Cecil was seventeen years old when he decided to become a girl. It took him six months to make all the arrangements and by then, he had graduated from high school.
As far back as he could remember, Cecil had hated being a boy. Girls with their smooth skins and soft, rounded bodies were so much prettier than boys, whose skins were rougher and bodies hard and bony. At school, Cecil found that the girls in his class were more clever than the boys, and some of them were much kinder, too.
But Cecil had never really felt like the other boys. His face was so satin-soft that it was impossible to imagine he would ever have to shave; and his figure, instead of being lean and angular, had gentle curves of flesh where other boys had muscle. His body was soft where it should have been hard.
His eldest sister, Alma, four years older than Cecil, had loved to dress him up in her old, little-girl clothes when he was very small. Then she would laugh at him, hug him, and tell him that he was as pretty as a picture. He always remembered that.
Remembered it and liked it!
Blanche, two years younger than Alma, had joined in the game, and sometimes the sisters had pretended that their young brother was a baby, and they would dress, undress, and bathe him.
Cecil had enjoyed the make-believe very much, often hating to wear his own clothes when the charade was over. Vaguely, Cecil remembered his father telling him "to be a little man," not a "sissy" ... and he remembered, too, hating the man for his pains.
When Cecil was five years old, his sister Donna had been born. Alma had spent less time on Cecil then, causing him to feel the first, sharp pangs of jealousy. But Blanche had still doted on him, played with him and later, showed him the new, secret, and exciting games that only she knew how to play.
Cecil was seven years old when his father died, and he felt more relief than sorrow. It had always distressed him to see his mother, so soft, blonde, and beautiful, being kissed and pawed by a man even if the man was his father.
Sometimes, Cecil had crept to their bedroom door when his father had coaxed his mother inside, and listened with horror, hate, and revulsion to the words and sounds that reached his ears. He had not been quite sure what they were doing, but just the thought of them in bed together his father's body touching the warm, soft flesh of his mother filled him with a sense of outrage.
Once, on his return to his room, he had found his pajamas wet where his spasms of anger had caused him to urinate uncontrollably. And, at times, he would pretend to be sick, screaming loudly and hysterically until his mother rushed to his bedroom to comfort him, leaving his father to wriggle on his bed in a state of frustrated anger and confusion.
His father had been a salesman of sorts. He could not have been a very successful one because when he died there was so little money in the family that Cecil's mother had to go back to work.
It was with very mixed feelings that Cecil remembered his mother working. He had loved to see her all dressed up, looking younger and prettier than ever, going to her secretarial job in the big downtown office where her old boss was very happy to have her back. But Cecil missed her presence in the house where he could get a kiss, hug, or some demonstration of the affection he craved so constantly.
His sister Alma was too busy looking after the baby Donna to have much time for Cecil; but Blanche who seemed so much more than two years older than he took charge of the love-hungry little boy. Blanche dressed him, fed him, and helped him with his homework. On nights when their mother was working and Alma was preoccupied with Donna, she would play games with him. Some of the games were completely new to Cecil, but they were interesting games, exciting games. Games which, rousing him to a height of excitement, made him laugh and cry so loudly that Alma would hear as she nursed the baby upstairs.
Alma wondered what they were doing to make Cecil's laugh so highly pitched ... and Blanche! What made Blanche pant like that? Alma would have gone down to find out, but Donna demanded all her attention; and after all, she told herself, Blanche was old enough to took after Cecil!
Chapter 2
Blanche squirmed her curvaceous, eleven-year-old body on the damp sheet of the child-size bed in Cecil's room. The torn top and crumpled panties of her pajama-suit were strewn, unwanted, on the floor of the bedroom. She slid her nude buttocks down lower, raised chubby knees ceilingwards and mouthed, "Now, Cecil, now!"
Her fleshy thighs parted and as his head went obediently down between them, Cecil's lips touched the skin of her inner leg and he tasted the saltiness of her sweat. "Up, Cecil, move your mouth up!" the panted moans from his sister's mouth directed him. He slid his mouth up the warm, moist flesh until the sparse cluster of beginning pubic hairs tickled the tip of his nose. Cecil's lower lip thrust out and he felt the small, wet slit move beneath it. "Stick " whispered his sister, " stick your tongue in!"
Blanche would not have been in Cecil's bed that night, and the nine-year-old boy would have been spared his first confusing but exciting experience of the sexual games that his sister liked to play if baby Donna had slept like she was supposed to. But the baby's loud and angry screams had disturbed Alma until she had to lift Donna from her cot, and carry her to the double bed that she shared with Blanche. Then she rocked her in an unavailing effort to quiet her, calm her, and put her back to sleep.
Finally, Blanche had thrust back the bedclothes, sat up beside Alma, and muttered, "How can I go to sleep when that little pest is screaming?" She stared at the baby, resentfully.
Alma, who took her motherly duties with all of a thirteen-year-olds seriousness, shook her head reprovingly at her sister. "You know she can't help it," she murmured. "I've got to look after her when mother isn't here." She held the baby soothingly against her breast and rocked her gently. It was one of the many nights when their mother was working late at the office.
Blanche slid a chubby, curvy, and angry leg out of the bed. "I'm going to sleep someplace else," she muttered, quivering with anger. She moved to the bedroom door, closed it indignantly behind her, then padded across the hall to Cecil's room.
He was huddled on one side of the bed. An errant sheet had slipped to the floor and Blanche stared at the exposed body of her young brother. Poor, sweet Cecil! Blanche's anger evaporated. He never cries at night! she thought as her memory conveniently erased the sleepless nights he had given their mother.
He had kicked off his pajama-pants, drawn up his knees, and lain on his side. Blanche's eyes dropped to the nakedness of his smooth, unboylike buttocks; then she picked up the sheet, covered him, and crawled in bed beside him. His body felt soft, warm, and comforting as Blanche snuggled herself close to him. She let her small hand rest for a moment on the gentle curve of his thigh, then she twisted herself away with urgent, jerky movements, slid off her little pajama-panties, and tore the top as she dragged it off.
Blanche breathed deeply. A new, beginning emotion flickered through her developing body as she pressed her bare flesh against Cecil's.
He slept soundly, peacefully.
The small, rounded belly of the little girl squeezed against Cecil's buttocks. She felt a small pulse begin to throb with a new, strangely exciting intensity. Blanche slid her small, inquisitive hand down between her thighs, then let her fingers crawl up to the tiny slit. It was wet, warm, and slithery. She inserted a finger, teased herself with tiny, experimental probes. It was delicious! She held her breath, then squeezed her thighs tightly together with a strained, exquisite tension. Her hand crept over Cecil's hip, slipped down to his wee crotch. His penis was soft, unmoving; below, the tiny balls were flaccid.
Blanche felt an unexpected sadness. Poor Cecil! He didn't have an exciting, squirmy little hole like she did. He couldn't feel all the nice, squishy things that she felt when she poked her finger inside. Too bad! She moved her hand back onto her own, so much more interesting body. If Cecil had been the same as her, Blanche was thinking, she'd have shown him how to get the same squiggly, tingly feelings that she got ...
Suddenly, she dragged her hand away from the tiny, slitted mound and its wet, opening lips, lifted a warm leg, eased it over Cecil's hip, then lifted herself carefully until her sparse growth of pubic hair pressed against the soft nudeness of his buttock. She began to slide herself up and down, slowly and delightfully, until she felt her vaginal lips open more widely, then slither with wet, sucking movements against the satiny flesh of the young boy's bottom.
Cecil awoke slowly, confusedly, wonderingly.
"Uum, wh-what "
"Cecil " Blanche hissed, pausing in her undulations for a moment, " it's me. I'm sleeping with you tonight."
He half turned himself.
"Don't move." Blanche's voice was urgent, anxious. "Stay like you are." She let out her breath in a tremulous, low laugh. "I like to to squeeze against you "
He moved his buttocks: contracted the cheeks then relaxed them. He could feel the soft lips of Blanche's tiny cunt moving on his skin. "You you feel wet," he murmured.
"Yesss," she hissed, the word slipping from her mouth like steam. "My little hole's all wet and iggly."
Cecil felt a tiny thrill of unexpected pleasure at her words. He hadn't known it was her little holey thing that she was pressing against him! He pressed back with his buttocks, feeling the warm lips spread themselves open more widely. That's nice! he thought to himself.
"I I like that!" Blanche gasped, biting her lower lip with restrained excitement. Her head dropped down onto Cecil's shoulder. She pressed her cheek against his skin and sighed. Cecil was so sweet. She was sorry she couldn't do something nice for him! She placed her mouth on his shoulder, kissed him absently. Then she opened her mouth against his flesh and tickled his skin with her tongue, and as she did it she got an idea.
"Cecil?" She jerked her head up violently and her belly parted from her brother's flesh with a sucking sound. "Cecil," she repeated urgently, "I want you to kiss me "
He twisted his head, groped for her face with his lips.
"No-" she breathed, "not like that." A shiver ran through her body as she said, "I want you to kiss my little hole "
Cecil made a sound of surprise. Kiss her little holey thing! He'd never thought of that. "Why?" he asked, innocently, interestedly.
"Because " she panted, wriggling in anticipation, " I want you to."
She thrust her arm under his body, pulled his face to hers, kissed him wetly on the lips. "Kiss it," she said, half-pleadingly.
He slid his head down her body. "If you want me to." His voice was muffled by her flesh and the sheet.
"You're sweet, Cecil so sweet!" Blanche purred like a kitten, patted his head as it slipped across her belly. "Kiss it good, Cecil, she told him, pressing her body hard into the mattress, bracing her buttocks, then parting her thighs as she felt the little boy's face slide between her legs.
Cecil nestled his body between his sister's legs. It was a snug and cozy place, he thought as he rubbed his nose on the downy fuzz at the apex of her belly. Her thighs touched his cheeks; the small slit was under his mouth. He let his tongue slide out, touch it.
"It's salty," he murmured, lifting his head and licking his lips. "Your little holey thing tastes salty, Blanche."
"It's wet," she hissed, squeezing her buttocks together fiercely in an agony of impatience.
Cecil pressed his mouth against the tiny lips, kissed gently.
"Push your tongue in ... " Blanche jerked out the words in her little-girl voice.
Cecil licked it experimentally. The lips seemed to curl open. "Don't pee-pee on me " he murmured, anxiously.
"Just suck!" Blanche groaned.
He pushed his tongue out the slit became wider, opened up; then he thrust his tongue into Blanche's little holey thing.
"She made a low squeal. "Oh, Cecil it's so nice so nice "
Cecil felt a small glow of pleasure. He liked to please Blanche. He thrust in more deeply, slid his tongue in, out, then upward. He found a small, wriggly pimple which oozed about under her skin. He touched it with his tongue and Blanche's body jerked.
^Blanche?" He lifted his head, felt saliva drip wetly from the corner of his mouth. "You've got a little, oozy lump there," he told her in case she didn't know.
"Suck it," she mouthed. Her voice was low, groany, hungry. Not little-girlish at all! "Stick your tongue on it, lick it " she groaned urgently.
Cecil tickled it with his tongue. Whenever he pressed the tip of this tongue on it, it slid out from under. It was funny! He tried to catch it between his lips, but It kept slithering away. He pressed his mouth down hard, managed to catch the oozy little lump between his teeth. He felt very pleased with himself. He licked it with his tongue as it slid around. Each time he touched it, Blanche gave a small moan. Once he pulled his mouth away, lifted his head, then asked, "Am I hurting?"
"No," she muttered. "Go on suck some more."
"You sounded as if I was hurting," he said. "That's why I stopped."
Blanche tensed the cheeks of her bottom, wriggled her body in frustration. "Go on!" she grated with her tiny teeth gritted together. "Don't talk. Suck!"
"I just wanted to know " he murmured. "Don't get mad."
"Suck!" Blanche jerked the tensed tip of her tiny clitoris. "I I'll spank you, Cecil, if you don't suck."
He licked it despondently. It was wetter than ever. Why should Blanche get so mad at him?
"If you spank me-I-I'll tell Alma," he muttered, lifting his mouth from the oozy little lump. "I'll tell mom!"
Blanche became very still. "Cecil?" Her voice was tight, filled with restrained emotion. "If if you kiss it nicely real good I I'll give you a bath tomorrow. A nice bath."
"You will?" Cecil's voice was elated. He loved the way his sister bathed him. Especially when she gave him her special bath! "Your your special bath?" he asked eagerly.
"Yes," Blanche sighed, feeling her little clitoris subside. "A special bath. Now," she breathed, "kiss it, Cecil suck it and keep on sucking."
He went down again, letting his lips encircle the wet little lump. She seemed to like having that tickled, he thought. His tongue moved over her clitoris; he sucked the surrounding tissue into his mouth, licked it with his tongue. He liked that. He drew it into his mouth more deeply and the little moans began to spew from Blanche's lips.
"Ooh, Cecil-eeeeh, Cecil-"
This time he didn't stop to ask her if he was hurting. This time he knew that she made that noise when she liked it! He sucked some more, tickled some more, and Blanche moaned higher and higher. Then, so suddenly that Cecil was almost frightened, Blanche jerked her passion-filled little body, writhed her hot flesh, and twisted her wetly spewing cunt off her little brother's mouth.
"Ooh, Cecil," she moaned. "Ooh uugh Cecil!"
She bounced her buttocks up and down with excited, urgent movements. Cecil felt her thighs close on his face, trapping his cheeks painfully between them. She squeezed the cheeks of her buttocks tightly together, then relaxed them and released Cecil's sensitive face from between her legs.
"You're so sweet, Cecil," she murmured, her breath coming out in a long-drawn-out sigh. "So sssweet " She stroked his head gently as if he were a pet, an obedient little dog.
"My mouth's all wet," he complained. "Did you pee-pee on me?"
"No," she sighed, still stroking his face, "it wasn't pee-pee. It was "
"What?" he asked. "What made me so wet?"
Blanche sighed deeply; she felt so good. So nice and peaceful. "It was was something else." She tried to explain something that she didn't really know. "Something nice " A small moan of pleasure bubbled from her lips, then she whispered, "Well do this again sometime "
"All right," Cecil said agreeably. "If you like it all right." He climbed up her body, edging his face closer to hers. When his head was on the pillow, he turned his face and kissed her on the cheek.
She patted him soothingly.
He slid his mouth across her face, searching for her lips.
Blanche jerked her head away. "Don't kiss me on the mouth now," she said sharply.
Cecil froze in hurt surprise. "W-why not?" he asked indignantly.
"Not "said Blanche in her primmest voice, " right after you've been kissing me there!" She pushed his face away. "That wouldn't be nice, Cecil," she said severely, "that just wouldn't be nice!"
Chapter 3
Cecil stood in front of the full-size mirror in Alma's bedroom and admired the new nylon briefs that his sister had bought the day before. They fitted him perfectly. He drew them up a little higher, felt them tighten under his crotch with a delicious silky squeeze. When he had enough money saved up, he'd buy himself a pair like these.
Suddenly he stared. Was that the front door that he heard opening? He slid the briefs down quickly, stepped out of them with a hurried, nervous movement. He didn't want Alma to find him in here. He had stayed home from school that afternoon, telling Alma at lunchtime that he had a sick headache, especially to try on her new clothes. It would be awful if she caught him!
He dragged up his jeans, then stepped to the door, listened. After a moment, he drew back with a small sigh of relief. It was his mother's voice he could hear. Then he frowned. What was his mother doing at home in the middle of the afternoon and whom was she talking to?
Cecil waited indecisively. He heard her voice faintly, opened the door a crack, and made out the words, "Come in " It was his mother's voice, but she sounded different. There was the sound of a door closing, and, after another moment of indecision, Cecil stepped into the hall.
The door of his mother's bedroom was closed. Cecil moved up to it slowly, dragging his feet, feeling a hard ball of fear in the pit of his stomach.
"I'm only human, Brad ... " It was his mother's voice. Cecil felt his blood turn colder. Brad? It must be his mother's boss, Brad Stern, who was in her bedroom. Why would his mother let her boss come into her bedroom? Cecil felt his knees begin to shake.
"I I wouldn't want to do this at the office ... " It was his mother speaking again, and there were horrible rustling sounds, as of soft fabric being dragged across even softer skin. Cecil screwed his eyes shut.
"It's been years now, Brad and I don't want to wait any longer ... " His mother's voice was all tight, strained.
With an effort, Cecil bent his body down, placed his eye at the keyhole in the door. He couldn't see his mother, but he could see the man. The man had removed his pants, and Cecil could see his naked skin. He stood there with the big, horrible thing sticking out: the ugly, monstrous thing that Blanche told him was called a "prick!"
"Come on, Brad," Cecil's mother said, her voice coming from the left side of the room, the side the bed was on. "I've waited long enough." and her voice sounded hungry and angry and filled with something that Cecil had never heard before.
He saw the beast of a man, with his thing growing bigger, uglier every second ...
"Come on fuck me!" Cecil's mother said in a vicious, lust-filled voice ... And the man with the monstrous prick moved toward his mother's bed.
Cecil trembled. He staggered back a step from his mother's bedroom door. How could his mother let a man touch her beautiful, blonde body? He knew! He knew that the ugly prick was going to ...
He felt sick. How could she? His mother? His knees shook as he stumbled toward the bathroom. He crawled to the door, locked it, then went to the bowl. "How could she?" he moaned. Then he vomited violently, repeatedly, and painfully.
After a moment, he raised his ashen face then screamed in silence: I hate men! He vomited. His mother! How could she?
Cecil was eleven years old.
Joanne was thirty years old when her husband, Jeff Greene, died. She had been married at nineteen, just a few months before Alma, the first of her four children, was born. And that was the only reason she got married, she always told herself.
Jeff had been unsuccessful as a salesman, a parent, and a husband. But, she had to admit, he had succeeded in getting her pregnant four times. Once before they were married and three more times after.
How she had cursed the strident demands of her own body which had caused her to forget everything else in a frightening urge to find sexual satisfaction.
It was because of Jeff's lack of success as a salesman that she had to go back to work after he died. Brad Stern, older but still the same in his feelings toward her, was very happy to take her back into his office, and, after she had got over the frantic change in her routine, Joanne was happy, too.
"Just like old times," Brad had said one day shortly after she had taken on her old job as his secretary.
She had given him an enigmatic smile, then murmured, "Except that I've got four children."
Brad had looked at her, a somber expression in his deep, brown eyes, and said softly, "Yes, I wondered about that."
Joanne had blushed, the color heightening the prettiness which had never gone away. "What d'you mean?" she asked, though she knew.
Brad counted on his fingers. "One, two, three, and four. You even called the(m A, B, C, and D!" He looked into Joanne's too-blue eyes. "Alma, Blanche, Cecil, and Donna ... Whose idea was that? The A-B-C-D bit, I mean."
Joanne opened her eyes even wider. "I never thought of it!" She sounded genuinely surprised.
Brad drummed on his desktop with his fingers. "Who's looking after the smallest one?" he asked.
"Donna?" Joanne lifted her blonde head. "I've got a woman who comes in until Alma gets home from school, then she takes over. Alma's a regular little mother," she added.
"Aren't you all," Brad murmured dryly.
"All except Cecil," Joanne answered, refusing to be needled. "He's a boy."
"Yeah!" Brad stared at her. "What d'you know about that?"
Joanne's face became serious. "I don't know, Brad," she whispered, shaking her head worriedly. "Maybe he should have been a girl, too. Sometimes I wonder ... "
Brad had let his eyes drop down to his desk, and when he spoke, he didn't seem to be talking on the same subject at all. "Joanne," he murmured, "whence we going to "
She cut in, "I don't know, Brad." Getting up, Joanne moved jerkily to the window and stared out. She could feel her skin sweating beneath her too-heavy skirt and wished that she could could ... She turned back to Brad. "I don't know when, Brad," she said clearly. "But as soon as I know, I'll tell you," she finished in a whisper.
Joanne told him later, years later and she had no way of knowing that on the day that she chose, her only son would stay away from school and would be in the house.
"Well be alone, Brad," she had whispered to him in the morning, "now that Donna's at nursery school all the children are out. So we can go to the house, and "
"Yes," he'd murmured softly, pulling her body against his, "we mustn't forget the and."
So they'd driven from the city, gone into the house, and hadn't seen anybody, heard anybody ... But they hadn't been alone ... Cecil had been there!
Chapter 4
Alma slued the car off the highway, then stopped under the trees so sharply that Cecil was thrown violently against her.
She can drive better than that, he thought, even if she hasn't been driving very long!
"I saw you and Blanche," said Alma very quietly, her voice tight but well under control. "I saw what you were doing to her."
Cecil felt the hard knot in his stomach begin to tighten. "Yes," he murmured. "I know that you saw us."
"If I told mom," Alma said, her voice sounding mean and vicious, "you'd be in trouble and mom'd be upset!"
Cecil closed his eyes. "I I wouldn't want to make mom upset," he whispered.
Alma, twisted her body on the car seat. Her left foot stayed on the floor, but her right leg went up high, over the top of the seat.
Cecil stared at her legs. The thin, silken hose ended halfway up her thighs, then there was a sea of whiteness which stretched up and up until it converged at a hairy apex.
Alma slid her bare buttocks toward Cecil, her fingers went between her thighs and parted wet, red lips ... "All right," she mouthed, "if you can do it to Blanche, you can do it to me. Come on, Cecil kiss my cunt!"
Cecil let his head drop down. As his face got closer to Alma's flesh, he saw her fingers prying the lips open baring what Blanche called 'her oozy little hole' and above, he saw the little lump move, just like Blanche's did, and he knew that when he gripped it with his teeth, tickled the tip of it with his tongue, Alma would get all hot and excited ... Girls liked to have their wriggly lump sucked ... they liked to have a tongue stuck into their oozy little holes, too ... Girls, Cecil thought were pretty lucky!
Cecil sat on the straight-backed chair and stared in front of him. He didn't want to look toward the settee where Alma was sitting with her new boyfriend, Joe. Cecil didn't like Joe. Joe was big and strong and always trying to get hold of girls. Cecil couldn't understand why any girls wanted a boy tike Joe.
And now, Alma had got him. Alma, with her curvy, well-developed figure, looking much more than sixteen years old. She was pretty, Cecil admitted to himself. Not as pretty as Blanche though. He looked ahead of him, stared at his sister Blanche as she danced with Donna to the music from the record player.
Blanche was beautiful. At fourteen years of age, her brunette head of hair glistened with an electric vibrancy. Her lithe body gyrated in time to the music with a dynamic intensity of her own. Her face moved with revealing shadows of emotion as she mouthed the words of a song. She turned her head, fixed luminous eyes on Cecil's face as he stared at her. Then her mouth crinkled into a smile, she winked wickedly, brazenly, invitingly, and tossed her head, causing her hair to flare frenetically round her forehead as her eyes rolled toward the stairway and above with a devilish suggestiveness.
Cecil blushed. He knew what Blanche's mood implied. As soon as Donna was safely in bed, and Alma and Joe out of the way, she would ...
His eyes rested on his younger sister for an idle moment. Donna would be more like Blanche than Alma, he thought. She was a brunette, not a blonde like Alma or his mother.
His mother! Cecil's eyes clouded. Ever since the awful afternoon when he had found his mother and Brad in her bedroom he felt a sick sensation in his stomach whenever his mother was out of his sight with Brad. She was with Brad now! They had gone to a show together in Brad's car.
Cecil tried to pull his mind away from his mother. He looked at Alma. She was blonde, too. Blonde and beautiful just like his mother.
Just like his mother! Would some horrible man try to push a monstrous, ugly prick into her? Cecil winced at the thought.
Joe! Cecil stared at Joe with a new dislike. Was that what Joe was wanting to do? He kept his gaze on Joe, heating him with his eyes, until the boy glanced up and asked idly, "Well, Cecil what's new with you?"
Cecil shook his head, got up without answering, and walked moodily to the glass-enclosed terrace. He opened the door and stepped out.
Joe turned to Alma, his eyebrows raised. "What's the matter with him?" he asked.
Alma smiled up at her beau. "Nothing," she murmured, parting her lips sweetly as she knew she was supposed to. "You know Cecil!"
"Yeah," muttered Joe with feeling, "I know Cecil!" He stared after the young boy, broodingly.
Cecil looked at the night, then sighed. The air was mild and balmy with a hint of spring in it, but Cecil was thinking of Joe and Alma. He knew that as soon as they were alone, Joe would kiss Alma, fondle her, try to slip his hand under her shorty skirt, squeeze his ringers between her thighs and ... Cecil screwed shut his eyes, trying vainly to close out his thoughts. Why were men and boys such beasts?
"Hello," said Blanche, sliding up behind him, slipping her arm round his waist and squeezing him as though he were another girl.
He heard the sweet, sensually slick voice and turned with a slight smile on his face. Nobody else had a voice like Blanche's, he thought. Maybe she had a lot of other things that nobody else had ...
He squeezed her hand affectionately, then his smile faded as he asked, "Did you see them?"
Blanche blinked her big, dark eyes at him. Yes," she nodded her head, then tried to steer Cecil's thoughts away from Joe and her sister. "Donna's gone up to bed," she murmured softly.
Cecil didn't answer, but he felt a tiny stirring flicker through his belly. He knew what Blanche was going to say next.
"You know somethin', Cecil?" she whispered. "I'm all oozy and wriggly." Her voice was breathless.
He moved his face close to hers and she kissed him wetly in the darkness. "You always are," he murmured.
She twisted her body like a small girl who wanted to go to the toilet, then murmured moistly, "Will you?"
Cecil knew what she wanted, but he liked to hear her say it. ''Will I what?" he asked, trying to sound innocent.
"Oh, you know," she hissed. "I mean kiss me?"
"Sure," Cecil whispered, turning his head and touching her cheek with his lips.
"Not that!" Blanche wriggled her body in impatience. "You know what I mean." Then she said it. "Will you kiss my little hole? Will you suck my oozy little thing?"
"Your little holey thing?" he asked, calling it what he'd called it so long ago. So long ago? How long was it since he'd first thrust his eager tongue into her hungry little body?
"Yesss!" she hissed wetly. "My oozy, holey little thing! You remember, don't you?"
"All right," he said. "You know you do whatever you want, Blanche ... "He smiled at her gently.
"You're so sweet, Cecil," she mouthed demurely, then eagerly asked, "Where can we go?"
Where could they go? The thought flickered through Cecil's mind. They'd done it in her bedroom, his bedroom, the lounge, and the kitchen. Once, some strange urge had made him want to suck her on his mother's bed so she'd let him and loved it, as she always did. One time, they'd gone to the end of their short backyard garden and entered the lean-to shed ...
Cecil's eyes slid to the window. Alma and Joe were still on the settee. Weren't they going out tonight? Then he turned to Blanche, whispered, "The shed "
Then, hand in hand, they scurried down the garden path, to the dust and darkness in the lean-to shed. A discarded couch there made a comfortable pad, so Cecil dropped on his back with a smooth ease and familiarity that came from long practice.
How many times had he done this thing with Blanche? A shaft of dim moonlight penetrated the opening that sufficed as a window high on the wall of the lean-to; Blanche's buttocks shone whitely as she unclipped then unwrapped her skirt from around her hips. She never wears panties anymore! Cecil thought idly as she lifted a leg over him and straddled his body with her face toward his feet. Her head went down, and he watched her buttocks getting closer and closer to his face as she inched her way along his body. The cheeks of her bottom seemed to open and close with every small movement of her body.
Absently, he lifted a finger, touched the small star that nestled in the cleft between the wriggling buttocks.
Blanche giggled wetly. "Don't tease," she mouthed, enjoying it.
Her thighs gripped his cheeks gently, and he watched with interest the lips of her wriggly little hole opening above his face. Then Blanche let herself come down, softly and wetly with a low squelching sound. Cecil's tongue slid out ...
Blanche closed her eyes, slicked her tongue over her lips as she felt Cecil thrust in. This part she liked!
Cecil's tongue squeezed between her vaginal lips, pushed in deeply. He slued it around in the way that Blanche had told him she liked, then withdrew it gently, slowly. It was covered with a thin film of vaginal moisture. Cecil savored it and liked the taste! He thrust his tongue in again, harder this time, keeping it in longer, reaching to the farthest corner of her developing vagina that was possible for him to touch with his tongue. Blanche groaned softly, so he withdrew his tongue, sucked the wet tissue drawing in a mouthful, caressing it with his tongue then pushing it out, thrusting it into her vagina as far as he could.
"Now now my itty lump " Blanche whispered, writhing her buttocks in anticipation.
Cecil's teeth delicately clasped on her clitoris. His tongue touched the tip. It weaved with tensile excitement. His lips encircled her oozy little hole, his tongue slid in, slipped out, went onto her clitoris and teased it, then thrust into the wetness of her cunt again.
"Faster," Blanche mouthed. "More-"
The saliva dribbled out of the corners of Cecil's mouth; his lips pulled frantically on the soggy tissue around Blanche's cunt; his tongue caressed the tiny, tortured tip of her frenetic clitoris ... Then the moans began. They bubbled from Blanche's lips in a high stream of sound. She writhed her flesh with involuntary tremors, dragging her moist cunt off Cecil's mouth, then plunging it down again with sticky intensity. Her vaginal lips sprang open, clenched shut, with each spasmodic burst of orgasmic excitement. Cecil felt the sweat pouring off his forehead, shook his head slightly without ceasing his oral manipulations then blinked open his eyes and stared into the dimness ... at Alma standing at the half-open door of the lean-to. Her eyes were riveted on Blanche's bubbling, spasming cunt.
For a brief, awful moment Cecil's mouth stopped moving. Alma's eyes moved down, rested on his. Then Blanche mewed, "Don't stop, Cecil! Don't stop!" Her voice arced high. "Cecil! Don't stop!" And as Cecil sucked with an instinctive reaction, Alma dropped her eyes, then moved softly back from the lean-to's door.
"Oooh, Cecil " Blanche moaned with a groan of relief, " I had an an iggly squiggly!"
He leaned back, breathed deeply as Blanche eased her satiated little body off his sweating flesh.
"I had a real iggly squiggly!" she mouthed. The lips of her cunt were still opening and closing spasmodically after her orgasm her real iggly squiggly! as she leaned down, kissed Cecil wetly on his cheek, then whispered her usual words: "You're so sweet, Cecil so, so sssweet!"
He watched as she wrapped her skirt around her sexed-up little body, wondered whether he should tell her about Alma, decided to wait, and walked with her, hand in hand, back through the garden and onto the terrace.
Alma was sitting in the lounge by herself when they entered. She glanced up, fixed an intense stare on Blanche's too-bright eyes, flushed face, and jerky, trembling movements.
"We we've been walking," Blanche panted quickly, though Alma had not spoken. "It's so nice tonight " she smiled slyly at Cecil, then murmured, "I I'm going up to bed." She scurried to the stairway, began to sidle up, then paused, caught Cecil's eye, and gave him a wink. Then, after she had spewed out her lips, lewdly, suggestively, her rounded legs flashed as she streaked up to her bedroom.
Cecil looked at Alma apprehensively. "I I guess I'll go to bed, too " he began, but Alma interrupted him.
"Joe's gone," she said, then: "Mom went out in Brad's car so her car is out front." She paused and there was an expression in her eyes that Cecil had never seen before. "I have my permit now," Alma added softly. "I'm going out for a short drive." She met Cecil's eyes boldly, then said, "Come with me!"
She rose to her feet and moved toward the front door. Cecil glanced toward the upstairs hall, but Blanche was out of sight. So he followed Alma to the door like an obedient little brother.
For the second time in the same night Cecil thrust his tongue into the wet inner regions of a female's body.
It was the second time that he sucked at the wriggly little, oozy little hole of his sister. But not the same sister!
Alma was older than Blanche, but she wriggled her bottom in the same excited way. She opened and closed her thighs with the same jerky, excited movements that Blanche had used and her moans of delight when he seized her little lump between his teeth and licked it, tickled it, and teased it were just a little deeper, just a little louder than the noises that Blanche made when he did the same thing.
"Suck, suck, suck Cecil!" She spewed the words at him, gripping his face between her wet, pulsing thighs; then the groans gutturalized out of her throat, she smothered his face with the wide squashiness of her clinging cunt, and thrust herself downward with a strength that Blanche did not possess. "Oh, you little prick, Cecil you sucking, lovely little prick!" she muttered when he finally fell back exhausted.
He heard her words with confusion and anger. How could she call him that? Blanche told him that prick was the name of the long, ugly thing that ... "Don't call me that, Alma," he bleated, his voice sounding higher than he intended.
"What?" Alma asked. "What, Cecil?" Her voice was soft and tender. She didn't sound mad at him at all anymore.
"Don't call me prick!" he piped.
Alma smiled down at him, then stretched out her hand, stroked his face. "All right," she said, still smiling. "If you don't like it I won't call you that!" She pulled him upright, then leaned her face toward him, kissed him on the mouth.
He drew back, embarrassed. "My mouth " he murmured. "You shouldn't have kissed my mouth!"
"Why not?" Alma's eyes opened wide.
"Not when I I've just been kissing you there!" He reached down, touched the corner of her still wet, still pulsating vagina.
Alma laughed. "That doesn't matter." She took his face between her hands, kissed him gently, then more deeply.
Cecil let her tongue probe into the secret corners of his mouth. He liked it. He liked it even more because he knew that Alma liked it, too.
Suddenly Alma drew her face back and looked down at him. "Did Blanche tell you not to kiss her on the mouth when you've been kissing her cunny?" she asked.
"Her cunny?" Cecil stared at Alma's face.
Alma slid her hand down. "Her here," she said, touching her little hole. "Her cunny, her cunt, or whatever she calls it."
"Her oozy little hole," said Cecil helpfully.
"All right," Alma said, "her oozy little hole if that's what she calls it. Now tell me, did she tell you not to kiss her on the mouth after you've sucked her her oozy little hole?"
"Yes," Cecil admitted shyly.
"Alma laughed softly, murmured to herself. Then suddenly she became very serious. "Listen, Cecil," she said. "Don't ever tell Blanche don't ever tell anyone what we've been doing!"
"Oh, I won't, Alma!" Cecil sounded shocked at the idea. "I wouldn't tell anyone that "
"You'd better not," said Alma grimly; then her tone of voice changed. "You're very sweet, Cecil. That was nice," she told him, smiling.
He smiled up at her. He'd thought she was going to be mad at him; instead, she was so pleased.
"When you've sucked on Blanche's her oozy little hole " Alma said, remembering the name, " and made her " she looked at Cecil, then said, "come? When you've made her come "
"You mean have an iggly squiggly," corrected Cecil.
Alma sighed. "Have an iggly squiggly," she murmured. "Does she she do something to you?"
Cecil's eyes opened wide. "Oh, no," he said. "What could she do? I don't have an oozy little hole ... " Then he simpered, adding, "Not there."
"What about here?" asked Alma. Her hand slid down to his crotch and she squeezed the softness gently.
Cecil's voice came from high in his throat. "Oh, nooo oh nooo, Alma. Never "
Alma looked at his flushed face. "Would you like it?" she asked, her eyes extra-bright.
Cecil felt shocked. Alma was saying terrible things! "No, no, Alma," he murmured piously, "that would be awful?"
"Why?" asked Alma, sliding down the zipper on the front of his pants. "You used to like it when I washed you there when you were small."
Cecil flushed deeper, then gave a silly smile. "I still do," he murmured.
Alma stopped in the act of pushing her hand inside his open pants. "Still do?" she repeated in astonishment. "What do you mean? I don't bathe you anymore!"
Cecil smiled again. "Blanche does," he explained simply. "She gives me a a "special bath'!"
Alma let out her breath. "I just don't know what's been going on," she muttered in wonder. Then: "And, Cecil, when Blanche gives you a 'special bath' do you get a an iggly squiggly?" she asked.
He shook his head, sadly. "Not a squiggly," he said simply, '*maybe just a little iggly!"
"Just a little iggly!" Alma repeated; then she laughed.
Cecil flinched when Alma's hand went under his clothing, and he turned his face away in embarrassment when she lifted up his small, limp penis.
"It's so small," Alma murmured sadly, stroking it gently, softly, and sweetly.
Cecil closed his eyes. That was nice! Just as nice as when Blanche gave him a "special bath."
"I-I like-" he panted faintly.
Alma smiled down maternally at her innocent, young brother. She caressed his penis more determinedly, more quickly, but it barely increased in size. She sighed. She'd never make him come like this! Suddenly her eyes became excited and a new flush spread onto her cheeks. Cecil was lying back with his eyes closed tight as Alma bent her head, opened her mouth wide, then sucked in the little boy's penis.
"Alma!" squealed Cecil. "Oh, Alma-"
She sucked with careful, soothing movements of her lips and tongue.
Cecil's high cries quivered to a stop. He breathed deeply, jerkily. This was nice this was better than a "special bath." His soggy little thing was getting bigger!
Alma let the gradually growing penis slither from her lips. She looked at it with satisfaction. It was getting harder. She sucked it into her mouth again, getting a sensuous pleasure as the soft, gently hardening roundness of it slid between her lips. She nibbled the tip of it gently ... Cecil squealed on a higher note. She sucked it again, softly, warmly, excitingly.
"Alma-" Cecil shrilled. "Suck, Alma-please suck "
She drew it into her mouth, spit it out, then drew it in and whirled her lips round the sides of it, making small lewd circles of passion with her tongue on the now stiff, trembling little shaft.
"Alma!" Cecil squealed. "I'm getting a a an iggly an iggly!"
She sucked strongly, feeling a wetness start on her thighs from her exertions, her excitement, her ...
"Squiggly!" screamed Cecil. "Iggly squiggly!" His small buttocks pumped with frantic excitement as he experienced his first orgasm. "Iggly " he screamed, " squiggly!" His small back arched, he kicked his legs wildly, violently. "Iggly-iggly " he murmured more quietly, then sighed gently, " squiggly, Alma squiggly " and his penis, getting softer and smaller by the second, slid from Alma's saturated mouth. "I had an iggly squiggly," said Cecil tiredly and happily before he kissed Alma on the mouth.
She drew her mouth back after a long, deep, strangely satisfying kiss. She wriggled her body. Her skirt, still updrawn, slithered higher. She thrust her hand onto her belly as if she were holding something inside herself. "How would you like," she began carefully, striving to keep the excited flicker of anticipation from her voice, "to have an iggly iggly squiggly?"
Cecil wriggled at the thought. An iggly iggly squiggly! "How," he asked, curbing his eagerness, "could I have that?"
"By giving me an iggly," said Alma, carefully, "while I give you a squiggly!"
Cecil felt his breath come in small spurts at the thought. "Alma," he breathed, "I I'd like that!"
"You suck me while I suck you," Alma mouthed.
"Yesss," Cecil spurtted.
So Alma smiled at him, opened the car door and let him help her out. She took Cecil by the hand then and led her young brother into the woods.
Chapter 5
The man swallowed painfully and the veins on his forehead seemed swollen, then his mouth moved. "Suck it, you little punk!" he spewed. "Suck it or I'll stick it right up your sweet little ass!"
Cecil stared at it, then closed his eyes and choked. He couldn't get that in his mouth! Not that horrible thing that ugly prick. "No " he pleaded, "please no!"
The man reached down, seized Cecil's hair, dragged his face forward between his meaty thighs. "Suck," he rasped. The huge slitted shaft seemed to weave in front of Cecil's eyes. It was the most monstrous thing he'd ever seen. The cruel hands tore at his hair painfully. Cecil gave a high scream like a girl; then with tears in his eyes he opened his mouth wide, forced his lips to reach forward and encircle the massive, throbbing penis.
It filled his mouth almost completely. There was barely room for Cecil to slide his tongue around the gross, pulsing cock. He gagged, choked, then touched the slitted end with the tip of his tongue.
The man sighed, thrust himself forward until his organ touched the back of Cecil's throat. "Suck it, you little pansy," he groaned, "eat it, chew it, swallow it " his voice broke into low, panting moans, then he sobbed, "Oh, make me come you limp, little nance!"
Cecil had seen the big, white convertible as soon as he turned onto the street that led to the beach. It was parked with its top down and the driver was leaning back in his seat, listening to the loud music that blared from his radio.
"Hi, there," he called as Cecil was passing.
Cecil turned, nodded slightly, and was about to go on when the man beckoned.
"Is this the way to the beach?" he asked when Cecil had hesitantly approached his car.
"Yes," Cecil told him politely, "it's right at the end of the street."
The man looked at Cecil calculatingly. "You going there?" he asked, making his voice casual, pleasant.
Cecil looked at the man doubtfully. He wasn't a young man, but he wasn't old either. The suit that he wore was white and, like the skin on his face, it seemed to be tightly stretched over his flesh.
"Y-yes," he answered nervously.
"Get in." The man pushed open the door on Cecil's side of the car.
"W-well " Cecil hesitated, wondering why the man was being so generous, wondering whether there was another reason. But he couldn't think of anything that should scare him.
"Go ahead," said the man, smiling. "I'll give you a ride down. I like to sit and look at the water sometimes."
"You do!" Cecil sounded pleased. He got in the car, sank down into the roomy seat, and thought. That's what I like to do! Just sit and stare at the water. He watched the man reach forward, turn on the radio, and smile at Cecil. The music was nice, the kind that Cecil liked, soft and sweet, not loud and hard like the music that Alma and Joe used to dance to.
Joel Cecil thought. He didn't come around anymore. Not since the night that he and Alma had gone out in the car and ... The small smile played round Cecil's lips as he remembered. He would never forget that time, the wondrous time, the first time with Alma.
The man saw his smile. "You feeling happy?" he asked, grinning.
Cecil felt his face flush as though the man could read the secret thoughts in his mind. "Just thinking of something," he murmured. "Just remembering " His voice trailed off.
"Pleasant memories," said the man, he turned the wheel sharply and the car made a rocking, slurring left turn.
Cecil sat up with a jerk. "W-where we going?" he asked nervously. He knew this road!
"We can get near the water this way," the man murmured.
Cecil knew that, too! This was the road that Alma had taken the night that ...
"Why?" Cecil asked. "Why are we going this way?"
The man laughed. "Nothing to be worried about," he said calmly. "It's nice and quiet down here. There aren't the crowds that they get at-"
His voice went on, but Cecil wasn't listening. The man knew the way to the beach! He even knew that you could drive through the trees and reach the desired stretch further down this road. So, if he knew, why had he asked Cecil? Why? What did he want?
"Stop!" Cecil said, his voice too high. "I want to get out here "
"Whattsamatter?" the man asked. "What're you afraid of?"
The car moved forward more quickly.
"I I wanna get out " Cecil sounded like a small child instead of the thirteen year old that he was.
"You can get out near the water," the man said very softly.
There were trees on either side of the road now. This was the quieter part, the deserted part. The car turned off the highway close to the spot where Alma had stopped so very urgently on that night so long ago and threaded its way across the rough ground, through the scattered trees.
"We'll be able to see the water in a minute," the man murmured, and, as Cecil stared to his right, he saw the glint of bright sunlight on blue water.
They were there! The car rocked to a halt and the man smiled down at Cecil. "Nothing to be scared of," he murmured, wriggling himself into a more comfortable position on the bright red leather seat.
Cecil could hear the beating of his own heart above the sweet music. But the beat of the music was steady, even while his heart had a jerky, erratic rhythm. He felt an expanding lump in his throat, then forced himself to ask, "Why why did you ask me the way to the beach?" His voice was tremulous and low.
"Because I wanted to know the way!" The man laughed again. "Silly question," he said.
"You you already knew the way," Cecil murmured quietly.
The smile disappeared from the man's face, then he spoke very softly. "So maybe I did know the way," he looked at Cecil with a strange light in his eye. "Maybe I just wanted an excuse to talk to you."
Cecil looked up. "Why?" he asked in a near-whisper.
The man leaned toward him. "Maybe you're the kind of boy a man like me wants to to talk to." He slid across the seat until his body was touching Cecil's.
Cecil strained himself away until he was pressing against the car door. "Why?" he mouthed hoarsely. He could see that the man had reached down to his crotch. He was holding something through his clothing, something that looked long and big and hard.
His awful thing! Cecil felt the horror bubble up to his throat. The man's prick his monstrous prick! He saw him fingering his penis lewdly, lasciviously, and then he felt his own penis move with an involuntary sympathetic reaction.
Oh, no! Cecil wanted to scream. He wasn't like that! He wasn't crude and rough and horrible! He was Cecil he was nice!
"Because I like you." The man reached out. His knowing, probing fingers slid unerringly onto Cecil's puny penis. "Because I think you've got a nice little cock," said the man, feeling Cecil through his pants.
Cecil wanted to drag himself away, but there was no place to go. He was trapped against the car door. "No," he pleaded. "Please no."
"Yes," said the man, smiling. "Oh, yes!"
His hand slid open the zipper, and Cecil lay back, feeling helpless, his limbs like water and without enough strength to struggle, to stop the man from ... "No," he groaned. "No!"
The searching fingers found his twitching penis, drew it carefully from within the folds of his clothing, then tickled it gently, delicately, until it gave a tiny rear.
"It's waking up." the man sounded pleased. Then, before Cecil realized what he was going to do, he leaned forward, dropped his head onto Cecil's lap, and rasped, "D*you wanna be sucked off?"
The low sob burst from Cecil's lips. "Don't do that please don't do that!" How could an awful man do this thing to him? This precious thing, this sacred thing that only Alma could do? "Please," he moaned, "please don't!"
But it was too late for please. The thick, sensual lips had closed around his cock, and as Cecil strained against the beginning thrills that made him want to jerk and wriggle his hips, the man's wet tongue slicked a moist passion-pattern of new desires onto the unwilling but eagerly wanting body of the latent boy-child.
"Ooh," Cecil moaned. "Oh oh oh ... Alma!" His voice rose, his body writhed out of his control and became shaken by tremors as he began to pump his hips. The thick, warm lips sucked sweetly, licking tiny lust smears on the smooth curves of the firming penis. "Alma!" Cecil squealed. "Oh, Alma!"
His hips vibrated wildly, his small cock spurted a feeble spray of bittersweet juice onto the man's tongue.
He drew back, glanced at the squirming boy, then licked at the sticky globs of opaque wetness on his lips. He smiled, asked, "Who's Alma?"
Cecil lay back with his eyes closed, his penis spewing out its last feeble dregs of juice. "Iggly," he murmured softly. "Alma! Iggly " then he opened his eyes and saw the man. His face whitened, lips trembled. "You shouldn't have!" he blurted. "Only Alma can do that!" His face was as outraged as his voice.
The man stared at him with a curious expression. He licked an errant sliver of moisture from the edge of his mouth, then asked again, "Who's Alma?"
Cecil was silent for a long time before he answered. "Alma," he swallowed hard, "is my sister."
The man's eyes opened wide in surprise. After a minute he reached down to his crotch, unzipped his pants and eased out his penis. Cecil watched with horror as it swelled before his eyes. The man held it lightly, then gently stroked it up and down.
He smiled at Cecil, then murmured, "Tell me about Alma. All about Alma!"
And, in a few frightened moments, Cecil did ...
Later, the man leaned back, gave Cecil a small, secret smile, and said, "Alma must be quite a girl!"
Cecil had finished his story, had told all about Alma. He hated himself. But when the man told him to do something, a crazy, frightening compulsion forced him to obey.
Big, fleshy buttocks slid across the car seat. Cecil cast his frightened eyes down with an awful fascination. The cock had swollen to a grotesque size. Its slitted tip seemed to open and close menacingly at Cecil's face. Cecil drew himself back, cringed in the corner. The penis seemed to jump when the man spoke ...
"Go down on it."
Cecil flinched. "I-I can't!"
"Suck it!" hissed the man.
"No!" Cecil covered his eyes with his hands.
"Alma did you can, too!" The cruel words cut into Cecil's mind. How could he have talked of Alma to a beast like this?
"N-no oh, please! N-nooo " he pleaded.
"Suck me, you little fairy!" The harsh, passion-filled voice spewed into his ear, then the man leaned forward, pressed his mouth against Cecil's face, dragged his hands away, and* kissed him with a wet, slavering mouth.
"P-pleeeze " Cecil moaned when he had torn away his lips. But the man had grabbed his hair, forced his head down, held his face between his sweating, smelling thighs until Cecil sucked, and sucked, and sucked again ... Until the spitting cock spurted.
When the nauseous mass of juice had burned the back of his throat, Cecil was forced to swallow it, lick every last drop from his trembling lips, his shaking chin until all the dregs of passion-juice that he had dragged from the spewing slit had dribbled into his body.
Chapter 6
Cecil let his tongue slide up from the wet slit onto the dankly growing hairs on the base of Alma's belly.
His lips slicked a moist path through the virgin forest, then paused to caress the tiny button of a navel before they came to a slithery stop between Alma's breasts. He lifted his head, looked into Alma's face imploringly.
She smiled down at him. The expression on her face was more like that of a mother looking at her child than a sister looking at her brother or a female at her lover!
"If you want to " she murmured softly. Then she took her breast between her fingers and squeezed it until the nipple protruded while her eyes beamed a warm ray of invitation to him.
Cecil reached up with his mouth, his lips closed greedily around the firming, rising nipple. He sucked it with wet sounds of pleasure.
Alma pressed her head back against the pillow, her eyes dilated with delight as delicious spirals of rapture eddied through her flesh. Her hand dropped casually onto her other breast. She felt its nipple tensing in sympathy with its twin.
"After you've sucked my other breast," she told Cecil, letting her hand slide down to the smooth softness of her thighs, "you can kiss me on the lips."
Her fingers felt the rippling muscles on the insides of her legs. Then her hand slithered upward, found her moist vagina curling open oozily.
"Here," Alma said softly, sliding her finger into the wetness, "you can kiss my lips here!"
The thrill throbbed through Cecil's body when he heard Alma's words. He sucked, gently chewed more eagerly, more hungrily on the swelling, tensing nipple. He would lick Alma suck her again! His lips worked busily on the nipple. He would be filled with Alma. The wetness from inside her, the sticky, sweet fluid would fill his mouth. His Alma! His mouth!
Oh, Alma! he moaned in silence, I love you! Why can't I be like you, Alma? Why?
Small groans melanged with the love-sounds as Cecil burrowed into Alma's breasts.
Until that night the magic night of their frantic drive to a wondrous happening under the trees Alma had seemed more like a mother to Cecil than his real mother, Joanne, did. He had enjoyed her handling of him dressing, washing him especially when she had soaped his small body, squeezing an exciting lather over his tiny penis until he screamed with delight, but his early feelings had been more of adoration than love.
As he grew older, the sight of his sister's soft and smooth body had caused him envy rather than any other emotion, and even when he became increasingly aware of the growth of Alma's breasts and felt a longing to suck them, grip them with his lips, it had been more the longing of a child for his mother than the lust of a male for a female.
But after his first, thrilling, never-to-be-forgotten experience of an orgasm when Alma's sweet lips had sucked his small penis with such excruciatingly satisfying results his attitude towards his sister had veered to an ambivalent desire to be like her and be part of her at the same time ... To love her, and, by loving her, to experience the thrills that she received when his so-well-experienced tongue slicked into her vagina.
With Blanche, his sexual adventures had slid into a loose pattern. She knew of Alma and the things they did but her hot, ever-ready body still demanded that he satisfy her with a terrifying frequency. And in return, she sucked the sparse juice of joy from Cecil's small penis.
Cecil felt that with Blanche, he shared a sensually exciting partnership; but with Alma, he was her slave, her son, her toy, or her servant. He was the means of making her happy, giving her an orgasm, causing her to come with a wet violence that in itself was the only reward that he ever really wanted. If he was but an instrument that sublimated her sexual desires, he would be her adoring, loving instrument.
If he could not be Alma, he would be what Alma wanted him to be ... If he could not be a girl, he would sense a girl's experiences, vicariously but sensually, through Alma's sexual reactions to his own manipulations.
Cecil had accepted this role with a joyous resignation until that night! The night when Alma had come to his room, propped herself comfortably on his bed, and permitted him to slick his saliva of love onto the sweating cavern of her ever-increasing lust. After, she had let him suck her breasts, smiled at the satisfaction he obtained by the sensuous feel of her nipples in his busy little mouth, then told him: "You can kiss my lips here!" And her eager finger had probed at the mouth of her cunt.
He had kissed the sweating mouth; his tongue had squirmed again into the hotness of her throbbing vulva. Then she had rewarded him given the small lapdog its tidbit by letting her head drop down onto his too soft crotch, placing her warm lips on his limp penis and drawing it into her wet mouth with loving, soothing movements holding his quivering young body with her arms, stretching her hands under his buttocks, drawing him near so that she could swallow more of his meager array of sexual apparatus.
Cecil had straddled Alma's face. His head was close to her still-wet cunt, and his buttocks were above Alma's eyes. She had pried the fleshy bottom wider open. Seeing Cecil's small star between the soft, girl-like cheeks, an odd quirk had made her touch it with her finger. A new tremor had run through Cecil's body.
Alma licked her finger, slicking a warm coat of saliva onto its pointed tip ... Then she jabbed it into Cecil's anus, making him rear forward with a penetrating squeal.
Oh, Alma! he moaned to himself. You've never done that to me before! The strange new pleasure-pain flickered through the flesh on his buttocks, veered forward and touched the tip of his penis then enveloped it. His penis swelled involuntarily. "Alma!" he screamed, "Alma push push, please push!"
For a moment, Alma didn't understand then, as realization dawned on her mind, she thrust her sharp finger into his anal orifice and pushed it fiercely, cruelly ... satisfyingly! Cecil spurted hotly into Alma's mouth!
She felt the burning wetness hit the back of her throat and she moved her head back instinctively. Her tongue moved onto the sticky, warm fluid, tasted it. It was different, stronger more bitter. Alma felt her eyes open wide with surprise. Cecil was never like that! She dragged her lips off Cecil's cock, moved his limp, unmoving body off her face, then wriggled down the bed until her face was close to his. "Cecil," she whispered urgently, "Cecil-what?"
He smiled at her. A tired but happy smile. "Alma " he slurred out her name, "Oh, Alma is that how it feels when you're a girl?"
"Cecil!" She stared at him, each short breath that whistled from her throat panted her disbelief. "Cecil " she half-moaned, "What do you mean?"
He smiled again. "Alma " he started again, speaking as though he was drugged, "Is that how it feels when a man's p p prick plunges into your c cunt?
Alma's face whitened, then she gasped painfully, "I I don't know, Cecil! I I've never had a man's prick pushed into my cunt!"
Cecil smiled sadly. "Neither have I, Alma " he murmured, "Neither have I!"
He was fourteen years old.
Chapter 7
Cecil felt the cold fear start in his belly then spread insidiously to all parts of his body. He rolled his eyes up fearfully and stared at the two youths above him. From where he squatted, the size of their bodies seemed distorted: their legs stretched up and up above Cecil's face and daylight squeezed through the dark Vs at the bottom of their torsos.
"Well, Cecil-sissy-" the bigger boy sneered. "You know Cecil the sissy, Joe?" he asked his companion.
"I sure do," Joe muttered. He crouched down, his face close to Cecil's. "He's the punk who queered it for me with his sister, Alma," he mouthed.
Cecil could smell the liquor on Joe's breath, and see the wild, angry light in his eyes. He shivered, feeling suddenly colder in his brief summer shorts.
"Your precious sister!" Joe hissed into Cecil's face. "I never had a chance to find out just how sweet her precious cunt was."
Cecil saw the ominous bulge in Joe's pants move. "She was quite a girl," he muttered.
The other boy was staring at Cecil, his eyes roaming over the soft, hairless legs below his shorts. "He's got quite a pair of legs for a boy," he muttered. "More like a girl," he sniggered. "Not bad! Not bad at all!"
"Yeah," Joe breathed. His hand went down, squeezed Cecil's leg painfully.
"L-leave me alone," Cecil muttered.
"Don't you like that, Cecil-sissy?" asked Joe, "Don't you get a thrill?" He gripped him higher up, squeezing the soft flesh of his thigh.
Cecil winced. "Don't please don't!" he pleaded.
Joe's other hand moved to the front of his pants. He fingered himself. The bulge seemed to enlarge before Cecil's eyes. "What's the matter, Cecil," Joe muttered, "don't you like that?" He squeezed him again, higher, his fingers sliding inside the leg of Cecil's pants.
"Sure he likes it," the other boy jeered. "Maybe he was jealous of Alma!" He sniggered, "Maybe he wanted you for himself, Joe!"
"Maybe he's going to get me!" Joe's voice was very soft. He glanced at his friend: "What d'you think?"
The boy's face seemed to have tightened up. He glanced around them, guiltily, cautiously, then he took a bottle from his pocket, swigged at it, and muttered, "Why not?" He dropped down beside Cecil, held him while Joe unfastened, then slid off the fourteen-year-old boy's pants. He slipped the silk undershorts off Cecil's white thighs, shivering buttocks, and small, trembling penis, then murmured: "Just a teeny, itty-bitty cock!"
"Turn him over!" the words came out hard and tight from the boy who held Cecil so firmly. "Let's see what what he's got there!"
They twisted the limp body together. Cecil lay on his face the smooth arcs of the cheeks of his bottom quivered.
"He's like a girl," Joe hissed. Then his hand ripped open his pants and his penis thrust out, pulsing and vibrating in Joe's hand. "I'm going in," he muttered, his eyes glazed and nostrils dilated. "I'm gonna fuck his ass!"
And while Cecil was held immobile, Joe's penis probed at the shivering cheeks, slid into the cleft and touched the tiny star then plunged in as a high, terrified squeal rose from Cecil's lips.
"I'm making him!" Joe muttered as he drove in and out relentlessly. The sweat poured from his forehead as his long, thin shaft thrust deep in the anal orifice. "I I'm com coming!"
"Yeah," breathed the boy, gripping Cecil with unsteady hands, "after you me." He wet his suddenly dry lips, "I'll screw his ass after," he breathed as Joe spurted, reared up, then spewed out the last of his juice with sobbing, tearing jerks deep into the body of the stretched-out boy.
Cecil had gone to the beach to sit and look at the water and think. There was so much to think about now. His life at school was a miserable thing. The more he saw of his schoolmates, the less he liked them. "Cecil-sissy!" they'd jeer, pinching his buttocks as he passed them. "Pansy-boy" was the call he heard most often.
His schoolwork was good too good *JG that envy was a part of the dislike that the other boys held for him.
Once, three boys had cornered him when school was over for the day, and taken him to the basement in the home of a boy whose parents were away. There they had practiced a certain crude form of sadism spanking Cecil's white, protesting buttocks until he had screamed with pain. When he had finally dropped to the floor, wriggling and squealing with the pain from his abused bottom, the three of them had dragged out their horrible things their white, ugly cocks and masturbated while staring at his shocked face and trembling, half-naked body. He had hated boys and men just a little bit more after that.
At home, his life was still pleasant in some ways. Alma loved him, used him, and sometimes, in a mild, not unpleasant way, abused his willing, so eager-to-please body. He loved Alma with a devotion which increased rather than lessened as the years went by. She returned his feelings with a warm but casual acquiescence that he had to accept as sufficient.
With Blanche, their sessions of sensuality took place with ever-increasing regularity as she became more hungry, more passionate with every month. To her, Cecil was merely a means a pleasant, lovable means of satisfying her compulsive sex-urge. Her orgasms became terrifying in their intensity and she spewed her saliva of love onto her fragile instrument of appeasement Cecil with wet, racking determination.
In between his life at school and at home, Cecil found the adult games of sex-play disturbing, confusing and sometimes frightening. He noticed men and boys thrust themselves against female bodies on a bus or subway. He saw them sneak their surreptitious feel, their subtle probe of flesh on a soft hip or pliable buttock. Once he saw an older man, his pants bulging at the crotch, force his body against a young girl on a crowded bus. Squeezing his penis against her soft buttocks, pushing forward harder and harder until the frightened child wriggled away. He saw it and hated it. Yet Cecil had been unable to curb the strange thrill that tickled the tip of his penis at the sight.
And the men touched Cecil, too. One man had reached down, on the crowded subway, and touched then held Cecil's limp penis. They had been squashed together, hemmed in by the crowd and there was no way for Cecil to escape if he wanted to and he had wondered, afterwards, whether he had really wanted to!
Another time, another man had pressed hard against his back. Cecil had felt the awful stiffness of the horrible thing thrusting against his buttocks. The small thrill had flickered through his flesh that time, too. But no man had ever entered his body no one had inserted a sliver of lust up his palpitating, sensitive anal canal except Alma with her slick, ever-wet, educated finger ... until that day ... that day at the beach ...
Cecil had not seen them coming. He had been lying on his back, his eyes half-closed, soaking up the sunshine and thinking, when ... the shadows blotted out the warmth from the sun. Cecil had opened his eyes wide, seen them. It was Joe and his friend, Louie. "W-what d'you want?" he had quavered, wriggling up into a squatting position. Then they had showed him ...
When it was over, Joe had mouthed a vicious warning "If you breathe a word to anyone ... " He hadn't had to finish, Cecil had half-turned his head from where he lay facedown on the sand, seen the menacing light in Joe's eye and understood. "I I won't tell anyone," he had sobbed. "I won't say a word!" And he hadn't .,. . except to Alma.
When they had gone, he had lain there the small round circle of redness spreading round the star in the cleft of his raped, abused anus and he had cried silently. Muttering to himself, over and over. I won't tell anyone not anyone but Alma!
Alma had spread a sweet, smooth slick of salve on his ravished little ass. "Did it hurt so much?" she had asked, gently smearing the ointment into the tender anus.
"Yes," he murmured, "it hurt so much but-"
Alma's hand had stopped its delicious movement for a second. "But what?" she breathed, her voice all tight and excited like the boys' voices had been before they ...
"I I don't know," he had muttered, confused, trying to sort out thoughts that he didn't understand ... to put into words ... to explain how he had felt ... what it had been like ... how it had been. "It was like a a " he groped, helplessly, then lapsed into child-talk, "an iggly," he said, "it was like an iggly squiggly!"
"I see," Alma had breathed out the words, then her finger had smeared again, more deeply, more urgently as though she had suddenly become tensely excited.
"It it feels much better now, Alma," he had murmured when she had treated him for a long, long time with her gentle hand.
"I'm glad," Alma whispered.
They were alone in the house. Blanche and Donna were out swimming and their mother was still at work.
"Maybe," murmured Alma, her hand pressing onto her belly as if she had a pain, "we could could " she hesitated as if she was shy as if it was possible for her to be shy after the things they'd done "we could try," she finished.
"Try?" Cecil had stared at her blankly. Then his eyes had gone down to her hand, seen it dragging up her skirt, noticing that she was naked underneath. Her fingers probed through the growing foliage of hair toward her wet lips. "You you want me to kiss it? Suck?" he asked eagerly.
Alma's fingers slid in then out of her moist cunt. "Not suck," she said softly, her lips quivering with excitement, "push in." She looked at him, her face flushing, "push your little thing into my my little hole." She dropped her eyes from his face, then glanced up, adding, "my oozy little hole!"
Cecil's face expressed horror. "But but that would be like like a man would do!" he protested, "You wouldn't want a man's horrible thing in you!" He sounded shocked, outraged.
Alma breathed deeply, her finger worked more urgently. "Not not a man," she mouthed, "you you, Cecil it it would be all right with you."
He stared at her. His Alma ... the one he adored so much ... the one that he'd do anything for anytime anywhere! "Alma," he said very quietly, "if you want me to I will," he dropped his eyes as though he was betraying something, "if you want me to."
"I want you to!" breathed Alma. Then she stretched herself out on the bed, moving fast her flesh baring itself in a white blur of motion and lay back, her hands on either side of the hairy, dusky hole, her fingers parting the curling lips and said: "I'm ready Cecil get on me!" Her voice had become hard, commanding.
Cecil climbed on top of his sister, his smooth flesh trembling as he felt her belly undulating under his. He felt Alma's hand seize his limp prick drag it to the opening lips of her wet, ready cunt then press it inside. The lips closed around it, hugging the softness of it.
Alma hissed into his ear, "Move, Cecil move!" her breath panted from between her quivering lips, "fuck me " she moaned, "fuck my little hole, Cecil!"
He tried, wriggling himself up and down in a frenzy of frustration. His penis, soft, limp, and fragile, slipped out of the wet hole each time he drew back. Alma took it between her fingers, thrust it back in, becoming more tense, more hungry and more frustrated each time.
"Try harder, Cecil-" she sobbed, "try-please try!"
He tried but it did not help the too soft penis slid from the cunt. "It's too big, Alma," he complained, "your little hole's too big!"
"It's not that " she mouthed in sudden anger, "it's you you're too small ... too damned small!"
Cecil looked at Alma's face in shock. She'd never talked like that to him before! It wasn't his fault, he told himself, Alma's hole was too big! Then he wondered ... it had been nice, ishy nice, when his little thing slid into Alma's hole, and maybe ... if he found a smaller hole ... one which ...
"All right, Cecil-get off me-" Alma's voice spewed into his ear. "Suck me " she mouthed, squirming herself into position, "Suck me, Cecil and really suck me good!"
He did as she told him, making her come giving Alma an orgasm a squiggly - an iggly squiggly but not enjoying it so much this time because he was thinking, wondering and worrying, what it would be like to squeeze his little thing into a little hole! A very little hole! An oozy, tiny, wet itty-hole!
Then he thought of his sister, Donna! Donna was nine years old Cecil was fourteen and maybe her little hole was tiny! It must be tiny, he told himself, because she was so tiny! Funny! He'd never thought of Donna that way. Maybe he'd try it sometime with Donna. She wouldn't mind, he told himself and she wouldn't stop him ... She always did whatever he said. And, after all, she was only nine years old!
But Donna was ten when Cecil did it!
Chapter 8
Donna giggled, then bounced her curvy little ten-year-old body up and down on the settee. "Play at what, Cecil?" she asked, tossing her brunette hair exuberantly, "Play at what?"
"Wrestling," he said, trying to keep his voice steady, "like we see them on TV like they do in the arena."
"I never played that!" the little girl stared at her brother, her eyes very wide.
"It'll be fun!" Cecil's voice was husky, not high like it usually was.
"All right," said Donna, squirming herself onto the thick rug beside Cecil, "let's start."
She grabbed him, still giggling, and tried to pull his shoulders onto the floor. Cecil let himself slide over, his arm round Donna's waist, then his hand slipped down, caught in the elastic of her tiny panties, and seemingly accidentally wrenched until they tore. Donna rolled away from Cecil. "My panties!" her mouth made a big, round O "you've ripped my panties!"
"Sorry," said Cecil hoarsely, then he grinned, "Wrestlers don't wear panties take them off! They're in the way."
"Wouldn't that be awful?" Donna's guileless eyes looked shocked.
Cecil shook his head. "No it'll be all right look," he went on eagerly, "I'll take mine off, too!" He began to unfasten his jeans.
Donna giggled. "S'funny " she said.
Cecil suddenly stopped with his hand at the waist of his jeans. "Let's go upstairs," he hissed, though they were alone in the house. "Well wrestle on the bed it'll be softer than the floor."
Donna gave a small shiver of excitement. "Okay," she said in a conspiratorial whisper, "we'll go on mom's bed it's big ... much wider than mine!"
For a second, Cecil became very still. His mom's bed! The bed that ... that he'd heard if not seen that man, Brad, push his horrible thing his prick into the blonde, beautiful body of his mom! His mom's bed! "All right," he said after a moment, "well wrestle on the big bed, Donna."
And they scurried up the stairs.
Cecil was fifteen years old when he took Donna upstairs to play "the wrestling game" on his mother's bed, but he had thought of it so many times since that night when Alma had told him he was "too damned small!" He'd always remembered that remembered it with a sense of hurt pride ... that Alma could say that to him to hurt him after all that he did to her, for her! Alma! His adorable Alma!
He had thought of Donna, so lively, so filled with fun all the time ... and, so tiny! He wouldn't be too small for her, he told himself. He shouldn't be too small for Donna! So he had waited for the opportunity: a time when they would be together in the house, alone and there would be a reason ^. .he would find a reason ... to get his hands on her cuddly little body, her soft little hole! Get his thing in her ...
"Let's start." she panted with excitement when they stood beside the big double bed in his mother's room. "Let's play!"
"All right," Cecil's voice was low. He dragged his jeans down, watching Donna's face as he did it. She hesitated a moment, then reached under her short, brightly colored dress and slipped off her torn panties.
Cecil had a tantalizing glimpse of soft, brunette fuzz as the silk slipped down then he slid his fingers in the waistband of his own thin undershorts and glided them down.
Donna stared at him with curiosity. "You've got a pointed peeper," she murmured, and Cecil realized that it was the first time Donna had seen the 'little thing' that was so familiar to Blanche and Alma. The thought caused it to stiffen slightly. Cecil drew in his breath. It never did that without a reason! Sometimes it was hard for Alma to make it get hard at all. He recalled the time she used to spend, sucking, licking, titillating it to make him have an oozy an iggly.
"You haven't " he muttered to his little sister.
She blushed. "No-"
He stared at her as she stood still, holding her hand on the hem of her short dress, pressing it inward, over her untouched vagina. It should be a very little hole, he thought. He scrambled towards her quickly, seized her warm little body and tussled her onto the bed. They rolled together, wrestling, holding each other in a series of breathless maneuvers.
"It's fun!" Donna gasped, as Cecil locked his arms round her back, rolled her on top of him, causing her skirt to ride up.
"Yes," he breathed, feeling her flesh touch his, "I like it."
"Me, too," she murmured. She could feel Cecil's hand on her bottom. He seemed to be trying to hold her down, but his fingers kept slipping in to the cleft. She wriggled her buttocks and his hand slid down right between her plump little legs. She giggled, twisted herself over, and his hand slithered onto her belly* She felt the fingers move down. " Y-you're tickling!" Her voice was breathless.
Cecil felt her tiny slit. His penis became harder bigger than it had ever been. "Am I hurting?" he panted. His finger touched the teeny bud of a developing clitoris.
"No," she panted, "Not hurting, but " her voice broke off suddenly.
Cecil's finger had slid off the tiny clitoris it squeezed between the tight lips. Her cunt was so small! So small yet wet! She lay very still, not wrestling any more. Cecil could hear her heavy breathing as his finger slid gently in then out. "Hurt?" he breathed anxiously.
She shook her head, making her brunette hair brush against his face. "Not hurt, but " she said again, breathlessly.
"Nice?" he asked. Inserting his finger more deeply.
Her buttocks tensed. "Uum," she muttered, holding her lower lip between her teeth. "It it's a funny feeling!" she gave a breathless giggle.
"An an iggly feeling?" he asked.
"Yes," she whispered, "so iggly iggly!"
His small cock had grown. Cecil trembled as he rolled Donna onto her back, squirmed on top of her.
"Wh-what're you doing?" she gasped as he slid his body between her juicy little legs, prying her thighs wider apart with his knees.
"Just just tickling you," he muttered.
She gave an excited giggle. "With your pointed peeper?" she asked.
His penis was poised at the tiny, slightly open lips. Cecil eased the tip in. "Yes," he whispered, fighting to stop the pounding of his heart, "It's fun!"
She was wetter inside now. He thrust his penis in a little more. "I ' I feel filled," she panted, then her voice rose into a tiny squeal. "That hurt!"
He ignored her moan, thrust in deeply, painfully. There was a tiny tear and Donna's new scream was shriller.
"Eeeeh, Cecil!" the sound bubbled from her lips, "You're tearing me!" she squealed higher.
But it was too late for Cecil to stop now his lunges went in deeper, pressing to the back of the tiny cunt, filling his small sister's vagina with a firming, strengthening penis. Donna's squeals came lower, then stopped. Cecil sweated as he worked with a frenetic zeal on the softly, squirming flesh.
"It it doesn't hurt anymore," Donna mouthed. Her small, plump hips began to work gently.
Cecil plunged in squelched out from the moist, oozy hole. She was so wet, he thought, but it felt so good!
"It's nice!" Donna's voice sounded different. She had wrapped her small legs around his back, her heels pressed on his buttocks. She moved herself with an instinctive roll as if her delectable little body had been created especially for this. "Push," she muttered, "there's a funny swishy feeling inside.
"Donna," Cecil panted, "Oh, Donna," he was beginning to reach a climax.
"Push, Cecil," mouthed Donna, "Sig swig-" she bubbled.
"Donnaaaaah!" Cecil's voice rose in a high arc of ecstasy his penis jumped and jerked inside the wet warmth of the little body.
"Swish swig " she bubbled, gripping more tightly with her thighs then opening and closing her legs spasmodically.
"I'm I'm swigging, Cecil I'm swiggling!" She jerked her buttocks opened and closed. The trickle of blood from her opened cunt slid onto the cleft of her bottom. "Swiiiiig!" she screamed.
Cecil lurched, gasped and spurted ...
Joanne pushed the bedroom door wide open then stood frozen in shocked agony. Her face whitened and she staggered as though she was about to faint then the scream came bubbling from her mouth. "CECIL!" She took a shaking step towards the bed, "Get off her, you " she spat the words out as if they were vile, living things, "filthy brat! Get off Donna!" Her voice rose on the last word and she reached down, grabbed Cecil's hair, pulled him off the undulating body of his sister. "Oh, Donna," she moaned, "My poor, little girl!" She reached down to her daughter.
Donna looked up her small body was rosy with her exertions and excitement. "Mom," she panted, "I was all squiggly! she squeaked, "I was all wet and nice!"
Joanne drew back her hand. She looked at Donna as if she was a monstrous snake. "Go go to your room." she moaned, screwing her eyes shut. "Get into your room!" she shrieked.
Donna squirmed off the big double bed with the small red patch in the middle. Her bottom flashed whitely as she scurried through the door.
Joanne stared at the redness on the virginally white sheet, then bit her lip. "You filthy little pig!" she mouthed at her son.
Cecil had slid to the floor. He stared up at his mother as she spewed the words at him, then let herself drop onto the edge of her bed. She was so beautiful. He stared at her lustrous hair, so blonde so delicious. Why did she talk to him like that?
"To your sister!" she moaned, "Your own little baby sister!"
"S-she liked it," he muttered. Joanne's eyes opened wider in horror. "You horrible, little beast!" Her voice was vicious. Why did she talk like that? Cecil stared at his mother. Her legs were in front of his eyes. So long, slim wonderful!
His eyes went up. "You did with with Brad," he muttered.
"W-what?" Joanne's voice became incredulous.
Cecil's eyes had filled with tears. "You didn't have to, mom," he sobbed, "You didn't have to let Brad push his horrible prick into you. I I'd have done it for you with my tongue! I'd have made you come." He leaned forward and buried his face between the white, naked thighs below his mother's miniskirt.
Joanne's hand lashed down in a vicious, terrified arc. "You monster!" She pushed his face away as if he was a slimy thing. "Get away from me! Don't go near Donna! Go out into the shed don't ever come to this bedroom again!"
Cecil had crawled to the door with his jeans in his hand.
"Don't come back in the house 'til I tell you!" his mother had screamed. Her face was all tightened up, vicious, hateful. "I don't know when I'll let you in!"
She looked like a witch, Cecil thought as he limped down the stairs, an evil, ugly witch!
Chapter 9
Things were never the same for Cecil after his mother had come home so unexpectedly, so shockingly, and surprised him and Donna in their "wrestling game." He had sat by himself in the lonely lean-to shed the same spot that he and Blanche had enjoyed such intimate sessions and thought about what his mother had said to him. She hated him! he told himself. Not because of what he was doing with Donna, but for what he had said about her and Brad! He knew that with an instinctive intuition that was more female than male. He should have been a girl! Girls didn't get the blame for things like that. Girls were always right when boys were wrong. Girls were nice! Boys were nasty. Why hadn't he been born a girl?
Joanne had questioned Alma and Blanche. Cecil knew that! What they had said, he never knew, but Joanne wasn't taking any chances anymore. Not with Cecil! Cecil was bad! he told himself bitterly.
Alma, nineteen at that time, was sent to live with an aunt in the city on the pretext that she could take lessons in preparation for a career in business administration. Cecil knew that the real reason was to get her away from him. Him, Cecil! He wanted to laugh when he thought of it. A bitter laugh. Bitter and sad. Alma had been so wonderful. She wasn't afraid of him.
And Blanche ... Blanche had been sent away to an exclusive girls' school in the east, where she would live and sleep and only come home for holidays. Blanche was safely out of his fiendish reach! Cecil told himself sourly.
Joanne kept Donna as far away from Cecil as she could. Donna slept in the same room as her mother now, and Joanne spent more time at home. At least, Cecil's activities with Donna had put a brake on her relationship with Brad!
There was another thing that Cecil had learned. Something that made his stomach twist and turn with a sick sensation of revulsion. He knew why his mother and Brad had been the way they were. Brad was married! So why did he want to stick his horrible, big prick in his mother? Cecil asked himself bitterly why?
If it hadn't been for Beverly, Cecil's life would have been unendurable. Beverly was sixteen years old when Cecil met her. Almost exactly the same age as he was. He would never have met her if he hadn't gone to the dance that night. Gone unwillingly, but gone just the same because he did everything his mother told him.
"For God's sake, why don't you go out somewhere?" his mother had shouted as he had sat in the lounge, staring in front of him at nothing in particular.
"Where?" he had muttered, twisting his hands together, feeling unwanted, unwelcome.
"Anywhere," Joanne snapped, then she'd taken a deep breath. "There's a school dance on tonight why don't you go?" She tried to make her voice more pleasant. "It'll do you good. You never go anywhere!"
"All right," he'd said, "I'll go." And he'd dressed desultorily, mooched down to the dance and met Beverly.
He had felt ill-at-ease. There were boys he knew at the dance: boys he didn't like and who didn't like him. He saw Joe and Louie! Cecil felt his face color. They looked across the room, noticed him, then Joe muttered to Louie and they both sniggered. The bastards! Cecil thought. The lousy bastards! He felt a strange, squirmy sensation running through his flesh as he remembered. That big brute, Joe! He tensed himself, squeezing his buttocks tightly together as though he was stopping the horrible cock from screwing into his ass. The rotten slob! But it hadn't hurt so much ... The unbidden thought hammered into his mind. It didn't really hurt! He screwed his eyes shut, trying to blot out the thought. And when he opened them he saw Beverly.
She was sitting by herself: prim, quiet and proper. Cecil had known her very casually when he was much younger and she had taken art lessons in the same special class as himself.
He moved beside her, hesitantly. "Hello," he said quietly, "Remember me?"
She flinched away at the sound of his voice, then recognized him. "Hello, Cecil," she'd said, smiling, "Do you still draw?"
He'd shaken his head, trying to wonder what he did do ... Trying to think of something to say ...
A fellow came up, asked Beverly to dance. She shook her head, nodding towards Cecil. The fellow moved away, casting a scowl in Cecil's direction. Cecil knew him he was in his class at school.
"You didn't have to do that," he told Beverly, "You coulda danced with him."
"I'd rather just talk," she said, giving him a small smile. "I I'm not crazy about dancing."
He wondered why she came to the dance but didn't put the question into words.
"I came here because my mother was sick of looking at me," he said, the words sounding more bitter than he'd intended.
"Why, whatever do you mean, Cecil?" Beverly's voice was surprised.
He had shrugged away the question and later they had danced together. Then, because she lived near Him and there didn't seem to be a particular fellow that she was waiting for, he'd asked, then walked her to her home. He had squeezed her hand outside her house, murmured a hurried goodnight, and was turning away when she stopped him.
"Cecil," she said, looking serious yet pleased at the same time, "It's been fun."
Fun! he thought. They hadn't done anything. Hardly danced ... yet ... "I enjoyed it very much," he said before he walked away.
He should've kissed her goodnight, he told himself as he mooched slowly home. Pressed himself against her, like a guy was supposed to, trying to get her worked up so he could push his big prick between her prim but sweet little thighs. That's what other guys would've done! Maybe that's what she'd expected. But he didn't want to do that not to her. Who did he want to do that to? he asked himself. Donna? Or was that just something that happened? He didn't know. But he did know that he didn't need to worry about his big prick because he didn't have a big one. It was small, so damned small, as Alma had told him so long ago, that it hadn't even torn little Donna's virginal cunt! The blood that'd oozed onto the bed had just been from her ruptured hymen!
Poor little Donna! Did she mind losing her virginity at such a tender age? Was he really a bastard? And what of him ... what was going to become of him? He couldn't get any pleasure from putting his prick inside a girl a normal-sized girl, he corrected himself Alma had shown him that so very, very clearly. And he hated boys! He was a mess! He understood now that a lot of the guys at school thought he was a queer! Gay a fellow that wanted boys instead of girls. But it wasn't so ... he hated boys! He liked girls but he didn't want to shove his prick into the ones he met ... All he really wanted was to be one!
He thought of Beverly. Too bad he couldn't be friends with Bev the way he'd been friends with Alma! Cecil missed Alma and Blanche, too. His mother had sure turned his life upside down ... just because of Donna! All he really wanted with Bev was to have a friend to talk to, go places with ... But she wouldn't be content with that, he told himself sadly. She'd want more than that ... Maybe a guy like Joe, he thought, wincing at the idea and wondering why it should matter to him ... But he was wrong because the next time he met Beverly, so very casually on the street, she was pleased to see him, and she'd said: "I'm going to see an exhibition by Mooner, and I've got a spare ticket, would you like to come?" Mooner was the new painter that everyone was talking about. Tickets to see his first exhibition were very rare and precious. "Well, thanks, Beverly," he'd told her, feeling surprised and pleased, "I'd like that very much."
After viewing the exhibition they'd had coffee together, then he'd taken her to her house. "I got a lot of new tapes and recordings," she'd said shyly, and Cecil had remembered that she liked the same kind of music as him, soft and sweet, "how would you like to come to the house on Friday night and play some?" She had looked at him anxiously, as if afraid she'd said the wrong thing.
Cecil swallowed. He'd like to, but ... "Your parents," he began, "they won't mind if-"
"They'll be away," she cut in too quickly, "they're going away for the weekend. Ill be all alone." She dropped her eyes.
Was she blushing? Cecil wondered. Girls weren't usually so shy! "Sure," he'd muttered, his throat feeling tight, "that'd be swell, Beverly."
"Around eight," she had told him before he wended his way bank home.
Cecil had told his mother that he would be out that night and she'd sounded glad.
"What time'll you be back?" she'd asked.
He'd shrugged. "Don't know," he'd muttered.
"Be sure to phone me," she'd told him, her voice unnecessarily sharp, "let me know exactly when."
"Sure," he'd answered, realizing that she must be inviting Brad over for the evening and wanted to have him out before Cecil came home, "I'll phone," he said, then added, "and warn you." He slouched up to bed before she could answer.
"You know, Cecil," said Beverly, as they lounged in the deep settee in the den that she'd made for herself at home, "you're the first fellow I've ever invited to come in here."
Cecil looked pleased. "Is that so? I'm very glad, Beverly I " then he'd felt a strange hesitation in his voice, "I like being with you."
Her eyes smiled at him warmly. "Me, too," she murmured, "I like it." She had leaned back and let out her breath with a sigh. "I I can relax with you more than with anyone else."
"You know a lot of boys," he'd murmured.
"Some," she admitted, then added, "but I don't like it when when" her voice trailed off and a small pink blush spread across her cheeks.
"When what?" Cecil asked quietly. She stirred uncomfortably. "You know," she murmured, "You know what I mean."
Cecil took a deep breath. "You mean when they try to squeeze you press against you probe with their hands?"
"It's not that," she cut in, "it's what would come after."
"Like push it into you?"
She turned her face away. "Yes I hate that."
"You don't want to have a big prick squeezed into your little hole," Cecil mouthed.
"Don't say it!" She turned to him, her face shocked. "I I'm surprised at you, Cecil! Are you like all-the others?"
"No," he muttered, "I'm not like them at all. I hate that, too. I I don't like to think of that at all!"
Beverly turned, stared into his face. "Are you like they say you are, Cecil? Do you like men?"
"I hate men!" He mouthed the words viciously.
Beverly seemed to hold herself very still, very tensely when she asked, "What do you like, Cecil? Tell me what you really like."
Cecil's eyes flickered to her face, then down her trim and prim little body. Her skirt was shorter than the one she'd worn at the dance, and her knees and thighs were still prim but very shapely. Cecil could see a small gleam of white at the top of her stockings. "Do you really want to know what I like?" he asked, his voice tight.
"Yes," she breathed.
"I I'd like to kiss you and suck you here." His hand flashed across her thigh, touched the hem of her skirt lightly, then stroked her flesh, before he removed his hand as quickly as he'd placed it there. "That's what I'd like," he said, "but only if you'd like it." He stopped speaking, sat very still with his hands clasped together.
Beverly lay back, her eyes half-shut as if she was thinking. "Kiss me there " she whispered, "you mean kiss me there with your lips?"
"Yes," Cecil felt a thrill run through his body, he could feel Alma throbbing in his bones, "with my mouth touch you with my tongue " his voice was as low, vibrant murmur.
"Just just touch me with your tongue?" Beverly's eyes were closed and when she stopped speaking, her lips remained parted.
"Only my tongue," he whispered.
She was quiet for a long time then she opened her eyes, smiled at Cecil and murmured so very gently, "I-I think I'd like that!"
Beverly swiveled her body until her feet swung onto the wide settee. As her knees went up, her skirt slid to her waist. Above the nylon stockings, her thighs were bare: they dazzled Cecil's eyes with their whiteness. The neat triangle was filled with lustrous hair as black as the hair on Beverly's meticulously groomed head. Cecil stared at it longingly. No needless underclothes barred his view ... His eyes flickered down to the apex ... then Beverly parted her thighs, slid her buttocks towards him, and her hands went down to the lips of her vagina. "Yesss, Ceciiil," she hissed softly, "Yess." Her fingers spread back the small, red lips ... He saw the pink mound, its slit ... then his head went down.
Oh Beverly, he moaned beneath his breath as his tongue slid out, touched the wet lips, caressed them. He drew the rising clitoris into his mouth ... sucked it strongly ... felt Beverly raising her buttocks, thrusting herself towards him ... and heard the small, sweet sound of rapidly indrawn breath. Cecil had missed it so much! He had never realized just how much he had missed Alma and Blanche until now ... He sucked, hungrily, eagerly feeling Beverly squirm, moan her high moans of delight then thrust his tongue into the wet, lovable ooziness of the palpitating vulva ... until she came.
Beverly reached down, pulled Cecil's head into her crotch more deeply. She felt the small worm that was his tongue wriggle in then writhe out ... She made squeals of joy, rotating her hips in tiny paroxysms of orgiastic frenzy. "Ooh Cecil " she breathed rapturously, "Oh, Cecil!"
When it was over, Beverly leaned back on the settee, met Cecil's eyes with hers, then smiled tenderly. Beverly was different! Cecil thought wonderingly. She'd had her orgasm with a quiet but passionate intensity. She came with a voluptuousness that was in some strange way still prim, still proper: as though, even in this near-ultimate act of self-abandonment, she still retained a part of her own, precious reserve. She was not like Alma, Cecil told himself, remembering the violence of his sister's orgiastic contortions. Not like Blanche, with her wild, hungry drive for satiation: her ever-ready passion and desire which was never ever really completely or finally sublimated. Blanche had always been ready for more ... then more again! But Beverly ... she had her moment of passion, her orgasm enveloped her neat, compact little body with sensual but controlled waves of frenzy then, when it was over, Beverly was herself again: her sensitive, quiet little self.
That's how he would be ... if he was a girl! The thought impinged itself without warning on Cecil's mind. He felt a small shock, stared at the young girl beside him seeing not only her but himself as he might have been. If he was a girl ... he'd want to be like Beverly! Why couldn't he be a girl like Bev!
"Cecil " Beverly reached out, took his hand in a strangely old-fashioned, almost formal, gesture, "that was wonderful." Her eyes were brighter than they had been a few moments before, and a tiny current of electricity seemed to spark from her fingers to his when they touched.
"Yes," he agreed quietly, "it was wonderful!"
Beverly gave a deep sigh, asked, "Cecil who who did you do that to? She dropped her eyes. "I I mean before."
Cecil only hesitated for a moment before he told Beverly: "My sisters."
She drew in her breath sharply. "Alma and Blanche?" she asked. Beverly knew Cecil's sisters well.
"Yes," he admitted. She squeezed his fingers, as if she was trying to show that she understood. "Did did your mother know?" she murmured.
"I I think she did," Cecil paused, then: "That's why she sent them away. I think that's why ... to get them away from me." A bitter note of self-pity had crept into his voice. "My mother hates me," he muttered.
Beverly's grip on his hand tightened. "Don't say that, Cecil!"
"It's true," he muttered, "I can feel it all the time." He took a deep breath, then put the nebulous thought into words for the first time: "As soon as I finish school, I'm gonna leave home!"
"Oh, Cecil," Beverly leaned her head against his shoulder and Cecil tried to remember if any girl had ever done that before. "What're you going to do?" Beverly asked.
"I don't know," he mumbled, "I haven't really thought it all out I just want to get away."
Beverly let her lips touch his cheek very gently. "What d'you want to be, Cecil?" she asked.
He let his breath out painfully and his body slumped into the settee more deeply. "I'd like " he began, then turned his head, looked into the brown eyes so close to his face, "I'd like to be just like you, Bev," he said, "that's what I'd like!"
Beverly blushed, smiled. "That's a very sweet thing to tell a girl," she said tenderly.
"You're a very sweet girl," he told her.
She stroked the side of his face, gently. "And you're a sweet boy," she said.
But he didn't want to be a boy, Cecil whispered to himself, he wanted to be a girl! Just like Bev!
PART TWO
After
Chapter 10
Cecil entered the shop and stared around curiously. It was the first time he had ever been inside a theatrical supplies store and the bizarre stock of merchandise attracted his eyes like a magnet. He was fingering the material of a flimsy ballet tunic when the man's voice startled him.
"Yes? Can I help you?" He was a small man, fiftyish, with a trace of a potbelly on spiderish legs. His eyes fastened on Cecil with interest. "You're in ballet?" he asked.
Cecil shook his head. "No," he took a deep breath then told the story he had so carefully rehearsed. "I I have a part in a play," he murmured, his voice unconvincing even to his own ears, "and I want to try on an outfit a a costume," he corrected himself, "to to see how I look."
"What kind of a costume?" asked the man, "What part do you play?"
"I I play the part of a girl," murmured Cecil, almost inaudibly.
"Oh!" the man rubbed his chin thoughtfully, then asked, "A transvestite?"
"What?" Cecil didn't quite understand.
The potbellied man sighed, "D'you want to look like a man dressed as a girl or just like a girl ... an ordinary girl?"
"That's what I want," breathed Cecil, "just to look like an ordinary girl."
"That shouldn't be any problem," the man eyed Cecil's physique thoughtfully, "I'll bet you could step right into a regular size," he murmured, then asked, "How tall are you?"
"Five-four," Cecil told him.
"D'you want to come to the dressing room in the back and try some dresses on?" the man asked.
"Yes," Cecil felt a warm glow spread through his body, "I'd like to do that." He watched as the man moved to the end of the old-fashioned counter, pulled back a curtain, then nodded his head to Cecil. "You can change in here," he told him, "there's a stock of standard sizes on the rack in the closet."
Cecil moved forward eagerly and stepped into the small room. There were mirrors and lights ... It was just like a stage dressing room, Cecil realized.
"Ever worn girl's clothes before?" the man asked casually.
Cecil shook his head, feeling his face flush as errant memories of squirming into Alma's panties and Blanche's tight silk briefs flickered through his mind. "No," he said quietly, "I've never dressed up as a girl."
"I'd better help you then," the man gave a fat laugh, "you don't wanna get tangled up in a skirt!"
Cecil smiled, silently.
"My name's Benny," the man said ... And Cecil remembered seeing the name over the door: Benny's Theatrical Supplies. "I own the shop," he grinned, "such as it is ... I used to do makeup in Hollywood," he added as though it was something to be proud of.
"Is that so?" said Cecil politely.
"Yeah," said Benny, "Quite a while ago-" his voice trailed off and he moved to a closet, opened the door.
"You just want the externals?" he asked, "or the whole bit underwear, stockings all that?"
"Th the whole bit," said Cecil, swallowing the lump in his throat. He waited while Benny went into his shop, collected stockings, garter belt, panties and brassiere then he caught his breath when Benny murmured:
"You got the right kind of figure for a part like this," then he glanced at Cecil's face and added apologetically, "If you don't mind my saying so."
"No," he murmured, "I don't mind " and he felt the glow spreading through his body more strongly.
"Take, your time," murmured Benny as he moved to the curtain, "let me know when you're changed " his eyes flickered over Cecil's body, "I'm curious to see how you look."
"All right," said Cecil, his eyes on the small, exciting pile of female apparel, "I'll let you know."
"If you need somethin' just holler " said Benny as he went back into his shop.
Cecil tried to curb the tremor in his body. He picked up a small item of clothing with shaking hands, held it gently, tenderly against his body. He was going to be a girl! he told himself with restrained excitement. Me, Cecil a girl! Slowly, curbing the tingling thrill that shivered through his flesh, Cecil began to undress.
The first thing he must do, Cecil had decided, was find put if he really looked like a girl when he was dressed in the right clothes. Then, if he passed that first small but so important test, he would continue with his plan. Benny's Theatrical Supplies was a forty-five minute busride from where he lived and Cecil was glad of that. He didn't want to run into someone he knew when he was wearing girl's clothes! Not now not yet! He wanted to try them out first . , . And try them on the street, too!
"Geezus! I I can't hardly believe it!" Benny's eyes seemed to pop from his head as he stared at Cecil.
The short, woolen skirt hugged Cecil's hips, enhancing the girlishness of them and his legs, now that they were encased in silk and with the high-heeled shoes (that Cecil had found in the bottom of the closet) pushing out his calves, looked more like female limbs than male. Beneath the satin blouse, the special brassiere with its built-in foamy nipples fitted over Cecil's already overdeveloped breasts to give an appearance of sweet young buds. Without any further aids, Cecil already looked like a young developing girl.
"You look one hundred percent female!" Benny breathed as he moved close to Cecil, reached out touched a softly rounded hip. "You even feel like a girl," he muttered as his fingers squeezed pliable flesh. Benny grinned: "How do you feel?"
Cecil looked at him with wide, suddenly shy eyes. "Like a girl," he whispered, "just like a girl!"
Benny sank down onto a chair. "I can believe that," he muttered devoutly, "I sure as hell can believe that! Lift up your skirt!" Benny made lifting movements with his hand, "I gotta see if your legs look as good as the rest."
Cecil smiled, enjoying himself more than he ever remembered. He raised the tight skirt to his hips. "Geezus Chrise!" Benny muttered again. "Perfect!" His eyes flickered up to where the tight, pink silk panties stretched across the small penis that was unnoticeable through the skirt. "Sure you ain't a girl?" Benny's voice was husky.
Cecil just smiled.
Benny jerked himself upright, reached out to Cecil's crotch, gripped the softness of his tiny cock. His eyes went to Cecil's face, he smiled: "Only just " he murmured enigmatically. He drew his hand away, slowly, reluctantly. "Gotta fix your face an' your hair," he muttered.
Cecil looked at him questioningly.
"Sit down here," Benny motioned to a stool in front of a makeup shelf. He grinned at Cecil's expression. "Forgotten that I'm a makeup man?" he asked.
"Yes," murmured Cecil as he seated himself daintily on the stool, "I'd forgotten." Benny skillfully applied eye shadow. "You sound like a girl, too," he murmured as he worked. "You'll be okay in the play you were telling me about."
Cecil flushed beneath the light layer of matte foundation that Benny had spread on his cheeks. "Don't you even have to shave?" Benny had asked in awe. Did Benny suspect that he'd been lying, he wondered.
"What's your name?" Benny asked as he touched Cecil's eyebrows very lightly.
Cecil took a deep breath, then said what he'd been telling himself he would say when he was able: "Cecile," he murmured softly and sweetly.
"Cecile!" Benny repeated. "That's a girl's name!"
"Yes," murmured Cecil. "I'm a girl."
Benny's hand stopped its work on Cecil's face then he grinned, resumed his task. "You really live the part, don't you ... Cecile?" he said, emphasizing the end of the name.
Cecil smiled, moistened his lips.
Benny noticed it. He sat very still. "You could pass as a girl did you know that?"
Cecil leaned forward eagerly. "You mean that, Benny?" he asked, remembering the mans name."
"Yeah sure every little thing you do is is like a girl! Are you actin'?"
"No," Cecil shook his head, "I-I'm just being myself."
Benny spoke as though his throat was too tight. "You you shoulda bin a girl!"
"Yes," Cecil wasn't smiling anymore, "I I shoulda!"
"I want to take a walk on the street," said Cecil when his makeup job was completed.
"Like that?" asked Benny.
"Yes," Cecil murmured, "Like this ... I want to to see if anyone notices anything ... you know ... anything wrong."
Benny frowned. "You you're not supposed to " he began, then shook his head, laughed: "No one'll see anything wrong. All they'll see is a girl," he hesitated, then flushed as he added: "a pretty, young girl!"
"Why, thank you, Benny!" Cecil cooed out the words like a sweet, young chick. "I won't take long." He gave Benny a smile, "Not worried about the clothes and and things, are you?"
"Naw."
"There's enough cash in my old clothes to " Cecil began but Benny interrupted.
"I ain't worried about nothin' ... Cecil " he added self-consciously. "When when you come back I'll have a surprise for you."
He sat at the counter in the drug store and ordered coffee. It was a slack part of the day and when the waitress had served him, she lingered.
"You work in the office up above?" she asked curiously.
"No-no," Cecil answered nervously, "I I don't work or live around here." He felt awkward, fearful of an adverse reaction.
"Good for you," the girl smiled remarking, "it's a lousy district " and she moved down the counter to serve a new customer.
Cecil gave a sigh of relief. His first small test ... It had been okay!
The customer was entering the drug store as Cecil was leaving. The man held the door open for him, brushed his hand lightly across Cecil's buttocks as he passed. Cecil didn't need to hear the low, quiet whistle that came from the man's lips to know that he had passed another small test. He felt elated.
"Well?" asked Benny as soon as Cecil entered the shop, "How'd it go?"
Cecil turned bright eyes on the potbellied, little man. "Wonderful," his voice was soft and thrilling, "They they really accepted me as as a girl!" There was a shade of wonder in his tone.
"What else " Benny spoke, gruffly. He moved to the back of the shop, "here this is for you."
Cecil took the small pair of satin panties from Benny's outstretched hand. "They're cute, Benny " then a note of puzzlement crept into his voice, "the ones that I'm wearing are fine, though."
Benny laughed, took the satin briefs back and turned them inside out. "Look," he told Cecil, "these are really special. They're braced no one'll ever know you you've got a cock when you wear these!" His face was red as he finished speaking, then he laughed self-consciously, "You know somethin' funny?
I feel kinda funny when I say cock to ya just as though as though you're really a girl!"
Cecil's cheeks flushed, faintly, delicately.
"Come on," Benny's voice was gutteral, "Let's see ya try 'em on." He moved to the dressing room, satin panties in his hand, with urgent, eager steps.
After a breathless second, Cecil followed him.
"I I guess they're the right size," Benny's voice was tight. He stood close to Cecil and his hand slipped down. "Geezus your flesh is soft," he said hoarsely as he touched Cecil's buttocks. His hand slithered over the cleft in his bottom, probed gently into it. He stepped back suddenly. "Okay, Cecile," and he said the name without any hesitation this time, [[try 'em on!"
Cecil wriggled out of the woolen skirt as though it was something he'd been doing all his life his fingers slipped inside the waistband of his briefs and his eyes flickered to Benny's face shyly. "I I feel strange doing this in front of of you, Benny," he murmured. The panties slid down; Cecil turned, showing his white, smoothly curved buttocks. Benny drew in his breath noisily.
Cecil dragged on the special pair of satin panties. They were tight, snug, and when he had them on there was not the slightest trace of a protuberance at the base of his belly.
Benny muttered, "Perfect they're perfect, Cecile!" His eyes filled with admiration.
Cecil looked at himself in the mirror. He looked like Blanche, h"j thought. How often had he watched Blanche parade around the bedroom in her newest briefs, showing them off to him rousing the envy in his heart which was always so close to the surface! He didn't need to envy Blanche, not anymore! Cecil walked to Benny. "Feel them," he said, 'they fit me like a glove."
"Yeah," Benny stroked Cecil's hips gently, "like a glove is right."
Cecil stood back, slid the satin down his skin, wriggled himself out of them. He turned in time to see Benny staring at his naked buttocks with a fixed glaze in his eyes. He dropped the satin briefs.
"Geezus Chrise!" said Benny with feeling.
Cecil bent to retrieve the briefs off the floor. His buttocks protruded into the air as his hands went down.
Benny slid to the side of the small room so that he was still behind Cecil, still looking at the smooth flesh that shimmered in the light. "Geezus!" he said and moved up close behind Cecil. "You know somethin', Cecile," he muttered, his hand gliding onto the smooth skin again, "I I ain't no queer or nothin' like that but but just lookin' at you, ... it it's given me a hard. You know what I mean my cock's as hard as hell!"
Cecil remained motionless, barely breathing.
Benny's pants were open at the front, he pushed his body against Cecil, gently. "I I" Benny panted.
Then Cecil felt something touch his buttocks ... Something moist that wriggled and pulsed ... "I wanna screw you, Cecile so help me I wanna screw you!"
The test! Cecil thought. The final test! He wriggled his flesh against the hot, little man. he was still leaning forward: the cheeks of his bottom was still stretched open. Benny's hands rested on the sides of Cecil's hips then something warm and hard touched the tiny mouth of his star.
Benny moved himself very slowly, very lightly. "Cecile," he panted, his penis poised at the opening of the anus, "Can I?" his voice rose too high, "I I ain't never done nothin' to a girl if she-she didn't want me to. Cecile, tell me ... can I screw your ass?"
Cecil drew in a long, trembling sob of air. "No Benny no " he murmured, "you you cant " his voice went down so low that the words barely trickled out: "screw my ass." Cecil breathed deeply, painfully for long, poignant seconds then the words came out: wet, slick and thirsty: "You can fuck me, Benny " he paused, then spewed it all out: "Up my cunt, Benny fuck me up my cunt!" and he thrust himself back, hard and fast, until the stiff, throbbing shaft pierced his tiny star and plunged deeply into his body.
Cecil was seventeen years old.
Chapter 11
"You what?" said Cecil's mother, a startled expression on her face as she stared at her son.
Cecil took a deep breath, then said it over again. "I want to go to a commercial school at night, so I can take a secretarial job when I finish high school."
"You mean stenography?" Joanne's face was horrified, "Shorthand, typing all that?"
"Yes," said Cecil, "that's what I want."
"But that's a girl's job!" Joanne protested. "You can't take a girl's job."
"I'll find a job," Cecil muttered.
Joanne gave a sigh of exasperation. 'That's not what I mean!" She took a deep breath: "You've always done well at school " she lowered her voice and her eyes at the same time, "that's one thing I've been pleased with you about " she looked up, "and there's no reason why you can't get a really good job when you graduate."
"I want to go to commercial school," Cecil's voice was low. He stared at his mother: "You don't have to pay for me I can borrow the money."
"I wasn't thinking of that," she snapped, then her shoulders sagged and she sighed heavily: "Oh, Cecil!"
He let his eyes drop to the floor, feeling uncomfortable, unwanted very conscious of the chasm between them. He rose to his feet, slouched towards the door without looking at his mother. At the doorway, he paused "Don't worry about it," he muttered, "I'll arrange it all," he turned away again. "I just thought you'd like to know " he threw over his shoulder before he left the house and mooched over to Beverly's.
They sat in the park, and Cecil told it all to Beverly. "She doesn't understand," he muttered, then the trace of a wry smile flickered round his lips, "I can't really expect her to, can I, Bev?" He smiled at the small, compact girl beside him who listened so attentively to everything he said. "You're the only person I told everything to, Bev you're the only one who I thought would understand."
She reached for his hand, squeezed it.
Cecil gave her a grateful glance then his eyes flickered across her face affectionately but curiously, too. "What d'you really think about it, Bev? I mean the whole thing," he asked.
Beverly wriggled her curvy, little body then crossed one leg over the other as primly as her miniskirt would allow. "I think it's wonderful, Cecil," she smiled into his eyes, "it's exciting! Have you really got everything worked out? I mean, like everything?"
"Well," Cecil paused, "maybe not everything but I know what I'm going to do." He took a deep breath. "Now that I know I can do it all right I mean " he lowered his voice, though they had almost the whole park to themselves, "act the part be like a girl " he smiled at Bev, "I've got to be ready to take a job when I graduate when I leave home." Cecil had decided that right after his graduation he would move across town about as far away from his mother as he could get without leaving the city and take a room, as a girl, then find a job. Any kind of a job would do, he had thought, then he had realized that if he was going to be a girl, he'd have to be prepared to take a job as a girl so ... the commercial school ... "If I graduate from the school," he told Bev, "I mean the commercial school, it'll be easy to get something." He was silent for a moment, then murmured, "I haven't thought too far ahead but " he paused, then the words came tumbling out: "I've got to get away from home. I can't stand it anymore, Bev!"
She leaned against him, sympathetically. Cecil had told Beverly about Donna and Alma and Blanche, too. She knew of his mother's reaction.
"If-if it hadn't been for you," he told Beverly, "I'd have left here by now."
"I know," Beverly murmured softly, "you told me." She pressed her cheek against his face, "I'm glad you didn't go " suddenly she pulled herself upright, stared into Cecil's eyes. "Will you see me ... when when you're a girl?"
"Why, sure," Cecil held her arm, affectionately, "if you want me to."
"Of course I want you to," she murmured, then she gripped him tightly, "Cecil," her eyes became round, "Why can't I see you when you're dressed up? You know like a girl ... Maybe," her face lighted up, "we could go someplace together!"
Cecil looked at her in shocked silence for a moment then a small smile played around his lips. "Why not?" he said, "Why not, eh?"
"Tonight?" her voice was eager.
Cecil drew back. Tonight! So soon? "I I've only worn the clothes once," he murmured hesitantly.
"What's the difference?" Bev smiled at him, pressed her face against his again. "I bet you make a cute little girl," she whispered into his ear.
"I I hope you think so," he whispered back in reply. Benny had thought he was! Cecil was reminded. He hadn't told Beverly about ... about his final test! His final test with Benny! He'd been so proud.
"I I could go with you to that that shop," said Beverly, her voice low and trembling with excitement, "then after you've changed we can go somewhere together!" She wriggled, hugged herself in eager anticipation. "It'll be fun!" she whispered, "Such fun!"
"Not to the shop," said Cecil quickly, "You won't come to Benny's with me ... I'll meet you someplace after." He gave Beverly a sharp glance. She mustn't suspect about Benny! He hadn't told her about the arrangement that he'd made. The arrangement! " after I've changed," he went on, "and we'll go somewhere."
"All right," said Beverly agreeably.
"I I wouldn't want you to have to wait," muttered Cecil, excusing himself without reason, "it it takes me quite a while to change."
"Where shall I meet you?" Beverly asked eagerly.
Cecil thought for a moment, then: "There's a bus depot not far from the shop the Ajax Depot I can meet you there."
"At eight?" asked Bev.
Cecil was about to agree when something made him change his mind. "Make it nine," he said, "it may take me a quite a while at Benny's!"
Chapter 12
Cecil left the house early: he wanted to get to Benny's in plenty of time. He was glad that the busride was long it gave him time to think. He had kept out of his mother's way all through the day, evading the questions that he knew she wanted to ask. The sooner he left home the better! he told himself for the nth time. As the bus carried him further from home, Cecil felt a lightening of his spirits and he began to remember Benny.
He had never known that anything could ever be like that! Cecil leaned back in his seat, closed his eyes as the memories flickered through his mind. It had been wonderful! The fierce violence of the shattering orgasm that raced through his flesh when the long, ecstatically torturing shaft had probed to the innermost regions of his body, thrusting through his bowels with agonizing sweetness then vibrating wildly at his center of sensuality as it spewed out its hot, strong lava of passion, was something that he could never ever forget!
I am a girl! the thought had impinged on his mind like the blast of a white-hot explosion. His body had twisted itself, writhed with an excruciating passion on the lubricious stiletto which pierced his raging flesh. Now I know what it's like ... for a girl! His body had reared up in a final convolution of orgiastic frenzy then Cecil had fallen limply onto his knees.
"Geezus," he had heard Benny whispering with a sweet, strained wonder, "Cecile, you sweet little cunt you sweet, fucking, little cunt!" The man had dropped down beside him turned up Cecil's face, then kissed him, wetly, deeply, and passionately on the lips ...
And Cecil hadn't minded at all!
Later, Cecil had sunk into the deep armchair in the little room that Benny had at the side of the shop and smiled at Benny as the little man had squatted in front of him, staring at Cecil's legs, still encased in silk and the satin panties that Cecil had dragged back on, over his still pulsating, ravished, satiated flesh.
"How was it, Benny?" asked Cecil, then waited for the answer as if it was the most important question he had ever asked.
"Geezuz, how was it!" repeated Benny, looking at the aroused, rosy thigh-flesh above the silken hose. "Cecile," the little man muttered, "I've been with women girls but Geezus "his voice trailed off and his hand slipped inside his open pants and he caressed himself carefully. "It it's never been like it was with you, Cecile!" And Benny's voice was hoarse with sincerity.
Cecil's eyes glistened with pleasure and emotion.
"How how was it with you, Cecile?" asked Benny.
Cecil sighed deeply. A small smile played round his lips with a dreamy, hazy pattern, "lake like nothing I ever imagined!" he murmured. "I I came I orgasmed when you you squirted into me," Cecil screwed shut his eyes as if in pain, "I I spurted and spurted again and again ... just because you were inside me and and I could feel you coming throbbing piercing me."
A sliver of saliva slid down Benny's chin; his forehead glistened with smears of sweat and he tried to wipe it away as he asked, "Was was it the first time for you, Cecile?" Then Benny's eyes widened with wonder when Cecil answered, "The first time ... as ... as a girl!"
"As a girl?" the little man repeated.
"Yes," said Cecil very simply, "as a girl!" He dropped his eyes down, his voice strangely humble as he asked, "Benny, am I any good as a girl?" When he looked up, Benny was smiling through the tears of emotion that trickled from his eyes. His face was soft with wonder.
"Any good!" Benny slithered across the floor and embraced Cecil's legs. "Oh, Cecile, you lovely, little cunt, you're the best fuckin' little girl there ever was!" Then his lips fastened on Cecil's mouth and he sucked hungrily, urgently as if he was trying to draw sweetness and strength from his delicious little girl.
Afterwards they had made the arrangement. "You can leave the clothes here," said Benny, eagerly, "change here then when you want to get back into your other clothes " he raised his arms expressively, "well, then " he said, smiling, "you've no problem!"
Cecil had admitted to Benny that he had lied when he told him that he wanted the apparel for a play. There wasn't any play, he told Benny, he wanted the clothes for himself, because later, he said, "I'm going to live as a girl all the time, Benny I'll leave home, maybe never go back get a job and a place to live and " Cecil's eyes had glistened with the excitement that just talking about it generated in his body.
"How're you gonna pay for your course at the school?" Benny had asked when Cecil told him of his plans to study stenography.
"I I've got a friend who'll lend me the money," he told the little shop owner. Beverly had lent him enough to buy the clothes and she'd give him all he needed for the commercial school, she had promised.
"This this friend a man?" asked Benny, when Cecil had told him where he'd got the money.
"Why no it's a girl!" said Cecil, his eyes wide with surprise.
Benny let out his breath loudly. "Geezus" he said, devoutly, "I'm glad of that!"
And Cecil had wanted to laugh out loud as he had experienced the first strange joy of evoking jealousy.
"You don't have to pay for the clothes, Cecile," said Benny with a fierce urgency, "Geezus I'm happy as a king just to give 'em to you an' an' if you need somethin' extra," he swallowed, "well, then ... "
"I've got to give you something for the clothes," said Cecil earnestly.
"Give me something!" Benny stared at Cecil with his eyes opened wide, "Geezus you've given me somethin'!" His face worked with^ emotion, then: "I I never expected to get so much from anyone for for anythin'! Geezus, Cecile you've given me yourself an' an' I'm crazy about you, Cecile can't-can't you tell?"
Cecil felt his face flush. Is this how a girl felt?
"Thanks, Benny," Cecil whispered, "thanks for everything!" And he wondered if Benny really knew how much he was thanking him for.
Chapter 13
Cecil jumped off the bus and hurried down the street. He could hardly wait to get to Benny's to change his clothes ... get into his real clothes his girl clothes! To become a girl again. Even the few, fleeting, precious hours that he had spent in the clothes from Benny's shop had made him feel uncomfortable in his usual apparel ... made him so hungry and eager to effect his wondrous transition again. In a few short minutes, he consoled himself as he quickened his steps, he would be himself again. Or, he wondered with an ambivalent sense of indecision, was it herself?
He felt so very, very different! He had been aware of the change in his feelings ever since ... since Benny had seduced him. Seduced him! he thought. He even expressed himself within his own mind with new words, new thoughts! like when when Benny's long shaft had pierced him, causing the exquisite pain-thrills, the voluptuous ecstasy ... He had thought I'm coming! I'm coming not having an iggly. Iggly was something that belonged in his past his child-past his boy-past ... Such a thought, idea or word did not belong in his life, now. His new life: adult life and world! This was maturity ... He had grown up and was no longer a small boy but ... a girl! Any growing pains that might remain for him to withstand would be the labor pains of transformation: the pangs of female adolescence and there, Cecil let a small smile curve his lips, he had already been initiated into one, so-very-important aspect of femininity! Benny! the long, slim shaft and orgasm!
Orgasm! he thought of it as orgasm, now. Cecil squeezed his thighs together as he hurried through the streets, just the thought of the shop Benny orgasm caused his blood to race a little more quickly through his veins. It had been so good so wonderfully good! Cecil shivered and small goosepimples rose on his flesh.
A girl scurried past him down the street. She was slim, young, with deliciously curved legs below the short miniskirt. Cecil stared enviously after her. Not lustfully enviously! Cecil didn't crave her body, her soft, female flesh. He didn't want her ... Maybe ... to be her!
He moved on towards the shop with a new urgency in his steps. Soon, Cecile he murmured to himself, so soon, Cecile!
Chapter 14
"Hello, Benny" Cecil spoke softly as he entered the shop.
The little man wheeled round from where he was opening a crate. "Cecile!" His voice shook with emotion and he gripped the counter to steady himself. "I I didn't expect you," he gasped and moved towards Cecil with urgent, jerky steps. "Geezus am I glad to see you, Cecile," he muttered, reaching out eagerly.
Cecil moved back. "Just a moment, Benny," he said softly, "I'm not Cecile, yet I haven't changed."
Benny breathed hard. "All right," he muttered, "if that's the way " he broke off, slid back the curtain in front of the dressing room, "here," he waved his hand, "it's all yours, Cecile." He smiled as Cecil brushed past him to enter the small room, then he followed him in and leaned on a chair. "Didn't you want " he began, his voice serious, "me to to kiss you?"
Cecil spun around from the mirror. "Oh, Benny," his voice was confused, "it's so hard to explain ... When when I'm like I am now " he indicated his clothes with a helpless movement of his hands, "I don't want a man to to touch me not not kiss me or anything," he breathed deeply, then dragged off his jacket and began to remove his shirt. "Ill feel different when when I'm changed," he muttered.
Benny's face was bewildered. "I I don't understand, Cecil," he murmured, "I just don't understand."
Cecil paused in the act of pulling his undershirt over his head. "Neither do I, Benny neither do I!"
When Cecil had changed it was different. Even when he was only half-changed ...
Benny stared at the satin panties as they stretched tightly over rounded hips when Cecil bent over to adjust a high-heeled shoe on a silk-stockinged foot. His eyes flickered up to the shimmering patch of white flesh between the silken hose and satin fringe. Geezuz! he muttered below his breath, he'd never felt this way about a boy! With him it had always been dames ... why did he feel this way about Cecile? Benny glanced up: Cecil was reaching for the brassiere with the built-in nipples. He stared at Cecil's chest. "You don't hardly need that bra," he murmured, "You got pretty good tits of your own, Cecile."
Cecil glanced down at his body, then passed his hand lightly across his chest. The nipples were protrusive, and the flesh around them was soft, rounded overdeveloped. He had the figure of a young, boyishly built girl. Cecil squeezed the flesh around a nipple and the tip seemed to ooze forward, tense and enlarge.
"Cecile " Benny had slithered across the floor, he stood in front of Cecil, stretched out his hand, tentatively "D'you feel feel different?" he mumbled.
Cecil smiled a soft, welcoming smile "I feel like Cecile " and he thrust his chest forward until the rising nipple touched the fingers on Benny's eager hand.
Benny gripped the tip of it, squeezed, then gave a small sigh. "Welcome home, Cecile," he murmured as his lips went down and he sucked then nibbled at the tingling, squirming erection.
Cecil threw his shoulders back, strained his body against the delicious pull of Benny's lips. He closed his eyes, savoring the new thrills of ecstasy that quivered through his flesh. "Benny," Cecil whispered, "Benny, there's not much time " his words trailed off as Benny slid his fingers inside the satin panties, probed for and found the open star. "Oh, Benny," Cecil murmured, as a finger slipped into the cleft and his buttocks spread themselves apart as if they were welcoming the intruder. "B-Benneeh!" Cecil's voice rose high as the finger pierced deeper.
Benny breathed through his nose with painful intensity, his lips pulled the pliable flesh between his lips, and his teeth nibbled with restrained delight on the stiffening, rising tip. He felt Cecil thrust his body forward and his hand went down ... As the hungry finger plunged ever deeper through the anal orifice, Benny moved his other hand onto Cecil's crotch. He felt the small organ pulsing through the satin. His finger lunged deep in the anus and Cecil squealed a muffled squeal, then jerked, sobbed out panted breath, then jerked again ... and again. The satin under Benny's hand squirmed, pulsed then became wet.
Cecil sagged against Benny, then he murmured gently, "I came, Benny I came again."
Benny looked at Cecil's face: it seemed softer, warmer than it had a moment before. As he sank tiredly but happily onto the stool, Cecil smiled and murmured, "Thank you, Benny."
Benny dragged up his chair, dropped into it, stared at the flesh so close to his face, which quivered with each indrawn breath. "You've wet your panties, Cecile," he said, smiling as though he was talking to a naughty little girl, "I'll have to get you another pair. Tell me what color you'd like."
"Pink," said Cecil sweetly, "Pink panties, Benny, please " and he smiled, leaned forward, and touched Benny's lips lightly with his tongue.
Then Benny went into his shop and selected the briefs that Cecil would wear for his date with Beverly.
Chapter 15
Beverly waited for Cecil in the Ajax Terminal. Her eyes flickered anxiously as she glanced expectantly at each new arrival through the terminal doors. She hoped that Cecil would not be late! Beverly felt ill at ease in this strange part of the city. The young girl sitting beside Beverly on the waiting room bench, turned her head, spoke: "Hello, Bev."
She started, turned, then stared. "Cecil!" she murmured his name with wonder. "I'd never have guessed " she drew in her breath quickly, "Cecil," she whispered, "you look cute!"
Beverly giggled-but Cecil felt as pleased as any girl would at receiving a compliment. "Thanks, Bev," he murmured, smiling, "so do you!" They giggled together like two schoolgirls just let out of class, then Cecil asked, "What d'you want to do, Bev?"
Her eyes shone mischievously. "We could go to a dance ... " she murmured, "see if we get picked up."
Cecil smiled with her, then his voice became serious as he mouthed softly: "That'd be something, wouldn't it, Bev?"
She nodded, then said: "I'd like to go to a movie."
He said okay, so they got up from the bench then arm in arm, like a couple of girl friends having a night out, they strolled to the nearby cinema.
Beverly held Cecil's hand as they huddled close together in the theater. As the feature film was ending, she leaned towards Cecil, whispered into his ear, "Happy? D'you feel happy?"
"Yes," he murmured, "I like to be with you, Bev."
She squeezed his hand in appreciation, then Cecil asked: " How do you feel?"
Surreptitiously, in the darkness, she thrust his hand under her short miniskirt. His fingers felt warm flesh, brushed on short hairs, then felt soft, moist lips move ... "I feel like it," whispered Beverly wetly, her voice thrilling with emotion, "Just like it!"
Cecil felt a stirring at his crotch. His body wriggled sinuously in his seat. "Where where could we go?" he hissed with restrained emotion. "I don't know any place near ... "he broke off as a man, leaving the theater, brushed past them. As he squeezed past, the man's eyes went down and caught a glimpse of white thigh and Cecil's hand ... He drew in his breath noisily, paused for a fraction of a second, then he mouthed: "You girls oughta be in the Eros Cafe." There was a sneer of anger in the words.
Cecil stared at Beverly, blankly, when the man had gone.
"What's the Eros Cafe?" Beverly asked.
Cecil shrugged, withdrew his hand guiltily, then gave Beverly an intimate smile. "We'd better be good girls," he murmured.
As they sidled down the row of seats to leave the theater, Cecil felt a hand thrust under his skirt then hard fingers squeezed a piece of flesh, painfully. He half turned, a smothered sound of protest on his lips, and stared into the face of an elderly man. He closed his mouth firmly and followed Beverly in silence. When they were outside the theater, he told Bev what had happened.
She smiled complacently. "Now, you see," she said, a small smirk on her pretty face. "How'd you like it?"
Cecil thought before he answered. "I I didn't like it, Bev," he murmured, slowly. "I didn't like it at all!"
"That's what we have to put up with all the time," said Bev, linking her arm in Cecil's. "We girls, " she added, smiling wickedly into his eyes.
The cafe was right across the street from the theater, less than a block from Benny's, Cecil realized. Beverly saw it first.
"Look!" she said suddenly, pointing, "The Eros Cafe!"
"The place that guy said," muttered Cecil, remembering.
"Yes," Beverly whispered, "I wonder why?"
Wordlessly, they crossed the street, stood outside the entrance and stared inside.
"It's just an ordinary cafe," said Cecil.
Beverly's eyes seemed brighter. "We could go in " she murmured softly, "have coffee."
Cecil looked intently at Beverly, then nodded in agreement.
They had intended to sit at the counter but the hostess had seated them in a booth before they realized it. It wasn't until they had ordered coffee that Cecil noticed something, nudged Beverly, then whispered: "They're all girls in here there aren't any men!"
Beverly's eyes flickered around the cafe ... Cecil was right. All the customers were girls! She glanced at the staff. Waitresses, hostesses even at the tiny bar in the corner the attendant was a girl. Then she stared at the couple in the opposite booth. A very young girl and a woman an older woman. Beverly saw the woman whisper into the girl's ear and they giggled together then the older woman's head went down and the young girl wriggled her body, squirming, twisting herself as she was kissed deeply, passionately on the mouth. "It's a lesbian club," said Beverly quietly, a thrill of excitement in her voice. "All the girls are lesbians!"
Cecil stared at Beverly's face. She seemed all worked up! Bev didn't get excited very often. He glanced at the couple that had aroused her ... Saw the woman's hand on the girl's thigh ... Saw and understood. He looked at Beverly again. "You been in a place like this before?" he asked.
"No," Beverly took a deep breath, "There there aren't any around where we live but I've heard of them!" Her voice was pent-up with emotion.
Later, Cecil glanced at the time. "I've got to go to Benny's to change," he murmured, "I can't go home dressed like this." He gave a small laugh as he thought of his mother's reaction if he did. "Will you be all right waiting here " he glanced anxiously at Beverly's face. "I mean Bev all right?"
"Yess," she whispered in a long, drawn-out sigh.
"I mean," he said, "we can go back on the bus together. I'll only be a minute."
Beverly turned her strangely bright eyes on him. "Yes, Cecil," she repeated, "it's all right-I said it's all right."
He hesitated, feeling unaccountably anxious all of a sudden, then he rose to his feet slowly. "I'll be as quick as I can," he said before he left.
Cecil hurried back towards the Eros Cafe. Benny was a pretty good guy, he thought. The little man hadn't delayed him. When he'd told him that Bev was waiting he'd contented himself with a hot, deep kiss on Cecil's lips after he'd entered the shop then when he was changing, Benny had thrust his hand inside the new pink panties, inserted his finger with a sensually sweet probe into the eagerly opening mouth of the star that nestled so snugly between the softly throbbing cheeks.
"Delicious, Benny," Cecil had crooned, squirming his buttocks ecstatically, "deee-licious!"
When he was leaving the shop, he said, "I'll be back very soon." And Benny had stared after him with a strange new longing and yearning etched on his face.
The woman at the door of the cafe stopped Cecil. "Sorry, feller you can't come in here."
Cecil stared at the woman. He didn't remember noticing her before. He glanced through the glass door of the foyer, then told the woman: "I'm meeting someone who's in here. She's waiting for me."
The big woman frowned. "What's her name?" she asked, "I'll tell her you're here and if she wants to see you okay " she gave Cecil a hostile glance, "if she doesn't want to see you you'll get out of here fast. We don't let anyone annoy our customers!"
Cecil told the woman Beverly's name and his own name with restrained anger then watched, irritably, as the women pushed open the door and went into the cafe.
He glanced towards the booth where he had sat with Beverly, thinking how crazy it was that he couldn't go in to her now ... now that he was dressed as a male then he noticed that Beverly wasn't there. Cecil felt a small sense of shock. Had Bev got tired of waiting and gone home by herself? He glanced at the time ... He hadn't been long! It didn't seem reasonable that she'd go! He craned his head-and then he saw her!
She was in another booth ... with another girl. A girl who had her arm around Bev's shoulder who felt under Bev's skirt with a hand that was doing unspeakable things that made Bev laugh, wriggle her prim little body, and press her cheek against the other girl's face.
Bev! Cecil felt stunned. Bev? He saw the big woman who guarded the door approach them, she bent down towards Bev, murmured something, smiled ... Bev looked up, started then she dragged at her skirt, guiltily, reluctantly until it was neatly, primly in place. He watched Bev get up, lean towards her companion and say something ... Then Bev's head went down and he watched her kiss the other girl deeply, passionately sickeningly.
Oh, Bev!
"Too bad you had to wait out here," said Beverly when she found him standing outside the club where he had moved to after he'd seen Bev kissing her.
"It's okay," he said.
Her face was flushed and he'd never seen her eyes so bright, so alive ...
"It's a nice place," she said, "the Eros Cafe."
"Is it?" he asked.
"Why yes, Cecil," Beverly put her arm through his as though it was something she didn't want to do but felt she should ... "Is something wrong, Cecil?" she asked very quietly.
"No," he shrugged slightly, "nothing's wrong."
And they walked to the terminal in silence.
Beverly was staring through the window as the bus hurried them back home, when Cecil spoke: "Beverly," he began, "Do you like girls?"
She didn't move. ''Well be home in a few minutes," she said.
He stared at the back of her head.
She moved then, turning her head slowly and staring into his eyes for a long, meaningful moment before she said: "Maybe I don't know, Cecil!"
He let out his breath in a long, sad sigh.
She touched his arm with her hand: gently, gingerly. "Would you-you mind if I was?" she asked.
He stared at her again. Mind? would he mind? How could he answer a question like that? He shook his head helplessly. "I don't understand," he muttered.
"Neither do I " then Beverly's voice came to life again, "But I hope I am!"
He looked at her, incredulously. "Hope you are?" he repeated.
"Yes I hope I am!" she let the words slither from her lips ... And when he looked at her face she looked different. Not like the old Bev! ... the Bev that he knew ... but a new Beverly ... a Beverly that he'd never seen. She looked like a different girl!
"Cecil," she said quietly, "I-I felt something back there in the cafe that that I've never felt before ... not with anyone anytime ... not even with you, Cecil " her eyes searched his face with a trace of sadness.
He listened to her words and looked at her face and tried to understand.
"It was never complete, was it, Cecil?"
He stared, wordlessly.
"What we did together was was good, but ... it wasn't complete," she said.
Wasn't complete! He felt the dull ache start in his stomach. Not because of Beverly but because the words cut too deeply, too truly ... It was never complete! Not for him, Cecil. He thought of them all: Alma, Blanche, Donna, Beverly, and Benny ... It was never complete ... Never could be.
"I met a girl in in the cafe," said Beverly, softly, "and and I felt as though as though I was in love with her " her voice trailed off.
Love! Beverly loved some unknown girl whom she'd never met until a few hours ago! Love? He, Cecil, could never love anyone. Not that way. Not like that! Benny! he thought of Benny. Maybe maybe Benny thought that he was in love with him, Cecil ... but he loved him as Cecile ... as a girl ... He, Cecil, could never feel that way towards Benny because ... because he wasn't queer ... he didn't like men ... he liked girls but ... he wanted to be a girl!
Beverly could never want him really want him because she wanted a girl. She was lesbian it wasn't necessary for her to tell him ... He knew. His female intuition he thought with a bitter taste in his mouth. But he wasn't female enough to fulfill Beverly's craving! And he wasn't male enough to satisfy another kind of girl, he thought with a new bitterness.
Too damned small! Alma! the words he would never forget could never forget because they were true ... So where did it leave him ... what was he?
"She came across to my table after you left," said Beverly, as he tried to drag his attention off the chaotic thoughts that kaleidoscoped through his mind, "and and she told me that she knew I was I was one."
Cecil could feel the sweat on his forehead. "What?" he asked. "One what?"
"Lesbian," said Beverly softly, "She knew I was a lesbian."
Cecil breathed deeply, painfully.
"I'm gad," said Beverly. "So glad."
"Why?" he muttered.
Beverly gave a deep sigh, then her voice sounded normal and relaxed when she said: "I've never known what I was. For so long I've wondered. I I didn't like men ... you know that I told you yet, I never thought of of girls never really thought of it " she stopped talking for a moment, then her voice went on: "I I liked what you did," she lowered her voice, "like like kissing me making me have an org orgasm, but it it wasn't complete, was it, Cecil?"
He shook his head.
"Maybe I just liked that what you did because I'm a lesbian!" She said it calmly now, as though she accepted it ... welcomed it!
"Maybe," he whispered softly, feeling a sense of loss of not belonging, "maybe.
Chapter 16
Cecil sat on the bed in his room at home and stared at the wall in front of him. Tomorrow would be his last day at school! The graduation ceremony, and then ... He took a deep breath, got up and strolled to the window. He would be leaving home ... Starting a new life ... a life as a girl! Everything was ready ... His course at commercial school was completed. He had his certificate of competence as a stenographer. The certificate didn't say whether he was male or female but his name ... he had spelled his name with an V when he enrolled! No one had ever mentioned it ... why should they? What did it matter how their pupils spelled their names? It could matter a lot, Cecil had told himself, but now it would be all right, because the certificate named him as Cecile Greene. A nice name ... a good name for a girl!
The course was paid for and he'd have to pay Beverly back for that. He thought of Bev for a minute. They were still friends ... just good friends, he told himself with a wry, inward smile. Discovering that she was a lesbian had changed so many things for Beverly, but it hadn't stopped them from being friends. A different kind of friends maybe but still friends.
He had teased Beverly a little at first. Perhaps it had been partly because he was jealous ... jealous because she had been able to complete herself, whereas he ... he hadn't not yet maybe ... not ever! "Bev the lez," he'd murmured to her, then had been shocked at the anger that spewed from her lips. It had been a new side of Bev that he'd seen. There were a lot of new things about Bev. Her manner, for example. She wasn't prim and proper, shy and diffident anymore. Beverly was self-confident and her manner was more aggressive than submissive more extroverted than introverted. She had other new things, too ... like new friends. One, in particular Monica!
Monica, he thought she was different, all right! She was small and blonde, with wet, pink lips, overdeveloped breasts, and underdeveloped hips. When Beverly was around her, she seemed to have a hard time keeping her hands off her. Monica stayed at Beverly's house three nights a week, and Beverly stayed at Monica's for the other four. Quite an arrangement, thought Cecil.
Beverly still visited the Eros Cafe. Sometimes she even traveled on the bus with Cecil when he was going to Benny's and she was going to the cafe. He wondered sometimes about the girl that she'd met on that never-to-be forgotten night ... Was she still seeing her? Cecil never asked Beverly about that: there were some things that Beverly didn't want to discuss. Even with good friends!
Cecil stared into the small garden the old backyard. The shed! He stared at the small lean-to, remembering Blanche, and feeling glad that he'd have left home before she returned from school in three days. He wouldn't have wanted to make a sad farewell to Blanche. Or Alma. He would miss seeing Alma, too. She would return on the same day as Blanche. He was glad about that. He would see them both later when he was settled when he was established ... as a girl. And his mother and Donna wouldn't know he was leaving until after he'd gone and they found the note.
He had it all worked out. He was pretty good at planning things, he told himself ... He ought to be Goddamned pleased with himself! Then why did he have a bitter lump in his throat?
There was even a job lined up for him. He'd found it on the mimeographed list that the commercial school gave all their pupils. Nearly all the jobs were for girls Cecil hadn't minded that and there were only three boys, apart from Cecil, in the commercial class. He heard one of them complaining that all the jobs he'd applied for had stipulated girls!
So Cecil took a day off from high school, called in at Benny's, then applied for the job that he'd selected.
It was just a small job in an unimportant office but it was what Cecil wanted ... and they hired him as Cecile! He remembered the interview so well. It had been another small test that he had successfully passed. He was glad of that glad in more ways than one. He hoped that he'd pass all the tests ... because he knew that there were more ... There always would be more!
The first day he'd gone to Benny's ... the first time he'd been dressed up ... and after ... Benny had given him that first, exquisite orgasm! He'd thought that was the final test! He'd been so elated. Fuck my cunt he'd told Benny. And when Benny did and he came then came again with violent, blasting orgasms he'd told himself that that was it the final test ... he had it made ... If only he'd known it was only just beginning! Benny! All through the months that he had spent at the commercial school ... the time of waiting for his graduation the time of preparation for his permanent transition Benny had doted on him, bought him new clothes as if he was a sugar daddy and Cecil was his baby doll. All through the waiting time Benny had loved him.
Cecil had appreciated and enjoyed the attentions that had been bestowed upon him. His body had twisted and writhed with a semblance of ecstasy when the sharp shaft had pierced his willing flesh, screwed through the sensitive tissue around the small, expanding star, and dived deep within his body to cause the fierce violence of blasting orgasms. Yet, even as the cock spurted hotly into his anus and his own small penis squirted jerkily, Cecil was aware of a small sense of incompleteness.
There was more! There must be more and he thought of Beverly and her words on the bus ... It was nice it was good but it wasn't complete, was it? Was it? Would it ever be? The intrusive thought thrust itself into his mind unbidden and often resisted all his efforts to reject it.
He shook his head tiredly then with an intense mental effort, Cecil dragged his mind down to earth to mundane, practical things. There was so much he still had to do. Time was short ... in two days he would have left this house. He took a deep breath, then Cecil began the final preparations for his transition.
Chapter 17
Cecil walked steadily across the entrance hall in his high-heeled shoes. His movements were sure, smooth and confident. He would walk even more gracefully, he told himself, when he had completed the special modeling course that he had enrolled for. The miniskirt that he wore showed off the nicely rounded legs that gleamed in the most expensive pair of stockings that Benny had ever bought. The skirt was too short, Cecil had protested, showing Benny the inch of white thigh that showed at the hem when he bent but Benny had insisted, telling Cecil that any girls with legs as shapely as his would be crazy not to show them.
He stepped into the elevator at the back of the hall and waited for it to fill. He was used to the routine now. Every day for the past two weeks, he had arrived at the Bates Building in the downtown area, then ridden up to the twenty-first floor to start work at nine-thirty in the Shires Advertising Agency.
Cecil liked his job even though it was a lowly one, filing, typing, and transcribing letters and he liked the people who worked with him in the office. The two girls and three men: he like them all but some more than others, he told himself with a secretive, inward smile.
He wriggled himself inside the special panties that Benny had found for him. He still got a delicious thrill when he felt the satin pressing so strongly on his crotch. They were wonderful panties: specially made to hold in his penis and lift his balls under his body so that if anyone should brush against his belly and people so often did they would feel nothing except the tension of a girdle. They would never suspect what he really was. And the back of them Cecil just loved that just one thin strip of material snuggled in the cleft of his buttocks, allowing the soft, rounded cheeks to protrude, enticingly, temptingly ... His bottom was irresistible, Benny told Cecil and he was beginning to believe him: he'd lost count of the number of times it had been pinched, squeezed, and prodded.
The padded brassiere pressed softly on his own ever-developing nipples Benny said he wouldn't need to wear a brassiere much longer if his breasts continued to enlarge and Cecil squirmed his body as he felt the elevator filling up. Felt it filling up because he was gradually pushed towards the back. They started to rise upwards with a small jerk and Cecil felt the man pushing against his buttocks.
He let out his breath in a small sigh. Again! it always happened! He gripped the cheeks of his bottom tightly together as he felt the knowing hand slip down so casually, so softly then touch his bare flesh beneath the brief skirt. He thanked Benny beneath his breath for the special panties. He shuddered to think what might have already happened if he hadn't been wearing them. As it was he felt so very completely safe!
Shirley the very sweet, younger of the two girls who worked in the office with him had told him that a man had actually got a finger inside the crotch of her briefs in this same elevator actually touched her. Cecil remembered Shirley blushing and lowering her voice when she told him veegee, as she so cutely called it. He'd touched the lips, she said-and she'd been so scared she didn't make a sound, just stood there letting him feel her until it was time for him to get off. When she got in the office, she said she was all upset. She didn't know, she told Cecil with a giggle, if she was coming or going!
The man behind him was pressing his body forward hard! Cecil moved slightly, touching the girl in front of him. She half glanced over her shoulder, saw Cecil, and he rolled his eyes backward to indicate the man behind him. She showed that she understood by giving him a small smile then it was time for Cecil to get off. And a good thing, too. He had felt the man's penis rearing harder and harder against his bottom. Cecil giggled to himself as he sidled towards the office. Another two floors and the guy behind him would have shot off! Lovely! he murmured to himself,]Such fun! He was still smiling when he entered the small office.
"Good morning, Cecile," said Shirley sweetly as soon as he sat down.
Cecil answered her, smiled at her, and admired her trim, little figure. Shirley was a cute little girl, he thought. The boss in the office thought that she was nineteen, but she had confided to Cecil that she had added two years to her age when she'd left home in the North two years before.
"Come downstairs with me for coffee at eleven," she whispered into his ear, "I want to talk to you it's very important," she added in her silent little voice.
He nodded, smiled and watched her wiggle her way across to her desk opposite his. What did Shirley want now? he wondered.
"Hello, Tim," said Cecil to the youth who had paused at his desk.
"Hello, Cecile," said the young man, blushing as he leaned forward and tried to stare down the front of Cecil's sweater, "you look good enough to eat," then he hurried across the room.
Cecil stared after him thoughtfully. Would he have said that if he'd known? He patted his hair, feeling glad that it had grown so quickly and grateful, too, to the hairdresser who had made it look so casually but carefully groomed. All through the months that he'd spent studying stenography, Cecil had been training his hair to grow the way he wanted. His efforts had not been in vain.
He glanced across to Shirley. She sat behind one of those old-fashioned desks that looked like a board on two filing cases. Tim loved it, thought Cecil with a smile, every time he was passing Shirley's desk, he found some excuse to bend down and stay down to peek, glance or stare transfixed up Shirley's legs. Cecil stared up them now. For such a small girl, she had wonderful legs, he noticed not for the first time. She had panties on today, black ones ... yesterday her thighs, buttocks, and hairy little belly had been bare. Cecil knew that. Shirley had accidentally-on-purpose shown him that in the tiny powder-room that Shires provided for their female staff. For their female staff! he thought with a pleasant thrill. He still got a tiny blast out of being a girl. Then he wondered why Shirley wore panties one day and not the next!
"I'm going to move," said Shirley as they sat at the counter in the main floor drug store and waited for their coffee.
He turned to her with a small sense of shock. "You're leaving Shires," he murmured, sounding concerned, "Oh, no!"
Shirley smiled, reassuringly. "Not Shires," she said. "I'm moving into an apartment." She had been telling Cecil that she hated the pokey room that she had rented in an apartment-cum-rooming-house in a seedy part of the city.
"Well!" Cecil sounded surprised, "Didn't take you long to find one it was only yesterday that you told me you were going to move."
"I've been looking for a long time," she said with her demure self-consciousness that reminded him of Beverly the old Beverly. "The only thing is," Shirley went on, "the rent's too high." She stared into Cecil's face.
"How high?" he asked-and Shirley told him.
"If I shared it with someone and it's big enough for two it would be perfect, Cecile just perfect!"
"Do you know anyone you'd like to share with?" he asked quietly.
"Yes," said Shirley. "You!"
Cecil felt his heart race. This sweet little chick! But ... could he continue to keep up his act? His act that was so real so important yet so fragile! "Why me?" he breathed.
Shirley placed her hand on his. "Because I like you, Cecile. You're you're like me not like some people some girls " she stopped speaking suddenly, gripped his hand, then: "There's a girl just come in who would share with me but but she scares me."
"Why?" Cecil looked at Shirley curiously, wondering why a girl could scare Shirley, when the small girl jogged his elbow, pointed carefully: "Look, Cecile over there that's the girl-that's Eunice!"
Cecil looked, casually at first then with a small puzzled expression. The girl looked vaguely familiar. It wasn't until she turned and showed herself, full face, that Cecil recognized the girl that he'd seen with Beverly in the Eros Cafe.
"That's Eunice?" he asked.
"Yes," whispered Shirley.
"I'm glad you didn't share with her," said Cecil, carefully. "That girl's a lesbo!"
Shirley snatched her hand away from his.
"How do you know?" she snapped.
He stared at Shirley in surprise. "I I saw her in a Cafe where they're all lesbians," he murmured.
"You, too?" asked Shirley, disappointment and disillusionment in her voice.
"No," Cecil suddenly wanted to laugh, "Gee " he stopped himself before he swore like Benny, "No I just happened to go in there with someone we didn't know it was for lesbos only!"
Shirley stared at him suspiciously.
"Are you telling me the truth, Cecile?" she asked in a prim, aloof voice.
Cecil shrugged his shoulders. "Why should I lie?" Then he added slyly, "It's you who were suggesting that I share with you ... I wasn't asking you!"
Shirley bridled. "You've got a darn nerve!"
Cecil rolled his eyes over Shirley's body in a parody of desire and she smothered a small laugh, that threatened to bubble up.
He leaned towards her, whispered into her ear, "If I was a lesbo, Shirley, I'd go for you you sweet, little doll!"
Her face flushed scarlet, then Shirley began to giggle. "Funny you should say that," she murmured, then they both giggled together like a pair of baby chicks. When they stopped, Shirley said: "Will you?" And when Cecil raised his eyebrows, she asked it: "Share my place?"
"Sure," said Cecil devoutly, "Sure I will!"
Chapter 18
Cecil had stayed at Benny's since he had left home. It took him an hour to get to Shires, but when the little shop owner had found out that he had not obtained a room or any place to stay near to his new job he had insisted that Cecil stay with him.
"I wish you'd stay with me forever, Cecile," he'd said wistfully and Cecil had hated to see the disappointment on Benny's face when he told him that the arrangement was only temporary. Benny had his own small apartment inside the store. The space was meager for two people but Benny didn't mind and neither did Cecil, at first.
"You'll sleep with me, Cecile," said Benny, then added humbly: "You don't mind that, do you, baby?"
"No, Benny," Cecil had told him, "I don't mind."
Now that he wore female clothes all the time' not just on stolen moments of delight when he could sneak away from home Cecil began to think, as well as feel, more like a girl. Sometimes he shocked even himself with his reactions. The girl had come out of the dressing room in Benny's store just as Cecil entered the door, coming back from Shires. "How d'you like this one, Benny?" the tall girl in the skimpy ballet outfit had asked, pirouetting for the shop owner's benefit. "Geezus, that's okay, Evelyn," Benny had murmured when he glanced up, saw Cecil. He had walked over to Cecil, led him to the side door to his living quarters, murmuring, "I'm busy with a customer."
Benny followed Cecil through the doorway, then recoiled in shock when Cecil had wheeled, spat: "Who's that bitch?"
"Why, Cecile," murmured the little man, "It's Evelyn she's a steady customer has a ballet school near here!"
Cecil's face was strained. "You've been fuckin' you old bastard, haven't you?" he spewed viciously.
Benny's face reddened then he leaned limply against the wall, said: "So help me you're jealous, Cecile!" A small smile crossed his features and he murmured it again, unbelievingly: "You're jealous of a poor old bastard like me!" A low cackle came from his lips.
"You're not such a poor, old bastard that you can't fuck a cunt when it's spread open in front of your lecherous face. Get that bitch outa here!"
"Okay, Cecile," Benny held up his arms soothingly, made quieting noises with his lips, then turned and waddled out of the room. Cecil could clearly hear the silly cackle coming from Benny's lips. He raised his purse, hurled it across the small room.
Benny heard the sound of breaking glass and the cackle in his throat became a rumble. "You'd better get out of here, Evelyn," he told the customer, "Cecile my friend is jealous of you!"
"Jealous of me!" the tall girl's eyes opened wide. "Who is she?"
"A friend who's who's staying here a while with me," murmured Benny awkwardly.
"Why Benny!"-the girl stared at him. "I've known you for years and I've never known you to ... and she's so young, too!" She stared angrily at him. "You oughta be ashamed of yourself!"
"No, Evelyn, it ain't like you think," Benny murmured weakly.
"Get out of this dressing room and let me get dressed!" snapped Evelyn, holding open the door.
Benny waited behind his counter until Evelyn came out, dressed in her own clothes. "You wanna buy that ballet tunic, Evelyn?" he asked.
"Not today," she snapped, then Evelyn went out and slammed the store door.
Slowly, Benny waddled over to it, locked it, then he drew a deep breath and went in to Cecil. "That bitch gone?" he spewed as soon as Benny entered the bedroom.
"Sure sure she's gone," Benny's eyes glazed as he looked at Cecil. He was lying face down on the bed: the miniskirt had worked up, showing the out thrust cheeks, the white, tempting buttocks above the silk hose.
"Geezus, Cecile," murmured Benny, "You look just just luscious." He dropped on the bed beside Cecil, rested his hand on warm flesh. He could feel the pulsing under the skin.
Cecil turned his head. "You're not gonna fuck me right after you've screwed that bitch!" he mouthed.
"I ain't done nothin' to her!" Benny's voice was shaking with sincerity or eagerness. His hand caressed a small roll of flesh on Cecil's thigh.
"Get off me!" screamed Cecil like a girl.
Benny's eyes flickered. "You you're getting me all worked up, Cecile act in' so bitchy my cock's getting hot." He reached down to his pants, tore them open at the front and his penis sprang out, swelling, pulsating hungrily.
"No!" snapped Cecil, his voice too high.
Benny's hand slid onto the cleft the delicious cleft between the trembling cheeks. "Yes. Cecile yes " His finger slithered down fast.
Cecil reared up with a squeal. "You bastard you hurt!"
Benny's mouth worked with excitement he thrust his finger deeply into the anus again twisted it cruelly.
Cecil screamed at the top of his voice. "You you're tearing me!" he wrenched his body violently, trying to rise ... but the sharp ringer pressed against the sensitive tissue inside his body, pinning him down, holding him there while Benny, a new, lusting light in his eyes, screwed his finger in deeper, twisted harshly, cruelly.
The panting sounds came from Benny's lips and his cock swelled, lurched drunkenly from side to side until Benny grabbed it with his other hand, squeezed it then rolled himself onto the bed. "I I'm gonna fuck your ass, Cecile," he panted, "You're gonna get fucked!"
The agonizing pain in his bowels had swirled to a racking high then magically, the thrills came the intruding finger no longer tore but slid sensuously through the juice that lubricated its passage. Cecil felt the voluptuous shivers straining to course through his flesh. Faintly, he heard Benny say: "I'm gonna fuck your ass," felt the flimsy strip that stretched over his cleft ... felt it ripped then Benny was on his back ... the long shaft probing at the star the opening star. "Benny," he moaned, "Don't fuck my ass fuck my cunt!" His buttocks thrust upward, welcoming the penis, sucking it in with lascivious lips, drawing it deeper inside with gripping movements of his muscles then jerking, rocking and rolling his buttocks, his belly and thighs as Benny spurted, probed to the center of his body and felt his own small prick squirt wetly, stiffly, until he lay in a small pool of his own fluid. "You bastard, Benny," he moaned weakly, "You made me come again!" Then he turned his face up, let his lips be enveloped by Benny's mouth let the tongue suck his, probe into the crannies, the secret lures of his wet, hungry mouth.
When Benny drew his face away, dropped his head onto the pillow beside Cecil's and gave a small sigh of exhaustion, Cecil murmured: "You're a bastard, Benny a real bastard!" But there was a tired, satisfied smile on his face as he said it.
"I love you, Cecile so help me I love you you lovely little cunt!" Then Benny drew Cecil close to him, kissed him gently, and rested his head on the pillow. "How could I ever get by without you, Cecile!" he groaned, "Cecile, how could I?"
But Cecil didn't answer: he had dropped into a satisfied sleep.
Chapter 19
Cecil glanced up from his desk and Shirley was smiling across at him. He smiled back: an intimate, personal smile ... He had moved in with Shirley the night before. He had left Benny's, saying good-by to the tearful and suddenly old man, telling him he had to go because ... because the apartment was close to his work ... because he couldn't stay in the too small living quarters in the store forever, because ... Cecil stared at Shirley as she bent over her work. The sunlight glistened off the burnished gloss of her soft, auburn hair ... Because he murmured to himself ... Shirley's skirt had slid up and he could see the sweet, red briefs that he'd watched her put on that morning ... because ...
He had stared around the apartment curiously. It was the first time he'd been in. He'd promised to move in with Shirley without even seeing the apartment! It hadn't seemed important to see it first because he'd already made up .his mind. It was small: just one bedroom, kitchen and bathroom. It was big enough, Shirley had said. Big enough for the two of them ... big enough for two girls! He tried to still the small flicker of fear that started to throb ...
They had unpacked their clothes. They each had a closet: twin closets ... twin beds, too. He had drawn a small sigh of relief when he saw that then he had remembered that these types of bed could be put together to make one ... One big bed! One big bed he had murmured to himself ... and he had wondered until Beverly's words came back to haunt him ... Incomplete!
"You're lucky," said Shirley enviously, "All your clothes are new! What'd you do, Cecile, throw your old clothes away?" And she'd laughed.
He'd laughed, too. He hadn't told her that he didn't have any old clothes to throw away that these were the first clothes the first girl's clothes that he'd ever owned. He couldn't tell Shirley that Cecile was a newborn babe! He couldn't tell her that, because ...
They had been tired after unpacking especially Cecil. The emotion, the effort, and turmoil had drained the last dregs of strength from his body. He had flopped on one of the beds, still fully dressed, and sighed deeply, "I'm tired, Shirley." And she'd sat down beside him, talked to him, soothed him with sweet words about small, unimportant things.
It had been so good! Too good to last. Shirley had looked down his body, seen the whiteness of his thigh where the miniskirt had dragged up, then her hand had touched his flesh lightly and she had murmured: "You've a nice figure, Cecile. I think you're lovely!" Her gentle lips had been parted, and her eyes were bright when he felt her hand move slightly, accidentally ... but so dangerously.
He'd slid off the bed in a blur. "Don't touch me there," he'd mouthed. "Don't ever do that!"
And Shirley's face had turned white, then the tears started in her eyes. "You hate me!" she dragged the words out with pain. "I I wasn't doing anything ... just touching you just stroking your skin because I like you." The sobs racked her body, then she panted the words out: "I I'm not a a lesbo like you, Cecile just like you." Then she threw herself facedown on her bed and the sobs rocked and shook the gentle, sensitive flesh.
Cecil had stumbled to the bathroom, let the door slam behind him then stared at his face in the mirror. His skin looked gray his lips trembled. What had he done? He sank onto the toilet seat, buried his face in his hands. Oh, Shirley! he'd moaned to himself, I didn't mean to hurt you! Oh, my sweet what have I done?
When he went back into the bedroom, she was asleep. Her tear-streaked face rested on her arm, a lock of tousled, auburn hair fell across her eyes. He had an irresistible urge to lift it, brush it away but he curbed it.
She was still wearing her clothes: the cute, little skirt was rumpled under the soft, warm thighs. She had drawn one knee up, and the sweet briefs that he had admired were stretched painfully across her crotch. Her blouse had twisted when she raised her arm and an errant button hung slackly on a single strand of thread.
Cecil felt a circle of pain around his heart and a dull ball of ice began to swell within his belly. All this! Shirley's soft innocence seemed to reproach him with every gentle rise and fall of her breasts. All this he had destroyed! He stumbled, as if he was drunk, when he moved away from the bedroom. He sat in the unused kitchen and stared in front of him. Not drinking coffee or liquor or even smoking ... Just staring and thinking. It could have been so good!
When he went back, Shirley was in the same position. He hesitated, then moved to her bedside, sank down gently. She slept like an angel an untouched, lovable angel! His hand trembled when he unfastened the remaining buttons on her blouse then he slipped it gently off her shoulders, savoring the exquisite pleasure of the mere contact of her flesh against his arm as he raised her slightly. The rumpled skirt slid gently down skimming the gleaming thighs, caressing soft flesh and gliding over the silken legs as he raised each foot in turn, carefully, tenderly removing the tiny piece of cloth.
He turned her onto her side and she gave a small moan, but remained asleep and unfastened her brassiere, slipped it off then placed her on her back, feasted his eyes on the perfect breasts with their pink, virginal nipples ... A trickle of saliva slid from the comer of his mouth. Oh, my God! he moaned. How he longed to kiss them! But he didn't!
He dragged the tiny briefs down lightly, baring the delicious patch of auburn hairs then, unable to withstand the temptation, he muzzled the warm triangle with his mouth and lips so very, very lightly. The smooth silk rolled down her legs and he drew back the sheets, eased the small body between them, then covered it with gentle hands, loving hands. He'd never known he could be so tender! He felt lightheaded. Just the nearness of her intoxicated him.
Cecil leaned over Shirley, kissed her lightly on the forehead, then he went to his own bed. He undressed, save for the brassiere and the special briefs, which he retained like an armored shield. Before he turned off the lights, he took a last glance at Shirley's face ... She seemed to be smiling as she slept.
"Good morning, Cecile." The lisped words reached his ears, waking him, then reminding him. He jerked his body, clutched the sheets to his neck. Why did she speak to him? She hated him she must hate him after after what she thought. His hand moved over his body stealthily. The brassiere was in place the panties, his precious defense, were intact.
Shirley smiled down at him. "You must be tired," she said sweetly, "I've brought you coffee." She placed the cup on the bedside table, then sank down beside him. Her eyes smiled warmly into his. He didn't understand ... until she spoke again: "I was awake last night," she leaned close to his face and whispered the words, "when you undressed me!" Her cheeks flushed brightly ... they were almost as bright as the eyes that caressed him when he asked: "Why didn't you stop me? I thought you were asleep!"
She shook her head, wetness glistened in her eyes. "I I thought you'd be be uncomfortable. I I thought " she placed her finger on his lips and when he stopped his stammered explanation, she murmured: "I thought you hated me but " her eyes lit up again, "when you undressed me so so sweetly then kissed me here " and she pointed to her forehead with a tiny finger, "I knew you didn't hate me."
"Of course I didn't hate you," he said, hoarsely.
She laughed, softly happily. "You you kissed me ... here, too." Her cheeks flushed a deeper red, then she unfastened the terry robe that she wore, drew it back. She was naked beneath. "Here," she repeated, touching the light thatch of delicate hair. "You stroked me with your cheek here " and her hand touched her small, rounded belly, stroked it gently.
"Yes," he hissed.
"You you don't hate me?" she asked with a tremor in her voice.
"No," he gasped, "Oh, Shirley, I don't hate you!" He pulled her face down to his. "Can I I kiss you?" His eyes smiled into hers, then he added: "I'm not a lesbo I just like you " and she blushed again, remembering her words of the night before.
She leaned down, touched his lips with hers then her body tensed when his tongue thrust out, reached into her mouth. She drew back with a small gasp then she panted: "I didn't know girls could kiss like that unless ... unless ... "
He smiled at her. "Unless they're lesbos?" he asked.
"Yes," she panted, her eyes serious.
"Didn't you like it?" he asked, suddenly terribly afraid.
She dropped her eyes, then the whispered word came out. "Oh, yes, Cecile I liked it so much Cecile don't get mad, please don*t get mad, Cecile. I I love you!" Then the tears streamed from her eyes until Cecil drew her face to his again and kissed her until she had no breath for tears or doubts or fears.
"I love you, too, Shirley," he murmured, feeling a tingling sensation deep within his body as he said the words for the first time.
Her eyes lighted up then the small, auburn-haired girl smothered Cecil's face with kisses.
His hand slid out, touched the warm thighs slipped up, felt soft wetness. "I'll kiss you here," he promised her, "tonight!"
Her body tensed, then trembled. "Oh, Cecile oh, Cecile " she moaned, "Don't ever leave me do anything you want but please, don't ever leave me!"
"I won't leave you," he murmured, nuzzling his face in her hair, "I'll love you."
"And kiss me?" she asked.
"Kiss you," he promised.
"Here?" She took his hand, pressed it against her, between the soft thighs and higher. The tiny lips were moist, warm, and ready.
"Here," he promised, touching the tip of a rising, reaching clitoris.
"Tonight," she mouthed, rubbing her face against his, "Oh, hurry tonight!" And the shivers ran uncontrollably through her flesh.
The papers on his desk blurred before Cecil's eyes as he remembered. He had a feeling that he was being watched. He jerked his head, stared across the room ... Shirley's blue eyes were beaming a message to him ... He saw her lips move, forming a soundless word. He watched her mouth closely. "Tonight," she was saying ... He smiled, nodded his head-and Shirley's lips began to quiver and her thighs squeezed together with an intolerable tightness.
Chapter 20
Cecil had phoned home, talking to his mother and Alma and Blanche but not Donna telling them that he was all right, that he had a job, a place to live, and that everything was all right. He had been at Benny's then, just a week after he'd started at Shires and he'd given his mother an address, a post office address near Benny's, where she could write to him ... if she wanted to ... if she needed to ...
His mother had asked him to come home, tearfully, pleadingly and he'd tried to remember if his mother had ever pleaded with him before. But he'd refused, sadly but firmly telling her it was better this way ... Better for her and the girls and better for him, too.
He hadn't said that he was living as a girl, working as a girl ... The only person who knew that was Beverly and Bev wouldn't tell, because ... She was the only small part of his old life that overlapped his new, but Bev seemed so insignificant, unimportant after he'd met Shirley.
They left the office together, squeezed into the elevator, pressed squashily against each other like two ripe tomatoes so aware of each other's bodies savoring the nearness, the touch, the feel of their vibrant young flesh.
They walked home together, Shirley and Cecil, to their home - their own place, holding hands because they wanted to and not caring if they looked too childish or too naive or too young.
Cecil threw himself onto his bed, in their bedroom, after he'd eaten the light meal that Shirley had prepared so perfectly and watched her come into the room. He got a pure, sensual delight just out of looking at her. She was so neat, small, exquisitely proportioned and so alive!
"Well," Shirley let the word trickle out of her wet lips and fixed liquid, blue eyes on him.
He saw her unwrap the tiny skirt that he'd dragged so gently off her warm, sleeping or pretending to be sleeping flesh the night before.
She wriggled herself deliciously. The soft, rounded flesh inside her red briefs undulating with shimmering delight.
"Why did you pretend you were sleeping last night?" he asked.
Shirley giggled, unfastened her brassiere, and let her breasts thrust forward, unrestrainedly. "Because," she lisped like a little girl.
Cecil squirmed himself on his bed.
"Why don't you take that off?" asked Shirley, touching his short skirt with the tip of a dainty finger.
He hesitated, then unwrapped it slowly. The special panties strained against his crotch: concealing his penis but pressing on it, exciting it, making him so very aware of it ... He rolled onto his face, quickly.
Shirley stared down at the white, rounded mounds that protruded on either side of the narrow strip over the cleft. She sank slowly onto the bed beside him. Her finger reached out, traced a delicate pattern on a rounded buttock. "Can I do that?" she asked, moving her face onto the pillow beside his.
"Yes," he murmured, looking at the cute face just inches away.
A small finger slid under a thin strip ... Shirley pressed her finger into the cleft between the cheeks. "And that?" she whispered.
"Yes." His voice was hoarse and he let his eyes close.
Shirley's tongue flicked out, touched his lips, lightly.
Cecil reached up, seized her soft hair in his fingers, pulled her head until her lips were squashed against his. He kissed her greedily, thrusting his tongue against hers, feeling her fight it strain against him then relax, return the oral caresses, suck his tongue like he sucked hers, lick the soft tissue on the inside of his mouth ... And her hand moved, a ringer thrust inward, stiffly ... A muffled moan came from his mouth, he reared his body into the bed and his mouth moved off hers with the soft sound of suction.
"And that?" Shirley asked with a tensed, bright light in her eyes.
"If if you want to," he groaned.
"I do want to," she hissed, and her finger slid in deeper, turned, twisted and screwed until Cecil felt hot waves of melanged pain and pleasure throbbing through his flesh.
Suddenly, he jerked himself away from her, half sat up, and blurted: "Off take your briefs off, Shirley now!"
She stared at him with her eyes wide for a frightened second, then she tore off the flimsy panties with trembling hands.
He stared at vibrant hairs as they bristled on her belly. "I'm going to kiss you," he mumbled, and he slithered to the foot of the bed, reached up took a small foot in either hand, twisted Shirley onto her back then parted the feet, the legs, the thighs the tiny lips on her cunt curled open. His face slid up her body like a snake. He pressed his mouth down onto the tiny vagina his tongue slid out, thrust at the small slit, pried it open with wet, licking probes. A small sound like a beginning wind started to waver from her lips. Gently, his teeth closed on the tip of her clitoris, he teased it tenderly, sweetly, excruciatingly.
Shirley squirmed and the wavering wind from her lips became wetter. Each time he sucked the clitoris into his mouth, small shivers undulated across Shirley's belly and as he bit it lightly, pressed his tongue strongly against it the small muscles on her inner thigh began to throb. He tried to probe deep into her vulva with his tongue. The slit was so narrow, the hole so small that his tongue was repulsed. He contented himself with drawing the whole, wet tissue into his mouth and sucking it until Shirley moaned shook, then vibrated with a nerve-shattering orgasm.
He felt her small cunt squirm with a new blast, and her moans became high then he withdrew his mouth, probed a finger into the tiny cunt, feeling the vaginal walls gripping the sides of his finger with a fierce, startling strength. She was so tiny I the thought impinged on his mind like a searing shock! He thrust in more strongly, deeper and felt the tensile barrier of a fragile hymen ... She was a virgin* He trembled with the shock of discovery then Shirley wrenched her body violently, writhed screamed then jerked herself down, hard and deep onto the plunging finger and her hymen ruptured!
Cecil felt the trickle of blood he knew it was blood onto his hand. He drew back with a small sound of horror, then stared down, saw the revealing crimson stain streaming onto the sheet. "Ooh, Shirley," he moaned in remorse.
She wriggled onto her side, her eyes flickered down then she smiled. "You've raped me!" she murmured happily.
"Oh, Shirley," he whispered.
"I I came!" Shirley's eyes were round with wonder. "I I never came like like that before, Cecile!"
"You're so small," he murmured.
She closed her eyes, parted her wet lips, and let the words come out: "I'm too small," she said. "The doctor said that that I'd never never ever be able to go go with a man!" She opened her eyes, stared at Cecil with wide-eyed wonder. "Unless," she muttered, "I I had an operation," her eyes glazed with fear. "I I was so frightened, Cecile," she whispered, "I was so frightened I didn't want them to cut up my veegee!"
Cecil smiled tenderly at her. "They wouldn't have cut you up," he murmured, crawling up the bed until his face was beside hers. "You'd have been all right!"
She shook her head. "No, Cecile," her small voice was serious. "I know they'd have have messed me all up!"
He kissed her hotly, letting her squirm her tiny, frightened tongue into his mouth as if it sought for reassurance.
"Even though I'm such a mess you still love me?" she asked in a small voice.
"Yes," he whispered, "the way you are I love you because of the way you are." He smiled into her eyes.
"Cecile, I love you" she whispered, pulling his mouth to hers.
"Even though " he asked when she released his lips, "I seduced you took away your virginity?"
She smiled at him. "I oughta make you marry me!" she whispered.
All at once, Cecil got a crazy feeling. She was so small! And him! Alma's voice seemed to ring in his ears: You're too damned small, Cecil that's what the trouble is!
"Would you marry me? he asked quietly.
"Oh, Cecile," she dragged at his head, "Of course I'd marry you. I love you!"
"What what if I was a man?" Cecil felt his body freeze after he'd said the fatal words.
"Yes," she smiled at him, "of course."
"You-you'd feel differently-if-if I was a man," he told her fearfully.
She stroked his face. "It's you, Cecile you know that! I'm not not a lesbian. I told you! It's you I love!"
The wet sweat of fear clung damply to Cecil's body as his hands slid down ... took the top of his shield, his defense and dragged it down ... "Shirley," he whispered, sliding the special panties over his thighs, "Shirley don't be afraid!"
She wriggled her body towards his. "I'm not afraid, Cecile I'm never afraid of you!"
He took her tiny hand, slipped it down his body, across his palpitating belly until it was over his small, gently pulsing penis.
Shirley's body froze. He felt her fingers go numb. "What what " she asked, her eyes immense, her mouth pursed in a puzzled, frightened OOOh!
"I'm a man, Shirley," he whispered. "I'm a man and I love you!" He rolled himself, dragged her small female body under his.
"How but how " she panted, struggling, wriggling to move herself.
He pinned her body with his thighs, gripping her hips, holding her, positioning her ... Then his knees thrust between her thighs, parted them. "Just a small man," he murmured, letting his belly glide down gently, touch hers, "for a tiny girl." His puny cock reared itself, as if with anger, probing at the miniature lips of the virginal cunt. He groped for her lips with his mouth. Shirley moved her head from side to side in frightened confusion. He caught her squeezed his face down* opening his mouth over hers, sucking her in. He moved his hips, thrust upwards. The small lips parted before the tip of the penis, let the slim shaft slide in then gripped it with an intense tightness. "Oh, Shirley," Cecil dragged his lips away from hers, spoke from deep in his throat. "I'm inside you I'm in!"
"Cecile Ceciiiile!" it was a high sound "I've never had " she began, then small spasms shook her body and she writhed in an agony of endeavor. "Oh, Cecile go in go in deep " she slid her body lower down in the bed, and the small cock became larger, swelling inside the cunt, letting the vaginal walls grip it with their tight ecstasy. "Ceciiile, pleeeze ssscrew mee!" the high sound turned into words, and Cecil began to move in and out, up and down with a new, confident, excruciatingly sweet movement.
"Shirley, my sweet little veegee I love you you sweet, little cunt I love you!"
"Fuck me, Cecile I've never been fucked please fuck me!"
He eased in deeper and deeper with a delicious, squeezing pressure. The lips slid wetly on the small penis, lubricating it, letting it slide inside the tiny, moist cunt, which fitted like a skin-tight glove on the skidding, slipping mini-cock!
Epilogue
They were married in a quiet, simple ceremony. The only guests were Cecil's family and Beverly, who had wanted to be present for the closing Chapter of the story that only she had seen begin.
Cecil, looking more masculine than his sisters ever remembered, wore a dark gray suit with a smooth, serene confidence and Shirley looked heartbreakingly young in the flesh-colored costume that was her bridal gown.
After they were married, they had both agreed that they would return to their previous way of life living together, working together as girls, as friends as well as enjoying the delights of male and female sexuality. But for this wedding this small tableau they were merely male and female.
When the brief ceremony was over, Beverly as Cecil had previously asked her took Alma and Blanche to a cafe to engage in their own small celebration. But Joanne, curious to see the place where her son would live with his wife, accompanied Cecil and Shirley with Donna to their apartment. They only stayed long enough to taste a little wine, exchange a few, meaningless words then Joanne left with Donna.
As soon as they had gone, Cecil urgently eager to tear off his hated male clothes and return to the self that he loved, Cecile changed into his comfortable and cute miniskirt and blouse ... And no one would have known anything about this if Donna had not stopped outside the apartment glanced inside in time to see Cecil's transition then called, her small voice shrill with excitement: "Look, mom! Cecil's turned into a girl!"
