I’d been a bit down in the dumps and Chuck, Dave and Ben decided that what I needed was to get out, have a few drinks and basically get over my funk and get on with my life.

They had a point and I knew it.  It was time for me to stop feeling sorry for myself.  The three of them picked me up and we drove into town.  I was a little surprised when we pulled into the parking lot of the Landing Strip Lounge.

“Why here?” I asked.

“It is open mike night” Ben said, “And we think it is just what you need to drag yourself out of your shell.”

I shrugged and we went inside, found a table and ordered drinks.  Shari, the waitress, smiled when she saw me and asked:

“Where have you been Wally?  We’ve missed you.”

“Been busy Shari.  Haven’t had time for a night life.”

Up on the band stand Bobby Denton was telling one of his blond jokes while his wife sat at a table in the back with some of her friends.  She was a platinum blond and she hated blond jokes and I often wondered if Bobby got any pussy from her on open mike night.

He finished the joke and introduced a guy who wasn’t all that good, but I still clapped for him for no other reason than it takes a lot of nerve to stand up there in front of lots of people and let it all hang out.  After the guy finished Bobby told another blond joke and then said they were at that point in the evening when the mike was open for anyone who wanted to give it a try.  Chuck, Dave and Ben were pushing me to get up and I figured what the hell, why not.

I stood up and Bobby saw me and said, “It looks like Wally Taylor is going to throw himself on your mercy” and as he handed me the mike he said, “Good to see you Wally.  We’ve missed you.”

I took the mike, looked out over the crowd, took a deep breath and then said:

“I was reading in the paper today about the increase in concealed carry permits being issued and I wondered about the love affair that men have with guns.  Some even to the point that they preferred their thirty-eights to have steel jackets rather than bras.  I thought about it for a bit and I came up with ten good reasons why some men prefer guns over women.

Number ten – You can trade and old 44 for a new 22.

Number nine – You can keep one gun at home and have another one to take with you on the road.

Number eight – If you admire a friend’s gun and tell him so he will probably let you try it out a few times.

Number seven – Your primary gun doesn’t mind if you keep another gun for back up.

Number six – Your gun will stay with you even if you run out of ammo.

Number five – A gun doesn’t take up a lot of closet space.

Number four – Guns function normally every day of the month.

Number three – A gun doesn’t ask, “Do these new grips make me look fat?”

Number two – A gun doesn’t mind if you go to sleep after using it.

And the number one reason why some men prefer guns over women is

You can buy a silencer for a gun.”

I had gotten several small laughs for the numbers as I listed them, but got a really big laugh for the last one so I decided to hang in there for a while.

“Jesus and Satan were having an on-going argument about who was better on the computer.  They had been going at it for days and frankly God was tired of listening to their bickering.  Finally fed up God said:

 “THAT”S IT!!!  I have had enough.  I am going to set up a test that will run for two hours and from the results of that test I will judge who does the better job.  So Satan and Jesus sat down at their keyboards and started typing.

They moused. 

They faxed.

They e-mailed.

They e-mailed with attachments.

They downlo…”

Suddenly I stopped and stared at the back of the room where the door to the parking lot had opened and a couple had walked in.  The crowd was wondering why I had stopped and you could hear the low voices asking each other what was going on.  I took a deep breath and pulled myself together.

“Ladies and gentlemen” I said, “I apologize, but I have to stop at this point and get the hell out of here.  My wife and the asshole she has been cheating on me with just walked in from the parking lot.”

Heads turned to look toward the back of the room and I said:

 “Wave to the nice people Julie so they can get a good look at what a lying cheating whore looks like.  As I said I do apologize for this, but if I don’t get the hell out of here I’ll end up in jail for putting the whore’s lover in the hospital.”

I hesitated for a second or two and then said, “Fuck it!  It will be worth going to jail over” and I jumped down from the bandstand and started toward Julie.  The guy with her turned and hurried out the door leaving Julie standing there looking like a deer caught in the headlights of an on-coming car.

Chuck, Dave and Ben grabbed me and wrestled me into the kitchen and then out into the parking lot,

“Settle down Wally.  They ain’t worth it” Ben said.  They got me in the car and Chuck drove us over to the Red Fox Inn.  When we were inside and seated Chuck ordered our drinks and Dave told the waitress to make mine a double.  Chuck said:

“Sorry Wally.  I really thought a night out would do you some good.  It was just dumb assed luck that the cunt picked tonight to show up at the Strip.”

“She wasn’t the problem” I said, “If she would have shown up alone I could have just ignored her, but she didn’t show up alone.  She showed up with him.  I wish you hadn’t stopped me.  I fully intend to get that bastard one of these days.”

“Maybe bud, but not in front of a hundred witnesses.  Take your time and plan it out.  Make sure that you do it with no witnesses around and make sure that we know when so we can all have our stories straight when we swear that you were playing cards with us when it happens.  We can help you out bud.  The asswipe doesn’t know any of us and we can follow him around and see what his routine is and find out when would be the best time for you to do your thing.”

As I sipped my Jack over ice I reflected on my choices.  I’d made some damned good ones in choosing my friends, but a pretty bad one when it came to picking a wife.  I knew what I was getting when I got Julie; I was just too stupidly in love to let what I knew get in the way.

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I met Julie in our freshman year at State.  We were in the same Introduction to Planning class and Reynolds had broken the class up into five person teams and assigned each team a project.  Julie and I were put on the same team and ended up spending a lot of time together at the library doing research for our project.

To say that I was smitten would be to make a gross understatement.  One look into those green eyes and the sexy redhead owned me.  I asked her out and she accepted.  Julie kissed me at the end of that first date and that first date led to several more and the kisses escalated into steamy make out sessions and on our seventh date we spent the night in room 122 at the Fantasy Isle Motel.

The next three months went by and Julie and I couldn’t keep our hands off of each other.  We were making love three and four nights a week and then one day near the end of those three months we got into an argument over something so vitally important that I can’t even remember what it was.  The upshot was that Julie told me that she didn’t want to see me any more and she stomped off.

“Well fuck you!!!” I said to myself.  The only problem was that over the course of the next couple of months I saw her with different guys and it ground on me.  I was hung up on her and it was driving me crazy that she wasn’t with me.  I tried calling her several times, but never got in touch with her.  I left messages with her roommate, but she never returned my calls.

Three months after she walked away from me she sat down across from me as I was having my lunch in the student cafeteria.

“Hi Wally.”

“Hi yourself Julie.”

There was dead silence for a couple of beats and then she said, “I’ve missed you Wally” and just like that we were back together and couldn’t keep our hands off of each other.

 Four months later there was another argument and Julie stomped off and just like the first time I saw her around with different guys and it pissed me off, but there wasn’t a thing I could do about it.  Two months went by and then she approached me and told me again that she had missed me.  Once again we were back together.

It happened four more times before we finished our senior year.  Each time the separation lasted two or three months and then Julie would do the “I’ve missed you Wally” thing.  Sooner or later I had to wise up to what was going on and I did.  I caught on to the fact that some guy would catch Julie’s eye and she would manufacturer an argument, storm off and date the guy and maybe one or two others and then she would come back and tell me she missed me and expect that I would welcome her back with open arms.  Which is pretty much what I did. 

There was a slight change to the program however.  I started dating other girls and while I was relatively successful in getting my ashes hauled none of the girls I hooked up with made me want to get into a long-term relationship with.  I was too hung up on Julie and I think Julie knew that which is why she never came running back when she saw me with other girls.  I wasn’t all that happy about the situation, but I did take some comfort in the fact that she always came back to me.

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We had four months to graduation when she pulled it on me again, but I knowing the score I had prepared for it.  I had a cousin that Julie had never met and in exchange for my working on her car she agreed to be my pretend girlfriend.  I made sure that every time Julie saw me I was with Mary.  Mary and I made a big show of it and did some pretty heavy necking whenever we were where Julie could see it.  We even went so far as to let Julie see my hand up under Mary’s skirt while Mary pretended to hunch her pussy against my hand.

When Julie would go off the time period that she was gone ran anywhere from two to four months, but all of a sudden Julie was back doing her “I miss you Wally” after only two weeks.  I’m guessing that she thought she was in danger of losing her good old fall back position and figured that she had better get back to ‘home base’ before it was too late.

For once things did not go according to plan for her.  As usual I was sitting in the student cafeteria having lunch when she sat down and launched into the “IMYW” speech and I answered:

“I can’t say the same Julie.  In fact Mary has kept me so busy that I barely knew you were gone.”

I looked at my watch and said, “Got to run or I’ll be late for my next class.  See you around Julie” and I got up and left her sitting there.

I knew what would happen next.  Julie knew my schedule and she knew I’d be at the library studying that afternoon after classes.  Sure enough she showed up and sat down at the table with me.

“What do you want Julie?”

“I’m here to eat some crow Wally.”

“Eat some crow?”

“Yes Wally, eat some crow.  The last argument that we had was just me being pigheaded.  It was all my fault and I wanted to make up almost immediately, but my stupid pride got in the way.  You know the old saying – “Don’t apologize, it is a sign of weakness” – well that is what was bouncing around in my head.”

“So why now?”

“Because I don’t want to lose you to some other girl.”

“You might be a little too late there Julie.  Mary and I seem to have a very good thing going.”

“Don’t say that Wally.  You’re my guy.  You were put here on this earth for me and I know it.  We are meant to be Wally.  We are soul mates and you know it.”

“I don’t see any reason to get back with you Julie.  I’m a student of history and history always repeats itself.  Three or four months from now you will be gone again and I’m tired of the roller coaster ride.  Three or four months with you followed by two or three months without you and then the cycle repeats.  I need a more stable relationship than that and I think Mary will give it to me.”

I looked at my watch and said, “Time to pick Mary up for our date tonight.  See you” and I got up and walked away from her for the second time that day.

The next day at lunch Julie plopped down across from me and I looked up at her and didn’t say a word.  She took a deep breath and then said:

“Do I have to beg Wally?”

“Beg?  Beg for what?”

“For you to take me back.”

“I know that this is going to came as a surprise to you Julie, but I am not dumb.  I know full well that you fake arguments with me for the sole purpose of being able to go with other guys and that you only come back to me when you get tired of them.  In four months I’ll have my degree and I’ll be starting on my career and I’m going to need to concentrate on it.  I’m not going to have time for these silly games any more.”

She looked away and said, “Okay, you are right, but it wasn’t because I didn’t love you.  I’m young and single and I wanted to experience some things before settling down, but I couldn’t very well do those things while I was still going with you.  It wouldn’t have been right.  No more games Wally.  I’m dead serious about making sure that some other girl doesn’t latch onto you.”

“I want to believe that Julie; I really want to, but I don’t know if I want to take the chance of trusting you not to keep on doing what you have kept on doing.”

“I swear to God Wally; no more games.”

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We did get back together and a year later we were still together and Julie started making noises about wanting to get married.  I pretty much ignored those noises until one day Julie flat out asked:

“Are you going to marry me Wally?”

“The honest answer to that question Julie is that I don’t know.  Every time I consider it I think back to all those times you went off to play with some other guy and I have to ask myself if I want to take the chance of it happening again.  If it happens when you are single it is one thing, but if it happens when you are married it is something else again.  Happening while married leads to a divorce and they can be not only expensive, but quite bitter as well.”

“Oh come on Wally; I’ve made it perfectly clear that you are my guy and I’m never going to do anything that will cost me you.”

I let her break me down and talk me into it even though in the back of my mind there was still a small kernel of doubt.  I did make sure that she understood that I had a zero tolerance policy as far as other men were concerned.  Not even flirting!

We both found work in our chosen fields and started living the American dream.  We saved up a down payment and bought a very nice three bedroom ranch style home in a good neighborhood.  We each had our own car and we had all the other bells and whistles like a big screen TV, the latest and greatest in home computers, modern space age appliances and of course the top of the line in I-Phones.

Julie and I were still making love three and four times a week even after having been married for seven years.  We had a very good social life.  We had a close circle of friends that we had over for barbecues and who we went out and partied with.  One of our favorite things to do was go to the Landing Strip lounge on open mike night.

One night we were there with Ben and Wilma Farmsby, Chuck Morris, his wife Bea and Dave Bennings and when Bobby Denton, the master of ceremonies, said it was time to turn the mike over to anyone who wanted to give it a try Ben dared me to get up and do it.  The others all egged me on and I’d had just enough of a snootful to take the dare.

As I walked toward the bandstand I thought of some of the jokes I’d heard recently and decided to go with a kind of fish story.  I took the mike introduced myself and then said:

“A woman goes into Cabela’s to buy a rod and reel for her grandson’s birthday.  She doesn’t know which one to get so she just grabs one and takes it over to the counter.

“The clerk was standing behind the counter wearing dark shades and the woman said to him:

“Excuse me sir, can you tell me anything about this rod and reel?”

“Ma’am, I’m completely blind, but if you will drop it on the counter I’ll tell you everything from the sound it makes.”

She doesn’t believe him but she drops the rod and reel on the counter and the clerk says:

“That’s a six foot Shakespeare graphite rod with a Zebco 404 reel and ten pound test line.  It’s a good all around combination and it is on sale this week for only twenty dollars.”

As she is digging into her purse for her credit card she says, “That is amazing that you can tell all that just from the sound it makes just falling on the counter.” 

The credit card slipped and fell from her fingers and hit the floor and the clerk said:

“That sounds like a MasterCard.”

The woman bent down to pick it up and she accidently farted and it was a really ripe one.  At first she was embarrassed, but then realizes that there was no way the blind clerk could tell that it was her who tooted.   Being blind he wouldn’t know that she was the only person around.  She handed him her card and as he rang up the sale he said:

“Your total comes to $34.50.”

The woman was confused by this and she said, “Didn’t you tell me that the rod and reel were on sale for twenty dollars?  How did you get $34.50?”

“Yes ma’am, the rod and reel are only twenty dollars, but the duck call is eleven dollars and the Catfish bait is another three fifty.”

  The woman paid the bill and left without a word.

I got a lot of laughs on that one so I decided to try another.

“Murphy showed up at Mass one Sunday and the priest almost fell down when he saw him.  Murphy had never been to church in his life.  After Mass the priest caught up with Murphy and said:

“Murphy I am so glad that you decided to come to Mass.  What made you come?”

“I got to be honest with you Father.  A while back I misplaced me hat and I really loved that hat.  I know that McGlynn had a hat just like mine and that he comes to church every Sunday.  I also knew that he had to take his hat off during Mass and I figured that he would leave his hat in the back of the church.  So I was going to leave after Communion and steal McGlynn’s hat.

The priest said, “Well Murphy, I notice that you didn’t steal McGlynn’s hat so what changed your mind?”

“After I heard your sermon on the Ten Commandments I decided that I didn’t need to steal the hat after all.”

With a tear in his eye the priest gave Murphy a big smile and said, “After I talked about “Thou Shalt Not Steal” you decided that you would rather do without your hat than burn in hell, eh?”

“No Father, after you talked about Thou Shalt Not Commit Adultery” I remembered where I left my hat.”

That seemed to get a good laugh so I was emboldened to try some more.

“I’ve got some fight stories I’d like to share with you.  My wife sat down on the couch next to me while I was sitting there flipping through the channels.  “What’s on TV” she asked.  “Dust” I said and then the fight started.

My wife was hinting about what she wanted for our upcoming anniversary.  She said “I want something shiny that goes from zero to 150 in about three seconds.”

I bought her a bathroom scale and then the fight started.

And lastly, Saturday morning I got up early, quietly dressed, made my lunch, grabbed the dog and slipped quietly into the garage.  I hooked the boat up to the truck and proceeded to back out of the garage into a torrential downpour.

The wind was blowing fifty miles an hour so I pulled back into the garage, turned on the radio and discovered that the weather was going to be bad all day.  I went back into the house and quietly undressed and slipped back into bed.  I cuddled up to my wife’s back now with a different anticipation and whispered:

“The weather out there is terrible.”

My loving wife of ten years replied, “I know.  Can you believe that my stupid husband is out there fishing in that?”

And that’s how the fight started.”

I got a lot of laughs, but the biggest thing for me was the kick I got from standing up in front of everyone and performing.  I liked it so much that I started doing it almost every open mike night.  It got to the point where Bobby would say something like:

“I see that Wally Meyers is here tonight.  Got anything you would like to share with us Wally?”

I always did.  I didn’t write or make up my own jokes, but I did search them out and then used the ones I really liked.  It wasn’t always good.  Some times a joke I liked enough to tell was a real stinker as far as the crowd was concerned.  The crowd let me know when they didn’t like a joke, but all that did was make me more determined to make sure that I had them rolling in the aisles the next time.

So from my point of view life was good.  Right up to the night when Julie changed everything.

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It started at the dinner table.  We had just finished eating the meal and were starting on dessert – strawberry shortcake if it matters – when Julie said the seven words that usually cause as man’s asshole to tighten up as he gets ready to hear something that he knows he isn’t going to like.

“Honey, you know I love you right?”

The correct response to that is to get up and run from the room, but the correct response isn’t an acceptable response so I said what was expected of me.

“Of course I do Julie.  You should know that by now.  What brings up the question?”

“I don’t believe I’ve ever mentioned Jake Holder to you.  No reason to really.  He is just a guy who works in my office.  Anyway, Jake is pretty much the office Casanova.  He has dated all the single girls in the office and even a couple of the married ones.  The thing is, according to the girls he has gone out with, he has an extremely large member.  Gail said she measured it and it is eleven inches long.”

“And we are talking about Jake’s huge member at our dinner table because?”

She was silent for a couple of seconds and then she said, “The thing is that it’s my turn.”

“Your turn to what?”

“To go out with Jake.  He wants me to have dinner with him Friday.”

I just stared at her.  After several seconds I said, “Having dinner with him is a euphemism for fucking him right?”

She looked away and didn’t answer.

“So let me get this straight.  You are telling me about this because you intend to do it or you are bringing it up to see if I will give you permission?  Which is it Julie?”

She wouldn’t look at me as she said, “It won’t hurt us Wally.  It would only be the one time and it would only be sex.  There wouldn’t be any love or affection involved.  I love you and I would never leave you for anyone else.  I would just be satisfying my curiosity.”

“And what curiosity would that be?”

“I’ve never had a really big one.”

“I can’t believe this.”

“I swear it won’t hurt us Wally.  It never did any of the other times.”

“Other times?  You have been cheating on me?”

“I mean before we got married.  Every time we broke up it was so I could satisfy my curiosity and once I’d satisfied it I always came back to you.”

“All those fake arguments were just so you could satisfy a curiosity?  Just for the hell of it why don’t you tell me about them?”

“Why?  They are all in the past.”

“You satisfied your curiosity and now I want to satisfy mine.”

“I don’t want to go there Wally.”

“So what you are saying is that it is okay for you to satisfy your curiosity, but not okay for me to satisfy mine?”

“It isn’t that Wally.  I’m just not all that proud of what I did.”

“And what you did was?”

“I just wanted to try other guys Wally.  I didn’t want to get married and settle down and then wonder what others might have been like.  I decided to satisfy my curiosity while I was still single.  But I always came back to you Wally.  I was always yours.”

“I guess it didn’t work.”

“What didn’t work?”

“Getting all your curiosity out of the way before getting married.”

“I don’t understand.”

“Sure you do Julie.  Here you are, married seven years, and wanting to fuck this Jake guy because you are curious.  You never did answer my question.”

“What question?”

“I asked if you brought it up at the dinner table to ask my permission or if you were telling me what you intended to do.” 

She didn’t answer me.

“Come on Julie; not a hard question.  Are you asking or telling?”

She still wouldn’t look at me as she said, “I might have led him to believe I would have dinner with him.”

“That wasn’t so hard now, was it?”

I got up to leave the table and she asked, “Where are you going?”

“To the bedroom.  I need to move my things into one of the spare bedrooms.  I’ll stay there until I can find an apartment.”

“No Wally, no!”

“Yes Julie, yes.  I told you before we got married that I had a zero tolerance policy where other men were concerned.  I even said that under my policy flirting wasn’t allowed.  You have gone way beyond flirting Julie.  Making a dinner date with the office Romeo because – how did you put it – it was your turn to have his huge cock was way, way over the line.”

“But I didn’t make a dinner date with him.  I just led him to believe that I might be able to.  I wasn’t going to do anything without talking to you first.”

“Bullshit Julie.  If you led him to believe it that tells me that you want to do it and if you want to do it sooner or later you will.  If not at Friday night’s so called dinner then at some other time.  And just where in the hell did you get the idea that you could bring this up to me and I would say, “Oh sure Julie; just go ahead and have a good time.”  What the hell did I ever do to give you that low of an opinion of me?”

“I don’t have a low opinion of you Wally.  I just thought th…”

“No you didn’t Julie.  If you had given it any thought at all you would have known better.  If you had given it any thought you wouldn’t have brought it up and would have gone ahead and cheated on me behind my back.  Well look on the bright side Julie.  I’m out of your life as of now so you are free to go ahead and have your turn with the man with the big member.”

I walked away and left her there, went upstairs and moved into one of the spare bedrooms.

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It took me two days to find an apartment that I liked and for those two days I avoided Julie and her attempts to get me to sit down and talk with her.  The night I moved my stuff out of the house Julie cried and begged me not to leave.  She grabbed my arm and held on to it and tried to pull me back into the house until I shrugged her off and left.

The next morning I hit the bank and cleaned out all of our accounts.  We lived in a no fault state so Julie would get half of everything in a divorce, but there wasn’t going to be a divorce at least not one initiated by me.  We each had our own credit cards so I didn’t have to do anything there.  I’d taken myself away from Julie and that is all that I was going to do.

I moved into my new apartment and into a self inflicted exile.  I was in too rotten a mood to have anything to do with anybody so all I did was go to work and then go home to watch TV or read books I’d gotten from the library.

Julie called me at work two or three times a day, but I never took the calls.  I told Marsha, my secretary, to just tell Julie I wasn’t going to take her calls and to stop calling.  Marsha smiled at me and said:

“If I did that I wouldn’t be able to tease her.”

“Tease her?”

“Last time she called I told her that when you and I were at lunch I’d try to get you to call her.  Yesterday the last call I got from her was around four and I told her that you and I would be stopping for drinks after work and if there was an opening in the conversation I’d mention to you that she was anxious to talk with you.”

“Why would you do something like that?”

“To prepare her for when you and I get together.”

“We are going to get together?”

“We will if I can make it happen.”

“What am I missing here?”

“I’ve wanted you since the day I came to work for you, but you were married and I’m not a home wrecker so I just put you down on the list of things I wanted, but could never have.  Suddenly you and the wife are on the outs so I’m thinking I might just have a chance after all.”

“You are serious?”

“You bet.”

Before we could go any farther the phone rang and Marsha answered it.

“It’s Barton.  He wants to see you in his office.”

As I walked away from her desk I was thinking that I just might give her the chance she wanted.

Besides calling me at work Julie called my cell several times a day, but as with the calls to the office I never took any of them.

We had a security guard on the front desk and he was a good friend of mine.  Danny had gone into the Army right out of high school and had lost a foot to an IED in Iraq.  He was having trouble finding work and I had gotten him the security guard job.  I told him about my split with Julie and that she might attempt to come up to my office and that I didn’t want to see her.  He told me that she wouldn’t get by him and I knew that he meant it.

Three times she tried to get past Danny, but wasn’t able to do it.  Danny even went so far as to watch the parking lot and let me know when she was there waiting for me to get off work.  Being forewarned I was able to avoid her.

Three weeks later I was having lunch at Mario’s with my boss when Julie and a guy came in and took a table up toward the front.  I was sitting in the back and she didn’t see me.  About a minute later two more guys came in and joined Julie.  I knew one of them from her company Christmas parties and picnics and when Sam got up to use the bathroom I got up and followed him in.  Sam recognized me and said hi and I asked him who the guy was that Julie was sitting with.

“His name is Jake Holder.  Why?”

“Just curious.  I don’t really like the way he is looking at her.”

I finished taking my whiz, washed my hands and went back to my table thinking that Julie had hooked up with the guy with the huge cock and satisfied her curiosity.  Sam apparently mentioned seeing me in the men’s room and Julie looked around and spotted me.  Fortunately Barton and I were done and were ready to leave.  Julie got up and headed our way and I told Barton I’d see him back at the office and then I got up and headed for the back door.

Julie caught up with me before I could get out of the restaurant and she grabbed my arm as she said:

“Damn it Wally, talk to me.  I didn’t do anything Wally; honest to God I didn’t do anything.”

“Maybe you didn’t Julie, but then again maybe you did.  I don’t know.  What I do know is that you damned sure wanted to and with me gone there wasn’t anything to stop you.  Why did you get up from your table to chase me?  Isn’t Mr. Huge Member going to be pissed at you for getting up and leaving him there?”

“Jesus Wally; we are only here for lunch.”

“And it was only going to be dinner the last time we talked except we both know that it wasn’t, don’t we.”

I jerked my arm away from her and took off running knowing that she wouldn’t come running after me while wearing high heels.

That was the last time I’d seen her until she had shown up at the strip that night.  We had one more drink at the Red Fox and then the guys took me home.

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The next day at eleven-thirty Marsha came into my office and said, “I think you should take me to lunch and we can talk about what we want to do tomorrow night.”

“Tomorrow night?”

“It is Friday and Friday night is party night.”

“So?”

“I told you that we would be getting together if I could make it happen and since you haven’t made any attempt I decided that it was going to be up to me.”

“Have you forgotten that I’m a married man?”

“Who is not living with his wife and who won’t take her phone calls or have anything to do with her?”

“I’m sill married and until I’m not I will honor the vows I took at my wedding. A little old fashioned maybe, but that’s the way I’m wired.”

“You can still take me to lunch and we can talk and get to know each other better so when you are single again we will have a good idea of whether or not we want to take things farther.”

It was an enjoyable lunch and I learned enough about Marsha that I would indeed be interested – very interested – in seeing her when I started dating again.

I survived the weekend with the help of Ben, Dave and Chuck.  We played golf on Saturday and went out bar hopping that night.  Sunday I took care of all the housekeeping chores like cleaning the apartment, doing my laundry and grocery shopping.

I took Marsha to lunch again on Monday and was in a pretty good mood when I got home from work.  The good mood only lasted until I got out of my car and saw Julie sitting on the front steps of my apartment.

“How in the hell did you find me?”

“I followed you home from work last Thursday.  I sit out here in the lot most nights trying to work up the nerve to ring your doorbell.”

“You had nerve enough to tell me that you were going to fuck another man and that took a hell of a lot more nerve than ringing a doorbell.  Why the hell are you here Julie?”

“I’m here to beg you to come home.  My life sucks without you Wally.  I need you.”

“You need me?  What happened to Mr. Huge Member?”

“There was nothing going on with me and Jake.”

“So seeing you at lunch with him and seeing you come into the Strip with him were just figments of my imagination?”

“In the first place I wasn’t having lunch with Jake.  I was having lunch with Sam, Alex, Mary Ellen, Alice and Jake.  Mary and Alice just hadn’t shown up yet.  Secondly I was not out on a date with Jake that night at the Landing Strip.  You wouldn’t take my phone calls and you were ducking me at work so I asked people that we know to call me whenever they saw you some place.  Alma Beeker called me and told me that you were at the Landing Strip and I called Jake and arranged for him to meet me there and then we were going to talk to you.  Jake was there to tell you that nothing had happened between us.  Honest to God Wally, nothing happened.”

“That’s not the problem Julie.  The problem is that you wanted it to happen.  The problem is that you had so low an opinion of me that you even harbored the thought that I’d just smile and tell you to go ahead and have fun.  All our time together and you don’t know me any better than that?”

“Okay. I’ll admit to some fuzzy thinking and yes I wanted to, but not behind your back.  I told you that Jake had done most of the single girls and two of the married ones right?  Glenda was one of the married ones and one morning during our coffee break Jean asked Glenda how she could cheat on her husband with Jake.  Glenda said she didn’t cheat.  She told her husband about Jake and said she wished that she would have had a chance at trying out a big cock before she got married and settled down.  Her husband asked her if she loved him and she told him of course she did and then he told her to go ahead and play with Jake, but make damned sure that she came home to him.

“I thought about that for a couple of days and then I decided that it wouldn’t hurt us if I brought up the subject and sounded you out on it.  You know damned well that I love you and would never leave you.  I know you love me – at least you did until that night – and I was going to see if you would let me go and play like Glenda’s husband let her.  You got up and stormed out before I could make my case.”

“And just what was your case?”

“That it would only be sex to satisfy my curiosity.  That it wouldn’t change how I felt about you.  I wasn’t going to do it unless you were okay with it.”

“That’s bullshit Julie.  You had already set up a meeting for Friday night.”

“No I didn’t.  I led him to believe that I would, but I told him that it all depended on you.  I told him that if you did what Glenda’s husband did I would have dinner with him.  I did lead him to believe that you would probably go along with it, but I wouldn’t commit until I knew for sure.”

“You led him to believe I would go along with it?”

“I had hopes Wally.  You knew about all I’d done before we got married and you married me anyway.  I had hopes that you loved me enough and were secure enough in our love for each other that you might have told me to go ahead and enjoy myself and hurry home.”

“And just suppose I did Julie.  What would happen then?  What if this Jake character and his huge member turned you on so much that you would be willing to throw your marriage into the trash just so you could stay with him?”

“I’d never do that Wally.  How could you even think of such a thing?”

“That’s one of the problems Julie.  I don’t know that you would never do such a thing.  Neither do you. You say that you have never had a big cock so how do you know how you would react?  Another problem is how would things be with us if you did do it.  I’d be making love to you never knowing if you were wishing it was Jake or not.  Never knowing if you were imaging it being Jake fucking you.  Never knowing if you would rather be with Jake instead of there with me.  Wondering if I was able to satisfy you after you had tried a big one.  Never knowing if you were faking orgasms because my cock just didn’t do it for you any more after having Jake’s big one in you.

“You can pooh-pooh those things all you want Julie, but the fact of the matter is that you can’t know for sure.  If any of those things happened it would change the marriage Julie.  It would change it in ways we have no idea about.  Think about this Julie.  I have curiosity also.  My secretary has a marvelous looking ass and I’ve often wondered about what it would be like to tap it.  What if I did and she was so damned good that I decided to stick with her rather than come home to you?  Or what if I did it and then came home to you.  Would you wonder if it was you I was making love to or would you wonder if I was thinking of Marsha?”

“I’d scratch the bitch’s eyes out!”

“Whoa up there Julie.  You are trying to convince me that fucking Jake would be okay and that it wouldn’t hurt us, but me doing the same thing would have you going after Marsha?  Got some idea now of how I feel?”

“All of this talk is just wasting time Wally.  I haven’t done Jake and I’m not going to do Jake.  Yes I wanted to, but not at the cost of losing you.  Please Wally, come home to me.  Please.”

“I don’t know Julie.  I just don’t know.  You have put the thoughts I’m having in my head and I doubt that they will ever go away”

“What thoughts?”

“Now that you know my position I’m thinking that the next time your curiosity rears its ugly head you won’t bring it up.  You will just go ahead and do it behind my back and trust that I will never find out.  I don’t think you want to live a life where I’m constantly watching you and what you do to see if maybe you are doing something you shouldn’t be doing.”

“I’ll just have to make sure that you always know where I am and what I am doing.”

“That just works against you Julie.  I’ll be wondering what you are doing that you are working so hard to hide.  What you did Julie was kill my trust in you and you can never get it back.  There will always be something that happens that will make me wonder.  A simple thing like a flat tire on the way home from work that makes you later then usual.  Was it really a flat tire or did you stop at a motel for a quickie with Jake?  Or maybe not even a motel, but a quickie on a desk at work after every one else has left the office.  Even if you take me out to the car and show me the flat tire in the trunk I’d wonder if you let the air out just to give you cover.  That’s what life would be like for you Julie.”

“I can live with it Wally as long as I’m with you.”

“The problem Julie is that I don’t know that I can live like that.”

“We have to try Wally.  Please.  We have to try.”

“I don’t know Julie; it is something that I will have to think on.”

“Please Wally; I’m begging you.”

“No promises Julie, but I will think on it and give you a call some time next week.”

“Next week?  But…”

“Next week Julie.  Take it or leave it!”

She was crying when she got in her car and left, but I didn’t feel sorry for her since she brought it on her self.

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I did think on it and I thought on it long and hard and in the end I decided to give it a try.  Did Julie try on Jake while we were apart?  I don’t know and barring a confession from either of the parties involved I would never know, but the one thing I did know was that I was going to be watching Julie very closely.  One of the things that I did know about Julie is that she never gave up on what she wanted.

After putting things back together Julie did just what she said she would.  She made sure that I knew where she was and with who.  She was home from work on time every night and she even went so far as to ask me to go with her every time she went shopping and I did go with her occasionally.  Just often enough to get her acclimated to the idea that I would go likely as not so that she could never set up a meeting with Jake to take place on her shopping excursions.

As I said, one of the things that I knew about Julie was her determination.  I knew that once she gets it in her head that she wants something or wants to do something she will most likely work to get it.  She may have already had ‘her turn’ with Jake’s huge cock, but it was possible that due to the emotional upheaval I put her through by walking out on her that she backed off.  Now that she had me back and was feeling a little more secure would she go ahead?  Or maybe she already had tasted what Jake had to offer and wanted more.  If so she would have to do it during working hours or maybe on long lunches.

It was expensive, but Julie paid for it in a way even if she didn’t know it.  Only fair since she was the one who started things.  I had a savings account that Julia didn’t know about.  For years I’d put money in it every payday and it was going to be used for a surprise cruise on our tenth anniversary, but I pulled the money out and used it to hire Spenser Investigations to watch Julie at work.  That wasn’t as hard as it sounds.  They didn’t have to stay on her the entire day.  They were outside the building watching for Julie from a half an hour before her lunch time until a half an hour after and if she never came out for lunch they discontinued surveillance for the day.  If she came out they followed her.  They did this until they were able to get someone into the building as part of the cleaning crew and bug Julie’s work area and Jake’s work area and then all they had to do was monitor the bugs.

It was three weeks after I had moved back into the house before Julie felt that she could make her move.  It didn’t come as a surprise because of the office bugs.  Typical of the stuff the bugs came up with were:

On a Tuesday.

Jake – “You about ready sweet stuff?”

Julie – “Not yet stud.  I still need to get back into hubby’s good

             graces.”

Jake – “I’ll hang in and wait sugar.  I know you will be worth it.”

On a Friday.

Jake – “It’s been a week sugar.”

Julie – “Just one more lover.  Hubby is starting to get comfy around

             me again.”

Jake – “Lets just do it.  Wait until everyone is gone tonight and we

            can get it on.”

Julie – “Where?”

Jake – “On a desk.  Hell, on the copy machine so we can take a

             picture.”

Julie – “Hell no Jake.  No pictures.  Nothing that can ever get out.

              Besides, I want to do it on a bed.  Plan on a long lunch

              toward the end of next week.”

Jake – “Why next week?”

Julie – “Because that is when my period is due and I’ll have an

             excuse for why I can’t make love to Wally.  I need that

             excuse because if you stretch me out the way the other

             girls said you stretched them and Wally made love to me he

             would know right away that I’d been bad and I can’t have

              that.”

Wednesday a week later.

Julie – “Plan on a long lunch tomorrow lover.”

Jake – “How long?”

Julie – “We leave an hour early and come back an hour and a half

            late.  That gives us two and a half hours.  Set it up so we

             don’t have to waste any time checking in.”

Jake – “You got it sweetie.  How many condoms should I bring?”

Julie – “None.  I’m on the pill and I want the full experience of your

             juices flooding me.”

Forearmed with the knowledge of when it was going to happen Spenser had the people in place to follow Jake and Julie when they went to lunch.  The two were followed to the downtown Marriott where they went up to the third floor and entered room 316 and they were in the room for two hours and fifteen minutes.

According to the operative from Spenser’s Julie did not look happy when she came out of the room although Holder had a smug satisfied look on his.  The office bug gave us the story on that.  The following is a conversation that took place between Julie and Glenda who is one of the women that Julie works with.

“Go away Glenda.  I don’t want to talk to you right now.”

“Why not?  You should be in a mellow mood after your long lunch with Jake.”

“Mellow?  The man’s a fucking pig!  I can’t for the life of me imagine how all of you could tell me how great sex with him was.”

“He is pretty bad isn’t he.”

“You knew?  You knew but told me he was great?  You hate me that much?”

“I don’t hate you at all, but you did manage to piss off Joan and me.”

“How did I do that?”

“Looking down your nose at us because we were married and we gave it up to Jake.”

“I didn’t look down my nose at you.  I was envious for Christ’s sake.”

“It didn’t look that way to us.  Anyway, we decided to push you along until you did it with him too.  It wasn’t hard.  All we had to do was talk up how great it was and how it was a once in a lifetime experience and stuff like that.”

“Everyone in the office was in on it?  All of you were lying about how great the dick head was?”

“Not all of us.  Just me and Joan.  The single girls haven’t had much experience so to them a poke from a big cock was something.  We could tell from the look on your face as you listened how much you would have liked to have the experience, but we never expected that you would do it because everyone here knows how hooked you are on your hubby.  We decided to try and push you into it.”

“Thanks a lot.  You got me to risk my marriage for a shit head who isn’t even as good as my cheapest vibrator.  I did learn one thing though.  Size isn’t worth shit when it is hanging on some one who doesn’t know how to use it.”

“You mean you aren’t going to play some more with him?  You are going to turn your back on all that fun?”

“Fuck you Glenda!”

And then there was the sound of laughter as Glenda walked away.  A short time later there was another short conversation.

“What do you want Joan?”

“I came to apologize.  It was a rotten thing to do and I just needed to tell how sorry I am for being part of it.

“Apology accepted.  In a way you did me a favor.”

“What favor?”

“You showed me that even though the grass looks greener on the other side of the fence it is probably full of weeds.  I’ve got solid gold in Wally and I’m never again going to risk what I have in him.  Never!”

“I feel the same way.  I was stupid to risk what I have with Avery over the greener grass that wasn’t.”

Well, there it was – decision time.

She had gone ahead, cheated and satisfied her curiosity, but it hadn’t turned out the way she had expected.  In her conversations with the girls in the office she admitted that she had stupidly risked her marriage and she did seem sincere in her feelings for me.  I loved her, always had, but could I live with knowing that she had been unfaithful?

 She said she would never again risk it, but would she hold to that or would curiosity rear its ugly head again?  She was curious about holder’s big cock and it hadn’t turned out well.  What if she somehow stumbled across another guy with a huge cock?  Would she wonder if maybe he knew how to use better than Holder had?  Would her curiosity drive her to try and find out?

I had no way of knowing.  I also couldn’t afford to have her watched full time.  Was I willing to take the chance?  That was the question.  Was I willing to take the chance.  After much thought and soul searching I decided to keep what I’d found out to myself and give Julie the chance to prove herself.  I put the material I had in a safe place and hoped that I’d never have to take it out and drop it on Julie.

I worked out a deal with the Spenser people o leave the office bugs in place and send me a tape of the week’s conversations that took place in her work area.  It cost me a hundred bucks a month, but I felt that it was worth it.  Some time on the Internet and a trip to Wal-Mart gave me what I needed to put a recorder on our home phone.  It might have been a waste of money, but to my mind “Trust, but verify” was still a valid position to take.

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It was a Wednesday night and there was a group of us at the Strip sitting at two tables pushed together.  Ben, Dave, Chuck and their wives and Julie and me.

There were some in the place watching out table with curiosity on their faces and I assumed that they had been in the place the night I had put the spotlight on Julie and were wondering at our being together.

Up on the bandstand Bobby Denton was announcing that it was time for anyone in the audience that wanted it to try to come on up and take the mike.  Julie nudged me and said:

“Go on Wally.  You owe them the ending to the joke you were telling the night that Jake and I walked in.”

There was a chorus of “Go ahead and do it Wally” from those at the table so I got up and headed for the bandstand.  As Bobby handed me the mike he asked:

“You aren’t going to melt down on me his time are you?”

“No sweat Bobby.  Everything is cool.”

I took the mike and said, “I was reminded that I owe those of you who were here the last time I was up here an ending for the joke I was telling when I lost it in a fit of temper and anger.  There are undoubtedly patrons here tonight who weren’t here on that night so the ending wouldn’t make any sense to them so I’m going o have to tell it from start to finish.

“Jesus and Satan were having an on-going argument over who was better on the computer.  They had been going at it for days and frankly God was tired of the bickering.  Finally fed up God said:

“That’s it!  I have had enough.  I am going to set up a test that will run for two hours and from the results of that test I will judge who does the better job.”

So Jesus and Satan sat down at their keyboards and typed away.

They moused.

They faxed.

They e-mailed.

The e-mailed with attachments. 

They downloaded. 

They did spreadsheets.

They wrote reports. 

They created labels and cards.

They created charts and graphs.

They did some genealogy searching.

They did everything that you can do on a computer.

Then, ten minutes before their time was up lightening suddenly flashed through the sky, thunder rolled, rain poured and, of course, the power went down.

Satan stared at his screen and screamed out every cuss word known in the underworld.

Jesus just sighed.

Finally the power came back on and each of them restarted their computers.  Satan started searching frantically while screaming:

“It’s gone.  It’s all gone.  I lost everything when the power went out.”

Meanwhile Jesus quietly started printing out all of his files from the past two hours of work.  Satan observed this and became irate.

“Wait” he screamed.  “That’s not fair.  He cheated.  How come he has all his work and I don’t have any?”

God just shrugged and said “You should know the answer to that.  It is on bumper stickers on half the cars in the world.”

Satan looked at God with confusion on his face and God said:

“JESUS SAVES.”