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 Growing up gay in the Deep South in the 80's wasn't exactly a walk in the
park...  although walking in the park seemed to always yield an interesting
experience.  Let me tell you a little bit about myself.

   First, my name is Patrick.  I'm now 26, good looking, hard body, long
light brown/dirty blond hair, and blue eyes.  When I work at it, I can pass
as a woman as I passed for a girl when I was a lot younger.  I still do
that when I visit the big cities up north.  Aside from my years in medical
school in Memphis, I've lived in Mississippi all my life and probably
always will.  I'm a medical intern right now, practicing emergency room
medicine.  It's hectic as hell, demanding as fuck, and I love every minute
of it.

   My life has been a roller coaster.  When I was five years old, I saw my
first naked boy that I can recall.  It was my cousin, Jerry.  He was eight
and to me, he was an Adonis...  slender body, muscled arms, and his little
dick wasn't so little and it was always hard.  Being an only child of a
single mother (Dad didn't come home from some needless war), I stayed with
my aunt and uncle during the week so Jerry and I slept together.  His room
was filled with boy stuff - model planes, cars...  boy toys.  Every night,
we bathed together, the highlight of my day because we could be naked
together.

   Just before my sixth birthday, Jerry did something he'd never done
before.  We were splashing around in the bath tub, sort of wrestling in the
warm water.  He grabbed my little dick and held on to it.  At first I
thought he was going to pinch me or something but he didn't, He just held
on to it.  I felt it get hard.  He jerked his hand back and said, "Jeez,
cuz.  I'm sorry.  I didn't mean to do that."

   I was puzzled.  If he didn't mean to do it, then why did he do it? 
"It's OK, Jer.  You kin touch it if'n you wants." The instant that came out
of my mouth he kissed me.  Put one hand behind my head and held his soft
lips to mine and really kissed me.

   "Oh, jeez, cuz.  I just love you so fuckin much.  I caint help it." He
brought his young lips back to mine and again wrapped his little hand
around my dick.  I knew we were in love.  I yielded myself to him, wrapped
my arms around his slender body and melted into him.

   "Oh my god, Jer.  I love you so much I caint stand it.  I don't never
want to be away from you." Two little boys had found each other.  Child
lovers and no one would come between us but we knew nothing about sex.  All
we knew was we were fascinated with each other's dicks and we liked
kissing. In fact, we became kissing specialists.  That night we said good
night to Aunt Jenny and Uncle Frank and went straight to bed.  I'm
surprised they didn't suspect something as we usually fought bedtime.  But
we couldn't wait to be alone in bed.

   "Cuz, I gotta tell you.  I been in love with you forever." He paused and
thought about what he just said.  "No, that ain't all.  I'm crazy about
you. I caint get yon outta my mind.  I thinks about you alla the time.  I
don't just love you, cuz.  I am in love with you." I shut him up with my
mouth, our kissing rapidly developed into deep passionate kissing.  Two
little boys wearing little boy underwear, snuggled wrapped around each
other beneath clean sheets, humping each other without understanding why.

   "Jer, you my hero.  I loves you as much as you loves me, maybe more. 
You walk through my dreams at night.  I watch you walk, I listen when you
talk.  I love you, Jer.  You my hero." I reached for the dick I'd wanted to
touch forever and wrapped my hand around it.  "Kin we take off out
underwear and be naked together?"

   "Cuz, we gonna gits married when we be old enough.  You gonna be my wife
and I gonna be your husband." I felt thrills run through my body.  Jer
would be my husband.  I would be his wife.  We could be together forever. I
don't know why I did it but I scooted under him, spread my legs and wrapped
them around him.  It would be two years before I understood my instincts. I
do remember we became kissing specialists that night.  It was pretty much
the limit of what we knew.  And the kisses between us grew from tight
lipped touching to open mouth tongue and spit swapping kisses before long.
We really got into it.

   Instincts do sometimes take over.  Jer moved down, started kissing my
chest, lightly sucking on my little nipples.  I responded by arching my
back and letting him have his way with me.  I wanted anything he would give
me.  But when he kissed farther down, I had no idea what he was about to do
until I felt his mouth on my little 3 inch dick.  All I knew was that I
liked it.  I had no idea what to expect and when he took it in his mouth I
thought I had just gone to heaven.  Jer had my dick in his mouth!  My
little 5 year old dick in the mouth of my hero 8 year old cousin.  It never
dawned on me that this was anything but perfect and all was right in my
world.

   His mouth was warm, his tongue felt wonderful as he licked my little
dick, his hands now cupping my little butt cheeks as he pulled me tightly
into him.  I spread my legs wide to give him room to suck me.  I thought he
would never stop and I didn't want him to except I now wanted to do the
same to him.  I pulled his head back up to meet mine as we kissed again.

   "Jer, I gotta do that to you." He flipped over on his back and accepted
what I wanted.  I didn't waste time on his chest or tummy, I went straight
for his bigger dick, sucking it into my mouth hungrily.  I was a natural at
it and as soon as it entered my mouth I knew this was my calling for life.
I was a cocksucker.

   Jer and I made out and sucked each other every night for the next month,
neither of us really experiencing orgasm but the thrill of the pleasure we
had was enough for us.  We were too young to know what we were missing. 
But then my Mother got a job offer that took us from that little town two
hours away to the big city of Jackson, the state capital.  I was
devastated. I'd lost my husband who had just begun learning how to kiss my
little asshole.  We'd come so close to fucking.  On the threshold of it,
but then yanked away from each other.  Somehow I had to let my mother know
what she had done to me.  I should have kept my mouth shut.

   "You WHAT?" The beating I got felt like it lasted a week or more.  She
was not understanding at all.  Finally, after calming down, she made a
decision.  I was no longer her little boy.  I was to be her nasty slut
daughter.  With her first paycheck, she bought me little girl panties, two
dresses, and Mary Jane shoes.  I lived in fear of her cutting off my little
dickie, which she made me tuck between my legs so it would not show when it
was hard, which it was entirely too often.  She thought she was punishing
me.  She was wrong.  I was now a girl who could openly be attracted to
boys.

   I was terrified my first day in school.  My little dickie tightly
tucked, my white panties on under my school dress, white socks and my Mary
Jane shoes.  I had to pass as a girl.  By now my hair had grown down to
almost shoulder length and, honestly, I thought I looked pretty good for a
poor little country girl.  I was never shy, but now I had to keep my mouth
shut and try to stay low profile.  Well, that didn't last long.  The first
hour of the first day, my teacher, Mr.  Benjamin, had each of us stand by
our seats and say our names and something about ourselves.  I was number
21. I knew it was my turn but I was frozen to my seat.

   "Patsy, it's your turn.  Tell us who you are." Mr.  Benjamin told me. 
He was looking down at the school records and he kept glancing back up at
me.  I finally gathered the courage to stand and I muttered something about
being new to the city and that I didn't know anyone.  I sat back down as
quickly as I could.  Mr.  Benjamin kept staring at me.  The boy behind me
in the row was next and so it went.  That day, Mr.  Benjamin read to us
most of the day, letting us settle into our first school day.  At afternoon
recess as we were headed outside to play, he called to me to speak with
him.

   After all the students had left, he called me to his desk and motioned
for me to come around behind it.  Putting his arm around my back he pulled
me close to him and bent to whisper in my ear.  "Patsy, I understand that
your mother insists that you are a little girl." He looked me straight in
the eye.  "But you're not, are you?  You're really a little boy." I was
caught.  I knew I couldn't get away with it.  Mommy's punishment would
begin now.  But then he said, "Patsy, I'll keep your secret but you must
share a secret with me, OK?" I nodded.  "Well, here it is.  I like little
boys who dress like little girls.  And I think you are beautiful girl and I
want to get to know you a lot better, understand?" No, I didn't understand.
Then he reached up under my dress and felt between my legs.  I jumped when
his cool fingers touched my upper leg, my inner thigh.  He turned me
sideways and ran his hand up over my panty clad tummy.  He ran his fingers
down between my legs and explored what was there.

   "You have it tucked, don't you?" What could I do but nod.  He reached up
to the hem of my panties and ran the flat of his palm down the inside of
them, running his hand down to feel the top of my little dick.  "Spread
your legs." I did as I was told as Mr.  Benjamin wrestled my dick out from
where it was tucked.  It sprang to life and was instantly hard.  He felt it
lovingly, then bent down to lift up my dress and bent further to take it in
his mouth, gently sucking my little boy 3 inch dick.  My eyes rolled back
in my head at the wondrous feel of his actions.  Once again I was getting
sucked.

   He raised up and brought his lips to mine, his tongue pushing its way
into my mouth.  I melted into him and gave up all control.  I would do
anything the man wanted.  I was a little slut.

   "Patsy, you are safe with me, do you understand?" He said as he pushed
my hard dick up between my legs and pulled up my panties.  "But you will
always be good in my class and you will always do everything I tell you." I
nodded.  "Do you know where you live?" I explained that we were still
living in a motel until Mother found us a place she could afford.  "OK,
tell your mother to call me.  I have a big house and I rent out a small
apartment in it that she can afford."

   And so began our time together.  We moved into Mr.  Benjamin's house.  A
little 2 room apartment with a tiny bath room that I later discovered had a
small peephole in the corner that he used to watch us in the bath.  But it
was cheap and mother quickly grew to like him.  I used to hear them fucking
through the thin walls and, after a while, I became jealous.  I was the one
he was first attracted to.  He was to be mine.  I would learn how to seduce
him and make him fuck me instead.  So I did.

   It didn't happen overnight.  I guess my Mommy was too good at fucking
and sucking his cock but I knew his secret - he liked little girly boys
just like so many men do.  I devised a plan.  Mommy was working full time
at the office now and Mr.  Benjamin and I were able to be alone from 3:30
until almost 6 every weekday.  I decided that I should put on Mommy's
panties, maybe try walking in her high heels.  See if that would make Mr.
Benjamin want to fuck me.  My hair had gotten pretty long by then, even a
little lighter.  I kept it brushed down so that it drifted across my left
eye.  I thought it looked good.  I'd learned how to flip it and that always
seemed to catch his attention.

   The first day he heard me stomping around in our little apartment, he
came over to see what I was doing.  I stood there, my hands on my hips,
thrust my left hip out and stood tall in her heels.  "Do you like me, Mr.
Benjamin?" I flipped my hair and looked at him with my head slightly turned
away.  I saw the bulge in his pants begin to firm.  "You wanna touch me?"
Now, Mr.  B and I had been having fun from time to time in the classroom
when the other kids were at lunch or recess, but he'd not seen me naked
yet. I was determined that he would not only see me, he'd want to see me.

   He moved toward me, reached out for me.  I dodged.  I ran to the other
side of the kitchen table, a huge smile on my face.  "You want me to put on
lipstick, Mr.  Benjamin?" He moved quickly, trying to catch me.  I ran back
into the living area.  "Can you catch me?" I giggled as he lunged for me
and I jumped aside, running quickly to my bed.  I climbed up on it and lay
on my back.  In an instant, he was on top of me.  Kissing me, holding my
nearly naked body tightly against him.  "You kin fuck me if you want to,
Mr. Benjamin." I had him.  He bent forward and kissed my little dick
through the panties.  He hooked his fingers n them and pulled them to my
ankles.  My little dick sprang forward in full stiffie.  He sucked it into
his mouth to the hilt and devoured me.  I was his and he was mine.

   "Yes, Mr.  Benjamin.  Yes" I managed to kick off the thong panties from
my ankles and I squirmed under him, spreading my legs wide, urging him to
take me.  "Do me, Mr.  Benjamin.  Do me.  Fuck me like the little girl I
am."

   He almost came in his pants, this hot little child urging him to
dominate, demanding to be used like a child slut.  Quickly he shed his
shirt, undid his belt and lowered his pants, allowing his man cock to come
to full hard, ready to penetrate the boy.  He shoved my legs up, pushing my
feet up to my shoulders and he dove down to kiss my tight pink asshole.  He
ran his tongue around it, almost making me um with the intensity of the
pleasure.  Then, to my surprise, he shoved his tongues up inside me,
fucking me with his tongue.  He latched his mouth onto me and sucked,
sucking my asshole, shoving himself in me.  The feeling was intense,
incredible, indescribable.  I love it.

   Then he stopped.  He pushed my feet even higher up, and shoved the first
three inches of his huge cock into me.  "EEEEEEEEEEEEEE" the pain was both
unexpected and terrible.  It felt as if he tore me open.  But the he
stopped, he held still of what seemed an eternity before he pulled back a
bit, then held still.  I began to accept the intrusion, the violation of my
young asshole.  He was in me.  Mr.  Benjamin, my teacher, was inside my
body with his dick.  I was being fucked.

   He pushed in again and it didn't hurt so bad.  Oh, it still hurted me
but not as bad.  He withdrew, I didn't want him to take it out.  He didn't.
He shoved again and all 6 inches of his manhood entered me.  I was no
longer any kind of a virgin.  I was being fucked...  and I liked it.  He
began a rhythm, in me, pull almost totally out of me, then back in again,
the fucking rhythm.  It grew faster, it grew harder, Mr.  Benjamin was
pounding my little boy ass, jerking me up with each thrust, pulling my
ankles so hard it lifted me off the bed and he shoved his huge cock into
me.

   I didn't know what a real climax was, not until then.  I heard it coming
more than feeling it.  Mr.  Benjamin's head was arched back as he thrust
himself into me.  He made a sort of gurgling sound, then his head dropped
forward, an angry look, an intense look on his face as he shoved himself
deeper into me.  He shuddered, he shook all over, he pounded my ass so hard
I feared I'd break...  then he let out a scream that really scared me. 
Again his head flopped back and he stopped thrusting into me.  Sweat rolled
down the side of his head and dripped onto my stomach before he fell
forward on me, almost crushing me with his weight.

   "Oh, god, Patsy, are you OK?" he asked me once he'd regained his senses.
"I'm so sorry my little darling.  Did I hurt you?"

   I felt a smile spring onto my lips, I opened my eyes and saw his face
close to mine.  I put my arms around his neck and pulled his lips to mine.
"OMG, Mr.  Benjamin.  That was wonderful.  Can we do that again?" His laugh
was infectious.

   "Yes, you little tramp.  We just have to wait until next time.  Your
mother will be home soon."

   The next time was not that far off.  And my story ends here.  I hope it
got you off.

   My stories are pure fantasy and should never be thought of as anything
that really happened (even though they may have from time to time.) If you
liked this story check out my others.
   Daren Peters