The problem of sexuality in young girls is one more of expression than presence. That is to say no one would deny the healthiness of the presence of sexuality in a thirteen-year-old woman.
In many societies a woman of that age is married and considered a mature adult member of society. In our society the case is different and the stress, I think, greater.
For some young girls it seems impossible for them to control their natural flowing sexuality. When this becomes wrapped up in their quest to satisfy other parental needs which have not been satisfied then the situation is more serious.
As in the case of the five thirteen-year-old women who I have featured in this volume the needs of a sexual nature can become tangled with other unfulfilled needs. The results are disastrous but not necessarily fatal.
What I hope to show more than anything else is how through working on the nexus of the problem the girls were able to begin to readjust their sights to more realistic and appropriate sex subjects.
What I hope is that the reader will come away from this book with a knowledge and feeling that early experiences of young girls with swinging couples is not an unremediable disaster.
Through therapy and hard work all the girls, to some extent, were able to build their life up again from the shambles into which their "swinging" had thrown it.
In some ways they are luckier than others. For they have had to confront, and in some cases, conquer, the desire to use sex to try to get needs satisfied which can only be satisfied in infancy and which are death to any mature relationship.
In that optimistic spirit I hope the reader will approach this book. Consequently I hope he and she will leave it stronger and more optimistic than on entering.
CASE NUMBER ONE. LAURA N.
INTERVIEW NUMBER ONE
NOTES
When Laura came to see me for the first time she looked the perfect picture of a well-adjusted young woman. She was tall and dark. Her features were well-formed and her body moved like a tigress.
She was light on her feet and moved in the room as if she took control of any place in which she found herself.
Her dark eyes were pools of obsidian. Her face was creamy and blemish-free. I watched her the whole time of our acquaintance with an awe-filled mind. I could not believe one woman could be so beautiful.
But the tale she told belied her own good looks and health. She told of her past which was filled with ghosts. She told a tale too hard to believe had she not delivered it in full and with a completely ingenious countenance.
Without further ado I will let her own words speak for her. I hope that her tale will show how the problems sown in childhood grow if they are not dealt with. What follows is an exact transcript of her words:
I came here because they told me at school that they could not handle me there. I wanted more help than they could give me. So they told me you were very good at this sort of thing.
I guess maybe I don't look like the kind who needs help. I look that way to everyone! They all think because I am pretty that I'm all right. I can't stand that. It makes me so angry to think about it. I need more help than anyone else.
It all started when I was thirteen. I grew up in the suburbs. You know. I grew up in the kind of very affluent place that everyone makes fun of. I had everything you could ask for. I had everything except my parents.
They were never home. I mean they lived there and all. But can you believe that I hardly ever saw them? They always had somewhere better to go. It's really their fault what happened. They brought it out in me.
I was very shy when I was little. You know the kind of wallflower who never says anything? Well that was me. I was always pretty but no one ever noticed.
So when I started to grow up when I was twelve and thirteen no one seemed ready for it. I got taller and my body got fuller. My breasts started growing very fast. In about four months they must have grown three inches.
by the time I was thirteen I really looked like a young woman. I could have passed for sixteen easily.
Boys in school started looking at me funny. I starting getting whistles when I walked down the street.
But I was so dumb I didn't even realize what was happening. My parents didn't treat me any differently either. They left me alone but didn't give me any freedom to do the things which might have made me more grown-up. I walked around in a haze like some kind of overgrown kid.
I was thirteen when the first thing happened. It started innocently I guess. Our regular babysitter moved away and my parents wanted to find another. I was thirteen and I didn't think I needed one. But, like I said, they didn't treat me like a grown-up so I got one.
But it turned out that I got a very unusual babysitter. Actually I got two babysitters. They were named Carl and Patience. It turned out they had a big effect on me.
They were a young couple. I think they were both twenty-four. They had just gotten married and moved to town. They lived in the apartment down at the other end. They were trying to make ends meet. She was going to school and he was working hard but not making too much money.
So they decided to babysit. But they were too much in love to want to be apart from each other at night. So they went out to people's homes as a couple.
When I first saw them I was instantly impressed. My parents had gone out early and Carl showed up at the front door as they drove away. He was tall and dark. He wore a mod suit and slightly long hair. He had a drooping brown moustache which made him look sort of mournful.
He smiled at me and said he had just come from work. He said Patience, his wife, would be there very soon. Just as he spoke, up drove Patience.
She had long blonde hair which hung down her back. Her eyes were green and her face was tanned and mellow-looking. She was very pretty. I liked her right away. As a matter-of-fact I liked them both right away.
"You don't look like you need us here very much," Carl said, as soon as we were inside. I smiled at him and blushed. Patience put her arm around my waist and told me that she thought I looked much too grown-up to need a baby sitter.
I blushed. But deep inside I was happy. No one had ever talked to me like that. They made me feel like a real grown-up. I told them all about my parents.
I really wanted them to like me. They sat down in the living room and I asked them if they wanted a drink. They smiled at each other and said yes. I ran to the cabinet and made some vodka sours just like I had seen my mother make them.
I had watched carefully when she made them. So I did it right. They smiled when I brought them back to them. They sipped them and told me they were very good. I was so proud!!
We sat around sipping the drinks. Actually my parents had never let me drink like that. It was the first time I had tasted alcohol. It went right to my head.
I sat there and drank the whole thing down. It swirled around my brain and I sat there grinning stupidly. But I didn't care and they didn't care.
I sat there watching them drink. They both looked so pretty I could hardly keep from laughing. I felt like hugging them both.
They asked me all about school and I poured out my heart. Mostly I talked about my parents and how they didn't treat me like a grown-up. They were very sympathetic.
They kept telling me how grown-up I was. They told me I had a beautiful figure. They complimented each part of me. They told me what lovely large breasts I had. They told me I had really sexy long legs.
Each time they gave me a compliment like that I blushed. But my stomach fluttered and I really loved the compliments. I loved for them to be looking at my body. I wanted them to keep looking.
The three of us talked some more. Then Carl asked me if he could make another drink. I nodded happily. He got up and made us three. He came back and gave me mine.
I took a sip and it tasted great. I didn't know what it was but it really was strong. It went right to my head and I sat back on the couch.
The whole room seemed to swim around me. I leaned on the back of the couch with my hand. I took a deep breath and felt happier than I had ever felt before. I had never been drunk and I really loved it.
I heard Patience laughing and looked at her. She was smiling and telling me that I looked really drunk. I said that I loved it.
"Now that you're such a grown-up woman," she said, "maybe you'd like to have some more fun. But only if you think you're grown-up enough to do it."
I didn't really know what she was talking about. But I liked the idea of doing something grown-up. I guess I really thought they were talking about smoking pot or something.
She moved over on the couch and put her mouth next to my ear. I thought she was going to whisper something. But instead she shoved her pointy tongue into my ear hole and swirled it around.
I felt a thrill all through my body. The little hairs on the back of my neck stood up straight. I loved the feeling. It made goose bumps come up all over my body.
She licked all around the center hole and then around the contours of my ears. She licked all the little crevices with her warm wet tongue. She pulled out and smiled at me.
"Feel good?" she asked. I nodded and smiled at her. She bent and kissed my neck down where it met my shoulder. I felt the air in my chest burst. I panted and pulled my head to one side to let her kiss and nibble me more.
She bit harder and I felt the thrill shoot through my guts and up to my chest and arms. She licked in wet circles with her tongue and I felt I was melting where she met me.
Carl came over and sat on the other side of me. He put his hand on my shoulder and rubbed very gently. I felt as if I were being massaged by a hundred little fingers. I felt so wonderful I wanted to cry.
I twisted under them and pushed my body against them. His fingers kneaded the flesh around my shoulders. Deeper and deeper he rubbed. His finger rubbed down my chest until he got to my breasts.
The whole way I longed for his fingers to be there on my nipples. I wondered how he would feel. I had never had anyone touch my nipple. When he reached there I felt my nipple like a pebble.
He took it through my thin sweater and bra. He rolled it over and over in his fingers. He took care not to squeeze too hard. He rolled just hard enough to make me pant.
Then all of a sudden he reached down and rubbed my stomach. He stroked the firm flesh and I panted. He rubbed in sweet circles and I felt a strange feeling growing in me. Thoughts came into my head. I wanted to feel their hands all over my body.
I wanted his fingers to strip my clothes off. As if he read my thoughts, his fingers found the bottom of my sweater and pulled it up. Over my tits he pulled it. On the other side Patience helped him.
Together they pulled it over my head. Then she reached around my back and unhooked my bra. Her fingers were nimble and in a second I was naked from the waist up. As soon as she saw my erect nipples she fell on them with her mouth.
Her tongue swirled around taking them in and out of her mouth. Her teeth ground at the taut tiny thrusting paps. They squeaked in her mouth as she ran her mouth over them.
She pulled me sideways on the couch toward her. I felt myself falling. But I loved the feeling. I let myself fall like a snowflake backwards.
I laughed and threw my arms over my head. She slid backwards and grabbed my arms. She pulled me down so my head was in her lap and my arms were around her waist. Her whole body was hot under me. I felt as if I were lying on a living couch.
She bent over me and licked all around my boobs. Her tongue touched every inch of my breasts. Her whole body arched over me. I put my arms around her and she licked up my chest over the mountains of my breasts.
Her mouth was on mine. I didn't care that she was a woman. It felt so good to have her thrust her tongue into my mouth. I felt her flick and thrust faster. I chewed on her tongue as she pushed it in and out between her teeth.
While her mouth was passionately on mine Carl's fingers opened my pants and pulled them down off my hips. I felt the cool air on my belly there.
It felt so sexy to have him slide them slowly off my thighs. Down, down they went until my thighs were bare. I felt my pussy naked and I gave a little wiggle of delight. He saw it and traced a sensuous path down across my hips and thighs in response.
I moaned and parted my legs as he slid my pants off me. He bent and put his mouth down between my legs. I felt his hot breath on my bush. I longed to have him put his wet tongue there on me.
I ached and waited for him to do it. But he tantalized me by breathing there. He poked and licked with his tongue in the crack.
Through me there went a wild feeling which made me thrust my hips up at him. When I did I felt his hot mouth all over my bush. He took it in his mouth and covered it with his spit.
He licked my clit and pulled my pubic hair between his teeth. I have lots of it. It grows like a thick forest down there. I felt his fingers playing in the tangles. He parted them gently in the middle and thrust his mouth down in the opened bush.
Up and down in my slit he stroked his tongue. Each time the thrilling muscle thrilled my clit. I tensed all over. It was so wonderful I couldn't stop moving under him.
I bit hard in Patience's mouth each time her husband ate at my pussy. His mouth ate deeper and deeper into me. I felt as if a crab or something were eating all the way into me.
Her mouth was hot on mine. I chewed on her lips and we kissed together. I had my hands up around her mouth. Her whole body was so sweet on mine. I wanted to taste her deep inside me.
She licked all over my face. Her tongue caressed my eyes and nose. Her hand caressed my tits. They fondled the heavy mounds there. She pushed them back and forth. The glands under the skin were full and I felt the lust grow in me with each stroke of her hand.
Carl's fingers were under my ass. My come and his spit dripped down my ass crack wetting my ass cheeks. In that crack his fingers thrilled me. My ass was soft and felt so good under his fingers.
He took them and pinched them. I put my legs up and around his mouth. His whole head was in between my thighs. I wrapped my body tightly around his head and pulled him closer to me.
I quivered with a lust which grew the more he ate at me. I loved to have both of them thrill me. The more the merrier! I dreamed I was being fucked by twenty people all at once.
I almost couldn't breathe from it all. I remember moaning for them to lick me harder. They kept sucking at me. Carl's mouth was like a giant sweet pump at my pussy. He swirled his tongue around so excitingly.
Patience murmured and pushed her mouth hard over my mouth. Her breath was hot and I could taste her. Her tongue flashed in and out of my mouth until I was almost going out of my mind.
"Now comes the good part," she said with a smile. She sat up and stripped her jersey. Underneath her creamy white breasts were naked. They hung full and taut-nippled. I reached up to touch them and she swayed them in my fingers.
She slid my head off her lap and pulled off her slacks. Underneath her bush was bare. Her golden fleece was tufted and wet with her passion. I tried to poke my hand in there but she laughed and knocked it away.
"There's plenty of time for that," she said straddling my head on the couch with her knees. Then she brought the sweet thing down on my face. She didn't have to tell me what to do! I knew what she wanted and I knew what I wanted to do.
I felt her soft wet lips touch my mouth and nose. Her juice was open and dappled on her cunt lips. I licked with the tip of my tongue. But she jammed her whole slit straight down on my mouth and I started churning.
Everything went very fast, then I sucked away at her cunt lips. I chewed on each one like a tender piece of meat and sucked up to her clit. I felt her organ of love grow and swell with her blood. It was sweet and pulsing there in my mouth.
She bucked each time I ran my tongue tenderly over the thing. Her whole body bucked on top of me. I wanted to push my mouth so far up her that she would scream with pleasure.
Down below Carl lifted my ass and thighs. I felt him shift and kneel between them. Then I felt his sharp hard dick press at my cunt lips.
I was too delirious with lust to care about anything but the lust inside me. His prick slid back and forth at the door to my passage with each twist I made on Patience's mouth.
I bucked and sighed as he stroked my stomach and thigh with his hands. I felt so sexy and I wanted him to rub me over and over again. I pumped up at his cock in my cunt and all of a sudden it slipped all the way in.
The shock sucked the breath out of me. The next instant I was twisting and crying mindlessly. I sucked my wind in and out with each stroke. He had my ass in his fingers, probing and pushing at it. The tense muscles felt like melting wax in his hands.
Faster and faster he shoved in until I was just going crazy with his cock. It pierced me all the way to the back and the thrill cut through me like a burst of sunlight through the clouds.
Faster back and forth he stroked his lovely cock. He moaned in a rhythm which sent me higher and higher. I wanted to feel him shove it all the way to the back of my pussy.
His fingers clutched savagely at my ass and he shook his hips in a spasm of passion. Then shrieking he fell forward on my stomach pumping his hot come into me.
All at once I came with his dick pounding inside me. The hot come seemed to do it. I felt each pulse inside me like a bolt from the sky.
Patience bucked up and down on my mouth, shaking her ass. Her cries were lost and she came in a sweet dream on top of me. Together we pumped until we all fell together in a heap and lay there licking each other gently.
"It is not so unusual for a young girl to get her first experience at the hands of an older man," I said. "However it is unusual for a couple to be involved in this initiation.
"We will have to delve into this further in our next session. Until then I hope you have a good week."
She got up and she said goodbye warmly. Then she turned and I watched her long black hair and full hips sway out of my office. INTERVIEW TWO:
NOTES:
The next session I had with Laura revealed much more to me than the first one had. It showed me the deepset ambivalence which was in her.
Overriding her good looks and engaging personality was a conflict which she still had not resolved. She had barely even started to approach it.
However as she sat down in front of me with her long black hair gleaming in the sunlight, I did not know any of what was to follow. I couldn't guess what the young woman of nineteen sitting before me in the close-fitting and provocative dress would say.
Below are the things she did say. It is an exact transcript of her words and tells her story better than any description I could give....
I have really been doing a lot of thinking lately Doctor. Not only about what happened in the past but also about now. I don't really know where to begin.
I guess maybe I ought to tell you about Carl and Patience. They played a big part and I haven't told you the half of it. After that first time at my parents' house there were other times.
I was sort of in a daze for weeks after that. I really was very confused. I liked what had happened but I was so afraid I had done something wrong. There was no one I could ask about it.
I didn't have any friends I could ask. So there I was, all alone with my problems. Finally it turned out I had to turn to the people who had done it.
I guess it was about three weeks after the first encounter at my house. My parents went out again and sent for Carl and Patience. They came at about the same time.
It was late spring then and it was light pretty late. When the two of them got there it wasn't even getting dark yet. I was so happy and scared to see them.
But they were perfectly natural and friendly. They didn't seem different at all. They just said hello and we sat outside on the grass talking.
"Do you feel like a woman now?" Patience asked.
I shrugged and looked at the grass in front of my crossed legs. I was so confused.
"There's nothing wrong with what we did with you," she said. "Didn't you like it?"
I had liked it! I liked it more than anything I had ever done. I told them that and Patience leaned over and kissed me.
"So what's on your mind?" Carl asked.
I tried to tell him but it came out all wrong. It came out like I was angry at them. It came out like I was afraid. I don't think I was afraid. It was just that I didn't know if I was doing the right thing!
"I know just the thing to make you feel better," he said smiling. "Let's go inside and we can get into it."
He took me by the hand and Patience came along behind. We went inside and up to my room. I sat down on the bed and watched him close the door behind us.
The sun was still streaming into the room. His soft brown hair looked so inviting. I wanted to roll my face around in it until I drowned in the beautiful aroma. Patience sat next to me.
"I'll rub your back for you," she said gently, pushing my face down on the soft bed. She put her lovely hands on the space between my neck and shoulders and began to rub. Harder and harder she pressed and kneaded my anxious muscles.
I felt as if I were drifting away. It was so nice. I let myself go all over. My whole body just melted down into the bed until I felt as if anything and everything were possible.
Deeper and deeper she stroked me. I rolled my shoulders sensuously. She dug around my shoulder blades with her thumbs. She traced grooves down my back which seemed to channel my tension away like rainwater off a roof.
I sighed over and over as her fingers touched the tense places in my body. The tight little knots under my skin yielded to her fingers. She poked and pressed them until they all gave up the struggle and relaxed in delicious waves of peace.
I was breathing. I was not tired but I felt as if I were drifting off to sleep. Then the bed shifted and I felt larger hands stroke me. They were Carl's and his fingers were longer and more powerful. He pressed me harder and I felt more tension leaving my body.
He leaned down on me and I ached with the joy of him kneading my back. Then next to me on the bed I felt something slide. I turned and there was Patience naked and beautiful.
Her body was like a pillar of pink and orange ivory. Her breasts were full and jutting with large nipples. Her long blond hair fell almost to her ass. She knelt on the bed for a moment then slid down next to me.
She was so sexy. I reached up to touch her golden-haired thigh. It was full and strong and she parted it from her other. I slid my fingers up until I was playing in the curls of her sporran. It was hot and dripping even then.
I pushed my hands into the mass of tangles and felt for her organ. I found her clit hanging full and lusting there. I wiggled my fingers back and forth until I was going crazy. I felt as if I could root around all day.
She fell down beside me and moaned into my ear until I was sobbing with lust. I twisted and put my arms around her. I pushed my tongue around her lips and over her teeth. I scoured her mouth and tasted her luscious flavors.
She twirled her tongue around mine and we danced together in my mouth. Faster and harder I sucked her until I felt as if we were as one.
We moved tighter together and I dug my fingers into her naked back. I wanted to devour her. She panted and pushed up at me. I sobbed and bucked with Carl's fingers still kneading me.
He pulled off my sweater as Patience helped him. Then he reached around under me and opened my jeans. I felt him slide his cool fingers into my flap. His hand thrilled me there as he pushed it down onto my bush.
His whole body lay forward on top of me and I sighed with pleasure. I wanted him heavy and hot on top of me. His whole body pressed hard on me and crushed my clit down on his finger.
Faster and faster he wiggled his lovely finger in there. It felt like a worm was working at my guts. I panted and shook my ass. I spread his whole hand over my little mouse. I almost squeaked and chirped with pleasure as he tingled the soft cunt lips.
My bush and things were wet as he pulled out his hand and slid off my jeans. I felt the cool air on my ass as he slid off my underpants underneath.
He bent and kissed my ass. He ran his tongue into my ass crack and kissed the puckered little asshole. His mouth was hot and he stuck his tongue into the tight little hole.
I forced it up at his mouth and swiveled my ass around at him. I loved the spread open feeling of his hands on my cheeks. He pulled them apart even more and ran his tongue around the outside of my shit hole.
Then he pushed into it. I quivered and relaxed under him. His tongue forced its wet and luscious way into me until I was creaming and panting on him. His hand went back under my hip to my clit.
His tongue tickled deep in my ass hole and his fingers pinched and tickled at my clit. I throbbed and longed to be thrilled deeply by him. I panted and begged for him to go deeper. He did.
Faster and faster he twirled his tongue around in my dark hole. His whole body seemed to be concentrated there. He twirled his muscle around deeper and deeper until I felt as if a bird were fluttering deep in my guts. It stirred me like I had never been stirred before.
I panted and hummed long and deep in Patience's ear. She let me kiss and suck her there. Then she kissed me full on the mouth and chewed on my tongue. Back and forth we traded tongue kisses while Carl's tongue creamed around in my insides.
I bucked my ass up and down with his muscle shoved deep in it. I panted and his fingers quivered around my sopping clitoris. He twirled them at the base and I panted for more. Each time I moved it was a sweet agony.
I felt myself moving faster and more abandonedly. My whole body twisted and I pumped faster and faster until I came around his thrusting punishing fingers. I bit hard on Patience's mouth and kept coming in a hot embrace.
She felt down and touched my nipples. They grew taut under her caress and she rolled them in her fingers. Each touch was like fire and made my belly swirl with desire.
In a flash Carl snaked his tongue out of my asshole and shoved his finger inside. Further and further into it he pushed until I felt as if I would split in two.
He worked it around and I felt a stuffed open feeling which made my whole body tense and arch up at him. He rammed it in farther and bent the tip around in an excruciating trip around the inside of my rectum.
He licked all around my ass cheeks. The spit was cold there. I felt his tongue lapping at me and loved it. Then he pulled his finger out and spit into the open hole.
He put his cock at the opening and slid the hard tip against my muscles. The thing strained and he pushed harder. Then with a painful tear he pushed past the entrance deep into my hole. I felt the lust rise in me until I was going crazy.
Deeper and deeper he penetrated. It was like a dark probe in my guts. It made me twist up and open more and more to him.
He shoved all the way into the hilt and dug his fingers into the flesh of my stomach. He kneaded his fingers there and probed down to my clit.
He twirled his fingers around my throbbing fountain of love and I pressed my hands on top of his to make her push harder and faster. I moaned and he rammed his dick back and forth through the opening of my ass. It made me shiver with his fingers on my throbbing little love stick. He tickled it and I went crazy.
Patience beside me crushed my tit in her finger. She pulled them back and forth and rubbed them over and over. I pressed against her as hard as I could. Her mouth roved down my chest until she was on my tits. Her mouth sucked hard at the red areola around my nipples. She made a journey around each one with her tongue and teeth which made me go wild. I couldn't resist running my fingers through her hair.
Down and down I rubbed in her golden shining strands. She sighed and I stroked her back and she dug her teeth into my tits harder.
She pulled them across my nipples and made me shiver. Her whole body seemed taut and arching against me. I reached all the way down her back. I felt each muscle and the little vertebrae in her back bone. I caressed the beautiful dimples above her ass cheeks. I ran my hands over voluptuous tits. I couldn't get enough of her body.
Deep in my guts Carl was shoving his rod of lightning. He touched me again and again deep in my ass. It was so sweet that I shivered and panted around his aching fingers.
He pressed my clit between his fingers like little balls of wool. Around and around he rolled the bulging tip to make me cry out. His hands rotated my ass under him and dug into my back.
I panted and felt myself loose a stream of sweet love juice down my snatch. It swept like a tidal wave through me and I twisted harder on his dick. The three of us bucked hard on each other. I cried out as I felt myself losing control.
I just let everything go. I just sort of slipped away. Like a railroad car or something rolling very slowly down a hill. You know I started out very slow.
But pretty soon I was thrashing and screaming as his cock shoved higher and higher into me and her mouth dug into my tits.
I held onto her head and his hands. I wanted them to make me come over and over again. I never wanted them to stop. I was bellowing and pumping harder and harder. They knew just what to do.
Then Carl went all crazy and scratched his fingernails straight down my back. The pain was like a razor blade slashing me but his fingers and cock thrilling me made me forget about the pain.
He shoved his dick back and forth one more time and I heard him moan. He quivered his hips against my ass and shot a huge wad of his jism up into me.
I lurched back up at him and started grinding with my ass faster than before. He saw back and forth with his fingers cramming down on my throbbing clit. Faster than that he moved his sweet thick love rasp in my asshole.
His whole body twisted and rubbed down on mine. I squealed and he shoved another spurting stroke into me. Each one was better than the one before. Beside me, Patience sucked savagely on my nipples. Each one was like a firestone. She ran them around her teeth and chewed them deep in her mouth. I felt licked and pierced everywhere. I wiggled against both of them. I never wanted it to stop.
I panted and came as he thrust to the utmost reaches of my asshole and spurted his final burst of white hot come there.
Patience moaned and pressed herself against my thigh with her pussy. Together we came against each other. Her whole body was like hot velvet and I came in one giant churning orgasm which left me limp....
"I'm sorry, Laura," I said, "but it's time for us to break now. I'm very interested in your experiences with that couple. Next time we will have to get further into the subject."
"My advice to you now is to think of how this affects your life today. Do you have any relations which remind you of Carl and Patience? Questions like that are important and you can ask them better of yourself than anyone else."
She got up and this time we shook hands. Her sweet smile was as dazzling as ever. Her body exuded the same sexual power and I could not help but notice her warmth and attractiveness. She smiled and walked out. INTERVIEW THREE:
NOTES:
The final interview of this case to my surprise turned out to be only the third interview I had. It was gratifying to see so much progress in Laura in that short time. It as a matter-of-fact, close to miraculous that so much could happen in such a short time.
But she was and is a remarkable young woman and her words in the third interview indicate this very well. Below is a transcript of that interview just as she spoke it....
At first it was much too much for me to think about all the things which happened to me back then, I mean it was very painful and I didn't like to think about it.
But now I can look at it and it doesn't seem all that horrible. I mean I can look at the bad and the good and see it for what it was. Now it doesn't haunt me so much so I can't live now.
Like I said last time I was here, Carl and Patience were just the first round in a lot of other things which happened. They were my passport into a world I hadn't known existed.
Pretty soon I was in over my head. It went from them coming over to baby sit for me to my going to their parties. You see they had a whole bunch of friends who were all swinging couples.
Their parties were swapping parties!! They used to get together and trade off their husbands and wives. They were all young people and their husbands and wives were very pretty.
I was the star attraction though. They had mostly never had it with a thirteen-year-old before and I really turned them on. Also no one could get jealous of me because who was going to run off with a thirteen-year-old girl?
So I got invited to all the parties. It took some doing since my parents wouldn't have approved if they had even known who was going to be there let alone what we were going to be doing.
But I lied and Patience and Carl helped me cover up. My parents really didn't care all that much as long as I kept out of trouble and out of their hair.
I got involved in some pretty freaky scenes. I was so excited at the time. I felt so grown-up with all those adults. I was treated just like one of them. No one ever talked down to me or anything. If anything, they treated me as much more adult than I was. I loved that.
I was willing to do anything to be part of the group. I got that kind of reputation pretty quick too. Guys and chicks thought up some pretty weird things to have me do.
Everyone else used to pair off and really it was pretty tame. But with me there was always someone extra to do strange and new things with I became a one-woman orgy.
There was this guy Ray who liked to stick all kinds of things up my asshole while I was fucking other guys. The first time he came up to me I was making it with Carl and Patience.
At first it blew my mind. I mean I had never been fucked by two men before. It was kind of a strange feeling. But it all happened so quickly and naturally that I just kind of accepted it.
That night I started off with Carl. He was sitting on my mouth with his dick shoved all the way inside. His cock was hard against the back of my mouth. It rubbed hard on the top of my mouth.
Over and over I sucked it inside. He swirled around and around and we were in the sixty-nine position. Side by side with his mouth on my cunt and his dick in my mouth we sucked and chewed. Patience was at my back sucking at my ass.
Her tongue flicked around my asshole and shot around the rim. I felt their mouths down there. The two of them together drove me wild. I sucked hard on his cock and it was such a joy to feel him inside like that.
They chewed faster and faster on my crotch. Carl gnawed at each one of my cunt lips. He rolled his tongue around them inside his mouth. He sucked on the tip of my clit and made it grow harder and harder.
I wanted to feel his tongue slash deep inside my slit. But he pulled the tip of my clitoris over and over out from me until I felt as if I were a quivering mass of growing jelly.
Each time he sucked a tiny thread of passion reeled out from me. He nurtured and caressed it until I was going crazy.
Patience reamed my asshole with her tongue. She flicked in and out of the tight orifice. She pushed her mouth down there and nibbled around the tip with her mouth. She chewed on the tender and tight muscle.
Deeper and deeper she went with her mouth as Carl pulled in my cunt. I felt as if my whole underside were open for their lust.
Suddenly Patience was no longer at my back. Instead I felt hairy legs against my back. They pressed at the back of my head. I felt a hard cock in between my shoulder blades and someone's flashing tongue on my ass.
The hot hands there ran up and over my hips. Down and up he stroked sensuously. I quivered under those hands as I pushed my ass back at him. I felt his hot breath and his rough beard. He rubbed it at my ass and it really turned me on.
Then I felt a strange vibrating sensation against one of my ass cheeks. It moved across and down into my asscrack. I felt myself wet from Carl's licking and my own come.
At the tip of my asshole, Ray pushed the vibrating dildo. It sent shivers up through me turning my insides to swirling cream.
He pushed it in relentlessly and my whole guts shook with the feeling. I pumped on the rod and took it into me with a sweet rolling of my ass.
It felt so nice to be pierced. Carl never stopped sucking on my clit. He chewed and pulled ever harder. I rolled under the two tongues until I was going ape with lust.
I felt myself coming. I couldn't stop. The two men worked over me and I moved like a demon. I just kept twisting against their legs and cocks.
I felt Ray hot against my back. His hot breath was on my ass as he worked the dildo harder and deeper into me. His whole body moved and pressed back and forth on me.
I grabbed Carl's legs and pulled them tight against my tits. He pumped with his dick at the entrance of my mouth. I took it all the way inside and kissed it with my tongue. I chewed the tip and he thrust it inside again.
At the back of my throat he pushed it and I nibbled at his dick. Harder and harder I sucked at his dick. It was throbbing in my mouth. I felt as if I had his heart there, it was pounding so.
Ray rammed the vibrating dildo all the way to the back of my asshole. It ripped me open and I felt myself swirl inside from the lust. The faster he did it the more I wanted both of them.
Carl pulled his tongue out of my snatch and wriggled it up over my clit. He moved in a snakey line over my tangle of cunt hair and onto my stomach. He licked and nibbled around my hips and up my sides.
Over and over he nibbled and sucked until he was at my breast. Harder he bit down there and I thrust them up at her.
He moved his hands to cup them and cherished the heavy flesh. My tits felt even larger than they were. They swelled under his attention and he pummeled them in his hands.
Then he was at my neck. His tongue lapped under my chin and I quivered with the thrill. His dick was at the mouth of my pussy. My whole crotch shook with the vibrating of the dildo.
Ray rammed it hard and faster into my ass Carl's dick was at the entrance to my cunt and I moaned for it. He pressed hot against me and I parted my legs to let him slide in.
His eyeless tool pushed at my pussy. My whole body bent up toward him. I twisted and sucked his dick into me.
I ground savagely and he crammed his tool into my pussy. I wanted him in there so much. Ray rubbed harder and harder with the vibrating dildo in my asshole. It was hot and thick in there as he tingled me.
I panted and he went crazy with the thing. Faster and faster he jammed it back and forth in me. I was thrashing wildly back and forth between them.
His teeth were in my ass. Carl chewed on my neck as he ran his dick deeper into my twat. His whole body pressed against me.
I felt his muscular chest on my tits. He moved himself sensuously against them. His stomach heaved on mine as he slid himself further and further into my pussy.
Ray's legs were wrapped around my head. He jammed the dildo brutally into my snatch. It ached and tore into my tender flesh. I moaned and pushed against each of them.
It was so sexy to feel them on both sides of me. I was hot between them. Carl's fingers were on my tits. He kneaded them harder with his hands. My nipples were dying for him to rub me.
I felt Ray's stiff cock in the back of my neck. He was thrashing wildly against me. I bent my head to one side and crushed his dick between my shoulder and my neck. He felt the pressure and he went crazy. He pumped with his cock trapped like that. His dick was around my hair. He pushed and pulled it against my hair. Harder and harder he bucked and I could feel him moan.
He rammed his dildo harder and harder into my pussy. The two of us were going crazy. I felt his whole body hot against my back.
Carl pumped faster into me and his hands went wild on my tits. I felt as if the life were being squeezed out of me between the two hot men.
Suddenly I felt someone on top of me. There was Patience on top of the pile. Her thighs were wet and parted. She rubbed herself in frustration on my side as the two men worked out on me.
She stroked her clit over and over on me and came moaning about how good it was. Her arms were around me and Carl. She came hard with a new burst of passion.
Ray had the vibrating dildo in his teeth. He held it hard and churned it around his insides. It tore at the flesh inside and made me quiver.
He rammed it all the way back in his mouth and put his lips hot on the rammed-open ass flesh. The hot wet feeling made me shiver. I panted and felt Carl shove his hot cock further into my pussy than anyone ever had.
Then he pulled it almost out to the tip. He poised there tantalizing me with the quivering ache in my guts.
Then with a groan he shoved his engorged tool into me. It seemed to sear a path deep into my guts. The tip touched me and I seemed to split open with lust.
Faster and faster I made him move. Ray jammed the hot dildo into my ass and I felt totally stuffed. My brain exploded and I shook all over like a frantic tribal dancer at the end of a three day frenzy.
They felt me go wild like that and shoved themselves harder into me. Patience moaned and pulled Carl away from my mouth. She pulled my head back and plastered my face in her cunt as she sat on me.
I was under all three of them just moving in time to their Angers and probing shafts. I was totally at their mercy. I just moved to avoid pain. I slithered around with my tongue in Patience's mouth and chewed on her cunt lips. She was so hot that she came right away covering my face.
Ray was beating harder and harder into my neck withhis dick. I heard him groan and felt his dick quiver hot and hard into me. Then I felt myself slipping too. Over and over I tumbled and let myself fall faster and faster.
Carl bleated and shafted me about ten times. I couldn't feel anything but a massive boiling in my guts. I panted and screamed. Faster and faster Carl shoved it in. My whole body felt like it was exploding.
Then Ray came harder and spurting, he jammed his cock against my neck and beat his cream into my hair. The sweet juice pounded against me. I twisted my hair and loved the wet hot feeling. I felt like I was drowning in his come.
I felt Patience tense and buck her clit in my mouth. I bit down in a frenzy and chewed her root until she howled in joy. Faster and faster she twirled her hips until she spent herself in sweet joyful desire.
I felt Carl murmur in my ear. His tongue lashed in and out and sent chills through me. His teeth dug into my neck and really turned my guts to quicksilver. Then he started to come.
His pounding in my pussy was the last straw. Under the three of them I went absolutely crazy. I twisted and dug my fingers deep into Patience's ass. So deep I dug that I drew blood.
I panted and moved faster until the sweet climax burst in agony through me and Carl shot his wad of gism up my aching pussy. Over and over I ground his cock around by the root. He thrilled me with savage thrusts and made me come for decades.
His whole twisting frame shoved like a madman against me. Ray shot his load all through my hair and pulled his dick around with my neck in a brutal sweet dance.
Patience spent herself in my mouth as I screamed soundlessly there. I chewed her love lips until she moaned and crushed them against my teeth. Her joy spent in a wave of come which I felt full in my face.
We lay like that for a while. Then the men, too, turned, fucking me in the cunt and the ass. Ray took special delight in fucking me in the ass while I blew Carl.
Patience and I fucked each other with a two-headed dildo while the men watched. They rubbed against us and we jerked them off with our fingers and mouths as we came in our sweet joy. It was so nice....
"I think it's time for us to quit now," I said. "I would like you to tell me frankly, Laura, why you think you need to see me. You don't seem in the least upset by what you are telling me."
She looked at me and smiled slyly. Then she told me the truth.
"I don't really feel bad about it. I just came to you because the health service at school sent me here. You see I got caught with some pot in my room and they thought it was some kind of crime and aberration.
"They told me to go and getmental help. I heard you were a kind of groovy guy and I thought I would entertain you. All the things I told you were true. But I don't feel bad about it."
"Well, in that case," I said, "there is no need to continue coming. I am not very happy that you used me to evade your problems at school. But I don't think a pot offense in the dorm is the proper motivation for sending someone for psychiatric help. Under those circumstances I can't be too angry about your ploy. I hope everything works out for you."
She thanked me and gave me a peck on the cheek before she left. I stood there and when she walked out I rubbed the place where she had kissed me. I could not deny she certainly had entertained me.
CONCLUSION:
Laura's case is a clear example of one where early and promiscuous sexual activity had no long range damage to the patient.
She was a well adjusted and happy college student when I saw her. If anything her early initiation to sexual expression freed her from the unnatural and unloving constraints her parents were forcing on her.
CASE NUMBER TWO. MELANIE M.
INTERVIEW NUMBER ONE
NOTES:
Melanie had the aspect of an angel and the heart of a devil. Her face was pale and her eyes were blue. Her hair hung straight and blonde over her face.
In repose her face might have served as a model for Michelangelo. But when she spoke her essence as a tormented young girl came out and twisted her lovely angelic features almost beyond recognition.
When I saw her she was sixteen. She told me a story that I would not wish on any other and led me a long way to even accept her vicious and mean behavior. However she was really too much to be believed.
"She came to me at the behest of her parents, very slight acquaintances of mine. They reported that she was listless and doing poorly in school. They said she seemed to have no friends and didn't get along well with others.
I agreed to see her and the first interview I was presented with a slender figure of a girl across from me in a full length blue dress which made her look younger than sixteen with its bows and ribbons.
Below is a transcript of that first interview. Her words can tell most but not all of the story. Her face must be imagined in all its anger and fury to complete the full impact of the story. These then are her words just as I transcribed them from the recordings of the interview....
I didn't really want to come here you know. I don't see what good just talking to you is going to do. I mean it's not me that there is anything wrong with.
If everyone would just leave me alone then I would be fine. I mean why do you have to pester me like this? So why are you just sitting there and not saying anything? You think I'm going to do all the talking. Well I'm not!!
My parents think just because I'm doing bad in school that I must be crazy. Well, they're crazy! They can take their old school and stuff it!!
You're just like them sitting there. The only reason I feel bad is that people aren't ever nice to me. They never seem to want to make friends or anything. So I don't really have anyone to talk too. It's pretty lousy that way.
But I get along okay. I mean I'm not a cry baby about things. I get along. I don't know what the matter is. I used to be happy.
When I was growing up I used to laugh and play games and do lots of stuff. But now I never have any fun. I really hate that.
I guess it all started when I began to grow up. You know when I started to get bigger. Before my titties started growing, before I started to menstruate I was really happy. But that's all been such a bad time. It's not worth it.
I guess I didn't know that when it first happened. I thought it would be great. You know I dreamed about having all that hair down there. I wondered what it would be like to bleed every month.
I used to feel my titties and rub them to make them grow larger. I used to stand in front of the mirror and imagine that my hips were getting wider. I used to do that all the time.
But when it finally happened it was awful. I mean all the problems and everything were just terrible. I didn't know it at the time but I soon found out. It didn't take long.
The first time actually, that I found out things weren't so peachy was when my aunt and I went to Hawaii. I was just thirteen and feeling pretty grown-up.
One Christmas my aunt was going to business. My parents wanted to go to Europe to get away for a while. They never liked having me around very much and so they suggested that I go to Hawaii with my aunt.
That was fine with me. They were going skiing in Europe and I never liked to ski. Anyway, I liked my aunt a whole lot more than I liked my parents. She was so much easier to get along with than my parents. She treated me like a grown-up at least.
So when I said good-bye to my mother and father I wasn't sad to see them go. I was kind of hoping I could stay with my aunt forever.
We flew all the way to Hawaii non-stop. We got there and it was beautiful. It was winter in Chicago but it was summer there.
She was going to some kind of convention so I had a lot of time to myself. Like I told you, she treated me like a grown-up. I could go whenever I wanted to go when I wanted to go. She never told me what to do.
I spent the next couple of days on the beach. It was great. The sun was so warm and the ocean was so nice. I could smell the flowers in the hills as I lay there on the beach.
People were so friendly. I met all kinds of kids. But they were all there with their parents and most of them couldn't think of anything better to do with themselves than stand around and drink sodas.
I guess after three days I was pretty bored. You know, I just sat around on the beach and listened to the ocean. It was pretty peaceful. But after I went swimming and tried some surfing I was all alone.
About the fourth day I wasn't sure I wanted to go out to the beach. I sat around the hotel room thinking about it after my aunt left. But it didn't matter very much.
After a while I decided I didn't have anything better to do. So I put on my sexiest bathing suit and robe and walked across the road to the beach.
It was a lovely day. The sun was bright and I smelled the ocean breeze. I walked across the road and found a spot on the beach under a tree. But the sun was too much to stay in the shade.
I went out in the sun and slid off my robe. Suddenly I felt every eye on the beach on me. It was as if someone had turned on the lights in a dark room.
I felt myself stir inside. I slid my robe all the way off and spread out my blanket on the sand. I looked down at my tiny two-piece bathing suit. It was red and barely covered my titties. The bottom panty was really two pieces of cloth hooked together in the middle over my hips with two metal rings.
It was a beautiful and sexy suit. I had just gotten it and it felt so much better than the old one-piece ones I had always worn before.
I greased myself up with the coconut oil I had brought. I rubbed it lovingly all up and down my skin. The combination of everyone's eyes on me and the smooth glistening feel of the oil made me feel so sexy I wanted to rip off my bathing suit and stand there naked.
I covered every inch of me with the oil and lay back luxuriously on the blanket. It was warm from the sun and I scrunched down on the soft sand and made hollow places for my shoulders and ass in the soft stuff. I wiggled one last time and then lay there.
I felt my hips jutting up and my titties bulging there under my bathing suit. I felt my whole body lithe and perfect in the sun. I felt as if the sun were caressing me. It felt so wonderful!!
I lay there for about twenty minutes without even moving once. I thought of nothing but the luscious feel of the sun on my stomach and thighs. I felt as if I were moving very slowly with tiny fingers touching me all over.
I think I was almost asleep when I heard her voice. It was soft and melodious. It seemed to come from very far off yet so near that I felt I could touch it just by moving my hand a fraction of an inch.
It was so sweet that it made my breath flow out with a sigh. She called my name again and said hello. I opened my eyes and blinked. But I didn't see anyone. Then she said hello again and I turned around. There she was kneeling on the sand behind my head. She had long brown hair which fell in a storm about her shoulders. Her eyes were brown and her whole body had the aspect of a fawn.
She smiled and said I looked very comfortable on the sand. I told her who I was. Then I asked her who she was. She told me her name was Sue. I smiled because I always liked that name.
She sat down on the edge of the blanket and told me she had been watching me ever since I had come on the beach. We talked about a lot of things. I felt close to her right away. Maybe it was that she said I looked older than thirteen that made me like her.
Maybe it was that she said I looked lonely there. I was lonely and it was nice that someone was watching me and noticed it.
Whatever it was, when she suggested that I come over to her house and meet her husband Joe, I said yes right away. She said it was up the coast about twenty miles. But I didn't mind. I told her I would meet her back on the beach in a few minutes. Then I ran back to my room.
I was so excited. I tingled inside. I left my aunt a note and told her I would be back sometime soon. Then I got my prettiest dress and sandals and put them on.
I rushed back to the beach and there was Sue waiting for me. She was sitting at the wheel of a Borgia 500. It gleamed in the sun. Her hair streamed back in the breeze as she shouted hello to me.
I hopped in and we roared off. The car was so powerful that it pressed me back in the seat. I felt so happy as we tore over the road up the coast.
When we got there it was cooler. The breeze flew fresh off the ocean. They lived in a small stucco house on the beach. It was so pretty I almost started laughing just because it was so perfect.
We went inside and Joe was sitting there on the porch reading. He got up and shook my hand. He was tall with sandy blond hair. His face was open and he was muscular. I saw the muscles in his shoulders ripple and bulge under his T-shirt.
"I'm glad I came," I said. He nodded and offered me a drink. I took it and it tasted sweet. Sue sat next to me on the couch. She told me that they had come to the islands from Detroit. They had been fed up with the city and wanted only to be left in peace. She said they found it perfect for what they were looking for.
I asked them what they were looking for. They glanced at each other and smiled at me.
"We find that people out here are more open," she said. "They are not so hung up on right and wrong in the old sense. They want more to make themselves happy."
"We feel that the way to be happy is to do what you want. You have to be free to be happy. How do you feel about it Melanie?"
I smiled and felt all funny about it inside. I said I guess that free was the best way to be. I leaned back on the couch and let the liquor move around inside my head. It tilted the room back and forth. I did feel free.
Sue put her hand on my neck and tickled me there. She ran the tip of her finger into my ear.
"How does that feel?" she said. It felt wonderful. I told her it did and she leaned close and kissed me. Her whole body was cool. The breeze stirred her hair in my face. It smelled like jasmine.
I let her nibble there. I had never had anyone kiss my ear like that. The thrills were so new and exciting. I heard Joe laugh and saw him smiling at me.
"She likes it," he said. I nodded at him and he came over and sat on the other side of me. His hands were opening the buttons of my dress. One by one he opened them until I was revealed.
He slipped his hand inside and felt my bare breasts. My nipples ached under his cool strong fingers. Sue chewed deep on my ear as he worked at my chest.
He opened the buttons of my dress all the way down and parted it. I felt my thighs tingle and got all weak. I parted them and let him slip his fingers onto my bush. He rubbed through my cotton panties and felt the dripping crack thrill to his touch.
He rubbed harder. He sure knew how to do it. Each time he squeezed, he closed his whole hand around it. He shoved his fingers deeper into the creaming crack. He poked through the fabric and I wriggled under his feel.
Sue chewed and lapped on my ear until I was all wet. The slurping sounds there turned me on. I felt myself being carried away by their fingers and mouths.
She chewed down my neck and nibbled there. Her tongue seemed to be dissolving me away. Then Joe pulled away the elastic of my panties and shoved his hand inside. Once there he felt the tangle of sparse curls. He tickled around the hair and pushed my cunt lips together like a sandwich.
Then he poked one long finger into my slit over the aching clit. I gasped and strained up. But Sue held me down and threw her arms savagely around my shoulders. She hugged me close and kissed my neck until I felt my blood hurting under the skin.
Joe ran his finger over and over on my clit. He panted and grabbed at the flesh there. He worked me over and over, running his finger deep down into my ass crack. He grabbed around under me and made me shiver with his practiced hand.
I squeezed hard on his wrists as his hand fought deep into my dark damp ass crack. He panted and worked it back and forth. I couldn't stand it without doing something. I turned and kissed him really hard on the lips. I had never done anything like that before.
He looked startled for an instant. Then he hugged me and kissed me back even harder. His tongue fought into my mouth. I was scared and tried to keep him out. But he shoved it savagely past my lips and deep into my mouth. His whole body was raging against mine.
He snorted and panted and I thought he had turned into some kind of monster. His hands clawed at me and rubbed at my tits. He crushed the little nipple until they hurt. His fingers shoved deep into the crack of my cunt. His whole hand kneaded me down there.
I tried to force his tongue out of my mouth. But he was too strong for me. Then he started rubbing the tip of his fingers across my clit and I felt a huge something twist around inside me.
Suddenly I didn't want his tongue out of my mouth. I felt it red and thick there. I chewed around at it and he moaned with the feeling. He felt me move hot against him and murmured his approval.
Faster and faster he moved his fingers in my steamy bottom. His fingers were in my cunt now. He tingled the love lips and shoved them in and out of my hole. His attentions made me pant with lust.
I wanted him to jam it into me more than anything else. I felt like some lamb being sacrificed. It was so beautiful. He poked his long forefinger into my asshole and ran it up and down on the muscle separating it from my cunt.
I shivered as he held my whole sexual feeling between his two fingers. His tricks made my heart jump. He really knew how to do it. Over and over he rubbed the tender, firm flesh between my cunt and asshole. He pulled and stroked until I was going out of my mind.
Faster and faster he pulled me and I panted. He took my clit in his fingers and rolled it hard. I panted and clutched at his arm. I loved it so much I pumped on him and came all over his hand. But he didn't stop then.
He stood up and pulled off his T-shirt. Naked from the waist up he was more beautiful than before. I watched him open his pants and pull them off. His whole body was tense and lovely.
He stripped them off and stood there in his shorts. I saw his dick throbbing out from the fly. His dark tangle of hair was so mysterious and sensual looking.
He pulled off his shorts as Sue sucked on my ear. He came over to the couch and pulled my panties down. I helped him by lifting my hips. Sue pulled my dress off my shoulders.
He lifted me by the ankles and slid me down the couch. The smooth cool fabric felt fine on my ass. I really dug it.
I lifted my naked legs high over his shoulders and he knelt between. I watched him as he kissed my feet and ankles. All the way up my legs he kissed with his wet tongue and mouth. I felt his smooth face on the inside of my thighs. He felt so good I moaned and clutched my legs around his head.
He pressed closer and closer to my cunt. Then he was there rooting like a hog. He snuffled and chewed on my lips. I ran with his spit and felt myself just slipping away.
What can I say? It was so sweet I pumped my stomach up and down with the feeling. He licked all around while Sue felt my tits. I put my arms around her and pulled up her tiny halter. Underneath, her tits were full and succulent.
I touched the engorged nipples and they contracted with passion. I massaged them and she moaned and smiled at me. They swung like ripe fruit and I stretched up and put my mouth on them.
He sucked and nibbled around my lips of love. He pulled them from side to side until I felt completely wet and open. Then he licked my stomach and hips. His tongue set me on fire.
He pushed forward and forced my hips higher over his massive shoulders. I felt myself open and wet as he came forward. Then his prick touched and slid into my cunt. I had never been fucked before. But he felt so perfect and natural there. It was like he belonged there.
I sobbed and chewed on Sue's tit. I sucked harder and harder with each inch he shoved in. Little by little he took me until he possessed my snatch to the hilt. It was wet and I moved around in gentle little circles. I wanted to move so bad. He really turned me on.
Sue pushed her tits further and further into my mouth. She moaned as I sucked and pulled the nipple against my teeth. Harder and harder I sucked until she was moaning and going crazy.
She pulled open her pants and slid them off. She sat back down on the couch and pushed her naked vulva hard against my head. She grabbed my hair and pulled my head all the way back.
I felt my neck stretched as she rubbed my tender Adam's apple. She pulled harder and brought my mouth up onto her slit. It was funky and I pushed my tongue into her crack. She shivered and cried out.
"Lick me!" she moaned. I did it and Joe shot himself back and forth through the opening of my pussy. It was such a delight. I couldn't help but love it. I kept moaning and pleading for him to do it harder.
My legs were all the way up in the air. My head was pulled up and my mouth was on her bush. I bucked and chewed as they pulled me back and forth between them.
His thighs pressed hard against my ass as his jagged hard cock shoved deep to the back of my cunt. I was open for his thrusts. His dick made me pant and cream with each thrust He took me to the hilt with each one.
Then he pulled his knob out and pressed it back and forth on the lips of my cunt. In the mouth of my cunt he worked again and again in sensuous little quivers until I came and shrieked.
I clutched his ass and pulled him hard inside me. It was as if the rain burst through a cloud and he showered his white-hot come into me. I panted and bent myself harder in two. His pulsing cock stroked deep inside me and his hands tore at my ass.
Over and over he rammed his dick into me and clawed at my body. He seemed to be going crazy. He moaned and shook. I chewed on Sue's bush and she loosened a deluge of sweet, sour come in my face. The taste made me lust after the excitement more.
She rammed her mouth over my face hard and made me cry out with lust. He crushed my clit in his, hand as he jammed into me with his final savage burst of love pounding rain. I screamed and tore at him coming in a sweet orgiastic release which left me limp between them.
"I am sure you must have more to tell about all these things," I said. "We have plenty of time in the coming sessions to explore this. So until then I hope you do well with whatever you are involved in."
She got up and walked out looking pensive and strangely silent. She hardly even looked at me and she said nothing. I stood there thinking that she was a very strange child. But I resolved to hold my judgments of her until I got to know her better as a patient. INTERVIEW TWO:
NOTES:
Melanie came in the next session looking radiant. Her hair was wound around her head in thick braids which made her look like a painting of the 17th century. She almost glowed as she came in the door.
She sat down and beamed at me. But I couldn't help thinking as I stared at her smile that there was something about it that seemed false and contrived. But nonetheless it warmed me and I couldn't help but honestly respond with a smile of my own.
She leaned back in her light summer dress and I saw her slender but luscious figure through the fabric. She obviously was wearing no bra and her breasts were shown to their full firm advantage. Her legs were long and stockingless. I saw the thousands of gold hairs there as she crossed them sensuously.
What follows is a transcript of that second interview. Her own words tell her story in all its ambivalence and conflict. I hope the reader will understand more about this enigmatic girl after finishing.
I guess I should finish my story about Hawaii. I left off in the middle. It was such a good story. I wouldn't want to spare you any of the gory details.
Anyway I think I told you about how Joe and Sue got me to come to their house. Well after we fucked, we just sat and talked for a while.
You know we didn't put our clothes on. We just sat there naked and talked about fucking. They taught me all the words like cunt and cock. I had never heard them before. They showed me all the things in Sue's cunt.
She spread her legs and Joe showed me her clit and told me how to rub it to make her feel good. I hadn't done any of that stuff. I always thought it was dirty to touch your own pussy. I never rubbed it at night or anything.
But he showed me how to put my tongue there and tickle her clit. She let me know just what felt good. It was so wonderful to lick her and have her squirm like that, that I just kept doing it and doing it.
She laughed when I did it. She saw how much I liked to do it. Then she was moaning, sighing as I did it. Joe told me how to take it in my mouth and move my lips like a fish.
I let him hold my tits while he moved me back and forth in her cunt. I quivered and licked at the clit. He showed me how to nibble on her love lips. He told me how to rub my teeth sideways like a cow and sort of grind out her pleasure.
She turned over on the couch and told me to put my tongue in her asshole. I was scared. I thought that sounded awful. But Joe bent and kissed me on the ear.
"It's not so bad," he said. "As a matter-of-fact, it's sort of fun." So saying that he put his hot lips down on her puckered little hole and made her shiver with the pleasure of an asssuck.
They told me that was what it was called. He licked hard there and made her push her ass up in his face. Then he told me to do it. Still a little bit scared I put my lips down on her cheeks.
I slithered them across her beautiful orbs. I felt her goose bumps. She sighed the closer I got to her hole. Then I stuck out my tongue and licked really quick on her hole.
It was dark and damp. There ware a few hairs growing there in the crack like trees by a well. But it tasted okay. I licked again this time harder and longer. The tense muscles sucked in and then relaxed under my tongue. I tasted her ass flesh now in my mouth. It had a funky smell but the hot flavor was worth it.
I pushed my mouth down on it all the way and she begged for me to shove my tongue all the way into it. I ran the tip around the edge of the hole and then past the tiny little folds of flesh. The feeling was so lovely. I really got into it.
I pushed deep into the dark interior and felt the suck of her asshole on my tongue. She pumped and moaned for me to do it harder and harder. She begged for me to lash her with it.
I whipped my tongue in and out her body. I pulled back and forth in the orifice. I poked it in and out It was like fucking her with my tongue. I really loved it.
I slithered in and out and she told me to put my hand on her clit. She loved it. She told me to push harder and softer each time she wanted it. Faster and faster I whipped my tongue around her shit hole until she quivered and bucked on my finger.
She came with my mouth plastered there in her hole. I bit the flesh around her asshole and made her shake her tail feather. Then she came and covered my hand with her luscious love cream.
Joe laughed and pulled me out of her ass. My tongue pulled out with a pop. It slurped across her as he rolled me backwards across the couch. I laughed and fell in a tumble on top of him on the floor.
The two of us tangled and he told me to come and sit on his face. I sat on his chest and did a little dance. I was really getting to like being a little sex-pot. I wiggled my ass across him and shook my budding breasts.
He smiled and licked his lips under me. I wriggled closer and closer to his mouth across his hairy chest. I felt my clit rubbing. He put his hands around my ass and pulled me hard onto his mouth.
The sucking of his tongue and teeth made me go crazy. I was still hot from the fuck he had given me before. I sat straight up on his mouth shoving it hard on his tantalizing tongue.
I reached behind and grabbed the flagpole of his cock. It stood proud and stiff in the air and I caressed it from top to bottom.
I let my fingers fall at the base and licked his balls until I heard his muffled moans through the juice and hair of my cunt.
He licked and sucked while I, too, took my pleasure. He knew how to wrap his tongue around my clit and give me all the thrills I wanted. He flicked the tip of my little love font with his tongue.
He nibbled at the Lips of my pussy and chewed them like a dog on a bone. I pulled his cock back and forth and stroked my whole hand up and down the length of the shaft. He sighed and pushed up at my hand.
I waved his cock back and forth and Sue came over. She kissed me sexily on the back of the neck. Then she kissed slowly down my back, tasting all the tiny tender place with her lips. Her breath was hot there and she touched me to the core.
Down my back she went until I wiggled my ass off in Joe's mouth. Faster and faster I twisted around as his tongue went wild.
Sue put her arms around my tits and dug her fingers in. Then very softly she started rubbing, going around in circles on my red stiff nipples. Like a soft breeze stirring my in sides as her fingers moved.
I felt her fingers tingle me all inside. Then she slipped ha leg across Joe and pushed herself down on his cock. The big head slid into her. I heard the soft wet sound as her finger closed around my tits.
Harder and harder Joe bucked under me as she worked out on his cock. She moaned and pushed her head against my back. Her hands worked like demons on me.
I started panting and bucking even harder as the two of us came on top of Joe's beautiful body. It was so much fun I rolled and rolled my hips around losing myself in the savage sex.
I felt Joe stiffen and he creamed up into Sue with a blast that made her shake and claw at me. The three of us bucked together until we spent and felt over on the floor in a sweet half-dream which lasted the rest of the afternoon.
When we stirred and washed ourselves it was getting on toward evening. Sue said that she would take me home to the hotel. But the thought of leaving that lovely place made me ill.
I begged and pleaded with her to let me stay. She was afraid that my aunt would be worried. But I told her my aunt wouldn't mind at all. She looked at me for a second and then said it was okay with her if it was okay with Joe.
I ran into the shower where Joe was washing himself and threw my arms around him. I begged him to let me stay. He looked surprised and hesitated for a minute.
I pushed my hand deep into the soapy wet curls of his box and ran my fingers around there. I pulled my hand over the slippery wet dick and fondled his balls tenderly.
"You can't send me away Joe, can you?" I said sexily as my fingers found all the places he loved to have rubbed. He laughed and kissed me on the forehead. He said that of course I could stay.
I was so happy. It didn't make any difference to my aunt. She didn't care at all about me anyway. Just like my parents she just wanted me out of her hair, that was all. I was able to do what I wanted.
So I took a shower after Joe was finished. I made sure to wash my cunt. I rubbed the soap all through my hair down there and felt the slippery beautiful feeling of my fingers in the thick forest.
I ran my hands over my wet tits and felt the tingle of the washcloth under my arms. It was so good to feel my stiff wet nipples tingling under my touch.
I got out of the shower and wrapped a huge fragrant towel around me. I was going to put my clothes back on but decided not to. I walked out into the room in the towel. The place was empty.
I wandered out the sea side of the house. It was almost dark and the night air was cool and fragrant with the smell of jacaranda and jasmine. It made my head swim as I took deep, deep breaths of it.
I heard Joe and Sue somewhere off down on the beach. I followed the noise and soon saw the two dim figures against the still slightly crimson sky of sunset.
Their house was the only one on the beach. To the left and right there was nothing but white sand and the jungle curling and crouching dark green behind. I saw logs and pieces of driftwood on the sand.
They were sitting on a blanket. Joe had on shorts and a T-shirt which showed off his muscular legs and tanned strong arms. Sue had on a shift which hid her voluptuous figure.
She had her head in Joe's lap and he stroked her hair back. They smiled when they saw me and I sat down close to them. Sue stared up at the sky and I could not resist bending and kissing her. She looked so sweet and peaceful there in the dark.
Joe rubbed my hair and I felt so much at home I never wanted to leave. I leaned down and put my head on Sue's stomach. I felt her breath in and out.
I nuzzled close in. The warmth made me want to just nest like that. I sighed and Sue put her arm around my head. She hugged me close and I nibbled at her through her cotton shift.
Then I found the buttons down each side and opened them there in the dark. I felt her nakedness underneath as I ran my hand over her thigh and down into the valley of sweet desire in between.
Sue parted her legs when she felt my fingers there. She sighed deep in her throat as I played with the sweet love lips. It was so nice to fondle her dripping tangle of hair and play with the tiny folds of desire inside.
I pushed further in and lifted the shift away from her. Joe pulled it off her head and I stripped off the towel. I smelled her naked fresh body next to me and it stirred my sex drive.
I wanted to taste her body and feel it in my fingers and against my loins. I slid next to her as she lay there on the towel. I chewed on her ear and ran my trembling fingers over her hips. I pressed on the lovely thrusting pelvis and she pushed up at me begging with her body for more caresses.
I droned in her ear and nibbled around to her mouth. I slid myself on top of her and felt her tight hot bush against mine. I ground around in a sweet momentary dance. Then I slid my hand between her wet love lips and stroked it up and down on her clitoris.
She threw her arms around my neck and kissed me full on the mouth. Her hot tongue really turned me on. I shoved mine in and out of her mouth and she sucked on it I felt her teeth chew at me and I chewed back.
I ate at her lips and felt the blood rise in my chest. I breathed faster and faster with each kiss and let her rub me deeply on the back. She felt all the tight aching places with her supple fingers. She massaged me until I was going out of my mind. I felt like sighing and dissolving away.
I kissed down under her chin and licked her neck with a tiny sexy little stroke. She shivered with each one and snaked her arms down lower on me until she had my ass cheeks in her kneading fingers.
I pumped my legs in between her thighs and she sobbed with the passion. She clutched at my thighs with her legs and came panting and panting around me.
I could tell she was going to come hard. I grabbed her down at the hips and caressed her. I felt her buck and twist under me in a savage hunger.
I thrust my tongue like a lizard all the way to the back of her mouth and she sucked it. I felt as if she was going to pull it off by the root. But it turned men on so much that I shook all over.
Faster and faster I wiggled my thighs in her snatch. I knew just what to do to turn her on. Faster and faster I pulled my leg back and forth in her crotch. My thigh was wet with her come. But I didn't give her any rest, I jerked her off until she was moaning and screaming.
Joe stood up and for the first time I noticed that he was naked. He pushed my head away from her yearning mouth and straddled her. His heavy balls dangled in her mouth and she sucked at them.
She licked them closer in a frenzy. He pushed down further and then took his dick in his fingers. It was stiff and he bent it straight down.
Then very slowly he slid it to her lips. He let her lick at the tip and kiss it. She tried to pull it in further but he teased her with just the tip. He rubbed it across her lips and she murmured at it.
She begged and pleaded for him to shove it at her. But he just let it dangle back and forth at her mouth. She slid her hands out from under me and caressed his hanging scrotum in her hands.
She fondled it and pulled it down forceful into her mouth. Deeper and deeper she pulled it as Joe kneeled above her on his massive thighs.
I rubbed and chewed at his ass as he knelt there above her. I felt her coming again and I saw between his legs she took it all the way in her mouth and down her throat.
Faster and faster I twisted against his ass. I bit my teeth hard into the twin perches. I felt the indentations on each side and he twisted between us.
She sucked his dick harder and further in and I fondled his balls between his legs. She locked her thighs around my legs and I ground out my passion on her hips.
Faster and faster all three of us bucked. My fingers controlled his come in his balls. I touched him lightly and he moved hard into Sue's mouth.
Then I stroked sensuously down and out and he started moaning, coming fast. Each stroke in, she sucked him. I held on to his balls kissing them between my fingers and licking them as he howled in pleasure.
Together we came on the beach in the night. Faster and faster he shot into her and I felt myself floating away over a beautiful sweet orgasmic climax. She groaned under him and chewed hard on his dick. Then we shivered together in one last quivering spurt and collapsed, covered with sweat and spit
"I think it's time for us to end this session now," I said. "We will have to continue this next time. In the meantime it might be a good idea to examine how you acted there on the island and how you felt in terms of how you feel now.
"For instance, if you can think of your aunt's and parents' reactions to the incident it might be very good. At any rate, I hope you have a nice week."
She got up a little shaken from the rendition of all the sexual activity. She looked almost as if she had been doing it in the office. She straightened her clothes and bade me good-bye which was an improvement over the last session. INTERVIEW THREE:
NOTES:
For our next interview Melanie seemed more nervous than she had been for the first. She looked just as beautiful but there was straining her which made her look as if she were waiting for something to fall off a shelf which was loose and wobbling.
She sat on the edge of her chair as she started talking I suggested she begin where she left off the previous session. She nodded, but her lower hp softly and began. What follows is an exact transcript of that interview.
Like I told you, Sue and Joe let me stay there with them. I never wanted to go back to my aunt. I would have told her where I was but there was no phone there.
Anyway I didn't really care deep down if she knew where I was. She really didn't care either so it was even. I slept out on the beach that night. It was beautiful. I watched the stars for half the night. The sky was so clear that I could almost reach out and touch through it.
I woke up as the sun was coming up. It came over from behind the mountains. It lit the sea up before it touched the land around us. I saw the sea golden and green in the morning light. It was just too beautiful.
Sue made breakfast that morning and we ate it out on the porch. Joe had gone for a few errands in the car and we talked almost the whole morning.
He came back about eleven o'clock and we helped him put all the groceries away. Then they suggested we go for a swim. I jumped up to get my bathing suit and they laughed.
"We don't use bathing suits around here," Joe said. The water is too nice to keep it out with a suit. Let it all hang out!!"
With that he ran across the beach and tore off his shirt and shorts. Laughing and naked she ran into the calm lagoon. He splashed and played like a porpoise in the green green water.
Sue and I ran after him. We were like children tearing off our clothes and running nude into the water. It felt so nice splashing around our bodies. I loved to feel it come up my thighs and into my pussy.
I stood in the water splashing it all over me. Then I dove under the water and swam up to Sue. She and I played tag while Joe swam back and forth in long powerful strokes.
We were laughing so hard I was afraid I was going to swallow a bucket full of sea water. Each time I tried to touch her she jumped up and away like a spring off the sandy bottom. Over and over I chased her. When I caught her she leapt on me in a second and held me under the water while I tickled her stomach.
We were laughing and tickling each other as we came up. Then her fingers touched my tits and I felt that old fire light. I pressed close on her and felt her smooth wet boobs press on me.
"You feel nice," I murmured and pressed on her. She put her arms around me and told me I felt nice too. We ducked under the water and kissed over and over again.
I didn't see Joe swim up behind me. But all of a sudden his hands were around my chest and his stiff wet cock was between my legs. He poked it around from behind and held me tight.
Sue came up from the front and kissed me on the mouth and fondled my tits. We were standing in about four feet of water and it lapped above my tits as Sue rubbed them. I felt my nipples getting stiff. She felt them too.
She took them in her fingers and caressed them long and hard. I felt them grow and stiffen with each touch of her tender fingers.
Joe pressed hard between my legs. His stiff cock nosed between the lips of my cunt. He dipped his legs and lowered himself. His dick pressed up at a better angle and slid easily into my pussy.
It seemed as if I could never stop fucking. Ever since I had done it the first time I thought about it and got nothing else but that.
I shivered instantly with the tip of his dick shoving deeper and longer into my pussy. But I couldn't bend forward to let him in without pushing my head down under the water.
I yanked myself off his luscious dick and turned around to face him. I straddled him and locked my ankles behind him. Then with a screwing motion which made his eyes light up, I jammed myself down on his dick.
Around and around I moved until it pushed through my cunt lips and into my luscious creaming interior. I loved the feel of it shoving harder in than any other feelings I can imagine. It was as if someone was piercing my soul.
He moaned and his fingers crushed at my ass. His thighs shook with the effort. Then I quivered as he jammed it all the way inside. He quivered and crushed me against him.
But the water was so warm and soft that I could hardly feel anything. I pressed and rubbed on him in frustration. But it wasn't as good as dry and sexy. I whispered in his ear and he laughed.
He turned and walked through the water like some monster out of the deep. Step by step he carried me out of the water impaled on his dick. His strong arms held me up and I felt his muscles tight and secure around me.
He wiggled his ass and his dick inside and touched the shallow and hidden places in my cunt which always made me go crazy. I was just discovering all the sweet things about sex.
He carried me over to the blanket on the sand and lay me down. There was not another soul on the beach except Sue. His dick was still deep in my cunt and my legs wrapped around his back when he sat down gracefully with me in his arms.
I hugged him close and he moved in a sensuous little dance. I nibbled at his neck and he quivered next to me. He moaned and put his hands on my tits.
I loved the feel of them there. I lay back to expose them more to his fingers. I lay all the way back in his lap with his dick still hard and fast in my snatch.
There behind me was Sue, naked as a mermaid. My head fell in her lap and I stretched deliciously in the sun. I felt the beautiful light in the sky touch me under the arms and on the point of my nipples. I felt so alive and free.
Sue bent over and kissed me on the mouth. She sought all over my face. In my eyes she put her tongue and I let her lick my open eyeballs. I shivered with the strange sexy feeling of her wet warm tongue touching my naked eyeball.
She loved the little laughs I let out with. She said I was just like a little baby goat. I said that she was just like a mother and that I loved for her to feed me.
We laughed together and that was the best feeling of all. The two of us tingled each other. Joe rolled his hips and moved his hard cock in my pussy. His whole body tensed and relaxed as I did a sensuous dance on his rod.
Faster and slower I moved on him as I felt the flesh of my hips roll and slide over him in a dance which stirred me to the quick.
Faster and faster he sobbed as his dick dug in and out of me. I was crying and shouting in the open air. There was no one there to hear. But I didn't care even if there was. There was nothing I cared about except the thrills which they were giving me.
His finger pinched my nipples and pulled them back and forth. Faster and faster he shoved around in my cunt. His whole body was covered with sweat as he danced like some Indian temple god.
From out of the little bag next to the blanket Joe pulled out a strange thin cigarette and a pack of matches.
He smiled and lit it. He took a long drag on it and handed it to her. Sue smiled and took a long drag on it with her eyes closed. Then she gave it to me.
I didn't know what it was. She smiled and told me to just take a deep breath on it. I held it in my hand for a second and then put it to my lips.
Deep into my lungs the hot smoke went and it burned. I choked and spit it out. They both looked concerned and Joe rubbed my belly.
His hand there felt different than before. It felt closer and better. It felt as if I could feel each one of his fingers. I felt as if each of them were paying special attention to the flesh of my belly.
I moved my belly under him and I felt as if each tiny muscle strand moved at my command. I found magically the cigarette in my hand. I puffed it deep and felt languorously good.
That breath really got me high. It was good stuff and I felt as if I were floating on some kind of magic carpet. Then I felt his dick in my cunt.
Like seeing something suddenly in a fog, I became all of a sudden aware of his prick deep in my luscious membranes.
It was stiff and strong there. I rippled the muscles of my pussy around it. I felt hard and tight inside me. I loved the full complete feeling of the tree inside me.
It seemed to grow out of him. I felt how natural and powerful his prod was. It was all so right for it to be shoved up inside me.
I twisted and panted coming in a blinding twisting sheet of come. It blasted through me and seemed to sweep me from a great tall mountain down into a calm sea.
I lay there twitching on him and Sue slid out from under me. Joe bent backwards and pulled me up to a sitting position.
I sat on top of his hips as he lay on his back and poked far up into my hole. I twisted and panted with his dick in my cunt.
I felt Sue push me over on his chest. I felt like a tall tree. Slowly, very slowly, I tumbled hard onto his rim and massive chest.
I bounced and lay there digging the feel of his hot body and wanting him to stroke in me harder and harder. With each second I grew hotter and hotter around him. It was sweet torturing agony to stay still with his prick hard in my pussy.
Behind, I felt something smooth and sensuous spread over my back. It was Sue and she was spreading the coconut oil all over me. I loved the hot feel of her hands with it. She rubbed it deep in my skin and I shivered with the lust.
Around and around she moved her fingers. I felt myself quivering under her fingers. I wanted to feel her touch me all over the oil. It seemed to heighten the pleasure a hundred times. That and the grass were driving me wild.
She spread her fingers apart and rubbed the oil into my ass crack. She rubbed it deep down there and I felt her fingers push my cunt lips around. Joe's dick stuck hard and fast inside me.
She rubbed harder and deeper with her finger. She stroked the oil onto my ass hole and made sure it got inside.
Around and around she swirled her finger in my shit tube. The oil made it so easy to get inside. Over and over she thrilled me with her finger there.
I was moving in a sexy rhythm on top of Joe. His bent, stiff cock was crammed into me with a constant pressure. Her finger in my asshole made me move and I pressed against it with each stroke.
Then she pulled out her finger and I felt something huge and blunt slide with a bursting feeling into my asshole. Deeper and deeper it slid along the lubricated walls of my shit hole.
She ran it around and I was going wild. Faster and faster she jammed it back and forth. It tore at the sides and ripped in and out of my asshole. She rammed it. I felt as if there was a flagpole up me.
I rolled around and it made me come hard and fast on Joe's dick. I loved the feel of it shoved hard into me. The two of them worked me over until I came. It was so lovely. I could hear Sue moaning behind me as she rammed the oil-coated dildo into me.
Then Joe began to come. He bucked and arched his powerful back. He was so strong. I bucked on top of him as he jammed his dick into me. It was like a jagged knife cutting into me.
The tip touched the back of my pussy and I loved the hard feel. I began to come with him. The grass made me concentrate on each stroke as if it were the end of the world.
Faster and faster he shoved it into me. He was moaning and moving with his own lust. Together we worked out. His dick throbbed and the stiffness cut through my hazy mind like a searchlight.
Over and over he rammed into me with a feeling that left me creaming. I moaned and squealed for more. He was moving faster like an express train downhill.
He shook and the shivers of coming passed through him. There was no stopping. He clutched at the oil on my back. His fingers dug grooves there and he twisted brutally undo: me. Harder and harder he moved until I felt him like a volcano under me begin.
Faster Mid faster he pumped his cock and it spurted the first blast of come high into my pussy. It felt like the dawn of creation or something.
Harder and harder he moved as his stiff rod jammed spurting in and out of my love lips. I felt the raging storm and the tearing ache in me went wild.
I rolled and bucked on him. His fingers clutched in spasms at my sopping tangled hair. My clit pulsed under his grasp and I came hard and long in a sweet beautiful orgasm.
He stroked over and over up into me. His whole body was a tensing bow. Back and forth his cock moved with each lovely hard and hot spurt. It made me come harder still as his finger and dick conspired in my crotch against my cunt and clitoris.
They pulled and punished the tender folds of flesh until I exploded and came so hard I fell on his chest quivering and twitching.
Behind, Sue rammed the dildo back and forth in my asshole with a constant rhythm which made me twist, feeling stuffed up in the middle.
I fell off him on the sand moaning with lust. He had given me everything he had. But I wanted more. My hands rubbed at my crotch. I was really in agony. I had to have more.
Sue jumped on top of me and put her mouth in my crotch. Her yearning lips sucked at the come-drenched love lips. She sucked and nibbled on the tender things.
The hot feeling made me pant and I thrust my pussy up at her. She plastered her own snatch down on my mouth. I bit in hard and she jumped. But the next instant she thrust it back down on me in lust.
Her whole body pressed on mine. The sand was hot under me as it stuck to the oil on my back I writhed in it as his body thrilled me over and over.
She sucked and chewed on my clit. She pulled her teeth across the tip of it in her mouth. Her lips sucked at it and murmured sweet things. I could not hear them but I felt them as thrilling little spirals of feeling in my guts.
I pushed up again with my hips and she stuck her tongue deep into my snatch. Into the sopping come-filled chamber she stuck her tongue and wriggled it around like a snake.
Faster and faster she lashed me and I went wild again. I moaned and started coming. The passion was so great I couldn't stop. I groaned and took her ass in my hands and kneaded it like soft dough.
She felt my fingers and her thighs tightened around my face. I bit and chewed on the tender flesh inside her thighs. She thrashed wildly on top of me but her mouth stayed put in my pussy.
Deeper and deeper she sucked me. Her teeth chewed like lusting needles. I started coming. I remember I shrieked at the top of my lungs. It was such a sweet coming with her on top of me.
Faster and faster she sucked and I pounded her face down on my pussy. Her teeth crushed my clit down against my bone and I flashed a streaking sweet orgasm in the sand as her lips suckled deep inside me.
I was coming so hard I never noticed the police arrive. They sneaked up on us while we were making love. The first thing I knew was when someone wrenched Sue off me and then grabbed me in a savage grip around my arm.
They slugged both of us around. I was black and blue for weeks. They really got Joe. They kicked him in the head and the balls when he tried to stop them from kicking us.
"I don't understand," I broke in. "How come the police arrived so suddenly? Had someone seen you on the beach and complained?"
She scowled and looked as if she tasted something foul.
"No," she said. "My aunt went crazy when she found my note. She had us traced from someone who had seen us drive off. She sicced the cops on us. I hate her more than ever for that. I'm never going to forgive her. I will hate her until she dies for that. I hope it's soon."
She burst into tears and chokingly told me how they took her to jail and made them line up naked in front of all the cops. She couldn't stop crying. She just whimpered the whole tale. I did not try to stop her from crying.
Sue and Joe were sent to prison for a few years. Because she was a minor she got off without any sentence. But the damage which was done by the brutal way it was handled by the police made a deep impression in her.
She had not really spoken to her parents or her aunt since. She had found it hard to talk to anyone. She was bitter against the whole world and found it hard to make any friends.
This was not the last session however. In the months that followed she was able to work out all the violent and bitter feelings built up from that and be much happier and self-reliant.
CONCLUSION:
The case of Melanie seems to me to offer a perfect example of how an emotionally-charged situation can be changed in an instant to a traumatizing situation by external circumstance.
It is then necessary to painfully untangle the bitter and violent feelings so the patient can live without being trapped by the past. In the case of Melanie she was successful mostly because of her strong mind and will. She wanted to be free of the past.
CASE NUMBER THREE. JUDY S.
INTERVIEW ONE:
NOTES:
The case of Judy S. is an example of the young girl who finds sexual adventure the first time she leaves home as a pubescent girl.
This case is more widespread than is sometimes thought. This specific example involved a young thirteen-year-old girl, Judy, and a couple who worked at a summer camp which she attended.
Judy was short but very developed for a thirteen-year-old. Her body was full and her tits heavy and pendulous. She walked with the air of a woman but unconscious of it.
When she first came to my office she had just turned fourteen. It was only six or seven months since she had attended the camp and she was still very involved in the whole situation emotionally.
Her soft brown eyes frequently filled with tears and her long brown hair, parted down the middle, hid her face as she wiped them away.
However there was a basic strength which exuded from her and made me feel at least that she would overcome all her problems to be a happy and independent woman.
What follows is a transcript of that first interview. It shows how the influence of older and more powerful people can bend the will of the younger person, especially a young girl to do their bidding. Her words more than any impassioned plea show how the deleterious effects can be compounded until they cause real problems. Here now are her words from the interview.
My parents always sent me to that camp, Doctor. It was a pretty famous one. You might have heard of it. You know it was a famous progressive camp where all kinds of different people went.
There were always all sorts of vigilantes trying to close the place down, but they never quite managed to. I really liked it. I went there since I was about five, I think.
We always did good things. It was so much fun to go swimming and hiking. But there were always these games and this whole atmosphere about getting along with people. We were always singing songs about brotherhood and that kind of thing.
It was really nice. So how it all happened that all those bad things happened, I really don't know. It's such a shame that it ruined it for me. I don't think I can ever go back there even if they leave.
The summer started out just like all the rest did. You know, by now I feel like I'm a veteran. I know where everything is and how it all works. I show all the new kids around.
So I felt right at home. In June when the place opened, I even went up a little early to get the place opened up. That was some kind of big honor, but I think that was my mistake.
Rose, the camp director, was nice enough to me, all right. She kissed and hugged me when my parents dropped me off. I never felt homesick there any more. But then I don't really feel homesick anywhere.
She asked me all about the things I had done since I had seen her that last summer. I told her about school and the plays and things I had been in. She was always very interested. We call her Aunt Rose and she is just like one of the family to everyone at the camp.
Then she took me over to the Green Lodge and introduced me to the staff. Well, I knew a lot of the people from the year before. Some I was glad to see and some not so glad. But there were two people who were new and slightly different.
Over in one comer of the lodge, in one of the tiny rooms were Eva and Heinrich. The first time I saw them is burned in my mind.
Eva was sitting there on the bed rigid as a pole, knitting a sweater. Heinrich was sitting at the tiny desk writing a letter. He was also sitting painfully straight up. They didn't even look up or turn their heads when I came in. They just kept up what they were doing.
Rose coughed and shuffled her feet but they still didn't look up. She had to cough loudly and introduce me in a loud officious tone.
The two of them looked up and stared at me unsmiling. They both rose as if in unison and shook my hand solemnly. I tried to smile but it was hard to smile at them when they weren't smiling at me.
The two of them looked hard at me. I felt as if I were on display there in front of them. It made me all nervous inside and I stuttered at them. I looked at them and lowered my eyes, blushing.
I remember that they said nothing very special. They seemed cold and very forbidding. Rose was even a little flustered by their cold manner. But she sort of fluttered and chirped away trying to cover up.
I was so relieved when I got out of there. Rose said something about how nice they were once you got to know them. I didn't think that was too likely.
After that, I didn't see them very often. I spent the next week sweeping out cobwebs and old birds' nests from the empty bunks. I got all involved in the dust and dirt. I didn't think of anything much, especially Eva and Heinrich.
But their names came back to me strong when I looked on the central bulletin board. There under their two names was a list of campers. My name was on the list. So that meant that I was definitely definitely, in their bunk.
I felt a scary little chill go through me when I realized that they were going to be my head counselors.
They were like the advisers for my bunk. If anything went wrong, or something came up where I wanted to talk to someone, I was supposed to go to them.
What was so bad was that the camp is all hepped up on the idea of relating and getting along. So, like if you don't like your adviser, you are supposed to work it out with them, not go to someone else or go see Rose about your problem.
I thought of how terrible it would be to have to tell either one of those two people something that was bothering me. I felt sick for the first time since I had left home.
But I really liked the camp and nothing could mess it up that much I thought. So I just figured I would get along without and stay out of their way. It didn't work out that way.
The very first week all the campers arrived and I was assigned to my bunk when it happened. We were inside one night. We had just come back from a meeting. We used to have meetings every night and this one had been pretty good. We were all feeling pretty good and singing.
I was sitting on the bed laughing when in came Eva. It was the first time she had set foot inside our bunk since everyone had been there.
All the talking stopped. Everyone just stared.. I expected her to be cold or flustered or both to have everyone's eyes on her. But she wasn't.
She smiled sweetly at everyone and said hello. She introduced herself again even though everyone knew who she was from the grapevine. Then she smiled at me and asked if I would come outside with her.
I was really scared. I got up and went out. Once out the door she put her arm around my shoulder and told me that it was very important that I come with her to her bunk to talk.
She had such a serious tone that I was very anxious. You know, I thought I had done something wrong. But she told me that it was because she had such a big problem and she thought I would be the perfect person to help work it out. She smiled at me again and told me how grown-up she had seen I was.
I was really confused. I hadn't said anything to her since that day in her room and I didn't think she could tell anything from the way I acted that day except that I was very nervous.
I hadn't even noticed her lurking around looking at me. I hadn't seen her once. But went along anyway. Once we got in the Green Lodge we went right to her room.
She ushered me inside and told me to sit on the bed. I did, and she closed the door carefully. She did everything carefully.
Then she told me that her problem was very serious. I looked around the room wondering where her husband was. But she took my hand and told me that her problem involved all the girls in my bunk.
"I've noticed that your bunk has an especially bad problem this year," she said. "It seems that there are so many young girls there who are the victims of violent passion. They seem to be on the road to trouble unless they are saved from it. I think you are the very one to help me save them."
I didn't know what she was talking about. I had heard the same stories in the bunk year after year. The older I got, the more racy they got. But they were just stories and we all knew that they probably weren't true.
So how come Eva was telling me that there was so much of a problem this year. I hadn't noticed anything different that year from any other.
She held my hand tighter and looked deep into my eyes. Hers were flashing and I saw that they were big and scary. She told me again that I must help her.
I told her that I would do what I could and she looked very relieved. She leaned back against the wall and told me that I was a good girl. I felt really confused. That's what I felt like.
She leaned back against the wall and I felt her breathe. She seemed to be in some kind of trance. She reached out and touched my hand. It was like cold velvet. She touched me and I shivered all over. I wanted nothing more than to get out of there fast.
But she wouldn't let me out of her grip. She closed her fingers around me. I tried to get up and it was like iron.
"You have to stay here with me," she said. "I want to talk to you. It is so nice to have you next to me. This camp is so lonely. It is so hard with all these young women around and no one to talk to.
I remember that I got all funny inside when she said the part about young women. I got all these pictures in my head about lesbians and kissing her on the mouth. It kind of excited me but I was afraid.
She pulled me closer and stroked her fingers up my arm. It was cool but her fingernails dug hot ridges in my flesh. I couldn't pull away and then I was kissing her mouth.
She pressed her hot tongue on me and pulled me on top of her on the bunk. It creaked and I felt the wonderful full feeling of her body underneath me. She was strong and big-boned. She moved like a python around me and sucked me closer and closer with her mouth.
I let her do it! It felt so nice. I loved the feel of her body twisting and yearning under me. Her fingers were like snaky fire on my neck pulling me down closer to her. I fought her but I couldn't break free.
Her hands were all over my back pulling away my clothes. She pushed me under the shirt I was wearing and rubbed my naked back. She was moaning and telling me how sexy I was. Her fingers just couldn't keep still on top of me. Every place they touched I felt as if I were on fire.
I moaned and she fought around to my front. Under my shirt she took hold of my tits. I guess you notice I have big breasts. I've got the biggest breasts of anyone in my class.
Well, she took hold of them like she wanted to pull them off, but she just dug into them and rubbed them deep and long. She twirled her finger all around them as they hung there under my clothes. I felt myself sort of melting there on top of her. I wanted her to crush them harder and harder.
Each time she thrilled the tips of them with her fingers. I felt the nipples get harder and the skin curdle up stiffly. They were like little cocks sticking down. The more she rubbed the harder they got.
That's what was so scary. I couldn't help myself. I started moaning and kissing her back. I stuck my tongue in her mouth and licked all around her palate. I felt ridges inside her mouth and she sucked on my tongue like a licorice stick.
Her hand milked my breasts and I felt a stirring in my belly which I had never felt before. It sort of grew there but it went to all parts of my body. It made me sigh and I started breathing hard. I wanted something very badly but I didn't know what it was.
Faster and faster she caressed me. My whole body was on fire and I pushed my tits down on top of her. Her hands were crushed between my breasts and her own hot body.
She pulled me hard right down on top of her and bit into my neck. Her teeth were sharp and they cut like wounding knives. I ached and pushed my neck around in her mouth. It felt so good to have her punish me that way. It just stirred me up more and more.
She licked and sucked when she bit me and made me cry out. Her hands groped down into my loose shorts. She felt the hot crack of my ass under there. It was wet with my own juices.
She ran her hand up and down it, spreading my own come over my mounded buttocks. I was startled at the wetness. It was the first time I had felt my own passion juice come gushing out that way. It felt so good that I moaned and stuck my ass up in the air like a cat.
Faster and faster she ran her fingers in and out of the damp crack until I was panting and creaming faster than she could wipe the come on my ass. Harder and harder she jammed her hand in there until I was coming with her fingers plunging all the way past the opening to my pussy.
Deeper and deeper she dug. Her fingers touched my clit with each jab and she cried out with lust. I felt my love stick grow as she poked at it with her fingers.
Then she shoved her whole hand in there and took the love knob in her fingers. She crushed it like the bud of a little flower. Her whole hand felt like a hot cannonball in my crotch and I spread my legs apart to get more of the delicious feeling.
I felt her push her three fingers into my cunt. Deep in my love passage she went and her fourth finger caressed the tender tip of my clit. I had never felt such ripping thrills. They seemed to tear me all the way open.
I cried and moaned for her to hurry up. I wanted her to shove her hand so far up me that I would be stuffed to the full. I wanted her to jam her fingers down on my clit until I exploded.
Faster and faster she moved in there and I started bucking down on her hand. I quivered with the feeling and I tried to shout, but she muffled my mouth with one hand shoving me into her neck. She hissed for me to be quiet.
But I couldn't be quiet. I was pumping and panting so hard I thought the bed was going to fall. Over and over I twisted and made her grind my clit against my pubic bone.
Harder and harder I rolled my ass up in the air. I was jumping with the flashing feeling-it was such a gas. Her hand was making me go wild. I shoved it back and forth with my twisting.
All of a sudden I felt hands on my snaps. They pulled open my shorts and pulled them brutally down my hips. I felt the cool air on my sopping ass.
Someone was on the bed. Someone pulled me hard away from Eva's hands. The pair of hands were around my hips. They dug in hard.
I heard savage masculine grunting. It was a man's hands gripping me around the waist and digging into the soft flesh there. His grip tore at me and lifted my ass up and back.
Then there was something hard and soft there in my cunt. It was flesh but it was rock-rigid as it poked into the sopping crack.
Stiff and hard it shoved against my cunt flaps and I quivered with lust. I groaned and he shoved it all the way in. He bellowed and tore all the way to the back of my cunt with one stroke.
Under me Eva seemed paralyzed. Her hands fluttered at my tits like she was dreaming. Fast and hard he shoved it into my cunt. Around and around he rolled my ass until I was coming under the barrage. His fingers, ten times more savage than Eva's, crushed my clit.
In a sunburst of lust he crushed my clitoris and I came all over his dick. Faster and faster he shoved it into me until I was creaming there. I could feel Eva twisting under me and crying. She was chewing on my tits and sucking them further and further into her mouth.
I came and pumped his come-throbbing cock until it burst from the tip in a blast of gism which shot deep into me. I came in a sweet orgasm which made me moan. I shook my ass in spite of myself. I had never felt such a lovely feeling. Oh, it was so nice! I came and came. I had never felt such a heavenly sweet throbbing.
"I'm sorry, Judy, it's time for us to stop our interview," I said. "We will cover more of this the next time we meet. Don't be too upset by all this. You know things happen to everyone. It's just that not too many people want to talk about them. But there is nothing wrong with it."
She got up and wiped the tear from the corner of her eye. She smiled a little smile at me and said goodbye. She stood a little taller as she walked out of the office. I watched her go with a mixture of tenderness and regret that she had to be involved in something so painful. INTERVIEW TWO:
NOTES:
The second interview, Judy came in dress that could only be called revealing. It was consisted of very tight and short cut-off blue jeans which were worn so thin that they fit the contours of her thighs and hips as if they had been painted on and a peasant blouse of the thinnest, sheerest white cotton I have ever seen.
I doubt whether she wore anything underneath. She certainly wore no bra for I could not help but see the dark spots of her nipples underneath as she wiggled down in the chair.
There had always been something provocative about her. But now it was literally glaring at me. I didn't want to stir up any kind of hornet's next and I said nothing about her dress as she sat down and brushed a stray wisp of hair sexily from off her face.
Her manner in the second interview was less aggrieved. She seemed almost happy to relate what happened to her. It was only until later that I understood this seemingly strange turn of events.
What follows are her words as she spoke them. The transcript is complete and omits nothing from her interview.
I told you what happened to me the first weeks in camp. I hope I didn't make it sound too gory. I mean, it wasn't so bad when it happened. It's just that I got all worked up about it and let it spoil my fun.
After that thing happened with Eva and Heinrich in their room, I didn't know what to do. I felt like I should do something, but I didn't know what.
It was so confusing for me all alone like that. I couldn't talk to Rose about it because she would have told my mother. I couldn't talk to Eva and Heinrich about it because they would have told me the same thing they told everyone.
They didn't like to talk much, especially Heinrich. He seemed to be the mean one in the family. The way he came in and just had me there when Eva was kissing me was the way he always was.
I couldn't ever say anything to him without him scowling and cursing something at me in German. I don't know really why Aunt Rose hired him. He was a man to all the kid, especially the girls.
Eva was different though. She seemed, on the outside, to be just like Heinrich. But really, she was very sweet and afraid of him.
He yelled at her all the time and made her do terrible things. I remember her telling me some of the things he used to make her do. It was just awful.
She told me that at the last camp they had worked, he made her watch when he raped the thirteen-year-old campers.
He used to tie her up and hide her in the closet with her eye at the keyhole. She couldn't move an inch and had to watch the whole thing.
He used to get girls to come to his room and trick them into sucking his cock. He loved for them to go down on him. That's a word I learned about from Eva. It meant for a girl to take a boy's cock all that way into her mouth and suck it. Heinrich loves for little girls to do that.
He used to make Eva swear that she was in the room with him when they accused him of doing all those things. She had to protect him. It was horrible.
He used to make her eat out the girls who came. He used her to get them to come to his room. She is so sweet it's easy to trust her. You believe everything she says. It's hard to think she would do anything nasty.
He would get her to be nice to the girls and get them to come and stay with her. She would get them to kiss and hug her. She would turn them on and then Heinrich would come in and have his fun.
They used to be so excited after Eva kissed and hugged them that they didn't care what Heinrich did. Anyway, he was big and once they were half-undressed they couldn't do anything about it anyway.
She told me that after a while she got to like doing all those things. What else could she do? He didn't let her do anything else. The only time he fucked her was after he fucked the little campers. So if she wanted him she had to get them there for him first.
She said that sometimes she got so horny watching him fuck those sweet little girls that she thought she would shake her crotch to pieces masturbating.
I started to feel sorry for her the first time I heard her story. It was the day after Heinrich had come in and fucked me. I was still feeling kind of randy. He had really blown my mind when he did that fucking stuff.
We were sitting in front of the Arts House in the middle of the afternoon. It was cool and we were just sitting there resting.
She held my hand as she told me that story. It was so strange to be sitting there holding her hand in the middle of the camp. But you know, I sort of liked it. I didn't care what other people said. I wanted her to like me.
She told me all about Heinrich and I felt so sorry for her. I asked her what I could do to help her. She looked as if she were going to cry. I remember exactly what she said.
"I'm really sorry you asked that," she said. "I hate to have you do something so horrible just for me. But if you really want to help me you can come to the back of the theater tonight."
I wanted to please her so much. I told her I would come to the back of the theater. But I was so scared. The theater was all closed up most nights. Unless there was a play or something it was locked and only the people who were counselors had a key.
That night when I got there it was very dark. I guess there was no moon. I stood in the doorway staring and trying to make sense out of the vision of Eva lying under me.
But all the while I was standing there, my guts kept shaking and my knees were all loose. I could hardly stand up for the lust inside me. I just wanted to feel something hard and fast inside me.
Finally there she was in front of me. I looked behind her in the dark and I was glad Heinrich wasn't there. She said that she was glad to see me.
I hugged her. I don't know why. It just seemed like I had to do it. Very quickly I kissed her deep with my tongue. I felt a little tickle of lust in my guts. It was so sweet that I was creaming in my pants.
I leaned closer against her and tried to hug her tight around the waist, but she pushed me away.
"Not here," she said. She pulled me into the dark hollow-sounding theater. Backstage it was musty and dusty. I heard our panting breaths. We sounded like two marauding animals back there. Very softly she led me by the hand across the backstage to the rolls of canvass way up against the rear wall of the theater.
It was so dark in there that I couldn't help but be frightened. I held tighter to her hand. She felt me holding on like that and squeezed mine too.
Suddenly the world tumbled all around me. I felt someone pull around my neck and I couldn't breathe. I tried to claw the hands away, but they were so strong. Then I lost my balance and tumbled over in the dark.
When I hit the canvass my feet went up in the air and I felt someone fall on top of me. I heard low grunts. There were more than one.
They tore at my clothes with a savageness which scared me. I tried to fight them away but I couldn't. My T-shirt was torn. My shorts came off next. My underpants just ripped in tatters.
Very quickly I was naked. The theater was cold and damp. I tried to cover myself with my hands but there was someone between my legs.
I tried to press my thighs together, but the hairy masculine things pressed them wide apart and I felt a hard long dick strike right up in my hole.
I heard Eva yelling something. I kept hearing her cry out the name Heinrich. I fought up at the face of the thing pounding down on top of me. I clawed at his face and found it smooth and beardless. His hair was short and thin across his forehead.
I tried to pull the hair out but the demon on top of me just kept biting and sucking at my neck. He licked and chewed up and down there. His whole body was hot against me.
I tried to force him off. His chest pressed down and I could hardly breathe. But he pressed hard and hot with his hands flat on my tits. I couldn't move. Around and around he moved them.
I felt myself getting hot in spite of myself. Then I felt someone's fingers reach under and part the lips of my cunt. They tickled me there and wriggled around my clit.
Faster and faster they went and I sighed. It was so nice to be frigged like that. Even if I was crushed in the dark like that, I couldn't help but move around when those fingers were in my cunt.
Faster and faster they moved. Then very slowly the soft hands shoved into my love hole. Around the delicate inner love lips they pressed and I moistened. My love drops were like rain falling gently. I felt myself grow damp and the finger slid back and forth in there.
On top of me the dark heavy figure kissed me and thrust his tongue Jeep in my mouth. I tasted the pipe smell and knew that it was Heinrich there. His tongue traced delicious patterns in my mouth. His hand kneaded my breasts and rubbed around the sides ecstatically.
I shivered with each tantalizing stroke. He really knew how to thrill me. His fingers made little whirling circles on my flesh. My breath came in and out and he moved around sensuously on top of me.
His rough wool shirt rubbed on my chest and I felt my nipples taut and thrilled by them. The warm fabric of his pants rubbed smooth and leathery on me. He pushed one thigh between my legs and rubbed on my clit.
Faster and faster he rubbed into me and I felt a lovely feeling come up in me. It felt so good that I was going crazy. I moaned and he put his hand over my mouth.
He licked and kissed my neck. He pulled my head back and licked up under my chin. I felt the tingle grow as Eva's fingers pressed harder in my cunt.
I spread my thighs and locked them around her whole body. Tighter and tighter I pulled him down on top of me. I tried to twist his whole rough body against my bush. I felt as if I wanted to come forever, but I just couldn't make it.
I moaned and begged for her to suck me. I felt Heinrich slide off and Eva's lovely mouth descend on my pussy. Hot and lustingly it licked at me. I thirstily drank up the attention with my cunt lips.
I twisted around under her and felt her naked thigh brush against my flank. It was so nice to have her there like that. I let her slide up and down on me in the dark. I couldn't breathe for the dust and mold on the canvass.
She sucked deeply at my tender love lips. Her whole body pressed against me and I loved the feel of her naked bush against my side.
I wanted to come over and over again in her mouth. I felt my guts tickle when I thought like that. It was so sexy to have her suck me like that. I wanted to pant and have someone crush my nipples and lick my stomach.
Then I felt his cock in my mouth. It came from out of the dark.
The first thing I knew it brushed against my lips and I nibbled it. It tasted sour and the tip was covered with a foul cheesy something.
His dick was weird. It was covered with something, like another piece of skin. It wasn't like any of the cocks I had ever seen. It was thicker and the piece of skin was drawn back tight.
I licked and chewed on it. Heinrich moaned there above me in the dark. I couldn't see him but I could smell him. The smell of his cock and the smell of his randy balls mixed with his man-smell. I breathed his musk and his sweat.
I fondled his balls and took his cock further into my mouth. I really liked it. I pulled it all the way in and moaned with a lust which turned me on. It really turned him on, too.
She thrust against me in hard jerks. Each one sent shivers through her which I felt. Her tongue curled around and around my clit.
She chewed on each one of my cunt lips. One at a time she sucked them in and out of her mouth. She pulled them by the hair.
The lust rose in me and I tried to push against her with my pelvis. She clutched at my ass and pulled me back and forth in her mouth. She chewed and sucked on me like I was some kind of fruit punch. I loved the lapping feeling there in my pussy.
Faster and faster in my mouth Heinrich moved with his cock. It thrilled me. The two of us pulled at each other. His heavy balls hung loose in my face as he stood over me with a lust which made my guts curdle.
He took one of my nipples in his fingers and explored it with his fingertips. It grew long and hard under his touch. I pushed my breast up at him. He felt me push and slid his hand down over the whole thing.
His velvet skin made my whole body move. It seemed to make the juice flow out of my cunt to have him rub harder there.
I moaned and he jammed his dick to the back of my throat. I felt him throb there and his hands crushed one of my tits.
Suddenly another pair of male hands grabbed my ankles. They were huge and powerful. They pushed my legs back high over my head. Heinrich grabbed them and held me bent back almost double.
Then with a savage thrust the faceless thick cock thrust hard against me. I felt his hands part my thighs and put his dick in my cunt hole.
His whole body leaned forward against the back of my thighs. I felt him hairy and sweaty. I felt the muscular bulge of his belly. He stuck his fleshy shiv into me and took me all the way to the hilt.
I moaned and bucked against him. His hand rubbed around the top of my cunt. Bent over double, my stomach was bunched up on my cunt lips. He thrust his hand down into that moiling mass and made me quiver with his tingling touch.
I couldn't help but move. It felt so good to have him pull my clit longer and longer. Each time he did that he rolled his hips and his dick would move in tender circles inside me.
I panted and he tried to shove his cock in hard. He hit the back of my pussy and the electric shock made me jump. He panted and pinched my ass.
His hand down there was wet with my juice. He stroked the bottom of my cunt lips against his shafting cock. The pulling thrill made me start to pant faster and faster.
Each time he shoved into the hilt, one finger thrilled my clit and the other pulled the delicate cunt lips around his cock.
Faster and faster he shoved into me. The passionate rod seemed to pump my breathe out of me with each pull. Each time he shoved in I gasped as if someone had given me a shock. I couldn't help but move.
Harder and harder the unknown fucker stuck into me, I twisted around on his dick. I didn't care that I didn't know who it was.
His cock was so hard I could hardly believe it was real. I twisted and bucked on it. It slid in and out and I was completely at his mercy.
Harder and harder they pulled me apart. His hands were on my ankles pulling me back hard. Each time he pulled I spread my legs a little farther apart. His whole body fell on top of me.
I tried to squirm around his dick and I let his sunburst about to happen. But before the mysterious fucker could come, I did. It was like a sheet of white water pouring down a rapid. Faster and faster I writhed on his dick and I felt myself going further and further up.
I shrieked and chewed down on Heinrich's dick. He jumped and I held his hands in his balls. I felt absolutely stuffed with cock.
In my mouth and in my cunt they poked with lust. Then I felt a warm wet tongue play around my asshole and Eva's soft pleading voice down there. Deeper and deeper in she pushed until her tongue was four inches inside my dark hole.
She twisted it around. Her head was pinned against me by the mysterious fucker. His body pounded on me and I bucked in ecstasy.
The three of us together pounded against one another dripping with sweat in the echoing dark. I felt Heinrich's balls hot and heavy in my hands and he got ready to come.
In my cunt the mysterious long cock shoved deeper and deeper with each thrust. He twisted hard as if he could not stop. I, underneath them, panted and felt the savage hunger tear through me as all my holes were filled with writhing pleasure.
I cried and moaned for them to hurry. I couldn't wait. I was coming so hard that I drew blood from Heinrich's ass as he stood above me and shot his load of hot gism into me. Harder and harder it came and I felt all of them insane with passion in me. I panted like a banshee and shook every inch of my body. It was a heavenly fuck.
"It's time for us to go," I said. "You seem to have had a change of heart about all the things which happened to you last summer. Perhaps next time we can examine exactly why that has been."
She smiled at me and agreed that she had to think about a lot of things. I agreed again and she left the office with us in agreement about what the next session would entail. INTERVIEW THREE:
NOTES:
The final interview with Judy S. did not happen for more than three months. In the ensuing time I lost all track of her.
I found from her parents that she had run away. They had no idea what had brought it on. But I was not surprised as the weeks dragged into months. Whenever Judy did something, she did a good job at it.
Very quickly I began to review all the facts of the case. It occurred to me all the while that there was some thread of consistency which ran through the whole thing.
Then it occurred to me that I knew where Judy was. I called the camp and not to my surprise found that Judy had been there for the past two months.
It occurred to me to call the police but I preferred to handle it without them. I spoke to Rose over the phone. She didn't seem at all upset when she told me that Judy had been there for two months. She didn't even sound flustered when I asked her why she hadn't called Judy's parents.
It all seemed very strange. When Judy got on the phone it seemed as if she were on the verge of tears. She begged me not to tell her parents until she had talked to me. She promised to be in my office the next morning if I promised not to talk to her parents before then.
I promised and the next morning there she was, tired but healthy-looking. She was dressed in a filthy pair of blue jeans and a sweatshirt which was also filthy. She sat down and waited in silence until I gently prodded her to tell me the whole story. What follows is an exact transcript of that interview.
I know I acted like a fool, Doctor. I'm so miserable. I've messed everyone in my life up. I can't seem to do anything right any more.
I guess I should tell you what happened. It started the time I was here. Gosh, that was three months ago. It's almost summer now.
Well, I tried hard but it doesn't help sometimes, I guess, to try. Or maybe I didn't try hard enough. It all started, like I said, the last time I was here.
I told you all about the time in the back of the theater when they fucked me. Well, I guess I have it sort of wrong. Maybe they fucked me, but I loved every second of it. I wanted them to fuck me more and more.
They were the ones who wanted to stop. After that time in the theater they were scared. They were afraid that we would get found out.
You see the guy who came in and fucked me in the dark was Max, Rose's husband. He heard about the times we were having and wanted to get in on it.
But he didn't want to let Rose in on it. He said she was too old and ugly. I kind of agree with him, but that made problems. He had to slip away to be with us.
I thought it was all right, but Eva and Heinrich were frightened that Rose would find out and blow the whistle on us.
After that time in the theater I wouldn't let them alone. Every place they went, I kept pestering them. They wanted nothing to do with me. Maybe they were tired of me. Or maybe they were just scared of getting caught.
I loved to swing with both of them. I really liked Max. He had a thick cock which grew real fast. All I had to do was call his name and it would get stiff like a peg. He was so funny when he got horny. Usually he was just an old guy. He could be funny but most of the time he was just "old Max." But as soon as he got a stiff peg.
He was great to fuck with. Almost as good as Heinrech.
He used to suck his stomach and come at me with this gleam in his eye. Well, I guess I loved to see him with his stiff throbbing dick coming at me.
We used to slip off in the woods sometimes. He wanted to get me alone, but I didn't like him that much. I always wanted to swing with all of them. He didn't think that was such a good idea but I wouldn't give him anything unless he convinced Eva and Heinrich to join us.
I remember one night out by the lake. He had arranged to meet all of us out there at ten o'clock. I was out there and then she showed up. It was a cool night and I was shivering, waiting for the other two.
He couldn't keep his hands to himself. Even right out there on the waterfront he kept pulling me against him and putting his hammy hands under my shirt on my tits.
I kept pushing him away. He was getting hot just chasing me. After a while I thought maybe they weren't going to show up. I told him I wouldn't do anything with just him. He was dying. I could see the bulge of his cock under his shorts.
He put his arm on my shoulder and told me that he loved me. I said that he was a dirty old man who just wanted a little action.
Then I came up under his chin and kissed him. He put his arms around my shoulder and sighed. I reached down and rubbed his big bulging dick under his shorts.
I heard him moan and I made all kinds of little sweet little sounds. I pushed my body against him for a moment and he really went wild. He shook all over and I rubbed his cock under his pants.
Then I danced away into the woods. He stood there shocked for a minute and then chased me. But I ran faster than he did. He tripped through the dark, but I didn't trip. I ran straight through the woods around the outside of the camp until I got to Green Lodge.
I tapped on the window of Eva's room and saw her there bending over Heinrich, kissing him. I made a sound like a little bird and she looked very startled.
"Come on out and have some fun," I whispered through the screen. I ducked down and a few minutes later she came outside with Heinrich behind.
I came up to him and kissed him. He pushed me away and looked around quickly. He was very nervous to be outside and exposed like that.
He took me by the hand and led me straight off into the woods. We were way out in the country so in a little while we were way out of sight of the camp.
It was pitch dark and there were no lights I could see. When Heinrich saw that we were far out of reach of the camp his attitude changed.
He started pawing me. He put his arms around my back and pulled me close to him. He chuckled and rubbed me against his chest.
His arms were very strong. He pulled me down on the ground and ripped off my T-shirt. I felt Max's hands on my back. His fingers kneaded the muscles of my neck.
He licked at me and I felt his fingers hot and clutching at my back. Max's fingers were at my tits. He reached around my chest and closed his fingers around my nipples.
Underneath me Heinrich snaked his arms around my neck and kissed lustily. His tongue shot into my mouth. The sweet, melting feeling spread through me and I wiggled my chest down harder on him.
Max was feeling up my back. His hands roved all over the soft padding down around my hips. He pushed his hand under my pants and into the dark crack there.
He felt my ass cheeks. I tightened them in his hand and moved between the two of them. Harder and harder I wiggled my ass. The two of us writhed around in the dark.
Max's hands were on me. Max quivered on top of me and tried to run me over. But Heinrich held onto me. His hands were on my face. He massaged the flesh of my cheeks. He held my head tight and thrust his tongue deep inside my mouth.
He nibbled on my bottom lips. I chewed back at him. He sighed each time, I nibbled on him. His legs kept pushing up at me. His hands clutched down around my ass.
On top of me Max was tearing at my pants. He reached down and shoved his hands down in my pants. His hands groped hard inside there and I felt myself twitching under him.
He was so lusting. The hands inside my pants were so hot and they gripped at me feverishly. He pushed his hands inside and popped the snap on my jeans.
He ripped my jeans off. I felt them slide down my thighs. My legs were cold against the leaves on the ground. I felt the sharp twigs there cut into me. I pushed my naked belly down on the cold ground.
Max tore my pants all the way off and pushed his hands into my crotch. Heinrich pulled me back on top of him. I felt his naked chest under me. His dick was stiff and tall as he rubbed it over me.
His clothes were next to us on the ground. He poked his long aching pecker at me. Then he told me to go down on him. I laughed and twittered. It was so exciting to have him talk to me that way.
I swung myself around on him and went all the way down on his dick. It was hot and long in my mouth. I licked up and down it with a sweet, chewing motion.
Faster and faster I sucked him. Behind me Max licked like a dog at my ass crack. I pushed it up in the air in his face and he spread my cheeks.
Deeper and deeper he pushed. I begged him to give me an ass fuck. He stuck his tongue inside and licked at the mouth of my asshole. He pulled out of the crack for a moment and bit hard into the soft flesh there. His fingers fondled me. His whole body seemed to be pressing forward at me.
He tried to force his finger into my asshole, but it was too small for the unlubricated thing to get inside. I complained with a whine and he put his mouth there again. I murmured in my chest and he swirled his tongue at the opening.
Then around and around he moved his tongue and pushed it past the aching hole. Through the tight orifice I made him push. He shoved the tip of his tongue through the tight muscle. Little by little he came inside my ass and then the full length of his tongue was there.
Faster and faster he swirled himself around until I moaned and the three of us bucked together. Further and further in he went until the whole length of his thick tongue was inside. I felt myself cream under him.
My whole body was burning with his wet tongue. Hot and wet he shoved it around and in and out. I couldn't stand the lovely feeling there.
I begged him to stick it into me. He slid his tongue out of my asshole and pulled his dick out of his pants. He pulled my ass up to his dick.
He pushed hard with his fat cock. But it slid hard into my asshole. He shivered and stuffed the tip into me. I groaned under the tearing pressure. It must have really turned him on to shove it there because he kept pushing.
Harder and harder he jammed his cock into my asshole. Fast and hard he jammed his poker into my rectum. He fell with all of his weight on top of me. He crushed his cock hard into me.
I screamed and clamped my mouth down hard on top of Heinrich's prick. He bellowed and I grabbed his balls. Harder and harder he thrust it into my mouth.
His whole body was stiff. He jammed my head down on his dick. I licked the length of his cock in my mouth. Faster and faster Max was going crazy in my asshole. He clawed at my back.
I didn't know which way to move first. I pumped and Eva's hands were on my back. She kissed and licked all up and down on my ass. Max sawed savagely in me.
Harder and harder he moved until I felt him rip one last thrust deep against my tender insides and shoot his massive wad.
Hot and steaming it shot into me and I bucked up to take it. He made me take every last drop he could grind out of him. His fat body shook and he clutched with savage fingertips at my hips.
There were grooves where he dug in there. Faster and faster, he clawed at me. He tried to thrust his hand in my pussy but his limp prick slid out of my asshole and I pushed him off with a little sliding motion.
My asshole dripped his white come and Eva slid down my sweat-slick ass cheeks. She put her mouth down on my ripped-open asshole. She ran her tongue tenderly over my red, suppurating hole. Then she sucked hard and pulled the come from deep inside me. The hot feeling was strange and exciting.
I felt her suck harder and then shove her tongue further inside. Around and around she whirled her long wet tongue. It scoured the inside there and she drank down every last drop of Max's come.
She nibbled around the outside. She loved to suck on me. Under me, Heinrich's rock-hard prick was still in my mouth. I chewed its tougliness like it was a root.
He grabbed my head up from it and I slid wetly off. He pulled me and Eva up his body until my body was full length-wise on top of him.
I spread my legs and he lifted my hips with his powerful hands. He slid his cock into my wet crotch. It slid hard along the lips of my cunt. The upper side sliced hard over my clit.
The long thick cock cut across my little throbbing one. Hard up along the seething slit he ran his dick until I felt it poke out from between my ass cheeks.
Along my asshole Eva ran her mouth over my velvet flesh and put the tip of his cock in her mouth. She pressed the cheeks of my ass together around his dick. He felt the sweet pressure and pulled himself back and forth through it.
She pressed her mouth down hard and sucked hard with his cock and my asshole pressed together inside. I felt as if I were going to explode.
She pulled his dick up and down in her mouth and he slid his cock over my engorged clit. He started panting and clawing at my naked tits. He pulled my nipples savagely. Then on one stroke she slid his shoving dick skillfully up into my pussy.
Over the tight muscle at the back of my cunt he ran the tip of his cock. It was hot and I felt him shove harder and harder.
The two of us twisted and Eva shoved his finger in my asshole. Her other hand went around under me. Our two creaming bodies crushed her fingers between us.
She tangled her fingers in the sweet curls tangled there. I was wet with come and sweat. I felt her fingers and exploded. I shook and quivered as Heinrich came in a long drawn-out howl.
Like wolves in the woods we fucked each other, howling and scratching. I felt each blast of his love cream hot and strong into my cunt and shook my ass with Eva's finger way up inside.
She bit on my ass cheeks and licked on the come which leaked out from my cunt and asshole. Over and over Heinrich shoved until I came with his thrusting. The blinding flash came and I felt her frantic fingers on my stomach. Wet and hot I came until I collapsed on his still-stiff cock.
You see, I liked it! I always liked it. Now I'm afraid I'm going to get everyone in trouble. What can I do. I don't want to get everyone in trouble!
"It's all right, Judy," I said. "No one is going to get in trouble. Don't worry about anything." I told her that I wouldn't tell anyone anything.
She relaxed when she heard that. We talked about how she wanted to be in the future. She agreed that she wanted to come and see me for a few months at least.
Her tears were gone now and she smiled again. It was so good to see her sparkling eyes. Her whole body seemed to be infused with a light which had been missing when she talked about all the trouble she thought she had caused.
CONCLUSION
With hard work and application, Judy was able to reconcile her feelings of guilt at "getting everyone in trouble." She got to see that all of the people involved were equally responsible.
She got to realize that her sexual feelings were natural and saw her job in the future as controlling them and channeling them so they were not destructive to herself and those around her.
CASE NUMBER FOUR. JACKIE O.
INTERVIEW ONE:
NOTES:
When Jackie came to me she was one of the most confused young women I have ever seen. She was barely fifteen when I saw her the first time.
She had been referred to me from a private clinic. I take quite a few patients for no, or very little, fee. Very quickly I realized that she was a very troubled girl.
She was tall and limber. Her long black hair fell straight to her waist and her body was long and well-proportioned. What was probably most striking aside from her lovely face were her long legs. They carried her with a regal stride which made her seem confident and poised even when she was not.
The first time she came she was dressed like a gypsy. She had a silk scarf around her head and a black leotard on her top. She wore a full tapestry skirt which was embroidered and stitched. She was a swirl of color from her boots to her headband.
She sat down looking confidently and slightly truculent. She waited for me to start so I did. I asked her a few questions and she answered them in one word whenever possible. Then I got quiet and told her that she could tell me anything that she felt like. She hesitated a minute and then she started talking. Below is a transcript of her words.
I never really liked talking to people. I certainly don't like talking to doctors and policemen. All they've ever done, man, is fuck me over. What a waste of time! But there are some things I've been wanting to rap about.
I always seemed to get myself involved in these bad scenes. I don't do it on purpose. It just seems to happen. I can't help myself.
Ever since I split from home when I was thirteen. It was really impossible there. I mean, we had a lot of money and things, but my parents are so plastic you just wouldn't believe it.
We never could talk together. I mean, even about little stuff. We were having arguments, especially me and my mother-we never could agree. It was fight, fight all the time. So I just left. Best thing I ever did.
But ever since then I have gotten into some weird situations. I don't just mean way-out situations. That's okay sometimes, to be way-out. But I mean, I seem to get things and just get hurt. I don't really know why.
It all kind of started when I got to the city. I met this chick and this guy. She was named Mindy and he was named Moe. I thought they were the greatest people. You know, I met them on the street in the East Village. That was about two years ago. The scene was pretty grim down there.
But I didn't know where to go after I ran away from home. I really wasn't ready to go to California or anything like that. That was too far away.
So I went down to the East Village and hung out. But it was the winter time and I picked a really stupid time to run away from home.
It was fucking snowing and it was twenty degrees out. I just left with all these old clothes and I was really cold. I stood around the candy stores and stuff for a day. I was really getting hungry. Things certainly weren't groovy.
Everyone was out to rip you off. I was pretty cool. I mean, I was really suspicious and I didn't get ripped off or anything but I was also going crazy trying to find someone to help me at the same time. I was snarling at people to leave me alone. I was about going back home when I sat down on the steps to one of the macrobiotic restaurants. The people there were pretty nice. They didn't chase me away.
I just sat there looking at my hands and thinking how cold I was. I guess maybe I was crying. Moe came up to me and knelt down next to me. He had a long, curly black beard and a blue knitted cap pulled down over his head. I thought he was the cutest thing I had ever seen. He was so cute. His eyes were real kind. He asked me what was the matter. I told him I was cold and he said that I should come with him.
I was scared but, shit, I was getting so cold that I was ready to take anything as long as it was indoors and warm.
Well, as soon as I saw Mindy sitting inside, I felt relieved. I figured that if she was there, it was going to be a cool scene.
I sat down at one of the tables. The place smelled really good. They asked me if I was hungry. I really was and I ate a meal so fast I thought maybe I was a magician. Anyway, after I was finished they said I could come home with them.
They led me down Second Avenue to Fifth Street. They lived between First and Second Avenue on Fifth Street. The place looked really like a dump, but up the stairs and into their place, it was kind of nice.
They lived on the top floor. They had a view over the roofs of the other houses. The lights flashed on and off in the distance. The place was full of cats and rugs. There were mattresses all over the floor of one of the rooms. There were curtains and fabric hung all over the place. It had the feel of a harem or something.
I felt at home right away. I wasn't embarrassed about taking their food or staying there. They were the nicest people I had ever met. They just seemed to be glad to be giving me something because I needed it.
I told them all about my mother as we sat on one of the mattresses. The whole room smelled of cats and incense. We passed around a joint. It was the first one I had ever smoked. They taught me how and pretty soon I felt all right.
I was full of food and I was warm and full of dope. It was lovely. I told them all about my parents and how materialistic they are. That was what bothered me at home. The only thing they cared about were their things. They didn't give a flying fuck about anything else. They didn't care about me!
Over and over again we used to get into fights about how I should act. It never was what they wanted me to do. But what right did they have to tell me what to do? Why should I do what they wanted? They weren't so nice to me that I should be so nice to them.
Anyway, I told Moe and Mindy all about this and they seemed to understand about it all. They told me parents were sometimes very heavy. They said you just had to be cool and not let it bother you.
I liked the way they treated me-like a grown-up. They didn't tell me that my parents were right like you'll probably do. They believed my side of the story.
Anyway, after we had been smoking for a little while, I started feeling really nice. I could feel all the muscles in my body. They put on some Grateful Dead records. I just kind of lay there on the mattresses dancing to the music. It was kind of a tingling feeling which went through me. It stirred me up so much that I started shaking my hips and tits all over.
I was really dancing. The rhythm seemed to cut all the way through me. It was like a wave moving back and forth. I just let go of everything. I didn't worry about how I looked. All I did was shake and shimmy. I was moving so smoothly. I felt as if I was drifting away.
Around and around I moved my ass on the mattress. I didn't know that Mindy and Moe were watching. Then I heard his voice in my ear. It was warm and loving.
"You look beautiful, baby," he said. It made me feel so nice. I was surprised he had been watching me, but I was so glad he thought I looked good. I kept my ear there and he kissed it.
He ran the tip of his tongue around the inside of my ear and made me shiver all inside. I couldn't help but push against him.
Every second seemed to last a whole hour. Every time he pushed into my ear I felt as if the tide were coming in. I moved slowly from side to side-each muscle in my body moving in beautiful coordinated lust.
I couldn't bear the lust flowing through me without letting it come out. I moved in a sensuous dance. I craved to have his hands all over me. I really felt like a belly dancer there on the bed.
His fingers played sexily on the tips of my ear. He held my earlobe and traced tiny paths of joy down my neck to my chest.
He played with the buttons on the front of my shirt. He moved his fingers there and I moved in a trance under them. He traced patterns there and I rubbed on his fingers.
Each time my nipples touched the fingers through the smooth fabric, I sighed and felt myself slipping further and further under the sweet feeling.
He opened my shirt one button at a time slid the shirt off my breasts. He rubbed lovingly over the naked breasts. He put his mouth down on them and I moaned.
Mindy came over and rubbed in a circle on my stomach. Then she slid off my skirt. It came sliding down my thighs in a sensuous stream. I moved my hips intensely from side to side on the soft quilt.
The feel of it on the back of my naked thighs felt so nice, I just kept moving. Then Mindy's cold fingers were under the band of my panties. She slid them off down my hips.
I was naked on the bed except for my high-laced boots. I felt them so tight on me I begged for her to take them off me.
She opened the laces and loosened each one. She pulled each one off and I felt like a butterfly emerging from a cocoon. Naked, I stretched my arms and legs on the bed.
Moe kissed my ear and stood up. He stripped off his T-shirt. He pulled off his boots and opened his jeans. His hairy black legs looked like a spider's web. But his dark box was full of coiled black hair which thrilled me to look at.
He knelt down by my head and kissed me from ear to ear. We licked each other and our tongues locked in our joined mouths. His kiss was like a searing flame.
I felt Mindy cool and nude on my leg. I looked up and there she was moving slowly over Moe's back with her fingers. She massaged deep there and Moe moved sensuously under her fingers.
I felt his mouth hot on mine and he moved over my chest. Mindy rubbed his back. He moved slowly on top of me. The grass made it seem as if he were a sweet syrup on top of me. His whole body was sweet and lovely like a dream.
I saw Mindy take his cock and balls in her hands. He rose up on his knees to let her roll his cock and balls tenderly like a piece of clay.
Over and over she pulled and stroked his dugs until he was moaning. She dropped under him and put her mouth under the tip of his cock. She slipped it into her mouth.
She was like a little calf drinking at a cow's udder. Slowly, she took it in and out of her mouth. The smooth wet surface of his dick glistened at her lips.
I stirred inside to watch it and I kissed his tongue thrust in my mouth as if it were a cock. Back and forth he pushed his tongue in my mouth. I sucked hard at it and my lips were wet.
His hands were on my tits caressing the nipples softly. It was a thrill in me to feel him touch each corner of my nipple and pull them out longer. He rubbed down around the side and the tender flesh sent thrills all through me.
Mindy rubbed her hands up to his ass and kissed his ass cheeks. She pushed him over on his back beside me and went all the way down on his cock.
Her throat seemed to be full of his cock as she shoved it all the way inside. I watched as she chewed on him and he twisted in sweet agony.
Then he told me to sit on his face. I straddled him and he held my ass cheeks in his hands. I was facing down his body, as his tongue flicked up into my cunt.
He moved deeper with his fingers. They pulled at my cunt lips and rolled them in his fingers. Mindy went further and further down his dick and he crushed my ass in his fingers.
I wiggled my ass further down in his face and he went wild. He pushed up my cunt and chewed with his teeth deep in my crack. I could feel the tender eating there and I tried to screw myself further down on it.
His hand sought up my stomach and held my tits as they hung there. I swung them back and forth and he grabbed and squeezed them.
I rocked from side to side there and felt myself growing more and more lost in the lovely blowing and sucking in my pussy. He lapped up at my clit and sucked it hard into his mouth.
I twisted and he moved in a joyous sweet arching. He pushed his ass up and shoved his dick deep into her mouth. Eva twisted around and sucked harder on his cock. She fondled his balls.
The two of us put our arms around each other. I locked my arms down around Moe's chest and he pulled my ass tight against his mouth. I fell over and he nibbled on me like a little fish.
I panted and licked at the black hair all over his belly. Then Eva pulled his dick out of her mouth and straddled him. She slid his dick down in her long cunt. She took him effortlessly all the way into her and started twisting madly on his sweet love stick.
Faster and faster she twisted, coming in savage contortion. Faster she moved and came again almost immediately. I bucked on his mouth and his tongue flicked in and out of me.
Eva got off his prick and pulled me off his mouth. She showed me how to straddle his cock and sit down on it. I was scared but she took my ass in her hand and guided me down. It was the first time I had ever had a boy's cock inside me.
I had heard it would hurt. But when the tip of his organ slid inside of me, I didn't feel anything but lust. The second his cock touched the tip of my clit I shivered.
She shoved me slowly down on his shaft and he moved his dick around in my hole slowly until he found the right spot.
Then I went crazy. I started shaking and moaning. I pushed myself all the way down on his dick. The shiver sucked the breath out of me. I twisted around and Eva massaged my nipples from behind.
She took them in her hands and bit my neck. I quivered faster and faster. I felt my things hot and wet. I looked down and saw Moe's stomach and the base of his cock covered with my blood.
He bucked the brown root into me and I took it in each time closer to coming. Eva licked up my spine and I tingled. I couldn't breathe fast enough. Her hands were all over my breasts. Then she rubbed down my stomach and buried her fingers in my bush.
She pushed the lips of my cunt against his dick as it slammed up into my pussy. I twisted like I had seen her do it. Then I felt the sweet lust rising inside me. I couldn't stop moving.
Around and around I moved until I creamed in savage joy in my guts. Faster I twisted and her finger clutched at my clit. The organ was engorged beneath her fingers.
I moaned and came as he shoved his member to the back of my cunt. Then I pumped and felt a bursting flash of light in my guts and threw my head back on Eva's shoulder. She held me twisted around and kissed me savagely as I came with his spurting cock in my cunt.
He shafted up harder and harder with each burst of his come. Over and over he shoved his come-throbbing dick into me until he was spent back on the mattress. I fell forward on top of him and Eva rubbed my back laughing....
"It's time to go now," I said.
She looked at me as if I had just wakened her from a long dream. She shook her head and rubbed her hands over her eyes.
"I guess I really got into it," she said. "Wow, I guess I really had a lot to get off my chest. Well, I'll see you next week and we can get into some more things."
She got up and walked out like a sleepwalker. I had to keep myself from laughing until she got out the door. She was very cute in her initiation to therapy. INTERVIEW TWO:
NOTES:
On our second interview it occurred to me to ask how Jackie was living at the time. She looked very tired and drawn. I suspected that her living situation was not improved from when she had been down in the East Village.
She still dressed like a gypsy. Her dress for the second interview was a long, flowing silken blouse and huge baggy pants. Her waist and neck were tied with scarves and her long black hair flowed down sensuously.
She sat in front of me and put her head in her hands in a gesture which made her look a lot older than fifteen. She sighed a long sigh and then looked up at me. What follows are her words from that interview, exactly as she spoke them.
It's been such a long time, Doctor. I don't think you know how much of a drag it is to be a runaway. I mean, I would go back if I could. I'm not saying I wouldn't have run away in the first place. It was pretty lousy at home.
But I'm living about the same as I was two years ago. Right now I'm crashing with this guy and chick who are married. It's a pretty weird scene because I'm balling both of them and neither one of them knows about it. But it's been two years since I was living with Moe and Mindy. They were the nicest to me. I haven't found anyone who is as nice as they were. Two years is a long time. I start feeling really old sometimes.
I lived with Moe and Mindy for three months. When I look back on it it seems as if it were longer. But actually it was so nice I wish it never had to end.
After that first time in bed we never stopped. Every chance we got we were in the sack together. I think Moe was working for the Welfare Department at the time. It was some kind of bullshit job which he could finish with three days a week work.
Sometimes he felt bad about ripping off the city for the money they were paying him, but it kept us all in food and dope. He could forget it pretty easily. Mindy wasn't doing any kind of work at the time. I guess you could say she was working at living.
She and I would go out and try to scrounge up food. We would go all over in bakeries and stores asking for old bread and vegetables. Most of the time we got it.
I guess they thought we were two sisters or something. Mindy always kind of excited them and intimidated them at the same time.
I remember she had a way of swaggering into a store and demanding, in a sweet way, that they give us some old bread. If anyone said they didn't have anything she would just stand there with her hands on her hips and her head cocked defiantly. She refused to believe them!
That usually worked pretty well. After a while they gave in and brought something out from the back. Then she was flirtatious. She would sidle up to the manager or clerk and nudge him with her hips. She would smile and tell him that she couldn't thank him enough.
After a while he would be standing there with his tongue hanging out. Then I would have to laugh and that would blow the whole thing. But it was a good laugh on everyone.
I remember one day, after I had been living with them for about three weeks, we had been out all morning getting food and panhandling some change. It was a crisp winter morning. It wasn't too cold and every tiling seemed to have put on a fresh coat of sunshine for the occasion of the day.
We got home, which was, like I said, really a ratty building on Fifth Street about one o'clock and put all the stuff away. Then we settled down into a peaceful afternoon smoke.
The sunlight streamed in the window because we lived on the top floor. The sky seemed closer than the ground. I felt myself floating up and up into it as if I were coming loose from the earth.
We smoked long deep drags of the joint and let the grass take us higher and higher. In a little while we were completely wrecked.
I sat there grinning at her. We were reliving our escapades that day. We couldn't stop laughing as we reminded each of how the guy in the fruit stand had been really nasty until Mindy bent over and let him look down her blouse. She wasn't wearing a bra and I guess the guy got more than he had bargained for when he looked in. It was so funny.
He got so nice to us in a nervous frantic sort of way. I couldn't figure whether he was trying to get us to stay longer or leave sooner. We were rolling on the floor in a buzzing drugged haze. I sort of leaned over put my head in Mindy's lap still laughing about what had happened. It was so much fun to do things with her.
She stroked my hair gently and I sighed. All the laughter kind of ran out and I lay there feeling somehow very sad. The silence seemed to come rolling in. I felt myself start to cry.
I turned over on my back and looked up into her eyes. I felt mine pool with tears and bit my lips.
"It's all right little girl," she said. "It's all right." She brushed the hair out of my eyes and stroked my forehead. There was a hunger inside me which I had to fill.
She bent and kissed my eyes. I felt her lips smear the wet tears down my cheek and she licked them. She murmured deep in her throat and felt my neck with her fingers. I felt her fondle my ears and chin. She explored all over my face and neck with her tender hand.
I threw my arms around her neck and pulled her down until I had her mouth. I felt her body and tongue close against my own. I kissed long and hard, our tongues flicked around each others' in our mouths. We kissed deep and caressed the back of my head.
Faster and faster our tongues danced. The grass made it all seem as if it were happening in slow motion. Each flick was like an earthquake or the movement of two giant boa constrictors in the jungles of Peru.
I felt as if I were washing away. I pulled up at her and rubbed my fingers in her long shaggy curls. They were still cool from the air outside. I felt all the way down through them to her neck and she sighed.
We fell back on the floor side by side and caressed each other up and down. Each stroke was a beautiful shivering. I ran my fingers over her flanks. I felt the rise of her hips where they met her waist.
I rubbed down and felt her hot body through her clothes. I wanted to taste the pale flesh underneath. I licked her neck and held her head in my hand as we kissed.
We were lost and groaning with pleasure when Moe came in. He was off early from work and he had brought a couple from down the block who were friends.
They came in and smiled when they saw us on the floor. Someone made a joke about marijuana and sex orgies. Moe made a few more joints and pretty soon they were as wrecked as we were.
The guy and girl soon had their clothes off and were going at it on the mattress over in the corner. Their slurping and panting filled the room. I could see her underneath him straining and twisting. She had her fingers on his dick and was pulling it back and forth.
Each time she did, he sighed and pulled in a sweet joyful arc. Harder and harder I heard them breathe. It turned me on to watch them do that. I could feel the heat of their bodies. I watched as they were covered with sweat. I saw her fingers trace sharp patterns across his skin as she clutched at him.
Her cries made my insides tremble next to Mindy. Moe came over and pulled off my shirt. I lay back on the floor and let him pull off my pants. The air was cool as I lay there on the floor in my panties. Then he pulled them off with his teeth as he nibbled around my hips. All the way down he licked at my thighs and pussy.
I felt his tongue like a little dog lapping at me. I pushed up to meet it and his hands fluttered at my stomach. He caressed me until I was going crazy.
Next to me Mindy was moaning in my ear. It was a long, lost drone which carried me higher and higher. I had my eyes closed and I felt myself just drifting away unconscious under Moe's fingers.
Faster and faster he licked and pulled off my panties. The two of us twisted on the floor next to each other. I felt Mindy pull off her blouse. Her hair shook in my face as she stripped off her pants. They slid off and I saw her curly thick bush. I smelled her musk in the closed smoky room. I saw her lips of love part as she lay back on the floor and beckoned to me with her arms. She begged me to eat her. She bent her knees up and spread her legs. I couldn't resist!
I plunged my head into her snatch and pushed my tongue down onto her clitoris. I felt her wet and seething in my mouth. She responded and twisted her hips back and forth.
I licked her faster and felt Moe behind me grabbing my tits. He held them tight and pressed himself at my ass. I chewed down into her cunt and sucked on her cunt lips. I ran the tip of my tongue all around her pussy and she moaned.
Moe's tongue played all over the flesh of my ass. His hands held my nipples and coaxed them stiffer and stiffer. He made a gesture with his finger there like he was flicking marbles. It made me go crazy.
"Lick my asshole," I begged. It was so good to say it. I really wanted him to do it. Just saying it really turned me on.
He pushed his face down into my ass crack. I felt his curly beard tickle at the crack and he rubbed it back and forth faster. I swiveled my ass up in his face and he licked the entire length of my ass crack. Then he put the tip of his tongue at my quivering hole.
Around the straining ass muscle he ran his red tongue. Then with a push he shoved the tip inside. The wet creaming feeling filled me. I shoved my ass hard up against his mouth and begged for more. He slid it ah the way inside and wiggled it around. I couldn't help but twist at him with my backside.
His fingers clawed at the flesh of my ass as his tongue roamed around inside. I felt him flash in and out with dozens of strokes. His fingers tickled my stomach and thighs.
Then he pushed his hand into my sopping sporran and pulled the tangles aside. Deep into the love lips he plunged and found my clit. It was hard and longing to be stroked. As I ate out Mindy, he rubbed my clit until I came in a blinding furious orgasm.
I pumped my ass back and around at his tongue as his finger went frenziedly on my clitoris. I could feel the come flow down my chute. Mindy moaned and cried out as I rooted deeper into her bush.
She bucked her pelvis up at me with each stroke of my tongue. Her whole body was tense as she shoved and twisted her hips. I could feel her love juice hot on my face. I smelled her musk as I plunged my nose deeper and deeper between her ass cheeks.
Then he pulled out his tongue from my asshole and pushed himself against my rear. I felt his stiff naked cock bounce between my legs as he pulled it like a violin bow against my over-hanging pussy.
Three and four times he drew it hard like that until I was moaning and shivering. I reached underneath and pressed the tip with my fingers. It was hot and I felt the throb of his heart in it.
Each time he thrust it forward between my legs I strained down on Mindy's mouth and twisted the tip of it in my fingers.
The sweet rhythm had me hypnotized. It strained with each stroke until I felt as if the cock were already inside me stretching my cunt larger and larger.
Then with a push of my fingers I directed his dick up into my spread-open cunt lips. I was wet and open. The flesh sword speared right through the love gates.
He slipped it all the way in. I felt his rod shaft all the way in my cunt. I twisted his dick hard and right in my cunt.
The feeling was building and building. I ground his cock faster and faster inside. His fingers moved hard on my neck. He massaged deep with his hand and traced sweet dancing patterns with his fingers.
I danced under his fingers. I fluttered as he moved up and down the flesh of my body quivered with his sweet tantalizing.
Mindy moaned and came in my mouth I clawed at her ass flesh and shoved my fingers in and out of her asshole. The wet of her cunt mixed with her reeking asshole. I shoved one finger hard up her cunt and one up her asshole. I twisted them hard around together and pulled her back and forth. She moaned and I sucked deep and long on her clit. She fought against me. Her hands quivered at my back. She dug long scratches in me. But I licked and pulled harder and harder until she came in my fingers.
In my cunt Moe was moaning as he fucked me doggie-style. His hand pressed the lips of my cunt on his dick as it steamed in and out of my pussy. Faster and faster he shafted into me as I felt the passion swirl in long aching drug dreams.
I felt as if I were being fucked by a huge growing tree. The sound of the friends fucking in the corner sounded like animals fucking in the woods. I let myself build higher and higher with their sucking and moaning.
I pumped my ass higher and higher in the air as his dick pounded inside me. I beat on my cunt and I felt him go wild at my backside. Faster and harder he jammed it into me and let myself swirl and slide down along the long hill.
My breathing seemed to increase rapidly. I just let myself go and came in agony of twisting and pumping. I felt his dick hot and passionate there as he jammed it in and came in a burst of hot gism which exploded out of the blackness and spread hot white lava over my pussy.
He ground deep his last spurt and stayed hard inside me. He grabbed my shoulder and I backed one leg around over his chest without taking his dick out of my snatch.
He leaned back and laughed I sat astride him with his delicious hot cock stuck stiff up inside me. I circled my hips around in a sweet circle dance and let the muscles inside my pussy ripple free over his dick.
Mindy whimpered and pulled herself up and sat on his mouth. I saw his long tongue snake out and touch her creaming clit as she pushed her lips down over his mouth.
The two of us bucked hard on top of him and he quivered faster and faster. He twisted his hard rod up into me and clawed at Mindy's stomach.
Harder and harder he jammed his dick up into my cunt and I caressed his balls behind me. I let my fingers trace intense patterns on them and I coaxed him until he shot another hot stream of come deep into my pussy.
I screamed with exquisite hot lust tearing inside me and twisted over on Mindy's back. I shook all over and came as his cock shoved its deep joy up high into my cunt. I screamed again and came on his shafting cock until we ground out our lust on each other and fell exhausted in a haze of pot smoke....
"It's time for us to go, Jackie," I said. "I wish we could continue and explore more than just the bare outline of the situation now. However, we will have a chance in the coming sessions to do just that.
"As for now I hope you get straightened out with your living accommodations. If you do that, I think things will look up a little bit. Good-bye for now."
She got up wearily. She looked like a displaced person or someone very lost and alone. She gave me a weak smile and left my office in swirls of silk and scarves. I hoped silently that she would be all right until our next session. INTERVIEW THREE:
NOTES:
Our final interview, Jackie came in looking as if she had been strung out for the entire week since I had seen her last. There were dark circles under her eyes and she walked with a stagger which made it look as if she were trying not to break her eggshell-brittle bones.
She sat and stared glumly at me. I tried to be as gentle as possible. I didn't want to get off on the wrong foot. I was afraid that if we broke our generally good relationship up to that point, there would be serious repercussions for her....
She pushed her long black hair out of her face. It was lusterless and her eyes were dull and gleamless. She sat back and leaned her head against the wall. She sighed and I saw her whole body sag.
What follows are her words from that interview. I hope that after reading them, the reader will have a better understanding of the conflicts and sufferings Jackie had gone through in an effort to be an autonomous and independent person.
Do I feel crappy! Oh, my head really hurts. Man, I didn't feel like coming here. I just wanted to stay in bed. Ow! My neck feels as if there are pieces of lead stuck in it.
But I couldn't figure out any good reason not to come. I couldn't figure out anything else to do. So, I sort of dragged down here.
I really don't feel like doing too much talking today. Maybe you can do some of it, huh? I mean, it's kind of depressing me when I talk about all the things in the past. It's like they are dead and they ought to stay that way. Like why bother to dig them up if they aren't going to solve anything today.
Do you really think talking about Mindy and me is going to make it easier for me now? I can't really figure it out. But if you say so, I take your word. I'll try anything twice.
Things were pretty groovy at that place for a long time. Like Mindy wasn't jealous of me or anything. You might think she would be. After all, I was just a little girl and I was cute.
Moe really liked to ball with me. I think he liked my tits and ass. They were hard and tight. He liked to crush them in his hands. He couldn't stop feeling me up whenever I was around.
But Mindy never got jealous even when she came home and found us balling. She just took off her clothes if she was in the mood and joined right in. It was so cozy. I really loved it!
I remember once when they had a party. It was really a great bash. They invited all their friends-they knew all sorts of weird people. There were musicians and dealers, and lots of street people, too.
They came late one night. It was like three o'clock in the morning and we were all dancing around to the Stones. It was really loud. The walls shook, but no one cared.
They had these red lights in the ceiling and the fabric and rugs on the walls gave the whole place a really soft sensuous glow.
There were already a few people off in the other room balling. The rest of us were dancing our brains out. Faster and faster we shook it out. Someone kept putting the Stone's, "Let it Bleed" on, over and over again. I kept bouncing and twisting.
All night long there were joints floating around. It was really good stuff. That and the dancing really wrecked me. I remember twisting and pulling off my blouse. I felt that I had to be free.
I whirled the blouse around over my head and flung it in a comer. I swung my tits around and the pulling felt so sweet and sexy.
I started dancing again. I didn't know what I was doing. I was rubbing my tits and fluttering my fingers over my head. I was swaying and twisting like a Javanese dancer. I felt freer than I had ever felt before.
The room sort of faded. All I felt was my body and the pounding of the music. It all melted into one big whirling dance. It was like I was part of the flow of everything.
I danced with my eyes closed. But I didn't bump anyone. It was like I had radar. All the other people danced like they knew exactly where everyone was. It was like all the people were just one person, so how could anyone get in someone else's way.
Someone handed me another joint. It was like it came from out of nowhere. Suddenly, it was there in my hand and this guy with a long blond beard was leering in my face.
I took a long drag on it. It was grass but there was something behind it. I felt myself going up and up as if I were in the cockpit of a rocket ship. My whole body twisted around on itself and I was moving so hard I thought my muscles were going to tear from my body.
Faster and faster I whirled and the whole room was a painting of searing white light and pitch black shadows. Faster and faster I writhed. I remember feeling my arms over my head like snakes in the air.
Then, there was someone's hand on my tits. They held them tight and massaged them. I danced under the fingers and they squeezed my nipples.
I pressed my naked back against the person and felt someone's naked chest. I felt the hair there between his breasts like soft fur. I pressed back and rubbed my naked, smooth skin back in a sweet aching dance.
Harder and harder I twisted and felt myself falling back. Over and over I let myself fall. I just let go all the way and felt his strong hands hold me.
Back and back I rolled and felt myself fall on the furry rug. I knew I was in the corner. I writhed my back deep into the fur. I dreamed I was in a cave and it was the dead of winter outside. All the hot music and air disappeared. It was cold and I scrunched down deep in the fur.
I felt a hot naked body on top of me. His dick banged against my stomach and he knelt on all fours and kissed me. His blond beard rubbed in my face and I chewed at it deliciously. He pulled my jeans open and slipped them down. He slid off my panties and I writhed on the fur naked. The tiny hairs up between my ass cheeks tickled me and made me move back and forth.
He shoved his fingers into my pussy and held me there. He tore back and forth. I was so wet, his fingers made a slurping sound as he shoved them in and out of the hole.
His palm moved over and over on my clit. He pulled at it with the base of his hand and I writhed under him. Then I felt a beardless face kissing me. A hot tongue slid into my mouth and I sucked hard on it.
Then another mouth was licking my belly. I rolled it like a dancer and felt devoured by the tongue.
Then, there was someone at my legs licking sensuously up towards my cunt. I was covered with a dozen mouths on my stomach and under my arms. They all licked and chewed and I felt some pulling the hairs of my pussy.
A tongue flicked into my cunt and sucked on my clit and pulled it long and hard into his mouth. I opened my eyes and saw them working over me. They bent like men devouring a fallen carcass in the jungle. I felt three mouths and hands as they massaged and licked at my flesh. I moved in response to all their fingers and tongues.
I shook my hips and tits and pushed harder. I felt myself wet with their spit. They licked all over me and I tingled with lust.
Then, one took my legs and spread them high in the air. Between my legs he knelt and shoved his dick high into my cunt. It came like a flaming rod into me and I twisted fast on it.
The blond guy was on my tits licking and chewing hard. I pushed my tits up to his mouth and felt his hot dick pressing into my side as he chewed.
I saw a dark, curly box in my face and a hot dick at my lips. He pressed it hard against my teeth and I opened to let him all the way inside.
I sucked the cock deep in my mouth and I felt the tiny drops of come poised on his cock's tip. All around the flaring tip I licked and then down the quivering shaft. He pulled it back and forth in my mouth and I chewed. I felt the skin move over the hard core of flesh. He moaned and I felt his balls dangling in my face.
Faster and faster the three pummeled and chewed. The cock in my pussy moved hard and fast. He screwed me with deliberate rhythm which grew faster and faster with each terrible stroke.
Together we moaned and shoved until he went wild at my ass and shot his juice deep into me. I moaned and took his spurting cock all the way inside me. I came as he shot his last cream into me and slid out.
In an instant the blond guy was inside me with his long and pointed cock. I felt it push to the back of my cunt and let him shaft deeper into my cavity.
I couldn't help but move under him. My whole body was melting under the white and hot friction of his lovely cock. Faster and faster he shoved inside me and I felt myself coming.
I screamed and he rammed it still harder. I came and bit hard on the cock shoved deep at the back of my throat. I sucked and my throat closed, quivering on his dick. I felt his balls hard and the hot gism spurted from his dick straight on down my throat.
I sucked the sweet juice and felt it flow inside me like a river. I felt the spurting on my tongue and came as the blond guy shoved his dick into the back of my cunt.
Harder and harder he writhed on me and came in a pounding sweet rain inside me. Over and over he rammed it along my cunt walls, drawing out my moans like a ribbon.
I lay there under them spent and covered with come. I chewed on the limp prick in my mouth and felt the blond guy move and lick my belly. I felt like the earth mother. It was so wonderful!
Then Moe was over me. He kissed my cheek and rolled me over on my back. I felt his hard cock in my ass cheeks as he lay behind me. He rammed it back and forth through my crack and it felt glorious and wet.
Harder and harder he clutched at my tits. He rubbed the come from my pussy up over my belly and nipples. He tantalized my flesh and I felt greased and slithery under his fingers.
I bent my ass up to him and he smeared the come out of my pussy and over my hole crack. In and out of my asshole he reamed his finger. I panted and opened and shut my tender aching muscle under his thrusts.
He rammed his finger all the way inside my asshole and I bent myself up at him. He whirled it around and tingled my insides. I felt stuffed with his finger.
He pulled it in and out a few more times and then dragged it out with a squeak. His hand spread my ass cheeks and shoved the tip of his dick at my tiny hole. He pushed and I bent myself open. He poised the tip at the tense hole and rubbed the speechless mouth there. Then he pushed.
Harder and harder his cock strained to pierce my shit tube. I felt the tearing pressure. Harder he pushed and then with a sweet wet sliding he was inside me. The full feeling made me quiver and I bent back against him with a savage twist of my body.
His hands were on my clit coaxing me to move harder-and harder. In and out he sawed me. I couldn't stop moving under his dick and his finger. He caressed me from my neck down to my belly. Over and over he fondled my tits in his hand. I moaned and he shoved his lance deep in my trembling guts.
The blond guy rolled over in front of me and kissed me on the mouth. He tasted hot and funky. I licked his tongue and he pressed hard against me. Moe sawed into my asshole and the blond guy put the tip of his dick against my cunt hole.
Moe's fingers caressed my clit from the side as the guy shoved his hard dick up into my cunt. I twisted forward with my hips to let him in and Moe groaned with the twisting.
The two men went frantic. They crushed me between them as I struggled with their dicks deep inside. They ground together inside me and pounded out their sweet lust.
I dug my fingernails into the guy's neck. I felt him buck against me and shove harder into me. He worked in and out with his cock. He felt me ripple my cunt inside and groaned in a smiling agony.
Faster and faster he rammed his prick and came spurting into me. I went crazy. I screamed and the whole world sparkled in brilliant lights as I moaned and panted. I remember Moe's cock deep in my asshole. It was pounding higher and higher until I thought he would come out of my mouth.
I just twisted on it until I felt him spurt a huge flood of his come in me. Over and over I ground on the two cocks until I came in a blinding fast orgasm. It was so good. I could taste it! I just chewed on the guy's neck and rubbed back and forth between them until they came and came....
"I'm sorry that we have to stop now," I said. "After hearing your story and what has happened it's necessary to ask you exactly how you think all this is relating to your life now, and why you are worried?"
"What I mean is why do you think this is important and how does it affect you now?"
She looked at me and scratched her head. Then she got a little closer to the root of the problem....
I don't know what it is. I really liked Moe and Mindy But all those scenes always ended up shitty. I mean they split for California and they didn't want to take me with them.
I kind of drifted around by myself. I found some other people to live with. They seemed nice enough. They were willing to take me in. But after a while they split too. No one seemed to want me around for very long. They always had other things and other people to be involved with. It always ended up with me back out on the street again.
It's been two years since I ran away. I mean I'm lucky I haven't been caught. Most runaways are caught real quick. But I usually find a place to stay.
Right now I'm staying with these two chicks and a guy. But I can tell it's going to end the same way. Sooner or later they will split and leave me with nothing. I get to feeling there is no sense in trying after a while.
"Look Jackie, "I said, "you're a pretty smart girl and you sure know how to take care of yourself. But it seems to me that you ought to see that all the people who have taken you in have had no interest in knowing you. You are just a plaything to them. You're just a groovy toy.
"After all you are only fifteen and pretty rootless. I mean you don't know what you want to do with your life or where you want to be. It's a fact of Nature that as long as you don't take care of yourself other people will do what they please with you.
"You can't expect some kind of mommy or daddy to come along and do what's best for YOU. Everyone does what's best for THEM and that's the way it is.
"It's tough for a fifteen-year-old to make her way on her own. But if you really want to do it you probably can. Do you or do you want to go home?"
She thought for a minute; it was a long minute. Then she looked up at me for the first time and shook her head. "I don't want to go home," she said. "I want to make it on my own."
CONCLUSION
Over the course of the next few months Jackie worked hard at figuring out what she wanted to do with her life. She got herself back into high school in the city and found a place to stay.
She got herself a job and made an arrangement with the people she was living with to work for most of her share of the rent.
It has been three years since I saw her last. She is now in college. She has made it on her own and she deserves to be proud for everything she has. She got it all by herself.
The part that her sex played when she ran away from home seems to me to have been a desire to have someone take care of her. Since she was pretty and attractive female, she used her sexuality to attract pretty benefactors. But in the long run she found only more and more dependency that way. Now she is standing on her own and enjoying it.
CASE NUMBER FIVE. MARY JO
INTERVIEW ONE:
NOTES:
When Mary Jo camp to me she looked the picture of an innocent young girl. She was only fourteen and she had curly blonde hair and blue eyes which were clear and gazed lovely.
She came in and looked a little uncomfortable to be sitting there having to talk about such embarrassing things. She smiled and licked her lips nervously as we talked and I asked her her name and how old she was.
I saw her full firm figure under her skirt and stiff blouse. She sat straight in the chair with her legs crossed primly. When all the preliminaries had been disposed of she sat and started at the floor for a few minutes. Then like a canoe she launched herself into her story.
I'm sort of embarrassed to come here Doctor. I wouldn't have come if my aunt hadn't sent me. She thinks there is something wrong with me. She sent me to a regular doctor and he said there is nothing wrong with me.
I know that. I know what's bothering me but I don't know what to do about it. I don't think anyone can do anything about it. It's down way deep like a sore. It's like a sin. I can't get it out no how.
It all started last winter when I came up North to live with my Aunt Cora. Before that I lived down South with my folks. I guess you can say that's where I came from. Everyone says I talk with a real southern accent.
I don't think mine is that thick. But I come from New Orleans and everyone says you can tell just by listening to me.
Anyway, I came up North to live with my Aunt Cora last winter. My folks thought it would be a kind of broadening experience. They don't think too much of some of the folks down there.
Well, I was kind of confused. You know coming up here and all sort of made my head spin. Well it wasn't but a month after I was here that my aunt threw this party.
She invited all sorts of people she knew. There were young people and lots of relatives I had never even seen. She invited a lot of people from the university. She knows a lot of them.
There was this one couple. They were named Steve and Linda. He is a big professor at the university. She teaches there too, I think. For such important people they are really young. You would never guess to look at them that they both have such important jobs.
Anyway she introduced them and they were real friendly. They asked me all about home and I told them a lot. It was nice to talk to Yankees who seemed friendly. That's the thing I miss most about home. Everyone down there is so much more friendly.
Up here everyone seems to be in a rush. They talked real nice about things and when the party was over they invited me over to their house.
It was only a few blocks away from my Aunt's house. She said it was fine and I was so happy. We went over there. It was pretty late, I guess about ten o'clock. I felt grown-up to be up so late.
You could hear the wind whistle out there. It was bitter cold and it felt good to get inside their house. They had a fireplace. Steve lighted it and Linda offered me a drink.
I had never had a drink before. But I heard that a scotch sour was good. I asked her for one and die said sure. In a jiffy she had it made and I sat in front of the fire drinking it.
It felt warm inside and the fire was warmer. Outside the wind howled. You could just hear it. It made me glad to be inside.
Linda asked me if I had any boyfriends. I don't usually like talking about things like that, but I felt so grown-up and free, I guess the scotch sour made me feel big and confident.
I told her that I didn't have any boyfriends up North. I used to have a boyfriend down South, but I left to come up North. I think maybe one reason my parents sent me up North was to get me away from him.
I told her something that I never told anyone before. I admitted that I wanted to find a boyfriend more than anything. I was dying to get laid. Ever since I started frigging myself I wanted to know what a cock felt like inside me.
I told Linda all that. Steve was sitting in a big chair by the comer of the fire listening.
"There are lots of things you can learn," Linda said, "if you want to." She put her arm around me and nibbled at my shoulder.
"Does that feel good?" she asked. It did feel good and I told her so. She did it again and this time kept it up. She nibbled up under my chin and licked at my face like she was a cat.
I loved it when her tongue got up by my mouth. I kissed it. She wiggled it around in my mouth and I don't know what came over me. I just sucked it into me and chewed hard on it.
She went wild and so did I. We grabbed at each other. I felt her hands on my tits and I sucked on her tongue as it flashed inside my mouth.
We kissed hot and wet. I felt her hands snake around the back of my neck and she ran them hotly through my hair. I felt the tiny hairs at the back of my head stand up and my crotch got wet.
I felt her press against me. Her whole body seemed to be moving against me. She pulled me down on the rug in front of the fire. I felt the heat on one side of me as she opened the buttons on my blouse. I let her do it.
She tingled me where her fingers brushed against my skin. She finished and reached under me and unhooked my bra. She slid off my blouse and bra and I was naked on the floor.
I reached up and felt my hard stiff nipples. She smiled and kissed them. Steve got down on the floor and kissed me hard on the mouth. Our teeth banged and we ate harder and harder into our mouths.
I felt his tongue pressing into my mouth and I sucked hard at it. Then I shoved mine into his mouth and he swirled it all around his mouth with his tongue.
Linda worked open the button to my skirt and pulled it down over my legs. She took off my shoes and unhooked my stockings.
It felt so sexy to have her unroll them slowly down my legs. The more she did it the randier I felt. She did first my left and then my right leg. Then she nibbled at the top of my panties and pushed her tongue underneath.
Down towards my cunt she pushed. I bumped my hips up toward her to hurry her up. I wanted to feel her tongue deep in there. She ran her tongue back and forth over my belly and made the tiny hairs there wet.
Then she pulled my panties down with her teeth and I was naked there except for my garter belt. She put her tongue in my ass crack and ran it up from my asshole to my slit. She rooted around and then ran over the tip of my clitoris like a little bird.
I moaned and she pulled hard on it. Her mouth sucked and her lips nibbled around the bottom of it. She chewed with the tips of her teeth on the tender thing I moaned again and she shoved her finger into my love hole.
Around and around I moved with her fingers inside me. Steve and I kissed passionately. His hands felt up my boobs. He pinched the nipples and pulled them back and forth. Faster and faster I panted. The two of us were like demons.
They stood up and stripped off his shirt and pants. He stood over me like a statue in just his shorts. Then he slipped them off and I saw his huge cock poised over me like a dingible in the sky.
Down it came right into my mouth. He murmured and lay it on my face. He straddled me and I licked it back and front. I bent my head all the way down and got the tip in my mouth. It was hot and I sucked on it hard.
Faster and faster he moved as I fondled his balls. He shoved me all the little places he loved to have touched. He groaned when I held them both in my hands. He signed when I felt around behind them and stroked the muscle there.
I grabbed the base of his dick and massaged it back and forth. He went wild on top of me. He fell forward on my face and bucked his dick hard into my throat.
I felt his cock quiver and he shoved it hard into my mouth. I just hung on and sucked for all I was worth. In a flash he burst hot and white into my mouth. Linda panted and chewed on the lips of my pussy. Steve grunted and jammed his cock half-way down my throat as I sucked him dry.
I chewed on his dick. It was still stiff there in my mouth. I licked the tip of it and pulled it back and forth at my lips. Linda's fingers played in and out of my cunt.
Then I felt something hard and smooth at the lips of my pussy. I felt it part my come wet love lips and slid gloriously inside.
Hard against the back of my cunt she shoved the thing. I panted and felt myself coming. Over and over she rammed it inside me and I came in a blinding blur. I chewed in Steve's box as he lay with it in my face. I lapped at his dick and felt the blood fill it hard.
Steve got up and pushed Linda away. He pulled the dildo out of my snatch. I was wiped out. I just lay there panting from the coming.
He lay on the rug on his back and pulled me over on top of him. He spread my legs and shoved his cock in between. Linda came up behind and closed my thighs tight around his dick.
Tight against my box he moved his love rasp hard. I was set and he moved back and forth making me go crazy. I felt Linda's mouth hard against my ass crack.
Each time Steve shoved his dick through my legs, she caught the tip of his cock between her teeth. He moaned with the pleasure as the two of us caressed his love member. I felt her tongue swirl around his dick. She brushed it around my asshole and flicked in and out of me.
I was coming again. He put his hand under my stomach and slobbered around in my cunt hair with his fingers. It was a sopping mass of hair and lips. He pushed my clitoris hard against the shaft of his cock.
Then on one stroke Linda slipped his dick up and into my hole. I shrieked and felt a fire burning to consume me. I twisted madly on top of him.
Her tongue poked inside my asshole and reamed me out deliciously. I twisted and felt his dick ripple along the flesh of my pussy. Her tongue fought deeper and deeper into my shit tube. Her hands dug in the tender aching flesh of my ass.
I squirmed and came as she stroked his dick around my yearning cunt lips. Her hand was hot in our crotches tantalizing us over and over. He rammed inside me and I let loose a flood of come and came in a moan.
He felt me going wild and beat harder and harder. To the point of going crazy he whipped it in and out of me. I ached to feel him come. Then Linda jammed her dildo back up my ass. Harder and harder I swiveled around with the thing shoved up my ass.
Then like a light at the end of a tunnel, I felt him shiver and come in hot flood of come. Over and over he shoved me full of his lovely juice unit. I screamed and came thrashing between them.
For a long time we lay there in front of the fire. I heard the flames lapping. It was so nice I could hardly breath for the exhausted feeling I never wanted to move from between them.
"It's time for us to stop now," I said. "We will have to go into all things which are bothering you in our next session.
She got up and smiled sweetly at me. It was hard to believe that she was the same girl who had just told me she had been seduced by a twenty-five year old couple.
She said good-bye and walked out. I stood there almost laughing for the incongrousness of the whole situation. But there was more to come. INTERVIEW TWO:
NOTES:
Our second interview Mary Jo came dressed a little more casually. Instead of a skirt she had on slacks and a sweater which showed she was more developed than most fourteen-year-old girls.
She sat down and looked a little more relaxed. She didn't need much coaxing to launch into her story. As a matter-of-fact she seemed to be positively anxious to tell me the story.
What follows is a transcript of her interview. You can see that she is not reticent about revealing the details of her amours. Here now are her very own words.
I think we left off last time with me telling you about meeting Steve and Linda. That was just the beginning. After that I met all kinds of nice people. At the time I thought it was so exciting.
I loved it. There were lots of other couples besides Steve and Linda who liked to swing. They used to get together a lot When Linda first told me about them I was embarrassed. I was afraid someone would find out about me doing something with them.
But that night when I was in bed I thought about it. I got this funny stirring inside me what I thought about all those men and women doing it. I thought of how it would feel to have them all kissing me at once.
I really got horny. I frigged myself and I came harder than I ever had doing that. I was just burning up. I wanted to feel Steve's hard dick pounding through me. I wanted to be fucked by all those men and women. I could hardly get to sleep I was so excited.
The next day I called up Linda and told her that I wanted to be a part of the next party. That whole week while I waited I didn't think of anything else. Finally it was Friday and I went over there.
We had dinner first and then the people started arriving. They all seemed really nice. By the time they were all there, there were three couples plus Steve, Linda and me.
We sat around drinking a bit. Then someone took out some grass. I had heard about it but I had never smoked it.
Anywhere else and I would have been afraid. But I was ready for anything there. They passed the joints around and I smoked. They showed me how to take big deep breaths and hold it in as long as I could.
It burned the first few times and I had to let it out. But after the first three drags I was feeling very giddy.
Someone said something that seemed so funny I just couldn't stop laughing. The world seemed perfect. Everything was right and I loved everyone there at the party.
Everyone was very friendly. One man suggested we turn down the lights. Someone lit some candles and the place had a dark mysterious look.
They put on some rock music. It was long and dreamy with a lot of organs playing. I felt as if it were at some kind of ritual.
Then one by one the women got up and stripped to the music. They did it long and languidly. They took their time. Each one was good at it.
It was really nice to watch. I could feel the eyes of the men riveted to each woman. They breathed soft and intensely. The room seemed to focus on just the one who was dancing.
Linda was the last woman to do it. Her long blonde hair flashed in the dim candlelight. She whirled it around as she danced and sensuously peeled off her clothes. First her blouse and then her pants. She had a sheer thin silk something on under her blouse and she played it up her belly for what seemed forever.
When she pulled it off and her large tits swung free everyone in the room moaned together. It was as if we were all making love to her at once as she danced.
She took an aching time with her panties. She rolled them up on her things until they were nothing but a thin band of fabric across her pale flesh. She shook her hips and thrust them from side to side savagely. The beat of the music increased and she moved with it like a tiger.
Then as the music peaked she thrust her hips forward and pulled her panties off with one sweep of her arms. That seemed to be a signal for everyone but her to move.
She stood there naked while two men leaped up and started kissing her. One took her breasts in his hands and kissed her wet on the mouth. The other knelt in front of her and stuck his tongue into her love lips.
She threw her head back and shook under their lips and tongues. She shook and moaned as they licked and sucked her.
Next to me a man named Bob was peeling off his underpants. He took his naked cock in his hand and held it up to me. I plunged down on it and as soon as I did I felt someone from behind opening my pants and pulling them off.
Then my underpants were pulled off and I was naked from the waist down. Bob shoved his cock deep in my mouth when I gnawed at it. I knew just what to do with my fingers at his balls to make him love it.
Someone pressed the cock at my cunt as I crouched over Bob on the couch. Around and around they moved it and jammed the tip to my cunt lips. I was hot and ready. I had been waiting all week for it and I didn't want to wait any longer.
The strange cock shafted to the back of my cunt. I fell heavy on top of Bob with his dick deep in my mouth. On top of me the guy rammed his dick in and out of my cunt and bit my back. His fingers were going wild there and I twisted under him like a snake.
Bob pumped under us and I felt him going wild. I sucked the head of his dick and ran my teeth over the tip. He pushed it hard into my mouth and tangled his fingers in my hair.
I tickled his balls and held them tight He squealed and came in a burst of white hot come. It shot straight up into my mouth and I pumped the base of his dick until he had shot his whole load into my mouth.
I chewed and sucked on him hard as the guy's cock rammed up and up into my cunt. I felt myself moving unable to stop. He twisted and raked his hands along my hips I twisted under his fingers and started to come.
He rammed it achingly up me and I felt him twitch. Then ah at once his semen burst like a flood into me, driving me wild. I panted and bucked. I came and raged at Bob's chest as he lay under me. I raked his flesh in a trance of coming as the guys shafted his spurting dick to the back of my cunt and shot his whole load of come into my yearning cunt.
As soon as he came he pulled out and left me lying there. But not for long. I felt a hard cold finger of wood shaft into my cunt and ream back and forth a few times.
Then someone lifted me and rolled me over with the thing still stuck in my pussy. It was Steve and he pulled it out and licked it. He smiled and said that I tasted very good.
Then he pulled me on the floor and lay down on his back. He waved his cock in the air and told me to get on top of it.
I straddled him and did a little dance, and he lay there with a look of lust all over his face. I shook my ass and tits and wiggled lower bit by bit. The closer I came, the more he begged me to give it to him.
He reached up and played with my clit. I held out for another second. Then I felt myself coming and spread my hot cunt down on his dick.
It felt so right shafting all the way up into my wet cunt. I twisted it around and he pulled me down on top of him.
He bit my neck and I felt his dick slide in and out effortlessly. We moved together like two dancers. There was no effort. We each knew what the other wanted. We just moved naturally together.
Then I felt the dildo again. This time it was at my asshole. I heard Linda moaning and felt her cool hands at my ass. Steve shoved hard all the way inside and she spread my ass cheeks and jammed the wet tip of the dildo deep up my ass.
I screamed and started bucking. I felt stuffed and I loved it. I could hear Steve shouting that he was coming. Linda lay hot on my back. Her nipples were stiff as she rammed the hard dildo in and out of my asshole.
I felt her hot cunt lips on my ass as she twisted and pumped. Steve came in a flood of hot gism which left me aching and unsatisfied. He ground and I tore at him savagely.
I pulled myself off and jammed Linda's head down into my steaming cunt. There her tongue licked and I came as she rammed the dildo into my asshole and gave me sweet peace.
"It's time for now," I said. "Next time I think we had better discuss exactly what it is that is bothering you about all these relations. Frankly, I am puzzled by your telling me all things very calmly as if it didn't bother you at all."
She smiled at me and said that maybe next time she would be able to figure out what was wrong with her. She said she didn't really know what it was about the fucking that she didn't like.
She looked genuinely puzzled and I didn't want to make her uptight so I dropped the subject.
When she had left I realized that I was genuinely puzzled by her in a way I had not been in a long time. She seemed so happy when she was talking about all the swinging scenes. But then why was she there in my office in the first place? I resolved to solve the problem.
INTERVIEW THREE
NOTES
The last time I saw Mary Jo was also the last session we had together. It was a very trying and in some ways unsuccessful session, but that is really getting ahead of the recitation of the fact.
Her words in that last session speak for themselves. She looked no different than she had the previous two. She was dressed in a skirt and blouse. She wore bright colors and her clothes accentuated her figure, which was growing more beautiful everyday.
What follows are her words from that session. I took them down exactly as she spoke them. They speak volumes about her state at the time.
You asked me last time exactly why it was that I have come to you. I guess you have a right to know. It's not really that my aunt sent me here. I mean, she is happy that I am doing well in school and that I have found a lot of friends.
But if she knew that I was seeing a psychiatrist or someone like you, she would be very upset. You know she thinks they are just for crazy people. No one is ever crazy in our family.
No, I came here on my own. I wanted to do it because I don't know what to do. You see, after that last swinging party at Steve and Linda's house they had a meeting on their own. They didn't tell me about it and they decided to keep me out of their parties.
Everyone said that they liked me. But they were scared that if they let me in on it they would get in trouble. They were afraid my aunt would find out if they let me do it.
Steve and Linda tried to argue them out of it. They said that I was too good to keep out of their parties. Everyone agreed that I was hot stuff. They all liked having me there. But they didn't like it enough to risk getting thrown in jail.
I couldn't stand it. When Steve and Linda told me I just started crying. I don't usually cry that much, but this time I just let it all out. I begged and pleaded, but there was nothing they could do about it. They wanted me at the parties, but there was nothing they could do about it.
They were very nice to me. We were sitting in front of the fireplace at their house when they told me. I started to cry and Linda put her arms around me. I just sat there crying on the floor.
The two of them sat on either side of me with their arms around me. Steve leaned against my head and kissed my ear. He thrust it all the way in and licked around the inside.
I felt all quivery inside. He did it some more and I hugged him hard. He pulled my head around and kissed me. I felt his tongue slide into my mouth. I chewed on it and ate around his lips.
We murmured and nibbled there with a sweet tender lingering feeling. Linda rubbed my belly and up to my tits. I wasn't wearing a bra any more.
I felt her fingers caress the nipples of my tits. The two of us pushed at each other. Her fingers pulled the nipples under the fabric of my blouse. It made a soft burning feeling in me.
I felt myself grow looser. The dew grew wet between my love lips. I moved and felt myself hot and panting for her fingers. She rubbed around in small tender circles.
Steve was sighing and licking in my ear. His head was thrown back on my shoulders. His eyes were half-open and his breath was hot on me. I pushed my head around in his mouth and he poked all the way inside with his tongue. Then he pulled it out and licked all the way around to the front of my chin. He pulled and lapped at my lips. He nibbled there and made me lick his tongue deep inside his mouth.
I sucked on it like a piece of candy. His hands clawed at the blouse and pulled it up. Linda pulled me back down on the floor and opened the buttons of my blouse. She pulled and it came off. I felt myself hot and panting under her fingers.
She saw my red rosy nipples and went crazy. She just clawed and chewed on them until I could feel the passion coming up in me like a storm. Over and over again they made me moan until I was crying and begging for Steve to do it to me.
He opened my jeans and pushed his hand down inside. I was sopping wet already. I felt him part the lips of my pussy and slide his long fingers in along my clit. It throbbed under his touch and I pushed my hips up in the air to make him rub harder on it.
I saw the whole room spinning and dissolved in a thousand stars of light. I cried and made him rub harder and harder. Faster he pushed on it and my pants slid very slowly down my hips.
Then he pushed his finger in and out of him and I cried out. I felt him ramming it like a sweet screw back and forth through my lips of love. I moaned and clutched his arms. I writhed on him and tried to pump it further and further into my cunt. The pressure of his hand on my pants forced it deeper and deeper into my snatch.
I felt him slide the pants all the way down my legs and strip his own off. He didn't bother to take off his shirt. He knelt between my legs and pushed my legs up high in the air. I felt him nose the tip of his prick against my cunt lips and I started shaking all over.
I bucked and twisted to get the thing inside me. I wanted it so badly. I was moaning and trembling. Over and over I cried out. His whole body came down and shoved his dick sweetly all the way to the back of my cunt.
Around and around I twisted as Linda rubbed and kneaded my tits. She moaned and tried to shove it up to my mouth. Her finger dug into the tender flesh and her mouth met mine. Our tongues touched deep inside and I felt her slither around in a sweet creaming motion.
Faster and faster her hands fought at my tits and I writhed under them. Then she pulled her own shirt off. Underneath she wore nothing on her beautiful tits. She took it in her hand and shoved it at my mouth. I sucked hard and the nipple got stiff in my mouth.
Around and around I swirled my tongue. The air was filled with sweet dreams. I wanted to take her boob to the back of my throat.
I ran my teeth against her aureola and felt it curdle with lust inside my mouth. Faster and faster the three of us twisted until I felt him shove hot and sweet inside me and I started to come.
Long, long strokes of joy shafted deep into my cunt. Harder and harder he rammed it back and forth in my cunt. Slower and then faster he moved like an express train. I moaned and clutched at his ass. My fingers felt weak and I tried to pinch him hard to make him shove it in harder.
His whole body went wild on top of me and I tried to writhe harder on his sweet dick. He shoved it to the back of my cunt and grabbed deep on my neck. Over and over he stroked down until I was coming hard and fast.
He shoved and pulled his dick in my love lips and I came in a long moaning shivering blast of come. Harder and harder the two of us tried to grind our bodies together. The three of us twisted and Linda licked my stomach.
Her head between us was hot and sweet. Over and over the three of us moaned and Linda came with my finger in her snatch. I shoved it hard and then I lost my mind. I just jammed it back and forth without thinking. I moaned and begged for him to shove it into me.
Together we came in one blinding flash of lust. I tried to make it come hard in my snatch. I ground and then the last blast of sweet juice loosened itself easy and full down my chute and I came over the peak of an ecstatic orgasm.
We just lay there panting and tired on the floor. The whole world spun around. I tried to feel myself just floating on a beautiful sea. Up and down I went on the wave and I came again just lying there with his dick stuck deep and soft in my cunt.
"It's time for us to go now," I said. "I think perhaps now you can better understand what is going on between you and your friends, Steve and Linda.
"To look at it realistically, they have no reason to keep you around. You are just a little girl and a liability. Their friends, I think, are right. Whatever the morality of their lives and the way they live it, it is nothing but poison to include you in it.
She looked up at me with tears in her eyes. I saw them welling and then she burst out crying. She sat there and I let her sob for a minute or two. Then she raised her head and smiled at me. She left my office with a determination written all over her face to find a place for herself where she could be an equal and not a dependent inferior.
CONCLUSION:
It is easy to see Mary Jo is a good example of a young person who uses sex to maintain a position of status and love where he or she would ordinarily not be entitled to it.
That does not mean to say that Mary Jo was not entitled to love and affection. It is merely to say that she logically could not expect to be accepted by a group of twenty-five and thirtyyear-old people.
So they used her for a little while. Then the reality of the situation impinged and she found herself cast out on her rear. It was at that point she came to me and at that point she began to readjust her thinking to what was the more realistic aspects of the situation.
CASE NUMBER SIX. DORIS
INTERVIEW ONE:
NOTES:
Doris, a fourteen-year-old girl, was accompanied to my office by her father, who left, urging me to "straighten her out."
Doris was coerced into the therapeutic situation, and found it quite uncomfortable. She didn't know if she could talk about her boyfriend, Ken, at all, and about the experience she'd had-they'd been discovered while making love. Eventually, however, she began.
My father is strict, really strict. Every time he thinks I do something wrong, he beats me. I think he likes it. Like, he'd asked me why I was late from school one day, and he didn't believe the answer, so he beat me.
My father's really mad at me for having oral sex with Ken, but he doesn't know that I have done this before. Now, you have to promise not to tell him this. Okay. We have some cousins in Iowa and every year we take a trip out there to visit them. My cousins' names are Jack and Ben. They are both older than me. Jack is nineteen and Ben is sixteen.
They live on this farm out in the country. Their father is my father's brother. They grow corn and wheat out there. It's very nice out there, because there is no pollution and the air is nice and clean.
Well, last year we went out there to visit. It was during the summer and it was very hot. One night I couldn't sleep so I went for a walk. I went down to this pond they have and I sat by the pond under the tree. The stars were bright and shining. It was just a very nice night.
Jack came out and found me. He said that he couldn't sleep either. He asked me if I had any boyfriends and I told him that I had been dating a guy called Ken. He asked me if we had fooled around any. I told him that I didn't know what he meant by fooling around. He said that he meant if we had fucked. I said no, that my father had said that that kind of thing was forbidden and that he checked my hymen all the time to make sure that I hadn't made love with anyone.
Jack said that there were other ways of making love that my father would never be able to know about unless I told him or someone told him or if he saw me doing it. I was very curious and I asked Jack what it was that I could do. He said that he would show me.
I was very excited with what he had been talking about and I could feel my pussy starting to get moist and aroused. I knew that whatever he did I would like. Jack is very handsome. He told me to relax and to enjoy myself. He said there was nothing to worry about.
Jack put his mouth on mine and we kissed. His tongue went deep into my mouth and it moved around in it. His tongue touched my teeth and my whole mouth tingled with passion as he had kissed me. It was a very exciting thing. French kissing always excited me and Jack was very good at doing it. He stroked my neck with his fingers. He pulled on my ears. He rubbed his hands on my breast which were small but firm. He kissed me hard with his mouth and he licked my neck with his tongue.
I was getting very excited with everything that he was doing. He ran his fingers through my hair and murmured that this was going to be a lot of fun. I hoped that it would.
I did not know what he had planned to do. He stroked my legs and told me to spread them. He ran his fingers up the inside of my loins. His hand was near my cunt. His fingers made my whole body tingle as he touched me. I wanted to touch him and feel his cock. I had felt Ken's cock before and I knew that it felt good and warm.
I reached for his crotch and he reached for mine. His hand cupped over my mound. My panties were tight on my pussy and he could feel the swelling. He ran his finger between the folds of flesh. I told him that he was making me very hot. He said that in a few minutes he would please me.
My hand touched his prick. I could feel through the cloth of his pants that it was very big and stiff. I wanted to see the cock and see what he was going to do with it. His hands went back to my breast and he felt them again. My nipples were erect. My whole body was shaking with excitement and expectation. He rubbed my titties under his hands.
His fingers went to my buttons and he undid my blouse. He removed the thing. We were far away from the house and I knew that my parents were fast asleep. I was not worried about being discovered. He put the blouse on the ground near the tree. He put his mouth on my breath and started to lick it with his tongue. He then sucked on my boobs. His teeth nibbled on my nipples. He sucked and pulled on the breast. His hand went back to my cunt. His fingers rubbed the swelling and one finger moved between the folds of flesh. His finger moved back and forth. I was sighing and my breasts were heaving. He helped me to take off my skirt. I had nothing on but my panties. He looked at my snatch and told me that he wanted to see how much hair I had on it. I got up and pulled the panties off.
He looked at my very hairy snatch. He said it was one of the hairiest bushes he had ever seen. I said that I wanted to see his cock. I wanted to feel it in my hands. I wanted to stroke it and watch it rise up. He said that he would. He took off his clothes. We were both nude and the moon made his body turn to a bluish color. It was very beautiful. His cock was bigger than Ken's and it stood up and seemed to look at the sky.
I touched the prick. My fingers enclosed over the warm spongy flesh. My cunt was very hot and moist. I wanted to put the cock in my pussy, but I knew that if I did my father would find out and he would hurt me very badly. I was afraid that he might even kill me.
Jack told me to lie down and spread my legs. I wondered what he was going to do. I knew that he wasn't going to put his penis in my cunt. Yet I hoped he would. He didn't. He put his head between my thighs and his mouth went to my cunt. His tongue licked a circle around the pussy. He moved the tongue very slowly and the feeling was fantastic. The tongue made me feel so very good.
Then he parted my lips with his fingers and he put his tongue inside my cunt. The tongue darted inside. I shivered as the muscle explored my snatch. It touched my cunt walls. My cunt was very juicy. My legs were wet with the saliva from Jack's mouth and the juice from my own cunt. He ran the tongue deeper inside of me.
He licked the gash steadily. I was shivering so much, I had never felt so good. I wondered if he intended to put his prick in my mouth. I wanted to know what that felt like. I imagined that the hot prick would feel very good. He sucked on my cooze. His tongue ran in and out. Then he found my clitty with his tongue and began to lick and suck on the love button. I was submerged in the liquid sensations of love making. The sounds of wet flesh could be heard in the quiet night air.
I was floating and the sensations washed over my body like warm water. I loved the feel of his tongue inside me. I thought that I was going to (frown with passion as he continued to make love with his mouth. His tongue darted out of my slit and on to my leg. The tongue ran along the soft skin that was now greasy with fluids and then he dashed back into me. I thrilled at the feel of the hot tongue probing into the flesh depths of me.
Finally, the plunging tongue pushed me as far under as I could go and I found myself drowning in sensations of love. My arms flailed the air. I tried to pull myself out. My body jerked, but I only sank deeper. The orgasm was fantastic. The cunt juices surged out of me and into Jack's mouth. I slowly floated to the top and the feelings ebbed away.
Well, I think I'll tell you about Ken.
I love Ken very much. You may think that is strange, because I am pretty young, but I really do love him. We are going to get married some day. I think I will make a wonderful wife. I think that Ken will make a wonderful husband. It's going to be great married to him. I love him and he loves me. It's really that simple.
We could run away right now, but we don't. We could run away and get married. But I don't think it would really help things out with my parents if we did. My father doesn't like Ken at all. I guess he thinks that Ken is getting what he wants, which is true. See, Ken and I have never fucked, because of my father always giving me inspections. So when Jack taught me his way, I was very happy. I had discovered a way of making love to Ken, without having to fuck. Now we could fool my father and have some fun.
One night I told Ken that I had found a way to make love without using my cunt. He was very excited about my discovery and wanted to know how to do it. I told him that. I would be glad to show him. We didn't have anywhere to do it, unless we did it in a movie house. And I didn't want to do it there 'cause that would have made me feel very cheap. We had to wait, until Ken's parents went out of town. The day they did we made a date.
I promised Ken that I would show him the special thing that I had learned. I could hardly wait to put his cock in my mouth. I wanted to feel the thing throbbing and shooting in my nice tight mouth. The date was in the afternoon. My father was less likely to think that I had fucked than if I had gone out late at night.
Ken's parents weren't in his apartment, so I threw myself in his arms and told him that I was scared, but he said that maybe it would be a lot of fun after all. We stood in the dark apartment. I rubbed my body on his, and he liked the feel of my body next to his and he rubbed his body on to mine. We stumbled into the room and found the lights.
Ken held me close and we sat down on his bed. We had to move all the records. I was afraid we would break one. It was our song. The theme song from a popular movie about love. It's a very sad movie and the girl dies. I cried all the way through it. Ken liked it very much too. We cried so much our pop com got soggy. It's a wonderful movie. The poor girl dies of a blood disease. It's really terrible, but her boyfriend realizes that when you are in love you never have to say you are sorry.
That was the way Ken and I felt. We never said that we were sorry about anything. I stepped on his foot one time and I didn't say I was sorry at all. I knew that I didn't have to. Ken and I have a beautiful relationship. We call it an understanding. It's very adult-like. We never have fights or anything. Well, just once we had a fight. Ken broke one of the dolls I have in my room. It's not that I still play with dolls or anything, it just really pissed me off, and he didn't say he was sorry or anything.
I felt his hot breath on my cheeks. His nostrils flared, as he breathed heavily. He was panting, his tongue hanging out of his mouth.
Ken ran his tongue from my nose to my lips. He licked my lips and I parted them and he slipped his tongue into my mouth. My whole body tingled and chills ran up and down my spine. I did everything that I could think of to do with my lips so that I made it very sexy for him.
He shoved his tongue hard into my mouth and I felt wonderful. I ran my fingers through his hair and traced my finger down his nose and into his mouth. He took his mouth off mine and he started to suck on my finger. He had never sucked on my finger before. It was very erotic. I wondered if having my finger sucked on felt anything like having a dick sucked on. I thought that it probably didn't.
He pulled hard on my finger with his lips. Then I pulled my finger out of his mouth. Ken got up and put our song on the record player. It was very romantic. Then he turned all the lights out except his night light. It was very dark and sexy in his bedroom.
He reached for my breasts and he gave me a great feel out. He rubbed his hands all over my boobs. I thrilled at the feeling of his hands on my tits. I crushed them into his hands. He pulled on the nipples with his fingers. I was very excited. My cunt was all hot and sticky.
His cock was so warm and rubbery. It was a very nice cock. It was better than Jack's and Ben's although I had a lot of affection for them. How excited they would be if they knew that I was going to show Ken what they had shown me. I wanted to plunge the cock deep into my mouth.
He asked me to take off my blouse. He helped me to unbutton it. Then he pulled it off. I didn't wear a bra, even though my father thought it was evil that I didn't.
I pulled off my panties and I wiggled myself seductively. He pulled off his shorts and his cock flew out to greet me. I reached down with my hand and shook it, like I was shaking a dog's paw. I felt the warm flesh expanding and throbbing in my hand. It felt so very good. I pushed the head of it up against my cunt. My lips pulled gently on the tool. Ken nearly rammed the thing into me, but I stopped him. It was as far as we had ever gone. He didn't know what I was going to do. I went down on my knees and I took the prick into my mouth. I pushed the cock to the front of my lips. Then I opened my lips like my cunt had done, but my tongue was behind it and it licked the head of his dick. Ken groaned passionately.
I still hadn't taken his cock very far into my mouth. I pulled on the member gently with my lips. Thai I pulled it out, and I started to lick on it. I licked on the cock very fast. I flicked it with my tongue. Ken was telling me to suck it and love it. I nibbled on the head of the cock with my teeth. He groaned as I gently chewed on the head.
Ken loved it, and after his climax, pulled his cock out of my mouth and kissed me. He told me to lie on the bed and that he would eat me out. He slipped his tongue into my tropical rain forest and made love to me.
Soon, my box could take no more and I erupted into Ken's loving mouth. He licked me out, and then I felt the sensation fade away. We made love like this many times. That is until about a week ago. Ken and I were very horny. It was late at night and I thought my father was asleep. He caught us having a midnight snack in the kitchen.
CONCLUSION:
After several more sessions with Doris I had an interview with her father. The conversation was less than successful. His shock at discovering his daughter engaged in what he considered to be "unnatural sex acts" was not easily diminished.
GENERAL CONCLUSION
The trend of all the studies that I have tried to show are, I think, very important for people to respond to.
The primary thing I think shows that people use sex as an outlet to express the needs that they have. They need certain things when they are growing up and find it easy to cope with it by turning to sex.
Sometimes it is a parent figure who the young girl needs. That is obvious in the cases of Jackie and Mary Jo. They think that by using sex as a means to attract a couple they can use it to keep themselves protected and dependent.
Of course what they do not realize is that sex and emotional relations in general can only proceed on the basis of equality in some way.
Therefore, if the young girl seeks an unequal and dependent relationship, she is doomed at the start to heartbreak. In the cases of Melanie and Judy, this heartbreak cycle was short-circuited by the intervention of the authorities.
However, I am sure that given time to run its course, the relationship would have had to end in the cutting off of the young girl. There seems to me no way in which an older couple can relate with a young girl on anything but an object to object relationship. Like any toy she becomes tiresome after a while.
Perhaps it was better for the girls among my cases who found out the dead-end quality of their sexual relations than for those who did not.
The ones who found it out, Judy, Jackie, and Mary Jo to be specific, were forced to confront the reality of the situation and adjust themselves to it. I think they emerged better off for it.
The girls who did not confront it, Laura and Melanie, had to go through a more painful process of recognition that what they lost through the intervention of external authority would have eventually been lost to them through the working of circumstance and human emotion.
