Title: Danny's Hope
Author: JD Kinder
keywords: mb, nosex, medical

This was my first attempt at writing a story by myself.  It's
never been posted publicly before.  I came across a copy and
decided to post it as part of my rebirth to writing here on
ASSTR.org.

"Danny's Hope" aka "My First Defib Story"
By JD Kinder

Joey and Cole were the best of friends. They had known each other
a long time. When Cole was younger he experienced a near-death
experience and almost didn't make it back. Since then he had
wished to share the same type of experience with Joey.
Unfortunately the closest Joey had ever come to something like
that was watching the movie Flatliners. The two discussed over
and over how Joey could experience it. Frankly Joey wasn't really
keen about getting it done to him. It actually scared him very
much but also turned him on a lot at the same time for some
reason. He did like the idea of playing the "doctor" more than
the "patient". Getting the equipment and drugs was no big deal as
Cole's live-in lover David was a pediatrician and they were
transfers into the nursing program at the children's hospital,
and had easy access to all that cool medical stuff.

Now all they had to do was find a patient to play with. It would
have to be someone willing, trusting, and a little afraid to die.
The only people they knew like that were the sick kids they saw
daily at the hospital. It was like a light bulb went off in their
heads but would David be willing to help them and go along with
this crazy scheme. Of course he would; especially if it was a
"boy" patient as all three men were secretly boylovers, although
none of them had ever acted on it.

After speaking with David they decided on an 8-year-old old boy
named Danny. Prior to being admitted to the children's hospitals
oncology unit under the care of Dr. David, little Danny had been
the picture of perfect health: a blazing redhead with the fairest
snow white skin and bright blue eyes and a chest with two
dime-sized nipples and belly button like no other. Unfortunately
little Danny wasn't doing so well now. He had an inoperable brain
tumor and the chemo and radiation had ravaged his little body to
the breaking point. He was basically spending every last moment
waiting to die.

Unlike the other sick kids it was a death he freely accepted and
begged for in his nightly prayers to God and his dead parents. 
Sadly, unlike the other sick kids, the only visitors he ever got
to his bedside was the occasional doting grandma of another
patient across the room or Dr. Dave, Dr Dave's boyfriend Cole,
and Joey. Oh how Danny wished he had a "boyfriend" and the
extra-special prayer he asked every night to his mommy and daddy
in heaven was that it was Joey. He adored the nice man who had
shown him more kindness and love in his short life than he could
ever remember. When he was lying there sick as a dog from the
treatments it was Joey that held up his weakened body while he
puked anything and everything into the metal bedpan. Joey had
ditched the small emission basin on day one when Danny had
covered himself in puke without even trying. Unlike the big ward
nurse, who looked and acted like a female Rambo, this little
4'11" man didn't balk away in disgust when it happened. He just
gently pulled the curtain around the bed and quietly helped Danny
out of his pj's while whispering soft words of encouragement to
him. Then he gave him a wonderful spongebath before getting him
into a nice clean set of pj's.

A few hours after making plans for "Operation: Danny" the trio
visits him in the hospital.  Danny is lying in bed trying
desperately to hold up the comic book he's been unable to read
for over a week when Dr. Dave, Cole, and Joey enter the room.
They've decided to take him for ice cream and to explain their
plan to him. After wheeling Danny down to the cafeteria for soft
serve, with Joey spooning it into his mouth and wiping the
corners with a napkin as he has no strength to do it himself. 
When he is finished with his treat they bring him to Dr. Dave's
office for "the talk". They explain their plan to experiment with
stopping and restarting his heart as kid-friendly as they can.
They even show him clips from the movie Flatliners on youtube and
lots of clips on a site called Defib Kids in the hopes it will
convince him to go along with it. Surprisingly Danny is eager to
try this experiment. He tells them he's always liked watching
this kind of stuff on TV but never saw it in real life. Even
though he had witnessed a few close-calls on the ward, no one had
ever expired in front of him.

Danny secretly hopes his friends plan to bring him to the point
of death and back doesn't fully succeed. If this is the answer to
his prayers then he's going to take it.  He does feel a little
sad that he has to keep this secret wish from them, especially
Joey, but it's his only chance at peace.

The plan is to take Danny out of the hospital under the watch of
Dr. Dave and bring him to the house for a short visit.  With him
being an orphan and in the end stage of brain cancer it was easy
to get the ok from the hospital and orphanage, as well as get a
gurney, EKG, defib, drugs, oxygen, and any other supplies for his
more-than-likely short stay with the pediatrician.

After setting up all the equipment in the little guest bedroom
Joey asks Danny once again if he is ok doing this.  Danny weakly
nods and tries to give him a thumbs up.  Joey gently lifts him
out of the wheelchair and up onto the gurney before taking off
the little boys pj's.  When Joey gets down to his green dinosaur
cartoon undies Danny asks him to remove them as well.  When all
three men protest Danny's response is they might need IV access
or something during the resus part.

Unbeknownst to them, Danny has learned their secret about being
boylovers.  When your sick and dying in a hospital bed you see
and hear things better than a CIA agent.  Seeing this will
hopefully be his last few minutes on Earth he wants to give them
the only thank you gift he can: leaving this world as naked as
the day he was born.

The group has decided the easiest and safest way to do this is to
put Danny under using a general anesthetic, use a cooling blanket
to slow his bodies metabolism and heart rate, and then use a
defibrillator shock to stop his heart completely. They decided
the four-minute mark is when they will reverse the cardiac
arrest.

Joey lovingly places EKG electrodes on his chest, Dr. Dave
inserts an IV into his arm to administer drugs, and Cole places a
black rubber anestesia mask over his face. Looking down at him
Dr. Dave notices the lack of fear in the boys eyes, unlike so
many children he's taken to the operating room, and gives the boy
a quick smile and a knowing nod. He's spent enough time with this
child to know he wants to die more than anything. He silently
prays this will be that time.

As Danny slowly falls asleep he can feel the cold of the cooling
blanket covering him and a slight stinging in his arm from the
IV. He's anxious to feel the cool defib gel on his chest and the
metal paddles that will finally signal the end to all his pain
and suffering. He wonders if he'll still be awake when it
happens.

After the anesthetic has taken effect and his heart has started
slowing down, Joey squirts lots of defib gel all over Danny's
chest and abdomen, charges the defib paddles up to a kid-friendly
dosage of 200 joules and gently places them on the boys chest. 
He starts to wonder if this is still a good idea.  Then he
remembers the night after one of Danny's bad days. Danny had to
be given a heavy sedative to make him sleep after it while Joey
just sat there next to his bed silently praying to God to end the
boys misery.  He realizes God has given him that chance.  Without
a second thought he pushes the buttons on the two paddles sending
200 joules across Danny's chest and stopping his heartbeat for
the last time.

As Danny's body relaxes completely Joey witnesses a smile on the
boys face for the first time since he met him. The EKG now shows
a solid steady line. Over the next couple minutes the EEG also
slows down but for some unknown reason doesn't stop completely,
making Danny dead but not braindead.

At the four-minute mark Cole grabs the ambu bag and starts
squeezing oxygen back into Danny's lungs, Dr. Dave pushes epi
through the IV to stimulate the boys heart while Joey places both
hands on the center of Danny's chest and starts pushing hard and
fast. After a few  minutes the EEG machine starts slowly making
more wavy lines but the EKG is still asystole. Dr. Dave now
starts injecting lidocaine and any other drug he can think of in
the hopes of getting the boy into a shockable rhythm.  He even
tells Joey to get out of the way while he jams a needle directly
into Danny's heart. After another couple rounds of CPR they look
at the EKG monitor and finally see course vfib on it. Joey once
again puts the paddles back on little Danny's chest and charges
the paddles to 200 joules. After calling "Clear!" and pushing the
buttons little Danny's body jerks up off the gurney only to fall
back down motionless.  The EKG monitor still showing vfib.  It
didn't work.

Over the next hour they continue to do the same steps over and
over on little Danny even though it looks hopeless they will ever
get him back. Dr. Dave tells Joey that after one last shock he's
going to call time of death.  "The boy would've wanted it that
way and you know it."  Joey looks stunned at his friend. He knew
it was the truth but now he couldn't accept in his heart what he
had started out to do. He didn't want this little boy to die like
this after all. He wanted him to live and spend what natural time
he had left with him.

"Come on Danny! You've got to come back! I love you." Joey shouts
as he charges the paddles for what seems like the hundredth time,
and places them on the boys gelled chest for what will be the
last time. He pushes the buttons. This time little Danny's body
seems like it's stopped in slow motion as his chest arches up off
the gurney before falling back still.

After a few seconds the EKG monitor starts slowly beeping: 1 beep
- 2 beeps - 3 beeps, until the boys heart starts going faster and
faster. Just as it reaches a normal rate for a boy his age
Danny's eyes slowly flutter open and he looks around at Cole and
Dr. Dave before fixing his eyes on Joey.

Danny reaches out and grabs Joeys hand. He turns his head and
looks into his eyes, weakly smiles and whispers, "Joey, it, it
doesn't hurt any more. Mommy and Daddy took the pain away. Did
you really mean it when you said you loved me?  Mommy and Daddy
said you did."

Stunned, Joey smiles back cupping Danny's hand. "Of course I did
Danny. I love you with all my heart." He bends down and kisses
him on the forehead.  Danny smiles and a single tear rolls down
his face. His tiny hand relaxes in Joey's hand....

The EKG monitor goes off signaling the boy was back in vfib. 
Joey goes to grab the paddles but Dr. Dave and Cole both shake
their heads no.

With tears in his eyes, Joey lifts Danny off the gurney and into
his arms hugging and kissing him goodbye.

-The End

***

Here is Character Bios I wrote after I had initially finished
writing this story.  My idea was to use them to flesh the story
out more and make it better.  Even though I never changed my
original story, the characters and a slight retelling of their
story became the foundation for including them into my First
Times story that I wrote with my co-author Pope.  The only big change was Danny was renamed Nate in First Times.

Dr. David - age 50

A kindly pediatric surgeon whose been witness to both a sick boy
named Danny's prayer to God to die and end his suffering along
with his friend Joey's prayer for God to also end Danny's
suffering. He also hears the boys secret prayer to his Mommy and
Daddy that his favorite nurse, Joey, who is also a housemate of
Dr. David's, was also his boyfriend and [maybe] also hears Danny
secretly wants Joey to be the one to end his suffering because
he's been so loving and kind to him since the upchuck incident. 
Dr. Dave then secretly devises a plan with his boyfriend Cole to
help the boy die peacefully and maybe get a boyfriend to boot.

Cole - age 33?

Dr. David's boyfriend and longtime friend to Joey.  He is also a
surgical prep/post-op nurse at the children's hospital, which is
how Dr. David and him hooked up.  After Dr. Dave tells him of
little Danny's wishes for a boyfriend and to die he asks him for
ideas to make it happen.  They come up with the idea for a spoof
of Flatliners and have Cole sell it to Joey as a way he can
experience an NDE like Cole had when he was younger knowing Joey
wouldn't do that, thereby making it easy to swap in Danny as the
"patient" instead.

Joey - age 37

Longtime friend to Cole.  He is a nurse who works on the wards
taking care of the sick kids.  His small size makes it easier for
the kids to accept him as a nurse and caregiver.  He loves his
job but can't stand seeing the kids suffering, especially those
who are terminal like the little Danny, whom he's grown very
attached to since the boy was admitted almost a year ago.  He is
unaware of the true plan for "Operation Danny" but decides at the
last moment to also use it to end the boys suffering.

Danny - age 8

A redhead with beautiful creamy white skin, dime-sized nipples
and a belly button like no other.  He is also a book nerd and
very aware of things.  At the age of 5 he lost his parents in a
boating accident that almost took his life to.  Both his mommy
and daddy were only childs whose parents had had them late in
life, so neither of his surviving grandparents were able to take
care of him properly so he entered the CPS system and ended up in
an orphanage that wasn't so bad.  Around age 7 little Danny
started having severe headaches and blurry vision.  Tests showed
he had a golf-ball (or baseball) sized tumor in in his skull that
was pressing on his optic nerves.  He went from living in the
orphanage to living in the hospital 24/7.  Because of where the
tumor was located Dr. Dave decided it wouldn't be possible to
remove it surgically without causing more harm to the boy even if
he was successful. Dr. Dave was sad he couldn't fix it but hoped
that chemotherapy and radiation would shrink it enough to release
the pressure inside his skull enough to at least give the boy
some relief while he waited for the end to come.  An end they all
feel hasn't come quick enough.  He's also grown very fond of his
primary caregiver Joey since the now infamous upchuck incident
and wishes he was his boyfriend in his nightly prayers to mommy
and daddy.