My penis is small
when I’m not erect, and it made only a small bump against my shorts, but my
scrotum drooped in the heat, tickling as it slid against one naked thigh, then
the other.
I
tucked a fat paper into the railing beside Gretchen’s kitchen door and headed
around the back of the house. The next stop on my route was the rear porch of a
cottage across the driveway that divided the block from end to end. It was
smaller but prettier than the twin Gretchen lived in — and built, I suppose,
before the postwar housing boom, when developers paid off the city fathers for
the privilege of double-density construction.
Gretchen’s
house had a built-in garage under the kitchen, and, coming down the back steps,
I saw the big door was rolled up. From inside came the purling sound of rapidly
running water, as though somebody was filling a bathtub.
I
stepped across the yawning entrance, and there she was, standing at the center
of a molded-plastic wading pool like a marble nymph in a fountain. She held a
garden hose above her head, and a wavering column of water drenched her hair,
widened into a sheet over her bare shoulders and back, and, breaking into
droplets, drizzled from her legs. She was topless again, wearing only the
bottom half of a teal bathing suit. The cloth, thick with water, was pinched
into the centerline of her butt, exposing a pair of wet moons at nearly full
phase. All I had to do was reach out my filthy hand and —
“Hi!”
she said, looking quickly over her naked shoulder.
“Hi
there,” was all I could think of. I dropped my heavy bag on the hot concrete.
Lowering
the hose, she turned to face me. Her wet hair was flat against her head. It
trailed off her shoulder, covering her right nipple like a rag. The left
nipple, the one I could see, was coral pink, and it gazed at me blindly like a
button eye on a doll. Her chest was flat muscle, with rippling shadows of rib
that curled beneath her arms. There was no mound, not a hint of pubescent
swelling, but the simple awareness of her nudity made me tingle. Even more
arousing was the sight of her bikini bottom, a soggy triangle that vac-u-formed
itself to the cleft between her legs. Suddenly I wished I had worn briefs.
“You look yucky,” she said.
“I
feel yucky,” I said. “So I’m consistent, at least.”
“You
want a drink?” She held the hose toward me.
“Yes,
thank you. I would.”
I
stepped into the garage. It wasn’t much cooler inside, but as sweaty as I was,
I felt a sudden chill, and I sneezed big time.
“God
bless you,” she said.
Just
as I bent over to take a sip, she plugged the nozzle with her thumb and sprayed
me in the face.
“Gotcha!”
she said.
“Yes. Yes you did.”
“You
really want a sip? I won’t do it again.”
“Promise?”
“I
promise.”
I
knew what was coming, but I liked the game if it kept me in the presence of
this pretty little girl. I leaned in again, and again I got a face full of
water.
“Good
one,” I said. “You’re really clever.”
“OK
I won’t do it this time.”
“Darn
right you won’t,” I said, wresting the hose from her hand.
“Hey,
no fair!”
“Life
is seldom fair,” I said. I took a long swallow. Then I turned the cock on the
garage wall, shutting off the water, and dropped the hose on the garage floor.
“Hey!”
she protested again.
“The
pool’s almost full,” I said. “You don’t want it to run over.”
The
spray on my glasses blurred my vision. I wiped them off with a dry corner of my
shirt, and when I put them back on, I looked around the pool for her halter.
There was none to be seen.
“You leave your top inside?” I asked.
“Uh
huh.”
“How
come?”
“I
don’t know. I just never wear one,” she said.
“Never? What if somebody sees you?”
“I
don’t care,” she said. “I don’t have anything to look at.”
My
dick would have argued the point. It had stirred the instant I saw her, and now
it was hanging in my shorts like a tree trunk in a hammock.
Of
course, she had to ask: “What’s that?”
“No,
that’s not a gun in my pocket, and yes, I am glad to see you,” I said.
“Huh?”
“It’s
my pecan nut roll,” I said, trying a different joke. “I always carry it with
me.”
“Can
I have some?”
“I
want to give you all of it, but I really shouldn’t,” I said.
“How
come?”
“It’s
not really a nut roll. I just said that.”
“Then
what is it?”
“It
is my penis,” I said. “And it got all big and hard as soon as I saw you because
you’re so hot and sexy. Didn’t your mom ever tell you what happens to a boy
when he sees a naked girl?”
“Could
I see it?” she said.
“Oh
… God,” I said. “We really shouldn’t.”
“Please?
I won’t tell. I promise.”
“You
promised with the hose, and I got a faceful of water.”
“This
one for real.”
“Cross
your heart.”
“Cross
my heart and hope to die,” she said, tracing an X over her naked chest bone.
Je.
Sus. Christ. I don’t know why I even thought about doing it, especially in
front of a wide-open garage door. Except that I wanted to. I wanted to more
than anything in the fucking world. Plunging ahead, so that I didn’t have to
think, I yanked open the drawstring, and my baggy shorts dropped to my ankles.
“It
all hairy,” she said.
“No
it isn’t. It doesn’t have any hair. The hair is all at one end.”
Her
eyes bored into it.
“It
looks like one of those monkeys with the big noses,” she said.
“It
serves its purpose.”
Actually,
it was starting to hurt. It didn’t seem possible, but it was getting harder,
straining to burst through its own skin. I had to get off or get away. I was
debating with myself whether to jerk off in front of her when, with a child’s
clinical curiosity, she took it to the next level.
“Can
I touch it?”
“Oh,
yeah.”
She
grabbed it the way you’d grab a hammer.
“You
like that?” I said.
“It’s
kinda cool.”
Relaxing
her grip, she slid her hand down to my balls, then back along the full length.
Her damp fingers brushed that incredible sweet spot on the underside, where the
arrowhead joins the shaft. A thrill of cool relief rushed through my body. I
let out an involuntary moan.
“Whatsa
matter?” she said. Startled, she let go.
“No,
no,” I said. I took her hand in both of mine and wrapped it around my dork
again. “It feels good. Don’t you ever touch yourself there?”
“I
don’t have one!” she said.
“I
mean, don’t you ever touch yourself between your legs so it feels good?”
“That’s
gross!”
“It’s
not gross. I bet you if I touched you there, you’d like it.”
She
thought about that for a moment, holding my dick absent-mindedly. Then one
corner of her mouth cocked into a wicked half-grin. She peeked around me to
make sure no one was coming down the driveway.
“Nobody
can see you,” I said. “I’m the one standing here with my rear end hanging
out.”
“Go
ahead — if ya want,” she said.
“Could
we close the door?” I said.
“Uh
uh. Do it now.”
The
bottom of her suit was held up by two knots, one below each slender hip —far
too sexy a look for a little kid. Taking the end of a string in either hand, I
tugged. She didn’t object. I tugged harder. The knots unraveled, and the bikini
bottom came away in my hands.
Since
that day, I have pressured every one of my wives and lovers to shave, but not
one of them has come close to recreating this, my first sight of a hairless
pussy. So beautifully smooth, a deep-etched vertical groove between two puffs
of fat. Bulging between her skinny legs, it seemed too big for her body, like
the paws on a young police dog. She would have to grow into it.
“Go
ahead and touch it,” she said.
But
I didn’t want to touch it. I wanted to bury my face in it. I wanted to lick it
and suck the whole thing into my mouth, and then I wanted to shoot my sticky
load over it and watch the come roll down the lips and folds.
But
one step at a time.
I
started at the top of the line, slipping an ink-stained finger between the
white pads. She was dry inside. I was afraid of that. Maybe this was mistake.
Maybe her nudity really was as innocent as she said it was, and I was just
confusing her and freaking her out. But I went on, probing gently, pushing
further into the hairless cleft. The fatty puffs swelled around my knuckle like
vanilla pudding, and my fingertip found the toughened lump that every girl
discovers sooner or later, with or without our help.
Luckily
for me, Gretchen made her discovery sooner, I happened to be there when it did.
She went all dreamy. Her eyes closed. Her mouth hung open. Her knees seemed to
slip out of gear, and her bare ass bounced, once. She grabbed my shoulder to
keep from falling. Her upturned face fell against my chest.
“See what I mean?”
“Uhhh,” was all she could say.
I tossed her bikini bottom into the
water, reached around her and squeezed her wet little butt with my free hand.
She was so compact I could pinch both cheeks between my thumb and my middle
finger.
“Now
you pull on me,” I said. “Gently, slowly — oh, that’s it. Now push back. Now
out again, like you’re pumping it. But not to hard. Yeah. See how good it feels
when I touch you? That’s how good I feel. Just … uhhh … just like that.”
I
pushed my hand between her legs and massaged her cunt. Soon she opened up for
me: the tough, dry folds around her
clit grew soft, pliable, as the slick juice seeped from her hole. The tip of my
middle finger grazed her opening, and I worked it inside — not too far, she was
too tight and swollen for that — but enough.
“Ohmago’,”
she sighed quietly.
I
ducked my head, hoping to kiss that gaping mouth, but she was too short. I
settled for a peck on the forehead and a string of wet hair in my mouth. “Don’t
stop,” she said. “Ohmago’ please don’stah—”
She stamped one foot, sloshing water over the
lip of the pool and soaking my sneakers. Then she began to double over, slowly,
dragging her face down my shirt and pushing out her butt. Her ass cheeks spread
open, and I touched the tip of my ring finger to her asshole. She shuddered. At
the same time, she gave my dick a jerk, and a hot geyser of come hit her square
in the tummy. I got tender right away, the way I do after I come, but I let her
keep pulling on me. She was having such a good time I was afraid to distract
her.
A
minute of this, and Gretchen couldn’t stand up anymore. She let go of my dick
and lowered herself into the water. Her head rested on the lip of the pool, and
she floated lazily, her ass an inch off the bottom, her arms and legs spread
wide.
“Whoo!”
she said finally, when she’d caught her breath. “What was that?”
“That,
my sweet child, is sex.”
“Then
I really like sex,” she said.
“Never
knew anything could feel so good, did you?”
“Did
you feel that way, too?”
“Uh
huh. You see all that goop on your tummy? That's what comes out when a boy
feels good.”
“Is
that the stuff that gets the girl pregnant?”
“Yeah,
but you don’t have to worry about that.”
She
swished her hips, stirring up a small tide that flowed across her nude body,
left to right, right to left, and washed my come away. Bobbing in the waves,
the stuff congealed into jagged white beads. If I had thought of it then, I
might have read our fortune in them, the way the Romans told the future by
dropping molten lead into wine. Spermo-mancy — the art of divination by
inspecting drops of semen.
“Hey
look, I grew hair!” Gretchen said.
“Oh,
no,” I said, looking at her crotch as it peeped above the surface of the water.
It was smudged all over with the ink from my hands, which did look a little
like pubic hair.
“Roll
over,” I said. “Let me see your bottom.”
As
I expected, it was spotted with my fingerprints.
“Don’t
let your mother see you like that,” I said. “If she does, I’m dead.”
“I’ll
wash it off,” she said, rolling over again. “Later.”
“See
ya soon?”
“I
guess. OK.”
It
was over that fast. She was a kid again, with a kid’s monosyllabic conversation.
Something in her had to have changed, I told myself, but if it did, it didn’t
show. Feeling suddenly silly and exposed, I folded my dick back into my shorts
and cinched the string tight. I wanted to dash around the pool and kiss her
desperately on the lips, but she had folded her arms on the rim of the pool,
rested her head on them, and closed her eyes. She gave no sign she knew I was
still there.
For a few more seconds I watched her ass bob in the pool
and the water seep into her butt crack. But there was nothing else to say. I
walked back into the murderous sun and left her there, naked and sleepy in a
child’s wading pool.
I looked for her
again for days after that, but there was no glimmer of life. The house seemed
shut up whenever I passed by, although the papers disappeared regularly from
the railing by the kitchen door. No one was home when I came to collect
Thursday evening. I stood for a long time in the driveway behind the garage,
gazing up at the darkened window of the back bedroom, which I assumed was
Gretchen’s, waiting for a sign of movement. Maybe she was lying on her bed.
Maybe she was naked. Maybe she was touching herself, recreating the feeling I
had given her on that hot afternoon the day before.
Then, on my dawn
rounds Sunday morning, I found a small brick of aluminum foil on Gretchen’s
kitchen stoop. Taped to one corner was an envelope with “Paperboy from the
Shoemaker’s Elves” written on it in green crayon. Inside the foil was a piece
of chocolate chip – cinnamon cake, and inside the envelope were two one-dollar
bills, my pay for the week, including a 50-cent tip, and a piece of paper
folded and refolded into a tight, tiny square.
Chewing on a bite of
cake, I unfolded the paper as I continued down the back steps. I saw the green
crayon again before I made out the words, and the thought crossed my mind that
Gretchen’s mother had told her to write me some instructions for a vacation
stop on the paper.
But her mother never
told her to write this:
Paper
Boy
I
love you
Gretchen
XOXOXOX
… with a green
smiley face under the kisses and under that a heart, filled boldly with thick
green hatch-marks.
A love note from a
ten-year-old. How adorable. How absurd. She didn’t even know my name. And just
because I felt her up. I should have thrown the note away and filed it under
never-to-be-revealed adolescent follies.
But during the week
I found myself reading it again and again. I kept it with me all the time. I
used it as a bookmark. I spread it on the kitchen table when I had lunch, and I
stowed it in my back pocket when I went out on my route. I read it in bed
before turning out the light, rubbing my stiff dick under the sheets. I sniffed
at it, as though its waxy scent were perfume. I had memorized every stroke,
every uneven grain of color the crayon left as it had rustled across the page.
I wanted to see her
again, alone, to tell her — tell her what? What do you say to a ten-year-old
who has a crush on you? You say thank you, but you’re a kid and there’s nothing
we can do. But that isn’t what I wanted to say at all.
My chance came
Saturday a week later. The heat had broken temporarily, and the air was less
humid, though I was still sweaty when I finished my route, and my face was
still smudged with ink. I was walking home, eyes cast down and my empty bag on
my shoulder. When I passed Gretchen’s house, I took the note out of my pocket
and read it again while gazing at her front door, like reciting a prayer before
a shrine of the Virgin.
I had turned to
leave when I heard a woman’s voice calling me back.
It was Gretchen’s
mom, striding purposefully down her front walk.
“Could you do me a
big favor?” she said before she had caught up to me. “Please? I’ll pay you.”
“Well,” was all I
said.
“My mother just went
into the hospital, and I need someone to look after my daughter for a few
hours,” she said quickly. “Could you do that?”
“Uh … sure.”
At that moment I
wasn’t even thinking of Gretchen, if you can believe that. It was the Catholic
school training kicking in. Someone was in need. Be helpful. Earn exit points
for a soul in purgatory.
“I wouldn’t ask
except I can’t get hold of my regular girl,” she went on. “Do you know Mindy
across the street?”
She led me up the
front stoop and through the front door. She charged into the living room, but I
hesitated, lingering inside the vestibule.
“I’m kind of dirty,”
I said, discreetly replacing Gretchen’s note in the pocket of my cutoffs. “You
don’t want me sitting on your furniture.”
“You can wash up in
the kitchen. — Gretchen!”
My love made a grand
entrance, hopping down the stairs in pink corduroy shorts, pink ankle socks,
and a blue tank top with an enormous appliqué Snoopy on the front. Her
white-blonde hair hung wildly about her shoulders. It was parted jaggedly on
one side, the result of a careless attempt she, or her mom, had made to comb
it. Just an ordinary kid hanging out on a lazy summer day. I had never seen
anything more beautiful.
“He’s going to look
after you,” her mother said.
“OK,” she said —
rather indifferently, I thought, for someone who had written me a love note.
She’d probably forgotten it already.
“I should call my
mom,” I said. “She’ll wonder where I am.”
“Oh, my, Gretchen’s
mother said. “Are there any more at home like you? You’re very different from
other boys your age.”
She had no idea.
I toed my off dusty
sneakers in the vestibule and dropped my bag on them, and the three of us went
back to the kitchen, where Gretchen’s mom gathered up her keys and purse from
the table. She kissed her daughter on the lips. Then she kissed me on the
cheek. Confused — and getting horny, now that the possibilities of this
situation were sinking in —I thought for an instant she was coming on to me,
until she said, “I can’t tell you how grateful I am for this.”
And she was gone,
leaving me standing by the sink and Gretchen leaning against the back door.
Thirty-five years
later, I remember every word, every look, every touch that passed between us
that afternoon, in precise order. I tell myself the story every night, like a
senile widower reliving his honeymoon — which, really, is what the day turned
out to be. If the details have changed, they haven’t faded, and the memory of
her body still lives on my skin, wordless and immutable.
She started it:
“You gonna call your
mom?”
“I should wash my
hands first.”
There was a black
bar of pine tar-soap in a dish by the sink. I scrubbed my hands and face, and,
shutting my eyes against the stinging suds, felt around for a towel. Gretchen
handed me one — a dishtowel.
“Thank you,” I said.
I handed it back to her when I was dry, and she hung it on a magnetic hook
stuck to the refrigerator.
The phone was on the
wall between the cabinets and a window. I lifted the receiver off the hook and
dialed. Mom answered on the third ring.
“Hello?”
“Hi, there. It’s me,” I said.
“Well, hello there,
me Boy-o? What’s cookin’?”
“You don’t sound a
bit Irish,” I said. “But keep practicing.”
I smiled into the
phone, but glanced at Gretchen while I did it. She must have thought I was
smiling at her, and she smiled back.
“Listen,” I went on,
“I have to do a favor for one of my customers.”
“Why, what’s the
matter?”
I invited Gretchen
over with a hooked finger. She skittered across the floor in her stocking-feet,
sliding the last step and bumping into me. She steadied herself by wrapping her
arms around my waist.
“Her mother’s in the
hospital and she asked me to look after her daughter,” I told my mother while I
rubbed Gretchen’s back.
“How old’s the
daughter?”
“Oh, Mom, she’s
twenty-four. We’re going to run away together.”
My hand went down
the back of Gretchen’s shorts and into her panties.
“Don’t be funny,”
Mom said. “I only meant, is she a baby? Do you have to feed and change her?”
“No, she’s about —
how old are you?”
“Ten,” Gretchen
said.
“She’s ten,” I said,
squeezing Gretchen’s bare behind. “All I have to do is make sure she doesn’t
blow the house up.”
“What time do you
think you’ll be home?”
“I don’t know. She
didn’t say how serious it was.”
“Well, behave
yourself. And don’t take any money.”
“What if she insists?”
“You insist harder.
You don’t take advantage of people.”
“I’ll see what I can
do,” I said.
We said goodbye and
hung up. Gretchen looked up at me, her chin stabbing me in my chest.
“I got your nice
note,” I said, patting her butt beneath her clothes, in appreciation.
“What note?”
Gretchen said.
“You’re kidding,
right? The one where you said you love me. Don’t tell me you don’t remember.”
“Do you love me?”
“If I said yes,
would you let me kiss you?”
“I guess so.”
“Then I do,” said.
“Say it all the way.”
“I love you,
Gretchen.”
She held me tighter.
I ducked my head and touched her lips with mine. All she did was giggle.
“No, don’t,” I
whispered. “This is serious.”
And we kissed — a
real, long, honest-to-God grown-up smack. No tongue, but full on the face.
“You like it?” I
said.
“You wanna see my
room?”
“It’s hard to keep
your mind on one subject, isn’t it?” I said. “But I’d be honored.”
My hand came out of
her pants as she turned away.
“You have the nicest
little ass,” I said.
And I kept my eyes
on it as she led me upstairs to the back room — the one I had assumed was hers,
the one above the kitchen, the one whose window I had watched from the
driveway. I congratulated myself on my insight.
“This is it,” she
said. “You like it?”
“It’s beautiful,” I
said.
And it was. She
could tell from my tone I was being honest. I was expecting a pink-ruffled
canopy, a massive doll collection, and a linoleum floor gritty with dust. But
the space I was standing in clean and angular, bright with indirect sunlight and
furnished in a spare, Nordic manner I’ve tried to duplicate wherever I’ve
lived. The floor was bare wood, a gleaming copper color, with a chocolate rug
in the center striped with orange and flecked with green. In the corner, at the
far end of the inner wall, was Gretchen’s bed, a twin, cloaked in crisp
chenille. The headboard, dresser and student desk were all white pine, with
big, dark knots.
The obligatory piece
of religious art found in every Catholic bedroom hung above the desk, but this
wasn’t some lacquered plywood crucifix with a glow-in-the-dark Jesus tacked to
it. This was a framed reproduction of the Cowper Madonna — and I know that only
because I saw the original years later at the National Gallery.
The only clues a
child slept here were the Muppets poster over the bed and a stuffed Kermit and
Miss Piggy embracing as they reclined on the Gretchen’s pillow.
“Does your mom keep
it this nice?” I said.
“I do,” she said.
“She says it’s my responsibility.”
“You do it very
well.”
She sat down on the bed
and drew up one foot to the edge, hugging her bare knee. I could see up her
shorts to a white patch of underwear. She was looking at me with bright eyes,
as though she expected me to make the first move. I was seriously considering
it, but guilt spoke first.
“Aren’t you worried
about your grandmother?” I said.
“I don’t see her
much,” Gretchen said. “She stopped talking to us after my parents got divorced.
She’s kind of mean.”
“Very Catholic. I
know the type.”
Mother could be
funny, but she told me once if she ever caught me defiling a girl — that was
the word she used, “defiling” — I would be living on the street.
I sat down next to
her and put my arm around her. Her body lost all rigidity, like a marionette
whose strings have been cut, and she leaned into me, hugging me again.
“Gretchen, I … I
haven’t stopped thinking about you since I got your note.”
She tightened her
arms again, as she had in the kitchen. It was her principal sign of
encouragement, I guessed. I touched my hand to her chin and lifted her face.
“Are you gonna be my
boyfriend?”
“Yes, I am,” I said.
“That would make you my girlfriend, wouldn’t it?”
“Yeah … Darling.”
“Where did that come
from?”
“I just wanted to
say it.”
She was playing with
a grown-up word — playing, even, with having a boyfriend — the way she would
play dress up in her mother’s clothes, but my heart kicked when she said it.
“When we kiss again,
open your mouth a little — and relax your jaw.”
So we tried it with
our lips apart. I ran my hands over her back and sides, feeling her taut body
through her shirt.
“Touch tongues?” I
said.
I stuck out my
tongue in a pencil-point. She did the same, and we dabbed the tips together.
“More?” I said.
We did it again, but
this time our tongues slid across one another until out lips met. In a moment
we were locked in wide-mouthed kiss.
She needed no more
instruction. Her tongue grew loose, eager. I pressed my weight against her,
laying her diagonally across the bed.
We went at it
playfully, necking for what seemed a brief time but must have been nearly a
half hour. Relativity: time moves slower
in stronger gravitational fields. Or is it faster? I ran my hands over
her sides and chest, feeling her nipples stiffen under Snoopy’s black nose. I
reached down and tickled her bare knee and thigh. My fingers went up into her
shorts, but I stopped at her panties. I was afraid of pushing my luck, even
though I’d already felt her up once. Maybe she’d think once was enough, and the
Catholic aversion to unregulated sex would rear its guilty head.
But my dick was
hard, and it hurt scraping against the inside of my fly while I humped her leg.
I wanted the soft touch of her skin on mine.
Quickly, but as
unobtrusively as I could manage, I undid the button on her shorts with a deft
snap of my fingers.
She held me tighter
about the neck, and her tongue swelled in my mouth. More encouragement. So I
pulled down her zipper, which came open with a metallic pop-pop-pop.
Cautiously, still
half scared she’d run screaming from the room, I flattened my hand against her
tummy and slid my fingers under the elastic band. That bulging vulva rose against my touch. The fleshy lips parted
as I wormed my way in. She was soaking wet.
“Uhhhhh,” she
breathed.
“Let’s take off all our clothes.”
She nodded
breathlessly. I pulled at her shirttail. Automatically, she sat up and raised
her arms, as if I were her mother undressing her for bed. The instant it
cleared her fingertips, she flopped onto her back again. Her long hair fanned
out on the bedspread beneath her.
She raised her butt
a little as I knelt over her and hauled her pink shorts down her legs. They
joined her shirt on the floor. As they came off, she raised her knees, making a
flattened Z of her body. Her feet hung in the air, and her legs parted,
granting me a lovely view of the thick cotton at the center. It was molded to
her swollen lips like a shell of white enamel. Slipping my hands beneath her
back, I drew down the waistband. Her panties came off around her butt, then up
the slanting shanks of her thighs. A hairpin turn about the knees, then down
the thin, coltish calves. Finally a smaller, gentler turn around her heels, and
off over her toes. Her pussy was a deep, shadowy seam, stitched tight, with a
dewy sheen on each side.
The panties had a
wet gray stain on the crotch, with a yellow streak at the center, and a tiny
but fresh brown spot just where you’d expect. I mimed throwing them to the
floor, but behind my back I balled them up and crammed them in my pocket — a
souvenir of my vacation from all morality and sense. I was damned to hell,
anyway. I might as well add theft to my list of sins.
I still have them,
by the way. I keep them locked, under the crayon note, in a tin reliquary that
sits on a table in the corner of my living room. There’s a blue votive candle
beside it, and above hangs my own copy of the Madonna.
Gretchen was wearing
only her socks now. I stripped them off one by one, pausing to raise each foot
to my face, kissing it in turn, licking the arches, sniffing her toes and
taking them into my mouth.
“Your turn,” she
said finally.
“Oh, thank you, your
highness!”
I couldn’t bear my
clothes anymore. My armpits felt hot and damp, and my dick was full to
bursting. Setting her foot on the bedspread, I stood up and stripped while she
watched. It felt good to get out of my cutoffs and briefs, to let my balls
swing loose and my hard-on fall forward. Her eyes widened a hair as it pointed
at her.
“That is so weird,”
she said.
“What’s weird about
it?”
“The way it sticks
out.”
“That’s not all it
does,” I said. And I did that little trick where I squeeze my groin muscles,
and my dick flips up and down like a light switch.
“Oh God, that is so
goofy!” she shrieked. She laughed so hard she doubled up, folding her arms and
legs together at her tummy.
“And for my next
trick …” I said, and I knelt beside her on the bed and pried her knees apart,
sliding my hands along the inner smoothness of her thighs. I intentionally
missed her pussy and continued on to her bony chest and the solid pink nipples.
I could see the giggles were going to be a problem, and I kept a straight face
as I massaged her. Gradually she relaxed. Her legs came down again, and they
opened into a diamond, her knees spread wide and the soles of her feet
touching. And as her legs opened, her pussy-seam split, exposing the raspberry
swirl inside.
“This is going to be
nice,” I said.
I kissed her lips
and began to work my way down her body with my lips and tongue, even my teeth.
I paused at her neck, and again at her shoulders. She didn’t have the slightest
hint of tits. Sucking her chest was like sucking a wall, but that’s what men
are supposed to do with women. And she did seem to like it, cradling my head
and moaning softly.
I tongued her navel
— an outie with a knot of flesh at the center — and I kissed the beautiful
points of her pelvic bones. I remember thinking they formed a triangle with her
navel: the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Add blasphemy to the
indictment.
Again, I skipped her
cunt and went on to kiss the smooth-marble inside of her legs. I crouched
inside the diamond and came back up, licking one thigh, then the other,
switching sides again and again as I neared the apex.
Finally, my face
hovered above her cunt, and I smelled it for the first time — a thick, complex
scent like roses and coffee, earth and olives.
I blew on it gently.
She wriggled her ass
and pushed at me, opening herself wider. I didn’t oblige her. I only fluttered
my tongue above the pink glittering twists.
Poor Gretchen was
too young to know what to expect, but she was old enough to know she was being
teased.
“Do something,” she
pleaded.
“I am doing
something,” I said. And I blew on her again and kissed her hairless outer
labia.
She moaned in
frustration. I barely heard her. Her voice was soft, and the dense smell of her
cunt was making me dizzy. It was becoming hard to hear, hard to see.
“Do more,” she
insisted. “Come oooooooon!”
It was cruel to deny
her any longer — cruel to deny myself. Brusquely I jabbed my tongue into her
asshole and raked her pussy from bottom to top.
She wailed.
I lapped at her clit
like a kitten at a bowl of milk. She raised her legs and hooked them over my
shoulders, crossing the ankles behind my back.
I found her
cunt-tunnel and tried to work my tongue inside. She was so tight couldn’t get
past her inner lips, but it didn’t matter.
Gretchen’s chest
rose higher with each breath, as though she were a balloon I was blowing up
through the hole between her legs.
“Huh – huh – huh,”
she huffed.
I extended one long
arm and touched her lips. She sucked on my middle finger like a baby.
Spit and cunt juice
mingled on my lips and chin. I concentrated on her clitty now, penetrating the
protective folds and mashing on the raw, swollen bud.
She was far gone,
eyes clamped shut, her breath coming fast in shallow gasps. Her femoral grip
grew tighter about my head, blocking my ears. Her cunt drooled on my face. I
couldn’t feel anything definite under my tongue. There was no clit, no hole, no
labia — nothing but a mask of hot, damp mud. I rolled my tongue in wider,
sloppier circles, hoping desperately I’d catch her at her most vulnerable,
pleasurable spot.
One of her hands
found one of mine, and she gripped me hard. She was surprisingly strong for a
little girl. I took my other hand away from her mouth and pinched a nipple
between my spit-slick finger and my thumb.
“Unnnnng,”
she said, if “said” is the right word for this kind of incoherent prattle. “Cuh!
Cuh! Cuh!”
She was close. I
pressed my face into her cunt, adding my weight to the flopping of my tongue.
As she arched her
back, her cunt angled down, and I had to dip to stay with her. Not that she
would have let me go: her legs had me in a death grip.
Suddenly, she
twisted her hips, wrenching my neck one way, then the other. It took heroic effort
to hold on to her cunt.
And the noise she
made sounded like “Aiiiiioowwwwwaaaaauuuuuh!” That was another big
surprise from such a little girl — the enormity of her orgasm. Maybe it was so
big because it was so new to her, but it took her over completely. I never came
so hard when I was her age. But then, nobody ever gave me head when I was ten.
When she was able to
make marginally intelligible sounds again, they came in broken puffs.
“Go—! Oh Go—! Oh my
Go—!”
Each word was
quieter and calmer than the last. She was coming down. She let go of my hand.
Her legs slid from my shoulders.
Then, at last, a
near sentence: “Darling, that was … that was …”
“Great? Wonderful?
Astounding? Incredible?”
“Yeaaahhhhh!”
And now I was aware
of my own body — how my knees hurt from crouching, how my mouth felt fuzzy from
prolonged contact with an oozing cunt, and more than anything, how hard and
hungry my dick was.
With an exaggerated
groan, like an old man, I stretched out next to her. Kermit and Miss Piggy were
in my way. I deposited them, courteously, on the floor, and laid my head on
Gretchen’s pillow.
She snuggled close.
I put an arm around her, and I began to masturbate for her, the way I had for
Mindy that October afternoon almost three years earlier — cradling my balls in
my fingers and circling my wrist over the tip of my penis.
“Are winding yourself up?” Gretchen asked.
“Yes, that’s exactly
what I’m doing.”
“Does that feel
good?”
“Not as good as if you put it in your mouth.”
“Gross!”
“It is not gross,” I
said. “I did it for you, and you’re a lot slimier down there than I am.”
“Will that sticky
stuff come out again?”
“If you do it right.
Come on, Darling. Please? I’ll let you know when it’s gonna happen.”
I almost said “I
promise not to come in your mouth,” but not even a ten-year-old would buy that.
Gretchen looked
doubtfully at my cock while I played with myself, but I knew I had her. Her
sense of fairness was involved. I had
just made her feel better than she had
ever felt in her short life. The least she could do was return the favor.
I cut out the
pleasant circular motion and held my cock upright by the base.
“Just put your
tongue on it here — see, underneath?” I tapped the sweet spot beneath the head.
“That’s were it feels the best.”
“Like that bump in
my vagina?”
“That’s exactly it.
It won’t taste like anything. Just try it.”
Gretchen, on her
hands and knees, peered at my erection up close, almost crossing her eyes, like
she was threading a needle. She was making up her mind.
Slowly, her tongue
emerged. It brushed the underside of my cock.
Ahhh.
“Ith thith goo’?”
she asked, her tongue fixed on my dick.
“Uh … huh,” I said
dreamily. “Verrr’ nice.”
“You’re funny,” she said, and licked again,
more enthusiastically, broadening her tongue.
“Ah!” I sighed. “You
like it when you make me nuts?”
“Uh huh.”
Lick, lick. One
side, then the other. Under the head, over the head — like a Blow Pop.
“Put your lips
around it. Just around the top.”
“Whattaya say?”
“Oh, God, please?”
“Mmmmmm.”
“That’s it … that’s
it … Go down further.”
Her lips stretched
around the shaft as she went down. Her
hair fell around my cock, and her face disappeared behind a straw-colored
curtain. All I saw was the shimmering crown of her head, with the jagged white
part on the side. Her lips had almost reached my pubic hair when she gagged and
pulled off.
“Too much for you?”
“Are we being bad?” she said.
“We’re being very
bad. Very naughty. Do you wanna stop?”
“You think we
should?”
“Darling, I can’t,”
I said. “You don’t have to go all the way down this time. Just move your tongue
around, like I did on you.”
She went back to her
homework. To this day I can’t say which was more exciting: the feeling on the
end of my cock, or the sight of a ten-year-old child making it happen.
I jacked off as her
head bobbed over my cock-knob, but she batted it away and took over herself.
Such a bright girl — but then there was that grip.
“Careful, careful,”
I said. “Not too hard — not too … not too … Tha’s riiii …”
I thrust my head
back into the pillow as that wonderful warm feeling spread to my extremities. I
writhed. I squirmed. I moaned. But I kept my eyes open. The sight of her
tongue, her lips, her hair, her whole nude body was too precious to miss for a
moment.
A trace of a smile
appeared on her lips. She was having fun —without the giggles.
The best comes are
the easiest, the ones that just happen without all the shoving and grunting. I
was keyed up, I had no reason to hold back, and all it took was a few wet
squiggles of Gretchen’s sweet tongue to bring my jism gushing to the surface.
“Baby! Darling,
that’s it! Keep doing it!”
Violently, I grabbed
her hair and tried to force her head down on my prick. It was twitching, a
split-second from coming. But Gretchen was too quick for me, and much more clear-headed.
She knew what was about to happen, and she didn’t want wads of sperm blowing up
her cheeks. At the last second she pulled her head away and pumped me, hard.
“OH JESUS!”
A streak of hot come
flared across my body. Gretchen squeaked
— from shock or delight — but she kept jacking me, pulling my wiener in
every direction, and the stuff went all over. The second spurt clipped her
chin. The third clung to her hair. But they were getting weaker, each one
gaining less altitude than the one before, until the last little squirt merely
fell from my cock and dribbled across her fingers.
It was all very
thick and creamy. I'd been a good boy that week, resisting the urge to
masturbate, if I hadn't sublimated it completely. Love steels a man's virtue.
Gretchen squeezed me
hard, as if trying to milk me dry, but it felt suddenly raw again, and I caught
her wrist, putting an end to it.
“That’s all right,”
I said. “You can stop.”
She let go and held
up her come-covered hand.
“Ick,” she said.
“That’s a lot,”
And she gave me the
same mischievous half-grin I had seen that day in the garage. I must have been
an amusing sight — the deluge of semen, the paralysis afterward. This new,
untested male species must have struck her as a bit silly.
“Are we all done?”
she asked.
“No,”
I said.
But my dick needed
time to recharge. Plus, Gretchen decided she was hungry. If you get your ideas
about men and women from sitcoms, you’ll notice a certain role-reversal here:
at that moment, it was the man who wanted to cuddle, and the woman who wanted
to eat. But she was the kid, and the girl, and both of them must get their way.
So, after we peed and I scrubbed my come off each other in the bathroom, we
went downstairs and had lunch — Fluffernutters on soft white bread (remember those?),
a big glass of chocolate milk each and half a box of graham crackers. Just a
romantic dinner for two.
Yes, I know. You’d
rather be reading about sex than food, but I can’t help remarking on the
incongruity. I was struck by it even at the time, I think. After all the day’s
adult activity, we were scarfing down a kindergarten snack. Childhood nutrition
wasn’t the puritanical science it later became.
We ate nude at the
kitchen table. Gretchen sat on my right thigh, with her legs between mine and
her toes splayed on the red-checkered floor. I loved the way her compact
buttocks puffed beneath her like cushions when she put her weight on them.
Between bites and sips, I talked to her about coming, and semen, and her body
and mine, and I ran my fingers down her naked spine, raising goose bumps all
over her.
We fed
each other the crackers dipped in the milk, and she giggled as stray brown
drops rolled down her chin and chest. I left one of the crackers in the glass
too long, and when I raised it to her lips, the soggy end broke off and landed
right on her slit.
“Ick,” she said.
“We need to clean
you up.”
She offered me a
napkin, but I pushed it away.
“Didn’t your mother
tell you it’s a sin to waste food?” I said, and I clutched her under the arms
and set her butt on the table. Then, kicking our chair away, I knelt in front
of her and sucked and nibbled and licked until every speck of the mushy brown
lump was gone. I was especially careful to dig out, with my tongue, any crumb
that might be hiding in her tender pink crevices. You can’t be too
conscientious where children are concerned.
“All clean,” I
announced.
“You’re weird,” she
said.
“Wanna go back
upstairs?”
“Are we gonna do
more sex stuff?”
“Yeah, we’re gonna
do more sex stuff.”
“OK!”
She threw her arms around
my neck, wrapping her legs about my waist as I stood. We lingered a while,
kissing with chocolate lips and crumb-coated tongues. I held her under her
butt, my fingers interlocked. Oh, she was light. Her bones were like balsa
wood. I could have held her like that for hours, but my dick had come to life
again. I wanted her back in bed.
“Darling!” she
gasped, covering my lips and cheeks with kisses.
I carried her
through the living room and up the stairs, bouncing as I went, chanting
“Boing-a! Boing-a!” with my hard-on whapping at her underside.
It made her laugh,
but the laughter stopped when we got to the bedroom.
I walked to the foot
of the bed and laid her down on the rumpled chenille. Gretchen held me in her
arms and legs, pulling me on top of her. I let go of her butt as we fell and
landed on my forearms. My dick poked her hole, but it was shut tight, and the
head flattened against it.
“You wanna fuck?” I
said.
“Sure!” she said.
“What’s fuck mean?”
How had I overlooked
the Big F at lunch? I had to smile, even if it broke the mood.
“Fucking is when the
boy puts his penis inside the girl’s vagina. It’s what boys and girls do when
they love each other. And it feels better than anything we’ve done yet.”
“I didn’t know you
could take it off.”
“Excuse me?”
“If you’re gonna put
it in me, don’t you have to take it off first?” She fingered the base of my
cock, searching for a button or a seam.
“What’s so funny?”
“Nothing,” I said.
“Nothing is funny. You’re wonderful.”
“How do you take it
off? Show me!”
“You don’t take it
off,” I said. “You lie back with your legs open, and I get on top of you and
put it in. Or I can get on my back and you ride me like a horse and I stick it
up into you. At no time does my penis ever leave my body. — Well, aren’t you
going to say ‘gross!’?”
“Why?”
“It seems to be your
response to everything. You said putting my dick in your mouth would be gross.”
“I think it sounds
like fun,” she said.
I gave her the
choice, and since we were already there, she elected the missionary position. I
should have guessed it wouldn’t work. Either I was too big, or she was too
small, or I couldn’t find the opening without looking. Whatever my dick was
poking wasn’t it. I pushed a couple times and only ended up humping the
mattress.
We tried it with her
on top, but it was still no go. I held my cock up in my fist as she positioned
herself above me, but as soon as she settled down and I let go, it popped out
of her way.
“It’s kinda big for
me,” she said.
“We need something
that will make it really slippery,” I said.
I could see the
light bulb go off over her head.
“Hold on!” she said,
bounding out the door. I lay there pulling gently on my joint, afraid that with
all the failure I’d lose my hard-on, but she was back in a jiff, carrying a
huge yellow jar that contained more Vaseline than anyone could use in a
lifetime.
“Perfect,” I said.
She held it out to
me at arms length.
“No,” I said. “You
do it.”
“I can’t open it. It’s too slippery,” she
said.
It was too slippery
for me, too, even spreading my long fingers across the lid. They just slid
around the milled metal edge. I might have gotten soft from the distraction if
Gretchen hadn’t kept me hard by taking me in her mouth — which made unscrewing
the lid even more of a challenge.
Finally, I sent her
back to the bathroom for a hand towel, which I laid over the jar to strengthen
my grip. I wrenched at it one last time, straining with my whole arm and
shoulder until — victory.
What a bright little
girl Gretchen was. Without waiting for instructions, she dipped two fingers
into the jar’s gaping mouth and scooped out a dollop of yellow goo, which she
slathered all over my hard-on. The stuff melted, leaving a silvery sheen over
the pink and purple skin and its tiny veins. She rubbed the head between her
slick fingers, circling the sweet spot with her greasy thumb. I made a mental
note to write the good people at Vaseline and compliment them on their
excellent prod —
“Oh, fuck, that
feels good!”
She could have
finished me off right then, but I’d promised to teach her all about fucking,
and you don’t break your promise to a little girl.
“Cut it out, you’ll
make me come again,” I said. “Lie down.”
She obeyed
willingly, spreading her legs, flexing her knees, tilting her pink stripe
toward the window. I knelt between her legs and levered my dick against her
pinprick of a hole.
Oh, shit, I’m trying
to get into that? She’s a baby.
I straightened my
legs, rising above her with outstretched arms, and, pressing the tip of my cock
through to her inner lips, lowered myself against her.
And I glided right
in.
I pushed tenderly,
ready to stop at the slightest resistance, but there was none. Her baby pussy
stretched to make room for me, then squeezed shut again. I moved through it
like a rubber-tipped plunger through a plastic syringe.
“You like that?”
“It’s weird,” she
said.
“But is it nice?”
“I guess.”
It was hard to kiss.
Mortised at the loins, we couldn’t overcome our difference in height. Her hair
brushed my chin. We gazed at one another across the gap and stuck out our
rounded lips, but they barely touched.
“I can’t breathe,”
she said at last.
I rolled onto my
shoulder. She followed, folding a thin leg over my hip.
“That better?”
“Uh huh.”
It was better for
me, too — easier. I rocked my ass, studying her face for signs of pleasure. I
didn’t have long to wait. Her blue eyes widened. Small patches of red appeared
on her pale cheeks, and they spread as my penis methodically stroked her bald,
baby cunt. She inhaled deeply through her nose. She bit her lip.
“See?” I said.
“There’s nothing bad about that, is there?”
“No … Uh-uh.”
“You know, you’re
not a virgin anymore.”
“What’s that?”
“That’s funny — you
stopped being one before you knew you what it is. A virgin is a girl who never
got fucked.”
“Then virgins are
stupid,” she groaned. We laughed weakly through our rising excitement.
“Darling,” she said
“Oh … DARLING!”
Her legs went rigid
around my hips, and she bowed her back away from me. We lay crossed at a right
angle, like an open pair of scissors. I was looking up at the Muppets, and for
some stupid reason, the fat bald one with glasses and no eyes caught my
attention. They all seemed to be laughing hysterically.
I held Gretchen by
the hips and ground my cock into her. Extending her arms, she gripped my
shoulders — her hands were still slippery from the jelly — and tossed her head
back in pleasure. I was looking at her extended throat and her smiling upper
lip.
“Is it happening?” I
asked, stupidly.
“Muh huh.”
Not the most
articulate answer, but clear enough — that and the way her pelvis bucked back
and forth and my hard-on waggled inside her.
It was already
twitching. If I hadn’t come on her face an hour earlier I would have had no
control at all. I would have spurted right then if I’d kept sliding around in
that slippery tube. I froze, clenching my ass, and let the still, swollen
fullness of my cock carry her over the top. And I prayed — not yet, God, please
not yet. We held our breath. There was no sound — not from us, not from
anywhere in the world — and for a teetering instant, it seemed, nothing on the
planet was moving.
“Uh,” she grunted,
so faintly I wasn’t sure I heard it.
“Uh,” she said
again, still nothing but a peep, but unmistakable.
Then it poured out
of her, an endless chain of grunts and gasps that grew in volume as her
shoulders quaked and her ribs swelled and her cunt muscles clamped my boner.
I snatched her hands
from my shoulders and pulled her to me, wrapping her in my arms. She shivered
in my embrace like a wet dog, moaning and babbling into my chest: “Muhhhhhh,
nananana … Nuh! Nuh! Nuh!”
When, finally, she
squeaked in her tiniest little-girl voice, I couldn’t hold back anymore. I
humped her filthy cunt, fast, a rapid pullout-pushback, no more than four times
before a thin jet of watery come completed defilement.
Ah, Mother, you are
always with me.
What happened next
was almost as much fun as screwing her, but it’s harder to describe. We had
calmed down, I had loosened my hold on her, and we opened a cool space between
our bodies. I was trying to think of something sensitive and loving to say,
when all of the sudden, she flung her arms wide in grand fashion, stuck out her
tongue and crossed her eyes and gave out a joyous half cry, half bleat like
“Bleeaaaaaahhhhh!”
It was the most
exuberant gesture of sexual satisfaction I’ve ever seen. Evidently, I was a
hit.
“Oh, did you like
that?”
“Yeah!” she said.
“And what did you
like best about it?”
“Coming!”
“I love you,
Gretchen.”
“I love you.”
We tried kissing
again. This time she came off my dick a little, and we were successful.
“I wanna do it
again,” she said.
“No problem,” I
said.
I went to kiss her a
second time, but she pushed at me with both hands flat against my chest.
“No, I mean I want
to fuck again,” she said.
“Sure,
whenever you want.”
“I mean now!”
“Could we have some more peanut butter
first?”
We were working on
our third orgasm when Gretchen’s mother called and said she’d be home in half
an hour. That gave us just enough time to finish.
“What did you do to
my daughter?” Gretchen’s mother said.
Uh oh. Here it
comes.
I was standing
inside the kitchen door, making change for a five. My tongue surged with a
blunt taste of metal, the way it does when I’m caught unawares by sudden danger
— like the German shepherd on my paper route charging at my nuts.
How was I going to
explain to this woman that I had fucked her ten-year-old daughter — twice — and
that, really, it was no big deal? The girl wanted it. She loved it. That should
count for something.
“I’m not sure I know
what you mean,” I said.
Rule Number One:
feign ignorance. Find out what it is they think they know.
“Whatever it was,
I’d like to bottle it,” she said. “All weekend she was so happy — so good. She was glowing. You
should have daughters when you get older. You really have the touch.”
“That’s nice to
know,” I said.
“I think she has a
crush on you. I don’t think. I know. You’re all she talks about.”
“And what did she
say? My ego can use the boost.”
“Just how nice and
how smart and how funny you are. Nothing specific.”
“Nothing specific”
was good.
”She did say you
played Muppets. What does that mean?”
Yes, what did that
mean?
“We, uh, we just did
a little scene with those dolls she has up in her room. We did the voices. I
did Kermit —or I tried to do Kermit. She loves them.”
“She used to have a
whole collection. I made her get rid of them. She keeps her room so
beautifully. The two dolls aren’t bad, but that poster ruins it.”
“Is that where she
is now?” I asked. I hadn’t seen her all week, not since our day in bed
together.
“No, she’s at the
shore with her father.”
Damn.
“I shouldn’t say
this, but I’m relieved she’s gone,” she went on. “You can’t know how hard it is
to meet a man when you have a child. Even if I can get someone to sit with her,
I can’t bring anyone home or stay out overnight. You know what I mean?”
Yes, I knew what she
meant. And I didn’t need to know.
“I was hoping to go
out and meet someone while Gretchen was away, but with my mother still in the
hospital, I can’t even do that. I’m there every day, and when I’m here, have to
stay by the phone.”
“How is she doi—?”
“And I don’t even
like the bitch. So it’s impossible. The pressure’s so … so much. If I could
just have one. You know what I mean? Just one good one.”
“A good one —?”
“I’d pay for a good
one.”
Since she started
talking, I had been holding out her change to her — some coins and a few
singles — and she hadn’t looked at it. Now she pushed my hand back at me.
“You keep it,” she
said. “It’s not much, but I never paid you for babysitting.”
“I couldn’t take
anything for that.”
I’d taken quite
enough.
“I’d like to pay you
more,” she said.
I stuffed the money
back into my apron, and as I brought my hand out again, she caught it and
guided it under her T-shirt. I’d suspected she wasn’t wearing a bra. There was
no doubt now.
“We could go
upstairs,” she said.
She was pretty. She
looked just like Gretchen, but with shorter, darker hair, and curves.
“You could eat me,”
she said, circling my hand on her tit. “And then we could fuck. Are you a
virgin?”
“No,” I said truthfully.
“I don’t know if
that’s good or bad. I haven’t had a virgin since high school, but I like a man
who knows what he’s doing.”
“Listen, Mrs. —”
“Oh, don’t call me
Mrs.”
“Listen, I’d love
to. I would. And the timing is good, ’cause I’ve just read A Streetcar Named
Desire. But I have a girlfriend. For the first time in my life, I can say
that.”
But I didn’t take my
hand from her breast. Her shirt was hiked up enough to expose the full white
underside. I tightened my grip on it,
weighing it judiciously. With hindsight, I’m guessing it was a B cup.
I’ve never seen a B-cup breast that wasn’t beautiful.
My dick stood up in
sympathy with her nipple. I had to adjust it under my apron.
“I know what that
is,” she said with a smile. “You do want to.”
“More than anything.
But like I said —”
“Can she do all the
things for you I can? Girls your age don’t know shit about sex. About
technique.”
“It’s not that. It’s
just…”
“You’re in love,”
she said.
I nodded, looking
her in the eye. Sadly, she returned my hand to me, and tugged her shirt back
into place.
“Is she in love with
you?”
“She says she is.”
“She must be very
bright. I can only see you with a bright girl.”
“Very.”
“Young love,” she
said bitterly. “You can’t fight it. I hope she realizes how lucky she is. I
hope you do.”
She kissed me
tenderly and, less tenderly, nudged me out the door. I hated myself for passing
up the opportunity. On a purely scientific level, it would have been an
enlightening experiment in time travel — Gretchen in twenty-five years — but
there were compensations. The feeling of the full, firm breast lingered in my
hand, and I was brimming with virtue. As I checked the “paid” box in my
notebook, I resolved to tell Gretchen I had been tested, and passed. The only
question was whether to tell her where the test had come from.
Mother-daughter
rivalries can be entertaining, but they can also get ugly.
V
I never did get to tell Gretchen I had
passed the fidelity test. I was foolish to think I'd ever see her alone again.
It's hard enough for teenagers to sneak off by themselves without their parents
suspecting what they're up to. Try falling in love with a fifth-grader. Her
sixteen-year-old boyfriend can't call her up out of the blue and ask her to a
dance. He can't knock on the back door and say to her mother, "Can
Gretchen come out and ride bikes?"
Gretchen's grandmother died not long
after I groped her mother’s tit. I saw darkly dressed people arriving at the
house one afternoon as I was delivering the paper. A few days later, a For Sale
went up on the front lawn, and the bottom dropped out of my world. I stopped
speaking to my customers, beyond the usual how-are-you-fine-thanks. Everyone
noticed I wasn't my usual loquacious self. Even Mindy asked me what was wrong,
but what can you say? I'm in love with a child, and she's going away, and I
have no idea where, and I lie awake nights with a chasm in my chest, and my
faithfulness means nothing so I should have fucked her mother when I had the
chance.
"For Sale" changed to
"Sold" as school was starting up again, and Gretchen's mother gave me
a stop date for the paper.
But I was lucky one last time.
The Thursday evening in September when
I collected my final payment, she asked me, "What are you doing
Saturday?"
I wasn't all the way in the kitchen
this time. I was standing on the back stoop, with the screen door propped open
against my shoulder. Gretchen's mother was standing on the threshold above me,
which put us eye-to-eye, and Gretchen was hanging on her hip. She went to the
same Catholic grammar school I had gone to, and she was wearing the same
uniform the girls wore when I was there: the plaid flannel jumper, navy knee
socks, white shirt with the Peter Pan collar, saddle shoes. It's every Catholic
boy's fantasy to strip those items off a Catholic girl, and looking at her, all
I could think was that I would never have that chance.
"I don't know," I said.
"Probably reading for school."
"Gretchen's having a sleepover
with some of her friends. It's a sort of a goodbye party for her, and she'd
like you to come."
"Please?" Gretchen said.
"I'm sorry, I'm not following
this," I said. "You're inviting me to a fifth-grade slumber party?
Should I wear my pajamas?"
"No, silly!" Gretchen said.
"Of course not," her mother
said. "Just put in an appearance. Come over about seven-thirty and stay
for a half-hour. You can have some pizza and leave. But she wants you there.
She's been bugging me about it all week. I told you she has a crush on you.
Isn't that right, Pumpkin?"
"No-oo!" Gretchen said,
grinding a toe into the kitchen linoleum.
"I rest my case," Mom said.
"Say you'll come. Make the poor girl happy — and get her off my
back."
"I wouldn't miss it," I said.
"Happy now, Pumpkin?"
"Aw, Mom!"
I walked away whistling Mahler. Ging
heut' Morgen übers Feld / Tau nach auf den Gräser hing —! I hadn't whistled
in weeks.
My own mother kept saying it was
"suspicious" that a divorced woman would invite me to her daughter's
sleepover. She wondered aloud if Gretchen's mother had "designs" on
me. She never went far wrong thinking the worst of anyone, but she seemed
reassured when I reminded her that the woman’s ten-year-old would be there to
chaperone.
The sun was setting and the air was
cool when I arrived Saturday night, right on time, showered and shaved and
nervous and dressed in what I thought of as sharp casual — pressed khakis, a
blue sport shirt, and black loafers, freshly polished. God bless paper route
money.
Gretchen was already dressed for bed.
She greeted me at the kitchen door in a long, flowered gown. Her hair was
immaculate, brushed back and held in place with a blue band that matched her
eyes. I smelled coconut when she hugged me and I kissed the top of her head. I
snuck a feel of her butt through a billow of flannel. She wasn't wearing
panties.
Her guests — there were only three of
them — couldn't wait for a look at the ogre she had brought to the feast, and
they bustled in from the dining room after her.
"This is Dominique," Gretchen
said, turning toward a girl who was obviously older than she was. "And
these are my friends Theresa and Geraldine."
"Theresa and Geraldine," I
said. "Let me guess — Teri and Geri."
"That's right! How did you
know?" said one.
"Yeah, how did you know?"
said the other.
"Just a hunch," I said.
They were twins, and, standing shoulder
to shoulder like a pair of porcelain saltshakers, they were indistinguishable —
the same lanky red hair pinned at the temples by the same tortoise-shell
barrettes. The same sea-green pajamas. The same cat's-eye glasses. The same
freckles.
"Gretchen says you're like a brainiac,"
Dominique said.
"I am not like a brainiac," I
said pedantically. "I am a brainiac."
She was a snot-nosed little bitch, and
I liked her immediately. She was a head taller than the others, with dark eyes
and short black hair that slanted across her forehead. Of the four, she was the
only one with tits, tiny but aggressively erect. Her pajama top was lollipop
purple, finely ribbed, with spaghetti straps and a border of white lace that
dipped like a Valentine at the center of her chest.
Below the waist, she was virtually
nude. Her bottoms were nothing but a pair of low-slung purple panties with some
more white lace in front, a square patch that served as a window to the skin
above her crotch. I wondered about pubic hair — yes or no?
"How old are you?" I asked.
"Twelve."
"She's in seventh grade,"
Teri or Geri said.
"Yeah, she's in seventh
grade," Geri or Teri confirmed.
"How do you know her?" I
asked Gretchen.
"She lives around the
corner," Gretchen said. "We walk home from school together. Isn't she
pretty?"
"Yes, I must admit she is."
"Damn right I am," Dominique
said.
"Not hard to shine, when you're
twelve and you're hanging out with ten-year-olds," I said.
"Not hard to be a brainiac, when
you're in high school and you're hanging out with ten-year-olds."
"Touché," I said.
"What's that mean?"
"It means you got me."
If the love of my life hadn't been
standing there holding me in her arms, I would have peeled that purple heinie
like a grape.
"Girls,” called a voice from the
dining room, “bring him in here."
Gretchen's mother sat at the head of
the table, an empty bottle of wine in front of her and another, half-empty, at
her elbow. My father was an alcoholic, and I learned early to estimate liquor
consumption at a glance. The first bottle could have been nearly empty when she
started drinking, but from the glaze in her eyes and the way she hung her head,
I didn't think so.
"How are you?" she said as we
all came in. I walked behind Dominique, keeping my eye on her ripe young ass.
"Fine, thank you," I said.
Moving boxes stood in stacks along the
walls. The breakfront behind Gretchen's mother was empty. She was drinking her
wine from a plastic cup. On the table, besides the bottles, were two large
plain pizzas, still in the boxes, paper plates and paper napkins, and a
two-liter bottle of orange soda.
Dominique sat at the end of the table
across from Gretchen's mom. The Indistinguishables sat together on one of the
long sides, which left Gretchen and me together on the other. I took the chair
closer to Dominique, and Gretchen boldly planted herself on my lap.
"Hm!" her mother said.
I reached around my little girl, put a
slice of pizza on a paper plate for her and helped myself to one. She snuggled
against my chest, squirming on top of my hardening dick, and laid her head back
on my shoulder.
"Careful, Pumpkin," her
mother said. "His real girlfriend will be jealous."
"Huh?" Gretchen said, turning
to look at me sharply.
"He told me he has a
girlfriend," her mother said. "Didn't I mention it?"
"See?" said Dominique with a
note of triumph. "I told you you weren't his real girlfriend."
"Gretchen is my real
girlfriend," I said. I might have been kidding, or not. If they wanted to
believe me, they could. If they didn't, it wasn't my fault. I wasn't lying to
them.
"Prove it," Dominique said.
"Kiss her."
"We're not a show for your
amusement," I said. "We don't have anything to prove to you."
"Hee hee!" Gretchen's mother
said.
"See?" the older girl
persisted. "If you were his girlfriend he'd kiss you."
I gave Gretchen a peck on the lips.
"That was nothing," Dominique
said.
"Well, her mom's here," I
said.
"Oh, that's funny," the mom
said. "That. Is. Funny. Would you care for some wine?"
"Sure. I guess," I said. With
all the booze my father stockpiled, I had never tasted wine, but it seemed more
grownup than orange soda.
"Pizza and wine," Gretchen's
mother said. "A truly class act."
She filled a cup, sloshing some wine
onto the table, and shoved it toward me. It was dark red and a little sweet.
"That is a cabernet
sauvignon," Gretchen's mom said.
"It's very nice. Thank you."
"Can I have some?" Gretchen
said.
"Just a sip, honey," her
mother said.
I held my cup to Gretchen's lips. She
made a face.
"I like soda better," she
said.
"Good," her mother said.
"What about us?" Dominique
said.
"Yeah, what about us?" the
twins said, almost together.
"No. Uh-uh," Gretchen's
mother said. "The last thing I need is you telling your parents I was
teaching you how to drink."
I ate my pizza and drank my wine with
my left hand, putting down the pizza to pick up the wine, and putting down the
wine to pick up the pizza. With my right hand, I surreptitiously rubbed
Gretchen's thighs under the table. She spread her knees, hanging her bare feet
from either side of my chair and giving me room to move inside her legs. I
stuffed the loose folds of flannel into her crotch, and, anxious not to betray
any movement, tickled her slit with one finger. To my surprise, the fuzzy
fabric sunk deep, and moved smoothly across the bumps and puckers underneath.
She was creaming.
Suddenly, she kicked. I couldn't tell
why. She wasn't close to coming yet. She was calm again for a moment, then
kicked again, and I realized Dominique was trying to play footsie with her.
She’d seen the contented expression on Gretchen's face, and she wanted to get
in the game, whatever she thought the game was. Little Gretchen had made the
alpha-girl jealous.
"If it feels good, baby, let her
do it," I whispered in Gretchen's ear. "She's being nice."
"What was that?" her mom
asked me.
"Nothing," I said.
The resistance stopped. In a moment, I
peeked under the table and saw Dominique's toes creeping up Gretchen's shin.
"Let me ask you something,"
Gretchen's mother said. "Are you close to your parents?"
"I guess so," I said.
"More my mother than my father."
"Because if you're not, let me
tell you. Make peace with them while you can. Because once they're gone,
they're gone, and you can't bring them back. And before you know it, you're
thirty-eight years old and divorced and you can't seduce a teenager with an
obvious hard-on. Not even if you put his hand on your goddamn tit."
"Mah-ahm!"
"I'm serious," her mother
said. "You should all learn. Make peace with your parents. Because once
they're gone, they're gone, and you can't bring them back."
"You already said that,"
Gretchen told her.
"And I tell you, honey, I love
you. I tell you right now."
"Mom, please!"
Across the table, the twins were
looking at each other with that nervous, sidelong expression kids get when the
adults in the room are doing something embarrassing and unintelligible.
Dominique and I looked at one another the same way behind Gretchen's head.
"Well, I'll certainly think about
it," I said, just to be talking. "I suppose it's hard ... losing a
parent. It must bring up a lot of memories. Was she very old? Your mother ... I
say, was your mother very old?"
But her eyes had drifted shut, and her
chin had sunk to her chest. She seemed to be grinning.
"Is she all right?' said the twin
on the left.
"Yeah, is she all right?"
said the twin on the right.
"She's just asleep," I said.
"Oh, my God!" Gretchen said.
"She's gone," Dominique said.
"That was weird," said Twin
One.
"Yeah, that was weird," said
Twin Two.
"She'll be OK," I said.
"Does she always drink so much?"
"Only since Grandma died,"
Gretchen said.
"So, now what? — Yeah, now
what?" the twins asked.
"Listen," Dominique said,
returning to the question she'd started with. "Are you really Gretchen's
boyfriend, or are you just messing with us?"
"I told you," I replied.
"No, you were messing
around."
"Was I?"
"Yeah, you were."
"We are truly, madly, deeply in
love," I said, raising a hand in the Boy Scout salute. "I love
her."
"And I love him," Gretchen
said.
"Are you gonna marry her?"
Geri or Teri asked.
"Yeah, are you gonna marry
her?" Teri or Geri repeated.
"Yes," I said.
"Really?" Gretchen said.
"Yes, really."
"No, you won't," Dominique
said.
"Why not?"
"Because you know what married
people do, and she won't do it."
"And what do married people
do?" I asked.
"They screw!"
The twins squealed.
"Shhhh!" I said.
"You'll wake her up."
Gretchen's mother hadn't stirred, but
we all lowered our voices. For an accurate impression of the conversation that
followed, imagine every word spoken in a stage whisper.
"What's screw?" Gretchen
asked me.
"See? She doesn't even know what
it is," Dominique said.
"She knows other words," I
said. "Screw is another word for fuck."
The twins tried squealing again, but
they succeeded in producing only a suppressed, strangling sound.
"In that case — " Gretchen
started.
"Baby, don't tell."
"Tell what?"
"Yeah, tell what?"
"We already did that,"
Gretchen said.
"You are so full of shit!"
Dominique whispered.
"No, she isn't," I whispered
back. I hoped it wouldn't come to this, but Gretchen had made the play, and as
her official boyfriend, I had to back her up. "We did it, what, Baby,
twice?"
"And all that other stuff."
And to prove it, we kissed — for real
this time, tongues twirling for all to see. The twins watched us in
fascination, their mouths twisted into a silent scream. Dominique seemed
unconvinced, so I went farther: I pulled up Gretchen's nightgown and inserted
my middle finger far up her twat. She was nice and wet and swollen, squeezing
my knuckles from every side.
She sighed happily.
"What are they doing? — Yeah what
are they doing?" the twins said. They couldn't see what was happening over
the tabletop.
Dominique half-stood and leaned over.
"He's feeling her up. God! Look at
this."
The twins came around the table —
symmetrically, one on each end — and the three of them looked hungrily at
Gretchen's shiny pink cunt as it gripped my finger.
"What's that feel like? — Yeah,
what's that feel like?" the twins asked.
"It's fuckin' awesome,"
Gretchen said.
"She said the F-word!" the
twins said, slightly out of phase, as usual.
"Shut up," Dominique said,
even though they hadn't raised their voices. She was interested now, watching
intently as I jiggered Gretchen's pussy.
"Are you gonna screw?"
I glanced at Gretchen's mother.
"I want to," I said.
"Darling, do you?"
"Yeah," Gretchen said.
"I wanna see," Dominique
said.
"Uh uh!" Gretchen said.
"I'll tell," Dominique said.
"Let them watch," I said.
"Let 'em see what they're missing."
"Oo, I just came!" Gretchen
squeaked.
"What's that mean?" said
Tweedledee.
"Yeah, what's that mean?"
said Tweedledum.
"It means she had an orgasm,"
Dominique said.
"What's that?"
"Yeah, what's that?"
"You don't know?" I said.
"Don't you ever touch yourselves like this, so it feels really good?"
They thought about that a moment, their
lips shut tight, as if they were fighting back gales of laughter. Then they
said:
"Sometimes."
"Yeah, sometimes."
"Ooooo-K," I said.
From what I had seen, it was clear that
whenever they did anything, they did it together.
Taking my finger from Gretchen's hole,
I gathered her nightie and pulled it off over her head.
"See? We hang out naked," she
said, and she fell back into my arms.
"If we're gonna do this," I
said to Dominique, "I want something from you."
"Like what?"
"I'd like to see those pretty
tits."
"Yeah, you wish."
"Yeah-eah!" Gretchen said.
"You have to."
"Come on, Dom — Yeah, come on
Dom," said the twins.
Rolling her eyes contemptuously, as if
to say, "Fuck you all," Dominique sloughed off her top. Her young
buds were lovely — high and roundish, with puffy, 3D nipples like cones of
brown sugar. I couldn't think of a single smart remark.
"Speechless, huh, Kid?"
Dominique said.
"Actually, yes," I said.
"They're beautiful."
That threw her. She wasn't expecting a
sincere compliment, but I ruined the moment by reaching out to touch her. She
jerked away from me.
"You see with your eyes, not with
your hands," she said.
"Hey, what about mine?"
Gretchen said.
"Yours are going to be the most
beautiful breasts that ever were," I said.
"Make him take his pants
off," Dom said.
"She doesn't have to make me do
anything," I said. "All she has to do is ask."
"Darling," Gretchen said, to
prove the point, "would you please take off your pants?"
"Gladly, Darling."
"Thank you."
"You're welcome."
"See?" I said.
"Oh, puke," Dominique said.
"You wanted proof," I said.
The five of us moved a few steps into
the living room, where there were more boxes piled up, and dark squares on the
wallpaper where pictures and mirrors had hung for years. Teri and Geri threw
themselves into a corner of the sofa, holding hands tightly and crossing their
legs together. Dominique stood too close to Gretchen and me, and I seized the
opportunity to cup a hand over one of those high little titties.
"Hey!" she said, jumping
back. "No fair!"
I pulled my shirttail out of my pants.
“How many females have I exposed myself to in the past four years?” I thought.
It should have felt routine, but this audience was the most appreciative ever:
redheaded twins, the hottest pubescent sexpot I had ever seen, and Gretchen,
darling Gretchen, the blonde ten-year-old I had just promised to marry.
Gretchen made herself useful, though
whether her usefulness was for my benefit or her friends' wasn't clear. She
knelt in front of me and took off my shoes and socks while I stood on one foot,
then the other. She opened my belt buckle, unzipped my khakis and pulled them
down with a two-handed yank, along with my briefs.
Four sets of eyes zeroed in on my
hard-on.
"You guys wanna see something
cool?" Gretchen said.
"Like what?" Dom said.
"Watch his face."
She was right: my features went slack
as she closed her mouth delicately over the tip of my cock. Her tongue felt
huge against the sensitive underside, as if it (her tongue, that is) were
swelling in her mouth. It (her tongue) circled and rolled and surged in a
continuous motion that nearly dropped me to the floor.
I moaned, still in a whisper.
"He likes that!" Dom said.
Gretchen had not been nearly so expert
our first time together.
"Have you been practicing?" I
asked her.
In reply, she only screwed her eyes up
happily and grinned — as much as she could grin with a mouth full of dick. Her
jaw seemed to come loose from its hinges as she took me all the way in.
I couldn't stand up anymore, and
somehow, Gretchen managed to keep me in her mouth as I crouched, then unfolded
again, stretching out on my back. I was lightheaded, tingling all over, and it
crossed my mind that any girl my own age doing this to me would have had a good
laugh at my vulnerability and helplessness. Not Gretchen.
"Get his pants off," Dom said.
They were still bunched around my feet.
Gretchen took her mouth off my dick and helped Dominique drag them away.
"You want to be on top?" I
asked her. "They'll see better."
"Yeah, OK," she said. She
stood astride my hips and squatted over me. Her pussy opened as she descended,
and her clit emerged from its fleshy whorls like landing gear.
"You want to get the
Vaseline?" I asked.
"I don't think so," she said.
"I'm really wet."
The spectators gazed in silent awe as I
held up my cock for her and she lowered herself onto it. The inner lips
expanded over the head, and the shaft was lost in the widening pink ring.
And there it was again, the most
extraordinary sensation I have ever felt — a tight sleeve wrapped around a
spindle of unimaginable pleasure. Gretchen sat upright, keeping my dick
upright. We barely moved, letting the ecstasy build gradually but inexorably.
Half smiling, she raised her fists
above her head and twitched her little butt like she was dancing in a
stripper's cage. If she had had tits, they would have stood high and flattened
against her chest. As it was, her coral nipples grew in diameter almost
imperceptibly.
I couldn't see the twins, and Dominique
was standing over my head. Her face looked upside down. She tugged on one
nipple, stretching it like a rubber band. Her other hand was balled up in her
panties. She was obviously enjoying the show.
I caught her eye and tapped my lip with
one finger. She only looked at me quizzically. I stuck out my tongue and
wiggled it at her. She still didn't get it. On the third try, I extended an
arm, touched my middle finger to her darkened crotch, and, drawing an invisible
line through the air, brought it back to my mouth.
At last, she understood. She shed her
panties quickly and climbed on my face like she was mounting a bicycle.
The answer to the pubic-hair question
was yes. A thin line of it clung to her outer labia, like a fuzzy black
caterpillar was crawling out from between her legs. It split open as she
settled on my mouth. Her ass cheeks separated, too, and for the next few
minutes, all I saw was a brown rosette with a faintly sickening odor.
Gretchen and Dominique leaned into each
other, forming a lopsided A-frame over my chest. I wasn't sure, but I think
they put their arms around one another. They might have been kissing, or not,
but they were definitely getting into it, murmuring and grinding their cunts
onto my face and cock. Using me as a tool for their pleasure turned into a
bonding experience, a girl thing. I didn't matter to them at all at that moment,
except as the big oral and penile stimulant they were both sitting on. But who
cared? It was a job I could live with, if I didn't suffocate.
I nuzzled Dominique's swampy hole,
while Gretchen's creamy cunt enveloped my cock. It was hard to fuck her: flat
on my back, and weighed down by two girls, I couldn't move my ass enough to
push into her. She did all the work. And she did fine.
I reached up, looking for something to
hold on to, and I found Dominique's pliant tits. I tweaked them, stroked them,
held them — all backwards — until Gretchen turned possessive and invoked her
rights as girlfriend: she tore my hands from Dominique and laid them on her
own, flat chest, where they belonged.
I admit, I was being a prick, plighting
my troth to one girl and feeling up another. But in my defense, let me say —
well, Dominique had very pretty tits.
And then Gretchen took hold of them
herself, which hardly seemed fair.
Dominique was the first to climax. Her
body stiffened on my face, and she helped herself along by clapping her fingers
to her clit. Her nails jabbed my lips and chin over and over as she wanked
herself. She sent me home with scratches and a swollen lip I couldn't explain,
but she was a girl in the throes of an orgasm, and she could hardly be expected
to care about my comfort. Finally she rolled away, still masturbating, her ass
thumping the carpet, clearing my view just in time to watch Gretchen come.
My girl trembled from her shoulders to
her butt, and her face took on that ecstatic, inward expression I remembered
from our first time together — eyes closed, mouth wide open, her breathing
shallow and shaky. Free to move again, I pushed from my ass, probing her slick
cunt, and finding more room for my dick than I thought she had in there.
"Motherfucker," I
sighed.
Her cunt muscles clenched my penis like
a fist. I pulled out halfway, loving the drag of her vaginal canal on the
over-sensitive head of my cock. Then I went firmly back in. A few repetitions,
and the burst of semen began to build. Honestly, I hadn't jerked off much at
all since I fell in love with Gretchen, and I had a lot of come stored up. It
poured from me in thick clots.
"Oh," I said. "Oh."
"Uh huh," Gretchen replied.
“Uh huh!”
At some inarticulate level, we were in
complete agreement.
When the waves of ecstasy had passed us
by, she lay with her head on my breastbone, drooling contentedly like a
slumbering baby, her eyes closed, her fingers curled beneath her chin.
Precious.
"How about you?" I said,
turning to Dominique, but I didn't get an answer. Her hand was frozen on her
cunt, and she was staring over Gretchen and me at something that astounded her.
"What?" I said.
In reply, she only tilted her head
back, pointing toward the sofa with her chin. I wrenched myself around, careful
not to shake my lover too much, and I got an eyeful, too.
"Baby, look," I whispered.
Gretchen lazily raised her head.
The twins, whom we'd forgotten about,
were Frenching on the sofa. Their pajama tops were unbuttoned. One had her
pants off. The other's hung below her knees. Arms crossed, they clawed one
another's cunts in a frenzy.
But it was their love-talk that really
dumbfounded us. They repeated one another's names, trading them back and forth
until their individual identities, already fragile, blurred and ultimately
vanished.
"I'm Teri," said one.
"I'm Teri," said the other.
"You're Geri," said the
first.
"You're Geri," said the
second.
"I'm Geri," from the first.
"I'm Geri," from the second.
"You're Teri."
"And you're Teri."
"I'm Geri."
"And I'm Geri."
And so it went, as they kissed and
pawed each other in front of three astonished onlookers. The second pair of
pajama bottoms was kicked to the floor, and they wrapped themselves into a 69,
Teri/Geri on top of Geri/Teri. Their heads, tongues, and lips moved in unison,
or maybe, like the way they talked, one followed the other by a split second.
It was hard to tell as I glanced from one set of head and ass to the other, but
it goes without saying their orgasms were simultaneous, and of precisely the
same intensity. To this day, I believe each felt the other's climax as much as
her own.
"Oh. My. God," Gretchen said.
"Something tells me they've done
this before," I said.
"Yeah,” Dominique said. “They are
way too into each other."
"How can you be friends with
them?" I said. "How can anybody be friends with them? They don’t have
room for anybody else."
"I just am," Gretchen said.
"It's like being friends with one."
"This is better than TV,"
Dominique said. "Gretchen, I like your boyfriend. He's cool."
"High praise!" I said.
From the dining room came a groaning
sigh. A chair creaked, and a bottle fell over and clattered on the table.
"Gretchen?" came a hoarse
voice.
"In here, Mom!"
They were the first words any of us had
spoken at full volume since I had shushed the twins, and they shattered the
mood like glass. Dominique and the twins grabbed their clothes and flew
upstairs. Gretchen stood up, sliding away from my dick, dripping semen and
pussy juice on my stomach and balls. Her nightgown was still where I'd left it,
wadded up under the dining room table, and she couldn't get to it without
exposing herself to her mother. But apparently that wasn't a problem. Without a
trace of hesitation, she walked naked through the archway, made a sharp left
turn, and was out of my life forever.
"You OK, Mom?" I heard her
say.
"What time is it?"
"Almost nine. You should go to
bed."
"You don't have any clothes
on."
"We were playing a strip
game," Gretchen said. Clever girl.
"That figures," her mother
said. "Where's your boyfriend?"
"He went home."
Not so clever, that one. If she had
said, "He went to the bathroom," I could have run upstairs after the
others and covered up at my leisure. But my continued presence in the house
didn't jibe with little-girl strip games. I had one way out, and that was
through the front door.
Quietly as I could, I stuffed my
clothes and shoes under my arms and fled naked into the cool night air.
Gretchen kept talking to give me time. It's a miracle her mother didn't hear my
belt buckle clank, or the front door open, or the storm door close. Or maybe
she did, and, with a headache and a bellyful of wine, she never guessed what
was going on.
I dropped my clothes beneath the front
window. The air felt delicious on my balls. I lingered a few minutes with my
hands clasped behind my head, savoring the breeze. I was tempted to go for a
nude walk around the neighborhood, but I'd save that for another time. I had
challenged fate too much for one night. And Mother would be waiting up for me.
So I got dressed in the dark and went home.
Next morning, I delivered my last
Sunday paper to Gretchen's house. Monday, she was gone. The moving van was
outside when I went past on my route, and my girl and her mother were nowhere
to be seen. The people who moved in next didn't subscribe to the paper, even
though I knocked and tried to sell them on the idea, like the enterprising
businessman I was. Maybe they sensed my heart wasn't in it. I couldn't bear the
thought of standing in that kitchen again, asking for money, and not seeing
Gretchen's teasing smile.
I
kept the paper route until the following summer, but it gave me no more riotous
orgasms, no more glimpses at the female nude, young or old. My sex life
remained dormant until college, and it has never been so good again.
©
2012 by Jacqueline Jillinghoff